lucid

three nights ago I had a dream. I was in castle nursery there were Disney princesses pics all around the nursery (it was an all-girls nursery) I was their nanny it seems. I was kind of a magical kind of nanny and I could make the Disney princesses come to "life". Well it was sunny day and the girls and the Disney princesses and I were outside at an pinic table having a pinic. Then the scene changed and I know its the same dream. I was seeing Disney villians watching what I and the girls, and disney princess were doing via a TV (an old tv at that) and they said "kill them". Then it switched back to me and I said exactly those words. But I covered my mouth after realizing what I had said. The Disney princess and the girls just stared at me shocked.

I awared on the myaw of my cat. Tried to find picture but couldn't, tried to move to the past, but couldn't. I was upset and spend the ld with sex.

DreamLucidAwake

I should probably mention that I used Daydream Awareness again. I don't feel like going into detail about my daydreams anymore though.

Draflam War

The dream started off with me standing inside the void with Claire. She was talking about the Aranians and Draflams while I was playing with a little ball of light. I think she mentioned something about being a rouge Draflam and the stupid war between two kingdoms. I was too distracted by the floating light to absorb most of the conversation. She saw that I wasn't paying attention and slapped me in the back of the head. I started paying attention and became lucid after realizing that standing inside the void isn't an everyday thing.

"Hey! Pay attention!" She yelled at me.
"What?" I asked.
"We need a dragonborn. You're our secret weapon." She said.
"Alright, teleport us to the battlefield." I said.

Claire then took the little ball of light away from me. She focused it between her hands and expanded it until we were both sucked into it. I fell onto my back and was staring at a dark cloudy sky. I got up and looked at my surroundings. I was in the middle of a large grassy field next to a hill in the middle. Far in the distance behind me was an army of medieval style soldiers marching towards the field. They were the Aranians. In front of me I could see several groups of men in red robes getting into defensive positions. They were the Draflams. I saw a few of the red guys run behind the hill.

"I'll go kill them!" I shouted before turning into a dragon.
"No! Wait!" Claire yelled.

I kind of ignored her and ran behind the hill with fire in my claws. I stopped when I saw a huge mass of red in front of me. There were like 50 Draflams just standing there. I stared at them for a moment and they stared at me. Then they all pulled out these weird short swords and started charging them with magic. I quickly turned around and started running back towards the hill. They chased after me and started shooting some explosive spells at me.

"Holy shit! Claire, kill them!" I screamed.

I looked at the top of the hill and saw that Claire was already shooting lightning bolts at them. I realized that this battle was going to be a bloody mess for us if I didn't use my powers. I then remembered that I can summon dragons and that Claire can ride them. I held my one hand out and pointed it at the hill and I pointed the other at the sky. I started thinking about a fire dragon and an ice dragon.

"Summon dragons!" I yelled.

A red dragon then jumped over the hill and landed in front of me. He breathed fire on the Draflams that were chasing me and started to attack them. When they were all dead, Claire jumped on the dragon and flew towards the other Draflams. I looked up at the sky to see where the other dragon was. I saw a white dragon dive down from the clouds and land in front of me. She waited for me to give her a command. I saw the Aranian army run by me. They had giant fireballs and flaming arrows flying towards them.

"Go and help the Aranians. Defend them as much as you can."

The dragon nodded and flew above the army. I watched her to see if she would do a good job. A giant fireball flew towards them, but the dragon froze it with her ice breath and smashed it with her tail. To deal with the arrows, she would blow them away by flapping her wings. My attention then switched to a stone fortress on the other side of the hill. I figured that was our main objective. I saw Chris in an Aranian uniform trying to break the door of a tower open. I decided to run over there to help him out.

"Why do we need in here?" I asked him.
"We need to take out those ballistas so Claire can attack." He said.
"Alright, let's do this." I said.

We both charged at the door and busted it open. A Draflam tried to stab Chris from behind, but I swiped him with my tail blade. A couple more ran towards us and Chris pulled out his sword and killed them. We climbed up the spiral staircase together and had to fight many more Draflams. We got hurt a few times on the way up, but I don't feel like going into detail. When we reached the top I saw a lot ballistae at the top of the tower shooting at Claire and the fire dragon. I was sick of killing those Draflams and felt like taking them down with one attack.

"Chris, duck." I said.
"Oh crap." He said before diving onto the floor.

I charged a huge amount of electricity in me until I felt like I had enough. I then held out my hands and released a wave of lightning in all directions. When they were all dead Claire flew back towards us with the dragon. Me and Chris jumped off just before the dragon shot a fireball at the tower. I grabbed Chris and flew us down to the ground safely. Claire jumped off of the dragon and landed on one of the fortress walls.

"What now?" I asked Chris.
"I'll go clear out another tower. You should destroy that gun over there." He said.
"Okay." I said.

I looked across the field to see some huge turret shooting at the Aranians. I saw a row of tanks on the other side of the field past the turret. I knew that if I could just get in that tank I could destroy the turret. I ran across the field and hoped that the gun wouldn't target me. Of course it still started shooting at me anyways. I used that purple energy thing as a shield without thinking about as I ran across. When the gunner realized he couldn't shoot through my shield he just started shooting the tanks. He managed to blow up all but one tank. I got in the tank and started shooting at turret. It blew up after 3 shots. That's the last thing I remember before walking up.

Teaching Dream Control

I was talking to a girl over AJAX chat about lucid dreaming. I became lucid pretty early in the conversation, but I can't remember many details. The girl I was talking to was the same one from the Lucid Contract dream. From our chat on AJAX I learned that her name is in fact Molly. When I became lucid I got a little excited and told her that we were both dreaming. She denied it at first, but she then said she did a successful reality check. We started talking even more about our lucid dream and about dream control. I remember that we even started reffering to me as a dream guide. She said something about dream control being impossible for her and I started to argue with her on that.

"If it's so easy then why don't you tell me how to do it?" She asked.
"I'm not good at explaining things." I said.
"I bet that means you can't do it either."
"Oh I can do it. Want me to show you?" I asked.
"Go ahead and try to prove it Mr. Dream Guide."

Challenge accepted. I pushed my chair out of the way and stepped back a few feet. I ran foward and jumped into the computer screen. I ended up teleporting outside of Molly's computer just like I wanted. I scared the crap out of her when I came out of the computer and landed on her. I got up off the ground and laughed at how much fun it was to teleport through a computer.

"Is that proof enough for you?" I asked her.
"How did you jump out of my computer???" She asked me.
"It's called teleportation. You should learn it sometime." I said.
"What else can you do?" She asked.
"Well I can fly." I said.

I took a few steps back and then levitated into the air. I flew around the room for a while. I can't really remember the rest of the dream.


Lucid Fragment

I was in some half destroyed city that was experiencing a war. I was wearing one of those fancy nano suits from Crysis. I had a pistol and I was running towards someone who had their back to me. I was planning on using a sneak attack. When I got close to him he quickly turned around and fired his shotgun at me. I slowed down time and bent backwards, just barely dodging bullets. I became lucid right after doing that. I knocked the shotgun out of his hands and he ran away. I activated my suit's super speed function and chased him down. When I caught up to him, I jumped into the air, and kicked him in the back of the head. I didn't bother doing anything else to him since he was already knocked out.

I ran back to the spot I encountered him and took his shotgun. I saw girl lying under truck with an LMG shooting all of my guys. I got on the ground and started crawling towards her from behind. When I got close enough, I started "firing" my shotgun at her. It must have been out of ammo or something. She noticed me and pulled out a pistol. I jumped on top of her and tried to keep the gun pointed away from me. I eventually got hold of the gun and pointed it at her. I was about to shoot her, but then I decided not to. For some reason it felt too evil to do. She then kicked me in the groin and I woke up.

End

I attempted a WILD, but achieved a DILD instead. My current dream goal had been to meet Nietzsche (my favorite philosopher) and have a conversation with him. At this point in my quest, I had become less interested in talking to Nietzsche, and more concerned with completing a dream goal and learning to find or summon someone in a dream.

I start off in a non-lucid dream. I am in a house when I hear a name said aloud and know it is the name of my goddess. (Unfortunately, the name now eludes me.) I call her name and start climbing up the side of a cabinet up towards the ceiling. I float up and start to push through the ceiling. I attempt to do this with my eyes open, but it produces very strange sensations and only causes the ceiling to move up a bit like rubber. I close my eyes and it works. I start flying around and become lucid while in flight - a startling and exhilarating experience.
I remember my dream goal to meet Nietzsche. Instead of creating a portal like I had previously been trying, or making a magic circle and summoning him like I intended when I went to sleep, I decide to try a different method. First, I call to him loudly, but yelling while I'm flying around somehow doesn't feel right. Also, it is nighttime and I am soaring over houses, so I decide not to disturb my little DC's that might be asleep below me. I also notice that if I concentrate on something else to hard I start to waiver a bit in my flight (which has never happened before). I whisper into the sky "Bring me to Nietzsche."
I dip into the roofs of one of the houses, look around, then leave. I do this to another house and find a group of guys balancing on beams in an attic. I leave this house as well.
I dip into another house and perch on the top of a post of a large, strange, wooden bunk bed. Each bed contains a little girl asleep in it. The girl in the bottom bunk crawls out of bed and looks up at me. Involuntarily, I turn me mouth and teeth into a monsters mouth full of long, sharp pointed teeth, snarl at her and scare her back into bed.
I start to fly away, but am drawn back. I ask the little girl in the top bunk if she knows where Nietzsche is. She sleepily says, no. I crawl down and an older girl, probably their baby sitter, is awake in a chair across form their beds.
I ask her the same question. "Yes," she replies. I ask if she knows where he is and if she can take me to him. She answers in the affirmative to both the questions. She leads me out the room, through a series of rooms, through a closet, into another room. Nietzsche is in this room. Sitting next to him is a younger boy who seems to be taking care of him. His hair is disheveled and he has his characteristic mustache, however, he is wearing modern clothes - a red track suit.
He is sleeping sitting up in his chair. I walk up, sit across from him and try to rouse him. He is very gruff with me. I ask if he is indeed Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche. "Yes," he answers in a thick German accent, "What of it?"
I tell him how it has been my dream goal for sometime to meet him and I have been searching for him for almost two months.
"Two months! Humph!" he exclaims.
"Is that a long time?" I ask
"Well, I suppose it is not so bad," he replies.
"Do you have any advice for dreamers?" I ask.
"Just...fix the universe!" he says before walking off, and the dream ends.

Dream:

I had a dream that was at least semi lucid. My recall was not great, so I can't really appreciate it.

I do remember being in the ocean and having the waves pass over me. I remember thinking that the waves didn't feel as wet as they should have. Later I remember running around through some stores at the shore, and pulling up my shirt and showing everyone my boobs. So typical of my dream self.

To be honest this is one of the reasons I don't talk a lot about lucid dreaming to real life people (except those really close to me) because I am afraid they will want to learn more and if I point them to Dreamviews they will find my DJ with all my odd dream habits.

Lucid Dream:

I was running around on some docks by the ocean when I suddenly knew I was dreaming. I decided I wanted to do flips off the dock into the ocean and see what that felt like while lucid. So I tried to run to the end of the dock. For some reason the end wouldn't come. I was always about 4 feet from the end. Finally I had to stop running and just take it one step at a time to the end. Then I jumped and flipped. I seemed to go in very slow motion. Slow enough that I could watch the land as it spun upside down around me until I landed in the water. I found that so fascinating that I got out and did it again. This time my flip was faster. It was like the first time my mind really wanted to see and appreciate the motion of the flip. Once it had, it let me do the next one in a more normal speed.

But that's all the dream I got. I woke up before I could try anything else.

But I woke up happy because this was my first lucid in weeks. I had been stuck in a dry spell.

I decided to try using aniracetam as a sleep aid last night, I'm not totally sure if it had an effect yet but my dreams did seem different than normal. I took 750 mg, maybe I'll try 1500 mg tonight. I did manage to remember a good few more dreams than normal, but I think that's mainly because I decided to stay in bed and keep falling asleep again for longer.

#1 - The Water Slide Accident [Non-Lucid]

I'm at some public pool working as part of some "water-raising" experiment. (Like literally... I think all we were trying to do was increase the water level in the pool. ) There was a gigantic rectangular tent at the top of a long water slide on one end of the pool, and I climbed up the slide (somehow) and into the tent. In it was Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory, a couple other random people (maybe other characters from The Big Bang Theory but it's hard to remember), and my middle school orchestra teacher. Sheldon was doing something to conduct the experiment, and we all stepped forward to look out the window to see if the water in the pool was rising, but we shifted too much weight in the tent and it started slipping down the slide and into the pool. It was completely closed in and we were all freaking out thinking we might get trapped inside of it and drown. We hit the water and I expected to die, but somehow I made it up and slowly I saw everyone else popping up out of the water as well, including Linkzelda41, actually as Link! (For those not game-savvy, the character in his avatar.) I made sure everyone was okay but noticed that my teacher had never come up, and when he finally did he wasn't breathing. I went over to him and we dragged him out of the water and I started doing CPR, though without the mouth-to-mouth, just the chest thing. (The dream switched to third-person around this time, too.) I did it for a long time but it wasn't working, and I started crying but I didn't stop doing it. But he finally gasped and woke up! When he did I gave him a big hug and wouldn't let go. The dream jumped forward to me being in the hospital and getting prescribed some random drugs for... something, I guess mental trauma? :T I don't know, but the dream ended at that point.

#2 - Trapped In Darkness [Non-Lucid]

I'm home alone watching a movie almost totally in the dark, and the darkness is starting to creep me out a bit. I read online (or maybe heard from someone, or something...) about how some secret FBI agent or some other government agent on a plane accidentally stabbed someone they were sitting next to by activating a lightsaber unwittingly in his bag because it was built with an on switch that was too easy to access because the designer was lazy. I also remember that the lightsaber was red, because I actually saw it happen in a third-person kind of way. This had revealed to the world that the US government had successfully created lightsabers, so I texted J (who's a big Star Wars fan) about it and then read something about how they were launching a new moon into the sky to make up for it. I looked out back through the glass doors and saw a plane in the sky, so then I went out front and saw a rocket (really tiny) launch off in one direction across the sky, and a HUGE, absolutely gigantic moon launch off in the other direction, but from the same source. It went behind the house so I went back in and to the back yard, and looked straight up in the sky and saw it there, still enormous. All of the stars in the sky were constantly scrolling across it like the night sky was just a huge spinning wheel, but that didn't really seem to bother me much. The darkness outside was getting really thick though and it was still scaring me, so I went back inside and walked into the bathroom. I tried to turn on the light switch, but it wouldn't work. () That made me even more freaked out, so I ran out into the living room just generally frightened and hoping my mom and dad would be home soon, but then I woke up.

I'm never going to get better at doing RCs.

#3 - Dreaming About Sleep Paralysis? [Non-Lucid]

There's some presentation going on at my house in the den by some orchestra guy, with lots of orchestra teachers there sitting in rows of chairs, including my high school orchestra teacher. My friend J (the one I texted before) and his mom are also sitting way up at the front, right by the TV. The guy puts on a song and each of the teachers has a music sheet where they're supposed to be writing down the notes as they hear them, but almost none of them do, instead opting to wait until the end to just jot them all down, which I find pretty impressive at the time. After they all finished and walked away, I walked up to J and told him I thought I'd have some awesome news to tell him about lightsabers being real, but that turned out to be a dream. () He laughs, and we go out into the living room to hang out with some random girl and OpheliaBlue. We start watching a movie, and I can't remember what I was wearing but I just remember thinking of it as something really informal to the point that it would be embarrassing to be seen wearing it, and then the doorbell rang. I didn't want to answer it like that so I went into my bedroom to change, and that's when things got weird. My room was dark, and my fan was sticking out of the wall to the left of me when I walked in, but still running. My movements became incredibly jerky and snapped back as if I was in sleep paralysis with my eyes open, but honestly... I'm not sure if I actually was, or if I was just dreaming that I was. Part of the reason I think that is because I "realized" that I was in sleep paralysis, but I don't think I was really lucid about it, and I never realize it when I actually do wake up into it. I don't know though.... It was incredibly vivid, so maybe I was and I just realized it for half a second and then started hallucinating. Anyway, after the realization my vision switched to a third-person view from the perspective of the road in front of my house, looking up at a bunch of trees hanging over it (which aren't actually there). These trees were very mystically mechanical in their movements and had something that I call the "IMAX 3D" effect, which is something I get when I'm tripping really hard where everything is more detailed then anything in reality actually is. I started to wonder if I was on DXM, but then I started thinking that the doorbell ringing was probably just my parents coming home (since they were still gone from the previous dream, I guess) and I could've just answered it how I was. I saw that playing out in my mind's eye, but after that I woke up and noticed that my fan wasn't exactly in the same position in my view as it was when I thought I was in sleep paralysis, so... I just don't know.

#4 - Testing A New MMO [DILD]

I'm at my aunt and uncles' house. I don't remember much of the first part of the dream, but I end up going in the little kids room and slide across the floor in the weird way I do in dreams sometimes, and that warps me back to the front of the house. Some MMO has come out where you play the game in real life and you use these rifles that shoot green plasma bullets. I get one just to see how it is, and S ends up getting one too so he comes over to play it with me. We run around the house shooting at each other, and then I run back into the little kids room and end up doing the slide again. I say "Oh, this is a dream, isn't it?" and become lucid. Unfortunately, after this dream ended I didn't wake up enough to write it down, I fell back asleep and had some other non-lucid dream, and when I woke up again I tried to write down this one as quickly as possible but I still can't remember what happened after I became lucid, though something did happen. I also don't remember the other dream, either. Oh well....

#5 - An Intense Argument [Non-Lucid]

I get a hotel room for some reason with an old friend J (different J than before) and some guy who's just a random DC, but apparently a very close friend of mine. I'm trying to have a good time talking to both of them, but there seems to be a lot of tension between the two. (I know what this is based off of, it has to do with J. :T) They end up getting into a big argument and both strip naked to show their dominance. And then they start wrestling! One side of me is like, come on guys, don't do this, you're being childish.... :\ And the other side of me is like !!!! They break up the fight and the guy tells J to get out and not come back, so he does. I'm planning to go drop J off and come back to hang out with the guy, and I tell him it'll only take me about twenty minutes but he says he has to be at a football game in that same amount of time. So I say goodbye, and shake hands with his girlfriend (who just randomly appeared, and apparently I had just met) and hug him, and they left. J is texting me to hurry up, and I'm trying to switch from shoes to sandals for some reason but my socks are being illogically weird feeling and won't come off. Finally I just walk into the hallway, which is actually the music hall in my middle school (and the hotel room was where the orchestra room is) and I hear D's voice telling me we'll never make it in time because the middle school is right by the football game and the traffic will be terrible.

#6 - The Secret Codes [Non-Lucid]

This one shifts back and forth between first- and third-person a lot. I remember Hank from King Of The Hill talking to a group of kids about some (fictional) famous singer and guitarist's weird-sounding name and he corrects them on how to say it, and when they ask him how he knows he sighs and says "He told me." Somewhere in here there is a discussion about some gum or candy that you're supposed to chew if you're freaking out or having a bad trip. I remember that but not the visual of it. Then my dad and I are at a movie theater seeing some movie I can't remember anything about and it switched back to Hank, now in a flashback, walking around awkwardly at a concert or rave of some kind. He meets some young guy that turns out to be that musician who tells him how to say his name, then some weird "secret code" used in the gay community (I think specifically involving politics, which was definitely not real and very bizarre sounding, though I don't quite remember it). He walks off past John Redcorn who is on acid or something and freaking out, and he sees Hank but clearly isn't sure whether or not he's actually there and he says to himself "Where is that candy!?" Back at the theater, the movie's starting and my dad tells me more about the secret gay political codes claiming that the guy told him (I guess carried over from Hank) and I'm like "Uh-huh...." >_> Then back at the concert, John Redcorn is chewing on some of that bad trip candy and looks really happy, and he sees Hank again and they talk and he says he'll help Hank get out of there, because I guess he's lost somehow. Once again back at the theater, my dad is still going on and on more in-depth about these secret codes, and I'm like, seriously, I'm trying to watch the frickin' movie. >_____> And that was it lol.

Whew, that took a while to type up! At least a I was able to recall a lot, though.

2/25/12

DILD

Notes: I was napping and using some binaural beats. They were 15 min clips and after the first I came really close to SP. Right as it ended, my arms felt like they were floating up and I could start to see HI. There were some lines of text in my vision that were bending around. Soon I lost it and felt really awake. I tried it one more time and then just went to sleep. I had a small lucid and then a bunch of FAs. Eventually I became lucid again.

I am trying to make a dream scene appear after everything goes white. I decided to pretend it was a snow drift and suddenly I could move my dream body. I climbed up and there was a huge slide. I go down head first on the ice slide and lose the dream again.

Eventually I can get back into a dream from the FA. I start to see my surrounding so I decide to sit down and have a lucid pill. I dig through my pockets and don't feel any. I see a packet of my cold medicine on the counter. At first I didn't want to take that because I knew it was just some sleeping pill, and it wasn't what I needed. However, I couldn't find anything else so I take it anyway. I try to focus on my surroundings for a minute. I then stand up and walk down a hall. Eventually everything went black.

I can still feel my dream body so I try and make the darkness into a dream scene. I think that I am a ninja creeping the the dark. So I start "stealth walking" around and suddenly I can see again. I am in a hall facing the door to an elevator. It beeps as the elevator approaches. I am still in ninja mode so I try and climb up the wall and hide so I can jump the guy who comes out. There isn't much room but I hang on the wall by grabbing this tiny ledge with my finger tips. That seemed kind of lame for a ninja so I wondered if I could just rotate gravity. I look closely at my hands and stand up on the wall I am hanging from. Suddenly everything is sideways. I am walking around on the wall. The is really disorienting in a small hallway. Things start to get blurry so I sit down on the real floor and try and focus.

I take a real lucid pill this time. I reach in my pocket and can feel it right away. I break open the pink pill and dump the contents into my mouth. I sit and kind of meditate for a minute trying to stabilize the dream. Everything looks good so I get up and go outside. It is a beautiful red autumn day. I fly up hundreds of feet above the red trees and a quaint town on a hill. I can get good height flying but no horizontal momentum. Eventually I fall back down and try to find a jet pack. I wanted to use some DCs to help with passive control.

However, there were only dogs around me. A steady stream of huskies were walking past. I tell one to go fetch me a jet jack. It runs into a house and comes out with something else. I ask a different dog to do the same thing. This time I tried to visualize more. The dog didn't even come back though.

I give up on that and decide to try and find some girls. I walk into a house and remember the TOTM. I run around a corner and find this painting. It is about 4 ft by 6 ft. It depicts another beautiful red design. It was kind of an abstract scenery. In the bottom corner there is a menacing hooded face. I decide to go in the painting and thwart that asshole. I put my hand on the painting. It is like jell-o. I then slip my arm and eventually my body through.

I come into the gray walled room. It was tiny. I thought that was pretty anticlimactic. I look around and see elevator buttons on the walls. It is an elevator! Lets take it somewhere. The buttons are scattered randomly around the walls. I hit three that seem applicable and we start moving. We go down and the doors open to a floor of cubicles. People are all hard at work. I slip by undetected. I need to find the boss. I find another elevator on the other end of the floor. There is a secretary watching it. I have to wait for the elevator so I walk by the desk. The secretary is kind of hot so I grab her ass I also feel up another woman standing there. The elevator opens and there is a hot asian girl there.

Perfect! Now I can walk into the elevator and people will not question where I am going. They will just think I am a creep after that girl. I hit the top floor button and we go up. I joke with the asian girl that she is really hot.

The door opens and there is some empty hallway. I get out and walk around. (my recall is failing here but not much happened). I forget about the evil guy and remember that I have to bring something back from inside the painting. I dig through a closet and try to find something that would incriminate the company. I get a sheet of paper that looks like a concert poster. It has a few names on it. In big letters it says, "Sin City." I decide that is good enough, grabbed it, and turned around. There are 2 guys in suits playing catch with a ball. They told me they knew what I was doing and I wasn't going to succeed. I walk back to the elevator to retrace my steps. The door won't open. I look to the window and jump out. There is like a 50 floor fall to the ground. I get up and lose the dream soon after.

After WBTB, I had a second short lucid the same night as Strange Conversations With Sharon.

I become lucid in a small bedroom. There is a large bed with tall wooden posts and a white, fluffy duvet. I climb up to the top of one of the posts then jump off and float down to the bed very slowly, like a feather. I plop on the fluffy duvet and a pillow and the dream ends.

(I can't really remember the beginning of the dream and how I got there)

I'm in Haven with Yuya, Faye, Liv and Silver.
Silver is in Haven on business, I think he delivered an important package or something along those lines.
Yuya somehow talked him into taking a drink with us, and he is visibly displeased for accepting this offer.

Silver is a man who doesn't like to socialize much.
He is a fighter. He lives from battle to battle with little concern for other things.
Or so he used to be until he met us. Over the course of years we made him realize that he was fighting for the wrong side, which was obviously quite devastating for him.

He has changed his lifestyle since then, but it seems like he only lives to atone for his sins.
He doesn't have the same concept of friendship that we do, he considers us brothers in arms.
I wonder if that will ever change.


Faye is playing with a pony she has summoned.


What is it with all the ponies in my dreams since I've watched the MLP pilot?
I blame the guys on DV IRC...

Liv appears to be scared of Silver.
Yuya, Silver and I are talking whilst drinking some sort of lemonade.
But things aren't going well, Silver really doesn't want to talk, he just replies with "Yes" and "No" mostly.

I think about my situation. Sometimes this feels a bit like living a second life.
I wonder if that is weird? No... it isn't.


Silver leaves and I agree to help Yuya with something... (though I cannot recall what exactly with)



... Yuya and I are on another planet, entering some sort of temple.


We are here to obtain a certain item related to the device that powers the protective barrier for Haven.
Some of these devices were stolen a long time ago, but most of them have been returned.
There's still a few missing though, and this is one of them.

I can't really recall what the plan is, but I believe we are here to steal it.
Yuya and I are both disguised with the same attire worn by the monks in this temple, and we mimic their movements in order to not draw any attention to us.

But before we encounter the first monk, Yuya gives me an angry look.

"What?"
"Your hair!"

She's right. My hair is slightly blue-ish, which would draw a lot of attention.
I shake my head and my hair color changes into pitch black.
Yuya nods, confirming that this is much better.

We enter deeper layers of the temple and no-one seems to notice us, things seem to be going rather well.
That is, until we encounter a locked door.
There is a computer terminal in front of it, presumably responsible for opening the door.

"Open the door, I'll cover you."

Right. I approach the terminal which asks for a password.
Well, I'm not sure what I was expecting.

"I don't know the password."

Yuya looks at me confused.

"You're supposed to hack into it?"
"Huh? How...?"
"Well... you can hack into things no?"
"I can?"
"What about all those movies you've watched, they show you how to hack don't they?"
"Err Yuya... those movies are fiction, you can't just hack into something, it's a rather complicated and time consuming thing to do."
"Oh..."

Well... that's not good. But then I have an idea.
I touch the door with my left hand and enlarge my aura to encompass the whole door in order to get a feel for the interior mechanics.
It's a rather simple system with locking bolts, like in a safe.
I proceed to create small gravitational fields for each bolt and pull them out of their locks.
I then casually open the door smiling at Yuya.
She grins.

We enter what appears to be a treasure or storage room.
There are quite a few fancy looking boxes, most likely all containing very exotic and important items.
Yuya immediately spots the correct box and proceeds to open it.
This requires removing a considerable amount of locks, which is taking quite some time.
I decide to cover her until she's done.

After a short period of time I feel a presence.
There's someone else in this room, but I cannot see him.
I reach out with my aura and find 'something' approaching Yuya that is not visible.
I immediately blink next to it, whilst summoning my katana and take a defensive pose.

A monk materializes, holding a staff.
He seems contemplating to attack us.

"I'd advise against that"
"Thief!"
"We are merely returning what does not belong to you."

He decides to attack us anyways.
He leaps forward, swinging his staff at me.
I blink right behind him and slap him in the neck.
He drops to the ground unconscious.

"We should probably hurry up."

A mob of angry monks is running towards our room.
I yet again create a gravitational field, and use it to close the safety door.
I then launch a stream of fire at it, welding the locking bolts in place.
This ought to slow them down.

Yuya finally manages to open the box, and takes out a tiny transparent crystal.
She smiles at me.

"This is it!"

Monks are teleporting through the door. How did I not think of that?

"Open a portal, I'll hold them off!"

I power up. I feel the dragon tattoo on my back growing and erupting into flames.
Time slows down.
The monks are charging at me one after another.
I slash down their staffs with my katana, and push them away with shockwaves.
I try not to hurt them too much, after all I do not know if they know the details about the current situation.
They might just be trying to defend what they think is theirs.

"Hyu!"

The portal is up. I blink backwards, next to Yuya, and we both jump through the portal...

25.02.2012

Dream Yoga START (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I’ve been trying to practice dream yoga, I think it’s going reasonably well. It took me about 4 weeks to see any results. My first lucid came 4 weeks after starting to practice dream yoga. The week after that, I had 3 lucids and this week, i’ve had 2. It’s probably too soon to say that this lucid rate is steady, but I definitely feel that there’s a lot of progress.

My lucid from this morning:

WBTB, DILD

I sit up in my bed to realise that I’m in a dream. Oh. I couldn’t remember falling asleep at all. Oh well.

It’s dark.. the sun hasn’t come up yet. My room looks perfectly normal, even my bedroom dream sign (no desk) wasn’t visible. I’ve been reading Lucid Dreaming: Gateway to the Inner Self lately and remember that it mentions intermediate lucid dreamers explore their dream location upon getting lucid before going to explore. I make my way into the living room where I see my friend’s computer set out on the floor, the sofa-bed is pulled out and my brother is sitting in an office chair with his back to me. I didn’t think to interact with him, but I made a mental note to interact with dream characters in my next lucid dream.

Having little hold my interest within the house, I walk towards the door leading to the backyard. Not noticing that my dog wasn’t waiting outside for me, I ponder whether I should put shoes on.. finally deciding that it was a dream and so it shouldn’t matter, I walk into my backyard. Surprisingly, it’s a lot lighter outside, being lit up by the moon but pouring down rain.

I decide that I want to change the weather, something I’ve tried but never been able to do before. Slowly, the rain eases up and within 20 seconds, the sun is out shining. Satisfied, I walk onto the grass and start flying.

Flying in this dream was much different to any other.. It was like the only thing that was keeping my up was my speed. If I slowed down, it felt like I would fall out of the sky (kinda like flying a plane?). I fly over many rooftops, sometimes almost falling out of the sky due to day drea- .. Can it still be called daydreaming if you’re already in a dream..? huh..

Due to the mindless flying with no objective, I lose lucidity and end up beating up a few goons.

LD9: This one was weird, I am typing it just as I get up, because there is somuch that happened I don't want to forget any of it. I had 6 hours sleep and waited for my wife to go to work, then I began attempting a WILD. I must have laid there for an hour breathing rythmicly before I got into sleep paralysis. I was not very comfortable, a little restless after lying still so long. Now I couldn't move, and my face itched a little. I had to try very hard to not give up. I saw the standard color swirls and felt all tingley. I started to try to form a lucid dream of me on a hotel pool patio in Hawaii.
After maybe 20 minutes, I started to be able to visualize things. I am a bit frustrated at this point. Everything is blurry and almost in black and white. I look at my hands, but they are blob like sticks of white on a black background. It took about 20 more minutes to get to where I could see fingers and feel somewhat of a solid dream body. Boy, I am having to work for this one!!!
Ok, I am finally in a WILD LD but not very pleased with the lack of detail. I decide to just start having some fun even if the resolution and color suck. I picture the place I went on vacation. The Royal Kona Resort. I am by the pool standing on a low wall. I try to bring more detail into the scene, I should be able to see the ocean, but it is just black beyond the immediate area. I move my arms around and tried to stablize more. I was not happy about the low resolution. The real pool area has flagstone floors, this floor looks flat and vague. I get off the wall and try to correct this. I run my fingers over it and picture flagstone. No luck. Oh well, the color and resolution are slightly improving, maybe it will get better.
I have set a 2 new dreaam goals for this month, so why not try one? My goal was to not only look at my hands, but be fully aware of articulated joints at my elbows and knees at the same time. I want to squat and place my elbows on my knees while looking at my hands, and be able to feel and visualize them all. I won't bore everyone with the details, but this ended up being very complicated. I had to focus on each joint, just like you would on hands, then somehow do the whole thing all at once. I actually managed to get the whole thing to come together and work, but it took me about five minutes.
That accomplished I look around beyond the pool area. Some improvement. I now can see the ocean and sky, but still poor resolution. I can also see the tall hotel buildings and palm trees. Opps, I almost lost all the stablizing I just took 5 minutes accomplishing. I jump around, moving those elbows and knees I worked so hard for.
I try to jump to the top of the northern building because it is maybe 6 stories and that would be quite a jump. It take two tries. I look down from up there and can still see the area below, but in much poorer resolution. What is up with this lack of color and detail? I realise I seem to still be part awake. I know what day it is, and where I am sleeping and can fall right back out of this dream if I am not careful. Ok, so I decide to just be happy and have a ball in low resolution. I jump back down to the pool. There does not seem to be any random dream elements or DCs at all! I quess this is because my unusually high mental presence.
I decide to wade into the ocean. It is not the lovely blue green detailed ocean I want; it is more a gray mass that undulates up and down. Oh well. I work my way down the vague rocks into that gray mass. Hey, not bad, it feels maybe 20% like water should, a slight temp varient from the air and gives me buoyancy. I float out a ways and it is fun. The low resolution waves are still picking me up and then dropping me down. I dive under. Pretty cool. It is easy to swim down about twenty feet and look back up at the surface. I swim back up, and walk back to the pool area.
Still not a random event or DC has appeared. I decide to try my second dream goal, which is to vividly smell something. I know where a luau girl would be standing during a luau. So maybe if I picture her having perfume or a flower in her hair? Yep, there she is, but she is not acting like a DC, she is just scenery. I try to smell her perfume but fail. I stick my nose right in her flower, but fail to smell it. Hmmm, well, being male I decide I could play with the pretty luau girl for a minute. I remove her body wrap and touch her. Things are still in low resolution. She feels soft and nice, but only about 35% real. I get bored quickly of this because she does not move or react unless I move her or put energy into causing her to act a certain way. Oh well.
I go back to the pool area and am feeling just a little bored, if you can picture being bored in LD. Maybe I should try shape shifting. I take about 30 miunutes and do all sorts of successful shape shifting. I focus on really feeling as if I am the things, not just picturing. I acomplished this by stablizing in the forms. I became a moongoose and actually looked at my mongoose paws, stretched my long body, and ran along the ground , then up a tree. I decided to really challenge myself and became a snail. I tried to feel how my snail body had to undulate to move me forward and eventually got it. I became a large ant and had a lot of trouble with it. I had to try to feel 6 limbs instead of 4, and figure out how I should move them together to walk. I have never shifted into a woman that I can remember, so that seemed like a reasonable 3rd dream goal since things were going so well. It was a real challenge and very odd. I stablized looking at my hands but made them thin and female. Next I went through every body part changing it. I explored my new breasts, and found that very novel indeed. Now, for the biggest reality check! I removed the concept of my male genitals. You boys know that is hard to imagine! I slid my hand down there and everything was female. I did it! I was fully aware of my new female body and could look down and see a sexy female body. Strange though, it took so much focus to maintain this, that I found I moved like a drunken robot. I could not keep all the body parts as they were and do much more than stumble a few feet.
I have never been in the form of a bird, so I set that as my 4th dream goal for the month. Not just to see myself as a bird, but to feel how a bird feels. It took alot of work. Finally, I had transformed my arms into backward projecting wings that moved as they should, and tranformed my legs into talons. I did a stabilization by loooking at these talons and moving them, gripping and bending at my bird knees. Then I tried to fly, but I did not just want to fly. I wanted to feel how it feels for a bird to fly. I got all confused trying to flap the wings, but kind of half ass, got the feel for it. When I looked around, the resolution had improved alot. I flew around a bit then decided to try diving from really high into the ocean. Very cool. I plunged down about 20 feet below the surface. Now, I tried to become a sea turtle. It took a bit and was weird trying to stablize with flippers and a wide flat body, but I eventually got it. I looked up from the depth and saw that the resolution had improved dramaticly. It was very cool seeing the sky through the surface of the water.
I had a strange idea. How about being a flying turtle? I surfaced and tried it, but the concept must have been one step too wierd. It just would not work. Well, enough shape shifting for now. I teleported back to the pool. I realized my real body was becoming very uncomfortable and at risk of ending the dream. I tried to focus back on the dream. I decided to try the 2nd dream goal again. That is vivid sense of smell. I walked over to the barbaque pit, and inhaled deeply a few times. I realized my real body had tried to enhale deeply too. I was at a real risk of waking! Ok, no more deep breathing. I went back to the luau girl and tried to smell her perfume again. No luck. Well, again being a male, I decided to screw around with the pretty girl again. No need for details here but after about 3 minutes, I was not really satisfied with the experience. Again, because she only moved or reacted if I focused attention on her doing so.
I teleported us up to a room on the 6th floor of the south tower, and tried to enjoy the experience in a bed. It only took 1 to 2 minutes to realize this was also unsatisfying. So, I went to the window and looked down. I was seeing things pretty vivid by now and the color had really improved. I jumped down and went for a swim in the pool. This dream has been going on for so long now! I just screw around for awile. Doing things like jumping up the buildings and diving off into the ocean.
I have been suprised by the absolute lack of random events and DCs! I decide maybe I need to relax my control a little. I have certainly trained my skills enough, so maybe I should try to let something random happen. I lay back in a lounge and play around with changing it from day to night. When I get it to stay night time. I lay there and trie to not control things, and get all relaxed. A waiter comes by and some people are sitting in stools at the bar. Ok, there are some DCs now.
My waking body is becoming very uncomfortable and kicks a leg. I am loosing sleep paralysis and must act if I am to stay in the dream. I decide that the dream has all ready been a marathon, and I may as well get up. So I wake up, and came straight to Dream Views to put it in my journal, before I forgot any of it. Duration ~90 minutes

ok so I don't remember much about the beginning but I remember (as a random thought) how boobs actually felt, the thought trailed off to "I couldn't do that in real life" which caused me to grab my nose and try to breathe, I COULD BREATHE. I immeadiately screamed "YES!!! I'M LUCID!!!!!" I tried to fly as my first activity, I tried one technique which was to to focus all my power into my feet then push it out... (lol i watch too much Dragon ball) well obviously it didn't work, so I tried to build up some speed to do it. I ran full throttle down the street and jumped into the air, i could fly but only just, I tried to adopt a superman pose (putting both hands in front of me to gain directional movement) as I tried to twist my body into that pose my mind trailed off so I crashed, I tried to spin because I knew I would wake up, I woke up in my bed, I did a RC and guess what, I could breathe! the scene immediately changed to sitting at the bottom of a hill near mcdonalds... (lol, of all places, it had to be macdonalds... I can just imagine the ad now "polluting the minds of people, even in dreams!") I was with my friend, we walked up to the macdonalds, I used my supposed mental powers to convince me to buy food, he did so I got some money and put it in the slot machine next to the counter, a milkshake token fell out, I gave it to my friend and went to the bathroom, my mum was in there so i decided to scare her, I came up behind her and grabbed her, at that moment my uncle came up behind me and tackled me... I woke up...

Well, I tried not taking my melatonin tonight in the hopes that my insomnia would come back forcing me to wake up tons of times all night and remember a ridiculous amount of dreams, but instead I slept just as well (almost even better) than normal and all it did was make my dreams less vivid. Oh well, I still became lucid, but I didn't get to use it as well as I would have hoped.... I'm actually becoming a little concerned about my DILDs, I'm afraid that they're starting to become less exciting to the point that I just don't even pay much attention to my lucidity, it's like I'm aware that I'm dreaming but I just let my non-lucid mind keep doing its thing. Maybe I'm just being paranoid though, I'll give it a few more lucids to say for sure....

#1 - DC Mod Practice [DILD]

There was some very long and strange dream leading up to this point, but I only remember brief flashes of it. Part of it involved being in this gigantic building that was also several of my old friends' houses combined. I vaguely remember being in the part that was D's house, something involving E with a sword (a katana, I think) that magically spilled oil and they were mad that we'd have to clean it up, and J's family being pissed that they had to come home to check on us. Or something like that.... Anyway, eventually I went out the front of the building, which at some point turned into a school, so now I was in the school parking lot. I was with this guy A and this girl M who I went school with, and I guess I was giving them both a ride home (I very vaguely remember a conversation about it) so we were looking for my car. We went to the left side of the school (from the inside looking out) and passed through a garden of really psychedelic-looking flowers to a back part of the parking lot but didn't see it, so I went back around to the right side of the school to look there. While there, I actually saw myself in the distance with K, N, and I think O, and we were all standing by my car. I started walking over there but but by the time I got there it vanished. :T There's a point in my memory here that's fuzzy, and I think this is where I became lucid because I don't actually remember that part, I just remember being non-lucid and then suddenly being lucid. Like I said though, my lucidity level was very low so I didn't really think to try to work toward any of my goals. (Well, except the sex one, I guess. ) First I flew back to the front of the school, then started going up to random cars and opening doors and trying to modify the DCs. I went up to some ridiculously fat man (gotta be at least 500+ lbs) and said I was going to change him into a skinny girl. I grabbed his arm and he visually vanished but I could still feel him and I felt him changing into the girl, but then I got distracted and went to the next car. I tried another one hoping it wouldn't vanish, I saw a guy through a car window and opened the door expecting him to be female when I did, and it sort of worked but she was really blurry, I don't actually remember any features of her now. The next car I went to had a cute guy in it so I started trying to do something sexual. I honestly don't remember quite what it was though.... I think the dream was falling apart at this point. I do remember the guy just stared at me, and then I noticed a group of girls also in the back of the car with him, and thought briefly about the oddity that there were so many people in the back of this tiny car, but then I woke up.

#2 - Reminiscing [Non-Lucid]

I have very little memory of this one, except that for some reason I had to become a ball and roll down a long tunnel of dark patterened squares so that I ended up in some kiddie restaurant with a playground in it, where I ran into an old friend of mine I haven't seen in years. We hugged and walked off and reminisced about one time we were in that restaurant smoking some really good cigarettes together, which never happened.

So tonight was pretty interesting, first I became a TV character, then a model, and then I accidentally had my first WILD. I only wish I could remember more of the second dream, stupid false awakenings! And stupid me for not doing RCs!!

#1 - Possessing Penny [Non-Lucid]

I think there might have been a brief moment of lucidity in this one, but I'm going to list it as Non-Lucid because I'm not totally sure. It started out with me at a study group with Leonard and Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory and a couple random guys, we were individually doing these textbook assignments and obviously they were doing way better than me. I was embarrassed to be doing so badly so I put down my notepad and picked up my two (absolutely gigantic) binders and went to pick up a small pile of clothes I'd apparently brought with me as well, but I dropped them all because I was hurrying too much and ran out the front door (we were in some fancy house). Through the windows it had been nighttime outside, but on the outside it was daytime, and also I didn't notice this at the time but now that I think about it the second I got outside there was no sign of any house anywhere, we were by like my elementary school playground. Leonard followed me outside and at this point I became Penny! I was aware of the change, which I never am in normal dreams. Things got really vivid at this point, so I think I actually became lucid when I realized that was happening, but after that I went back to non-lucid but was still really excited about the transformation. Leonard started asking me what's wrong. He was crying and I started calling him Sheldon but I knew it was wrong, and then he corrected me saying it was Isaac. I gave him some excuse like I had a spirit trapped inside me or something, to get away with being Penny without having to know whatever she should know in that situation, and he asked me if I still knew that it was 1993, and I said yes, though I was still lying. (Also, 1993...?) I walked around people playing some sports and was just excited to be Penny, but after that I woke up.

#2 - You're My Angel [Non-Lucid]

I remember very little about this dream so it's basically a fragment, but only because of false awakenings. What I do remember is that I was some absolutely gorgeous and pretty tan woman, the way I thought of it at the time was I looked like a Victoria's Secret model. I was wearing some cute yellow bikini, and I was sitting at my computer warning people about the hacked DV. There was definitely more to it than that, but I had a false awakening where I wrote it down so I forgot some of the details, then ANOTHER false awakening where I wrote it down and forgot even more, so by the time I actually woke up that's all I had left.

#3 - Accidental First WILD [WILD]

I was lying in bed not really intending to fall back asleep after the last dream, so I stayed there awake for a bit but then I started to zone out and drift off a bit. Out of nowhere a dream scene formed around me almost instantaneously. There was a song playing somewhere in the background of my mind, and then I was in my parents' bedroom but there were a few tables set up by the bed that aren't normally there and some of my family members were walking around. Next to me were my cousins P and G, but they looked a few years younger than they are now. Everything was extremely vivid, basically indistinguishable from real life. I just thought to myself "Okay, this is interesting...." P and G were playing a game of Clue, I watched them for a minute and then P looked at me and said "Hey, how're you doing in the closet?" to which I responded "Good...?" I was a little caught off guard and didn't really try to stabilize or retain lucidity. I heard the song from the beginning start playing really loudly but still distantly again, and then the dream collapsed and I woke up into sleep paralysis. I didn't really realize what was going on though, I was hallucinating and my eyes were open so there was lots of confusing stimuli. I was getting a third-eye type visual of myself typing up the dream in my phone but I wasn't sure if I was actually doing it. Around my room I could see that my wall proportions were extremely distorted, the room looked almost triangular, and the light was quickly switching between nighttime and daytime. I could see one of my pillows hanging off the bed (which it actually wasn't) and it was covered in large piano keys. It was all incredibly weird, but then I woke up fully and realized I hadn't actually typed up the dream yet, so I got up and did that.

Hold on a sec.... If I had done a reality check when I was typing the dream in sleep paralysis, would I have been able to re-enter a lucid dream with my eyes open!?

But anyway, that's it for that night. Pretty interesting if I do say so myself, even if not incredibly detailed.