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I had a lucid dream on the first of March that I haven't had a chance to write up yet.

I don't remember the beginning, but as soon as I became lucid I wanted to do a task, but I hadn't seen which tasks had been chosen yet for the month. I had remembered there was a list of tasks that people had been voting on. I tried to remember what they were. I thought if I could remember what they were then I had a chance, at least, of getting one right.

The first task that popped into my mind was Telling a Dream Character that they aren't Real. I'm not sure why I always think this is the task. I have fallen back on this one many times when I can't remember the real task.

There was a nice looking young man next to me. I blurted out, "Did you know that this is my dream and you aren't real?" The man smiled at me and said something funny, which unfortunately, I can't remember anymore. We had a short discussion and he was just the nicest guy. Dream characters are so unpredictable. I have had some pretty rude ones in the past, so this was quite pleasant. I just wish I remembered what we talked about.

Then I knew I needed to get back to the tasks.

So I thought for a while then seemed to remember that there was a task of eating off a dream character's plate and seeing what their reaction was (I still haven't checked back to see if that was on the list, but I'm kind of doubting it).

As luck would have it, I was in a restaurant. It was a buffet, and I was standing next to a table full of people who had full plates of food. I felt a little awkward, but then reminded myself that this was just a dream. I went up to the closest person, reached my hand down to their plate, then scooped up a handful of food off their plate. I don't remember what it was, but as I ate it I remember thinking that it was tasty. The person looked up at me with a weird look, but said nothing. I then proceeded to go from plate to plate using my fingers to scoop up food from each and then stuffing it into my mouth. For some reason, in lucid dreams when I eat, I always stuff as much food into my mouth as I can. I think it's because the food isn't quite as flavorful in dreams as in real life, so I feel like I need more at a time. The food almost instantly dissolves in my mouth, so I can then take another huge bite of food.

The people at the table were amazingly good natured at my rude and socially unacceptable behavior. I tried to explain (between mouthfuls) that this was for a task I needed to do for Dreamviews.

After doing this for a few minutes I tried to remember another task to attempt. I thought I remembered a task about eating dog food (my mind must have been on food). I decided to ask a dream character to help me out. "Where can I find dog food? Is there a store near here." The lady I asked then got a delighted look on her face. She happily told me that right next door to this restaurant was a place that was like a buffet, but for dogs. She took my arm and walked me out the door and to the dog food buffet next door. She told me that I should find all the dog food I needed for my task.

As I looked around, it was truly like a people buffet, but with food geared for dogs. Some of the food was in warmers ready to fill a plate with. Other things were in large bins. I decided to start with the warm stuff. Again, using my hand, I scooped up a handful of warm food. It looked to me like chili rellenos. I put it into my mouth. It didn't taste like dogfood. It was better than some of the people food I had just eaten.

I then took another scoop of food. This was like a warm brownie with caramel. I looked around and saw the owner of this store. I said, "This is really good. Is this really dog food?" He smiled a secretive smile and said, "Well, if it's good enough for dogs, it's good enough for people." I had the impression that I wasn't the only one who ate this "dog food".

I did a Wake Back To Bed this morning. I was actually awake for several hours before falling back to sleep. But I decided to give it a shot anyway. I lay back down with my mp3 player. I was listening to U2's album October playing super softly. I suddenly felt myself start to drift, so I decided to turn off the music. Then after a while I realized I was still hearing music, so I turned the music off again. (I'm not sure which one was the real one and which was the dream).

I remember being in my mom's house. We had talked about remodeling it. I walked out to the garage and suddenly realized that it was in the middle of being remodeled. When did that happen? There was a huge round hole in the side of the garage and the whole garage was about ten times its usual size. The front was gone and huge stone pillars were being built on what was to be a beautiful new entry of the house in front of the garage.

The next thing I remember is seeing a friend from high school. I had had a crush on this friend for a few years and he didn't ask me out for a real date until I had gone away to college and was serious with another guy. Yep, sad story.

Anyway, in the dream I was glad to see him and we were laughing and having a good time. Then suddenly he morphed into a guy I had had a crush on in the fifth grade and who moved away so I had never kept in touch with him. Oh, how I had liked that guy. His name was Jason and he sat next to me. He had long dark brown hair and light brown skin (he may have been part Mexican or Native). He was always really nice to me and a protector of sorts. The guy who sat on the other side of me was often a jerk to me, and Jason would stand up for me. As a shy fifth grader I thought that was so amazing.

Sooo, we were in a van and were talking, flirting and laughing. At some point I became lucid. I told him I wanted to take him flying. As is typical in my lucid dreams I didn't immediately realize that since I was dreaming he wouldn't be real. I kept on thinking he was really there, and now since I was lucid I could take him flying and show off a little.

I held on to his arm and we took off into the air. We were still at my mom's property and we started flying above it. I was having trouble getting much height. Every time I thought we were high in the air I realized our feet were about to drag the ground. I told Jason to start moving his arms and hands like he was paddling though water. He did and we started getting higher.

I told him I wanted to fly to the lake (now we were back to where I live). As we flew to the water I saw that it was more like a ride at Disneyland. I could see two whales that reminded me of the whales on the Storybook Land canal ride. As I got closer I could even see the whales' eyes open and close. I thought that was really cool. I landed in the water next to a waterfall and we swam a little. Then I suddenly realized that Jason had morphed into a baby.

The absurdity of that reminded me that I was lucid dreaming and that I really needed to get serious and do a task.

The first task that came to mind was the Ask a DC to share their favorite dream. I looked around and saw a young boy who looked to be about seven years old. He had brown hair, a sprinkle of freckles across his nose, and two front teeth that seemed too big for his mouth. I approached him and asked if he would tell me his favorite dream. He crinkled up his nose and gave me a mischievous look and thought for a second. Then he started, "Well, there were these two clown fish. And there were also these two dirty people. And they were swimming. And then they bumped into a log." He stopped and laughed. That was apparently the end of the dream. I wanted to clarify--in his little kid "accent" I couldn't tell if he had said "clown fish" or "clam fish", so I asked him. "Clowwwwn fish", he emphasized.

Cool. It was a very simple kid-like dream. But it would work for the task. But as always, I wanted to repeat the task and see what other results I could get.

I looked and saw a guy next to me. I was pretty sure it was my childhood crush, now morphed back into an adult, but looking a little different. I asked him if he would tell me his favorite dream. He grinned at me and started, "There were these two clown fish and two dirty--"

"No-no--You don't get to repeat the kid's dream. You have to come up with one of your own." I interrupted. [Yep, my mind is always trying to cheat a little.]

He stopped and I could tell he was pondering. So I looked around and saw another guy standing not far behind the kid. He looked like Bill Clinton, yet the lower half of his face was all narrow and pinched together like an alien face. I called out to him "Hey Bill Clinton Alien Dude. Tell me your favorite dream." The Bill Clinton Alien Dude stood there looking at me with a small, thoughtful, but creepy smile.

I suddenly jerked awake.

I wake up at night and get out of bed. When I look at the time, I notice my clock isn't there. I do a nose plug and can breathe. I have the feeling I'm dreaming so I go outside and try to jump in the air to fly, which I do. I'm surrounded by high rise apartment buildings. I look for a spot that's well lit so I could see the DC I want to summon. I find a nice spot over an intersection. I put my hand behind my back and call for Destiny, the whale shark from Finding Dory. I feel a toothless mouth, and when I turn around, she's there. She was pretty dead on in terms of appearance, although I didn't take the time to look past her head, which was big. She has some sort of package on her head which I brush off. I ask her what her favorite dream was. She sounds like her as well, although she sounded depressed rather than energetic. She says her favorite dream was when she tore her elbow while protesting. Kind of a weird thing for a whale shark to say. I woke up.

My dreams have been a bit dark lately but they're getting better.

In case you're wondering about the DC I summoned, she shows up in the video below from 0:48-1:06. You can see why I thought it would be fun to hear a story from her.

March 6, 2016

Last night bed 8:30pm. I was still tired from 4am shift.

Woke up at 3:30am with backpain. Went to lay on the sofa in half sitting position hoping for a WILD or at least to be able to sleep.

I saw Ophelia's wings while browing the forum and I was wondering if I'm gonna have them this month as well, and if I get them now instead of last day of the month, haha.

15 min WBTB - read the totms. Wanted to do the fire/ice because I have thrown fireballs before.

So I'm on a sofa, one of my cats climbs on me immediatelly and the other one seddless laying over my leg.

I remember reading just day before how somebody focuses on some image thats turning and that gets them into transition. (Now awake I'm not sure if I really read it.) So I imagine something that's turning and immediatelly I start turning very fast and I transition in a lucid.

I'm thinking how long will it last and if I'm gonna have one long instead of buch of shorter DEILDs.

I start out on a street and dream is nice and focused and I stabilize it some more. I remember a TOTM and I turn to a DC "Hey, what is your favorite dream"? I ask him and I am surprised how articulate and calm I am.

"Amazon prime" he replies.

It doesn't really surprise me and in a split second I decide to wake up so I remember his reply even if that means ending the LD right at the beginning.

I say "wake up, wake up!" but I'm not waking. So I just repeat "Amazon prime" to memorize it.

Dream goes on for at least 10 min after that. I fund some guys and try to do it with them. There is even one chick and I just wanna get laid so I don't really care.

(I was ordering stuff rom Amazon day before yesterday and they offer Amazon Prime thing)

I think I woke up then went back to sleep before getting up.
I remembered more as I was waking up, so I will update here when it comes back.

I was in my bed, and heard that my son was in the room, but I didn’t see him. I asked husband and counted fingers. Too many. I jumped into the window (it was 8 th floor) and I new that the ground would be like trampoline. It was. So I stood in the street and remembered about TOTM with the guide. I cried several times that I need a dream guide and so on. People around me were waving hands to me. It was funny. I couldn’t remember other task and I decided to fly. I wanted to fly above the forest ( I like it) but there were only roofs and markets. I was tired of all this civilization and flew to the fields of vineyard, but there were a lot of bulldozers. I was really upset and found myself in front of a big broken mirror. I went through it several times and found another broken mirror behind it. At last I found myself in the room and I went through the door. There were several voices, but I didn’t see anybody. There was a window and I thought that it was a good way to escape from the room. I jumped through the window ( high floor as usual) and saw tree boys about five years on the ground. I decided to cry as I really fell from the roof. They were scared and began to cry. I landed on my feet. The boys smiled. I said : Never repeat this!!! I tried to remember TOTM and remembered with fire and ice on the palm. I’ve made the fire before but never summon ice. First I summon fire. On my palm appeared a red spot and then a little fire like from the candle. It was a bit tickles. Then I decided to summon an ice. I felt nothing. It appeared from the line in the palm and looked like a diamonds. Then I heard kid’s voice. A boy was talking on the balcony on the second floor. I flew to him. I showed him how to make fire and ice on the palm and even to mix them . There was a steel locust on my palm. We were talking, but I don’t remember the subject. The meaning was all the world around us is cruel and strong one eats the weak one. I didn’t see a boy – only his voice and saw a picture of a boy on the sheet of paper. He played with the toys and his game was cruel. I looked at my palm. My locust ate some paper and was in fire. I didn’t like my locust and put it on the balcony. I didn’t like the boy’s games and said bye-bye and flew to the street. I tried to remember other TOTM, but couldn’t and decided to wake up.

Last night was a very, very interesting night. I woke up at 4:00 to do a WBTB, and I stayed up for about a half hour, writing down my dreams and keeping my mind on LDing. When I went back to bed, I used the MILD technique. I wasn't very tired, but once I had repeated lucid dreaming mantras many times, I was ready to go to bed. I imagined myself in a dream walking home from school. Several times my brain drifted away, but I got it back on track pretty quickly. Then I found myself imagining I was flying along in the hallways in my school, thinking about lucid dreaming. I'm not completely sure if that was a dream or not, but I'm pretty sure it wasn't. All of a sudden I felt and heard a loud pulsing in my ears. I was terrified, I thought I was having sleep paralysis. Nothing happened. I made a note to myself, if it happened again, I would open my eyes to see if anything was different or scary, like in sleep paralysis. It happened a few more times, and once I remembered to open my eyes. Nothing happened. I was just in my bedroom, like normal. Somehow during all this I managed to fall asleep, thinking about lucid dreaming. In my dream I was in my technology class in school, completely naked. I thought it probably was a dream, but I was still rather self conscious. Hiding myself under a desk, I started talking to someone. She ignored me. It had to be a dream. I stood on the desk and shot out of the room up into space. Stars were everywhere, but there was nothing else. I wished to see Earth, and all of a sudden the plant shot out of nowhere, and I was back at my house. Although amazed, I decided to stay down on Earth. I began flying around in my neighborhood, using the bouncing on air method. I saw a mom, not mine, waving to me down by my driveway. I landed, and asked her where she was going. All she said was "goodbye." I said "not even a goodbye kiss?" and she bolted away over the tops of the trees. In the dream I was still lucid and had been doing reality checks to make sure I didn't sleep back into unawareness. But somehow the scene had saddened me. I did not know the person at all, but it somehow it had made me extremely emotional. I laid down on the ground and started crying. I thought to myself, if I keep crying like this, I'm going to lose my lucidity. At that moment, I was back in my room, and had a false awakening.
This was my best lucid dream yet! I'm really excited to do another WBTB tonight, and I'll report tomorrow on what happens.

The dream begins with me at a local Bart station (Bay area train service.) and seeing that the price for a ticket was over a thousand dollars. I was really confused by this at first, but figured it had turned into a luxury service. I then leave the station and continue walking until I find what looks like a giant warehouse where there is apparently a sale going on. As I explore the warehouse, I find in one room two vintage comic books that I think must be very expensive and start reading through. The first one is a collection of random super heroes, while the other one is some sort of space story.

The next dream has me on a bus, and I meet an old friend of mine on the bus. As I look out the window of the bus, I see a woman trying to put lipstick on a mannequin, and then walking over to a bench and sitting down with it. I then randomly do an RC, and it takes a moment to realize I'm breathing through my mouth with it closed and I go lucid. I ask my friend if he is my dream guide, and he asks me what that means, and I tell him I remember the challenge was to find my dream guide. I then remember I have to call out for my dream guide, and I turn to the other people on the bus asking if any of them are my dream guide. A woman in a blue dress stands up and says that she is my dream guide, and to prove it she tells me my full name. She then points to a building in the distance and tells me that terrorists have kidnapped her daughter and I have to go save her. My friend is suddenly able to move at superspeed and in a blur we are both at the top floor of the building, which is an empty office building, and I'm fighting guys with ski masks and shotguns. I grab a shotgun from one and use the back of it to hit him. I lose lucidity as the dream becomes me and my friend playing hockey and the dream ends with me seeing the stadium from the sky.

Went to bed around 9.30pm and set alarm for wbtb at 3.30am
Woke a few times and recorded dream and sat up for 1 hour wbtb from 3-4am

Laid back down at about 4.15am with Mantra ' I am dreaming ' as well as confirming with myself I am always able to leave my body easily and to enter the dream world is my greatest passion ✨✨✨

Yay this morning in Lucid Remembered Totm ' Ask a dream character what their favourite dream is/was'

Have been lying on my back and got to very clear space where my body felt asleep with mind vast as space - got to blissful places and vibration stages but slipped into clear and vivid NL at some point...turned onto my side at 5.45am. Went in and out of dreamlets for a bit then found myself in the dark/vastness of my consciousness suddenly aware what to do to get myself into the dream ( instead of just lying there and enjoying it as I often do) I start moving my dream body this way and that ...kind of like flipping over and Turing etc - hard to explain what I was doing - at the same time I am focusing on a prayer and visualisation which is of each of my family members one by one ; bringing the individual into the focus and forefront of my mind and making very strong prayers that everything in their life be bountiful/wonderful and all things good etc etc... The more I focused on this and the moving of my dream body, the clearer the feeling was that I was coming into my lucid dream - Wow , what an entrance though ... Not rehearsed but on hind site I have been thinking a bit about the power of prayer and goodness a lot recently and how it heals the mind. ...As Well as putting thought into what 'my' method of wild is 🌹


I am imagining that I am in our dark bedroom as the realisation that ' this is me conscious in my dream hits me fully - 🌠 I am Lucid - I easily slide out of/through the window and with the wonderful feeling of flight duck and dive over tree tops and flowering bushes - marvelling over the lush green gardens below me and coloured flowers also dotted about ...I land and enjoy being in this beautiful place ...
In the distance I see a bus going passed on the road which reminds me of the Totm to hop on and go for a journey to places Unknown - I don't feel like rushing out of the garden but remember then the Totm I am about to do ; a smart looking girl DC is walking firmly towards me so I ask her what her favourite dream is/was

' The happy ones' she says confidently looking me very directly in the eye
' And any specific one of those happy dreams?' I ask
' Not the unhappy ones' She says flatly
' Ok, thanks' I say and chuckle to myself🌸

I can't wait to meet her again and am deffinatelly spending more time pondering the beauty of the place and allowing myself ' time ' to ponder my place/existence within my dream - getting there 🌅🌌

Alright, I'm back now. Last couple lucids have not really been worth writing down, but last night I had a good one with a TOTM thrown in, so I figured I should write/type it.

I start out with a kinda weird nonlucid. All I remember was one part where I was with a bunch of guys in a Jeep flying through space. And somehow that didn't seem weird at all to me…

I woke up for a bit, and did sort of a lazy WBTB. I'm in a car with my parents, driving home for spring break. I look at my phone and see that the date is March 13. Weird, I don't remember March 3-12. In fact, why are my parents driving me home for spring break anyway? I usually drive myself. I ask my mom if I'm dreaming, and she says no. I plug my nose to double check, and I can breathe through it, so I become lucid. I decide to ask again, “Am I dreaming?”
“Of course not, honey!”
Wrong answer. I manage to phase out of the car and fly behind it for a bit. It's a purple minivan, not even my parents’ car. I pick it up by the back bumper and lift it off the ground. I swing it around and finally launch it off into the distance.



I stop to take a look around. I'm in this strange little Western town just off the highway that looks more like a speed trap than a city. I remember the advanced task to call out for your dream guide, and I think it'll be easy, since I already know what I'm looking for. Still, since I'm a bit of a completionist, I say “I am ready for my dream guide.” Nothing happens, so this time I shout it into the sky.

Just then, these two short men with cowboy hats walk out of this nearby saloon. They both kinda look like Yosemite Sam, but I notice that they have 3 rows of teeth. I'm kind of freaked out by this, and I hope to myself that they aren't actually my dream guides somehow. They ignore me though, and continue walking to my right. I turn around and thankfully see Vi’s familiar face. She motions me to follow her, so I do.

We walk into this building that looks like an arcade of sorts and head into a back room, where there's a small group of people already gathered and seated in a circle. Apparently this is a conference with other lucid dreamers and their dream guides. After Vi and I sit down, we start some kind of group discussion. Two more people walk in shortly after, and one of the members jokes about them being late. Another guy in the group jokes back, “It can hardly be considered late when half of us don't even exist in time and space.”

We go around the circle and introduce ourselves. I don't really pay attention, since I'm kind of amazed at how vivid and clear everything is, like I'm actually in the room. I start getting lost in the vividness, and actually start to destabilize. I try to hold on, but then the two people next to be grab onto my arms to help me stay grounded in the dream. It works, as the dream restabilizes and returns to the same vividness it had earlier. The meeting continues as normal, as if there was nothing weird about one of its members almost blinking out of existence.

The meeting doesn't take very long, so we soon head out into the arcade. The place is packed with people, but luckily no one is using the games themselves. I head over to this shooting gallery, and a guy hands me this airsoft rifle. I take aim at a target that's incredibly far away - I can hardly even see what I'm aiming for. I try to stabilize the gun, but I can't. I take two wild shots and somehow hit the target both times. I'm about to take a third shot, but the dream destabilizes.

I'm at home, getting ready to go to a concert. I suddenly get a call that the lead singer of the band has gone missing, and I have to take his place.

Fragment

I was in my backyard. Father took our cat out of garage and told me to drive somewhere with him. I was the driver.

MILD - shapeshifting, bonus TotM

I was in a forest with some DC's and my dog. It was dark and cold winter night. We were escaping from some kind of danger. We ran until we got closer to a mansion of some kind. It reminded me my neighbors house. We climbed up a huge rock just in time. A group of rotting undead attacked us. I knew that owner of the mansion set them free to kill us and take my dog. There was only one way of escape - electricity lines just above the rock. I slid down on the cable to courtyard, and ran the hell out of there. I realised that I'm in my home town, close to neighbors house. I looked back and saw my dog playing with wolves.

I decided to run away along the street. I thought that I should run quicker. I realised that it's a dream. Everything became more detailed and vivid. Time has changed, it was no longer a cold and dark winter night, but rather a bright and warm summer day. I ran into a huge farm complex that had enormous wheat fields, mechanics workshops, garages with tractors and combine harvesters and huge warehouses. There were many DCs walking around I though about a girl from my class, and she appeared nearby. I told her that it's a dream, and rushed inside one of the combines - a big, red combine harvester. She did the same. We drove around the complex smashing everything on our way, all while I was telling about possibilities that lucid dreams give. I drove into a dead end, where I couldn't drive back nor any further. I left the machine and ran back to garages and fields. I though about bike, and found one nearby. It had modifications that allowed using it at fields. I tried riding it, but I couldn't hold my balance. I left it and ran back to combine harvesters, but before I took another one, I recalled a bonus ToTM. I moved my left hand back, thinking about creating fire. Suddenly I felt a strong pain going quickly from fingers up my hand. Everything went black, I still felt the pain, but I could move my body. I moved back my right hand and though about creating ice. I felt really strong frostbite coming from fingers up my hand. I managed to stay lucid (spoiler).

Spoiler for Shapeshifting:

Blackness dispersed and I found myself in my kitchen. First thing that stood out was a silver platter lying on an oven. It was reflective like a mirror. I looked at my reflexion - it had brighter hair with different haircut, and was wearing a gray t-shirt with green color on the sides. Shapeshifting is my current lucid goal, so I though that I could use this mirror-like platter. I decided to change into a woman. I looked right, at the kitchen and thought about a girl from my class. Then I looked back at the mirror and saw her. My body changed accordingly. The most intensive were feelings of my breasts growing and genitals changing to female counterparts. This turned me on, and penis instead of changing into vagina started growing bigger and thicker. Dream started losing stability when it took a bit spiral shape, but I calmed myself and assumed my normal form. I noticed that I'm no longer in kitchen, but in the toilet, standing in front of mirror. I looked left at the wall, and then back into mirror. I was undecided in what woman I could change, so I decided that SubC can surprise me. Looking at my reflexion I saw an asian woman with face somehow similar to mine, but with black long hair. I managed to shapeshift fully this time. I fingered myself a bit. I felt my hand going inside my body, but I could only feel touch - nothing more. The dream started to slowly fade. I wondered how a DC would react when looking at me right now, and thought that one should enter the room. It was a naked, muscular dude. Without words, he went straight for an anal sex. It wasn't bad, but not pleasurable either. The dream faded away shortly after and I woke up.

I had another LD, yay! Yeterday while running (50 min) I was practising awareness. Every song I changed a sense. It was hearing, seeing and touching - I took the inspiration from here: http://www.dreamviews.com/attaining-...cid-dreams.htm. I did this also before sleep while laying on my bed (without songs, same as orginal method). I also drank 2 glasses of fresh apple-carrot juice at the evening. I feel asleep for ~4h, then I wrote one my non-lucid, played 2-3 logic games on my phone, read one thread on DV and tryed to WILD with counting from 100 to 0 with saying between numbers "lucid dream" (ginsan's gold method ;p) and focusing on my breath (I also thought about LD, bonus task from TOTM). When I finished counting I tryed to stay calm. I said to myself that I did everything and now I must be patient. I had some random thoughts about LD in my head anyway. I spend awoken ~2h.

Non-lucid parts
Lucid parts

#4 LD
During non-lucid dream I went to sleep (or at least I laid down). When I raised my head I saw an integrated circuit which was moving by itself (induced by https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WhR7DmSp1Zg, lol). I did RC and I got lucid. However I was going through different settings, all of them were dark, I think there were also FAs. I stayed focus hopefully. I was rubbing my hends to stabilize it but it wasn't working well. Then I sterted rolling on the floor to get any touching senations and it worked a little. I shouted few commans, like "Vivid dream!" (I was hearing myself) but it didn't work. I was in my room but it was empty and dark. There were some door/window and I tryed to see behind them some scene but it didn't work either. So I was clever enough - I went to the window, blinds were lowered but I saw faintly a sun behind them. I was pulling them up (there were 2 layers of them) and voilà! Light! I saw my old furnishings. There were dust everywhere and I looked at the moment at wooden cat which I don't have in RL. I again felt too certain and I went out to the kitchen. There was dark but not empty, I saw that it's snowing outside and I felt happy about it. I went to the balcony, I didn't feel temperature, the snow was too nice to watch. I flew up, I had to decide what to do and first thought was about 1st basic task from TOTM - "Hop on a bus/tram/train and leave for places unknown. Describe where it takes you." I live close to the railway tracks so that was easy to find. I wasn't into this task really but I had to decide sth. I passed some guy and I thought that he doesn't see me because I'm invisible (like it would an OBE). I was above the tracks, I did RC with nose and rubbed hands for sec. One train was going immediately, I tryed to catch it but it was too fast and I couldn't get enough speed. So I turned back, there was another train (and one more I think). I was floating in the air for a while because of changing the direction. It was going up through the spiral tracks. I catched the top of it - I knew that it will stop in a moment because we were almost on some station (I thought that it's similar to RL and I was disappointed a bit but it wasn't so I wasn't 100% lucid apparently, don't know if this counts for TOTM then). Station was called "Shirokuma" and the setting was from anime "Shirokuma Cafe". I don't remember it very vivid, however it was nice and green, there was a panda corner (like in ZOO, the anime is i.a. about it). There weren't any trains and tracks, I only remember a sign with the station's name. Probably because of my bad attitude and instability I loose the lucidity. I woke up I think (maybe FA?), I was too tired to wrote it down and I did it after some time of sleep.

Ritual: Woke up at dawn after a DILD in which I was joyously flying over a gorgeous verdant landscape and admiring an enormous white castle. The detailed report took two pages and I don't see the need to reproduce them here, however, I'm amused to see that my initial notes on it look like an odd little poem:

party, paul
crash in kitchen
bird
ceiling, sky
oh, this is a dream, isn't it
fly up, clarity, joy
look at that castle, it's huge!
hello everyone, hello!

While flying around I wondered if I should try a TOTM, and remembered that February was ending but that I hadn't looked at the March list yet. After recording that dream, I reviewed the new TOTMs and went back to bed. At first I tried my vibrating alarm, but after an hour of unproductive sleep, decided that my state of mind was not suitable for that method and took it off. It was 8am by this point and my hopes weren't high, so all I did was think about the TOTMs as I went back to bed. I was especially drawn to the one where you ask DCs about their dream, because I thought I remembered planning to try that myself at one point but had never gotten around to it.

I actually did end up having another DILD in which I performed this task, but it wasn't very satisfying because I failed to wake and write promptly. This was annoying because during the dream itself I had been taking pains to try to remember the specific responses given by the DCs, but by the time I woke up fully at almost 10am, my memories had become blurred and vague. Here's what I can piece back together.

DILD: I was in a room with three male friends when I realized I was dreaming, and that the presence of the DCs was a perfect set up for the task I wanted to try. I approached one of the guys and asked him to tell me about a dream he had recently. He said something to the effect that he didn't remember any dreams but was curious about them.

What would it be like not to dream, I wondered—to be aware only of the moments when one is actually awake? It sounds like a kind of half-existence, a disturbing prospect.

I went over to the second guy, who was sitting on a barstool nearby, and discovered that his appearance had changed. Now he resembled... a jawa? Except his robe was red... no, a dark pink. Weird. When he spoke, his voice sounded high and girlish. I don't remember the details of his reply, but it was also in the negative. No dreams to report.

I approached the third guy and asked if he remembered any dreams. My hopes weren't high, but I was pleasantly surprised when he said he had dreamed about a location where HEMA could be practiced. (HEMA stands for Historical European Martial Arts, something I've been practicing since last year.) He started telling me about a weapon that he called a "brouheea" or something like that. I couldn't make sense of the word and asked him to repeat it a few times, so he showed me an example of one that was in a display case on the wall. It was shaped like a tiny axe, about six inches long, and the label demonstrated that the word had a complex spelling with a silent last syllable, like "Brouheeages." I thought it sounded vaguely Dutch.

When I finally woke up some time later, it was frustrating not to be able to recall if the three guys, who I had thought of as "friends" within the context of the dream, had represented specific WL friends or had simply been random DCs who felt familiar at the time (I get this a lot).

+ son and "gf" friend: I'm rooting for him to take her hand and hold it as they walk and he does!

The power goes off and we rush to make sure that the kids haven't been stolen.

Son is off with GF's parents and they're talking to him and he's younger, I go to him and he's eating a big bowl of cereal at the table with them, and I ask him it's he's OK eating here or he could come back to us (parents). The wife of GF parent couple is spouting random comments about computer languages. "The problem with (???) [language] was that the compiler was written in RATFOR". I say "I've always found I gravitated towards USEFUL languages....just kidding"

Son is lagging behind with GF inside while we walk away. I hope he works up the nerve to have his first kiss with her. He comes out and looks really happy, I say "well SOMEBODY has a spring in his step....?!" and he explains that she said she likes him and wants to be with him, but MZ keeps saying that HE is her boyfriend even though she doesn't like him

+ awesome flying/gliding with hand control down CD by LH museum, fly into the arms of my wife standing on the side of the road with our kids. I wanted to take the kids back up the hill in the car and show them how to do it. What a great idea, with a car you could effortless just drive up and keep flying down again!

Then colleague is showing me some doors I can't see them people are in the way. We're standing outside the offices of a small tech company and waiting for tech support, each office has a door to the outside and the pattern of lights visible through the windows indicates which office will be the next to help the customers. But the windows are all dark. Someone says that means they're all out, I say "(it's friday?), maybe the lights are off for a LAN deathmatch party?". I open a door and see a dark office inside with a game running on a monitor and say "See!?"

It's dark now outside and we're still waking for tech support. We've set up 3 ping-pong tables, and people are playing and drinking beer and eating, the food and drinks are on the tables. I see one guy try a couple of serves, he doesn't know how to play and the awkwardly hits the ball off the end of the table every time.

It's light now and in the distance I see huge pizzas covering tables/the whole area with people seated at the tables. Hundreds of square feet of pizza! I declared, "And the land was flowing with PIZZA and honey!" They were bringing more on open bed carts (like the big ones at Home Depot), they were all just plain crusts actually except for some were stuffed with cheese like quesadillas.

BTS mojo
bunch of quick dreams while dozing

+ (semi) with GL outside door decide to kiss her, feel her lips, basically lucid but no affirmation, try for quick BJ but stop, we go inside and talk with people there

+ my wife points out the broken glass in our kitchen which I'm leaning up against, I say that's what you get when you hold a gorilla party in your house (which we had done earlier)

I'm sneaking in to a large auditorium where they're keeping the gorillas. It's dark. I stick my head in and I see off to the right, the shadows of some guards sparring. I decide to get out of there and get kind of stuck and can't see and hope the gorillas don't get me.

+ wife is catering a huge event for hundreds of people (how can she do that, she's never done anything like that before?), a guy is setting up the audio equipment and I look at it noticing channels that I think are the audio signal, an assistant hands the blocks to him and he puts it together and music plays out. Then woodwind musicians are setting up around me, I look around and I'm surrounded by woodwind players in a circle. They're playing. There are two guys of my instrument. They're good. I have my instrument and want to play along but there's nowhere to sit, "Yeah, play!" they say. So I decide to play standing up. They're already playing a rhythmic tune kind of like a fanfare (like the 20th century fox movie opening music, sort of similar) so I start out a low G, "dut duhh duhh, dut dut dut duhhhhh, " move to a B, and the others come in on the G, now we're in harmony, "dut duhh duhh, dut dut dut duhhhhh, " I move to D and another comes in on G and the other moves to B so now we have 3-way harmony, "dut duhh duhh, dut dut dut duhhhhh, " then I go crazy playing fast scales up and down.

+ garage old dog "L" growling (he's hungry) neighbors in garage we have tea, where's the teapot there it is, watch it in operation it's really strange and has lots of moving parts like a pumping bellows. I'm stuck there's no way through the stuff in the garage, I'm falling over the things trying to move through and pull myself hard on things to stop from falling over.

+ LD#180 I'm up on the street outside our garage, I want to go flying to the park. I notice PG and CG are there, that's odd, they're never together, haven't seen them in a long time together, but I don't want to "stop and chat" since I want to go flying. I decide to be polite to the elderly mother and say hello. She is just a disembodied head at this point sitting on the ground at the end of their driveway. She's wearing a (red?) scarf wrapped around blocking out her whole face. The head sprouts leg/wing fleshy things and waddles/runs away back towards her house, she got scared of me.

I go back down my driveway and I'm holding a really large version of one of those decorative wine bottles that has a long, skinny top and a large, bulbous bottom. This one has been in the family for a long time. It's about two-meters long. I'm holding the tall skinny end trying to set it down gently but the bulb hits the concrete garage floor too hard and breaks. The handle breaks in my hands as well, I'm pretty upset by this, after all this time and it just breaks. I'm pissed because I don't want to clean this up, my dad says "that's OK I have time I'll clean it up." I go back up to the street, and I sense my sister behind me, I feel slightly inhibited to fly by this but will go ahead anyway.

I point at where the head thing was, and say out loud, "THAT was a dream thing!" I'm now lucid. Quick nose pinch confirms. So I decide to go flying. I remember a new goal of going to the Playboy mansion for some fun. I see a house a few blocks away where a party is going on. I decide that is the Playboy party and head towards it. I'm flying really slowly, though, I imagine I have jets blasting out of my feet to propel me forwards but it doesn't do anything. I fly over a guy sitting at a table below me. I air swim and make slow progress towards the party but get there, and I imagine there will be all sorts of hawt girls there. I land and I start talking with (the parents of one of the "bunnies"?) and
I wake up.

Dream
I was lying in my bed after waking at 5:40 due to a car crash in the neighbourhood that knocked out all the power (we only just got it back). I ended up having a WILD as I was falling asleep, I felt myself seep into the dream state while fully aware of what was happening. I lay still and let it come, as it was happening I moved my body in the dream world to the edge of a cliff by the beach, I hopped over the ledge still holding on with my hands and dropped myself down. I landed solid, I wasn't sure if it would work since I could still feel my bed. I then think I walked a bit before losing the dream state.. I stayed still and let myself WILD back in again, this time I told myself to stabilize. I did this by clapping a few times as I walked a long the beach I had been on previously. I started shouting something to see if I'd say it in RL, I couldn't actually tell because the sounds in the dreams doubled up and it just confused me. I lost the lucidity, then wriggled a bit and didn't manage to WILD again .

Note to self: don't move.

Created Monday 29 February 2016

I managed to get a late WILD today. There were also fragments of various other dreams I remember, one before my first awakening, one before my LD attempts, and another that occured between those attempts. First one had me and my sister exiting a suburban apartment complex. The next one had me watching the 2012 Ninja Turtles cartoon, where an unusually large Splinter fights off a snake-formed Karai in the sewers, until he calms her down with a picture of her mother. Finally, another dream involved me, my sister, and my nephew watching what was supposedly an anime movie for the original Dragon Ball, though all I saw was a sentient steam roller flattening living furniture.

Spoiler for Spoilered to save space:

Dream 1 - An Uneventfully Amusing Search For a Guide

Scene 1 - I Have To Go Now, My Dream Needs Me
I felt a familiar whirling motion in my head, a clear sign I was (almost) dreaming.

Before anything, I calmed myself with heavy breaths for about a minute. I then immediately thought of the TOTMs, the Dream Guide task in particular. And so, while keeping my eyes closed, I proceeded.

"I am ready for my Dream Guide.", I intoned. Nothing seemed to happen. I tried again. "I am ready for my Dream Guide." Still nothing. I continued, this time getting louder. "I am ready for my Dream Guide! I AM READY FOR MY DREAM GUIDE!" Null.

Got concerned of my state at this point. Maybe I needed to see? Well, not with my eyes, they were covered by a sleeping mask. But with "Dream Eyes?" So I uttered those words various times. "Dream Eyes! Dream Eyes!" Like before, no results.

Something else then. A change of scenery, perhaps? So, I imagined myself flying out of the room. As it would occur, that's exactly what happened, where I felt myself floating in the same posture I slept in as I kinda slid off the window. Blinding sunlight seeped through my eyelids, whereupon I transitioned immediately.

Scene 2 - Just a Giant Doll
The visuals started off bright, but highly blurred. Wasn't sure where I was at first, only knowing that I was standing on ground, and that I was still aware of my dream state.

Took a thorough look around the place. In a few seconds, the environment became clearer and clearer. I could immediately see large, green stalks surrounding me. Or so I thought, for a better look revealed these to be enormous garden plants, unkempt blades of grass and leaft weeds the size of small trees. Indeed, I could note a huuuuge house a short distance to my left, its outer walls light colored horizontal wood panels, and the sill plate a lattice frame painted white.

Now, I woulda just took off exploring, but decided to stick with the tasks. So, I once again called out, "I am ready for my Dream Guide". Suddenly, I felt myself getting pulled and dragged away for a moment. When I come to, I see that I'm already within the giant house, the kitchen, exactly, as noted by the building sized counter and cupboards a distance ahead, while the floor beneath me was of vast vinyl tiles. To my right was a square, thin legged wooden table, also very big, of course.

I glance behind, only to see a startling sight before me: a tremendous, light-skinned, bespectacled giantess, well over a hundred feet tall, big enough that I likely didn't even reach her ankle. She seemed petite for her size, and, more prominently, was drawn in as an anime-esque cel-shaded 3D figure. Her black, straight hair reached her shoulder. Moreover, she was dressed in a jean jacket and jean skirt ensemble, the latter reaching her knees, all while wearing soft, brown leather flats.

For a moment, I could only gaze up in awe. The giant woman didn't seem to notice me, just starting off into the distance. It's probably for this reason that she walked forward heedlessly in my direction. She would have squashed me had I not took a grand leap backwards, well, relatively speaking, as she closed that distance with a single step. I looked up again, and saw she was now gazing down at me, smiling faintly. Good, I had her attention. Of course, I had to ask her the obvious question.

"Are you my Guide?" There was no response. So, I asked again. "Are you my Guide?" She tilted her head in confusion, but remained silent.

By this point, I kinda guessed I wasn't going to get much from her. Just a lifeless doll, like a video game character. Pity, but oh well. It was fun either way. I floated up to her at face level, telling her I was off to do other tasks, and bade her farewell. Of course, she did nothing but stare idly.

From here, my sights were set on another task: creating fire and ice in each hand. Shouldn't be too hard, I thought, given I've done similar things in previous dreams. Didn't really notice an incoming transition.

Scene 3 - Can't Flick Out Fire Nor Frost
The visuals were dim, and the clarity in the background fluctuated wildly. I was now stepping out from an unknown place into an outdoor hallway, blue-ish dawn light reflecting off the cement walls and floors. I retained awareness, and was, at this point, regular sized relative to the environment.

With clear purpose, I raised and looked upon both my hands, which remained consistently clear compared to the rest of the environment. They seemed a bit rougher than normal, bearing scars and calluses that I'm sure don't actually exist. Anyway, I tensed up my fingers, and tried visualizing an aura emanating from each, blue for the left, and red for the right. I could somewhat see static of such description flickering from them, all while said extremities grew numb with a very faint sensation of coolness and warmth, respectively. Progress, but nowhere near enough. I concentrated more, but this yielded no further results until it ended completely.

So, I tried a different approach, thinking of how spellcasting worked in other games, Skyrim in particular. At this, dark, fist sized glowing orbs were formed in my trembling hands, as planned. A flick of my wrist, I thought, and I'll get what I need. I launched these spheres into the air, which promptly vanished to the sound of a swhishing noise. But, aside from that, this produced no obvious results. I repeated again, straining myself further and further, but nothing.

Suddenly, my view discorporates during one of these castings, where I could see my previous perspective fit within a rectangular corner of my view, as if it occurred within a small screen. Well, most of my previous perspective, as I couldn't quite see my right hand. As disorienting as this was, I continued my attempts, seeing and feeling myself forming and releasing more energy to no other effect. Eventually, I realign fully with my body, though the visuals deteriorated greatly by that point.

And then, I felt terrible discomfort in my jaw, where I sensed my upper front teeth have somehow been shoved between my lower teeth. "Oh, yeah," I thought. "Forgot I slept on my side today." Now, I knew better than to think this was actually happening. Whatever the case, I was snapped out of the dream that very instant. Guess even thinking of your real body would do as such after all...