lucid

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9/2/2020
Went to bed at 3AMish.
Woke up at 10:50 with soooo much recall. It felt like I had been dreaming for 45 mins to an hour with a ton of dream changes.
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Dream 1:(in room, climb out window, community, sex)
I was in my room after a FA. I wanted to find an attractive woman to have sex with. So I looked out my window, there was a ton of snow, then I decided to go out my front door. When I opened the door of my room, it was my room again on the other side. So I said fuck it, I'm jumping out the window. I went through the window and there were a ton of people outside. While looking and walking around, the dream was destabilizing. To restabilize, I remembered the TOTM task(2. Touch the ground. What is it? Grass, asphalt?). I touched and looked intensely at the ground. It felt hard and rough like bumpy asphalt. It looked like a combination of red, grey and a tiny bit of white in the bottom of the ridges. It's depth and colours were totally psychedelic, they were slightly moving and distinctly reminded me of how things looked on psychedelics. Like I was on mushrooms with less distortion. After stabilizing, I walked down the street and found some ladies next door who could be a partner to me. I convinced one to come over and we went to my room. We were getting ready to have sex, she had her pants off and I almost had all my clothes off. When I finally did it destabilized and she disappeared. I figured out how to bring her back, I did something that made sense in the dream world and then I saw she was in the bathroom, I just had to wait for her to get out. She came back out and we were gonna get to it when my light which can change colors started going on a random loop of colors and brightness. I tried to go to my app on my phone to change it back but I knew I couldnt get to it because technology never works properly in dreams. After trying to change the lights she was gone again. I was very aroused and like humped the air and it almost felt just as good.... I barely remember anything after that.

Dream 2:(work, chase, fingering)
this began at work. I knew it was a dream right away and decided to leave and try to find someone to have sex with(again... I need to stop wasting my time with this lol). I went outside, it was super snowy and I walked around a bit looking for someone. Eventually I found this pretty asian lady and we started getting chased. I told her to jump into this car with me. We jumped in the front seats then went into the back. 1 or 2 others got in the front and started driving to my house. I started to rub her vagina through her pants in the back and she seemed to really like it, I could feel the contractions of her body through her pants. I dont remember much after that.

Dream 3:(FA with Ezra, fly, models of the city)
I woke up in my room with my friend Ezra and his girlfriend. I asked if they were there this whole time(This was after multiple dreams and FAs.). They said yeah, they were kind of guiding me and helping me while in the dream world through talking to me. I still knew I was dreaming but Ezra wanted to tell me it was real life now. I was backing up from him and looking for signs that it was a dream. I was looking all around my room and finally looked at my shelf! I had only 1 shelf and it was really bare when I know I have lots more things on my shelf. I leaped through my window to outside. I ran down my street and attempted to fly by jumping a few times. I couldn't. I decided I would find a cape to let me fly! I was looking around thinking where I could find a cape. I told myself that when I went on the other side of this car next to me, there would be a backpack which contained a cape. I tried that and it didnt work the first time but I tried it again and I found a backpack. At this point I have a vague memory of possibly another person maybe trying to take the backpack. I threw on the cape and I flew! I flew so high and so far, everything underneath me was unrecognizable. I flew back closer to home and wanted to look at my city from the sky. When I was closer everything looked like models(like google earth or something), but I really felt like I was flying high up in the air. At one point one of the models was a model for a cruise ship that I had been on recently. It was exactly like the toy model of the ship they sold on board.

Dream 4:(double closing, run home matt+ Darwents mom)
I was at work, closing the store for the night. I was then also asked to close another store by my old coworker Nina who now manages the other store. To do both jobs, we had a teleportation system between the two stores! It was really cool. After a lot of work stuff and me thinking how much more easy and simple her store is to run and manage because of the sales volume, we closed up finally. It was raining. For someone reason The Darwents' mom was there and we were deciding to run home together. I suggested we call an uber but she didnt want to. So we decided to start but I think we went back. Then I was deciding to run home with Matthieu.

Dream 5:(meditating, rooms with teachers)
I was at a spiritual teaching center. There were multiple rooms for teachers to teach smaller groups. I was looking around for a while and after looking through multiple rooms, I found one that was empty and I went in. I remembered I wanted to meditate in a dream and so I sat down with my back on a big wooden counter. I payed attention to my breath, some sounds around me and some body sensations. It didn't last long and I dont remember anything else.

Dream 6:(Jumping thru recycling)
I was outside and looking for a way to get somewhere else. I ended up jumping thru a big recycling bin and fell into something like a void. I was fully conscious but my vision was filled with what looked exactly like hypnagogic imagery Just blobs of pale color all morphing around.

This encounter started with a nap dream. I was walking up a road at what looks like the Saint Demetrius bingo or Lake Shore Apartments. It is daytime and I was doing something maybe talking with someone or just walking alone. All I know is that I suddenly see Astromana who is a bad girl in rangers in Space pass me up on the other side of the sidewalk. She had pink and light blue hair and appeared to be stumbling as she walked she was in her combat gear and didn't look at me. I turned and watched her as she continued on her way, stumbling all around, trying not to fall from what ever has happened to her. While I was looking at her I was suddenly pushed back by my partner DC as an angler, grey car that looked like it was stretched out came zooming between us, just missing us by inches.

Woke up.

Second dream. I was in the process of being chased by one of Astromana's monster. It was an acidic type and was all green and blobby. "I must bring you in." he garbled through his molten lips. "Then I'll show humans who is the boss here." I ran from it and up a sidewalk then realized that this was a dream and got semi lucid. If things are gonna get any better I'll need to let myself get captured." So I stopped running allowing him to get to me and "capture" me. He put me on to a boat and as he did that I seen a man with a mop bucket began to mop the steps I came upon, with green acidic liquid. I got away from that and saw that the water was slowly turning green. I seen astromana on the ship as well and I was able to see close ups of her hair. It is very curly like jerry curls and it is a brownish purple color.

Woke up and chained it into a long lucid.

I go into SP and have an FA in a huge dark room. It was nearly pitch black and impossible to see anything all I know is I woke up in some kind of cot and was able to see the out lines of many other cots indicating that I was in a hospital.

I got up, felt around and as I did that I ended up warping to another part of the dream.

Now I'm at Duane drive and I am on my way outside. I see my brother there and he follows me to the basement door before I get it open. He doesn't do anything and I go about my business. It is daytime and I see that there is smoke around and things are burning and on fire. As soon as I seen it the Gemini man from mega man starts to play. One of those dreams I thought. Then I see Astromana running across my view as she is being pursued by power rangers. It was Zack, Jason and I think Trini not sure, but they caught up with her and started fighting her. I became her and was kicking and punching at the rangers. they blocked every shot and I had to duck and dodge away from them as they almost caught me with the laser pistol. Fire blew up in the background and now I'm in a new place, watching Power rangers. It is a cafe like place and I'm at a vending machine. There is a screen where the buttons and displays should be it, instead it is a TV displaying me watching it. It shows the zord Sequence and on it is Travelion. He is combining into his megazord form. It shows his legs folding out from the furnace part of the train and him standing up. He poses and gives a thumbs up. The screen seemed to be tilted and messed up and the image was to the bottom left part of the screen with a black background. My sister came up and started getting something out of the machine and I can also see more of the image there as well. it was a daytime screen and then before I can see what it was the dream shifted again. this time I was in my brothers room and I was standing up next to him, watching power rangers on his TV. I looked to him and said "Why are we watching power rangers in a dream instead of going there?" I shook my head and then seen a paint canvass. It had gobs of thick paint on it. I tried to paint with his but it was just way to think like one inch thick of oil paint and ended up smearing it a bit, luckily it was part of the sweater on the image and didn't hurt it too much but the color was a weird brownish purple color like with Astromana's hair I saw earlier in the dream.

Woke up after ~8 hours of sleep but still felt tired. While falling back asleep I made a half-hearted attempt at WILD but didn't succeed directly. What followed was a sheer chaos of dreams, false awakenings and short lucids. In one dream I was at a beach I've been to several times. It was warm but very windy with high waves. I was heading towards the sea when I suddenly went lucid. The dream got unstable rather quickly and I couldn't see my surroundings anymore. I kneed down and touched the sand around me which I could still feel though it wasn't as warm as I expected it to be.
I woke up, still feeling close to dreaming. I turned onto my back which was probably a bad idea as I fell into SP almost immediately. This was the first time I've experienced sleep paralysis related to lucid dreaming and only the second time ever. It wasn't exactly frightening as I managed to remain calm and didn't hallucinate any dark figures etc. But breathing felt difficult and my body alternated between seemingly sinking down and being lifted upwards. After some time I felt my dream body separating completely and I could get up. It was pitch dark, so I tried to turn on the lights but the switch wouldn't work (no surprise here). I was at my parents' house, so I left my bedroom and went through the house. The other rooms were brighter with the sun shining through the windows. I got into the kitchen were my mother was standing. We had a small conversation with me having trouble to speak in the beginning. She asked if I came there to fetch her. I wondered what this means and asked: Should I? Shen then told me that it was R.'s birthday (a friend) after all. This surprised me quite a bit and while still trying to figure out what's going on I woke up.

After some weird non-lucid dream I found myself lying in bed with the radio playing in the kitchen. That was kinda suspicious as I don't have a radio in the kitchen. So I figured this must be a dream and got up. The room was only dimly lit and the dream started collapsing but I remembered to stabilize by interacting with my surroundings. I touched everything close by (floor, walls, a blanket, a suitcase) which felt utterly realistic and listened to the radio (there were commercials). Thinking that jumping out of the window on the third floor would probably still wake me up I decided to leave through the door. I went there, still touching the walls on the way. As I've done this before I wanted to pass through the door without opnening it but both my body and the door appeared to be too solid. I was determined to make this work, so I went back a few steps and focused intently on the door. By doing so, everything became much clearer and my lucidity increased, too. Then I jumped through the door though I got stuck a bit and had to fight my way through. On the other side I got into the staircase.
Walking down the stairs I remembered the TOTM, stopped and imagined a rope before me. As soon as I grabbed it, it appeared before my eyes. It was just a thin string but that didn't bother me and I started climbing up (forgot that it shall pull me somewhere). It was well fastened so I got quickly up to the roof. Suddenly the rope loosened and I fell back down onto the stairs. I pulled on the string; it got longer and longer until the thin part changed to a thick rope. Then it was stable again and I started climbing up once more. I got to the roof which was dome-shaped. Somehow I thought the rope would just reach higher into the sky. But when I climbed outside through an open window in the dome I saw that it was stretched in this height across the landscape, all the way I could see until the horizon.
I grabbed the rope again and climbed along into the distance. Soon I got to a meadow in front of a forest. Looking down I realized it was crowded with small living creatures. Of each kind there was a couple so I was reminded of Noah's ark (btw I'm not religious). When I looked even closer I realized that these were some strange creatures. There were two oversized brightly yellow ducks, a pair of raccoons with christmas caps and a couple of garden gnomes amongst many others. All of these were clearly alive. Over this astonishing sight I forgot about the rope, sank down to the meadow and felt the dream fading.

I was at my job working and they gather us all up to tell us that we will be leaving early. As we all got in to two lines, I was standing next to another co-worker. She began to hold my hand from the other side which I thought was off. I then felt her hand clench mine and soon everything was dark. I couldn't see anything but I could still feel her hand holding mine tightly. I began to hold her hand even tighter to hold on to the dream.

At some point with in that I knew I was dreaming but there was now no dream just the darkness that surrounded me. I could still feel her hand but now the feeling had change to a weird sensation all over my body. I got out the darkness and could see my actual self laying in the bed but from a different angle. My brain was making such a huge buzzing sound that I began to panic. My body was feeling odd and to be honest felt like it was dying.

I knew that I was in between transitions from the waking world and the dreamworld. Overall my panic made me unable to transition back in to the dreamworld and I began to move my physical body as I had now control over it.

I was on this ship like vehicle. I was with a co-worker as she and I got separated from the other co-workers we were with. As this happen the ship like thing was stop by huge vanilla cookie's. As I see this I just knew I was dreaming because seriously how would a cookie stop a ship, come on now. As this happens I saw my co-worker flee the scene. She tells me goodbye and shuts the door leaving me and this other dude who I notice on the ship just now alone.

I look at him and told him I am the captain now and made my way to the driver seat. Before I could grab whole of the steering wheel, the guy makes the lights go off. I tried to make them come back on with some struggle and finally it work. As I place my hands on the steering wheel we began to take off. There was some serious cookie damage ahead and I am certain ran over a few car's with this big ship. It also seem to not surprise me how a ship could drive on the road but whatever.

I began to laugh hysterically as I continue to feel the power of my ship. But then all of a sudden I couldn't breathe and lost my lucidity by waking up.

After a somewhat subconscious,passive initiation of WILD I found myself in a paralysis, in which I didn't realize that I'm already dreaming.
It wasn't very intense, and I thought this would be the end of it, and I would wake up but despite this I kept waiting.
There was a bit of pressure in my head ,and the usual loud noise, I started to see through my eyelids.
Actually I was already in a dream that time I think, since I was lying in the other bed, not the one I lied back in this morning, but I didn't realize that then.
So I got up and it was kind of vivid but unstable, thought why not, I'll just try to jump through the window. It didn't go well. I thought this will be the end of it ,but I held hands together and concentrated,
maybe a new dream will start, and that's when it happened.
I found myself in the middle of a green pasture, nice green hills around, perhaps even mountains. EVERYTHING was vivid and clear, I couldn't believe my eyes, it was all vivid, from my toes , to the horizon, the sun was shining, the plants , everything made sense, there was no random patterns or fuzzyness. Everything was as vivid as this reality. I was amazed but I kept my cool, walked around . THere were some gardeners working.
I walked towards the nearby forests. The dream switched again. I did the same and waited. and now I was in a night time party scene ,somewhere in a city.
I kept repeating "clarity" until everything was back to usual. I met some drunk british chav who wanted to fight me for some reason to which I just smashed a bowl on his head, then his taller friend (who was not a chav) came and then the chav knocked him out with some object and said something funny...
I then went around and came to a room, looked more like a classroom, there was a woman..looked kinda like Meghan Markle but was shorter and had freckles.
I asked her if she knows that this is a dream...before she could answer the connection was cut , and I woke up


but damn, everything was so vivid and so real, I've been to another world for a brief time
I think this "stillness of mind" I've developed in the last few weeks may have contributed
Also my recall is terrible, even if I just woke up a few minutes ago as I write this , I already forgot a lot

I was driving in this parking lot where this guy blocks me from reversing. It was the only way out as there was a building in front of me. So I look in my car view mirror and saw two guy's in hoodies with their hands in their pockets approaching my car. I immediately got out of my car and tell them what's the problem. I kept backing up and realize I am in a dream and was trying to change the dream scene by falling flat down to the ground.

However the scene would keep going back to the two men pointing guns at me. I laugh and told them you still have guns with you. I decided to try to wake myself up which resulted in a false awakening.

Morning of January 31, 2020. Friday.

Dream #: 19,401-02. Reading time: 1 min 35 sec.



My dream self’s focus is on electrical wiring, which is typically co-occurrent with an increase in mental activity (neuronal energy) while sleeping (and sometimes, as here, eventually renders fire). (It is a common sleep-wake mediation process for me, but the rendering and narrative are always different, though in one dream it was more obvious than usual when I “removed my head,” which was a football helmet, and examined and moved the wiring inside it.)

The setting is unknown (though my dream implies it is our present home). Zsuzsanna is nearby (to my left, modeling our sleeping position). At about neck level, a cluster of gold wiring is hanging from an open part of the wall (so it is a type of wall mediation, that is, navigating emerging liminality, as well as associations with increasing mental activity). Although the wires are loose, I consider that the current is stable as long as they do not get moved either accidentally or with intent.

Zsuzsanna’s brother Simon approaches and comments on the wiring. I move the cluster slightly and consider the loose wiring (and certain wires touching each other) might cause a short.

As a result of moving the wires, my dream’s dynamics and narrative changes, with my liminal intent to continue sleeping. The incidental preconscious personification as Simon, who remains passive, also correlates with my sleep-wake mediation. (The preconscious simulacrum only dominates when waking is more of a priority, kind of a no-brainer.)

My dream changes into typical indoor-outdoor liminal ambiguity. The outcome of this wall mediation results in its virtual division expanding and becoming a beach that defines open liminal space yet is still impossibly implied to be inside our house. (However, potential water reinduction is not clearly defined, as the ocean seems distant.) I now see a very long electrical cord that seems to go all the way to the shore (while the beach sand it is in is still a part of the floor of our house), and minimal fire consumes part of its length as I walk along, mentally extinguishing it to sustain my dream. (Fire also sometimes correlates with the increase in body temperature when closer to waking.) There is no more fire, and I sleep for about another hour.

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Several of my recent dreams have had atypical variations of intentional water reinduction, all with unique results, for example, “Digging Up a Pool” from January 28.

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I found myself running up a long stairway. I became lucid as I continue running up but began to realize that the dream was ending soon. I tried to fly out the window on the building I was in and then all of a sudden everything went black. I couldn't see anything and realize I was soon to wake up. I decided to hold on to my awareness as I felt myself lying in bed. Ik new I was in a different state as I could feel my consciousness slipping.

Soon I felt the same vortex slide me out of my sleeping body and in to somewhere else. I continue to hold on to my awareness as I felt myself being transported somewhere else and soon I began to see visuals. I was in my old city town house. Laying in my bed, still unable to move due to the transition process and just to make sure I don't wake up. I felt it complete itself and knew it was ok to get up from the bed. It work I told myself.

I got up and began going to the back door and slide right through it. Outside was damp with a little rain. I decided I wanted to interact with my DC's as I plan to have a very in depth conversation with my Subconscious the next time I visit. I began running in till I see the first person I could encounter. It was an old woman with an umbrella. She was walking slowly, I approach her ask what was her purpose in life or what has she accomplished. I had a hard time coming up with these thoughts even though in waking life it would have been easy. Now I am beginning to understand the difference of my mental state compare to my waking self.

She responded in a odd and confusing manner which seems to be the case for dream characters. She said "The hell of something " or in terms not much of anything. So I quickly decided to move on to the next person as I didn't want to waste time. She seem displeased and now wanted to talk more but as I continue running off I told her it's ok. I saw a huge crowd and wanted to talk to as many of them as I can.

I see they were surrounding this guy who look to be 6ix9ine. I approach him and ask him what was his purpose here. He seemed to be in a frenzy as people tried to get all over him so he pointed his hand to a direction and began running there. So many people bump in to me that I lost control of the dream and was back in the void. I had two choices, hold on to my awareness and wait for another transition or wake up. I knew I needed to take care of stuff in waking life so I opted to wake up this time.

Morning of January 28, 2020. Tuesday.

Dream #: 19,398-03. Reading time: 1 min 6 sec.



In emerging from slow-wave sleep near the middle of my sleep cycle, a dream sometimes starts with the association of something having been underground, a natural precursor to consciousness emergence. It is more likely to occur when the beginning of my sleep cycle has countless vivid images of sand or dirt flowing over and into various rocky formations of inexplicable beauty and realistic detail, nearly as appealing as water-related renderings (which have been at the beginning of every sleep cycle since earliest memory). Both types of induction sequences become more populated with sightings of cave entrances, which signify my anticipation of entering deeper sleep.

My dream has a simplistic reinduction narrative. It seems to be nighttime, and about seven soldiers in military camouflage, who are passive to my presence, are here to do some digging. There is no waking process personification or a sense of intrusion here, as it is not near the end of my sleep cycle. Instead, the process focuses on reinduction by summoning water.

Even so, a thread of emerging consciousness results in a defined association with the color yellow (rare in dreaming in this mode, occurring mainly in later dreams of my sleep cycle with a more defined waking directive). I look down into a hole in the ground and see a yellow pool pump with a black cord attached. I anticipate the soldiers and I will uncover a large swimming pool, though I neither contemplate how the swimming pool will eventually be at ground level nor the impossibility of such an outcome. I wander around the area with emerging thoughts of dream state reinduction, but my dream fades instead, without the presence of water.

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I was semi-lucid throughout the dream. I was kindof aware it was a dream, but it was basically a layer two. Most of the dream was spent with me walking circles around an fps map with a gun that could auto-aim as long as you're pointed in their general direction. There was only one opponent at the time so I didn't really get any action. I eventually found myself in a central point of the map where several people were gathered. The scene shifted as I was now in some sort of 2 story home with several tables about and people of all sorts waiting for some event to begin. I used telekinesis to break some glass and shift about some plates and cups off the tables, causing general destruction. The physics were all weird, so things were hard to move and they didn't fly very far. Sometimes they'd just slowly drift in the air. Some people were disturbed, but most people were just bothered that I kept making a mess. One old lady was different. She had a look on her face like something wasn't right. She recognized that this isn't how reality is meant to be at all. She asked me what was going on with her hand. She had a ring wrapped around her middle knuckle, fused into her hand. I told her she must be dreaming and that she would be able to control the dream if she realizes that fact. I then go downstairs to leave the home and as I get near the door someone on the floor grips my ankle and I can no longer drift away. As I look around I notice a full blown yonko from one piece ready to attack me while I'm trapped. I manage to make it outside with them chasing me. I start making slow progress into the air to escape, but I'm still dragged down by something. Unsure if it was the person who was still holding me or something else. I then noticed two more yonko appear as well as these enormous versions of the same yonko appear on the horizon. These things were unbelievably tall. Like bigger than any mountain you'd ever see tall. I kept getting beat into the air by the yonko as they took turns smacking me with their full might. They then all hit at once and I flew straight through one of the giant yonko and left a hole in them as I woke up.

Which yonko they were idk, but I'd assume big mom first; then big mom, kaido, and blackbeard. This whole last scene from the moment the old lady asked me what was going on until the dream ended only lasted about 38 seconds, or at least that was the final thought I had as I woke up.

I wrote in my dream journal a lot this week, but did so in poor lighting, with poor posture, and while half asleep so I can't read most of it now.

So this is what I can gather, from this week. I had quite a few vivid dreams for some reason.

- Some sort of Star Wars like dream. There was a "ghost wall" or invisible shield, and a desert on an alien planet. I was an intergalactic warrior of some sort, I think. Or traveler.
- I had a dream about lucid dreaming, which was pretty cool. In that lucid dream, I flew over the ocean. However, I had somewhat of a false awakening after that; I think into a previous dream?
- A dream about Brandon Sanderson (who I am currently taking a class from!), which involved horror, a false awakening (possibly the same one as before?) and a boardwalk!
- The boardwalk had a very cool looking thrill ride, with two huge spinning cars. A friend of mine was there, and my brother.
- I dreamt that the local amusement park had moved closer to me, so I could walk to it! I could also fly.
- something about the Little Mermaid? lol
- something about a creepy mirror
- season pass to something (maybe the boardwalk or amusement park?)
- Dreamt that I was falsely accused at work for making obscene jokes. This is funny because we do this all the time at work and no one cares.
- Two other guys I knew from the past, "Dylan" and "Maz", as I'll call them, were...working? I can't read my handwriting.

I swear I normally have nice handwriting. Just not when I wake up at 3 AM to write a dream down. D:

I'm still gonna count that false awakening one as lucid, though!

I found myself in a warehouse where I usually work in waking life. I was talking to a co-worker and he tried to show me this paper. As I took it from him and tried to focus my eyes on it, I realize my vision was very blurry. I thought this was odd due to the fact that I wear contacts. I remember looking around and realize everything around me was very blurry. Almost to total darkness. I started to pick at my eyeball to remove the contacts.

That's when everything went in to total darkness as I started to realize I was lucid dreaming. I could still feel my dream body but then even that went away and I could feel my physical body laying in bed. I made sure my eyes were close and my body was still unable to move. With in a few short seconds I felt consciousness zap back in to the dream world. My dream body felt like it was in tremendous pain. I could feel myself getting up from the floor.

As I look around I notice I was in outer space inside a space ship. I couldn't believe it lol. This is the first time I am in outer space lucid anyway. I went up to the large window and saw the stars and the colored gas around me. It was amazing, I then went through some odd technology that got me to the other parts of the ship. This ship was huge inside, had many places with a lot of zig zag like passages.

I continue walking as I saw an eye of ra sign stamp on one of the windows. I then finally saw people and I could now tell the dream scene change to me being outside and no longer in space. I walk through a couple of people and didn't bother talking to any of them. I then approach these 3 very tall women and told them they seem odd. They didn't like what I said and sent two goons that came out of no where.

Once I saw this I began to laugh and start running. They follow me to this gate where I decided to use some dream control and made float up to the gate and glue them on there. I then started climbing a rope to see how far I could get up top the house without feeling physically fatigue. I then saw the guys break free of their confinement and began chasing me again. I jogged through grass feeling great.

I felt I could stay in this dream for a very long time. I then continue jogging in till I saw another co-worker of mine. I began talking to her after we greeted each up and I was just stunned that she appeared exactly as a replica in waking life. I had to assure myself that I was indeed dreaming. She sounded the same too and I explore the dream world with and explain to her what this was. Since I know in waking life she likes to question everything.

Soon my brother came along and talk to me. After that I wanted to wake up and made myself awaken.

I really just wanted to sleep and didn't want to do anything else. I had gotten up out of my bed because I knew I had to deal with a lot of stuff in waking life and just decided to forget about it for now. I went back in my bed and fell asleep. I found myself experiencing images flashing and soon I was able to walk around with in the darkness. There still was no dream but I was able to start using my dream body.

However I eventually lost awareness of myself in the darkness because nothing was happening and no image would remain solid. I eventually enter a dream non-lucid. In the dream I found myself at a grocery store and I was on top of a shelf of can goods. A cashier woman saw me up and there and before I knew it she was tapping me on my shoulder. I turn around to face her but she wasn't behind me and was now on the side that I had previously turned from. I turn again but she had moved to the opposite direction again.

She then pushed me to the shelf, making me completely laying on it on my front side only. And started to put pressure on my back side. This began to hurt to the point of where I became lucid. I didn't know what she was trying to do but I got my hand and was trying to sway it around to signal her to stop. Massaging was definitely not her best job. It didn't work though, so I had tried to switch the dream to a different scene. Instead images kept floating around and eventually I just lost lucidity again with in the darkness.

One image did finally arrive and solidify itself with in the pending darkness. Once it did, I regain lucidity instantly like a bad habit. I remember this image from earlier I said, now it was a dream. I began moving around and saw the other grocery store that I tried to enter. I waited in line with other people as I observe the environment. The place was beginning to darken, I tried to cut in line and see what they had in some places. I went through a few rooms to see people partying and couches being place around.

The grocery store had now became a place of run down party. With a lot of people either eating or drinking while dancing. Some guy shove my arm and I told him to stop bothering me and went about my business. I then notice the dream getting too dark and realize I was returning back to the complete blackness that awaited me. I decided I was going to hold on to my consciousness as long as I could as I grew tired of constantly going in and out of awareness. I also tired to rub my hands together to stabilize the dream but it was too late.

I was in total darkness now and something different happen this time as I held on as much as I could. I felt my consciousness zip out from the darkness like a vortex, it made this swooshing sound as it sent me back to my body in bed. The pressure felt quite intense, I wasn't sure what happened or if I was awake in my bed now in waking life.

But something felt very different. My body felt way lighter and I felt stuck. As I tried to move it felt like I was ripping out of another body. My arm was like half stuck in it, I still had my eyes close but felt the immediate urge to open them. As I did it was like seeing from another eye as I could faintly see my room from where I was laying down. I wasn't sure if I was dreaming or not but I all of a sudden I realize I couldn't breathe. I was trying to breathe but nothing was happening. I began to panic and this made me lose my focus and woke up in the same position I was previously in at my bed.