lucid

Okay no more notes I dont find them that useful

Dream 1:
I was driving again. I was trying to control the car but it wasnt working like I was expecting. I was trying to brake but it wasnt working. After a bit of struggling with the car and steering frantically, I realized that I must be dreaming because this car has been out of control for a while and I havent crashed and I remember not being able to break in dreams. I was at first kind of apprehensive about treating my reality as a dream because if it wasnt a dream ad I did something crazy with the car that would be terrible. But I slowly gained confidence that it was a dream and before I knew it I was speeding down this track and then doing long drifting maneuvers around the turns like in Mario Kart.

Well, I should really start posting in here again. Got a lot to note today. There's still a good quantity of missing content, possibly even a forgotten LD...

Scrap Group 1
Various repeated scenes of loud activity occurring in and outside the bedroom.

Dream 1 - Phase Underground Bunker Laboratory

Scene 1 - Leader Putting Unrest to Rest
The visuals were slightly blurred. Spectator mode. This occurred in a city center located within an old urban Eastern Europe site, grey skies above. Unrest was ongoing between the majority and a minority population living there . Things were about to go violent, when suddenly, the state's leader, a middle aged man with a thick black moustache, personally intervenes. With an invigorated, strongly worded speech, he manages to not only get matters under control, but wins admiration from both sides.

Unknown transition.

Scene 2 - Ride the Lightning!
The visuals were a bit dim. FA in bed. I was wandering in a shopping district bordering a suburbs (not unlike the local area I live in), vibrant clouds of a dusk sky visible in the horizon. Somehow, I got aware. I immediately launch off at high speeds. As I soared the clouds, I spontaneously projected an electric aura around me (as per Ky Kiske's Ride the Lightning attack from Guilty Gear). I swooped down through a sunlit swamp, then a night-time desert, and various other forgotten sites. Eventually, I land in a far away city, a place similar to Dubai I think. I take only one step, when the scene began fading away. Warp.

Scene 3 - Big, Glowing Red Button
The visuals were a bit dim. FA in bed, the room faintly illuminated by an unknown source. I quickly regain awareness.

Once again, I try to RTL into a different location. But, I was prevented from even going past the far end of the room (which was unusually empty). So, I opted to phase through the floor. It was a bit difficult to do, as if sinking into thick tar. Further attempts at RTL did little to help. But eventually, I plummeted at exhilarating speeds.

I descended for a minute before coming to a sudden (but safe) landing. Now, I found myself in a narrow structure spottily illuminated by distant ceiling lights. All constructions were made of solid steel. Blinking, futuristic devices occupied much of the space and lined a majority of the walls. Reckoned this place must've been some kind of underground bunker/laboratory.

A figure soon appeared. It was Porter from work, seemingly busy hauling stuff and doing other menial things. It was around then that I noticed a big, red, rectangular, glowing red button on one of the devices. Upon glancing at it, Porter warned me not to touch it. So I heeded him for the moment and looked around elsewhere. I looked into various slots and ports on the panels around there, but didn't see anything of worth. Temptation got a hold of me, and I announced I would push the button regardless. I was given one final caution, a reminder that neither of us knew what would happen.

Click.

Suddenly, the walls spread apart. Mist dramatically seeped inside, blocking my vision momentarily before dispersing. Exposed ahead was a transparent hallway. I only observed it for so long, when a vault door slammed shut before me. A small bother. I phased through, then continued down the hallway. Another vault door opened. In view was a chrome rocket the size of a van. In fact, the interior revealed enough room fit three passengers, one in a front seat, two on back. I seated myself in the front. Not long after, the vehicle was sealed. I felt something moving it forward slowly, the clangs and humming of unknown mechanisms reverberating around me.

My viewpoint immediately discorporates to an isometric overhead shot of the launch scene. As it so happened, a giant, mechanical claw was hauling the rocket through an imperceivably long tube, faint blue lights lining the walls in a skewed, grid-like pattern. Then, without warning, the claw flings the vehicle, launching it out of view.

Almost as quickly, I'm back to my own senses. I look around, to find that I've landed somewhere awfully similar to where I started, including the laboratory. Finding no need to investigate this place further, I mount the rocket again. Cue repeat of above. But this time, the rocket's thrown against a grid-lined wall. The crash forces me awake.

Dream 2 - Pranks and Time Dilation Work

The visuals were a bit blurred. I was walking around in a restaurant. This place was oddly both familiar and foreign to me.

After several minutes of doing who-knows-what, I spontaneously begin floating around the site. Cue awareness. There was a kid nearby that for whatever reason annoyed the heck out of me just for being nearby. I caused him to vanish instantly. I then went around to cause mischief. This included my brother Randal (who happened to be there), to whom I zapped with electricity, then warped back in time before he would retaliate. Ditto with some co-workers (also there, aparrently), save that I threw water at them.

Things began fading. I hurry off to an empty space in the restaurant. Thinking of personal tasks, I began to shrink to microscopic size, doing so via inhalation. As I breathed in, I felt myself compressing instantly. I did three sets of such before I stopped. At that size, I hoped, extreme time dilation would take affect.

Suddenly, from out of nowhere, a holographic screen appears in front of me. On it was an image of a locale, which soon cycled between several other places. I, for some forgotten reason, settled on an urban location. The outline of the scene slowly forms around me. But, before it could solidify, the dream collapses.

Scrap Group 2
Wandering in a beach during daytime. I enter a wide-spanning industrial zone. Cut. I, for some reason, begin committing a series of heinous crimes and mass fraud, not the least of which includes identity theft and murder. Eventually, I got caught with a swiped credit card, and was swiftly captured. Yet, I felt as if I had my own reasons to get put into the can...

Vaguely recall being in an urban area.

In an urban apartment building. My niece Cecilia was tagging along with me. Later, we encounter a creep in the hallway (who looked an awful lot like a younger Marlon Wayne). The guy was disturbingly forward with his interest towards my niece. I hurried off with Cecilia to our destination suite, but not before threatening the guy with overt violence if he ever shows up near us again. The suite itself was lit only by vague sunlight. There were other people around, but I couldn't see anyone. I then tell Cecilia what she should do if some creep tries to touch her (ie scream for help and run away).

At home. I finish with some chores. Suddenly, a drill sergeant appeared out of nowhere. He barked contempt with my handiwork, and orders me to both re-do it and perform twenty push ups afterwards. He then walked away. Between my completing said chore again, Ryu from Street Fighter inexplicably passed by. I later did the push-ups. I found this to be much easier than normal.

At a mall. Randal was there. We wait in line for a some vending booth. Up ahead, I noticed Stan and Frank from work. Frank annoys a guy in the front of the line without being spotted, and continues to do so for a minute or so.

I'm not exactly sure how or why, but after spending time with my brother at the old apartment I became lucid. I told him that I knew this was a dream and that I was leaving soon. He told me I can go ahead and do what I want. I smile and began to phase through the door. As I did I had some trouble getting through it and decided to rip the entire door with my two hands.
After that I began walking on the grassy fields of the night and found this little corner filled with antics.

I wanted to create a person as I saw no one in my lucid dream. I tried to look for someone but still found no one. I then place my hand on one of the objects and try to see if I could form a human being from it. I concentrated but it was to no avail. I then tried multiple techniques to imagine a person was behind me or cause them to magically appear before me. Still nothing happen. I then began climbing up some of the higher things in the corner to my surprise I found a puppy on the very top.

It look very cute and friendly, so I made my way towards it as I wanted to pet him or her. However the puppy began to move away from me and landed to the grass. I then notice the dream beginning to change and I made it my focus to hold on. Once it change I knew I was still lucid but at some point just how I gained it I had lost it.

Spontaneously got lucid when I was walking down a corridor with a dark carpet (can't remember what happened before). From the distance a well-known person from my field of work was talking to me, offering a closer collaboration on one project. As I got closer I came into a large, strange room like a foyer but all surfaces were glossy white with only some brightly green accents. My colleague was standing there, looking different than in reality. I thanked her for the offer and agreed on her plan, then I walked on towards the entrance.
I went down some white stairs and thought of trying to meditate in the dream, with the TOTM in mind. So I sat down cross-legged but I hadn't considered the slippery, tilted floor that made me slither towards the doors. I moved a little to the side and tried again, simply sitting down and focusing on my breath. As soon as I did so, things got intense fast. My surroundings dissolved almost immediately and I started spinning in all directions through space and time. Next I focused onto my feelings, and all I felt was a strong sense of certainty.
Then I was back in bed, seemingly awake as everything was far too real. Of course I was still dreaming.

I was in a classroom and one of the students said something rude and stupid to him. The teacher then became angry and started flipping students desk all over the place. For some reason this guy was coming at me as I counter most of his attacks. I look at him and ask him why are you doing this? He looked at me and said something repulsive that I can no longer remember. I thought it was odd so I had knock him down and tried to avoid anymore confrontation.

I remember leaving thinking this doesn't make sense and I began to realize I was dreaming. As I am outside trying to get away from this guy I knew I could jump and fly out of the apartment complex. So I tried it only to land flat on the ground. I guess I need more self confidence as I didn't trust myself on a few other occasions either. I began to forget about the guy and was sole focus on learning to flying. I kept climbing up the wall and telling myself I can fly.

But again and again I would come back down in disappointment. That's when I heard the man screaming as he begins to get closer to my location. I then began to go somewhere else in till the dream faded out.

I held on to my consciousness during the new transition to a new dream. I then saw the anime character Goku as a SSJ3. I was still lucid and had some dream control over him. I decided to make him blow up near by city as he hover over the sky. It was very god-like and made me realize my desire to fly was stronger than before. Goku was a master at flying, as he continue to soar through the sky I eventually made him land on the ground.

He fought a few people and even almost got stab by the famous Jay-Z himself. That's when I awoken from my sleep.

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9/2/2020
Went to bed at 3AMish.
Woke up at 10:50 with soooo much recall. It felt like I had been dreaming for 45 mins to an hour with a ton of dream changes.
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Dream 1:(in room, climb out window, community, sex)
I was in my room after a FA. I wanted to find an attractive woman to have sex with. So I looked out my window, there was a ton of snow, then I decided to go out my front door. When I opened the door of my room, it was my room again on the other side. So I said fuck it, I'm jumping out the window. I went through the window and there were a ton of people outside. While looking and walking around, the dream was destabilizing. To restabilize, I remembered the TOTM task(2. Touch the ground. What is it? Grass, asphalt?). I touched and looked intensely at the ground. It felt hard and rough like bumpy asphalt. It looked like a combination of red, grey and a tiny bit of white in the bottom of the ridges. It's depth and colours were totally psychedelic, they were slightly moving and distinctly reminded me of how things looked on psychedelics. Like I was on mushrooms with less distortion. After stabilizing, I walked down the street and found some ladies next door who could be a partner to me. I convinced one to come over and we went to my room. We were getting ready to have sex, she had her pants off and I almost had all my clothes off. When I finally did it destabilized and she disappeared. I figured out how to bring her back, I did something that made sense in the dream world and then I saw she was in the bathroom, I just had to wait for her to get out. She came back out and we were gonna get to it when my light which can change colors started going on a random loop of colors and brightness. I tried to go to my app on my phone to change it back but I knew I couldnt get to it because technology never works properly in dreams. After trying to change the lights she was gone again. I was very aroused and like humped the air and it almost felt just as good.... I barely remember anything after that.

Dream 2:(work, chase, fingering)
this began at work. I knew it was a dream right away and decided to leave and try to find someone to have sex with(again... I need to stop wasting my time with this lol). I went outside, it was super snowy and I walked around a bit looking for someone. Eventually I found this pretty asian lady and we started getting chased. I told her to jump into this car with me. We jumped in the front seats then went into the back. 1 or 2 others got in the front and started driving to my house. I started to rub her vagina through her pants in the back and she seemed to really like it, I could feel the contractions of her body through her pants. I dont remember much after that.

Dream 3:(FA with Ezra, fly, models of the city)
I woke up in my room with my friend Ezra and his girlfriend. I asked if they were there this whole time(This was after multiple dreams and FAs.). They said yeah, they were kind of guiding me and helping me while in the dream world through talking to me. I still knew I was dreaming but Ezra wanted to tell me it was real life now. I was backing up from him and looking for signs that it was a dream. I was looking all around my room and finally looked at my shelf! I had only 1 shelf and it was really bare when I know I have lots more things on my shelf. I leaped through my window to outside. I ran down my street and attempted to fly by jumping a few times. I couldn't. I decided I would find a cape to let me fly! I was looking around thinking where I could find a cape. I told myself that when I went on the other side of this car next to me, there would be a backpack which contained a cape. I tried that and it didnt work the first time but I tried it again and I found a backpack. At this point I have a vague memory of possibly another person maybe trying to take the backpack. I threw on the cape and I flew! I flew so high and so far, everything underneath me was unrecognizable. I flew back closer to home and wanted to look at my city from the sky. When I was closer everything looked like models(like google earth or something), but I really felt like I was flying high up in the air. At one point one of the models was a model for a cruise ship that I had been on recently. It was exactly like the toy model of the ship they sold on board.

Dream 4:(double closing, run home matt+ Darwents mom)
I was at work, closing the store for the night. I was then also asked to close another store by my old coworker Nina who now manages the other store. To do both jobs, we had a teleportation system between the two stores! It was really cool. After a lot of work stuff and me thinking how much more easy and simple her store is to run and manage because of the sales volume, we closed up finally. It was raining. For someone reason The Darwents' mom was there and we were deciding to run home together. I suggested we call an uber but she didnt want to. So we decided to start but I think we went back. Then I was deciding to run home with Matthieu.

Dream 5:(meditating, rooms with teachers)
I was at a spiritual teaching center. There were multiple rooms for teachers to teach smaller groups. I was looking around for a while and after looking through multiple rooms, I found one that was empty and I went in. I remembered I wanted to meditate in a dream and so I sat down with my back on a big wooden counter. I payed attention to my breath, some sounds around me and some body sensations. It didn't last long and I dont remember anything else.

Dream 6:(Jumping thru recycling)
I was outside and looking for a way to get somewhere else. I ended up jumping thru a big recycling bin and fell into something like a void. I was fully conscious but my vision was filled with what looked exactly like hypnagogic imagery Just blobs of pale color all morphing around.

This encounter started with a nap dream. I was walking up a road at what looks like the Saint Demetrius bingo or Lake Shore Apartments. It is daytime and I was doing something maybe talking with someone or just walking alone. All I know is that I suddenly see Astromana who is a bad girl in rangers in Space pass me up on the other side of the sidewalk. She had pink and light blue hair and appeared to be stumbling as she walked she was in her combat gear and didn't look at me. I turned and watched her as she continued on her way, stumbling all around, trying not to fall from what ever has happened to her. While I was looking at her I was suddenly pushed back by my partner DC as an angler, grey car that looked like it was stretched out came zooming between us, just missing us by inches.

Woke up.

Second dream. I was in the process of being chased by one of Astromana's monster. It was an acidic type and was all green and blobby. "I must bring you in." he garbled through his molten lips. "Then I'll show humans who is the boss here." I ran from it and up a sidewalk then realized that this was a dream and got semi lucid. If things are gonna get any better I'll need to let myself get captured." So I stopped running allowing him to get to me and "capture" me. He put me on to a boat and as he did that I seen a man with a mop bucket began to mop the steps I came upon, with green acidic liquid. I got away from that and saw that the water was slowly turning green. I seen astromana on the ship as well and I was able to see close ups of her hair. It is very curly like jerry curls and it is a brownish purple color.

Woke up and chained it into a long lucid.

I go into SP and have an FA in a huge dark room. It was nearly pitch black and impossible to see anything all I know is I woke up in some kind of cot and was able to see the out lines of many other cots indicating that I was in a hospital.

I got up, felt around and as I did that I ended up warping to another part of the dream.

Now I'm at Duane drive and I am on my way outside. I see my brother there and he follows me to the basement door before I get it open. He doesn't do anything and I go about my business. It is daytime and I see that there is smoke around and things are burning and on fire. As soon as I seen it the Gemini man from mega man starts to play. One of those dreams I thought. Then I see Astromana running across my view as she is being pursued by power rangers. It was Zack, Jason and I think Trini not sure, but they caught up with her and started fighting her. I became her and was kicking and punching at the rangers. they blocked every shot and I had to duck and dodge away from them as they almost caught me with the laser pistol. Fire blew up in the background and now I'm in a new place, watching Power rangers. It is a cafe like place and I'm at a vending machine. There is a screen where the buttons and displays should be it, instead it is a TV displaying me watching it. It shows the zord Sequence and on it is Travelion. He is combining into his megazord form. It shows his legs folding out from the furnace part of the train and him standing up. He poses and gives a thumbs up. The screen seemed to be tilted and messed up and the image was to the bottom left part of the screen with a black background. My sister came up and started getting something out of the machine and I can also see more of the image there as well. it was a daytime screen and then before I can see what it was the dream shifted again. this time I was in my brothers room and I was standing up next to him, watching power rangers on his TV. I looked to him and said "Why are we watching power rangers in a dream instead of going there?" I shook my head and then seen a paint canvass. It had gobs of thick paint on it. I tried to paint with his but it was just way to think like one inch thick of oil paint and ended up smearing it a bit, luckily it was part of the sweater on the image and didn't hurt it too much but the color was a weird brownish purple color like with Astromana's hair I saw earlier in the dream.

Woke up after ~8 hours of sleep but still felt tired. While falling back asleep I made a half-hearted attempt at WILD but didn't succeed directly. What followed was a sheer chaos of dreams, false awakenings and short lucids. In one dream I was at a beach I've been to several times. It was warm but very windy with high waves. I was heading towards the sea when I suddenly went lucid. The dream got unstable rather quickly and I couldn't see my surroundings anymore. I kneed down and touched the sand around me which I could still feel though it wasn't as warm as I expected it to be.
I woke up, still feeling close to dreaming. I turned onto my back which was probably a bad idea as I fell into SP almost immediately. This was the first time I've experienced sleep paralysis related to lucid dreaming and only the second time ever. It wasn't exactly frightening as I managed to remain calm and didn't hallucinate any dark figures etc. But breathing felt difficult and my body alternated between seemingly sinking down and being lifted upwards. After some time I felt my dream body separating completely and I could get up. It was pitch dark, so I tried to turn on the lights but the switch wouldn't work (no surprise here). I was at my parents' house, so I left my bedroom and went through the house. The other rooms were brighter with the sun shining through the windows. I got into the kitchen were my mother was standing. We had a small conversation with me having trouble to speak in the beginning. She asked if I came there to fetch her. I wondered what this means and asked: Should I? Shen then told me that it was R.'s birthday (a friend) after all. This surprised me quite a bit and while still trying to figure out what's going on I woke up.

After some weird non-lucid dream I found myself lying in bed with the radio playing in the kitchen. That was kinda suspicious as I don't have a radio in the kitchen. So I figured this must be a dream and got up. The room was only dimly lit and the dream started collapsing but I remembered to stabilize by interacting with my surroundings. I touched everything close by (floor, walls, a blanket, a suitcase) which felt utterly realistic and listened to the radio (there were commercials). Thinking that jumping out of the window on the third floor would probably still wake me up I decided to leave through the door. I went there, still touching the walls on the way. As I've done this before I wanted to pass through the door without opnening it but both my body and the door appeared to be too solid. I was determined to make this work, so I went back a few steps and focused intently on the door. By doing so, everything became much clearer and my lucidity increased, too. Then I jumped through the door though I got stuck a bit and had to fight my way through. On the other side I got into the staircase.
Walking down the stairs I remembered the TOTM, stopped and imagined a rope before me. As soon as I grabbed it, it appeared before my eyes. It was just a thin string but that didn't bother me and I started climbing up (forgot that it shall pull me somewhere). It was well fastened so I got quickly up to the roof. Suddenly the rope loosened and I fell back down onto the stairs. I pulled on the string; it got longer and longer until the thin part changed to a thick rope. Then it was stable again and I started climbing up once more. I got to the roof which was dome-shaped. Somehow I thought the rope would just reach higher into the sky. But when I climbed outside through an open window in the dome I saw that it was stretched in this height across the landscape, all the way I could see until the horizon.
I grabbed the rope again and climbed along into the distance. Soon I got to a meadow in front of a forest. Looking down I realized it was crowded with small living creatures. Of each kind there was a couple so I was reminded of Noah's ark (btw I'm not religious). When I looked even closer I realized that these were some strange creatures. There were two oversized brightly yellow ducks, a pair of raccoons with christmas caps and a couple of garden gnomes amongst many others. All of these were clearly alive. Over this astonishing sight I forgot about the rope, sank down to the meadow and felt the dream fading.

I was at my job working and they gather us all up to tell us that we will be leaving early. As we all got in to two lines, I was standing next to another co-worker. She began to hold my hand from the other side which I thought was off. I then felt her hand clench mine and soon everything was dark. I couldn't see anything but I could still feel her hand holding mine tightly. I began to hold her hand even tighter to hold on to the dream.

At some point with in that I knew I was dreaming but there was now no dream just the darkness that surrounded me. I could still feel her hand but now the feeling had change to a weird sensation all over my body. I got out the darkness and could see my actual self laying in the bed but from a different angle. My brain was making such a huge buzzing sound that I began to panic. My body was feeling odd and to be honest felt like it was dying.

I knew that I was in between transitions from the waking world and the dreamworld. Overall my panic made me unable to transition back in to the dreamworld and I began to move my physical body as I had now control over it.

I was on this ship like vehicle. I was with a co-worker as she and I got separated from the other co-workers we were with. As this happen the ship like thing was stop by huge vanilla cookie's. As I see this I just knew I was dreaming because seriously how would a cookie stop a ship, come on now. As this happens I saw my co-worker flee the scene. She tells me goodbye and shuts the door leaving me and this other dude who I notice on the ship just now alone.

I look at him and told him I am the captain now and made my way to the driver seat. Before I could grab whole of the steering wheel, the guy makes the lights go off. I tried to make them come back on with some struggle and finally it work. As I place my hands on the steering wheel we began to take off. There was some serious cookie damage ahead and I am certain ran over a few car's with this big ship. It also seem to not surprise me how a ship could drive on the road but whatever.

I began to laugh hysterically as I continue to feel the power of my ship. But then all of a sudden I couldn't breathe and lost my lucidity by waking up.

After a somewhat subconscious,passive initiation of WILD I found myself in a paralysis, in which I didn't realize that I'm already dreaming.
It wasn't very intense, and I thought this would be the end of it, and I would wake up but despite this I kept waiting.
There was a bit of pressure in my head ,and the usual loud noise, I started to see through my eyelids.
Actually I was already in a dream that time I think, since I was lying in the other bed, not the one I lied back in this morning, but I didn't realize that then.
So I got up and it was kind of vivid but unstable, thought why not, I'll just try to jump through the window. It didn't go well. I thought this will be the end of it ,but I held hands together and concentrated,
maybe a new dream will start, and that's when it happened.
I found myself in the middle of a green pasture, nice green hills around, perhaps even mountains. EVERYTHING was vivid and clear, I couldn't believe my eyes, it was all vivid, from my toes , to the horizon, the sun was shining, the plants , everything made sense, there was no random patterns or fuzzyness. Everything was as vivid as this reality. I was amazed but I kept my cool, walked around . THere were some gardeners working.
I walked towards the nearby forests. The dream switched again. I did the same and waited. and now I was in a night time party scene ,somewhere in a city.
I kept repeating "clarity" until everything was back to usual. I met some drunk british chav who wanted to fight me for some reason to which I just smashed a bowl on his head, then his taller friend (who was not a chav) came and then the chav knocked him out with some object and said something funny...
I then went around and came to a room, looked more like a classroom, there was a woman..looked kinda like Meghan Markle but was shorter and had freckles.
I asked her if she knows that this is a dream...before she could answer the connection was cut , and I woke up


but damn, everything was so vivid and so real, I've been to another world for a brief time
I think this "stillness of mind" I've developed in the last few weeks may have contributed
Also my recall is terrible, even if I just woke up a few minutes ago as I write this , I already forgot a lot

I was driving in this parking lot where this guy blocks me from reversing. It was the only way out as there was a building in front of me. So I look in my car view mirror and saw two guy's in hoodies with their hands in their pockets approaching my car. I immediately got out of my car and tell them what's the problem. I kept backing up and realize I am in a dream and was trying to change the dream scene by falling flat down to the ground.

However the scene would keep going back to the two men pointing guns at me. I laugh and told them you still have guns with you. I decided to try to wake myself up which resulted in a false awakening.

Morning of January 31, 2020. Friday.

Dream #: 19,401-02. Reading time: 1 min 35 sec.



My dream self’s focus is on electrical wiring, which is typically co-occurrent with an increase in mental activity (neuronal energy) while sleeping (and sometimes, as here, eventually renders fire). (It is a common sleep-wake mediation process for me, but the rendering and narrative are always different, though in one dream it was more obvious than usual when I “removed my head,” which was a football helmet, and examined and moved the wiring inside it.)

The setting is unknown (though my dream implies it is our present home). Zsuzsanna is nearby (to my left, modeling our sleeping position). At about neck level, a cluster of gold wiring is hanging from an open part of the wall (so it is a type of wall mediation, that is, navigating emerging liminality, as well as associations with increasing mental activity). Although the wires are loose, I consider that the current is stable as long as they do not get moved either accidentally or with intent.

Zsuzsanna’s brother Simon approaches and comments on the wiring. I move the cluster slightly and consider the loose wiring (and certain wires touching each other) might cause a short.

As a result of moving the wires, my dream’s dynamics and narrative changes, with my liminal intent to continue sleeping. The incidental preconscious personification as Simon, who remains passive, also correlates with my sleep-wake mediation. (The preconscious simulacrum only dominates when waking is more of a priority, kind of a no-brainer.)

My dream changes into typical indoor-outdoor liminal ambiguity. The outcome of this wall mediation results in its virtual division expanding and becoming a beach that defines open liminal space yet is still impossibly implied to be inside our house. (However, potential water reinduction is not clearly defined, as the ocean seems distant.) I now see a very long electrical cord that seems to go all the way to the shore (while the beach sand it is in is still a part of the floor of our house), and minimal fire consumes part of its length as I walk along, mentally extinguishing it to sustain my dream. (Fire also sometimes correlates with the increase in body temperature when closer to waking.) There is no more fire, and I sleep for about another hour.

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Several of my recent dreams have had atypical variations of intentional water reinduction, all with unique results, for example, “Digging Up a Pool” from January 28.

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I found myself running up a long stairway. I became lucid as I continue running up but began to realize that the dream was ending soon. I tried to fly out the window on the building I was in and then all of a sudden everything went black. I couldn't see anything and realize I was soon to wake up. I decided to hold on to my awareness as I felt myself lying in bed. Ik new I was in a different state as I could feel my consciousness slipping.

Soon I felt the same vortex slide me out of my sleeping body and in to somewhere else. I continue to hold on to my awareness as I felt myself being transported somewhere else and soon I began to see visuals. I was in my old city town house. Laying in my bed, still unable to move due to the transition process and just to make sure I don't wake up. I felt it complete itself and knew it was ok to get up from the bed. It work I told myself.

I got up and began going to the back door and slide right through it. Outside was damp with a little rain. I decided I wanted to interact with my DC's as I plan to have a very in depth conversation with my Subconscious the next time I visit. I began running in till I see the first person I could encounter. It was an old woman with an umbrella. She was walking slowly, I approach her ask what was her purpose in life or what has she accomplished. I had a hard time coming up with these thoughts even though in waking life it would have been easy. Now I am beginning to understand the difference of my mental state compare to my waking self.

She responded in a odd and confusing manner which seems to be the case for dream characters. She said "The hell of something " or in terms not much of anything. So I quickly decided to move on to the next person as I didn't want to waste time. She seem displeased and now wanted to talk more but as I continue running off I told her it's ok. I saw a huge crowd and wanted to talk to as many of them as I can.

I see they were surrounding this guy who look to be 6ix9ine. I approach him and ask him what was his purpose here. He seemed to be in a frenzy as people tried to get all over him so he pointed his hand to a direction and began running there. So many people bump in to me that I lost control of the dream and was back in the void. I had two choices, hold on to my awareness and wait for another transition or wake up. I knew I needed to take care of stuff in waking life so I opted to wake up this time.