lucid

This was a fun but weird DILD that hit right at the end of a very long NLD. The sudden introduction of this "Dream Coordinator" character was interesting. I enjoy it when my subconscious plays back at me like that.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #66: The Dream Coordinator

I'm on an epic quest, roaming on foot across the United States with several odd characters: a man in his 50s dragging around an 8-foot potted plant, an 11-year-old anorexic boy, and a pretty, short-haired woman in her mid-40s named "Mrs. Rearden". I've been journeying with Mrs. Rearden the longest and I trust her completely.

It's a foggy morning, and we're all sitting for a moment on a long couch outside of a gas station. I notice that gas is "$1200 / 1000 gallons". I think, "$1200?? God, that's expensive." But I take a moment to do the math and realize that this gas is actually super cheap. "Ah... tricky, tricky!" I think.

I see one of those gas station signs with the changeable letters. It reads, "DUDE THIS SUCKS", which I find surprising. I look closer and see that it has changed to "YES WE'RE OPEN!" Just below the sign I see a row of frightening stone gargoyles perched along one of the gas station walls. Finally I've been bombarded with enough clues and now I know that this is a dream.

The other DCs stare silently ahead, so I ignore them and take a look around. It's still foggy, but I realize that I'm not outside at all but rather in what looks like an enormous airplane hangar. There are windows high up in the corner and I float toward one, planning to phase outside. As I reach the window, though, my vision goes black.

I feel myself floating back down, so once again I imagine that I have a gladius in my hand and start swinging it around everywhere. I land back on the ground, but everything stays black. I can still feel the weight of the gladius and my moving arm, though, so I feel fairly relaxed. I start probing at my dream body and discover that I seem to be wearing nothing but my boxer shorts. Suddenly worried, I check to make sure that my wiener is still there. Yes, all is well.

I've been in the dark longer than I'd like so I call out for help. "Somebody come help me! Mrs. Rearden, I need you to help me!" There's no response. I poke and slap at my face, hoping something will happen. Finally, I decide that maybe something will happen if I take off my boxer shorts. As soon as I attempt this, I hear Mrs. Rearden shout, "Don't do that! Stop it! Here, I'll help you." She grabs my left hand, gives it a hard yank, and pulls me into a new dream scene just outside of a door.

I keep a grip on her hand and we walk through the door. We're on the second story walkway of a mall. Mrs. Rearden looks frightened. She mutters, "This is not where the Coordinator wants us to be."

I'm stunned by this. "Who? The Coordinator?"

"Yes," she says. "The Dream Coordinator. This was not what he had planned." She is really upset and keeps looking nervously around the scene

I tug at her hand and move with her further along the walkway. As we approach an elevator, I say, "There is no Dream Coordinator. This is my dream and we don't answer to anybody. But you don't have to come with me any further. I think I'm okay on my own now."

She responds that she wants to help, but as she's speaking, I become disconnected from my dream body. My perspective sinks down to the busy food court on the mall's first floor. I feel like an insubstantial apparition and I'm desperate to regain physical form. I try the gladius trick but it feels all wrong.

There's a guy with a shaved head nearby, black, in his 30s, wandering happily around the food court. I move toward him, hoping that if I make physical contact it'll bring me back into the dream. He sees me floating toward him, though, and takes off at a dead run, screaming in terror. I don't blame him -- if a ghost in nothing but boxer shorts came after me, I'd run like hell, too. With nowhere else to go, I run out of steam and the dream ends.

Write previous entry on here. Back to bed. more lucids.

I SSILDed and it worked better with the WBTB since I have been sleeping too heavily and barely waking up during the night.

I had a normal dream about my family having a bunch of issues and I started playing video games (like I did when I was like 15). Someone mentioned work and I checked the time. It looked like 7:30, crap! I checked again. 8:30! Checked again, 6:39. I tried to explain the family situation to my wife and then I woke up to my wife saying "is someone else in here?" I freak out real fast and am not 100% sure what she said. I try to ask her to repeat. My mouth doesn't work "C... c... C... Can you repeat that?" Aha! SP! I broke out of it too! I look over and my wife is asleep. She must have been sleep talking. Only the second time I have been in SP though!

I went back to sleep. A little sad about not just WILDing through SP.

To make up for it, I WILD! Yay. I remember that the two dreams I forgot to stabilize and to look for HQ. I stabilized. Thought about a forest behind me. Aha! There was one. I walked over. It was so dark. Not too bad. I need to get there stealthily in case of extras. I walk through the tree line and notice that there is a huge ditch with aroad going down to a pool. Weird. There is a group of people coming up the road. I need to get away from the road. Secret base won't have a road to it. they had flash lights. they are looking for me. five groups of 3... Fifteen people. I haven't fought against anyone, I don't know if I can take 15. I hide in the trees and when they get past I start going to the thick part of the forest. After walking for a minute I got off the road (gonna upload a picture drawn of this place). I then woke up because of how dark it was.

I woke up. Back to sleep. I am in a huge building and people are letting their dogs out on me. Since the building had doors it was easy to get away.

Woke up. Back to sleep. Another WILD . It is day time and I am looking at a neighborhood. I think of forest again and turn around. The swimming pool and forest! This time there are people at the pool. I start walking by, and am contemplating flying to the HQ, but don't want to give away its location. DCs at the pool call me over. My throat hurts really really bad. Like someone is sitting on it. Ignoring it doesn't seem to help. It is causing me to be pretty unstable even with the vividness. I start losing the dream and let it go.

Ah! Thirst. I had been laying on my back with my mouth open. It is time to get up to work anyways.

I have been really tired lately (even with 8 hours of sleep). After these 7 hours though, I feel great though!

Tormentors
Recall: 7/10
Sleep: Good
Sleep Position: Unknown

For some reason I've called up Jimmy, and ask him if he knows any indian medicine men or sorcerers, maybe he has someone in his family who has that type of knowledge. He doesn't seem into the idea but I talk him into it and he finally tells me to come over.

I go to his place, he invites me inside, then all these indians start giving me a hard time. An old woman giving me dirty looks that could kill, muscled goon indians trying to intimidate me. I know where I'm not wanted, so I go to put my shoes back on only to find thumb tacks inside them. I remove the tacks, put on my shoes and leave.

But it's not going to be that easy. They follow me and start using some sort of reality altering magics or curse on me. Everything is just going crazy in a very bad way, hard to describe. I begin to use dream control without being lucid to counteract their efforts, and manage to calm things down. One of them comments that they are surprised I managed to calm things down so quickly, then they launch another attack even worse than the last one. My reality falls apart into a crazy fractal. I do my best to keep my focus so it doesn't get the better of me and try to get out of there.

I leave the apartment building but they follow me, so I try to lose them by hopping on a bus that happens to have stopped near me with the door open, but they still follow. On the bus, my trials continue. At one point there is some sort of deformed mutant kid at the front with a donation box, and the old indian woman hands me 15 dollars to give to him. I'm about to put it all in his box, when I think I'll need money to pay my bus fare and keep 5 for myself, giving the kid 10. The old indian woman is absolutely disgusted by this, and even I concede that was a dick move. I know this isn't real, and I couldn't even give to the poor cripple kid without thinking of myself.

This hellish mind fuck of an assault carries on, and I finally realize I'm dreaming. Rather than try to salvage this mess of a dream, I'm like "fuck this, I'm outta here!" and wake myself up.

I'm having too many dreams where I use dream control without being lucid. Going to have to try to do something about that.

First LD in a while. Not too much got accomplished, but Frick, it was fun!

Decided to try and WILD from initial awakening again. Like everyone told me not too . Second attempt, second success.

I go to bed a little late (1130) and attempt to get into almost a medatative stance where I am visualizing and kind of just playing around with that until a dream starts. Then, at about 1230 my upstairs neighbors decide to drop something on the floor and chase fifteen elephants around their room and pick it up. That jolted me and made me wake up a bit. Then I made it back into that trance like state. I am standing! Aha! In a Dream! and then I wake up. Same thing that happened last time I tried this. I was in a dream, but then got kicked out. I lay still. I am getting the hang of what you need to feel in order to get in the dream from the waking state. I DEILD back into the dream, and the same thing happens. Over and over dunno how many times, I am a little ticked off by this, but then someone starts talking to me and I get up out of bed not lucid and go about some boring dream business. I then woke up again and was ticked off because I realized that I hadn't been RCing upon waking and that may have only been one lucid with scene changes. . The motionless RC worked (I am in reality). I tried to DEILD again. This time less confident since I think that the last five or so times that I thought I had "found that feeling" might have just been fake and my dream trolling me. I tried to get to the feeling and...
I am in a dream! I look at my surroundings. Not too many people in a neighborhood. It is a little cloudy out. I take to the sky and my wife joins me. We start talking about the dream and she pretty much has no dream control except being able to fly (so my subC got it right). She asked why it was so cold in this dream world and I told her I would warm it up. I lay back while we are flying and look at the clouds (I think nina flies like this... Might have been someone else though. I would recommend this though! It is fun!) No sun... I use all my might and get the sun out of the clouds by willing them away. We started getting caught up in the dream a bit. She (like a normal DC) steered the conversation to how in the city we were in there was an election today and everyone needed to vote. She told me to remember that they didn't nominate anyone this year, so you can vote for whoever you like. I would have lost my lucidity, but she kept reffering to the place as "a dream" so that kept me with it.

Then she started complaining about the cold again. The sun was setting, so I tried to bring it back... Fail. It dissapeared even faster. We landed and went to a house. We needed to vote soon or it wouldn't count. I was following her and she went through a garage to vote in the back. I decided to mess with her and flew past her and slammed the door shut. Put a barrier around the door. I then flew out the garage with her chasing me (that may sound mean, but it was more like flirting. Plus I had realized that I didn't need to vote since it was a dream. I woke up right after that.

Pre-Bed
3grams Fish Oil
5 MG Melatonin
1 cup Ginkgo Biloba Tea

Bed time 10:15PM
Alarm at 12:00AM
Move to recliner and do a few quick SSILD cycles before I past out.

#130 Regrets and Holidays - DILD - 1:44AM

I am working for my old boss P. She is next to me and I am printing out photos for her on the ID station printer. I keep asking, "Does this look OK?"

Then I am printing old photos of my mom and me when I was around two years old. Then I am with my dead grandma (nanny). I am looking at a live sized computer screen of a old Christmas tree. The background is solid blue and it looks like a bad photo shop job. I can see discoloration on the edges like it had been cut-and-pasted on the blue background.

Nanny is standing to my right wants a copy of that photo but I think it's too late. She tells me to just use the Christmas tree and do a new one. I see my toddler self and my mom posing in front of the tree. We look like a photo but we look we are really there. I say something to Nanny about it. Then I realize she is dead and become lucid. I start to become emotional but luckily the first thing I think of is the flower TOTM. I quickly reach behind my back and summon a rose. I don't feel it in my hand but pretend its there. When I bring it in front of me it looks like a normal red rose. Nanny wordlessly takes it. Then the emotion takes over me. I begin to cry and hug her. I feel mild pressure of her against me. I say to her. "I love you so much. I really miss you. I wished you weren't dead." I go on to say some other things but I forget now.

I guess because of the emotion I lose lucidity as my awareness gradually becomes a dim thought in my mind. I am suddenly in front of my Grandpa (Pawpaw) and I continue crying and talking. "I am really sorry that I did not call or visit you two before you died." He looks at me disinterested and shrugs a bit. I looks like he mouths something, "Ya." I think how I was a least hoping he was going to tell it was OK, not to worry, but he didn't seem to care. I feel really terrible.

Now, I am sitting at a Thanksgiving feast with my parents and my wife. I act as if nothing happened and feel completely happy. I assume my grandparents are going to join us but I don't see them anywhere. Instead of a Turkey there is a Turkey Pie. Actually, I see 2 pie and both are half eaten. I think there is not enough turkey for everyone. I hear my mom say, "I don't know but I better be getting my pie of turkey." Then I remember that my dad and I ate some earlier and I decide to pass on the Turkey Pie this round so there is enough for everyone.

I go back to sleep.

3:00AM no recall.

100MG Caffeine
2x Valerian Root

I am awakened by a noise at 3:30AM. I feel like I was just on the cusp of a lucid dream but I can't recall what it was. Couldn't go back to sleep after that.

DreamLucidAwake

Vandalizing the Great Wall of China

My vision was blurry and the dream was pretty unstable. I could tell that I was in a mountainous area and that there was a large structure nearby. I could hardly see anything though. I did notice that there was a stone brick lying on the ground in front of me. For some reason I had the urge to attempt to lift it up with telekinesis. The stone started to wobble a bit and when I raised my hand, the brick floated up into the air.I became lucid around this point because I realized that telekinesis would only be possible if I was dreaming. It was also around this point that the dream became more vivid and stable.

I tossed the brick around with telekinesis and played with it for a bit. When I got bored with that, I looked at the structure next to me. It was the Great Wall of China. As I looked at it, I remembered the China task of the year. I remembered that I was supposed to vandalize the wall. I began charging a ball of earth energy between my two hands. As I was building up energy, I sensed someone coming up to me from behind. I turned around to see who it was. It was Lola.

Lola is apparently the captain of the police force in the Dragonborn City. That made me worry that my vandalism might not go so well. "What are you doing," she asked. "Nothing," I said. "It doesn't look like nothing," she said looking at my ball of earth energy. "Well what does it look like?" I asked. "It looks like you're about to blast a hole through the Great Wall of China," she said.

I finally charged enough energy and I decided that it would be better to ignore her and complete the task of the year. I turned around and threw the ball of earth magic at the wall. It caused a large portion of the wall to shatter apart and turn to dust, leaving a wide gap in the wall. "Why did you do that?!" she yelled. "Oops, my hand slipped," I said. "Give me one good reason why I shouldn't arrest you," she said. "Well I was going to fix it," I said. "Maybe I should just call the local authorities and let them take care of it," she said to herself. At that moment I remembered that I was also supposed to fight authorities with Kung Fu, so it would actually be a good thing if she called them. "That's a great idea Lola!" I said.

She shook her head at me and pulled out her cell phone. As she was calling the local authorities, I started to use my earth magic to attempt to repair the wall. It wasn't perfect, but I think I did a pretty good job. By the time I was finished, 3 soldiers with spears had arrived on top of the wall. I grew dragon wings and flew up to the top of the wall. "Hello there," I said to the soldiers. They didn't seem very friendly however.

One of the soldiers thrust their spear at me. I ducked out of the way and knocked the soldier to the ground with a leg sweep. Another one attacked me with a spear, but I blocked it with my arm. I then kicked him the side and tossed him off the wall. When the last soldier charged at me, I broke his spear in half with my arm and then punched him a few times. After that, they were all knocked out. "That was easy," I said.

Lola flew to the top of the wall and landed in front of me. I knew she was going to arrest me and I didn't want to fight her. I already completed my goal, so I finally decided to cooperate with her. I raised my hands in the air to show that I surrendered. "Turn around and put your hands behind your back," she said. She pulled out a pair of handcuffs and put them around my wrists. "Your punishment will be to walk all the way around the wall," she said. "Wait, I'm not going to jail?" I asked. "No, I think this punishment is more fitting," she said. I looked in the distance and tried to estimate how long of a walk it would be. I came to the conclusion that it would be exhausting to walk that far. "Can I choose prison instead?" I asked. "No, start walking," she said.

So I started walking along the Great Wall of China. I spent most of my time viewing the scenery. As I walked, the dream started to destabilize, and I woke up after about 5 minutes or so of walking. I call it a good thing.

Penguin Alliance

I was lucid right from the beginning of this dream. I was in Australia walking down the street of some neighborhood with my daughter Lucia. I was apparently there to meet up with a group of penguins. I was going to make an alliance between penguins and Dragonborns. Lucia was with me because she thought Australia would be fun.

"Why do you want to make an alliance with penguins?" she asked. "Experience has taught me that it's better to make friends with a penguin and not enemies. They can also be very dependable," I said. I have no idea what experience I was talking about, but I'll take my word for it. Maybe I was thinking about the Penguins of Madagascar or Sgt. Byrd from Spyro.

We walked up to a house that I somehow recognized as the penguin's base. I walked onto the porch and knocked on the door. I heard a male voice from the other side say, "Who is it?" I stated my full name and said why I was there. "Okay, you're safe. Come on in," he said. I tried to open the door, but it wouldn't budge. "The door won't open," I said. "Oh I forgot, that door is broken. You'll have to use the penguin entrance," he said. I looked down and next to the regular door was a small door built for penguins.

I opened the tiny door and crawled through the hole into the house. Lucia then tried to crawl through, but she got stuck. I grabbed both of her hands and pulled her in. Once we were inside, we were greeted by a penguin who actually did seem a lot like Sgt. Byrd. "Welcome to our base," he said saluting us. When Lucia saw the penguin, she immediately picked it up and hugged it tight. "It's so cute!" she shouted. "Unhand me soldier!" He yelled. "She's not a soldier, she's my daughter," I said laughing. "I don't care what she is, I want to be put down!" he said. So Lucia put him back on the ground.

Sgt. Byrd showed us around the base. On the outside it looked like an ordinary house. On the inside however, it was like a military or spy base for penguins. "Wow, penguins are pretty cool," Lucia said. Byrd then led us to room where penguins were monitoring their spy cameras. One screen that stood out to me, was a camera monitoring a great white shark. "We'll gladly agree to your alliance," Sgt. Byrd said, "but only if you help us out with a small problem." "What do you need?" I asked. "A great white shark has gone mad and is constantly terrorizing the Great Barrier Reef. It's throwing the ecosystem far off balance. We need you to get rid of it using any means necessary," He said. "Sure, no problem. I've fought with sharks before," I said.

Me and Lucia crawled back out the penguin door and walked outside. "The first thing we need to do is get to the beach," I said. We got into a car that I had apparently left on the side of the street. I stepped on the gas and started driving in the direction that I thought the beach was. We were driving down a hill with a stop sign at the bottom, so I stepped on the brakes. The brakes weren't working however and I tell that we were going to crash. I held onto Lucia and the car crashed into a tree. Luckily we weren't going too fast and neither of us got hurt.

"I am never driving another car again. Something always goes wrong," I said. "So how are we going to get to the beach?" she asked me. We both got out of the car and the first thing that came to my mind was an ATV. I summoned an ATV in front of me and mounted it. "This is much better," I said. "How is that better?" she asked. "So far I haven't had any bad luck with these things," I said. She sat behind me and held on. I began driving in the direction of the beach again and the dream skipped ahead.

I drove the ATV onto the beach and we got off. I looked off into the distance and saw River in the ocean riding a sea turtle. When she saw me she smiled and waved at me and I waved back. Nothing she does really surprises me anymore. Next thing I know, Lucia is wearing a bikini and running towards the ocean. She picked up a a sea turtle that was swimming in the water and started riding it like River. It was at this point that I remembered that one of the tasks of the year was to ride a sea turtle at the Great Barrier Reef and bite a shark. It's great when the dream finds a way to put you in a scenario that encourages it.

I ran into the water and searched for a sea turtle. I saw a large one swimming out into the deeper waters. I swam over to it and grabbed on to it's back. "Can you take me to the great barrier Reef?" I asked the turtle, "I need to save it from a shark." The turtle made some sort of grunt sounds, which I assumed meant "yes". The turtle dove under the water and took me with it. At first I was worried about drowning, but then I remembered that I can breathe underwater.

Before I knew it, we were at the Great Barrier Reef. I could see great walls of coral with tons of different kinds of fish swimming around them. It was like a city for fish and marine life. As we swam around the reef, I asked the turtle, "Do you know where the shark is?" The turtle then turned and started swimming in another direction. Off in the distance, I could see the great white shark swimming towards us. I got off the turtle and told it to get somewhere safe. I then transformed into a dragon, hoping that it would help me swim better.

When the shark got closer, I remembered that the task was to bite it. I thought that was crazy at first, but considering I have dragon teeth, I figured I might be able to bite the shark just as hard as it could bite me. The shark came charging at me with it's mouth wide open. I dove out of the way and it missed me. It then circled back and charged at me again. I took a swipe at its snout with my claws and it stopped attacking me for a moment. I then charged some poison magic into my teeth and bite shark's back. After being poisoned, the shark had no fight left in it and fell to the ocean floor. I think it was safe to say that it was dead now.

With the shark problem solved, I decided to swim back up to the surface to check on Lucia. Lucia had apparently managed to catch a sea turtle that was like twice my size. She was using the turtle to surf along the waves. I don't really enjoy things like swimming or surfing much, so I decided to swim back to the beach. The turtle that helped me out earlier came back to the surface and let me ride him back to shore.

As we got closer to the beach, my vision started to become blurry. When I stepped onto the beach, I could tell that I was starting to lose touch with my senses and that my dream was becoming unstable. I tried to fight it, but it wasn't long before I fell to the ground and woke up.

This was really a lucid fragment followed by a short DILD. Ah, there was so much unrealized potential in this dream! Way too short for all its promise. Some phasing progress though!

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #65: A Short Soliloquy

I'm standing in a rain forest clearing, standing in a shallow pool of clear water with my 3-year-old son E. I realize that this must be a dream. I immediately think of jumping from Angel Falls for Task of the Year.

E seems to read my mind because he panics and starts scampering around, squeaking, "Don't want to go! No! No! Don't want to! Don't want to go!" I try to get him to calm down but I quickly wake up.

I lay there and try to DEILD, but nothing comes. I flip to my back and start some fast SSILD cycles. I am halfway through the second cycle when I lose consciousness.

It's nighttime and I'm standing in E's darkened room, reflecting on the nature of life, illusion, and reality. I think, "Everything is just an illusion." I quickly realize how right I am.

I look around and see that E's bed and E himself are both gone. I hold up my hands, looking first at the palms. I bend my fingers into claws, noting how realistic my hands look. At some point, I stopped getting so many distortions and extra fingers, it seems. "My hands are an illusion," I whisper to noone in particular.

There's very faint moonlight trickling in through the plantation shutters of E's window. I say, "This wall is an illusion, too." I remember Alyzarin talking about how easy phasing became once she internalized that every wall was nothing but a picture that only she could make real. What could be simpler or more obviously true than that?

I imagine where I'll be when I step through that wall. I move toward the wall, thinking of the Colosseum. But then I have a vision of the top of Angel Falls. It's far more vivid, so I go with that.

As I pass into the wall, it feels like nothing more than mist. My vision cuts to milky gray and I vividly hear splashing water and the shouts and greetings of friends. People are already here waiting for me, but who? Is it people from waking life? DV members preparing to do Task of the Year? Suddenly I wake up. I try to go back to sleep but it's too late in the morning to transition back in.

Dream
Lucid
Semi-Lucid

Okay, this is a pretty cool dream, and I'm going to tell you why.
During the day my mind was plagued with a certain predicament.
Usually a nightmare is one thing, like a scary monster or a gangster who wants to kill you.
Which is why I like calling them knightmares (so original), they're warriors of fear.
But what happens when your nightmare isn't one thing?
What if it's all around you?
I'm talking about, of course, zombie apocalypses.
Now I've experienced way more than a few of these, and here's what the difference is between them and regular nightmares.
Say I become lucid when a gangster has a gun to my head.
What do I do? Use telekinesis to snap his neck, nightmare over.
But if you become lucid during a zombie apocalypse, what are you going to do?
I mean, I'm sure any of you guys could just teleport to a different dream but I can't as of yet so bare with me.
You could try and kill all the zombies you see, which you could do pretty easily.
However, the world has still ended, there's no one around to interact with at all.
You're doomed to forever wander the wastes.
So, you haven't beaten the nightmare.
Why? Because the fear from this nightmare doesn't even come from the zombies.
It comes from knowing that you're alone, in a desolate world, where every human being who once lived wants you DEAD.
The nightmare is literally the ground beneath your feet.
Well, I guess you could just destroy that too.
If you're for some reason powerful enough to summon a world ending black hole but not enough to make a portal to a happier place, that could solve your problem.
I mean, the dream would either end or create a new scene.
However I doubt anyone is like that.
Passive control a cure that gets distributed?
Maybe, but with my thinking mind I'd wonder, "How could they deliver a cure world wide when 90% of the population is either dead or zombified?" and that solution probably wouldn't work.
So I had reached an impasse, even if I become lucid during a zombie apocalypse (which I have), there's no real way to stop it.
I mean, I wouldn't be as scared but I still couldn't say I beat the nightmare.
Or so I thought.
This train of thought happened to leak into my dreams, causing, why yes, a zombie apocalypse dream, and my theory was put to the test.


February 7th 2013

I'm running away from some zombies with a couple others.
We were ambushed by some earlier and are trying our best to get away from them.
We get to a clearing but more zombies emerge from the trees.
We run the other direction and are ambushed by more, we ran right into a horde.
I'm being chased by multiple zombies now and am running for my life.

"Oh christ, I gotta do something fast!" I think to myself.

I start to try think up a way out of my current predicament.

"I'm not being chased by zombies, I'm on the set of the walking dead!"

I will this to be true with every fiber of my being and it is made so.
I continue running but now I see cameras on cranes of to the sides and a director sitting on his chair.
Realizing that the zombies are just actors I decide to get close to one to see how they look since obviously they won't try to grab me or anything.
I see the face of one, she has a greenish greyish complexion with crazy brown hair sticking out in all directions, her eyes look blood shot and dead, but otherwise she look like a regular person.
I veer off to one side and see a zombie without the top part of his head.
It looks so real that it actually scares me. I head off.
I can see one of my friends, who I believe is Shane, and decide to follow him down a path.
I come to a fork in the path and run down the wrong way.
I can hear the director yell in the background.

"Go the other way!"

I did this purposely to test just how real this reality I had created on the spot was, and whether or not the nightmare would return.
But it didn't, I'm still on set, which means I have to keep running or the director's gonna get pissed! I veer off back to follow Shane.

"There you are!" He calls to me.

We continue to run down into an alley way and scene is over.

"Cut!"

The alley way is where the director is, along with a couple other actors.
Among them is the guy who plays rick.



Yeah, so that's a simple solution to the problem, use passive control to make yourself be on the set of a zombie movie/tv show.
Though, since I was semi-lucid I had a lot more power than I do regularly.
In hindsight I should have given that whole theory more thought.
However, dream me seems to think best on his feet.
Also, the reason I became semi-lucid is because Zombie Apocalypses are a dream sign that even dream me recognizes.
Well once again my conjecture is longer than my actual dream. Damn.

DreamLucidAwake

Crystal Crossbow

I don't remember much of the beginning of this dream. The earliest thing I remember was sitting at a workbench in a smithy/workshop. The smithy was located within the Dragonborn city. I seem to be having more dreams there, which is a good thing. I was planning to build a crossbow out of crystal. Chris was also there to help me out.

There was a crossbow blueprint spread out across the table. I looked at the blueprint and analyzed it, but I don't think I actually understood much of it. I started the process by placing a bucket full of crystals inside the forge. Chris shoveled some coal into the flames while I worked the bellows to pump air into the forge. As I was pumping, Rick walked into the workshop with a few guns.

"Hey Rick, what are doing here?" I asked. "I come here every so often to repair broken weapons," he said. Rick laid an assault rifle on a workbench and began searching for tools and parts. "So what about you guys? What are you up to?" he asked. "We're smelting crystal in the forge. I'm attempting to craft a crystal crossbow," I said.

After about a minute, I figured the crystal was melted. I grabbed the bucket with tongs and laid some kind of crossbow shaped mold on the table. I poured the molten liquid into the mold until it was filled. There was still some liquid left in the container, so I placed it back in the forge to use later. When the liquid in the mold cooled a bit, I picked it up with the tongs. I thought about hitting it with a hammer on the anvil, but I figured that would do more harm than good. So I submerged the crossbow in a tank of water so it would completely cool and harden.

I laid the crossbow on the table and opened a box next to it that contained crossbow parts. Most of the parts in the box were small random metal pieces that were obviously important. I had no idea how they worked or what to do with them though. I had a feeling it would take me a while to figure it out. "Chris, go ahead an use the remaining crystal to make some bolts," I said. "No problem," he said. Chris then pulled out another mold for bolts and began pouring the liquid into it.

I started looking through the parts and figure out how each one functioned. After studying them for a while, I finally yelled, "What the hell am I supposed to do with these?!" Rick then got up and looked at my problem. "Don't worry, this is simple stuff. Let me show you where everything goes," he said. Rick apparently knew a lot about weapon mechanics and was very skilled at putting them together. Rick showed me how to attach the trigger, the bowstring, the other parts of the firing mechanism, the shoulder strap, and the reflex sight.

"Yay," I said once we were finished. I picked it up and looked at Chris through the reflex sight. He was apparently making the final touches to the bolts at the anvil. "Hey Chris, check it out," I said. He jumped when he saw the crossbow pointed at him and said, "Don't point that thing at me!" "Sorry," I said and swung the crossbow over my shoulder. "I'm done with the crystal bolts," he said and handed me a quiver of about 20 bolts. "Thanks Chris," I said. "So what are you going to do now?" Rick said. "I think I'm going to go complete the Roman task of the year now," I said.

I ran outside and grew dragon wings. I started flying in the direction that I assumed was towards Rome. After a few minutes of flight, the dream skipped. I think I forced the dream skip so I could get to Rome sooner. It was now night time and I landed in front of the Colosseum. Before I walked in, Krystal teleported in front of me. "What are you doing here?" She asked. "I was just about to ask you that. I'm here to fight to the death with gladiators," I told her. She stared at me for a moment before I said, "Don't worry, I'll be fine." "I'm coming with you to be sure," she said. I didn't see a point in arguing it, so we entered the Colosseum together.

The Colosseum was a bit different from what I expected. There were thousands of fans seated around the Colosseum. There were very bright lights above to keep the area illuminated. Rather than an open arena, there were stone walls in the center that created a maze-like area to fight in. The thing that stood out to me the most though, was the jumbotron floating above the arena. "Wow, things have changed a lot in the last couple thousand years. Check out the giant TV," I said.

A man started talking over a mic, but I can't remember what he was talking about. He was trying to get the spectators excited for the most part. When the competition began, I entered the maze through the entrance on the left and Krystal entered the one on the right. So much for staying together. I readied my crossbow and walked through the maze cautiously. Despite the lights around the Colosseum, it was fairly dark within the maze. I activated my dragon sight to help me see better.

I wandered through the maze for a while without encountering anyone. As I came to a corner, I heard someone coming around from the other side. I stopped and tried to remain silent so that they wouldn't sense me. A wolf then came around the corner and jumped at me. I was going to shoot it, but I realized it was Krystal in wolf form and stopped. She knocked me to the ground and she was probably about to rip out my throat. She realized it was me though and got off of me.

"Let's try not to split up again," I said getting up. I took point and we kept on moving through the maze until we reached the center. In the center was an open grassy area. There was also a pond, a tree, and a small building of some sort. Four warriors had been battling there, but two of them had been slain by the time we got there. All that was left was a man and a woman who were apparently a team like us.

We had the element of surprise, so I aimed at the woman and fired my crossbow. She sensed the bolt coming though and blocked it with her sword. After that, I had a feeling my crossbow wouldn't be of much help, so I summoned my crystal sword. Krystal fought with the woman and I fought with the man.

The man fought with a giant battle axe and the force like a Jedi. He liked to use those force powers to push me and throw me around a lot. After a minute into the battle, he pulled my sword away from me and then launched me through the wall of the building. As I got up, I saw him crawl through the wall with his axe. He kind of looked like he wanted to chop off my head. I quickly grabbed my crystal crossbow and pulled the string back. I loaded a bolt into the crossbow and charged it with fire energy. By the time I was ready to fire, he was only a few feet away from me and he began to swing his axe. I fired at him, and when the crystal fire bolt hit, it exploded. The explosion knocked me back across the room and destroyed the other warrior. "Holy shit, it's like firing a rocket launcher!" I said.

I got up and walked back out of the building to help Krystal. She was still fighting with the other woman and didn't seem to be doing too well. I pulled the string back and loaded another crystal bolt. I imbued this bolt with wind energy to increase its speed, power, and accuracy. I looked through the reflex sight and aimed at the woman. I also slowed down time to improve my aim. When I fired, the bolt went straight through the woman like a bullet.

After she was defeated, the guy with the mic said, "Now it's time for the zombie round!" Immediately after that, zombies started to gather around us. It was a bit unexpected. The dream started to destabilize as we fought the zombies. I managed to kill a good number of them with wind and fire bolts before I woke up.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am talking to my brother "C" in his room and I notice he has a cool-looking blue Dragonite toy on his desk. I ask where he got it from and he tells me McDonalds. I then find myself at a McDonalds located on my uni campus grounds, waiting with "C" and my uni friend "M". I ask her what she is buying and she says a happy meal, though she wants me to help her finish it. I tell her that’s ok as I was planning to throw my own Happy Meal away once I got the Pokemon toy. We get our food and look for a seat, but are distracted when someone rushes towards us babbling excitedly about something he has written. He takes a seat at a table (we are now in an indoor corridor) and a crowd begins to form around him. They prevent me from being able to see what he has written, but when I notice my friend "GT" at the table he tells me to come over and stand on his shoulders. I run around to his side and smoothly jump on the back of his seat so that I can see the sheet of paper. It contains a one line scrawling of a formula of some sort. I then walk away but notice something cryptic on the walls, spelling the name of a friend of mine. I then look at the pages of a book mounted on a stand, and see four lines containing the jumbled letters of another friend. These cause me to become lucid. I then walk through the corridor, marvelling at how vivid everything is – even more so it seems than real life. I see a man with four arms sitting on a couch; he and everything else seem to be frozen in time. I then enter a room where a wrestling match appears to be taking place. I can hear the commentator shouting the name of one of the competitors, ‘Lustmord’.

i was in the park, and i had body feeling like flying, so i count fingers and flew away. i landed near a smal shop and asked the old woman - shop assistant, give me her clock. she gave me the clock with the watch chain - i opend it, and looked at the minute hand (in dream i forgot about second hand). it was on 12 but it went in other direction and very quickly. about 3 seconds i wait staring at hand till it went to 9 .but then think that it isn't 15 seconds and stared again. i wait 4 - 6 seconds till the hand went 12 11 10 9 8 7 6 - so on my dream clock it was 30 seconds. i didn't want to kill my LD there, so i went looking for my friend, but found only 2 monsters in the bed, then i went through the portal and was on the street, picked up 3 flowers - one yelow and 2 red or purple and wait some time for a suitable DC, i lost my patience, because all DC were or too young or too old and no men of my age at all. so i gave flowers to a woman - she was very afraid of me and became twice smaler. Then i started erase things.....i looked at the multistory house, took all my will, made a gesture with my hand like i erase it - and before me i found a car size of a bus. house was on its plase. and i tried to erase the house till i awoke.

Dream
Lucid
Semi-Lucid

Well I did it, I got lucid again. Since I restarted my dream journal anyway.
Unfortunately it seems my telekinesis has all but faded away
Even the minor movements I used to be able to make no longer work,
(the last lucid dream I had before this I could use telekinesis but it was really weak).
Don't worry though, I've been putting a lot of effort into retraining myself to use it.
Soon I'll reclaim the title of Galactic Emperor of My Dreams.
MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
*ahem*
Anyways, at least I'm making progress.
Also I was catching up on Naruto this week, so it bled heavily into my dreams.



February 8th 2013

I was at the ninja academy with a bunch of other ninjas. We were talking about various things, at one point the class made fun of me for something stupid I said. Suddenly the mood changed. Sasuke, the rogue ninja hell bent on destruction, was headed our was, and we had to gather everyone here to take him on. Kakashi was to lead the strike. I could tell Sasuke was coming because there was a thunder storm always looming above him, and it was headed right for us.

I transition to my grandma's apartment. I began to summon up my pyrokinetic powers for the upcoming fight when it dawned on me.

"Yes! I'm dreaming!" I clapped my hands together excitedly.

I'd been trying so hard to fall asleep before to no avail.
Now here I was, somewhere that wasn't my bedroom, I didn't have to RC to know it was a dream.
I decided that I was going to try to practice active control, since it's the one thing I have the biggest problem with.
I decided if I did some kind of hand sign and blurted out words it would work. (watched way to much anime).
I clapped both of my hands together and intertwined my fingers.

"Active control! Pyrokinesis!"

I kind of sounded like an idiot, and felt like one even more so.
I took my hands and brought them closely together.
I pictured an orangy yellow ball in between both of them.
The result I got was the same as it would've been had I tried it in waking life, total failure.

"Understandable, I typically never use pyrokinesis any how." I thought to myself.

"However..."

I raised my hand at an object sitting on the end table next to the bed.
I tried hard to make it lift up in the air, visualizing it levitating.
To be fair I did so half halfheartedly.
Nothing. Damn.
Deciding that my attempt at active control was a failure, and knowing I had little time, I decided to take in my surroundings.
Specifically, I was looking for abnormalities.
I spotted something out of place, a picture frame of my grandma upside down on a shelf.
But it was balanced on the shelf at an angle that wouldn't have been possible IWL.

"There's one!" I thought.

I began looking around more.
I'm actually very surprised, the room is in almost perfect detail.
Right down to the way that things are arranged in certain places, the walls, the furniture, it's as if I'm actually here.
Then again, I've lived here the majority of my life, and I've been here in my dreams more times than any other place as well, more so than my current home.
My brain has had years to map out and replicate every last detail of it.
It's funny how sometimes we forget just how much work goes into making our dreams seem real.
(However this was beginning to work toward my disadvantage).
After inspecting the room I left the room into the hallway in search of more anomalous behavior.

"There..."

A little piece of paper with a question mark sat on top of a book shelf where a picture frame or something was supposed to be.
I thought that it must have been something like an error, a bit of data that didn't load properly.
Or maybe my subconscious forgot what was there to begin with.
I went into our main living area where the dining table is.
My dad is there doing something by the desk.
In my head I'm looking for more abnormalities, but all I see is normal, normal, and more normal. I'm quite impressed.
I head into my laundry room and spot a pokemon card on the floor.
I pick it up to examine it and see that it's a drowzee card.

It looks like this but is blue and has a lot more text on it, though it doesn't appear out of the ordinary.

I don't bother trying to read it since it'd all be gibberish anyway.

"Son, have you seen my wooden boards for the desk?"

"Hmm?" I had no idea what he was talking about.

But something's missing huh? Guess that's something else to add to the list.

"Ah! Here they are!" He pulls two wooden boards out from the desk like magic.

Hmm, guess not.
There's also a bunch of screws and small wooden pieces on the desk.
It looks like he's installing new drawers, or something.

"Now, I'm gonna get you to put in these drawers."

"Ehh!?!?" You bastard dream don't try and change the subject. T^T

"Remember how I was teaching you about pistons before? Well now to put those skills into action. " (for whatever reason he referred to screws as pistons).

A false memory of him doing so aches at the back of my head.
I don't want to install your bloody drawers, do it yourself! I think to myself.
But I'm ignoring him, I was too concentrated on trying to move a pen cap even but an inch, and failing miserably.
My grandma came out of the kitchen to the dining room as well.

"C'mon on now. Do it for grandma. You wouldn't want to disappoint me now would you?" She says.

Pfft, I don't have to do this, unless, am I really awake?
No that's impossible that doesn't explain the dream signs,
but I wasn't able to use active control either. Maybe this is really happening?
Wait, do I live hear again?
My morbid curiosity of the situation is cut short as I bang my head on my wall, waking myself up.

Quick side note:
I only noticed this afterward since I visited my dad's place just a day after having this dream.
The model of the apartment that my brain uses in my dreams is a lot older, maybe 4 years previous from now.
I know this because some time ago they took the desk and moved it from the hallway to my room.
On top of that, the reason that I didn't find the pokemon card out of place was because I used to have them lying around all the time.
For the longest time, there was even a pokemon card in the laundry room, in the exact place that I found it in the dream.
Now here's something else that's weird.
Because I spent most my time in my room there when the desk was in the room, in my dreams, it appears in that room too.
So basically, in my dream model for the apartment, the desk is in two places at once.
Quick conjecture I thought I'd share.

I woke up at around 9am after I had a 7am WBTB. I drifted off to sleep then suddenly my body lifted off the bed, floated around the room, then landed on the carpet next to the bathroom. We have no carpet btw. Anyway, I knew I was lucid, so I got up and opened my eyes, but I was completely blind. Before I could do anything else, I woke up.

Too bad there's not a box that I can select for UNmemorable. I need to add that one. And one for Failed TOTM Attempt. Haha. The loser ones I'm kidding, at least we're happy and dreaming, ja?

<< I put that there because my son was looking at the smilies while I typed this, and this was one of his favories.

An awesome recall for once.

I am at home, i discover some sort of mechanical thing in the rest room, i call it 'Ice Element' for some reason. It looks like small blue toy soldier like thing, that slowly grows and transforms into some blue mecha thing size of the whole restroom when the restroom door is opened.
I don't seem to recall much after this point, only that i was in some sort of village, talking to various people, but i recall this part ending with me watching grandiose battle in some sort of water cave with number of big waterfalls, between 'Ice Element', which was transformed into some huge mechanical light blue 'core' thing surrounded by many huge mechanical floating constructions/parts size of at least half of the cave, and something else don't remember what sadly. Dream skips.
I seem to be in school(there was something between dream skip and that, but i can't recall anything particular at that point at all) and there are some computers on tables, i go to one and chat with some people on skype. After some time i notice some people on different computer are watching some battle between an ship and an submarine. I feel like helping the ship for some reason, and i contact some pirate through skype, and shortly i look at that screen on which people are watching battle. Pirate indeed comes on his sailing ship, which apparently is more powerful than more modern ship which is being attacked.
Soon submarine gets into alot of trouble and i am now being contacted by submarine crew through very same skype(), but they don't seem to have idea that i am the one who called pirates and are asking about something else, and at same time some other people suddenly decide to chat with me on skype, including Rock Lee(I am not sure if it was indeed character from Naruto or just someone using his name as nickname), i am getting distracted in different chats and suddenly one of people from the other computer comes(I think he looked like one of classmates from the time when i was indeed in school IWL) and says that he knows that it's me who called pirate. I dunno what to say, mostly because multitasking in a few chats, and he goes away and talks about something with other people on that computer. He goes back and screws up the phone number note or something that i had, using luting. I get angry and end up 'cleaning' my note all over his face. Dream seems to get distorted and shortly-...
I abruptly 'wake up' due to being attacked by half-life 2 zombie, i kick him down the hole in the floor and look around(And forget to do an RC...). I was in some sort of rusty steampunk-ish cargo area, there are few more of those zombies, also looking down the hole in the floor i notice that this area is part of some sort of flying vessel. Some other person enters the area through the only door and gets rid of zombies, we talk about something and i follow him through the door and some stairs.
We enter control deck and i realize that the flying vessel we are on is some sort of huge steampunk helicopter and it's flying above the sea, view switches and i see it from the outside for a while. After view switches back i notice that there's a tree in the control deck and some fantasy elf is standing by it. I talk to him and he's apparently commander of this helicopter.
View switches and now i see some arabian city near sea. There are two people that are trying to hide from army of villagers. They talk to each other and one of them mentions that all the villagers are possessed and they are last ones left who are not. View switches back to me, and now i was in some boat with paddles under the helicopter. There was some other person who used said paddles, and also there were many more boats with people around. Apparently our mission was to save those two people that i saw during an view switch earlier. We start moving towards that arabian city, but rather slowly, so i say that it will take ages to get there. Someone else says that it will not be a problem, and shortly some wild dude appears, riding some sort of brown shark. The shark summons an huge wave that speeds us up quickly to the beach. On the way i see 'Ice Element' again, it's standing in water and this time it's in huge mecha form and it's attacking some ships that look like the modern ship from earlier on.
As we get to the beach, i run into the town and quickly find the people we were searching for. I rescue them while everyone else is fighting the villagers. As we go on the boat into the sea, suddenly scene dramatically changes and i suddenly go underwater. I am surrounded by those brown sharks, but i feel to fear or anything. They vary by sizes and by form, there's also some voice in background(don't seem to be able to recall what it was talking about). Shortly one of the sharks comes to be and bites my right hand off, i feel no pain and i still feel no fear or anything, the ring appears in the place of hand and an huge red gem grows out of it. I get great power and end up compressing that shark into nothingness. The sharks are still all around, scene fades out.
I wake up, this time in my bedroom. I start recalling the dreams i just had and shortly go to the restroom(forgot to do reality check mk2). As i enter restroom i see... 'Ice Element'! I close and open the door a few times, don't i was like just now recalling seeing it in dream, wait a second... I do 'looking at the hands' reality check, right hand is fine... but left one has six fingers, so i am dreaming indeed!
I haven't recalled any goals for some reason(and i forget to stabilize dream as well) so i end up just doing random stuff. I enter the restroom again and grab 'Ice Element', it starts forming into some sort of weapon around my hand, i feel it's metallic nature. I went to different room, the Chandelier(the recurring 'DC of sorts' in my dreams) was there and it was transforming to be ready to something. For some unknown reason i decide to throw 'Ice Element' at it, they end up transforming together into some sort of weird steampunk-ish panel that hangs onto the wall. I feel that it's unfinished and notice a lamp to the right from me. I decide to practice dream control and decide to try to use telekinesis to move it to the panel. I pull the hand towards the lamp and attempt to use telekinesis. At first i am having hard time, but then i recall that for dream control i need to know that it will work and to be perfectly sure. I get more confident with telekinesis and end up moving the lamp towards the panel. It merges with the panel and the panel starts working, shortly i hear some noise in my head and dream ends.

I seem to have some problems recalling my goals while lucid, still was fun though!

This dream really made me question my own reality. i was getting ready to freak out but i was able to calm myself down. ...Okay so i was intending to only take a 2hr nap but then i fell dead asleep and i keep having these dreams of my childhood house. It was my favorite place where i grew up and then moved away but i keep having these dreams as if im still living there and its making me frustrated its like im not over it. & well...

in this dream i kept trying to wake up because i need to get ready for work and every single time i tried to wake up ...i woke up to a different life...almost like another dimension of what i wished my life would be or the things i miss. the first time i tried to wake up i woke up in my old room and then went back to sleep and then i woke up again and again it was the same thing back into the old house near my family and then i realized that i was late for work and then i slept again and i was getting ready to wake up and i felt this feeling as im falling and thought okay this is good this means im gonna wake up in a second and same thing happened ..

.i was getting ready to freak out and cry because i know that wasnt real and then i calmed myself down and just breathed and concentrated and then i felt the falling sensation and pop! i woke up ! and feel like im more alive better than ever but at the same time it felt weird because it made me wonder, is it possible that there are other life dimensions out there? are those real??

dreams like that freak me out, it felt like i was in a different place and time a different age i was much younger its almost as if i wished i was younger again and then it happend but in my dream...when i woke up i felt happy to be alive in this life time and more appreative to have accomplished so much but there is still something im not over...Help! idk whats going on? im so confused :/