lucid

I went to bed still sick last night about 9:30PM and slept like a corpse. Though I think I over my sickness, my mom is our babysitter and the evil sickness stuck her so I took another day off. The only recall I remember is when my son woke at 5:23AM. My wife has no choice but to go to work today so I did the honors. It actually turned out to be a pretty good WBTB for me. It took about 30min for him to take a bottle and go back to sleep. I spent a little time on the forum with my GP and then thought about my lucid goals. I went back to sleep with the MILD technique.


First the non-lucid fragments
5:23Am
I am in a some public restroom. I think I am at work. I my buddy I work with C in there. For some reason I think it's the women's restroom. M the janitor comes in and fixes some spout under the sink. I fill my water bottle. There are now urinals in there. C goes pee. I see another spout at the doorway and shoot it to an empty urinal for fun.

I am holding hands with D my daughter. We are sitting in a lush green grass spot. I feel like we are behind Ozark Christian College. I feel a little awkward holding her hand and wonder what that must look like and let go. I see a well traveled path in the grass that leads to a big boulder. I looks typical for this area. There are some nice ledges on the rock and it look like easy climbing. I point and we head that direction. D goes up first but suddenly there are thorny vines and she gets her legs tangled and falls. I catch her and pick out the thorns. I notice that some how I have a thorn in my left butt check and pull it out an look at it. I realize I am wear those white and gray polyester shorts I have.

I Have The Cleanest Floors 6:45AM MILD

I have a FA. I am lying in bed on my stomach. The room is brightly lit from the morning sun. I wonder why I am lying like this. I never sleep on my stomach. I feel fitful and uncomfortable. I notice also I am on the right side of the bed and not the left. I suspect I am dreaming now. I see some mirror to the right of the bed and decide that I want to see how I look. I move closer to look but I have no reflection.

I decide to just get up. When I do everything goes dark and the dream starts to fade. Some what reluctantly, I go to the floor and start licking the hardwood. The room brightens and the dream stabilizes. I army crawl to the bedroom door and pull it open from underneath. I suddenly skip ahead to the next room.

I try to stand up but the room goes dark and dream starts fading. I go back to licking the floor. The room brightens and the dream stabilizes. I think about making fire in my hands. I stop licking but stay on the floor. First I try making a motion like I am flicking a Bic. I expect to at least see a spark but nothing. Then I look at my right palm and focus energy there. I begin to see a tiny ball of light forming. Suddenly my hand splits into two hands with monster claws rather than fingers. That startles me some so I stop trying.

I move on army crawling and licking the hardwood. I focus on the feeling on my bare stomach. I reach the kitchen but don't even know why I went that way. I decide to go out the front door so I turn around. I try standing up but again I am forced to lick and crawl.

I decide this dream sucks so purposefully let my grasp of the dream slip. Just by my relaxing, I begin to see a new dream form. Abraham Lincoln is in my living room. There is a chalkboard and it looks like Abe is teaching a lesson to some robotic looking humanoid. I am not sure I didn't focus enough on it.

Then the dream fades to a brief FA and I wake for real.I don't remember the FA now but it only lasted on a second or two.

03.07.2013

Dillon the Weird (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am in a dark room that isn't entirely part of our normal dimension. A few other people are there with me, including a creepy kid named Dillon who I've apparently had some issues with in the past.

I am leafing through a small notebook that I've stolen from Dillion. He is trying to take it back from me, so I'm distracted as I am both holding him back and reading the notebook. There is a strange globular thing on one of the pages that is similar to a small heart. I squeeze the little heart a few times to see if anything happens. At the bottom of the page, red writing appears that says "5 New Deaths."

Dillon laughs at me. "You just killed five people!" he says.

"What!?" I shriek. Another person in the room explains to me that this is Dillon's notebook of death. I decide to keep it away from him so that he can't kill anymore people with it.

Later, I am back in the normal plane of existence, walking through a parking lot with my dad. I suddenly get the feeling that Dillon is nearby. "Better be on the look out," I tell my dad. "This creepy kid is going to try to attack me."

I pull the notebook from my back pocket and try to put it in my jacket pocket. It gets caught on the material, though, and Dillon shows up just as I'm struggling with it. "Give me back my notebook!" he yells at me, lunging forward.

My dad grabs him and begins shaking him violently around. Dillon goes invisible and manages to run off.

"You should send more of your dream characters after me!" my dad laughs. "I'll kick their asses, no problem."

I think that he wouldn't be so cocky if he ran into my dream guide. It would take a lot more than shaking him about to defeat *him.*

Random lucid moment behind me, I continue into the store. I'm supposed to be looking for specific items that represent certain people that I know who are part of some kind of creepy cult conspiracy. On the highest shelf in the store, I see some My Little Pony cloaks (of all things.) I know that this is the item that is supposed to represent Bryan, leader of the cult and a hugy brony.

I gracefully jump onto the shelf and sit there, examining the cloaks. Though I wouldn't call myself a brony, I have watched MLP as a kind of guilty pleasure. I absentmindedly sing the theme as I'm looking at the cloaks. Suddenly, I notice someone is singing along with me. It's Dillon.

"You watch My Little Pony?" I ask him, surprised.

"Yeah," he admits.

This sparks a conversation, and I learn that he is not as evil as I had thought. He is actually really sweet and sensitive.

Entering a living room
Seeing groups of people, feeling like some of them were from high school
Partially heard a girl from high school and sat next to her. She may have walked across the room. Cannot remember whether i went across the room before she did, or afterwards.
Saw a group of people watching "The Breakfast club", Saw Molly Ringwald (Actress), heard the theme song "Don't you forget about me"
Somwhere in there, i left the room, onto a porch or deck with long stairs going down. Seeing a somewhat suburban type neighborhood.
Remember seeing a group of people talking or just standing near the house i was in. It seemed smaller from the outside. Maybe talking about the house or hanging out in the house.
May have seen my sister by the door with a group of people. The door was or looked partially open. There were a kind of cream colored carpeted stairs. On those stairs was a dog with blond fur.
There was another dog running across the road. It seemed like a neighborly environment.
I entered the house again. This time it was the kitchen and it was somewhat dark with the lights turned off. Saw a area with leftover mexican food or food that appeared like Mexican food.
Somewhere in that time, i saw or heard my sister and ended up arguing about stating the obvious or something. Cannot quite remember what else happened.

Dream recall from non-lucid naps, dunno why my recall from naps is so fragmented recently. Also yay for somewhat successful DEILD.

Dream 1(fragment):

I recall being home, near exit door, arguing about something with family and then eating huge amount of honey mixed with something else.

I woke up with closed eyes after that dream and decided to try DEILD. After a while of not-moving and trying to imagine last scene from the dream i heard weird noise and some dream scene started 'spinning' into view, i recalled scene from the end of previous dream again and now the proper scene was 'spinning' into view. I was in place but dream scene itself was frozen in place and it was hard to move, then it faded out shortly.

Dream 2(fragments):

There was weird 1-2 year old child that i have found at home.
Then later there was something about two people trying to fish out the dragon out of some river. Suddenly i was one of them and there was some trick that to fish out the dragon it was needed to get fish and prepare it in some specific way. We were both failing and then dragon appeared from the river and just flied away. It was green chinese dragon.
Then i was myself again and i was returning that child to some demon family he was from apparently. They looked like normal humans except their skin color was grey. We then talked about why people hate them, and that dragon was there as well. Shortly we were all watching some cartoon about some lumberjack bears or something.

March 6, 2013 - 4.5 hours in - 2 minutes or more - WBTB, SSILD, MILD

Woke via alarm after 3.5 hours and got in a comfortable chair and did about 6 SSILD cycles of gradually increasing length. Afterward I did a mantra of "1, I'm dreaming, 2, I'm dreaming, 3..." while trying to visualize each digit up to 25, then went back to bed.

My hand passes through the computer monitor like it isn't even there. While my hand is in it, I feel it touch an edge, but I can keep passing through this. I touch a glass paperweight and it is solid. My steadily rising awareness becomes full lucidity around this time. I rub my hands and plug my nose and breathe.

After this I think to myself it has been 10 minutes already. However, I do not think this was actually the case, but perhaps I had been there 10 minutes pre-full-lucidity or this sensation of time passing was manufactured by the dream.

I ate a gummy fish that was sitting there, which is realistic but less chewy, and head upstairs. It is night and I try to look out the window in the front door, but for some reason it is too high. I try to jump, and with difficulty I do so and see large pine and regular trees which are not there in real life.

I head into the bedroom which is also dark and someone is watching TV. It shows a dark room which I think might be something creepy, but its actually just a guy who looks like T. coming in and talking to someone.

Commentary
Non-Lucid
Lucid

Bedtime:9:30PM-5:30AM, 6:00AM-10:00AM

Well, we are all sick at my house. I think my wife and son got it the worst. I was mostly taking care of them all evening but we somehow managed to get to bed really decent. I was glad because I felt extremely exhausted and sickly myself. I had decided no WBTB or induction. I would just focus on dream recall. I used a mantra at bedtime to remember dreams. I woke and recorded several until I started getting sick myself. Then it because more difficult because the nausea was so bad. In spite of it all I still had some weak but interesting lucids.

11:00PM
I am riding on some skateboard with a handle to make a scooter. My wife and I rid though a mall and come out the other side. We do tricks and grind on some rails. My skateboard starts looking like a dustpan with a handle as I ride down.


3:02AM
All I remember is what I recorded. Supply run. Zombies.

4:26
I am a child or about 8 or 9 again. I am riding a school bus to go on a field trip. My old friends J and A are there. Even though, I am a child I am still in my current time frame although my awareness is not there. I treasure the moments of friendship and really try hard to be a really good friend to the too of them. I never mention that I was like a time traveler. I keep that to my self.

Later we are walking back to the bus. I am holding hands with my wife. She looks like a child as well. She says how she wishes the bus was empty because she wants to do a little something with me. Then she cracks some sexual joke about my sausage and grabs me. Just then my old supervisor SH walks by. I get embarrassed and hope we don't get in trouble. They act like they didn't hear.

I am feeling really nauseous now after each awakening and fail to record much until later

At some point I visualize healing energy into my body. I am not sure if its just HI or a LD but I see myself lying in bed with shimmering points of light. I am glowing a golden color. I will my immune system to attack any sickness and heal faster. I remember nothing else.

At some point I remember a OBE. I don't know if it was a low level lucid or just a dream about having a lucid. But I transition out of my body and walk into the dining room. The wall looks like an organic inside of a body. I see 4 thick cords running down from wall to floor. I know that if I cut them it will help me feel better. Some how I know that this represent sickness in my throat and will stop vomiting. I pull out a small sword that looks like Sting and cut the cords.

I remember another one much like that last but this time... I transition from OBE and find some other point the represented my bowels. I cut that cord with Sting as well.

Maybe this helped me and maybe this didn't. However, I am not nearly as sick as my wife is. Did I use dreams and visualization to aid healing? Who can tell?

I wake around 5:30am to feed my son. Luckily all went smooth and we both got back to sleep around 6:00am and slept a long time.

Time unknown
I am working on a foam board at work. I am back in PH's department. I have my Galaxy Player (GP) in my pocket listening to Pandora on the wifi. I see several of the women that work there sitting in a line at an adjacent form board. They are doing hand gestures as a sort of dance to the song. I realize the song is a stupid Kesha song and look at my GP. I wonder how they are listen to the same thing as me. Pandora is not an actual radio station. They are all looking at me so I motion to my GP and laugh.
*memory gap*
I use the dragon shout whirlwind sprint (same as focused flying) to zoom down the hallway at work and out the door. I see the colors and hear the sounds just like in Skyrim.

9:51AM
I have an FA and P from work is in my room. We call each other bad names and I tell him to just leave. I am trying to enter some dream on my GP.

I have another FA. I am lying with my eyes closed while listening to my parents talk. Something about they sold a cell phone and now the guy that bought it says its broken. The talk about which plug in to use. From some reason I think they are in the sun room. I want to tell them that one plug stopped working but feel too sick to move. Then my dad say, "I really need to learn to use theee......"

I feel I need to pee so I get out of bed. My mom says, "You need to learn to use the alarm clock." I become startled because her voice is directly behind me. I don't feel I can talk so I just put my hand on my heart and look at her. I can't see because it was dark but I can hear her laughing.

I realize I am back in the house we lived in Luling, Texas. I am standing next to my parents bed. I walk to were my bathroom was and go in. The lighting is bright in here. I see my dad lying on his side in the bathtub staring at me. His throat looks slit and there is blood pooling. I notice he is using a pillow from my current bedset. Startled and annoyed I say, "Well I guess I'll use the other bathroom." When I reach my parents room again I pause and think about what I just saw. I say, "I am still dreaming." I do a nose plug and I think I blow through but it feels a little closed. I want to make sure so I do several more and the last one feels like a clean pass. I rush out of the house because I think of all the scary stuff that happened there. (Supposedly it was "haunted". Long story.) I go out the front door and begin to fly up. But I notice the dream is fading. I hover next to the old Birch tree in the front yard. I rub my hands vigorously and repeat, "I am still dreaming." It's helping some. I try my bicycle DEILD and touch my face some. All feels real. I rub my hands more while biking. Soon I feel like I am lying on my back and doing this in real life. I wonder if my wife is laughing at me yet. That thought was enough to shift my awareness to waking. I hear something and my eyes open.

I decided to take a nap because I am home and I can, and because I am still tired after my sickness.

Before going to nap, I had sent a friend request and a pm to gab.

As ai lay there, I decided to try to WILD since I have not really tried before, even though I before did not think I wanted to. Changed my mind.

I remember seeing some images: an art work vaguely reminiscent of the Mona Lisa, a very bright corridor, but at that point I was not sure yet whether I was dreaming or day dreaming - whether I had actually fallen asleep.

The first thing I saw when I was sure I was asleep already was that I had a Notification in dreamviews. Knowing it was a dream I clicked on it. Sure enough as expected it was a private message from gab. However, when I opened it, it was actually a message that I had previously gotten from gab and not a response to my friend request.

Then I woke up. Upon waking up before writing my dream journal entry, I checked dreamviews, and yes I had a message from gab replying to my friend request (she said yes). I then proceeded to write this dream journal entry and only once I had written a lot did it occur to me to check whether ai am still asleep (no I am not).

Yay, I did it! I had an LD! My first after many years.

California is indeed strange.

I was driving my son to see my dad in the San Francisco Bay Area, coming from Texas. The highway stretches out in front of me with little on either side, but ahead of me is Los Angeles. The sky is clear above me but ahead dark clouds loom over the city, appearing like angry storms. I attribute this to normal California fog.

L.A. is just a stop in California before we turn north, a place to get some food and stretch our legs. We decide to go to a multi-level shopping mall with wide open spaces and skylights that keep the place well lit.

I don't recall all of the details but I know a food-court was present and even some of my son's friends from scouts. I know I felt odd about that seeing as we were in California.

[B]When we headed out we had to go down an escalator and running down it caused me to become lucid. I knew it felt oddly out-of-place and looking down I decided it would be better if the escalator was sloped instead of having steps I could trip on. The escalator took on the appearance of a moving sidewalk similar to ones in airports all over the world, except with a downwards slope. (I realize as I write this that I've been on a sloped moving sidewalk before at a grocery store in Oakland)

Reaching the end of the sloped sidewalk I knew my movement would carry me too far over and I would fall, so I picked up my feet to hover my way to the doors of the mall. I've flown many times, or floated, but never before have I done it in a fully up-right standing position while moving horizontally. It was a neat feeling, as though solid ground was beneath my feet so I had purchase yet being propelled along with no effort and no ground-contact.[/B]

After that I went to my dad's house, used the toilet and wrapped my nude body around the backside of the toilet while lying on the floor, staring up at one of my dad's friends. Honestly that part wasn't really interesting so we'll just leave it at that. ;)

I think I did the ToTM. After reading a dream from Canis Lucidus, I had a dream as said, "What is one thing you wish; I'll grant it" or "...I'll make it happen."

The Perfect Pecan, then The Perfect Goodmorning

I was with my dad. He was alive again. I told him that I wanted to talk to him as soon as he was done. I think he was performing or something. He said OK. I was so excited to finally tell him how much I miss him. It's the same dream I have of him every time, and it seems more real every time.

He eventually told me he had a virus. I thought, "Oh-h-h-h-h!." I knew it could kill him because of his weak condition.

I got a call from my brother's old room mate I Chin Tong. I answered the phone and he asked for me. I said it was me. He wanted a replacement of a green rug I had gotten him to design his home. I leaned back in my chair until I was lying down, told him I'd find him one with a psychedelic pattern, winked at this kid who I thought must think I was pretty cool, and then...

Dream Skip

My son and daughter are pulling out huge tomato plants. I'm disappointed that they are doing this, but it is for the owner of a house we are at. The plants are now Sweet Gum trees and I understand the motivation now.

I'm at E's house. I saw her so vividly. Then her husband came home which was weird because it was so early, he had just gotten to work! I was nervous he would suspect something for me being over there so early. Instead he went out on the back porch and asked if I wanted help with a project I'm working on. I went out, happy not to be nervous anymore.

Then he was talking to me about coaching a kids soccer team for 7 and 8 or 8 and 9 year olds' but we were outside somewhere else. I figured what grades that would be and told him his job would be getting the kids to work together more so than to win games. He said "Never mind then." I tried to convince him not to give up his idea. (This may have been residue from my idea last night to "put on a shirt" for the cub scouts and be a leader.

I then realized I was dreaming, and started looking for E again. I spent a moment looking for her and realized that I should try a better lucid goal. BrandonBoss inspired me to re-evaluate my dream goals on this point.

I decided to do my personal goal which was to enter my childhood nightmare. I found myself in a room with a bunch of people. I went to ask a guy with long hair and acne where...I didn't like this guy. I turned and there he was again...and again. What an annoying DC.

I found someone else--ah, it was a high school friend P. C., and asked, "Where can I find the Circle Demon." He looked at me weird and said, "The Circle Demon?" I said "Yea, The Circle Demon," repeating it more to stay focused than to be sarcastic back to him.

He told me "At the Perfect Pecan." I think I repeated that and said, is that upstairs?" I started going upstairs. There was a box from Hell Bound on his stairs and everything was kind of black. He said, "No, I'm in a band." I started getting frustrated. I said, "Where can I find it?" He said, "The Perfect Good Morning."

I decided to look for one of these places. I had trouble phasing through a wall (what is my problem phasing lately?" A DC chuckled at me for trying and then I got a boost of confidence and went through it with a thankful, "Hah!"

I flew and ended up in a food court. This was vivid. Nobody was there, then I saw a guy starting to set up his restaurant. I decided to go to another guy setting his place up. Then I decided to ask about a wish. I said, "What is one thing you wish. I'll grant it." Or, "...I'll make it happen." He just questioned me, "One wish? I don't know." I asked the other shop-keeper. He never said anything.

I walked to a patron and she said, "I'd like a box of Perfect Pancakes." I tried to conjure it by clapping my hands or something. I tried pulling the box of pancakes out of the floor with no luck. I thought of what Canis had said. "I still got this," though I didn't say that. I tried what he or Xanous had said about pulling it out of my pocket, but there was only a tissue. I felt bad, but I knew (that I thought) I had still fulfilled my obligation to ask and try to grant a DC one wish.


The End

I had waken up before this dream and did one partial cycle for SSILD. I found myself in darkness which I tried to fly through per Canis. It worked. The timing of this dream may be a bit off.

Pretty fragmented dream recall from non-lucid naps, also was lucid for a few seconds at the end.

There was something going on about GTA-like game and in game there were some military characters that were saying something about forever being stuck in military. Later there was cook character that was saying that he's forever stuck being cook and that he had to make 95 cakes per day or something.
After that i went to kitchen but it was apparently restaurant. There was lot of very expensive tableware, partially made of gold. The owner of restaurant suggested me to drink alcoholless champagne and gave me one for free. I drank a bit and got completely and utterly drunk, everything was wavy and i could not even drink properly. I somehow got lucid from that, knowing that i am in dream, but was still drunk, also my pants disappeared( ). Dream faded out shortly as well.

Worth noting that i haven't been ever drunk IWL.

So this was the first time where I experienced the transition from waking to NREM to REM. I'm assuming I was aware the whole time, but as always it's possible that I wasn't.

I'm laying in bed, in the darkness and certain things would wake me up up. Like all of a sudden I would be able to fee my body in bed, and hear sounds. This happened a couple of times, and finally I was asleep (I guess).

Everything was black, and I wasn't sure if I should open my eyes or just think of something to do. So I pretended to light a cigar and smoke it. The dream cigar materialized in my hand, and I lit it with my thumb. All it took was a lighter like motion. I put it up to my lips, and inhaled, and my vision got bright red. I ashed in my hands, and could feel them, but they weren't hot. Then the regular dream started forming.

I feel a flying sensation, and I see bars moving everywhere. Everything is still black and gray at the moment, so I open my dream eyes. Things started forming more and more, and I find myself climbing the side of a roller coaster at a high speed. I climbed to the top, and waited for the coaster to come by.

When it arrived I jumped up into it, and went on a wild ride. This thing was doing 90 degree drops over and over like it was nothing, and it would follow them up with super fast vertical climbs. As I spiraled down the tracks I couldn't help but think how awesome this was.

The coaster came to a stop (the dream had obviously fully formed by now) and I found myself in a jungle themed park. I had to find out who worked here because that was the most intense ride I've ever been on. I walked around a bit, and found myself in a big open waiting area. The walls were brown, and it looked like it was composed of diagonal 2x4s. There was a blonde woman wearing safari gear behind the counter.

She had the biggest smile on her face as she greeted me. I told her about how awesome this place was, and that I wanted to know a few things. She said that she would be happy to assist me.

Me: Who created this place?
Her: Mr. W.
(I was so shocked when she said this)
Me: Who's Mr. W?
Her: Why he's the wonderful person who convenes us all. We wouldn't be here if it wasn't for him.

(I wanted to tell her that she was talking about me. I was still pretty shocked that she actually knew who was pulling the strings.)

I thanked her for her time, and headed out. There was a Marriott hotel joined to the theme park. I entered, and there was two people at the desk. One Indian guy, and I'm not even sure who the other DC was, but there was a line for people waiting to check in.

I walked past them down the hallway, and the Indian guy yelled "hey". I turned around, and he told me I had to wait in line like everyone else. I walked over to the counter, and jumped over it into his little space and said "do you know who I am?" He didn't have an answer, so I filled him in. "I'm Wade", I said. He spoke back to me with this thick Indian accent. He's always doing whatever he wants in these places and it's getting on my nerves. I told him that he could shoot me if he wanted it. Then the guy pulled out his pistol and pulled the trigger.

*Click*
Him: "It's just that you seem to mess up things all the time"
Me: "Look I love this place, so I really don't have any problems"
*click*
Him: "You're always trying to do whatever you want *click* (yes he's still trying to shoot me at this point) and I'm getting sick of it.

Me while making an ottoman float: "I can do whatever I want, but that doesn't mean I didn't enjoy this place. I


I told him that I was waking up and we'd have to continue this conversation at a later date.

I was realized I was dreaming when I huge car that took up all three lanes was on the road. I thought this is a dream! I looked around this amazing huge in future city. I thought this must be what it will be like 500 years from now and was almost amazing about how original this city looks. I didn't copy something from a movie but was very unique. I noticed a building a wanted to go into. I walked in this empty factory with gaint toys displayed on all ends of the wall. There a very loud noise coming from inside this warehouse. The sounds was so loud I thought I must be hearing this from the physical world. I lost lucidity at this point.


I became lucid while attempting a wild. I got out of bed in the dream world and walked to my shrine in my room. This is one of the most interesting places to go in my lucid dreams. A red dakini appeared clearly and then other forms of dakinis. Then ganapati appeared at the same time all of the large groups of people in the world that were distress. Ganapati watched over all the people with compassion.

03/04/13

On the Road: Campfire
I am sitting on the side of a road with some other people. I recognize them all. I see MoSh, Roland, Jake, Eddie, Susanna, and Oy all gathered around a campfire. Everyone is watching Roland very closely. Roland is finishing his story about what happened in Hambre with Susan Delgado. He says he didn't meet her where he had said they would meet. He said he knew if he was to meet her he wouldn't have the strength to do what needed to be done. He said he would have liked nothing more than to make a life with Susan, but the tower… He talks for a bit more about why he has to find the tower and fix what is wrong within it. He finally stops and looks around. He looks like something just occurred to him. He says there were parts of the story he himself hadn't remembered until he told it… like the fact MoSh and I were both there. But while he has aged, we were both the same then as we are now. We were part of his ka-tet back then and we are again… ka is a wheel… but how is it that we aren't changed? I tell him MoSh and I travel through both time and space to arrive where and when we need to be, those events in Majis are like yesterday to MoSh and me… I literally rescued Susan yesterday. So what happened to Susan anyway? Roland said he saw in the glass when she was almost burned alive… had been sure she would be… he had already accepted that they would not be together, but wasn't ready to accept that. He says part of him would swear he saw here actually burn…

On the Road: The Emerald City
I am on the road traveling with MoSh, Roland, Jake, Eddie, Susanna, and Oy. There is a palace ahead spanning across the road. The palace is a green crystalline color. There are shoes in the street. It looks like someone left out a pair of bright red shoes for each person in the group. We all pick up the pair of shoes that is intended for us, mine looks like the ruby slippers Dorothy wore in the Wizard of Oz.

We continue to the entrance to what I can only think of as the Emerald City. There is a large gate in the front of the palace, it looks more like a palace than a city. The road leads through the gate and I can see the road extending into the palace. After figuring things out for a short while it is determined that we all have to tape the red shoes together at the same time, three times, to open the door. So everyone puts on the shoes and taps them together. There is a reverberating sound that makes everything vibrate, but nothing happens. Oops… everyone forgot about Oy. The billy-bumbler hadn't clicked his shoes together. So we do the test again, this time with Jake and Roland taking care of clicking Oy's shoes together… and the sound is even louder. The entire structure of the emerald palace seems to vibrate.

The gate doesn't open… it shatters into a billion tiny shards. Fortunately none of them seem to be sharp enough to cut anyone. We go into the palace, following a long hallway to a door at the end. The whole thing looks like the Wizard of Oz. The door at the end has a sign that states the bell is out of order… please knock. The door is unlocked, however, so we go through. There is a loud voice coming from everywhere, asking how dare we enter the presence of the great and powerful Oz. Eddie says not to worry… it's just a bumhug… I think he means a humbug. I think the voice considers itself to sound threatening and scary, but it really just sounds a bit ridiculous to me. Oy is also unaffected by this, he is over near a curtain pulling at it. He pulls it aside to reveal a man there. The man doesn't look good, it looks like a piece of his skull is missing… ouch! He is throwing threats around until Eddie puts bullets in his head. There is another man there, however. He is standing in the middle of the main room where there had been a blazing fire special effect, he is holding the wizard's glass orb. He says he will give us one final chance to cry off and forget about the tower. Everyone says no, they will not do that, including MoSh and me… I tell him, "You wish… not gonna happen." Roland tries to shoot him with his gun, but it doesn't fire. The man laughs at that and says Roland will get only misfires with him. Maybe the bullets are all bad. Roland responds by drawing a gun from Eddie, Susan, and Jake's home world… He draws it lightning fast and fires at the man, who disappears in an explosion of smoke. He does not get away unscathed, however, I hear a cry of surprise and pain before he manages to dematerialize. Now we are alone in the huge room, Roland says he thinks he will have to tell the rest of his tale before we can continue… no… he will have to show us. He points to where the man dropped the wizard's glass as he disappeared. We go over to the orb and Roland indicates we should look into the orb. I don't see anything in it, I wonder why that is. Roland and the others seem to see something in there… and I notice Roland has a shocked look on his face. He says that's not how it happened… but now he remembers differently… which one is true? The first thing I think to say is nothing is true… and everything is permitted, even changing events that have already happened… I look back into the orb and this time I can see an image. Roland is walking down a hallway and into a room. There are shoes underneath the curtains but he doesn't see them. He is looking for his mother. The others are all gathered around as well, all except for Roland. The younger version of Roland turns around when someone is behind him. At first it looks like the witch Rhea, come back for revenge, holding out a dead snake towards Roland. She looks like a corpse. But then that image looks transparent, and it is really Roland's mother.

She is holding out a belt that looks handmade. Roland is drawing his guns, apparently he still sees Rhea. Everyone is yelling at Roland not to do it, it is a trick. I say nothing out loud, but I focus on sending a telepathic signal through time and space… I send a message to MoSh to do the same… maybe it can get through, even just enough to make him hesitate… a second is all it would take… and he does hesitate. Due to my telepathic message? He hesitates just long enough to see the illusion waver… and then he sees her for who she really is. I hear Rhea's voice of rage, yelling curses, saying she will still have her revenge… I am thinking I should have killed the witch in Hambre. Roland's mother interprets Roland having his guns out to mean he knows she had planned on betraying his father. She quickly tries to explain that she didn't know what she was doing, Marten had gotten into her head somehow... he'd been using her the whole time. Roland has no interest in just shooting his mother, he looks around to see if the witch is still present in the room. He looks straight at me for what seems like a long time before turning back to his mother, who says she wants a chance to make up for what she has done. The images around us fade to pink. I feel a bit disoriented and then find I am sitting on the road, it looks like we are far past the Emerald Palace. The others are all there, too, they also look disoriented. From the look of our shoes we have been walking the whole time. I notice the road isn't what it used to be… not really a road at all. And the path of the beam can be easily seen in the clouds in the sky. We are back on track. Roland is looking at me strangely. He says he doesn't know how it can be. He still remembers shooting his mother, but it is like it was a dream… and what we just saw is much clearer. It is here that I wake up.

Sunday 3/3/13 - bed at 12:30am - 8:50am B-complex at bedtime

some dreams

DR1
I'm at some meeting, signing attendance book

DR2
Get yelled at by someone and I stand up to her.

Monday 3/4/13 Nap 11ish - 12:30am

Got either DILD or WILD. And added 1 DEILD to it.

Not remembering much, because continued sleeping thinking I hook another DEILD to it.

FIRS TIME EVER - vibrations in face and not the usuall torso.

I'm sitting on a chair, rocking backwards, until I overdo it and back of the chair leans all the way to the ground in a slow and gentle motion. I realize I could do this to induce and keep doing it.

I'm sitting on a train, my dad is standing and talking to me. I'm half asleep, when I realize i can see him with eyes closed. I figure it would be fun to follow him so I get up and follow him. We come to a building I know my friend lives in so I decide to go check out her bedroom and next time I'm there to see if what I saw was correct.

*IWL, they are cutting trees nearby and using the shreader so it's very loud in my apartment. But I had a LD before in lots of noise, so i tried today as well. Iw was ok, but couln't get a long chain going. It's ok, I'm happy. Thank you, come again

I fell asleep last night at around 1am and had a regular dream or two. Woke up at 5am and stayed up for about 10-15 minutes and went back to bed. My final waking time was 8:30am. Basically last night I had kind of an unintentional wbtb. In the time during my second sleep I had a couple, long non-lucid dreams. Just a side note: I have not been doing any rc's lately or anything besides having a thought or two of LD'ing in the back of my head daily. The night before last I was having a dream when I just randomly said to myself, "I am dreaming" and that triggered quick lucidity but as soon as I realized it, the dream had faded to black. I am not counting that as an official lucid although I am impressed with myself for getting to that point. That night I also had an unintentional wbtb, as I had fallen asleep on the couch and went to my bed later in the night.

So here I am, in my non-lucid dream. I am standing on some bedrock looking at all the waterfalls that stretch down the horizon. It is dusk outside. The dream is vivid and clear. I see a billboard at the top of one waterfall closest to me, thinking "why the hell would someone put an ad here?"

Anyway, I looked around for a few more seconds and randomly just say to myself "I am dreaming". I get that awesome rush you get when you find out that you're dreaming and run and jump off the bedrock into the water below. Below the surface it gets darker and darker the deeper I go until I'm falling into black space. All of a sudden I'm completely still. I open my eyes and I'm back in my bed. The room is completely dark and for a moment I'm thinking I really did just wake up. I lean up and see an industrial white light on the wall by my bed, which is not there in WL. Without question, or doing any rc's, I know this is still a dream. I get up slowly, pulling the cover off. I sit on the edge of my bed for a few seconds thinking about how my goal in this dream is to anchor myself in and engage all five senses as much as possible. Idk why but I put it off and got up and dug through my drawer for something but I dont recall what it was that I was looking for. After that I pace around my black room for a minute or two. For some reason I felt very tired and my eyelids were heavy. I was fighting the urge to close my dream eyes for the fear I'd lose the dream and wake up. I decided to do a rc just to see what my hands looked like in the dream. They looked normal, but my focus was zooming in and out, clarifying then blurring, like a camera trying to focus. Through the dream I never let myself forget I was dreaming, and that seemed to keep me in longer. I then Looked at my phone to see what funky characteristics it had. I turned on the screen and a red samsung came up with weird quotation marks, like "SAMSUNG" and then something appeared below it. I figured, fair enough. I walked around my room a bit more feeling sluggish and half asleep. I finally had closed my eyes.

A couple seconds passed and I opened them slowly, hoping to be in the dream still. But what I see is daylight instead of solid darkness, and I can see everything in my room. I lean up to do a rc. My hands look normal, none of that zoomy shit. I plug my nose and can't breath. Great, I'm awake! I decided to get up and write everything down in my dream journal. This LD lasted about 5 minutes. My record before this was 20 seconds. Talk about improvement!! This time though I didn't just take off and fly and wake myself up out of the excitement, keeping my cool worked.

I'm kinda impressed with myself for have lucid instances in the last two nights. I'm sure they had to do with my wbtb's. It seems all I gotta do is say "I'm dreaming" and voila. I will do wbtb's the next couple nights and see how it works out.