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I tried an OBE this morning. I tried to have an OBE but instead I had an accidental WILD. In fact, a very, very long one. It went like this:
I wake up at seven. I did stuff till eight. I get back into bed and try an OBE. Eventually I become deeply relaxed and there is tons of hypnagogic imagery. It starts distant and unclear but it gets very vivid as time goes by. Then, my mind just explodes with hypnogonia. Visuals everywhere! I hear tons of voices. Then I see flashes of my room as if I can see through my eyelids. Then I see my laptop in front of me, and only that. By this time the voices are at their peak. They were completely understandable. I can hear word for word. Only there were so many voices I couldn't listen to them all. Then voices of two people I know started talking to me. They started calling out my name over and over. I get the feeling that their frustrated at me for not replying. At some point I also heard a huge BOOM/BANG! I think, Ahmed has gotten these bang sounds before! After that VIBRATIONS, never ending vibrations. I get two small waves like when I had my first OBE. I have that thought while its happening. But then a third wave comes and it does not end. It keeps going and going. Im thinking, When is this gonna end? All of a sudden I'm in sleep paralysis. I try to separate, but I fail. Then I open my eyes. I see my room and I am lost for words. The first thing I noticed was the color. I won't try to describe the colors. The next thing I noticed was how the door wasn't where it is normally. But then I saw another door where it always was. There were two. There was a huge window across from my bed. It was like a replication of my room on some alien star ship. Everything was sooooo different yet the same. It spooked me a bit, the way it looked; it was dark and alien-ly sinister. Then I thought, shadow beings? There were none. Then I started to get dragged from my bed. I thought, whatever, just go with the flow. I was then pulled into the space between my bed and my bedside table/drawer thing. I felt my body curl up into the space. I then close my eyes. I try to separate but fail. I open my eyes again I see the same room and everything that happened before happens again. Only this time I am pulled into the wall closest to me. All I see is a strange green-grey. I am unable to move or separate. Seeing no progress will be made now, I want to wake up. This way I'll at least be able to remember all this clearly and write it down, or as I am now, typing it. I try so hard to move. I cant, no matter how hard I try. I think back to what Nicholas Newport said. I try breathing fast and hard. It works; I wake up. I sit in bed and start to think about everything that just happened. I suddenly realize that all of this was not a failed OBE. In fact, I had achieved a WILD without realizing it. I was aware the whole time but I thought I was going through a failing OBE. I failed to tell the difference between an OBE and a lucid dream. It was all a dream starting from the vibrations. I was aware make no mistake, but I had treated everything as if I was on the path to an OBE. I get out of bed wondering how much time has passed. I change my shirt because the one I was wearing smelled.( In waking life it really did smell) I take a moment to decide which shirt I will wear. Whether it'll be the one that I had over my eyes or something else. I then walk out of the room. On my way I look out the window and notice it's dark. This confuses me. I wonder, How long have I been here? I walk into the living room and see my mom and my sister on the couch. Nothing new here. I exchange a few words with my mom but didn’t pay attention to what she was saying. My focus was on the leather coffee table next to us. There was something moving inside of it. I go, Oh! That’s where the mice are living. I hope my mom doesn’t notice. She does and I wake up. For real this time. I think back and realize I had experienced a false awakening. But the conclusions I made in my false awakening about the WILD and how I treated it like an OBE remained true.

First dream: Have to go to football practice. Running late because I chose to leave like ten minutes before six. Seems like I'm at the old house, almost as if it were combined with some type of farm area, as I drive around in a field. Cross some type of river (do I return home realizing that I won't make it in time inbetween crossing the river? Not sure.) and swimming there is Kimmy, Jessica, and I believe some other people I don't recall. Go into the river and talk to Kimmy a while, end up holding hands. Wake up.

Second dream: At my grandma's with family. Seems like some type of party, maybe a birthday party? I dunno but some guy comes in with stuff from ancient Greece, old baseball bats, etc. Grab on to a bat and swing it around some... Remember trying to go into the bathroom but my grandma is in there, she spits as she leaves.

This one's actually from yesterday. Let's hope it works.

Rough night to begin with, but it ended well after all. I got up at 5 AM to do a WBTB, except I couldn't get back to sleep. After trying for a while, I got up again at 7 AM. I got something to eat, watched TV for a while, and got some business out of the way. When I started feeling drowsy, I went back to bed.

I'm sitting on my sister's bed as she talks. She's complaining about the landline not working because the company hooking up the phones has no idea what they're doing, so we have to stick around until they send someone to fix it. I randomly start telling her about the Sodastream I bought a while back. She asks if it adds sugar to drinks. I try explaining that it depends on the drink mix and they make sugar-free ones, but she repeats her question about sugar as if she doesn't hear me. I lay down on her bed and tune her out as I start doze off.

Then I feel skin brushing against mine. I opened my eyes to see that I'm naked under the sheets, and that there's someone else in bed with me. At first, it looks like my long-term boyfriend, though he seems quite a bit pudgier than usual. Oh, and he's naked, too. I scoot a little closer, but then it hits me that my sister's bedroom is really weird place for the two of us to get it on. I start thinking back to the weird conversation with my sister and realize that this has to be a dream.

I sit up, but now I'm in my parents' bed. Worse, my dad is entering the room and screaming about catching me with my boyfriend, who quickly vanishes. And I'm still naked! This seems like it's quickly turning into a nightmare, but at least I maintain lucidity instead of panicking. I remember the task of the month and spot the small mirrored detailing on the headboard. I try to push through one of the tiny mirrors and get rejected -- not that I could put more than a finger through it anyway.

I jump out of bed and run to the nearest place I can hide, which turns out to be Dad's closet. He follows me and continues to yell. I need to get out of this situation. Opposite the closet entrance is bathroom vanity with a sink. Above the sink, there's a mirror. I'm still a little cautious after my last experience with a mirror, so I want to test it. I grab a jar off the counter and throw it. I'm expecting the mirror to shatter, but instead, the jar bounces off like a rubber ball hitting concrete. I take a running leap and dive headfirst into the mirror.

Passing through the mirror is much easier than I expected. I find myself falling through blackness at first, but then there's a lot of light. I land in the waters just off the beach of a tropical island. It looks so beautiful, like it came out of a picture postcard. My sweetie appears next to me, floating on an inflatable raft with his sunglasses on and a tropical drink in his hand. He smiles at me and says that he's been waiting for me, but he knew he wouldn't have to wait long. He had faith that I'd be able to do it.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

Me,my brother and my mother are in a small hotel room, we wanted to get some food so I told them "There's a good restaurant in XXX street".
Me and my brother are going out from the hotel and we get on our bicycles,we're heading towards the restaurant that I recommended.
We reach the place that I said the restaurant will be, there's a blue house over there:

I said the restaurant should be there, we went in and got into the second floor.
There was a door, we opend it and we saw a girl, about our age, that we both know in real life, the whole room was blue, the ceiling, the floor,the walls, everything was blue.
Lets call this girl "Girl".
So as we opend the door we saw the whole place, and Girl played with her little sibling, a brother perhaps? the little kid had brown mushroom-like hair and brown eyes, hes skin was extraordinarily smooth, hes a kid after all.
My brother went and talked to her, I reminded him we were going to get food so we need to hurry, he understood me and we went out of the building.
The moment we got out we saw one of these things in the street:

Girl and another (girl) Lady, we'll call the other girl Lady, were sitting at one of these things, my brother once again went and talked to Girl.
I told him we should rush already, our mother is waiting, he left them and we went into a restaurant that was less than 4 meters away

Me,Girl,My brother,Lady and Dumbledore (from Harry Potter) went into the house, the house started flying to an unknown destination,the house had 3 floors.
We're flying above earth as I go to the third floor, I saw some kid that keeps annoying me in school, he held in hes hands alot of pages, looked like a contract or so:

I knew these pages were related to me, I told him "Dude, can I have these papers?" he waved the papers at me , like a fan, he laughed and said "Hahaha!, Never!" and I saw the Diablo 3 (the game) symbol at one of the pages as he was waving it, I understood he took my Diablo 3 account.
He gets closer to me,face to face,
hes nose was a little bigger then in real life and he was a little pale.
He kept teasing, he said "The fact that you're stronger than me doesn't mean you can beat me up easily! Hah!" then I lost it, I was furious, I felt the hatred and rage filling me up and I tried to punch him in the head.
He grabbed my hand easily with his hand, like he was super strong, then I rememberd a sentence I heard in one of the animes "If you lose your temper in a fight, you lost from the beggining, before you even hit him, if you stay calm, don't get angry, you won" I calmed myself and I gave him a punch to the stomach, he slowly disintegrated from my fist.
One of the guards came to me and said "What have you done?! You've wrecked our defences!",
the guard looked like this guy just without the shield:

I went to the window from the third floor and I looked at earth from above and I saw a invisible wall that surrounded earth breaking down, it was because I killed that annoying kid.
The enemy's army starts getting to our building from earth, I went to the first floor and I saw enemy guardians getting in the house.
I went in the second floor and there was a purple rings on the floor, not the kind of rings you put on your finger, a flying invisible rings that looked like this:


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I stood in the middle of them and I switched class, like an MMORPG.
I switched to the new class that I haven't played yet, I didn't know its skills or how to use it wisely.


I then suddenly held a gun in my hand, the gun was a sniper gun, was a bit more classic with silver on it but it looked a little like this gun:

The gun also had a scope.
I stood at the porch that looked down at the first floor and I thought about the number '6' and the gun aimed at one of the enemies and shot him.
I realized it auto aims, like an aimbot, I thought about the number '6' again and the gun auto aimed at the huge lamp

and shot, the lamp fell and killed alot of enemies.
I understood that the gun auto aim has no limits when it comes to range so I wanted to go to the window and shoot the incoming enemies.
As I slowly walked to the room with the window an enemy suprised me when he came out of one of the rooms, I quickly thought about the number '7' and it auto aimed, then shot him in the stomach and made him disintegrate.
I went to the window and started shooting them.
One of my friends came and told me, who did all of this? who killed all the enemies?
I said I did, and she was proud of me.

Ever since I have began my lucid dreaming journey, a journey which was in large part a result of my reading the dream journal of Hyu "http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/hyu/" I have longed to experience some of the amazing things which were, apparently, happening to my fellow DV members. Well, a few nights ago I had my chance.

My dream starts in a city shrouded in a constant fog. The thing that I remember most from before I gained my lucidity was the smell. It was that strange mix of decaying garbage and industrial pollutants unique to the slums of a thousand cities. My non-lucid self was wandering this city in search of something which eludes me now. I eventually had the good fortune to look up into the sky, as soon as I did, I gained lucidity from the mother of all reality checks. Note to self: if the moon has a face then either A-you are playing Majora's Mask or B- you are dreaming. Once I gained my lucidity I immediately began to more thoroughly survey my surroundings. The city appeared to be a steampunk meets bladerunner version of New York. Having looked around I immediately began to try to exercise some of my lucid abilities. I succeeded in a few minor telekinetic feats, such as knocking the hats off of a few DC's. "BTW if someone ever responds to you knocking their hat their head by telling you :Thank you sir, that hat made me look like a pretentious prick, you are probably dreaming." I quickly grew bored of telekinesis and decided to see what else I could do. With no real goal in mind I raised my hand above my head and snapped my fingers. What happened next is a memory which I shall carry for the rest of my days, with a snap of my fingers I had changed the very night sky itself. All of the stars had changed position and color. I saw stars blink out of existence and other, new stars, take their place. I saw whole galaxies simply appear out of nothingness, and spiral into impossible shapes. As you can probably imagine I was entertained by this for quite a while, I stood in place and snapped my fingers repeatably and just stared at the sky. I eventually had my fill of watching the stars and decided that it was time for me to try something a little more challenging. I have never succeeded in making a portal to anywhere in a dream and was initially at a loss for a destination, then it hit me. I was going to try to make a portal to Terraluna. It seemed rather appropriate that the location that inspired my lucid journey would be the first place where I would teleport to. I stared at the spot on the cobbled pavement where I wanted the portal to appear and focused on the idea of terraluna, on the image that I had formed from reading Hyu's journal. I began to speak out loud the command "take me to terraluna". Over and over, I repeated the command and as I did so the spot where I was focusing on began to smoke, then the beginnings of a black portal took shape over the pavement. I repeated my chant over and over with increasing conviction, but, to my dismay the portal wasn't stable. In the end my portal collapsed with a crack. I had failed to create the portal that I had been so intent on creating, but I had managed to create a very pretty black scorch mark on the ground. It looked like one of those mystic circles which have become so popular in anime and games in recent years. I was preparing to try again when I was woken by my alarm going off. I had failed in my attempt.

This isn't over. I am going to get stronger, develop my technique, and try again. No matter what it takes I am getting to Terraluna.

Haluan, my Hip Hop Team that I've abandoned due to exhaustion and working too much, had a competition, and I went to it instead of sitting it out--weird, as I don't know any of the dances. Classic on-stage-in-front-of-everyone-but-don't-know-the-dance, but I faked it.

The weird part is, we won.

Instead of me fearing that I'd mess up and lose, I feared that I'd get away with the fact that I put no effort into it. I feared people would respect me when they shouldn't.

I am at some event in a classy and giant mansion with dim lighting and lots of doors and staircases. It's like Hogwarts if there was nothing good about Hogwarts. I'm with my brother--still no idea why I'm there, but not questioning it. And various people I don't recognize filtering in and out of the rooms, all as if they're on their way somewhere special.

I'm nervous about going to the event because I'll have to socialize (which is, in real life, not really a weakness of mine), even though I know I should be at this event. However I'd been holding my cat and was putting him down in a fairly people-less corridor, because that's where the cats were. I guess it was the cat room where they were allowed to hang out during the event.

I fast-forward through the event, which I never really went to, just dawdled around for a while I guess, and suddenly it's time to leave and I have to get my cat. I haven't REALLY left the room, but I can't find her. In my dream, it was a boy cat...which is weird, because Pounce is definitely a girl and I've never forgotten that.

I kept seeing other cats and thinking "OH THANK GOD, that must be mine" (does that make me a cat racist?) and then picking it up without really checking and just HOPING I could get away with this working out, fearing that I'd be wrong. But then I'd look and of course it wouldn't be mine. I just kept picking up cats and not having it be mine and it felt awful. I'd fucked up by leaving him(her) there, even though it was "the cat room". I never found out what the event was.

Dream! Not an actual O.B.E. I am laying in Loauy’s bed. He is next to me and we are trying O.B.Es. (happened in waking life. Dream: I am able to move through the covers. I start to wonder if I am out of body. I move some more and conclude, Yes, I am. I sort of crawl off of Loauy’s side of the bed. Now I find myself in the room and out of body. My vision is a bit hazy but quickly becomes 100% clear. I observe myself and notice I am slightly transparent. I now remember my objective of using an open history textbook as a virtual reality realm. We (in waking life had opened the book to a page with a picture of the Taj Mahal) had it set on the floor across from the bed. I walk to it and look at it very closely expecting to be drawn into it and sent to a VR realm of the Taj Mahal. Nothing happens. I then start looking for other interesting pictures in the book. As I flip through, I see some pages have a picture of a man with deep stone like eyes wearing a ski mask and a black hood. His face covers the whole page. The picture keeps reappearing until there isn’t a page in the book that doesn’t have his face on it. I am disturbed. I set the book down closed. I then hear Loauy saying something. I look to the bed and I can see myself next to him. I look deeply asleep and I am wearing the same shirt I was wearing in waking life. Loauy says some stuff to me half asleep. Worried that he would wake me up I speak up. I tell him no no stop I’m in an O.B.E. he doesn’t hear me and falls asleep again. I am relieved.
Now the order of events are unclear. But this is what I remember:
Seeing that that the VR realm didn’t work, I decided I leave the house and fly to space or something. I thought Instead of flying through the roof I would go on the balcony and take to the skies from there. So I walk up to the doors that open up to Loauys balcony and try to walk through them. I CANT. I am a bit confused now. I know I should be able to pass through stuff, right? Either way I am amazed at how long I have managed to stay in this O.B.E. At this point Loauy wakes up fully. He turns to me and starts to shake me. I then start saying stop no loauy don’t wake me up I’m in an O.B.E. What amazed me was how everything I said, my physical body said for me. Loauy heard what I said through my physical body and stopped moving me. I then started to talk to him about the O.B.E. so far. My physical body in bed continues to speak for me and even made a few hand gestures. I then tell him how I have an influence on the physical world. I tell him to look at the book and notice how I have changed its place. I then pick up the book and wave it in the air. I figure he can’t see me but he can see the book floating in the air. The Loauy’s mom comes in and tells Loauy to pack. (In the dream Loauy had relatives over. He was going to travel somewhere with them) I love how no one can see me, yet I can see them. Loauy’s mom leaves the room. Loauy then tells me he needs to go pack and that I should continue with my O.B.E. normally. I then walk back to the doors that open to the balcony and try to go through them again. I still cant. Instead I accidentally knock on the doors. This makes Loauy’s relatives, who were standing on the balcony, come into the room. They come in and see nothing.

I was laying in bed and I couldn’t fall asleep. Then finally I got relaxed and I felt I guess what is known as the roll over signal. I decided to roll over and see if I'd enter SP fast. So I began to enter sleep paralysis. I felt tons of vibrations and it felt like I was falling. It feels good so I just let my self go with it. But I did not ant a WILD or an OBE. It was dark in my room and I get freaked out sometimes so I move force myself out of the vibration state by moving again. Now I'm in my room thinking ah that was fun. At this point I am in a dream but I don’t realize. I remain in bed in the same position and I am still trying to sleep. I notice something weird though. Every time I close my eyes, no matter which direction I was facing, when I open them again, I see my room as if I was laying on my back looking forward. I don’t think much of this. I just figure that I am really close to falling asleep and when I close my eyes I am seeing developing dream scenes of my room. I continue to just lay there for a looong time. I am starting to get a bit suspicious though. I decide to get some water. I turn to the lamp next to me and try to turn it on. It wont work…. The knob that I turn to switch lights on even broke into my hand. I now know I am dreaming. I am a bit scarred since my room is really dark. Once my fears begin to grow I see a figure in the corner. I close my eyes. I put my fears aside for a moment and decide it would be cool to look at my phone. I feel around for it on my bedside table and find it. I press a few buttons and observe. The screen displays a bunch of random figures and scribbles. I toss the useless phone over the bed. It does not make the sound it should when it hit the ground. Now I think about how I am in bed wake, yet my physical body is in the same bed asleep. My fears begin to grow again and I’m worried I’ll start seeing things I don’t want to see because of my stupid fear.. I lay in bed and wonder how long this will last. I try waking myself up for a while. Until finally, one attempt succeeded.

I was in a large room. It was as big as an airplane hanger. There was no furniture.

Hanging from the ceiling were huge steel objects. Their dimensions were approximately 10' x 10' x 2', They were different shapes and colors, but solid colors.

I looked up knowing what to do. I had to avoid these objects that were coming to kill me. One came sliding across the ceiling. It could drop on me. Then another came from the other side of the room. It slid towards me, but it lower as it came towards me, so instead of threatening to drop on me, it could simply hit me as it moved forwards.

I started looking around the room and multiple objects started moving. I had to maneuver my way away from them.

Then the room started producing objects. I had to find stop button for each object or the room would continue to produce that object.

The room produced large plastic garbage cans. Then it started producing large plastic guns. I had to find some button and press it. I did.

Then the room started producing a small action figure. It was evil. It wasn't so much shaped like a person, but it spoke...eventually. It had a light which I ripped out carefully. I had to avoid a sharp point on the figure. I was upset about the point so I went to break it. It turned out to be a spear. When I broke the figures spear, it got mad and spoke to me saying, "You got me there, but now I'm angry!" or something like that. I continued to rip out a few wires and it "died."

Dream Skip

I'm in an old condo I used to live in with my mother. It was in good condition, but a wall was coming apart and it was going to need work soon. We needed to sell the place quickly to avoid having to deal with the problem.

As I walked through the house, I looked down over the living room. It was all white. There was a computer in the far right corner with a display in front of it. It was like silly bands, but nearly a foot high. There were several of them and they took on a random shape in response to the computer input. It was a physical manifestation of art that my mother was working on.

I was surprised that she would choose to do her art on a computer, but she did, and she had set up this thing in front of the computer to change shapes as she worked on her art. The art she was working on and the silly bands did not look alike. The silly bands would all take on the same shape.

There was another computer at the opposite corner of the room. It displayed the same artwork as the other computer. Someone made some innocuous change on the second computer, but it made a change to the display of silly bands. This change would be a give-away that someone had played with her computer.

There was some issue with some people trying to kill someone and they were caught. Then three ugly, heavy-set black women sat down at a dinner table and tried not to look guilty, but they were guilty of the crime.

The End

I wake up at 7:10 and attempt a WILD at 8 something. The dream:
I am first laying in a bedroom that is not mine. I do not realize it is not my room in the dream though. I also think that I have managed an OBE not a lucid dream. Everything is motion blurred and seems to move in slow motion. Half of my vision is blocked by something. I try moving around in the room but its too hard. I close my eyes and hope for a new dream. I wait a few seconds and I experience a wave of vibrations. I decide it would be cool to enter a dream lifting weights. So in the darkness I move my arms as if I'm doing so. After a few seconds of this I am in the dream. I am in another room. It looks like an office of some sort. There is a lot of red. I am laying on a bed or couch lifting invisible weights. I am glad I'm still fully lucid. I get up and walk out of the room. I seem to be in the basement of some house. The floor planning is similar to one of my older houses in Kentucky. I see Hussien Hegazy from my class vacuuming. He is very absorbed in his floor cleaning. The vacuum has a bass guitar attached to it. Instead of the vacuum making a loud whooshing sound it plays breakdowns. DIGGUH DIGDIG DIGGUH. I love this! I walk up to him and say HEY! We shake hands.
I ask him "Hey Hussein, how does it feel to be in a dream?"
He says, "IT FEELS AWESOOOOME!"
We then both go "YEAH!!" and high five each other hard.
I begin to walk up a nearby set of stairs. Hussein follows. Now I am on the first floor. I look around. It looks much like a neighbors house I once visited. I then walk back down another flight of stairs yet I remain on the first floor. As I was walking down the stairs I think, Well since this is a dream, I should be able to just jump down the whole thing just fine. But it feels so real I think It'll hurt. So instead I jump down half. When I land i sort of slip and my heels bang against the last few stairs. It hurt. I think about how I just felt pain. I bang my heels some more against the floor. It hurts even more. I find it cool that I can feel pain in my dream. But now I sort of dread some experiences that will now be painful when I originally thought I wouldn't feel a thing. I see the front door to the house and I walk out now. Hussein is no longer with me. Outside is a suburban neighborhood. In front of the house are many men in suits. Some are lined up on each side of the driveway. There is also a line of men in the center of the driveway. Those men dont have heads. They are only suits standing. I dont know what to say to them.
So I just say, HEY GUYS!"
I start to walk to the street when a man asks me, "Wheres the money?"
I reply with "What money?"
He then says, "There is no money" in a very serious voice. I ignore him and keep walking to the street.
There are tons of cars parked there so I jump over one to get to the street. Then next to the car I just jumped over is the man who asked for money that didn't exist. He pulls out a small leather bag. He unzips it, reaches in, and brings out two guns. One a pistol and the other a submachine gun. He tosses me the pistol. I think it is great that a DC handed me a gun, now the real fun begins. I am surprised to see the man point his gun at me. I worry that if I get shot the dream will end. I duck behind the car. I come back up and start to shoot at him. The gun, instead of firing bullets, launches these slow torpedo shaped objects. I miss him the first time but I am sure I hit him the last few shots. To my disadvantage, the gun is out of ammo. How lame, I think. I get sort of pissed at this point that I'm wasting my precious dream time with some annoying DC. I say to myself this is my dream and I should do whatever I want. I am about to will the dude out of existence when the dream ends.

I'm going back to bed in a bit as it's only 5 am and I usually sleep until sometime between 10 and noon, but I just woke from a dream I wanted to write down asap!

Dream One (Fragment): Pictures of water parks are flashing before me and I am to choose which one I want to go to. Rules and times are being explained for each.

Dreams 2+: The earliest point I can remember I am standing with my kids behind me, my husband to my left, and a woman in a pencil skirt in front of me to my right. We're in a room with white walls, a pale blue office building style carpet, and double glass doors in front of us. We're preparing for an attack. A Buzzer sounds, and suddenly I see Dinosaurs running through the building. A T-Rex is the first to head our way. I start shooting at it through the double glass doors with my gun that fires like the Fammas I use in COD Black Ops. I nearly empty my clip on the damn thing before it finally goes down. My little boy is super curious about what's going on, and he starts to move forwards in front of me, I yell at him to stand back, just as a bunch of raptors come running in. I empty my clip on two of them, my husband takes one down and the lady takes one down. Another one gets past us though and gets my daughter. I panic for a split second, then think I might be able to find some sort of way to heal her if I move through the building. I start walking forwards, and this anime like chic with lavender hair and a white jump suit (think Rei from Evangellion (spelled?)) hands me a set of tweezers. Somehow, this sparks lucidity! I tell myself I'm just dreaming, so I'm going to pretend that these tweezers are some sort of medical secret weapon that can cure anything! Another T-Rex comes up some stairs towards me. I empty my clip on him, and breifly panic because I don't know how to change the clip in the gun or even if I have a spare! I try to calm down and tell myself again, this is a dream, all I have to do is pretend! I pull on the bottom handle of the gun, and this is apparently the clip. It slides out, and I pop it back in and tell myself that reloaded it. It worked like a charm Then a dino with a hard rounded head starts charging up the stairs. I try firing at it, but it closes it's eyes and it's skin and head are too hard to pierce with bullets! I retreat back to the room with my kids and husband, and hand the tweezers to the lady who is in there. She picks up my daughter and rushes her deeper into the room we were in away from the Dinos to miraculously cure her. My son decides to be a pain in the ass, and keeps moving in front of me and I am so scared he's going to be dino lunch. I tell him that if he doesn't get his butt behind me on the count of three, I'm going to drop this gun and spank his butt! Then I count, he cries on 1 and 2, but then scurries behind me just as I say three. Another one of the dinos with the hard skin and head comes charging in. I'm firing at him, but his eyes are closed. I empty my clip in him, as does my husband. I'm thinking this is the end while I reload my gun again, but it opens it's eyes at the last second and I shoot it's eyeballs to bits and it falls over dead. I decide I'm tired of this crap, and I'm out of here! I try to use the gun to cut a hole in the wall like in they do floors in the movies, but apparently the gun has lost it's bullets and is now firing paint balls. Fuck. I use the gun as a ram then and just bust a hole in the wall and tell myself that when I climb through that hole I'll come out at home. I come through at home, and my kids follow me. I tell them to go to the kitchen with Daddy, but they want to follow me and won't go! I want to find Kurasawa though, and I really don't want them around for that, so I run down the hall and lock myself in the bathroom, ha ha. I take the gun and break another hole in the wall. At first all I feel through the hole is ivy like I'm going outside into some sort of garden. I step back and take a moment to tell myself, "When I step through that hole, I'm going to come out in Kurasawa's dream. Not his house or a garden, but in his dream." I start through the hole again. I'm immediately overwhelmed by a strong but good manly smell. Like a whole bunch of mens scented soaps and body sprays all mixed together. The air is comfortable and warm, not cold or uneasy if that makes any sense. I know I've done it, I'm somehow Where I wanted to be. The carpets are dark blue, there's some blue green chairs and a couch, also the walls are a tan color and it looks like I'm in a trailer. I turn right because it looks like I'm on the far left end of this place. There's a kitchen where a couple of guys are goofing off getting beers, pouring shots, and eating/throwing food. They look college aged. They turn to look at me, and one of them asks who I am, I tell him I'm looking for Kurasawa and he just accepts this and they ignore me, lol. I walk down the hall by the kitchen, and walk into the first room on my left. As soon as I step in, I can just feel him there. There are a couple of twin beds, and I see him on the one farthest from me, laying down reading a magazine. I rush over towards him as fast as I can, and he sits up startled. He reaches out towards me and grabs my waist to pull me closer for a hug. A PSP game falls off the bed, and I notice there's a phone number written on it that starts with 718. I try to hug Kurasawa back but I end up getting too excited and wake up.

No worries though, I keep my eyes closed and I try to re imagine my trip through the wall into the living room and then down the hall to Kurasawa.It works and I fall asleep right back into the dream. This time he laughs and tells me welcome back. I smile at him, but refuse to get close enough to touch him, and tell him that I need to be detached from the situation or I'm going to wake up again! Then I remember the PSP game that fell to the floor. I pick it up and start to look at it again. It's bright orange and has a silhouette of a child carrying an umbrella on it. the numbers are now ***, the first three digits of my own area code. This reminds me that I wanted to ask Kurasawa where he is. I ask him if we're in Hic town (the nickname for what passes for a city in my county, lol) He says no, we're actually closer to C (a big city about an hour away) Then he reaches out for me again, and pulls me onto the bed so I'm straddling his legs. He wraps his arms around me and pulls me close before laying back so that now I'm laying on top of him. This embarrasses me a bit and I end up Blushing which is pretty out of character for me and the first sign that I am losing lucidity. A girl walks into the room, She's the girl friend of one of the guys in the kitchen. The guy is following her. He has long black hair half down his back, and he's topless. He's talking, but he doesn't sound very smart and also sounds kind of brutish as if he doesn't care about anyone elses opinions or thoughts and thinks he's always right. Kurasawa sits up, nearly knocking me off him in the process, and tells me he wants to show me something.He slides his legs out from under me, careful not to let me fall, the takes my hand and starts pulling me to the hallway. We make it out into the hallways, and he opens his front door. I'm astounded. It looks like there's a river right outside his door. Like you'd have to get in a boat to step out the front door! I'm marveling over this and how I didn't know such a place existed so nearby. He laughs, and so do the guys in the kitchen, so I turn to look at them and see whats so funny. He tells me it's just a parking lot, nothing amazing about it. I try to explain what I'm seeing, a river, and he tells me it's been raining for a few days (it really has in my area, lol) and that the parking lot just has some standing water in it, no big deal. When I turn again to look I see a parking lot with an inch or so of water sitting in big puddles here and there and not the river I saw before. I briefly wonder if the difference was in my perception and remember the shared dreams that were posted in a "to the moon!" thread and how they would be different in little ways but still obviously shared dreams. I brush off this thought though, and don't regain my lucidity. Kurasawa takes me across the parking lot and through a couple of decorative trees, onto a little black metal gazebo. From there I can see the lake. I realize now that we're on the lake, and wonder which lake it is as there are two in the area he claims we're in. I randomly want to show my BFF, so we walk back intot he parking lot, and I hear one of the guys ask where someone is. The reply is that he's at the LT Office and I think he must work with my husband. Then I ask Kurasawa to take me back to look at the water because I don't want to remember life right now. So he takes me back, but this time on the way we pass a bush covered in Ivy and I recall the ivy the first time I tried to climb though into his place (dream? house? world? lol) then a few steps later and we pass a bronze statue of a cartoony man who's caught a cartoonish catfish. The fish part is a fountain though and is spitting water. Back on the gazebo, Kurasawa puts an arm on my waist pulling me close to him and the other arm on my head to hold me against his chest and the dream fades out as I watch the tiny waves rippling across the water.

Dreams from after going back to bed

Dream 1, 2, and 3 (fragments) I dream of purchasing several pony figurines in the Alicorn shape like princess Celestia. One was a green pony, one was an orange pony, and one was a pink and purple pony. It so weird because they were all three pretty much the same dream of driving up to a yard sale and finding this pony, the only difference was the color of the pony in each dream.

Dream 4 (Fragment): I was in a long and drawn out battle against some sort of shadowy demon like creature. I don't know how the fights started, but there were there rounds. The thing would press it's self into a flat black shadow and float around on the ground and then hoover in the sky. It would pop up to rush at me, or spit acid at me or shoot little disk shaped shadow balls at me. I was armed with a dagger and a steak knife of all things, so I didn't have much to work with. I could also tense my entire body up and growl out like an anime character "RAWR!" any my skin would crystallize for a quick moment so the monsters acid and attacks would have no effect on me (that's gotta be from reading Deadman Wonderland yesterday). I would leap on the demon and sink my knives into it then swish them around and cut it into think slices over and over again, but it kept regenerating. Still, somehow I managed to win all three rounds and at the end of the third it disappeared into a screaming cloud of ash. I remember thinking the whole time that it was just playing with me because it should have been harder to beat than it was and it should have attacked more. Also there were points where it didn't attack at all, just threw pictures of anime at me, lol.

Dream 5: I was talking to a guy with tan skin and long dark hair in a button up shirt and dress pants. He was sipping coffee and telling me something about how he almost went too far, but thought it would be too cruel a punishment? He really seemed like the nice almost hippie peace loving guy who would bury himself in books, not the kind of person who would punish others or do something that might even be remotely cruel. I think he also said something about looking through yearbooks to find past students.

Dream 6: My husband is playing Call of Duty with a friend of mine that my husband doesn't get along with in real life. I'm trying to talk to that friend at the same time on a set of head phones. He's saying he hasn't gotten any pictures of me since high school seven year ago, and wants a picture. I tell him I have tons on my facebook, but he wants one he doesn't have to get online to see. I tell him that next time he sees me he should just take a picture then. He wants to know when he'll see me again, and I tell him at exams tomorrow... and for some reason my dream self seems to think I'm back in high school and have end of semester testing the next day. He laughs and says the match is over, can't he just swing by now? I say sure, and he walks in. My husband is hungry and goes to the kitchen, so my friend and I sit down on the floor to hang out. Some how he ends up getting sad, so I try to hug him to comfort him, and he ends up latching onto me and laying me down and just holding me like I'm a stuffed animal he's sleeping with or something. This startles me awake and even though I haven't seem him in over a year I feel really awkward, lol.

There was some earlier dreaming but I can't really remember it, something about a party and someone getting the wrong end of the stick about me talking to a guy (first bf) and saying they were going to tell my OH.

Anyway then I'm in bed in a house or flat I don't recognise, I hear OH and BIL come in from night out. Then BIL is coming in the room, says do I mind if he crashes in here, OH said it was okay. So I say it's okay, he gets in the bed and it's all normal. Then he stars saying odd stuff like how he's always liked me and I'm nice etc, suddenly I'm aware of the fact he only has boxer shorts on. He asks me to pass him something, I have to get out of the bed to get it and I can feel him leering at me. When I get back in the bed he pins me down and try to kiss me, I push him off but he carries on and tries to touch me. I push him off and tell him no, he gives up and lights a cig, then he burns me with it. I decide to leave then, go in the living room and my OH is sat there, I go over and sit on his knee. I hear BIL leave, I'm about to tell OH what happened but I got woken up.

I visited the guest bedrooms in my house and found some young girls in there (cousins?). They had hidden away a good dozen or so friends of theirs who had run away from home. The girls were hiding in storage space. They begged me to not tell anyone. A couple of teenage boys appeared and they began to harm the girls in the room. Suddenly civil war broke out. I stepped outside and fishing hooks were being thrown around. I was pierced by fishing hooks twice while walking.

POV left my body and entered the house again. A lady in my house was told to rape a man. She didn't seem too bothered by it, but while having sex with him, she saw a premonition of her future daughter dying at a young age--the daughter she saw was conceived during the rape. She sobbed and yelled "My daughter is dead" while holding onto the face of the man she was forced to have sex with. The man had already died.

The dream moves on to a caretaker and the child she is raising. These women are starving. The caretaker gave chunks of her own flesh to ants, making the ants grow big and fat. She told her ward to take the ants and flee the house--the ants were to serve as food during the young lady's travels. The young lady does not wish to leave, but the caretaker yells at her, so the young lady escapes.

The dream moves on to a group of men and a woman. They have been assigned the task of hunting down a man who has fled the house. This man has caught the gay disease. One man leads the others, trying to convince everyone and himself that being gay is not contagious. He does a poor job of convincing his group. Once they leave the house, they come across a flooded building with floating corpses. A few floors up, and there are sex/groping vending machines. They encounter the girl in the group, and while she is distracted by the sex machines, another man comes up behind her and has sex with her. The girl looks at the man and exclaims "Wow, you're really big." The man replies in a deep Batman voice, "Don't tell the Japanese." Apparently he did not want the Japanese to be jealous of him.

Lucid|Non-Lucid|Side-Notes/Awake

I was recently prescribed a new medicine "Topamax" (Topiramate) for my migraines. I have read several different things about this, and nothing real specific about dreams. I read some people saying it causes weird and vivid dreams, while others say it completely gets rid of your dream recall. One of the nearly universal side-effects are memory loss, and trouble recalling certain words. So it seems like it would make lucid dreaming harder if it hurts your memory... I start on the lowest dose 25mg, which causes the least side effects, so thats not so bad.

I went to go pick up my prescription at the local pharmacy, and I decided to get some supplements while I was there. I picked up melatonin with B6 and B6 by itself. At home I have B12 and these daily vitamins with extra vitamins for energy. I think these are generic brand of "One-A-Day Energy" Anyways, they have the B vitamins, and some other stuff but also extended-release caffeine, which I think really helps with lucid dreaming. I also have vitamin B2 and Magnesium, but I take these daily anyways for my migraines. I decided to take all of these last night, not sure why, I guess I'm kind of scared of losing my recall, but I can't rely on supplements forever. Maybe I always wanted to try this, not sure.

Anyways, I swallow
9mg of melatonin
100mg of B6
100mcg of B12
100mg of magnesium (unrelated?)
100 mg of Riboflavin (B2)
200 mg of caffeine (ER)
+whatever else was in the vitamin

Unfortunately I do not remember any of these dreams, and I did not record them, ha.. But I do Know I had dreams, vivid dreams too. I actually woke up several times throughout the night feeling really empathetic and warm. I kept waking up being extremely in awe of my dreams but going back to sleep to soon... :C I wonder if this could be because of too much melatonin? maybe I shouldn't have used the caffeine? I also woke up about every hour, and I had mini dreams throughout the entire night, even outside of REM sleep, these were more like daydreams and were observable outside of SP, Maybe I was just delusional, I definitely felt like my new medicine could be making me feel a little bit foggy as well. I'm going to repeat This next night to see if I can record this time. Is there anything I can do different?