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I go to the subway. A dog goes inside the subway station to and I talk to him. He is homeless and just wants to find a shelter to have some rest. I wish him all the best, totally fine about having had a conversation with a dog.
I buy a ticket, but instead of going to a normal train to somewhere, I get an entrance ticket to some kind of surreal game. in the underground tunnels, which now I realize are not the subway any more.
More people are joining the game. We enter an atrium where we find a kind of tomb of a king. From it arises a ghost and he tells us we're going to have to face the truths about this place and solve its mysteries, no matter how scary it may become. Then he disappears and we all go in different directions.
On my path I encounter what appears to be a madhouse full of demonic ghosts. I realize I have to go across them, so I remind myself they are not real and I pass through them as if they are fog. At the end of this path I receive revelations about the ins and outs of the world and the people and I am offered to experience all kinds of sensual delights, but I only feel disgust and sadness that others are so blind to the truth by it.

In the dream my father had just died and now me and my mother were living alone. We were talking about moving into a smaller house and getting rid of a lot of our stuff. (IRL, my dad has held on to a lot of junk. Things like my old toys from when I was a kid and old TVs and computers that don't work too well anymore.

We somehow got in this reality TV show called 'Re-arranged' where these people would come into your house and re-arrange all the furniture and make a mess and then film the reactions. It was a pretty stupid idea if you ask me.

I remember they moved all of the furniture in my bedroom into the middle of my room. My dresser, that has my quartz crystal on it now had a big pile of crystals on it in all different colors. This was something that I remembered the show doing that they would leave you extra things to make up for the inconvenience they caused moving all of the furniture around. This seemed kind of counter-productive to the way that we were trying to get rid of things in the house, though.

The one thing they hadn't moved was my desk. I decided that I wanted to get on my computer to play Kerbal Space Program. But when I booted it up and signed in I saw that all of my files had been moved around too. They had uninstalled all my mods and now my save file was corrupted. I looked around and saw that all of my digital art was messed up too. I wondered how they figured out my password on my laptop. I was so mad I tried to scream:

Spoiler for Language:

I'm going to fucking kill all of these people!!!

But nothing came out of my mouth. I then became lucid and woke up a moment later.

Dang layer 1's.

I was in the woods with my dad (very much still alive in this dreams' timeline), cousins and some other family members. We were building a fort out of sticks to prepare for either an attack from an evil government militia, a zombie apocalypse or both. I can't remember.

I just remember that the fort was in a gully and we put these big branches standing upright to build the frame, then putting smaller sticks horizontally. We needed a lot of medium and smaller sized sticks to make the wall and I was helping to gather them up.

At some point the fort morphed from a lame kids' stick fort to this actually rather epic fortification. The fort was made of huge timbers and had three story towers with cannons on top. The fort was built on the side of a lake now. (Or there could have been a lake before that I just didn't see because of the trees.) It looked like a castle but made entirely out of wood.

I think me or my friend S pointed out that if somebody set the fort on fire we would be in big trouble.

Edit:

I also had a dream that I had revived my old comic series, Kyle and Gary. I was working on the next comic in the series that I had planned to do.

Had a lucid dream where i was flying around with Eye. There were non lucid dreams too but i don't even remember what happened now.

Morning of July 14, 2015. Tuesday.



Instead of my first dream of the night being sensual and lucid as usual (probably due to the so-called Tetris effect regarding actual lovemaking), they have remained so for a couple days throughout and as such, have not much of a plot otherwise. Still, one has enough additional detail to perhaps post online as it involves one of those common (to me) imagery-based events that seem very familiar, even nostalgic, yet completely fictional.

Yet again, I am back in my (implied) teenage years in Cubitis. The bed is aligned east to west along the northeast corner against the outer carport door (that door being perpendicular to the main entrance into the living room), which is where it was during the height of unexplainable clearer dreams associated with my wife-to-be before we met.

There is another presence in the room other than Zsuzsanna and I on the west side, supposedly also with a bed in the room; an unknown female, though who leaves in a short time without saying or doing anything other than a straight walk out the door from my room (without acknowledging us), though it does not seem that much of a privacy issue even though it seems possible she may return (though she does not). After an extensive level of intimacy with augmented touch with Zsuzsanna, and even though it is semi-dark, I find myself looking at some sort of “impossible” Warren-like comic magazine/“computer” composite in the same location on my bed (it is not much like an ipad - but more like a normal magazine though with computerized pages), though which transforms into solely a comic magazine after a short time, though mostly in color. Firstly, there is a black-and-white splash page that shows a scene similar to art from near the end of the “Heavy Metal” movie (from 1981) with a female riding a winged creature. There is some sort of ambiguity that implies more imagery can somehow be inserted into the page into any white space with some sort of software routine. Although I contemplate this idea, I do not use it or see any options to do what is implied (or any context menu showing additional art to be inserted wherever - the ground below the winged creature is mostly white and featureless, implying that perhaps figures or buildings can be inserted as well as perhaps something else in the sky).

It soon gets more and more “familiar” (as if I had read through the fictional magazine numerous times in the past) as I turn the pages. There is a page that is somewhat like “Wizards” movie scenes (from 1977) in a typical Bodē-like three-by-three vertically narrow nine panel layout. Eventually, I am looking at what seems to be a very unlikely but “familiar” Vaughn Bodē Erotica comic, yet featuring Disney’s Magica De Spell. She appears to be standing (on the right side of each panel) and engaged in conversation with another female “duck” over most of the nine panels. The art becomes so vivid and detailed (and focused with full clarity upon), I partially forget I am dreaming and start to reflect on the intense “familiarity” of this book. It seems, though, that each page is only a “demo” (or sample) of various other magazines and I do not quite recall if I have all or some of the full copies elsewhere. (Magica De Spell was actually one of the first cartoon characters that appeared in dreams from age four, though only in two-dimensional still images and not really that often). This of course distracts me from my lucidity, though I do eventually shift into other sensual scenes without any comic imagery. I even enter a lucid “false awakening” (which is fairly rare) as if I am more lucid in coming out of another lucid dream. (Typically, concerning non-lucid dreams, my false awakenings are almost always far less vivid than the previous dream, though real movies that use this trick imply the opposite. The fact they are less vivid at least with me, is probably one reason why they “work” as a false awakening in the first place - with less reasoning skills available than the previous main dream.)

Decent night despite late bedtime, LD #126 (short, low lucidity)

Earlier:
+(f) trying to meet people, I call out my location, "Sol. and Sa. Pa." I think we're meeting on Al. hill

+ in a class with bad/strict teacher, studying words, a student stumps the teacher by calling out a word the teacher does not know, I think if you're going to teach a lesson like this you'd better study the words. There is a phrase I must work with and I have a book like a dictionary where I see some terms defined and I start reading from it, it's like a fairy tale entry on some mythological being? The text is black and red, it's not making much sense and people aren't listening so I stop reading.

+(f) thinking over my class schedule, why did I sign up for two English classes in different schools, when will I have time to do all the reading, how many pages were assigned?

+ playing with my kids as babies, "it's very hot in Cu.", It's very cold in Cu." and they echo back, we're rolling around on the floor wrestling and I look up and see an adult sticking her head in the door looking at us, I think it's my dad at first but it resolves into an unknown woman looks in, I say we're preparing for shower, smaller one crawls to closet with a passageway between the bedrooms, I follow to get him back, see girl in closet heading for me and I get interested, i realize its my sister and lose my interest, she's wearing a brownish turtleneck. She's blocking the way, and in her room is a leather suitcase being repaired with some dangerous glue so I have to go around to get my kid.

+ fire mall: outside city intersection at night, there was a fire and the fire department is here, the fire was to the right and the fire dept is blocking that side while ensuring that up the fire is really out, enter left side, a fireman extends the crosswalk timer to give people a chance to make it across. I enter the mall, go up to a woman's beauty salon up on a platform, I pee in an exposed toilet, a woman complains. And I say I'd do it again, step down and walk to the left of the platform and see a sign for the men's room and feel a bit stupid for using the women's salon bathroom.

I enter through the door and see a small shoe store there with racks of shoes all along the walls and think they really make use of all available space. Sitting down is an older middle-aged lesbian buying running shoes, "the advantage of running shoes is <something>" (I think that it's that they're good for walking, too.) The lesbian has a deformed foot, the front half is twisted a quarter-turn she says "I don't have AIDS!"

I'm walking to the elevators, miss one, get in another bit leave since my coat flies out of my arms and down a stairway, I go get it and it's now a glove.

Walking through the mall I see signs hanging from the ceiling advertising super fancy restaurants with long presumptuous names. I think they're really expensive but I'm on a business trip so could expense it.
There's a (gay?) maitre d', I'm trying to figure out the layout of the upper floors where the restaurants are: is it one continuous level, or are there separate towers on each corner that require using a different elevator (I say this out loud)? He answer and his voice changes from initially stereotypically gay lilt high-pitche'd to a deep man's voice, saying you have to leave enough time (because the elevators could be crowded/slow I think) and should try to arrive 10 minutes before your reservation. I see a huge (1 square meter at least) raw red steak on the shelf of an industrial press that starts to close on it.

Later:

+ LD #126: I'm walking on beach, I'm naked, almost walk into people, apologize in foreign language, where's my swim suit I'm a bit confused maybe I left it at home? Theres a girl at a big rock, people wont like me being near her while I'm naked. I go around the boulder to the right, look at the water, enter water put head under the surface, see clearly opening my eyes under water, think this water is particularly clear with good visibility, the water is knee-deep, I'm now standing, I look down into the water and see zillions of tiny fishes, then bigger odd fishes with weird mouths, I think they like to nibble on people's legs. One of these fishes comes near to me I think to nibble on me, its mouth gets larger and I see odd teeth, like large human molars, I kick the fish away from me and it slowly drifts and rotates, It now looks like the green glutton ghost from Ghostbusters.

This is weird enough to prompt me to do a nose pinch RC. The air leaks out around my fingers, it's not a free flow of air, I try a few times and the air keeps leaking out, I decide this means I'm dreaming and immediately start striding confidently out of the water, feeling like I'm in command of all around me. There are people walking around and a building ahead. everything is so clear and detailed, I get a bit skeptical about the dream and think I could get in trouble messing with the DCs if they're actually waking people, but I decided to go ahead anyway

There are mostly guys around, I look ahead and see a girl coming up to a glass door to a shop to leave it, and give her a "come here" gesture. She comes up to me and I tell her to take off her shirt. I'm running my hands along the skin of her back, she's hesitant and I tell her to keep on going. I bring in her head for a kiss and I see her mouth cave in a little and get a bit wrinkly. I pull back a bit and tell her "be young!" the dream transitions.

I lose lucidity, big deli guy makes me a turkey and mayo sandwich, he's complaining that "Szechuan Palace is stealing all my business".

Dolphin killers

The whole world was flooded with sea water, and people had to built platforms in order to survive. I was swimming on my little raft, when I reached ruins of harbor city. There were only some small parts of platforms still standing, with some useful stuff on them, like food, fresh water and other resources.

Suddenly my raft started to squeak and crack. Just before it fallen apart, I jumped on the farthest platform to the east. Thinking that I'm safe, I sat down and watched surroundings. There was nothing on the horizon, only endless ocean. I felt that something hit the platform from inside the water.

I looked around, and managed to turn back just as a dolphin jumped out of the water, with intent to eat me. I slapped it in a head a few times, and then another dolphin jumped out of water to help his buddy. I slapped it too, and both of them squeaked in irritation. They stopped moving, and looked at the water expectantly.

I leaned over the edge of platform, and then a huge orca jumped out of it, with open jaws. I quickly jumped back and slapped the orca while shouting with fear. After a few slaps or so, I just decided to run away. Both orca and dolphins jumped back to the ocean.

I inspected other platforms, but found nothing of use besides food. Without my raft, I was stuck there.

MILD - In a castle walls; wonderland

I was inside of guest room in a castle. I inspected the room - the floor and furniture were made with exotic wood. There were expensive tapestries, a comfortable bed and some wardrobes.

Suddenly I become lucid. For a while I thought what can I do this time, and looked around again. I saw a maid - a beautiful blonde lady in a green dress. With nothing better to do, I came closer and talked with her for a while. Then I persuaded her that we should have some fun, being alone in the room, and probably in the whole guest wing of the castle. I managed to keep the lucidity for quite some time, focusing on my intent and on the lady. Suddenly I just lost lucidity, without waking up. I was still in the guest room, maid nowhere to be found. When I wanted to leave the room, everything faded.

I found myself on a cliff. There were some roadsigns and a grave without any plaque. I was standing in front doors to a tavern. There was a tunnel leading to deserts, and down the cliff there was a weird, eerie jungle. The tavern was surrounded with dense forests.

I entered the building, and found myself in some kind of a museum. I wandered for a while, watching exhibitions, and suddenly founding myself back at the cliff, staring at the grave. For some reason, I took my phone out of my pocket, and took a photo of it.

Bully

I was in my old school, wandering the corridors. I decided to go back to classroom, and sat down. Teacher told us that it was free day, so we could do anything we want inside the classroom. I looked around and saw my friends playing some games.

Suddenly a bully walked closer to me, and showed me a pack of chips. I said that I don't want to eat, but he insisted on, and spilled some on my desk. With nothing to do, I decided to just eat them. Later that day, bully told me to appear at fuel station with 1000000 dollars, or he'll beat me black and blue. Back in home, I thought about that, and about the fine hunting knife I received as a birthday gift.

Next day with my family we were driving to a city, stopping by at fuel station. I told them that we had a free day at school, but I haven't mentioned the bully part. I saw that guy waiting for me there, but I wasn't going to meet him, and waited in car until we drove away.

Black: non-dream
Blue: non-lucid
Red: lucid

I had a lot of dreams last night... At one point I was helping some friends who got their kayak stuck in a river, I jumped around acrobatically and reached it, then pushed it down towards them. There was a wooden deck with a roof next to this river which we sat down on, my daughter sat on my lap and began singing to me while we were all just hanging out.

Another one is where I was with my close friends Sam and Daniel, I can't recall much but I think we were in a mall and were walking around into shops, I saw my mum there too while she was looking at jewelery..

A lot of familiar faces last night

There My Thongs Ya Wanker
I'm at the shops and I'm coming down some stairs to leave. I see some Asian looking guy slip my thongs on. I ask him what the hell is he doing and have a go at him. He walks off in shame. I call him a wanker as he leaves. I see that he wasn't too happy with the comment and doesn't want to leave the situation. As I get down the stairs I'm confronted by his brothers. They're all similar looking, maybe even twins. I'm standing my ground but starting to feel a bit intimidated. I tell them I was angry which made me abuse him. Everything eventually gets sort out. I walk passed them moments later and it feels we have all moved on with what happened.

I'm in another area of the shopping centre. I see my brother, he's hiding from a friend of his. I walk close to where his hiding. I hear a song, maybe a mjay song. I begin bobbing around having a bit of fun. Some guy in the distance is having a bit of a laugh. While still dancing, I try and limbo a sign but can't do it. A lady in her shop sees me and comes over and tries to sell me stuff. There's a game in there that has limbo in it. Brooke Alford comes over and I tell her about the lady coming over when I started doing limbo. I try the limbo again and succeed this time.

The Huntsman
I'm in a room with some people and someone lets a huntsman spider out into the room. I watch the spider paralyze a more deadlier spider. It walks over towards
It and towers over it. The other spider must go into intense fear and paralyzed it. The other people shrivels up as it's taken by the huntsman.
There's a bed in the middle of the room and it's been put on the extra folded up blanket that's laying on the bed. I'm feeling a little uneasy with knowing a spider is roaming around the room. Someone is moving something towards the spider to try and get a reaction from it. The spider pounces to give out a warning. I can now see the spider close up. It's fangs are lighting up with an orange/red glow. At one point it seemed to be shooting light out of it.

I'm near the wall doing something.

Holiday Park Surf
With Josh at a holiday park. I see some surf in the distance. It looks pretty choppy as if it's in the middle of the ocean. Drew decides to go out into the water with a few others. I think about going out but feel it's too cold.

I'm in a room with Josh and There's some girls there also. We're talking to them about something. Inspiring them some how.

Dream Fragments
1. A guy tells me about his acting gig he got in the states. I see a scene of him acting. He's talking with an accent in the scene. I don't rate his acting ability too good.

2. I got some fresh dates out of the fridge.

3. Having a play around wrestling match on the street. There's a few teams doing it.

7/13/15

Went to bed at 11:30, woke up at 5:30 naturally, dozed until alarm went off at 6:30.

In the 5:30 to 6:30 space, I had some dreams.

In one, I was driving into Disneyworld. I was at the gate, waiting to pay to park, and one of the workers recognized me. She said “Hi, your dad is waiting for you.” Apparently, I was the son of the owner of Disneyworld. All of the workers then recognized me. I got into some sort of flying machine, and flew over the park to meet my dad. I woke up before I got there.

In another dream, I dreamed that I was my son (4 year old), and I was getting into the car. I had a hard time keeping my thoughts together, and couldn't focus on getting into the car. Then I woke up. I bet that is really how it is for him - I should be more patient.

7/12/15

Went to bed at 11:15, woke up at 7:00. Remembered nothing.


I had hurt my back that day, and had taken some Aleve to numb the pain. I bet that had something to do with it.

I was with Manei in the park in my neighborhood. We were swinging together on the swingset and talking for awhile. I don't remember everything we talked about, just the ending part of our discussion. There were one or two questions before this.

I think one of the questions was about communism and farming. I don't remember the wording but it had something to do with her asking me if I thought communism was bad. I told her how the idea itself isn't evil; we just think it is because there have been evil dictators in the past.

I also remember she looked odd in the dream. She's been having trouble mainlining her physical appearance recently. She was shorter and had green eyes this time.

Me: "What is your favorite color?"

Manei: "Milky human peeish poo." (wut?)

Me: "You know sometimes I feel like I should be asking you about more important spiritual things that your favorite color, but I can't think of anything better. Okay, I have one. Do you think humans are going to destroy the planet with war and pollution or is everything going to be okay?"

Manei: "It looks to me like humankind as a whole is pretty much screwed, with global warming and all. I think its better to make a significant change in one persons' life than an insignificant change everywhere."

We got off the swings and started walking toward where my house is.

Manei: "You know what would be cool? Having a cyclops dog with only one eye."

Me: "Well its a dream so anything is possible... Wait... do you mean like one eye in the middle of the head like a true cyclops, or just a regular dog that's missing one eye?"

I woke up.

Piss my dad off dad pissess me off give him punches.

Renegade game, mining, Obelisk, avoid the ApCtower! run behind the rocks and hide. and place ur C4 in the buildings. Obelisk Hand of nod. Barracks. Go in the shower and watch Yara. The girls The boys. Touch girl. Hug her, Feel her Warmth.


wake up

This is reality. This is a dream. Don't laugh at me. This IS a dream..!!!
No it's not
But it is dream... I'm going to sleep

sleep and dream in the showers of renegade. Go to the boys showers. Give the girls a look. Don't look at Yara. The girl comes to you . . . Takes off her bra. Nipples still covered by bra. You take off the rest. Kiss her tits. Small tits. Her expression is pure. She likes you.

Wake up from audible hallucinations. Dog wakes up too :/

Earlier:

+(f) something in a restaurant/club/cafe with people, sex?

Later:

Long series of different short (-ly recalled) scenes across multiple wakings, dream boundaries not clear. Feel like a lot of dreaming once I started to recall it all.

In the backyard of my childhood home, there is a huge ship (cruise) I'm jumping down from the ship on to the pier in the garden, and pulling/directing the ship with a rope, it's a far jump but I land and bend my knees

I'm on a train/subway, for some reason I must collect and go through the garbage, I find a grocery bag full of packages of sliced swiss cheese, I see the cheese with the holes in it very clearly. I say "with all the types of cheese in the world, why does this guy have to only buy swiss?" Someone else comments that swiss is awesome and it's OK to buy it. The packs of cheese look to be in perfect, new condition and I consider keeping some for myself.

I'm sitting at a table with some people, I take a drink from my soda bottle. A black guy across from me wants to smell it, he picks it up and smells it, he wants to take a drink I tell him not to "lip" it, I watch carefully and bob my head around to get a view of his mouth to make sure he doesn't lip it. He lips it and empties the bottle. I'm mad that he finished my drink, and several times angrily demand that he buy me another. We stand up to fight, there's another guy on his side, they both grab forks. The main guy moves in for the attack and I think of using a judo through [don't know judo], I grab him and try to fall backwards and throw him over me, but he's heavy and he ends up falling (on top of, near) me.

computers and friends: lots of scenes of 1980's PC computer internals, a friend's Commodore PET with a green screen (one piece) keeps almost falling off of a high shelf and I keep pushing it back up. I come across an "original MAC" (I know it's a reproduction done by some Asian company), it has a large square monitor. Some guy gets angry when someone unplugged his net cable ("Hey! That's my connection!")

A quick progression of images of my workspace/room. First one fairly large and OK with decent space, second one much smaller and desks much closer, and third one horrible: spots all squished together, no separators, when I see this third space I declare "oh, no!"

I'm sitting at my desk in a new office space/arrangement, there are tall large/bulky wooden furniture separating the work stations, my desk is at located at an intersection of two hallways on a corner, one extending off to the right, another behind me. My back is to the corridor extending off behind me. I think this is a fairly quiet location but if people start using it for walking around the office it could get busy, which would be annoying, no privacy. I stand and up see the work station of other guy, he's tucked into the corner of the building among these large shelves/cupboars/separators, it's a better location because it has no through foot traffic.

I'm gathering toothbrush(es) and toiletries to go have sex with GF, there's a lot to carry, I see a basket and have the great idea to put everything into the basket. This is much more convenient! I pick up the basket, it's unbalanced, and it tips over and all the items fall out, now I have to pick it all up.

In a cosmetic shop, two young girls are standing at the counter buying creams and scrubs, the clerk is telling them the prices of the items ("$48?"), I'm standing a bit behind them, I comment on the scrub and say it's done great things for my skin, the clerk agrees it's good but says it's expensive.

Something horrible, sad and utterly wrong happened to the world and people had to seal themselves in old castles, buildings that seemingly survived everything. I was outside a cathedral surrounded by castle walls. With masses of people I was watching a politician jumping on top of a broken cross, and saying something about new elections.

I decided to go away, and found group of people that had marks on their arms. I looked at my arm saw that I have it to: a red reversed pentagram. I told them that we should unite, gather force and leave the castle, to conquer the new world.

I dream these alot with my current or past pets.

As with any dream, something might morph into something else. So what started out as Snuggles the Siamese, turned into Ziggy at some point. But that's not the point.

Sofie was grooming Snuggles/Ziggy, behind a couch. And where she licked him, which was on one side of his ribcage, the hair was gone, and the skin was like cooked salmon. I freaked out and tried to tend to the area, but chunks of fishy skin would flake off. I kept telling myself that new healthy skin would grow underneath and replace it. He didn't seem to be in pain. Fortunately as I was examining the flakey skin, he turned over so that the affected area was against the floor. I just didn't want Sofie to lick it anymore.

I love how no where in the dream did I consider a vet or sequestering one cat from the other. I was glad to wake up from it though. Yuckypoo.