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June 13, 2014

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I don't remember much from this dream, except for being in a comic book store on the ground floor. I was looking for a Pokemon game for my 3DS, and a clerk told me it was on the third floor.

So I went up to the second floor, which had a lot of old-school games and books; Game Boy and Game Boy Color, some Game Boy Advanced games. There was some sort of exhibition room right along the staircase. It had glass walls so you could see into it. There wasn't anything in it in my dream, except for a large poster on the opposite wall that said something like "Are YOU ready to go GOLD?" or something. I get the feeling it was an ad for some new kind of game console.

I got up to the third floor and woke up.

I'm in this building. i think it's some sort of bath house. A woman hands me a credit card and I'm signing my name on it. There's something eerie about the house. (Man there's so much more to this dream but I can't remember). I think I'm with some other people and we're trying to avoid some bad people in the house. There's something with a large bed. I feel like there's some sort of doppelganger family in the house, and that is who my group is trying to avoid.

i gotta start logging my dreams again. have had some crazy ones.

in this one i could steal cars and speed and hit cars and steal money and shit just like GTA but in real life but it didnt have any repurcussions. i was like a drug dealer or involved in some shady business but it wasnt unethical bc it didnt hurt anyone or anything bc like i say, there were no consequences for all that stuff.

i danced with james b and he spun me around so hard that my skirt went up and i was embarrassed bc everyone saw my american flag underwear. and then there was this weird part of the dream where alex m and i think alex n. were trying to have an orgy with me. n me n maggie kept meeting up at this parking lot late at night bc it was just "the hangout place" like the sherman sort of but way more hard core.

I'm in this car as part of a rebellion in a city. Morgan Freeman is the leader trying to execute the assault. I'm "fighting" this other person. I have a knife at some point. I'm lying down on my side. I pick up a gun shoot and shoot it off to the side to test if it works, which it does. It fires powerfully but fast. I'm gonna shoot the guy across from me on the ground, but we're kinda laughing, like we're just playin around. I say don't shoot me in the head. I reveal the body armor I'm wearing. I say i'm gonna get srs and i take off my two shirts (i have a white shirt over my lake placid shirt maybe vice versa) with body armor underneath. I believe he also has body armor on. Someone comes by who we actually want to attack later?

I'm with my sister. We start out outside this village hut type building and we walk over snowy grass to another building. Our dog is running around. It looks like a great pyrenees. It's white. It's running around me in circles. My sister says come! repeatedly. I can see the dog getting more and more responsive. I say this is good because teaching it the basic commands is the first step to teaching it attacks like maul and assassinate. I know this because I slightly visualize a skill tree (like from borderlands) and can visualize the dog moving on his own after we give it a command. I know it'll make a good assassin. I walk inside the building. It's long and has many windows. Once inside, I see a bunch of plush, beige couches. Volleyball girl is sitting on a couch to the right of her father. I'm under the impression they're not really people but NPCs. I sit down to the left of her father and listen to what he has to say.

The spurs are playing against the thunder. KD steps up to the free throw line, but is shooting a ft for the spurs. He makes it and the spurs get one point on the scoreboard. He looks up in confusion at it and points, not realizing the spurs would get the basket. I think it won't matter unless they lose by 1. But chris paul and the clippers are also playing. The thunder keep coming down and putting up 3s (as if in a video game). I see chris paul's face saying the clippers are have shooters at every position. Time is really running down. The three misses and goes out of bounds. Manu Ginobli then inbounds to Tim Duncan (my perspective is from MG) and just lets the ball bounce in slowly. Duncan says for Manu to pick it up, but he responds he can't be the first person to touch it. I imagine him going for the ball and dribbling past two defenders. He ends up with the ball just inbounds and heaves it up the court at the basket as time expires. It just barely bounces out. The score reveals OKC only lost by 1 to SA. KD collapses on the floor because he knows what he's done.

Tonight I had some of the longest dreams I've ever experienced, seriously.
I my tag-book in which I write tags of dreams every morning normally 1 dream takes up about 1/5 of a page, the first dream I tagged was 1 page long and the second dream took half a page. That was like 15 minutes of non-stop writing and remembering!

1. Frustration and fear

I was in some sport-gym on a schooltrip and we were doing exercises but my friend kept hitting me on the head with an aluminium bat which hurt a lot and royally pissed me of but I managed to stay calm and not tear his face apart. Another girl was also being attacked by someone with a bat and we talked about how annoying it was, yet we couldn't do anything back for some reason. After several hours I left the room and went outside, there the class was waiting to leave and return to school. The bus trip wasn't included in the dream so I was immidiatly somewhere on a street with the class. Another friend with a bike walked next to me as we returned home, we talked about the trip and about the upcoming math-exam. (IRL it is tomorrow)When we wanted to cross over a street I walked first and the light just turned red for pedestrians but I quickly walked to the other side. I looked back and saw my friend was still waiting with a police-looking man next to him shouting at me in French I think. I knew I was in trouble for crossing the street while it was red so I accelerated my pace and zig-zagged between trees in the hope of losing this police-man. I looked back and saw him running at me, shouting and very angry which made me panick a bit. He got to me and was talking to me in French really angry, he dragged me into an abandoned factory and we stopped in a deserted stairwell. Another guy comes and he's with the police-man, both ask me questions in French with an angry tone. I understand the questions but have difficulties answering them.(IRL I don't have much problems understanding French but talking myself is still difficult, Belgium is half Dutch(flemish)/ half French(Wallonia) and I live in Flanders so I talk Dutch.) They were very racist against Dutch/Flemish people and I actually feared they would kill me cause one of them was already pointing a gun at me. They asked me questions about my family until I lied and said that my grandfather lives in Wallonia after which the two man calmed down and were less racist. I went up the stairwell and ended up on the top-floor of my school. I looked in a classroom and a class was ready to begin their Biology exam, the first question was naming things on a picture of I think a human-nerve or a bacteria. I exited the classroom and went down the hallway where I saw some of my class standing, I asked what they were doing and they responded saying that it's French oral-exam. I thought the two racist guys who interrogated me was the French oral-exam but it wasn't. I looked at my watch which said it was 10.10 and someone said I had to go at 08.50. I was too late.

2. REALLY 'Heavy rain'

I was playing the game 'Heavy rain' as the character Ethan Mars and I was climbing up the abandoned factory from previous dream. It was very rainy and once I got on the roof it collapsed and Ethan fell 10 meters down on the ground. At this point he wore a mask that completly covered his face. One of the racist guys from previous dreams came to him and smashed him with a bat which knocked him out. I saw blood and thought he had died but then the guy with the bat took the mask of from him and I saw that it wasn't Ethan but the other guy, he took his mask of and in the end HE WAS ETHAN. So Ethan just killed one of the racist guys with a bat, now what happens next is quiet weird. Ethan takes an electrical drill, opens up the skull from the dead guy and starts scraping away the brain of the dead guy, after most of the brain was gone I saw the eyes falling back in the hollow skull.

3. The wrong game

I'm playing Shogun 2 total war and I'm having fun but then my mother asks me why I didn't bought the expansion pack FOTS which adds guns and modern cannons.
I felt kinda dissapointed in myself cause I didn't bought it and now I didn't appreciate the already great base-game itself.

4. The failed marathon

I was with school jogging along a path on the green english countryside, I didn't have any problems with my condition but my left thigh hurted a lot. It hurted so much that it caused me to be last, I just couldn't run. The road looked endless and I felt ashamed to be last. After some time we got to an open area were roads crossed over each other in a parkour-way. A small group of guys challenged each other on who would be the fastest, I joined in. As we started I felt a lot of pain and was last ones again but after some time I ignored the pain and ran as fast as I could jumping of the sharp hill that were in the parkour, in the end I won.

5. Casino Royal

I'm playing a very pixelated game set in the 18th century, my guy had a gray wig on his head like the style was back then. I entered a casino that looked VERY GREEN. I got to the poker table but didn't have any chips yet, so I went to another table to order some. A small sentence at the bottom of the screen said 'Loot?'.

Rüyamda Japon bir kızdan formül gibi bir şey çalıyorum aslında bir kağıt parçası ve oyuncak rokete benzeyen ilginç bir şey . Sonra babanemlerin bahçesine gidiyorum roketi fındığa teslim etmem gerek kağıdı bademe veriyorum yoluma devam ediyorum . Fındığı bulmaya çalışıyorum her yer çok karanlık ve gözlerim acıyor . Domateslerin oradan fındığın sesi geliyor bu tarafa gel diye bağırıyor arkamdan Japon kız takip ediyor . Sonra her yer aydınlanıyor . Mısırların arasına kaçıyoruz . Ben fareye dönüşüyorum . Hızlıca kaçıyoruz kız bizi yakalayamıyor ama bademden kağıdı alıyor sonra bademin içine giriyor . Badem kağıdı yiyor rüya bitiyor sdfsdf .

I was at my school's graduation ceremony. Or at least a dream of it. We were waiting around with our cap and gown on for them to call us into the gym so we could walk and get our diplomas or whatever. They basically had two rooms. One for average students, and one for valedictorians and all of the honors students or whatever.
I didn't quite get this, and I ended up going into the room for the honors student room. (Because me, and Honors student? Bwahaha! That's funny.) Some teacher redirected me out, and I went into the normal students room that was larger and more crowded.
Then one of the students from the other room came to see me and ask me about her speech. Also, this was a very peculiar dream character. She was very beautiful save for the fact that she had very strange teeth that seemed very large when she opened her mouth, and she had two rows of teeth along with a braces. She also had long silvery-blue hair.
So she asked me about how her speech could connect to her favorite TV show, Avatar: The last Airbender. I recommended she talk about looking at what's the same instead of what's different, because I know one of the themes of the show is the idea that people divide themselves (the four nations) and fail to realize that although they align to different elements, they are all one people.
She thanked me and left. I went back to just waiting around for the graduation to start.
...Wait a second. I thought I already graduated. I reality check. I'm dreaming. Haha! A lucid!
I wake up.

Night of June 15, 2014. Sunday.



It is advised that you skip this one if you are the type to get queasy over the words “saliva” or “spit”. You have been warned.

I am in an unfamiliar area in a city, possibly a variation of a part of La Crosse somewhere near Third Street, though it “feels” of east and west orientation. There is someone I do not know who has an owl on her left shoulder and is facing the street. It is possible that it is my sister who died this year - it is not certain - I do not look directly at the person from the front and am on her right side the whole time. It seems to be late morning.

I have some sort of flute (of a golden color but somewhat matte) and am playing a few shorter repetitive melodies and it sounds nice. Eventually, however, there is excess saliva in the instrument which is much more like water that runs out onto the sidewalk, almost going onto the owl but not quite. I am somewhat embarrassed, as there are other people walking around. This happens about three times.

Eventually, my brother-in-law walks out of some sort of business, perhaps a pawn shop, from behind me, to my left. He makes a comment about not having to see someone’s spit (referring to the “water”) on the sidewalk, but is not referring to me, as he thought one of his employees had done it. The person he yells at walks past me, continuing to my right, seemingly to the east.

I ask him if I can help with anything and he points out the curb. I am to fix it up somehow, apparently by removing pieces of grass growing through cracks - and small bits of broken concrete and such. I am not sure, though, but my dream shifts to something quite different. It is something about a classmate (Kenneth W?) going to school for longer hours for some reason. It seems to be the subject of a conversation that is more like telepathy somehow.

I think the flute relates to having heard the “H.R. Pufnstuf” theme a few times recently and having it get “stuck” in my head.

Additional note: Looking back at other dreams that had something unusual or “different” relative to the curb, I believe, for me anyway, that it has something to do with teeth (relative to the whole mouth) and aspects of their present condition, perhaps, as I do have some cavities.

I started out my dream back home with my sister. I was changing and put on some jeans and a wife beater, as my sister and I wanted to go see a movie. Unfortunately it was around 10:00 PM and I was worred my parents wouldn't let us. Before I went downstairs to ask, I began looking around for one of those Lance Armstrong LiveStrong bracelets. I noted in my mind that I thought they were stupid, and even remembered a previous conversation I had with someone discussing how no one actually believes what they where. But I made this an exception as I found a black bracelet, with the faded words, "Program Smart" or something similar, and could get behind the message. I remember finding at least 4 other bracelets around my room before finding this one on the bookshelf.

My sister and I make our way downstairs but beforehand wants to confirm who asks to go. I told her it doesn't matter so she went downstairs real quick and asked. My parents seemed not to have heard so we sat on the couch for a bit. My sister would bring it up on occasion, saying she's worried if they don't respond the movie will pass. Finally my parents seem to hear, and say something along the lines of, "You're crazy. It's too late."

We end up in a car anyways (my sister driving), around the school I go to. At one point, the brakes seemed a little faulty and though she pressed on it, she went further than she intended. She was going to take a left, but several cars were making there way down the T-intersection so she waited in the middle of the road. I asked what she would have done if a car wanted to turn, as she skidded way to far, and she made some remark on them having to wait.

As we continue driving we end up behind this car with 3 guys making fun of an older man. My sister didn't want to intrude, but I decided to press on the horn and tell them what was up. In anger, they began chasing us (we were now on foot). We ended up getting into a bathroom back home and locking the door, which one of the guys were beating against. I told my sister we were about to attack back and grabbed a towel. Telling her to get behind me, I open the door and wrap the towel immediately around the guys neck, throwing him on the ground. Everytime he decided to struggle I pulled tight on the towel as a warning, and he eventually calmed down.

I may have awoken at this point, but after falling back asleep, I was in the passenger seat of Justin Bieber's car, him driving. We were driving around, and he seemed fairly down to earth; I was wondering why people gave him so much hate. I believe more happened in this dream, but I can't remember.

Disclaimer: The following two paragraphs use the word "penis" a lot

In any case, I somehow end up in another room back in my apartment and was about to take a shower. A black guy comes into the shower as well, and I recognize that for some reason he's my husband. He was also under the impression that today would be the first time we had sex. I was standing there naked waist down in the shower and he decided to do so as well, commenting on our penises as he did so. He moved his penis to touch mine, and when it made contact, I remember feeling this wave of revulsion. In addition, our penises afterward acted like two ends of a magnet, always repelling one another. He also made a comment about getting to put it up my butt now that we were married which I was going to not do, though I didn't know how to tell him.

In any case I left the shower and turned the corner. There in another room were a group of 4 women, all of who saw us naked. We hid behind the corner and got clothed and then went back over to the women. They started talking to the black guy, while I sat in front of one of my friends (#154-26), female, playing a game of mancala. I joined the game, and she made a remark on how good she was at the game. In addition, we were cramped on this table across from one another, and everytime she moved her leg, she would somehow rub my penis in a pleasurable way. I tried to pretend I didn't notice, as I don't think she noticed, and I didn't want her to not do it, so we just talked further about the rules of mancala. I remember having trouble with some of the math, as I tried moving a marble from each different spot, as well as getting to go again, all while her rubbing my penis.

So yeah...

I had another dream at this point, though I can't recall quite what happened. But after this 3rd dream I had a fourth, in which I also can't quite recall what happened except for me feeding a bunny and one of my dogs bits of pop-tarts (ice cream smoothie flavored) back and forth. They would keep chewing part of my hand, and for some reason, I think it might have hurt a little. I would lightly swipe their noses saying "no, no, no" or something similar.

Most impressively I had yet another lucid, barely a week later than my previous one! This seems to bode well for me, as I expected my next lucid may very well be another full month ahead.

I was close to some kind of mildly futuristic building which spannd one half of my vision. Behind my was a huge plane, surrounded by trees in the distance. There was some kind of invasion and a huge amount of lifefrms trying to kill me, and I had an somewhat awkward fight, where I eventually crawled over those that were standing on a ramp, outside the building, that ramp was right outside the building, the first part going towards the building before making a 90 degree turn and connecting to a protruding platform of the building. There eventually I came to some kind of truce with the attackers.
[Small gap where I'm not sure what happened]
I'm still at the same place, the invaders now gone, and I think someone else was close by. I was looking into the plane, the sky was clouded and an eerie light was emitting from above. Thunders started to appear, with a strong red color and I enjoyed the view, then a cluster of meteors came through the clouds, somewhat startling me, but also making me realize I was dreaming. I tried to call forth such a meteorstorm again, but instead saw some phosphenia like stuff, though I felt I was close. I was walking away from the plane, probably through the building into some kind of empty city, trying to recall what exactly I wanted to do in my lucidity, but failing in doing so.
Eventually I had a false awakening after which I was talking with my girlfriend about something.

But hey, at least I tried to remember, now I have to work on being able to do so next time.

Date 15th of june.
Total sleep: 9.5 hours (estimate)
Daytime Techniques: RC, mantra, meditation, preperation.
Lucid Techniques: Anchoring/ stabilizisation, commands/mantras.
Recall Techniques: DJ, tags/simple notes by my bed.
Fell Asleep: around 12.00- 12.30?
Dream Title: The dreamers island.
Dream: I start out in a city, i wander around with a few friends. We enter a few shops, and since it's pretty late we make one last visist to the gorcery shop. They sold ice-cream, so i bought some mango icecream, and some more which i cant remember. We exit the shop, and i ask if i can get a ride with Lars, and Joakim. We drive over a bridge, and eventually hit an island which is sitting on a gigantic pillar, far over the sea. I try to climb a small, almost vertical road, but fail. I start driving downwards when i realize. The cars are not cars, they are 1 man electrical, wheelchair-like things. I jump off the cliff since i realize this is a dream. I wake up just when i start flying, out of excitement. I chain the dream, and enter the same dream. I am the place i fell off, i stagger upwards while shouting:''MORE VIVID'', ''MORE CLARITY''.I am the top of the island, and in a skype conversation with a few other dreamers (Tobias, Dennis and Aleks). They dont dream IRL, but in my dream, they dreamed. And they were much better than me. Remember, that i was jumping in and out of the dreams ALL the time, i'm pretty sure i did it like 5-ish times (isn-t it called DEILD or something?). Anyway, i attempt stabilizing myself in the dream. I look at my hands the closest i have ever done. i had all the right knuckles, and fingers, BUT the first joint on most of my fingers, are way too short. It was strange, i didn't get to try the : ''MORE LUCID'' commands, sadly. I did try some other commands/mantras, as seen above. I decide to try something i had tought of while reading a tutorial about dream stabilisisation, about the word ''anchor''. I decide to actually summon an anchor and bind my existence to it, it doesn't work since i get excited, so i wake up again. In the skype call we talk a lot, but we eventually agree to battle on the Island. We use all kinds of abilites and such, all while i am daring in and out of the dream if i get too excited. I use a devestating laz0r beam, that is as thick and wide as my whole body, to decimate large parts of the island, but it might be regenerating, i cant remember. I jump in the water, but suddenly i cant fly ( I probably could have if i calmed down and focused). So i suddenly teleport the the top of the mountain, which now are made of pixels somehow. I gain 3rd person view and start killing everybody wih my bow (BTW some brat named Tobias said he was going to win the competition, so step my game up). I have my other memories from this night that i cant pinpoint where happened. They will be stated below.
Awake: 10.30
Vividness: 9
Awareness: 2-10 (2 at the start, 10 at the end)
Length: Very long
Emotions: Happnines/joy, excitement, accomplishment, succes!, anger (slight), jealousy.
Dream Signs: Game related stuff, friends, familiar places, game-like.

As stated, this dream was large, and me jumping in and out of it didn't help with the fact i have a few memories, i cant remember where happened. Here they are: I go into a store which i think sells DVD's, this was the start somewhere. The entire arena suddenly gets pixelized, this was near the end. I had my first false awakening, weird as hell.

I was standing in an airport when 3 large, Asian men scooped me up and dragged me off to a waiting car. I was thrown into the back seat and bookended by 2 of the large men. The third hopped in the driver's seat and drove off.

Then I was in a stairwell. There was a line of people along one wall of the stairwell. I was being hustled up along the other wall. The people in the line were yelling at us, screaming that it wasn't fair that I was being moved to the front of the line, but their cries went ignored. After what felt like 5 flights of stairs we reached the end of the line. The stairwell ended in a room that looked like a small waiting room. There were no windows. It was dimly lit by small lamps sitting on the few desks placed about the room. Along the back wall of the room, a little right of the centerline of the stairwell, there was a door. One of the Asian men told me the Kim Jong Il wanted to see me when he came out of the room.

The door opened and out stepped a man, who didn't really look like Kim Jong Il, walked right up to me as if he knew me. He told me that I was going to do some "commercials" for his country and I was going to tell his people that everyone in the US lives in worse conditions than people in North Korea. He also told me to tell them how lucky they were to live with him as their leader, because living in the US was much worse. He finished up with a warning, not a direct warning, but a warning that I had better comply or something bad would happen (whatever that meant).

Next Kim Jong Il and I were walking through what looked like a sports stadium. Kim Jong Il was walking beneath the bleachers, smoking a cigarette. I was walking through a walkway, near the concession stands.

As far as I remember I was already lucid because: My dad reminded me that he thought he saw an UFO in the sky. I'm like, Okay! I'll check it out. Imagined a piece of my consciousness in the sky which was attached to myself and catapulted right out of the window and flew at the direction where he saw it. Enjoying the thrill of the flight. I'm thinking. I better calm down soon before i lose lucidity (myth or real). I look at the buildings. Yup, this is a lucid dream and things look pretty detailed. I land and investigate. I get sucked in by all the dream activity.

I am rapidly experiencing scene after scene after scene after scene after scene after scene. Indoors, outdoors. A common theme i was witnessing was the presence of long tables and long benches. They where there in at least 3 dream scenes. In one of the scenes it was a round table and some chairs. In that dream I was seeing a kind of crush and her ex boyfriend who i have never met. I kind of rested my face on her boob and she seemed okay with it for a second. Then another scene I was harassing a girl from my appartments and people where commenting on her reaction saying; Look, he would have never grabbed your ass if there wasn't a connection in the first place. At some point I crawled on my knees and she rode me like a poony. Then in another scene a crush from the past was present and talked about making plans together. I interrupted the conversation to hit 3 dudes to the ground. It was very crowded! Everything was crowded. I saw a boy from school get into a fight and weirdly later on I held this boy in my arms like a baby (he was the size of a baby) and walked trough a wall to guide him to this table but asked my nefue on a table near it to protect him because hes my buddy. And I saw the start of the fight I was witnessing earlier. At some point I walked with 2 dogs like my watchdogs into a doggy park and saw dozens of big scary dogs and my dogs blended in nicely. One of the meaner variety of these dogs seemed to check up on me and glanced at me while I respectfully glanced back and walked slowly. There where long tables and benches and I saw about a dozen of people sitting. On closer inspection I noticed these people where dogs and there was but 1 human. I talked to him and had a conversation.

In the middle of this conversation he started morphing and I finally realized that the person I was talking to was not actually a human. He was... An.. Ostrich bird.. So weird. This was a very serious moment. I was having a very serious although lighthearted conversation with this animal. I remember that he simply said in a kind of highpitched but somehow stern and authoritive voice; "Yes i am an Ostrich bird". Strangely intimidating.

Later on after almost 2 hours I found myself indulging and craving for applepie. I was back in a building where I also saw people from my appartment building. They handed out apple pies last week and I saw one and almost picked it up and thought to myself; No. I'm in a dream. Overindulgance might mess with my lucidity. And this was actually the most lucid moment of the entire dream. And I asked my subconscious a serious question; "What do i need to do?" ... A voice was heared "Breathe"

I walked to a mirror and looked at myself in perfect detail. I didn't breathe. Not consciously. I looked in the mirror and said; "I want to see my higher self". Nothing happened. I tried to make a 'dream spin' to make it work but nothing changed. I was feeling a little eery and vulnerable. Someone was at the door though. And I saw someone from my appartment building coming in. She didn't look me in the eye. I asked if she was my higher self. She seemed to be thinking for a moment and said. "Yes, i am". I did not believe her, questioned her. She looked inside the cabinets of my room and still woulden't look me in the eye and said she was definetely my higher self; "Did i ever lie to you?" . I don't completely trust this person. I try to give her the benefit of the doubt and slowly wake up. Pity.

Journal Entry Lucid #52 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: Didn't have much of a lucid week, but I haven't been doing all day awareness so it is understandable. I had lucid dream in the beginning of the week, and I was doing all day awareness.
ToTM: June 2014 Basic Task II
Lucid Dream #52, day: 06/08/14, time: 5:26-6:49am" Kiss of same sex? kind of?": The dream first started off way different than the lucid.
I see a little girl, maybe 12 or less, she has a stuffed animal in her hands and a friend by her side. Her friend looked a little older than her, she had the same hair as her and they looked similar. Since I don't know the little girl name, I will call her Linda, and her friend Carina. Like all children Linda got peer pressured, although it wasn't the usual peer pressure. Carina tells Linda to do daring tasks. Carina told Linda top military secrets. She told Linda that she has to do something about the evil corruption in the world.

This part of the dream got fuzzy. I am now a character, no longer spectating. I find myself in a car, it looks a military version of Jeep CJ. I am shooting at some other guys to receive a document. MY dad was in the passenger seat. He shot RPGs at the other car. We were driving around grand canyon. Well after having some gun battle we got the document. It was now in the Linda's hand. She walks into a dark room. A lot of people walked in and surprised her. They congratulated her about revealing the truth on the military corruption. She humbly tells them she couldn't have done it without Carina. She turns and gestures to her friend Carina. The guy that was about to give her a reward said, "Sorry? There is no one next to you. Is Carina around? Linda quickly turned around and frighten with what she saw, nobody was behind her. Then she looks at the man. He started to flicker, like those horror movie style, until he disappeared. As a spectator in dream, I commented as if I am watching a movie. I thought, "Is she schizophrenic? And did she just see the illusions that her mind made up?" She started to run in fear. She went into the night not know what is real or fake. As she went into the tunnel her illusions became vivid. She saw different color animals come at her, such as bears. Some of them clowns. I all of sudden became her. I felt her fear and desperation of answers. I spectated again, and thought if only she realized it is a dream. I became lucid and I became one of her hallucinations. An English man with one eyeglass, and a big hat. I

I told her to stop running and face her fears. She stopped immediately. I saw her as part of my psyche. I wanted her to feel strong and what better way than lucid dreaming I thought. I told her that she is not crazy and that she is dreaming. I turned around and I see a door come out of the tunnel. I took her hand and she followed me. I see my body and I am an old white man. We are at a mall. As I was telling her that she could do what ever she wants and she don't have to be afraid, I see myself in the mirror. I am young now, my eyes are hazel slightly blue. I was getting distracted, this was the first time I saw my reflection in a dream. I walked a bit and turned and I am now a women. I had red hair, I had blue greenish eyes. I had wrinkles around my eyes. I am dressed in a red poke-dot skirt. I looked like a 1950s gal. I looked about 40 something years old. I had a wonderful body not too fat or too skinny. I thought about doing the challenge since I am now a girl, I could kiss another girl. I wanted to make sure that I am not a transsexual so I picked up my skirt and saw no penis. Oh yeah the little girl disappeared long time ago, I don't know when but she did. I scattered to look for a women. I saw one old lady, and another that is slightly younger, I would say about 40-50. She had grey hair. She was not attractive but she wasn't ugly. She was doing someone's nail. I rushed and grabbed her head. I first went for a light kiss, then I started doing tongue. I was slightly uncomfortable because she is old. I am old too but dam she was really old. What made it even more sickening was that she started to enjoy it. I then woke up. My legs kind of jerked as I woke up, Idk what that was about.

Lucid Dream #53, day: 06/11/14, time: unknown "Short dream ":
I am in my house and I found myself already aware that it is a dream. I don't remember what I did but I do remember walking around the house and recalling how blurry the dream felt. I didn't stabilized thinking that the dream will stabilize on its own. The rest of dream was about GTA 5, and friends from high school.