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A dream I had just before another long one... I'm inside a mall again, or a store. It was sunny outside. I forgot when I first turned lucid but I do remember trying to summon a few people. The first person I summoned was Quynh. I've done that by yelling out her name and extending my right hand back.

The first time I tried, I was only thinking of her name. Nothing else but that. I then tried a second time but this time I would try and picture her whole face in my mind and see if that would work. I've done so and it worked a better than the last time. When I turned around, she did look something like the real one, but I still wasn't buying it. I was kind of hoping for a better feeling inside me when I saw her face, just like I did in dreams when I saw her about one year ago. The only difference I saw this time was she had a different hair style here.

I continued walking around the mall trying to get the real look of Quynh in the dream but eventually gave up and tried to summon someone else. There was someone whom I've never met before that I wanted to summon. It was a girl on Youtube, I don't know her name but she was the one posting dream journal entries on her channel. She looked beautiful when I first saw her, and still does probably but, whenever I think of someone as pretty as that, my sorrow for Quynh begins to fade away because I'm way too young to try and lose my freedom over some female who doesn't pay attention to me. But the idea of letting her ago without punishment still bothers me...

WARNING! THIS DJ DOES NOT MAKE SENSE!

Non-lucid, incomplete:
I dreamed about a webseries called EverymanHYBRID, some of you might have seen it. Anyway, so we were sitting in a circle and Evan whispers something in Vince' ear about having been to elementary school with me. He tells him that he once dumped a hand full of caterpillars in the hood of my coat (this actually once happened to me in elementary school). I got really angry and planned on killing him. For some reason halfway through we became a couple though. And I met his dad, and he was really not so nice, I talked to him about God, though. And he lived with his dad and shared a room with a little brother and sister, and had a very dangerous set of stairs somewhere in his house. It was really fucked up.

Analysis:
Maybe it was because I haven't exercised, or had a very long LD last night, but last night was a bit fucked up. The reason I dreamed about the web series is because I had been working on a script for my own web series, and my brother came over, and we are both big fans of SlenderARGs. The first part seems to symbolise my own agression and antagonistic attitude towards anyone who gets close to me. I find it rather typical that I had such a relationship to THIS character, as he, himself would already be sufficient for symbolising the agression, in a way, he would almost symbolise myself (I relate very strongly with this character to begin with). So it is peculiar thar I had this kind of relationship with him in my dream, especially since by the end of it, it was turned around completely. The second part seems very symbolic for my relationship with my sort-of-kind-of-complicated-partner. Again I see similarities between the characters, though less strong. It was very much like our relationship, the feeling was very similar too. The father talking about God could be my own search for faith. The younger siblings reflect both my "complicated's" younger sister, and also my own desire to have a real sibling (my half brother never lived with us and is 12 years older), this desire is especially strong around the holidays.

I fell asleep a few minutes after feeling sleepy and cold in front of the computer. I made my first appearance inside a car parked on the street my home was in. My parents had just left the car to get something from our home next to us. I sat in the front seat waiting.

I wait a while inside the car until something happened. The car suddenly turned on and the car was about to start by itself. I panicked! I quickly grabbed on to the steering wheel but as soon as I did, the car started to move backwards . I tried to control the wheel, so I wouldn't hit any houses on the narrow street. The car continued going faster. I stepped on the brakes but the car kept on going! I was doomed. I was always afraid of driving cars in my dreams. I was never sure why. Probably has to deal with how I control things in real life? Anyways, a few seconds later, the car backed up so much that I hit a tree at the end of the street. I was relieved I didn't die. Now it was time to go back home.

When I finally got back to my home, I don't remember how but, I was now inside the living room of the home. It was dark. There was a few other people in the living room at the time. All of which I've never met before. I seemed to have some kind of long relationship with them in the dream though. The light was on in the middle of the room and all 4 people(including me) were gathered around looking at some of the family photos we had on the table. I was the only one standing up and watched as my supposed father handed me pictures to look at.

It was a calm night and nothing strange really happened. The only person I remember from this scene was the father. He was about 60-80 years old. So an old man. There was one strange thing that did happen that I never noticed. All of a sudden, the family inside the living room were all crying because they had just realized that the father is dead. I was confused. I took a moment and went with the flow and cried. I cried a lot for a man I didn't even know. However, someone did manage to wipe those tears away.

A few seconds after the crying, I started to realize that the dream appeared a little foggy. I performed a technique I learned before from a page here on Dream Views. It was the rubbing of hands. I rubbed both my hands together to make the dream clearer. After that, I noticed a little bit of awareness of being inside a dream. I used this extra time to summon someone whom I hold close to my heart. I immediately thought of my old friend Quynh. I faced the living room closet right next to the bedroom, and tried to summon by calling out her name and believing she was beyond the bathroom in the hallway. I walked behind the corner of the hallway and saw no one there. I attempted it one more time, but this time I extended my arm.

I walked over and faced the closet, turned around with my right hand behind me and I yelled out, "Quynh!" in confidence. A few seconds later, I felt a touch. A hand. When I turned around, I saw Quynh! I would've never known I'd see her at this time.

I got closer to her but as I did, she suddenly went on running towards the two rooms in the back. I held on to her and noticed a change in her appearance. She was synchronizing in to her self like in Assassin's Creed. I followed her over to my parents' bedroom and noticed her crying. She was crying for something. She was heading towards the room in the far back but I grabbed her shoulders with both of my hands and turned her. This was not Quynh. Yeah, she had Quynh's old clothing from high school but the face of the girl in this dream was the old girl I liked back in middle school. Why? I was disappointed that I never got to see her this time.

Although, it was not Quynh, I still had some affection for this beautiful looking woman. She was crying and all I wanted was to try and make her feel better. I felt as if I had to help her out, so I can stop seeing all of these tears coming out of her eyes! It was heart breaking. I slowly walked her over closer to the hallway but stopped just before that. I stared at her and watched her cry a bit more. "Why are you crying?" I asked. She had her eyes closed and spoke out, "I'm pregnant!" I then woke up, wondering what it all meant...

I was sitting in a meadow, surrounded by long, green, sweet-smelling grasses.
I closed my eyes, and let the sun kiss my face, feeling completely at peace.
I don't know how long I sat there, with my long hair billowing in the slight breeze.
A thought crossed my mind. "It is better not to be happy. Because the disappointment of another of life's troubles will hit you with a force that takes every hint of happiness away." Those were the exact words.
My eyes snapped open.
A dark cloud was pulling itself across the sun. The wind picked up to insane speeds. My hair whipped itself against my face suddenly, stinging my cheeks. I felt a little wetness where the stingy feelings were. I put my hand up to my face, and there was a perfect, fine line of blood on my hand.

I looked up, about 500 meters away was a train bridge. The fast approaching train was in grave danger. I knew it, yet, I couldn't spot what the danger was yet.
All of a sudden I knew. The ducts of the bridge were shaking vigorously in the middle.
I wanted to scream as loud as I could. Do anything to attempt to stop the train, with all its' passengers, but I know I could not.
A hollow sound came from my mouth. "Ehhh." I bit my fist, and watched in HORROR as the weakened structure of the bridge gave way, and the train started diving head first in the churning water below.
A lovely little girl flew out, her gaze caught my horror-struck one, as she was flying down towards the water. Her brown braids waved in the breeze. She looked so peaceful. Then there was a big bolt of lightening, and she hit the water with a humongous splash.
The train hit milla-seconds after she did. Right in the same place. Animal-like screams filled the air. A pool of blood surfaced on the water.
My stomach churned.
Cart after cart, plunged into the river, with deformed bodies sliding in after them. Pieces of the bridge crashed in after all of it.
It was HELL.
I realized I was screaming now. My voice matched the others. The helpless ones I could not reach.
The little girl. I caught sight of her again. How could she still be alive??? There was a huge cut on the right side of her face, that was gushing blood.
I didn't hesitate anymore. I dived into the wreckage-filled water, and I was under. I opened my eyes for a split second and saw clouds of blood, and little white pieces, which I assumed were bones. I surfaced, with a gasp, and took in as much air as I could. I looked every which way, trying to catch sight of the little girl. I finally caught sight of her. She was clinging to a piece of the bridge, and I was felt adrenaline rush through me. I swam toward her, with long strokes.
As a piece of train came rushing towards her, threatening to knock into her, and kill her, I made a lunge, and grabbed her arm, and yanked. She cried out in pain, but I pulled her into right arm, as the piece of wreckage came thundering by.
"PUT YOUR ARMS AROUND MY NECK!" I yelled, over the noice. "WHATEVER YOU DO, DON'T LET GO!"
She clung to me, and wrapped her legs around my waist, and I started swimming back.
A big, rusty piece of metal with deadly, sharp pieces like swords sticking out of it, was headed straight for me.
I screamed "HOLD ON!!" and I dove under. A piece of metal struck me in the head, and I heard a crack, and an excruciating pain rushed through my upper body.
I felt myself slipping into unconciousness, and was vaguely aware of powerful arms grabbing me around my waist. "Where's the girl????" I remember, screaming in my head.
Then.. Nothing.

I woke up in my dream. Everything was blurry. A handsome face, that has haunted my memory for months, was above me, stroking my hair gently. Angry tears spilled from my eyes. "This can't be real!" I thought. "He's gone. He left. He's not coming back. He drove away."
He pulled his sleeve into his palm, and dabbed at my tears with a feather touch. "Don't cry, honey", he said.
I swallowed. "You left," I whispered.
Confusion came over his face. "But I was always here. I've been here with you for the last four days. I won't leave you."
He took my hand, and kissed it gently. "I promise," he said.
He started to say something else. I was intrigued. Focusing hard.

There were bolts of lightning/electricity, and I woke up with a jolt.
I was sweating, and my heart was pounding like hell.
I didn't know if I was happy or angry to be awoken from the dream.

Nov. 1, 2012
10:00-7:00

Dream 1
I was in school with many of my friends. I mostly remember Jy. Her and her boyfriend were together a lot in the dream. I tried to get her to be my girlfriend, but she obviously didn't want to. I felt guilty about trying to tear her and her boyfriend apart because I think in real life that they truly love each other.

Dream 2

I was trying to hack into Steam to get the game Borderlands 2 for free, along with many other games. I ended up succeeding, but in the end, I tried to give the games back out of guilt. Steam didn't want them back.

Dream 3

I went upstate with my dad. We went to a Home Depot there together to get a bunch of random stuff. We ended up buying a new property and turning it into a farm. We bought a trailer and lived in it. We also got a big green John Deere tractor. We were very successful with it.

Trey died I'm in my childhood bed room. He was going to go out for the evening and I thought he had. The next morning I smelled something horrible I smelled death. I pulled back the covers of where Trey had been sleeping and to my surprise he was there his eyes where sunken in only two creases remined. His body seemed frail and smaller like that of a malnutritiond child. There was feces near his stomach. It was a wretched sight that tour my heart. I felt a panic of need of needing to tell everyone and I had not of yet fully believed what I was seeing although I knew the physical was unchangeable. Aha but if I in that moment would of realized the state of my consciousness I could of changed everything.
Im with Josh in the same room that Trey my brother is sleeping in. It looked just like Josh, he looked healthy and just like he did at the time of the accident. I wish i would of became lucid but it was not meant to be this time. I came to a realization the other day that thinking of the accident puts me in a past mindset a mind state of lack. Josh was alive and we had many happy memories and now I am having more in my dream state. That was the first dream with Josh that I can remember where we where happy and connected and kissed with the passion on knowing each others souls through and beyond time and space. Usually my dreams of Josh are connected to confusion of where he is and why he can't meet me. We have finally met in a neutral place ruled by light and love. Time does not exist here or here. The overlapping of dimensions can be witnessed through the bridge of our dreams.

Silay group travel love.

Oct. 14, 2012
11:00-3:00

I remember being in school. Jy was in this one again. It was about how I like her and my emotions for her. I remember standing next to Jy when suddenly this tall person went over to me and confronted me for some reason. That's all I remember.

The marching band and I are outside on the field when Mr Austin tells us that we're all gonna play a game in groups and that we should play with people were not afraid to get comfortable with.

We then all go inside and get with our groups. I was gonna play with another group but I then play with the drumline so that I could play with the guy that I like.

Here we are again. Back at the same place I thought of. It was raining outside the middle school I was in front of and I was only there to see what else there could be left in the school. I'm not sure what I'm looking for but I've been here before, a couple times. This was the area where I met the first female I ever cried for. Cindy. It seems a little bit dangerous right now, so I I'm deciding I should only drive by and take a look at the school. It was a quick search. Later on, me and my mother appear to be driving in some car somewhere in Las Vegas, I think. When I think of this part, I think of one of the dreams I had before, the dream where my father rammed his bumper in to another car in front of us. So here we are, on the road ready to experience some amazing lifts. So we're driving around this city for a while and all of a sudden, we run in to a big building. I'm not sure what is was. Maybe it was an elevator for cars. This place looked as if it has been abandoned for years. It's going to be hard getting all the way to the top, seeing as there isn't much space for my mother to move the car around. As we ascended, I was having a hard time trying not to be scared. I was always afraid of heights and every second we spent in this car elevator, I sometimes told my mother to be careful. There was one point where we did fall though but it wasn't all bad. This place we were in was too hard to work with. So anyways, here is what happened after we escaped this car elevator. We eventually found an exit that led towards a huge, beautiful scene of clean roads and plains. I've also been in this area before. We're making our way down on a tall hill. The way down was scary for me. Sometimes my mother would slightly fall off the road and nearly kill us. As soon as we made it half way down, we see this dead end where we are forced to take the car down without a road. And while in the air, I told my mom to get the car to fly. We moved down the road below us instead. There were no cars in the area from what I was able to see. After a little more time passed, I appeared someplace else. It was a place right near the home I live in. I spawned right in front of a small shop. There was no one around here. I don't remember hearing anything but my voice. This was when I realized I was dreaming. I walked around the area to check it out. The shop there was locked. I tried finding a way around but couldn't. I found a door though. The door was locked with two lock holes. I had no key, but I was lucid. I pointed my right hand towards the door and waved it at the lock. The locks opened themselves slowly. As soon as the doors open, I got to see what was inside the shop. There was nothing I found interest in. The room was clean, there was a table to the left, and a small backroom in front of the entrance. I did manage to do something while lucid though. I turned over to the road in front of the shop, raised my left hand pointing inside the shop, and yelled, "Quynh, come here!" I waited a few seconds and looked back in to the shop and saw something on the floor. It was a small puppy running around in circles. The dream was fading as I tried to summon her again. My left eye was having a hard time to not blink. A little bit later, I slowly woke up and found my mother opening the bedroom door.

I had this dream a day after my mother told me to get this girl out of my head and I went out crying knowing they never really cared about it. I'm inside this big shopping mall where you would find all different types of materials such as clothes, shoes, toys and kitchen supplies. It looked day light, I couldn't tell because the exit wasn't around here. I'm shopping with this girl, a friend. I don't know her name but she wanted me to help her find out the best types of clothing. Every so often, she would have to go speak to a sales associate and ask them what's the price of the item. They were probably annoyed seeing her more than just a few times. Okay, after a little bit more of shopping, this young female walks over to the checkout lane and starts to ask the prices for a few more items. This is where it changes. I notice we are standing right next to the windows and as I stare at them, the room I was in gets darker. So dark, the area behind me was filled in darkness. There was no longer a checkout lane and the young female wasn't there anymore. Instead I see a food deli and a few people standing on the sides of the walls and windows around the small room not occupied by the darkness. I stare at the window in front of me and saw rain outside the store. The appearance of the outside seemed so depressing especially because there was nothing in the parking lot, only raindrops hitting the ground. I waved my hand at the window and believed it would break if I swung it back and forth. Surprisingly, it did. At the time, I knew I was dreaming. "I'm dreaming", I shouted. Calmed and relaxed, I was, I didn't want to mess this up. The room was still muffled with silence. There is someone with me though. I turned my head to my left and I see this young Asian lady leaning on the table window in front of her. She had a baby in her left hand. I walked up to her and said, "Hey baby", as if I knew her for a while. I stared at her for a second and waited until I thought of a dream purpose. I suddenly realize something. Quynh! I'm going to try and summon Quynh to see if our feelings in the waking life are no longer a conflict. "Hey, Quynh", I yelled out, "Quynh, come over here!" I extended my right arm to my right side and waited for a sweet tender touch of the hands I never got to held on to. I waited for a reply. I waited a few seconds and nothing. I looked around the room to see if I could find her hiding somewhere. There was nothing in the lit area I was in. But I stopped at something. The darkness was the only place left to search. Although I could not see anything in the fog, I only hoped she was in it. I slowly took a few steps towards the shadowy clouds of darkness and walked in to it slowly. As I walked in a little bit further, the dream was fading and wasn't sure if it was a good idea to leave now. I risked it. I walked in to the darkness and slowly started to wake up. Something else happened though. As I was awakening, I could see the doors of my bed room slowly opening up to my eyes. I immediately thought about one of the methods I before saw on this site. I laid still back in my bed and kept my eyes closed. My heart had a sudden spark that made me feel some excitement. But then I started to realize something. Sleep Paralysis. I'm not going to be able to do this right now, especially because the room I was in was too dark and I was afraid of it. I immediately opened my eyes and moved my whole body to escape from it.

So here's where I'm at. I'm at home trying to decide what I should get Quynh(friend) for her birthday. I think she was still mad at me for yelling at her in this dream. There's a couple of guys in the home walking around the house with small notebooks in their hands. I asked one of them if I could see what was inside this book. A couple of the boys gave me a chance to read the book but as soon as I opened it, I found some secrets. This was a gift for Quynh and inside this book, I read the word, "J'aime". I thought it meant love in French, so after reading it, I was shocked. I felt like doing something insane to these boys, like killing them. But I woke up instrad.

Haven't been logging my dreams recently, and I have no real excuse for it
I had a bad time recently with LSD and the last few months have been very traumatic and uncomfortable, but I am almost completely better

Anyway, I'm feeling very positive, looking at life and trying to go on a spiritual journey.
I'm very interested in Astral Travel at the moment, and I'm experimenting in that at the moment, although cannot beat the fear barrier D:

So anyway, I should start by recalling recent dreams.

1) I was on holiday, I think in Majorca or another package holiday resort place in Spain. I was with my friends, by a swimming pool sunbathing. Some sort of stir was caused - I'm not sure if we were drunk or what, but people were being very open about their opinions. My friend Ashley, who I have a bit of a crush on, approached me and started angrily ranting at me, about how she used to like me so much and I treated her like shit when she fancied me, and how she had moved on. This kind of happened in RL, although I didn't treat her like shit, I just had a girlfriend. But I stopped her when she finished before she would start again, and told her straight up that it was because I really liked her, and couldn't find a way to tell her. She was very pleased by this, and it seemed to be an automatic indication that we still both liked eachother. I was very happy at this, and I woke up feeling love and happiness, but was very disappointed when I realized it was a dream

I dreamed that death had to come on a journey with me, at first all i saw was a hooded figure in a white cape with a scythe, he tells me he is the grim reaper, but for some odd reason i wasn't scared. he walks by me and takes off his hood, then i get this feeling like i know him from somewhere, i just cant shake the feeling how familiar he is. he was beautiful...tall, fair skin, jet black shaggy hair, toned, i asked him to look at me, and he wouldn't, so i grabbed his face with both hands to make him look at me, and .....those eyes...those deep blue eyes............i feel in love instantly. he hugged me as if it had been a hundred years since he last saw me.... a warm embrace and i never wanted him to let go. i felt this strong connection on like a spiritual level with this guy, a deeper connection then i ever thought i could hope for. it just felt like id known him my entire life and then some, like a past life

Non-dream Dream

I fall in love with a cute girl in a science lab. I gladly did whatever she told me to do - finish homework, get things for her, anything. We cuddle on the couch and pipet liquids into a 96-well plate. I think we are also involved with the mob.

Some guy (is it me?) is in trouble with the mob. He is in the mob but they don't like him - maybe he fucked up too many times. He knows they are about to kill him. The mob throws him off the balcony but somehow he fakes his fall, hooks onto the top of the balcony and puts a cloaking device on. The mob boss knows that something fishy is going on and waits around for a couple of hours. This is brutal for the guy hanging because he has also been shot at some point. The mob boss figures it out somehow later on after leaving the apartment. I believe it has something to do with the man's wife.