memorable

In my nightmare episode last night I was supposedly a dead person in the dream world.

It first started out where I had a aquarium tank that filled up the size of half a family living room in my house. I felt kind of odd looking at the fish in the tank, something felt 'fishy' almost like the whole reason I was ever looking at the tank was for that reason, So I could suspect my surrounding and really notice what was happening.

Something big happened to where the fish tank exploded and reality within the dream started to intertwine with other realities. I knew this was happening because everything seemed to be normal but then items in the room started to float/change/explode

I was then sitting in a backyard that I did not recognize as my own and it did not seem familiar either. The grass in the back yard was thick, dark and green, tangled, and tall. I was sitting in the back yard with other people. Then I really started to realize my surroundings. The weather was dark and gloomy, like during the day when it is going to rain. I then started to ask myself "where am I?" The people with me where ghosts/spirit and told me I was on the otherside "What is this place, who are you" I also asked but they didn't really answer. That is when I decided to jump this old brown picket fence that way taller than out into the front yard. When I did this something that looked like the gravelings from the tv series Dead like me jumped onto me and started to suck life out of me, even tough it seemed like I was dead already.

Before falling asleep last night I decided to smoke some medium-grade weed to see if it helped with meditation more than the high-grade weed I've been smoking. The reason for this is because all of the high-grades around here are body highs, which means they have a good THC/CBD ratio rather than the mostly-THC head highs of the medium-grades. Since THC works through CB1 receptors which colocalize with and also indirectly stimulate D2 receptors, I figured this would be a much better bet for achieving a dream state; THC-dominant strains also make me hornier and trip harder in a psychosis kind of way, all evident of dopaminergic effects. The CBD strains have anti-THC action and then add their own serotonergic effects, which is wonderful for getting high and probably even for meditating in a non-dream-related way, but that's not what I'm looking for here. The outcome was pretty successful, I didn't achieve a WILD or OBE or anything because I'm inexperienced and it was right before going to bed originally, but the vibrations did get very strong, I felt warm and tingly all over and I had basically melted into the flat surface of my bed. I also used a light machine the first 10 minutes of it, and that created some pretty intense patterns that were pushing the high into complex visuals like cascading faces. After I finally pulled myself out of that, I fell asleep.

Dream Fragment - "Flying in a jungle with N, commemorative dollar coins with jokes written on them, school/mall food court, Facebook, talking about shared dreaming?"

Lucid Fragment IV [DILD]

I remember becoming lucid based on the fact that something I said didn't make much sense, but I don't really remember what it was now. This wasn't an "oh no, another lucid lost to a fragment!" dream, I was just really tired when I woke up and I didn't think it was interesting enough to merit taking the effort to write it down. Yeah, I was feeling lazy.

Jello Cubes And Drugs [Non-Lucid]

In an auditorium, I was in a new class with lots of confusing things going on, and my mom was sitting next to me in some kind of stadium seating. She had stopped talking after some red jello energy cube showed up next to us. I was pretty high and I started playing with it, unsure of what exactly it was. I was also talking to some really drug-dealer-stoner-looking guy about a new powerful drug I was planning to synthesize, and my description was complete with cartoony breakthrough visuals with bugs and galaxies and veins and blood vessels and etc., and I was saying it could basically either make you trip balls or it could kill you, we just don't know yet. The visual was pretty intense! That part of the conversation happened as we were walking through a hallway somewhere after leaving the auditorium, but I can't remember much after that now.

First Experiment [Sleep Paralysis]

After I woke up I got on DV and checked new threads for probably not longer than five or ten minutes. Upon checking the Post pictures of sexy hawt females thread, it occurred to me that I still hadn't officially reset my counter to zero for the one month of no masturbation challenge, and I was finally in the mood to do so. So that was fun.... Afterwards I thought about how long it had been since I originally woke up, and decided what better than now for a WBTB experiment? I got out my bong and smoked some more of my medium-grade weed, then positioned myself lying on my back in the bed, facing up.

At first I just felt extremely relaxed and zoned out. Then I started getting some mild hypnagogia coupled with delirium, i.e. thinking it was actually happening, but only a little bit. The first thing I remember is repeatedly thinking that I was walking into my bathroom and looking into the mirror, but still being faintly aware that I was really still in bed. There was more than that, but it's hard to remember now. After a while I got lazy and intended on giving up, so I flipped over to my side.

Suddenly, there was a large number of things going on in the room. First, the TV was on, I couldn't see it but I could hear it quite clearly. I don't remember what was being said. Second, my cat was meowing loudly in my room, and I couldn't see him either. Third, my mom was telling me something about my cat which I don't remember now. Same story, heard but not seen. And fourth, I was on DV talking to StaySharp about everything that was happening. Throughout all of this I was aware that this wasn't actually happening, except for the thing about DV. I was able to completely open my eyes and think at least somewhat lucidly. "Okay... I can't move.... So I'm in sleep paralysis? Alright then." With eyes open everything was dreamy and extremely distant, as if it was being perceived but not really processed. I looked at my laptop (which wasn't even actually there) and saw it start floating around the room, shrinking and growing in only one direction as it did so. There was a mild sense of "That's not right....", and then I closed my eyes again. I was back in my bathroom, looking in the mirror. This image wasn't completely solid, it was like 90-95% there, basically enough for it to be a fully structured dream sequence but with me still maintaining bodily awareness. I had a baby carrier positioned on me so that the baby would be in front of me, covering my chest and stomach, but there was no baby in it. Instead, there were two long, feminine, and beautiful legs protruding downward from somewhere in it that's hard to recollect now. I could also hear the voice of my cousin K talking about how I was going to turn into her or something, but I think it might have been more of my train of thought than something that was actually happening. This weirded me out a bit and, without fully comprehending the situation, I decided that I'd had enough of this. I opened my eyes again and just stared at the wall with the intention of ending the whole experience, and before long the dreamy feeling faded away, and I could move again.

I'll certainly be using this weed for more experiments in the future!

I was standing in my driveway, looking at the blue sky. I noticed a couple rainbows crossing the heaven, then some more, and then it started whirling around with pretty rainbow-colored stripes, getting more and more intense. By the end it looked like a new years eve, except it wasn't fireworks, it was both small and large trails of rainbow flying around in the sky in their own small patterns of curves, circles and stripes. I was amazed by the sight, and looked at my father who stood beside me. He gave out a laugh and said "just wait till it gets covered". I looked at the moon who was right above us for a couple seconds. It was a big full moon, which is odd considering the sky being blue. Then all of a sudden, it was as if all the light in the world disappeared - at least from the visible area. It was as if someone turned off the sun. I fell to the ground. There was nothing but complete darkness. You couldn't see anything. The moon was dark, but had a bright halo around it. A good 10 seconds passed before the light turned on again, and I woke up.

Dream; Semi-Lucid; Lucid; Memorable; 1-4 My Recollection;

Woke 4:30am
My brother had the tv on while I slept.
Going to bed at sunset.

2; I fell into sleep a bit restless. I slept very warmly and deeply. Some way through I became conscious of being in a deep dream but wasn't lucid. It picked up along the course of my brothers army training. I remember training and the next thing my brother smiled at what was happening.. Deep in the ocean I was set among other people scaling a cement wall, with weighted gear under the water. Climbing the structure, it became electrified and we endured our way through the SHOCK, and up the ocean wall to the top which became another dream outside of the water. It ended as I watched someone finish.. The next dream celebrated.



here there's sunlight

I finally did it.

Basically, I was in school, which seems to recur in my dreams, and as I was walking between to lessons, I thought, "it's the holidays, there is no school" my dream self performed an RC and I could breath through my blocked nose. I then thought, I'm dreaming. at first I had little control and kept walking to my next lesson, then I kept repeating, I am dreaming, I am in control, and I eventually gained total control. I couldn't teleport, but I wondered around the school, and because I had no urgency to get to lessons, nor did the others.
I discussed with one of my teachers about the fact that I was dreaming, and then he pointed out the floating island directly above us. I explored the school and even spoke to some friends, but I can't remember what I said, nor what they said.
The dream ended when I saw the floating island flicker, disappear, then reappear until I woke up.

A very strange, yet rather fun experience.

I wasn't going to deal with insomnia last night, I was too tired and too cranky. So I had a drink before bed, and as a result my dreams were pretty scrambled when I woke up this morning (er, afternoon, because I slept so well I slept in an hour and a half longer than usual, lol)

Dream One (Fragment): I'm on a boat (and now that songs going to be stuck in my head, ha ha. ) it's not a tiny one, but it's not a big boat either. It's about the size of a larger boat you'd find on a river, or a smaller boat you'd find in the ocean. Like personal boat size (not cargo sized, lol) and I'm moving things around on the boat. For some reason I think that this is my job.

Dream Two (Fragment) : I'm in a wagon, being pulled by horses! I'm in the back, and it's uncovered. The driver is a chic with long brown hair. There's a guy with short blond hair in the back with me. Something is chasing us, actually it looks like a bunch of somethings, lol. We decide we have to jump to safety, and let whatever keep chasing an empty wagon. I'm scared to jump at first, but then I see some Bandanas in the wagon and decide I can tie them together to make a little parachute to slow my descent so I'm not injured. I tell the guy, and he thinks this is a really good idea. He takes the bandanas, and ties them for me, then hands them to me and tells me to jump first. He says if there's enough distance between us and the enemy that I need to run back to the wagon and give him the bandana so he can jump, but if the enemy catches up to the wagon I am to stay in the woods. I nod, and notice the wagon is closer to the woods now than before, the girl is giving me the best possible chance of making it to a place I won't be seen or can hide. I take a deep breath and jump, I float for a few long seconds, then land perfectly. I turn around and see the wagon, but the enemy has stopped chasing it, so I run to catch up and give the guy the bandana so he can jump. The wagon slows down just as I realize I will never be able to run fast enough to catch up to it, then it stops completely. I grab the back of it and drag myself in. I realize when I'm in the wagon that the guy is gone! I ask the girl driving the wagon, and she clucks on the horses and we start taking off really fast again. She tells me that he knew I wouldn't let him jump out to go stop our pursuers, so he came up with this elaborate plan for me to jump then run back to the wagon to give him the bandana so I wouldn't be on the wagon to see him jump off and run to face the enemy, but he knew I'd end up either in the woods hiding safely or on the wagon getting the heck out of there while he held them off. I'm pretty distraught over this, I tell the girl we need to go back to get him, but she says no, we're already too far an almost to our destination and he wouldn't want us to go back and put ourselves in danger. Then we're coming up to this giant log wall with a log gate. The gate opens and the girl drives the wagon through the gate. Inside, there are a lot of people and even non human Star Wars style aliens. The wagon is going slow now, so I jump off again, but when I try to go back I realize the gate is closed and I can't get back out to go help the guy. I turn around, very disappointed and start back for the wagon, but it didn't go the direction I thought it had. I think I'm lost, but then a wagon (not sure that it's the same one) pulls up to my left and instead of the brown haired girl it's my BFF. She offers me her hand and helps pull me to the drivers seat of the wagon with her rather than leaving me in the back like cargo as the other girl had done. She starts telling me as the wagon weaves through the city that we're ready to try to sign up again. I have a vague memory of trying to enlist in some sort of small army or something, but her not having something necessary so us both not signing up b/c I wanted her with me. I ask her if she has what she had forgotten last time, and she does. I'm really happy with her answer, I'm excited to join whatever cause we're signing up for, together. She stops the wagon, and we walk over to this little white fold up table with two people in casual clothes sitting behind it. There's already a guy with dark hair singing up, but one of the ladies behind the table asks if she can help us. She looks younger than me, maybe even still a teenager. Ambies tells her we want to enlist, and then she asks for something and Ambies gives her a bunch of papers. The woman/girl takes the papers and starts flipping through them. Then she says she's not sure what kind of job Ambies qualifies for, but that they have a spot reserved for me because I'm highly qualified for this fight. I shake my head and tell her no, I want to fight with my best friend or not at all. She kind of twists her face like she's trying to figure out how in the heck she can manage that, then the second woman at the desk says, "They're both short, We could put them on to help us with the faeries." The girl isn't sure how to do that, so the woman tells her to take Ambies to see someone and they'll arrange it. Then the woman hangs a sign from the table saying they're out for lunch before walking back to me and saying, "It's been a while? How have you been?" I suddenly recognize her as my teacher, but I don't in waking life recognize her at all, lol. We start waking towards a window, and I'm telling her how it's going ok, I just feel really stressed out lately. She nods and tells me that it's hard sometimes to juggle a normal life, but that she knows I can do it. Then, looking out the window I see a white truck drive on a lawn, the driver throws four yellow daffodils out the window in anger, and speeds off. The flowers look so sad broken and scattered on the ground with a white ribbon streaming in the wind where it can't quite be blown free from the weight of the three flowers on top of it. The woman tells me that the man is unhappy, she says that she told him she wasn't interested in him romantically, and he was so upset over it that he left our cause. She says more that I can't exactly remember, but the lesson I took away from it was that we should follow what we believe in, and not fight for a cause just because someone close to us is. I figured this had something to do with me not wanting to join without Ambies, and that if I really believed in the cause I shouldn't need my best friend to back me up. If I only do it for her, then if she leaves or we have an argument, then I'm likely to end up like the man who left because my teacher didn't share his romantic interests. The teacher asks me what my jobs were right now, and the dream fades with me watching out the window thinking of logs and how they must have cut them to build the fort. I apparently ignored her question, lol.

Dream Three: This one is really confusing to me and very broken up so I'm apologizing in advanced for how confusing it is. It starts out I'm walking through a hallway with a mane and a woman and a little girl. The little girl seems to be around ten or so, and has light blond hair like my daughters. I don't think she's my daughter though, and she seemed really quiet and distant, like she was depressed and in her own little world or something. We pass by a little alcove like area, and there's a car wrecked inside the building. There's someone inside the car dying, and a man trying desperately to get the woman out. The woman I'm with says she can save the woman with a spell. Her and the man I'm with tell the other man that he needs to take the little girl somewhere and let her show him the things the woman needs for the spell. In reality, it's a ploy to get the man away from the car so the woman can work her magic without someone else's energies interfering. The man I was with walks outside with the other man and the girl and me. The other guy and the little girl get in a car an start to drive away. Then the man I am with says he forgot to tell them to park in the right pattern so they don't accidentally park in the energy field when they return. The he's pretty sure the little girl will tell him so it's ok. Then, (this is where the dream gets uber confusing) the guy takes my hand and starts to walk me out of the parking lot and down the street. The dream shifts completely. The busy street in front of the hotel becomes a quiet back street in a quiet little town. It's no longer dark, but now bright and sunny. I look at the guy, and realize he is Kurasawa, but I fail to become lucid at this revelation because he's talking to me. He's telling me that he's some sort of caretaker. He says it's his job to cut the grass, tend the flowers, deal with trees that fall down around the city. Then he tells me that another lesser known part of his job is to help the elderly in the area. I think he says these elderly people are council members or something. He tells me this is how me met someone, the old woman who introduced him to this whole world? He says she needed something fixed and he was sent to fix it. He gestures to a house on a hill above the road with little steps and flowers on it. He looks really happy, and at peace here, like this is his second home kind of thing. Then he smiles at me and takes both my hands and says it's time to go back. When we turn and start walking again, it does goes from day to night in the blink of an eye, and the quiet road becomes the busy road in front of the hotel. I can see lights on the hotel's facade, and I know everything is the way we left it, only the woman is done with her ritual and the man's car is back so he and the little girl must be back. We walk into the hotel, and then just like that Kurasawa is no longer at my side. I'm with someone, but I think it's my BFF, and she's on my other side not the one Kurasawa had been on. I don't notice it being odd though. She's asking me about unpacking from my trip, but I tell her we're still at the con I'll unpack later. I see people wandering around in costume as if I'm really still at Animazement. I see a guy that I kept seeing during the con, it's not that he was in costume or anything, I just felt an over whelming energy sometimes and would turn to see where it was coming from and there he'd be. This happens on occasion with people, it's not negative or anything... it's just the seem to hold a lot more energy naturally than others. Any who, I don't feel the energy from him, so I know it's not the same person, and then I think to myself that I'm hungry. I tell my BFF that I'm going to get breakfast. I wander off on my own to one of the concession areas at the con. I ask the girl for cookies and bacon, but she tells me they're all out of bacon and gives me almonds instead. Then someone asks for strawberry cheerios, and she tells them all they have left to sell is almonds, everything else was sold out. I had bought the last cookies, lol. I turn to find a table, and see someone left a half eaten bowl of cheerios in pink milk on a table. I think those must be the strawberry cheerios, I've never heard of them before but I guess they make your milk strawberry milk. Then I wake up.

I slept so hard last night, probably because I didn't sleep much at all the night before, lol.

Awake|DreamingLucid

Not the only dream I remembered, but I only had time to get the notes down of this dream.

In this dream, I was walking down the local market with my cousin. We were talking about something which I can't remember. It was a nice day and the path was pretty busy. A group of 6 or 7 people walked out of a shop ahead of us and then walked around me and my cousin. Soon, 3 people walked out of another shop ahead of us. One was a guy, with long black hair (he looked similar to Nathan Explosion form Metalocalypse), the second was a young woman with average blonde hair and the last one, was the blue haired girl. This time she had only cyan hair an black clothes on. Still very beautiful though. I decided to part with my cousin and walk with the 3 people. At the end of the path was their black car. We got in it and it teleported us to a weird field. It was almost dark, it looked very similar to the wastelands on the game "Borderlands". We parted ways by splitting into pairs. The black haired guy and the blonde woman went as a pair and I was paired with the blue haired girl. Isn't that surprising? We then found a hole in one of the small hills of the field. We walked in and saw a "dead" woman chained to a dark stone-grey wall and another dead person lead face down on a dark wooden bench. This part of the dream rings a bell from a previous dream I had ages ago. We were looking around the room as if we were trying to find something, but instead I went up to the body that was face down on the bench and liften open the top part of the head. I said to the blue haired girl, "Want some brains? haha." She smiled at me then the "dead" woman chained to the wall jumped up and attacked us. Luckily, the other pair stormed in through the secret door and killed her...again. The guy also got attacked by the same red haired girl that lived in the tree in my previous dream, with the blue and read haired girls. She jumped on him and they kissed. Everyone was shocked. The blue haired girl said "Why would you do that?". The blonde woman was speechless and I was just observing, confused. The dream ended at this point.

This is the second time I have ran into the blue haired girl and the red haired girl. The red haired girl seemed more aggresive while the blue haired girl was nice. Maybe opposites?

The first dream I met this girl in can be found here

The red haired girl is in that same dream, but I feel more connected to the blue haired girl. I sure hope she is a Dream Guide.

Marrying an Old Bosses Daughter

I used to work for an insurance company. My manager was not nice. They had a son.

I was marrying the daughter of the owner of an insurance company I used to work for. The wife of the owner was going through all my old pay stubs which showed very little earnings. She didn't like that.

At first I didn't care, but then I thought, "Those are mine, they are personal, and I don't have to let her see them." We struggled as I tried to take them away from her.

Then we were struggling over my manuscript. I told her she should have just taken it when I offered it to her. Then her husband asked for it and I said, "OK."

Then they started telling their daughter she shouldn't marry me. I got very upset because I had spent a lot of money on the relationship. I thought if they didn't want her marrying me because I don't make much money, they should have spoken up before I'd invested so much in the relationship.

It is now 2:49 and I'm going back to sleep.

I'm glad I logged that dream ^ I completely forgot about it.

Looking to Buy a House


I dreamed that I was looking to buy a house with MJ, though his name was Desmond or something. It was the perfect house. I simple ranch, but the view was stellar. You could see the city from a distance of about 30 miles looking over to your right, then panning to the left there were some trees and a cliff face. Then off in the distance to the left, the view was a hundred miles. The lawn was huge. I knew I wanted to buy the house.

We walked down the yard and to the cliff. It was too steep to climb, and so was the wooded area next to it. I tried to climb it, but the plant life growing on it made me not want to put my hands on the rocks. IWL I don't care about dirt and muck, but this was weird plant life. I couldn't see what was in it and didn't want to venture it right then.

We went back to the house and found two wasp nests. I wasn't afraid of them, but I was thinking about how I would get rid of them.

The End

In with Special Forces?

I was with a group of people I don't know in waking life. We were in a restaurant eating at a booth. Someone started taking pictures of me. His flash went off with each picture.

I reached down for my camera, a 35 mm which I don't have IWL. I wound it and did something else to prepare to take a picture without the guy noticing, then stood up and chased the guy and took his picture.

He knew I was onto him, but he was spying on me. He thought I was involved in something that I wasn't. I had a special weapon, but I was out of my league.

I found a pen in my pocket. It was a basic looking pen that you push down on the back and the ball-point comes out, but this pen had special power. You could use it to make objects levitate, or to turn objects on and off.

I was not adept at this power. A colleague figured out that his pen had the power, and we were part of some team, so I had the pen, I tried it, and sure enough it worked. I made a glass levitate. I was supposed to not be obvious with this power, but it was amazing and I wanted to get better control of it. At one point I made two objects rise, then one fell. Maybe it broke.

Dream skip and I'm at a house. It is like a fraternity house of everyone who is similar to me in this group team thing. We are together, and yet there are differences.

The guy that was taking pictures has the face of a Latino Mechanic who ripped me off once IWL. He said that someone was going to do something in the financial markets. Now, I'm realizing that since it isn't me as I have nothing to do with the financial markets, maybe he should be taking pictures of someone else on my team.

One of my friends was about to talk to the team about the guy who took my picture. I told him not to say anything to anyone because if someone on our team is going to do something in the financial markets, then we don't want to give away the fact that someone is on to him, even though the guys efforts are misdirected towards me.

Although I considered the guy taking pictures of me to be a "bad guy," somehow, the guy on my team who might be involved in this conspiracy is also a "bad guy."

Now I look around the house and check out the view. I see pictures on the wall of the team in their work environment. It helps build the DC's character. Two guys bunk in the same room. Lots of people live in this house, all on the same team.

There is a party going, but there is a disturbing feature of possum/raccoon guts in the trash can. It as full of guts. Their are curtains hanging down getting dirty in them. I try to do something with them. At one point I am thinking of putting gun powder in the can and burning them.

Then, the guy who was taking pictures of me shows up. He is skulking around the house outside on a circular wrap-around porch. He scares me.

I look outside. I try using my pen to turn off the lights. Maybe it worked. I look down and there as a Mars Rover type vehicle rolling around. I try to turn it off, but it isn't working. The guy taking pictures of me is way out of my league. He takes a car from the garage, drives it down the yard into a lake. It's a freaking amphibious car. I can't turn the rover off and it follows him.

The End.

I've been flooding the posts. I'm new to the dream journal, so I didn't realize it would do that. Sorry. Here's a collection of relatively short dreams.


10-12-11 5:32 AM
I had a dream about a pedophile priest that was flipping books over whether ot not to rape little kids. (I think I meant like flipping coins, just with books) Also, KH was teaching me how to take down towers in LoL. She ran past two turrets that were almost dead and killed them both.


10-13-11 8:48 AM
I had a dream that I had a class outside and BAM always followed me when I walked to it. There was another important element, but I forgot because I waited too long. I remember there was gross liquid that I had to walk around. Whenever I went outside I would start climbing the door like a ladder.

10-15-11
I just dreamt that i was at wash u. The admissions person was excited about something because he'd been waiting for the moment for seven years. This was related to ocarina.

I had a dream that my dad stole money from a bus. Then obama was trying to figure out if there was information on a circuit board. Then I put all my stuff in a pedal plane but realize it's not mine so I take all my stuff out. But first I see other people in there and I think theyre trying to steal my stuff. So I count my money and it's all there. I remember the money looked real, even though it has text on it. Maybe I just looked at the president on it. The guy marveled at my Zelda wristband and wallet. I bumped the plane into one of obama's planes. I had my computer with me on the bus and a grey bag.

Then GM and GN (two chicks I know) wanted to know what they had to do to teach the lesson on the day I was gone. They caught me looking at their boobs. Something about analyzing kh2. I remember looking at a paper with questions on it. Thats weird because I could read thr questions (I thought it was weird because I expected not to be able to read text in dreams.). Then I was supposed to read quiz bowl questions to either GM or AA but I fell asleep doing it. Then there was a paper talking about how the quiz bowl tournament was canceled.

I also dreamt that I went to new Hampshire and rode the reindeer roller coaster at santas village.

I also dreamt that we used to have another dog named cookie crumb that died.

10-17-11
I had a dream that I was supposed to create an AI in LoL.

I had a dream that I was trapped inside a cave and I learned a Spanish word starting with c containing an ll. I don't remember why I was there. (pretty sure it was cullir which isn't a word)

I think I did a reality check and became lucid but I don't think it lasted very long. I remember looking at my hands. At the end of my dream I remember my physics teacher saying my country tis of thee.

I also had a dream about an Indian (like from India) funeral. They called me up to the front to say something, but I didn't know the person. They told me I had to use my phone outside of the building, and I couldn't being my coat into the room. I was also at GK's house I think but it didn't look like it at all. I met this Indian kid, but he looked white. I tried to ask him what I was supposed to do. I didn't want to sit between him and CJ.

10-19-11 5:36
I had a dream that I had dead spiders in my underwear. Also, I was walking around the hallways during lunch for some reason and CHN was in multiple places at once. I knew in the dream that it didn't make sense. Something about mountain dew.

(Forgot date)
I dreamt I was part of an awesome gang.

(Forgot date)
I had a dream that I was eating something at my school with chopsticks and then a waiter came and gave me more. It was supposed to be jv quiz bowl or something. SS was sitting next to this brown guy, but he was ignoring her and talking to his friend.

10-25-11
I had a dream that I was part of a movie where people are trapped in a house. It must have been like a game because I remember looking at everything through minimap. I became somewhat lucid at one point, because I remember thinking "I'll watch myself escape from the house." I also started rubbing something in the room so I wouldn't wake up. I climbed out the window. Peoples cars were stacked up somehow. I remember while I was escaping, i questioned the physics of it. This may have been while I was lucid. I escaped from the house at least three times. The first time I didn't know how to escape, so I went through the wrong door and something grabbed me and flew around with me. There was a cougar hitting on me. There were tables floating in the air and she was sitting at one. The last time I tried escaping, I heard someone yelling at some creature who I guess was supposed to be a slave for sucking at their job, and then grinding them in a meat grinder like thing. I was on the bottom level so I just ran to my car and drove away. Then I got killed like it was runescape and LoL combined. Two people were attacking me and I was trying to back up and eat at the same time so I wouldn't die. It didn't work.

10-26-11
I had a dream I argued constitution with an annoyingly nationalistic teacher. When I asked why she was stealing a student's phone to read it's messages she said it was bcause "here we enforce the law."'Then she started making bullshit points. I also dreamt that AA kept pausing quiz bowl questions. For some reason she was stripping. She had really saggy boobs.

Something about touching pillars and young goodman brown.

I also remember I made a plaster cast of MO's face. I distinctly remember feeling and inside of the mouth and it was wet, even though in the dream the cast was old. I remember making out with it. I was planning on putting my dick in it but then something happened and I needed to make a new one. I went to a store to have that happen. When I went to pay, there wasn't enough in my wallet, so I freaked out, decided to be an adult, and looked at the loose bills in my pocket. I had a 100 to buy the new one.

I think this next part was part of the same dream. I thought of it while I was in the shower. I remember reading CHN's diary. I don't remember what it said. I might have been CHN. I remember that CYN's diary was in the library for some reason and I was going to check it out. CHN's dad was there. The library was in a building that had been my parents' church earlier in my dream. I checked out a bunch of books, but I remember putting CYN's diary inside another book so people wouldn't see it. I don't remember why.

There was also something about NC (I think it was him, I'm not sure) driving like 110 on a city road.

10-29
I had a dream that KH was asking me questions about GTS's party. She then apparently looked on facebook and said I wasn't invited.

I also dreamt that we were driving around on the highway going somewhere important. I got a ticket from a cop because I was driving in the passing lane. It definitely had text on it. It definitely stayed the same as I looked across it. Then there was a bridge that was broken the first time I was going to the place, but it was fixed when I was going back. I also remember it was really scary driving. Just like when I was driving home from LC's house. I couldn't drive in a straight line.

10-29
I was at a luncheon and my drama teacher was extending the due date for something until Thursday.

The Jew in family guy was licking the zitty back of his girlfriends neck. He also made zit cookies and made me/Peter eat them. (WTF)

11-3
I was on a psych field trip and I was supposed to give an oral presentation about a star called primer. Then somehow I was playing LoL and CHN was my champion. Then I was stressing about my oral and I was thinking "I should probably do a reality check" because all the languages in my phone were fucked up (I have four keyboards installed, but I was seeing languages I hadn't downloaded like Cherokee and Lao). But I decided not to because I was in too much of a hurry.

11-5
I dreamt about a person making a staircase lower into death in a control box for a furnace. Then I dreampt about how weight is evenly distributed on Both sides of Ragen and i remember looking qr halls hanging down from them. (...) The person who made the staircase was an idiot. I also dreamt that señor had a LoL team and he was recording my playing.

11-6
I dreamed that I had a boner because I needed to pee. I also remember taking a walk because I didn't wanna get fat.

11-7
I had a dream that my sister's cat lost KK's purse and was looking for it. KK wasnt mad.
I had more dreams during one minute sleeps. I was gonna teach HS (a really hot girl I know) to love sex through some linear equation. Then CHN was wheelchairless on top of a building in the snow, making a video for something.
I also dreamt while I was awake that by lying there in bed I was metaphorically playing support sona. It doesn't make sense to me now.

11-8
I dreamt that I was playing support with Korean or something weird like that.

I had a dream that my school was acting out revelation (as in the book). A guy tried to get MC to do something based on the fact that he had a white name (even though he's Asian). The security guards were at the doors. I beat the shit out of KH for dome reason.

I do remember this. It was in some huge house. I was part of it. People were like actually experiencing the shit. I saw a person lying to my left and another in leaves or something in an alcove. The security guards were preventing people from leaving. They were in a hallway that looked like where I come in when I park in senior parking lot. I also remember coming down some stairs.

11-13
I dream that my old spanish teacher was picking point valueenrin. ((maybe that was supposed to say values, but nothing really makes sense).

HS was straddling me. I had a boner. We were talking about this other time that she straddled me. I remember thinking I didn't have a boner then and how I was pmsing. (I'm a guy, but by that I meant that I had been really horny all the time for the past few days).

11-15
I dreamt that I was part of some army. We might have been fighting against lions. I remember I thought what the lions were doing was good. Then when I woke up it was like I was two people and I thought we were gonna get out of bed to study revelation. The lions breathed a purple fog that made us sleep. Then there were hillers everywhere, like moles, and they were making a grid of holes.

So I dreamt that I was jacking off and that everything I thought of would show up in the same circle and create like a mutant image. I put GC soccer and s little girl in it. It was weird. I Aldo demented e (I must have fallen asleep again)

11-17
DM was telling me about how KH was really white while KH thought he was saying he looked her (I must have lost my train of thought here) my philosophy class went somewhere. On the last day the teacher paid us. He was wearing a bunch or nice shirtd ar once for us to have (as in he was simultaneously wearing like 15 polo shirts and he took them off for us to have). MS stomach bumped him. BK brought his own red shirt with brass buttons. Then I dreamt that runescape came out with a rabbit item and I wanted to hop over walls and do illegal stuff. Then I dreamt about a soap commercial that blamed I think a kid going to prison on the abundance of technology. I screamed "I hate hippies!" KK had the soap and I was in her apartment.

11-19
I dreamt that I was holding hands with DV during a show at my school. Also, some little Asian sibling of one of my friends somehow saw my scars (I used to cut) and asked me about it. I said it was from a biking accident.

I also gypped Spanish and went to hang out in my chem room. Senor was pissed at me.

11-20
I dreamt that I was about to prepare for my uchicago essay. I was in KK's car. DV2 (DV's little sister) and VT3 (VT's little sister; you'll meet VT1 and 2 later) were walking outside. I got out of the car in the middle of the road. I ran in front of it while it was still moving so she got a ticket. Alao someone from quiz bowl made an atomic bomb.

11-24
I had a dream that I was trying to access a machine by Typing in a six digit number. Then I was driving and I flipped my car by going though a hump. Then I was thinking about how I couldn kick people out of the auditorium to make out with VT2.

11-27
I dreamt that I was somehow working with a Mexican from YouTube.

12-8
There were these two girls feeling me up but I was awkward about it so they stopped.

12-13
First I was watching an MLP movie by myself in a theatre. It was bad. I was rocking back and forth in my chair and I felt bad because the people in front of me left. Then KH showed up. I told her I was leaving because it was about to become a judgment zone. So I left KH and exited the theatre. I remember CHN was probably there because I was thinking "what a judgmental bitch." Then Houdini (a nickname for a kid I know) and a drama kid with really straight sexy hair were playing a game called bugle. I asked them for RR and DM2 were and they pointed. DM2 was on the phone. Then Houdini turned into DM2 and asked me If I wanted to play bugle. Then a dragon spit out a conveyer belt and robots came out in it for some court case. The dragon started playing tetris and then used the blocks to form words. It brought out LoL champion like things and they were all found guilty. Then the dragon ran out of conveyer belt. The words on tetris said "play again?" then it was over.

12-13
I had a scary dream. I dont remember the premises but there were a bunch of little kids at my school for some reason and people were beating them up in a group as some sort of disciplinary action. Everyone thought it was justified. The ones I remember hearing about beating kids were DV3 WH and MC. My English teacher said that DV3 beating the kids was a beautiful thing. Some kid's mother had died. I don't remember how or if that was part of the same plot or not. But basically I was taking pictures of stuff like people's bruises and writing down what people involved said and everyone like my drama and psych teacher mad at me. My psych teacher said that there was a certain "expectancy" which I corrected to "expectation" for me to follow. I was taking pictures and she did one of her things where she tries to say why it's philosophically wrong. I just looked at her and said oops really sarcastically. Then my drama teacher said that like 53 or something people had vomited in response to an email I sent about it. There was a little boy that I talked to who appeared not to care until I mentioned his dead mother. There was also part of it when I was in a psych ward trying to escape with someone who may or may not have been a legitimate patient.

1-20-12 12:19 AM
I dreamt that people were watching pulp fiction as an example of a bad movie. Except it started with a redneck officer. He asked a question and the person said something that sounded like "si, yes" even though it was in English. The people watching were the people from community. Then I fell asleep on the way to school and I needed to call my mom for a jumpstart.

2-3-12
I dreamt that I was totally hitting on KS and she was going for it completely. Like I was hugging her and grabbing her hands while I was talking to her and she loved it. Also I dreamt that there was footage of a train accident in some place in Singapore called 심꾼심. (not a real place; I checked)

2-3-11
I dreamt that there was some kind of game where you had to be able to visualize three dimensional things to keep them in order. If you couldn't visualize them then they would start getting out of order. I was riding on a wagon that was fast and bumpy trying to keep a set of cubes from falling. I was with someone. This person went into a tangent that I could see about how they were better than me in which they slowed themself flying through space keeping track of a bunch of crazy shit. Also this game was similar to LoL. There was some game I played where I was surprised with everyone's thorough knowledge of the champs. Also there was part where I somehow compared a WPA handshake to sex and whoever was with me told a conservative chick. Then I was talking to TM about turning off the lights to make people shut up. I had something about las luces written on a piece of paper. (I don't understand this)

2-4
I dreamt that MC was talking about LoL in real life and like placing a ward at someone's house and just waiting there to kill them or something like that. Then someone was drawing the graphics for some kids' show and that became the dream. There was a clown who needed something so he got some mother to do "hollering" for him. Then there were stop signs everywhere. Also, people were somehow reborn a lot. Like this one chick got divorced and people still knew her but they introduced themselves. Also this guy said that a chick was married to a guy who died and now she's marries to a guy with the same name. I wanted to comment on how tragic that was even though I knew it wasn't but he explained the details of rebirth too fast for me to do that. (Idk if this makes sense. I think people couldn't die. So when the chick's husband died, and she remarried, she married the reincarnation of the guy who died. That doesn't add any meaning; that's just what I was trying to say when I wrote this down.)

2-12-2012 12:28 AM
I dreamt that KP was buying ringtones for 99 cents each. There was this hallway/vent where I either thought about or actual did take her and just start making out with her. Also, something about the software on the admin's computer at school and being able to fuck stuff up. I plugged something into the computer to provide data and it got knocked loose once. When I was coming back from KP, I did the animorphs think as a cockroach, except something was chasing me. I kept slowing down every time I tried to fly.

I had a dream about a game where you had to be Link (from Zelda) and do something to prevents this guy from blowing up the world. It was action adventure.

2-27
I dreamt that it was graduation and DV and I were hugging and crying and lying in the snow.

4-13
I dreamt that I saw GS and CYN walking down the street where I used to live. I said something about it to myself, and then I was like "oh shit the parents heard that. This is gonna be awkward." (because they were really awkward about it when she died). I knew that what I saw wasn't real but I didn't reality check. I looked specifically at her legs walking and thought "this isn't possible."

I dreamt that there was a guy who made himself a fish taco. He was gonna propose with it and it was gonna be his company's next product, but he ate it instead. The setting was in the basement where I slept.

CHN posted a Facebook status That said that she was pissed at my math teacher for saying something about her "little accident." she also said that due to "stem" issues (I meant spine) she felt brutal pain in her legs. Also I had a Lego thing where I had white blocks and a yellow cross. RC was messing with it. It's purpose was to throw a ball at it and try to knock down the cross. Then I played a gba game where the people shared the device. There were too many buttons. It was a race to the finish. Then there were guys who talked to me like i was in their gang. Also I was trying to find a picture of CYN on fb but all of the pictures looked wrong.

5-6-12
I dreamt that I was at VT's house. Her parents were Like ghetto and abusive. I had stolen 300 bucks from my old math teacher's desk that somehow belonged to PC. I was trying to gtfo with the money. But VT's mom was being insane. She wanted to be treated like a queen. She would kick me/VT at the same time for not
Using royal terminology. So I locked myself in BK's car to avoid her mother. But the money was inside the house. And I hadto get it. Another part, KH wanted to talk to me about why we wereent good friends. I lied and avoided it.

5-8-12
I dreamt that I was at a chess tournament playing against ZB. I was Losing slightly. I gave him the bishop pair. Then the fat dude who thinks he's a tournament director but actually doesn't know shit made us adjourn, but there was no envelope. This little kid that took ZB's place (as in my opponent switched identities in the dream) kept trying to reset the board. I kept stopping him and trying to take a picture (of the board, so we could finish later). Then I saw the CoD commercial with drones. It turned into a Game. One of the main characters was hidden at t pain's house. Then it was a combination of zelda and star wars. There were normally red and green dots in the middle of the screen but a yellow one was added. It represented the dark side. Ingame I asked this chick about my parents. They were elements, and they were the most beautiful people she'd ever seen. Then I was about to face an evil guy. I kept hearing D C B flat D C B flat D C B flat G. In like a synth tone.

5-10
I was at my school in the hallway. According to AW, I couldn't just walk through the hallway without a pass because it was ranked season (in LoL) and people would kill me. I was with KL AW and some emo kid. AW had a really nice jacket. Emo kid told me to own hoodies. Like own the look. Then I was at some house with CJE (my ex) and some other chick that apparently was Also my ex. There was a ghost upstairs. The interior looked like my house. The ghost told me that she would see me again when I died because I'd escaped her. Then the kid was getting abused by her but then he started talking shit to her an she got scared. It involved pieces of gum. Then my dad was showing me porn. It was awkward so I told him to stop. I was also eating skittles in the car at one point and they kept falling on the floor. Then I was at some river cause someone was dead. It might have been CYN.

5-15
I dreamt that I was at MS's house to work on an assignment. KH was there but she was the only one working. A trojan commercial came on and it turned info a porno where I had sex with one of the chicks whose husband was ignoring her. MS did too. At the end we ate snow to get rid of the taste of semen (...). I saw CYN's Name in the snow But it said something else when i looked again. Afterward MC asked why i wasn't updating chrome. I said I thought it would be chrome chrome since firefox became firefox chrome (made sense in the dream). Bill had done something worthy of calling cops but idk. (I don't know anyone named Bill.)

Also I finally started working at a place where I almost got a job but it went bankrupt. I went there twice and I had to wear nice shirts. I couldnt find the dishwasher and it felt like everything around me was moving really fast and I couldn't do anything.

5-16
I was studying for art history. I was the homework before the test. Then I "woke up" and thought i missed it.

I was in a hospital. Pierce (from Community) was suspicious of doctors lying to him about his suspicious sleep behavior. I dont think they were. I think whoever the doctors were working with was preparing attack cause we were getting ready for battle and pierce was scared.

I was running up a hill past a parking lot after pierce and a doctor that looked like Castle stopped me.

Then threw was a parking lot that this guy was trying to sell titles to people. This is where pierce's doctors parked. At one point a bus/angry lolcat went through it. (WTF)

Then horatio was in my dream. He was saying something involving battle and he somehow made reference to the oath of the horatii (the painting by David). He had a sword and there were two on the ground. Then I said "alas poor Yorick. I knew him, Horatio" and he said "I'm not zac efron" implying zac efron played that part. Then he said something about a mountain referring to it as "it, " calling it beautiful. I told him the word "it" didn't do the mountain justice. Then he and a Ginger That took the role of the objector and protagonist started saying "it" back and forth in Brit accents using glottal stops instead of t's. Then Horatio said "why don't I just say 'you.'" and Ginger smiled and I remember saying something to my dog about it like we were watching a movie (I always comment to my dog during movies.).

Then there was a game where you stood in a slight bowl and picked up an earthbending disk and then had to get out. I think it was like tag. Idk.

Then someone said something bad about someone of a higher status implying they were "htp" which meant handicapped. Shit went down I think.

5-17
There was a house where you had to get through an obstacle course and then jump on the floor and back up through a door. Then I was in it with some sub as part of a class and there was a spider. I freaked out. I ran outside and BH offered to have sex with me. I said yes and then she said she was kidding and I said something about GS (her boyfriend). Then there was a programming class where someone was getting pissed at me for eating cookies.

5-18
I was the lead singer in a band at my school. VT was my guitarrist and DM was my drummer. I didn't know any of the songs. I wanted to do hot for teacher. Then there was something related to A Light Sleep (a movie I had watched the night before).

5-23
I dreamt that I was late for my English IB test. Also CHN did something but I waited too long to write this dream down.

5-24
KK and I had to read a script for a baptism. First we had to build a set like for a show, and it appeared to be in my room. There was a CD that we couldn't elet get scratched but KK kept scratching it. Also I broke something
There was this huge ass game to Get to the room And part ofi t required Me to answer questions quiz bowl style. I was too awake to speak for one of the questions so I mouthed it. It worked. Also after preparing for the baptism I went to sit down next to RK who turned into NM. She was being obnoxious so I left. I then went to the balcony and I waited next to a place where mom kept meds and where little kids were storing little pieces of gold for refining. Then when I went onstage I was wearing a retainer and there was a piece of food I couldn't swallow so couldn't say the words. I drank some water and couldn't find the page. Then the text was different from what I needed.

I dreamt that KK kelt trying to get more work at the place that she works for more money. Also something to do with VT3. We saw CG in a bikini and I asked if VT3 knew her. Then CV was driving my car around and she drove over a curb. Then We ended up at my house and I gave her one cent for something cause she said she didn't need Money. She somehow saved mt life. I was writing down my dream in the dream while I was driving. I wrote that CV saved me and I only gave her one cent. Aldo people kept giving me money for no reason. Then I kinda woke up and tried to become lucid but I was awaKe cause my reality checks failed and I realized the implications but i could feel my body in bed. I tried spinning but it didn't work. Then there were these four people going into some cave. One of them was a German foreigner. He had. Jewfro and sideburns. While he was going into the cave a white furry old guy kept stroking his hair. When he finally looked up, the thing climbed the tree it was in. Then LotR nerds said 네, hobbit, a waldorf, which was supposed to be the word for a hobbit's father. Then a dog that looked like GK's dog came down and it was supposed to be a hobbit. Then there was an ice rink where you were supposed to show off language skills. I remember thinking "how the fuck am I supposed to do that" and then I realized that I could talk about el Greco in spanish as I skated.

May 31
I went to a chess tournament and I told GP that it was the first tournament where I didn't throw games. Then a bunch of people were being relocated to houses where tons of peope were crammed in the same buolding. ED said she was scared and I realized I wasn't because it wasn't real. Then there was a piece of art where a lady spun around on her roll axis. She had anti Protestant things written on her. Then something important happened in pokemon.

6-1
Something about my alarm that was set to wake me up to go to an amusement park and something ending in 습니다 describing it.

6-1
GK's mom wanted us to wait for GK before something at the gable (I don't know what this is supposed to say. Maybe table.) cause she's insane and GK doesn't believe that it happened. Then I was with MS at a brown people tootle party (?) and there was something to do with a religion and being able to make things smaller and smaller. I thought a toy dog was holy for not doing this but some brown person did it. Then whoever I was with wanted to go learn how to dj.

Then something about Japanese having four words per sentence. (which obviously isn't true)

6-2
I dreamt that I was moving to another school and I had to pack eberything. I had to live with another family. I was crying. There was more but I didn't write this down for some reason.

Also I got a DUI and I feel like I didn't deserve it.

Then there was a room that was really small like 1.5 ft high. It was an iron maiden album cover. I was with other people and they couldn't all fit. There were like weeds and vegetation that had overgrown a room ad that's why it was so small.

6-3
RC was having a party. I was supposed to get pizza or something. Stuff kept happening to prevent me from getting there. I couldn't find the place. I winked at NW. Then I think I had sex with someone.

6-4
I had to do a surgery on my sister's cat. I had to stab him and remove air or something. I couldn't understand the instructions online. qq was a unit of measurement. I got pissed at my dad who was also House and told him to do it himself. Something happened about this in señor's room. Then there was a Tor booth with info about Tor. There was a camera recording who looked at it. Then I was with someone and we got in a fight with some black chick who won.

I was in KK's room at the street where I used to live and gherig found my porn folder on my old computer. There was CP that I didn't download so I freaked out. Then I was driving away from somewhere and a cop stopped me in a parking lot.

Then something really mystical and complicated happened. I knew it was a dream so I reviewed it in my head. Basically KK had a bunch of power and then DV4 used ice and stuff to counter her. There was a long narrow hallway where I woke up and tried to stay asleep by looking at my hands, but I couldn't see them.

6-5
I couldn't find my shorts at my school. I had just done PE and I was in the my middle school's lockerroom, and I didn't know where my normal shorts were. I was looking everywhere. Halfway through a hallway converted into this bridge where you could fall off. I ran into CHN halfway through and I was embarrassed to be in my gym shorts. I did something where I rubbed my nose on the wall by my chem room. I looked back at CHN and she laughed. I remember thinking "I'm being cute, not sexy." I finally went to my drama room and found my shorts.

I had been in the drama room because during drama we were playing wheel of fortune. Half of the wheel was white and said lose a turn, but it never landed on that half. I pointed that out to someone. I was spinning and people kept getting excited and touching the wheel Nd messing it up. So I got pissed and I kicked the wheel over and it broke into like 20 pieces.

Then there was a professional bowler who apparently beat Amon in a match. I saw her throw the ball sideways and curve it into another lane on the other side of the room. She didn't hit pins though.

I had another dream that CYN was alive again. CHN still couldn't walk. I don't know how it happened. (Wow I was not good at writing details...) [added 11-7-11] They were in a theatre. They didn't sit next to each other. One sat in the front and the other sat in the back.

Read the character descriptions in the summary of my dream journal!

(This is the first dream that I ever wrote down. I wrote it down because it scared me so much.)

I had a fucking creepy dream. Basically someone made like a robot or something that looked like CYN. It was programmed based on like videos of her to act like she used to. She was dressed in red and yellow. She was in a wheelchair but she could walk. I remember in psych she stood up to go sharpen her pencil and then made fun of CHN for not being able to walk on her way back to her wheelchair. I don't really remember, but I think MO (one of CYN's friends) thought she was real at first. She said something about "so I wasn't talking to my friend?" (like she was surprised). I also had a dream about my physics teacher trying to do musical chairs with CHN and people thinking he was an idiot (because she can't stand up). Before that I dreamed about how food bank people were gonna beat me up for eating their food. Added later: I remember more details even now, but I didn't write them down. The details were that I was trying to outflank someone running trough a field.

I have 3 dreams to share, happened this past week. Been having a dry-spell til recently (practicing ADA, helps a lot).

The Monastery Date: 6/2/12
I was with two females. I was female myself in this dream. It was dark outside, cloudy, mucky, generally nasty looking. The two females and myself were wearing skin tight suits (not latex or anything, something along the lines of evangelion suits.). We worked with some private company or government of unknown origins. For some reason, our mission was to find some type of artifact in the Monastery (as it looked). It was a dark building with a spire and a few colored windows. While searching through the building, we must have triggered a trap because giant stone guardians we looking to fuck our shit up. We were not equipped with any weapons, thus we split up and hid. I found a nice dark corner behind a wall of glass that had vertical white plastic blinds hanging down them. I knew one was following me and smelling for me. However, on the opposite corner of the room, another one appeared and as it turned its head around, scanning the room, I ran out the nearest door and hid under a large stone table where it was dark. To my surprise, the other two females were there, though they were very battered. We called in two medics to assist us. -End-

Plains of Clouds Date: 6/5/12
Very strange area in my dream. The sky was overcast, yet the clouds were about 10 feet off the ground (~3 meters). I witnessed a strange phenomenon, however. The underside of the clouds were a bright, golden yellow, as if the sun was shining from underneath; the sun could not be see. People had ladders leaned against the clouds and were climbing on top of them. The clouds seemed so dense, you could walk on top of it, as if they were solid.

Star Ocean Battleships Date: 6/6/12
Several others and I were on some raft, like a military raft about to board onto a ship. The ships we were about to board were huge, about twice the size of a U.S. aircraft carrier. I do not know the ship class however (freighter, carrier, frigate, battleship, etc..). The ships were in front of us, one on our left and right. The ship on our right was a silver-blue with strange sails underneath the ship, as its mode of transportation. The ship on our left was red with beige lining and seemed to float like a normal ship. I could not tell whether the ships were fighting each other, or meeting face-to-face. Both seemed to sit there, about 150 meters apart. There were little islands to the north-east of the blue ship. It had small islets that you could walk on and a rocky shallow that was about a couple inches deep that bridged the mini isles. As our raft approached, a "woman of the sea" boarded our raft. I say this because she came out of the water, randomly. No one on the raft seemed to care, and she found a seat next to me. She was naked, yet beautiful. I couldn't make her out in detail because the sky was dark, filled with bright stars. Our craft landed and the crew that was with me seemed to disappear. The woman and I walked across the islands where we passed a cabin that was filled with warm light. We did not enter the cabin, for it was not ours, and we instead walked around it onto a longer stretch of island. We proceeded to have intercourse, though I do not remember what caused this to happen. It was dark and I couldn't see where she was in terms of her position atop of me. As I grabbed my genitals so I could insert into her's, I could feel her, what I presumed to be, vagina against the back of my hand. It felt accurate in detail. Then we proceeded to do what mammals do best, in terms of production.

These dreams were semi-lucid, I could feel parts of the dream yet I had no control over them. I was not even prompted to do the reality checks because they felt natural and real, regardless of the situation. I am practicing ADA to overcome this problem.

1) WILD thinking about finding Katsuno or Atras. Pool area. Lucid. Yell out "Katsuno" to all the people. Same charged energy feeling my body as last time. Young man, brown haired? tells me that Katsuno normally doesn't usually like being outed in public. Introduces himself as KlausTech. Shake his hand. I call myself AnimusMessor149, correct myself. Say that 4 is pretty much the same as 7. He agrees with me and I ask C or K. He looks confused so i clarify that i'm looking for how he spells his name. Says it doesn't matter. Everyone in the pool area has been bound and gagged now, except myself. Klaus disappears. Turn around to find military types in navy blue uniforms. I believe they are armed with hand guns. Two police in gray outfits. I use tk to slash the military people and knock the heads of the police. Pick up a girl out of the water and carry her to solid ground. Start crying. Dead? Old theater teacher comes in (Room now looks like a living room with tv and carpet. She says she's now in mil-crime (military-crime). I giggle and say I like the word, though she seems surprised. Talks about love and how I don't use her as a contact for jobs. I counter by saying that seems exploitive. She talks about Captain Jack Harkness smoking pot.

2) WILD. Street with a bunch of friends. They race apparently to see who is my best friend. One turns around and gives up soon and the other runs on. The one who quit starts talking to me and I tell him to bug someone else. Stone buildings, market district-like street.

3) At a school somewhat like my high school. Outside alley area. Parked my car weirdly and at one end. Friends are around. I am lucid and using powers. Flight and phasing mostly. Being chased. Flight is controlled by the orientation of my head, either bolting straight up in the air, floating back down, or forward. Very serene. Dream skips and we're practicing energy work (One may have left). I see the energy as three motes of light. One's energy is compact while mine is large and unrefined. Get frustrated and stop. A friend's dad picks us up and drives us out. Gate covers an exit and I tell him he can't get past there but it open. My friend tells me I'll have to come drive my car back and get my phone in the morning. FA to me checking that my phone is nearby.

I've been under a lot of stress after moving into the new home, so I can see why I haven't been having any good dreams lately. I finally have access to my computer after the move, so I can put in my dream from the other night. I've been having realistic non lucid dreams lately.

Dream 1:
I was at my parent's house down in the basement. My brother and his gf were there and she had made a seven layer pink cheese cake. My dad was cutting the cake and I remember I asked for a good sized piece. It was pretty tasty. I suddenly said to myself, "this is a dream." and I became lucid. I floated up the stairs and was so happy to have a lucid dream that I could feel myself drifting out of lucidity. I remember reading that I should spin in a circle and for some reason that should work and it did for a bit, but eventually i did wake up. (So I closed my eyes, relaxed and tried to have another lucid dream).

Dream 2:
I fall asleep quick and start dreaming right away...I find myself at my grandparent's house (all my grandparents have passed). In my dream at first my grandpa doesn't look like my grandpa but I know it's him. Hard to explain...anyways as I'm walking into the kitchen I again tell myself, "this is a dream." I get excited and decided to talk to my grandpa. (I had read to talk to the ones you love in your dreams and what not to get answers you are seeking blah blah blah so I thought I would try it out.) I ran up to him and gave him a hug. My grandma wasn't there. I asked him how he was doing and that I miss him. I asked him were grandma was. He said she wasn't here at the moment but he would tell her that I said hello. He smiled at me and said he was proud and said he had to go soon. So I turned around and decided to go out to the garage and think of something to do in my dream. I walked out side and it looked like my grandparent's garage and then as i walked out to the yard the street became an old fashioned location. People were riding buggies and horses around. I decided that it would be fun to ride a horse. I kept asking my dream to give me a horse but nothing happened. I saw a police officer and ran up to him and asked him if he could help me find a horse. He was friendly in my dream and so he waved down this woman riding a horse. She stopped for a second and said she couldn't give me the horse. I noticed I was getting frustrated and I was afraid it would wake me up so I gave up on riding the horse. It began raining and so I walked into a building with the policeman. He was following me around for some reason and I couldn't get him to leave. I looked out the window and I noticed that there was an ocean and it was about to storm. The skies were getting very dark and I noticed I started to feel frightened. I walked outside and asked my dream to make it sunny again. It took my several attempts to get the sun to come out but when it did it was so beautiful. I woke up...

Dream 3:
I was in my car driving home from work. Very realistic, so realistic that it took me awhile to realize if I was dreaming or not. I did become lucid because I realized again I was dreaming. However, I didn't know where I wanted to go and since I was already in the car driving, I found it hard to control the car once lucid. It was too much to handle and so I think that's what woke me up.

Too much conversation.
Some things are going to be phrased incorrectly etc, I tried to patch it up as well as I could.
Usually I use pink and brown to color code female and male DC voices, but there's 2 women this time,
so I'll use pink and green, pink being Yuya.


There's no more messing around.
Going anywhere but Haven feels dangerous.
Whenever I'm on the plane I can feel the Templars scanning for my aura.
It is inevitable that they will find me if I linger for too long.
Haven is one of the only places I feel safe. The barrier prevents them from locating my aura when I'm here.

But I cannot remain here forever.
Not only am I imprisoning myself here until I tackle the Templar issue, I'm doing the same to Yuya.
The Templars are after her as well.
In fact they're probably after everyone, the whole team from back then... back when lucids still came naturally to me.

There is only one solution.
I will fight them.
But not alone; that would be utter suicide.
I will gather the old team, the team with whom I fought the evils of this world back in the days.

I feel like a hero, about to embark on a long and difficult journey.
First I will gather a team capable of surpassing the strength of the Templars.
And then I will have to come up with a plan to beat them.
Because this is what I do. This is what I have always done.
Regardless of how much more powerful my enemy is, regardless of what it takes, I will beat them.
Because I am dragon.

"So... who will we find first?"

It is scary being in company of a serious Yuya.
I'm used to her playful and innocent self.
Not the one capable of carrying the weight of a world.
The whole atmosphere has changed.

"Silver?"
"... No. We will find Silver last. I'm not sure how to convince him to join us yet."
"Will he not want to join us?"
"I'm not sure. Back then he fought with us to pay for his sins. But he has already given back so much to this world."
"True..."
"I will convince him. You know I have my ways with words."
"Yes. If there's anyone who can motivate him it is you. You're the only one he listens to."
"So, if not Silver..."
"Shinave"
"..."
*sigh*
"You're making me meet her again huh?"
"Yes. We will meet with the goddess of ice."
"Alright then... I know where she is. I sure hope you know what you're doing."
"Probably."

I most certainly do not. Why is Yuya somewhat reluctant to meet with her again?
Did we part on bad terms?
Meh, it will come to me eventually.
These memories have a habit of popping up whenever I need them lately.

Yuya opens a rather odd looking portal and it seems to take her quite a considerable amount of energy to do so.
Right... we'll mask our auras. It should buy us enough time for a meeting and to get back before the Templars find us.
We hop through the portal and end in a rather odd looking place.


It's an old temple of sorts. Parts of it are covered with rather beautiful ice crystals, but most of them are broken.
Right. The goddess of ice. Or rather the person who used to be the goddess of ice.
Back then two gods fought together with us.
The goddess of ice: Shinave; and the god of fire: Ifrit
Yeah... there was 6 of us I think.
The 3 gods Shinave, Ifrit, Yuya, and Silver, Selene and myself.
I will reunite all of us... somehow...

We walk through the old temple, searching for Shinave.
I have a feeling that she's here somewhere, even though I cannot sense any aura besides Yuyas and my own at all.
I can feel the Templars scanning the entire plane though.
Their searching pattern reminds me of that of a computer rather than that of a sentient being.
They are perfectly coordinated.
But it will take them hours to track me down with my aura masked.

"You have some guts to show up here after what you've done."
"Indeed..."

The voice coming from behind caught me by surprise, but I'm not showing that I was off guard.
I turn around slowly and full of confidence.
Shinave.


Her eyes look young, but she's clearly older than Yuya or myself.
She has long white hair, deep blue eyes, very similar to Yuya's, and a rather pale skin.
A wise woman, once one of the most well known gods.
But now she lives in a seemingly abandoned temple.
And somehow I get the feeling that it is my fault.

"How are you?"

She answers me with a small hand gesture that's not really saying much.
Is she mad at me? Is she mad at us?
I feel that she is in some way, yet it also feels like the complete opposite.

"And how are you... Yuya?"
"I'm alright... mother."

mo... Mo... I... wait what?
Nonono.
Oh shit.
Fuck my life.
Goddess of ice, goddess of water... yeah. Am I fucking retarded? How did I not remember that.
And I have... with Yuya... oh my god...
Yeah, I might be screwed.

"You haven't talked to me in a long time."
"I have not. Not after you suggested that I shouldn't try to bring Hyu back."
"It was a bad idea."
"Yet here I am."
"Yet here you are."
"I guess I should be impressed that you managed to find your way back after what happened."
"I should also kill you for what you have done."

She approaches me without changing her facial expression.
I'm at a complete loss. I can't tell if she's serious.
Well. She is. But there's something more. Something she isn't telling.
She stands right in front of me and stares into my eyes.
I don't blink.

She hugs me tightly.
What?

"I hate you Hyu. I hate you so much."

She starts crying and grabs more tightly onto me.
I'm getting mixed signals here.
But somehow I understand. She wants to hate me, but she can't. She cannot help but love me for whom I am.
She looks deeply into my eyes again.

"You've sent my daughter towards certain death you know."
"Stop! It's too early."
"No."
"Yes it is! It is too early for him to remember!"
"Maybe. But there's no choice. He must remember."
"And then what? What if he does remember?"
"What if he realizes that he has cheated? Then what? What if he dies if he remembers that?"
"If he abides by the rules then yes, he will die."

... yeah.
I don't like everything I'm hearing, but I do want to know.
And I am so close. I can remember parts on my own. The puzzle is fitting itself together as we speak.
A tiny nudge in the right direction and I'll remember everything.
I look at Yuya and say reassuringly:

"Am I the type who abides by the rules?"

She can't help but smile for an instant, but then quickly puts on a serious face again.

"It's too soon."
"Yes. And bringing him back is impossible, yet here he stands. And yet here you stand."
"..."

I'm beginning to remember on my own.
Because I need to remember.
Because now is the time to remember, even though Yuya suggests otherwise.

"We all fought together. We fought many evils. But there was one we simply could not beat."
"... the Templars."
"13 of them there were, and only 6 of us, but that was not the issue."
"The issue was that one of them was a true immortal, and the 12 others had their lives linked to him."
"All 12 of them were unkillable as long as the 13th was alive. And he had perfected the art of combat."
"He was supposedly unbeatable. And even if he would be killed, due to his immortality he would just resurrect."
"Yes..."
"So I came up with a plan."

"You did come up with a plan."
"You always did, regardless of how hopeless the situation was."
"But this plan I did not like."
"This plan I did not like."
"But it was yours."
"It was mine."
"I didn't choose it because it was a good plan, I chose it because it was the only plan."
"Indeed..."

... what a horrible plan it was.
I have trouble saying the words, but they must be said.

"... Yuya would give her life to allow Silver to cast the ultimate spell."
"I would hold the Templar in place."
"And Silver would kill him with this spell, and the both of us in the process."

...

"This would send the Templars soul to hell. Because that's where immortals go."
"But immortality means you only have to spend a single minute, and then you are reborn."
"And I have the phoenix wings. I can move through the realms. I can go to hell once I am dead."
"Even after dying, my soul should have an afterglow of energy, enough to go there and challenge him."
"One minute to do the impossible. One minute to kill the soul of the only one who ever perfected the art of combat."
"And all of that without any energy left."
"But if I would kill his soul, he would truly die. You cannot be reborn without a soul."

"The plan was ludicrous. All of you would die for certain, for a glimpse of a chance to do the impossible."
"But it would cripple the Templars for years."
"It would... And it has."
"But things did not turn out according to your plan."

"Fortunately they did not. If they did we would be dead."
"So how did you kill him? And how is my daughter still alive. And how are you?"

...

"How I won the fight in hell... I truly do not know."
"I do not believe in miracles. But if they do exist, then this was one."
"We were joined in hell by our swords, and fought for a full minute without any energy."
"A true old-fashioned sword fight."
"I didn't stand a chance of course. He had figured out the perfect technique."
"But for some reason beyond me, as we danced in the fires of hell with our swords clashing..."
"..."
"I stabbed him in his chest."
"He never made a mistake, there was never any opening. I never figured out the perfect technique."
"Yet it happened. Neither one of us did understand. And I released the last bit of energy I had left in me into my blade..."
"And his soul evaporated. He died the true death."

"And then...?"
"And then I died."

...

"But how?"
"If you die you have to pay the price. Unless you are immortal you have to pay your soul."
"That is what dying is."
"But I never had a chance to give my soul."

Shinave's expression changes. She understands.

"The dragon within me. The dragon soul I shared my body with."
"He gave his soul before I had a chance to give mine."
"And with the price paid, I was no longer bound to the world of the dead... so I left... so I came back."
"And then I approached Yuya's lifeless body. And I summoned the true phoenix wings, and I brought back her soul from the dead and resurrected her."

"So you did use your one resurrection."

She sighs.

"So not only is the dragon soul, the one who taught you the ways of the dragon, no longer with you; but you also sacrificed your near infinite source of energy. The phoenix catalyst."
"That is the price the phoenix must pay to perform a resurrection, and the reason why he can perform only one."
"But these were the reasons why you were so strong. The dragon soul and the phoenix catalyst. And now you have none of them."
"A small price to pay."
"A truly huge price to pay."
"Perhaps, but the choice was an obvious one."
"It was not. You could have used the catalyst to destroy the remaining templars."
"And let Yuya be dead?"
"..."
"It would have been the logical choice."

"Pff... logic. Yes, I might have noble goals, some people may even have called me a hero."
"But I truly am a fool and you know it. I do not regret having made that choice."
"And I love you for having made that choice. You saved my daughter."

"We all paid a huge price back then. Selene died. Silver managed to get back for some reason which is beyond me."
"The council of gods was destroyed."
"But the Templar died. And now they are mortal."
"And they are after you."

I shrug.

"And I am after them."
"You're mad."
"I am Hyu."

Yuya has been awfully silent.

"I understand how you were able to come back and revive me."
"Your soul is taken when you die. But for you, 'a' soul was taken, but not yours."
"But still. After that you should never have been able to come back to this world."
"You are supposed to be dead."
"You have tried quite intensely to bring me back though. Surely you must have believed that it would work."
"Maybe... but what now that you know that you are supposed to be dead?"
"Nothing."

"But... what if death comes for you."
"There is only one thing you do if death comes for you."
"... give up... ?"

I give her a disapproving stare and raise my voice.

"You look death straight into its eyes and you say: 'not today'"

Shinave smiles for the first time.

"It is good to know that you are still Hyu. It is good to know that you are still the fool I remember."
"Can he do that... just like that?"
"How would I know? Do I know anyone who has tricked death itself?"
"What I do know is that he is Hyu."
"He is..."

Shinave inspects me from top to bottom.

"You have aged."
"You are weak."
"And you come to me now, which means..."
"I will ask you the impossible."
"After all that has happened, you really dare ask me?"
"Yes."
"And what do you suggest we do if I agree?"
"We will be a dead man walking and 2 gods that are no longer gods up against the Templars."
"How is that going to work?"
"You're forgetting about Silver and Ifrit."
"Ifrit? You are more insane than I thought."
"But even then. That's 2 dead men walking and 3 gods that are no longer gods. My question remains."
"I will come up with a plan of course."
"Because you are Hyu."
"Because I am Hyu."

For the first time in what feels like an eternity I put on a certain smile.
It is a somewhat dark smile. A smile looking forward to a battle that seemingly cannot be won.
A smile that challenges all beliefs. A smile that says that we can do the impossible.

"Will you come with me, oh goddess, and fight with me again?"
"..."
"Of course I will."

She looks at Yuya, then at me, back at Yuya, and back at me, clearly understanding what is going on.
Then she faces me and says:

"Back in the days the gods would have killed your for this."

But she doesn't say it in a serious way. I'm not sure if she approves, but I do know that she does not mind.

"I wonder what Ifrit is going to think about this."

I turn around and start walking towards the portal and shrug.

"I'd rather not."

We laugh, even though it isn't really that funny. He's one of the very old gods. He can never know. He would indeed kill me.
I stop.

"As long as we can still laugh like this, the world isn't lost."

That puts a reassuring smile on Shinave and Yuya's face.
Ha. I still have it in me.
I am still a leader.
And I will do this.
I will end what I have started 15 years ago. I will end the tyranny that is the existence of the Templars.
I just have to figure out how.
Preferably without killing half of us in the process this time.