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I've been under a lot of stress after moving into the new home, so I can see why I haven't been having any good dreams lately. I finally have access to my computer after the move, so I can put in my dream from the other night. I've been having realistic non lucid dreams lately.

Dream 1:
I was at my parent's house down in the basement. My brother and his gf were there and she had made a seven layer pink cheese cake. My dad was cutting the cake and I remember I asked for a good sized piece. It was pretty tasty. I suddenly said to myself, "this is a dream." and I became lucid. I floated up the stairs and was so happy to have a lucid dream that I could feel myself drifting out of lucidity. I remember reading that I should spin in a circle and for some reason that should work and it did for a bit, but eventually i did wake up. (So I closed my eyes, relaxed and tried to have another lucid dream).

Dream 2:
I fall asleep quick and start dreaming right away...I find myself at my grandparent's house (all my grandparents have passed). In my dream at first my grandpa doesn't look like my grandpa but I know it's him. Hard to explain...anyways as I'm walking into the kitchen I again tell myself, "this is a dream." I get excited and decided to talk to my grandpa. (I had read to talk to the ones you love in your dreams and what not to get answers you are seeking blah blah blah so I thought I would try it out.) I ran up to him and gave him a hug. My grandma wasn't there. I asked him how he was doing and that I miss him. I asked him were grandma was. He said she wasn't here at the moment but he would tell her that I said hello. He smiled at me and said he was proud and said he had to go soon. So I turned around and decided to go out to the garage and think of something to do in my dream. I walked out side and it looked like my grandparent's garage and then as i walked out to the yard the street became an old fashioned location. People were riding buggies and horses around. I decided that it would be fun to ride a horse. I kept asking my dream to give me a horse but nothing happened. I saw a police officer and ran up to him and asked him if he could help me find a horse. He was friendly in my dream and so he waved down this woman riding a horse. She stopped for a second and said she couldn't give me the horse. I noticed I was getting frustrated and I was afraid it would wake me up so I gave up on riding the horse. It began raining and so I walked into a building with the policeman. He was following me around for some reason and I couldn't get him to leave. I looked out the window and I noticed that there was an ocean and it was about to storm. The skies were getting very dark and I noticed I started to feel frightened. I walked outside and asked my dream to make it sunny again. It took my several attempts to get the sun to come out but when it did it was so beautiful. I woke up...

Dream 3:
I was in my car driving home from work. Very realistic, so realistic that it took me awhile to realize if I was dreaming or not. I did become lucid because I realized again I was dreaming. However, I didn't know where I wanted to go and since I was already in the car driving, I found it hard to control the car once lucid. It was too much to handle and so I think that's what woke me up.

Too much conversation.
Some things are going to be phrased incorrectly etc, I tried to patch it up as well as I could.
Usually I use pink and brown to color code female and male DC voices, but there's 2 women this time,
so I'll use pink and green, pink being Yuya.


There's no more messing around.
Going anywhere but Haven feels dangerous.
Whenever I'm on the plane I can feel the Templars scanning for my aura.
It is inevitable that they will find me if I linger for too long.
Haven is one of the only places I feel safe. The barrier prevents them from locating my aura when I'm here.

But I cannot remain here forever.
Not only am I imprisoning myself here until I tackle the Templar issue, I'm doing the same to Yuya.
The Templars are after her as well.
In fact they're probably after everyone, the whole team from back then... back when lucids still came naturally to me.

There is only one solution.
I will fight them.
But not alone; that would be utter suicide.
I will gather the old team, the team with whom I fought the evils of this world back in the days.

I feel like a hero, about to embark on a long and difficult journey.
First I will gather a team capable of surpassing the strength of the Templars.
And then I will have to come up with a plan to beat them.
Because this is what I do. This is what I have always done.
Regardless of how much more powerful my enemy is, regardless of what it takes, I will beat them.
Because I am dragon.

"So... who will we find first?"

It is scary being in company of a serious Yuya.
I'm used to her playful and innocent self.
Not the one capable of carrying the weight of a world.
The whole atmosphere has changed.

"Silver?"
"... No. We will find Silver last. I'm not sure how to convince him to join us yet."
"Will he not want to join us?"
"I'm not sure. Back then he fought with us to pay for his sins. But he has already given back so much to this world."
"True..."
"I will convince him. You know I have my ways with words."
"Yes. If there's anyone who can motivate him it is you. You're the only one he listens to."
"So, if not Silver..."
"Shinave"
"..."
*sigh*
"You're making me meet her again huh?"
"Yes. We will meet with the goddess of ice."
"Alright then... I know where she is. I sure hope you know what you're doing."
"Probably."

I most certainly do not. Why is Yuya somewhat reluctant to meet with her again?
Did we part on bad terms?
Meh, it will come to me eventually.
These memories have a habit of popping up whenever I need them lately.

Yuya opens a rather odd looking portal and it seems to take her quite a considerable amount of energy to do so.
Right... we'll mask our auras. It should buy us enough time for a meeting and to get back before the Templars find us.
We hop through the portal and end in a rather odd looking place.


It's an old temple of sorts. Parts of it are covered with rather beautiful ice crystals, but most of them are broken.
Right. The goddess of ice. Or rather the person who used to be the goddess of ice.
Back then two gods fought together with us.
The goddess of ice: Shinave; and the god of fire: Ifrit
Yeah... there was 6 of us I think.
The 3 gods Shinave, Ifrit, Yuya, and Silver, Selene and myself.
I will reunite all of us... somehow...

We walk through the old temple, searching for Shinave.
I have a feeling that she's here somewhere, even though I cannot sense any aura besides Yuyas and my own at all.
I can feel the Templars scanning the entire plane though.
Their searching pattern reminds me of that of a computer rather than that of a sentient being.
They are perfectly coordinated.
But it will take them hours to track me down with my aura masked.

"You have some guts to show up here after what you've done."
"Indeed..."

The voice coming from behind caught me by surprise, but I'm not showing that I was off guard.
I turn around slowly and full of confidence.
Shinave.


Her eyes look young, but she's clearly older than Yuya or myself.
She has long white hair, deep blue eyes, very similar to Yuya's, and a rather pale skin.
A wise woman, once one of the most well known gods.
But now she lives in a seemingly abandoned temple.
And somehow I get the feeling that it is my fault.

"How are you?"

She answers me with a small hand gesture that's not really saying much.
Is she mad at me? Is she mad at us?
I feel that she is in some way, yet it also feels like the complete opposite.

"And how are you... Yuya?"
"I'm alright... mother."

mo... Mo... I... wait what?
Nonono.
Oh shit.
Fuck my life.
Goddess of ice, goddess of water... yeah. Am I fucking retarded? How did I not remember that.
And I have... with Yuya... oh my god...
Yeah, I might be screwed.

"You haven't talked to me in a long time."
"I have not. Not after you suggested that I shouldn't try to bring Hyu back."
"It was a bad idea."
"Yet here I am."
"Yet here you are."
"I guess I should be impressed that you managed to find your way back after what happened."
"I should also kill you for what you have done."

She approaches me without changing her facial expression.
I'm at a complete loss. I can't tell if she's serious.
Well. She is. But there's something more. Something she isn't telling.
She stands right in front of me and stares into my eyes.
I don't blink.

She hugs me tightly.
What?

"I hate you Hyu. I hate you so much."

She starts crying and grabs more tightly onto me.
I'm getting mixed signals here.
But somehow I understand. She wants to hate me, but she can't. She cannot help but love me for whom I am.
She looks deeply into my eyes again.

"You've sent my daughter towards certain death you know."
"Stop! It's too early."
"No."
"Yes it is! It is too early for him to remember!"
"Maybe. But there's no choice. He must remember."
"And then what? What if he does remember?"
"What if he realizes that he has cheated? Then what? What if he dies if he remembers that?"
"If he abides by the rules then yes, he will die."

... yeah.
I don't like everything I'm hearing, but I do want to know.
And I am so close. I can remember parts on my own. The puzzle is fitting itself together as we speak.
A tiny nudge in the right direction and I'll remember everything.
I look at Yuya and say reassuringly:

"Am I the type who abides by the rules?"

She can't help but smile for an instant, but then quickly puts on a serious face again.

"It's too soon."
"Yes. And bringing him back is impossible, yet here he stands. And yet here you stand."
"..."

I'm beginning to remember on my own.
Because I need to remember.
Because now is the time to remember, even though Yuya suggests otherwise.

"We all fought together. We fought many evils. But there was one we simply could not beat."
"... the Templars."
"13 of them there were, and only 6 of us, but that was not the issue."
"The issue was that one of them was a true immortal, and the 12 others had their lives linked to him."
"All 12 of them were unkillable as long as the 13th was alive. And he had perfected the art of combat."
"He was supposedly unbeatable. And even if he would be killed, due to his immortality he would just resurrect."
"Yes..."
"So I came up with a plan."

"You did come up with a plan."
"You always did, regardless of how hopeless the situation was."
"But this plan I did not like."
"This plan I did not like."
"But it was yours."
"It was mine."
"I didn't choose it because it was a good plan, I chose it because it was the only plan."
"Indeed..."

... what a horrible plan it was.
I have trouble saying the words, but they must be said.

"... Yuya would give her life to allow Silver to cast the ultimate spell."
"I would hold the Templar in place."
"And Silver would kill him with this spell, and the both of us in the process."

...

"This would send the Templars soul to hell. Because that's where immortals go."
"But immortality means you only have to spend a single minute, and then you are reborn."
"And I have the phoenix wings. I can move through the realms. I can go to hell once I am dead."
"Even after dying, my soul should have an afterglow of energy, enough to go there and challenge him."
"One minute to do the impossible. One minute to kill the soul of the only one who ever perfected the art of combat."
"And all of that without any energy left."
"But if I would kill his soul, he would truly die. You cannot be reborn without a soul."

"The plan was ludicrous. All of you would die for certain, for a glimpse of a chance to do the impossible."
"But it would cripple the Templars for years."
"It would... And it has."
"But things did not turn out according to your plan."

"Fortunately they did not. If they did we would be dead."
"So how did you kill him? And how is my daughter still alive. And how are you?"

...

"How I won the fight in hell... I truly do not know."
"I do not believe in miracles. But if they do exist, then this was one."
"We were joined in hell by our swords, and fought for a full minute without any energy."
"A true old-fashioned sword fight."
"I didn't stand a chance of course. He had figured out the perfect technique."
"But for some reason beyond me, as we danced in the fires of hell with our swords clashing..."
"..."
"I stabbed him in his chest."
"He never made a mistake, there was never any opening. I never figured out the perfect technique."
"Yet it happened. Neither one of us did understand. And I released the last bit of energy I had left in me into my blade..."
"And his soul evaporated. He died the true death."

"And then...?"
"And then I died."

...

"But how?"
"If you die you have to pay the price. Unless you are immortal you have to pay your soul."
"That is what dying is."
"But I never had a chance to give my soul."

Shinave's expression changes. She understands.

"The dragon within me. The dragon soul I shared my body with."
"He gave his soul before I had a chance to give mine."
"And with the price paid, I was no longer bound to the world of the dead... so I left... so I came back."
"And then I approached Yuya's lifeless body. And I summoned the true phoenix wings, and I brought back her soul from the dead and resurrected her."

"So you did use your one resurrection."

She sighs.

"So not only is the dragon soul, the one who taught you the ways of the dragon, no longer with you; but you also sacrificed your near infinite source of energy. The phoenix catalyst."
"That is the price the phoenix must pay to perform a resurrection, and the reason why he can perform only one."
"But these were the reasons why you were so strong. The dragon soul and the phoenix catalyst. And now you have none of them."
"A small price to pay."
"A truly huge price to pay."
"Perhaps, but the choice was an obvious one."
"It was not. You could have used the catalyst to destroy the remaining templars."
"And let Yuya be dead?"
"..."
"It would have been the logical choice."

"Pff... logic. Yes, I might have noble goals, some people may even have called me a hero."
"But I truly am a fool and you know it. I do not regret having made that choice."
"And I love you for having made that choice. You saved my daughter."

"We all paid a huge price back then. Selene died. Silver managed to get back for some reason which is beyond me."
"The council of gods was destroyed."
"But the Templar died. And now they are mortal."
"And they are after you."

I shrug.

"And I am after them."
"You're mad."
"I am Hyu."

Yuya has been awfully silent.

"I understand how you were able to come back and revive me."
"Your soul is taken when you die. But for you, 'a' soul was taken, but not yours."
"But still. After that you should never have been able to come back to this world."
"You are supposed to be dead."
"You have tried quite intensely to bring me back though. Surely you must have believed that it would work."
"Maybe... but what now that you know that you are supposed to be dead?"
"Nothing."

"But... what if death comes for you."
"There is only one thing you do if death comes for you."
"... give up... ?"

I give her a disapproving stare and raise my voice.

"You look death straight into its eyes and you say: 'not today'"

Shinave smiles for the first time.

"It is good to know that you are still Hyu. It is good to know that you are still the fool I remember."
"Can he do that... just like that?"
"How would I know? Do I know anyone who has tricked death itself?"
"What I do know is that he is Hyu."
"He is..."

Shinave inspects me from top to bottom.

"You have aged."
"You are weak."
"And you come to me now, which means..."
"I will ask you the impossible."
"After all that has happened, you really dare ask me?"
"Yes."
"And what do you suggest we do if I agree?"
"We will be a dead man walking and 2 gods that are no longer gods up against the Templars."
"How is that going to work?"
"You're forgetting about Silver and Ifrit."
"Ifrit? You are more insane than I thought."
"But even then. That's 2 dead men walking and 3 gods that are no longer gods. My question remains."
"I will come up with a plan of course."
"Because you are Hyu."
"Because I am Hyu."

For the first time in what feels like an eternity I put on a certain smile.
It is a somewhat dark smile. A smile looking forward to a battle that seemingly cannot be won.
A smile that challenges all beliefs. A smile that says that we can do the impossible.

"Will you come with me, oh goddess, and fight with me again?"
"..."
"Of course I will."

She looks at Yuya, then at me, back at Yuya, and back at me, clearly understanding what is going on.
Then she faces me and says:

"Back in the days the gods would have killed your for this."

But she doesn't say it in a serious way. I'm not sure if she approves, but I do know that she does not mind.

"I wonder what Ifrit is going to think about this."

I turn around and start walking towards the portal and shrug.

"I'd rather not."

We laugh, even though it isn't really that funny. He's one of the very old gods. He can never know. He would indeed kill me.
I stop.

"As long as we can still laugh like this, the world isn't lost."

That puts a reassuring smile on Shinave and Yuya's face.
Ha. I still have it in me.
I am still a leader.
And I will do this.
I will end what I have started 15 years ago. I will end the tyranny that is the existence of the Templars.
I just have to figure out how.
Preferably without killing half of us in the process this time.

6-6-12 (non-lucid/lucid): I was spending a night at a distant friend’s house. I slept on the couch, and T. slept in the spare bedroom upstairs. No big event happened that night so I slept and in the morning I saw the family rushing around picking up random items. Of course I realized something was wrong so I got up and asked and someone said that there was some sort of disease going around and it was killing people and these people started coming back, etc. And then I got the bad news, my friend was taking their family and leaving me and T. behind and abruptly left and I was left sitting there. I went upstairs thinking maybe T. woke up already so we could get a head start. Nope, he was still asleep, even through all that commotion. I woke him up told him what happened and that my friend left us for dead. I went back downstairs and to the basement where I found an axe, crowbar, knife and a few other things. I took the knife and I brought the axe up to T. We left shortly after; agreeing that staying at the house wasn’t a good idea. We went outside and there were zombies everywhere, luckily they could only walk, and not very fast either. So, wanting to converse energy we walked at a leisurely pace. We definitely took the zombie apocalypse seriously. More zombies were coming our way so we started running and I knifed one or two, and I called my mother and she said she had the Escalade (a big car, not quite a van.) We kept walking and she came by and picked us up and T. had to pick his brothers up from the school. We got there and there was an attack, but the zombies were neutralized, so it was safe. We all went in and T. and I went to go see D.J. who was talking to some other people. I heard some of the teachers talking about what happened and I started to follow, but they stopped talking so I tried becoming invisible and I asked D.J. who was looking right at me, but he said I was invisible, and I realized I was dreaming, but I wanted to go along with the storyline anyway, and occasionally reminded myself I was dreaming. We all went into a room and I took charge of the situation. I was talking about battle plans and thought about doing Task of the Year stuff and said “I may go see the Titanic sink, I don’t know yet.” That got a lot of confused looks until I explained it was Task of the Year stuff, and then I saw a mirror and I went up to it and stuck my head through and I saw a dark tunnel on the other side and it was made out of the same thing as the mirror. So I completed that and I soon lost lucidity. We went to a large carpeted room and we all spent the night there. I got up in the morning and went down to the cafeteria to eat breakfast, which consisted of a cupcake, and cereal (which was mostly marshmallows and only a little bit of cereal.) Then I heard Rajin speaking and the scene switched to a town square, and Rajin was there. It was a little bit after the apocalypse and, hardly any zombies anymore and it started to rain. I ran into a store nearby got a huge umbrella and went back out and opened it. Rajin ran up and went under it with me and we both waited for the rain to stop and then I woke up

I'm in some sort of cabin. It's quite small and the bedrooms are elevated above the rest of the house in a loft-style area, reachable only by ladder. I have a little brother, who doesn't exist in real life, and my parents happen to be tree-ent creatures. The cabin we're living in is floating on clouds, with small cloud-like sheep creatures pushing clouds underneath the cabin so we can travel through the skies.

One day, our tree-ent parents married, which of course everybody knows allows the sky cabin to take new heights in the sky and travel the world faster.

We land briefly in this field, the cloud sheep were exhausted from chugging the cabin along and required rest. During our time down here, my little brother started attending a nearby school and everything was going great. We spent our days training the cloud sheep and even recruiting new animals, which we morphed into cloud creatures to help us once we set off again. The most notable one was a platypus, who also seemed to develop the ability to talk once he was transformed into a cloud creature. He was sarcastic and incredibly funny, yet loyal to my tree-ent parents who granted him his new cloud powers.

This was until my little brother never returned home from school. I went looking for him, wondering where he had gone, and I soon discovered that he was being held hostage by one of the teachers at the school. He was not being allowed out and I couldn't get in because of the bodyguards the school had.

Each day I would return to the school, looking for a new way to try and enter. Soon they started construction outside the main entrance, and I figured that this would be my chance. I manage to track down the teacher who had held my brother hostage and kill him, but my brother is nowhere to be found.

I head to a nearby street, which shockingly reminds me of the street I live on in real life, and walk up to one of the houses there. It was made entirely of glass and you could see there was some sort of party happening inside, I recognised some of the people from the school and figure these would be great to question as to my brother's whereabouts. I knock on the door, but seem to be completely ignored. An old man walks up to me and informs me that I wouldn't get an answer there, as the party is invitation-only.

I seem to lose hope, I head back to my cabin house and climb into the loft area where my brother's bedroom was and sit on his bed, wondering whether I would ever see him again. I apparently also have a little sister now, she climbs up into the bedroom with me as I start searching through his drawers for clues as to where he may have disappeared.

In the top drawer I find a collection of stones, pebbles and shells. All of them are intricately designed, big and small. Some were hung on string which I assume my brother used as necklaces. My little sister asked if she could have one, but I refused telling her that I wanted to leave the room the same for my brother's return.

The second drawer down was pretty empty, I begin wondering where my brother's dream journal was as I knew he was a lucid dreamer. I thought I may be able to find some clues in there. I look around and notice the journal on the other side of the room, but continue looking through the drawers anyway.

The bottom drawer was filled with giant fruits & vegetables, mango, watermelon and squash were some that come to mind. My sister's still requesting to take stuff, and I permit her to take these, saying that they may as well be eaten before they go bad. She runs off happily biting into some watermelon.

Downstairs we hear our tree parents discussing, apparently there's some issue with the cloud creatures and they won't be able to sustain flight at the high altitudes that are required when tree-ents are married. They decide to get a divorce so we can continue our journey and both of them leave.

At this point there's some weird scene transitions, my little sister disappears and I never see my tree-ent parents again. I'm now with a party of people, exploring the world in our floating log cabin. I decide we can now leave the field, hoping that we find my brother on our travels. We take to the skies again with our newly trained cloud sheep and cloud platypus commanding them all.

After a long period of flying we begin running out of food in the cabin, we land hoping to find work that can earn us some money so we can buy more food. Conveniently, right where we land on this street there's an old lady at the end of the dimly road, caused by the surrounding trees on either side. She calls down to us, asking if we mind helping her out. We offer to help for a week in return that she pays us. She agrees and leads us to her farm.

We're told to wait momentarily while she discusses with her partner, we overhear something about not eating our new guests. I'm slightly confused but she walks back up to us and says that everything's fine, before she starts developing huge dark circles around her eyes, laughing and starts licking one of my friends. We're all really freaked out by this point, but we back away and just get started on the job as we really need money.

We grab the nearby tractors and one of my friends hops on his quad-bike, which he just happens to be carrying around with him. We're harvesting her crops when this old lady starts galloping towards us on all fours. She's ranting about the use of the quad-bike and how we're not harvesting her crops to her standards. She begins leaping at us as we try to race away in our tractors. Most of us manage to escape in time but we fail to remember that one of our party was manning this small booth just outside the farm, counting up how many crops we harvested.

I head back and the old lady is there along with some other woman I assume she was originally speaking to when we arrived, they're grasping in through the cabin, trying to eat bits of flesh from the guy inside. I kick them out of the way and pull the guy out, only I trip and fall in the booth instead. Before I can get up and escape, the zombie women get back up and start attacking me. I feel around inside the dark booth and find a gun on the floor, I start shooting at one of the woman while holding the other back with my foot but she just keeps on coming.

I feel like hope is lost and that I'll never see my brother again, until I find another gun on the floor, a mini-gun. I unleash the round of bullets on the woman, filling her with holes, although this still doesn't seem to phase her.

I'm unsure of what happened next, maybe just a drastic scene change, but next I know I'm now in my normal real-life house with my little brother. We were talking about where he had been for so long and I notice he now had short hair whereas before it was long and he was starting to grow a beard. I wonder how long he truly had been missing because last I knew he was really young, maybe around 12-13, and definitely not ready for growing a beard.

As we continue talking about how much has changed since he disappeared, the dream slowly fades to black and before I know it I'm awake again. Laughing to myself at how long and real everything felt in the dream despite the absurdity of everything.

I was travelling for a week and didn't do any active effort. I was mostly very tired and slept irregularly, anyway. This one, however, was memorable enough to stay with me.

I'm drifting in and out of sleep, in an unfamiliar place, tired but cannot sleep well. When I enter sleep I'm usually aware that I'm dreaming and awareness of the sleeping body disappears. I practice flying. I start from the ground, a park with green grass. I figure I'm starting from my home town, and want to visit the Alps. I get close to the level of the lowest clouds when I hit a roof and come out of what seems like a set for a play. I wake up a little and notice I'm in a bed.

I drift of again and decide to try flying horizontally this time. I'm not moving fast enough to get to the Alps in one night. I try to boost the speed with my willpower, then start saying "faster" out loud. This helps. I come to a scout camp site somewhere in Germany. Not quite there, I need to go southwest. I look at a wooden sign in the forest trying to figure out where I am.

There is a disconnect. Now I'm in a room with a young man, a couple of sofas and a tv. He tells me I know why I'm there. I nod. He starts running a video about some spiritual stuff. I tell him I know the basics of most of these belief systems and we should get on to the real, experiential and technical stuff. I have a remote and I try to fast forward but instead, it seems, I turn the thing of. The man tells me this will take a long time if my technical skills are like that.

I get distracted and I'm drifting to a non-lucid dream, when I hear the man say something about me being impossible. I snap out of it and return to the movie. Some new age stuff. I decide to sit trough it just to please him. I wake up after a couple of seconds, however.

Last night I had a strange dream.

I’ll start at the interesting part: I stepped through a portal into another world. I opened my eyes and saw that I was standing upon a shaggy hill, covered in a grey, dead grass. In the distance there was a hardpan desert, blowing with thin dust. Right before me, there was a creature, almost shaped like a man. He was skeleton-thin, with long limbs. His muscles hung like pockets of flesh from his bones, and his skin was loose and veiny. He face was hollowed, with a fleshy snout and hanging grey hair. His overall appearance was dull and colorless, such that he might blend right in with the desert behind. Despite his appearance, I was not afraid of him.

When I came through the portal, he looked up at me with empty sockets and said, slowly, “It’s only hard dust out here.”

We looked at each other, each obviously curious about the other. After a while, he spoke again, “Can I touch your face?”

It was a strange question, but I could tell he had never seen a being like me before and was curious. Taking his bony hand, I pressed it against my cheek.

“It’s firm,” He said, sounding suprised, “Can I touch your neck?”

Now I was getting a little creeped out. However, I didn’t want to offend this strange being, and so I started to take his hand to press it against my neck. As I did so, however, he stopped me.

“Let me touch it myself. I’m not going to hurt you.”

Hesitant, but still not wanting to offend, I consented and he touched my neck, putting a little more pressure than comfortable on the pulsing vein there.

Next he asked, “Can I touch your heart?”

I assumed he meant my chest, but now I felt scared. I tried to scramble back away from his outstretched hand, but my foot slipped on the dusty hillside. As I fell, his bony hand caught me in the stomach, pinning me to the ground with force. I could feel his skeletal finger digging into my belly button.

“Ooh!” He called out in delight, “There’s more here!”

At that moment, I knew that he intended to eat me to feed his skinny, malnourished body.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

So this morning I had a magical dream at last. I usually dream about school or non-magical dreams, but I felt this was one of the best I have had in a long time.

I was in a field, similar to the one near a pond in my area. I was walking through it and saw a tree a couple of meters near the lake. I somehow got into a fight with this tree, I was determined to beat this tree for some odd reason. I was slicing the tree with an orange chainsaw, branch by branch, avoiding the attacks it made. The tree was gradually moving away from the water so I ran away from it and reached a small hill with a decent spot to hide in. I think I remember a fragment about a guy hiding in this particular spot. It was like a small crack in the hill, but wide enough for me to sit in. I then ran back to the tree and continued attacking the tree with the chainsaw. I then retreated back to the spot and watch the tree transform into a large stump. I was scared to go near the stump incase it attacked me. I then decided to go up and stab the tree with the chainsaw, but ran back for the third time. I watched it transform again, but this time into a floating tree. It was almost as if it was hanging from something. It was just under a meter from the ground and was longer than it was wide, but still smaller than the last two forms. I then saw the tree fall to the ground and transform a fourth time. It was similar to the stump, but had a red haired girl half in it. She was wearing green clothes and was not moving. For the last time, the tree transformed again, but back to the first form. There was a beautiful blue-haired girl half in it. She seemed alive and was welcoming me to talk to her. I walked over to her and noticed she had scaled clothes on. They were coloured with all sorts of nice colours, like cyan, light green and purple. She also had some of these colours in her hair to match her clothing. She looked like she could be a goddess or something. She made the tree disappear and I walked with her to the lake, where we sat down in the shallow water and observed the lake. I asked her if we should build a bridge across the lake. I said something like "Shall we build a bridge across there, then to the platform?". She replied with a nod. We then changed the topic and noticed a McDonalds appear on the left hand side. It was flooded from the lake and there were a few woman sweeping the water away. By this point, a guy had appeared left of me, but he was quiet and I didn't pay attention to him. We were discussing about working at this McDonalds, then the dream faded.

I loved this dream, it had many wierd things happen in it. First it seemed like I had to tame the tree in order to talk to the water spirit. The water spirit seemed hard to get, but she eventually came to me. I sure hope she is my dream guide, so great to look at . I have always been interested in water anyway, so it'd be a bonus. The other weird thing that happened was when I went to the spot where some guy hid before. It seemed so familiar when I woke up. Maybe the guy by the lake was him? That'd be really wierd. I mentioned in my workbook that the blue haired lady (the water spirit) was someone that I wanted to know more about. So from now on, she remains 2 titles. The blue haired lady and the water spirit. I also think that the tree abducted her and the other red haired girl was the wood spirit or something. But either way, it was great to have met this woman.

I had a hard time sleeping last night, so I didn't take notes whenever I woke up, rather than move and spend another two hours trying to fall back to sleep, I tried to lay as still as possible so that it's only take a half hour or so to fall back asleep. I did jot down the notes I could think of when I woke up, but by then most of the details had left me.

Spoiler for Music:

Dream One: I'm glowsticking in the street again. (We live on the end of a street in one of those round turn arounds, so we never get any traffic except our close neighbors) I've got yellow glow sticks this time, and I'm alone. My husband walks up and tell me I need to stop so he can show me something. I think I'm semi lucid at this point because I stop, and I get this feeling that makes me very excited and happy. I'm thinking he's going to take me to Kurasawa because that's what I usually ask dcs to do, but then instead he takes me where our yard would be... but our house isn't there, all that's there is the ten we camped in at the beach a couple weeks ago. Inside, the lap top is set up and my husband is trying to show me something on the lap top. I'm only halfway paying attention, it's a video about glow sticking, but it's not a tutorial it's just some chic swinging her stick and I'm quickly growing bored and want to go back outside so I can do it myself. I feel my attention being pulled to outside, I just know Kurasawa is out there now. I rush out of the ten and a few steps towards the road, then I stop. Kurasawa is there, and he's glow sticking?! He's only spinning them forwards at his sides, but the circles are so even and his speed doesn't vary at all. I think, damn, he looks like he knows what he's doing... not just playing around like I am. Then He smiles at me with a mischievous smile, and I think he asks, "Miss me?" But them I woke up >.<

Dream Two: I'm again on the road, this time after spending a good two hours trying to relax and fall back asleep from waking up the first time. My husband is there and we're walking. For some reason though, I think I become semi-lucid. I realize I can just leave my husband standing there on the road and it won't matter. I walk up to this strange house that I've never seen and is far too upscale for this little redneck "housing" development that has more trailers than houses. I knock on the door, and realize that I can open the door and it won't have any repercussions. I also realize that I need to visualize the inside of the house as I open the door, and what kind of person I want to find there. I imagine a guy who looks like Johnny Depp in the movie Sleepy Hollow being there when I open the door. For some reason though I'm scared someone in the house will see, so I slowly open the door, when I see the sleepy hollow guy walk by, I call out to him, and he comes to the door. He quickly but gracefully slides out the door and closes it without making a sound. He takes my hand and starts walking me towards the street. I tell him we can't go too close to the street because my husband is there. He starts pulling me closer to the woods then. We stop at the tree line, and he looks around for a moment as if to be sure no one's around, then he cups my face with one hand and wraps the other around my waist. He pulls me closer and kisses me lightly as he holds me, and says something about how he cherishes these stolen moments. I wake up, lol.

Dream Three: I'm on a swing set, swinging with my kids. I'm at a strange house that I don't recognize though. A couple of guys, one with a lot of piercings, walk out of the house. They start talking to me, and I think they're related to my husband somehow. I ask them, and they tell me that they're not related, just share the same last name or something. Then they tell me I need to go inside and check out what they made. I walk inside, and my mom is at the kitchen table and there's a Christmas tree on the table made of green jello?! My mom claims the guys who just left showed her how to make it. Then she starts talking about what a pain in the ass it was to carve in all the little pine needle details. For some reason I think the thing needs to have more pine needle details and less "snow" because the snow makes it look weird.

Dream Four: I'm in some sort of Classroom, then I leave and come back. When I come back, there are people arriving dressed in cosplay. There's one girl who's actually got four pony legs and feet instead of her normal arms and legs. I marvel over her cosplay for a moment, and think I've seen her before with shorter "legs" and ask her about it. She tells me that yeah she's put them on stilts to look more life sized. I see a box on the floor nearby, it's a box with the Disney movie Tangled's princess on the front (Rapunzel). For some reason I run over and grab it and try to open it. Then a guy comes up behind me and says, "Hey! That was my box!" then he sees I tried to open it and starts crying. I'm not sure what to do about a full grown man crying, then he cries, "That was my birthday present! I was supposed to open it, not you!" I appologize and make some weak excuse that I thought it was a classroom puzzel and didn't realize it was his, then I ask him if I could tape it back closed would that make him happy again? He says yes, so I start looking for tape, and he starts crying again, "There's no tape! You can't tape it back together!" I tell him there has to be tape we are in a classroom after all, and all classrooms have tape! Then I see some on the teachers desk and tape the box back and give it to him. Then I walk to where I think my seat is, and notice everyone is opening their text book. The textbook has Black Butler on the cover! I start looking for the page, number 835, but my book only goes up to 350, then I flip back through the book looking for a page that looks like the page everyone else is on, and I find it, but book 835 is out of order and in the 250s. The teacher starts talking about Japan and I realize this is a Japanese class. Our first lesson is on Desu, and when the teacher says desU, I point out that "Don't they say Des? isn't the U silent?" and she tells me she doesn't know where I heard that but it's not the case! And she goes on talking about japan with a horrible southern woman drawl... not the sweet kind you'd hear in a movie like gone with the wind, but like the catty and snobby white and trashy woman kind. I think to myself that there is no WAY I need to learn to speak Japanese from this woman, it'll only get me laughed at if I ever actually have to speak it! But then I realize that I can ignore the way she says shit, and just learn the meanings of the words so I could read Japanese manga and not have to wait for someone to translate them. Then I wake up.

Dream Five (Fragment): I dreamed that my best friend went to her sisters house and washed her hair, then posted the video on face book. I was watching the video in the dream, so it's hard to remember exactly what was being said and done. I just remember her sister being uncharacteristically happy about having her wash her hair, and her normally straight dark hair looked lighter, curly, and frizzy. Oh, and they used the sink, so no one was naked lol

Older LD from 9-27-10

I did an unplanned WBTB. I had trouble going back to sleep. Two hours later of telling myself that I was going to lucid dream, I was suddenly in a dream. I remember nothing of the transition. Only the "oh, cool. I'm in a dream now."



This wasn't my best LD. I didn't seem to be as "aware" as I was in my previous LD. And when I awoke I did the "oh crap--how am I going to remember everything I just did?" thing. But I backtracked the best I could and came up with this:



Lucid Dream:



As soon as I realized that I was dreaming I started to fly. I was outside in the desert. I landed next to a car and looked at my reflection. I could see myself and I could see a person standing behind me. It was Tom from AVA. For a short time I watched him, and he watched me. I had this feeling that if I turned around to see him, he would be gone. It was a bad thing to think, because I was right....and he was gone.



I decided to go look for a full sized mirror next because my current goal was to make a Mirror Portal and go to the moon.

I flew just a short ways and saw a clothing store. I knew that there would be lots of mirrors inside. I went in and ran at the first mirror I saw. I hit the glass and fell back into the store. Determined I ran at it again...but hit the glass. I knew I just had to believe and I would be able to go through it. But time after time after time I kept hitting the mirror.



Finally a store clerk came up to me. She told me that I needed to leave the store. I ran at the mirror again. I wanted to show this lady that I knew what I was doing. But I bounced off the mirror again. I was starting to get frustarated. The lady threatened to get the police if I didn't leave.



I ran at the mirror again and bounced off. I finally decided that this wasn't working and that I needed another plan. I tried to leave the store, but the lady had barricaded the doors. I guess she had called the police about this crazy person that kept runing into her mirrors. Maybe I don't blame her.



I was able to fly over the stuff she had put in front of the doors. We were both suddenly outside the store, but now in this small corridor that seemed to have no way out.



I looked at the walls of the corridor. They were all mirrored. I looked at my reflection again. This time I was Tom. I looked carefully at my eyes and my hair. I squinted a bit and changed my expression fascinated by this unexpected transformation. I reached up and ran my fingers through my short hair.





Then the dream shfts. I am outside trying to fly. I am having all sorts of difficulty getting any elevation at all. I'm frustrated bacause flying is my specialty in dreams. I shouldn't have trouble with this.



There are these teen aged boys that keep trying to grab my legs. I try to fly out of their reach but can never quite do so.



Finally I picture rockets on my feet. I seem to go somewhere. I am now in a canyon with this huge arch in front of me. It looks a bit like Birthday Arch that I have hiked to and climbed on. I fly through the arch and touch my fingers along the rock as I go by. That is very satisfying. I fly to the cliff above the arch and jump down to the arch. I remember being really nervous in real life about climbing to this point. And I feel slightly nervous again. But then I tell myself that I can fly if I fall. So I jump down and run across the arch then fly off the other side.


I must have started to lose lucidity around here becasue I remember landing by the arch and talking to Kyle about fossils. And I know I wasn't lucid by the end.





My Reflection:





Mirror Portal Fail:



The Arch (me at the top):

05.06.2012

Crying (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was sitting on the couch with my girlfriend, at her house. She asked me something, and I asked, "What??" She looked at me in the eyes and said, "We should break up." My eyes watered and I asked, "Why...? WHY???" Over and over. She just kept repeating, "We should break up... we should break up..." "WHHHHHYYYYY?!!?!?!?!?!" Suddenly I woke up, with the "We should break up..." still echoing in my head. Freaky! And sad. D:

05.06.2012

Kennywood Field Trip (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

My school had gone on a Kennywood field trip. One of my favorite bands was performing a concert there. The band exists in real life, and is called "The Bunny The Bear" The dream skipped and I believe I was waiting in some line. I had won a free pair of Beats By Dre white Solo HDs. I was happy because now I owned the white and red ones(in real life I have the red solo hds). I was showing them off to everyone. Meanwhile, many other people had them, so whatever. The dream skipped again and now I was sitting in what seemed to be a mix between the cafeteria from my old school, and a concert arena. I was trying to find a place to sit. I saw places where all the unpopular kids were sitting, so I avoided those spots. I sat with some popular kids for awhile, but they just ignored my presence. Just like they do in real life!! Lol, anyways. So I got up and I believe I sat with my friend Robert. I started showing him how I would punch him in the face, or something. I wasn't physically hitting him, but my fists were flying at him at fast speeds. Suddenly, I guess maybe the manager at Kennywood, or a teacher came over, and told me to stop immediately, and that there was a strict policy at Kennywood now for fighting, so I quit. The Bunny The Bear came on shortly after. In real life, the Bear sings really high, and the Bunny sings the screaming parts. Well in my dream, the Bear was singing the high parts, and most of the screaming parts, and the Bunny didn't sing at all. It was pretty awesome though. They were playing songs I've never heard before, by them, or anybody. That's all I remember for this dream.

05.06.2012

Buying Candy With My Mom's Debit Card(lol) (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

In this dream, I had aquired my mother's debit carb number, and I basically remembered it by heart. I was in Wal-Mart around Christmas time, although, the store had a Halloween type setting. Me and my friends were walking around the candy aisles, and we were looking at the many different types of candy. Soon they left me and I was on my own looking at the candy. First I had bought some kind of yellow drink that was flavored like a candy(I forget what the candy was, all I remember is that it had a witch on it and had the word Tornado in it), and I had also bought other candies as well. I do not remember them though. After I checked out at the register, I took my bag and walked down this path by Wal-Mart with my friend Brandon Colwell, from my old school. The path decended(aka, a hill, lol). We walked down and we were down there at some event, I don't remember what it was. The dream skipped and I was back at Wal-Mart, ready to buy more candy. This time, I was browsing the aisles alone, and closing time was near(lol). I found one of my favorite childhood candies, the Raspberry Dollars. I instantly grabbed them. I figured out there was a regular candy aisle, and a "halloween setting/candy" candy aisle. I went to the Halloween aisle. It was extra dark, and scary music played, and lights flickered, which was stupid, but anyways, I walked down the aisle and it was nothing really that special until I saw these huge boxes, with one big gummy candy inside. Each box had a different gummy creature. I went up for a closer view. They were $2.49. The ones I was looking at, at first, were giant eyeballs. I poked them. Then I went up onto this ladder to see a giant butterfly, on the box it said something like, "The King of the Forest!" Some dude and his kid were below me, and the guy was like "Wow, is that a butterfly?" I looked at him about to speak, but he gave me a terrible dirty look, so I was just like FUCK YOU THEN, lol. I climbed off the ladder and got ready to check out with my Raspberry Dollars. I thought about stealing them! I thought back to something I had watched, which was a dude explaining how to steal from Wal-Mart. He said to go out one of the back doors and throw the item outside, then, go out the front doors, run around back, and grab it. I was about to do this. I wanted to steal it because I was afraid of what my mom would say about using her debit card again, but I just ended up using it again. I was worried my mom could go online and see what I had bought. I tried to go to a register I hadn't gone to yet, because I went to a lot of them throughout the dream, lol. I went to a one with a lady sitting on a laptop, looking dead tired. She was fairly old. She looked up at me and asked, "Are you ready..." and I said yeah. I forgot the number! I looked in my pocket and it was written on the bottom of a water bottle. The numbers were jumbled up, and random, and I was very confused, but I then saw the regular debit card number to the side. It started with a 3, that's all I remember. She just sat there for about 10 seconds, then got up. Their machine was not working so they asked me to punch in the debit card number. I did, and I had bought the candy. The lady walked me out, and the parking lot was empty. It was very dark outside. We walked around, and I couldn't find my mom's car. The lady asked where it was, and I said, "They must of left!" but as soon as I said that, I saw my mom's car, lit up inside, and she was with Homer. The dream skipped and I was now getting inside the car, and the lady escorted me. I got in the seat behind the driver seat(my mom was driving). Homer was now outside the car(outside the passenger side door). My mom started crying and Homer was flipping shit on me for using the card. My mom said, "I ALREADY BOUGHT YOU CANDY WHY WOULD YOU GO AND BUY MORE?!" I told them, "I have $10 at home, I will give you it!" My mom said okay okay. My mom told me then, "That lady didn't like you at first but she did towards the end!" Whatever that means, lol. So then I realized, I only had one bag. I had forgotten the other bag with the drink and the other candies somewhere. I looked around the car, drastically. I didn't find it. I figured I left it down at that event with Brandon. Oh well, I still had my raspberry dollars. After that, Homer got in the car, and we were ready to drive home, and I woke up.

Non-Lucid part:
I'm in a big city, running with my brother in the streets in the middle of the cars in a very heavy traffic.

The dream starts to fade and because of that (I think) I become lucid, I wake up anyway, but I manage to stay still to try a DEILD. I just imagine my dream body running in that same street and in few seconds I'm there again, fully lucid.

Lucid Part:
I'm again running in the same street but my brother isn't with me anymore.
I remember of my actual main objective that is finding and/or talking to the Short Haired Girl
I stop running and go to the sidewalk. The first DC that I see is a woman in the entry of a construction site. I ask her if she knows where I can find the Short Haired Girl. She says that the girl is in the "Production Center".
I don't have a clue of what is that "Production Center", I don't remember of hearing anything like this before.
I ask the woman where is this Production Center and she points to the opposite side of the street saying "that way".
The woman is very slow and used to loose the focus very easily when talking to me.
I remember of seeing a men inside of the construction site that looked like the boss of that woman, and he wasn't appreciating that she was talking to me.
Talking to her was a difficult task at this moment, it was hard to let the words come out from my mouth and even to listen to what she was saying.
After the dialog I start going in the direction that she told me.
The dream starts fading out, I remember that the last time I tried to stabilize by rubbing my hands or touching the ground it didn't work, so I only put my hand in front of my eyes and take a nice look of them till the dream get vivid again, it works very well and the dream is even more lucid and vidid that before, but the scenario is completely changed from that big city to a small village.
I continue going in the same direction I was going before see a car stopped there with a boy and a woman standing near of it. Both are blonde, the boy was about my and has an "emo bang" over his face. I assume that the woman was his mother.
I go in direction of them and ask the boy if he knows where is the Production Center that I am looking for, he says "I don't know" but his mother points another direction and says "I think that it is that way", I thank her and say "goodbye".
I start walking in this new direction and a group of 3 boys passes by my right side.
One of the guys seems to be the same guy I saw before.
I say "guys!" intending to tell them that that was a dream, but change of idea cause it wasn't my objective.
They just turn and continue walking in front of me in the same direction I was going.
I scream again "People!", they only look in the 3rd time that I scream. I jump really high over them doing a somersault.
They say things like "OMG, it was incredible / I never saw anybody doing anything like that". Now we four are walking together till we get to a fence.
I jump again over the highest wire of the fence and use its elasticity to push me into the air very high and do another somersault.
When I'm in the floor again they say the same things they said before.
One of them tries to climb the fence, but with much difficulty.
The dream starts to fade and I woke up again, but once again I was able to stay still and tried to do the same I did before, I imagined running in the scenario, but I wasn't able to imagine the same scenario I was before, the only image that was in my head was the image of my bedroom, I decided not to force imagining another scenario and risking to wake up, so I imagined a treadmill in the place of my bed and imagined me runing over it, everything fades and I experience another FA

FA:
I wake in my bed with a very loud noise goind around, a mix of stone crusher and broken washing machine.
I look at my hands, 5 fingers. I stand up and look at my hands again, 5 fingers yet. There is a table in the place of my brother's bed with a VCR and a Clock Radio, both showing the time, but one is different of each other and it gives me that thought "It's a little strange". I go in the direction of the door to see what was making such noise, but before opening the door I think "I'm gonna do a last RC" and try to fly. Bingo, I fly to the ceiling but can't pass trough it, so I come down again.
When I'm coming down the room is not the mine anymore, but it's really like my uncle's bedroom.
When I get to the floor again, a friend is using the computer. I ask him if he knows where the Short Haired Girl is.
He says "Friend, don't involve with this people". I ask him why but he doesn't say a thing.
I ask him if he believes in Lucid Dreams. He says no, cause it's impossible to 2 people meet each other in the dreams.
I tell him that I'm the one that is dreaming, and he is not real. I ask him to remember me that I'm dreaming everytime he see me again.
I'm a little sad about that because he never appeared before in my dreams, so its not much probable that he will appear and remember me that I'm dreaming, but I'm hopeful anyway
Aparently he accepts what I ask for. I remember that I wanted to fly trough the ceiling to see my neighboor from above and I do that. I fly up but my hands don't pass trough the ceiling.
I say "Pass trough" and it works. I'm in the upper apartment. It's completely empty so I decide to do the same thing again and get out from the building, and so I do saying "Pass trough" again while passing trough the ceiling.
I don't appear over the building but near to my grandma's house in my old city.
I try to reinforce my petition to my friend but before I could talk to him an aunt of mine appears and gives me a flick on the nape. When I'm trying again to talk to my friend my dog Ruck appears and walks near to me.
My dog died less than 2 months ago, I am 19 and had him since I was 5, so I really loved him. Ruck is very old in the dream. Just to take note, during the dream I knew the he was still dead, but I became very happy anyway, because I wasn't near when he died so I couldn't see him for the last time.
I caress his head just for a while and go back on saying to my friend again to remember me that I'm dreaming when he see me. After talking to him I go back to Ruck and say some times "Younger" till he gets younger like he was in his 3-4 years old.
After that the dream fades and I wake up very happy and don't even try to go back to the dream, it was awesome like it was and I didn't want to risk forgeting anything.

Dream Stats:
Went to sleep: 00:00 am
Duration: ~30min (5 non-lucid / 25 lucid)
Woke up at: 7:30 am

First DJ Entry| First WBTB/SP attempt | 6.4.12
Into:
Let me start off by saying that I finished writing all of this and then I accidentally hit the backspace button and it went to the previous page and I lost all of the info i just typed ok so here I go again. This is my first DJ entry, but I also have started keeping entries in one that I keep by my bed. Last night I went to bed at 12midnight got a good 8 hours of sleep. I have a playlist on my Ipod which allows me to set alarm beeps to go off during my REM cycles. I decided to try a WBTB method, but instead of staying up for a while before going back to sleep I stayed completely still with my eyes shut and tried to enter SP before trying to enter into a LD. This is the first time I tried to do this. Even though I didn't end up becoming lucid, I still believe I had some success. Now onto my dream..

Part I
I was on my way to my brother David's wedding (he was just recently married in real life). I was outside in some sort of field at first with some of my other family members, but eventually it was time to go to the reception my sister drove me, David and one of my other brothers through the field. She was driving pretty crazily and swerving all throughout the field, and I kept making comments on her driving. She parked the van and then we all went inside. I could tell my comments about her driving had made her upset, and once we were inside I apologized a few times to her and then everything was ok. Then we were in the place where we had had the rehearsal dinner, and I was sitting next to my mom. I had my laptop out on the table for some reason while we were waiting for the food and I was checking my facebook. Then I noticed my mom was trying to look at my fb I could see her squinting her eyes like she was trying to read something on the status feed. I then looked at my facebook and got the feeling that someone had hacked it and put up stuff that I had not posted. I don't know exactly what it was, but I got the feeling that my mom wouldn't understand why the hacked stuff was on my computer so I started closing out the windows that were open. I thought there was only one window at first but then I realized there were a few as soon as I closed the first one.

It was soon after this that I woke up from the alarm beeps that I had set. At this point beeps would go off every 2 minutes for 8 minutes to keep help try and keep my mind awake but my body asleep. So once I realized that I was awake, I kept my eyes shut and focused on keeping my breathing the same as when I was sleeping. After a few min I think I started to enter SP. I tried not to think of anything specific, but instead I wanted to just let random thoughts come to me. I felt like I was moving in and out of SP, and all I was seeing was darkness then out of nowhere I saw a vivid metallic green colored circular geometric shape. Now it didn't look exactly perfect and it wasn't a maze, but it was similar to this picture I made on photoshop today: then after that I saw some quick cloud like visuals that looked something like this: I remember being excited about what I had just saw and I reminded myself to write them down when I woke up later on. At that point I felt too tired, and I knew the beeps that had been keeping me up were gone so I decided to just give into sleep. While I was doing this I kept thinking about the visuals that I had just witnessed, and all of the sudden I think this is where I slipped back into dreaming..

Part II
I got this feeling of moving forward, and I compared it to the feeling of driving in a car really fast. Then I was thinking it would be easier to enter SP if I was actually in a car while trying it and someone else was driving me.( I’m not sure when the thoughts started and the visuals started, but the next thing I know..) My best friend Scotty was driving me at night on this road that curved and in my dream I was trying to enter SP. When it didn’t work we continued to drive until I had him drop me off on the sidewalk, and I started to walk towards downtown State College. I continued walking the same direction scotty had been driving me and then I noticed a group of runners in white shorts and shirts behind me. Instead of getting out of their way I decided to see if I was still in shape which I soon found out that I wasn’t. I only ran for like 30 seconds, and I could hear them running up close behind me. I heard them making fun of me for how slow and out of shape I was. Then I had to rest so I moved out of the way and sat down on the grass next to the sidewalk to catch my breath. As the runners passed I yelled “YOU LOOK AMAZINGG!” at them, but I said it sarcastically because I guess I thought they looked stupid in their all white running clothes. I guess I was just mad that they made fun of me and that they were right. Then I got back up and continued on my way, and soon I was downtown looking around at the different bars and restaurants. I stopped at a couple different ones, but I didn’t order anything even though I wanted to. And that was the end.

It's been a while, and yes, I've been slacking off.

Anywho, this first dream occurred two nights back. It was certainly interesting, and certainly enjoyable. Water seemed to be the main theme of it. It began with me starting to play some online flash game of some sort. It was for three players, and each got to be Tom & Jerry-esque characters, either a dog, a cat, or a mouse. I was a mouse, and the other two were the cat and the dog. The person playing the cat's voice was strikingly familiar, though I can't recall who. It was a strange, yet fun game where we'd be zooming through streets on miscellaneous objects, flying through pipes and construction sites. Things in the like. The part I remember most vividly is when we were on a board attached to a boat that was going considerably fast. We got pushed underwater, and were still on the board and attached as well. I saw many creatures that concerned me, having a strong fear of going underwater in the ocean. There was a sea turtle that was much larger than us, and it tried snapping us as we passed by. I then closed my eyes, and waited for use to reach the surface again. I don't remember much after that, besides me leaving the game and walking around, only to find an apartment where I could hear people mumbling about where the mouse went. The next part was strange, but very relaxing. We were at a concert, one that was much like "Woodstock", except we weren't in a field or a forest or anything. Instead, we were in tree-huts that were stationed in tropical palms. We stayed in these for a couple of days. The stage wasn't far off from our huts, quite nice of a distance, really. Each one of our huts had a title of sorts. Mine had to do with lizards and my mom's, who's hut was right next to mine, had to do something with houses. My brother's was farther off, and he kept making fun of the names of our huts, though the insults weren't quite clever. He said things like "You hear of cats and dogs, but never lizards!" which, I didn't take much offense to, really. We stood over the ocean in the day, a good 100 feet over it, and it never seemed to be sunny, but only cloudy, which is my visualization of paradise; a cloudy beach. From a small window in my hut, I could see large and lavish hotels with pools and quality service. I kept saying "That's a beautiful home." for some reason. When we were to sleep, for some reason our huts would move lower towards the ocean. My hut had a bit of water flooding into it, but I could still sleep on the ground, though I kept waking up in fear of this leopard shark that seemed to wander near our area. I never did hear a single band play though.

I'll try to be more consistent with these.

Monday 04 June 2012
This dream was sick! It was sooooo long! But unfortunately I remember , very little from this dream epic. ☹
I will document it to the best of my ability: I am standing somewhere that is a frosty blue. The ground is that of a barren desert with a possible thin layer of snow. There are a few leafless trees scattered about. I am standing on a white path slightly raised from the rest of the surrounding ground. Along the sides of the path are little mounds of what look like dead bodies. I have a long sword in my hand. Then from behind me comes a samurai. He runs along the path touching his sword to the mounds. As he does this I notice there is someone else I haven’t seen on the path. He is a small boy wearing blue shorts and an orange shirt. I look back to the mounds the samurai touched with his sword. From all the mounds he touched rose robotic skeletal warrior men.
Once that happened I had this knowledge: There was a war. The samurai I had seen was on my side. By touching the mounds he had summoned dead warriors to fight a battle. He summoned warriors from all the mounds except one, which lay at the end of the path. I had to get the mound and summon the last warrior before the kid in the orange shirt did. That warrior was the most powerful of all and would be the difference between winning and losing the war.
Now I look at the kid in the orange shirt. He looks back. Immediately, we run for the last mound. At this point the mound is no longer a mound, but an already standing warrior frozen in place. We had to stab the warrior to unfreeze him. (stabbing the warrior to unfreeze him doesn’t make much sense, but hey, I got to use my sword) Who unfroze him would decide who’s side the warrior would fight on. We both run as fast as we can to the last warrior in desperation. I get the feeling I might not make it in time. I take my sword and throw it at the warrior. I guess the same realization cam over the other kid because he did the same. We both miss. Not wasting a second we run to are swords and make another attempt. Once again we both miss. I realize I wont ever be able to hit the warrior by throwing my sword at him. I grab my sword and run to the warrior. Once again, the orange kid does the same thing. But I am faster. I take my sword and drive it in to the warrior. Unfrozen, the warrior runs back down the path a leaves the frosty blue wasteland through a bright doorway. The orange kid looks at me with bitter hate. He wants me dead. I run. I look back and see that he is chasing me. But he doesn’t run. In fact he is walking very slowly. His face literally looks like this: X( I run through the door way at the end of the path way.
I am now at in my compound at Ras Sudr. I am still running from the orange kid. Now I remember next to nothing. Which sucks. But here it is in the form of random fragments: I walk past many houses. I know he is way behind and if I’m lucky I should be able to evade him. If my memory serves me right, then he no longer has a sword but a gun instead………………………….I am at my villa…………………..I see my dog. He is barking at a cat outside the yard. He somehow gets through the fence by passing between the metal rods with a mere 6 inches between them. I find this impressive and clap…………….. The cat and my dog in and out of our yard and outside………. My dad and I look for more cats behind stuff……………I catch a little kitten………..I am holding her, the kitten is in a little plastic bag up to her arms. I hold her in her plastic cocoon………………..I am inside…My sister and Donia see me with the kitten………They have an AW SO CUTE attack. I leave…….I return to take wittle kitty from sister………….I figure it is no use running from the orange kid. I should kill him and get him out of the way forever. I begin to plot his death.

Oh yeah and I let the kitten go outside and she runs to her mother who is a Chihuahua with a wacky haircut...

Weening off 5-HTP.

So since the kids are out of school, I set my alarm for 6:55am and 7:15am, as if it were just another school day. Danny came home off his night shift at 7:15 as usual, then went to take a shower. I fell asleep before he got back, for which I am glad. This usually sparks the biggest FA/lucid opportunities for me. Because he doesn't always work night shifts when I'm off. So I'm not always trying to get to sleep when he takes an early shower. The point I'm making, when he comes back to bed after the shower, I'm not sure if I'm dreaming it or not, so it's an excellent opportunity to try and determine if I'm having a false awakening or not. So....

Danny comes back to bed and lies down. I turn over to look at him, and he's looking at me with the most ridiculous smile. Not a, "Hey baby, you want to?" smile.. more like a "My face is frozen in The Joker expression" smile. I just kinda touch his face and push his head down on the pillow. He just obliges and lies back, staring at the ceiling with the same creepy expression. If only I could screencap these things for him. Anyway, I was filled with that temporarily disorienting feeling of "I'm dreaming!" and went through my usual thing of carefully getting out of bed, feeling every movement to make sure I wasn't getting up for real, losing lucidity and therefore ruining the dream.

Here's where things get odd.. I don't remember losing lucidity and getting it back, but I must have, because the next thing I remember is being in the backyard of an unfamiliar house. It was nighttime and winter.. lots of snow on the ground. But I didn't appear here instantaneously.. I feel there's a gap in my memory. Only thing I can think of is I lost lucidity, then DILDed and got it back, but forgot reattaining the lucidity. So weird. Anyway, it was so beautiful out, and clear. The air was still, and quiet. There were two old fashioned lamp posts, one on my right, and one on my left. And there was a full moon to my right, occasionally disappearing and reappearing from behind tall, black pine trees. Then I heard a horrible sound, like some flying predator diving and screeching, grabbing its prey, then returning to flight. There was so much flapping and unholy animal like screeches. I was lucid so I wasn't scared, just really curious! I stepped off the porch onto the snowy ground, and looked to the sky. It was hard to see because it was so dark, but I could make out something really high up, with giant black wings, that reflected the cold blue moonlight. I just knew it was a Ring Wraith on a fell beast. I screamed "NAZGUUUUUUL!!!!!" and it swooped down near me, then back up into the air again. I was filled with the excitement and desire for it to swoop down and grab me with its claws, then take me flying to god only knows where. I kept screaming for it, and it kept swooping down close to me so I could see it, but it never took me. I started to get blind in one eye again (I think disappointment triggers lack of clarity in my LDs.. just a hypothesis). But I noticed that it helped if I stood in such a way that the trees blocked the moon and the lamp posts. I lifted my hands to where I could see both of them, and I began snapping my fingers back and forth. I did that because I wanted to incorporate at least 3 senses in my stabilization technique: seeing, feeling and hearing my fingers snapping. Things got really clear again, but I woke up right after.