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I wake up in my bed, thinking something was a bit off. I try a nose plug. Yay! I could breathe! I try walking outside to fly but I began floating involuntarily. Not again! I'll try something a bit different this time. I float up higher to go through the ceiling. I pass through several levels before arriving at what appears to be the top floor. It's a bit small and there's little objects everywhere. The thing that I notice the most are these Barbie dolls with pink, frilly mini skirts. I find the room I'm in only has three walls. One is open to the outside. I try floating through the ceiling again, only to find I'm bringing the up entire room with me! I go outside to fly. I'm in my subconscious interpretation of San Ramon ,CA, over the Chevron headquarters. I decide to land by the offices. I turn my attention to TOTM and look for a random DC. I find a tall, older man. I ask him what he's thankful for. "Nothing," he says and walks away. Oh..Kay... I put my hand behind my back and call for a very attractive brunette co-worker, different from the girl I usually summon. Nothing. I guess I have to settle for the same short, young, very attractive, blonde female co-worker. Not a bad thing. I stick my hand behind my back and call for her. I feel her tapping it which is very unusual of her. She always lays her hand on mine very smoothly. I turn around and summoned her perfectly as usual. I go in for the usual hug and kiss but she pushes me and starts to walk away. "Not today, I'm not in a good mood." she says. I follow her and ask her what she's thankful for. "What?!" she asks still walking away. I woke up.

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Date: 06.11.13
Total sleep: 8 h (3 am - 11 am)
Daytime Techniques: oddities - 10 min. back, only 3 times for some minutes - trying to sense everything around and inside me - like in Joshi´s ADA tut
Lucid Techniques: repeating mantras before sleeping and in between dream-parts; after final waking up I tried a bit hapazardly to WILD but lost patience real quick - heard the traffic outside - got itches here and there - gave up very quickly - maybe too awake - or maybe happy to be done with all the stress while dreaming.
Recall Techniques: criggling notes for the first part - the other two awakenings not - the second I had sweated through my pyjamas and tried writing, but was shivering and had to change clothes and lost it - third time I jumped out of bead, happy to be out of the nightmare
Fell Asleep: 3 am (bad girl - and had drunk alcohol too - like Friday - there was also impaired recall then)
Dream Fragment number one - Title: Hunting Dog-Loving Nazi-Killers
Dream:
Really bad recall - but anyway:
I was coming to investigate a murder of a girl and a boy with an other investigator.
It was a nasty affair - kids pretty much chopped up (shouldn´t have peeked into the Sally Hook thread..).
But their dog was missing - and we got shown pictures of a beautiful pedigree dog.
Then it was obvious, it must have been the Nazis, camping somewhere in the woods - because they like such dogs, and sure had taken it with them - otherwise it would be howling around the corpses.
So - we made out into the woods - it was winter and we walked and looked and walked - and suddenly I got lucid.
I forgot about the planned hand-rubbing - just remembered to really put my full attention towards a detail somewhere - still a bit concerned about the dream - wanting overlook - I choose a branch fork a bit in the distance and quite high up.
Sure enough - this fork "sucked" me in and I was up there (no flying like I usually did when lucid = air-swimming - I was just "zooming" there).
The last lucid thought I had was - damn - now I don´t have a body - what now?
Next thing - I saw that camp and lost lucidity and was somehow on the ground again - to go on Nazi-hunting.

We came to that camp and it was not as expected - no Nazis but the dog alright and many skinny scared people, who had some sort of problem with a fire-magic they had tinkered with and which burned them out now.
Now it starts getting all jumbled up - the above I wrote down, but I don´t have anything coherent from there on any more.
It seemed all one story what followed - with one awakening in between - but all a horrible stress.
I was with a sort of tribe of people who had brought nasty stuff upon themselves and we were constantly fighting, trying to catch someone or something and chain it down or whatever.

Strangely - much later was another moment, we were at a lake - and again - I got lucid - but not a lot - and tried to zoom over to the other shore of the lake for some reason - well - I got off the ground and can´t remember anything else from there.

All else are only pictures or mini-scenes - see snippets later.
There were also some strange sexual rituals somewhere connected - but I was only observer.
Now I write - it is a lot I can write - but the other days, except Friday - I had whole storylines.

Awake: after that first fragment - forgot to look, all overall 11 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) 7/8
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) mostly maybe 5 but twice shortly lucid first time much clearer
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) That fragment felt like an afternoon - all nightmare together - maybe a week?
Emotions: shocked, angry, only a little afraid, also a bit of morbid fascination, but most of all and by far most intense - stress - I had to prevent bad stuff from happining all the time it felt - I did manage - but it took my all
Dream Signs: There was a mini-scene interspersed, where I was in an audience for a performance - and suddenly an old schoolmate turned up with the maths material I had missed the class for - he gave me his notes to copy

I can remember 3 dreams from last night. One was lucid.

1. I was going to my school in a bike. At halfway i realized i was wearing underwear to my school. I went back and changed it.

2. Oops i forgot it!

3. In my dream i was reading about a celebrity in wikipedia. I noticed he was dead in 2010. (He's not really dead i actually read his wiki yesterday). I became lucid. Sadly i can't remember anything after it.

After reading a bit more about WBTB studies that Laberge wrote before my standard sleep time, I decided to doze off and wake up at 5AM. I did doze off and woke up at 3:30 AM, finally did a longer WBTB(30 mins) than I have before and thought about how badly I wanted an LD.

In all honesty, I don't remember if this was a DILD or a WILD because it happened quite fast and it was kind of odd.

Onto the dream:

After sitting on my bed the last couple minutes of the WBTB, I decided to lay down and eventually I found myself watching a dream, in which I decided to sort of just "jump into" this dream. An interesting experience and I notice it quite a bit more in my recent lucid dreams.

It seemed as if I was outside of some sort of school in the daylight and was walking around, so with the rush of excitement I reality checked by flying into the air(It's fun, try it ), I was flying through the air fast and everything was really fast-paced, I noticed this and remembered my other rushed dreams that fade away fast, so I slowed down and just went with the flow.

After a bit more flying, this guy was in a really small fighter jet and he was covered by some material, I could only see an outline of his head bulging from this material. I for some reason kicked him into the back of his fighter and he screamed more as I did this, but I kept going until the screaming stopped , It seemed somewhat fake and not to vivid so I wasn't worried, after this I must've close my eyes(Damnit, I keep doing this..) and I felt myself transferring to waking life. Was going to DEILD but I felt like I couldn't for whatever reason.

I also notice that I have so much more awareness of myself than the environment, it kind of sucks because my feeling is the only thing is vivid, I need to work on this.

Honestly, I have no idea what it was. I think it was an unintentional WILD but for the most part the experience was identical to my previous DEILD experiences.

So, I was woken up by my mother at 5:30. She thought I had school today, but I didn't (I had forgotten to tell her that we didn't have school today) so she went to go do some things. I considered doing a more proper WBTB but I was tired so I didn't bother and I went back to sleep. I feel like at some point I had lost consciousness and went to sleep, but the next thing I knew, I was aware (with my eyes closed) and a green and blue spiral was in front of my eyes, identical to my previous two DEILD experiences. I heard a very heavy and turbulent wind blowing around me (think of a strong wind during a storm near the sea; that sort of whistly wind). I immediately noticed what was happening and that I could enter a lucid dream, so I tried to imagine a generic tropical island. For a brief moment, the green and blue swirl faded away and I felt (and "saw" through my eyelids but i'm nearly certain this was a hallucination) an intense, warm light on my face and the turbulent wind stopped, but after a couple moments the wind picked back up and the swirl came back. I tried imagining the tropical island again, and soon I entered a dream, barely lucid.

I was not in my body, yet I could still see. I had absolutely no control over myself at this point, but I was hovering around a tiny ice-covered island dotted with penguins, getting a view of the whole thing before I was taken close to my own body stumbling in some snow (sort of like my first DEILD, where I hovered around a zelda-style dungeon as my mind generated it and my consciousness zoomed back into my body at the entrance when it was done). I looked at myself from a short distance away, and I thought to myself that I had to keep my awareness up. I rubbed my hands together quickly and focused on the heat it generated (bizarrely enough it was fairly warm on the polar island). My consciousness zoomed back into my body. I began to explore the island on foot, but unfortunately my awareness and recall started tanking and I lost lucidity. I can't recall what happened, but I do remember the end of the dream; I was looking for food on some sort of a futuristic base in a jungled area whilst fighting off aliens or something.




What surprises me most is that this resembled my previous two DEILDs a lot, especially the first one. In the first one, I saw the blue-green spiral and heard a turbulent wind. This eventually died down, after which I heard a very friendly feminine voice close to my face saying "Wake up, [name]. Wake up. Can you hear me? Save me..." after which I "asked" to be taken to a dungeon to conquer. Then, as I explained above, I saw the dungeon being generated from a distance without my body or control of my body and my consciousness zoomed back into my body when it was finished. In the second one, I saw the blue-green spiral (so far it has been identical every time, the only time I had a different visual hallucination was in this one when I saw the bright light) and heard and felt the wind, though this time it sounded vaguely magical and it felt like it was spiraling as if it were a hurricane. I imagined a jungled island like I did now, and my (real) eyes opened and I saw my bedroom as if it had been jungleified. I tried to examine it more closely, but it became my real room and I was fully awake.

Very strange how the spiral and the wind crops up every time... I wonder if it could mean something. I'm not sure if this was DEILD or WILD but I don't really care much.

LUCID
*I remember telling him hey you should stay lucid in the dream always. He didn't want to because it was to intense he choose to be in a state of non lucidity. Then I started to fly showing him how this was. I flew with great precision and composer. I floated above him thinking I will always watch over him.

NON LUCID
*My brothers old girlfriend was so happy to see me that she gave me a hug and didn't let me go. I thought ok you can let go now kind of weird being that I am not attracted to my brothers girlfriend at all. She was with her friend who looked just like her and was kind of cute. Then I noticed Thrangu Rinpoche who is a great master. I sat next to him and bowed with out really knowing what to say.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some 2D platformer, where i was moving around some green floating platforms and moving crates to make bridges appear. One of bridges was glitchy and worked in reverse.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was talking to somebody and we had some disagreement, suddenly various enemies from serious sam series started appearing and it turned into video game and i've had to fight my way through some rooms using double shotgun. There was one room with kleer skeletons being stuck in decorations. Then suddenly as i enter one of rooms i am back at home, i notice that there"s someone glitch-stuck in the wall and i feel that i am dreaming, i try to stabilize but dream fades out.

Dream 3:

I was playing some shmup that looked like something of Exceed series, closer to Exceed 3rd. There was a boss fight and boss was moving around the screen releasing easily dodgeable circular spread of red projectiles. Then boss suddenly releases dense circle f white projectiles, which i have to bomb, then i defeat the phase and boss moves to next one. Next one goes very similar to one Exceed 3rd extra boss pattern with 3 projectiles creating spinning waves of smaller projectiles. Then next pattern boss starts releasing alot of red projectiles by sides, walling down, and then semi-aimed walls of triangle projectiles. it gets ridiculous but i manage to dodge. Then last pattern goes off with circular projectile spam. I defeat the boss and message box with dragon talking appears and says that i should try higher difficulty level or something like that.

Dream 4(fragment):

I was looking out of window and noticed a brown dragon behind a tree.

I dreamed about abandoned, crumbling, overgrown overpasses and train tracks through the wilderness. I clung to the bottom of one, like monkey bars. Some friends and I went into the wilderness to explore, but we were afraid of getting lost. We ran across another group of people. In our explorations, we cut through a lot of grass and underbrush, and I was worried about the impact we were having on the landscape.

I then dreamed that I got a job at a shop in a historic section of a city. It was a job at a candy shop, and it was partly commission-based. My mother didn't want me to take it. She said the area was "too dangerous".
I was at the outside cafe section of a nearby restaurant when I went lucid. The restaurant was inside of a converted Victorian style house. When I realized I was dreaming, I immediately went inside to look for a specific DC I really wanted to see. I didn't see him. Instead, there was a waiter who was in his late 30s but mostly bald. I covered my eyes and tried to imagine that he was the DC. When I uncovered them, he had changed a little bit; his face had morphed, and was a little blurry, and tufts of hair were coming out of the side of his head, and he looked a little... melted. I got very frustrated.
I recall that my surroundings were hazy. I recall the restaurant having a lot of dark wood in its decor, and being a fine dining/upscale sort of place.

Review:
I think I went lucid because I realized the area I was in was unfamiliar and I did not recall how I got there, and this was a cue that I was dreaming. I have also just randomly gone lucid a lot out of "habit" - I am used to habitually questioning reality, now, so I also do it while I am dreaming as well, which I suppose is the whole point of ADA. This has led to a gradual but measurable increase in lucid dreams. Three years of practice are finally paying off.

For anybody who is just getting started, remember this: it took a year and a half of trying before I had my first lucid dream.

I need to work on remembering to stabilize and observe before trying to do anything. I've been frustrated at the haziness of my lucids lately, but I also have not been observing and stabilizing as I ought to. I need to work on vividness and stabilization. I miss the beautiful landscapes of my first few lucids... I've stopped observing and gotten too impatient, and it's backfiring.

I try too often to exert direct control. I think my attempt to change the waiter may have been a tad too direct. I still wouldn't call it a complete failure - I did succeed at partially changing his features.

Things I could have done:
- Asked the waiter to seat me, sat down at the table, and waited for the DC I was trying to find to show up at the time we'd agreed on.
- Continued to look for the DC in the crowd.
- Looked for the table that I knew the DC was waiting at.
- Used the restaurant doorway to go somewhere that I knew the DC was at (scene change).
- Reached behind myself and felt for the DC's hand.

So, tonight will be another night - and hopefully, another lucid. I need to remember to use my environment to my advantage.

The last few days I haven't been able to remember many dreams. Two nights in a row were just empty, and then one morning I woke up remembering 5+ dreams, and the next night after that came out empty again.
But this morning a few minutes after I awoke, I recalled my digital watch in a dream (very white simple watch. Very easy to remember and I thought it would be great to use for dreams.) In the dream I checked the time, and then re-checked it, and I realized the time had changed!

Woop!

Instead of doing something smart like checking out where I was or doing cool stuff, I kept checking my watch. I made up numbers in my head and made them appear on my watch, again and again. I thought it was so cool. I'm dreaming!! Yay!

I've done this TWICE now, just checking out my number-changing watch. The first time (a couple of weeks ago or something) I think I was too excited and simply disappeared from the lucid dream into another dream. In the second, last night, I was definitely conscious a lot longer.

Next, I'll try to turn my head! I sometimes think I might just be too dumb when I'm dreaming :p

3rd person, I'm looking down at a wide stone staircase in a castle, and descending the stairs there's this woman wearing buckskin who I think of as some kind of hunter, she's talking with the king. She's saying the words "-get our answers."

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

I'm taking my IRL youngest sister, L., to the sands to get her first dragon. (Relevant to upcoming IRL event today, sans dragons.) (Edit: Nevermind, the IRL event actually did wind up involving dragons. Or the word 'dragon', anyway.) I was talking with a few older relatives about the dragons, and L. kept trying to hurry us up, anxious about getting there in time to see the dragons hatch; but for the rest of us this is all old hat, so we wasted time talking, and now we're running late. We keep telling L. that it's fine, we'll make it on time, and even if we miss the hatching you've still got a window of a few hours after the dragons hatch to bond with them. But when we get down to the sand, the eggs are already gone. We have to catch up with the hatchlings in the barn instead.

Before we leave for the barn, I see what I think of as a king cobra in the sand - it's huge, as wide as a person, which I think of as normal for king cobras. I pick L. up and there's a chase sequence that ends with me tossing the snake over a wall, but then I notice a scratch on my finger. It must have bit me.

I can tell I'm starting to pass out. I go inside a house and find my IRL sister S. with a friend of hers, and I tell them about the snake bite and ask them to call the hospital or treat it somehow. The friend takes my hand with the bite and looks at the veins, which look broad and red and cloudy, like they've swollen or burst under the skin, and she gets me some cream to put on my skin. I recognize it as some ordinary skin cream that's not going to help, and I try to convince S. to take me to the hospital before I pass out.

(Woke up with my hand hurting where the snake bit it - turns out I really do have a tiny scratch there IRL, might be a papercut. Just after I finished writing this down, I got a phone call from S, letting me know she'd been taken to the hospital on account of almost passing out from unknown causes. A few hours and a not-too-serious diagnosis later, I tried to get a little more sleep.)

I'm lying in bed in some mansion, with a few of S's friends around bothering me until I get up and go somewhere with them. As I walk through a doorway into the hall, I realize this is a dream. It's not as vivid as I'd like - I can see everything fine, but it doesn't feel quite real, more like watching something on a screen - so I try a mantra to make it more vivid. Instead, everything disappears. (In retrospect, that seems obvious. I was focusing on the words instead of the surroundings.)

Next scene I remember is a woman using the family name Gale, returning to a Spanish-style house on the west coast, overlooking the sea. She's lived here a few times over the years, and for a moment I see it in sepia tones and with flowers in the windows, as she's remembering an old photograph from when she'd first lived here with her two daughters, before she became immortal. She's thinking that even though she's coming back earlier than expected this time - something on her mind about trouble on the east coast - she was still gone long enough that she can pass herself off as her own cousin.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #158: Thankful

Wife and I are starting a company that will manufacture a brand new type of video game console. I'm standing in the middle of a park with her while we pitch the idea to about a half dozen investors while they ask us questions about it. Wife's doing all the talking and I'm impressed with how well she's presenting the idea.

The console is apparently based entirely around a light gun. (Think Duck Hunt from the old Nintendo Entertainment System days.) We present several potential light gun designs, all of which have very kiddie designs. One even has a little plastic teddy bear sitting on top.

Wife is going over the details of how we stack up against our competitors when I see my friend "CV" about fifty feet away, looking around. I believe she's come to support us so I walk up to greet her. There's a glass tip jar nearby which supporters of our project can shove money into.

CV puts two dollars in the jar and I thank her. "I think this project is going to be a huge success," she says, explaining why she contributed money.

I respond, "It's only money, right?"

For some reason she finds this hilarious. "My husband doesn't see money that way! But he'll spend money on... <can't recall this part>" I thank her again and walk back toward where Wife is giving her presentation, but now she and the investors have vanished. I feel terrible, thinking that I've been gone so long Wife had to finish everything up without me and it looks like I rudely walked out on the meeting. Fortunately, I realize that it's all a dream.

I begin walking along a path in the park and take a moment to look over my left shoulder. A beautiful sunset is taking shape over the trees and the rooftops near the park. That means I'm walking north.

Far ahead of me on the path I see two ladies in their late 60s. They look almost exactly alike, with wild hair and somewhat thick glasses. Their appearance reminds me a bit of Professor Trelawney from Harry Potter. I remember the Task of the Month about asking a DC what they're thankful for. I become distressed for a moment that these DCs are too far away and I'll have trouble reaching them. I focus my vision on the two DCs and then imagine myself "zooming in" toward where they are. Immediately I'm standing right in front of them.

"Hi! What are you thankful for?" I say, my words a bit of a nervous, hurried jumble.

One lady immediately answers, "Youthful <something>."

"Youthful what?" I ask. "Can you say it again?"

"Youthful reef," she says firmly.

Huh? "What is 'youthful reef'?"

"It's an activity," she answers. Oh wait, is she talking about Task of the Year Australia? Should I be doing that one next? I thank her and keep walking along the path. The dream feels like it has thinned out, though, and I am soon in the void.

I rub my hands together and keep moving forward, trying to stay relaxed. After perhaps 20 seconds I get the sensation of my feet walking through desert sand. It feels like a scene might be taking shape, but a sudden gust of wind catches me hard on the left side. I feel like I'm losing my balance and become fearful. I mentally decide that I don't feel any wind at all and it quickly dies down.

Unfortunately, at the same time I also lose connection with the ground and now it feels like my feet are no longer walking but flailing at empty air. I keep trying for a while but eventually lose connection with the dream and wake up.

I realize that I am dreaming(you can skip this paragraph), I am in my class. I start believing myself to be the god of this realm , though I am not able to become fully lucid. I do somethings like passing my hand through the ceiling fan ( I make a ceiling fan appear above me), gliding through the air , shooting projectiles etc. Then I try to pass through the sealed window , I am unable to do it , even projectiles are unable to pass through that wall , though I can pass through stuff and other walls . The next period begins , I think of changing the plot but then .. due to some reason I don't want to leave my friend. ( It makes me feel lonely, she feels like a real entity the the LD and I am even unable to change the plot) , so I attend the class and attempt few random lucid stuff , then I finally decide to change the plot.

Now, I am in a carnival of some sort. My friend is there with me , she doesn't feel that real anymore . Even more weirdly , she retires to a tree when I am going in the carnival(she suggests me of a bird somehow). I try to fly , I am able to succeed partially . I have this weird power in which if I constantly pedal upwards , I am able to fly while doing it (I can only jump really high or mostly pedal) , it is a really tiresome thing. I feel weird because of people making comments on me. I decide to retire back to my crush. She is standing beside a tree.
This is when the Main Thing Starts up.

Now , we chat for a while (she feels real again) and walk away from the carnival.She tried to speak but couldn't A chat box appears and she types " Hey I can't speak, add this ID- (something I don't recall)@aol.com on the inner world". I ask if the inner world refers to the surface? she says"Yes and btw I am a male player.'' I ask"Male player? Is it a sort of multiplayer dream? He says "Yes". I get astonished. The moment I had got out the carnival , it was feeling a bit different. Somehow I get a sense that this dream is really multiplayer! The incident was totally unexpected. He then says"Now I have to go , lets quit the dream". The Dream Ends...


So ,now I wonder was it real multiplayer dream or just another dream? I have no clue what that ID was :/ It was an aol email Id though. I even made a conscious note to memorize it ... but then the dream ended when he wanted it to.

This was a really big dream , what you'd get here is a fragment.

So, our family is going to a hill station , in a fantasy world. Scenario changes to another one where I am besieging a city square bazaar , here people are really packed , we are waiting , for the people to get done of the preparations we need to live in the central building as our headquarters . Here we keep ordering stuff to the people. So , finally we move in the building . Father tells that he chose this because it is in the densest population areas and if we were to be attacked , it would take a lot of time for people to come and we can then escape through the secret route .
Now , the scenario changes back to my family trip. We are almost near the town we wanted to reach . We move in to a small floor in a rented house in the middle of the town , I don't know why but we're wanted by some people. I roam around the town for a while figuring out something , I come across a woman , who was my family's enemy . She chases me towards a dead end hill (note that we're not running on streets but jumping from rooftop to rooftop , there are houses with slanting roofs) . Finally , I get tired of running and I fire an energy wave at her , which makes her badly injured. At that time my mom comes and says " good that you pawned her. Now we can live in her house while she in rotting in the prison." The pixie opens a door into her house , but it is too small , so I make the door bigger by merging few cells in it. We move in , our butler takes care of all the needs .
Now the scenario changes again, this time I am a prince , my father and a king residing in one of my towns, decide to host a race . I would be on a horse and I'd be racing through the town , while behind be there are three men (hired ninja's) who would have to catch me. The winner decides the kingdoms fate, I start galloping on my horse while there are three disheveled men behind me. I take turns , trying to have them lose my track. I jumped over food stalls in the bazaar , take turns into alleyways , I see only two of them behind me. I hop over a stall , creating a jam on the alleyway , one of them breaks down , panting. I gallop my horse and make it spin in between of a fork road , it appears like i am going straight but I turn , making the second guy crash into a stall. I go to the finish line and find a crowd waiting for me just before the finish line.
Scenario changes again , this time there is a prince standing few feet from me and I am in disheveled clothing. I have the chance to win the race , just by touching the prince who is proudly addressing his victory , but then I stop , I don't do it and the prince wins the race. Scenario changes again , I am now looking at a map with 4 icons , men who are fighting for the throne , the kings didn't follow what they had said regarding the race. The prince is badly injured while his father dies , the prince runs away.

I wake up. I learn't how to change the DC i control along with subconscious flying. The dream was semi-lucid , I was like living through a story.

amm where sould i start... ohh right
i was going to sleep in friday night and woke up at saturday, but i didnt woke up in my room, i woke up in my older room.
i didnt notice that it dream and because it was saturday(my freeday ) i go to sleep again.
and i found my self in big coliseum in hell where the devil is talking some thing(couldn't remember what he said ),
and then my friend that pop out of no where ane he needed to go to the bathroom so asked the devil where they are and he said there but take a friend with you.
the first time he was going alone but the moment he open the bathroom door knife popup from the floor and they was near to him and it didnt haem him, and then he called me to help him i helped him and then i woke up im my old room again(still dreaming) and i slept again XD.
i wake up in my old room(still dreaming) trying to do WILD but i couldnt do(because i was already dreaming ) so i choose to do a RC (close nose and exhale) and it worked so i was so much happy that the next 10 min i only did that RC over and over again XDD but after 10 min i woke up in my old room again(still dreaming)
and go to sleep again then i woke up trying again to do WILD in a dream didnt work so i did RC(close nose and exhale) i then i found that im dreaming again so i go to my computer and entered to this FORUM so i remembered the numbers ain't the same when you looking at them, so i looked in the number who say how many people there is in the FORUM and it said 203 and then looked aside and back and it changed to diffrent number, and agian and agian and agian like 15 min, and then i decide to fly so i got out of my room i jump to the air and then woke up but it was my old room and i was still dreaming so i did a RC (took a spoon and bend it and i bend like you bend paper sometime it broke XD ) and i did it for a few times and i woke up again still dreaming, i decide to write it all and after i wrote 5 pages(the full story) i really woke up

#239 - SSILD/DEILD

I am walking outside with someone. This is something about my shoes and some concern or worry. I realise I was doing SSILD cycles and decide this is a dream but at that moment the scene collapses and I have a false awakening.

I am uncovered and cold and I try to make myself move but I feel really weak and tired. I grab for my DJ but I can't summon the energy to type. My wife wakes up and tells me not to worry and she will do it for me. She takes my device and gets ready. She waits for me to tell her but I can't seem to understand why she doesn't just know. It's all me after all. I become lucid again but fell like I am waking up for real this time.

I lay still and wait for some visuals to come but realize my body feels really odd. My DEILDs and WILDs usually go one of two ways. Visual or physical. This time is seems all physical. Small vibrations start and I focus in on it. This time the vibrations went to a whole new level. Instead of buzzing and tingling it really felt like a powerful wind blowing at me from my right side. I tried moving but really couldn't yet. I noted the sensation was only on my face and upper body and I felt like I could move my feet but I wasn't sure if it was real or dream. The sound and feel of the wind was completely realistic and a little frightening. I wondered if some entity was beside doing something crazy. I forced myself to stay calm and relaxed as possible but my body felt like it was going to roll over on my wife. After a moment I let it happen. I felt my face rest on her bosom and as much as I enjoyed that I decided that's not what this dream was going to be about. I push up with my arms and feel myself standing up.

I am standing in my living room and bright daylight. I am pleased there is no darkness this time but I feel a little unstable. I rub my hands and stoop to feel the hardwood every few steps on my way outside. Once I reach the front porch the dream is stable and mostly vivid. I remember my goal to somehow board the USS Enterprise and take command as Captain.

I look around and see that my house is nestled in the middle of a cluster of beautiful pines trees. I enjoy the view of it for a second but it's ruined when I realize there's other houses and buildings nearby. Time to move on. I tap my communicator badge on my shirt and it lets out the correct corresponding chime. I say, "Kirk here..." I pause because my voice is not my own. It sounds really artificial and funny; close to Shatner but in a goofy sort of way. I speak again tapping my badge, "My voice if funny... Kirk here." I try several times but never get any response. I think, "OK secondary goal" and begin walking down a street.

I reach at my waist to pull out a light saber. The feel and sound of oblige my intention by there is nothing in my hand. I try again really expecting to see a long blade of light but the effect is the same. I look around thinking maybe I could find one. I see a metal trash can next to a tree with a toy lightsaber in it. I start to reach for it but on closer inspection it looks fat and clunky. I suppose in hindsight it would have worked but at the moment I think its all wrong. I think maybe if I could find a rock that is close to the shape of the hilt I could transform it. I quickly pick something up. The shape and wieght of it feels about right. I begin to think about transforming this but something makes want to me turn around.

I realize I am standing in the street and a large bus is speeding toward me. Feeling invincible, I center myself in the street and stand facing it defiantly with both hands on my hips. After a moment I realize the bus isn't going to stop or even slow down. I laugh a little to myself wondering if I will phase through or if I will get stuck on the front like a bug. I feel a hard but painless impact. When I noticed my face stuck the grill I decided I was the bug. I roll over to see the traffic in front of me but the dream is starting to collapse. I focus to visualize and dimly see a traffic like and a few vehicles in front of me but it doesn't want to hold together. I decide to bail. When my feet hit the ground I realize that I the buss was moving pretty fast and my inertia causes me to fall. I roll over on my back and feel the gross but painless feeling of road rash. I let myself flip over a few times and as I am rolling I see a dark blue sky with white steaks almost like some sort of warp speed.

After a moment I gather my senses and stand up. I see that I am on some side street with several cars parallel parked next to me. There are tall buildings and parking meters. The scene reminds me of downtown Kansas City. Then I see the bus at the end the street slowly passing by. I feel pissed at when had happened and want to stop that bus somehow. I see brown truck parked next to me. It's small like a S10 or Ranger. I grab it at the tail gate, lift it over my head and hurl it toward the bus. The distance must have be 50 yards and I thought it was going to miss. Luckily it smacks the rear end of the bus and the driver freaks out. Somehow he swerves back my direction but manages to roll the buss before he reaches me. I see a break in the metal and actually see people inside. There is a man suspended upside down in his seat by a seatbelt. It must have been the driver but I wasn't sure. He looked panicky and in a lot of pain but I could only see minor scraps and bruises. I walk up to him and say, "Don't be such a pussy." I reach forward and push the button to release his seat belt. The dream goes black at that point and I wake up.

I have several other dreams where I became lucid but I woke up right away. One of those dreams I was able to DEILD again. I atempted another physical transtion and began spinning with my arms out. The feeling was exhilarating but lasted only a few seconds.I became distracted by a distorted sound and focus in on it until the sound became clear and less distorted. It took several seconds before I realise its my box fan. I am wide awke.