Well. I didn't get lucid. Well maybe I was sorta, kinda close in a few dreams but not really. I saved some DJ notes on a google docs app but it didn't even save anything! I'll just write down what I remember. The other thing was that I had a kind of a dream that reminded me of bad memories, it kind of set me on a train of more related bad memories that sort of depressed me for a while. But there is a silver lining to all this I truly believe. Dream I dreamt that I went to my friend, Jack's house. We were just playing some games I think. I showed him my new VR thingy and he was pretty interested and played on it. His friends showed up and talked about stuff. I felt like being left out though during all this. We head out and Jack's driving the car, but I think the car was stolen and he was pretty much GTA-ing. We head back to the house to do something. I think we came back to eat some food. His mom had just done the groceries but I had to leave. So she gave me some of her grocery food to eat while heading home or something. Supermarket I went to a nearby supermarket a bit later, same location but perhaps awakened before coming here. I was just hopping around everywhere and having fun. Hopping atop of shelves and any high and hoppable spots I could find. They called me "the natural" for some reason. I felt great really. Until a vietnamese man grabbed some object and hit me really hard. He said "give us back our country." I felt blood dripping down my nose and I was pretty mad. I grabbed some long hard object and walked towards him. He still held the weapon in his hand and I told him that I'm not even from the same country that he thinks I'm from. This made him quiver a little. Then I immediately grabbed this short tan man by the collar. I dragged him through the aisles towards the front of the store. I wasn't going to beat him but was going to call the cops and let them deal with him. Wake This raised some bad memories. Notes: Most dreams that I didn't note were VR related. Perhaps I'm playing VR too much before sleep, or that being on VR is kind of similar state to dream. I'll take advantage of it by being more aware if it's a dream while using VR. I felt really really down (desperate, despondent, depressed, hopeless... etc). I haven't felt this bad in so long. But there was a silver lining to this though. I saw that this one memory led to another memory, to another, to another. There were about 5 memories that clumped together into a big ball of negativity. I was aware of that process. I think that's a good thing. As being aware of something is the first step of improvement, as well as being aware of this "hopeless" thoughts/daydream is a part of being lucid - it's just like being aware in a dream. And I did manage to release these feelings after meditation and stuff. It was bad but it's good. It's good cuz I'm getting better. And it's good, because you gotta tell your subconscious that remembering dream's good, even when it seems bad - that helps recall I think.
Updated 09-28-2019 at 04:39 AM by 96162
2019, 09-27 Dark Tower: Parting of the Ways Regular Dream - Video Game / Semi-lucid - Lucid Dream - Notes It is night, I am standing near a campfire with Roland, Susanna, Eddie, and Jake from the Dark Tower books. Eddie and Jake are transparent. Susanna is holding Eddie’s hand and Roland is holding Jake’s. There is a young man there I don’t know. He is drawing on a pad of paper. He shows his drawing, which is a work of art. The drawing is of Eddie and Jake. As if by seeing the drawing Eddie and Jake become solid. Susanna and Roland reluctantly let go of Eddie and Jake. As they let go Eddie and Jake start fading again. I look at the drawing and I see that is also fading… but why? Roland says it’s because they’re not really supposed to be here, that’s why. Susanna grabs Eddie, Roland grabs Jake, and they stop fading. But they don’t become solid again… I ask what is going on with Eddie and Jake. Roland says ka is trying to reassert itself. If Jake and Eddie don’t go to the world they belong in soon they might completely fade. So far they have only been able to remain in this world because of their connections. I realize that is why Susanna is holding on to Eddie and Roland to Jake, to try to anchor them in this world. Roland says there really is only one answer, Eddie and Jake have to go to the world they were meant to be in. And Patrick (indicating the man with the drawing) is the only one who can make it happen. Susanna goes over and whispers to Patrick for a bit, then Patrick starts drawing. I hear something out in the darkness, it sounds like something is creeping about out there. I feel a sensation of being watched. Roland sees me and says Mordrid is out there, and Mordrid’s a-hungry. I say no, it can’t be Mordrid, MoSh killed Mordrid. I am sure of that. Roland says something is lurking out there. I stare out into the darkness, trying to see what’s out there. I see something is reflecting the firelight. I slip into the darkness, ignoring Roland saying I shouldn’t. I use my night vision and I find the thing. It looks like a cross between a giant beetle the size of a large dog and a praying mantis. It attacks me, but I form my right arm into an Alex Mercer blade and slice it in two. The thing melts into a strange black fluid that flows off into the darkness. I return to the camp and now there is a door standing near the edge of the campsite. Susanna is looking at the door, still holding Eddie’s hand. She opens it and lets go of Eddie. When Eddie and Jake get near the door they are solid, but they start fading when they move away. Eddie says that must be the place. He is reluctant to leave because he wants to reach the Dark Tower, but he knows if he stays here he won’t make it anyhow. He and Jake will fade. After some debate it is decided that Susanna will go through the door with Eddie and Jake. Roland seems worried that the door is a trap that leads to toedash space. I say if it does I will get them out. I think Roland just doesn’t want them to leave. Susanna, Eddie, and Jake go through the door. After a brief hesitation Oy follows Jake. Patrick stays behind even though Susanna tries to get him to follow. The door closes with a resounding thud. Now there is only Roland, Patrick, and me at the campsite. Roland looks depressed. Patrick curls up and appears to go to sleep. Roland sits by the fire and stares into it. He says maybe I should have gone, too. I say it would make no difference, I will wake up back in my prison dimension where I have no skills, no talents, and no abilities. Roland says he doesn’t believe that. I say yes, I always end up there. He said no, he meant he doesn’t believe I have no skills, talents, or abilities there. I don’t answer. He looks more depressed so I put my arm around him and give him a hug. I say I’ll probably wake soon, but I will be back, I am sure of that. I want to see the tower… if the roses around the Dark Tower have the healing properties of the one in the vacant lot then maybe it can even overpower my depression. Maybe both Roland and I can be free. I wake up here.
Dreams starts with me being back in school and entering the classroom. I take my seat with all the other students and our teacher enters the classroom. She is wearing a black dress shirt and black slacks with pumps on her feet while sporting some red rimmed glasses with brown curly hair. She begins teaching us stuff and I'm sitting there bored as usual. Looking out the classroom window. I see the hallway outside and my eyes begin to notice police officers. Then knock loudly on the door. My teacher opens it while saying "Oh shit" The officer immediately tells her she is arrested and that she has the right to remain silent. I hear some of the students behind me saying the classic "ooooooo" and someone say free time. Which I thought was stupid but looks like she was't coming back. Most of us including me just decided to ditch school and made our way to the double doors to leave. As I am walking to my way there, there is a woman wearing a pink sweater that is staring directly at me. It was hard for me to ignore so I look back at her and notice she is a co-worker of mine at my job. She was saying something but I couldn't hear her. She then started walking towards to me with her arms open wide. She and I hugged each other and I didn't know why and was feeling embarrass since we were in front of other people. She was saying something to me but I still couldn't understand but I was begin to feel more aware like a vacuum. I could feel a rumbling effect happening in my head and I became lucid. But I still could feel myself becoming more self aware and started to look at me to see if I was awake. I can't remember all that she said but I started seeing odd things , the regular dream scene change to a white place and I could hear a voice talk about there are 5 steps to reaching that level. The voice talk about blood sacrifice , it talk about incest and other rituals. After seeing all of this I return back to the dream I was in before laying on the school hallway. The woman was gone though as I look around for her. I decided to walk back in to my classroom. I had lost lucidity. As I enter back in the classroom she was sitting there. She began talking to me again about life and how she was trying to help me , everytime I was becoming unaware she snap me back to being lucid. It was odd, I woke up afterwards.
VR Wrestling I was wrestling in a VR setting. University, Calculators I was at university. There was X there. We were fighting and he became Lich-like. Blue skin and just skin ontop of bones. Perhaps becomes 3rd person here, seeing the lich get choked out in wrestling move. I was still in that university area and were with 2 friends. So the 3 of us were hanging out on the reading week to study or somehing. We had sneaked into the library to steal 3 calculators! I have no clue why the calculators. But it felt important at the moment and we were being chased after a librarian found us. Cards I saw my friend Paul there. It apepared to be highschool cafeteria. He had gotten a hold of a lot of yugioh or some cards for a bulk sale. They were pretty beat up and stuff, but were ok. Really Beautiful Guy It was the same school I think. Just different area. There was a really beautiful guy there. His beauty was out of this world honestly. Perfect facial features that every woman would kill for: long fluttering butterfly eyelashes, kind and dreamy eyes with a stare that could meld away all of your troubles as your stared into them, and a coy smile that really made you wonder... He carried smooth, long hair. Anyways, I was seeing stuff from his POV at sometimes, and 3rd person. There was a guy who had a short temper who was mad at our MC and wanted to fight him. He ended up fighting a wrong person instead though. Our MC was with a short girl and a really nice big musclar guy. We were hanging out at some tea shop, drinking tea. Little Monk, lab, clones Perhaps he is the little monk I saw in a previous dream. I was the little monk in the beginning of the dream. I was inside a well-lit hallways of a long building. It appeared to be some sort of lab. I kept proceeding forward and apparently the plot is that the little monk is some big shot. He was a sort of immortal or reincarnation of someone according to the plot. I soon learn that the facility I am in was created solely to watch over his needs. I find a bunch of people hanging around in the garden and decided to head out. There were some kids playing and adults walking around. There's some sort of storm that starts to appear though and it's a kind of evil spirit or monster that's made up of tornado or hurricane of a sort. It's controlling the weather and could hurt a lot of people. I thought that I'd go ahead and take care of it but I had a backpack and I wanted to put them somewhere safe. I see a duo of girls sitting down on a picnic table and asked them if they could watch over my belongings. Inside the backpack were some very old ancient books and they looked very cool. I feel like they are ok people so I leave the bag behind to fly up into the air. I feel the evil presence to the top and begin focusing my energy and allow it to surround me. Finally I release the energy and vanquish the tornado out of there. Now I flew in the calm sky a little. I get back down on the ground and keep proceeding forward the facility. They are kind of a cult or association that apparently worships this little figure. What they do was provide a safe haven for him throughout the ages, awaiting for his return. The little monk has a daughter apparently, I'm not exactly sure how though as he is a child after all. The backstory tells me she's either his daughter from his previous body, or it's some kind of spiritual family connection, not really sure. I begin to lose his POV around here. The little girl, I don't know her name. Should I give her a name? I'm thinking Jade; let's call her Jade for now. If a better name arises we'll change it. Jade carried pitch black hair and pale skin, she had a passive and somewhat relaxed stare, but it hinted sharpness hidden within. She was the daughter of our little monk and was apparently also special in some ways. The facility had treated her unkindly though; they had performed experiments on her to test our her abilities and what not. They believed as she was related to the being they worshiped, perhaps she would be just as extraordinary. Yet her capabilities appeared to be simply lackluster. Fearing that they might invoke their master's wrath, before they would permanently cause experimental damage to his daughter, they had secretly cloned her.... Many many times. Who knows how many. Hundreds, perhaps thousands of her. And they were out there, running amok in the world. Who knows how? Whether they have escaped, or have been deemed obsolete and removed from the site and yet somehow survived, they were each "her" in a different way and leading a completely different life from one another. Each time she was cloned, her consciousness was split, and one day, their consciousness would rejoice as one and gain the wisdom and experiences of countless lifetimes. That, was her power. Jade, her main body, was now outside the facility, in the concrete jungle of the city and exploring the world outside. I was her. That was when she had found one of her clones. It was her, but this "her" had many scars covering all over her face. And her hair was unruly and messy along with her dirtied and tattered clothes. She's been living in the "underworld," so to speak. The scarred girl had been chased by a large woman. I wanted to help "her," instinctively. I grabbed her hand and we proceeded to run away together from the madwoman who carried a weapon. Chasing us across the streets and the overpass. Wake Jumping from buildings I 'm not exactly sure how to describe it. I knew I would be safe to jump from highrises so I did that twice in the dream. The first time I jumped, I had fallen and felt an utter euphoria coming over me. Wanting to experience the euphoria, I'd decided to do it again. Second time I'd jumped from somewhere higher, but this time it wasn't nice. It was now filled with darkness and I was lost in that darkness. Trying to DJ x3 FA I was in a class or something, trying really hard to DJ the previous dreams. Each time it was foiled because the writing apparatus (pen, pencil, ink) would not work well on the paper I was writing on. FA between each try. The paper had a texture of a bath towel and that would obviously be hard to write on and I'm realizing something's off by the third try and I awake. perhaps close to lucid. Class VR I was in a class, perhaps similar to the one before and I was looking for my VR stuff. I'd found it and also my friend Marianne. I can't remember the middle and the end of it. It had something to do with changing the timeline based on my actions after. Light dream scene (lucid?) I was in a dream scene, most things were white colored. I could manipulate objects that I saw at will. I was aware that I was dreaming, however I did not have physical sensations of the dream and I could still hear the sounds heard by my physical body. Is this still a lucid dream? Notes: I felt like flying in my dreams, so I played a game where you jump off a plank from a highrise building and fly around during wbtb. I think it worked, and I probably did some dream actions because of this honestly. BE PRESENT - I just noticed that I should be more present in the moment, so I can be more present in my dreams and that'll probably help it become clearer. Perhaps I was a little sad that I wasn't full blown lucid but... I should count my blessings. And I'd probably would have been if I'd did so and was 'present' like I'd previously stated.
Updated 09-27-2019 at 03:20 AM by 96162
2019, 09-26 The Dark Tower: The Laughter Vampire Regular Dream - Video Game / Semi-lucid - Lucid Dream - Notes I am in a strange place. It is snowy all around, but I don’t feel the cold. I draw the conclusion that I am playing Skyrim VR since I can see the snow and feel a breeze but I’m not cold. It is getting dark out and the snow is starting to fall. I see a plowed street and a small house with smoke coming from the chimney. I head in that direction. I hear roars of laughter from inside. I look in the window and I see Roland, Eddie, Susanna, and Jake all laughing their asses off. There is also another man there that I don’t recognize. Something about him looks fake, though… like he was an illusion. This feels off, so I try the door. It is unlocked so I let myself in, hoping to not be seen as too rude… after all, no one would hear me knock over the laughter and for any normal person it would be bitterly cold out. When I get inside and close the door behind me I see that none of the people laughing have even noticed me enter. The man I don’t recognize sees me and makes a lame-ass joke about my arrival. I don’t remember the joke, just that I found it about as funny as vomiting. I am the only one who finds it unfunny, though, as everyone else in the room roars with renewed gales of laughter. Susanna slaps her own face while laughing and a sore at the corner of her mouth starts bleeding profusely. This puts an immediate damper on Eddie’s laughter, and as the others look over they also stop laughing. The man telling the bad jokes, they call him Joe, looks annoyed. How dare Susanna interrupt his jokes with her bleeding! Susanna gets up and excuses herself. Eddie wants to go with her, but she insists she’s fine and just wants to clean up in the bathroom. Eddie nervously watches Susanna as she goes. He mutters something to Roland about that sore not being a pimple, and he and Susanna should stop bullshitting a bullshitter. Joe tells a joke about bullshit. Eddie gets mad at Joe, saying his wife is bleeding, this is no time for jokes. Joe makes a joke out of that, too. Eddie laughs in spite of himself, Roland laughs, and Jake is on the floor laughing. I still find nothing funny. I think I will go check on Susanna, but then Jake looks like he’s choking so I go to him and try to get him to stop laughing. Joe tells another bad joke, making the laughter worse. I tell Joe if he wants to see something funny, watch this… and I fus him in the face. FUS-RO-DAH! Joe flies across the room into the far wall, falling to the floor in a mess of objects caught in the fus. I am trying to help Jake and Joe makes a joke out of my fus’ing him. This especially gets Roland laughing and now Roland looks like he’s choking. Joe is clearly an energy vampire and he’s stealing energy from their uncontrolled laughter! I am about to do something a bit more permanent than a fus when Susanna comes back from the bathroom. She has her Witchblade formed into a sword which she uses to remove Joe’s head. The headless body doesn’t die. It stays on its feet and starts transforming onto something that looks more insectile than human. The strange thing blunders around for a bit before collapsing into the fireplace and catching fire and finally dying. Susanna and Eddie embrace but then I notice Eddie is semi-transparent. What is happening? Jake is also semi-transparent. I do a double-take. I ask what is going on. Susanna holds on more tightly to Eddie and Roland embraces Jake as if they can physically keep them from fading. And maybe it works, as they become solid again. Roland tells me that ever since Thunderclap both Eddie and Jake have been fading in and out of existence. He says he thinks ka doesn’t like being foiled like I did. He says I saved them both, but now ka is trying to set things back to the way they were meant to be, and that means no Eddie and no Jake. Susanna says she has been having dreams that indicate there is a world where they are supposed to be right now, and they will be taken there one way or another. I wonder how to counter this unexpected effect when I wake.
I laid down on my bed after about 2 minutes of meditation. I decided to keep it short since I had trouble sleeping previously when it was longer.It used to take about 20 minutes before I'd reach that state but now it seems to take like 5 minutes. Still experimenting with meditating before bed though. DJ I was drawing a shape, a square in the darkness of the night. As I kept relaxing myself and my breathing the shape began to appear in my vision instead of the back of my eyes. I was playing around with this and tried to visualize some portal to see if I could induce a dream into another world. Started getting some kind of energizing buzz in my body as I began to see hypnotic imagery of the round portal and a few other things. Dojo I was in a dojo, like the one in the matrix. And there was some older man who waas training me there. Warcraft We were playing a game. I was the elf. Saw orc vs undead, and undead vs undead. People could control each other's unit during the time as I watched the matches. Fairy Dreamt about hanging out with a fairy like thing that danced through the air in front of me, trying to get my attention or tell me something. Aurora, Real estate I dreamt that I was checking out the map of the nearby cities. I was looking at the map that showed the ownership of the lands. I was looking through it to find somewhere I could buy a cheap real estate or lands. I couldn't find anything in the nearby area. Eventually as I kept looking, I found a city that was to the top right, called Aurora where it appeared to have good prospects according to the map. I went there with family. The place had a nice classic feel to it. It had some taller building that were like the temples of Kyoto and it was beautiful really. The ground was paved with small white stones rather than asphalt and there weren't many cars around. Elementary School Awkward I dreamt I was attending a school. It was not the Japanese elementary school but a western one. It felt like the larger one I went to after I'd left Japan that was also a high school. I was taking some classes and it just didn't feel right. Why am I in school? It feels awkward. I took 2 classes. *I was close to lucidity I think as I was questioning my surroundings. Also I felt like I was lost in that school because it was kind of big in addition to not being able to speak english. Wake Light Void (lucid?) I was in a void of light. Being fully aware. My sensations weren't there but I could tell that I was dreaming or was in a light dream. 25th floor mirror Lucid maybe 18+ I had awoke and I felt it. I just knew I could do something. I laid on bed, tried to visualize what being omnilucid would be like. And I began to go into dreaming state. Energy began to buzz and shroud my body. It invigorated me. And I am in a dream. I was on the street and apparently just done groceries or something. I was walking back home on the sidewalk as I saw some passerby people. For some reason I had an urge to see who I was or what I was in the dream and this incited a desire to look at a mirror. But where could I find a mirror? At home, so I headed to my home in the dream. I ran and ran, and I kept running. Eventually I arrived at a large apartment or condo. It had some nice waiting area and maybe some security. I saw some of the other residents there as I passed by. *This place looked like the building in my other dream where I was in the hospital and teleported to a similar location where I'd meditated. I feel hot from all the running and I am drenched in sweat. It's pretty uncomfortable and I wanted to take a shower honestly. Perhaps a shower in the bathroom. So this motivated me to get there faster. Elevator or stairs? As I went forward to the elevator/stairs, I had a waking memory of taking the stairs in a previous workplace just to be healthy and I believe this resulted in the scene to provide me with stairs where the elevator was suppose to be. It was a staircase that spiraled upwards in circular fashion, was pretty elegant kind of. I began to run up the stairs and noticed other features of the stairs. The stair handle or whatever you call it, was round, and huge, like the diameter of your head. It was gold, or a bronze-gold kind of color. I thought it might've been gold plated and DEILD I get back in the dream and upon closer inspection it had some rough edges. I keep climbing and climbing up the stairs. It has been a while, when will I get there? I was at around 12-13th floor and wondered that to myself. DEILD I kept going up and up. I'd climbed almost about the same amount of stairs as the previous amount and wondered to myself, "which floor?" I thought, penthouse! And my goal was neigh. I saw the stairs almost ending. DEILD I came back to the dream and the sensations were missing! I could not feel anything although I saw the scene from where I left off. I was the stair handles to my sides and I grabbed them with all my might and used it to anchor myself and pull myself in to the dream. My sensations came back to me and I went forward. I was there. It said 25 in red letters in several places at the top of what looked like elevator doors. I think I made it because 25 seemed significant. I looked at the doors leading into the rooms and they all had some quirky features to them. I think one of them had a kind of green octopus like tentacle-like thing adorned in front of the door. They were all very strange and I kept proceeding deeper until I found an ordinary door. I entered that door. I found myself inside a room and several more doors. The one to the immediate right said, "class." Another one to the left of that said "Hero Room." And the one to the right of that said "bathroom." I entered that door. * I might begin to feel the urge to pee around here. It was a pretty regular looking bathroom. There was a sink to the right side and beside it was a large tall and oval mirror, length of about a person. I looked inside it and was an asian man with wavy hair that reached to about the shoulders, with a goatee. His body was muscular and lean. His facial features were lean and muscular and pretty handsome. I looked at the whole body and his groins were covered in a sort of fuzzy white ball of mist just to keep it PG-13. I found this quite humorous and perhaps that emotion awakes me. DEILD I immediately get back and I look at the mirror again. Still the same man and the mist was gone and his dong had drooped all the way down, touching the ground. I found this funny, I mean how can you walk like that? And maybe that emotion wakes me yet again. DEILD I am back! I looked at the mirror and that same dong was now hard. I lost it, Hahahaha. Awake I'd been holding my pee since before I'd entered the dream bathroom so I got up to pee instead of deilding once more. *Perhaps another reason that I was seeking out the bathroom was that I had a subtle urge to pee earlier and that led me to the bathroom in the first place. Notes: Dreams are funny. I realized that today was the 25th! Wow! I'm getting better. I think another reason I wanted to see the mirror was that I was a different person each time. The curiosity. I also ate some natto with egg and green onion in wbtb. It may have helped.
Updated 09-26-2019 at 05:15 AM by 96162
The dream is in this weird landscape that I think is my old university, there's a massive mountain range and towards the bottom is a junkyard. The idea is that I'm part of the IT movie and it's towards the beginning. I can see pennywise in the distance and he's planning some things with some bad people, I can tell eventually they're going to come after me and if freaks me out so I decide to skip through the movie to the end where pennywise is defeated.
Fragment 1: I was playing a minecraft mod that starts you off with only a set amount of chunks that are added onto by doing certain things. Meanwhile, someone was telling me about an incident they were involved in. I would give details if I could remember. Fragment 2: Me and my mom were in the parking lot at a local shopping center when we saw the queen of England. Without even thinking, my mom started talking to her, invited her in the car, and we got in and started driving home. I put on a song from a Leprous/Rishloo album that doesn't exist. It had the opening riff from "Lovely Room" off of Rishloo's first album, but it was more distorted and droned throughout the entire track. The album featured a black album cover with dark blue markings to imitate a stone pattern. The song itself was pretty soft in tone. Eventually, I had to get out to clean the road because one of the neighbor's recycle bins had fallen over. It had the words "work smart and not hard" spray painted on it. I turned my head a little bit and saw my late dog Milo sniffing something. By this time, the queen was talking to my mom from our porch. I tried to call my mom's attention to the fact that our dead dog is outside right now, but she just wouldn't budge. My aunt did see, however, and I remarked about how odd it is that he's here and that he looks not a year older than when he died. I then told her, "You would've thought I would have this dream the night after he died-" I exclaimed YES under my breath at the realization that I had just become lucid. I looked at my right hand, as per tradition for me, and it was extremely messed up. Fingers were coming out of fingers in a tree-like fashion, and I only had two fingers that branched from my palm. I focused hard enough and it became more normal, although I was missing a finger. I tried getting that finger back, but I only got to halfway before I gave up. Some insignificant stuff that I can't remember happened, and then I woke up.
Updated 09-26-2019 at 05:02 AM by 89498
Morning of September 25, 2019. Wednesday. Dream #: 19,273-02. Reading time: 1 min 45 sec. Post-induction: I am watching television in our present home though it changes to include a fictitious variation of the front yard of the Barolin Street house in the final scene. Zsuzsanna is with me at times. There is also a precursory preconscious simulacrum (as an unknown woman of about fifty) though vestibular dynamics (as well as cortical) remain inactive. Distorted remnants: The Naiad factor returns at a residual but distorted level. Two characters on a television show seem modeled after Zsuzsanna and me. Snow and wavy lines appear with static as the broadcast signal is weak. A cartoonish mermaid swims left on the screen (direction of induction orientation). Liminal dynamic as unusual imaginary eyes occurs (emerging liminal awareness of being in REM sleep). A young version of Eline Powell (from “Siren,” though only about ten in this scene) appears on the screen with a fixed gaze. The girl is supposedly the fictitious daughter of our “other selves” on the television series, though it seems as if she was just suddenly born ghostly as she is here. The eyes appear gray and layered, with too much sharpness. Nothing is threatening at any point. I remain puzzled, but in the back of my mind, I cannot recall anything about this process (usually the case with REM autosymbolism, though only in the second half of the sleep cycle). Cortical arousal sluggish: I go out to the front yard to see that our illogically big (fictitious) television antenna had blown off our roof and is now on the ground (left side of Barolin Street house when viewing from the front). Zsuzsanna and the unknown woman are with me to my left. I am trying to determine what the scene indicates. All of the dipoles are arcing down toward the ground, vaguely reminiscent of a weeping willow or the water trail from a circular water fountain. At first, I am unsure about what happened. I then consider how difficult it would be to get the antenna back onto our roof. I also see a white jeep. The antenna had almost hit its back, though some of the dipoles hang over it. The white jeep represents the potential initiation of imaginary physicality in the dream state (as any vehicle typically does). Without the “antenna working,” there is neither cortical nor vestibular enhancement (nor higher lucidity). Even instinctually, I was not attentive to my dream’s narrative as I was too warm in bed and somewhat uncomfortable at the time. An antenna usually represents co-occurrence with either emerging physicality (potential mind and body connection as this scenario implies), cortical arousal, or transpersonal communication (with another) in enigmatic space.
The dream scene was at a music festival, moo kolby b sam mason was there, some people went into the festival, some were drinking beforehand. It was morning at some point and people were hungover and we might've had to pack up. There was a constant pull between trying to go into the festival and wanting to chill at the campsite. The dream scene was very familiar though, I remember thinking through how to get into the festival from the campsite and I've had this layout plenty of times in music festival dreams..
I had this LD a few days ago. I'm in the street. I go in a shop wich in rl is a lottery shop, but for any reason it was a food place. They give a bag of salt and i come back home. I put a plate and pour some salt on it. I look away for two seconds and when i look again is a delicious bistec. I eat it and do this several times with different foods. After a while i get called and i go out of the house. Now i'm in a school i'm not familiar with. Then, i see a friend of mine. - Oh man, why do we have to prepare all of this? - he whines - i want to taste again that sweet sweet special salt. - But... you weren't having salt with me - i said. That's when i noticed it was a dream. - Is this a dream? - i ask. He grins. - No... After that it's quite difficult to remember.
Morning of September 24, 2019. Tuesday. Dream #: 19,272-02. Reading time (optimized): 1 min 30 sec. Precursory: I am aware I am in bed at our present address though I do not perceive the room with coherence even though it is a vivid dream. My head is downward (though I am sleeping on my left side) though I have no perception of any other body part yet. My mouth is not against the mattress as my head seems elevated a few inches. I am aware it is morning, and although daylight is present, there is no cohesive imagery yet. Induction: I am aware of at least one Naiad, but I do not see her. I can only hear her voice and breath in my ear after several short snippets of gibberish from farther behind me. She says, “Eeny, meeny, miny, moe” while near my left ear. Although I try to bring about communication with expectation with liminal dream state awareness, it does not occur, though I do not possess speech capability in this mode. Post-induction: I watch several couples in canoes from a distance. I do not attempt to identify anyone. It seems to be late afternoon now. There are minimal ruins adjacent to the shore. Vestibular stage: I ride a bicycle on a hilltop, avoiding sparsely arranged rocks. My concern is minimal as the tires phase through any that are directly in front of my path. (I am aware of attempting to enhance my imaginary physicality with this activity.) The drop: I ride my bicycle off the edge of an embankment, and I slowly fly after it vanishes (without exit point modulation). I end up hovering near the doorway of one of the ruins, and I have a desire to look inside. I float into the room in a standing position. Cognitive arousal: An MP (preconscious modulator as authoritative) is sitting at a desk with a typewriter. I cannot tell if he is real and had fallen asleep or if he is a mannequin. Upon attempting to read what he had typed, I see only sequences of random letters that change each time I look again. My view seems magnified. I see the red and black ribbon, red above black. (As I am already in emerging awareness and cognitive arousal there is no need for the preconscious to be intrusive.)
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I'm at some sort of camp or retreat with a bunch of people my age. Different activities are going on. At some point I'm asleep in this bed and I wake up to everyone sort of dog-piled on me but they're all stacked above me just looking at me and they're really interested in me, someone says something about me that I didn't really like but I felt like the center of attention. Later on I learn that everyone there had some sort of role to play, like they were at a dinner mystery and they each had a card to play and things to do, some of them being nefarious and some sexual. The dream also shifted to my mom's street at some point but I'm not sure what happened there.
Empty place I was in some kind of place in between dreams. Wake Talking I dreamt that my mom and dad were talking. Wake Babywipes, lucid I was in my bedroom. I got up and found my friend Y's backpack near the bed to the left. I open it up and find that it's mostly empty. The bag somehow expands into tent size; this makes me lucid. I am carefully inspecting what's inside th tent now and there's some baby wipes. I'd already took them out of the container so I thought might as well make use of it. I wiped my nether regions. However the skin on my body felt different, the skin felt more blob like or thicker or number kind of. Felt an urge to pee though, Wake Not sure jotted down something about spiders by go, and amazon in US warehouse. Doctor & nurse/syringe Lucid I was laying on my bed and found 2 suspicious looking figure by my feet. It was a doctor and a nurse. The doctor was an old man with white hair and pretty thin, while the nurse was pretty young and carried black hair. They were trying to inject something into me via a pretty large syringe and I was pretty against it. I thought something was amiss and I am lucid. I thought that since this is a dream I'll probably be ok and calmed my nerves. I asked them to use a smaller needle. They took one that was smaller but I asked for a smaller one yet still. The nurse pricks my right arm on the soft side opposite of the elbow. I felt the needle prick in and it felt honestly much thicker and solid than it looked. I thought I'd run away right after the injection, or at least explore and check the place out. So I leave right after the injection, when they were distracted. I leave the room and headout. It was an apartment like building and I approach the elevator. It's gonna take too long so I head to the right. There's a bathroom there and I try climbing out the window, but alas the nurse was waiting on me as she was right ouside the window. Replay. I am back where I was earlier, approaching the elevator again. But this time instead of wasting time, I turn to the left. I find another kind of bathroom and immediately leave via the window. This time I fall down about 2-3 stairs of flight but I am ok. I run through the parking lot and into some tiny dwarf ornamental plants. The nurse was behind me and I was throwing balls of shadow, reminding of SF from dota. I wasn't strong enough so I sought to collect the souls of nearby plants by throwing shadowballs at them. Didn't feel like it was enough. But the nurse was beginning to distergrate a little though. SHe'd lost her human form and was more of a cloud like being now, with a little bit of human shape left. That's when the doctor also shows up, he is also in the cloud form and no longer in the human form. Wake Coconut Something about a dead hog/pig. Eating coconuts, well it was more of like a coconut flavored snack like a chocolate pudding without the chocolate. I remember a few other eating it. someone died, yet he enjoyed his death, perhaps he was suffering. Brothers A dream about a family love between a big and small brother. The big brother was named Brian and he had become acquainted with an alien partner. It was under some kind of palm or coconut tree looking tree. So maybe the location is the same as previous dream. Brian leaves the somewhat caveman like community as they were not found of the alien. However they are caught by monsters outside of the town. After they escape, little brother tells the other villagers who were all by a bonfire to leave his big brother alone, and sorts things out. DJ on projector I was trying to DJ. It was being projected on a big screen as people were reading it. I kept writing it regardless though. Coding improving it rather. I was making changes to a programming language, or improving it. Some found this disrespectful, or maybe they didn't want their sales to go down, so Jim called some people to get me. I was escaping the modern-day style assassins and went inside a bathroom. Few dreams missed here/repeated scene of previous dreams. Esp the "brothers" dream was replayed and played out a little differently. Mall From mall to B? Light Dream I was just beginning to have dreams and my thoughts were directly causing the dream scenes to change, into what I was thinking about. Kind of like a mindfulness feeling or rather seeing the thoughts as a dream form with my eyes. Was close to lucidity likely, since I awoke right when I realized it. Notes: -My notes were pretty messy. It was the old jotting style where I just wrote some words down but they were gibberish. I will go back to the new writing style. It should help recall more and prettier writings are much easier to read. -I also had the lucids in earlier part of sleep. -I was actually stressed out about something the night before, but I did managed to get lucid. I think that's a pretty good sign that I'm improving my LD. -I also meditated before bed, perhaps a bit too long. It made me too aware of my body while falling asleep. Was I asleep? It's hard to say. I could tell that my body was falling asleep as the limbs felt like fat sausages. When I meditate too long I get this spinning or whirring sound/sensations kind of. One thing to note is that I do feel more refreshed after having this experience of "am I asleep" kind of feeling. Even though mentally I think I didn't get enough rest, I could tell that the body does feel more refreshed. -When I was meditating I also noted on something improving tremendously. Perhaps just noticing how the thoughts immediately affect dreamscape. Although I know this, it's becoming more and more apparent and this knowledge feels like it's getting ingrained in me. -Didn't dream about schools today, so maybe I got the lesson of the dream finally?
Updated 09-24-2019 at 03:01 AM by 96162
Recall is still shit this week! Jamie 1 Short snippet of a dream just a few seconds of making out with her. Jamie 2 Another short dream. I'm dreaming from Jamie's perspective. I'm trapped in a house out towards the three hills area (I think). the entire house is a giant room of rotting corpses - mostly skeleons) I'm being crushed by something pushing me down inside the pile. Feels like I'm Literally drowning in them.) Hukif I go see Walms/hukif, because of my nightmare. He's in a field with lots of dragon flies or something. He's creating fighting techniques with their hairs or something. He seems really friendly. dog walking I'm in a wierd dream where I'm walking my dog but I'm hired to mow a lawn or something. I use my dog somehow to push the lawnmower (Or whatever device I'm using). My dog doesn't like it and keeps ducking out of his collar and leash. I try three times to make him do the job. Jamie 3 A dream memory that is just black, but Jamie is there. Fortnite A dream memory of ramp rushing for some reason. fortnite again A dream where I'm on a really oldschool part of the map with a big mountain or something. I'm tracking someone down and get lost in his house or something. Jamie 4 Another dream, this time this morning, of making out with Jamie, There is music in the background. It sounds like me playing vivaldi on guitar or something. but the allegro is slowed down and I hear more harmonies, seems more romantic or something. Why not "Careless whisper," Or something? Wait... That's a break up song. Nevermind. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mLM7Vl4YL6s Lots of jamie dreams this week, I'm impressed.
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