lucid

I was around the interior of what could have been a space-station. It felt like I was playing Doom(1993). I get inside this bedroom-like area and I notice I am dreaming. I think of where I want to go next. I choose to try and teleport to an island. I put my arms out at my sides, close my eyes and spin like a top thinking that the next time I open my eyes, I will be at my destination. Instead, everything goes dark and the dream ends. Good grief.

Had a lucid dream about being at this school. I dream about school a lot. I saw a black Camaro. I was spotted by some people so I turned invisible. I felt the need to run away and so I did. I went upstairs until I was in a dorm room. I entered a bathroom and opened a window to try and escape.

Happened randomly in the dream. No technique. I teleported back to my house and tried to summon dream character. Appeared but was distorted. Apparently trying to summon original dream characters breaks the dream.

I tried to have a WILD this morning but fell asleep instead, but nevertheless I had a dild upon having a hand rc and realized I'm dreaming, although it was more of a semi lucid state. I knew that I'm dreaming but thats all that I knew, and wasn't really conscious of anything else at this point.
I was outside infront of my house under a large tree. I started to use the force to move the branches around, I finally succeeded. I regained my connection to the force. I felt this intense vibration in my hands, head and in the air as I stretched my hand out to the large branch of tree , it was something special.
Then I thought it's time to do something. So I started to go towards the local mall, for some reason that seemed to be a nice place to experiment around.
On the way out I met with my friend, so we decided to go together there.. First I thought I'd jump on one of the cars to ease our transportation since walking is a bit hectic, especially in a lucid dream.
the place was vacant, it was winter, snow covered the streets. the sky was almost pink . There was some sorts of barricade of cars there, we started to climb through the debris , then we were ambushed by what I suspected to be a krayt dragon, or some sort of dragon ,it was thin but nevertheless big and caused much panic.
I reacted quickly I waved hand signs and blew fire onto the dragon, it seemed to have hurt it and it went away...I was like "damn ,even my fire element ability has came back too!"

After that my lucidity really faded and I lost recall

I'm with Tay K and another rapper we were with in chicago got shot and killed not far from us. I became lucid for a brief moment and knew I was dreaming. I then lost lucidity while walking around the block in the snow. So I decided to direct him to a near by store telling him how much of a mistake it was to bring him here. That's when we started chilling at the store looking at random stuff. A girl then approach me and we began talking. I pulled out my phone to get her number and to keep her as a contact. I then became lucid again and realize that I had to be dreaming.

I wonder where Tay K was and had a false awakening afterwards.

I wake up from and FA at Ramond and was already lucid and in the livingroom. It was all dark there and it was clear of people that I'd have to watchout for. So I walk across the livingroom and on to the external porch. I looked to be just getting into daytime and I go outside. It is all full of snow and was too cold and daunting. I turn around and go back inside and just as I was closing the door, a big robotic hand stops it. A large shadow loomed over me as the door closed and I was too afraid to move. My eye adjusted to what it was and saw that it was soundwave! He was all dark in color and looking at me with his red visor like eyes. The fear disappeared but returned as soon as he ran his fingers across the top of his chest. He was up to no good and knew he was smiling as he did that. He opened his chest slowly then snapped it shut at me.

I ran and he tried to grab my foot, but came up short and only clipped my ankle. I ran up the steps and into my moms lit room but got tackled from behind and into the bed. He held me and I began to feel something trying to enter me. He was trying to have sex with me! I tried to elbow his face but he dodged it, waving his finger . "nah uh uhhhh..." He slammed his glass chest into my face, pinning it against the bed mattress and I started feeling him enter me and then he starts pumping me, each time feeling him get deeper and deeper into me. My face got smeared against his glass chest and woke up because of it.

I start off in this dream already lucid from SP (Sleep paralysis). It is Night time and I'm in a dark unlit house, talking to my mom about what I'm about to do. She is wary about me going outside at odd hours of the night and I tell here that this is a dream. I go down to the basement landing where the side door is and I see two baby dinoes , one was a stego and I think the other was a trike. they were in the tiny hall circling eachother. "I like this place I said to my self" then turned to my mom who was now an owl. "I'll come back to here. I'm just gonna do a quick look outside. I head out to the door as my mom flies up into a large tree with pointy clear icicles on its branches. I took one last look at my mom and blew a kiss to her. She did the same, putting a feather over her beak and blowing me one back in return. I make it to the street that had barricades on each side. The cades looked like they were mixed and assorted metal like raiders would use to block off places in games. I see corrugated metal, various signs, construction barricades and some stop signs. I came out of an opening with barricades on each side of it and up ahead was another blocked off section of the road. I climbed over that and began to walk just up to the end of the street that only about a block in a half away. I can see it where I stand and started walking there. "Just gonna go there and back." Hoping I don't find anything which is usually the case. Soundwave was in mind on who I was looking for and about half way up to the corner, I saw something behind me.

I looked back and at the end of the second block I saw some vending machines and signs there and saw soundwave there looking at the merchandise. He was very cartoony and not very detailed as the one I'm looking for. I turned back to the right direction I intend to go and continued walking. I actually hoped that I didn't find anything out here.

Off to the right side was two brick building with a narrow alleyway. I guy on a bike came out and I saw that it was Soundwave! But he took off further up the street and I laughed and stopped. "hmm hmm hmmm! Of course!" I turn to cut the search short and as I did that, Soundwave rounded the corner towards me. I looked at him expecting him to drive away for ever but it didn't happen. instead he ended up driving over to me, parking the bike and with out getting off, leapt directly at me, grabbing on to me and nearly tackling me to the ground. I heard his unique voice make a sound then he grabs my arms and tried to pull me into he glass chest. I kicked him back but he didn't let go and yanked my face to his chest. It opened up and he tried to push my head into it and I start pushing on his chest, trying to escape from him and not get caught or eaten by him. I push on his chest, forcing it to close and would punch it every time he tried to open it up to put my head into. He was very big, detailed and stronger then me and in the scuffle ended up falling with him on top of me. I knew I was pinned under his weight and then he accidently headbutts me. I felt pain and he examines it, rubbing and kissing it. "oops" he says in his computer/ music voice. I elbowed him in the side of his head but he blocked it, brought his head up to mine and forcefully kisses me. I see a Gundam like face smootching me and he puts the red thing that sticks out on the chin gundams into my mouth.

2019, 12-11



Skyrim: The Slaver Trap

Regular Dream - Video Game / Semi-lucid - Lucid Dream - Notes

I am at a mall with my mother. The fact my mother is coming with me into a mall should have triggered a reality check... she NEVER does that. But it seems normal to me. We go into the mall and start looking around. I have the idea the place is just about to close so we don't have much time. We go into a clothing store and I look to see if there is anything I like that will fit me. Neither my mom nor I find anything in our sizes. We leave and go to a video game / music store. There are both new and used games. I try a demo of a Mario Cart game, but I'm not doing very well. I keep driving off of the road. I start thinking the controller might be broken, because no matter how steady I hold it the car veers off to the right. I leave that and look for my mom. I don't see her. Apparently the game store is open later than the rest of the mall, it is still opening and showing no signs of closing. I go to another demo station. This has a cordless VR headset. I look at the price and cringe, it is almost $2,000. But I can still try the demo! I put the headset on and find I am in Skyrim VR. The graphics look great! I realize there are no controllers, but I can see my hands. My hands are the controllers! I want this sooooo bad... so I get into the demo.

I find I am in Windhelm just outside the Palace of the Kings. I have a quest marker near the main gates to Windhelm, so I hurry to there. Ambarys, the dark elf from the New Gnsis CornerClub is there waiting. What does he want? He's one of the most racist assholes in Windhelm, along with Rolff Stone-Head. When I approach him he says he was about to give up on me coming. I wonder if I could help him get over his racist tendencies. I have decided I need a way to do this that doesn’t involve a fus to the face. That is not very effective. With this in mind, as Ambarys and I leave Windhelm I start singing the song See Who I Am by Within Temptation. “Is it true what they say? Are we too blind to find a way? Fear of the unknown clouds our hearts today. Come into my world, see through my eyes. Try to understand, don't want to lose what we have…” Ambarys asks if I’m now a bard, too? I don’t answer, I just continue. “See who I am, break through the surface. Reach for my hand, let's show them that we can free our minds and find a way. The world is in our hands, this is not the end.” Light energy forms around us and flows through Ambarys. I don’t know what brought him to hate those different than him, but this should help more than a fus to the face.

We soon arrive at an isolated part of the road from Windhelm to Kynesgrove. I tell Ambarys to keep hidden, I’ll go out there and be a traveler to hopefully draw the orc out. Ambarys says if the orc gets me there’s nothing he can do. I say if the orc gets me it will be the orc’s problem, not Ambarys’. It is late afternoon as I walk down the street as if I’m in no particular hurry to get anywhere. I hear someone call for help from behind a bush. I carefully approach and find a male orc leaning on a tree, holding his side. I ask if he is ok. He says a bandit attacked him and he needs help. I get a little closer and he jumps on me. I respond immediately with a fus. FUS-RO-DAH! The orc is launched into the air. He flies out across the road and slams into a tree. He struggles to get up. I tell him I know he is the one who has been kidnapping travelers and selling them as slaves, that ends now. He is pissed and says I won’t live to tell anyone. I ask where he has been taking the slaves he captures. He says he’ll never tell me. I use my telepathy and read it from his mind. I tell him he just did tell me. He pulls out an axe and comes at me. It is too easy to cut him down with my Alex Mercer blade.

I return to Ambarys and ask if he has seen anyone else involved with the slaves. He says no, just the orc. And he only made the one deal with him, he’d never done anything like that before. He seems desperate to make me believe that. He says I have to tell the jarl that. I say my word might not mean a lot since I fus’d said jarl in the face for being rude. He looks shocked and asks what the jarl did… I shrug and say he fus’d me back. Then I start to wonder if I screwed up and will have to load a previous save. Fus’ing Ulfric in the face probably isn’t the best way to get his cooperation, but maybe solving the slave trade issue will make up for it. I tell Ambarys I won’t mention his involvement, but I can’t say that for anyone else. Tell everyone it had to look like he was in on the slave trade to keep from tipping that orc off. And the orc is in multiple pieces, he can’t argue. We are headed back when I wake up.

It all started with a brief paralysis I had. I woke up from it so I thought no LD today either, and went to sleep normally.
The coming dream is hazy for me so I don't remember much. But I know that there was this girl whos presence brought me some kind of peace and for this I started to speculate
that this girl may be god or a form of a higher force, and that I may learn something important from her , so I tried to get near her to talk to her
That's when it started
I found myself at home, figured I woke up , then I went to look out the windows and saw that there are no streets anymore anywhere,
just endless heaps of trash, and endless amount of trash men picking up stuff. Also there was a mild fog .
I didn't become lucid yet, but I found it weird that there are no streets. Then I woke up again, I don't know how many times I woke up, but things got more creepy and grotesque and darker.
And then I ended up in what I call the shadow realm. I kind of became lucid because I realized its morning in real life , but here there was total darkness.
the lights in teh whole house were flickering , giving a deeper orange faint light with a reddish hue , I felt like theres a dark presence in the dream the whole time but nothing turned up.
I went to door to check out the street, it was like in real life but all the lights were off ,so it was just total darkness with a little bit of a faint red light coming from the sky, I could barely see anything.
But I saw that there are shadows 'dancing' all over the street, but none of it attacked me or anything. I quickly closed the door and went back in. I didn't know what to do.
I said that I guess I'm like Alan Wake , stuck in a dream, never knowing if I actually got out or if it's another dream.
𐤏𐤄𐩤𐤐 𐤁ߣ𐩤ߖߖ𐤏 𐤓𐤏𐤓 ߡ 𐤓𐤁𐤓 𐤅ߡ 𐩤ߖߖ 𐤂𐩪ߖ ߡ 𐤓𐩪𐤉ߖ𐤄

I entered the room laid down and tried to wake up
from there on my recall gets bad again
I woke up a few times in another instances of my home , once I woke up for real and then slipped back into the shadow realm then at a point I thought I'm done for, and prayed
and then I finally woke up

It was my first instance of being unable to wake up, it was really weird and scary...

2019, 12-09

Skyrim: A Fus for a Fus

Regular Dream - Video Game / Semi-lucid - Lucid Dream - Notes

I am at a toy show. I am there by myself, but that doesn't seem odd. I am looking at classic toys. I find a model of the God-Phoenix from G-Force anime. I always liked that ship so I look closer to see how much it is. I notice there are some pieces missing, but they look like pieces I could make myself out of clay. And the price is way discounted because of the damage! I pick it up and see part of it slides open to reveal the interior. This is cool. There are little figures sitting inside the ship. I take the ship to the cashier to buy it. The cashier looks at the model, then at the price, then calls his assistant over. He gets angry at the assistant, saying he labeled the God Phoenix wrong. He reveals to me that the price is somewhere around ten times what it was marked. After briefly arguing I give up and leave without the model. I wonder if he priced it wrong on purpose to get people wanting it and unwilling to let it go when they find out the real price. I am angry and I walk outside, not paying much attention to those around me. Our of the corner of my eye I see a woman trying to hold a sick looking man up. My anger fades and I go to help her. When she looks up I see she is an elf... it's Suvaris from Skyrim! She asked where I'd gone, leaving my friend to her. I look and see the man is Roland Deschain from the Dark Tower books. I look around and I realize I'm not in Tucson anymore. It looks more like Windhelm. I help Suvaris support Roland to take him... I don't remember where we're taking him, but I hope he can get help.

Suvaris, Roland, and I arrive at the Palace of the Kings. Suvaris says she won’t go inside. I tell her there is no reason not to help me get Roland inside. She says there is a good reason, but continues helping me as I get Roland inside. Ulfric is in there and asks who Roland is? Ulfric sees Suvaris even though she is trying to stay hidden behind Roland and me. Ulfric looks annoyed and asks what she’s doing here. I say she’s helping with my friend, who has been poisoned. Ulfric says he wants Suvaris out now. I tell Ulfric not to make me fus him. Ulfric says he will agree to a lot of things but he will not… I don’t want to hear another rude word so I turn and fus Ulfric in the face. FUS-RO-DAH! He flies into the wall. Suvaris looks shocked and asks what I’ve done. I say it's no big deal, all I did was fus Ulfr… I lose my hold on Roland as I get fus’d. I am thrown against a wall, now I’m fighting uncontrollable laughter. The fact I got fus’d back seems hilarious. Now I want to try something. I get up and ask if Ulfric calls that a fus, that wasn’t a fus, it was a gentle breeze. I annoy him into fus’ing me again, but I respond with Whiplash by Metallica. The force of the fus reflects back at Ulfric. I tell Roland I’ve learned something new… it IS possible to fus yourself! Then I crack up laughing.

I take hold of Roland again and my laughter dies instantly. He’s burning up with fever. The poison has come back with a vengeance. Suvaris says to stop this nonsense, she’s leaving. She pushes Roland onto me and leaves. Roland is barely conscious. He calls me Susan and tries to kiss me. He is delirious. I tell him I’m not Susan… I’m Raven. It looks like Ulfric wants to be pissed but is more curious. He asks how I did that; how did I turn his shout back on him? It’s the whiplash effect, which will reflect any energy-based attack back at the attacker. To be honest I’d been unsure if it would work on a fus. Roland passes out. Ulfric motions to a couple guards (who surprisingly stayed out of our fus exchange) and they take Roland. I tell them no, leave Roland alone, I’m the one who attacked Ulfric, Roland did nothing… let him go or I'll fus your asses straight to... Ulfric interrupts and says they will take Roland to the court mage, Wuunferth, to get healing. He says a guard told him one of the elves was helping me catch a slave trader? Crap… I’m supposed to meet Ambarys to stop that orc! I look at Roland as the guards take him from the room. I hesitate. Ulfric insists Roland will be fine. I say I have to stop the orc and leave, only to wake up just outside the doors.

Had another lucid dream this morning. One thing with I mild I learned this morning is that I need to do it continuously until I fall asleep and not let my mind wander about other stuff.

My family and I drove to a odd looking place with nice yellow lights around it. As we walk in, we see very ill people who seem to wandering no where. That's when they notice us and started trying to attack by biting people. They were like zombies, I manage to run outside only to bump in to one. Once this happen I knew I was screwed as he grab my arm and began to open his mouth. Alarm bells were going through my head and got me to realize I was dreaming due to the intensity of the situation.

I first thought to myself that I should have never watch that movie recently about zombies since the main character did die. It was just like this scene on how he got infected. I then began to fly very fast to break his grip and was going up in the air. As I continue I started thinking how am I able to fly this well prior to last time? Which caused me to lose my ability to fly. Below me I could see the original zombie flying as well to catch me. As I am falling I could feel someone grab my foot. It was the zombie, I told myself I had to believe in myself in order to fly higher.

All of a sudden I was flying much higher than before but the zombie was still following me. I use some kind of air pressure to disrupt his flying and force him to fall all the way back down. That's when I decided I wanted to wake up.

First DILD since a very long time, I have been listening to lucid dreaming audiobooks and doing reality checks for a few last days, truly the daily practice is the most important thing in lucid dreaming, and not a particular technique, especially considering that I was trying WILD's unsuccessfully for a few months without much day-light practice..

The dream was too personal to relate, but I'll just add that I slept listening to LaBerge's ETWLD, woke up at 4:00AM and went back to sleep at 5:30, during the dream I just realized that something was wrong in the scenario and became lucid, I used that opportunity to truly connect with someone, I really needed this, it felt so good.

So I did my WBTB + MILD and it yielded me two lucid dreams this morning. Again, I focused more on my intention to remember to have a lucid dream. But I've noticed something interesting about my successes so far, they are more likely to happen when I intend to "just do it". Similar to act of speaking in waking life, when I make my intention I don't get caught up on the 'how' of lucid dreaming or over-think things. This was always a problem before, given that I - like most people I assume - wanted evidence that the technique was working or was going to work at a later time. We do our big technique (WBTB + Meditation + Mantra + Visualization) then fall asleep hoping a lucid dream will happen. It appears that this approach was incorrect. It could also be that my prospective memory has developed from Dr. LaBerge's exercises and my repeated attempts at MILD. Lucid Dreaming this past week has been almost seamless for me.

So I had woke up from a dream and was checking the time and could see I've been laying in my bed for some time now. I wanted to get back in to the dream world. I close my eyes and lay there and not too long I felt myself get suck in to something with my eyes close. But I wasn't sure if I was in the dreamworld or not. I continue laying there for another minute in till something started pulling my arm. It had enough force to push my arm outside of the bed. I thought this was strange and wondering if I am already dreaming now.

I then felt my head begin to move on its own. I felt my head glide across the small dresser next to my bed. Once this happen I knew I was in the dreamworld and decided to open my eyes. As I did so the force was done by no one in the room that I could see. I continue to to be toss out of my bed and on to the floor. My body started to feel a lot of pain everywhere as the force became stronger. I kept my mind calm as I remember reading Robert Waggoner book about trying to call out for love and peace.

I decided to do that while remaining very calm and at peace. However none of the things I said did anything. I called out for clarity now and everything felt more focus. I then again tried to call out for love and compassion but the dream made my voice sound like a whisper. I then was hurl upwards to the ceiling in pain. I then shouted compassion now. I felt the force let go of me and I drop down to my bed.

I then said to myself, is it over? All of a sudden a stronger force than before lunge my body up to the ceiling and cause me to moan in pain. I was then hurl across the closet door still up on the ceiling. I tried to move my arms but the force was too strong. I could feel the inside of my body being damage and tight to the point where my bones would crack. I then said to myself that this is enough. I am taking over now, I raise the brainwaves that were flowing in my head and focus on the force holding me up.

I broke it and drop back down to the floor. I got up and quickly ran toward the window and slip through it. As I slip through it I began falling down from the 3 story apartment I live in. And felt the wind zipping through me till I hit the ground. I then woke up to a false awakening.