non-lucid

PART 1 - CF AND PAP

I'm with CF (an internet personality that I know of but have not spoken to), and some guy - tall, athletic, "alpha" stereotype... reminds me of a friend of a friend, Pap.

We're at "their" place at some points, or at my current residence at others - that whole weird dream merging effect.

At one point CF asks me to tell them something about them self. I respond that, "it would only be a guess... well, like, an educated guess."

They seem stumped and say they'll "have to think about that one."

There was a lot more but I can't remember...

ANALYSIS

I have no idea what would trigger the thought of CF. Haven't viewed their content or thought of them in a long time.

This scenario seemed like the stereotypical jock vs deep guy cliche.

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PART 2 - LOOKING AFTER KID

I walk into my kitchen, expecting everything to be normal, but find this kid there - about 8 years old, boy, brown hair.

They're throwing a paper plane around (the nose is bent from crashing into things) and generally being a spazz.

I get the impression they have some high expectations of me because my brother has told them about me in an exaggerated way.

I ask where their parents are.

ANALYSIS

This may have been triggered by a kid who was spazzing at work. They didn't have a paper plane, but they were generally being loud and running about.

A manager at work, Mar, knew them somehow and tried to calm them down. I'd kind of acclimated to their noise and it faded into the background, I remember how quiet it suddenly seemed when they finally stopped.

Maybe when things "fade into the background," they're more likely to leave an impression on the subconscious? Maybe.

The whole thing starts with me and 2 of my colleagues from school taking refuge in a shelter. It had 3 rows of doors closed one after another and the final one had some sort of combination, not like a seif one. On the right side of the door there were some numbers placed in shapes, mostly triangles but they we're hard to see. You had to figure out 1 of the combinations to close a lock. it had several. After i did 3 of those i quited and went to lay down on a bed. There was a room with 2 beds, just like those found in hospitals. They were nicely done and the chamber looked all nice. There was another door which i suppose it was a bathroom.Now for some details about the plague. It spreads by touch. If you touch anybody infected you turn into one.They looked like some big zombies, walking around trying to spread the disease. They weren't the most intelligent zombies I've seen. They were kinda dumb but they weren't the only ones who transmitted the disease.There were other humans, particularly a young women, 25 years or so. After we lock ourselves in the chamber i lay down on a bed and think of what is happening outside.After 1 minute or so passes i get out of the bunker and head into a small building. It had only one room, and 2 windows. A small one which could be easily opened and a big one which seemed to be just a piece of glas on the wall. Inside there was the woman i talked about.She comes towards me and i just ask her to give me a little time to just say goodbye. She agrees and when she does a man walks past us. She chases him outside and i run to the bunker. After i enter we were to close the doors but she was coming for us. She was pushing the door. All 3 of us tried to close the door but her hand slipped through and was trying to infect us all.I pull back a friend and get touched myself. We close the door and when they( my friends) were coming to me i make a leap backwards and yell " Stop, she touched me!!". After she walks away from the door i walk out in search for a cure. The symptoms were beginning to show . On my hand i had some marks , as if the flesh began to rot. After some walking around i get a bright idea(well it was a dream after all)- Mixing the virus with the blood of a woman immune to the disease and passing it through a series of filters we would get the cure.I head towards her but when i try to get a sample of her blood nothing comes out. I try again and this time i aim for the biggest vein i could see. I finally get some blood and make the cure. I treat myself then start organizing a resistance. I get all of my friends, colleagues, everyone i ever knew and headed to a chamber down the hall.The door is opened by a tall women, 30 years or so and she starts to spread out weapons and drinks. When i get there she only gives me a bottle of vodka and said you'll find enough weapons laying around. I have none left. I take a mouthful of vodka and go on a killing spree. The first guy that shows up ends up on the floor after a series of punches and kicks.I grab a weapon from the floor and hide after a concrete pillar. 2 zombies go to a chamber nearby. I decide to test my weapon. It was pretty useless for ranged combat. It shotted 3 balls of light that moved slowly through the air.I missed. I get noticed and one of them heads towards me. I shoot him and his leg flies away filled with blood.I kill some more of these freaks and the dream ends. It was one of the best dreams i had for a long time

The whole thing starts with me and 2 of my colleagues from school taking refuge in a shelter. It had 3 rows of doors closed one after another and the final one had some sort of combination, not like a seif one. On the right side of the door there were some numbers placed in shapes, mostly triangles but they we're hard to see. You had to figure out 1 of the combinations to close a lock. it had several. After i did 3 of those i quited and went to lay down on a bed. There was a room with 2 beds, just like those found in hospitals. They were nicely done and the chamber looked all nice. There was another door which i suppose it was a bathroom.Now for some details about the plague. It spreads by touch. If you touch anybody infected you turn into one.They looked like some big zombies, walking around trying to spread the disease. They weren't the most intelligent zombies I've seen. They were kinda dumb but they weren't the only ones who transmitted the disease.There were other humans, particularly a young women, 25 years or so. After we lock ourselves in the chamber i lay down on a bed and think of what is happening outside.After 1 minute or so passes i get out of the bunker and head into a small building. It had only one room, and 2 windows. A small one which could be easily opened and a big one which seemed to be just a piece of glas on the wall. Inside there was the woman i talked about.She comes towards me and i just ask her to give me a little time to just say goodbye. She agrees and when she does a man walks past us. She chases him outside and i run to the bunker. After i enter we were to close the doors but she was coming for us. She was pushing the door. All 3 of us tried to close the door but her hand slipped through and was trying to infect us all.I pull back a friend and get touched myself. We close the door and when they( my friends) were coming to me i make a leap backwards and yell " Stop, she touched me!!". After she walks away from the door i walk out in search for a cure. The symptoms were beginning to show . On my hand i had some marks , as if the flesh began to rot. After some walking around i get a bright idea(well it was a dream after all)- Mixing the virus with the blood of a woman immune to the disease and passing it through a series of filters we would get the cure.I head towards her but when i try to get a sample of her blood nothing comes out. I try again and this time i aim for the biggest vein i could see. I finally get some blood and make the cure. I treat myself then start organizing a resistance. I get all of my friends, colleagues, everyone i ever knew and headed to a chamber down the hall.The door is opened by a tall women, 30 years or so and she starts to spread out weapons and drinks. When i get there she only gives me a bottle of vodka and said you'll find enough weapons laying around. I have none left. I take a mouthful of vodka and go on a killing spree. The first guy that shows up ends up on the floor after a series of punches and kicks.I grab a weapon from the floor and hide after a concrete pillar. 2 zombies go to a chamber nearby. I decide to test my weapon. It was pretty useless for ranged combat. It shotted 3 balls of light that moved slowly through the air.I missed. I get noticed and one of them heads towards me. I shoot him and his leg flies away filled with blood.I kill some more of these freaks and the dream ends. It was one of the best dreams i had for a long time

Comment Dream Lucid Dream

I was at work, walking through the building together with my boss. Or rather, I think I may have been a co-boss in my dream. I can't remember much except for us walking around and accessing floors the building in reality doesn't even have. The floors were gray and vaguely resembled my college.

I also remember a mate from college (who's going to quit and do another study next year) giving me a pack of guitar strings as a gift, and then leaving.

Ok. Yesterday's entry was a great start, today's not as good a follow-up. I had to sleep in a bed I normally don't sleep in (without my journal, so I had to improvise and use a sheet of paper) and I was exhausted to begin with. Nonetheless, back in the old days I used to start whining and stop trying, now I'm just going to try and learn from this and move on. Better luck tonight!

So I was on a school bus going on a field trip to somewhere. One of the teachers passed out cheesesticks for a snack because it was a long trip. We all ate our cheesesticks happily. We got to our destination which was like this forest, and we all started taking pictures with our cameras. All of the sudden I fell to the ground. I tried to get up, and once or twice I managed to get to my feet, but I just fell right back down. Soon I couldn't even get up anymore. The teacher who passed out the cheesesticks ran up to me screaming "OH MY GOD!" An ambulance came and shipped me off to a hospital.

I was in the hospital bed getting checked out. A male doctor said, "Oh no, it seems you are paralyzed from the waste down. Now we have to do reconstructive surgery and physical therapy to get you walking again." The teacher was in the corner crying. The doctor asked her why she was crying. She pulled out a cheesestick from her purse and pointed at the label. "It's all my fault! These cheesesticks are high in carbon!" Then she went back to crying. Apparantly carbon causes paralysis.

The next thing I remember I am walking around in my school. For some reason I go to the guidance office. Walking for me is very hard, it seems like I'm stumbling and about to fall any minute. A kid in the guidance office is sitting in a chair crying. Somehow he got paralyzed too. The guidance people question me and ask me if I could have accidentally given the kid my paralysis germs. Then I wake up.

Hmm. I recall these two mound-like structures in my dream. They were kinda roughly tessellated, like from some 3D computer RPG from the 90s.

I don't remember what was happening there. I think it was dark.

In another part of the dream, this guy I used to go to school with (but never really got along with), Tom, was playing guitar for some people and asked me to accompany him. I grabbed the guitar that was next to him and he quickly went through what I would have to play in the various parts. It was pretty easy to pick up, although I was still unsure what I had to be playing at times.
Later on I remember that I was playing random stuff and there was a girl sitting next to me, wondering what I was doing.

05.08.2010

My wife built a theme park! (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I went to bed very very late. I have been working on after-classes duties, organizing the users that attended and some notes about all discussed. I had some super game operator duties to attend and I have been working on my new self employment management opportunity. I recalled four dreams.

Fourth: I've lost this dream entirely, then it flashed back to my mind 20 minutes later.

A party was going to take place. I was in a mall looking for some goodies for the party when I realized my phone was missing. I went to a balcony and I saw a droid phone just like mine, so I grabbed it thinking it was my phone. I saw the manager from my old Olive Oil job and I wanted to tell her I quit due an improvement in my own business. I did not talk with her at all. I wanted to ask her if she knew where my phone was.

I drove with some friends to the place where the party was going to take place. I arrived to a small place, surrounded by trees. There was a rollercoaster, a merry-go-round and a few other attractions. My wife built the whole thing as a surprise. My wife wanted to ride the rollercoaster with me and test it. I was surprised because she is afraid from heights. As we rode the rollercoaster, it did not work well. When it turned, it did abnormally and sometimes the tracks were so close to the wall, that the cart touched the wall a few times and made an awful noise. We hit ourselves a few times, but no pain felt. At the end, there were two pools, about 20 feet high, 15 feet long. My wife grabbed like a handle and pushed a wooden board. The wooden board was not wider than just 10 inches. She pushed the wooden board until she created a bridge. We had to walk through it and my wife said she was not so walking through it. I told her that probably no one would.

I told my wife I needed back my phone. I realized that with my new business improvement, I would totally need the phone all the time. I drove back to the mall. I got there in half a second. I entered the mall trying to find my old manager. I saw several DC and some were acting oddly.
I finally saw my old manager and I asked her about my phone. She started to question why did I quit the Olive Oil store. I did not want to answer her, it was not her business, and in fact, she already knew. My wife appeared and she had my cell phone. I was wondering how she did get so fast there without a car.

We all waked to a place. It was a big house, with several rooms, a garden and a few stories. The kid my wife takes care off was around there. The kid was happy to see me, but she went to play with my wife. I sat alone in a kitchen. It had a white wooden table in the middle. I think I ate something. It was night outside.

Missed dream sign:
- My wife built a theme park.
- My wife rode a rollercoaster.
- My wife got so fast to the mall.
- Odd mix of people in the same house.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Head for a ToTY.

05.08.2010

Agent chase (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I went to bed very very late. I have been working on after-classes duties, organizing the users that attended and some notes about all discussed. I had some super game operator duties to attend and I have been working on my new self employment management opportunity. I recalled four dreams.

Third - This dream is almost recalled entirely, using the technique "what happened before this" so minor information might be missing.

I was outdoors. It was a cloudy day. I was chasing a suspicious DC and some other female DCs helped her to scape. I wanted to stop her and ask her some questions.

During the chase, I arrived inside a warehouse. There were some robots, but like very old school ones. I recall one that was a microwave head with really low quality arms and legs. It had a hot dog inside. This robots were defending the warehouse. There were some traps as well, that when triggered, would flamethrower you. Some folks with a black sports car helped me here. I reached the end of the warehouse and I started to talk with some of these ladies. I wore black pants with a blue skin-tight shirt. I changed in front of them. For some reasons, one of these ladies had a crush on me, so I felt she was going to be happy to see me changing in front of her. Some folks complained I had the same clothes like them.

I walked around a few soccer stadiums. I was very happy because I accomplished the goal of succeeding in catching the ladies. I was kicked out from two of the stadiums because they knew I totaled the warehouse trying to catch the ladies. However, they did not kick me from a third stadium so I was happy about it. After I left the stadium I was like in a mall.

I exited the mall and I walked into the street. It was sunny now. I was with a female agent, I think discussing about my chase. I was smoking a cigarette and I offered one to her. I light it before her response, but she said she was already smoking one. I had two cigarettes now. One was almost done so I threw it away and I smoked the new one. I started to share with her the story about what just happened and I woke up.

Missed dream sign:
- Odd robots.
- Flamethrower traps.
- I had a different body in this dream.
- 3 soccer stadiums next to each other.
- I was smoking.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Catch the lady and ask what was wrong with her.
- Head for a ToTY.

I now have a dream goal: I will sing in a Renaissance choir.

Robby's house. Lots of people over. Why??? Can't remember. They stayed overnight so I wanted to make them breakfast, but Robby had no real food in the house. I looked all through his fridge, freezer, and pantry.

OMG I tasted something! First time that's happened. We were all chatting about taste in dreams before the last class. It was peanut butter. I think. Tasted like peanut butter, right consistency, but a little too light and it had sesame seeds in it. I'd say tahini but definitely tasted of peanuts. I actually tasted it to find out what it was.

Anyway, I brought bananas around to the guests. There weren't many so they got half bananas. Lloyd was there. There were two bunches of different ages, but they were joined at the top. Which is impossible 'cause one was fresh and one was old. In fact when I started peeling an old one it turned out they'd rotted from the inside. They were mostly liquid (and sesame seeds, for some reason).

Food prep was taking a long time and I felt bad (second time that scenario's happened in the past two weeks). I couldn't find anything useful.

I went into a space behind the kitchen. It was like a barn. And the drawer with all the condiments was way up high. When I looked again it was not a drawer but rather a trash can suspended with bungee cords. There was another trash can on the floor that I used as a step stool to get to it. I was in heels so it was very difficult.

I was frustrated by the impracticality and disorganization of Robby and his family. I'd happ8ily cook for everyone but with all these people coming over meals should have been planned and shopping lists executed. They'd probably just order delivery. Crap food for too much money.

There was an earlier dream that I've almost completely lost. I woke up right after it and thought, "What an awesome, epic dream. I should write it down right now." Then I went to sleep and promptly forgot the whole thing. All I remember is that I was on a tall building. It was cold, and there was a woman with a sword. I remember flying in some kind of ship that was about to crash. So epic and exciting but totally gone.

At one point I read and the words were not at all garbled. I was reading the Wikipedia page on IRC commands. I remember the letters in the heading of each section being bold and clear. Next time I'm reading, I'll remember to do a RC.

Missed dream signs:
-Sesame seeds in bananas.
-Drawer transformed into trash can.

05.08.2010

Master's Degree in MILD (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I went to bed very very late. I have been working on after-classes duties, organizing the users that attended and some notes about all discussed. I had some super game operator duties to attend and I have been working on my new self employment management opportunity. I recalled four dreams.

First.

I was at college. I was the teacher for MILD courses. We had a degree on MILD and I had to teach it (nice daily residue...) A male student said that all could be gone because it was not real. Everybody ignored him. All the students managed total silence by turning off the class (Does not make sense, I know) They waited until I started and I started talking about lucid dreaming. I knew I had young people in the class too, so I had no worries.

Due the sound and for all the people realized that there will be always a class and they could sign in. I woke up feeling good.
I know this makes no sense... is how it was written from my journal. I cannot recall anything...

Missed dream sign:
- MILD career.
- A student saying it was not real.
- Most of the nonsense of the dream.

What I would have done if lucid:
- I would suggest a brainstorm to all students to improve lucidity. I am sure I would learn a lot from my subconscious.

I am walking along the expressway at the Cut-in-the-Hill near Cincinnati. A convoy of Fender guitar trucks passes to my left, each carrying a different model of Stratocaster guitar and each labeled with the make and price of its contents. One of these is called the "Super King" and is listed at $42000 dollars! Somehow I cross the lanes of traffic and open the truck, taking out the guitar. I call my mom, telling her that I'm holding a guitar worth more than all of our cars combined. Soon, however, I put the instrument back and start to walk home.

It's harder to walk up the hill instead of down it. I have to dodge cars, even jumping into a ditch in the median to avoid getting hit. A cop rolls by my ditch and takes a look at me, and I start to worry. My brother then walks out from nowhere and starts to walk with me. Soon, one of my back teeth comes loose and breaks away with a slight pain. I look at it, and am disgusted as it's completely black and cavity ridden.

all i remember is being assigned an important duty, almost a sacred duty.

this one is kinda personal, im not gonna go into much detail. im in the shower, not at home, im in a different bathroom. for some reason im trying an unconventional way to WILD, which im not going into. also i remember someone walking into the bathroom and talking to me.

this one was pretty cool. it starts out in this creek, its a big creek, maybe 30-40 feet wide, and theres trees and rocks in the middle everywhere, like the creek is running right through a forest. me and a group of a few kids were going down the creek, jumping from one big rock to another, trying not to get wet. im in the lead, and i come across a rock that is flat, and the surface is just below the water. then i get a sudden memory, of coming across the same rock, and discovering that it was covered in water, and being disappointed. i jump onto the rock anyway, and continue down the creek. then theres a stretch of water between me and the shore, lined by a stone dock type structure. if i remember correctly, the creek got a lot wider, opening up into a lake. i run across the stretch of water, coming to the stone walkway, and resting on a broken stone. then i see someone coming up beside me, with a person in his arms. he lays the person in the water, a kid, and says he drowned. i look at the kid and the he releases some air bubbles, i quickly jump and get him out of the water, to try and prevent him from drowning. this was a very strange case of drowning. he was entirely conscious during the drowning, but he couldn't talk or breathe, just look at me with a "help me!" look. i start giving him CPR, and giving him mouth to mouth. it works eventually, i think. it was very weird. thats all i remember.

14.06.2010

Testing Entheogenes (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was walking through the house, and Tina, my sister, asked if I was ready. I said yes, nad she put cups on my ears. She said that the guy would be in soon. We waited, and she said she would be in charge of the music being played. I said NOWAY. She played a bit of music. Jump on it(its not called that, but I forget the name). Then I told her not to go above 10 in volume, as it was on 8. She said ok. Hunter, who was the man, came in with another dude. He said that this was this guy, and thats where he got it from. Tina set up the blindfold, and then I started talking to this guy about DMT(this was after I took the compound, it was like I was transported, and began talking to him) and if you could put it in a sticker, and place it on the toungue. We distilled it from plants, and freeze-dried it in a vacuum sealed case thing. He took it out, and gave it to me, and we walked over to this other large cell, with no windows. As I walked up, I had transformed into a girl with a large puffy dress. I plopped down on the cushion in the room, and their was water where I sat, and I wondered how I could be transported if there was water. As soon as I said this there was a knocking on my right thigh, and my vision exploded into color. Instantly, my mind was fucked, and voices began to speak in my ears, especially my right one. I had little awareness of my body, and the voices began to speak 1000 times faster than normal, but I knew that I was getting the information. My senses were overstimulated, and I remember little of what I experienced, and thus, do not know how "long" it lasted. I became aware of the letters SHUNSHA in multi-colored writing as I was dropped into my body on my bed, and I still felt the knocking on my right thigh, and I think the knocking was my leg spasming, and hitting the wall. I got scared cause I thought there were zombies in my room(I sensed something). the next week I felt fucking amazing, and was high all week long from this dream.