memorable

Hi everyone.. has been a really long time - over a year actually since I made any new posts, I would guess most the people here now are new users who wouldnt remember me, but to those that do.. Hi!!

Some dreams just cannot go unrecorded.. It should be noted that i am currently using nicotine patches, because I am trying to kick my filthy habit! (BOOOOO!!!) and that they have dramatically changed my dreams, made them more vivid, more memorable and more realistic- However.. I wouldnt advocate using them for this purpose as all you will end up with longterm is a nasty nicotine addiction and an empty wallet.
And so to the dream!
I was in a bar, propped at one of those really high tables, distracting myself from looking like id been stoodup by digging through my bag as if i was looking for something, every item in my bag was purple( its my dream colour- always has been) I do that for a while and finally cease, reaching instead for a pack of playing cards from the other end of the table, i open the pack, fan them out and all of them are purple too, standard cards in purple tones. I unfan them as if to put them away and they set alight, I dropped them, stamped on them, when i look back up my friend has arrived. We sit and I tell her about my day- that I knew of a warehouse full of designer goods that some local mob has been whispering about doing over. I suggest to her that if we followed behind them we could maybe grab anything they dropped without them seeing us,and just skim a little cream off the top of their hard work,she is hesitant but agrees and we set a time and place.
The dream skips to the warehouse and i am sat outside on a parking barrier swinging my legs. It is pitch black yet I can see very clearly.Im getting annoyed- she is clearly late. I sigh and am about to give up when I hear footsteps, I cup my hand around my eyes as if there is sun and there appeared two men- they were actually the gay couple off that show "modern family"- kind of irrelevent but made me go "huh?" They dont see me sat there and walk straight into the warehouse via a side door with no caution or hesitation. I wait a few more minutes mostly in hope that they might be the ones doing the place over and that surely they would grab more than they could carry and drop something on their way past. She arrives, making no excuses and just waves at me to follow her through the same door, i try and dissuade her and she grabs me and says " no the police are here this is the only way we can go" I follow her in and we are suddenly in a dark, festering maze, a heavy smell of flesh making us each gag as we slowly walked, clung to each other, trying to breathe through our mouths, trying to breathe at all at one point. Suddenly we stop and freeze, she screams i just kind of stare and feel nothing much. in a puddle of blood and guts, were the two men, their bodys mangled and kind of wrapped around each other, one head severed and propped on the others chest, the other head had been seemingly flung to the other side of the tunnel. Momentarily one of their mothers appeared and did that painful scream you often hear on movies when a mother looses their kid. But quickly she vanished again and so did we.
random dream kicked in: I was jumping on a bed with my neice, the dog jumped on the bed too, we were laughing, the room was purple the bed was purple , everything else was black. we jumped and then everything vanished but me. I cooked mac and cheese and then i was in jail.
I was walking through town and had stopped to look in a travel agents window. I turned around there was my sister in law, who happened to be in the police and in full uniform,i greeted her warmly she looked at me cold, said she was arresting me for the murder and dismembering of two police officers, I tried to explain to her that I had nothing to do with it, We were just there and saw the bodys but was nothing to do with us, she didnt believe me, and led me to the police car. I got in and my friend was already in the back. She couldnt get her seatbelt done up. the police officer helped her. My friend and i smirked at each other,we were scared but kind of excited, new experiance? We stopped at a cafe, the officer got out,her hair was purple. she went inside and we could see her on the payphone through the window. she was smiling and chatting calmly. my friend and i got our storys straight..for some reason the story we agreed to was chalk and cheese to what id dreamed about in first half but it seemed to be what we both believed had happened- that we had been in the warehouse trying on costumes for a play and a woman with a knife had welded it at us and then killed the men. The police woman came back out, calmly got in the car and drove each of us home, my friend first and then me. My brother knew all about it when i got in and i assumed thats who she had called. he laughed and joked about it as if it was no big deal. he was unphased completely and made me beans on toast in seconds and placed it infront of me. I confided in him that i was starting to think maybe it was a dream and we hadnt really seen anything,he informed me it was not and reccomended i sleep as tomorrow i would likely be arrested again. i obliged and instantly appeared in my bed i closed my eyes.
I woke up then.. and had to pinch myself that it was all just a dream, I was so glad it was, i did my usual (actual) routine, brushed teeth, put kettle on, oh my brothers here " morning" he said " you look happy" i said "sure why not" he then mentioned prison and i cried. i honestly believed i was awake and in reality, i was horrified that i had " really experianced it all" I paced all day waiting for the police to come get me, I kept repeating over and over " it feels like it was all a dream, i dont think it even happened? am i going mad?" various sentances along those lines. the waiting period.. actually felt in my dream like hours and hours of pacing. It was awful.
Then suddenly ( thanks to my very bouncy puppy and very noisy alarm clock) I actually did wake up, and for many minutes laid and stared and tried to rationalise it and fathomed that now i really was awake and yes it was all a dream, It did take quite some time to be certain of it though.
I wouldnt say my dream was particuarly fascinating in content but it is the first time that within a dream i have "woke up and said oh it was a dream" and this was definitly one of my best flowing and memorable dreams, and filled with details and consistency.
Also please excuse any bad spelling or grammar.. my objective was to get it down as fast as possible so i didnt forget any parts. Im sure i probably did forget some though.

All of my teeth fell out except one leaving me feeling extremely concerned as to how I was going to chew food with only one tooth.

I'm really excited because I had a terrific LD where I completed the advanced task for the month, and then had a "date" with a certain velvety voiced potions master hehe. But I was tortured first by a DEILD Demon. here's the story:

I saw Chris off to school in real life at 7:15 then went back to bed. I fell asleep and had some non-lucids that I don't remember. I woke up around 9:30 and was really groggy, so went immediately into some HI. Well sounds actually. I was lying on my side, and could hear voices in the room that I knew weren't really there. Then I felt the WILD vibrations, and felt the DEILD Demon "spoon" me from behind. As usual, I could feel him against my body, and his arms wrap around me, and took each of my hands. And it would be a romantic feeling, except he was growling. Like a mad dog! It was horrible. AND I had major sleep paralysis, and I almost never have sleep paralysis. I usually DEILD, and the dream chaining happens so fast I usually skip SP, or it's really brief and I barely notice it. But this time was different. I kept trying to wiggle, and press my butt against his crotch to have a little fun. But everytime I made any movement, it was so sluggish from the paralysis, and it would make him growl even louder. It was so scary because he was right behind me, and the growling was in my ear. I didn't want to piss him off too much, because I've had DEILD Demons bite me before. Plus I figured if I endured all this, I would eventually slip into a lucid. I went through several cycles of feeling vibrations, then the demon, growling at me if I tried to move, then I would partially wake up. I remember thinking to myself "I can't wait until I get lucid and hop out of my bed and this fucker will be gone!"

FINALLY I woke up in my bed, but this time I was lying on my back. I got up, feeling that dreamy lucid feeling. Then my son came into the room, looking about 3 years younger than usual, and I knew I had already taken him to school a few hours earlier. I followed him out of my room, and willed his hair to turn blonde, then neon green. Lol, I just had to be sure I was lucid. When we got to the living room, I got so excited because the lucidity felt really strong, not like I was about to lose it or go blind. I saw a mirror and looked in it for the heck of it. I looked like me of course. I widened my eyes and got really close, and the irises went all green and sparkly as usual. I looked at Chris and said "I gotta remember what it was that I wanted to do!" I couldn't remember the basic task, but I remembered the Pegasus task! So I went out the front door, and it looked just like a block on Swiss Avenue. There were fancy cars rolling by, and some people on horseback. I also saw a few horses with noone on them. I thought to myself that I could easily turn one of these horses into a Pagasus. So I went to this brown quarter horse and got on top of his back. I told Chris to wait in the front yard (he had already turned into a passive DC, you know, just kinda there. Which is good because I don't want to freak out and lose lucidity if I see something bad happen to my son, DC or not). So I told this horse very nicely, that he needed to grow some wings so we could fly around. He sprouted these small, triangular wings with brown feathers that matched his coat. I pet his mane and said that we're not going to be able to get off the ground with those. So he started flapping them, and the wings grew with each flap. He started to trot down Swiss, flapping the whole way, until it turned into a gallop and we took off into the air! It felt just like I would have imagined. I guess it helps that I've ridden horses IRL, so my subconscious didn't have to invent too much. We rose above the trees, but didn't go much higher than that. This is the moment where I gave him a name, BUT I FORGOT IT It was something cool and Mythological, like Orpheus or something. Or it might have been Bobby. At any rate, we flew parallel to Swiss for a minute or so, then circled around and came back. I didn't want to go for too long, because I wanted to do other things, so I leaned forward to make him land. I'm really impressed that I didn't get vertigo like I usually do when I fly alone in LDs. I think I just felt more grounded because I was sitting on a horse. Well, Pegasus Still, I didn't get those woozy butterfly feelings in my gut, so I'm super happy about that. We landed in front of the house and I patted the Pegasus's butt. His wings shrunk back down to nothing and he just walked off and rejoined some horses on Swiss like it had never happened. What an obedient guy, I couldn't have asked for a more tame Pegasus.

I saw Chris still in the yard. I said "Did you see that Chris!!" He said "Yeah!" We went back inside and I got excited again, because my lucidity wasn't going anywhere. What a treat! I paced around, trying to remember the other main thing on my list. To get some Snape loving. Teehee I know, I'm a goober. So I told Chris that I'm expecting someone over for a date so he needed to go to bed. Even before I finished saying that, I heard a knock at the door!. Chris disappeared into his room, and I went back to that same mirror and fixed my hair. But it was lucid magic: I just moved my hands around my head without touching a hair, and it all just piled on top of my head in a loose and sexy bun, with little ringlets trailing down my collarbone. Sweet. I looked at the window by the front door, and could see the silhouette of Severus Snape, peeking in to see if anyone was there. Impatient much? I went to the door and opened it, looking at my hands on the way, just in case. It really and truly looked like him. Normally I have to fix stuff but not this time. He said hello and embraced and kissed me. His voice was spot on. He did get kinda raunchy though. He sat down, whipped it out and demanded that I perform oral sex. I was obedient of course. After a moment he did start to slowly vanish away. Noooooooooo. So this is where I would normally shout and scream and stomp, trying to actively strengthen the lucidity, but this time I tried something different. I don't know why, it just came to me. I hugged him really hard and said "Say something!" My ear was pressed against his chest, and he said, in those rich velvety tones "It's ok, I'm still here" and I could feel his entire body return to its normal self. Kinda hard to describe. It was really vivid though, I remember the feeling of my face buried in thick black robes, and how his entire chest vibrated when he spoke, just like I always imagined it would be. Fuck this is a long post. Anyway, I resumed the you-know-what, and he started making these really hot grumbly groaning noises. Like, he was so turned on by what I was doing, he stopped me and decided to go for the gold. He pushed me down on a couch, and spread my legs apart. I was wearing jeans and he didn't bother taking them off. Or taking his clothes off. Somehow, magically, he just created a hole in the crotch of my jeans (damn I'm getting all bothered again just typing this). Talk about easy access hahaa! What a wizard. So he went to town on me (I'm trying not to be so x-rated here), grunting and groaning in that gravely voice the whole time. That's some hot shit right there I gotta tell you what. I came in like 10 seconds. He made a sound like he did too, but the dream was fading. I guess I was done hehe. He just kinda collapsed on me. I was touching a piece of the fabric of his black cloak, and rubbing it between my fingers when I woke up. And I woke up with a SMILE.

This is a fun dream I had last year. It's important to me because the colors I saw were amazing, and I've often hoped to have another dream that replicates this ability. I think it would be useful for identifying what things bother me, and maybe why.

Sunday, May 8th, 2011 – Mothers Day

The only dream I can remember was a very vivid and intriguing one. I dreamed that I went to the grocery store and when I walked in I felt a sick fear, and left immediately. I am pretty sure I was shaking and fumbling through the parking lot to my car. A guy maybe a little bit older than me but whose face I couldn’t make out follows me out of the store and asks me if I am alright. I said, “Yeah, I am fine” to which he replies, “Are you spiritually inclined?” I step back, closer to my car and reply, “Sometimes I can sense things, but I can’t see anything without help.” He reaches out and grabs my arm pulling me close to him and says, “You can see things with help? Let me help you.” And when he pulls me close he pressed my back against him and wraps his arms around my chest, then bends over so his head is against the left side of mine, bent to look down, with his eyes closed. I close my eyes as well, and he tells me to open them. When I do, all the people in the parking lot suddenly look like I am seeing them through heat vision. It’s amazing. Everyone has a small red spot in the center of their chests, then the color fades to mostly yellow all over with thin borders of orange or green around the outside. Some have more green than yellow, but they all have a small red center, then lots of yellows, greens, and oranges. When I look down at my own arm it is yellow, then a slight green, then a blue glow seems to radiate from behind it. I ask the man how he could tell I was spiritually inclined and he says the blue glow gave it away. Then he lets go of me, grabs my hand, and leads me back to the grocery store. He stops just inside the door, then takes me into his arms so “see” once more. This time there are a few people who are all red and no green, yellow, or orange. He tells me the people in all red are going to do something very bad, and they must be the reason the store triggered my psychic alarms. I start trembling again because the store is so overwhelming, so we go back out to the car and I notice the sun is low in the sky like it is about to set. I ask the man if he would show me more because it is something I have never seen or known before. The man tells me that my spirit guide should have already taught me all of this, but when I shake my head he asks where I am going next. I tell him I have a few more stores to hit and ask is he’d like to come with me. He agrees and we get in the car and drive. I don’t remember much about the car ride, just that while at the stop light in front of Chili’s he puts his hands on either side of my head then closes his eyes and suddenly I can see trees and grass in a sideburn glowing all orange and red with yellow borders. He tells me the pollution from all the cars and things are making them the angry, hurt color. Then we stop at the mall and the sun set has dropped below the horizon and everything is in twilight. We sit on the grass near the mall entrance and then he takes the liberty of lying down and putting his head in my lap. He tells me he is happy to find someone to share his gift with. Then he starts telling me more things about the colors that I thought were so amazing, but now I can not remember what they were. I said something about how amazing it all is, and he looks up at me and I can see his face for the first time. He’s very attractive and looks a bit like the guy from the movie “Good Luck Chuck”. Looking up at me he smiles and says, “Welcome to religion. It is amazing.” Then he asks me to attend an Avenged Seven Fold concert, and I decline, so he asks me to go to the Carolina Rebellion Concert with him, But I decline again telling him I am married. He says he wants to keep in touch with me and show me more, and I agree that I want to learn more. He asks me if I’d mind eating with him before we call it a night. I accept then the dream gets blurry because C (my daughter) wakes me up. In the blurry parts I suddenly decide to run through the mall and separate from him. Then, I go to the car but instead of it being my car it is my husbands Camaro and I keep fishtailing and spinning out every time I turn it. Then I wake up for good.

I still don't full understand his statement, "Welcome to religion, it is amazing." but the general conclusion I've come to is that religion is just another word for a very strong set of beliefs. Perhaps he was trying to tell me that if I believe in what I'm trying to do, my results will be amazing?

After a dry spell for pretty much exactly 2 weeks I finally had a lucid, and a pretty long and awesome one as well.

The dream starts with me standing on some balcony, suddenly I have a very strong strange feeling in my mouth and some of my teeth are lose, a moment later when I was looking into the mirror most of my teeth came crumbling out and I was stressed out wondering what the hell was going on. But I did an RC, I couldn't breathe, or so I thought but I kept checking as hard as I could and in fact I could breathe, so I got lucid and forget and ignored the stuff about my teeth immediately.
I remembered how I was breathing through my pinched nose last time while I was underwater (Icy pit) and I had the strong desire to repeat that, I closed my eyes shortly and something strange filled me, I opened them and thought and said "Water!" with a strange intonation and the whole room immediately started to fill up really fast in front of my eyes. It also was an borderless change to an completely different building since I changed the location itself, still underwater of course I've been swimming around for a while and then decided to go to the surface to try flying out which worked without problems. I've been flying around this building (it seemed to be slightly underground, there were a lot of things floating around, even a bag of whales), and decided to try summoning a Spytfire (Spaceship from the X3 games) but because somehow I didn't do it instinctively and strong enough I only summoned a very basic chassis, I worried about wether I’d recall the shape correctly. I decided to exit the building, the windows which were up top led outside into a city apparently in the middle of spring. Then there’s a small gap, something about a shard of glass and showering on the street removed my lucidity for a moment but I regained it pretty fast (though unfortunately at this point I already forgot about the things I wanted to do outside). I tried advanced flying into the sky (which looked beautiful) but somehow it didn't work properly, I could only get a few meters and started to grab and hold something invisible, as I pulled down the sheets a big puppet like thing revealed itself and I kinda think it was responsible for the fact I couldn't fly (it also had a name, something with John). I just took it apart piece by piece and made some of the DCs around hostile with that. But even though I still couldn't fly properly I was far away from getting myself catched by a few normal DCs, so I went around a bit to find another place to fly but woke up then.

I think the real reason for me being unable to fly at the end of the dream was that the dream wasn’t stable enough anymore, if just I wouldn’t have forgotten to stabilize. Still this dream once again broke my records in terms of detail and length for lucids.

Black means non lucid
Orange means sem lucid
Blue means lucid
Red means dream character talking
Green means notes

Got it? Great! Now, you all know what to do. Enjoy!!!

Dream #1 The meeting.

Im in some corporate building wearing my suit, sitting at a round table with a bunch of different mixtures of people wearing suits. There was Natalia sitting next to me nodding her head, listening to this Asian man who looks like he was the leader of the group. He is talking about something to do with stocks goin up or down or something like that. I tell him, "Excuse me sir, can i run to the rest room for a sec"? Sure, but uh hurry back ok? We need to discuss our arrangments. Oh ok it will only take a second.

Bathroom break.

Im doin my business at the urinal. After i finish i wash my hands and look in the mirror. Hmm...my hair seems to be looking a bit different, mmm..its probaly nothing i say.

Im back at the meeting, and take my seat next to Natalia. I reach in my pocket and pull out my hawk coin totem. Rubbing it listening to the man talk. (Natalia talking) Don't you know what today is??? Mmm...not really. Wait a sec...what is today!? (everybody is staring at me) How did i get here? (The asian guy starts talking) If you do not know what today is then why you show up, hm? Look, continue on without me i got to take care of something. Natalia, c'mon lets go.

Dream #2 What now?

Im now walking with Natalia down a crowded street. What mission did we do last? Well, we took care of the biggest threat so far. But we gotta search for that breifcase with the valuble information, that will lead us to who's creating these false documents of your records. I got to find Roselyn. Who? Roselyn. I had a talk with her in my last dream, and told her i'd offer her the job. How do you know she's the right candidate? Trust me, she's good at what she does.

Dream #3 The casino.

Im asleep on a bus now, And wake up to the sound of the bus driver saying. "Hey, c'mon off the bus this is the last stop. I get off the bus and walk into this casino. Slot machines are going off, and people are at poker tables, playing roulette, black jack you name it. I go on to one of the slot machines and start playing on it. Hmm it takes quarters, ok. I reach in my pocket and pull out my hawk coin and look for some more change, and put my totem back in my pocket. (A failed missed reality check) I decide to get up and leave since im out of change, Im not using my totem in that slot machine.

(Dream switches)

Dream #4 The woman on the bus.

Asleep on the bus again. I wake up, This time next to a hispanic woman. (Hispanic woman talking) Excuse me sir, but did you mind going with me somewhere? I want to introduce you to someone. Uh..ok sure. (God i can be so naive and too nice at times) We get off the bus, and we are now walking down this urban community. (Looks rough out here) We walk past this house, and its these thuggish looking guys shooting dice on the porch. I nod at one of the guys, a few nod back. We now get to this house, feels familiar this house. Have i been here before?(Hispanic woman talking) Well here we are. Roselyn you here? (a girls voice) Yea im in my room. (Hispanic woman talking) come on out here, i got someone i'd like you to meet. (My heart is beating fast where have i heard that name before??? (The young lady walks out) (Roselyn talking) ah, so your stalking me now huh? (Hispanic woman talking) Now now Roselyn be nice. I foget what else the woman says but me and Roselyn sit at a table. So, she's your mom. Mmhmm. Why are you here? is it about something because i have something to do. Did you and me meet before? I get the strangest feeling that we met before. Its a small world who knows. Look, forgive me if i seem too foward but. Do you ever have really vivid dreams, sometimes so vivid that, you can't tell if your awake or asleep? Oh yea. I get dreams like that all the time. Do you keep a totem? No whats that? (I explain to her the nature of a totem and what it represents)

(Dream switches)

Final dream: The briefcase.

Im in a car with a bunch of men in suits. We are loading up ammunition, and getting ready to exchange a briefcase. (Some guy who looks like robert downey jr. talking) Alright gentleman. Lets not make any mistakes here you got it? (We all nod our heads) We get out the car, and pull up to some warehouse to meet with some other guys to make an exchange for the briefcase. One guy is wearing a grey suit (looks possibly black or mixed) he walks up to us holding a briefcase. (Guy with briefcase talking) Alright at the same time, you open yours, then i open mine you got? (Im now holding a briefcase getting ready to make the exchange) Open yours first. (I open it) There was a note that said.. YOU LOSE!!! I toss the briefcase at him and grabbed the one he had. (Shots are now being fired) Im running now holding the briefcase, while shots are being fired in my direction. Im running down a back alley while two men are chasing me. i make a right turn and try to find a place to run in to and hide. I see a door, i say. "When i walk thru this door i will be at my current home". I open the door, and im at the basement of my home. I yell for Natalia to come out. She walks down the stairs. "Where in the world hell were you"? Don't yell at me! I had to take care of a few things, since i figured you were looking for that Roselyn girl. Well? Well what? Did you find her? No. But listen we got the briefcase now. Well, open it. (I open it) Looking thru files, and records. Wow, (i see peoples names, with numbers on it) Feeling the dream closing in on me, i get one last good look at the numbers and wake up.

Notes: Too many missed reality checks from this dream. I must've really been slacking bad that week. Oh well, i got lucid but...missed too many cues. One at the casino, the bus, and, of course, Roselyn. Sucks cause i really wanted to have a adventure with that dream character. Overall i really was pleased at myself to become lucid at the beginning of this dream, and toward the end of this dream. I had this dream after WBTB at, 5:30 and woke up at 8:15 I i did a mantra before bed about, wanting to become lucid in the dream. But needed to be specific about when i wanted to become lucid. This is why it is so important to train the subconscious mind thruout the day, and during WBTB. I find that if i don't do it, then i tend to go along with whatever is happening in my dreams.

My first night after trying out vitamin B6, though I think I took it at the wrong time, at about 8pm, at least 5 hours before I actually went to bed. Seems like it worked pretty well though, as I remembered 3 dreams pretty clearly. The first was exceptionally vivid.

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15/4/12
VITAMIN B6

I'm sitting in someone's uni kitchen, with a large group of friends, all with covers watching a film and talking. A girl a few flats from me comes in, and I offer her the space next to me on the sofa, as I've started to like her quite a bit.

Within minutes, she starts to touch my leg at exactly the same time as I start to touch hers. She starts to talk about seeing people she 'likes' in dreams, though whispering the majority to me. For some reason, I tell her I don't see people I like in my dreams because they intimidate me...

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I'm playing Saints Row 2 in first person, driving relatively safely with a flatmate of mine, on the way to a mission. He mocks my driving to which I reply

"Just in case we get a driving level, I like this car"
"Do you?" he asks
"Yeah!"

In the heat of the discussion, I accidentally drive into an activity activator [which fans of the game will know stops the car dead]. Unlikely in the game, however, this causes me to shoot through the windscreen. Unharmed, but disgruntled, I get back in the car, shouting

"Why the fuck does it do that?!"

As part of the activity, we gain one star of police notoriety, and helicopters arrive. I can't be bothered with this right now, so I exit the activity from a drop-down menu that appears in front of me.

We set off, now driving a Bear, but a bug causes a rogue police car to chase and shoot a nearby innocent driver. More cars get involved, and we all drive through a rocky tunnel to a dead end. I get out, letting the police and innocent drivers sort it out between themselves.

I proceed to slip through a crack in the wall to the starts of the mission, where I find a gangster with a shit-load of futuristic equipment. A woman asks me if I've just come from Guildford [a town near where I live] like most of the other people here, for a girls birthday. A girl named Georgie C. My blood boils at hearing that name, and it takes all the strength I have to ask the woman how she knows her [checking they're not related or friends] before I describe how much I loathe that girl. She's a bitch basically, and gave my sister a really hard time a few years ago.

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I'm given a few questions on paper, which turn into a huge maths problem. I start to write out all the information given so that I can try to solve it, but it soon begins to seem like it's unanswerable.

"Fuck that!" I think, and turn over in bed, ending the dream.

#1 - Just More Nonsense [Non-Lucid]

I vaguely remember watching some concert on TV, and I could see M was in the VIP crowd, which was situated up on the stage. I was super jealous but also excited for her, and when the show ended I started texting her. At some point the reason she was there changed to be that she was seeing a movie, and now she was mad that the crowd was taking a long time to leave so she couldn't get out. Meanwhile, I'm with D and we're trying to navigate ourselves out of some parking garage where all of the cars are named after different types of wine. We end up at some club door with a line and a bouncer, and we go up to him and say that the reason we don't have hand stamps is because we were already here before they started giving them to people, so he lets us in. On the inside it was more like an airport or something, and we passed by a line of people and there were two teenage guys talking about something, and as we were walking right by them they each, in turn, said "That's retarded.", so I said it too. As we kept walking they started repeating it more, as if my continuing the chain had gotten them stuck in some kind of mind loop. When we're a ways away from them, I turn back and can still hear them saying it. I nod and say "I'm pretty happy about that." I go into the bathroom and see in a stall there's a huge stack of girls all standing on each others' shoulders, so obviously most of them are over the top wall of the stall and are just staring at me. I give them a weird look and go up to the sink, and that's all I remember after that.

#2 - Hypnotized In A Dream? [Non-Lucid]

There was some plot leading up to this in the dream, but it's hard to remember now. What I do remember is that during this I was Hayden Panettiere, portraying Claire from Heroes. (Though the plot had nothing to do with Heroes, I just remember perceiving this.) There had been some accident that happened though I'm not sure what now, and I was in some high school class. The teachers were talking about trying to hypnotize me to not remember the accident, saying they could make up some quiz that indirectly brings something up that would make me write about the accident if I still remembered it. They seated me off to the side of the classroom away from the other students, and one of the teachers knelt down in front of me. He looked me right in the eye and told me to stare at his and was talking in a really trancy voice. The crazy thing is, I think I was legitimately hypnotized by this. I know I experienced him telling me something, but I don't remember what it was. And not because it's just a hazy dream memory, like it's actually blocked out of memory by the trance feeling. Suddenly I remember being in the chair again with sort of a goofy uncaring haze over everything. I went back to my normal seat and the teachers handed out the quiz. I needed a pencil, and I looked up to say something but the girl (this girl C I've known since elementary school) sitting in front of me just smiled at me, turned around, then turned back and handed me an open salt packet. However, that was enough for me, and I went back to the quiz. I could tell that there was something that I should've known (about the accident) but I couldn't put my finger on it no matter how hard I tried, it was being blocked from my mind. Instead I just ended up writing a bunch of nonsense answers, mostly symmetrical gibberish but also things like "your acetyl choline" and "your cat classy". The answers were put up on the projector and everyone in the class was laughing, but I was still just goofy-feeling so I just laughed along with them. After that, I woke up.

04.16.2012

Kaomea as a Child???? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I put this dream first so Kaomea can hopefully see it, and the similarities between the child and her is waaaay too accurate, at least for my limited knowledge on how she looked like before.

Before I go on to remembering the dream, the reason why I'm assuming a girl that looks like Kaomea as a child, even though I don't know how she really looked as a child in waking life, is because of the red tank top she was wearing along with blue shorts.

I know Kaomea has worn a red shirt and some blue jeans, along with some red sneakers in her dreams, and probably does the same in waking life.

I'm probably in spectator mode, just seeing how things play out at an area with a lot of greenery to it. If you looked beyond the area they're at, you could see there's a large and open field, and the clouds are light gray or light blue, couldn't tell exactly.

The atmosphere seemed like this was in the late 1980s to the early 1990s (well obviously, since this could've been Kaomea as a child). It was a vivid dream, and it had that "old-school" film feeling to it. (Don't worry, Kaomea, I'm not saying you're old or anything, it's just the type of ATMOSPHERE that felt kind of weird.)


There's an adult or two supervising a group of children. The two children that popped up to me the most were a girl and a boy.

The boy was Caucasian most likely, and by the way he's smiling, I'm assuming everybody is taking some kind of group photo together.

He's really ready to get his picture taken, and I think they had to move around a bit, so I guess they were testing to find out the ideal order of who goes behind who and such for the photo.

Now for the girl. She had fairly long hair, and the children here are probably around the age of 4-7? She looked like she was from Hawaii like Kaomea is in right now.

Her skin tone was a little bit darker than the skin tone I normally see Kaomea in, but only slightly. She's wearing a red tank top with some fluffy extensions near her shoulder, well, it's not that fluffy, but it was fancy looking enough for me to pay attention to her.

I think she was wearing blue shorts, and probably red sneakers as well, presuming whoever dressed her would want her shoes to match with her tank top.

After one of the adults and the children move around for a little while to find the ideal positions to stand, sit, or crouch on, I get a zoomed perspective on the child that looks like Kaomea.

She has this sort of mad pout to her face, as if she doesn't want to be part of the photo....LOL, it was so hilarious! xD

Anyway, it was kind of cute seeing her like that. (in fact, I was just putting my hands over my face and shaking my head and going "awwwwww" )

Then I hear a random voice that said how she would like a certain someone someday? I didn't know what that meant, but I'm assuming who she likes now....but it could be someone else entirely different.

I can't remember much after that, I was just focusing on the girl who could've been Kaomea as a child.

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04.16.2012

Moving Away (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm in a random house, and I have my laptop with me inside of a dark room. I didn't know that me and my father were going to move as yet.

There's a T.V. flashing, but I didn't pay attention to what was showing most of the time. I get out of the room, and I go to the garage of this random house, and I see my father with a vehicle that has this large attachment to it.

It's like a mini red truck attached to a Jeep or something, and it had a brown color to it. The driveway itself was kind of weird, a small tree was in the middle of it, and there's a really small dirt slit going parallel to the driveway's path.

I thought it would prevent my father from moving this weird mini red truck attachment he had for another vehicle, but after looking on how it's structured, it wasn't going to hit the tree at all. Oh, and the truck itself was probably a normal red Ford truck.

There were also random people coming on the driveway, some were merely passing through, and then there's some that stop in the middle of the driveway and just look at me or at the garage.

I remember there being a lady with copper red or burnt orange hair. Her visage wasn't appealing at first, and the fact that she looked depressed kind of bothered me, seeing as she's one of the people just standing in the middle of the driveway.

She's wearing a black dress, and it stops near the top region of her thighs as well.

I can't remember anything else from that dream.

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04.16.2012

Pharynx/Larynx (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm in a lecture apparently, but the room itself is way too short for it to be a decent science lecture. In fact, it seemed that either I'm the only student here, or there were a few people behind me that I didn't pay attention to.

I was listening to a lecturer declare something about how it's important to remember some figure he has on the projection screen. The room is dark, so the only think shining is the screen, so I paid attention and got something out to write on to copy what's on the screen.

I believe he was talking about something about knowing which part represents the Pharynx and which part represented the Larynx. I think he wanted us to even draw the structure of it (I didn't even remember what a Pharynx and a Larynx were in waking life until I checked that it's related to the throat).

I'm drawing what he's pointing us to draw, but it doesn't look anything like what I saw what those parts were in waking life, but I blindly draw and label them down.

It seemed like there were extensions that looked like veins on these parts, and for some reason, I decided to look a little bit more on how they looked like so that I could draw out more of the vein-like structures.

I think the dream shifts, but I'm in the same room, and someone is talking to me one-on-one. I can't remember how they looked like at all, seeing as the room is still dark. They were giving me some transparent object.

It looked like it was some dried up gel to preserve something that was inside it. A message inside of it said (and damn it, this is getting ANNOYING now...)

"You can still pass! But you need to go to the SI Sessions!"

(SI Sessions are short for "Supplemental Instruction".....and that's basically free tutoring that the University gives here. It's pretty helpful, but like the meaning says, it's "Supplemental"....meaning it's not wise to actually rely only on it).

After reading it, I wasn't really surprised about what it was trying to tell me. I think I had thoughts of it either being Biology, seeing as it's only of the only SI sessions I go to other than the Chemistry one.

(I don't know why it would suggest I do that since I go to both when it's appropriate....like I wouldn't go to one after we took a test, since those sessions would be cancelled because they wouldn't know what's going to be covered if we just took an exam....

I thought it could've been for my Political Science class, but again, I didn't see how that could be it seeing as the material I was looking at on the screen was related to Biology in general).

The dream shifts to where I'm outside now, and this area feels like an abstract of where I live because there's a black road in the middle, and it seems I'm sitting down on a brown bench with someone.

The person is on the other side, not next to me. I didn't really pay attention to them that well, and can't remember how they looked like since I had my face down somewhere else.

They were talking to me about some kind of offer, but I can't remember what. They obviously wanted me to stay a bit longer and think about it, but I'm still a bit on shifting towards rejecting it, even though I'm having feelings that I should accept it.

I'm assuming it's something that's a big deal, especially if I'm still there worrying about accepting or denying, but I just don't know what the hell they're offering me!

Then I decide to get up, and I cross the black road, and to my right, there's a light brown dumpster that's about 3-4 feet away from me. Behind it was a bicycle that looks like my own in waking life, and I think there's a black motorcycle next to it as well.

Obviously, I go with the black motorcycle, and it looks pretty nice too. (I wonder if that could've been the motorcycle that Kaomea rides in her dream? Or maybe it was the same motorcycle I rode a while back in another dream where I was riding on a snake-y sidewalk that seemed to direct me in possibly finding Alyzarin? Then again, those dreams happened probably a month or two before this one...)

As soon as I get on the vehicle, the Cowboy Bebop Ending music plays, and I'm surprised that I was passively listening to the music, even though there wasn't anything external in waking life that could've transcended to this dream.

(I like the song, but how it played as soon as I got on the motorcycle kind of bothered me when I typed this dream out)....Obviously a song like that means something depressing was going on.

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04.16.2012

Obama and Homeless Tents? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I believe I see President Obama walking in snow, and it was snowing very hard. I don't think he's even wearing a jacket, just a white dress shirt, blue tie, and black pants most likely.

He heads towards a green tent, and it seems there's some activity inside of it. He crouches down and goes in, and I believe for a half a second, I was Obama in first person view?

Someone inside of the tent crawls out and shows Obama what's inside the tent.

That's all I remember.

So... my dreams of the titanic returned,again not surprising!
However the only parts that I remember are the deck,railings and being stood next to a lifeboat. The only other aspect of interest was that looking at the moon, it suddenly split in two,gained a face and began to sing,not unlike the moon in the film Moulin Rouge. I woke around 6 this morning remembering everything but not wanting to get up and write things down soo..i resolve to keep a journal next to my bed from now on!I know my dream was semi-lucid,although the memory of it has now been wiped!

Black means non lucid
Orange means semi lucid
Blue means lucid
Red means dream character talking
Purple means possible shared dream person
Green means notes

You know the drill. As always, enjoy!

Dream #1 Walking down the highway.

Im walking down a highway on the sidewalk, a bunch of cars are passing me by. I noticed a billboard with a list of movies. (i forgot the list of movies that were listed)

Dream #2 Paper or plastic?

Im now in a supermarket,with this elderly russian man. He looked to be in his 40's or 50's. I was helping him shop for things such as Pickles, eggs, bread, milk, and prunes. The casier looks at us and says...paper or plastic? Plastic (i say)

Dream #3 Dream cue from the Hawk.

Im riding a motorcycle (don't have one in real life) holding a yellow flag racing against other people. (im guessing we had to set the flag down at some random location) I hear a high pitch whistle and look up at the sky, ITS A HAWK! I stop in the middle of the road and i noticed, im all alone. I look up at this sign, posted on a billboard it read...(FOR LET HE WHO HAS EYES SEE, AND LET HE WHO HAS EARS HEAR. MY CALL WILL AWAKEN THE HEARTS OF THOSE WHO SEEK THE TRUTH) Hmm..I reach in my pocket and pull out my totem. I look around how did i get here? what did i do a hour ago??? Ah, im asleep in my bed right now! Im rubbing my totem, the dream snaps in focus. Im focused, i put it back in my pocket and decide its time to have some fun.

Having fun with mirrors.

I take my finger, and make a mirror in the air in front of me. i turn around for 5 seconds and say when i turn around, i expect to see my female subconscious self. When i turned back around, it was a huge square shaped mirror. I noticed that i am no longer a male, but i am now in fact, my female counterpart. I am still my complexion, caramel skin, i have long curly hair, full lips, a slight slant to my eyes, my eyes are bigger and more of a hazel colour. With C cup breast and a bit of a curvy waist, i am now wearing a pink dress and black strappy sandals, a toe ring with a french pedicure on my feet. I look very beautiful i say to myself. I now summon a purse to put my totem inside, just in case i need to stabilize the dream a bit more. I dive thru the mirror and end up at some bar.

Dream #4 Heads or tails? Pick one.

I walk into a bar. This bikerman looks at me, i give him a dirty look. I walk up to the bar ask for a glass of wine. I spot my cousin drinking at the bar, i get up and walk over to him. Mind if i join you? Sure. Whats your name? (I try and change the subject) Don't you know who i am? Uh...nope sorry you don't look familiar. I tell him, what if i told you that with one flip of a coin, i can snap your mind into a different world. I would say you been drinking a lil bit too much of that wine baby. (I reach in my purse) I pull out my hawk coin totem. Heads? or tails? (i ask him) Lol tellin you girl that alcohol getting to yo head. I will say this one more time. Heads? or tails? Aight aight i'll play along. Heads. I flip it in the air and catch it, then look at it and show him. It landed tails. Hey wait a min...why am i in a bar? Come with me. ( i take my glass of wine with me) I take him in the mens bathroom. I sat my purse on the sink. Do you know why we are in here? Uh...no. Why are we in here? Because it is time for you to go to sleep. Huh? I slipped something in your drink while you were looking at my coin. In exactly 1 min, you will be passed out. and when you wake back up, i will explain it to you in another form got it? Wha what? WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME!? Relax. you about to go into a different layer with me. (He passes out on the floor) I look in my purse and take this white pill and drink my wine. I look in my purse to find my celphone and set my beethoven music to go off in 60 mins I set it on the bathroom sink and fall backwards to the floor.

Dream #4 A dream within a dream.

I now wake up in my 2nd home. I look around for my cousin r. R, you in here??? I walk into the bathroom and say alright when i stick my arm thru this mirror, im gonna pull out my cousin r. I take my right arm and stick it thru the mirror and pull my cousin thru it. I just had a dream that some girl with curly hair was talking to me at a bar, and..showed you this? (I hold the coin up) Yea, just like that. Wait min..how did i just get here? Because i pulled you here, and this is still a dream by the way. Whoa whoa whoa, what do you mean still a dream? Like i said your still dreaming. Na man, thats impossible! Tell me then, why are we standing here at my old house then, instead of my current house hm? I i..i don't know. C'mon, its time for your 1st lesson. Here (i hand him my totem) Look at it. Now when you wake up in the real world, im gonna test you to see if you will remember how it looked. Stare at it until It is imprinted in you brain. Yo, im dreaming!? I nod my head. Relax though..because you are getting overly excited. I can't believe im dreaming!!! (He starts fading away) I knew that was gonna happen. (I fall backwards)

Final dream: Your just a projection of my subconscious.

I wake up in the previous dream on the bathroom floor. I get up and notice, im my female projection of myself. I project back into my normal self and grab my celphone and notice i have 5 mins of lucid dreamtime remaining. I exit the bathroom and talk to random dream characters about their abilities One young boy says he can manipulate the weather. This one man said he can eat 500 slices of pizza. I then notice a interesting looking young lady who was attractive. I asked her what her abilities were, and that if she showed me something interesting, i would hire her for my next dream job. We were in a gas station, she was looking for some chips. I said you can do anything just make it unique ok? She nods. Oh, so your not much of a talker i see. well, what if i told you that your just a projection of my subconscious. I don't care. You mean you don't mind being created by me? No not at all. In fact im I want the job watch this. She begins telepathically moving everything around in the store. Not bad, not bad. (i say) Alright let me ask you a question. Ahem, whats the easiest way for me to become lucid in dreams? Pay attention to your surroundings. Oh and also try a start re entering your old homes, so you can remember how you got there in the 1st place too. And aslo if someone wants to fight you, that should increase your lucidity more. Thanx. Whats your name? Roselyn.

Hmm..Roselyn. Ok, you got the job! (Right here i here my beethoven alarm goin off) I wake up and record the dream.

Notes: Did wbtb at 5:30 am. I did my reality check with my totem for about 15 mins and headed back to bed. I woke from this dream at 7:45 am. could not fall back asleep cause of a job i had at that time. had to be there at 9:30 am. Oh and my cousin ended up remembering a dream of being in a bathroom with a woman with curly hair. hehe wonder if he knows that was me. Shapeshifted as her that whole time. Ah, me and my dreaming abilities.

Ah! Finally some time to catalog the last few nights dreams. I stayed up working and fell asleep in my street clothes I was in and out of consciousness for the earlier dreams, trying to gather the resolve to get up and actually get ready for bed. However it never came, :3_ so some parts are difficult to order correctly and there was a persisting sense of disorientation throughout. It's long but if you read nothing else of this, please read dreams 5 and 6 and comment on what you think.

April 13th, 2012

Dream 1:

I'm outside in this open park-like area [on the outskirts of a forest]. My dad and [apparently] one of my friend's dad {idr who} is there. It's day time [maybe sunny(?)] and the flat ground of the clearing is covered in short, light-green grass. Fully leaved trees are scattered about the area, their shade forming pools around their trunks {so I guess it was around noon}. I look around on the ground and see these navy-blue berries (slightly smaller and rounder than actual blue berries) pepper the the grass a few feet away from me. I'm bare foot and for some reason in a bit of discomfort from what I feel below my feet. It's feels like a multitude of small pointed things, similar to walking on a pile of twigs. I survey the earth more immediately around me. There are a few small twigs here and there but none directly underneath me. I then wonder if fire ants are the cause and again check the ground, this time with more care and alarm. A few black ants, a shade close to the navy-blue of the berries, march unorganized a few feet away. Now I'm really confused..



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Dream 2:

I'm in a car with my brother and a younger light-brown haired girl {I might know her in real life, but again I'm uncertain}. I'm on the passenger side. We pull over to the right side curb and stop at the girl's mail box. I reach my right hand out through the window and open the box for her. The head of the mailbox is the traditional half cylinder shape but its inside is anything but one would call traditional. It's a full panel of numbered buttons. She recites a long string of numbers for me to enter, "[628...--]", but I tell her to wait and that it's probably best if I weren't the one doing this because I don't want to set of her house's security alarm. She agrees. [We pull into drive way (?)}..

Day [3]:

{This dream's the fuzziest} This woman suggests to her boyfriend/husband that they should go "to their cabin in the woods". This Immediately triggers a connection to the recent, and very much unoriginal, movie title "The Cabin in the Woods" {I saw a brief glimpse of the trailer on youtube I believe}. It's vague but I know afterward the couple, and whatever company they bring, inevitably are chased down by psychos who torture/kill them etc. {essentially was just like "The Strangers", creepy masks, fall setting and everything}...





Dream [4]:

{This is another hazy part. I'm not quite sure, but I was an observer most of this} There are these people probably between 19 and their early 20s.They're looking to make a Paranormal Activity 4. Apparently, in all the movies prior in this series, the cast actually died as a result of the paranormal activity they tried to record on film. Of course at this point I'm thinking: "Okay now folks,..people DIED doing this and despite knowing this information..you do it anyway???" {I feel like if that really happened in RL, people would do what these guys were trying to anyway. Oh, humanity, common sense is no longer common } A young woman in the group tells one of the guys "that graveyard actually is haunted", as if it were local, and then continues to tell enthusiastically some experience she had there. This comment then makes me think back to a show I recently watched on psychics. A teenage boy said that he always sees this shadow man whenever he walks by a certain local graveyard and it makes his stomach hurt immensely..

Dream 5:

{Pretty sure this was a direct result of the last dream..} I'm in a living room similar to that of my old house. I'm sitting on the off-white carpet [with my legs folded under me]. My brother and our close friend, M, [and maybe another one of my best mates] are there sitting on either one of the couches or on the floor as well. My family's old, short wooden coffee table is to my left. It's half boxed in by our old love seat, long couch and single-seater couch just as they were in my prior home except the table is pushed out further away from the couches and closer to the TV. A fluffy husky-looking puppy is in the room with us. His fur is black and white. [I was just petting/playing with him] before all of a sudden the puppy starts acting strange, as if terrified, ducking under the table onto its bottom panel. He turns over on his back and starts seizing and whimpering, showing his white chest and curled white paws. I know something we can't see has a hold of him. Something dark and paranormal. I'm unsure of what to do, it's just so awful. I reach out for him saying, "It's alright, buddy..", but he jerks away, off the corner of the under panel and onto the carpet. He continues to squirm side to side crying. M and my brother are talking in urgent words, their voices overlapping in the chaos. I look behind me to see a large flat screen TV. It's displaying an all white back ground with some text in the middle of it, like a TV show title. I pay no attention to this because I'm focusing on what looks like blacker-than-night smoke, drifting out of screen view at the top right corner. I turn back to my companions and say "[I think] it's leaving". It seems whatever was attacking the dog released its grip. The small creature remains on his back but appears to be recovering. I, however, feel this overwhelmingly powerful and dark presence (very difficult to describe). I feel something start in my chest that forces its way upwards until it reaches my mouth in less than a second. I rock forward emitting resonating and blood scream. {It felt like what I can only describe as insanity..}



Dream 6:

[I wake, walk out of my room] and then slowly make my way down the hallway, dazed and still a bit disturbed. I then hear something from my right. It's a scream. It's human but unearthly. It sounds like several screams in one echoing cry. It startles me. I then hear a second scream, putting me in a state of sheer terror. I think "Oh no!! I must have fully awakened my psychic abilities and now I'm going to see dead people and life is gonna suck and--
but wait, what if I didn't wake up? What it I'm dreaming? I'm totally dreaming!". As I grab the stair case banister post and sling shot myself around to the top of the steps, I look up at the mirror directly across from me in the hall way. I think I see myself in it, but in the confused panic I can't make much sense of the blurry, dark grey figure in it. Everything's a shade of grey, not black and white, but as if it's daytime and what little light shining in from outside comes through insidiously dark storm clouds. All I can think now is "Get outside. Just get outside. Get to the front door!". I rush down the flight of stairs and fling the front door open. [Quickly closing the door behind me], I'm looking down when I take my first step onto the porch and ,at which point, I promptly close my eyes and think "Make it Fall. Wait, no! Summer!". I accidentally open my eyes as I'm rushing down the porch steps. I see grey skies and grass melancholy with patches of dead earth. I quickly close my eyes again and in a last ditch effort think "Blue skies! Happy!" but nothing changes.
I then see a mini-van in the driveway. My brother's in the driver seat. I see one of my best childhood friends, Marry, {whom I haven't talked to in years unfortunately} sitting in the back on the passenger side. My new train of logic at this point: "if my brother can't see me, then I'm dreaming. If he can, I'm awake and I'm suddenly hearing dead people". I go up to the drive side window. I wave my arms and scream his name several times, but he seems to be looking through me. He then, however, greets me as if he'd been spacing out momentarily and I let out a dramatic, "NOOOOooOOoOo!!", almost dropping to my knees {this makes me doubt my lucidity}. I then see Mary get out of the sliding door of the van and when she walks its front to the side I'm on, she's suddenly my friend M from Dream 4. I'm beyond confused and disorientated...

I was at a daycare of sorts. We kept having many recesses in which we were all supposed to play outside together. I was being strange though, and kept stealing plates from the kitchen. I would take them outside and eat them.

After chewing on pottery for a few minutes, I decided to take a nap. I laid on the grass and rested against the brick wall. Several groups of students walked past me before I managed to fall asleep.

I awoke in a dark cellar. I was in the cellar of the daycare now. I walked back up to the front lawn where the other children were playing.

Something seemed off, so I did a reality check. Indeed, I was dreaming. And of course, at that moment, everything seemed to heighten in clarity.

I had no lucid goals though. I wasn't sure what to do in this dream.

For a moment, I stood there on the street with nothing to do.

I flew up into the air and into the clouds. They were so beautiful and defined, full of life even though they were inanimate.

But no, I had done this before.

I flew back to the ground and landed on the sidewalk, still wondering how I should spend this dream.

And then it came to me. How would my dream respond if I asked for transcendence?

"Take me higher," I whispered.

Instantly, without my doing, I rose into the air.

Everything morphed around me. Not into anything new, but into hyper clarity...that's not even the right word. Everything surrounding me became a kaleidoscope pattern, but yet nothing changed at all.

"Higher" I whispered.

This soundtrack began to play and I began to move forward:



I can't exactly describe how I felt. It was similar to that of tripping - but more intense.

I was moving forward without my doing. The street ahead of me was coming towards me.

I was about to fly straight through a billboard, but I wasn't afraid. I simply passed right through.

"Higher," I whispered.

Everything began to move faster. I zoomed out of the city and in the process left my body behind.

My consciousness was now flying warp speed through the Earth (que really fucking epic music).

I was flying so fast through country roads, wilderness paths, and scenic highways that I could only perceive them as the rapid progression of pictures. A billion pictures flew past my eyes per second.

"Take me higher," I dared.

I surpassed the warp speed that I was already traveling and my consciousness was risen into the universe.

In front of me was a massive black hole. It was beautiful.



Holy shit.

And I was flying towards it at warp speed.

Could I go any higher than this?

I felt my consciousness being ripped apart as I reached the singularity.

"Higher," I whispered, at the last moment possible.

The last thing I saw was a tear in either the fabric of the universe, or the fabric that held my mind together. Or both. It pulsated orange.

I woke up in my bed at my parent's house. I felt heavy.

But this still felt like a dream.

I got up out of bed to write this in my journal. The time on the clock kept changing. I had known it all along - I was still dreaming. Yet, I was very paranoid about forgetting the last dream that had just occurred.

I ran up the stairs. My mother was washing dishes.

"What are you doing?" She asked.

That was a really good question. What was I going to do now? I felt like nothing could surpass what had just happened, and I didn't want to forget it either.

"Maybe I'm just going to sit on the porch and enjoy nature or something," I asked.

"You have a lot you need to do, you shouldn't be wasting your time right now," she scorned.

"It's a dream," I flat out told her.

"One of these days you're just going to lose it," she warned.

I rolled my eyes and ignored her and proceeded to the porch.

There was a white rose growing against the warped siding. I sat down beside it. I could feel its warmth.

I wanted to experience again what happened earlier, but every time I tried I got a blazing headache. I decided to just let it be, and woke up for real.



I just reread through that again and I have to admit that my description of that dream does not do it any justice whatsoever...

I don't remember her name. Or much about her.

I remember she was going into Marketing, me Software Engineering I told her. I held her against me, my right side with my arm holdin ber ever so close.

But it didn't work out. She broke up with me. I don't remember why but she hated me for the reason of the breakup.

It was a weird dream but full of very intense feelings.

Just to let you know, this took some of my nerve to do because my first attempt at a lucid dream ended up in a paralyzing nightmare.

This dream started off simple enough. In this dream, I was at one of the practices for my church's Easter play. The room was dark and i could barely see anything. I noticed that something was different because everyone wasn't in costume. So I think "I must be dreaming". But as soon as I was about to try out something, my alarm goes off and I wake up.

This happens three times, as I kept pressing "snooze" instead of "off" on my alarm on my phone.

The fourth time that I fell asleep, I was thrown immediately into a lucid dream, unlike the first four times. So I walk out the door of the sanctuary, and I find myself in the hallway to my old church in New Jersey. So I decide to try out some stuff.

The first thing I try to do is make something appear out of nowhere. Suddenly, an earthquake starts to shake the building and I don't know how to make it stop (I also began to think that I was on the verge of waking up because I thought I heard the faint sound of an alarm going off). So I continue with the tests regardless.

The second thing I try is some Dragonball Z things. I tried Freeza's death beam. Success. I try Krillin's Destructo Disc. Success. I begin to try the Kamehameha Wave. I get into the pose and start yelling out the name "Kaaa... meeee... haaaa... meee...." In my perspective, it look so DANG cool!!! And just when I was about to yell "HAAA!!!", my alarm goes off, thrusting me back into the real world and out of the dream world.

Couldn't get back to sleep after that. So mad...