non-lucid

after my first proper WBTB since months! i used SSILD for induction, also didnt used it like for months, i felt pretty confident to have a nice and long quality lucid

i am in a city and walk down the street. i tell someone? on the phone? about my diploma thesis. "the gathered results there where up to date at that time..." i have an awesome mood and keep on moving. an elevator left to me opens and i make a small jump to scare them a little and smile to them just because i feel so good.
just like that i get lucid and keep on moving some meters. i remember the basic task. i look around and everywhere are some people so i move back a little and found a girl with his boyfriend moving up some stairs. i decide to pull down her skirt and repeat it with her underpants. her boyfriend looks awkward down to the ground, she tells me "oh [my name]" like i would have told a bad joke and stands around. two guys that where next to us smile and look down on her bottom. since i knee anyways because i pulled her pants down i give it a short lick but i dont want to waste time with sexystuff because i have a lot more goals to check so i stand up and tell her to put up her pants again. before anyone react i already move away and see another girl with a dog? i approach her and knee before her for what reason i cant remember [i think i worried a little that the dream gets unstable so i grounded myself with a detail?]. i notice that i am still a little caveman and so i stand up and move on. i remember both advanced tasks and i decide to do the pokeball one. in waking i have incubated a little how i wanne approach this task and so i move straight to a guy and ask him/tell him i want to catch him into a pokeball but he dont have to worry i will let him out shortly after. [with this i wanted to make it feel easier because there will be no battle or resistance] he looks not that enthusiastic but since this is my dream he has no chance anyway. to summon the pokeball i look to him and say "ah and the pokeball is right behind me right" and i point without looking at a place behind me "but more on the right side?" he starts nodding. now i look to the point where i point at and see the pokeball. i smile because it works like a charm and pick up the ball. next to me is a girl or something? it feels like a witch [i hear harry potter audiobook at the moment] and i feel like she will prevent me from catching this guy. i push the button on the ball and throw it at the dude, the ball opens but it only bounce of him and nothing happens. damn it... i pick it up with TK and throw it at one of two ghost next to me [damn you harry potter xD] but the ball flows thru him. i pick it up with TK again and this time a guy approaches the scene and is next to the guy who i tried first. i throw the ball at him and he gets soaked in to the ball. i smile again and pick up the ball. i hold it in my hand and start moving around again. after some time i remember that part of the task is to let the guy out again and so i throw the ball. it opens the guy gets out and in same second the dream is fading.
i think i dont wake up but have a change in scenery where i lose lucidty.
i walk with a friend of mine in a mix of office and climbinghall. i see at the of the wall a climbing wall where a dude is belay a girl at the wall. i have the strong feeling of already knowing him and i already told him once that he is doing something wrong. my friend is laughing about him. he hears us and approaches us. i welcome him friendly and tell him that the thing he did was not smart. while telling this i suddenly have multiple ropes in my hand and i wrap them around my hands and start to swing a little. someone is pulling me backwards strongly and letting go so i swing to the ceiling on both sides. i do a backflip in the air and get lucid by that again.
"this is a dream again or still!" i move around and i see a office with some tables and people in suits. moving around i want instantly to phase thru a glassdoor but it wont work because in the last moment i feel insecure... i take a bowl per TK into my hand with some teabags. i move on and see a secretary i remember the bonus task and start moving and shaking my feet like it would be a earthquake. i say "wow do you feel this i think this is an earthquake" she looks up and agrees that this must be an earthquake but she seems not to bother. on the side of my visual field i see a window and outside some signs falling apart. i stop moving around like pretend because now i dont need to pretend anymore. i move to the window and for a short second hope that it wont get out of control and start to strong or end bad. i sit infront of the window and look around. shining Advertisement signs fall down and make some sparkles. i look at the street and see how it starts to crack up and to make a big hole. i feel satisfied to accomplish the bonus task so easy. the earthquake ends and i stand up and move over to the kitchencorner to make me some tea "hm i never drank any tea in a lucid" i think and expect a mug being in a wall cupboard. i open it up and find a mug with some water in it. i put it out pur our the water and start to boil me some water. since it need some time (doh..) i look around and think about meditate a little but the ground is wet so i imagine to know that next to me are some pillows and fair enough i look to my left and see two pillows. i them both up with TK and want to sit down as my roommate approaches me. i connect a bad feeling with him and think about to approach him and to resolve my waking life problem with him but the dream fades again and the scenery changes.
i loose lucidty and hear him telling me/a friend? that he just cant do it anymore. the music is too loud there are to many birds and he just cant sleep anymore. i sit somewhere outside and somehow feel like this is a dream and try TK on an item but it wont work because i feel insecure about my state. i move to a sign where some letters are pinned with magnets and i try to change them in something like Good bye but the letters are wrong and it wont work. i wake up for real

Skyfalling
I was dreaming that I was in a room, like a plaster walled garage. Someone was showing me around with a couple others, there was this huge plastic great white shark in the room. I remember that the tail was all weird, like it hadn't been attached properly.. Next thing I remember is being on the border between atmosphere and space, extremely high in the sky as if I could see the whole earth.. There was another person with me, an enemy I think. It was somehow related to the shark room before. We were plummeting down to Earth, I was going to divebomb him or something. How did we even get this high?

Beach
I'm on the beach, there's been some sort of accident or phenomenon causing sea life to wash up on the shores. Sharks and jellyfish are being washed up by the waves, everyone is panicking and trying to put them back in the water... The sharks have weird teeth too, the teeth are all connected as if it were just one big serrated tooth. My family are there, bustling around like everyone else. I remember the sharks snapping at my feet, ungrateful bastards. I also remember a jellyfish jimmying around the shore which made me think it looked a little dopey.

Motor Cross
This dream was pretty enjoyable, I was on a motorbike driving on a circuit in a race. It was kind of dark and pouring with rain... The road was slippery as hell, cars and motorbikes were zooming around so fast. I was on a dirt bike, I remember thinking that if I wanted to win then I would have to up my game. I was behind by too much to take it easy, so I did some risky things. I start hugging the corners tighter, taking the turns at faster speeds, driving across dirt patches.. There were others taking similar risks too. I remember other motorbikes smashing brutally, taking the risks I was taking but not succeeding. It was scary, because I knew how close it was for me too.. It happened a few times, and eventually I slipped up. The crash was minor but my bike was too cracked to be of use anymore.

Airport
I remember it was night and me, my friend Lajja and some other guy were hanging out. I had flown to Wellington in order to hang out with her, we were all going to fly back to Auckland tomorrow.
I woke up in the morning and there was some issue with the flight, like Lajja had forgotten to book her tickets or we missed the plane. We have to go and get new tickets, I'm not really stressed about any of this though. We're in the waiting room which is split in two by a set of folding shutter doors. I sit in the second room while everyone else sits in the first room. I think I did it because it was quieter? The air hostess comes to tell the next few people to proceed, this happens a couple times but not once does she alert the 2nd room. I'm aware she's not doing this, the first time it happens I opened up the shutter doors a bit so she wouldn't ignore it. The 2nd time she still ignores it, so I pull the doors open all the way... The 3rd time she does it again, fucks sake. I just get up and head out instead of waiting, telling myself to just go ahead since Lajja and the other guy went with the hostess the 3rd time. I see them down on the floor below, connected to my floor by a set of escalators. Lajja and the guy are holding hands for some reason, I find this weird since they're not dating and Lajja has a boyfriend already. I head down to meet them and ask if they got the tickets, the guy says "Oh yeh, but uhh whoops I forgot yours, sorry mate". I instantly pick up that he did it on purpose, he's trying to sit alone with Lajja on the plane. I have to go buy my own ticket now.

Plane
I'm on board of a plane, it's a sort of continuation from the last dream (though I definitely recall waking up between them). The plane is quite small with 1 or 2 seats on either side of the walkway. My dad is on the plane next to me or in front of me, we're talking and I briefly look away from him mid-conversation. When I look back at him it's my mum instead. What the...? I'm a bit confused, wasn't I just talking to my dad? Or maybe it was my mum.. Everything feels real, I decide that 'maybe' it's a dream (although I don't even feel like it is). I do a reality check and it succeeds much to my surprise. I stand up and try to stabilise, recalling some advice about making the most of lucids by maximising lucidity and awareness. My mind is a bit chaotic though... I try to force the lucidity to the max and it sort of works but the dream isn't very stable. I can tell because it was bright at first and the world was gradually getting darker and darker. I'm in my flat room now, kind of feels like everything is spinning. I try to escape the room, thinking that maybe moving and engaging the dream will help extend it. I fly out through the window but end up awake. Crap. I do a reality check and succeed, I guess I just had a false awakening. I'm in my bed, I clamber out of it and I'm wearing heaps of clothes which are a bit restricting, it's quite dark and getting darker... I wake up for real.

Waited too long to write these down. My dreams this night stood out by how relatively happy and peaceful they were. In the first one, my entire family was still together (I live alone now, dad and mom divorced) like in the old days.

Of the second one I only remember my dad muttering orders to an imaginary army, and me pointing out how absurd this is. There was much more, all forgotten.

Bed: 23.30(?)
Wake up: 06.35 (aside from lying in bed awake while the mosque did its thing)
Now: 07.20

So Dutch
I'm in Indonesia. Two of my Dutch friends are present, IT guys. I'm walking up a set of concrete stairs. At the top I talk to an Indonesian guy. I'm here to give some advice regarding cables. I can't recall what type of cables they are, but they are aboveground and in the way while you walk. I think it's an impractical design like this and I suggest the guy to move the cables to the side. Then I consider for a moment that I'm taller than most Indonesians. Let's see if I can walk underneath the cables. I don't remember if I could. I also notice that the steps are not identical, making the walk down/up less than ideal. I tell the guy and he tells me that he got a good price from an Australian firm for the stairs. I tell him I can see why. You get what you pay for. Now I feel bad. The stairs are actually quite decent, but I make it sound like they're ridiculously bad. I just trampled the guy's pride.

There's a party at roughly the same place. There are quite a lot of Dutch people. There's one white girl, wearing a white dress, who just hikes up her dress to.. I'm not sure what she did. But since she's either wearing a thong or no underwear at all, her butt is on full display. Now another Dutch friend is also present. Two of my friends are talking about sex and alcohol with some local people. Knowing it's a sensitive topic for many people here, I tell them to knock it off. At some point I'm standing next to a white (Dutch?) girl. She's quite drunk already. I take the glass of champagne / white wine from her hands. Suddenly my old housemate appears, handing her a new one. I tell him that she's already drunk. He's purposefully trying to get her even more drunk to make it easy to convince her to have sex. Asshole.

I'm walking inside somewhere with a group of people. It has a bit of an airport feel, the way when you go to the gates (at Schiphol at least). There are two older white men standing behind a counter somewhere. Someone mentions that they must be Dutch and we strike up a conversation. Yes they are.

Canoe
I'm in a canoe or something similar, on a canal or a river. I'm with two friends, a guy and a girl, who are on a quite big boat. I think they sink for a moment? I myself think about the fact that my iPhone is still in my right pocket. I better not sink. We are ambushed. There's a kind of tripwire which causes me to capsize. Fuck. My phone. I'm not sure if the others also fall for this trap. The people responsible are two guys. I think I/we go after them by land. Either that, or I was fantasising about the way I would beat one of them up for this. Some more stuff happened, but I can't recall it.

Created Wednesday 29 June 2016

Lots of dreams today, but my continued illness and bad sleeping arrangements made it difficult to recall much of them.

Scrap Group 1
Something about Mortal Kombat X.

In a park at dusk.

Walking around the block as part of my exercise, doing so at night time. I fly around for a while.

Singing nursery rhymes with my niece, including one of her favorites, "Baa Baa Black Sheep."

Travelling in the city with my family. We eventually arrive at an airport.

Dream 1 - Brief Apparition

False awakening at night. I'm semi-aware. Head over the the bathroom, where I'm surprised by a shadowy apparition reflected from the mirror. I think to contain it, using various ridiculous chants and wild gestures and dances as part of a tongue-in-cheek ritual, but this yields no results. Then, I step backwards, only to realize I've gone far past the restroom's boundaries and straight to the void. The dream fades and ends.

With my brother and telling him about my friend’s band, listening to them. I tell my friend that they should (re?)name their band Weirguild. I thought about how I had a new apartment to unpack. I wondered if I should go there now, or if it would be better to wait until later.
Suddenly I remembered that I had left my dog at daycare, which was an old apartment I used to live in (#4). I grabbed money but I realize I never saw her enter apartment I just dropped her off in yard. I felt panic rising.

With an old friend (JM) on a bus. She runs thru open bus doors to get out at stop- this seems like a strange thing at the time, like a feat she accomplished. The people on the bus are looking at her in astonishment. It was like she somehow jumped from our bus to the street through another bus into the street again.
We are walking to ? My dog’s vet? We get there and there is a dog that looks like just a head and no legs. He has a tan retro military shirt or hat on. A face that looks almost human. I say he looks like a [military] vet. I know someone who works here.*

Thoughts:
My brother loves music, he also plays some instruments. This particular friend is in a band, and I haven’t talked to him in a long time. Last time we talked he asked me if I had listened to his band yet. (He sent me some links to their music) I felt guilty because I hadn’t. I’ve been phasing this friend out of my life, not because I don’t care for him, but because we had a FWB situation before I met my husband, and my friend admitted feelings for me when I became unavailable. We’ve parted ways in an amiable way, but I don’t think he understands why Ive been ghosting him, even though I have tried to explain it in the past. I said it wouldn’t be fair to my husband, but in reality I felt it would be unfair to my friend to continue being a part of his life if he had feelings he needed to get over.

This dream is nuts let me tell you, I laid down for a nap today and this is what happened.

My mother and I just got back home from doing something with her husband (they are separated) and I went into my room and I was saying something bad about her husband or something like that and mother said "if you keep saying that stuff i'm going to call the police and say you tried to rape me." I just ignored her and turned my tv up louder but I heard her calling the police and she kept saying over and over about how I tried kissing her lips and I was hitter her hands or holder her hands down. I walked outside because I couldn't believe she was doing something like this and then I heard her call over to her neighbor and she told her to kiss her lips and slap her hands and make her looked bruised up. I was yelling at them saying that all this was stupid, and it didn't make any sense as to why she would be acting that way. I looked over and seen the cops coming, guns drawn and yelling for me to get down I just said "Yeah yeah, I get it" and I laid down on my stomach and put my hands behind my back, and the first cop came and looked at me and said I fit the description and they are about to cuff my hands when I try saying this all didn't make any sense when halfway through the sentence I wake up and I was sleep talking it. man I tell you this was the realist dream I have ever had.

D1: Non-Lucid--I was at this place which was like a Christmas celebration but they seemed like Morman's but somehow also occult like. Super weird. It was being in a place that looked like they should be holding a 4H fair but without the animals. In a building for animals. The people there didn't seem to want me or my friends there so I left. I hitchhiked to a nearby gas station on an oddly familiar old road. ( was watching Bates Motel before bed, lol).... I realized my purse was gone when I needed my billfold to pay at the gas station. I went back & the people there were now living in some really nice mobile home. The people there took me back to the 4H kind of place where we now bedded down like animals which was somehow against the rules. My friend wanted me to be curteous but I was mad cuz my purse & billfold was gone. But by then I had found them & was still pissed off cuz my phone in my pocket was now an old phone not my iphone. I told them they needed to give me back my phone or pay me like $800 for it. In the end they gave me cash when I threatend to press charges for the phone & on them personally for being sexual deviants. I said deviant in the dream but I was referring to them keeping the women & children being raped by the men but I never actually saw this, I just had the vibe.... Suddenly the festivities were back on everything was back to how it was when I got there in the beginning with my purse, phone & billfold all back where they belonged. I just wanted to leave & then Meesha woke me up.

D2: Non-Lucid Nightmare!- My family, like a lot of us, were in this tall hotel with really nice rooms. I've been here before, this hotel is a reoccurring dream place but I haven't been there in a while & there is usually a casino there. Anyway my twin daughters (real life twin daughters) had twins. But each had given birth to only one but they looked identical & we were calling them twins. The family went off & left me & my mom with them. My mom said I was being over protective of them & she let one wander off. The next thing I knew it fell off a stairwell & hit a shitload of stairs on it's way down! Fucking horrific! A woman who was dressed like a high end servant but was also some kind of doctor. I don't know, she just looked out of place. After me freaking the hell out eventually the baby was fine & I woke up all hot & sweaty.

Dream 1:
I was going skiing with my friends. We were in the backcountry, skinning up the mountain. My friend took his skis off and I accidentally knocked one of them down the mountain. It hit a tree and the binding broke, so I went to get it. I apologized and told him I would cover the costs of repairing it. Then, I was at the top of the mountain. Looking down, it was like I was on a mountain pass, with a curved road going down. There were jumps over the road. I skipped those because they seemed too crazy, but then I started skiing. The snow was deep and it was amazing. It was like my dream run: steep, deep, and lots of cliffs. At the bottom I hit a huge cliff, landed, then fell and my skis came off. I lost them in the snow so I started looking for them. While I was looking I found a bunch of other skis that weren't mine, but I recognized them.

Dream 2:
I was going on a trip with my dad. He said we were going to Vietnam, but we were on different flights. I was worried because I didn't know what I was going to do once I arrived there because I was on an earlier flight. My dad told me to just find a friend who was on the same flight as me. I was looking around and found one of my friends from school. We went to get on a flight, but it was actually a rocket that launched up and went in to space. We quickly arrived on a planet that looked like Mars, but there was a huge fortress there. We had to fight the guys on the fortress using the weapons installed on our space ship.

D1 - At an office with lota of and lots of files bound up with string and some in leather. K is best employee and is showing me how to do something. We then go into the main office with and old desk and chair (no computer, it is pre-computers).
When I use the old landline phone and go to put my mouth to the phone a woman with wavey hair kisses me repeatedly. Its nice and warm and soothing.
mini-chain - somewhere else in the building a man (looks like a old police canteen) is being given a custard pie then a meat pie for his good work?

D2 - In a game world (repeated dream). The world is vast and outside in large fields. I am following a path through the levels.

D3 - I am in a cramped house/apartment but it just constists of a small hall which leads from a room which is like a changing room with benches to a bathroom. My partner leaves and I am left with Mr B . I go into the bathroom as I am late for work.
I look at the hairs on my face, not in the mirror but all around me, as my hair is standing out really long, from my face and head.
It is suspended as though either there is no gravity or it is alive. But infact it has the energise of the universe pulsating through it, causing it to be directed in certain directions like many millions of medusa snakes.
This hair sequences is oh so incredibly vivid.

First dream

With my family we were at a huge international stadium, on a football match. We took our seats and the match started, our team started to win just when it all begin. Portugal players weren't even moving or trying to do anything. I was sure that the match was a set up and someone payed for our win.

Second dream

I was a paid murderer working for some kind of government agency. They sent me to a house in a flat to take my position and search the area for a criminal called "The hood". I took only a knife with me, suspecting that in the house I'll find mobsters protecting "Hood" and their weapons. The day was dark and overcast, everything was somehow gray. I entered the flat and went up a staircase to the last floor. I lockpicked the door and entered the cramped room. It was really small room with a window, a table with weapons scattered on it, some shelves with canned food and two bedrolls. The room and everything inside had colours, much unlike anything outside. There were two identically looking mobsters inside and their fur changing (changing colours) cat. The mobsters were bald with a long moustache and wearing black suits. I rushed inside with the knife, they tried to wrestle it out of my hand but I hit one of them with elbow and slashed in stomach. A few more punches and slashes and I've dealt with them. Then the cat attacked ferociously - it charged right at my neck, I hit it and threwn to the staircase. I took mobster bodies to a room on lower floor and noticed that "Hood" appeared. It was a woman wearing a hoodie and jeans trousers. Like everything else, she was completely gray. I rushed back to the room and took a sniper rifle laying among many other weapons.

To get that "Hood" I decided to smash open the window and jump to the streets. Despite the height and that I was afraid, I landed perfectly and sneaked on the streets, but suddenly my target disappeared. I found myself back at the door to the room, they were closed. Again I had to lockpick it, kill mobsters, deal with cat and hide bodies. I took a sniper rifle and again jumped down, going to other side of street and sneaking behind the "Hood". Somehow she sensed me, I hid behind a dumpster. I knew she was looking in my direction. I decided to blow off my cover by making a wild dance.

Then I found myself again at the doors to room. I entered it without lockpicking, this time there weren't any mobsters or cats. I took a rifle and leaned out of window. Suddenly I heard police cars - a neighbor called the police. Another "reset" and again I had to take weapons. I took a gun that was like a swiss army knife - it had a pistol, assault rifle, sniper rifle and a shotgun in one. I watched "The hood" from the window, but again, she sensed me.

I have thought about this dream all day. I dreamed it early this morning and still remember every bit of it. I was in this really vivid club. There were these people dancing around like michael jackson but these guys were wicked smooth. It was like they were on ice and when they moved around the dance floor, it would leave a light imprint on the ground like Tron. Their shoes were lit on the bottom with some kind of fluorescent material. so every step they took it left a print on the floor. All these people were having a break dance competition like the 80's. there were breakdance gangs all dressed the same like in that movie the warriors. The floor lighting up with their feet was the coolest part. I asked someone where I was, and what year it was because it didn't feel like I was in my body, I felt like I was having an astral travel experience. Some guy told me it was 2024. So, I'm in the future...and dancefloors will streak with light if you scrap your toe across them, that was really cool. Anyway, i went outside and someone gave me a smoke. everything felt real, i really felt like my body was somewhere else and I was in another world having this experience. Then while talking to someone I started to fade and ghost...then i woke up and was pissed off that I was back in this world. bummer.

28/6/16
Dream 1: I was living in like a dystopian alternate universe where peoples freedom of movement and expression was heavily restricted. I was part of a rebel group and secretly ferried people to and from meetings. It was early morning and I was waiting in a café when my client came in. We made eye contact and understood eachother then we both left at slightly different times to not arouse suspicion. We both hopped into my car and I started driving her through the city, talking with her about stuff.

Dream 2: I was playing in a tennis tournament against Maria Sharapova, I think I had won a competition to do so. Obviously she trounced me, however I had one amazing rally where I hit a drop shot which she returned but I smashed down the line to beat her. Everyone was really impressed with that and I was pretty chuffed myself.

Unintentional WBTB

Fragment: I was farming mobs in firecat alley.

Dream 3: I was playing in a competitive dota team. It was a best of 3 and I think my team had lost the first game however we were doing well in the second.

Dream 4: I was playing a Mario-esque platformer game against my brother. We were both taking it very competitively and it got pretty heated as we tried to beat each other.

Fragment: I was at home doing something.

Dream 5: I was on Sydney road working. There was a big building which had a huge vine over the front which had giant caterpillars within. It was my job to spray for those caterpillars and capture any I found. After a while of this I went into a shopping area to get some food. I stumbled across a girl from high school who was working in the café. She walked out with me for a bit but said she had to get back to work so we said goodbye. As I walked along the street I saw two other guys from high school who insinuated that I had been on a date with the girl. I denied it and then asked them what was going on. As this happens I start feeling a bit lucid and try putting my fingers through my palm, it works! I feel like I am about to wake up so I do another reality check, counting my fingers, and then shoot out some fire from my hand to see if I can. It feels real enough, although not as present as some of my other lucids. I then wonder what to do, and remember I wanted to ask my dream guide what my true name was just to see what the answer would be. I ask this question aloud and suddenly, an impossibly deep, rumbling voice from within me speaks slowly and deliberately. "MMM'SSOOORRIII MMOOORRAAAHH" (Or something like that I couldn't remember it 100% when I woke up). I was taken aback by the power of the voice and the name resonated within me for a while, as if the voice I just heard was echoing throughout my skull. I then thought I had woken up, and began trying to recall my dreams and write them down, however it was a false awakening (doh) and so when I woke up properly my recall has suffered a bit.

On a side note The voice and presence seemed ever so slightly malevolent, or rather just scary because of its extreme power, and reminds me of the dark presence imitating Sivason's avatar when in my last lucid I called out for my dream guide. Both of these entities were extremely, overwhelmingly powerful and huge, dark presences, so maybe they are the same thing and it is my dream guide. Hopefully in future dreams this becomes clearer and I can start a relationship with it.