lucid

Swimming in the Stars

I am exploring some big building. I think my brother has an office in this building. Apparently, the place is being remodeled, because everything is torn up and looks kind of delapidated. I think that this is a bit odd, because ordinarily the building seems modern. I do a nose pinch reality check just in case.

At first, I seem to be unable to breathe, but after I try a bit longer I find that I actually can. I realize that I am dreaming. I immediately forget about the plot of the dream, and decide to jump out the window. The window is closed, and I smash through the glass. Kind of fun. I try to fly, but lately I have been overthinking "how" to fly, instead of just doing it like I used to do. I glide down to the street below. I appear to be in a city, much like that of the dream/computer game I am building. I look up into the sky, and the tops of the buildings, and realize that all I need to do in order to fly is to just let myself float. I bounce up a bit, and look above me.

I see the stars in the sky, and feel the same urge I had in the last LD to fly into the stars. It is like a big pool in the sky, inviting me. This time, I fly upwards, into the night sky. Instead of flying any particular direction, I just go up. This part is a bit hard to explain, but I realize that I can float in the sky, almost like I am in orbit in space. I can see the city below me, a lovely skyling against the sky. There is just a little bit of color in the sky, as though the sun had set a while ago. I let myself just drift in this state, which is almost like I would imagine someone high on drugs would be. I find a beautiful, peaceful, almost euphoric feeling in doing absolutely nothing except float like this. The world appears to float below me like the Earth turning beneath an astronaut, and I watch, wrapped up in this feeling. It's like another world in and of itself.

I was at a daycare of sorts. We kept having many recesses in which we were all supposed to play outside together. I was being strange though, and kept stealing plates from the kitchen. I would take them outside and eat them.

After chewing on pottery for a few minutes, I decided to take a nap. I laid on the grass and rested against the brick wall. Several groups of students walked past me before I managed to fall asleep.

I awoke in a dark cellar. I was in the cellar of the daycare now. I walked back up to the front lawn where the other children were playing.

Something seemed off, so I did a reality check. Indeed, I was dreaming. And of course, at that moment, everything seemed to heighten in clarity.

I had no lucid goals though. I wasn't sure what to do in this dream.

For a moment, I stood there on the street with nothing to do.

I flew up into the air and into the clouds. They were so beautiful and defined, full of life even though they were inanimate.

But no, I had done this before.

I flew back to the ground and landed on the sidewalk, still wondering how I should spend this dream.

And then it came to me. How would my dream respond if I asked for transcendence?

"Take me higher," I whispered.

Instantly, without my doing, I rose into the air.

Everything morphed around me. Not into anything new, but into hyper clarity...that's not even the right word. Everything surrounding me became a kaleidoscope pattern, but yet nothing changed at all.

"Higher" I whispered.

This soundtrack began to play and I began to move forward:



I can't exactly describe how I felt. It was similar to that of tripping - but more intense.

I was moving forward without my doing. The street ahead of me was coming towards me.

I was about to fly straight through a billboard, but I wasn't afraid. I simply passed right through.

"Higher," I whispered.

Everything began to move faster. I zoomed out of the city and in the process left my body behind.

My consciousness was now flying warp speed through the Earth (que really fucking epic music).

I was flying so fast through country roads, wilderness paths, and scenic highways that I could only perceive them as the rapid progression of pictures. A billion pictures flew past my eyes per second.

"Take me higher," I dared.

I surpassed the warp speed that I was already traveling and my consciousness was risen into the universe.

In front of me was a massive black hole. It was beautiful.



Holy shit.

And I was flying towards it at warp speed.

Could I go any higher than this?

I felt my consciousness being ripped apart as I reached the singularity.

"Higher," I whispered, at the last moment possible.

The last thing I saw was a tear in either the fabric of the universe, or the fabric that held my mind together. Or both. It pulsated orange.

I woke up in my bed at my parent's house. I felt heavy.

But this still felt like a dream.

I got up out of bed to write this in my journal. The time on the clock kept changing. I had known it all along - I was still dreaming. Yet, I was very paranoid about forgetting the last dream that had just occurred.

I ran up the stairs. My mother was washing dishes.

"What are you doing?" She asked.

That was a really good question. What was I going to do now? I felt like nothing could surpass what had just happened, and I didn't want to forget it either.

"Maybe I'm just going to sit on the porch and enjoy nature or something," I asked.

"You have a lot you need to do, you shouldn't be wasting your time right now," she scorned.

"It's a dream," I flat out told her.

"One of these days you're just going to lose it," she warned.

I rolled my eyes and ignored her and proceeded to the porch.

There was a white rose growing against the warped siding. I sat down beside it. I could feel its warmth.

I wanted to experience again what happened earlier, but every time I tried I got a blazing headache. I decided to just let it be, and woke up for real.



I just reread through that again and I have to admit that my description of that dream does not do it any justice whatsoever...

Just to let you know, this took some of my nerve to do because my first attempt at a lucid dream ended up in a paralyzing nightmare.

This dream started off simple enough. In this dream, I was at one of the practices for my church's Easter play. The room was dark and i could barely see anything. I noticed that something was different because everyone wasn't in costume. So I think "I must be dreaming". But as soon as I was about to try out something, my alarm goes off and I wake up.

This happens three times, as I kept pressing "snooze" instead of "off" on my alarm on my phone.

The fourth time that I fell asleep, I was thrown immediately into a lucid dream, unlike the first four times. So I walk out the door of the sanctuary, and I find myself in the hallway to my old church in New Jersey. So I decide to try out some stuff.

The first thing I try to do is make something appear out of nowhere. Suddenly, an earthquake starts to shake the building and I don't know how to make it stop (I also began to think that I was on the verge of waking up because I thought I heard the faint sound of an alarm going off). So I continue with the tests regardless.

The second thing I try is some Dragonball Z things. I tried Freeza's death beam. Success. I try Krillin's Destructo Disc. Success. I begin to try the Kamehameha Wave. I get into the pose and start yelling out the name "Kaaa... meeee... haaaa... meee...." In my perspective, it look so DANG cool!!! And just when I was about to yell "HAAA!!!", my alarm goes off, thrusting me back into the real world and out of the dream world.

Couldn't get back to sleep after that. So mad...

This dream started off simple enough. In this dream, I was at one of the practices for my church's Easter play. The room was dark and i could barely see anything. I noticed that something was different because everyone wasn't in costume. So I think "I must be dreaming". But as soon as I was about to try out something, my alarm goes off and I wake up.

This happens three times, as I kept pressing "snooze" instead of "off" on my alarm on my phone.

The fourth time that I fell asleep, I was thrown immediately into a lucid dream, unlike the first four times. So I walk out the door of the sanctuary, and I find myself in the hallway to my old church in New Jersey. So I decide to try out some stuff.

The first thing I try to do is make something appear out of nowhere. Suddenly, an earthquake starts to shake the building and I don't know how to make it stop (I also began to think that I was on the verge of waking up because I thought I heard the faint sound of an alarm going off). So I continue with the tests regardless.

The second thing I try is some Dragonball Z things. I tried Freeza's death beam. Success. I try Krillin's Destructo Disc. Success. I begin to try the Kamehameha Wave. I get into the pose and start yelling out the name "Kaaa... meeee... haaaa... meee...." In my perspective, it look so DANG cool!!! And just when I was about to yell "HAAA!!!", my alarm goes off, thrusting me back into the real world and out of the dream world.

Couldn't get back to sleep after that. So mad...

I finally had a lucid dream last time I'd one must been about a half year ago or something. This lucid dream though, I wasn't able to control. I kind of forgot how to control the dream, the only stabilization I did was to look around the room. I thought of spin around, but was afraid that I would wake up if I did.
I also had a normal dream.

My sleep times:
Around 00:00 I went to bed
03:30 - Waking up after cat scratching on door that my GF's mum lifted away. I also had in mind that I hope I'll become lucid, I fell asleep quite so fast.
- Lucid dream occur -
05:00 - Waking up directly after Lucid dream, from dream faded to awake state and I made reality check.
05:00-05:30 - Writing up important notes of the lucid dream + post on facebook
- dream occur -
07:00 - Waking up
LUCID, DREAM

The dream:

I was in my city, I'd a new job as a organizer or something. My job was to entertain people that walks by. I'd some waterguns and military stuffs around, and a "STOP" sign. I was around some flowers and held the sign there as I saw two of my girlfriends mums friends pass by on the other side of the way where I'd some military clothes and a watergun. He laughed and looked happy, some moment later my girlfriend came by and we went to her appartment. Once there, there was some people visiting. We were gonna eat food together.
But somehow, I was at my dads food table at home now. We started to eat some food (don't know what food, fish or chicken maybe), the lady next to me who probably was over 60 years old started to be cocky to me as she also sexual abused me. I got disgusted and went to my room instead.
Once in my room I put down the plate with food on my table next to my laptop. I was gonna start eating but suddenly I see my plate with food disappear, it became invisible. It showed up again for a few seconds before it went invisable again.
I was start wonder if I'm dreaming. I thought of try out my laptop, so I started to flip up the screen, but the shelf above was to low so I couldn't flip up my screen as I always can. I told myself that I'm dreaming and went to watch on my digital alarmclock. I saw the minutes numbers growing, from 40 to 50 to 60 to 70 to 80 etc. I tried to put my hand on the wall to see if I could get it through, but it didn't work out.
I went out from my room to the small toilet/bathroom where I thought of try focus more, I looked around the place and could see things became alittle more clear. I had in mind to try spin, but was too afraid I would wake up.
The rec room is outside the little toilet/bathroom, I heard and saw my dad and all other people were there. I had an idea to go out there and ask my dad a question to see what he says.
I went up to him and asked what year and month it is, he said it's year 1900 and Mars month. With a smile I told him that it's actually over 100 years later than that, he didn't respond.
Instead the dream faded out sometime here. I felt transformation from dream to reality, where I layed in my GF's bed. I made an reality check instantly and found myself awake.


I was actually drinking alcohol yesterday, 3 ciders (50CL with 4,5%) and some other small drinks. This though, was around 7-9pm and I felt small effect. Thought I would have no great chance for recall or so. Before I went to bed though, I didn't feel any effect of the alcohol anymore.

I've read somewhere that alcohol can make it harder to recall or something. However, I could LD and recall and I'm very happy for it!
Motivates me to practise more

Here's also the other dream, but no lucid:

I was in my grandma and grandpas car, we were on way to their home (a small village), I didn't want to, I wanted to stay with my girlfriend, but they told me I'd to follow.
Once there, I'd my touchphone in a teddybear, it was stuck there. I wanted to be able to text my girlfrirend, and I started to text her even if I didn't see what I wrote on the phone. I sent a text message to her, and a few seconds later I got one back.
Though I didn't know what she wrote, because I totally couldn't see because the phone was in the teddybear.
I so wanted home and started to wonder if I should walk home like I done before.

This dream was like the ones I've had before a couple of times. I must learn this dream now and detect when I dream it so I can become lucid of it.

So, that's all for today I prob be one more night at my GF's house and tomorrow head back home.
Hope I success LD tonight, as the competition starts so I can get points for it

Black means non lucid
Orange means semi lucid
Blue means lucid
Red means dream character talking
Green means notes

Got it? Great. Enjoy, and feel free to grab a bite to eat as you read.

Dream #1 Where is the love?

Im in a very huge house (looked like a mansion) in a bedroom with this girl who looks like Meagan Good. Im putting my pants on sitting on the side of the bed while she is yelling away at me. YOU NEVER SPEND TIME WITH ME ANYMORE!!! EVERYSINCE THAT DAMN GIRL SHOWED UP, YOU HAVE BEEN OFF TO ONE OF YOUR STUPID LITTLE MISSIONS!

Uh-huh..(putting my watch on) You make me so damn sick at times, whoo sometimes you make me just wanna PUNCH YOU!!! (She punches me in the arm) LISTEN BOO CHILL ALRIGHT!? Damn i told you im making progress here with this mission yo. Jeez relax. (Her arms are folding with the covers on her) She takes her foot and kicks me off the bed, while im bending over putting my shoes on. I hope she dies. What? (She rolls her eyes pouting her lips) What did you say? Cause..she keeps taking you away from me! Look...im sorry i keep running off like this, but i gotta make sure this gets done babe ok? Why does she have to be a female though? Like i said, she's the best at what she does. Here i want you to have somethning. ( i reach in my pocket to grab my totem) Here ( i place it in her hand. But babe, this Gem means alot to you, your mom gave it to you years ago to protect you. I know, i want you to hold on to it as a reminder that if i don't return, you'll have something to remember me by. (She tears up) Babe, don't say that! Look wanna see something? What? where are we goin? (Shes's in a red bra and red panties barefoot as im pulling her by the arm off the bed) You see the sun? (we are outside on the balcony staring at the sunset) Yes. You see that house? Yes. I built that house with my own two freakin hands. You see that car? Yes. (I think it was a dark blue cutless) Thats your car. Everything in this world is yours you know why? Why?

Because im God in this world baby, thats why (i put my arm around her as we stare into the sunset) dream fades.

Dream #2 Trigger happy.

Im in a shootout with some thugs, in some warehouse Natalia is there with me. Here take this extra clip. She's running ducking under tables and hiding behind scrap metal.
(Bullets ricochet off of the walls and scrap metal) I got something fo yall, I get up from behind the scrap metal and my Adrenaline is rushing thru my veins. Everything is going in slow motion, (like the movie the matrix) im walking past bullets taking these guys out like nothing like im shooting fish in a barrel. (Explosions and intensity fills the room) LETS GO, LETS GO!!!!! YES, YOU ARE AN ANIMAL! TAKE THEM OUT!!! (She sounds a bit turned on by all this) Ok, so this is obviously target practice BRING OUT YOUR BOSS! (All of a sudden this big Ving Rhames lookin cat shows up crackin his knuckles) Lets kick this thing up a notch chief. Lets say we do this shit ol school no guns and rumble it out? lest you scared to get cho ass whupped in front of that beautiful italian honey you got rooting you on hm?

(I throw the gun down) (Natalia talking ) Fuck is the matter with you!? SHOOT HIM!!
No, im gonna beat him at his own game.

Dream #3 Gold is the final level.


(This fight i had with Ving Rhames was one of the most intense fights i ever had in a dream) He was basically beating the hell outta me at first. But eventually, I ended up Glowing gold when the odds were stacked against me. He looks at me as im layed out on the floor. (Ving Rhames talking) I knew you was weak, you a charmer for the women man. you ain't no damn fighter! if you was my cellmate back then, mm i would've made good use outta your cute ass. (I get up wiping the blood away from my mouth) You sure do talk alot, im not done YET!!! LOL. You got heart chief, i give you that much. But i gots things to do and you holding me up. (He picks me up by my neck with one hand choking me) ARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH! (Im trying to wriggle free but his grip is to strong) (I feel everything almost getting darker hang it up you did good Q you did good) I hear a gunshot. (I wake up) Uuggh. (I feel the dream fading i yell) This.....is....not....THE END!!!!!!!!! (Power is surging thru me the dream snaps back in focus)

Final dream IM A BOSS, OF ALL BOSSES!!!

(Natalia talking) I shot him in his arm to buy you time now pick up that gun AND SHOOT HIM!!! NO NATALIA!!! His ass is MINE!!! (Im in a stance like a Chi master warming up looking at the palms of my hands and feeling sparks of gold energy building up) Im feeling the earth vibrate, glass shatters, the walls crack my shirt tears off of me, my hair is draped across my shoulders a shimmering sparkling gold colour. Im filled with rage I run straight at him and take my right fist and jam it straight thru his stomach. (He vomits blood) I hurl him straight thru the building. (It is nighttime and we are near a cliff) he is crawling moaning trying to get up. Im walking towards him and stomp on his back as he lays on his stomach. Turn over and look at me. (I take my foot off and stand over him staring at his battered bloody face) The moon is full, it illuminates off of me. The water sounds calm, im calm. Im a boss of all bosses, never forget that. I decides who dies and lives YOU GOT THAT!?!?!? (He nods and catches his last breath he is dead) I stare up at the moon, the moon calms me. Wait min where is Natalia? (I run back in the ruined warehouse) Natalia!? Natalia!? Im over here. (Shes in another room located at the back of the warehouse. You Ok? Yea im Ok. You sure gave me one hell of a surprise. Yea. Sometimes i surprise myself. (We both laugh) The dream comes to a end and i wake up.

(Notes) This was one of the most intense lucids i have ever had! when it came down to it, I just made sure to remember that it was all a dream, and its not real no matter how painful the fight was. LOL! I shoul note that i did WBTB at 5:30 am, and went to do some subconscious training for about 20 mins. I woke from that dream at 8:24. And could not recall a single dream after that. Oh well, i was pleased with my results.

This entry will be a little bit different, they will be entries from lucid dreams that I had before I even knew what lucid dreaming was (I was about 8-12 years old back then, which is about 10 years ago now).

Dream 1:
This is the first lucid dream I ever had as far as I can remember, it probably also was the most vivid and long lucid dream I ever had and remembered even until this day. Its quite ironic that the only thing I thought about doing back then was waking up.

I remember walking in a mall, and there was nobody close that I knew so I got scared and thought I was lost. Somehow I became lucid and just knew it had to be a dream, still being scared I just had to wake myself up, but how? I didn't know.
So I went around asking different DCs if they knew how I could wake myself up, but nobody knew. Eventually there was a nice older man that wanted to help me really bad (Dream guide?), so he took me to a place that was a little higher then the rest of the mall, and he shouted to other DCs walking below, asking if anybody knew how to wake "this boy" up... But still nobody knew. I said that I shouldn't be worried and that we would find a way to wake me up. This calmed me down.

Dream 2:
I have a very vague memory of this dream, and I only remembered it after reading my own post about the previous dream.

It was at a train station, there were a lot of people and we were all waiting for our train, somehow I knew it was a dream (I have no idea how I knew this back then). This time I wasn't scared and wanted to test what it was like to die in a dream, and I thought that it would probably just wake me up. So I stepped on the railway and I saw the train coming.
After a little while as the train came closer, I decided not to do it because what if it wasn't a dream o.o . I was lifted off the railway by one of the DCs, and he also said it was probably better if I didn't do it.
This is when the dream faded away and I found myself back in my bed, this is the first lucid dream where I actually noticed the transition.


After remembering these dreams I wonder how many more lucid dreams I have had in the past that I don't remember.

Old partially Lucid Dream
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I'm walking in what looks like a medieval village. It's modern day now, and there are many store fronts, so I gaze into their windows. It's pleasant and I'm in no hurry. The sidewalk is in good condition which contrasts the state of some of the buildings I pass. Many are made of stone and their walls are crumbling. It's chilly and night is falling.

As I near the corner of the sidewalk, I get a sense of concern. I turn the corner and am engulfed in this deep, angry wall of water. The waves grab me and pull me away from the safety of the quaint village. I go under and hear the sounds of the sea swirling around me. I force my way to the surface and gasp for air. Trying desperately to keep my head above the water, I notice in front of me, maybe several hundred yards beyond me, other people who were trapped in this sea are just walking out of the water and back onto the sidewalk.

No matter how hard I swim, struggle, or fight to move myself closer to shore, I cannot. I'm exhausted and I go under again. The waves are crashing all around me and beneath the water I feel assaulted, pushed here and there. I kick hard to make it to the surface once more and look to the shore. It seems even farther away and I am so envious of how effortlessly these other people leave the angry waters that I seem trapped in.

I wake.

After thought: I did some research on dreams because to me this felt like something which could be cathartic or symbolic. Water often times represents emotions. And I had been pulled beneath and was fighting against the water...my emotions? I felt trapped by them - unable to escape them. That was my take of this dream. Any thoughts or other observations are welcomed.

Dream Type: Non-Lucid, Semi-Lucid, Memorable.
Dream Mood: Mysterious, Stressful, Eerie, Sad, Happy, Strange.
Dream Setting: My Hometown, Some Futuristic School, The 50's.
Dream Characters: My Mom, Some Old Guy, Random Classmates, False-Parents.

This was a long string of dreams that I had due to the fact that I kept waking up and falling asleep again because of a sudden and painful cramp I got in my lower back.

Anyways, as usual, the beginning of my dream is not quite present, though I remember my Mom and Me were at some sort of emergency of some sort and told some old guy to drive me to a hotel or something where she would be staying, though I was concerned of her trust in this unknown man. He was a Caucasian man with no hair and a long strangely beard. I got into a black, modern-day car with him, and we drove off but not to the hotel, but to my mother's house, where we cooped up in my bedroom and began eating and talking. At first, he was a bit of a jerk, though as time progressed, he became nicer, and even ordered me a pizza that came in an instant. My mom texted me, wondering if I had gotten to the hotel yet, and for some reason, I said yes. We then conversed on how we were going to get to the hotel. We never did get to the hotel by the end of the dream.

This next dream was very strange. I was sent to some futuristic boarding school of sorts, where everyone wore a tight suit that exposed their lower legs and their arms. Many things were quite futuristic, actually, such as the TV screens that were large and wide in our classrooms. I was in one of those classes, and a girl who I don't remember knowing was my friend. I was making a killing in these answers, getting almost every question asked by the teacher right, and once class was over, the girl asked me if I wanted to see a play she was in, and I agreed as we walked towards the front desk to see what time the play was at. I don't remember finding out though. Next, I was outside the school, and some guy was fixing something on the road as I watched him a bit, though suddenly, I saw a large truck, an 18-wheeler that for some reason drove on it's side coming his way. The whole truck avoided him, though the tires bounced up and down, and I realized one of the tires was heading his way, and as I saw one of them suddenly bounce a bit over his head, ready to crash down on him, I shouted "Watch out!" but it was too late, well, he didn't even react, but instead, the wheel came crashing down on him, putting his body into a round pulp of skin. I was shocked, traumatized at what I saw, and as the other's crowded around the mangled corpse, I ran, far away. I went on the road, making sure I was far from the school. I even went into the forest, and kept running and running, faster and faster. I eventually crossed a WWII airbase, and they began shooting, someone did at least. I realized that I was going to die then, so I wouldn't let them have the pleasure, and I jumped off the takeoff point, falling to my death. This was the end of my life, supposedly. Once I "died", I only saw black and a flash of some images that I cannot remember, but I was given the opportunity to start my life over, as if there was no heaven or something. And so I did, though I was given the choice of an era to choose.

The era I would choose to be born in was the 1950's. I can't say why, but I just chose that time. Still, there was no point where I was a baby or anything, but instead I was a child, more of a pre-teen really. I wore a red and yellow striped t-shirt and had short blonde hair, much like my actual self, and I had different parents, ones that were unfamiliar to me, and we were looking for a house in the dead of night. We found one eventually, and it was right by a dreadfully scary woodland area, though we didn't seem to mind, and without any caution to who or what was inside the home, we went in, and it was already furnished with all the things that we needed. Many things didn't seem like they would exist in the 50's, like cable TV with a channel guide built into the TV and modern-day cartoons such as Ed, Edd and Eddy. Still, we took the house.

I can't quite remember what happened after that, but what I do know is that there was quite a large gap between then and the next part of the dream, where it mainly consisted of me, my false mom and my false dad, who now lived in a very prestigious home with a large backyard and a horse statue in the middle of it, and not to mention the great view of a large green, grassy landscape. I can't remember what we were doing there, but we were there.

I've been having a lot of death-related dreams recently... I wonder what it could mean.

Dreams
There's some kindof war? I run outside and in this courtyard is a giant doll like robot that I shoot in the eye with a bazooka. It is absorbed right into her eye. I go into the courtyard and there is an angry birds game, and I am the angry bird. I launch myself with the elastic slingshot and try and hit the targets. There are lots of pastries and cakes on the targets that I eat while doing this. During this there are some voices talking about a really chillax prof. Im running along some dirty gravel mounds barefoot trying to get to a cabin. David's cat died, so they got a new one, and Kelly was standing over me as she said it. We go inside and I shake some Indians' hands, and we see david and say "thats horrible news, I'm sorry to hear it." I'm in this camp or cabin now and the other people are all druggies. Prince Joffrey from a Game of Thrones is there and so is Queen Cercei. I swear my allegiance to Joffrey and my future king, and also to Cercei, but she says that nobody actually wants to be queen so don't swear allegiance to her. The druggies give me food but its all drugged with barbituates. I spit most of it out. It is nightime and there is a chopper hovering around outside our tent. It has the roof of a tent, but the sides are all glass and the chopper must be able to see us with its searchlight which is on us. The chopper lowers down and turns into a tent with the crew all sitting down on a bench inside. "How did the chopper change from that into a tent?" I ask. "It has scissors." The guy next to me replies. I think this is a dream. Things go black and I go into a non lucid where I get sick and vomit from all of the bugs in Key West where there is a vampire.

-Wake up-I wake up with that bad dream kindof feeling, and stay up a little bit to try and get my bearings.

Dreams
I am flying in a cessna with my mom who is the pilot. She flies very low, no higher than 400 feet off the ground. We fly under powerlines and stuff. We fly under some structure and see the runway and she puts down full flaps and cuts power an we land on it. I am a little bit relieved because I wasn't sure she would pull it off. It is a relatives place in the winter and a lage British man comes out and talks to me. He jokes without really any hint of humour in his voice and asks me if I brougt my swimming gear to swim in the lake. Is this in Kingston? I reply that I didn't bring my wetsuit. There is a long and large machine under some covering that will be revealed to us as a surprise. They eventually uncover it and its a huge digging claw that a tractor has. It picks up snow and dumps it into some bin. They are wearing suits and hats I think, and it reminds me of an old old picture in black and white. It reminds of death and how we are all going to be dead someday.

I've done it! I had my first lucid, albeit an extremely brief one. At least, I'm pretty sure I was lucid; I had been drinking a lot that night and my recall was close to non-existant - I'm surprised I actually remembered anything. Here's how it went down:

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13/4/12
DILD

Wherever I am [where I was and what I was doing have completely escaped my memory] I suddenly ask myself if I'm dreaming [the countless reality checks have paid off!]. At that moment I think I already knew the answer, but I look at my digital clock and do the nose-pinch reality check just to make sure.

As soon as I realise I could breathe through a pinched nose I get an incredible euphoric experience from my excitement, which unfortunately causes me to wake up before I could even think about stabilising. Oh well, I consider it progress!

Despite being very short-lived, it's really given me hope that my efforts are paying off. Here's to many more!

I had sleep paralysis once. It was when I awoke in the middle of the night from some kind of stressful dream, though I don't remember what the dream was about. The dream did stress me out to where I actually willed myself to wake up from it immediately. That was so cool, I became lucid in my dream and used my lucidity to wake up from the dream!

I was awake in bed in the middle of the night, and I couldn't move, lol. So for about 30 seconds I'm lying there thinking so this is what sleep paralysis is. Good thing I heard about it before so I wasn't freaking out. I know I was still tired and it was the middle of the night, so I fell right back to sleep about a minute later. That was the first, and only, time I experienced sleep paralysis.

...Last night.A happy dream as it was my first taste of a lucid dream.I dreamt that I was walking down the stairs and then remembered about the common dream that people have about floating down the stairs, some of which that I had read on this site. Suddenly, I realised that I must be dreaming and attempted to float-with some success. Then, I tried to create a marker to know that I was dreaming for future dreams. I first attempted to jump up and down as I decided that gravity doesn't work in dreams..which is where the lucidity tails off. I thought I was in the matrix briefly, before attempting to put my right hand through my left hand,on which appeared a wedding ring, (which I don't wear in waking life). All the while through this dream I was aware of somehow watching myself from behind,controlling my body from a distance. Also, bizarrely, in my dreams my hair is often brown and bobbed, the opposite to waking life! The dream was blurry and seemed more impressionist in nature!

In this dream I'm researching genealogy, so I'm going around to these people and places doing interviews and taking notes. I happen to be with this good looking blond woman who is assisting me. We come across this blind guy on a dirt road and I start taking notes on him. He doesn't fit into my family tree, so I'm wondering why I'm taking notes on him? But I figure why not, there isn't that much info to take, and I finish up on him. Later we are in this old large house, kind of like an southern plantation house, its the kind you can get lost in with over 20 rooms. It is still a nice house, just you can tell it has been built sometime in the 1800's. I'm still taking my notes on all the DCs in the house, as well as the place itself.

I start lucidly affecting my dream, but since I forget to RC I'm not fully lucid. I imagine that this house belongs to the lady I'm with, and she starts acting like she owns the place. Next I imagine she is rich, but she had hidden her money throughout her house, cash & gold. All the DCs start to go around the house to try and find the wealth. I feel like I owe my DCs money, so to be generous to my DCs I start making cash appear out of thin air in my hands and start handing it out to my DCs. I'm tired of this notebook and writing everything by hand, so I wish for all my gathered info to be on a laptop. When I turn around and look at the table, there is a laptop there instead of my notebook.

Black means non lucid
Orange means semi lucid
Blue means lucid
Red means dream characters talking
Purple means possible shared dream person
Green means notes

Got it? Great! for those who read my entries...you know the drill.

Dream #1 You got mail

Im in some room connected online (possibly dreamviews) with Kaomea. We are having a conversation about astral travels and possibly sharing a dream one day. We were now on a cel phone talking to eachother, we were talking about Hawaii and i was telling her that i use to live in California with my ex and decided the relationship was not working anymore so we parted ways. I mentioned that i moved back to Michigan and that i miss being back home.

Dream #2 Party at some random location

I walk into a house filled with a bunch of people The house was huge and had a big swimming pool in the back. This one young lady walked up to me and started having a conversation with me. She looked a bit like T-Boz from the 90's R&B group TLC. We were both seated on this long couch and she sat next to me and with her legs crossed flirting with me. I take my hand and gently caress her thigh area. I remember telling her she looks good, and the conversation from there was mostly about how she was feeling me.

Dream #3 Let me take care of them

Im walking with someone (who looks like Kaomea) we climb down some underground tunnel. We were squeezing thru narrow spaces and trying to get thru this labyrinth tunnel with all these narrow spaces ducking uder leaking pipes. I believe that she is Kaomea, her energy felt warm. i reach in my pocket to grab my hawk coin totem. Where are we goin? I want to introduce you to some people. Oh ok. How far do we have to go? Mmm it should'nt take long. lol why you tired already? Na, just wondering. We were walking thru a flood of water when all of a sudden..i sensed some energy, Bad energy. Wait ssh, What? Listen...you hear it? Sounds like flies. All of a sudden..i look back and notice these demonic looking Gargoyle looking creatures flying straight towards us. I started glowing gold and began feeling and immense amount of power surging thru me. I launch gold projectile beams and green and purple flickers of fireballs at them. meanwhile the Kaomea look alike is surrounding her self with a huge white barrier. I think she was shielding herself and i told her to let me take care of them. Im running thru them tackling them and bashing them with super human strength. I take them all out and feel drained. The Kaomea look alike, takes her hands and place them a few inches away from my body. What is that. Im rejuvenating your health. Oh, thank you. Mmmhmm.

Dream #4 Dreamers hangout

Im now at some underground hideout, where there are a bunch of dreamers socializing and hanging out. I remember seeing a basketball court, a workout room, a sparring room, and a classroom for kids, teenagers, adults, ect ect. I see tracy morgan telling jokes to some girls in this gym, and Gary busey was eating tuna fish sandwich. I remember he was talking and kept chewing with his mouth open, and i kept giving him the elbow telling him to talk the othe directions. I remember him pointing his finger at me, i grabbed it and bent it backwards and said to CHILL MAN ALRIGHT!? Shit... Alright alright, sorry. Don't bite my head off. I remember seeing this guy who was (i believe he was Oneironaut zero) showing some asian dude some new abilities with shooting projectile beams out his hands and some other cool stuff. I overhear some people saying that Wakingnomad is waiting for us he does'nt have all day. There was this one dude who could create wind just by blowing, a girl who can create ice with her hands, a little boy who can clone himself, and a guy who can stretch his arms long distances. I remember the Kaomea look alike was upset about something and she decided to leave. I asked her what was wrong, and she mentioned something about how she did not feel like doin something. (i forgot what is was she said) I told her that i appreciated her healing me, and that i hope we can meet up again soon. she nodded her head and said, mkay, that sounds good to me. Great i'll see you around, take care of yourself ok? K, you too! I watch as she walks down this long hallway tunnel, feeling the dream fading i wake up.

Notes: Im unsure if i shared a dream with Kaomea. But whoever she was, she had a energy that felt familar to me. Hmm...interesting. but the setting of this underground hangout had a bunch of active dreamers there. and i heard a bunch of DV members names being shouted left and right. Overall im happy with the results, and i enjoyed the stting of this dream.