lucid

Spider bit me today. Lucid yesterday...fight at a party

I am always dreaming of people who have passed, some I know and some I don't. When I am dreaming I KNOW that I am and I can control the dream to go in the direction that I want it to. I just dont ever seem to get the message they want passed on. I dont understand what they mean so I don't pass the message along and then they come back to ask me why I didnt pass it along. I dream in full color always, NEVER in black and white. I honestly feel that I have lost my mind at times and other times it just feels so natural. I dont really share this information with people because i dont want them to think i have completely lost my mind. I find it odd that this happens with me.

After waking up from the last dream and failing to DEILD, I notice that it is still not time to get up.
I decide to go back to sleep in the hopes of landing back in my old dream.

I'm walking on a beach.
Except... it is not really a beach.

I am in fact in one of the classrooms at my uni, and the ground is covered in sand,
and the walls are painted with ocean an palms.
Many led's on the ceiling make it appear as if there was a night sky.
It looks as if someone tried to reconstruct a scene that occasionally appears in my dreams:
http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/hyu/girl-beach-12340/

Realizing that I am dreaming, I check how stable it is.
I grab a hand full of sand and let it slowly pour down back onto the ground.
It feels very real, and even though it is dark inside, the contrast of my vision is so strong that I can see everything clearly with ease.
Great!

My thoughts on where to go are interrupted by a female voice behind me.

"Hi..."

I turn around and see a familiar face.

"Krista!"

She holds out a hand to me.

"Come with me?"

Which is similar to how I invited her a long time ago:
Taking KristaNicole to Teraluna - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views

I grab her hand and follow her out of the room.
There's a portal on one of the walls which I assume she has created.
We go trough it and are sucked through a tunnel, full of odd lighting effects.
There appear to be insect-like creatures on the outer walls, but they don't seem to take notice of us.

We come out on the other end, and fortunately for once I don't land on my face like an idiot.
I don't know what it is with portals, but I have a tendency of coming out upside down on the other end.


We are on what appears to be a set of floating islands.
It's beautiful, and there is some type of temple not far away which looks very interesting.

"I've been thinking about you yesterday, I haven't heard from you in a long time."

She doesn't look like she heard what I said.

"Aww, I wanted the portal to lead to the temple."

I pick Krista up, which clearly confuses her.

"... What are you doing?"

I concentrate on the temple and blink both of us towards it.
I put Krista back down.

"What was that?"
"I call it blinking, it's a short range teleport kind of thing."
"You call that short?"
"Yeah, I can basically blink as far as I can see."

"How does it work?"
"Uuh, it's kinda weird. You concentrate on the spot where you want to blink to."
"Then take a single step towards the location, but at the same time land a second step in the location where you want to end up."
"That... that doesn't make any sense."
"I told you it's weird, you basically take a single step but end up taking two."

I see Krista concentrating on a location not too far away. She is trying to blink.

"Hey, be careful, it's easy to loose your orientation and end up in a..."

I hear a loud noise as Krista crashes into a thick decorative pillar.

"... wall ..."
"OUCH"

Small bits of the pillar are falling off as she peels herself loose.
I can't help myself and I start laughing.
Krista does not seem to be amused.

"It's not funny!"
"Actually it kind of is."

On a second thought, she's finding it amusing after all, but she doesn't want to show it.

"Let's go to the center of the temple."
"Sure."

She starts walking towards what appears to be the main building.
I feel like fooling around and start hovering over the ground, and enter her field of vision, floating on my back just a few centimeters above the ground.
I wave at her as I slowly pass her.

She starts laughing.

"What the hell are you doing? You are insane!"
"Quite."

She grabs me and turns me upside down and sits down on my back.

"Much better."
"Hey!"
"To the temple!"
"I ain't no taxi service!"
"To the temple!"

Fine, I fly us both to the center of the temple.
This would look absolutely ridiculous to an outsider.

We end up in a really amazing location.
There's a pool in the middle of a platform, with a few holes in the ground, creating waterfalls that go all the way down to the surface of the planet.
The water source appears to be infinite.

"Did you make this?"
"... Yes."
"It's beautiful!"

I start walking on the pool.

"Hey! How do you do that?"
"What? Walk on water?"
"Yes!"
"What do you mean? I just do it."
"But... you're supposed to go under."
"No I'm not."
"Tell me how it works, I want to learn how to walk on water."

"You don't need to learn how to walk on water, you need to forget how to fall through water."
"What? That doesn't make any sense."
"Sure it does, think about it."

She's saying something that I cannot quite comprehend.
I turn around to look at her, but I cannot find her anymore.

"Hey, where did you go?"

No answer...
I notice my vision is very blurry, the dream is falling apart.
I wake up.

A month of near zero recall and then two cool lucids in a row.
Sometimes I wonder what goes on in my brain.

I had my first successful DEILD last night without even trying or practicing DEILD. *I woke up from a dream and moved around a bit without thinking but decided to instantly return to my sleeping position and freeze. *Soon I was sleeping and I somehow just simply realized I was dreaming. *Maybe it was ADA and not DEILD? *Anyway I did the nose plug RC and counted my fingers. *I had 11 fingers. *I remembered dream stabilization and focused on looking at everything around me. *I don't remember what I exactly saw very well but I was in a fancy hotel. *After stabilizing the dream I was suddenly confronted by a few DCs and nearly forgot I was dreaming. *I ignored them and decided to try to fly with a jet pack and succeeded... Until it crashed and I was back with the DCs. *They kept pestering me about sonething I had to do and I saw my dream getting blurry and start to fade. *I tried rubbing my hands and spinning, it didn't do anything. *I got the stupid idea to fall backwards instead of use verbal commands to restabilize it. *I immediately went into a false awakening, but didn't reality check. **
Too bad I forgot the dream I was in before my lucid and I barely remember my lucid itself but I guess that's what practice is for.

More music for no good reason:



Immediately after falling asleep, I wake up due to some noise in the house.
I look at the clock, and 6 hours have already passed, which frustrates me a bit.
I change position and try to fall back asleep, thinking about lucid dreaming.


... I'm walking to school.
There's quite a few other students walking there, but I don't know any of them.
The weather is nice.
For some reason a blue flower catches my attention and I stare at it.

I'm dreaming!
I can't help but say out loud:

"YES!"

Some of the student look at me as if I was mentally retarded, but I don't care.
I rub my hands and try to activate my other senses, but the dream already feels very stable.
A female voice whispers into my ear:

"You know, you could totally do one of the students."

...

"FAYE!"
"Haha"
"Really? Aren't you supposed to help me rather than encouraging distractions?"
"I'm just messing with you."

I shrug it off.

"You're messing with me all the time."

I summon my phoenix wings.

"I'm off to see Yuya, you coming?"
"Sure!"

She holds onto my arm and I teleport us both to Teraluna...
... We appear in Yuya's garden where she, Liv and two other people are having tea.
We join them.
It feels good to be here again, it has been too long.
We talk about various stuff until I finally bring up the topic of my recall, chronic headaches and tiredness.

Yuya approaches me.

"Move forward."

Hm? I slide forward on my chair a bit and she sits behind me.
She starts pressing against various points on my neck, similarly to what a doctor did in waking life.
Then she presses her forehead against the back of my head and wraps her hands around it.

I can feel sort of a click in my head.
I suddenly feel very lightheaded, as if I was floating.
I can sense her gradually feeling though all the fibres of my aura in my head.
It feels pretty damn good.

"Do you have headaches even when you're here?"
"No. Only when I'm awake."
"Hmmm..."
"Is there something wrong?"
"Actually no... not really."
"No-one seems to know in waking life either... I'm getting a scanner thing done in two days."
"Oh, what's that?"
"A machine that looks into your head without touching it... it's harmless."

She hugs me.

"You'll be fine, I bet it's nothing."
"Yeah, it's probably something really stupid that is just difficult to detect."

I look around. I'm so happy to be back here. I know I will recall this dream.
It'll be fantastic for my motivation.

"Hey Yuya."
"Yes?"
"You really need to teach me about time dilation."
"What do you mean?"
"How to stay in dreams for hours, days, months... years!"
"Shouldn't you worry about fixing your recall first?"
"Yes! And then time dilation!"
"Haha, alright alright. It's difficult though you know?"
"I don't care."
"You don't care?"

I shrug.

"I have all the time in the world. I don't mind if it takes months or years to learn how to do it."
"Because once I do know how to do it, making up on the time spent learning it should be pretty easy."

She smiles.

"That's a good attitude. I'll make sure to remind you next time you visit me."

We talk some more and the dream fades away.

I try to remain still to DEILD, but someone's being noisy again which is too disctracting.

Im asleep in my bed focusing on my breathing, when all of a sudden my body went numb and everything went completely silent. i then heard buzzing sounds and continued to focus on my energy aura increasing, i lifted my astral left arm and tried to peel of my sleep mask (i normally wear) on my face. but i kept pulling and pulling away until im just touching my eyes??? hmmmm.....last time i checked...i was wearing my sleep mask. or am i really awake and my sleep mask came off??? after all this trying to put my understanding into whether or not im dreaming i finally get up off the bed turn on the light and notice my sleep mask is gone? real funny brain. but im too aware, and refuse to become lost into fucking oblivion! so i walk over to my mirror and focus my energy into becoming a crow. i felt my arms become wings, my head become small, and my nose and mouth became long and curvy into a dark charcoal beak.my body shrink and it became filled with glossy black feathers. im now fully formed as this intelligent mischievious little bird, and decided its time to spread my wings and fly off into the night! i cawed 4 times and flew out my window into the night skies, i landed on a telephone pole and begin cawing away, it was very foggy and my city (here in Detroit Mi) looked a bit different? am i even at home anymore??? not feeling afraid nor having any thought at all..i cawed a few more times. i then noticed a beautiful raven flew a few feet away from where i was, and landed on top another telephone pole. she gave off a energy that felt familar, she flew closer to me and cawed back (i somehow understood what her cawing meant). she seduced me to follow her.. we flew thru the skies cawing and cawing away..no longer worried about tomorrow, only worried about today. we flew thru this abandoned building and landed atop a old dresser. a white homeless man begin screaming and yelling at us to leave his building. he swatted at us with his cane, but we flew around higher cawing at the man warning him to stop or else he will meet his impending doom! so me and the female raven flew thru the building with this homeless man chasing us and screaming at us at the top of his lungs to leave his shack..when all of a sudden he tripped and landed in a pile of rubble from the house and laid there catching his breath, we were in some old beat up bathroom. there was a shower rod i landed on and begin pecking at it, the man now laying in the rubble near this tub did not know what would await him.. the female raven landed on the bathroom sink and cawed at him he begin to get up from the rubble when all of a sudden i pecked one last time at the shower rod and it fell directly on his head. me and the female raven cawed at the man and flew out of the buiding into the foggy now early morning skies, we both landed at a nearby home and i projected back into my normal self and to my amazement..this beautiful raven projected herself into her normal self. (and boy was she attractive) fair complexion, long black wavy hair, beautiful bedroom eyes, a pocahontas nose, and juicy doll shaped lips. mmm this lovely lady was my type to the fullest! please do not take this the wrong way boo.. but uh.. can i seranade you??? she nodded and we entered (what i believe to be her home) a huge house very nicely decorated with antique statues of birds, such as..hawks, crows, ravens, owls, robins, bluejays, sparrows, ect ect. she then set down on a couch and asked me what my beliefs were, i told her i am very spiritual and believe no matter what religion you believe in, we are all worshipping the same God. she got up from the couch and gave me a hug filled with so much love and peace that it become so intense that i started to feel myself being jolted back into my original body! awwww....why did it have to end there!

I drifted off but remained aware and heard this drumming pulling me in. I think it started as me drumming with some friends but then it was just a drum in front of me, and the drum started singing a higher pitch tone song. It reminded me of a shaman who was playing a drum and transforming in a dream I had a few weeks ago. This drumming was pulling me in and I was aware, I felt intense energy rushing through me and particularly building up at the sacral chakra. I managed to float up some but didnt keep the LD stable enough. I was flying a bit but it was fuzzy and I came out of it shortly after.

Normal Dream
Lucid Dream

Night 33

I. I was in the school parking lot waiting at my brothers truck for him to come out so we can go home, as I was waiting when some people I knew came up to talk to me. I remember one of them telling the other how I won like $2,000 on a $20 bet. I then got into the truck and started driving around the parking lot while I waited for my brother. As I was driving, something woke me up, and I tried doing a DEILD. It worked and I was back in the dream driving around, I became lucid as well and did a RC to make sure, it worked. I remember I started driving really fast, and I hit another car head on and pushed him to the side, and I continued to speed to the end of the lot. I spun out at the end and the truck was going to go into the ditch but I made it stop in mid air, I wanted to make it go back onto the lot, but I couldn't do it. Instead I was like floating as the truck fell into the ditch, my body went through the truck. I fell to the ground and started to walk back to where all the people were at. The environment around me changed and I was on a road going through a forest that leads back to the parking lot. I was yelling out to stabilize the dream and increase the vividness, I was looking up at the sky, it was blue with some feather clouds. There were a lot of cars driving on the road, and I decided I will try to stop one and use it to get back faster, but they were all going like 80mph and I could not stop any. Then the dream changed again and the road turned into train tracks, I started running to get back fast. The dream ended here.

II. I was at my friends house, it was a dark room and they were playing Super Smash Bros when their mothers came in and asked us if we had seen any cats, they were missing, we said no and they left the room. I looked around and found one of the cats sleeping in the corner behind a chair. The cat woke up and I was petting him, I remember the car started being playful by scratching my hands and biting it, and my hands were like ice cold for some reason so it hurt really really bad. The moms came in again and I told them I found one of the cats, and then the dream ended.

Again, I have to add this to my "crazy dream" collection.I'm starting to wonder if my nasty headaches have something to do with opening up a barrier in my spiritual receptivity. I know that's out there, but I've noticed I'm more inclined to pick up on such when I have a migraine. Maybe I have a migraine because I'm receiving that information....Whatever.....

Anyway, I had a dream last night that I was sitting in a restaurant in Asia somewhere, I think Japan or one of the Koreas. I was wearing a white formal suit with the tie/bow. I was seated at a table next to a four/five foot wall, and was only several seats away from the entrance and the big front windows (which were to my left). To my right was a long walkway and it went back into the kitchen's behind large metal swinging doors.

I was there with a colleague/friend who was Chinese and apparently worked for Chinese intelligence. We were talking about something important; about our mission, and how "they wouldn't see it coming".

One of the cooks came out to us and was talking to us. He was an older man. He asked me if my soup was okay and I told him that I thought it smelled funny. He freaked out and offered to taste it for me to see what was wrong. He took it with him back to the kitchens where he tasted it and almost immediately began gagging and reacting badly to the poison that he had ingested. I looked at my counterpart wearily, before we got up and left, with nervous smiles on our faces.

The dream faded out there and then back in.

We were in a near empty office in a tall building in a large city. To my right was a window that looked out into the rest of the exterior office cubicals. It was dark, and there was a screen on that had green on it and what looked like codes for something. In the office, I was hacking into a locked computer (you know how you put a password on the computer user? It was like that, only military/government grade encryption). My Chinese colleague burst in saying that we were running out of time and I was getting anxious that the files wouldn't download to my external hard-drive fast enough.

The numbers 666 7109 came up, and I jumped in excitement saying that these were the codes we needed.

Somewhere in there, someone mentioned a plot of something (assassination?) against Hu Jintao and at some point I was also viewing a lot of this from the 1st person perspective of the Russian Prime Minister and president elect Vladimir Putin, as if he had something to do with all of this.


And then I woke up. Those numbers are going to bug me. Big time. All I know is that those codes were really important for some reason and that whatever was going on was a time bomb waiting to go off.

I also marked this as both lucid and non-lucid. I was lucid and had some control over my actions, but at the same time the plot and conflict seemed predetermined by something else.

dream 1 - my mom brought our new sister (not in IRL). She was half blooded from Caucasian, wtf?! her hair was blond and her eyes were green. She had similar features from my mom. I tried to hug her. She went to my school building, and she spoke in broken English. I told my mom not to teach her wrong English (I was kinda frustrated)...

dream 2 - I was at the school...the atmosphere was gloomy. There were my friends from hometown and some from american high school. suddenly bunch of my friends and I were at some kind of castle-like balcony or the top of a tower. My brother said 'look!' pointing to the background. There was beautiful sunny golden cloud covering the Washington bridge of Manhattan. Everything was shiny. There were people on the bridge waving their hands to the sky. We started to shout and waved hands, but suddenly the tower started to tremble - the balcony shifted and it felt like it was gonna crash down to the ground. I thought 'uh-oh' and the balcony started to fall!!! my brother said 'this is not happening!!' and this was really vivid. I felt adrenaline going inside my stomach when it was falling. the feeling of balcony falling per se was sooooo vivid. and then it crashed down - it was so painful. Blacked out. Then I woke up again on the balcony. I thanked god that I was still alive. Some of my friends were awake too. We tried to lift the rocks that crashed on to us by counting 3. We did.

The scene changed and I walking to school again with my 2 friends. I had some business at my house with my family so I thought I was gonna take only first period in the school. I handed the note to the staff at the main entrance, and I waited for my mom. There she came and we went to home.
The next day, I only took the first period and went home.
And the next day, again, I took first period and I was waiting for my mom at the entrance to pick me up. Suddenly my old friend in New Jersey came to pick me up. It was very strange that she had 13 toes.....wtf?

I don't know when I dreamed this but I was in the hall way and asked a boy out lol. I said "hey you wanna go out with me?" and he hesitated. "umm...I don't know. I don't think I want to." and I was like ugh...I asked him too early and he's gonna talk about me to his friends, I felt embarrassed :/

Scene jump. I was doing computer and there was no Park voted on the top 5 list for pre-presidential election.

Dream 3- I was in the living room watching DVD cases I burrowed from library. The cover contained sexuality and I was like wtf -.-


Shared Dream attempt
Dream 4 - I did WILD and went out to the veranda. The sky was dark. I could feel the grass under my bare feet. I flew a little. I shouted "clarity!" and the dream scene got more vivid. The sky turned into blue. I shouted "to Desert Claw!" and the dream scene slowly changed, felt a little weird. I was in a room with bunch of middle school kids. There was one kid I remember - his hair was black and long. I wanted to find Desert Claw but it seemed he wasn't there. anyway, I said
"Hey guys!!! you guys are dreaming! Do RC!!"
and the kids jumped on their feet, getting excited.
"Hey are you from Dreamviews? Are you a Dreamviews member?" I said, and this one kid said yes.
There was a laptop in the corner of the room, and the kid tried to go to Dreamviews. But he typed 'dreapview' in the address bar.
"No, it's Dreamviews." I said.
"What? dreambiews?"
"Jeez, I said D-R-E-A-M-V-I-E-W-S." I tried to type it up myself but I gave up.
"You guys don't even know about dreamviews....you guys are just DCs!"
and I shouted "to Nightspy!" then the scene changed.
I was in the hall way of a house. The floor was covered with soft greyish white carpet. There were 2 room doors closely together down the stairs. I went down and opened the right one. The walls were white. There was a bed on the right side and someone was sleeping. I immediately recognized him as Nightspy. I shook him to wake him up.
"Hey!! wake up you're dreaming!!! let's have shared dream! "
But he just moaned as if it was really troublesome. He wouldn't wake up. I saw his blue t-shirt. Couldnt see his face though...
"You wanna sleep 'in dream'? Oh come on....." I said, looking in the mirror. I was wearing a white cap and a red sweater-jacket.
I found a sketchbook on a cabinet near the bed. The drawings were mine.

Woke up.

In my dream I met a girl that I liked, so I became lucid and flirting with her. The next thing I know, we were hugging and stuff. Finally we relax a bit on a couch, snuggling. She puts her head in my lap. She is looking up at me, and while she does I do her in the back of her head. It actually goes into the back of her head and feels good, and I can tell by her expression she is really enjoying it too.

Dream Journal April 11, 2012
Messy Locker
I was going around school, but everywhere I went, I was going way behind everyone. I was never ready to leave any of my classes when others were, and for some reason, it seemed like my entire locker was randomly spread out around the school, so on my way from one class to another, I would sometimes find a big pile of belts, books, and just stuff ALL over the place. When I did arrive to class, already being late, I didn't have my homework done either, so it sucked twice as much.
-4:50 AM

Double Pussy Slide
Me and some other girl were going down some real long red slide the twisted and curved and looped a lot. At one part of the slide she would speed ahead of me and turn her body into like a double sided pussy, so I went through her every time I went down the slide. And I went down the slide at least 3 times.
-4:53 AM

Fell back asleep between 5:30 and 6:00

LDthat lasted an hour to a hour and and a half!
I just knew I was lucid right after a WBTB. I didn't fall asleep till 5:30. It felt like this LD lasted hours!!! I RCed SOO many times! I was in a carnival in one, carries friend was trying to hide her gift under a blue bucket, and then later Carrie flattened it. One I was in school and everyone was trying to stop me cause I went down to the gym, then out the gym door to try to sneak outside, but there was some banquet on the stage so I got caught... I think I might have accidentally killed someone, because everyone even my sister and cousin and aunt were asking me to stop. Then my sister showed me something on her droid, so I just calmed down a bit, but I was still jumping everywhere! IN one part every teacher started class by being on the toilet and I saw their legs, then they flushed. It was weird and gross. IN one part my dad was driving me places and I was telling him it was a dream, and he was like "nahhh" but then I told him to look at the clock in the car, it said 7:77! That was obviously wrong, and I wasn't asleep that long yet! There were a whole bunch of hobos in this little campground full of old cabins. All their clocks were saying weird times and I remembered, and said, then numbers on clocks can’t add up higher than 23. And then someone said something like how hard it would be to open a safe. In another part I was in an amusement park! There were a couple rides and I wanted to show people this was a dream. I went on this one where it is a big circle being held up by something like a crane, and it spun in circles. There were little seats on the circle too. I told some girls this was a dream, and only one girl stayed on with me. I started swinging the ride around and she was scared then I totally flipped it upside down and she fall of and went "Splaaat!" I hopped off the ride and saw a pile of goo. So I put my hands over it and started reviving it! Then she came back to life! I also saw some rollercoaster that went off its tracks but it hooks back on its tracks after about a 10ft jump! And there was one roller coaster that went up real high, the tracks disappeared, and it latches onto a Blimp and the blimp carries it to the other side where the tracks start again~! (Scary amusement park for people who don't know it's a dream!) In another part I was in my basement and I found something that I wanted to spear someone with, and I went up my stairs and threw it at my cousin Brandon. (It was some like toy gun that's actually a pen so it’s long and narrow.) Then I was in my mom’s bathroom and she was in there on the counter and I was trying to seduce her and she liked it. I would have to RC ever so often because I didn't want to forget I was dreaming. But every time I look away for a sec, she would disappear! And then I'd go into a different part of the house and I'd find her. Then I'd take her back, and we'd try again. She said we should try in the bathtub, but the water was a grayish-brown color and it was just dark and scary, so I was like nahh let's not go in there. I put her up on the counter sitting down and I was doing stuff then she said look in the mirror. (There are two mirrors on my counter that can open and shut, so one of them was open, making the mirrors reflect each other, looking weird.) I could see myself and her in the mirrors, but I looked away quickly just so I didn't see anything scary. (But me and her both looked normal, so it was ok! lol.) Then in the carnival place, there was some ground so I wanted to try to earth bend. It was hard though because there was that clear kind of carpet on top of the ground and there were pipes! So I tried it, lifting my hands like I was lifting the earth, but I only bent some pipes and the carpet stuff. Earth bending is really hard, haha. I need to practice that!
-7:33 AM

I was walking along the edge of a large stream, only it was dried up. There was only a few puddles left here and there. I start noticing a vehicle would go by every so often, using the dry river bed as a road. Up ahead there is this broken down old rusty metal wire fence that crosses the river, and the vehicles have to keep running it over to get by. It acts like a ramp, the vehicles hit it and are launched up a short distance into the air. They land with a splash in a puddle and keep going.

Something tells me I shouldn't mess with the fence, but I become lucid enough to defy my dream. I go down into the river bed, snap the fence apart in a spot, and pull most of it out of the river bed up the far bank. After I do this, the traffic increases as if it were a busy freeway. I'm trying to hide from view behind a tree so that the drivers don't see it was me who moved the fence. That's where it ends.

I am in Central America. I am not sure what country, but there are rainforests. I am there on a research trip with several classmates. We had been to Belize in March (in real life), and we have now returned to Central America for another expedition. We are in the rainforest. It is lush and green, and birds are calling all around us. There are red flowers growing everywhere. It is time to return to our hotel for lunch, so we get on bicycles and ride to the nearest road.

The bicycles are the same kind I rode while in Belize. Simple bikes that require you to back pedal to brake. I find riding the bicycle to be very easy, even while going uphill. Juan, a handsome Costa Rican graduate student who was our nature guide in Belize, is riding behind me. We are on a main road now in a town, heading for the hotel. I am not paying attention to where I am going and I miss the turn to the hotel. Juan follows me and we turn around in a parking lot. We bike up the hill to the hotel, and I don't even break a sweat.

We all place our bikes along the front of the hotel and go inside. We enter the dining room and sit at a large table. Our meal is brought to us, but I don't remember what it was. We eat quickly and return to our rooms. We have the afternoon free to do anything we want. I go up to my room, and realize that Juan is my room mate. He is not in the room, however, and I take a shower. When I come out of the shower, several of the girls are in my room to use the three computers that are in the room. I am annoyed because I want to get changed. I repeatedly tell them to hurry up.

They eventually leave and I decide to put on a black velvet dress with gold trim. The dress has three zippers. One on each side and one in the back. As I put it on and look in the mirror, I realize that I have lost a lot of weight and look really good in the dress. However, I realize that a velvet dress is a strange choice to wear in Central America, since it is always very warm. Nevertheless, I keep it on, and I struggle to zip the back zipper. At this moment, Juan enters the room. He tells me that it is almost dinner time, and I wonder what happened to the afternoon. I get the back zipper closed and turn to look at him. He smiles at me and tells me that the dress looks good on me. I smile and realize why I decided to put on the black dress. I wanted to impress him. I had been overweight while in Belize, and now I had the opportunity to show off my new good looks.

We go down to the dining room to eat dinner, but the scene shifts to the night time. We are back in the room, and I am in my pajamas. There are two full beds in the room, with white bedspreads that have little pink flowers on them. Juan is in bed already, reading a book. I walk to the empty bed and am about to climb into it when Juan tells me that we can share a bed if I'd like. He is extremely good looking and I want nothing more than to be close to him, so I climb into bed next to him. He puts his book down and turns out the lights. We get close to each other, and he is warm, but we don't actually touch each other except for our feet.

As I drift off into sleep, I wake up from the dream. A sound outside the room woke me up. I am still a bit groggy and want to return to the dream. I haven't seen Juan since March, and I won't see him again until I go to Costa Rica in November. Not that we are romantically involved or anything like that, but I miss him and sometimes I wish we were together somehow, because he is an amazing person. I close my eyes and will myself to return to the dream.

I return to the dream, and I am in bed next to Juan. I know that it is a dream, and it is difficult to keep myself there. The dream fades and I wake up, but I manage to return again. I want Juan to put his arms around me and he does. I place my hands on his arms and enjoy the moment, but it is fleeting and the dream slips from my grasp. I wake up and give up on trying to stay in the dream.

I'm starting my DJ at a random time, but better than nothing! I usually get lazy in writing down my dreams but hopefully I won't this time. I'll try to keep at it. I don't really like writing my dreams down, but eh.

Anyways, I had a semi-simple dream. I don't remember all of the details but the general idea is still there. In this dream, I was really just running. I was running on a dark blue-ish path, like running across the night sky. I don't think I saw any stars because I was "running" through the clouds and it was all dark blue with blotches of random blue shades. As I was running, I felt nothing but euphoria through out my limbs. Usually if someone's running, they feel fatigue and soreness in the muscles, but euphoria in the mind only - that's how my body works, anyway. I remember in my mind, I was saying "YES, I found the secret to not feeling tired when I run! It's wine!" Wine? What wine? I looked around and saw a bottle of wine in my hand. This warm and magical sensation in my body felt similar to a cocaine high. I felt a smile stretch across my face because apparently I didn't have to be a cocaine addict in my dream anymore. Just so I didn't have to feel fatigue and pain. I realized this was a dream because I was in the sky. And then I woke up.