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It's been awhile since I've had a lucid, but I broke my dryspell last night! It's been awhile since I've even had decent recall of my dreams. I recently got a job and I absolutely hate it with all my heart(I'm a cleaning bitch at a Chinese restaurant). It's put a lot of stress on my back and ever since I've had this job my recall has just taken a vacation pretty much. However over the past couple of days things have gotten better and I've recalled a few minor details from my details. Last night was a huge step for me. I recalled the full length of the dream, from my non-lucid beginning all the way until I woke up at an undisclosed time after attempting a TOTM. I don't know if I completed the task, but I'll leave that judgment up to OpheliaBlue I guess. Anyway...without further adeui I present my dream:

I dream I'm hanging out around the backyard of my old house. Me and all of my best friends are having some sort of party, and everybody is having a great time. We're all spread out around the front yard, back yard and inside of the house having a great time. However there was a really strange difference about my backyard...there was a large baseball field in the back hard. Not like a MLB stadium, but like a field you'd see at a middle school or something. I can't recall if there was a game or not, but I think there was. Anyway, I was hanging out behind the fence placed behind home plate with my friends. Things suddenly took an interesting and somewhat comedic turn. My friend Logan and Frankie were standing by one another, and Logan began to approach her.
"Hey Frankie." Logan began.
"Uh, hey Logan." Frankie acknowledged.
Logan then started to tense up and become very nervous. Frankie looked at him with her eyebrow raised.
"You know how I broke up with Mia awhile ago right?" he asked.
"Uh...yeah...why?" Frankie answered.
"Well I was just...uh wondering...because I'm single now and all..." Logan takes a slight pause as he begins to shed tears. "I was wondering if you wanted to go out sometime?"
Frankie now looked utterly shocked and somewhat weirded out at the same time. Logan was an emotional wreck now as tears began streaming down his face. Me and a couple other friends quickly began to walk away and leave the premises of this very awkward situation. All I can remember is seeing Frankie's very distraught face as she dealt with the very complicated situation.
So as we left, my friends and I began walking down the street towards the intersection. I started thinking about things for a minute, and I then realized that I was dreaming, and became lucid. I immediately turned to my friends and informed them.
"Guys, you know this is a dream right?" I said.
"What're you talking about?" one of them asked.
"Here look, I'll show you," I replied. "You see I can't get hurt in a dream." I then ran into the street and jumped in front of a car going about 25mph, and I was hit and thrown several feet away. I got up, completely unharmed and walked back to them, but they didn't seem to care too much. So they kept walking along, and I decided to try doing a RC just to be safe. I plugged my nose, and I was able to breathe through it. Then I looked at the fronts and backs of my hands, and my right hand had seven fingers. I freaked out for half of a second and flailed my hand around.
I thought for a second of what to do, and I quickly remembered to try and do the task of the month. I was obviously obligated to try out my own task that was out in this month, and so it was my goal now to try and hold up a bank with a banana. I ascended into the air, and so did my friend Connor, which was really weird. I then flew across town to where I knew there was a bank in real life. I did find one, but the city looked much bigger and much more urban than it really is. I saw a Key Bank insignia in the distance, and I flew down to the entrance. I landed and made my way to the door. As I did so, I spawned a banana in my right hand, and I then hid it in my inner pocket of my jacket. I entered the bank, and I looked around. There was a bank vault to my far left, a cash register next to it, and a lot of people sitting down and eating meals. What the hell? Okay so I guess this place is a bank/restaurant. I decided to disregard how unorthodox that was, and I pulled out my banana. I looked across the room and saw my friend Michael and his girlfriend Kaitlyn eating in a booth, and our friend Fred was being a third wheel. Oh this was about to get really interesting.
"Alright everyone listen up!" I shouted. "This is a robbery! Everyone get down on the ground now, and don't try anything and no one will get hurt!"
People began panicking and they all got down on the floor as I instructed. I was surprised they listened when I only had a banana as a weapon. I now took my banana and walked down to the cash register and vault, and I noticed some people were trying to get up.
"Hey! I said don't get up or I'll kill you!" I shouted. No one was listening, and I repeated myself a couple more times.
"I SAID STAY ON THE GROUND OR I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU! COME ON I ONLY SAID IT LIKE FOUR FUCKING TIMES!!!" I screamed.
To that, everybody complied and stayed on the ground. I pointed the banana at the girl at the register and told her the usual deal, and she began removing money. Suddenly, I felt my banana be pulled out of my hand. I turned around to see Fred holding the banana, and he then began to peel it. At the same time, Michael came and tried to attack me, but I knocked him over. God damn it all, now I've gotta handle my own friends. I didn't want this to happen. His girlfriend tried to help but I pushed her back and tried to think of what to do with Michael. So, I grabbed a hot dog from the nearest table and shoved it in Michael's mouth and forced him to choke on it. I then turned and saw Fred eating the banana, and I got pissed. I lunged at him and brought him to the floor. I took the rest of the banana and forced it down his throat so he would choke on that. I got up and returned to the register, where several thousand dollars were resting on the stand, and I prepared to take it all. Suddenly, Fred got up and smiled at me. He then pulled some sort of fucking God power voodoo magic shit and everything changed. I saw Fred standing in front of me smiling from ear to ear, and everyone in the room was calm. I saw the money was still on the desk, and I put my hand on it. Fred made me stop, and he made me look around the room. Around the room everyone was holding assault rifles, and I noticed I had one strapped to me too. I may have had one myself, but I was severely outgunned right now. Knowing I had been defeated, I immediately left the bank/restaurant and started walking down the concrete path. I saw more of my friends and other random DCs down a large staircase, and I became curious. I held my rifle, a SCAR-H, and I fired off a few shots. One hit my friend in the knee on accident, but he wasn't bleeding. I quickly realized it was only an airsoft gun...I had definitely been fooled back there. Holy shit. I don't quite recall what happened after that, but I don't think I did much more before I awoke.

August 14, 2014 (part 2)

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Premonition

So, around noon, when we were driving to a fossil dig site to find some fishies, I suddenly remembered what may have been a dream:



I was in the car with my brothers and dad, and we were turning onto a portion of road that has been closed until this day of our vacation here in Utah. We drove up the hilly road, over a mountain. I remember it being fairly steep, and winding and there was a rock wall on our right, and a ledge with a few small trees to our left. I remembered the curvature of the road and the imagery very vividly...



Which is what made me ask, in the car today, "Did we take N. O. Pass yet or did I dream that...?"
"You dreamt it, Kestrel."
"Oh."


Later today, we drove on the road, going the other direction. Even going the opposite way, I could tell... it was basically exactly as it had been in my dream. A few curves were slightly different, but the steepness and the landmarks were exactly the same.


I have never been on this road. It's been closed the whole time we were here, until today. This was such a surreal experience for me, and I had to RC a few times in the car because it was the same as my dream.

[My second entry of the series of dreams of "Lin"]

I was in the phantasmic portal and I somehow spun myself into a scene of a house. I searched for Lin and found her sitting on a chair in a room in blankets. She seemed irritated and tired for some reason. I asked her on a date and she said yes. She sort of just fell asleep after that. I was amazed by the clarity of the dream again, looking around, noticing the color of her eyes and immersing myself in the dream. I was surprised to have time left over to actually sit and think about the experience while sitting next to her. I forgot to ask where we should go unfortunately.
Note: I thought the meditation wasn't working at all until the next thing I knew, I was just there. Like just waking up in the phantasmic portal.

Alright everyone, this morning was quiet out of the ordinary as I had 2 FA's which I both turned into LDs. Not only that but for the first time I was able to interact with a DC (my mother) and I got a response that still leaves me with a lot of questions...

1. Panick at the mall

I'm waiting in a que for something in a supermarket and I seem to be having a good talk with a couple, we laugh a bit and eventually we go outside. There are many people and we're all very packed together, accidently the guy I was talking to bumbs into me and fall down in a puddle of water. I notice the sleeve of my pyjama being wet and I say in a very kind way that it mildly annoys me. Then I'm suddenly on the other side of the mall sitting at a tavern drinking a banana/kiwi smoothie. It's raining very hard outside the windows and the square is empty, the woman that sits at my table is slightly worried as she talks about a new type of tornado that forms during rainfall. I look outside again now paying attention to any whirlwinds and suddenly see one forming. At first it's small and transparent but quickly it grows in a large dense tornado, the woman runs away deeper into the mall leaving me alone and I leave too after I first finish my smoothie that actually tasted quiet good.

2. Awakening* (DILD)

I wake up dazed and see the very early light of the sky that still looks dark and grey, it's 05:00 in the morning I think and don't give it much thought. Until I see the clouds in the sky moving abnormally fast followed by planes flying in a formation. I become slightly suspicious and do a nose-plug RC just incase, what do you think I can breath through it like it's nothing! I sit up in my bed an feel the sheets who are very thin, I do the RC again and try squeezing my nose as hard as I can. It feels like I can squeeze it as tight as paper but still feel no pain and breath normally. Then the dream gets unstable and I feel waking up slightly disappointed.

3. Awakening 2.0* (DILD)

I wake up again and notice I can still see the sky through me windows, even though it's cloudless I still become suspicious because my curtains are open. I do another RC and well, we're lucid again!
I sit up and again start doing the RC multiple times, it's about 06:00 in the morning now slightly brighter than previous LD. I sit at the edge of my bed and think about the fact everything is fake and a product of my mind, I consider doing some RCs I haven't done before, like turning on the lightswitch. It stays dark and I sit back on my bed looking at the switch trying to activate it with willpower or something. I notice my mother sitting at the computer in my sister's bedroom, I ignore her at first but when she walks into my room and starts folding some of my clothing I feel like I have to do something.
I'm slightly worried about what her reaction will be because I still feel this mental barrier of doing things infront of DCs that aren't normal. I start a conversation with her beginning with a very controversial statement in my eyes.

(A= me, B= DC-mother)

A: "You are not my mother."

B: *giggles a bit*

"How nice of you to ask it like that."

"I'll explain it to you, everything you see right now is 'you'."

"You are my child which means..."

A: "That we're genetically partially the same...?"

B: "Yes."

(Note that the actuall conversation was a bit more vague and somehow I got information from her telepathically or some other way.)


Then I notice old pictures of me and my sister as children on hanging of the side of my bed, in most of these I'm happy and playing around. I also see some pictures of my father being happy too and looking at me. I was between 6-8 years old I think in these pictures.
For some reason this made me very emotional and I couldn't help but start crying, it is at this point that I wake up for real

So yeah I was quiet impressed by the answer I got from her, I think by the time I saw the pictures I actually lost most of my lucidity though.

1. I had just walked into Kroger. I was walking around and saw my friend Sydney from school. She looked the same, blonde hair, short and everything else. We were walking together throughout the store and I was going with her to help her get the things she needed. A group of guys behind us started following Sydney and I told her, "Hey we need to get away from these guys, not because they like you but because they're kind of stalking you" (idk).
She did just that and we walked a little faster for a second to get away from the guys. Once we did, I saw some stuff that I needed and told Sydney that I would catch back up with her once I got my stuff. She continued on through the store and got her stuff and after I got what I needed, I ran to catch up with her. I remember seeing someone else here that I knew.
Later on, I was walking on back through the store. The store lights had gone off and I saw people walking around. I looked to the ground next to me and saw a replica of the area of the store that I was standing in(little confusing, it was weird). I walked back towards the entrance of the store and saw a black guy. He said he was "about to start it up again", and it came to me that he was talking about zombies. He started "it" and I saw a wave of zombies starting to approach us fast.
They came around the corner and the guy I was with started shooting them. A minute later when they were all gone, a group of about 5 people showed up and teamed up with the black guy. They stood in a wagon, Im assuming they were waiting for the next zombies. All of a sudden, a group of people popped out from behind the corner that the zombies came from. They were all clones of the group I was standing next to. " I can do whatever I want, none of y'all are real!", said the black guy, "This is my dream, and I control it.". I became Lucid after he said that, and I looked around, "Its been a long time ", I thought.
Out of the blue, the store lights came back on, and I found myself just standing around looking at everything. I immediately started my attempt to Dilate time. I counted up(or down, cant remember) and started walking forward slowly, trying to feel myself really slowing down. It didn't work, and I told myself I'd just give it another try later. With that, I turned around with my next goal in mind, find a DC girl that I've been looking for for a while. I looked around, trying to make her appear, but it didn't work. I tried looking around corners, opening doors, but nothing worked.
When I opened the front door of wherever I was, as I was looking for the DC girl I noticed it was night time outside. The moon was out and it was very dark. I saw a group of girls outside making their way inside towards me. "One of those girls is going to be her", I told myself. All of the girls walked in, and none of them were the one I was looking for. I stood in front of the door way, thinking of another way. All of a sudden, a small rat/guinea pig creature ran inside at full speed and climbed up to my shirt collar. This little guy had really sharp nails/claws, so I didn't want him to "search" my body, as I knew thats what his intentions were.
He told me a few things, but I can't remember them. I buttoned up my collar all the way, so the small guinea pig/rat couldn't crawl inside. The creature approved of me, and let me inside, as if I weren't already. I turned around and to my surprise, found that I was now inside of my house. All of the lights in the house were off, except for lights that were emitted from girls' electronics. I walked into the living room, and there was an entire group of about 5 girls just sitting down. I think 2 or 3 were on the couch, and one was in the recliner and the other was standing. One girl I knew from real life, Kendall, was sitting on the couch with her legs spread completely open.
I went to pick her up and take her upstairs so we could have a fun time, but when I touched her she told me, "No stop, my stomach still hurts and hasn't healed fully". When she touched me, I felt a wave of pain go through my body, and I didn't know what it was. I walked away from her and sat down on the back couch in the very back of the living room. I sat there thinking about what to do. "Ah, I can do the ToTM's! Nah I don't really wanna do that right now". I kept thinking, and the dream ended. I'm assuming it ended because I stared at one focal point in the dream for too long, I stared at the ground for a good minute or two.
Progress: I successfully distracted my mind so I wouldn't wake up when I didn't want too. I controlled my emotions.
Things I need to work on: Immediately stabilizing the dream once I get in, believe in myself; so I can better my dream control.

2. I was inside of a car with a few friends, and my other friend Thomas. We were riding in his mom's van I think. I started talking to him, and he told me that he had just become a christian. I knew that before, he didn't really believe in anything. I asked him, "What made you believe? Don't tell me its because of what happened recently". "Well, me really, and also your dad and [something else", he replied. I said okay, and respected his belief, though I myself am not a christian, but lately have been thinking about my beliefs.
We continued driving on the freeway to who knows where, and on the way, I saw a car that had an inflatable AK-47 flying out of the left side of the car. It was just floating, and was attached to the car by strings. I wanted to jump onto it, but knew that it wouldn't support my weight because of how light it was and I would end up just falling onto the freeway and probably dying. I looked outside at the sky, and at this point, it was overcast. A layer of gray clouds covered the entire sky, and now the sun was absent and no longer shined on our faces. This was a good thing to me though, I don't like 90 degree weather, or just hot weather in general.

3. I was inside some sort of mall, and everything inside was really nice. I remembering walking by a group of ladies who were curious about the overall value of a store, and how much it was worth. The store was called something like, "The Omni", or something like that. The girls were talking about how the net value of the store used to be 5.9 million dollars. I looked at the wall of the store and saw that exact number.
One of the girls proceeded in saying that, "Now, the overall value is 7.9 million", I looked over to the wall again where its value was posted, and it changed and now read "7.9 million", and had some weird symbol next to it. I looked inside, and the color scheme of the store was cyan and gold. You couldn't see the inside of the store where all of the products were because of the way the entrance was designed.
The design of the entrance was like this: You walk in about a few feet and then a wall blocks you from walking directly forward any farther. To the right and the left there is a short hallway that leads directly into the store from there.
I tried walking in myself, but was soon blocked by some bald black guy, and he was dressed in a really nice suit. I don't remember exactly why he didn't let me in, but I know he threatened to call the cops if I didn't leave, so I left. I continued walking around this mall and eventually saw my family. I caught up with them and we continued walking. We started walking towards a really nice restaurant, all of the tables and chairs inside were all stainless steel.
Before we got there, we stopped at some exhibit that was only about 20 yards from the entrance of the restaurant. This exhibit was showing people who had rotted and gotten disfigured, and'or had gotten a serious injury. It was based off of some type of tragic event, I don't remember what though. I remember looking at a torso of some dead person, and they had a huge gash/opening to where you could see each of their ribs fully, and they were bloody. I continued walking on and saw the face of someone that had been in this tragic event. It was a woman, and her face was disfigured and had been rotting. The sight of it really displeased me so I skipped the rest of the exhibit and made my way to the restaurant.
I looked back and the rest of my family was still looking at the exhibit. I wondered why they were so interested in looking at rotting flesh, disfigured faces, and injured bodies right before we were about to eat. Everyone seemed really caught up in the exhibit and I had to wait a few minutes before everyone finally left it and came into the restaurant. I was with my mom, sister, dad, grandpa, and grandma. The lady inside that worked for the restaurant seated us at the table closest to the entrance. This table was really long, the length of a thanksgiving table or one you would see at feasts.
I walked to sit down at the right side of the table, but changed my mind and sat on the left side. My sister sat on a small table right behind the big table; it was directly against the wall and only inches away from the entrance of the restaurant. My grandma sat on the right side of the table, in front of my sister. The table was split down the middle halfway by a glass wall. I sat down and looked around some more. I noticed there was a group of 2 people sitting at the same table with us, which I thought was kind of unusual. I looked back at my sister and she was motioning for me to come to the table she was sitting at. I told her to come sit over here next to me, but she didn't move. I remember looking at my mom just to see what she was doing. I don't remember anything else.

4. I was outside of my house, in my driveway. Alot of my friends were with me, some were: patrick, dylan, trey, emily, and I cant remember the other ones. I remember my driveway being really crowded a filled with tons of stuff on the side. I looked up into the sky and saw that it was overcast, and the clouds were gray, but had an electric blue glow to them. It looked like it was about to rain.
My friend Dylan got inside of a small car, and started driving around on our street. He was driving pretty crazily.He even went up a small arch and used it as a ramp and got airborne for a second or two. Soon, another driver came by and Dylan swerved the car and stopped right in the middle of the road. Luckily, the other driver was observant, and slowed down. The other driver was in a blue truck. He saw Dylan stopped right in the middle of the road, and went on the right shoulder area and went around him.
Dylan came back into the driveway, and me and my other friends looked at him like he was nuts. We calmed down a bit once we realized that Emily was in the car with him, because she's a really good driver. After that, we all just chilled. I got out a board game and was about to play with everyone, but Emily came up to me and told me to get out of the middle of her floor (what is going on). I looked around me, and found that I was inside of some sort of house now, and apparently this was Emily's room.
I picked up the game and put it on Emily's bed and started to set it up. She seemed satisfied now, and didn't mind that I was doing this on her bed.

5. I was in my room, and was only wearing my boxers. I "realized" that I was really dirty and needed to shower and change clothes. I looked down at my boxers and they were wet, as though I just had a wet dream(Lol, sorry to anyone who is reading this, once again, just recording this to get my recall better). I took off my boxers and got a new pair.

So I slept from 12midnight - 3am, then couldn't sleep until my alarm went off at 6:45am. I hit the first snooze and as I drifted off, I got WILD vibes. This is the first time I had this particular type of sensation: As I fell back to sleep on my side, I suddenly felt like I was on my stomach with my face pressed against the pillow when the vibrations started. I found it difficult to turn this into lucidly getting out of bed, and when I finally did, I kinda fell over. Then the alarm went off again (9 minute snoozes).

I was still on my side, and I drifted off again, and felt vibrations again. I was able to get out of bed a bit easier this time, and looked at my phone. The screen lighting was dull, and the otterbox was fitted all weird. I couldn't think of any tasks other than the 2 I had already done, so I just left the room and went down the hall to the livingroom. DC Danny was sitting on the couch, and I just randomly decided to do a karate jump kick. As I was suspended in the air in a kick position, the thought occurred to me to continue the kick through the window, but I woke up when the alarm went off again.

I fell asleep again, then suddenly woke up, worried that I had slept in. So I reached for my phone, and it was like it was in one of the DEILD chains: messed up case and screen. LUCID! So I ran back to the livingroom for a second go at the karate jump kick. Didn't even notice if Danny was there this time. I did it and aimed for the window, willing myself to phase through foot first without breaking the glass. And it worked!!!! My foot went through the glass as if it were made of a really stiff jello. I float-flew a bit outside, and it was so nice. Early morning, lots of dew on the grass, and the streets were a bit wet as if it had rained during the night. Sin was sparkling off everything, and the air was cool but not cold. I flew up a bit too high and felt a bit of vertigo, so I landed on the edge of the roof. Then I tipped forward with my feet still on the edge of the roof, and straightened my body, tipped until I was parallel with the ground. Very cool sensation. Then I put my right foot out in front of me, and let it stretch (or the ground moved up or both), until it touched the ground, all the while my left foot was still touching the roof. If you could see it, I probably looked like I was doing the splits, while my legs doubled in length lol. Then I put my left foot on the ground, and took off running through the wet grass that sparkled like emeralds. It felt so good, but I woke up after a few seconds. I checked my phone for real this time, and I still had 2 minutes left, so that last dream + falling asleep time only lasted 7 minutes.

The fact I got so little sleep was so incredibly cancelled out by the buzz of these fun lucids. I wasn't that tired at work, didn't even need a break, and only took a 2 hour nap when I got home. Everyone should be so lucky after a night of insomnia.

DREAM 1 - 4:30AM

I'm at my house in the bath room. I see Joe Rogan interviewing a dark skinned fighter. The fighter flips out on Joe and starts throwing punches at him. He's not happy with the way Joe criticises his guests. Joe moves out of the way of the mans attacks. I feel disgraced in the fighters actions towards Joe, as it's not a good look at all.

When Joe was interviewing it looked dark.

DREAM 2 - 6:30AM

I'm at Daryl's old house sitting in the lounge room. I can see Brent Johnston and his girlfriend. Brent and I start insulting each other for fun and I say some pretty funny stuff. He comes closer to me and I see what looks like black birth marks over his arms and shoulders, but is actually a cover up of his tattoos. He tells me about laser removal of his tattoos. He mentions that to get a small area removed it will cost $1000 or $2000 for all, and then points over towards his friend showing me how much of his tattoo he got removed. His friends tattoo on his leg looked stretched and blurred.. It was still there. I assume the army has changed him or they wanted him to remove his tattoos.

I continue insulting Brent and bring up about his goofy looking hat. Looks like a wizard hat, but at the time I was calling it a Willy Wonka hat.

I leave the lounge room and walk into kitchen where I see his girlfriend. She's standing at the fridge and mentions about her and Brent being back together and had been broken up for some time.

I'm back in the lounge room but this time, NAKED! There's a few people with me and I'm looking out the window. I see an old friend Josh Rooker. I embrace him and happy to see him as well as he is. He's got a candle in each hand. The candle is lit up and he is trying to prod me with them as a joke. I'm avoiding them at all costs, due to them being pointed at my arse... F THAT. I look outside and notice a car pull up with a group of people.

I'm now in the bathroom and I'm washing my hands with soap. I see a scene of one of the people that was out the front in the car. He's a famous Croatian football player who had the whole countries weight on his shoulders. He was their hope on winning the World Cup. I see a team run onto the field. I walk into Janes room and feel as if I shouldn't be here.

DREAM 3 - 8:55AM

I'm at Daryl's house In the kitchen area. I'm sitting at the kitchen table and I see dogs laying on a blanket, on top of the chair. Jane tells me to put the dogs out when I get up. My brother checks for piss stains where they have been sleeping and notices a couple stains. We try and justify that it's not pee and could be something else.

I walk outside where the veranda is and see that there's a slow cooker on the table. It's cooking some kind of stew. I think I try a small amount and think about giving some to Dad to try. I forget about that and put the lid back on. I see that there's dirty water on the lid and I think about if I should just put it on anyways, but decide to clean it.

I'm out the front of Jason and Louise's house, next to my old house. I see the slow cooker in front of me but it's not a chest. I feel as if the chest has something magical or mysterious about it. The chest is from a TV series, and to find out what the chest has in it and the meaning of it, we have to watch the rest of the series.

DREAM FRAGMENTS:

1. I'm at a house and I'm with my brother and friends. We're deciding to head out for the night I think. I worry about not drinking enough distilled water. I realise I have my water distilled running and think about doing a second cycle before I go out. Water distiller jug is not made out glass. I knock it over and it makes a different sound.

2. I'm at my house in the kitchen area and I'm explaining to my cousin Trev about my arachnoid cyst and how it effects me.

SIDE NOTES:
I used holo sync binaural beats to induce theta state so I could perform my mantras that way. I also put effort into my mantras before bed. I feel this helped a lot even on the first night. My head felt clear and on point upon awakening throughout the night. Not perfect but big improvement.
Performed some SSILD but was finding it too hard to get back to sleep. Was awake for at least an hour from 5:30^

This is from this morning, after a natural awakening at 4 AM:

I'm going on a field trip with a bunch of kids from school. I'm very unaware of what's going on until we get to our destination: a massive, half-indoor, half-outdoor pool. The only way to get into the pool is a giant metal slide. My boyfriend is with me until we get to the slide, and then he seems to vanish. I don't notice until I'm in the water. My awareness spikes at this point, and I think gleefully, It's great to be swimming in a deep pool again! (I haven't been to a pool in years.) I am particularly delighted at not being able to touch the bottom of the pool. I spin around and notice a ladder to get out. I also notice my boyfriend's disappearance. I decide to go look for him, and I swim towards the ladder. A wave of newcomers sliding down the slide blocks my way suddenly. As they move away, I swim forward again, only to find that I can't move. It feels as if my kicking and paddling is accomplishing nothing, and I give up for a moment, confused.

Pretty sure I woke up at this point.

Hello everyone, I must say last night or rather this morning I had a dream that for the first time ever probably was just so creepy and panick-inducing that I was glad to see the morning light shine into my eyes.
I'm not even trying to be poetic here, it was genuinely one of the scariest moments I've ever experienced.
For anyone who somehow wouldn't notice it, it's obviously the third dream.

1. Good start

It's a hot summer day and I'm arriving at school with a bike entering the yard from behind, my sister asks me in an annoyed way if I've forgotten my bicycle lock. Upon noticing I indeed had forgotten my lock I told her I would find a way to fix it. She was quiet angry for me being so forgetful but I quickly walked further past a group of students. The yard was smaller and more densely packed with vegetation offering a nice shade from the burning sun. I walked to the place where everyone parks their bikes and saw one of my friends there, I asked him if he could share his chain with my bike so they would be both secure and he did so without any problem. I walked back to my sister but don't know what happens next.

2. Welcome to the internet

I'm browsing the internet and look around in Dreamviews for anything, I notice that I have a notifications as it shines it's satisfying red colour. It seems a bit bugged out though because it flickers and vibrates a little, when I clicked on it it somehow took me to the Dreamviews chatroom. The chatroom looked very weird, it was green and looked like a hacking-panel straight from the 1960's. Someone wanted to talk to me and I tried responding but the symbols were very weird and I didn't understand them. I quickly tab out and start playing a flashgame about a water droplet that has to punch through a wall of ice while avoiding freezing so you have to find a balance between punching the ice and not touching it. Suddenly I'm looking into some canister that has red pixels bouncing around in it, I call these protons. Then blue pixels show up too that I call neutrons, as they bounce around they form some gas that rapidly expands and eventually makes the canister explode.

3. The creeping darkness

Alright, this is it even though I hate bringing back the vivid memories I think it's best to just write it down and be done with it. Our story begins with me entering an old victorian looking theatre like this:



I enter the theatre from the left uper balcony you see on the picture, as I look around the theatre I quickly notice that it's completely abandoned, deserted yet still in a perfect state. All the chairs are empty until I look back for a moment and when I look into the theatre again all the seats have a puppets in them, even the chairs on the balcony where I'm standing. They're all looking at me, the stage is barely visible and unnaturally dark. I climb over the banister and get on the larger balcony left of the one I stood on first. There's a long corridor leading out of the theatre room, it's very dark yet I can still navigate it. The corridor is in a very bad state, all the walls are damaged and have fungus growing on them, there are some rooms left and right in the corridor but I just walk straight forward. The corridor ends in a small dark room with a single computer on a desk facing the wall. I start up the computer and browse YouTube, there I start watching some video's of Storpy who plays scary games and films his reactions. (https://www.youtube.com/user/storpey) For a moment I forget the fact I'm in a creepy old theatre and I actually laugh a bit with Steve's reactions. It is when he start saying things like "Oh god, there are shadows moving in that corridor." and when he starts screaming in pure terror like I've never seen him do before that I look back and start seeing dark figures move in the corridor I just came from. At first I try ignoring the moving shadows behind me and focusing on Steve's reaction who now keeps screaming. The only thing that's still on the screen is his face-cam... Then I realize the thing Steve is watching through his monitor is the room I'm standing in, I am inside the horror game he's playing. I look back again and notice the shadows quickly flying through the corridor towards me, they scream and shriek in a horrible deafening way. There's no way out of this room other than the corridor, all I can think of is crawl in a corner of the room and wait in a fetal position for my death... Then the screams get quieter, I dare looking up and see that the room is still empty. Without any thinking I just run as fast as I can through the corridor into the theatre, climb back on the first balcony at which point the dream fades into black and I wake up.

in this dream i am talking to a girl from one of my classes in high school, for what ever reason, we are in the back of the class, i think because i got into trouble, i didn't really pay attention to why i was there. i talk to her and she starts laughing as well as me, i can't remember what we were talking about, just simple small talk. i get this warm feeling in my body, like i am really happy to be talking to her. i then wake up from the dream.

i barely know this girl ikr, i think i dreamt about her because i saw her not to long ago, i should have realized that it is the summer so no school but i guess i was to in the moment for a lucid dream. come to think about it i still haven't managed a lucid dream because i am always in the "moment". with my dreams, but imma keep trying.

Woke up around 6:00 from an earlier dream cycle, DJed a bit, and then worked on MILD for several minutes. Here was the result:

I am at a dreaming convention or conference. I am walking around, maybe ordering food or looking for the restroom. I pass a man who seems a bit shady and scary. I am walking away so as not to cause a conflict when I decide to confront him, because this is just a dream. It now fully strikes me that I am dreaming. I nose pinch. I walk back to look for the DC, but cannot find him. Oh well.

The dream was long, so some material was lost. I decided to scope out the restroom; inside, under the stalls, I see dirty work boots. I turn around and look for the women's restroom. I can't find it. I laugh at my dream's attempt to thwart me.

Outside, I am walking across a plaza when I see a friend of mine from WL. She is quite pretty in this dream, and I decide to walk with her. I put my arm around her shoulder, and then when she does not reciprocate, I put her arm around my waist. She seems quite happy to be walking with me. I stroke her hair a bit, but firmly decide this will not be a sex dream. We chat a bit (can't remember about what) and make our way back indoors.

We are now seated in an auditorium. I remember that I want to start interrogating the subconscious more. I decide to start with her.

"You do realize this is a dream, don't you?" I ask.

"Yes."

"So why exactly am I in your dream?" I then correct myself: "What I mean to say is, why are you in my dream?"

She begins to answer. I suddenly realize I wanted to do the task of the month? What were those tasks? She is talking but I don't hear her now. I begin trying to pluck out my eyeball. I focus on this very carefully, and try to phase my fingers through my face to get a better grip. I'm not having much luck, and I think to myself, I am not tearing my eye out of my face, even if I am dreaming. I decide to do the basic instead.

I turn to my friend and ask her to tell me a word in a different language.

She says some gibberish. "And what does that mean?" I ask.

She suddenly laughs. "Oh my god," she says. "I've got my words mixed up!" She then gets up and starts walking off, laughing. I look around for someone else to help.

I see a gangster-looking fellow sitting near me. I decide to ask him.

"River," he says.

"Ok," I say, a little peeved that this is an English word, "but what does it mean?" I ask.

"Vitherur," he says.

"Virrerrur?" I ask? I'm having trouble understanding his accent. He nods and says, "Vitherur."

"Vitherur," I say. He nods again. I consider asking him to reconstruct the order, but figure the information is the same: vitherur = river. I then decide I am going to fly. I have the slightest moment of hesitation, but then decide that no, even my abilities at flying are not stopping me from flying today. I easily lift into the air and begin soaring around the auditorium. The ceiling is high and so it is easy to get some good height inside the room. As I am soaring about, I think to myself that this is why I enjoy lucid dreaming. What better way to spend the morning? Triumphant orchestral music begins to play, and I fly around, turning over and over in the air. I see a young boy I know in WL flying as well, moving some electrical cables to prepare for the show. I fly past him, smiling.

I now decide to land and go into the back room. On the way, I see some items stacked on a shelf--maybe plates or bottles--and I sweep them to floor because this is a dream and I can do that. I marvel at the realistic clattering sound they make as they scatter on the floor, and the tactile sensation I get on my hands. I decide to attempt Photoshop TotM. I will the room around me to become purple, but realize it already is purple. I then decide to change it to sepia, based on another member's dream journal (can't remember whose at the moment, sorry!). Nothing happens. I shrug, and decide I may need a schema to assist me (such as a laptop). I head back out. As I am leaving, my flip-flop comes off (?) and I am about to turn around and get it when I remember I'm dreaming and say fuck it, and walk out with only one shoe on.

The auditorium has turned into a dimly lit hallway. Ceiling fans circulate at high speed. I try to fly but just fall to the ground. I don't mind much. I begin walking down the hallway. The light slowly fades though until it is almost completely dark. I hear a sound now--growling and teeth--and some animal attacks me in the darkness. I begin petting him vigorously, telling him he's a good boy (dog activated in my mind quickest). It begins to pant and then it licks me. I am still roughing him up happily when I realize I'm squeezing my pillow. I wake up to write this all down. Hit the MILD again but can't get back to sleep.

1.
I had gotten on the bus in my neighborhood and was riding it with a few friends that I knew. I sat near the very back seat where I was always comfortable sitting. A girl sat next to me, and she was really pretty and really nice(I felt really attracted to her). I remember riding the bus for a really long time, to the point where this girl told me, "I'm used to you now, so now I'm comfortable around you."
I continued riding the bus to who knows where for a while, and talked to alot of people on the bus along the way. While I was in my seat, the girl put her hand on my shoulder. Im assuming this was supposed to show me her level of comfort around me, and I must say, I am a pretty comfortable guy to be around. I don't know what it was about this dream, but I remember seeing this girl multiple times throughout it, however long it was. After this, I saw a girl that used to live down the street from me IWL. Her name is Lindsey, a hot blonde. She was sitting in the seat in front of me. She asked me, "Was that you and your friends the other day in that white car with the amazing bass?". "Yea, it was Dylan's car and he has a sub in the back seat so the bass is amazing", I said.(This actually happened in real life last night. Me and my friends were driving behind Lindsey's dad's truck, and she was actually riding in the bed of it outside and she could hear our bass from our car lol.)
Later, I had gotten off of the bus and found my self standing on a sidewalk next to a forest. How the bus even fit on this sidewalk to drop me off brought me curiosity. A lady on a horse was now my new bus driver, as well as the bus driver of many other students. We all got on horses, however many of us could fit on one, and made our way. Wherever the bus driver and her horse went, so would the rest of the horses. This time, I was in the front, on the same horse as the bus driver.
At one point, we started going down a sidewalk, but part of it was blocked by a huge vine. I knew that this ripe green vine would be too dangerous for us to pass, but yet the bus driver tried going across it anyway. As she tried passing it, I saw our horse go over the edge and we fell. As I looked below me in mid-air, I noticed we were falling down a 20 foot drop, enough to die if you landed in the wrong spot. As I hit the ground with full impact, all I felt was pressure, but not much pain. However, I looked to my left and found the horse dead, and the bus driver, gone.
I got up and wondered where everyone else went, and I assumed that everyone else had fallen as well. I got up back onto the sidewalk which was really high up, and looked around for the rest of the students. I heard the rest of them far off in the distance, it was as though their horses fell a while back, way behind my horse. Seeing that my horse had just died, and my bus driver had just disappeared, I decided I was going to call the cops, but I wasn't sure.
Just then my dad came to me out of no where. I asked him if I should call the cops because everything was out of control at the moment. "No, you don't need to call the cops", he told me. I then looked far back into the valley of hills behind me and still heard the students yelling for help. I turned back around to find that my dad had disappeared. I walked to a cement formation not far from me, two black guys were standing there. I asked them which way I had to go to get somewhere. "You need to take I-33 and then cross I-414", one of the guys told me. I looked up into the sky and saw two GIANT highways. The sight of them made me feel small. The highway looked like a giant mirage though, like there were heat waves continuously going through the image of it, just like in my past dreams where I've seen huge highways.
I told the guys thanks and tried my best to remember the highway names, so the ones above are at least pretty close to what they told me. I wondered if I was dreaming for a second, but as usual the dream world tries distracting me by using any means possible so I won't find out that I am dreaming.

2. I was outside, floating on the ocean surface with my fellow spec-ops friends. We were about to embark on an intense mission to an underwater world. The ocean was violent, the sky covered in a thick blanket of dark, gray, thunderstorm clouds. We had just spotted our target and were chasing him at the very moment. We lost him for a minute, and then he popped up on the surface of the water, but had gained alot of distance from us.
Soldier 1: Where is he now?!?
Soldier 2: I see him, out in the distance. He's about 20 kilometers out. (<<< holy crap thats far away)
Soldier 1: Alright guys, lets close in on him fast.
I stayed silent just going with the flow, but paying attention. We started on our way towards our target with no time to spare. Soon after we started trailing him, he dove under the surface. Fortunately, we were prepared for this, we had on diving gear already. We went under the surface and I saw something I never would have expected: an underwater world. It was huge, and of course, all underwater. It resembled a giant city. I held in my amazement and we started swimming down.
The ocean was really deep, I could tell because it was holding underwater skyscrapers that weren't even near the surface. We continued making our way down, and at the point, we lost sight of our target. Once we made it to the ocean floor we started searching. The city was pretty interesting, people were just swimming around underwater. No one had on any diving gear, its like all the residents of this city could breathe underwater, and were also accustomed to the water pressure as well.
The next thing I remember, was being in the room with our target. With an up close view of my target, I realized this guy was no ordinary chump, he was huge. He was around 8 feet tall, muscular and had long rockstar hair. We finally crossed paths with him in some underwater building. As we got in the same room as him, we all prepared to take him out. All of a sudden, target(thats what im calling him now) opened up a giant door that functioned like a garage door and ran out. He locked us in behind him.
Now, we were all stuck in some sort of building, and it resembled a type of industrial factory or something. All the workers inside worked for target and were hostile. All of the workers made their way towards us, trying to seize and kill us. Soon, I became detached from my team, and got thrown into the middle of all the workers somehow. They told me they were going to send me to "The Elevator". When the head worker said that, all of the other workers gasped, "Ooooohhhh!". I realized that "The Elevator had to be a bad thing, a really bad thing.
I got pushed onto the ground, and was crawling trying to escape at this point. A worker dropped his ID card in front of me, I figured it could save me later. so I switched my ID card with his. The worker didn't even realize that I had just done this, and picked up my card-thinking it was his and put it in his pocket without even looking at it. Right after this, I got escorted in "The Elevator" and was put in there by myself. I looked around inside, and it looked pretty weird. The walls of the elevator were made of metal and there were red accent marks on each wall.
Target appeared in front of me, just as the elevator doors were closing, and he gave me my farewell remarks. The elevator started going up, and I figured that something bad was about to happen at any moment so I got out the ID card I had stolen and waited until I went up a few floors more and slid the card into a slot and it stopped the elevator and opened the doors. The doors opened and in front of me stood two workers. I knew I had opened the doors up at a bad time.
I don't remember the rest of the dream.

3. I was inside of my house, except for it was remodeled and the interior looked alot different. I was walking around upstairs and had went into where my sisters room was(Whenever Im inside of this room in my dreams, theres always an extra door that leads to the part of my house that has always been really creepy). Sure enough that same door was there. At this point I was semi-lucid, because I know this door is only there in dreams. My grandma walked in behind me and somehow got it across to me that this was her house. I asked her if they remodeled everything past the extra door. She said yes.
I opened the door, and sure enough everything was remodeled and different. It still had a creepy feeling to it. There were new hardwood floors and walls and everything. I kept walking and looking through every new room, it all looked really nice. I remember asking my dad later, "Dad what did you do with the extra door in our house?". He said something like, "I got it removed" or something. I kept on walking around, just amazed at how everything looked. The fact that that one extra door opened up into practically a mansion was crazy.

4. I was downstairs in my kitchen with my dad. He had just made cinnamon rolls, a fresh batch. I was sitting down in my seat looking at them. They were huge. Each one was about a foot tall and had was covered in icing. They looked delicious. For some reason the lights in the kitchen were off, in fact, it seemed that every light downstairs was off. I was waiting for my dad to finish doing whatever he was doing at the sink, but during the whole dream, he never finished. I remember thinking, "Am I dreaming" I dont know". As usual I would get distracted by something, but that won't happen anymore.

5. I was in my friend Dylan's house, and the interior looked alot more different than usual, everything was alot brighter and more vivid. I was walking through Dylans house, and was talking to him at the same time. I can't quite remember what I was doing or what was going on.

6. (BEWARE, this dream is a sex dream, and its pretty graphic. The only reason Im recording it is to better my recall. Dont worry Im not a perv or anything lol, this was just a dream)

I was inside of a house, inside of a room that I had never been in before. Inside the room was a large bed that practically took up 85% of the rooms space. I was in bed with a hot Latina chick, she was a good thickness too. We were both naked and it was my first time doing intercourse, and she was teaching me.
By the way, this Latina Chick was probably around 22 years old, and Im only almost 17. Anyways, she laid on her side and I inserted my "ahem" (<<props to fogelbise for a great substitution word for penis) into her. I started off slow, and at a steady pace went in and out. She told me to go deeper and so I went as deep as I could with each inward thrust. She started moaning and did this with each one of my thrusts.
I knew I was learning well. I remember thinking, "Wow, my first time doing intercourse, now sex will be even better in my dreams!". It all felt so real, I thought for sure it was real life, and it was SO vivid. I kept going in and out with deep fast thrusts, and continued to let out moans. I knew I was getting better, and this really helped my confidence in bed(lol).
Next thing I know, I was looking at her booty hole, and after that I'm not sure what else happened, thats all I remember.

read the dream yoga section (after reading the introductory parts earlier) of "The Tibetan Yogas of Dream and Sleep", very excited about the practice.

00:00 Tuesday 2014-08-12

00:17 pre-bedtime. day memory review, set strong intention to LD

00:35 bedtime

03:00 ? awake, hear sounds coming from wife and son in other rooms, a bit concerned about sounds from outside, take off mask and look out the window, BTB.

04:38

+(f) something about a farm?

05:46 LDs #48 and #49, they were awesome

+ in my room in the night, the door to my room was open, my wife and son (S1) were making noises and they came into my room and turned on the light. S1 wanted to do something with my computer which I needed for work, he wanted to install his own 3d chip into my laptop, I'm upset what are they doing here in the middle of the night, I'm tired, it was like 3am, I didn't want to let him do it, this is my work computer anything you do to it could ruin it. I feel a bit bad about rejecting him so I say "ok you can do it, but for one thing don't come in here at 3am." Then I get a *creepy* phone call, I answer it and I here a voice say "Hey, <my full name>, <something>" (I don't remember what they said but I understood "they" were watching me and weren't friendly), kind of laughing at me, I wondered how they did that. I returned to my bed and saw a low cabinet/closet open in the wall, there were pillow and sheets there, I was taking out some pillows. I'm back in bed and starting to get lucid?...

+ ... I'm suddenly in my sister's room in my chldhood home looking out into the hallway and am instantly lucid, I went out into the hallway, and started down the stairs. I started thinking about what to do and I decided to summon a DDGSHG I had seen before, and the dream ends...

+ I'm standing in a hotel lobby in just my underwear because I had locked myself out of my room. There are people in the lobby, the front desk is a circular island in the middle of the room, there are clerks there, I go to the front desk and say I locked myself out of my room. I felt a bit awkward being there in just my underwear (but not very much), they didn't respond to me so I go back to the elevator. The buttons were strange and I wasn't sure if it was actually an elevator or not, it seemed to open into a bathroom, the buttons were all located very low to the ground, they were all lit, I couldn't tell what was going on. I got out and walked through a dining room, I knew it was late at night, there were people eating, at a table, food on a buffet, I saw what I thought were sushi sandwiches, I continued walking by, I walk past a woman who whispers to her companion "that man's in his underwear!" and I angrily respond "Yeah, I know, that happens when you get locked out!"

+ ... and I'm in bed, "awake", in a dark room, but I thought I could be dreaming still, nose pinch showed that I was still dreaming. I tried to get up out of bed, I could move my arms and legs which went up into the air a bit but my body wouldn't move. OK, if I'm stuck in bed lets summon KS my highschool sweetheart. Should I teleport to the swimming pool where we were on our awesome swimming date? I feel my heartrate start to increase dramatically (either dream or actual, I don't know) at this thought, I know I have to calm down so I decide "forget that." I am able to roll out of bed and I'm standing in the room. It's a small hotel room with a wall-sized window running from floor to ceiling, covered with closed blinds. The orange lights from the city street lamps are leaking through the blinds. I know I'm in a room up high off the ground and there is a city outside. I'm sure I'm dreaming, but I don't want to fall and die so I do another nose pinch, and I step back away from the window to the wall at my back and take a few running steps and stretch my hands out superman style and fly right through the window and blinds out into the orange-tinted cityscape, I'm way up above the ground look down and see people/cars moving on the street, there are other tall buildings all around, I turn towards my right and fly in that direction.

There was another big window approaching. I was doing "superman with a go pro" style power bursts of speed by thrusting my fist forwards forcefully, I could feel the acceleration of motion when I did this. There were people around, some were flying, some were on the ground, they were *very bright and vivid*, I was amazed at the visual quality. I do a power fly through this large glass wall, it's into a crystal clear but dark night scene with shining snow falling down. The city scape starts to head up into hills in front of me. I think I should be looking for a woman and I turn around in the air and I see a big bulky woman approaching me, I reach for and squeeze her breasts and she turns into a man with man-boobs, I think "no no no be a beautiful woman" and he turns into a young beautiful woman, her right breast is exposed, it is firm and lovely, I reach to take it into my mouth and I wake up.

Takes a long while to get back to sleep but I want more lucids! I feel them in me, just gotta get back to sleep. Takes all my sleep kung fu and concentration but I eventually sleep again.

10:02

+ going into a small convenience store. I do something wrong or have stolen something, the store owner gets mad at me, I'm kicked out, I feel lucky to escape with my life.

I order lunch at the pizza place (LV) I order the lunch special, one guy goes on an on about how LV is better than the other place LV has the original flavor, I place the order with a guy who's outside. Then I return to this place and I sense it's been a long time since I placed the order but I know that my lunch must be ready, I have the guy I ordered with go and pick it up I think that's better because he has more authority, I hear him talking to the counter, apparently it's not ready yet and that they have to make a second one and give it to me free.

Scene inside a house, a small boy is a servant/slave, I see his small boy face, the young man master is preparing to murder the and place him into a box. The slave boy didn't do anything wrong, the master man says "it's just that kind of a thing." I'm observing. The master is wrapping the boy up in tape. Then a guy (from the convenience store gang?) comes up stealthily behind the evil master and sticks a long knife deeply into the bad guy's side, he does that several times. The young master freezes in shock and pain. The young man's family enters at this time into the dining room (on a level above the room we're in) it's a very wealthy family they're shocked at the scene in the living room below them.

+(f) PA vs. K (cities)? There are two houses and I see their addresses and say them out loud.

+(f) With MR parking a car on HC. Getting something out of the back of his car.

+ on a floating (in the sky?) boat there's a party prepared for one guy by his gay lover, he walks up the stairway to his lover who is the host and they're going to get down to business.

+ I see a convenience store mafia guy again in my parents house at a party our eyes meet he has a goatee I nod to him in recognition he doesn't acknowledge me back. Later there's something to do with money, if he gives me back all the money he'll kill me and he starts to give me money and I start to freak out but he only gives me a few coins and decides not to kill me.

I don't remember too many details of this one because I was asleep for a while between having it and writing it down. In fact, I almost forgot it entirely.

I'm in a room interacting with a DC when I become lucid. I remember my goal of attempting the second basic TOTM and robbing a bank with only a banana. The first step, is getting out of the room. There's a window, which I open and lean out of. The room is many stories above the ground.

I decide to jump out. I do a couple of RCs to make extra extra sure I'm dreaming, then slither out and fall. I expect it won't hurt and, though I do feel a definite crunching sensation when I hit the ground, there's no pain. I get up but big black spots start appearing in my vision. I attempt to stabilize but become convinced that my IRL body is moving with my dream body. I decide to hold on for a DEILD. That's the last I remember.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

big dreaming night again, not lucid though:

00:00 Wednesday 2014-08-13

00:30 pre-bedtime: day memory review, set intention for the night
00:57 bedtime

07:51

+ watching from high DO position a video of us moving back into our old house. My wife and I are watching this as a fond memory. The next-door neighbors are moving in too at the same time, so our moving van can't pull exactly in front of our house, it must stay out in the street double-parked in front of the neighbor's house. Neighbor's house is to the right, ours to the left. View starts out to the right of neighbor's house looking forwards/left to our house, and finishes up pointing to the right looking back at the moving van. I see our old dog come out on to the sidewalk and visit the neighbor's dog, they're sniffing each other's noses and are really happy. I see a former manager of mine bringing a load in. Then I see myself skinny in jeans bringing in a load, I've really lost some weight living in that other place for a while.

+ setting up in a new house, I'm a teen, walking through small but very ornately decorated rooms, ask my "dad" in the office where I can set up my computer, he says do it in my room, mom will tell me where to do it. The desks are like 18th century large ornate wooden desks with cusioned wooden chairs, there are little nooks throughout the cramped rooms.

+ (all DO) I see a woman lying back on a medical examination table.

Spoiler for NSFW:

She's naked and her legs are spread, her knees are up and feet are down on the table, and I see a very large penis come up from beneath the table and penetrate her fully, I sort of do a double take and see this again. My view transitions to being inside the woman I have a view of her cervix from inside the womb (a little pink sphincter extending a bit inside from the wall) it's a large industrial setting with lots of scaffolding and things moving around on assembly lines, not fleshy. I think the woman's been tricked and doesn't realize that the physician's attendant put his on penis into her and is having sex with her, instead of her getting the artificial insemination procedure she wanted. I look at her cervix and see a penis tip poke through, and then streams of artificial insemination semen shoot out into her, not from the penis, but from a tube on the side.

. This is an artificial insemination procedure. Afterwards, a female attendant leads the woman through a hallway under a series of round lights/indicators, the attendant is shining a flashlight/tool up at t he indicators, and they're lighting up in response (showing the pathway to the waiting room?) as they walk by. In the waiting room there is a buffet of wine, and there are physicians there, a group of them. The woman says she hopes for twins, and the physicians berate her for this wish. The indicator lights (are numbered?) and seem to indicate which of the insemination procedures were successful. The attendant says they do a lot of procedures so at least one will work, I imagine a tool repeatedly entering the patient making a "deposit." The attendant is the woman's advocate, and then a male advocate arrives as well, he's a young man with blonde hair, very energetic. Leaving the waiting room I see the bottle of wine up close, the label has been partially scratched off. They move to another room and sit and I think about these two advocates for the patient.

+(f) some NSFW time with a "male toy".

Spoiler for NSFW:

Is is in the shape of a female mouth with a tongue extending down, the tongue looks like a ladybug: circular with black spots on it, I rub my (ahem) on this "tongue". Later the part hanging down seems to be a woman's hand with fingers.

+ suicide bomber gas truck/driver in the garage of my childhood home, it's night outside. The driver is standing outside the driver window against the wall of the garage and I'm in the middle of the garage looking in the passenger side window of the cab of the truck, (I'm holding a shotgun pointed at the window?), the guy has left out his final meal of fast food, there are lots of styrofoam take-out containers sitting open with chicken strips, fries, and lots of bright sticky/sweet sauces. I eat some of his fries, dipping them into one of the sauces. Someone up on the street distracts him and the truck is pulled back out to the street above the house. He intends to drive the truck into the house to blow it up, I think what if there is no spark/explosion and the house just gets broken from the truck driving into it, will he be satisfied?

+ Our family is in a waiting room in an institution with a lot of other people. We're meeting/helping out our foster/adopted daughter. The authorities announce that only one member from each group may enter, so my wife goes in. After some time people are milling around and everybody goes in, I go in too. I see our "daughter" come out, she is a late teen with very pale white skin (not sickly, just no sun, like a redhead can be), she is wearing a wide-brimmed hat, she's walking from my left to my right. I lean over and under her brim to give her a fatherly kiss on the cheek, but because of the hat I get her on the lips instead, we're both a bit embarrassed.

+ Sitting in a room with Aimee Teegarden (:heart: :heart, I'm preparing to go to the dance, I'm father-aged and she's a teen (not my daughter though), she says she's sick so won't go to the dance. I'm bummed because I wanted a dance with her, I see her long, sexy legs. I ask her to take off one of my socks at least, I'm trying to get them off. She moves across the room and I see her enter a deep sexy kiss with my son, no way can we leave those two alone, I know where that's leading to. She's behaving a bit loopy and I see her pouring something from a little (buiding-shaped) piggy bank into her drink. I think it's alcohol or drugs.

+ The secretary wants to hire the applicant (who is dark skinned and has a massive bust) immediately, and jumps for joy saying "I get to play with boobies!" and shows the applicant the work salad bar on the other side of the large table from me, with another coworker

+(f) I'm taking pictures of a guy the tablet is not behaving correctly, I see the pictures of this guy in a few different places

+ In school sitting down at open desk, my desk is taken, I think if someone tells me I took their desk I'll say mine was already taken. FF comes and sits down in the column of desks next to me, and it looks like he's going to sneeze on me, I say "I can not get sick!" and hold up my elbow/arm in front of his face to block the sneeze. We need to open our books to a particular story for reading but I can't find the story in my book which turns into a pile of little books.

+ We're shooting photon torpedoes at the enemy ship, 3 groups of tree, each group hits, I see the blue shining torpedoes fly straight and pass through the hull of the enemy ship (no explosion), the enemy ship starts to sink, we're walking through hallways preparing for battle, we realize we don't know anything about the enemies, we've never encountered their race before (little green men), we must build up our weapons and resources before the enemies arrive here on this planet. I see some rifles lying around they're old-time looking made from lots of wood. I'm setting up a revolver, I'm going to construct a candle and light it on the hammer so that when it hits the pin the flame will ignite the bullet and fire it, I look for approval for this idea. I reach in to extinguish the wick which leads into the cylinder I lick my fingers and pinch the fuse to extinguish it, but I see the flame has spread and now the whole gun is on fire. The emergency services has reached the enemy ship and is towing it now by us. The enemies taunt is as they drive by in a jeep, our captain says he's been preparing for this meeting (for a week?) and is ready. They drive over some of our supplies.

Where was this recall when I needed it in the competition?