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6/4/2014

I accidentally fail asleep before getting to dream incubation and mantras. I should go back to sitting up while I do all of this...


In bed: 12:03 AM - 9:45 AM

#5. I. 7:30 AM
I am with my bro and mom. We just got a new Gamecube controller or two for some reason which even still have a few stickers on them as we take them out. We want to test them. We only have LB’s Gamecube around. It is strange because it is only half the height of a normal Gamecube because somehow she rigged it so that it’s only the top of the Gamecube yet it still works normally. We turn it on to test on.

#6. II. 8:30 AM
I am out with a bunch of other people at night time on a field. We have each built different contraptions, toys, things for some purpose. I have this weird snake toy thing that it is built around a sturdy wire that can be turned to change the shape of the snake. We form a line eventually which I realize later is to try out one of the people’s inventions. I am unsure what exactly it does, but there’s a helmet attached to a small machine and has something to do with mental health. I see people put the helmet on then start talking and telling their troubles and such. It is disconcerting to see people just saying all of this out loud to everyone around. Before long, there is just one person in front of me in the line. It is unclear whether she was about to be the next one to use it or had just been using it, but I watch as this girl that looks J gets arrested and taken away for whatever reason. It seems related to both the machine and the person in front of me. Me and the guy walk across the field diagonally to the other side where there are a few other people.

This is a dream fragment from this morning. Been a while since I dreamt of the beach.

I am standing on a sand dune overlooking the ocean. My dad is beside me. The dune is maybe 5 feet high, and it's damp. The sky is dark and cloudy, as if it's been raining or is going to. I decide to go down the dune to stand on the beach. I look down at my feet as I go. I'm barefoot, and it's high tide; the water is right there at the bottom of the dune. It's clear and cool, and a few inches deep. I wade around for a little while, and then I climb back up the dune - not noticing that my footprints from before are gone - and I rejoin my dad.

This dream/dreams happened to me when i started chaining DEILDs in the morning first few were not lucid but the last few ones were.
I was on a side of a mountain and there was a dirt road leading to a village.I started walking on the dirt road but every step would make things more dark, when it got really dark i woke up but i remained still and got into another dream within 5-10 seconds.It was the same dream like before except this time the road was really bright and there was a white cow blocking my way, i fought the cow and emerged victorious.I got to the village and hid in a house waiting for the leader of the village so i can kill him.The 2 who entered first were his body guards who i killed quickly, then after shooting the leader with more than 20 bullets he died while laughing.I started to wake up again but i did not move and got into a new dream within seconds.I was in a store working normally, but then i noticed that im dreaming because in normally dont work in a store.Someone started coming into the store and it was a mom and 2 kids she had, i got out of the store and took the mom with me outside where i kissed her gently and started to hug her where i woke up again but i re-entered the same dream within seconds and started to try and go through stuff, but i failed at that :/ .I noticed a pretty girl her age was about 20 and i introduced her to my friend, i dont know why i did that .During all these dreams i noticed 1 thing that always annoys me.Its always night time unless i change it(i realized this while i was in the dream), so i started to play with the time and in the end i made it so the moon and the sun are out at the same time so its half day-half night and i made that the clouds and the sun/moon never move so its always the same time, this was one of my best lucid experiences.

I'm trying to remember my dreams better in general... I guess I kind of "lost it" when I quit writing in my journal every day.

Last night I dreamed that I was in a room that was all mirrors on all the walls and it was filled with people. I think they were all teenagers, I must have been in high school. Then all the lights go off and we have to battle this robot that looked like a vacuum cleaner. One guy grabs the vacuum cleaner and puts it on like a backpack and now instead of being a vacuum cleaner it's a power washer. He starts washing the floor. Then music comes up (there are like really dim lights on at during all this) and I start rapping. I wish I could remember what I came up with because it wasn't from a song or anything, it was all freestyle and I feel like it was pretty good. Then everyone started dancing and everyone forgot about the robot we were supposed to fight.

I woke up and fell back asleep and I was in the backyard with the dog and I had to take the trash to the curb. I remember the back gate was open and I mentioned something like, "that gate has been open all week, I'm surprised she didn't try to run away. She must really love us."

I'm in a parking lot, and my mom's talking to me about losing weight or curing herself of a disease, saying it's hard work. Google hasn't helped anyone, but they have reserved parking spots in their parking lots. Later, I'm discussing with my mom about why no bathroom is being used in my room back in Raleigh (we're in some sort of Japanese-style house), and I don't remember what she says (something about uncleanliness). I'm looking into fixing the bathroom? as well as other bathrooms? At the end, I'm talking to Jimmy Fallon about the issue I mentioned in the first line, and when I find something online he leans in to see what it is. Talking to my old roomie, mike, about something. I think he's talking about what he wants to do for a living? It may be related to music. Then there's something with an empty jug of milk. Kanye West lost in the world song (which was a spin-off of the mumford and sons song (only in the dream not irl)).

Tonight I suffered from serious insomnia, I went to bed around 23:20 and fell asleep finally around 03:20 and I had to wake up next day at seven...

1. House-party?

This dream starts with me sitting in my bedroom and some friends are in my house for some party or schoolwork... I quikly walk to the computer to change the desktop cause I thought it was stupid. Don't know why, IRL it's just some mountains.) I think I changed it to a river or something, anyway then I quikly went to my bedroom to put away a teddybear that sat in a chair. (It's been there for years IRL and I don't really mind it.) Then I'm suddenly at school in a classroom alone, it's really late. (I think it was 02:30 which might be caused by my insomnia-night...) I am EXHAUSTED, I can barely move my legs yet I feel the urge to check if all cats are inside, I walk around and suddenly am in my living room where I open the door to the garden and look around, it's dark. I see most of the cats walking out of the door outside and I'm a bit annoyed by that. I quikly drive them back inside and close the door. Then I return to the abandoned classroom and sit on a chair watching the door, I pass out and wake up several hours later sitting on the chair, completly broken and still tired.

2. Cars > Bicycles

I'm driving around in Antwerp in some deserted Streets with a car, I feel as if something bad has happened like a robbery or a disaster. Then I see some friends riding bikes and I ask them something, they respond to me saying they're going to school, I drive to school and suddenly teleport to me riding a bike in school. I'm there just before the others arrive. I feel extremely tired again and I think I just crawl back to that chair from last dream.

Even though it's just two dreams I do remember they were quiet detailed and seem to last 40 minutes each. Then take into consideration that I had barely slept that night and it's still a good result.

I don't remember any of my dreams today.

Edit: I just remembered a small fragment.
I was in a classroom with two of my friends working on different designs of toilets. They were trying to give advice on regards to the direction the toilet needed to be taken, and I was a little off-put by the notion that they would be joining us in this project. My friend and I just got back from a party in which packs of candy were being given away for anyone who wanted it. These included snickers, whoppers, and other chocolate bars. I had a bag and I would just grab some and place them in. I also grabbed two washcloths with a strange print on them. I came back from the place and was was walking through the school with my friends and I tripped, spilling the food everywhere. I picked it back up with help from my friends, and finally entered a building. At the bottom of the steps was a homeless man begging for food. I had pizza, but I had to give it to someone else so I cut it in half and let him half some. He didn't feel I cut it down the middle fairly and grabbed a little extra, to my annoyance. I left, though I do remember seeing him later on in my dream.

Bedtime mugwort tincture: bizarre/abstract dreams for the night. Nice night it turns out!

00:00 Thursday 2014-06-05

07:05 alarm

Recall dreams from the night

07:23

+ some leather-strap-wearing girls (I can see a bit of breast) are writhing/wriggling suggestively on the floor, why are they doing that?

+ some rabbits/animals are eating apples, some of the apples have black marks on them

+ I (somebody else?) waves their arms and the giant pile of snowy firewood stacks itself hundreds of feet up into the sky and a hundred yards wide, way up into the clouds

+ building a cabin from logs that are hundred of feet long, tall and black, I'm concerned about them falling over. It's a white/snowy environment.

+ Building a cavernous house, a single absolutely ginormous room, ceiling a hundred feet up, go in this house, I feel warm inside (don't usually notice dream temperature), I want a real window and keep trying to open one but all I get is a computer screen with a heavily pixelated / patterned picture of the view outside, someone tries to convince me that via manipulating multiple reflections this will become a realistic view

+ I'm observing and conversing with some woman who is simultaneously in and out of a wall-sized painting with a mostly blue background, a vertical strip of the painting next to me becomes discolored (green)?, she talks about why this happened (I forgot), the front door opens and blue paint flies in to fill the cracks in the painting and somebody else comes to inspect these cracks.

+ I'm standing at the top of a very tall structure outside, some immigrant workmen have brought 4 large pieces of new construction to be attached (looks like cheap particle board), they try to install one piece but it doesn't fit in the groove in the floor, I suggest removing a screw on the new piece, then I see that this screw when screwed back in won't help anything because the outside of the piece is weak cardboard, the screw won't hold on it.

+ splat cat: a scene outside like a park, daytime, two people have an easel set up and a black cat is repeatedly squashing itself against the canvas to form different abstract patterns, I only briefly see the form of the cat for a split second before it re-splats itself against the canvas time and time again, the patterns are solid black but look like magnetic particles in a magnetic field, sort of "sharp" and 3d.

The splat cat people set up a table and the cat (some dark furred animal) climbs up on top of the table. There's a family sitting directly behind the splat cat people and they aren't bothered by this.

There's a family outside, they're very close, the father and son are discussing what their plans are, someone has to do the laundry, they have a lot of dirty towels, but someone must remain at camp to guard their stuff while someone else is doing the laundry.

+ copy guys: they're making 5000 copies, they set up an impressive assembly line of copiers feeding one another at high speed, only real experts can do this, they're producing an impressive multi-color document, they also have a technique for squaring up piles of cardboard boxes (hitting the top of the boxes with a stick/hammer while vibrating their foot/leg against the side of the pile), I think this is a great technique

There are probably 6 or more copiers, each one is shooting out its contribution to the pages of the document, the pages are all flowing on some assembly line, I"m hovering above as DO observing the process. The document assembly line moves from my right to my left and turns 90 degrees to the left and continues on.

+ packing fail: a bunch of people along with me are trying to assemble large (refrigerator-sized) cardboard boxes with foam inserts in order to pack (televisions?) but the boxes all fall apart in to pieces despite the cargo netting.

+ 5pm at the Skanky Ho restaurant. Arrive at the restaurant there's one ho sitting on a guy's lap. I just want to eat, but there are ho's everywhere, I really don't want them to approach me. There are couches and low coffee tables instead of regular tables, and lots of ho's wearing big fluffy curly black jackets, I think this is probably the main time for big business.

+ following the leaf on the path, trying to read its mind, I sense that it has purpose, I will try to influence it, I lose the leave, then things turn cartoon-y and there is a question about entering/repeating the video game.

June 04, 2014

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I was with Zukin on a bus (in Germany, I think. But I'm not certain). We sat in forward-facing seats on the left side in the back half of the bus, and our bags were to our right in a row of left-facing seats that lined that whole side of the bus. Those seats were elevated by two steps. The bus seemed abnormally wide.

The dream fragmented here. We must have gotten off the bus, and were now in a hotel room. We started talking about a reading assignment for a class we were both taking. We had to read part of a book I've already read (I get a very strong feeling that it was the Hunger Games), as well as the first 100-or-so pages of another book, which I'd never heard of. I hadn't known that we needed to read the other book, and the class was meeting tomorrow. It was already late, and so I asked Zukin to just summarize that book so far, but she refused to tell me what it was about.

Another fragment; I had spilled something all over me, and so I went to the hotel room's bathroom to take a shower. Zukin asked me if I was going to "take a real shower in the morning," to which I responded: "This is my shower."

After my shower I changed into my PJs and then I woke up.

None so far.

Fade-in to the middle of a baseball diamond. The sky is dark, no stars to be seen. Two dream characters are with me as we run to a little shed, the feeling of fear heavy in the air. The shed is made of wood and metal meshing and full of baseball bats. The two DCs slam up against the shed and start fumbling with the lock. I wait behind them and turn around to see two raptors on the other side of the field. With a crash, the lock falls onto the ground and the door to the shed opens up, baseball bats roll down into a pile on the ground. Both DCs grab one. I turn to look at the bats and look back onto the field just in time to see a DC smash a raptor in the chest with a bat. The raptor flies back 4 meters and ends up in a crumpled heap on the ground. The other DC smashes the second raptors head to the ground. We run down a hallway in the side of the stands at the baseball field. At the end is a golf cart which we get on. -black- It's just me now, and i'm on the highway with a gun that resembles the portal gun. I look to my right to see a field of green grass with animals(dinosaurs) resting. I fire of my gun and a big circle of yellow clear energy shoots out. It splits into many little circles of the same energy and all life in the field is just obliterated. -black- I'm in the middle of an old overgrown forest, looking intro the sky watching shooting stars. They look like alien ships landing on earth.

Sneaking into a military compound of sorts, there are multiple levels of concentric balconies surrounding a central structure, every bit of which is teaming with guards. There is a bomb that is set to explode soon which will kill a bunch of innocent people. Looking at how heavily guarded the bomb platform is I think, "This is going to be really difficult, but those people in there need me, so I don't have a choice"

Vastly outnumbered, I try to remain unseen as I creep into the central structure. There is no roof on the central structure, but the whole compound area seems to be in a building that resembles a covered football arena, only never meant for sports. One of the guards spots me and immediately starts shooting. I jump into an adjacent room to dodge the gunfire, but not fast enough as a bullet tears through my abdomen. All I can think is, "It burns so much!" as I crumple to the floor behind a large metal desk. Trying to crawl to a safe place, I drag myself across the floor, but the guards have me surrounded now. Sadistically, they plan to kill me slowly, in the most painful way possible. They taunt me and laugh to each other, trying to instill fear in me. Rather than be afraid, I simply prepare to die. Loving the guards now, I alertly observe their actions to see what they will do next. One of them shoots me in the foot. It really hurts! On impulse, I pull my shoe off, and apply pressure to my blood soaked sock as my foot throbs in pain. Noticing how much blood I'm losing I become lucid!

I realize that I cannot be harmed now that I am lucid. Just in time - another guard runs towards me and rams a knife through my stomach! I am a little surprised at this, and yet confident that I am indeed still dreaming and there is no pain. "I could feel the pain from this" I ponder, but decide not to go there right now. Screaming at me, the guard pulls the knife out and stabs me again, but in the chest. I have to consciously decide to have his knife just pass through me unhindered, but it is worth doing for now. A handful of other guards surround me and start pulling at my arms and grabbing me to hold me in place.

Feeling a little too close for comfort with all these hostile DCs, I levitate a good 15 ft above them so as to be out of their reach. This works, until they start shooting at me. Really, it's very loud, and distracting to have all that gunfire so close. I float out of their line of sight and contemplate my options, "I could do anything now that I'm lucid. There's not even a real bomb, no one will get hurt, so I don't have to defuse it anymore... What should I do?"

I decide that it is an interesting challenge, and even though the innocent DCs don't exist, and that this whole scenario doesn't exist, I still want to defuse the bomb to save them. It seems like the moral thing to do, and I want to follow my good intentions more anyway.

Floating around the corner, I get a peek at the bomb on the top level of the building, complete with a rats nest of wires, and a pulsing red light. It reminds me of Counter Strike for some reason. There are a lot of guards nearby, and each time I poke my head around the corner, there is a hail of gunfire. It's easier to dodge than to allow to pass through me. I hear the timer on the bomb tick down, and know there is only 17 seconds left before it explodes. "That's not much time to work with!"

So, I turn on the cheats, decide that the hostile DCs' guns no longer shoot bullets (without their knowledge), float into line of sight with the bomb, and use telekinesis to break the bomb into individual parts, levitating each one of them out in the air so it looks like one of those exploded view engineering diagrams, frozen in space. As I do so, the timer clicks to zero, and makes a loud buzzing noise. I find it to be a very annoying sound, but at least the bomb cannot explode now. I feel satisfied with my choice there.

Now, if only I can stop this buzzing!

I gradually become aware that it is in fact the same buzzing as my alarm clock as I wake up and my room fades into view.

06-03-14 I got up after 7 hours sleep and read about June's TOTM. I decided to go for the bonus aquarium task. I laid in bed on my back and put a pillow over my eyes and ears (noisy here at the apartment). I started counting in my mind and focused on each point of my body starting with the toes and relaxing each as I moved up. I went through this twice, then moved to a mantra. When I was seeing H.I. I moved to my side and transitioned into a dream.

I could see images and they seemed to be from above looking at a house or something with little detail. I decided that for this task aquarium must mean a big public aquarium like they have in big cities, so that this image must be the outside of a large building in which I would make the aquarium. I created a multi level mansion kind of feel and teleport inside the building. I am up on a balcony that wraps around the inside of a huge building. The balcony has fancy wooden guard rails.

Now for the aquarium. Hmmm, perhaps it should be in a swimming pool? Yes, a very monstrous swimming pool, that is the idea. I go over to the edge and expect the entire floor to be a big pool and it is. I jump from the second floor and drop in feet first. I plunged down under water, but have no need to breathe so I stay under water. I want at least one shark, and a shadow becomes a shark swimming towards me. I clarify in my mind that the shark is not a man eater. I want this to be an aquarium people can swim in, so I add a few happy tourists swimming across the surface. Now for fish; I start to imagine schools of fish and they appear. I add a school of large angel fish and something like Moorish ideals. I look the other way and add a school of grey bat fish.

The big swimming pool is complete with fish and sharks, but I want to do a whole public aquarium, so I teleport up onto the lower level deck. I go through an outer door and create an outside garden area with smaller pools. I add some people looking into the pools. It looks very nice (I wish I had stayed and added specific things in the pools, but had more work to do). I turned around and went back inside and up a grand stairway. I had some fun creating a bar/dining area with lots of tourists, then moved on along the hall and made a game room. I could not understand what the games were, but the kids were having fun, and that is what a public aquarium is all about.

Now I have this all going in one visual field (except the outdoors part) and it seems I could add another level. Now, I can see that another grand stairway winds up higher. Suddenly IRL a garbage truck is servicing the apartment complex and I am about to wake up! No! Redirect, quickly! A window,' look, that garbage truck is in this dream' Of course a big aquarium will need garbage service. I look out the window and make a garbage truck appear. See? No external noise, all in the dream, do not wake me up! It works. Now the public aquarium has poor sound insulation and I pretend this is an issue to talk to an engineer about later. Yes, clearly we need sound proofing which explains why I am likely to still hear this dream garbage truck for the next few minutes.

I go up to the third floor. I create a shopping area and decide to get a nice suit so a shop keeper in a fancy suit comes up with a mirror and we discuss what I should wear. I transform in the mirror and go with a dark jacket and purple shirt.

That is the extent of the aquarium I created, after that I maintained the LD for about 15 minutes to half an hour and just walked all around interacting with DCs, and eventually took another swim.

6/3/2014

In bed: 12:38 AM - 7:43 AM
#4. I. 7:30 AM

I am in some building like a mall. I go to the food court area even though I’m not even hungry. There is a main area for a Burger King then a smaller, long area for other restaurants. As I am passing through the Burger King to the other area, I see on one of the menus they are selling these combo cups that combine two different ingredients. One of them is bacon with chocolate crunch which shocks and disgusts me that they are selling that. I continue to the area with the other restaurants which is through a short door to an area that is not very wide but is a long section with different restaurants along the wall just with a counter and the area that the food comes from is behind the wall. I am not even hungry, so I don’t really know why I came here. One of the servers who is wearing a chef’s hat is standing out from behind the counter as I enter since there must not have been many people around. He asks me if I want to order something. I sort of just want to leave, but tell him to give me a moment.

I am meeting with a club of mine that has to do with Japan. We want to do outreach to different countries around the world. We have either a physical map or a map on a computer, and we are dividing up each person getting assigned to a specific country. I am looking trying to decide what country to pick, and consider Israel. But I realize that since I won’t be picking Japan since that is our main country, so really it doesn’t matter to me. I want to do it randomly.

I am in a different room in the building now. It is kind of like “[“ shape with two indentations on either side. We are playing a team water balloon fight game (it is questionable if these are water balloons or if they are just balls since they never burst) that basically like dodgeball. I am really good at the game and carry more than one ball at a time usually using the one in my left hand as a shield to deflect off throws at me while carrying one or two in my right hand to throw. There is some way of having two lives which has to do with carrying a shield balloon or something. I stay in the corner that I am in getting people that come running over usually throwing my balloon even before I see them anticipating their approach. Pretty much every time, I end up asking if I even hit them as it is hard to tell if I hit them, but they always say that I did. Sometimes, I get hit as well, but using the second life, I stay in the game, and there is some way that I keep restoring it, each time I get a tag. Sometimes, I also manage to stop and trap their throw on my body, so that I effectively catch it and get them out. Towards the end, I am the only person left on my team. There are three or so opponents. I tag one from a distance from my corner then from there run to the other side’s corner which is through a door. I tag the guy inside then pretend to hide from the other guy that is outside. I hear him running towards the door, so I throw out a balloon which goes through the door right as he approaches. I am unsure again if I hit him, but he claims that I did.

We all go to the theater for some event to watch. Most of us are on the left side seats. The guys that were the people left on the other team are sitting behind me. The academic director is sitting near us on the edge of the middle row of seats and ask out who all is going to Japan in the spring. The guys behind me each say that they are going, having already found out which I am excited to meet others going. I tell her that I’ve looked at the application to apply but haven’t started it yet. She tells me to email her my information so that she can help. There is quite a lot of talking going on for this being an event we are supposed to be watching with us and others in front of us talking.

Still in the theater, before long, I see an old friend from high school, DC, has just arrived. She walks up the steps towards where we are and says that she finally got her physical form in. It seems to be the very first day of classes. Most people are oblivious to her arriving for some reason though she does greet and hug a few people in the middle section. When she gets closer to where I am, I wave and she comes over and hugs me. I move my legs over so that she can get through to sit in our row here. I am on the edge, and there was someone sitting to my left that got up to go somewhere, and DC sits there, but I don’t say anything about it. I ask her what happened that made her get here so late, it is already around 11:30 AM. She had a problem with her physical form with some of the words not being in the right order for the official surgeon general. Basically, something stupid. Her dad was luckily able to come to fix it.

Had my first dream but couldn't remember it. My heart was beating fast when i woke up. Must have been a nightmare. After a few hours of relaxing went to sleep and I dreamed I came out my body and a false awakening. The false awakening felt so real though. Felt like real life except i noticed my tv wasn't the same and it was really dark. [The tv was silver and cube shaped and it wouldn't turn on with the remote]After laying there for a while i saw random images all around than had a dream a man put a snake in my room through the window. i screamed really loud, something grabbed my leg, than i tried to kill the snake but woke up. : P