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I remember some dream about being in my bed, I had woken up and was just pretty pent up from not 'doing the deed' because of the Brainbuddy app. Some stuff happened and I was annoyed because I convinced myself to do it despite knowing I didn't want to. I had watched Rick and Morty season 2 about a week ago which I think had some influence. When Little Rick is around and is like "a teenagers worst enemy is his own mind" or something along those lines - felt like I was under a similar influence.

Yesterday was my first day doing ADA (and some more meditation), I felt like at the end of the day I had some intense mental fatigue. My head ached slightly whenever I brought my attention to focus on the things I was doing instead of slipping into autopilot. I slept pretty well, it didn't take too long to fall asleep (an hour I think, which is really good for me ). I think it was a combined effect of the mental fatigue from ADA and physical fatigue from running... But during the night I just had absolutely horrendous dream recall. My mind was just too exhausted to have the mental capacity needed to recalling a dream.

I decided I'd like to write up a dream from my book when I first started, before I transitioned to posting online.
Dream Journal Book
#1 - Rugby
Throwing around a rugby ball, I think with someone else? - the first dream I ever recorded I've come a long way lol

#2 - First death in a dream / Shapeshifting weretigers

Dream 1 - First death in a dream
I was some kind of official who had acquired some information, and I had some friends who decide to protect me by confessing to my crime for me and taking the blame. They then weren't in the room (I had left before) that I returned to because I had a bucket that had my shoes in it or something... O_O? I left again and went up a flight of metal spiralling stairs. I waited there thinking for a bit and then a high ranking official in a military uniform (kind of reminds me of a Gestapo) walks in and shoots me right in the heart. I can feel the blood warming my chest.. I'm lying on the ground still. The man walks away. I reach around and touch the wound and I'm overwhelmed with disbelief. Some part of me seems to think that everything will be okay though.

Dream 2 - Shapeshifting were-tigers
Shapeshifting were-tigers take over the town in part of a conspiracy. It's a place to use these funny flying things to take over the world (I drew a picture here, it looks like a cross between a manatee and a puffer-fish that is 15 inches long with brown skin and spots on it. It looks really weird). Third-person style dream, it follows a kid who is a were-tiger that is shocked to see so many were-tigers killing the human townsfolk mercilessly. Then the view shifts to a bunch of campers in these large double-decker bus-sized vans, some of which have colour patched up blankets all over them. The main camper-van leader sees what's happening and tells his friends to run and his wife to start the van so she can take the kids and escape.. He plans to be a voluntary scapegoat. Were-tigers approach in a gang-like style, and by this point it has become first person with me as the camper dude standing his ground. I punch the biggest were-tiger straight in the nose and start brawling to divert attention so my family can escape. The boss were-tiger makes a comment to his friend like "Haha you got socked in the face!", to which I add "Yeah he's the biggest so I figured I'd start with him". I seem to realise that I won't live if I continue fighting (since I'm outnumbered and well.. They're were-tigers O_O). I decide to cool it down and hang with them, biding my time. They're apparently cool with this and maybe I earned their respect?

I'm in a movie theater with a friend and her family, the place is very baroque with red velvet drapes; it looks like it was used as a traditional theater before. We find a booth large enough for all of us, in front of the candy shop. I sit first, and by the time everyone is seated the place has completly changed; it's now some kind of fair, and we're sitting in a marquee sourronding a sandy area where the show is suppose to be. The sun is high in the sky and very harsh, we can see the dust moving in the hot breeze and every shadow is razor sharp. I realize that my frieand and her family are gone; I'm with a man. He got a mop of dark, curly, greased hair that enphasizes his tan, rugged face and light eyes. He's dressed like a ranch hand, in solid clothes and cowboy boots, but with silver and leather necklaces and a lot of rings. The actors of the show are finally here, but they start arguing immediatly and the show is cancelled.
I'm in a dusty building that looks like a cement square, worn by wind and dust. It's big but lousy, with run down furnitures and dirty corner. I remember that's it's our QG, and we're a buch of bandits and desesperados. There is a very winded argument about some musicians coming in, I'm not sure if they want to come to play or just to repeat. Anyway our boss, the man that was with me at the fair is saying no, but the three girls (me, a sleek hispanic lady in a long leather coat and a big, burly and fat older lady) are pressing for the musicians to come. As I'm the boss' "pretty doll", I figure that nothing will get under his skin more that grabbing the front of another man shirt and kiss him. Say man is tall and broad shouldered, with tan skin and cropped short hair. He doesn't mind the kiss at all, and my boss do little more than grumbling. I push it by snuggling against my new friend large torso with a cheeking smile. I grab his neck to pull him down to my level and whisper in his ear, asking him if the guitars' room is open. I get a eager yes and grab his wrist to go there. I giggle while running through the old facility, made of interconnected buildings like the one we just left. My new beau start to get impatient and push me against a wall, pulling me up, the coarse cement scratching my back where my shirt is lifted. I scramble to catch his shoulders... And wake up.

Well, damn.

First thing I remember is that I'm at the beach. Don't ask me how I know it was the beach, I didn't see any ocean or anything, but I was in a house with some people and I feel like it was a vacation. Then things got weird. The people I was in the house with were drug addicts and they needed money or else something bad would happen. What exactly, I'm not sure, but the mood was hostile and very tense. I had a trapper keeper that held those clear pages that keep documents safe and each page had a dollar bill in it, lots of different denominations. And then my co-worker Angad was there. I'm not sure what his role was but he commented on the money. There was more to this, but I don't remember very well. I remember stepping out of the house, but nothing after that.

I think I got up to go to the bathroom, went back to sleep, and dreamed up this next part -

Now I'm in what feels like an elementary school auditorium that is broken up into lots of different sections, like at a craft fair. I'm with my wife and we're looking around when we stumble upon a booth that is very large and contains a lot of mid-century modern furniture and knick knacks. I find a super cool jewelry... box...? it's got lots of different drawers in it, some of them are different sizes, and some do different things when you open them. I pushed down on a section on the top and a drawer popped out, and another drawer, when you pulled it open, something inside was rotating so that a section inside it with a place to hold different earrings rotated upwards and displayed them. I absolutely had to have this. It had a lamp on top and when I investigated it further, I saw that it was also a radio!!!! in the back there was hookups for more speakers, it had an internal speaker, and you could pull the rdio module out in order to fix it or replace it easily. I asked how much it was and someone said $180. I thought about it and said thank you and walked away planning how I could negotiate it down to $150 or maybe even $120. I popped out the radio part and noticed that it had black mold on it. Maybe I could use that as leverage...

Then I walked to the next room when I heard a song on the radio (not the radio from the jewelry box lamp) and it was familiar, and a song I even liked, but the words were different. It's like a parody song that radio hosts make up. So I hear someone say to change the song. I'm in the next room and I see above me on two walls in a corner all the canvas photos that are like 2 feet by three feet. A lot of them have the Chemical Brothers logo in the bottom right corner. I was thinking they would look great in my office. There were some pictures of people but I didn't recognize them as music artists. It was maybe cover art, but it wasn't familiar. They were $20 each. Someone was talking about the song that was on the radio and I started talking to them about it. They said that it sounded very similar to the previous one, and I said that yeah, it's the same genre, and that previous one wasn't even the original, intended version. I was having trouble talking because I had food in my mouth. I apologized for this. I couldn't even see who it was that I was talking to.

I walked into the next room and I saw a wonderful marble coffee table. it was round and upon closer inspection, somehow the marble formed a pattern that looked like the name Oprah Winfrey. I was fascinated. Then, sadly, I woke up.

Take aways - the other day my mom asked me what I want for my birthday and I completely forgot that I really have been wanting a jewelry box. I really want to have a conversation with someone about music. I haven't talked music with anyone in a very very long time. I just realized how sad this makes me.

It has been a month and a half since I had my last LD (I only had a couple so far), I do the "How did I end up here?" RC sometimes, and recently I try to fly or change things.
This morning, in the dream, I was in a closed room, and I suddenly found someone with me there. I thought "How did you get here? the door is closed, did you walk through the door?" and I realized I was dreaming knowing this happens only in dreams.
I woke up into an SP, and I tried to imagine a scene to fall asleep again and get an LD, but then eventually I could move, and I heard music coming from my phone which I always put in this spot next to my bed. I picked up the phone, and paused the music, but it still went on. I thought maybe it came from a different application, and left bed. I got out of the room, and talked to my family a little then I woke up.
I guess that was a false awakening. Everything was in place and kinda realistic after I thought I woke up, except I felt a little foggy.
I wonder why our minds play this trick .

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I find myself in my house, and a sudden impulse to RC kicks in. I count my fingers. [COLOR=#0000cd]"This is a dream, isn't it?" I said to myself.[/COLOR][COLOR=#000000] I moved on into the act of stabilizing and the stuff along.. I focused on my vision and it got close to my RL vision. Sound and touch were present and unusually vivid, but i don't remember actually focusing on them a lot. After this, i tried to regain my memory by remembering where i'm and what i'm doing. "I'm in bed dreaming and this is my dream" Is all i recovered before stopping the memory recovery process.

That's all i did to make the dream somewhat stable, but there was something missing and i'm not sure what. Maybe it's because i was very worried during the dream that it would be short, that's probably it. There were sudden moments in the dream in which i found myself back in bed (probably FA). But they lasted a few seconds then i found myself back where i was. Weird thing to be honest. Whatever the case was, the dream was enjoyable because i was somewhat immersed with my environment.. Something that i lacked all these times i got lucid.

Moving on into the main things i did in the dream. I didn't try to meet my DG or fly, because to me this was a test of stability and control and that this LD came out of nowhere. I tried to summon my thought-up magical weapon that would cut through anything. And i had thought of a way to summon it but the process is very hard if control is not fully present. I guess the difficulty came from my slightly-lacking memory. Whatever, i remember being in front of the
double doors that lead to the guest halls, where i was standing, i would be able to see the door of my house and slightly see the street.

I proceeded into the summoning process.

The flashy method of summoning i had in mind:
I close my right hand and leave my left hand open. I would then create friction by moving my left hand accross my right fist. Which would make my fist be set on painless-fire. This fire would then create smoke, the smoke would stay still in mid-air. Essentially acting as a portal to "the dark dimension" that i can pull items from.

Of course, what i got was nothing like what i imagined. First i did the act of moving my left hand over the closed fist of my right hand violently enough to generate friction. I got fire, but it was very weak. And if that wasn't enough, there was no smoke to use as a portal. I guess the process failed. I resorted to another process of making the item appear from thin air by quickly waving my hand accross the air. This one was a failure, as that i got a knife version of the supposed long-sword i wanted. I let the knife vanish and went on with the dream.

I entered through the doors that were to my back this whole time. Inside, there was a door nearby so i realized that i could put my hand inside without looking, and then obtain the weapon! Unfortunately enough, i don't remember what happened after this - I either woke up or lost lucidity. I put my hand inside and was able to grab a large object that felt like a sword, but i remember enough that it wasn't the thing i was looking for.[/COLOR][COLOR=#B22222]
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Hi
My gosh this dream i had was really deep,crazy,nice,interesting,thrilling,exciting,wei rd etc.

I first started with 4-5 people going to some place...
was a river if i remember right, and something happened and they got splitted and went along alone, and i had to go from another way to catch them.. i couldnt... i think the country was Israel lol, i really remember this dream somewhere i had it before, so it was like replay of the dream... then i went to some building like a church or whatever it was where i had to enter some doors and go down down to get inside the place where we normally had to be, untill a israel squad caught me and be like what u doin here etc etc i didnt know what to say so i pretend to be just there as a visitor etc and they told me not to go in the doors etc, they started taking showers and what so ever.. after they send me somewhere, they thought i am lost, which i did lol, to some guy in some other place i dont really remember what we did but he helped me u know live for that day, and slowly the dream started changing... started getting crazy lol, it was like i was viewing other's ppl dreams, where some people got stuck into some punishment stuff like they had to participate through some crazy things.... torturements or whatever u call it, then i had to ride a car and win someone lol, then there was this crazy room water room on the bottom
where all people dead and someone was with me i forgot who who went through it and i was following...
so wha happened we went up slowly (the room was really cubic with fancy green/blue color only) energetic room or something and we went to the top which was the end of the building, sounds weird i dont even understand what this was ...
then i dont really remember, i keept waking up and gettin back to sleep to continue the dream, so yeah at the end i remember even being wit hmy mom on some building, and we were talking and on the edge of the building it had that feature (same from that water room) where the gravity holds you up (on the air lol) and we jumped from one building to another and could get to any window we like or at the top of it.... i dont know what happened to those 4-5 people i was with, if i was Lucid i could get there, but i wasnt.. so yeah end of dream was a kind of REPLY of the dream again, just from different perspect of view....

dats it!

Non-dream
Non-lucid
Lucid

Dream 1: Lecture
I'm sitting in a lecture hall. It's one of those classrooms where the rows to the back are way higher than the rows in the front. I think the lecture was already over. There are just a few people left. I myself am somewhere halfway to the back, perhaps a little bit further. I remember a girl sitting a bit further to the back. Also a classmate whom I rarely talk to because I don't care for her too much is there. She asks me how I'm doing with the final assignment. Ow man.. I'm too busy with the exams right now to do the assignment. I walk with her a bit, down the steps. She mentions that the assignment is already due this week Thursday. Wait what?! Isn't it the week after? I'm fucked. I realise that I need to go back to my seat instead of walk out with her, cause I'm barefooted and my shoes are still at my seat. I end up having the attention of the girl in the back for just a split second, while I'm standing in a row that's further to the back than hers. I do a diveroll [parkour move] over a row of seats.

Dream 2: Car
It's daytime and I'm sitting in the car, back row to the right. On the left is my girlfriend. The driver's seat is on the left side of the car. Cas, someone who I haven't talked to in years, is driving. In the passenger seat is at one point his ex-girlfriend and at one point a different girl. We are driving to the airport of Jakarta. I've got a sort of comfortable foetal position going on. At one point it feels like I kinda pretend to be asleep, but eventually I actually do fade in and out of sleep [in the dream only, I didn't really wake up]. I think about having to spend 14 hours on the airplane back to Amsterdam. So long... I don't really remember the conversation, if any. At one point we were just there. I do remember being able to look at the girl in front of me as if there was no chair between us. I also remember an oddly shaped part of the car, underneath the dashboard.

Indonesian cars have a steering wheel on the right. Also, this car [kinda beat up] is definitely not Cas' real life car.

Dream 3: Languages
I'm chilling with my housemate and Indonesian classmate, both girls. We're at one point at 'home' [it doesn't resemble our home] and at one point standing in front of it. My housemate has a lot of thick fantasy books, which were left behind by the last person who occupied the room. Nice for her. She has some stuff to use to her liking, or just sell or whatever. We're outside, but it feels like we're just sitting.. on the ground perhaps. My housemate spends about 90% of the time talking in Dutch to me, which I think is mean to my classmate who barely understands Dutch. I try to talk mostly in English. I don't remember my classmate talking at all. My housemate justifies talking in Dutch by saying that there's no need to talk in English if my classmate doesn't participate in the conversation. I explain that it's a vicious cycle that I've experienced myself in Indonesia: because people speak a language you don't understand, you don't participate. Because you don't participate, they continue using a language you don't understand.

Dream 4: Boring sunset
I'm in what's supposed to be one of the rooms I lived in during my time in Indonesia, except it's much more luxurious, with a balcony and such. There is ok-ish scenery with a sunset that is supposed to be beautiful, but right now [while writing] I don't think of it as such. I remember I promised to give my friend pictures that I made from my window. There's another guy in the room with me.. and a baby, a boy. I film the baby, who does some funny stuff.

a dream i had i few years ago, a very memorable one with an high control level!

12/13/2010


Daytime, i'm in an imaginary town and I spot something covered by the roofs of buildings, a glow emanating a white-red-blue flare...a sort of colored cloud moving...can't see it clearly so I jump getting a good height to see better and I remain in the air; I observe again and I see something similar to a rotating galaxy, composed by clouds in a spiral shape and some bright spheres of red and blue light that follow the slow circular motion of that galaxy-cloud. I extend my arm towards the galaxy, and I can catch it even if it's many light-years far; it's like touching vapor, the more I hold it in my hand, the more consistency it takes, almost like cotton; I throw it in front of me, like i'm launching a frisbee and while it's spinning I make it change its shape with my mind, I subdivide the colors so I create a circle sheet of paper composed of colored patches, same shades of the galaxy: red, white and blue. At this point I remember that in my next lucid dream i'd have shouted so I do it: “ lucid dreeeeeam! “. Then I keep having fun: I take the sheet of paper and I decide I can change everything like I want pointing it in any direction! The town is crowded, but I don't see anyone interesting...so I get an idea: i'm really attracted by asian girls (chinese, japanese, thai, vietnamese..) i've always had a thing for them! I aim the paper at the people to transform them in asian girls, and in a few seconds all the streets are full of pretty almond-eyed girls! I enjoy the view! I notice a beautiful one, I fly towards her and I land close to her, she smiles at me and we walk together while the other girls are slowly vanishing. At this point i'm more than satisfied; some caress and kisses with her and little by little I let myself go loosing lucidity...i continue the dream going around with the girl, we see other people again...then I found myself in a different place, a house where i'm talking about nothing in particular with some relatives and friends...then I wake up.


first scene, where i extend my arm to catch the galaxy-cloud


last scene, where i've transformed all the people in asian girls

I remember talking to my mother and having a overwhelming desire to take care of her.

I was in some kind of big building. There were other people there,too. I was only casually aware of their presence,seeing them walking back and forth out of the corner of my eye. I was walking down this long carpeted hallway. There were some vending machines to my immediate left. Someone asked me if I wanted something. "Nah,I'm good," I said. I really did want something,but didn't think I had any money with me so I pretended like I was satisfied. I stuck my hand in my pocket and felt I had a bunch of change,which surprised me. "Ooh. I really am good," I said to myself. I stopped and looked at the different machines. Most were those small red candy machines with the knob and coin slot,but there was one that was different. The biggest machine was grey metal and quite old from the look of it. There were no markings on it to indicate what kind of machine it was. I had a handful of change,mostly nickels and dimes. I started to put the coins into this largest machine,but it wouldn't take the dime I had just inserted. There was a small round metal button,which I assumed was the coin return. I pressed it and something fell down into the opening under the coin slot. I saw a couple of wadded up dollar bills on top of something wrapped in green cloth. I started to take the money and whatever was in the cloth,but I noticed a black guy standing next to me. I thought the green cloth might be something illegal,so I didn't take it.

Non-dream
Non-lucid
Lucid

Dream 1 - Dino dog
I really wish I tried harder to recall this, I feel like I forgot the best part of the dream . The only part I remember is the end where the adventure seemed to have finished. I'm in my parents house in the main lounge, it looks nearly identical except that the draws are on the wrong part of the room. There's a creature walking around casually being interested in stuff. It looks like a dog, but it's red and has more scaly skin and no fur. It has these long spikes arching back (about the length of a hand) that protrude from all around the circumference of its neck. Its snout is slightly longer and more point than you would expect, but only slightly. I remember opening up the draws and pulling out an African drum. It looks really primitive/incomplete, the hide stretched over the top is loose and only slightly held in place by some strings. I wonder how it makes a sound if the hide isn't stretched properly. I hold it and tap the top, discovering there's a slight wooden panel that covers 1/3 of the opening. It seems like you're meant to tap that and it makes a sound. Such a weird design. I strut around tapping it to some random beat and waltz in the study room where someone (likely my dad) is sitting doing work in front of the computer. The dinosaur looking dog is next to him just standing, it looks at me as I enter.

I think there was some kind of tension between me and the other strange creatures that were in this dream (though unmentioned because I only remember the end of the dream) which made me feel like the dog was supposed to be dangerous, but it was strangely docile.

Dream 2 -Library girls are the best
I can't remember how I came to be in the library or what we were doing there. I was with 2 (cute) girls that I think I may have been studying with. I remember there being a table but now we were obviously on the ground. I had my black bag in front of me spoon-feeding the front pouch all the pencils, pens etc that I seem to have in abundance (this is pretty true in RL ). The girls seem to have finished and are waiting on me, they're lying down next to each other about a hands width away on my left.
"Maybe we should kiss and touch" one mentions to the other. Instantly the attention of about 4 nearby girls is garnered, this makes me chuckle a bit as I seem to know that the 2 girls are just playing a prank.
"If you put your head here and do this, it'll help too" they say to me, indicating me to rest my head on the lower part of their stomach. I ignore her as I know she's just teasing me ^_^
"I heard that if you rub your breast while doing this with your mouth (tongue swirling motion) it will ????" one of the girl says playfully to the other (the last part was some generic benefit like good skin or something O_O). I'm still stowing pencils away, so many pencils... I start fiddling around in my bag looking for my hearing aids container, I get them and put them on. As I do this I glance to my right and wow, the four girls that were paying attention to my friends were leaning against a white-metallic book shelf and were each rubbing one breast while swirling their tongue around. Haha! I'm surprised they fell for it . After seeing them succeed I kind of just bow my head and rest it on the lower part of one of the girls' stomachs. It was like a sign of respect for them manipulating the other girls which I found impressive. The 2 girls were still lying flat on their back next to each other and now I had my head lying on them ^_^. The whole scene feels comedic and quite light. They tell me that if I rub my head a certain way and nuzzle their pants down a bit then it'll also have a good effect (it wasn't sexual though). I comply in a 'what hell am I doing' kind of way, just going with the flow. The girl closest to me I manage to get her pants down about 2 inches and expose her panties, they're blue.
"Geeze I only have one colour" she says kind of playfully (she probably meant to say she only had those panties and nothing else)
"Damn!" I respond, jokingly insinuating that she should get more colour variety. She cracks up laughing (in the dream with the slight-comedic atmosphere and non-sexual nature (yet growing sexual undertone) of everything it was just somehow really hilarious). This dream felt so weird to recap O_O

Dream 3 - Evil Monsters
Everything is grey: the atmosphere, the weather, the road I was walking on, the monsters. Everything was just somehow tinged in evil grey murkiness. This was some kind of adventure world. There were green trees off the road but even they seemed to be swallowed by the evil atmosphere. I think I was fighting some monsters earlier on, but now I was strolling down the road in the rain. I was with another person whom I didn't really want to be stuck with. He had forced a grey monster that somewhat resembled a zebra (though more hunched and slightly shorter) to lead us somewhere. The road we were walking was gravelly and had been worn down by cars, although it felt like cars weren't a part of this world. There's a bridge up ahead that goes over the road (about 10 metres high). I'm a bit ahead of the others, the zebra creature is behind me. I pass under the bridge, next is the zebra but as it's about to go under it perks up as blood splashes onto its back. It dashes beneath the bridge and cowers in fear, hoping that whatever it was will leave it alone. A huge creature suddenly drops from the bridge, "RUN!".
Sprinting away we manage to escape somehow (we honestly ran for like 20 metres so it doesn't make sense). I also remember the zebra thing getting squished and its body was split in half but that seems to have not happened when I next look at it. We're at a bend in the road and continue walking now. To the right of the road there's more trees, but to the left there's a sudden drop into a valley with a river passing through it. There's a sudden scream and it's ear-piercingly loud. Whatever it is must be REALLY powerful, we absolutely do not want to cross paths with it. I goof up somehow, slipping down the cliff face leading into the valley, I manage to stop the fall about 20 metres down by grabbing branches and clawing at the dirt. Uh oh, I hope that monster thing doesn't get us. My partner said "was that a doll?" which made no sense since it was a monster.

Dream 4 - Robo heroes
Me and some other people, not really sure how many but I think it's mostly girls, enter a classroom. There are 2 other girls already in here who we don't know. We introduce ourselves and conversation happens while I decide to go off and do my own thing. I walk into the neighbouring room through a side door and there's a bunch of people doing horticulture-related stuff. They must be in a club, they manage the schools gardens. I strike up conversation with a girl who seems to be the club leader, she's just shoveling compost into a bucket. It's pretty weird that she's doing this in the classroom. I mention how impressive their garden is which you can see through the windows, it's HUGE. There are heaps of potted plants and the whole thing is beautiful and green with lots of various plant species.
I haven't got a clue what or how I get into this next situation but I seem to be on the run. I don't have a drivers license like other robo heroes (which is what I am now apparently, as part of some hero academy) because I skipped classes and couldn't be bothered. There is another hero who I think must be my rival, he's got a license though. I run into a basement and hide. It's blue and has a little room to the side which is small but I manage to hide my frame enough to buy some time. The people looking for me come in slowly, I know that it's only a matter of time, they're programmed like a game to explore the route to a certain extent so that you can't hide in here forever. Surely enough, they spot me and the chase begins again. I think I'm some kind of blue robot hero with quite thick blocky robot parts. I can't seem to remember how to equip my weapons either. This is starting to feel a little like a video game. I run around a bit more before ending up in the same situation in another basement, this time with my rival present. He's captured me I think, he has weapons and I can't equip mine so I can't do anything. He's standing in the side room, the search party will be here soon though the rival hasn't alerted them to my presence. There's some sort of camaraderie between us. I realize I don't even know how to pick up a weapon either. It also feels like at some point I'm playing with a toy figurine (like a transformer) and I put a weapon into its hand, some kind of robot arm with a stick on it. My rival lets me go, I push him out of the side room so I can hide there, telling him to go outside hoping he'll send the search party in a different direction. They come down to the basement anyways and eventually I have to make a break and run for it again. I push past them up the stairs and out into the open. This time they REALLY don't want to lose me. They've called in back up, I think I can hear the sound of a helicopter in the distance. A flash car pulls up and 2 heroes (not overly robotic, more like a power-ranger suit tbh) jump out and run after me. I run really fast and then decide to double back, heading towards the car. I punch in the drivers seat window and open the door. Grabbing the hero driver I throw him onto the ground. I think someone says some like "Luke Skywalker can't driver either because he missed the driving lessons". I'm about to jump into the car and hopefully wing it with my non-existent driving skills but the dream ends.

Bahaha hope you enjoyed reading this 1'847 word long dream recap

I've had a bunch of dreams every night for the past week, although I haven't written them down because either there's been too many to keep track of, or they're not detailed enough to get their own entry.

But in each of them, I've been on the verge of lucidity. I think I was 50% lucid for a recent one, and I actually had a surprising amount of indirect control over everything.

I am making progress, just not writing down anything unless it's worthwhile.

Fairly late to bed (1am). Woke 7:30? Finished with a "high awareness semi-lucid" / "low awareness lucid" KI(S)LD

earlier:

+ I'm trying to figure out a locking mechanism on a gate. There are bars that I'm extracting and trying to fit into locking slots. I look behind me and there is some sexy-time activities going on behind me with several people involved.

+ I'm in a gym, observing from a medium distance how a girl approaches a machine and adjusts it, moving the securing/locking mechanism that I "remember" I couldn't find earlier when I was trying to use that machine. Once secured, she starts to use it.

+ (thought, not a dream?) I think about how when I was camping, how I'd like to sleep inside a tent, zip up the flaps but let air flow, it's warmer inside the tent than outside.

+ I realize I'm in a large, tall, open rectangular inside space. It is a grocery store. [Day residue from the building I'm working in which has a huge, open, rectangular, tall-ceiling-ed lobby]. The ceiling is amazingly high. I say out loud that they could fit an entire second level of shelves stacked above the first level of shelves. The store people aren't interested in my feedback.

I'm standing in one corner of the store with a girl and her (boyfriend?). We're next to some shelves packed with items. High up, they have books on the top shelf. "Hey, the have books here!" I say. I then invite the girl to go with me to some event that involves (motorcycles?), but I suspect she won't come because of her boyfriend. We then part, and we kiss briefly several times, and then I leave.

Then I'm standing in a group of people seated on tall stools and tables, like in an outdoor seating section of a cafe. One table has two girls and their mother, another table has a girl and her mother. At the 1-girl table the girl is holding a small pack of little things like (berries? peppercorns?) I think they may be goji berries. The 2-girl table people are really interested in what's in this packages, and the 1-girl table mother is exasperated/annoyed at their attention and hands them the package. They and I sample it, and it seems to be like parmesan-flavored popcorn.

I'm checking out the 2 girls at the table and choose the 2nd one, seated in the middle. I move in for some kisses. I'm nearly lucid at this stage, and I'm thinking lightly about the dream ending while I'm doing this. I feel the kisses but the sensation is slightly weak, like 50%, so I keep kissing her more times trying to feel it more intensely, and I wake up.

10.22.15

yesterday sleeping 1pm-10pm

Bad dreams. Demons. Not ghosts, but demons. I remember faces. One scene - I'm standing with another person and when a demon walks between us, we can detect it. There is a strange "pull" or electricity. Losts of abstract stuff.

D1 - My car was in the garage for some repairs. When I went in to pick it up I find it (a white car) has been damaged while its been there. The side of the car is raked with scratches, like its been in collision with half the occupants of Jurassic park.
I am not best pleased and just want to get my car out of that garage. The guy on the desk tries to make out there is a problem with the paperwork and he can't release my car. I have no photo id relevant. In the end he accepted my original receipt.

D2 - Playing with children in my parents garden. The grass and garden are idylic. I am then a small child again and go with some of the children to a swimming pool. I am carrying lots of Styrofoam cups of warm water with me. I place this precariously on a concrete plinth at the pool. The pool is weird a horrible deep concrete basin with a large plasma tv at our end, like a screen for scores.

[Comment]
I have figured out one facet of my current few dreams. White is used often for indoor scenes with artificial light
and outside is often dark and/or rainy.

Outside in my dreams seems to symbolise "waking state" dark and ominous , full of rain clouds with deep portent xD (my troubled waking life)
I think its pointing to the fact that my awareness in the waking state is very low intensity
and as a result
my dream state "white with artificial light" is very low intensity also.

Hence my subconscious is telling me to up my awareness dramatically (stop being lost in thought)
if I want my dreams to be more vivid...lucid even...

k time for more dream yoga...