false awakening

July 26, 2012

Synopsis: two men break into the house and then chase me

Two Punks
Im in a mansion again, living with friends and family. Our happy little world was ruined when two guys decide to break in. It was broad daylight and they had no shame. They busted into my bedroom, attacked my friends and started to tear the place apart.

I wanted to get their attention away from my friends, so I attacked them using magic "over here!"

They focus on me now and I jump out the window. They followed me as I planned, now I just have to lose them. I fly over the stone wall (dream wall) and on top was an abstract landscape. It looked like a maze arranged with potted plants in giant concrete planters.

The plants are too short, they can see me. I couldn't lose them in the maze. I was hoping to find a forest to hide into, but the maze led to a wide clearing instead. Damn.

They're still following me. I take a sharp turn to the left and find some city folk to mingle with. Theres some sort of festival or concert going on in the park. I thought for sure Ive lost them in the crowd.

Just past the crowd was a forest - yay! I race towards the forest when - the two guys step out of the crowd and block my way.

"Going some where?"

I didn't like their feeling. They didn't feel like the rest of the dream characters. I wake up, but its actually a FA.

I felt uncomfortable, as if two entities were in my bedroom - just hiding in the corner. It was daylight in my FA. I write on the wall in big fat letters - MICHEAL. As in Archangel Micheal. The wall was already doodled with stars, ready for me to write his name.

I felt more comfortable and went back to sleep - which made me wake up for real.

Date: 24/07/2012
Place: My bed
Time of getting into bed: 11.00pm
Nothing before bed - Ginseng & Ginkgo the morning before

Waking thoughts in black
Non lucid dreams in blue
Lucid dreams in red

Dream 1 - non lucid (12.55am)

So, I was all intent on taking my Lucid Dreaming pill on a WBTB last night, for the first time. I went to bed early, and fell asleep normally. I must stress I DIDNT TAKE ANYTHING, not even the usual B6 as I wanted to see the effects of the G&C without any interactions. I took Ginseng & Ginkgo the morning before, which I have been doing for about a week now. The night was particularly hot (we're having a heat wave, woohoo!) and I slept semi-naked, and out of the quilt. This always gave me nightmares as a child.

Dream fragments -talking on DV about WILDing and lucid dreaming. I wrote this in my DJ, I was sweating and really tired (hence just a short sentence / fragment) but I was feeling weird. I was slipping in and out of consciousness and as I was I was unintentionally WILDing! It came on so fast, I would lie down to sleep, and felt my body go numb, then a floating sensation, all in a matter of minutes. I didn't fight it, but I mostly 'popped' in and out of it, very unusual sensation. This happened all night, at one point I checked the G&C pill on my bedside table to make sure I hadn't taken it in my sleep, because the feeling was so intense. I hadn't. I decided not to take it, as it was too early. (even though I was dreaming?) I slept, and then woke up to a loud noise a little later. I woke up (or did I? FA?) because there was a loud noise outside, at first I thought it was a helicopter flying by )it happens) but it got louder and louder, I realised I was awake... (I think... I didn't RC) but I was in SP - the noise got loud and turned into screeching, just like HH that people describe, but I've never had it. After the noise, I felt tingling all over my body, and fell asleep. Thinking about it now, was this a dream about WILDing? Or did I wake up in SP briefly? I have no idea.

Dream 2 - non lucid
Two guys are performing oral sex on me, the dream gets really weird, with medieval torture devices being used, I'll skip the details, but it was weird and erotic. This was one messed up sex dream.

Dream 3 - non lucid / slight lucidity at end - 3.00am
My mum is coming to pick me up from somewhere because I have been drinking. When she gets there she has some pizzas ready for me to eat, which I'm thankful for because I'm starving. My mum disappears, and I begin to panic. I ring her phone but she isn't answering, I worry she's been in an accident. However she then pulls in the drive with her car. The car is a big silver estate, and puffing out clouds of black smoke. I initially think she's had car trouble, but she gets out with my younger sister and says she's been in hospital. My younger sister is in tears - I ask her what's wrong? She says her favourite singer Adele, is in hospital. I laugh, and say 'I know she is, she's been in there for ages, call yourself a fan?' but she get's even more upset and says its an operation on her throat. I make a mental note to check weather Adele really has had an operation when I wake up, or weather my dream is making it up, as I can't remember right now.

I woke up, with a music in my head from my childhood, that I had COMPLETELY forgotten. It was eerie and freaked me out, as I tried to get back to sleep, I kept remembering dreams from YEARS AGO. I shit you not. I thought about getting up (this was about 3.30am now) and watching some TV because I was so freaked out I daren't sleep. However I forced myself to sleep, but I woke up again and again, each time remembering dreams from about 5 or 6 years ago, with amazing detail. I thought I'd completely forgotten these dreams. What the hell was going on? I finally fell to sleep properly again.

Dream 4 - non lucid - 5.15am
My family owns a food shop, I go in search of starting my own food shop. I have a clothes shop, but this gets shut down. A pink tie is left hanging from one of the windows, and I take it as a souvenir. I open a shop selling action figures, and I make shoes themed with cartoon characters and comic characters.

Dream 5 - non lucid
I am chilling with friends when someone asks me if I want to take part in a fun, free experiment. I agree. I have to hold these 2 black bars, it's a new kind of virtual game where you play an incredibly life-like character, that moves just by sensing through the bars in your hands. When I grab the bars, they hurt me at first, but I get used to it. I am a young soldier, in the war, I follow his life as he struggles to survive and still look after his wife and young child at home. I get really involved in this soldiers life, eventually feeling like I am him. I wake up in the dream, and the soldier is now a real man, stood over my bed. He tells me he is real, and wants me to follow him, I'm shocked, but not scared. I go and meet his wife and daughter, it is an emotional reunion for them, I watch quietly. Again, I wake up and feel like I'm WILDing, entering SP without trying. My body is tingling and numb at the same time, I feel like I'm floating over my bed. I remember more dreams from my long forgotten past, but this time I try to remember more and I'm shocked when I can. I quite like it. I fall asleep.

Dream 6 - non lucid
I'm watching a TV show about young fathers meeting their in laws to be. One guy is wearing nothing but a purple robe, he has a scruffy beard, and lots of body hair. He poses and messes around and his naked body is clear to see.

Dream 7 - non lucid - 9.03am
I'm at a dinner table in a restaurant, wearing fancy dress. I am wearing a santa costume, but it isn't totally correct. Someone nearby is a policeman. We add up 'fancy dress points' that we get for our outfits, so that we can have enough points to leave the restaurant. There was more to this dream, plus a whole other dream after this one, but I didn't write them down.

Overall, what a weird night. I feel refreshed this morning, but still in awe of the crazy night I had and I can still remember those dreams from years ago!

Non-dream Dream Lucid Dream

I am at high school basketball tryouts and I block the sh*t out of my friend El. It was such an awesome block that I keep trying to play it back on my phone. I block a bunch of other people too. I get traded because of my parents somehow (not my real life parents) even though it is high school.

At this point I "wake up" from the basketball dream and draw a picture of the scene where I block El to show my wife. I look down at the picture and it is incredibly life-like (and I am a terrible artist). At this point I realize it is a dream (false awakening). I am extremely popular at my high school. Every chick wants to bang me (and does). I walk into a classroom to learn about cows and they slaughter them and try to feed us blood. I don't want anything to do with it so I walk out with a couple of chicks to film a porno.

I went to bed around midnight (kinda late for me) and woke up at some point during the night due to a thunderstorm. I fell back asleep not long after it passed and had the first dream I remember from last night. It was about the Doctor (the Eleventh Doctor, to be specific). I was watching in third-person, by the way. Anyway, he went into this weird, cartoon-like place. It became realistic fairly quickly, and then there was some epic battle I can barely recall between the Doctor and some guy I'm assuming was a bad guy.

I woke up again at 6:30 and decided to go back to sleep. This time, I dreamed that I WAS the Doctor... and I was just outside at my church. I went around to the side of the building (which is actually my friend's backyard; she's the pastor's daughter and lives next door to the church. Their backyard essentially doubles as church property) to find the TARDIS and Amy Pond. I found the TARDIS right where I expected and entered it. Unlike on the show, it was NOT bigger on the inside. Anyway, for some reason, I got mad at Amy (who had apparently been allowed to fly the TARDIS) for leaving it out in the rain (I'm not sure why; besides, it was barely even raining).

(It's not really surprising my mind would dream up something like that, seeing as I went to church yesterday and then watched Doctor Who later. Well, it is a bit odd that I was the Doctor, though... I'm almost ALWAYS myself in dreams.)

I woke up to find it was only 6:45. I drifted off to sleep yet again and woke up without recalling any dreams... or so I thought. I noticed a big Pikachu bead sprite on my wall and couldn't remember it ever being there, so I looked at my hand to see if I was dreaming. I counted five fingers, concluded that I wasn't dreaming, and picked up my iPod to check the time. Well, whatever the time was, it wasn't 103:53. Now, I knew I that I WAS dreaming after all. After the two attempts it took to unlock my iPod (it glitched up the first time), I noticed that I had some apps I don't have in real life as well as a different background. The background was bright orange. Upon closer inspection, I realized it had a picture with rather a lot of text over the top (also in orange, but in a different shade). I tried to read what it said but discovered that it was all in gibberish.

I put my iPod down and sat up, ready to try some dream control. Despite having full (or, at the very least, a lot of) control over myself, it didn't occur to me at the time that I had immediate LD goals (i.e., completing the TOTM and meeting my dream guide), so I just decided to do the first thing that came to mind. I closed my eyes. 'When I open my eyes, I will be in... Skyloft!' I thought to myself, naming the first fictional place that came to mind. I opened my eyes, a bit disappointed that I was still in my room.

I remembered that some people unintentionally wake up when they close their eyes, so I checked my iPod again to make sure I was still dreaming. It still said the time was 103:53. I was still dreaming. Being one who likes to sleep in in the mornings, I laid back down and closed my eyes, finding myself back in reality shortly after.

First I have to say this is one of the most vivid dreams ive ever had, but only a certain part of it. it is multiple layers.

I had this dream from a previous night of drinking some tea with passion flower wild lettuce and gingko bilbo. some potent stuff ill say!

So, I'm laying on my stomach on a bed, with my arms around Nada whom is facing away from me and sitting on the bed.
We are speaking, im unsure of what.
(the most vivid part)Then suddenly the pressure changes, everything goes eerily quiet.
The lighting in the room is completely different. everything is glowing and has this fluorescent atmosphere. I feel mildy like I can't move, there's this slight anxiety building up.
Then a very large dog, looks like a black and brown st Bernard poofs into existence above me to the left. it continuously looks like its fading in and out of existence. its very stoic doesn't seem to have awareness and is just floating there.

I ask nada if he sees this thing, no response. I am still holding what feels like him. I sit up stil holding him (i can move now) his torso comes undone from his legs, like a barbie dolls would. his legs are underneath me now his body parts are black, not really him.
I realize I've gone to another plane where he is not. I start calling out to him. I am hearing his voice every once ina while but I can deduct he can't hear me, I feel like I want to get back to him.
I start to float up I'm realizing more that this is a dreamlike world but not in fact realizing im dreaming because of the separation anxiety distracting me.

I want to leave this room explore more, suddenly the pressure changes im back on the bed. I call out to nada he is about to leave the room with his arms full of these colorful cups. he was going to help my mother with something.

he tells me that i just passed out, I start explaining my experience.
Then I wake up for real and I start to really tell nada of my experience ( weird doing that twice)

Would like to know anyones opinion on this, if they have ever experienced going to a light realm like that.

This is the nightmare portion of the dream, im unsure where this connects at to the rest but I just remember it,
I am in this dark place with nada, it has many rooms and corridors. I believe its some sort of futuristic asylum, there is one person that started chasing us like he wanted to kill us. I don't remember how we got rid of him.
There are many grotesque scenes taking place wherever there are people, I am scared I also have a strange sense of deja vu.
Thats it, I haven't had a violent dream like that in a long time but this one wasn't very vivid.

Italic Text = Personal Thoughts
Normal Text = Non-Lucid Segment
Light Purple Text = Partially Lucid Segment
Purple Text = Lucid Segment

I was attempting a WILD and became the closest I've ever got. I felt like I was in full sleep paralysis but despite this wasn't seeing or hearing any hallucinations. (I'm beginning to think hallucinations just don't happen for me, each time I've been in sleep paralysis I've never had any. Or maybe I've just not been in complete sleep paralysis yet.) After I while I got the urge to roll over, but resisted and just tried to focus on the HI I was seeing. I got quite uncomfortable, finding it hard to breathe, noticing the heat and weight of the duvet on top of me. But then... I don't remember anything else.

Next I know I'm in a dream, first thing I remember after attempting the WILD is being in this room where I'm checking my hands and fortifying the lucidity.

I walk out of the room and see that I'm in a tropical rainforest, similar to the place I was previously incubating with HI. I walk around for a bit but the dream becomes unstable and incredibly blurry. I rub my hands together and feel all the texture of the world around me, managing to re-stabilise the dream.

I walk into this open expanse. I'm still not fully conscious in the dream, but I guess the incubation I had of chinese dragons in the sky of this tropical rainforest enters my mind, as I take to the skies and try transforming into a chinese dragon. I see myself in the reflections of the waters and I am still in human form, but I am weaving effortlessly through the sky, just like a chinese dragon.

I have a false awakening. I'm laying on the floor in this room, surrounded by people talking about lucid dreaming. I get the impression that I'm a sort of test subject, but I also don't want to be here. I attempt to DEILD while still laying on the floor while in this dream, but I think I woke up properly and DEILDed because the voices of the people disappeared and I vaguely remember the feeling of my bed for a few seconds before I entered the next dream.

I'm instantly lucid in my kitchen. I decide to try turning the lights on and off, just to experiment with dream physics. They turn on, but I'm unable to turn them off again, so I just head outside.

It's early morning, there's sporadic streaks of orange darted about the dark cloudy sky. I begin walking to the street when I hear footsteps coming up behind me. I turn around and my mum's there. She hands me this cup she has in her hands, but when I try to take it she resists me, similar to a lucid dream previously. My lucid DC version of her seems to be very aggressive, I've noticed.

After a short while of struggling, I decide to try yelling commands at the dream, something I hadn't tried before. I yell "Let go of the cup!" and sure enough, she immediately stops. Almost robotically she yields the cup over to me. I wonder what else I could try with yelling commands, so to make sure my DC mum doesn't interfere with my lucidity as she has a tendency to be a pest in my lucids, I yell "Jump up and fly away!" she looks at me, somewhat confused, before leaping into the sky and flying away. I chuckle at how comically she flew away, and then take to the skies myself, flying in the opposite direction. I'm still holding on to the cup, using it as dream stabilisation by focusing on the solidity and texture of it. I decide I don't need it after a while and simply drop it.

I hear a crash and a yell behind me and I assume my mum had crash landed, but I don't really pay it any attention. I'm more interested in the DC that's standing on the street, in awe at the fact that I'm flying. I land and for some reason electrocute them with my hands. There's no electricity graphical representation, but as I aim my hands at them they shake violently before collapsing onto the ground.

I remember the Task of the Month, to find alien life and go on a date with one of them. I try conjuring a portal on the nearby wall, to no avail. I decide to use the door technique to change scenes with the door on the house nearby, but like every other time I've tried it I seem to not focus enough beforehand and simply walk through the door.

I'm inside this house and close the door behind, struggling to get it to latch on. The house has a seemingly endless hallway with lots of tiny rooms with people doing various tasks in each of them. I was looking for another door to try the door technique but every room in this house was open-plan.

Without warning, I have another false awakening. I'm back laying on the floor surrounded by these people. They've moved on to a different topic now but I still don't want to be here. I seem to get this pop-up in front of me, as if my eyes were a computer screen. It asks "Do you wish to leave the room?" To which I click "Yes."

I end up in a different room, I have no clue where I am but don't have time to find out. The dream fades to black and I wake up in my bed, completely confused. I wonder if I should DEILD again but after the long stream of dreams I decide I'd be better off simply journalling them so I didn't forget any details.

Awareness - 8 / 10
Control - 10 / 10

Although this dream was not lucid I posessed amazing control during it. The most interesting part however was the fact that during the dream, I went to sleep and had another dream within that one! (Maybe it's because I finally had a chance to watch 'Inception'?) Anyways here is what happened...

The first thing I remember is that I was at a friends house having a sleepover. We were all piled in the living room getting snacks and making a fort out of blankets and stuff getting ready to watch a scary movie. Now, normally I am the type of person who could watch a horror movie all by myself at night and be perfectly fine, let alone have a nightmare about it, but in this dream, there was something errie about the whole situation. I remember once we finally got our fort set up we began the movie. I was really scared of something for some reason and took a spot next to the wall so I had my back against something solid as we watched the movie. It was just plain creepy. The lighting was very disturbing and all the color seemed drained from the room. Well, about half way through the movie, I becam tired and fell asleep. Now, I entered another dream, even more dark and disturbing than the previous one...

So I am still in the same house, and awake to a blood curdling scream. It was like having a false awakening during a dream. I was still in the second layer dream, just dreaming about waking back up to the sleepover. Anyways, it is early dawn and I hear this scream and am frozen with fear. I hear some creature let out its own high pitched scream as it finishes chomping down on its victim. I look around and only see two of my friends, while the third one is gone. I instantly knew what had happened to him. Then, out of the hallway, the same alien type creature from the movie we had been watching came dashing out at us. You know that old saying about how you don't have to outrun the bear, just the guy next to you? Well, I shoved one of my friends down and ran for it. The creature rushed over and scooped him up in its jaws like he was a piece of beef jerkey. It began tearing him to shreds and I could hear and see everything in detail. I started to run for the door and then the creature dropped its meal and went into the attic. I was terrified. It could drop down through the cieling any second and get the two of us remaining. I motioned for my remaining friend to go and try to make it to the door. With his first step the creature came swooping down out of the attic for just a split second and grabbed him. I stood there and was paralyzed with fear. Maybe it hunted by movement? If I stayed there maybe it wouldn't see me? But I still had a chance for the doow while it devoured its latest victim. What to do?!?!?! Suddenly, a severed head dropped through the ceiling. I was screwed. I had missed my chance to escape and now had to stand there and hope it couldn't see me if I didn't move. The creature burst down from the ceiling and stood right in front of me. I was amazed. It was looking right at me and didn't see me!! As long as I didn't move I was safe. Then, the creature let out a breath ever so slight, that it was just enough to cause me to need to cough. I tried to hold it in, for if I moved, I was dead. Then... I just couldn't hold it and coughed. The creature lunged for me and I suddenly awoke back into the slumber party dream.

I awoke and it was morning. My friends were all there and there was no monster chasing us. I got up and told them the dream. They were all pretty speechless that I could commit such an act of treachery as pushing them down to get eaten, but I reassured them it was just a dream. I told them it was a bad idea to fall asleep half way through a horror movie and we decided to watch an action movie next time. Then we all got up and went to the kitchen for a bowl of cereal.

Finally back in reality, I awoke and it was about 4:30 in the morning. I was exhausted I guess from the nightmare, but still started the alarm, in hopes of having a lucid. (although incubating my last dream was probably not the best idea in this case). Anyways, by the time it had gone off once I simply got up and shut it off I was so tired. Guess a Dr. Pepper at 10:30 right before bed is a bad thing.
Note to self : Next time parents tell you they are going to throw away all that old pop unless someone drinks it, just let them throw it away.

Well, tonight I did my regular routine however and am planning on having a nice lucid with no soda pop to interrupt.

The first dream was about sleeping with my friends mum and it was great. It did feel like I was in control as the son walked in and I remember commanding in my head that he would be okay with it and that he would leave. Although when it was getting to the climax she disappeared and then I went out the room to try and find her (it was dark) someone came out of nowhere and grabbed me. I woke up but I wasn't actually awake. I was in bed in a bedroom similar to mine but not totally similar and there was a dog with big floppy ears at the edge of the bed just looking at me and licking it's paws. I was trying to move but I couldn't. I knew this was SP but didn't know what to do and then eventually woke up.

I was still quite groggy when I woke up and knew this state would be prime to falling back into it. Soon enough I was entering a car with a guy and we were going somewhere in a rush (felt like we were the cartel or something) and I was aware that I was dreaming again and the first thing I wanted to do was have sex. So I created a brothel and told the guy driving to stop. I got to the door of the brothel and remember laughing and looking at the letters on the door (the name of the brothel) and said to myself "not it's not called that" and thinked of another name in my head, looked away and returned my gaze and it had changed. I can only remember the letters MU. I'm not sure. I know letters and numbers aren't meant to come up in lucid dreams, basically i think it was just gibberish. I went inside and it was your typical brothel stairway to the left dotted with alluring women. i confronted the first one and said "I want you" and she said that she wasn't for sale. So I walked up the stairs and at the head of the stairs pointed at a women who I initially was a bit off put by her as she looked old. As I got closer though she was younger than i expected. She was wearing a yellow/ golden tunic type thing and she looked at me and stretched the black material she had underneath. We walked into her room and I was so excited but then I started to fear the snatcher guy that was in the last dream and started to panic. I tried focusing on the room but it became all blurry. I started to search for the guy in all the corners of the room and thought he was t the door.

Dreaming in this way is very hard because your constantly dealing with your sub conscience i.e when I was sleeping with my friends mum I kept worrying whether my friend would appear and sure enough he did. Maybe I should stop trying to do things that are so wrong! Although these dreams didn't feel like I was totally in control. I mean I could move around in them and that but the events that were taking place were hard to keep tabs on.

As for the second dream I woke up but again it was in this similar but slightly different bedroom as before. and there was the dog nonchalantly looking at me. This time I shouted wake up! and tried to move my hand but all I could see was a blur of a hand rather than physical movement. Whilst this dog kept sitting there.

What does the dog mean?

How do I get a better grip on these things?

Can you ever not wake up from SP?

Alright so starts off I'm at my old elementary school. There were a whole bunch of people walking along this field, me being one of them. I was walking and talking with my friends and then everyone started going back into the school. So we all walked back in and then I notice that the elementary school was connected to my high school, when in reality they are not. So in my dream I started thinking and whenever I think in a dream I usually become lucid. Sure enough I'm lucid. So I keep walking a little and the dream scene sort of changes, now connected to the high school is a beach. So now I decided that I'd sit on the ground just to think up a game plan for what I was going to accomplish, I decided I'd do something like this a while ago but never had until this point. I thought maybe I would try to break dance seeing as I usually can do anything in my dreams, but I didn't. Anyways, I see this girl sitting on some bleachers near the beach so I get up to go and try my have a conversation with a DC goal and then I look away. I look back and BOOM she's gone and so are the bleachers. So I thought, alright.. guess not. I start walking back to where I was before and I decide that I'll just have a nice little flight. So I jump into the air and start floating. I float a little ways upwards and then I clap my arms to my sides, as if to cause a sonic boom. Then this propels me forward and I flew for a good bit of time and I could feel the wind in my face, it felt great like in the dream that I had flown in before. And then my dream faded until I felt my waking body. I woke up and I was essentially doing a headstand in my bed. Apparently this didn't strike me as odd because I just got out of bed and went over to my laptop. And then I opened my laptop and an internet tab was opened that said "lol pwned" that was all it said. Then when I came to the realization that I was in a false awakening I ended up waking up for real.

I had my first lucid dream this morning! I was in my house; everything was normal. I was playing something on the computer. I got up and went into the kitchen. When I went past the sliding door to the deck, a sound played from my computer, and it caused snow to appear outside.

That didn't seem right, so I looked at my hand and counted my fingers. I had six, but it was hard for me to focus on counting, so I only counted five. Something just looked a bit off about my hand, though, so I counted again - six!

"Oh my gosh, I'm dreaming!" I shouted, getting really excited. As the dream began to destabilize, I remembered that I had to remain calm and control my excitement. It was too late, though; I knew I was about to wake up.

I woke up on the couch at thirteen minutes past midnight (despite having fallen asleep in bed at six-something AM). Nothing around me actually changed, so it was barely even a false awakening. Excited, I told my mom I'd finally had an LD and held up my hand, telling her I'd become lucid after counting six fingers. I still had six, but I didn't notice because I didn't actually count them this time. I woke up a couple minutes later.

This night consisted of 2 dreams.

Dream 1:
My friends and I were gathered together (at a location that I can't seem to remember). One of my friends has an electric cable but cannot be used in the U.S. because it is foreign. Then I suddenly have a bag of plug converters and I proceed to attach them all together onto his plug. the problem was that it was missing the U.S. converter. It turned out his girlfriend had it, but she refused to give it back and offered to buy it for $100.
I then "wake up" and excitedly write the "dream" into my journal. BUT I wake up AGAIN and find out that I had a false awakening. I look to my journal and it is empty. Inception????

Dream 2:
I fell asleep again, luckily into another dream. Girl 1 says that Girl 2 is CUUHH-YOOOT. Girl 2 says you mean Jason right?(which is me). I then say I am CUUUHH-YOOOT, but in an oddly low voice. Girl 1 then says "It's on Monday, I swear to God."
Then I wake up.

I guess I'm off to a good start!

I couldn't sleep on christmas Eve in 2003 and looked at my pepsi watch and saw it was 1:05. Angry and bored I threw my head down on the pillow and in what felt like 2 seconds, I looked back at the watch and saw that it was now 8:03. Im pretty sure I didn't knock myself out when I hit the pillow, but who knows.

I woke up on phone and I Wonder where I am. then I accidentally all over the phone and on my Dog. I Was very disappointed when I see that my Dog dead. And my Phone break. All over the kitchen floor my mess there. So I Had to pick it up and it very dirty in side. I Drank the soda and juice and reestablish connection to netwok and accidentally all over your face this time. Was not happy.

Aids:1/8 tea peppermint oil before bed
Methods:DEILD/WILD - FA
Morning Suppliments:500mg L-Lysine, 500mg C, 595mg Potassium Gluconcate, 1 Super B-Complex
Sleep Quality: Light, wakefulness, RLS

Huge Storm 1:12 AM
Huge storm coming. Riding with dad. I see storm shelter. I hear some song that reminds me of someone. And then another song. I remember an ex-girlfriend.
"I say I hate all songs."
I see Jeremy and Jess in the car with us.
"What song? I say do tunes to what you want."

Dude, Where's My Car? 3:15 AM ish

I am at my parents sleeping in a recliner. It is dark and I can't sleep.
I went to my parents with the kids. I am leaving. But I can't find my car. I see a white car that is stripped down. The kids think it's mine but I know better. We run down the street looking for it. I feel tired and weak and can't run well. I see white cars everywhere but none are mine. I don't want to call the police yet because I keep thinking that I remember that I parked in a strange place and I knew I would not remember. I tell the kids this.

Now we are in some nursing home and wondering around. Not sure what happens here. Something about me not being a good enough Christian. How I let bad things into my life. Thats why bad things happen. Some old woman? I feel guilty for lucid dreaming like it is a sin.

We leave. I tell my kids we got to look some more before we call the cops. Deanna says that Dalynn already did. I asked her about that. It was when I was holding her and she blew into a strange balloon.
She says, "Well that lady scared me. So I called the cops."
We run outside but I feel overwhelmed and too tired to walk. I lay down in the grass and dirt. I curl up on a mound of dirt. I tell the kids I just want to close my eyes. My body relaxes and I wake up.

WILD 3:30AM ish
When I wake up I am in the recliner that I moved to because of my RLS. I don't move a muscle. I relax myself and I roll my eyes into the back of my head and focus on my skull. Sleep Paralysis almost immediately kicks in.

I hear the familiar strong wind sound laced with rinings of the ears. I feel the familiar vibrations and windy sensations. I noticed this time that the sound and vibrations increased and decreased in intensity like waves on a beach. I make a quick note of this. I can feel my legs moving up. It feels like something has me by the ankles. I become afraid and I have to remind myself it is not real. I try to enter the dream but I get stuck in SP for longer than I wanted and because of the last dream I thought I was doing something evil. I keet telling myself that it was ok. And it wasn't real. You do this all the time and its always been fine. No good, the feeling was persistent.
I try to ignore the thoughts and visualise anything to move on. I my mind wonder and my dream eyes see.

I see a road. I am flying low and fast down a vivid and brightly lit road road hugged tightly by evergreen trees. I enjoy this but my eyes begin to opened and I see the dark living room with one eye and the road with the other.

I go back into full SP. Still the same feeling of guilt. I think that this is getting no where and I want to go back to my bed. So I suddenly and forcibly make myself get up. I stumble back to my bedroom. I heard and felt my loud footsteps.

I think how odd this is. I was feeling the vibrations like wind on my body. The loud sound of wind and ringing. Typical SP. Was it possible to not be truly paralyzed in sp?

I now find myself tangled in my blanket. I am standing by my bed and I can't find my way out. I am unsure of what happened. I feel so confused and my mind feels numb.

I say, "I'm dreaming. I'm dreaming." But my voice sounds odd. It is weak and unsure. Almost like I am asking a question. I am not convinced. Then I throw myself in the bed. Now I can find my way out. I feel half asleep and strange.

All my actions have woke my wife up. My wife mocks me. And complains how this is not good what I'm doing. She is pissed I woke her. I feel embarrassed and say nothing. She gets up to go the bathroom. I close my eyes and relax. But instead of going to sleep I wake up still in the recliner. God dammed FA!

I was so sure I was awake.

I had a weird dream that has sort of confused me to what it means.

It was the shortest day of the year, and even though it wasn't Autumn all the leaves were falling. I was walking outside in a courtyard (similar to the one at our house IRL but not quite the same) when I looked up and saw this guy in a tree, with a sniper rifle aiming at me. Instinctively I drop to the ground, but suddenly the ground gives way and I fell.

Waking up, I find I'm in my bed, and so I swing out and almost stand on my cat, Georgie. It's at this point I realise I'm dreaming, because Georgie died a while back. I rub my hands against my bed, and strangely enough it feels like cat fur.

After 'stabilising' my now-lucid-dream I go outside and into the courtyard again. The ground is intact and the sniper is still in the tree, but this time I yell at him, and he gets angry and pulls the trigger. I hate dying in dreams so I quickly wake myself up, which I've always found easy to do once I know I'm dreaming.

So I suppose that was lucid and also had a false awakening in it. It wasn't scary or anything, just strange and memorable...