memorable

It's been four months since I last posted. Everything's been busy lately but this morning's dream (June 9) was vivid enough that it pushed me to post now.

Usually when I have a dream, I'd write it down and hopefully remember enough details to post when the time comes. Much has changed over the last few months. Often the dream would reflect something that goes on in real life, either before or after the dream takes place.

I still have recollections of 1/3 of my dreams, but about 2/3 are just paper notes now and I have no recall of them. Yet I'll be posting as much as I can, and hopefully in a few weeks the flashbacks to past dreams will join up with current dreams again.

Before we continue, I should explain what I mean in my use of the word "facade": basically, it's a word, another memory or previous dream, or a false recollection that triggers faint memories of the actual dream as they slip away. Sometimes the memories fade within 10 seconds of waking up.

You have to be careful sometimes - often the blog will log you out while you're trying to do a journal, and even today I had to change my password, after a Russian hacking incident months ago here.

It's a real challenge to get this thing started. Let's begin at this morning's dream, when I fell asleep on my sofa around 12:30 am.


I'm in a room somewhere. There are these orange vitamin B-12 pills in my hand, and it looks like there are several dozen of them. Should I put these in my mouth, or moreover report just what happened?

A tropical weather website comes up, dicussing a low pressure system that was bound to give us a big heat wave in the early part. Not much else was going on, except for that jet stream.

I'm sitting somewhere with an old student-teacher friend of mine, who talked about her memory of living in northeastern Ontario, where there are now some wildfires. Not sure if I ever join in on this conversation.

Hearing some words being said now, remembering a few.

"So when I was up at Algoma University, the weather would really stay pretty much the same. One day, it would be 7C. The next day, 7C and the same the day after that."

"It would take 35 minutes to drive up to Timmins, and 65 minutes when there was a big snowstorm and the traffic got heavy".

Wait a minute, I thought, looking over at a map. Wouldn't that mean North Bay takes only 25 or 30 minutes? I live in the Greater Toronto Area at this time.

Funny thing is, my friend never even went to Algoma. She went to U of T.

Now, I'm remembering something about a conversation I had with the principal, or maybe I was having one. I wasn't in trouble or anything; in fact my principal thinks of me as someone who is more mature and responsible than most.

There's a lot I didn't get to say to her, though.

I wake up with this strange pain in my left leg. Had I been bitten by a spider while I took my midnight nap? It seemed like I'd been asleep for maybe one or two hours, but as I look at my radio clock, it's 3:50 a.m. Without even going to brush my teeth, I return to my room, turn off my computer, and go to sleep. I consider taking my chemical experiment into my room before it gets stolen, but leave it there and doze off anyway.

There were these "fake vegetable" pills in a jar, that had both the shape and the taste of real vegetables: carrots, peppers and broccoli, at least two of the above three. Should I eat them?

I was asked whether I wanted an ionizing treatment, producing an isotope on my body that might have been radioactive. The isotope had an atomic mass of 188.

Of course that's going to be radioactive, I thought, when I woke up much later. Yet doing a bit of research, it turns out the element is probably non-radioactive osmium-188, which is naturally more dense than lead, and maybe a few traces of radioactive iridium-188.

Sitting there, I'm looking at a screen off the wall of my classroom, where my geography teacher was giving a lesson using a weather website that I routinely used. Next, we pointed out a small earthquake that had occurred a few days before off the northwestern coast of Ireland.

"Belfast!", I exclaimed, literally shouting it out loud. Yet Belfast was in North(east)ern Ireland, and whether I knew this at the time, I'm not sure.

The alarm woke me up again. It was just after 6 a.m., but I'd forgotten to turn off the alarm the previous night. I might wake up once more during the next bit, but whether this is recorded is unclear. Still have some assignments overdue for my geography teacher. The next part becomes rather academic.

I'm swimming in a lake somewhere, and the water is very tolerable. Whether it's more like a pond or there's a castle in the distance, I do not know, but I keep thinking it's Elsinore, the Danish city on the extreme eastern big island where the Shakespearean play Hamlet is set.

Some time is needed to practice my recipe. I had made bread before, but this was something quite different.

I have to finish another assignment, I think for the same geography teacher, involving a sled or a toboggan, that would be tested on the snow. Yet the snow had all but melted, and the assignment was overdue. How was I to finish it, then?

It's morning, and I'm on a trail with some of my friends. We'd all be university-bound next year, and to my left we see this grassy knoll that has a barn-like house positioned on top. A horse-drawn carriage was nearby, and I get the feeling that I'd seen this place before, but cannot remember where. Maybe I had been there. From where the Sun was positioned, we were walking southwest. There were some people on or near the carriage in costumes, the woman wearing some kind of shroud over her head, the whole family looking agrarian and traditional.

"Mennonites", I said.

"Yes", one of my friends continued, but...

But what? We continued walking. Over to our right, we come across this forested ravine, that has a steep drop-off soil cliff face with some tree roots. One of us, I or a friend, tries to climb down, but seeing it was so steep and there were granitic rocks underneath, we give up. We continue walking.

We were on a university campus now. I didn't know they had these types of trails here; maybe we don't.

I had debated whether or not to include the names of specific towns or universities I dreamt about. After much thought, I'm deciding to mention these places by name, and will do so in most cases for journals of past dreams.

On our right, it was the University of Guelph campus. There were still some tree branches as we approached the clearning. But I knew that none of us would be going here this year in September.

Johnston Hall.

Some say it's the most well-known landmark. Yet the rock climb had been difficult, and sometime later or earlier, I'm doing an exam for one of my classes.

It's my philosophy teacher, and this time I'm struggling to do well in this second-semester class I'm taking. I had gotten 95% in the first class, but was struggling to maintain 83% in this one. Whatever it was, I knew I needed to do well on the exam.

The room was beige, the desks far apart, the lighting dim yet incandescent. It somehow reminded me of my old elementary school. What in the world was I doing here?

I wake up this time, and it's past 10 am. Time to get up; it was a weekend morning.

OK, I know I haven't posted in ages. Yet some powerful recollections have been contained in the past dreams, and many of them go back to February. When I only have figments of dreams, then maybe I'll post as many as five in one entry, which gives overall a clearer picture of whatever that may be.

The memories may be hazy, but the dreams provide a glimpse.

I battled with insomnia again last night, so I didn't take notes. The result is I can remember a few dream scenes, I just don't know if they all take place in the same dreams or different ones, lol.

Dream Fragment One: I'm flying with Kurasawa who has wings (that's a first, lol) It only lasts a few moments though because my husband and daughter came to bed and it woke me up. I felt like I was falling back into bed before I actually woke up though, and my heart was racing like a tiny fish flopping around in my chest. It was not a comfy awakening, and spurred the insomnia for the rest of the night.

Dream Two: My BFF and her husband come over (they live states away, so this should have been a big reality check) because they're having car trouble and I need my cars AC fixed. We decide we're going to a nearby mechanics shop to get our work done together. My kids don't want to go though, so dream me decide they can stay home alone if they're good (WTF?! They're 2 and 5, noooo way is that a good idea!) We get to the mechanic shop and run into trouble because my BFF is from a different state so they want her ID to accept her credit card, only she's forgotten it. I tell them not to worry about it, I'll cover all their repairs. She asks me if I need to move money over to cover the costs first, but I assure her I have enough in the bank and it's all good. Then I get a bad feeling about my kids, and realize it was really stupid of me to leave them alone! So I hope back in my car and drive home. At home, the kids are being great and are safe and sound. Then I see a commercial about learning to weave hammocks on tv and my husband says he didn't know hammocks were woven. The lady doing the commercial was an older lady in a big weird straw style hat with all kinds of ribbons and fake birds and random crap glued on top, lol.

Dream Fragment Three: I'm walking through down town of this little country town I live in. Apparently there's going to be some sort of biker rally or something and my BFF wants me to go. It seems more like a community event than something you'd associate with Biker Gangs or anything. It's like a bunch of dads and grandpas and mom and grandmas on bikes, not a bunch of violence hungry punks, lol. I'm carrying a green box with a packed lunch. Someone stops me and asks me what's in the box. I tell them it's my lunch. They inform me that there are concessions, and I thank them and tell them I didn't know that's why I packed a lunch. Then they get all uppity with me, "Well take that lunch back. You can buy our concessions." when I don't take it back to my car, he gets pushier, "What's wrong? Afraid we poisoned our food? Take the lunch back or get lost!" I tell him I'm supposed to meet someone here and I can't take the lunch back because I'm already running late. Then I hug the lunch box (which strangely looks like a lego variety box, lol) to my chest and start running. I see my BFF sitting on a set of steps next to a water fountain with a bunch of other girls. They're all in fairly immodest clothes (short skirts and tube tops and spaghetti straps) which is weird for my bff b/c she's such an old lady about how much skin is showing. We start talking, and I tell her about the guy who was trying to make me take my lunch back. She laughs and says not to worry about it, it's not a big deal, I can eat my packed lunch and the others will buy enough concessions to cover my share too. Then I realize I forgot my camera, and she offers to go back and get it with me.

Dream Fragment Four: My BFF and her husband, me and a male behind me (whom I am 99% positive just by the way he had an energy abut him and how that energy felt) was Kurasawa. My Bff and her husband went in first, then I was about to go through the door into the hotel room and my BFF's husband put his arm in the door frame blocking me. He said I couldn't come in, and called me a monster Then Kurasawa says that I'm tired, and I need to rest and recharge. My bff's husband refuses, and Kurasawa stops being nice, and just says we're coming in whether he likes it or not., the pushes through. My BFF's husband then says fine, but we're not allowed to sleep on the bed because he doesn't want monsters on the furniture he has to use. He says if I'm tired I can sleep outside on the balcony. Kurasawa balls his hands up into fists, and I think he might have been about to hit the guy, but I reach out and put my hand on his arm and tell him it's ok, we can leave and stay somewhere else. He goes from ready to fight to completely concerned in half a second, a total instant shift in attitude. He tried to tell me I need to rest, but I don't listen, instead I walk out the door and apologize for causing trouble.

Dream Fragment Five: I'm running downhill, following behind a cop and a guy on a bike. The cop is driving a car, and the guy on the bike is holding onto the police cruiser letting it pull him through the street. They're not going very fast, and something happens and the two have to stop, but I just keep running ahead. I see a bridge, and on this wooden bridge there is a rabbit hutch. There's a fluffy white mommy rabbit and a couple of bigger baby rabbits in the hutch, then there are some TINY bunny babies that have squeeze through the hutch's wires. One hops across the bridge and into a horse pasture below. I'm afraid the horses will trample it, so I jump into the pasture to rescue it. However, the painted horses below aren't happy with this, and start to attack me. (By painted horses, I mean the ones with white black and brown cow like spots!) The horses are rearing and kicking, and I'm not even sure how I was avoiding getting hit as I scrambled back to the fence against the bridge. The cop and guy on the bike have caught up with me now, and they reach through the fence and pull me up and over it to the bridge. I try to tell the cop he needs to rescue the baby bunny, but he doesn't care at all about baby bunnies. He tells me two other babies were trampled earlier and that he's already cited the rabbits owner with animal abuse for having an improper cage, but there's nothing else he can do and if I go back in that pasture I'll be trespassing on private property and he'll have to take me to jail.

These entries always turn out so much longer than I expect them too, lol. I feel like I don't remember much from my dreams at all compared to usual when I do it this way, but apparently I remember more than I realize.

Okay... Two dreams I think, kind of confused on the order of things. My friend and I are being driven to Wisconsin by his Mom, and two of my teeth hurting. They look like they're rotting (random third persons in dreams are always fun) and we start driving to some house now, but the surroundings look kind of like a California Suburb. So I get off, and there's some guy who may have been Charlie Sheen on his driveway skateboarding. For some reason, in my mind I thought, wow, those skateboards are probably too thin for my feet. When I looked back, there were several unrealistically thin skateboards sitting there. I saw "Charlie Sheen" do a mediocre Ollie, and we went in. We walk in, and Charlie started using magic. I get scared for some reason and we get back in the car. Charlie looks really evil. This dream is hilariously stupid.

Sexy Time

I was licking a girl. It was pink and nice.

Another Pen Dream

I had a different pen dream last night.

In this dream, I had a twist pen that I have IWL. It was evidence that I was involved in a crime.

Journaling so late, I can't remember more of the dream, but it was disturbing.

In my nightmare episode last night I was supposedly a dead person in the dream world.

It first started out where I had a aquarium tank that filled up the size of half a family living room in my house. I felt kind of odd looking at the fish in the tank, something felt 'fishy' almost like the whole reason I was ever looking at the tank was for that reason, So I could suspect my surrounding and really notice what was happening.

Something big happened to where the fish tank exploded and reality within the dream started to intertwine with other realities. I knew this was happening because everything seemed to be normal but then items in the room started to float/change/explode

I was then sitting in a backyard that I did not recognize as my own and it did not seem familiar either. The grass in the back yard was thick, dark and green, tangled, and tall. I was sitting in the back yard with other people. Then I really started to realize my surroundings. The weather was dark and gloomy, like during the day when it is going to rain. I then started to ask myself "where am I?" The people with me where ghosts/spirit and told me I was on the otherside "What is this place, who are you" I also asked but they didn't really answer. That is when I decided to jump this old brown picket fence that way taller than out into the front yard. When I did this something that looked like the gravelings from the tv series Dead like me jumped onto me and started to suck life out of me, even tough it seemed like I was dead already.

Before falling asleep last night I decided to smoke some medium-grade weed to see if it helped with meditation more than the high-grade weed I've been smoking. The reason for this is because all of the high-grades around here are body highs, which means they have a good THC/CBD ratio rather than the mostly-THC head highs of the medium-grades. Since THC works through CB1 receptors which colocalize with and also indirectly stimulate D2 receptors, I figured this would be a much better bet for achieving a dream state; THC-dominant strains also make me hornier and trip harder in a psychosis kind of way, all evident of dopaminergic effects. The CBD strains have anti-THC action and then add their own serotonergic effects, which is wonderful for getting high and probably even for meditating in a non-dream-related way, but that's not what I'm looking for here. The outcome was pretty successful, I didn't achieve a WILD or OBE or anything because I'm inexperienced and it was right before going to bed originally, but the vibrations did get very strong, I felt warm and tingly all over and I had basically melted into the flat surface of my bed. I also used a light machine the first 10 minutes of it, and that created some pretty intense patterns that were pushing the high into complex visuals like cascading faces. After I finally pulled myself out of that, I fell asleep.

Dream Fragment - "Flying in a jungle with N, commemorative dollar coins with jokes written on them, school/mall food court, Facebook, talking about shared dreaming?"

Lucid Fragment IV [DILD]

I remember becoming lucid based on the fact that something I said didn't make much sense, but I don't really remember what it was now. This wasn't an "oh no, another lucid lost to a fragment!" dream, I was just really tired when I woke up and I didn't think it was interesting enough to merit taking the effort to write it down. Yeah, I was feeling lazy.

Jello Cubes And Drugs [Non-Lucid]

In an auditorium, I was in a new class with lots of confusing things going on, and my mom was sitting next to me in some kind of stadium seating. She had stopped talking after some red jello energy cube showed up next to us. I was pretty high and I started playing with it, unsure of what exactly it was. I was also talking to some really drug-dealer-stoner-looking guy about a new powerful drug I was planning to synthesize, and my description was complete with cartoony breakthrough visuals with bugs and galaxies and veins and blood vessels and etc., and I was saying it could basically either make you trip balls or it could kill you, we just don't know yet. The visual was pretty intense! That part of the conversation happened as we were walking through a hallway somewhere after leaving the auditorium, but I can't remember much after that now.

First Experiment [Sleep Paralysis]

After I woke up I got on DV and checked new threads for probably not longer than five or ten minutes. Upon checking the Post pictures of sexy hawt females thread, it occurred to me that I still hadn't officially reset my counter to zero for the one month of no masturbation challenge, and I was finally in the mood to do so. So that was fun.... Afterwards I thought about how long it had been since I originally woke up, and decided what better than now for a WBTB experiment? I got out my bong and smoked some more of my medium-grade weed, then positioned myself lying on my back in the bed, facing up.

At first I just felt extremely relaxed and zoned out. Then I started getting some mild hypnagogia coupled with delirium, i.e. thinking it was actually happening, but only a little bit. The first thing I remember is repeatedly thinking that I was walking into my bathroom and looking into the mirror, but still being faintly aware that I was really still in bed. There was more than that, but it's hard to remember now. After a while I got lazy and intended on giving up, so I flipped over to my side.

Suddenly, there was a large number of things going on in the room. First, the TV was on, I couldn't see it but I could hear it quite clearly. I don't remember what was being said. Second, my cat was meowing loudly in my room, and I couldn't see him either. Third, my mom was telling me something about my cat which I don't remember now. Same story, heard but not seen. And fourth, I was on DV talking to StaySharp about everything that was happening. Throughout all of this I was aware that this wasn't actually happening, except for the thing about DV. I was able to completely open my eyes and think at least somewhat lucidly. "Okay... I can't move.... So I'm in sleep paralysis? Alright then." With eyes open everything was dreamy and extremely distant, as if it was being perceived but not really processed. I looked at my laptop (which wasn't even actually there) and saw it start floating around the room, shrinking and growing in only one direction as it did so. There was a mild sense of "That's not right....", and then I closed my eyes again. I was back in my bathroom, looking in the mirror. This image wasn't completely solid, it was like 90-95% there, basically enough for it to be a fully structured dream sequence but with me still maintaining bodily awareness. I had a baby carrier positioned on me so that the baby would be in front of me, covering my chest and stomach, but there was no baby in it. Instead, there were two long, feminine, and beautiful legs protruding downward from somewhere in it that's hard to recollect now. I could also hear the voice of my cousin K talking about how I was going to turn into her or something, but I think it might have been more of my train of thought than something that was actually happening. This weirded me out a bit and, without fully comprehending the situation, I decided that I'd had enough of this. I opened my eyes again and just stared at the wall with the intention of ending the whole experience, and before long the dreamy feeling faded away, and I could move again.

I'll certainly be using this weed for more experiments in the future!

I was standing in my driveway, looking at the blue sky. I noticed a couple rainbows crossing the heaven, then some more, and then it started whirling around with pretty rainbow-colored stripes, getting more and more intense. By the end it looked like a new years eve, except it wasn't fireworks, it was both small and large trails of rainbow flying around in the sky in their own small patterns of curves, circles and stripes. I was amazed by the sight, and looked at my father who stood beside me. He gave out a laugh and said "just wait till it gets covered". I looked at the moon who was right above us for a couple seconds. It was a big full moon, which is odd considering the sky being blue. Then all of a sudden, it was as if all the light in the world disappeared - at least from the visible area. It was as if someone turned off the sun. I fell to the ground. There was nothing but complete darkness. You couldn't see anything. The moon was dark, but had a bright halo around it. A good 10 seconds passed before the light turned on again, and I woke up.

Dream; Semi-Lucid; Lucid; Memorable; 1-4 My Recollection;

Woke 4:30am
My brother had the tv on while I slept.
Going to bed at sunset.

2; I fell into sleep a bit restless. I slept very warmly and deeply. Some way through I became conscious of being in a deep dream but wasn't lucid. It picked up along the course of my brothers army training. I remember training and the next thing my brother smiled at what was happening.. Deep in the ocean I was set among other people scaling a cement wall, with weighted gear under the water. Climbing the structure, it became electrified and we endured our way through the SHOCK, and up the ocean wall to the top which became another dream outside of the water. It ended as I watched someone finish.. The next dream celebrated.



here there's sunlight

I finally did it.

Basically, I was in school, which seems to recur in my dreams, and as I was walking between to lessons, I thought, "it's the holidays, there is no school" my dream self performed an RC and I could breath through my blocked nose. I then thought, I'm dreaming. at first I had little control and kept walking to my next lesson, then I kept repeating, I am dreaming, I am in control, and I eventually gained total control. I couldn't teleport, but I wondered around the school, and because I had no urgency to get to lessons, nor did the others.
I discussed with one of my teachers about the fact that I was dreaming, and then he pointed out the floating island directly above us. I explored the school and even spoke to some friends, but I can't remember what I said, nor what they said.
The dream ended when I saw the floating island flicker, disappear, then reappear until I woke up.

A very strange, yet rather fun experience.

I wasn't going to deal with insomnia last night, I was too tired and too cranky. So I had a drink before bed, and as a result my dreams were pretty scrambled when I woke up this morning (er, afternoon, because I slept so well I slept in an hour and a half longer than usual, lol)

Dream One (Fragment): I'm on a boat (and now that songs going to be stuck in my head, ha ha. ) it's not a tiny one, but it's not a big boat either. It's about the size of a larger boat you'd find on a river, or a smaller boat you'd find in the ocean. Like personal boat size (not cargo sized, lol) and I'm moving things around on the boat. For some reason I think that this is my job.

Dream Two (Fragment) : I'm in a wagon, being pulled by horses! I'm in the back, and it's uncovered. The driver is a chic with long brown hair. There's a guy with short blond hair in the back with me. Something is chasing us, actually it looks like a bunch of somethings, lol. We decide we have to jump to safety, and let whatever keep chasing an empty wagon. I'm scared to jump at first, but then I see some Bandanas in the wagon and decide I can tie them together to make a little parachute to slow my descent so I'm not injured. I tell the guy, and he thinks this is a really good idea. He takes the bandanas, and ties them for me, then hands them to me and tells me to jump first. He says if there's enough distance between us and the enemy that I need to run back to the wagon and give him the bandana so he can jump, but if the enemy catches up to the wagon I am to stay in the woods. I nod, and notice the wagon is closer to the woods now than before, the girl is giving me the best possible chance of making it to a place I won't be seen or can hide. I take a deep breath and jump, I float for a few long seconds, then land perfectly. I turn around and see the wagon, but the enemy has stopped chasing it, so I run to catch up and give the guy the bandana so he can jump. The wagon slows down just as I realize I will never be able to run fast enough to catch up to it, then it stops completely. I grab the back of it and drag myself in. I realize when I'm in the wagon that the guy is gone! I ask the girl driving the wagon, and she clucks on the horses and we start taking off really fast again. She tells me that he knew I wouldn't let him jump out to go stop our pursuers, so he came up with this elaborate plan for me to jump then run back to the wagon to give him the bandana so I wouldn't be on the wagon to see him jump off and run to face the enemy, but he knew I'd end up either in the woods hiding safely or on the wagon getting the heck out of there while he held them off. I'm pretty distraught over this, I tell the girl we need to go back to get him, but she says no, we're already too far an almost to our destination and he wouldn't want us to go back and put ourselves in danger. Then we're coming up to this giant log wall with a log gate. The gate opens and the girl drives the wagon through the gate. Inside, there are a lot of people and even non human Star Wars style aliens. The wagon is going slow now, so I jump off again, but when I try to go back I realize the gate is closed and I can't get back out to go help the guy. I turn around, very disappointed and start back for the wagon, but it didn't go the direction I thought it had. I think I'm lost, but then a wagon (not sure that it's the same one) pulls up to my left and instead of the brown haired girl it's my BFF. She offers me her hand and helps pull me to the drivers seat of the wagon with her rather than leaving me in the back like cargo as the other girl had done. She starts telling me as the wagon weaves through the city that we're ready to try to sign up again. I have a vague memory of trying to enlist in some sort of small army or something, but her not having something necessary so us both not signing up b/c I wanted her with me. I ask her if she has what she had forgotten last time, and she does. I'm really happy with her answer, I'm excited to join whatever cause we're signing up for, together. She stops the wagon, and we walk over to this little white fold up table with two people in casual clothes sitting behind it. There's already a guy with dark hair singing up, but one of the ladies behind the table asks if she can help us. She looks younger than me, maybe even still a teenager. Ambies tells her we want to enlist, and then she asks for something and Ambies gives her a bunch of papers. The woman/girl takes the papers and starts flipping through them. Then she says she's not sure what kind of job Ambies qualifies for, but that they have a spot reserved for me because I'm highly qualified for this fight. I shake my head and tell her no, I want to fight with my best friend or not at all. She kind of twists her face like she's trying to figure out how in the heck she can manage that, then the second woman at the desk says, "They're both short, We could put them on to help us with the faeries." The girl isn't sure how to do that, so the woman tells her to take Ambies to see someone and they'll arrange it. Then the woman hangs a sign from the table saying they're out for lunch before walking back to me and saying, "It's been a while? How have you been?" I suddenly recognize her as my teacher, but I don't in waking life recognize her at all, lol. We start waking towards a window, and I'm telling her how it's going ok, I just feel really stressed out lately. She nods and tells me that it's hard sometimes to juggle a normal life, but that she knows I can do it. Then, looking out the window I see a white truck drive on a lawn, the driver throws four yellow daffodils out the window in anger, and speeds off. The flowers look so sad broken and scattered on the ground with a white ribbon streaming in the wind where it can't quite be blown free from the weight of the three flowers on top of it. The woman tells me that the man is unhappy, she says that she told him she wasn't interested in him romantically, and he was so upset over it that he left our cause. She says more that I can't exactly remember, but the lesson I took away from it was that we should follow what we believe in, and not fight for a cause just because someone close to us is. I figured this had something to do with me not wanting to join without Ambies, and that if I really believed in the cause I shouldn't need my best friend to back me up. If I only do it for her, then if she leaves or we have an argument, then I'm likely to end up like the man who left because my teacher didn't share his romantic interests. The teacher asks me what my jobs were right now, and the dream fades with me watching out the window thinking of logs and how they must have cut them to build the fort. I apparently ignored her question, lol.

Dream Three: This one is really confusing to me and very broken up so I'm apologizing in advanced for how confusing it is. It starts out I'm walking through a hallway with a mane and a woman and a little girl. The little girl seems to be around ten or so, and has light blond hair like my daughters. I don't think she's my daughter though, and she seemed really quiet and distant, like she was depressed and in her own little world or something. We pass by a little alcove like area, and there's a car wrecked inside the building. There's someone inside the car dying, and a man trying desperately to get the woman out. The woman I'm with says she can save the woman with a spell. Her and the man I'm with tell the other man that he needs to take the little girl somewhere and let her show him the things the woman needs for the spell. In reality, it's a ploy to get the man away from the car so the woman can work her magic without someone else's energies interfering. The man I was with walks outside with the other man and the girl and me. The other guy and the little girl get in a car an start to drive away. Then the man I am with says he forgot to tell them to park in the right pattern so they don't accidentally park in the energy field when they return. The he's pretty sure the little girl will tell him so it's ok. Then, (this is where the dream gets uber confusing) the guy takes my hand and starts to walk me out of the parking lot and down the street. The dream shifts completely. The busy street in front of the hotel becomes a quiet back street in a quiet little town. It's no longer dark, but now bright and sunny. I look at the guy, and realize he is Kurasawa, but I fail to become lucid at this revelation because he's talking to me. He's telling me that he's some sort of caretaker. He says it's his job to cut the grass, tend the flowers, deal with trees that fall down around the city. Then he tells me that another lesser known part of his job is to help the elderly in the area. I think he says these elderly people are council members or something. He tells me this is how me met someone, the old woman who introduced him to this whole world? He says she needed something fixed and he was sent to fix it. He gestures to a house on a hill above the road with little steps and flowers on it. He looks really happy, and at peace here, like this is his second home kind of thing. Then he smiles at me and takes both my hands and says it's time to go back. When we turn and start walking again, it does goes from day to night in the blink of an eye, and the quiet road becomes the busy road in front of the hotel. I can see lights on the hotel's facade, and I know everything is the way we left it, only the woman is done with her ritual and the man's car is back so he and the little girl must be back. We walk into the hotel, and then just like that Kurasawa is no longer at my side. I'm with someone, but I think it's my BFF, and she's on my other side not the one Kurasawa had been on. I don't notice it being odd though. She's asking me about unpacking from my trip, but I tell her we're still at the con I'll unpack later. I see people wandering around in costume as if I'm really still at Animazement. I see a guy that I kept seeing during the con, it's not that he was in costume or anything, I just felt an over whelming energy sometimes and would turn to see where it was coming from and there he'd be. This happens on occasion with people, it's not negative or anything... it's just the seem to hold a lot more energy naturally than others. Any who, I don't feel the energy from him, so I know it's not the same person, and then I think to myself that I'm hungry. I tell my BFF that I'm going to get breakfast. I wander off on my own to one of the concession areas at the con. I ask the girl for cookies and bacon, but she tells me they're all out of bacon and gives me almonds instead. Then someone asks for strawberry cheerios, and she tells them all they have left to sell is almonds, everything else was sold out. I had bought the last cookies, lol. I turn to find a table, and see someone left a half eaten bowl of cheerios in pink milk on a table. I think those must be the strawberry cheerios, I've never heard of them before but I guess they make your milk strawberry milk. Then I wake up.

I slept so hard last night, probably because I didn't sleep much at all the night before, lol.

Awake|DreamingLucid

Not the only dream I remembered, but I only had time to get the notes down of this dream.

In this dream, I was walking down the local market with my cousin. We were talking about something which I can't remember. It was a nice day and the path was pretty busy. A group of 6 or 7 people walked out of a shop ahead of us and then walked around me and my cousin. Soon, 3 people walked out of another shop ahead of us. One was a guy, with long black hair (he looked similar to Nathan Explosion form Metalocalypse), the second was a young woman with average blonde hair and the last one, was the blue haired girl. This time she had only cyan hair an black clothes on. Still very beautiful though. I decided to part with my cousin and walk with the 3 people. At the end of the path was their black car. We got in it and it teleported us to a weird field. It was almost dark, it looked very similar to the wastelands on the game "Borderlands". We parted ways by splitting into pairs. The black haired guy and the blonde woman went as a pair and I was paired with the blue haired girl. Isn't that surprising? We then found a hole in one of the small hills of the field. We walked in and saw a "dead" woman chained to a dark stone-grey wall and another dead person lead face down on a dark wooden bench. This part of the dream rings a bell from a previous dream I had ages ago. We were looking around the room as if we were trying to find something, but instead I went up to the body that was face down on the bench and liften open the top part of the head. I said to the blue haired girl, "Want some brains? haha." She smiled at me then the "dead" woman chained to the wall jumped up and attacked us. Luckily, the other pair stormed in through the secret door and killed her...again. The guy also got attacked by the same red haired girl that lived in the tree in my previous dream, with the blue and read haired girls. She jumped on him and they kissed. Everyone was shocked. The blue haired girl said "Why would you do that?". The blonde woman was speechless and I was just observing, confused. The dream ended at this point.

This is the second time I have ran into the blue haired girl and the red haired girl. The red haired girl seemed more aggresive while the blue haired girl was nice. Maybe opposites?

The first dream I met this girl in can be found here

The red haired girl is in that same dream, but I feel more connected to the blue haired girl. I sure hope she is a Dream Guide.

Marrying an Old Bosses Daughter

I used to work for an insurance company. My manager was not nice. They had a son.

I was marrying the daughter of the owner of an insurance company I used to work for. The wife of the owner was going through all my old pay stubs which showed very little earnings. She didn't like that.

At first I didn't care, but then I thought, "Those are mine, they are personal, and I don't have to let her see them." We struggled as I tried to take them away from her.

Then we were struggling over my manuscript. I told her she should have just taken it when I offered it to her. Then her husband asked for it and I said, "OK."

Then they started telling their daughter she shouldn't marry me. I got very upset because I had spent a lot of money on the relationship. I thought if they didn't want her marrying me because I don't make much money, they should have spoken up before I'd invested so much in the relationship.

It is now 2:49 and I'm going back to sleep.

I'm glad I logged that dream ^ I completely forgot about it.

Looking to Buy a House


I dreamed that I was looking to buy a house with MJ, though his name was Desmond or something. It was the perfect house. I simple ranch, but the view was stellar. You could see the city from a distance of about 30 miles looking over to your right, then panning to the left there were some trees and a cliff face. Then off in the distance to the left, the view was a hundred miles. The lawn was huge. I knew I wanted to buy the house.

We walked down the yard and to the cliff. It was too steep to climb, and so was the wooded area next to it. I tried to climb it, but the plant life growing on it made me not want to put my hands on the rocks. IWL I don't care about dirt and muck, but this was weird plant life. I couldn't see what was in it and didn't want to venture it right then.

We went back to the house and found two wasp nests. I wasn't afraid of them, but I was thinking about how I would get rid of them.

The End

In with Special Forces?

I was with a group of people I don't know in waking life. We were in a restaurant eating at a booth. Someone started taking pictures of me. His flash went off with each picture.

I reached down for my camera, a 35 mm which I don't have IWL. I wound it and did something else to prepare to take a picture without the guy noticing, then stood up and chased the guy and took his picture.

He knew I was onto him, but he was spying on me. He thought I was involved in something that I wasn't. I had a special weapon, but I was out of my league.

I found a pen in my pocket. It was a basic looking pen that you push down on the back and the ball-point comes out, but this pen had special power. You could use it to make objects levitate, or to turn objects on and off.

I was not adept at this power. A colleague figured out that his pen had the power, and we were part of some team, so I had the pen, I tried it, and sure enough it worked. I made a glass levitate. I was supposed to not be obvious with this power, but it was amazing and I wanted to get better control of it. At one point I made two objects rise, then one fell. Maybe it broke.

Dream skip and I'm at a house. It is like a fraternity house of everyone who is similar to me in this group team thing. We are together, and yet there are differences.

The guy that was taking pictures has the face of a Latino Mechanic who ripped me off once IWL. He said that someone was going to do something in the financial markets. Now, I'm realizing that since it isn't me as I have nothing to do with the financial markets, maybe he should be taking pictures of someone else on my team.

One of my friends was about to talk to the team about the guy who took my picture. I told him not to say anything to anyone because if someone on our team is going to do something in the financial markets, then we don't want to give away the fact that someone is on to him, even though the guys efforts are misdirected towards me.

Although I considered the guy taking pictures of me to be a "bad guy," somehow, the guy on my team who might be involved in this conspiracy is also a "bad guy."

Now I look around the house and check out the view. I see pictures on the wall of the team in their work environment. It helps build the DC's character. Two guys bunk in the same room. Lots of people live in this house, all on the same team.

There is a party going, but there is a disturbing feature of possum/raccoon guts in the trash can. It as full of guts. Their are curtains hanging down getting dirty in them. I try to do something with them. At one point I am thinking of putting gun powder in the can and burning them.

Then, the guy who was taking pictures of me shows up. He is skulking around the house outside on a circular wrap-around porch. He scares me.

I look outside. I try using my pen to turn off the lights. Maybe it worked. I look down and there as a Mars Rover type vehicle rolling around. I try to turn it off, but it isn't working. The guy taking pictures of me is way out of my league. He takes a car from the garage, drives it down the yard into a lake. It's a freaking amphibious car. I can't turn the rover off and it follows him.

The End.

I've been flooding the posts. I'm new to the dream journal, so I didn't realize it would do that. Sorry. Here's a collection of relatively short dreams.


10-12-11 5:32 AM
I had a dream about a pedophile priest that was flipping books over whether ot not to rape little kids. (I think I meant like flipping coins, just with books) Also, KH was teaching me how to take down towers in LoL. She ran past two turrets that were almost dead and killed them both.


10-13-11 8:48 AM
I had a dream that I had a class outside and BAM always followed me when I walked to it. There was another important element, but I forgot because I waited too long. I remember there was gross liquid that I had to walk around. Whenever I went outside I would start climbing the door like a ladder.

10-15-11
I just dreamt that i was at wash u. The admissions person was excited about something because he'd been waiting for the moment for seven years. This was related to ocarina.

I had a dream that my dad stole money from a bus. Then obama was trying to figure out if there was information on a circuit board. Then I put all my stuff in a pedal plane but realize it's not mine so I take all my stuff out. But first I see other people in there and I think theyre trying to steal my stuff. So I count my money and it's all there. I remember the money looked real, even though it has text on it. Maybe I just looked at the president on it. The guy marveled at my Zelda wristband and wallet. I bumped the plane into one of obama's planes. I had my computer with me on the bus and a grey bag.

Then GM and GN (two chicks I know) wanted to know what they had to do to teach the lesson on the day I was gone. They caught me looking at their boobs. Something about analyzing kh2. I remember looking at a paper with questions on it. Thats weird because I could read thr questions (I thought it was weird because I expected not to be able to read text in dreams.). Then I was supposed to read quiz bowl questions to either GM or AA but I fell asleep doing it. Then there was a paper talking about how the quiz bowl tournament was canceled.

I also dreamt that I went to new Hampshire and rode the reindeer roller coaster at santas village.

I also dreamt that we used to have another dog named cookie crumb that died.

10-17-11
I had a dream that I was supposed to create an AI in LoL.

I had a dream that I was trapped inside a cave and I learned a Spanish word starting with c containing an ll. I don't remember why I was there. (pretty sure it was cullir which isn't a word)

I think I did a reality check and became lucid but I don't think it lasted very long. I remember looking at my hands. At the end of my dream I remember my physics teacher saying my country tis of thee.

I also had a dream about an Indian (like from India) funeral. They called me up to the front to say something, but I didn't know the person. They told me I had to use my phone outside of the building, and I couldn't being my coat into the room. I was also at GK's house I think but it didn't look like it at all. I met this Indian kid, but he looked white. I tried to ask him what I was supposed to do. I didn't want to sit between him and CJ.

10-19-11 5:36
I had a dream that I had dead spiders in my underwear. Also, I was walking around the hallways during lunch for some reason and CHN was in multiple places at once. I knew in the dream that it didn't make sense. Something about mountain dew.

(Forgot date)
I dreamt I was part of an awesome gang.

(Forgot date)
I had a dream that I was eating something at my school with chopsticks and then a waiter came and gave me more. It was supposed to be jv quiz bowl or something. SS was sitting next to this brown guy, but he was ignoring her and talking to his friend.

10-25-11
I had a dream that I was part of a movie where people are trapped in a house. It must have been like a game because I remember looking at everything through minimap. I became somewhat lucid at one point, because I remember thinking "I'll watch myself escape from the house." I also started rubbing something in the room so I wouldn't wake up. I climbed out the window. Peoples cars were stacked up somehow. I remember while I was escaping, i questioned the physics of it. This may have been while I was lucid. I escaped from the house at least three times. The first time I didn't know how to escape, so I went through the wrong door and something grabbed me and flew around with me. There was a cougar hitting on me. There were tables floating in the air and she was sitting at one. The last time I tried escaping, I heard someone yelling at some creature who I guess was supposed to be a slave for sucking at their job, and then grinding them in a meat grinder like thing. I was on the bottom level so I just ran to my car and drove away. Then I got killed like it was runescape and LoL combined. Two people were attacking me and I was trying to back up and eat at the same time so I wouldn't die. It didn't work.

10-26-11
I had a dream I argued constitution with an annoyingly nationalistic teacher. When I asked why she was stealing a student's phone to read it's messages she said it was bcause "here we enforce the law."'Then she started making bullshit points. I also dreamt that AA kept pausing quiz bowl questions. For some reason she was stripping. She had really saggy boobs.

Something about touching pillars and young goodman brown.

I also remember I made a plaster cast of MO's face. I distinctly remember feeling and inside of the mouth and it was wet, even though in the dream the cast was old. I remember making out with it. I was planning on putting my dick in it but then something happened and I needed to make a new one. I went to a store to have that happen. When I went to pay, there wasn't enough in my wallet, so I freaked out, decided to be an adult, and looked at the loose bills in my pocket. I had a 100 to buy the new one.

I think this next part was part of the same dream. I thought of it while I was in the shower. I remember reading CHN's diary. I don't remember what it said. I might have been CHN. I remember that CYN's diary was in the library for some reason and I was going to check it out. CHN's dad was there. The library was in a building that had been my parents' church earlier in my dream. I checked out a bunch of books, but I remember putting CYN's diary inside another book so people wouldn't see it. I don't remember why.

There was also something about NC (I think it was him, I'm not sure) driving like 110 on a city road.

10-29
I had a dream that KH was asking me questions about GTS's party. She then apparently looked on facebook and said I wasn't invited.

I also dreamt that we were driving around on the highway going somewhere important. I got a ticket from a cop because I was driving in the passing lane. It definitely had text on it. It definitely stayed the same as I looked across it. Then there was a bridge that was broken the first time I was going to the place, but it was fixed when I was going back. I also remember it was really scary driving. Just like when I was driving home from LC's house. I couldn't drive in a straight line.

10-29
I was at a luncheon and my drama teacher was extending the due date for something until Thursday.

The Jew in family guy was licking the zitty back of his girlfriends neck. He also made zit cookies and made me/Peter eat them. (WTF)

11-3
I was on a psych field trip and I was supposed to give an oral presentation about a star called primer. Then somehow I was playing LoL and CHN was my champion. Then I was stressing about my oral and I was thinking "I should probably do a reality check" because all the languages in my phone were fucked up (I have four keyboards installed, but I was seeing languages I hadn't downloaded like Cherokee and Lao). But I decided not to because I was in too much of a hurry.

11-5
I dreamt about a person making a staircase lower into death in a control box for a furnace. Then I dreampt about how weight is evenly distributed on Both sides of Ragen and i remember looking qr halls hanging down from them. (...) The person who made the staircase was an idiot. I also dreamt that señor had a LoL team and he was recording my playing.

11-6
I dreamed that I had a boner because I needed to pee. I also remember taking a walk because I didn't wanna get fat.

11-7
I had a dream that my sister's cat lost KK's purse and was looking for it. KK wasnt mad.
I had more dreams during one minute sleeps. I was gonna teach HS (a really hot girl I know) to love sex through some linear equation. Then CHN was wheelchairless on top of a building in the snow, making a video for something.
I also dreamt while I was awake that by lying there in bed I was metaphorically playing support sona. It doesn't make sense to me now.

11-8
I dreamt that I was playing support with Korean or something weird like that.

I had a dream that my school was acting out revelation (as in the book). A guy tried to get MC to do something based on the fact that he had a white name (even though he's Asian). The security guards were at the doors. I beat the shit out of KH for dome reason.

I do remember this. It was in some huge house. I was part of it. People were like actually experiencing the shit. I saw a person lying to my left and another in leaves or something in an alcove. The security guards were preventing people from leaving. They were in a hallway that looked like where I come in when I park in senior parking lot. I also remember coming down some stairs.

11-13
I dream that my old spanish teacher was picking point valueenrin. ((maybe that was supposed to say values, but nothing really makes sense).

HS was straddling me. I had a boner. We were talking about this other time that she straddled me. I remember thinking I didn't have a boner then and how I was pmsing. (I'm a guy, but by that I meant that I had been really horny all the time for the past few days).

11-15
I dreamt that I was part of some army. We might have been fighting against lions. I remember I thought what the lions were doing was good. Then when I woke up it was like I was two people and I thought we were gonna get out of bed to study revelation. The lions breathed a purple fog that made us sleep. Then there were hillers everywhere, like moles, and they were making a grid of holes.

So I dreamt that I was jacking off and that everything I thought of would show up in the same circle and create like a mutant image. I put GC soccer and s little girl in it. It was weird. I Aldo demented e (I must have fallen asleep again)

11-17
DM was telling me about how KH was really white while KH thought he was saying he looked her (I must have lost my train of thought here) my philosophy class went somewhere. On the last day the teacher paid us. He was wearing a bunch or nice shirtd ar once for us to have (as in he was simultaneously wearing like 15 polo shirts and he took them off for us to have). MS stomach bumped him. BK brought his own red shirt with brass buttons. Then I dreamt that runescape came out with a rabbit item and I wanted to hop over walls and do illegal stuff. Then I dreamt about a soap commercial that blamed I think a kid going to prison on the abundance of technology. I screamed "I hate hippies!" KK had the soap and I was in her apartment.

11-19
I dreamt that I was holding hands with DV during a show at my school. Also, some little Asian sibling of one of my friends somehow saw my scars (I used to cut) and asked me about it. I said it was from a biking accident.

I also gypped Spanish and went to hang out in my chem room. Senor was pissed at me.

11-20
I dreamt that I was about to prepare for my uchicago essay. I was in KK's car. DV2 (DV's little sister) and VT3 (VT's little sister; you'll meet VT1 and 2 later) were walking outside. I got out of the car in the middle of the road. I ran in front of it while it was still moving so she got a ticket. Alao someone from quiz bowl made an atomic bomb.

11-24
I had a dream that I was trying to access a machine by Typing in a six digit number. Then I was driving and I flipped my car by going though a hump. Then I was thinking about how I couldn kick people out of the auditorium to make out with VT2.

11-27
I dreamt that I was somehow working with a Mexican from YouTube.

12-8
There were these two girls feeling me up but I was awkward about it so they stopped.

12-13
First I was watching an MLP movie by myself in a theatre. It was bad. I was rocking back and forth in my chair and I felt bad because the people in front of me left. Then KH showed up. I told her I was leaving because it was about to become a judgment zone. So I left KH and exited the theatre. I remember CHN was probably there because I was thinking "what a judgmental bitch." Then Houdini (a nickname for a kid I know) and a drama kid with really straight sexy hair were playing a game called bugle. I asked them for RR and DM2 were and they pointed. DM2 was on the phone. Then Houdini turned into DM2 and asked me If I wanted to play bugle. Then a dragon spit out a conveyer belt and robots came out in it for some court case. The dragon started playing tetris and then used the blocks to form words. It brought out LoL champion like things and they were all found guilty. Then the dragon ran out of conveyer belt. The words on tetris said "play again?" then it was over.

12-13
I had a scary dream. I dont remember the premises but there were a bunch of little kids at my school for some reason and people were beating them up in a group as some sort of disciplinary action. Everyone thought it was justified. The ones I remember hearing about beating kids were DV3 WH and MC. My English teacher said that DV3 beating the kids was a beautiful thing. Some kid's mother had died. I don't remember how or if that was part of the same plot or not. But basically I was taking pictures of stuff like people's bruises and writing down what people involved said and everyone like my drama and psych teacher mad at me. My psych teacher said that there was a certain "expectancy" which I corrected to "expectation" for me to follow. I was taking pictures and she did one of her things where she tries to say why it's philosophically wrong. I just looked at her and said oops really sarcastically. Then my drama teacher said that like 53 or something people had vomited in response to an email I sent about it. There was a little boy that I talked to who appeared not to care until I mentioned his dead mother. There was also part of it when I was in a psych ward trying to escape with someone who may or may not have been a legitimate patient.

1-20-12 12:19 AM
I dreamt that people were watching pulp fiction as an example of a bad movie. Except it started with a redneck officer. He asked a question and the person said something that sounded like "si, yes" even though it was in English. The people watching were the people from community. Then I fell asleep on the way to school and I needed to call my mom for a jumpstart.

2-3-12
I dreamt that I was totally hitting on KS and she was going for it completely. Like I was hugging her and grabbing her hands while I was talking to her and she loved it. Also I dreamt that there was footage of a train accident in some place in Singapore called 심꾼심. (not a real place; I checked)

2-3-11
I dreamt that there was some kind of game where you had to be able to visualize three dimensional things to keep them in order. If you couldn't visualize them then they would start getting out of order. I was riding on a wagon that was fast and bumpy trying to keep a set of cubes from falling. I was with someone. This person went into a tangent that I could see about how they were better than me in which they slowed themself flying through space keeping track of a bunch of crazy shit. Also this game was similar to LoL. There was some game I played where I was surprised with everyone's thorough knowledge of the champs. Also there was part where I somehow compared a WPA handshake to sex and whoever was with me told a conservative chick. Then I was talking to TM about turning off the lights to make people shut up. I had something about las luces written on a piece of paper. (I don't understand this)

2-4
I dreamt that MC was talking about LoL in real life and like placing a ward at someone's house and just waiting there to kill them or something like that. Then someone was drawing the graphics for some kids' show and that became the dream. There was a clown who needed something so he got some mother to do "hollering" for him. Then there were stop signs everywhere. Also, people were somehow reborn a lot. Like this one chick got divorced and people still knew her but they introduced themselves. Also this guy said that a chick was married to a guy who died and now she's marries to a guy with the same name. I wanted to comment on how tragic that was even though I knew it wasn't but he explained the details of rebirth too fast for me to do that. (Idk if this makes sense. I think people couldn't die. So when the chick's husband died, and she remarried, she married the reincarnation of the guy who died. That doesn't add any meaning; that's just what I was trying to say when I wrote this down.)

2-12-2012 12:28 AM
I dreamt that KP was buying ringtones for 99 cents each. There was this hallway/vent where I either thought about or actual did take her and just start making out with her. Also, something about the software on the admin's computer at school and being able to fuck stuff up. I plugged something into the computer to provide data and it got knocked loose once. When I was coming back from KP, I did the animorphs think as a cockroach, except something was chasing me. I kept slowing down every time I tried to fly.

I had a dream about a game where you had to be Link (from Zelda) and do something to prevents this guy from blowing up the world. It was action adventure.

2-27
I dreamt that it was graduation and DV and I were hugging and crying and lying in the snow.

4-13
I dreamt that I saw GS and CYN walking down the street where I used to live. I said something about it to myself, and then I was like "oh shit the parents heard that. This is gonna be awkward." (because they were really awkward about it when she died). I knew that what I saw wasn't real but I didn't reality check. I looked specifically at her legs walking and thought "this isn't possible."

I dreamt that there was a guy who made himself a fish taco. He was gonna propose with it and it was gonna be his company's next product, but he ate it instead. The setting was in the basement where I slept.

CHN posted a Facebook status That said that she was pissed at my math teacher for saying something about her "little accident." she also said that due to "stem" issues (I meant spine) she felt brutal pain in her legs. Also I had a Lego thing where I had white blocks and a yellow cross. RC was messing with it. It's purpose was to throw a ball at it and try to knock down the cross. Then I played a gba game where the people shared the device. There were too many buttons. It was a race to the finish. Then there were guys who talked to me like i was in their gang. Also I was trying to find a picture of CYN on fb but all of the pictures looked wrong.

5-6-12
I dreamt that I was at VT's house. Her parents were Like ghetto and abusive. I had stolen 300 bucks from my old math teacher's desk that somehow belonged to PC. I was trying to gtfo with the money. But VT's mom was being insane. She wanted to be treated like a queen. She would kick me/VT at the same time for not
Using royal terminology. So I locked myself in BK's car to avoid her mother. But the money was inside the house. And I hadto get it. Another part, KH wanted to talk to me about why we wereent good friends. I lied and avoided it.

5-8-12
I dreamt that I was at a chess tournament playing against ZB. I was Losing slightly. I gave him the bishop pair. Then the fat dude who thinks he's a tournament director but actually doesn't know shit made us adjourn, but there was no envelope. This little kid that took ZB's place (as in my opponent switched identities in the dream) kept trying to reset the board. I kept stopping him and trying to take a picture (of the board, so we could finish later). Then I saw the CoD commercial with drones. It turned into a Game. One of the main characters was hidden at t pain's house. Then it was a combination of zelda and star wars. There were normally red and green dots in the middle of the screen but a yellow one was added. It represented the dark side. Ingame I asked this chick about my parents. They were elements, and they were the most beautiful people she'd ever seen. Then I was about to face an evil guy. I kept hearing D C B flat D C B flat D C B flat G. In like a synth tone.

5-10
I was at my school in the hallway. According to AW, I couldn't just walk through the hallway without a pass because it was ranked season (in LoL) and people would kill me. I was with KL AW and some emo kid. AW had a really nice jacket. Emo kid told me to own hoodies. Like own the look. Then I was at some house with CJE (my ex) and some other chick that apparently was Also my ex. There was a ghost upstairs. The interior looked like my house. The ghost told me that she would see me again when I died because I'd escaped her. Then the kid was getting abused by her but then he started talking shit to her an she got scared. It involved pieces of gum. Then my dad was showing me porn. It was awkward so I told him to stop. I was also eating skittles in the car at one point and they kept falling on the floor. Then I was at some river cause someone was dead. It might have been CYN.

5-15
I dreamt that I was at MS's house to work on an assignment. KH was there but she was the only one working. A trojan commercial came on and it turned info a porno where I had sex with one of the chicks whose husband was ignoring her. MS did too. At the end we ate snow to get rid of the taste of semen (...). I saw CYN's Name in the snow But it said something else when i looked again. Afterward MC asked why i wasn't updating chrome. I said I thought it would be chrome chrome since firefox became firefox chrome (made sense in the dream). Bill had done something worthy of calling cops but idk. (I don't know anyone named Bill.)

Also I finally started working at a place where I almost got a job but it went bankrupt. I went there twice and I had to wear nice shirts. I couldnt find the dishwasher and it felt like everything around me was moving really fast and I couldn't do anything.

5-16
I was studying for art history. I was the homework before the test. Then I "woke up" and thought i missed it.

I was in a hospital. Pierce (from Community) was suspicious of doctors lying to him about his suspicious sleep behavior. I dont think they were. I think whoever the doctors were working with was preparing attack cause we were getting ready for battle and pierce was scared.

I was running up a hill past a parking lot after pierce and a doctor that looked like Castle stopped me.

Then threw was a parking lot that this guy was trying to sell titles to people. This is where pierce's doctors parked. At one point a bus/angry lolcat went through it. (WTF)

Then horatio was in my dream. He was saying something involving battle and he somehow made reference to the oath of the horatii (the painting by David). He had a sword and there were two on the ground. Then I said "alas poor Yorick. I knew him, Horatio" and he said "I'm not zac efron" implying zac efron played that part. Then he said something about a mountain referring to it as "it, " calling it beautiful. I told him the word "it" didn't do the mountain justice. Then he and a Ginger That took the role of the objector and protagonist started saying "it" back and forth in Brit accents using glottal stops instead of t's. Then Horatio said "why don't I just say 'you.'" and Ginger smiled and I remember saying something to my dog about it like we were watching a movie (I always comment to my dog during movies.).

Then there was a game where you stood in a slight bowl and picked up an earthbending disk and then had to get out. I think it was like tag. Idk.

Then someone said something bad about someone of a higher status implying they were "htp" which meant handicapped. Shit went down I think.

5-17
There was a house where you had to get through an obstacle course and then jump on the floor and back up through a door. Then I was in it with some sub as part of a class and there was a spider. I freaked out. I ran outside and BH offered to have sex with me. I said yes and then she said she was kidding and I said something about GS (her boyfriend). Then there was a programming class where someone was getting pissed at me for eating cookies.

5-18
I was the lead singer in a band at my school. VT was my guitarrist and DM was my drummer. I didn't know any of the songs. I wanted to do hot for teacher. Then there was something related to A Light Sleep (a movie I had watched the night before).

5-23
I dreamt that I was late for my English IB test. Also CHN did something but I waited too long to write this dream down.

5-24
KK and I had to read a script for a baptism. First we had to build a set like for a show, and it appeared to be in my room. There was a CD that we couldn't elet get scratched but KK kept scratching it. Also I broke something
There was this huge ass game to Get to the room And part ofi t required Me to answer questions quiz bowl style. I was too awake to speak for one of the questions so I mouthed it. It worked. Also after preparing for the baptism I went to sit down next to RK who turned into NM. She was being obnoxious so I left. I then went to the balcony and I waited next to a place where mom kept meds and where little kids were storing little pieces of gold for refining. Then when I went onstage I was wearing a retainer and there was a piece of food I couldn't swallow so couldn't say the words. I drank some water and couldn't find the page. Then the text was different from what I needed.

I dreamt that KK kelt trying to get more work at the place that she works for more money. Also something to do with VT3. We saw CG in a bikini and I asked if VT3 knew her. Then CV was driving my car around and she drove over a curb. Then We ended up at my house and I gave her one cent for something cause she said she didn't need Money. She somehow saved mt life. I was writing down my dream in the dream while I was driving. I wrote that CV saved me and I only gave her one cent. Aldo people kept giving me money for no reason. Then I kinda woke up and tried to become lucid but I was awaKe cause my reality checks failed and I realized the implications but i could feel my body in bed. I tried spinning but it didn't work. Then there were these four people going into some cave. One of them was a German foreigner. He had. Jewfro and sideburns. While he was going into the cave a white furry old guy kept stroking his hair. When he finally looked up, the thing climbed the tree it was in. Then LotR nerds said 네, hobbit, a waldorf, which was supposed to be the word for a hobbit's father. Then a dog that looked like GK's dog came down and it was supposed to be a hobbit. Then there was an ice rink where you were supposed to show off language skills. I remember thinking "how the fuck am I supposed to do that" and then I realized that I could talk about el Greco in spanish as I skated.

May 31
I went to a chess tournament and I told GP that it was the first tournament where I didn't throw games. Then a bunch of people were being relocated to houses where tons of peope were crammed in the same buolding. ED said she was scared and I realized I wasn't because it wasn't real. Then there was a piece of art where a lady spun around on her roll axis. She had anti Protestant things written on her. Then something important happened in pokemon.

6-1
Something about my alarm that was set to wake me up to go to an amusement park and something ending in 습니다 describing it.

6-1
GK's mom wanted us to wait for GK before something at the gable (I don't know what this is supposed to say. Maybe table.) cause she's insane and GK doesn't believe that it happened. Then I was with MS at a brown people tootle party (?) and there was something to do with a religion and being able to make things smaller and smaller. I thought a toy dog was holy for not doing this but some brown person did it. Then whoever I was with wanted to go learn how to dj.

Then something about Japanese having four words per sentence. (which obviously isn't true)

6-2
I dreamt that I was moving to another school and I had to pack eberything. I had to live with another family. I was crying. There was more but I didn't write this down for some reason.

Also I got a DUI and I feel like I didn't deserve it.

Then there was a room that was really small like 1.5 ft high. It was an iron maiden album cover. I was with other people and they couldn't all fit. There were like weeds and vegetation that had overgrown a room ad that's why it was so small.

6-3
RC was having a party. I was supposed to get pizza or something. Stuff kept happening to prevent me from getting there. I couldn't find the place. I winked at NW. Then I think I had sex with someone.

6-4
I had to do a surgery on my sister's cat. I had to stab him and remove air or something. I couldn't understand the instructions online. qq was a unit of measurement. I got pissed at my dad who was also House and told him to do it himself. Something happened about this in señor's room. Then there was a Tor booth with info about Tor. There was a camera recording who looked at it. Then I was with someone and we got in a fight with some black chick who won.

I was in KK's room at the street where I used to live and gherig found my porn folder on my old computer. There was CP that I didn't download so I freaked out. Then I was driving away from somewhere and a cop stopped me in a parking lot.

Then something really mystical and complicated happened. I knew it was a dream so I reviewed it in my head. Basically KK had a bunch of power and then DV4 used ice and stuff to counter her. There was a long narrow hallway where I woke up and tried to stay asleep by looking at my hands, but I couldn't see them.

6-5
I couldn't find my shorts at my school. I had just done PE and I was in the my middle school's lockerroom, and I didn't know where my normal shorts were. I was looking everywhere. Halfway through a hallway converted into this bridge where you could fall off. I ran into CHN halfway through and I was embarrassed to be in my gym shorts. I did something where I rubbed my nose on the wall by my chem room. I looked back at CHN and she laughed. I remember thinking "I'm being cute, not sexy." I finally went to my drama room and found my shorts.

I had been in the drama room because during drama we were playing wheel of fortune. Half of the wheel was white and said lose a turn, but it never landed on that half. I pointed that out to someone. I was spinning and people kept getting excited and touching the wheel Nd messing it up. So I got pissed and I kicked the wheel over and it broke into like 20 pieces.

Then there was a professional bowler who apparently beat Amon in a match. I saw her throw the ball sideways and curve it into another lane on the other side of the room. She didn't hit pins though.

I had another dream that CYN was alive again. CHN still couldn't walk. I don't know how it happened. (Wow I was not good at writing details...) [added 11-7-11] They were in a theatre. They didn't sit next to each other. One sat in the front and the other sat in the back.

Read the character descriptions in the summary of my dream journal!

(This is the first dream that I ever wrote down. I wrote it down because it scared me so much.)

I had a fucking creepy dream. Basically someone made like a robot or something that looked like CYN. It was programmed based on like videos of her to act like she used to. She was dressed in red and yellow. She was in a wheelchair but she could walk. I remember in psych she stood up to go sharpen her pencil and then made fun of CHN for not being able to walk on her way back to her wheelchair. I don't really remember, but I think MO (one of CYN's friends) thought she was real at first. She said something about "so I wasn't talking to my friend?" (like she was surprised). I also had a dream about my physics teacher trying to do musical chairs with CHN and people thinking he was an idiot (because she can't stand up). Before that I dreamed about how food bank people were gonna beat me up for eating their food. Added later: I remember more details even now, but I didn't write them down. The details were that I was trying to outflank someone running trough a field.