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Dream 1:

I was in some FPS, that looked VR grid-stylish. I was fighting through enemy territory and had some abilities that were very effective versus enemies. I got through some areas and stairs till i reached some place where people were contained, like a prison of some kind, it had alot of colors. I was talking to some then was going through a few more areas there was another dude and we talked about programming. I was apparently a robot of some kind and that the group from before were actually with enemies. So i went back, broke into their place through wall and started killing everyone, then there was malfunction and self-destruction mechanism got activated with explosion destroying the whole place.
I respawned and the game was more like 2D platformer/shooter now in fantasy setting but with futuristic weapons, there were a few jumping segments in level i was going through and i was destroying some enemies in search for a key, then after key was found i opened the passage to the boss. Boss appeared to be huge thing on a ceiling which attacked with some multi-colored semi-homing energy projectiles, and as i was downing his hp bar he did summoned ghost versions three smaller bosses that i recognized as previous bosses of same game. There were also spikes on the sides of the room and a few platforms. I had to reload game from last save a few times but i had a tactic to deal with the boss. I memorized pattern and was dodging around, then eventually i won.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing some 2D platformer game where i was controlling two cartoon characters. The level structure was horizontal and there were some puzzles, overall it was indoors with wooden theme for the most part and there were many pits leading into abyss. One of characters got stuck between walls at one point due to glitch in a puzzle but i was able to switch characters around and avoid falling into abyss.

Dream 3:

I was playing some Stalker-looking game, but it had some features from AI War as well, such as Fabricators, and they were surrounded by anomalies. Also there were player classes, including class called 'Anomaly', which was very overpowered because it didn't had some limits other classes did. I was discussing it with SilentEternity and we were talking about classes as well as how useful fabricators are. In game i haven't progressed much, mostly was checking fabricators and talking with a few NPCs.

In all my recent dreams I am always so nice to people and they are nice to me. They are all pleasant dreams, the unpleasant ones are fortunately rare for me and I haven't had a nightmare since I was a child. But this night I was confronted with one of my recurring childhood nightmares, where I am in the role of a Jew during world war two in Germany, and I am always haunted by Nazis and the holocaust.

Three fragments followed by two dreams:

• I'm on my way from my grandmother's house to my mother's with 3 other guys. I go down through the garden into the valley. It's raining and I'm the only one with an umbrella, too bad for the others I think and enjoy my dry place beneath it.
  
  I want to cook some nice food when we arrive at my mother's apartment, so I ponder my appetites and imagine what would be nice to eat. Then, when we cross the small wooden bridge across the small river, there are three nice chicken filet frying on the right side. They have the same size as a human and look delicious and well spiced.
  
  Don't know who I was with. The environment was the real and well known environment between my grandmother's house and my mother's apartment. Had some chicken the previous day.
  
  
• I am in a courtyard of a big farmers house, there are many people. I have a really big bar of chocolate and I should share it with the others. Sharing is fine I think and I give half of the chocolate bar for sharing, while I selfishly enjoy the other delicious half myself.
  
  Sharing 50% is enough. Who can say no to chocolate.
  
  
• I am at a big harbor with much traffic on the water, many big passenger ships. I am on a big platform with many people, some are just walking, some are enjoying the view across the harbor, standing at a railing.
  
  I spot a young man who stands there with no shirt, so I ask him "aren't you cold? It's so windy", he says "it's all cool" and smiles.
  
  Then I see another guy, who looks just like one of my friends from behind and I tap him on the shoulder and hug him. Suddenly I realize that he is a stranger and not my friend. I apologize and feel sad, because I was happy to see my friend. The stranger is a bit confused, but takes it with a smile.
  
  Dunno...
  
  
• I'm in the city with two of my friends, there are big streets, much traffic and many traffic lights. As we intend to cross a street, the traffic light switches from green to yellow, but I think "no big deal, I can easily make it, I'm not gonna die from this!", so I keep going, while my friends stand still. I almost get hit by a car coming from the right, the brakes make a loud noise and scare me. There is a police station in front of me.
  
  Now I am about 50 m ahead of the two and as I turn around to look after them, they scream and yell at one driver. The car stops and the driver yells back, but that only gets the whole trouble started: The window of the passenger seat opens and a young Nazi with a handgun begins shooting at my friends, one of them has also a gun and begins shooting back. I hear some bullets hitting the car, I am really frightened now. The window from the backseat opens as well and another young Nazi begins shooting in all directions, including mine, with an assault rifle. I panic and run behind the nearest buildings. The Nazi gang leaves the car and begins hunting their 'usual group of targets', while they scream hateful Nazi phrases.
  
  I run across a big soccer field, where people are playing soccer and soft ball. They must not have realized the trouble, I calm myself with the fact that I saw a police station nearby. The field is big and I run as fast as I can, still frightened.
  
  I come to a house with 6 apartments, there are names on the doorbells and on one there is "[My name], the Jew sitter", so it must be my apartment I think. But the house scares me, there are all these hateful phrases on the walls, and the fact that I am labeled "Jew sitter", while there is a Nazi gang on the way freaks me out.
  
  So I hide behind the building on a small hill with an old and rotten train track. I calm down a bit. I see some homeless people and some junkies chilling on the train track a little further ahead. Then there is this ringing sound that comes when the railroad barriers are closing.
  
  When I woke up, I realized that the ringing sound was my phone moaning for power and I somehow incorporated that into the dream. The Nazi nightmares were haunting me when I was a child and had learned about all the cruelties from the holocaust. I guess back then I was so overwhelmed with how cruel humans could possibly be (and obviously I still am. I grew up in Germany, don't know if that's relevant, though).
  
  So here was an unscheduled WBTB, where I did some MILD exercises and imagined how the dream would be when I had been lucid. Also, I realized that I did not have the capacity to RC, when I saw the train track, which is one of my recurring dream signs. Maybe I should make Nazis to my dream sign, because they are fortunately only present in my dreams nowadays. Spotting them right away in the dream will give me the opportunity for a nice revenge
  
  
• I'm at a party at my university. Everyone is happy and the party is fun, I smoke a Joint with two of my friends, they get really high. Later they want to go outside, but I rather stay inside.
  
  I try to use a cash machine, but it refuses to give me any cash, because my card is broken. I meet a bald black guy who is waiting in the line to the cash machine and I start talking to him. He is very nice and we have fun together, so we decide to chill in the room next door. There is a table with big soft couches around it and there are some hot girls sitting there. As we sit down, the girls are gone and I wonder what I did wrong, but it doesn't affect our mood. The black guy shares his cigarette with me, it looks like a joint but he assures it is a cigarette.
  
  I go down a narrow staircase to the toilets after promising the black guy that I'll be back soon. I then find myself in a library with many people working and reading in small booths, it is big and confusing and I admit to myself that I have lost track of where I am. I somehow manage to get outside and try to get back to the party. There is a small field with a police car and I walk across the field towards the building. I meet one of my friends with whom I have smoked earlier that night. Strange thing is there are two of him. So I say "Hi [name of friend]" two times, once to each of them. I wonder why there are two times the same person and then I wake up.
  
  Confusing dream, but somehow cool and very vivid. I like WBTB, should do it more often, I think it is a nice tool for dreams in general. I have always had the impression that a small waking phase in the end of the sleep cycle improves dream vividness, even before learning about WBTB and LDing.

I dream I am in a gymnasium. There is a concert about to begin. The band who's playing doesn't exist IRL and are set up on top of retractable bleachers. I'm on top of the bleachers too for some reason. Down below are hundreds of cheering and screaming people waiting for the band to begin. Luckily due to my practice of ADA, I can recall so much of the detail of the this room. Shadows, sounds, echoes, etc. Before the concert begins the lead singer explains to the crowd if any of their equipment breaks they'll give it to a random fan in the crowd. I look behind me and realize how odd these bleachers are. They're not against a wall, just in the middle of the room with support rails behind them. They stand at least fifty feet high. As the concert begins the band plays a song, and I can't recall what it sounded like. Now the bleachers begin to wobble. I'm freaking out now, and sure enough, the support rails give out and fall apart behind us. We all scream as the bleachers now fall backward. I'm fearful for my life as we fall. The bleachers slam into the ground and break apart. To my surprise, I'm completely unharmed. I now leave the gym as if it's nothing and go to the parking lot. If I recall correctly my Dad and brothers were all waiting there. My brother gave me his laptop, and now I sit down and open it. I'm really excited to finally have a new and improved laptop! I open it and begin to browse around. I end up looking in his video files and I find a huge stash of pornography videos. Both gay and straight. I nearly puke at the sight of some of the videos and slam the laptop shut, never to open it again.

I'm not sure what happened in between this, but now I'm riding a motocycle through a random town. A bunch of other people are communicating with me via headsets. I'm spectating myself drive the motorcycle in third person. I get off now and look around. I'm back to normal, in my body in first person POV. I see a lot of posters and ads on a cheese store. I soon realize I'm in Green Bay, Wisconsin. I realize I'm in the same city that Whiteboy7thst lives in(NOTE: IRL he doesn't live anywhere near GB, W). I decide to try and find his house, on 1337 7th Street(pretty sure that's not his address anymore IRL). I call someone and ask them for directions, jumping on a motorcycle again. I'm back in third person POV and I begin driving. The other bikers are clumsily driving around and saying they want to follow me. After a little while I get off the bike and I'm back in first person again. I believe I'm off the phone at this point and I'm walking down the sidewalk of the city looking for 7th Street. Dusk is settling in now and I'm desperate to find the street. I walk past a girl who isn't wearing a top or bra, her breasts are completely exposed. I ignore her though and walk right past her. She turns around and questions me ignoring her. I look back for a moment as she acknowledges me, but continue my search. After some more search time the night has come. I'm walking down a brick road in the dark. There're many people out walking in the night surprisingly. I check every street sign and can't find it. Finally I find a man and ask him if he knows where 7th St. is. He tells me to follow him and he leads me to the street. I'm excited and begin looking all over for the address 1337. The man leads me into an apartment building and tells me how he used to know a guy who lived in the building(IRL the real guy lives in a big house not an apartment) until he started doing gaming videos for YouTube. I realize he's talking about WhiteBoy and I feel a little awkward now. The man enters his room and I turn around. Right there on the room door is 1337. I open the door with not a single fuck given and walk in. Inside is WhiteBoy7thst playing video games with all the lights off. He sees me enter.
"Is it alright if I come in?" I ask.
"Yeah sure thing," he replies(BTW his real name is Alex). "Just don't snoop around too much.
"I'm such a big fan!" I exclaim.
I walk up to him and we shake hands now. I'm having such a nerdgasm as we shake hands. He moves up to his TV now where a naked woman is sitting and watching him play. I look around the apartment a little and them I sit down and join him. After a little bit of time I awake.

Didn't go to sleep until about 5 a.m. Forgot my dream.

I'm going to bed at a normal time tonight.

Band is making a movie

After dinner I pratice dayMILD on the bed. I'm tired so I've decided to have a little nap.
DB. Driveway. Guys from my favourite band are doing something on my car. Something with wheels. I sit aside and read my kindle. Seems to me that two hours passed (but it was just feeling) and I go to see my car and the band. I cant find nobody near my car. I go to garden. I meet frontman on the strawberries field. He looks totally different than normal. He tell me about some project they make. It should be a movie and they are looking for actors. I watch him and I realize that this is a dream.
I like this conversation so I decide to continue. I ask if I can play the role of God. He look at me and think. Well, yes you can play God, but you will do just little things. I say: "Okay, I will be god, who will look like homeless and I will do just a little things. "Brilliant idea" he says, "I would never figure that". Then he says that I should ask L., because he has role for him.
After end of the conversation I stabilize my dreams by rubbing my palms. The dream is more vivid now. I want to try teleport using rotation technique. I start rotate. Close my eyes and imagine a new place. When I open my eyes, there is only dark. I think that I've woken up. But after few minutes I'm in the living room of our previous house. I run against a wall. I think I try to run through it. My head hits the wall and chewing gum drops out of my mouth. My mother is near on the sofa and asks for something. During the teleportation I've lost my lucidity.

Man I had some crazy nonlucids the other night when I went to bed sick, but they'll have to wait. I gotta tell y'all about the interesting WILD I had this morning.

Went to bed at 1am, woke up at 7,8,9 and it was sooooo hot. But I kept trying and ended up WILDing probably at around 10:30am because I woke up from the WILD at about 11am.

Anyway, traditional roll over, vibrations, then WILD. I got up out of the bed, and my vision was bad, balance was off, and it was really really dark. One of my eyes was blind too, if that isn't insult to injury. [Doctor says to the patient: sorry, your vision is 20/1000, and that's in the eye that ISN'T blind, chuckle chuckle.] ANYway, I left the room and went down the hall, thinking of the hug task. The hall opened into a sunny little play room that doesn't exist irl. A 3-year old version of my son Chris was playing on the floor with some colorful blocks. Perfect! [A little side note about 3-year old Chris: that was the age he was when we had to go to a shelter, and he had regressed somewhat during all the turmoil. Point is, it was during a crappy time for me too, so I feel in many ways that me and Chris missed out on a lot of fun during his 3-year old time. When I was 3 and my parents were split up, my mom took me to Disneyland. Alot.] Happy to see cute lil Chris, I just bent down and picked him up and hugged him super hard and long. Best feeling ever

Then I thought of the write name in sand task, and I noticed that part of the playroom had a sand pit. I won't really count this task because it was indoor sand, but I told myself at that time that in case I don't find a beach later, I'll just try it here. I wrote "Lisa" fairly easily, then "Ophelia" next to it . Ok, still lucid, what were the advanced tasks? I couldn't remember them, even now as I'm typing this out I can't remember, oh yeah, punch the pres. Oh well, all I could remember at the time was the only one I DIDN'T want to do, which was to jump in the volcano. But I figured I could just go there anyway and maybe I'd get brave when I got there. I asked Chris if he wanted to come along and he followed me to the front door. I could hear that it was raining bad outside, and Chris said "Mommy, umbrella" and pointed at the closet where we keep them. I told him that we won't need them. We stepped outside and it was pouring horribly, and super dark. Now, I never have much luck getting rain to clear up, but I remember that one member who uses his DCs to do things for him. So I told Chris to point at the sky and use his magic to make the rain stop. It took a few tries, but the rain stopped, and it got a little brighter out.

I didn't see any mountains or volcanoes anywhere, but a van drove up to us. A guy was driving, and a lady was in the back and she opened the sliding door, asking if we needed a ride. I said, "Mount Fuji is over there somewhere, can you take us there?" She said ok, for $40. So I handed her a $40 bill Which did seem normal at the time lol. Anyway, we weren't driving for long before the van was now on the tracks of a roller coaster. I said to the driver "Man, we gotta get off this thing or I'll lose my lucidity!" as we rolled and tumbled, with visions of Mount Fuji going in and out of my peripheral vision. We finally stopped and got out, and we were in DisneyLand! (Anaheim).

I knew that one of the rides was situated around a volcano that I could probably make real somehow, because I had seen it from inside the van. But then I noticed that Chris was in the arms of that woman from the van, looking really sad. He said, "Mommy, I don't want you to go into a volcano.." Ordinarily this would be where I combated the DC guilt trip and said something like, "Ok, you stay here with Aunti so-and-so, while I go get some 'ice cream' wink wink," and then continue on to find the volcano. But here I was, totally lucid, with 3-year old Chris, AT DISNEYLAND! So I thought fuck it, "He Chris, want to go ride some rides?" And he ran over to me and grabbed my hand. I thought to myself I don't even care if I lose lucidity at this point. The lady gave me back my $40 bill and said, "Here, you can have this back to get some ride tokens." So we went to the token dispenser (so not existing in real Disneyland, oh well who cares. Mickey coins sounded fun). I stuck in the entire $40 dollar bill, which seemed to empty the dispenser of all its tokens. Me and Chris just started filling our pockets with the tokens, much to the dismay of a dad and his son, who were waiting to get their tokens lol. Then Chris and I walked hand in hand and got in line for one of the rides. I believe I did start to lose lucidity at some point in that line, but I don't think I was ever happier in a dream.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #116: Dive Bomber in Darkness

I'm walking out of the lobby of a hospital, some important errand on my mind. When I head through the bank of automatic doors into the night, I'm confronted by a huge crowd of reporters and spectators that are hanging around like something important is about to happen. Is this a dream? Yes.

Looking into the crowd, I see my high school physics teacher, "Mrs. C". I walk up to her. "[Mrs. C]! I know that you've been waiting, like, forever for me to go on Draw Something. Sorry about that. How have you been doing?"

"Oh, that's all right!" she says. "My wife and I have been doing great." This is strange -- Mrs. C has a husband, not a wife. He even came by the school a couple of times.

"Well it was good talking to you," I say, and I step back from the crowd a bit, thinking about my next move. I remember wanting to go to Angel Falls so I decide that'll be my goal for this dream.

But just as I'm making my plans, I notice that one of the reporters standing nearby is extremely attractive. She's about 30, probably half-Asian, and lightly freckled. I start thinking very sexy thoughts before catching myself -- if I approach her, I know for sure that the dream will only head one way (and not to Angel Falls.) I back quickly away, my mind still going sexytime. The reporter stops speaking into her microphone, looks directly at me and says, "I think I love you."

I put out my hands and kind of wave them around. "No! No, you don't! I'm sorry, that was my fault!" Immediately she returns to what she was doing, forgetting all about me.

Okay, Angel Falls. I scan the horizon but there's nothing to really use. I could just start flying and try to work from there... As I'm planning, I start thinking about the good-looking reporter again. Okay, I really need to get out of here...

I allow myself just a moment to imagine that the top of Angel Falls is right behind me. Then I fling myself backwards as if I'm jumping off of a cliff, imagining myself going over the falls. There's a weird moment where I'm stuck upside down, my head sort of embedded in the sidewalk. After a couple of awkward seconds like this, I wind up in the void.

I rub my hands together, then imagine that I'm falling along the falls. Almost immediately I feel the spray of water against my face and arms. I point myself facefirst at the ground, arms tight to my sides. Air rushes past my skin as I gather speed. I feel myself going faster and faster, air filling my mouth. I keep "falling" like this for at least 30 seconds, and the sensation is so awesome that I don't even mind not having visuals.

I feel amused that "Angel Falls" is so incredibly high that I can skydive like this from it. I wonder how long this can go on. Even though I'm enjoying myself immensely falling through the darkness like this, I know that I need visuals to complete the task. I try to focus on what this should all look like but the intensity of the rest of the experience has me a bit distracted. The dream ends before I can make it all come together.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #115: Sandwiches for Skeptics

I DEILDed during this dream and wound up really scrambling the beginning. Pity. Anyway, I think this was a DILD. I remember something about a prison, finding my way through an office building, and being attacked. Somewhere along the way, I find Wife and my oldest son E. My memory becomes very clear here: It's morning and I'm walking through an empty, gray city with Wife and our oldest son E. I hold E's hand as he bounces and scampers beside me, pointing and jabbering excitedly.

We pass under a bridge and walk up a sloped street. All around us are gray vacant lots, brownstone tenements, and the occasional piece of newspaper carried on the wind. The one swatch of color is a bus stop to our left that bears a beautiful ad for Arby's. Below the Arby's logo it reads, "Sandwiches for Skeptics".

I find this very amusing but also really unlikely to be the new Arby's slogan. I tell Wife that "I'll have to google that later" but she doesn't respond. I run my fingers over the sign, appreciating its detail. There are even some air bubbles underneath the paper as if it wasn't pasted down all that carefully. I take my time with this, thinking that it can only help to draw me into the dream.

Task of the Year occurs to me. I'm fired up about going to Angel Falls, and I imagine that it's out there, just past the vacant lot and a row of buildings. As I do, I see little sprays of water coming up from over the tops of the buildings. I'm amused that the "graphics" for this water are absolutely terrible. The little puffs of water look like repeated, low-resolution particle effects with no animation.

Okay, enough thinking. Time to fly. I consider summoning NewArtemis to join us but then remember that I need to stay focused -- I'm already trying to bring two DCs with me. A summoning is pushing my luck too much. I take to the air, still holding E's hand, and his reaction is surprisingly subdued. From the ground below, I hear Wife say, "Oh okay... bye, guys!"

"Just follow us!" I shout back to her.

There's no reply, though, so I focus on flight. Looks like it's just me and E now. As we fly high enough to look over the tops of the surrounding buildings, I see that the entire city rest atop a huge mesa that rises high above an ocean. At the edge of the mesa I see a waterfall -- Angel Falls!

The Falls are a long way off, so I focus on flying faster and faster. We get up some good speed, but the dream is starting to feel thin and insubstantial. All I can think to do is speed up, but I'm not fast enough. We're still about a quarter mile away from the falls when I feel the sensation (real or imagined) of my eyeballs moving around and I'm awake.

I relax and go for a DEILD. I quickly enter a new dream scene, flying again, but this time as an observer with no dream body. I'm on a long, spiraling slope built out of stone blocks. The sides are unwalled and I can see that this tower stretches far above the clouds. I slide smoothly upward along the slope, making at least 3 full revolutions. I'm aware that I'm dreaming but I make no attempt to exert control. I'm content to just know where the tower leads. I keep spiraling upward and either lose lucidity or slip into the darkness between dreams...

Legend: Lucid, Real Life, Non-Lucid, Semi-Lucid



Sidenotes:

• Alix and Baily were from my elementary school
• This story may not make that much sense as I have alot of fragments that add up together
• FILD did not work for me, I don't really think its my sort of method.

It's All About Clair:
I was flirting with a girl named Claire and was coming back from a school field trip on the buss. Once we got to my school I flirted a bit more in class and then she invited me to her house. I met her dad but her mom was no where to be seen,but,to my surprise I saw Alix there. He was trying to win Claire over,we kept talking over each other in order to get Claire's attention. Unfortunately as I was talking I was also eating, this resulted in me spitting out some food on the floor, and because of that she kicked me out and called me disgusting. I then left her house out of some weird tunnel/sewage way,I eventually came back and tried to apolagise but she would not let me in,so, I got mad and blasted her door with my super powers. She had nothing to say to me so she called the police and they got me out of there. I then went to my house and went to somebody who knows a lot about drugs and I told them to investigate a crush bottle that i was drinking to see if that had anything to do with my new super powers. He told me that the crush bottle had some sort of cocaine smell to it. I then went to my cousins house where i met Baily, he was also trying to win over Claire and tried to act innocent but it was pretty obvious.

I brought him over to my cousins house but then they started fighting because he was fat (lol),I later realized that the reason I spit out my food was because of the cocaine that i had got from the crush bottle. The cocaine filled me with energy resulting in me spitting my food on their floor. I then went back again to explain what happened, although she didn't seem that mad she has no inttention of inviting me over again so I got mad and went to play soccer with my friends at a local park. To my surprise I see baily there and he talks about how he got with Claire first and was arguing over it.( and thats it... no ending..)

Last night, i had a couple of dreams about water parks and carnival rides and what not, i didn't really see those as interesting so i decided not to log them. That probably was a mistake, in the future, i will log no matter what. Either way, some other dreams i had from the top of my head:

-i was driving down the road and saw two people hiking, kind of odd but i decided to ignore it. Later on, i found out they were actually reptilian shape shifters and they had invaded and possessed like everyone and i had to fight them, and well...i lost xD. I managed to kill one but i had to drown it while almost drowning myself in the process. I even had super saiyan powers but still lost, those guys are strong xD.

-Found myself back in school doing various things, and at one point, a t-rex attacked my mother but defended herself with my little brother. Weird, because i don't have a little brother. I also found out later in the dream that my little brother was an alien.

Dream 1

I'm in a giant train station. The ceiling arches way above my head, and support beams branch off from the ceiling to the walls. I'm with my friends and class, but am isolated from the others. We're standing on the top of the train itself, and I know dimly that it is moving but I can't feel the motion, just see the walls of the station sweeping past.

The top of the train is littered with a ton of boxes, and I mean a ton. Some are open, some closed, some tossed on their side. Some are stacked on top of others. Some are so full that they have objects spilling out. It's a giant yard-sale, except the conductors were going to throw it all away once they reached the next stop. I go up to one box and am searching through the pile of jewelry for anything good. I find a ring, and keep it. I tie the sleeves of my jacket together to make a bag and start to keep the items in there.

A guy I know in real life comes up behind me and slips an arm around my waist. I pause. I know that it means nothing to him, but it feels out of this world. Like, more feeling than I've felt in a dream before. It's so warm it nearly scorches my skin and I can feel it all the way through my stomach. I don't even particularly like him, but I get an instant rush of affection for him.

Once the kids see all the cool stuff I'm finding, they start to think that I'm onto something by searching through the boxes.

Then I'm at the library. The librarian stands in the middle of the room, surrounded by a desk upon which even more boxes are placed. She's searching through them, and I help. I'm more cautious about what I pick out, however, because I actually have to pay for this stuff. The place has an atmosphere of closing time, and we're the only people there besides a gray-haired older lady who is also a librarian.

I find quite a few things that I like. The librarian smugly beckons me closer, and I obediently leaned closer and peered into her hand. She held a wristwatch/ring/bracelet with several little bits that looked exactly like little fish made out of mercury. They busily 'swam' in the liquid inside, although they weren't attached to strings or anything. The librarian proudly explained something about magnetism, but I wasn't really listening. I really wanted that bracelet. Then she expectantly says, "Care to outbid me?" I say no, because I don't have enough money, and leave.

Dream 2

I remember being at some sort of party and looking for a girl that I had previously dated and was hoping to get back together with. We were both adults in this dream. I finally find her, with her arm around a dark-haired man as they both burst into a chorus of laughter that I can't hear because of the distance between us. Her long blonde hair swings as she shakes with laughter. I know that the man is her new boyfriend, and that I'm too later. I leave, extremely hurt because I thought that we were getting somewhere.

Spoiler for Warning:Disturbing Porn:

I'm looking at a computer. I find a porn that involves a woman using her stump of a leg (amputated) to penetrate another woman. She is also very old, like with gray hair. For some reason I am unable to finish it, and am desperate to get to a computer so I continue watching it for the rest of the dream. Yeah, it is really wacky and I'm appalled that I would dream about something like that, but oh well.

I'm in a room with another girl around my age. She has long, dark brown hair that just about reaches her waist. Despite that, she's rather plain looking and very timid. That's why I'm even more surprised when she brings up a porn site and starts watching it right there. She even comments on it, and lets her sister lend me a laptop as well. Her sister is very outspoken and loud. She's always chewing gum, and is very short but with big hair. I dislike her. I know that she introduced her sister to porn, and made her the way she is.

We're in a room with my little brother when he comes up and asks what we're watching. He sees a handjob for a brief second and starts asking questions about it. I awkwardly make the motion with a hand and asks if he does 'that'. He starts mimicking the motion, and I tell him not to several times. I think that I told him to try it sometime. I'm being arrogant because the outspoken sister is in the room and I'm influenced by her.

My brother runs over to my mom who has just entered the room and makes the motion several times, and she looks up at me, aghast. I yell, "I WAS ONLY TEACHING HIM HOW TO OPEN A CAN OF SODA, I SWEAR!" I make the motion myself, to reassure myself that it is indeed a soda opening motion. Yes, this is definitely a good excuse (not).

There was some sort of school that I either excelled at or was terrible at. It was a summer camp kind of deal. I got very bored with it. The kids there were all stuck up.

Today i dreamt i was sitting on my desk at my computer watching some scary pranks on youtube.
But suddenly i hear some sound around my room and i start to get scared, i look around it and
next to the chair i'm sitted on there is a monster with a creepy mask and his body was all black.
I saw him and i screamed out loud, after some 5 seconds, i stop screaming and tell to the monster.
"No, i'm not scared" (wtf lol.) My brother comes into my room and say it's already 12 pm.
I say to him "Huh?" suddenly i look to my computer clock and the time is 06:00 am
i tell him again "What are you talking about? It's 6 am." he tells me "But i am looking to your computer, it is 12:00 pm for me"
Then i take a look again and the hour has changed, now it is 10:59 am (Reality check done )
I stay like "WTF? why did the time changed?" (didn't got lucid ) After that reaction i just ignored that and looked through my room's window.
From my window i was seeing some vegetation, suddenly that vegetation starts to get burned, and the wildfire starts to expand quickly
it was enormous already and i only could think "Someone call fireman, someone please see that wildfire and call them!"

Technique used for this dream: WBTB + MILD
Sleep time: 5 hours

Today i dreamt i was in some place that had 2 computers for me, vitor, goncalo. (My friends) we were 3 but only 2 PCs were there.
We stood on 1 computer playing some internet games and stuff. Some girl came and watched us playing.
I was looking at her and she was smilling at us. Vitor went to the pc next to us and started playing alone.
The girl also went next to him and i stood with goncalo playing, vitor started to talk with girl and make her laugh etc...


Technique used for this dream: MILD
sleep time: 6 hours

This is so weird, I am sitting here a bit stunned. I just woke up, but let's call it more fled back here from the astral. I have run out of lucid goals. I wanted to challenge myself beyond super powers and the standard stuff. I decided to seriously try to figure out how to gain personal control over my entry into the astral dream realm and entry into the big city there. I did a WILD with this in mind. I intended to call out to "Dream Guides" in general if I needed to and to sit in seiza position if any confrontation happened to show my harmlessness.
I am a little embarrassed by the level of fear some folks from there caused me. Silly and foolish, I never seem to have enough forward clear reason and calm rationality when I go astral. I intended on showing restraint, and I did, but WOW, I panicked.

I WILD into a scene that appears to be a restaurant and an old lady is asking directions. My I-phone will not work. I realize it is a dream. I attempt to shift into the astral. I can not explain clearly how this is done, as I am actively trying to understand it myself at the moment. I think it worked right away. I have recently spent a year uncontacted by any Dream Guide types, because I asked the main guy to allow me some space to dream inside my own head, with out them always controlling/training me. I had been tired with every LD being a training session, or at the very least, subject to the rules and laws there. A few nights ago, I asked for re-entry and immediately was contacted (see naked rave dream). In that dream a security vehicle followed me around.

For my new dream goal I wanted to make the entry on my own if I could and then calmly make contact with some of the entities. I wanted to make good eye contact, and have a clear discussion. If things got weird I was going to sit to show harmlessness.

I walked around in what still looked like a dinner, but suddenly it shifted and soon I was there. The people were now emanating the special feel astral entities do. I was being watched and stared at. I sat at a table and I tried to talk with a large man. I could not understand him. He looked frustrated and increasingly angry at me looking at him. I seem to have somehow started an argument with him. I have sometimes thought they were testing if I would respond with violence (and often have) I tried to leave through a glass door. He tried to stomp after me. I held the door closed and he transformed into a polar bear and was pushing from his side and looking pissed.

I saw another man approach and asked him why this man was so angry. This man I could understand. He told me "Him? He was just delivering pizzas." ??? Well, maybe I could understand??? What? "He was just delivering food" The bear had gone from the scene so I stopped trying to hold the door. This guy hand me two pins, like would go in a shirt collar. What? I thought maybe they were some form of translating device, but fail to fully understand what they were, or how they could work.

I walked around behind the dinner and it was an semi-enclosed industrial looking court yard area. I was immediately approached by a man who looked very angry. I jumped up into a tree. So much for my plan of staying calm and showing harmlessness. This place has strong gravity that overcomes the ability to fly. I can fly for very short bursts but it exhausts me, and I am not sure many here can fly. He acted like he was going to grab me out of the tree, so I levitated (damn, the gravity was overwhelming) I barely got out of reach. I was forgetting my harmless bit. I mocked him "Can you fly?" He just shook some papers at me and repeated my words in an angry tone.

I snatched the papers from him and he stomped away. I tried to look at the papers, but they made no sense. I thought I picked up on some words that meant something about 2 types of blood and some public health issues. I gave up on understanding it.

I looked around and in the next area over was what looked like a large market store and a very tall tree like thing was in front. I figured I would hide in the branches and just watch people. I went over and floated up into the branches, but did not seem hidden from view. The tree was swaying with my weight and a passer by stared up at me like I frightened her. Soon a security type or at least a stern figure came and just somehow grabbed me down from the tree. I do not understand how. It looked like I was up off the ground a ways, but with a small gesture I was pulled down in front of him.

He looked angry and when I tried to talk he reached up and grabbed the pins they other guy had given me and shook them at me in his open palm. I could not understand him. I decided to go ahead and call out loud "Dream Guides!" I had decided on that phrase before hand, as this is still very confusing and my goal was to actually understand it more. Two more people rushed up, but I thought they looked angry too. I quickly went into the sitting position I had planned on to show I was not going to be a threat.

Things were going well in that sense, I had completed both goals, but I was on the ground surrounded by three unknown entities who looked angry. I panicked and decided to flee back to my own head. One of the people told me not to do it, but in my panic I felt it was a hostile order, and it just added to my fear. I closed my eyes and was a bit like Dorthy with they I want to go home stuff. One of them tapped on my shoulder, but I was panicking and made my escape.

I entered an ordinary LD (I think) but was creped out and made myself wake up.

I will not give up, I am going back in to try it again. I did not attack anyone. I called out "Dream Guides!" I sat saiza when confronted. So in that sense I succeeded in my goals. I also seem to have made the entry on purpose and without aid. I never thought that language type barriers would exist. I have not had time to think about that. Also, what is the meaning of the pins or the papers about public health issues?

For over a decade my adventures in the astral were haphazard at best, or guided carefully by a DG. Now, I think learning to understand and control this type of travel are the next step. I need to learn to stay calm and figure out how not to make people angry. I think the first guy could not understand me and was just yelling at me to leave him be (let him do his job) and I think the other guy wanted to know why I was creeping around behind the building. Fairly harmless stuff.

So last night I used an app called 'Sleepbot' to figure out my REM-cycles. It didn't work that well, though as I only got 3 hours of sleep
I wanna use this app to find when I can do the best WBTB.

After those 3 hours last night I woke up and filled my head with LD-related stuff. In the next dream I actually dreamed about Lucid Dreaming but I didn't do a RC or ADA so I didn't get lucid for real.
I only remember fragments so I'm not even gonna write a DJ right now, it's not worth it.

My plan for tonight is to go to bed earlier, do a wbtb after about 6 hours of sleep and hopefully get lucid!