non-lucid

I was using my Wacom tablet and I was drawing one of my characters called Benn (He's basically an old-western bounty hunter) on Manga Studio 5. The screen was zoomed in on the ends of his pants, which are torn, and it looked like I was 80% done.

Then the dream ended. Though it does seem like that was only one part of the dream, not the whole thing. So, there's that.

Created Thursday 22 June 2017

Honestly, I should be posting here more often... Anyway, I've got a DILD to note, of which, as noted above, I bagged a basic TOTM. There's also a few fragments.

Dream 1 - June TOTM 2017 Basic Task II


Scene 1 - Falsely Delirious Tyrant Awareness
The visuals were pretty clear. I was watching Dragon Ball Z on a big screen. Overheard my sister, Andrea, and nephew, Euclid talking in the background as well.

This starts in a dirt road cutting through a plains. Kid Trunks is walking down the road, when Master Roshi (noticeably lacking his shades) dives in from nowhere and attacks. Fast paced sparring ensued. Goten soon arrives with a most unusual package on his back: the tyrant Frieza! His alarmed peers questioned if he'd any clue whom that was. Turned out an accident caused Frieza to lose his memories and most of his sanity. Between maddened rambling, the villain mentioned of going to a certain place. And so, Goten elected to take him there.

Cut to them walking around a suburban area. Once there, Frieza revealed he'd faked his insanity, though he assured no hostility. Still, he urged the others to bring him where requested.

I manifest at that point, and take a good look around. On seeing a familiar nearby, I realized this was my neighborhood, and so quickly gained lucidity. There were some differences, though. Namely, a forest replacing both the shopping centers and homes immediately across the street. I fly up to get a better look, and find an empty plains in the horizon. Very curious. I start making my way there, only then, things begin deteriorating into a blue void. No prob. All I needed to do was remain calm, rub my hands, and wait til a scene formed. Immediate transition.

Scene 2 - Rock Nut
The visuals started hazy, but became progressively clearer. I was in a beach, standing elevated above the shore during a sunny day.

People were abound, but it seemed that despite the clear water and weather, no one was swimming. When I went down for a closer look, I soon discovered why. After only getting ankle deep, a 12ft+ tall rogue wave immediately formed ahead of me, sending me tumbling off the ground a good 10 meters back. Stranger yet, the water overlapped over me without leaving even a drop on me.

Woozily, I made my way back uphill and to an unkempt forest. Soon, I found myself in the middle of a party within a rickety picnic area. Just remembered some TOTMs. Perhaps Basic II would be a good start. I looked around in the sand, finding some shells, conches, and pieces of glass. Not solid enough, probably.

After some digging, I finally found a rock, definintely a winner. My brother, Crispin then appeared behind me. He was in a chatty mood, a typical distraction. I told him I'd be with him shortly and commenced the task, ignoring his confused gaze as I bit the stone. Noticed my teeth felt especially brittle and plastic. Still, I chomped on. The rock eventually gave way, where I found some kind of nut inside. A raw almond, specifically, as I soon realized by eating it. Besides a bitter aftertaste, this tasted and felt as the real thing.

After that, I thought of some other tasks. I remembered TOTM task II, though without visible stars, that didn't seem likely. Advanced Task I, mayhaps? I headed back down to the water in hopes of seeing my own reflection. But then, the scenery faded, and I awakened.

Scrap Group 1
Alone in an empty room within an unknown home. I'm imagining having shadow powers for a later dream. When I entered the bathroom, I realized such abilities were already in my grasp. And so, I commanded the inky darkness to sweep through the walls and sinks of the house to melt any verminous insects dwelling there.

In the bedroom of an unknown home. I overheard Euclid and Andrea talking about Ed Edd and Eddy. There was an unusually funny (within the dream) joke where Ed utters the line "I have the soul of an echidna." Later, I sit down to watch TV along with Crispin, my nephew, and my sister. There was an ad for a made-up D&D 3D cartoon. Just from that brief glimpse, I already knew the show was going to be lackluster, its generic action/comedy backdrop as uninspired as its characters.

Driving on the highway and to a city at night. Mom, dad, Crispin, Andrea, and Euclid were there as well. On our way there, Euclid noticed a poster designed as Bash terminal. Some forgotten meta-humor was printed on it, which I had to explain to my nephew. We stop and walk around for a bit. On returning, we find Andrea was still somehow still inside the vehicle. An accident had occurred beforehand, and she was ticketed heavily for such. What's more, she'd sustained a serious injury on her left foot, then mangled beyond recognition. So we rushed her to a local hospital. While checking her in, I noticed I hadn't any shoes, of which I was oddly more concerned than the previous horror.

Vague memories of being in a museum, where expensive copies of a masterpiece were being sold. Then something of walking down a dirt road, and later, playing a keyboard.

I don't remember much. I let my dreams slip away, but what stayed with
me was I was in the back seat of a van and Jenny is in the middle seat. My parents
are in the front seat and I wanted to ask them to let me and Jenny switch seats because I'm tall but I sensed hostility from Jenny. Then my dad said that we are
going to pull over for a food break. I think we are driving to a party. I wake up and
then fall back into the same dream, I am in the same van but I don't become lucid.
Since the van is the only symbol I remember, and what you manage to remember is usually the most important part of the dream, I'll focus on that.

[PRE-DREAM]

So I've been playing a lot of Final Fantasy XV lately, I had just finished it two days ago in fact. I say this because I'm 99% sure that it had a MAJOR impact on the dream I had. So lemme just tell you about it.

[DREAM]

The whole perspective was in third person, akin to XV. I and my party were in a large indoor altar, there were dirty marble pillars and complex wall patterns everywhere I looked. We were fighting a sort of corrupted female spirit (Possibly to cleanse her, or to just get her out of our way).

After the battle (Which was basically just a complete copy of what you's see in Final Fantasy XV), this female spirit was cleansed. She shone a light blue (Like another character in that game(Spoilers!)), and apologized greatly for what she had done. Me, being the complete softy I am, told her to rest easy, and gave her a hug.

This act of kindness and cleansing brought back the world from darkness. A black moon (Which possibly represented just how much darkness had corrupted the world), was turned into a reflective, almost disco ball-like moon. The sun started to rise, and all is well. Then the dream ended.

2017, 06-22

Healing Rain

I am in a beautiful garden. The sun is shining and it is a beautiful day out. I briefly think it was expected to be so very hot, but it’s not. I conclude that the garden with the trees and flowers and flowing stream is keeping the area cool somehow. Without giving that any more consideration I begin wandering through the garden. I see there is a woman in the garden with me. She is a pretty Japanese woman wearing a kimono and she is tending to some of the flowers. She looks over at me and acts surprised to see me. She says she wasn’t expecting company and doesn’t have any cookies. When I give her a puzzled look she says she is Asuka and this is a dream, I should do a reality check if I don’t believe her. So I pinch my nose and find I can still breathe… this is a dream!

Once I’m lucid Asuka says she doesn’t know where MoSh is. I tell her my goal was to come here and heal her anyhow whether MoSh is around or not. She looks a bit puzzled and says she feels fine, but healing energy never causes any harm so go ahead. I focus on the song Voices from the Macross Plus soundtrack and light energy surrounds and flows through Asuka. I am wishing there was some way to keep her from getting infected with any unstable energy, and then I feel rather stupid for not thinking of it sooner. I reach into my white Assassin robes and pull out a Witchblade bracelet. I hand it to Asuka and tell her to keep it on, it will protect her. She takes it and slips it on her left wrist. She says it’s pretty. I say I can’t believe we hadn’t thought to give it to her sooner.

Asuka goes towards the house and says I can meet up with MoSh when he gets into the dream. I look around outside the house but I don’t see MoSh. I go through the house and out in front and look around. I see MoSh outside on the sidewalk petting a dog. I call his name but he doesn’t seem to hear me. I head over towards him and tell him this is a dream. The dog is holding something that MoSh seems to be trying to get hold of. I can’t see what it is. I go over closer to MoSh and I hear him talking to the dog, telling the dog to drop it. The dog gets up and trots down the street. I am about to call to MoSh again but he heads down the street following the dog. I am about to follow him but I wake up before I get more than a few steps down the street.

Had a dream this morning where the singer for the band Seeded Crown(aka Calm; aka Phoenix Rising), was calling me out for liking his band. He said that Nu Metal was a stupid genre and had a stupid sound. The dream featured me at my old elementary school playing the bass line of one their songs titled "For What It's Worth"; the chorus specifically. Interestingly enough, I had figured out that bass line a few days ago and have been experimenting with it. I was shredding that bass-line in the dream.

I'm in a car, dad's driving me from my hometown to the city. Next to the church we see a new facility of some kind. It has a massive machine creating a storm. I see how it weaves lightning into massive, thin and solid pieces. It's like fabric made of light. The machine also creates a zone of dark storm clouds, but the lightning fabric pieces flying around are easily visible. They spin around the facility like a tornado and slowly grow. This is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen in a dream. The pieces condense into a massive ball lightning. I can feel the air electrifying, even though we are far away. The car should protect us from the explosion. The ball lightning disintegrates explosively. The wave of electricity passes the car without harming us.

We make it to the city. While on a large bridge/intersection, there is an explosion beneath the bridge. The metallic frame of the bridge stays in one piece, but the concrete and asphalt or whatever crumbles away. The car is stuck. Dad tells me to get out of the car and go on foot. I do so, and leave my dad behind.

The only exit from the bridge is an underground tunnel that took some damage too. There's rubble, smoke and fire inside. A lot of civilians need to get past it. Some emergency people help us through, we get a rope that we tie to each person for safety and start making our way through the caved in tunnel. There are narrow paths through. We find a door and the next section of the tunnel is full of smoke. We wait, because running into that smoke is not smart. We hear shooting from behind us. We have to go. We run through the smoke and make it through the tunnel into a safe room. We untie the ropes and three people enter the room after us. These are people I know in real life and they caused the explosion and were the people shooting. I grab one of them by the shirt and yell at them, asking for a reason. His face shows no emotion. He has a gun, but I do not fear him. He wouldn't shoot me, no matter what kind of situation he's in.

Date of Dream: THU 22 JUN - 2017



Dream No. 139 - Separated Sections

Dream 139 A - Violence In The Building
First of all, there was talk about the requirements for diploma at the Chisholm campus that was apparently located in Chadstone. I came across JC and he told me that we needed to attend one of the enrolment sessions that was taking place in the next week. The dream then skipped to the day of one of the enrolment sessions. We were in the foyer of Building W and there was also someone there that shouldn't have been there, AZ from primary school. He approached me and actually started violently punching me in the face.

It took a while before AZ decided to stop and then he had walked out of the building. Then it was just me and NN in the area at one point, I wanted to talk to him but then he wasn't talking to me, rather he was on some comfy armchair, reading some book. AZ then came back in with JC and I was scared that I was going to be assaulted again. JC said to me “don't be scared of him, he's been asked to apologize”. AZ then approached me, wearing his primary school uniform and made the apology.

It still apparently wasn't good enough for the TAFE's standards though. The lady that was attending the desk in a corner of the foyer called out to him and said that he was not going to be granted a place in the next course. She said she saw what he did. Then to put it bluntly, she said something like, “we're leaving you without a life”. That's all I can remember in regards to this dream.

Dream 139 B - Searching For A Gift
I was in some random store that I have forgotten the name of and I was looking for a hot pink t-shirt for myself, although the dream just called it a pink t-shirt. I asked my stranger friend in the dream where I could find and she pointed to this massive rack in one corner of the store. When I got to that though, I saw everything except for what I wanted and most of the clothes were the wrong colour. I can't remember what happens in the next scene.

After the scene I forgot, I was back in the store and it was much bigger inside, like it had some sort of extension added to it. There was this whole new section which I was crazy about seeing. I had gone onto Facebook on my phone to message Chilly, asking her what Logan's favourite colour was so I could by him a t-shirt and when I had bought it, I would physically bring it back to his house. She answers me saying that she wasn't sure. I then said to her that his four options were gold, green, red or blue. After that, she said that she would get Logan to hop on speak to me. So then he was typing a message but from her account, so in the same chat-box. He said for me to wait until he got back from the “B & S Store”. I was slightly frustrated that I had to wait and so looked around the rest of the store by myself until I woke up.



Dream Trophies Achieved
- Damsel In Distress (Have NN repel 1 nightmare)
- Kind Visitor (Have 1 interaction with anyone from SML)



Note: Although it was JC who dealt directly with AZ, I still classify it as a trophy achievement as NN and JC are best friends in real life.

Adjusting to the night schedule is harder on recall than I thought.

Bjork

Just a fragment about going to some event concerning Bjork. Can't recall anything either than that.

Big house

I arrive in a car with some people. We are going to visit people. We go inside a big house. There's a huge landing with a drop off at the other end. I am climbing up it and struggling to get up on some poles. This part was very vivid. I saw some guy below who told me to just jump down. It didn't look too deep after all so I did. I started walking around and my recall fades here.

Had a dream where I was graduating college in the spring and thus was surrounded by many empty seats since all the cool kids graduate in the fall. I saw my parents there and also saw some old school chums there. There was a woman holding a baby who was urinating everywhere.

The dream shifted to me traveling through this dark forest. I found a nest of baby squirrels and hit one of the pups with a dirty rag. The mom came out and attacked me repeatedly. Later in the dream, there was a monster that grabbed me. I beat it to death with my fists.

I got semi lucid upon realizing that the place where I live is not the same at all ,in fact , it may have been a whole different place.

It was night. I was walking through train road tracks ot the other side where my home was, but things were different. On the other side was some sort of castle , villa , i dont remember, and a fence, after the fence was lots of trees so i could barely see the building from the trees.

The train tracks were going into the light which was a city I guess. Behind me was the suburbs.
As I walked through I saw suddenly that someone was following me , it was some guy, but I couldnt see any details because we were in the shadow of a train, and the lamps didnt work around the train tracks...

I tried to fight it with a big object i was carrying which was kinda light weight. I pushed the guy but I woke up in that moment out of fright...

Date of Dream: WED 21 JUN - 2017



Dream No. 138 - Seeking Solace

I don't remember the exact sequence of events in this dream. The first thing I remember is being at this unknown place, like the outside of crown casino and there I was with my family and saw a large number of Killester girls with all the PE teachers. I remember the top part of the girls' uniforms were there sports clothes but they were wearing their winter skirts on the bottom. Apparently the excuse is that they were actually netball skirts. Then my parents said something like, “there's your friend” but I didn't know who they were talking about.

The dream scene then changed to me standing in some empty residence with a beautiful sunset in the horizon. I was on my phone and logged onto Facebook in order to message WB. The dream had portrayed that I was in some emotional distress and it was more hidden rather than specified. I remember typing the message, saying something like “WB I need help, please talk to me”. I waited for a while but never got a reply. I do remember her profile picture was distorted in comparison to real life. Her hair was so straight compared to its usual nature and her face was very thin and pointy with her eyes being close to each other, only separated by this tiny but long pointy nose.

After a few short minutes of waiting, the dream scene shifted to some event at another completely unknown place. There was this sort of council festival. I could mostly remember that there were all these people in a massive pool having fun. I had a go in the pool as well and at a certain part, these big waves were pushing me across like a slide which felt really fun and enjoyable. There were other things that happened at this event but I can't really remember them. After that, the dream scene had played another variation of the messaging scene but with the same intention and concept.

The third scene then played and my grandparents from my dad's side were driving in this shopping centre carpark. Their car was about to enter a really big lift and so I started freaking out. My grandma then said that they weren't going in there and instead, were driving to the Knox car park from the Dandenong Plaza car park. I did know that they were entering the Knox car park because I recognized the blue coloured poles from Knox in a previous dream. I did actually somehow remember the appearance of Knox from a previous dream although there was no lucidity involved in any way. I think this was the last scene of the dream and then I woke up. I forgot whether the messaging scene played again or not.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None

Date of Dream: TUE 20 JUN - 2017



Dream No. 137 - Elemental Bass Friends

I remember the four elemental dragons from The Legend Of Spyro, doing something on a cliff top, very close to the edge of the cliff. They then fell off and when they died, all their elemental powers had been transferred to me, although I didn't really do anything dramatic, I could just feel all this energy and I knew what it was. The scene then changed to this classroom-like setting where there were heaps of students' art on display. It was art from the year of when I was on prep but then the pieces of art looked like high-school standard. I then saw this one painting that was mine and I was telling a random stranger of all the detail of it.

The dream then skipped to my dad and he had mentioned something about his four bass playing friends. I told my dad to go and see them now and stop putting his project off. The dream then played a scene with each of them and each had resemblance to one of the four elements. The dream then stated that they all lived on the one road. The dream scene then went back to me and my dad was angry with me some reason. I remember he said something but I've forgotten specifically. I do remember saying it's 2016 when he started the project in 2013, so he'd better get moving now than never. That's all in regards to this dream.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None

Morning of June 21, 2017. Wednesday.



I am in my bedroom in Cubitis (where I have not been in real life since the summer of 1978). There is not much furniture present other than a bed. My room is full of very shiny small gold nuggets and gold dust with a few piles of gold coins. It seems to be nighttime.

I do not consider that my bedroom being filled with gold all over the floor from wall to wall is unusual in any way. I also do not consider that it is unusual that I am Casper the Friendly Ghost, in cartoon form. Wendy the Good Little Witch is visiting. There is no direct association with humanity at all.

Snorkledorf, the Freakies Cereal character, though not associated as such by my dream self, is approaching from the west. Wendy and I know that we are in danger. He will most certainly eat all my gold and then eat us. We decide to flee. Wendy and I fly northwest, and although I phase through the wall as I am flying because I am a ghost (though I often do this as my more conscious-self-based dream self), Wendy does as well, which puzzles me briefly. Perhaps she quickly used her magic wand. For a short time, I am thinking that she could turn Snorkledorf into something else, but that might not prove to be feasible.

We both fly north now. The area is no longer like rural Cubitis but not like a city block, either. The houses are close together, the backs of the houses facing each other, with shared backyards (an interesting dream distortion). Somehow, the area seems familiar or at least “correct” to me (even though it is entirely unique) and I decide to fly to the library. Wendy is no longer with me. I get the idea that Snorkledorf might be able to track our direction using his sense of smell, but that concern fades.

In the unfamiliar library, I am “myself” to some degree. That is, my dream self identity is now human but there are not many threads of my current conscious self identity, though I have no dream-self memory of having just been Casper the Friendly Ghost. I discern my fictional dream self as when I was around twenty-five (even though I had not been in Cubitis since age seventeen). I “know” that the library is north of my home in Cubitis, the other side of Highway Seventeen from where the plant nursery would have been in reality (as well as the opposite side of the highway as my home was). As usual, this is the first time this fictional layout has ever been rendered. There was no public library in Cubitis.

I look westerly at a tall wooden magazine rack and see a variety of magazines and comic books. I think I might buy a book I see in about the center of the rack, which is a graphic novel of perhaps sixty-four pages, though it feels thicker when I stroke the slightly irregular spine with my right thumb and index finger. Even though I am not familiar with its content and it does not seem all that interesting, I decide I will buy it as I read the price on it as $1.13; a dollar and thirteen cents. My dream self does not consider that, being in a library and probably not part of an ongoing book sale (though there are book sales at our local library in real life), that I could not buy it even though I plan to.

I turn around and lean down upon a heavy wooden table to read the book more closely. There are a few other people seated at it, including a very chubby short-haired unfamiliar male on my right (south) of about twenty. As I lean upon the table while turning a couple pages of the graphic novel, the heavy table begins to tip to the point where its top is almost diagonal to the floor.

“I’m sorry,” I say to the small group of people, as I catch and pull the table back upright before it is fully on its side.

“If you could harvest that energy, you could solve the global energy crisis,” the chubby male says formally but cheerfully. I wake.

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• The gold in my Cubitis bedroom uniquely symbolizes all my dreams that I had documented and decoded in my youth.
• Snorkledorf in this case symbolizes so-called dream interpreters. They “eat” (read) someone else’s dream without knowing what a dream is (what gold is for). They “trumpet” (as does Snorkledorf) an irritating out-of-tune fallacious “interpretation” with no understanding of personal value or experience or true meaning.
• Being Casper and flying is a waking symbolism precursor. Flying is the main anticipatory form of waking from a dream. Some “experts” believe this evolved from our ancestors falling out of trees while sleeping, but other “experts” have other theories, such as unconscious confusion of the physical body being horizontal in sleep while residual threads of the conscious self identity are rendered as upright in the dream state. I am more inclined to believe the second theory.
• $1.13, the cover price of the graphic novel, relates to how long I had been sleeping, an hour and thirteen minutes, a format I picked up from watching the timer on our DVD player so many times over the years. The graphic novel itself symbolizes being in the dream state.
• It is curious that the personified preconscious (though already coalescing into my emergent consciousness) said “harvest” instead of “harness”. (“Harvest” would imply getting electricity from plants, thus I suspect it means on one level that I should eat more green vegetables for more energy.)
• Thinking that Wendy could transform Snorkledorf with her magic relates to a conversation Zsuzsanna and I had prior to my dream. Neither of us have any answers for what is really wrong with much of humanity, regardless of how many times we had discussed it. This also relates to a recent analogy I came up with. Being an Internet dream journalist with over fifty years of experience is like being a heart surgeon with a detailed personal diary and additional book on anatomy. In the night, a person comes in through the window and scribbles in the margins “explaining” how the human body is run on hamster wheels…

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Ok, I don't know if you understand the title but I do so whatever. I got four dreams on Monday, but I was busy. I tried to write them here on yesterday too, but website was sooo slow I gave up. But here are the dreams:

#1 This was a nightmare. I remember wathching some scary pictures. There were normal people and ghosts in them. I only saw two pictures until I woke up.

At this point I tried to get myself motivated to get a LD (MILD) but it didn't work.

#2 There were only aliens on Earth (expect that I was a human, I think). The aliens were big and colourful. They ate something, propably meat. This dream was really interesting.

#3 I was in school and had textile work. One girl (who actually didn't have textile work IRL so...) was talking about how every girl had like A for it, expect me, apparently. I felt a little sad for it. She was mean.

#4 I was in school again, and talking to another girl. She talked about her crush. She described him. It didn't sound like it, but apparently she was talking about my crush. I told her that I liked him too. I think I had this dream because I'm always so jealous.

So those were the dreams I had on Monday. I had two dreams yesterday, but they were a little boring and I don't remember them that much. I also tried WILD in the morning, but my siblings were noisy so I failed. Here are the two dreams for today, however:

#1 I was on a restaurant. Its food was not the typical kind, but it was good. The restaurant had dark brown walls and a weird mascot. I think I went to the actual kitchen after eating.

#2 I was playing The Sims 4 with my favourite family, butI then its dad made a fire so I immediately quit without saving. Then I played it again avoiding the thing (not a stove) that caused it.

So, those were the dreams I've had recently. No LDs, but I guess I'm still happy.