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Hmmm, I guess I'm making progress with this Tulpa matter. I tried yesterday afternoon for maybe 15 minutes of going into the shower, no water running, closing the door, turning the lights off, complete darkness, and tried tulpaforcing.

I mean, I can SEE her image well with my eyes closed or opened, but she's not really "solidifying." Of course, I'm more focused on the distinct voice in my head more than the image, but I do try to practice both visualization and mental auditory stuff.

It was only my second day....or maybe my third? Gosh can't remember. Going to try random tulpaforcing today though, and in longer intervals.

Anyway...

10.30.2012

Enantiomers (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Not really good dream recall for some odd reason, oh well.

I'm in a science class, and I realized it's similar to Organic Chemistry in a way. The classroom is fairly short for your usual lecture class that would occupy 200 students.

This one seemed to accommodate 20-30, and the flooring is all white, and so are the walls, though they're showing more of a faded look than the floor is. The professor has a projector screen up, and I believe he's using an overhead to with transparent slides that contain some information.

There were a few organic compounds, and it reminded me of Alkyne Synthesis that I was trying to do, but failed last night IWL. He was doing some weird stuff with arrow movements, and he popped a question that I can't recall too well.

I decided to take the chance, and try to just think on the fly with the answer, and it turns out I'm actually right, to some extent lol. He starts writing down that these compounds are Enantiomers, and circles it I think.

In this one I was Loki, but not from the movie. I was actually female still and just hanging about on earth minding my own business when my teacher from school woke me up. She was at my home along with a ton of other people. I was annoyed and went to get breakfast to find some kind of giant nerd convention was going on. Somehow there was a big auditorium there which I went to in order to see a movie. I remember it had something to do with Star Trek but I'm not sure what it was. I ended up sitting next to a guy upon whom I fell asleep because as I said I was woken up early.

He didn't actually mind but his friend eventually called him to leave when I woke again. I left the hall because the show was over, and mingled a bit. I played some tricks on people, and after a bit followed a secret path to the side that only I could travel.

It took me across time and space to this house in the 40's. Place was a huge mansion and I was there to see this kid that lived there. He had a major greed problem, which I was helping him with though he didn't know it. Of course I was also having fun with it.

I showed him a small lump of gold and offered to let him have it if he'd play the game for it. The game was just that I would hide it in the house and he had to find it. If he did he could keep it. He agreed of course, and I knew he'd grow old and die before he gave up.

However I hid the gold in the guise of an old golden retriever dog. I knew he would grow to love the dog and thus learn to appreciate something besides wealth. Meantime though I followed him to class.

The classroom was outside under a shade with wooden benches. At first I was hovering over the people all invisible. Then I got bored and materialized, this time in the form of a guy. I did make myself look like Avengers Loki this time but it was on purpose as a joke. I knew it wasn't how I actually looked.

Anyway everyone was scrambling for a seat, and some poor guy couldn't find one so I gave him mine. Then some jerk sat down and I don't know why he annoyed me. I'm guessing from prior acquaintance since I'd been hanging around this kid for a while. Anyway he sat on the wooden bench, I said something and laughed and made the seat supports melt under him. He got embarrassed and left and this other girl approached needing a seat. I stuck a book under there for her. I then lean against one wall waiting for class and enjoying sort of freaking out the people in the class.

So teacher shows up and the subject is Norse mythology. Naturally I am delighted. He takes note of a new student and calls on me for something. I cant recall the exact conversation now but basically I said oh yeah I'm an expert in this. I go up to start talking and I can't resist anymore. I start off talking about Loki, obviously lol, and explaining that his magic wasn't card tricks. Pulled out a deck of cards from nowhere for this one. Then I said something about him not being an ass, and turned the teachers head into the head of a donkey for that. So people freak out and I forget exactly what happened next, but I know I left them all wondering just exactly how I did it all.

Alarm went off at this point. I have to say that was a really fun one though LOL!

Dream - Lucid

I was walking outside of work at night, though it looked different than IWL. Someone, I guess a supervisor, then came up to me and told me that on my file on the computer, there was a note that said they were keeping an eye on me. Wow what? Shit. I was worried they'd fire me now; it sounded like they were suspicious of me for some reason. I needed to do a better job at work so they wouldn't think that anymore. The general feelings in this dream were worry and dread; I wanted (and needed) to keep this job.

~

I was at work, behind the counter, though it looked a bit different than IWL. It was almost like I had been sleeping there too; I felt like it was early in the morning, well before opening time, and I was drowsy. There were other people there as well, I remember specifically a guy being at another cash register next to mine.

We were all getting gifts and stuff in the mail. I had gotten three dark blue and purple flowers that were in bushels on top of long stems that kind of looked like this:



Except for the ones in the dream were darker, more bunched together, on long stems and didn't have all the crazy leaves. The flowers were the same general shape though.

Anyway, the only thing I had to put them in was this small, clear/whitish translucent bottle. It already had water in it, so I put the flowers inside. One kept drooping because it was too top-heavy for the small bottle with all its tiny flower bushels on the top. I kept trying to fix it, but it just wasn't working; the same flower kept drooping. I took them out and asked the guy next to me if he had a vase or something. He said he didn't, so I then asked him to just hand me a big black cup. He did, and the flowers went in there just fine. Not a vase, but they fit...better than nothing!

I remember too at some point seeing that my old friend Alex H. worked with me there. He was at one of the registers.

Then, a manager got on the intercom and announced that soon it would be Fairy Wing Day, and we could dress as fairies to work. I got excited and started to plan out a fairy costume. I already have some wings.

I then imagined or saw someone who worked there walk by with fairy wings on.

i do not quite recall my dream just yet gimme a couplem ore seconds of typing and i will. i think i was really upset about somthing.

Yes i was like driving back and fourth from utah which wasnt much of a treak in the dream. i thikn i migt have been part of some facility idk i jus member there were busses and vans..nd we were in some downwtown area i think i was with my dad looking for a mexican retaurant. it was a hopless mission cause of all the traffic.

at some point i was playing golf with my dad at another i was walking through a park at night wondering deeply about life and if i was really there are not\

Politeness (6:55)

I'm sitting at a table with my dad while Mom does something nearby. Dad is ostensibly talking to her, but he's talking about the one time he and I went to get a pumpkin milkshake together while on a road trip. [IRL: this has never happened, but I did have my first pumpkin milkshake a couple weeks ago.] Apparently it was one of the few times in his life where I wasn't rude to him. I was being nice to him. I think it's creepy that he's reminiscing so much about it, especially when I goes on to say the state in which it happened--no context or anything, just "Indiana." I don't really know how to explain to him that I think he's being creepy, so I decide just to be rude and hope he gets the message. I tell him to stop, and when he asks why, I just get up to move to a different room. Obviously, he thinks this is immature behavior on my part--being rude just because he's accusing me of being nice sometimes--but it's a fair enough price to pay if it means he'll stop trying to have conversations like that one.

Tenacious Moth (6:55)

I'm sitting outside at the picnic table when a moth flies at my head. Frantically, I swipe my hands through my hair, trying to get it out, but it won't leave. It doesn't seem to have a healthy fear of being crushed. I suspect it has a romantic attachment to me, or at least to some other person who often sits out here at this picnic table. But the sensation of moth's wings in my hair is really disturbing, and eventually I swipe so much that I jolt myself awake. A few minutes later, my alarm goes off.

I know this is poorly worded. There was a lot to type in. The only interesting thing about the dream is the Portal-door-style traveling.

I was watching the Foreword unto dawn series of videos that's been coming out on youtube. (A series of videos pretending to the storyline of Halo 4, that will be coming out very soon)
I was excited that the last episode had finally come out, but when I got about two minutes into watching it, A game showed up. It was a really cheap, bad looking game. It involved building a tower taller and taller. It said that I had to play it and get above a certain score to see the rest of the video.

I played the game for like two minutes and then closed it out. I really wanted to see the rest of the video. I had only unlocked about two more minutes of the video.

I was dreaming of these three villain men. They were all really strong looking, wearing black jackets and standing in the middle of the plaza of this city.
Then this thing, It looked like sort of Iron Man armor transformed onto them. But the armor was old and rusty. Each of them turned into animals, that some would consider evil. One became a crow, another that was a wolf. I can't remember what the third man's mech animal was. But at this point that they started destroying the city.
Then, one of the men stood forward, and the chest of his mech suit opened. The outer metal shell split into "ribs". Inside of it was this big pulsing orange energy orb. I can remember vividly how it crackled and steamed.
The dream changed, and I was in my own body, with K. We were at the top of a skyscraper. She wanted to get down, and for some reason, we were in a huge hurry.
She ran into a stairwell. The stairwell was next to a window, so on one side, there was a glass wall giving a view of the city. There was also an elevator door on each floor. The stairs were at a very shallow angle.
K was really booking it down the stairs. I was running after her, skipping every other step. After I had chased her down the stairs for awhile. She got into an elevator.
"Why didn't we do this ten floors ago?"
The elevator started moving down, but stopped on a lower floor. When the door opened, the elevator was really far from the building. Between them was just a huge black void. And the people on the building side couldn't get to the elevator.
The elevator closed and headed down again. When we got off, we got off onto a moving train.
Then I met with this boy. He had long blonde hair, combed up really neat. He was bleeding from a would below his eye. He had drops of blood on his hand as well. Then he started complaining to me that he didn't like that he was bleeding.
He wrapped himself in a blanked and went to sit with a woman that I think was his mother.
Then I just got lucid out of nowhere. I saw my supposed guide sitting in one of the seats. I walked over and sat down next to her. She was reading a fashion magazine.
"I have some very important questions for you"
I pounded my fist into my palm.
"Are you my dream guide?"
"Yes."
"What is your name?"
"I have many names..."
She began running though a long list of names, both boy names and girl names.
"Ok, but I need a name that I can use for my dream journal."
"You may choose one. But remember these things: Do not eat a rusty hinge, and beauty and the beast is very long."
lolwut.
Then the dream destabilized, and I lost lucidity. Someone asked me if I was interested in marriage in the royal court. Then I woke up.

Last night I had a false awakening and another fragment.

False Awakening: In reality I had been woken up by my alarm clock to go to school, but I managed to hit snoozw and go back to sleep. In the dream I was very tired and dragged myself out of bed. I remember looking in the mirror and I was only able to see my legs for some reason despite the mirror being on my dresser. I can remember thinking that this was very strange and began to wonder if I was dreaming, but decided against it and went to take a shower.

When I got to the shower though... it was gone! There was a sign saying Death had taken my shower (similar to the Pardoner's tale) and so I went into the hallway outside my room. Then their was this other random shower there but for some reason it was really creepy, just the lighting I guess. Despite this being a dead giveaway I was dreaming, I was too out of it in the dream to realize and then I was awoken by my alarm clock again.

Dream Fragment: I was at my grandma's house and I was in the basement watching tv. I think I was watching History channel or something about tanks from WWII.

I am in my kitchen when all of a sudden I hear music coming from the drawers. There are four of them in a column. I try to open them all to see what is causing it but somehow whenever I try to open any drawer my hand keeps getting teleported to the second drawer. This prompts me to become lucid but I wake up moments later.

It is dark out and it is pouring down. I meet up with my old "friends" and they laugh at my arrival. I say "I told you I would surprise you guys" they all go to the entrance to the building. More kids line up into a formation. Then this average built black man wearing a uniform comes out and says some commands and the students lined up do some hand formations. They are then dismissed. The black guy looks up at me and tries to order me around and I tell him "I have not signed any contract that gives you authority over me!" he then leaves me alone and leaves. I then notice my mother just standing there looking out into the distance. I go up to her and touch her and I become an observer. I see me my mother walking off, we both have a red aura around us.

I had an unplanned DEILD but I excepted it. As soon as the vibes stop I roll out. First thing I did was head to my window. I see these plants growing from the outside wall of the house. They look extremely detailed. I could see the lines and the patterns they make are symmetrical. I then remember to try to speak to my inner awareness again. I look up and yell out "Hello?" and a childlike voice responds back saying "yes?" I then ask "who are you??" it responds but when I wake up I just couldn't recall what it said it was.

I was crying because I was going to lose my job. I found myself in a strange office. I was about to throw up because of my situation. I was going to throw up behind my chair, but I looked out a window to see if I was being watched on camera. There were cameras lined up every 6 or 8 inches at the crown molding of the office, so I didn't throw up.

I went down stairs never having found out if I lost my job. Down stairs I saw several people wearing special Swat type uniforms. There were 3 different types of uniform, all of a similar but different type of riot police type uniform.

One of the head people was a lady. She was outside in a car, and when she pulled off, she took part of the building with her. It was attached to, and part of her car. It made it so that there was no trace that the building had ever been there.

~

I was in an airplane. We were crashing. People were sliding all over as there was no conventional seating.

~

I was outside. There was a meteor going across the sky. I moved to a clearing in the trees to see it better. The sky was full of like 10 meteors. It seemed as though the sky was on fire. It was the end of the world. That was a wild visual.

~

I was selling some time of Cable service with M. S. I was looking for a certain apartment. The apartments didn't have numbers, but I had a hand held device that told me the address of each apartment as I passed the door.

I was trying to sell to a blond lady. I tried 3 times over a couple days to sell her. I finally told her that I would sell someone else. "I'm not going to keep selling you if you don't want it."

I then went to another job. I was nervous I wouldn't be able to sell the next person either. I drove and had a false memory that I'd been to a house where I might have turned left, but I was turning right.

As I was trying to sell at the next apartment, M. S. asked if I had a calculator. I told him I did. He said he had about a hundred, and that some people had more than two hundred. He said that his were all the same--they simply broke up numbers differently.

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

3MG Melatonin 300MG B6
SSILD Was very sleepy only got 2 or 3 rounds of SSILD before I black out. I missed my WBTB and was too tired to care. I forgot a few dreams because when I tried to think back and remember I fell asleep before I recorded.

Bedtime 10p - 5a

I ate a heavy meal late in the evening. (Stuffed Bell Peppers) I am wanting to stop eating at 6. It seems that when I don't eat late I have better recall and more lucids. I'll continue to test this idea.

Joplin Assassins Creed 3:02AM

The Joplin tornado leaves the town in anarchy. Missouri succeed from the union. Unfortunately, and evil dictator takes over. The first part is vague but I remember stalking him from behind. I casually walk up behind him and put a hand over his mouth and quickly thrust a blade into his rib cage and back.

I climb to the top of a tall building in down town Joplin. I look at the sky and remember the events that took place. (I think I am doing what I do during the day. Remember the past few hours)

I see con trails from planes. Some are white and some are black (dream sign). I know the black ones are planes that belong to the US and the white ones are planes that belong to Missouri. I hope that we get a better leader now and we can be at peace.

28.10
~ I was in my juniour school. I was walking in the halls, i think i was alone, then i did something and went to something like a alternative universe. At first i tought i was alone. But then behind i corner i saw some creatures. I started running in the opposite direction. There were doors in the hallway. I opened one and got in. Next thing i remember is that they found and me. Their leader was talkin to me and explained me that they traveled through Rain, Wind, Cyclones, Earthquakes and stuff like that to get here i cant remember anything else

29.10
~I was at the entrace of my fathers old work place, where now my uncle works. In my dream, that place was owned by my grandfather just recently, also my uncle was there and he was finishing some shoes (shoes is something like the family business), i offered him my help to finish them, i went to get the proper tool, returned to my spot, but i've forgot the nails so i went to get them too. As i am taking some nails, my grandfather tells me that he buys those nails from some gipsies and tells me how those nails are greased(which makes no sense in shoe businnes). Then his phone rang and someone started to bother him, i took the phone from him and on the line was some rather old women which was yelling, she was blaming my grandpa for something, but i couldnt understand. I got mad, because of her harrasment, i knew this wasnt the first time, i asked her where she lives. She said she was living on street Marie Louise and that her neighbours have told her about my grandpa, she said those neighbours knew my grandfather from the Starship Voyager. I was wondering if that women is out of her mind, bothering people she doesnt even know, i wanted to deal with her face to face. Next thing i remember is i was infront of work again, it was dark, it was past 6pm, i tought that they should be closed now, but i decided to make sure and the door was not locked, i opened it and first thing i see the desk is missing(the desk that customers are greeted and orders are taken),i see another guy who also worked for my grandfather(real person i know that also used to make shoes for us) I walked in and i see my grandpa and he is explaining my that he is shutting down the store. I go at the back with them, we talk and clean stuff up. My grandfather was trying to use duct tape wrap up some ripped package of cigarettes for my other grandma, i see him trying and failing, so i gave him idea how to do it. We kept on cleaning stuff up. As i am cleaning i feel this suddent comfort feeling, warm, i feel good and then i woke up in my bed, it was hot under the sheet.

October .20th .2012

MAP 3.25

"Out in the Cold"
Keywords: $5 Bill, packed bag, travel.
I remember having packed a bag. Somewhere in this bag was a $5 bill. I remember thinking about driving but knowing my vision was bad. I was in a place that reminded me of my grade school in the country. Could this be dream school? I consider camping out in the parking lot until morning, but know I would get cold and bored. There is a man around whom I know and is very sympathetic to me.
Players & Connections: Myself and a familiar DC.
Event Sequence:

1. Pack bag
2. Assess packed bag
3. Question driving ability
4. Recognize familiar setting
5. Analyze possible plan of action

Symbolism: Money lost in chaos
Signposts: None recognized
Questions: Why was I so early to the school? What was I doing there in the first place? Why didn't I just leave as opposed to waiting in the cold?
Thoughts, feelings, and guesswork: None presently.
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October .21st .2012

MAP 4

Mantras;

1. I attract dreams that help me master conscious out-of-body exploration.
2. I am a spiritual body capable of experiencing dimensions beyond physical existence.
3. I have the ability to separate from my body, return safely and remember.

"Floaty Pants & a Hand of Glass"
Keywords: Waterfront, crowd of people, green grass, chaos near the kitchen.
I am walking down a path next to a large lake. I feel like I can see the other side of the lake in the far off. There is a man in some sort of hovering circle contraption. He was hovering there and the bottom of the device was a large pair of closed-bottom pants. They were inflated and my dream mind paid close attention to this area, which made me feel that the pants part was keeping him afloat.
I am at the Caldwell house and I'm near the kitchen and there is chaos. I crash into things, maybe my dream self coping with some external noise. I cut my hand on one of those spiral energy-saving light bulbs that has shattered on the floor. I think I may have fell, hand first, into the bulb while it was on the cold, tile floor. Handsome Caldwell is there by my side, helping me clean the glass out of my would and comforting me. His hand around my shoulder.
Players & Connections: Myself and S.Caldwell
Event Sequence:

1. Walking lake-side.
2. Notice man hovering in air.
3. Inspect hovering contraption.
4. Report findings to random DC's.
5. Enter Caldwell house.
6. Time-lapse/chaos
7. Injure hand.
8. Inspect injury.
9. Receive sympathy from DC 1.

Symbolism: None discovered.
Signposts: None discovered.
Questions: What is the significance of the hovering pants device?
Thoughts, feelings, and guesswork: I find DC 3 attractive in real life. This may have just been a fantasy dream.

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October .26th .2012

MAP 5

"Nesting"
Waiting for an army of bad entities/people. Only a matter of time. Trying to outsmart them. Filling the doorway with pillows and blankets. I remember that I brought them all in a few loads up the stairs at first, to the landing bed. I got the idea mid-task to fill the cubby at the bottom of the steps. So I fill the space with layer after layer of soft squish. At one point I find all of my animals are cuddling on it together. So cute! I remember looking out (possibly with my third eye) and seeing that a horde of bad guys was nearing and it was only a matter of time before they would reach our house. I don't think we were hopeless. The squishy spot below the stairs was some par of an effort to be safe against the horde. If only to make us more comfortable.
Players & Connections: My animals and the theme of comfort/safety.
Event Sequence:

1. Deliver items upstairs.
2. Get idea.
3. Build a nest.
4. Analyze threat
5. Discover pets in nest.

Symbolism: Nest/womb of pillows and blankets
Signposts: ???
Questions: Why am I the only one handling the situation.
Thoughts, feelings, and guesswork: I saw a silly video of all these animals cuddled up together in a big dog bed. I'm pretty sure the image of my animals all huddled together was a manifestation of that experience. This dream is also another example of my problem-solving dream awareness. I seem to become lucid when I am needed.

It was a nonlucid, but kinda cute.

It was in New York, and basically you stay in dorms and take classes on everything revolving around lucid dreams. I was a professor, and one of my jobs was to check out the tiny, cramped dorm rooms in between semesters. I mean, these were tiny little things: as soon as you open the door, there was a toilet and bathtub to the left with a ltitle curtain to separate it from the right side of the room, where there was a desk built into the wall and 2 tiny chairs. Then about 2 feet from the ceiling was the sleep cubby, BARELY big enough for 2 people to sleep side by side. In every room I checked, the bathtub was really dirty. Like literally the last person to take a bath in it was covered head to toe in mud, then didn't rinse the tub. Kinda makes sense in retrospect: most members on DV are teenage boys, so most students here would be teenage boys and they never clean up after themselves haHA!

The academy had some extracurricular activities, including band. The dream ended when an alumnus had composed a concerto for harp and orchestra, and we were all going to rehearse it. I didn't recognize a single person in this dream as being from DV though.