false awakening

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #7: doogogol.com (July 29, 2012)

Our son "E" wanders into our bedroom in the early morning. I'm groggy but I listen to him tell us about how a "big vortex" was in his room. Wife is shocked that he knows the word "vortex". I tell her that I taught him the word -- then realize I had done so in a previous dream that night. I do the nose pinch reality check and I'm lucid.

As I get out of bed, the room starts going dark again, just like in lucid dream #5. I rub my hands together and demand, "Increase lucidity!" but it makes no difference. Soon it is completely dark. I shout, "Increase <expletive> lucidity!". Wife gives me a "That's right!" but it still doesn't work. I'm in total darkness.

I "peel away" the darkness as if it is a curtain but behind it is only more darkness. Out of ideas, I imagine that there's a cliff behind me and I pitch myself backward over it (a suggestion from CosmicIron.)

I'm falling now and I don't have a destination in mind. I am thinking about searching the internet for help, though, and "land" in a web browser. Success! (Sort of.) I try to type "google.com" but it comes out as "doogogol.com". Fortunately, this works, and I wind up back in the bedroom, mid-morning.

I tell Wife that I'm going to go out and fly. I struggle to squeeze myself out of the window, noting that all of the trees in the front yard have moved around. I punch the glass out of the window but it's still too tight of a squeeze. During the struggle, I wake up.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #5: The Darkened Clock (July 20, 2012)

I am standing at the foot of my bed in the dark. I look over at the alarm clock to see what time it is but it's gone completely dark. At first I think that there has been a power failure but I soon wonder whether I might be dreaming.

I nose pinch and can breathe through only my left nostril! (More on that later.) Still, this is enough to make me lucid. The room is deeply, oppressively dark and I feel like I'm losing the dream scene. I rub my hands together and although the dream feels more stable, the darkness in the room is deepening.

I rub my hands over my arms again and again and try to say, "Increase lucidity..." But the words only come out in this weak, breathy whisper. I want to make a break for the wall, act boldly like before, but my dream body feels faint and frail.

I go on like this for a good while, just weakening as everything fades and soon I'm awake. I quickly discover the reason that I could only breathe through the left side of my nose during the reality check -- I was sleeping face down with the right side of my face smashed against the pillow!

This one was my first SSILD-induced dream. It was long (for me), going 10-12 minutes.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #3: The Forest Compound (July 2, 2012)

I awaken to a strange noise coming from outside of our bedroom. I go into the hallway to investigate but find that this swirling green energy vortex is blocking my path back into the bedroom. I walk forward, pushing my way through it, and it feels like walking through a Chicago windstorm. It slowly dawns on me that I might be dreaming and I push my finger through my palm. I'm instantly lucid and I decide to get out of the room as fast as possible so that I can fly.

I'm feeling unusually bold so I shove myself right through the wall. The scene blanks for a moment before placing me on top of an office building. I run straight for the edge of the building, leap off, and try to fly. I fail, falling several hundred feet to the empty streets. The landing is jarring but painless. This time I try jumping straight up and find that I can jump thousands of feet into the air. The office buildings shrink into the distance below me. I can't soar but I find that I can leap across the city this way, each leap ending in an awkward crash landing. Each time that I jump, the voice of my young son giggles "Again!" even though he is not here.

I do one last clumsy leap and crash into a forested area, knocking over a tree. There's a compound nearby and I run into the first building that I see. It's a long, windowed, sunlit hallway with high ceilings and teeming with dream characters. I stop an Asian lady in her late 30's (a stranger) and tell her that I'm dreaming. She looks a little reluctant to admit this but finally confesses that I'm right. I sense that talking this frankly is an awkward bending of the rules for her. She seems very real and I feel a little bit bad for putting her in this position.

At the end of the hall I find an apartment where two identical twins who are IWL friends of mine live. I barge right in, announcing that this is all taking place in my lucid dream. One of the twins laughs and she becomes very interested in how this all works, peppering me with questions like,

"So, we're both dreaming? No? How's this work then? Will I remember this tomorrow?"
"You mean, I'm not real and you are? This is your dream? That's hilarious."
"What's going to happen to me after you wake up?" I'm caught off-guard by this and left fumbling for an answer.

The three of us chat for a while before I sense that my lucidity is slipping. I bid them goodbye and run back down the hall. On the way, I run into a guy named "Robert Lamb", the host of the "Stuff to Blow Your Mind" podcast (the place where I first heard of lucid dreaming.) I announce to him that we're in my lucid dream and without missing a beat, he says, "I hope they don't have to amputate." "Yeah, lucid dreams that last for too long cause a total loss of circulation in the dreamer's limbs, limb necrosis and eventually require amputation."

"It's really terrible," he adds helpfully.

Even though I don't believe this, I'm a little shaken up at the thought. I run further down the hall, ducking into a dark bar just before I wake up.

I've decided to journal up all of my past lucid dreams before moving into the "present day". I definitely want to record all lucid dreams here. I hope that I stick with recording non-lucids as well but my primary DJ is pen-and-paper. We'll see how it goes.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid Kitchen Aggression (April 24th, 2012)

I'm in a false awakening, walking downstairs in my own home. I'm nearing the bottom of the stairs when I suddenly realize that the alarm is on and that I'm going to set off the motion detector if I don't stop. The worry seems to focus my mind. I look into the kitchen and see that the breakfast table has been moved several feet to the right. It suddenly occurs to me that I am dreaming.

Giddy at my own clarity of mind, I run into the kitchen, looking around for something "cool" to do. Even though I'm ostensibly a fully grown man, the only thing I want to do is wreck my kitchen with magical powers. I raise my hands from my sides, willing the kitchen island to pull out of the floor. It groans for a moment then gives a loud crack as it wrenches out of the floor. I float it around the room for a couple of seconds before excitement overtakes me. The dream scene goes to milky gray and I'm awake almost immediately.

My heart is pounding with excitement and I have trouble getting back to sleep. I know I'm hooked... and so it begins.

This is again a daily entry of what I dreamt this morning, 13 August 2012.

Somehow, somewhere, Ayn Rand's The Fountainhead was very real. I sat observing the scene unfolding around me. I fully expected Howard Roark, the renegade architect, to rape Dominique Francon. It was expected. Really, it was just that.

I awaken sometime around 8:10 am. Falling back asleep for a brief period of only about 30 minutes.

A former friend of mine was angry with me for some reason. It seemed that he didn't want me talking about his ex-girlfriend.

I discover this apartment building on a quiet busy intersection, somehow reminiscent of basketball and laundry. I'm at the basement of what looks like my house, trying to connect to the Internet, and it was late morning.

Now I'm in my geography class again, expected to complete about three assignments, and after asking around apparently one of them was due yesterday. Gasp! The latest one, somehow, is due July 19th, which is apparently in the future.

I sit down to talk to this girl, who seemed to enjoy talking to me all year, and we were discussing something other than all these overburdening assignments.

Suddenly, something makes me realize this is all a dream. People around me continue to walk about, producing a strange and loud din.

I try to close my eyes and change the scenery. It doesn't work, as the talking is too loud. So I close my eyes even harder shut, and plug my ears in attempt to drown out all awareness of the surroundings.

Immediately, I'm rushed into this big portal, finding it hard to open my eyes again, not because it's too bright out here or anything. I "see", or visualize, swarms of a tunnel or whirlpool escorting me at a sudden speed.

What I see next disappoints me. I have awoken in my room, and it's morning.

Something is a bit strange here. The blinds are fully closed, but golden sunlight is pouring into the room, as though it's about 7 am or earlier. A plaque on my wall is directly ahead of me, instead of slightly to the right.

A book appears in my hand, and I'm turned to one of the first few pages, around page six, or maybe nine. It quotes page 1212 of the Qu'ran, possibly suras 7-12, emphasizing 8-9. It talks about relationships, but the large block of text near the bottom of the page on the right is rather condensed and uncited. It's highly reminiscent of something. I decide to record all this down before I forget.

I rush to the cupboard and shelf, eager to write things down on paper in my physical dream journal, under August 13. I know what date it is. Suddenly...

I wake up. My lucid dream had partially succeeded, only I had forgotten to do any reality checks and thus was fooled into thinking a dream was waking life. I rise to go to the bathroom, go to sleep without remembering much of a dream, and then wake up around 11 am, after which I go back to sleep, have a 10 minute dream, and then awaken again to begin my day.

blue = day activity before sleep
dark orange = dream
red = lucid dream
Black = thoughts/notes

I kept the REM dreamer guide in my pocket and occasionally read the "REM dreamer signals inside a dream" part and visualized myself in those situations plus becoming lucid. I also did reality checks.
These are the dream fragments. I don't remember much because I had a restless night because my summer vacation ends tonight and I'll be at work tomorrow.
I again dreamed about my childhood school (what's up with that?) All the schools and classmates along my life had been mixed together in a one "blob" which had anything to do with the word association "school". Our class was discussing about some type of a school trip to somewhere. I had somehow driven to school with my current car (renault megane classic) and with a Toyota landcruiser. Some other dudes had crashed into my Toyota and the front right door had ripped off... It started snowing when I was examining the damage... I woke up soon after.
I think I had one or two false awakenings because the "REM dreamer" was not responding, until I woke up for real later that night.

I need to concentrate harder in this!

Dream

I had a false awakening from a dream, but for practical purposes I want to get this writen out first while my memory is fresher.

I felt my consciousness starting to pull into the 'physical plane'. But I stopped it and stayed in that state of mind. I was between sleep and awakeness. There was a voice telling me things, teaching me to leave my body. At first, it felt like I was unintentionally holding my arm up. But it told me to not open my eyes to check. At that point I figured it was my spirit's arm that was up and that my focus was more on my spirit than physical reality.

Then I felt my upper body involeentarilly rise up a bit. I figured that was my spirit again. Then at some point my spirit leaves my body and stops 3ft in front of my physical body. Up until this point, I couldn't see anything, only the back of my eyelids. I projected my consciousness into my spirit, so that I could use the body and move around. Though my focus was unstable, and I saw my suroundings blurry for a second, until my consciousness went back into my physcial body, because I had the stray thought of my physical body.

I did that about 2 more times, until the voice told me to stay in my spirit, and it will be better. I did and my surroundings became more clear. I felt like I was floating, and I was. The voice told me to travel to the other side of the livingroom, so I did. Then to travel to the otherside, but walking on the ground. So I Willed my spirit to walk the floor, and I did. I could feel the floor on my feet. Then it told me to practice hovering, floating around the house. I floated over my inanimate physical body and felt a weird energy from it. Like negative energy with pure energy..

The voice didn't think I was ready, but I went outside anyways. There was a nicer, more aboundent energy outside. I slowly began to float up into the sky. But I willed myself to go down. I went down, but when I stopped willing myself to go down, I would just start slowly floating right back up.

The voice told me to walk on the ground and make a connection with it and my feet. I did. I thought of my feet being connected to the earth. And it worked. I didn't float upwards anymore. It felt like standing up, except there was no weight on me, no gravity.

I walked around and felt a bunch of energy, also felt the compacted energy that is dirt on my feet. I walked about 100ft, when I saw one of my old friend's apartments. I started to walk to her apartment, admittedly to see if I could see her naked. Though when I began to walk to her house I felt a sharp feeling in my neck. And I unvoleentarily was veering to the right. I could fight it a little at first, but it got stronger. Then I appeared in another false wakening.

Afterthoughts

What I was taught in my dream seems like a very plausible OBE technique. I plan to try it out in real life. It should be noted that I know it was a dream because I left my physical body at my old house. Also, I think a real master came to my dream to teach me. When I sense it, it almost senses like the teacher is a part of me that only resides and travels around in my dreamspace. Possibly a part of my deep-self that has things to teach me. Also when I sense back on it, the master sensed like a native American. Which I view as generically the best teachers for spiritual arts. Though, my master on the physical plane is native American, so that could've been one of his ancestors.

blue = day activity before sleep
dark orange = dream
red = lucid dream
Black = thoughts/notes

I decided to give my REM dreamer a try. I had taken a long pause from lucid dreaming in general, but a spontaneous DEILD out of the blue ignited my interest with lucid dreaming. I re-read the REM dreamers small booklet and started observing different light sources during the day + make reality checks
I spent the whole dream walking around with black goggles/glasses (like in Harry potter but with way thicker bars) and red led light attached to the left nose pad. I was in my childhood school during the whole dream. Some lady asked me if my glasses were one of those famous REM dreamers. I nodded and lended my glasses for her to examine them more closer. I explained her how they let me have lucid dreams and how they would flash a red light when I was dreaming. ...yes... the glasses kept on flashing red as I was saying these things to her. I put the REM dreamer back on and continued the dream without achieving lucidity. I woke up and was infuriated about my dream stupidity. The poor REM dreamer tried to tell me I was dreaming but I didn't take heed. I slowly "faded" back into a dream the red light flooded my field of vision. And I woke up (FA) I took the REM dreamer off and looked at the ceiling.. The red light shined again and I thought "odd, I took the mask off but I still see the red light?" Then I woke up for real... Just as I was about to get lucid.

The REM dreamer mask takes some getting used to, I woke up occasionally with an urge to turn on my side.. Its possible to sleep on your side, but you need to adjust the position of the mask a bit every time you turn, and sleeping on your back works best with the mask.
The good thing is that my red flashes are somewhat undisguised, and the presence of the REM dreamer are both very simple and clear dream signals! It won't take long for me to use it in my advantage.

8/12/12 -> WILD

Woke up around 4 am naturally, went on the computer for about 20 minutes. Started to feel pretty tired so I made my way back to bed.

Decided to put real effort into a WILD attempt. Felt my body go through SP followed by imagery. My transition this time was quite odd. As I went into my dream I experienced a feeling I could best describe as being dizzy. It seemed like my entire body was dizzy.

After a 15-20 second period experiencing this dizzy feeling I found myself with a full field of vision inside my bed. I rolled to my left off the bed and right where I was landing stood a dream character bright yellow and slightly shorter then my bed height. The DC looked very similar to this but wider.

I became startled, closed my eyes quickly and started rubbing my hands. The sensation of rubbing my hands was incredibly strong. It felt just like I was rubbing my hands with my eyes closed in reality. I knew I was still inside my dream and I continued rubbing them. I experienced the hand rubbing sensation for between 5-10 seconds and I felt the familiar feeling of my heart pounding and a familiar black backdrop. I knew I had failed in my dream stabilization and I was awake deep in SP.

I attempted DEILD but failed, shifted positions and attempted WILD a few more times and failed.

This was extremely disappointing. Put a great deal of effort into my first attempt, had a transition and forgot to stabilize my dream correctly.






Just wanted to update my DJ, I've been trying to have lucid dreams naturally with less effort. Here are two backlogged entries, they are not WILDs.




7/29/12 - DILD after failing to notice a WILD transition, first time being able to stabilize my dream after being 100% non lucid.

Quick update since my last post, I've had 3 lucid dreams that resulted in waking up immediately after becoming lucid. I have also been failing WILD a lot. Now to the dream.

I used WBTB at 3am after waking up naturally. Stayed up for over an hour and went back to bed when I began feeling tired. After laying down I attempted WILD in a very lazy manner. A lot of my WILD attempts lately lack persistence. This is due to the way I've successfully had transitions and a lack of effort on my part. Usually when I have transitions I have to 'float' my consciousness into a transition. I've been 'floating' a lot earlier then I normally did and as a result I usually fall asleep into a non lucid dream.

Last night, looking back I experienced a dream transition which I've never experienced before. Usually I have falling or rising sensations, last night however I had a transition which resembled a gunshot. It was very loud and quick. After the gunshot sound I fell into a normal dream. It was a very interesting dream which I decided to write in my dream journal after experiencing it. I began writing on what looked to be some kind of computer screen. I saved it three times and after saving the last one I read the dates and times on the first two, when I got to the third date it was very blurry and unreadable.

At this point I had a very strong realization that I was dreaming. I had a rush which in the past was accompanied by me waking up instantly. This time as I experienced the rush I focused on rolling my body. Rolling didn't seem to work and I was experiencing extreme vibrations that were similar to a dream transition. After my rolling didn't work I tried to rub my hands together and during this my vibrations continued and the hand rubbing still didn't seem to work. I again tried to roll and after rolling failed I switched back to hand rubbing a last time. This time it worked and my dream felt stable.

I closed my dream eyes, cleared my mind and slowly opened them not trying to influence my dream. I woke up inside a home with my girlfriend by my side. We were both naked and I decided to fly out of the room I was in. I flew up and without even thinking I went right through the roof into the clouds.

Shortly after my girlfriend appeared by my side again, she was flying by my side. I accelerated to a high speed. The clouds in my dream could not keep up with my pace and my field of vision was became pixelated. While flying I unintentionally switched my vision into some kind of targeting mode, every cloud had a label with a line attached with a single line description. They were blue and red in color.

After this I decided I wanted to land. I flew down and without thinking I was placed into my parents home with my girlfriend. We were in an embrace upon landing and as I realized where I was I decided to explore my surroundings. I jumped out the window and landed on the ground mid stride. I looked at the neighbors homes while running down the road. The all seemed to have accurate details.

As I reached the bend in the road there was a home with a massive deck that I didn't recognize. I walked up on the deck and found a door that was cracked open. I walked inside the door and found myself in a beautiful roman style home. There was very detailed marble and tile work in the massive foyer. There was a staircase that wound up in a very long half circle.

The handrails were very detailed carved wood. I walked up the steps and as I reached the top I found a doorway in front of me and I stepped inside. I was placed inside another beautiful room with similar style. The walls had very little drywall, most of the wall was covered in marble/tile work but the sections that were drywall were painted purple. Shortly after entering this room my dream ended and I found myself awake on my bed.


Notes: WBTB stayed up until I felt very tired then attempted WILD, had dream transition but failed to identify it. Earplugs, light canceling mask, no background noise.







8/10/12 - Lucid dream, became lucid without recalling any kind of realization or transition.

At roughly 3am I woke myself up in the middle of a dream after having an altercation with a dream character. Upon waking up I was groggy and my body felt extremely tired and heavy. I got up and went to the bathroom to get a glass of water. After drinking the water I laid down and fell asleep very quickly.

The lucid dream I had was very long and some of the details in the beginning of my dream became vague by the end but I can recall the main events that were happening. My dream recall started while I was in a very tall stone and mortar building. I was in a side room by myself with a hallway that had a jail cell door separating me from the main hall. Inside the room was a window that overlooked a vast desert mountain range. I recall thinking that the room was very high off the ground (10+ stories). As I came to grips with my surrounding I floated effortlessly through the jail cell door. The main hall had no roof and a large amount of workers inside it.
They all seemed to be working on the stone mortar joints. I flew around to the different people and talked to them but I do not recall what our conversations included. After carrying multiple conversations with the workers I went back to the room down the hall and looked out the window. After admiring the landscape, I flew out of the window and experienced extreme sensations through my body, it truly felt like I was flying. After a short flight I closed my eyes and thought about teleporting. I recall spinning for a long time.

The spinning sensation was very strong, the strongest I've ever felt and after opening my eyes I found myself outside of two homes with grass in-between. Most of my family was along my side and they were having conversations with each other. I asked them if they were in control of their dreams. They replied no and I began explaining how they were in my dream and they were free to do whatever they desired. They did not seem to grasp what I was explaining and I recall my grand mom asking my sister about what she was eating. My sister explained that one food in particular she stopped eating because she read it was harmful to baby development. They all seemed content talking amongst each other and I decided it was time for me to go. I told everyone I was going to leave and it was nice seeing them. Everyone huddled around me and I closed my eyes and teleported to a new room.

This room had royal purple walls with a white ceiling. There was a stained wood door and a card table with a computer in the room. The rest of the room was empty. I recall being disappointed but the PC in the room was startling me. As I looked at it, the pictures and words were incredibly clear and accurate. At this point I started to lose focus in my dream and felt my extreme level of awareness slowly decrease. After inspecting the computer for awhile I closed my eyes and tried to wake up.

As I opened my eyes I found myself in my room. I was very cold and my girlfriend had most of the blanket. I had a feeling that I was still in a dream but it was unclear. I stood up and walked into the bathroom and noticed water puddles on the floor. The feeling I had when I walked over the wet carpet didn't match the feelings from reality so I became increasingly suspicious. I asked my girlfriend to come look at the water. We went from the bathroom into the dogs room and there were puddles a couple inches deep throughout the room. While we were walking through the lights seemed to be dim and without any recollection of how it happened I had a flashlight in my hand. I clicked on the flashlight and we made our way up the attic.

As we walked through the attic I kept trying to turn on the lights and none of them were working. I thought we must have kicked a breaker. We continued to make our way through the attic and I noted there was no water on the floor. As we came to the end of the attic my girlfriend walked into strings that were hung from the ceiling. They were little pieces of garlic that had been cut in half and hung. She began panicking and I woke myself up.

After awaking I held my nose to confirm I had actually awaken in my bed and my girlfriend was awake. She had been having a nightmare and we discussed our dreams with each other.

Notes: Had a drink of alcohol before bed, went to bed at 11:30, woke up in the middle of dream naturally from occurrences in dream. Very groggy fell back asleep within 2 minutes of waking up. Dream lasted well over an hour.

This is my first dream journal entry!
Will keep this Dream journal updated on a regular basis.


So, it all starts of into this castle. I was reading a book, and suddenly i got teleported into the story of that book. I didn't realise this while i was in my dream, and i can't really remember how the story went in the book. I just know it had a 'scary' side to it. Then suddenly i had a false awakening. I was about to do a reality check, but something grabbed me and was tossing me around the room. I realised that this already happend in a previous dream, so i knew i was dreaming! I was telling myself that i shouldn't panic. Sadly it was really dark in my room, so i didn't see what was happening around me. I decided to do a kamehameha wave! Who knows how i got that idea in my head. So i started saying "KAAAAA-MEEEEEEEE-HAAAAAAAAAAAA-MEEEEEEEEEE-HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA", and it failed. Needless to say i was embarrassed, but the nice "whatever it was" letted me go anyway (Maybe i got some bonuspoint for trying!).

Then i wanted to turn on the lights. This didn't work sadly, but suddenly i could atleast see a little bit. So that was good enough for me, and then i left my room. Then i wanted to go outside. So i decided i was gonna walk through the door, but while i was going through that door a girl was just in the middle of it and stopped me. At that point i was thinking about sex, who wouldn't with a girl like that! So i did my thing, won't go into details . Then i woke up for real. DAMN U DREAM SEX!!!!!!! Overall, pretty happy. Didn't do as mutch as i hoped for though. I really wanted to meet my dream guide!

(All my dream entries will be short. Just so you guys know.)


This is how she 'looked' like: (But just with a red dress)

I don't remember much of my dreams from last night. However I was glad to see that I had had six lucid dreams that night. A personal record. I attribute this to reading all the information in this site and trying some new techniques dream spinning and hand rubbing. Before I went to sleep I had an idea. Being Christian I don't pay as much attention to prayer as I want to and I thought if I was to spend one dream just praying, paying attention to god even building a temple. That he would appreciate it and it would make me feel less guilty for not paying attention to him in my daily life. As i could do this every night. I kept this image in my head as I drifted off to sleep.If I want something enough it will happen

I remember waking up in my bed. The first thing I did was a R.C. I did this by making myself levitate. I remember I wanted the sun to come through the window and light up the room it was night and the darkness frightened me. as usual I knew the light switches wouldn't work. So instead I turned away from the window and told myself the sun would come up and brighten my room. this didn't work. I then looked into the mirror for once not afraid of it but rather more curious if I could notice any changes in appearance. My hair was a lighter brown. I then made myself merge through the window into my front yard.



When I arrived there I first rubbed my hands together. I then kept touching everything I could as I walked afraid to loose the dream. I enjoyed the sensations as usual. As soon as I was on the foot path I thought about a faster way to travel. traveling is often too slow. I then called to Duke my dog. He ran up to me happy as usual. I feel by calling someone I know I can trust really helps alot more then calling someone I dont trust or hardly know. I mounted him and told him to run. Duke ran down the streets. I remember being frustrated that it wasnt fast enough though I told him to go faster. didn't work The rest is in patches. I tried to tell myself we would arrive at a temple I made for god.



We instead arrived at Mc donalds. I remember being afraid it would also be a church. it wasn't. Here I met a men who said he was travelling from another dream making me think if it was possible that someone from another dream across the world could merge with yours you would never know. He said he knew some sports guy I was curious if I could recover buried information in our brains in our dreams that I wouldn't usually use. I asked who it was and forgot what he said so didn't get to test the theory. I also compared two fingers of a women's hand to see if I was dreaming. I tried to make a temple for god by dream spinning. first I got different scenarios an island theming aladin and a temple. not being happy I kept spinning going through each scenario till I woke up. I was disapointed then I remembered to do an R.C check levitating again. my new favourite R.C check. I use to just observe things out of the ordinary 3 times and if there where 3 things out of ordinary id know it was a dream. Its harder then it seems. Or even harder once you question if you are dreaming tell yourself it is a dream as if you were awake you wouldnt question if you were dreaming.



I tried to get a temple and got one it was boring. a lady came up asked for a dangerous potion to kill someone. I agreed gave it to her it was red. she fought some ppl and killed them. the ppl she killed was actually herself. I saw a car wreck infront of my house. I was afraid it would follow me. it did. fear made it happen

remembering I was dreaming I ran towards it and faced my fear it turned into an puppy that had died that I had missed and all had forgetten about her. facing fear made the car go away I used all these powers and thought I am a god. seeing god I quickly changed it to I am a sorcceress as I dont beleive anyone should pretend to be god even in there dreams. and was afraid of what god would think. Finally tired of taking time for god I felt aroused.

Spoiler for adult material = rape:

I layed on the ground and imagined myself sinking into it as I thought about a Demon underground ready to rape me. As I sunk I experienced some panic that I was sinking too slowly or not at all and that something bad would happen on the surface. I managed to relax. I often experience fear in my dreams. fear makes bad things happen.relaxing helps make what i want to happen Finally I sunk into the ground and used my thoughts to make a demon grab me to rape me. as I was being moved towards him I told myself what the demon would do to me and angled myself towards his penis. the demon penetrated me and I usually in a rape scenario do nothing and let it take control. this time I found myself arching back and fucking it. The demon was surprised. it came quickly then there was some unusual dream about it being embarrased of the thickness of its sperm and many men had the same problem. one guy even suggested thick sperm meant the woman had no control over the men and was to do anything they said. I had several false awakeings and did several R.C. checks. I wanted to be raped again and imagined a blue giant.

I was handed a giants head. It was a bit gross I had to throw it into the water to make the giant emerge it was blue and stone like. The giant told me in order to have sex i was to attatch butterflies to my head walk out into the open where they will be eaten by catepilliars then eating my face. I saw several examples and was afraid and felt trapped. I tricked the giant by agreeing with him. then fled to a ship dodging the giant in the sea. My goal to reach the southern sea where I would be able to teleport as someone could cast a spell to help me there. I ran into an oil rig and the giant was saddened and cleaned the mess. I teleported to another oil rig. I was able to teleport when I usually can not because I imagined a scenario where someone helped me with magic making it possible

I dreamed I was to take care of some children. I put on black stockings as that would make children easier to control. When I arrived I had to clean this whole yard and put away this mail. I told my dad I did everything else he could clean the bucket. I felt guilty about that. I was proud of my accomplishments. I went to grandmas and had earned a big feast of I think nachos.

I dreamt of an old best friend. who I'm no longer friends with. There was a dress I was to wear for an important event. I was to rest. I woke to my friend who said she was raped by a guy. I was angry as I had been abused before. We tried to confront the guy. The dream got confusing a higher power a women didn't believe her. It turned out my friend had gone to the pub. We were accused of making males rape us. Some guys chased us at one point and I felt like I was making them rape us. I apologised to many women. And at some point someone wanted to pick a dress and I rushed and picked it first choosing it over my original choice. It was green and suited me.

I woke up for real several times during the night but found it easy to go back into a dream. I remember when I was 16 I had a recurring nightmare where I was paralyzed and my heart beat hard against my chest. I learnt to make this experience lead to a lucid dream by falling through the depths into a black void where I would make myself fall faster and faster untill I was in a dream. Quite frightening at first but it soon become enjoyable.

Okay, keep in mind that I am 16. And that lately in order to become aware, in my dreams I would just KNOW that I'm dreaming without a reality check, and sometimes don't even use a reality check. (which I know, is bad.)

So, it started out as me being in school one day. My friend that I kinda avoid hanging out with sometimes asked me to hang out with him, and I kind of avoided it. I rescheduled anyways. Then I went into my classroom that I was supposed to go into. It was my CAD classroom (which is a 3d computer design class). Then my teacher showed us a new seating chart, and I went to sit in my seat. Moments after I got there I appeared in this courtyard at my school that wasn't my actual courtyard.

This is where it starts getting weird...
I was in a dream scene that I had been in previously that night for an entirely different dream. I believe it may have been in a dream of mine last night too.
So i hear people chanting something about dreaming, and then I quietly chant that "I will have a lucid dream tonight" I kept chanting it to myself and I only did a small reality check to ask if I was dreaming. I didn't catch myself one bit.


Later on into that dream, I felt as if I woke up in waking life, and then rolled over in my bed and the scene changed again into a water world that was portrayed as a video game world in my head. I WAS the character in the game though, and I WAS actually scared of the feeling of drowning. At one point, I came into realization that I messed up in my last dream. That I didn't do a reality check. Then I was telling myself I have got to start looking at my hands more and really focusing in on that stuff, no matter what. I didn't do one reality check I believe.
I carried on just thinking that.

And then, I felt as if I kind of woke up. I felt myself roll over in my bed, keeping my eyes closed, and affirming myself that I would become aware. I continually did that. Then I felt some shaking, and I heard another bed shaking inside my house, and I feared something might be happening to my mom, and then I was focusing in on that. I felt my cat lift it's head up and jump off my bed. Then I rolled over, opened my eyes, and was in my room and all the shaking stopped. My door was closed [so a cat couldn't have been in my room].

What was this for me? Was it vibrations and those vibration noises? Because like I said, I felt my cat jump off my bed. Could that have been my dream guide as I was entering into the dream? I didn't feel any sort of sleep paralysis, because and I was able to just roll over twice and open my eyes within those few seconds.
I sort of thought that this sensation was awesome though. I thought it was exhilarating once I woke up. I simply loved it. I thought it was a great dream, even though I only reached layer 0 minor in the layers a lucid dream.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

Finally managed to type up dreams from last month.

I was walking through the local market with my sister. We then went to the port and got on a boat, which had wheels on the bottom of it. We got on the boat, then started sailing around really fast. It was quite scary. I then had a false awakening and told someone about that dream. I then went in a car with my sister back to the market. Instead of going to the port, we went to a party which was held nearby. Along the way I was watching a video of a vampire lady with red hair. She was blabbering on about random things. I kept seeing this video as we drove to the party. When we arrived, I started to annoy some of the people there, then I woke up.

Not a great dream but still better than school dreams.

This requires a lot of explaining. So in other words, a lot of reading, but please bear with me ._.

Ok so about 6 months ago, I lived in a nice house... Everything was normal. Then, out of nowhere I had this one dream where it felt like I was awake. But what happened was, I was laying down with my eyes closed... And I could feel my bed float off the ground a few feet, and rotate 360 degrees before slowly falling back to the ground again. ...It didn't stop there. A few days later, I had another one of these dreams, except it was a bit more intense. Instead of slowly floating, this time my bed floated a bit faster, right up to the ceiling of my room. My eyes were open and I saw the ceiling like 20 inches away from my head. Then it dropped quite fast onto the floor. I started to have these dreams quite often, and they kept getting more and more intense with each one. Eventually I was at the point where I would have a dream like this and my bed would either skyrocket past my ceiling and into pitch black darkness, or carefully aim itself and dive into the floor at breakneck speed. It felt like I was on a roller coaster, except way faster. After about a month or so, I actually started to discover on my own that I could kind of control where my bed was going using my mind. Although it didn't work as often as I had hoped, it still helped. Then I had this one dream... This one specific dream that really freaked me out.
My bed floated horizontally in this dream. All I saw was darkness, but I could feel it moving. And then my bed floated by a white fireplace. I didn't have a fireplace in that room. But the thing that really freaks me out about that is, there's a chimney right outside my room, as part of the house... There WAS a fireplace in my bedroom... 200 years ago.
The fireplace that I saw was white, and there was a small fire in it, and it was brighter than it should have been for such a small fire. Yet, the light didn't go anywhere else. The light itself only surrounded the fireplace.
Eventually these dreams started to happen less often. Then I had to move out of that house. I left my old bed there because I already had a new one ready for the new house, the one I'm living in now. After I moved here, those dreams stopped ENTIRELY. I think those were lucid dreams, though. Because I felt awake in all of them. Even though these events happened not that long ago, at the time, I knew what a lucid dream was, but... I don't know... I have no idea why I didn't take control. For some reason, now, it's harder for me to fully LD... Anyway, thanks for taking your time to read this, it was pretty weird.

Bedtime 10:30p – 8:30a

1) 1:45a Playing some sudoku like board game with Jess and Megan at our house. I walk into the living room and there are red Christmas lights everywhere. I continue the game on my phone like it was words with friends or something. I also think to play my old supervisor.

I move to recliner and begin attempting WILD. After each NLD I quickly record what I remember on my phone app and resume WILD.

2) 3:29a find myself in SP. I try something a little different to enter the dream. I force myself in a rush to get up out of the recliner. I feel my dream body stumble and fall and then I re-enter SP. This time I relax too much. I have a false awakening.

I have the laptop on my chest and the recliner feels like it is reclining way too far back. I am still trying to WILD. I ear the alarm clock distantly in the bedroom. I wonder how it is 6:00 already. I expect my wife to come looking for me and sure enough I hear her walk in the living room. I just lie still because I really don't want to ruin my WILD. I figure she will just see me asleep and leave. But the computer is on my chest and on. I think she will see a post by RareCola and read it.

Then, I hear her say. “You're going to kill yourself with that.”
I give up my charade. “What?” I look at her as she is going back to the bedroom.
“I said your going to kill yourself.”

I get up because originally I had planned to get up with her at 6 and stay up for 30min and then WILD.
I notice the recliner is turned wrong but when I go to move it there is another recliner in its place but it is a darker brown. The other recline shrinks and slides next the the strange one. I then walk into a strange kitchen. I wake up.

Another SP episode from DEILD. This time I know that I just need to visualize a dream scene and I will enter. For some reason I get too excite and SP fades.

3)4:38a I plant some sort of seed in the crack in the back deck. They are round and small but I don't know what it is. I water is. The water hose floods the area. Then I have another FA. I look next to me and see Janna sitting on the couch. She has marijuana seeds. She tells me she gave a seed to some kids and is worried they will get in trouble. I tell her they probably won't plant it. I go to use my phone app to record the planting dream and I realize “This isn't real”

I wake up briefly

4)I am now watching Johnny Bravo through my window on a TV in my neighbors yard. Then I FA and I am back in my recliner. I feel like I am holding a remote. But wake for real and see I am not.

5)4:42a I am in the recliner. I see Travis and tell him about the fake picture I sent him. He say, “Dude I don't know how those pictures of me get posted.” I explain to him that it was just a look alike with a tramp stamp. He changes the subject.

6)5:28a *LUCID*

For whatever reason I am driving with my wife and another guy was with us sitting in the back but he never says anything. We go down towards my job. It is late in the morning and I decide to just take vacation. I pull into the parking lot. And I tell my wife maybe I should just call it in instead of going in to ask for vacation. Then I notice the time on the car's clock. It is 8:38AM and I realize I can't ask for vacation after 8. So I decide just to use the call in line and not have a vacation day.

Suddenly we are inside in an office. My wife is at a desk typing on a computer. The guy is sitting several feet behind her watching the computer screen. He is behaving like a silent observer. Ignore him completely. I am on the floor putting my shoes on. As I am getting the last shoe on I remember to pay attention to my awareness like I do in RL. I think to myself, “I am dreaming.” But I didn't mean anything. Then it dawns on me. “I AM dreaming!”

I don't have my shoe on but I know it doesn't matter. I look around. I remember to stay calm. I try to focus on various office supplies on the desk. I see things like a coffee mug with pens and pencils in it. Then I look my my wife and see the guy in peripheral vision. I never really look at the guy. Maybe he will be my dream guide. Too bad I forgot to think of that. Anyway I know neither one matters and talking to them at this point would be a waste. They are just DCs.

I stand up and turn around. I see a door that is partially open. It is the only way out of the small room. I briefly remember that if I ever become lucid at work I would have fun with it and do the things I couldn't do in RL. I rush for the door and expect to see the production floor.

I open it and instead... The room I was in is at the end of a long hallway full of doors. Each door goes to a different office. "OK fine. Stay calm. Focus. You are dreaming. Keep awareness." I walk down the hallway and pop into random offices. The walls are wood paneled and with no decor. The doors are those cheap hollow wood doors. They are unpainted and stained a very dark brown. I don't notice the flooring. The color scheme is very bland and boring. All the offices are empty. There are no people anywere. "Ok strange but not that strange for a dream." I hear a phone ring once. I walk into an office room that I thought it came from. I see a desk with computer and a phone that is off the hook. There are a few papers scattered on the desk. I pick the phone up and put it to my ear. I hear nothing so I press zero. I hear a short ring and then, a young woman's voice answers, “Student services.” I think it's odd so I don't say anything. I press the hook with my finger to hang up. I don't hear a dial tone. So I just lay the phone back where it was. I can hear her voice but distantly, “Hello?” The sound of it is as you would expect for a phone away from your ear. I am a little impressed with my subconscious at how vivid the dream is.

I continue down the hall. Now I am looking at double glass doors. It looks really dark outside and I can't see anything beyond the glass. I want to break glass so I rush at it. I can hear my footsteps like I am wearing boots on concrete and I actually feel the impact of my feet on the floor. I note this is really cool for a dream.

I dive head first for the glass but it is soft and doesn't break. I feel my head got stuck. It feels like a wall of Jello. Of course, the natural reaction is to close your eyes. I feel the dream fading. I don't want to lose it so I back out. I re-stabilize myself by looking at the glass doors and focusing. “OK fine. I just want to leave here its boring.” I slowly push the doors with my right hand. There is no sensation and its like the glass is gone but then the door opens and I am looking at the next set of doors. I feel a little frustrated that glass doors are keeping me in this building. I almost feel trapped but I am determined. "Maybe dreams are like being a ghost in the movie Betelgeuse. You can never leave the building. No that's a stupid thought. This is my dream." I push the next doors slowly open.

Then I am immediately engulfed in darkness. I feel myself wanting to wake up. I begin rubbing my hands together. I can feel the friction and heat. It is almost painful. So I stop and clasp my hands together. I am still in the dark void and I think, "Maybe I am awake and I was really doing that with my hands. No, I don't believe it." Then I realize that I in darkness because I just have my dream eyes closed. I slowly open them but cautious not to open my waking eyes. For a moment I am confused because my eyes felt so real. "Am I opening my waking eyes?" So. I only open then halfway. I see that I am at the driver side door of a Grey truck. I decide its safe and I open my eyes fully now. I notice It's not very clear or vivid. The dream quality not as good as it should be. except for my sense of touch. I touch the glass of the door. Solid and feels real. I slap at it a little and am surprised that it sounded normal and I could feel the impact on my hands. Then for some reason I am abruptly jolted awake. I think I heard a noise in the house. It was storming.


7) 8:24a I am going with some people to a house I own. I am renovating and selling. I see a bunch of low class scummy people on the porch. I see a shirtless fat man. His checks hang down real low and he pushes his man boobs together. Somehow it all looks like a giant ball sack. I feel disgusted. I loudly tell someone I don't know how I will ever sale this house will all these kind of people around. I enter the house and the floors are still dusty from sanding the hardwood. There is a little girl there and I kindly ask her to go outside. I wake up.