memorable

dream starts with sexual content i skip

...i walk with the girl and we pass a meadow next to a house. she tells me she doesnt like the city. i say why not its not that bad and its kind of green and other citys are worse. we some dog babys and the mother some of them starts barking but the mother keeps them back and educate them. one of them runs at me and i kick it away. one of them is more like just a face on the ground and morphs into a butterfly. my awareness rises. we reach a canon and i get lucid doing a rc. i ask her if she wants to fly with me and start flying. i reach the ground and meet some people. they are something like superheroes? one of them has a problem with me. i fly further to a woman who greets me in a very friendly manner (maybe with a kiss?) i tell her that in the following 24h i can help her. the group of "heroes" arrives and the guy that had a problem with me pushes me with his thoughts away and laughs. i come back and remember that telekinesis is not that difficult and start concentrating and do a gesture with my hand. suddenly his face get serious and a second later he flys up 5m in the air and crashes in the ground again. i lough my ass of because it looked funny like hell.
the dream fades and i am in another dream. i do a rc and still dreaming. i find my self indoors. i phase myself slowly thru many layers of walls and rooms and wooden construction out and climb some parts. i am on a roof now and jump from roof to roof. i want to find me some icecream. i jump down and see some people that look like they sell ice on big bicycles like it is typical in mexico but everytime they come closer the just transport paint for some reason. i cant find ice and have a FA. i sit at a table eating icecream. i do another RC and again still dreaming. i get up and look out for icecream again to finish the task. i ask a young guy at a corner of a street. he tells me he doesnt have some but i tell him he should look behind him and when he does suddenly he has some icecream. i am happy and pay him some coins. its ice made out of coca cola. i continue my way and notice i am in the suburban train station. i want to get out but dont want to phase all the way out so i phase straight thru the walls and imagine to be outside and after the second wall flying thru i find myself outside. i fly up a building because i want to see the sunset. after founding a good place to be i do another handgesture to let the sun go down. i am a little out of practice so it doesnt work immediately suddenly there are one or two guys next to me and distracting me with talking shit and how it doesnt work. the sun goes down but the visuals get super bad like in dark night and i start to calm down rub my hands and focus on the dream. i tell him that for his reason i didnt notice the sunset properly. i try to get the sun up again but it doesnt work. i switch the roof and remember that the sun goes up from the opposite side so i turn around and fair enough see a nice sunrise. i jump and fly thru several roofs and found a well painted arty house. i enter thru the roof and explore the inside. there is a lot of art in the rooms. i see a woman lying in a bed and aproach her. i resist to start something and just pass into another room where i see another person sleeping i think its a boy but then it turns out to be a guy. i phase out and think about what to do next and remember Dreamers method of narrating the dream to remember it better so i think what happend so far. something happens and the dream destabilizes but this time its not getting black but white. i go into it and let it happen. everything around me spins and patterns appear a short moment of drawings. i ask a question to the dream: what to do/work? a new dreamscene appears and a guy talks with me he wants to tell me something but dont remember the word in the end he tells me something about a doctor or that i should be a dentist. im not sure about it and ask him what about physiotherapy he tells me that its possible but i wont learn to much there.
i phase into a house and i feel its mine. i enter the kitchen and eat a fresh cherry and think what to do. i feel like the dream is hell long and try to remember how fast i got lucid so that the REM might be very long. i want to meditate a little but i feel like the dream destabilize but i let it go to not forget to much about it.

A Fishy Thalmor Tale

2019, 07-30

Regular Dream - Semi-lucid Dream - Lucid Dream - Notes

I am going out to eat with my mother and a friend from a past job named Evelyn. We are at a place that sells fast food seafood, similar to Long John Silvers, but a different place. There is a sign in the window saying they have a special going on, a full meal for $10. My mom says that won’t work because it’s limited to one use of the offer per order, and there are three of us. I say we can just go in and order separately. They seem hesitant to do that, Evelyn says she doesn’t think they’ll let us get away with that. I tell them I’ll go in and get my meal first, they can follow after.

I go inside the restaurant and tell the cashier I want a shrimp meal, the $10 deal. The cashier looks at me strangely and then calls to someone behind her. A manager steps forward and says he needs to talk to me in the back office. One of the other customers tells me not to go, it’s a trap. What kind of trap could a fast food place set up? I consider grabbing my food and running for it but my curiosity gets the better of me and I follow the employees into the back room, taking my bag of food with me. I start munching on breaded shrimp. As I eat it occurs to me that I never paid for this… but no one seems to care.

We get to the back office and I stop immediately, drop my bag of shrimp, and I do a double take at who I see. There are three Thalmor standing behind a large desk! THALMOR! What the fus are the Thalmor doing here? They obviously need to be fus’d! One of them is in robes while the other two are in elvish armor. The one in robes says it has come to their attention that I have been interfering with their operations and making a general nuisance of myself. I can’t help but laugh. I then thank them for the compliment, adding that I do my best to get in their way. The Thalmor looks angry, his eyes briefly seem to glow.

After a pause, the Thalmor asks if I even have a clue who they are. I say I do. In the past I would have seen Templars, now I’m seeing Thalmor, but I know what they are and what they are and what they are trying to do. And they will fail. The tower will stand, the rose will be preserved, the Gunslinger will complete his quest. I say these things without even realizing what I am about to say, but it all sounds true. The Thalmor says those are big claims from someone who may never leave this room. I say they can’t keep me here, because this is a dream…

This is a dream! I become lucid by realizing if the Thalmor are here I must be dreaming. I tell them that to leave I simply have to wake up. But before I go, a fus. Yes, a fus is definitely in order here. FUS-RO-DAH! The force of it throws the three Thalmor against the wall and blows everything off of the desk. Papers are settling around the stunned Thalmor. The other people in the room are also stunned by the fus. I turn around and walk out of the room without interference. I return to the front of the store to see if my mom and Evelyn are still there. I was going to tell them it’s a dream, but they’re not there. I decide to fly a bit but I wake up.

Skyrim: Dream of the Gunslinger

2019, 07-29

Regular Dream - Semi-lucid Dream - Lucid Dream - Notes

I am playing Skyrim VR. For some reason I am starting over yet again. I am thinking I have started over so many times but I can’t think why. And here I am back in the cart with Ralof, Lokir, and Ulfric. I look at them and Ralof says the usual stuff, so does Lokir. I ask no one in particular how many times I have to repeat this. Well there’s nothing to do but wait for the dragon. Ulfric is staring at me. I don’t remember noticing him staring at me here before. I look around the cart and I see numerous Imperial soldiers riding around us, more than I remember noticing in past times I played this. But other than that it seems to be going normally… until we arrive at Helgen at the same time as a group of bandits.

The cart comes to a stop near Helgen because there are bandits between us and the main gate. They’re fighting someone. I hear the crash of a gun firing. The bandits freeze, not sure what to make of that noise. A mage throws a fireball at someone near the gate. There is another gunshot and the bandit mage falls. More start attacking, and more gunshots ring out. Bandits fall, one for each shot fired. The bandits actually show intelligence as they scatter from the unknown threat. As the bandits scatter I see a familiar face. It’s Roland Deschain from the Dark Tower books by Stephen King! The guards are trying to arrest Roland, so much for showing some gratitude for defending Helgen from bandits. It seems they’re assuming Roland is also a bandit.

The fact we were delayed at the entrance to Helgen does not delay Alduin’s arrival. The huge black dragon soars over Helgen, bathing everything in his path in fire. He saves a blast of flame for those of us outside the gate. The explosion flips the cart end over end, dumping all four of us out. I have an image of the cart landing on top of me and I try to get up only to be knocked back down when Ulfric lands on top of me. The flaming cart lands several feet away with a crash. I look to the side and see Alduin grab Lokir for a snack. That guy just can’t catch a break! Ulfric gets off of me so I can get up now. I see Roland staring at Alduin in amazement. When the dragon circles for another pass Roland starts shooting, though the shots have no apparent effect.

There is now chaos. People are running through the gate and into the surrounding wilderness to try to escape Alduin, many don’t make it. There’s an explosion near the gate and I lose sight of Roland. I head in his direction, I have to be sure he’s ok. Someone grabs my arm and pulls me towards the cover of the trees. I look and see it’s Ralof, I pull away from him and head for the remains of the gate. Roland comes out of the smoke, he looks unharmed. The Imperial captain that I hate so much is coming at us with several guards. I want to fus her. So I do. FUS-RO-DAH! The captain and the guards all go flying backwards from the force of it. If I have to repeat this, at least this cool glitch repeated!

Someone has grabbed my arm again. I look and see Ulfric this time. He says we have to move now, I won’t go anywhere until I know Roland is ok. Roland isn’t even supposed to be here, I’m not leaving him. I pull away from Ulfric and go to Roland. Roland is staring at Alduin, who is over Helgen and torching everything. I grab Roland and tell him we have to get to cover. Roland turns to me but then becomes transparent and disappears. What the fus?! I am looking where Roland disappeared. My arm is grabbed again and this time I go without even looking to see who is pulling me. I am soon in the trees with Ralof and Ulfric and a couple other Stormcloaks. I am wondering what happened to Roland. Ulfric wants to know where I learned to shout, but when Alduin roars, Ulfric says that will have to wait. I am about to follow Ralof and Ulfric into the trees but I wake up. After I wake up I wonder if I disappeared just like Roland did…

Extreme supercell
I am looking out of the window, noticing that a gigantic shelf cloud, similar to the shelf cloud in Breslau, Poland, 11.08.2018 was hovering over our home. A wave of excitement overcame me. I told my mother something about the storm, frantically searching for my phone as the cloud quickly passed over our house. A small funnel cloud tornado then formed and suddenly started sucking up small amounts of dust from the garden as I observed with excitement, commenting that it wouldn't move towards our house, but rather go to the right away from our house. I then remembered that tornadoes could rapidly change their paths, getting a little scared. It then suddenly dissipated. I took a few pictures of the shelf cloud, before running to my room to get my camera. Back at the living room window, I zoom into the shelf cloud, but suddenly, the camera view was in the cloud, the inside of the cloud seemingly just being repeating "textures". I tried moving the camera out of the cloud, and after going through multiple layers of the cloud, succeeded. I then tried looking through walls in my home using the camera, but it returned to normal. Then, I wondered where the cloud base was, where all the lightning usually comes from. I thought that my father should really drive me further away from the cloud to get a better view of the shelf cloud. I then had regrets of not talking my parents into participating in a small contest to win an RV.

Suddenly, I am standing at my old kindergarten, or at least, I thought it was that in my dream, although it was way different in real life. I looked around the kindergarten, which had a layout reminiscent of the bottom floor of my old primary school. There was a group of children, scared of the storm sitting in a circle as a woman seemed to do something with them. I had an interaction with them, but I don't remember it. Soon after that, I went onto one of a couple of metal beams located around the ceiling, seeing another shelf cloud outside, identical to the shelf cloud from the 13.08.2018 supercell somewhere in Germany.

Very small home fragment
I am in the living room of my home.

Date of Dream: SUN 2 JUN - 2019



Dream No. 608 - Separated Sections

Dream 608 A - The Chicago Wrestler
I don’t remember how this dream start. From where I do remember, WB was a foster child of the neighbours two houses up the court from us. I was hoping I would see WB at Carmen’s curtain shop but this didn’t seem to be the case. The next scene took place at my old house. My mum had finished making dinner which a roast chicken with roast potatoes, salad and gravy. My mum and brother were already sitting at the dining room table but she was being very accusatory towards him, yelling at him and seemingly belittling him about something.

Meanwhile, I was on the sitting room with my dad and I could hear what was going on in the dining room. I didn’t want to go over yet until the bickering had stopped and I didn’t care if my dinner was going to go cold. To me, I thought my mum was saying some outrageous things, so I tried to yell out something in defence of my brother. It didn’t seem to work and rather my mum just continued to grill him. They were done eventually though after a while and so I finally went to have my dinner. My mum asked me if I was okay having my dinner cold and I nonchalantly said yes as I knew she was saying I should’ve come earlier.

For the next scene, I was in some far away place and was trying to find my way back home by taking a freeway. On the entrance ramp, there was a really long truck trying to get on with me. Eventually, the truck went into my lane but was right in front of me and so this was really frustrating. Later on down the freeway, close to the tunnel, I found a way to overtake and then outrun the truck.

I ended up at some sort of playground one of the service roads on Priness Hwy. I wanted to find some way to get to the McDonalds on Elonera Road which was the next block down but on the same side of the main road. I went down a hill and found some sort of railroad but it was a dead end, additionally a train was coming and so I had to move out of the way quickly before I would get run over. A lady then came and explained to me why this area was a dead end.

I went back the way I came but when I looked over to the train area, there were stairs going upto McDonalds! The dream was supposedly tricking me about the dead end but for some reason, I thought the stairs would disappear if I went down there again; so I didn’t. Back at the playground, three African boys were approaching me and it looked like they wanted to cause harm. I had to get away as fast as I could, so I ran and it seemed like I ended up on Elonera Road.

The African boys weren’t after me anymore but another menacing man was. It was some older, large, tough looking guy that resembled one of the security staff from my university campus in real life. I knew what was going on even before the guy could get close enough to hit me, it was already obvious that I was in danger. I ended up making a constant “wee-oo” siren noise which seemed to last for ages; I would not stop until someone came to me rescue.

Eventually, I was getting worried because no one was coming and so I made my sirens louder but soon after, I seemed to perceive a presence, but it wasn’t that of a dream guide. The MNW version of Ed-B (wearing the exact same outfit as in the game) came out from the distance and he knew what he had to do, he was ready to have a face-off with the man that was threatening himself upon me.

We seemed to get into this circle formation on the side footpath. EBo was standing next to me as to protect me and then the security guy was on the opposite side but then there were two characters also next to the guy; they were standing a bit more forward. It was Lucius Constantine (also from MNW) and then it was another version of Lucius that looked also identical but somewhat different as well. I made the discovery that Lucius likely had a brother.

Lucius went away and EBo turned his attention to the man that was still haunting us with his presence. He went over to the man and tried out some of his wrestling moves on him. Once that man was out of the scene, EBo went over to me and actually picked me up. I ended up being attached to him for the rest of the dream.

For the next scene, EBo was flying me across a crystal clear blue ocean; there was a reason though, something was about to happen to the secret database of Australia. Someone had infiltrated it and was changing all the city names. Most names had an “oo” sound in them but there were exceptions like one being called ‘Duneyluv’. I sat, watching from EBo as our Philippine nation neighbours came to help restore the database. The dream ended there.

Dream 608 B - I Want The Human
I don’t remember much about this dream. From what I can remember, I was calling out for 18-Volt, emphasising that I wanted the human version, not the paper version. Eventually though, a massive paper 18-Volt comes walking down the court, ending up in the driveway. I thought to myself, “I will move his hands around me and if they stay, this is the human 18-Volt”. This was indeed the case. I can’t remember anything about this dream.



Dream 608 A
Dream Guide: EBo (MNW)
Lucid?: No

Dream 608 B
Dream Guide: 18-Volt
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: FRI 31 MAY - 2019



Dream No. 606 - The Ultimate Betrayal

I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was at a distorted version of my real life university campus but I have forgotten what I was doing there. In the next scene, I was flying down some train tracks to attend some sort of event and I had my grandma and my primary school classmate Juliette, one of them pressed up under each arm. For some reason, it felt like I had some feeling of responsibility towards them in this scene.

I then ended up in some unknown complex but what happened in this scene was most unfavourable. A wedding ceremony was taking place in the main hall but it was going to be between 18-Volt and 13-Amp! Originally, it was going to be for me and 18-Volt but as previously stated, this wasn’t the case any more and I was made internally upset by this. I was supposed to lead the prayer but now 18-Volt had asked a priest to do it. The feeling was that 18-Volt didn’t want me there but I had a gut determination to show him who I was. As the priest was up on the stage saying the Hail Mary, I said it with him in unison as loud as possible.

After the prayer, I had gone to a small room at the side of the hall to pick a dress of the racks. I delicately handled one dress which was apparently supposed to be my would-be wedding dress. For this dream, the dresses that I wore/handled seemed to be in one style. The wedding dress was a cream colour with a stiff upwards collar, capped sleeves and a straight skirt. Though the second time I looked at this dress, the skirt seemed to be a bit wider (not as pencil like; more mermaid like).

Later on in the dream, I had left the area to come to some young guy by the name of Anthony (not the real life family member). He seemed to be my dream guide in this dream or at least someone I felt I could speak to when I was upset. He asked me how the last scene (in the hall) went and I told him, I forgot what I had said though. He commended me as he said not many people could be so bold and confident in pulling off such a thing (loudly reciting that prayer to be heard) when they were upset.

I realised that later on, I would be participating in an MNW wresting tournament but by going onto a Twitch channel, I could pick which tournament I was in. I had picked the tournament that had the closest line up of me facing 18-Volt. I was scheduled to face some floating flame guy and if I won against him, then I would be facing 18-Volt. There was a reason for wanting to face 18-Volt and this was once again to show him who I am and that I was not going to be played like that and trifled with.

It was then time to determine what outfit I was going to wear for the tournament. I went back into the room next to the hall that I was picking dresses from earlier. For my wrestling outfit, it was a pine green lace dress with the same collar, bodice, and sleeves but this time, the skirt was pleated and flared. I then also picked the shoes which were there extremely sparkly, silver high heels. The look I had in mind for myself as a character was an “Oriental goddess”. The next thing I was going to do was apply make up that would make me look Asian and do my hair in a fancy way.

Back out I went into the corridors and asked Anthony if he could give me the things I needed to make myself up. I got a hairbrush, a few hair-ties and a couple of other objects but I can’t remember what they were. I went into the room with the double bed to make myself up but I had to be careful. Originally, this was going to be mine and 18-Volt’s room but now it was 18-Volt’s and 13-Amp’s room, so 18-Volt would get mad at me if he saw me in the room… This was the only room I felt was available to me though, so I sat on the bed and hurried to style myself.

The main hall was now empty for the MNW tournament and I entered to meet my opponent. I was still angry about the betrayal though and so called out to the dream and protested that I wanted to face 18-Volt. The dream listened and I was automatically graduated from the flame guy to 18-Volt. He came into the room in his Warioware Gold appearance and stood across from me. Although this was supposed to be MNW, the current scene did not seem to express wrestling at all. Rather, there were a team of identical people beside me and the same beside 18-Volt.

We were to fire arrows at each other within a given amount of time and whoever fired the most arrows (out of 30) before time runs out would win. I ended up firing 4/30 and 18-Volt seemed to be tied on 4/30 as well. With just a few seconds on the clock though, 18-Volt had managed to fire a 5th arrow and the dream had gone into slow motion, showing the arrow hitting me and actually knocking me out. I had lost the match and so I was now eliminated from the tournament.

I had gone but apparently 18-Volt wasn’t going to have his win. Trashman Jones (Takahata101) had come out of nowhere and lined himself up at the far end of the hall, the energy perceived by him was that he wasn’t going to let 18-Volt get away with what he had done; Trashman was going to avenge me. Not only that but apparently this was going to be a tag-team match, the flame opponent joined Trashman as well. In this dream, Trashman Jones seemed to be wearing some fluro green vest over his black clothing.

Both Trashman and the flame had closed in on 18-Volt; this was now a wrestling match. After Trashman kicking 18-Volt a few times, a couple of suplexes and then stamping his foot into him, followed by one final kick, Trashman and the flame had won. That’s all I can remember about this dream.



Dream No. 606
Dream Guide: Anthony
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: WED 29 MAY - 2019



Dream No. 605 - The Minecraft Tower

I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was at home with my mum when I told her that I needed 18-Volt for something, I then ended up calling him. The dream scene somehow morphed without my knowledge that it was morphing. I now wandered into what looked like a slightly distorted version of my parents’ bedroom in my old house and saw 18-Volt in the bed. He was halfway between Warioware Gold and realistic appearance and he was comforting an exact copy of me. 18-Volt looked up and noticed me, inviting me to come over to him. I didn’t want to inconvenience him, so I said I’d get going but he insisted for me to stay. I sat on the side of the bed, 18-Volt still massaging the other me with one hand but now he had his other arm around me.

I was then back at my current house but now 18-Volt was also there was well. He started carrying me down the court but in a different position to usual. He had me facing outwards but I felt like I was dangling, though he seemed to eventually noticed this and so adjusted me accordingly. Even though he was standing upright, it felt like I was somehow sitting on his leg (I don’t know how the dream put me into such a strange angle but it worked).

We were now just roaming the streets as I enjoyed his presence, relaxing as he carried me. I said to him that before the dream finished, I wanted him to walk me down the creek track as it would be a pleasant and tranquil experience. The streets he went down matched how the look in real life. Hilariously and effortlessly, when 18-Volt came across street curbs, he jumped over them like a hurdle. He then continued to walk me down the alley way and onto the track.

On the track, in the distance, there was this huge, tall structure made of realistic Minecraft materials with large sized niches every metre or so. At this point in the dream, 18-Volt’s jumping became very elastic; if he bent down low enough, he could jump very high. As 18-Volt levitated in the dream, he struggled to get onto one of the niches. It sounded like I was complaining but I was just frantically telling him what to do to get into one of the niches. Once we finally got into a niche, he turned out and slowly faced me out from left to right so we could enjoy the view.

The scene then changed but I have forgotten what happened in the middle scene of the dream. The last scene took place at some sort of beach-side town on a cold and very cloudy day. I can’t remember the exact details but my mum was putting pressure on me to do something; to go on a walk somewhere. I saw a guy outside on the coast though and he seemed to be freezing his backside off and also seemed to be struggling in the wind.

I knew what the guy was going through and so I was going to call a dream guide to help him. Originally, I was going to call 18-Volt but then I thought that Dreamy WB would be better suited to this situation. I called and she came pretty quickly. Later on in the scene, I was with 18-Volt again but I have forgotten what happened. I woke up at 7:15 AM due to the morning alarm.



Dream No. 605
Dream Guide: Dreamy WB & 18-Volt
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: MON 20 MAY - 2019



Dream No. 601 - Separated Sections

Dream 601 A - Meet Your Counterpart
I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do know, I was in a completely unknown area, going to join my high school community for some sort of event. I saw all the Killester girls in this large dungeon/cellar but then again, it didn’t look too dark and creepy. Rather, it looked more like a grand area and there was some light shining in from the top. I had come across LF and so I asked her if she knew where her sister EF was. I don’t remember what LF replied but I ended up seeing EF and speaking to her quickly.

I then had thoughts that I wanted to call for Dreamy WB. I started calling her name but then I felt an energy like WB was also in the area. As I didn’t want to cause any confusion and summon the wrong one, I ended calling for “Miss T”. After multiple attempts of calling for “Miss T”, Dreamy WB came walking from behind a corner in a slow, mystical fashion. She was wearing the school winter uniform as well and her hairstyle was the asymmetrical ladybug.

She picked me up and slowly walked me around the place while holding me in a comfortable lock. At one point, the dream camera had zoomed in even closer and she ended up kissing me on my right cheek a few times. Then I ended up seeing the real WB in the distance. She had her hair in a symmetrical afro and was wearing a very dark green casual jacket with dark blue denim jeans. She seemed to be walking away obliviously though, so I asked Dreamy WB if she could go a bit faster to catch up to WB.

When Dreamy WB got close enough, I reached out and rapidly tapped WB on the back, saying to her, “meet your counterpart”. At first, WB was slightly confused and startled but eventually, that turned into a look of astonishment. WB was actually overjoyed to see her dream-world counterpart and had pulled her phone out as she wanted a selfie. Dreamy WB took the phone and held it at an angle where it was just the two of them in the shot; Dreamy WB was still holding me. When the selfie was being viewed, it was discovered that both of them had made exactly the same face. That’s all I can remember about this dream.

Dream 601 B - A Strong Connection
I don’t remember how this dream started but what’s interesting is that it felt like a continuation from the last dream. I was in my local suburban streets with my parents and we were discussing about the school graduation event that was going to be taking on later in the day. I was asking a question about the costumes and it was discussed that Mrs W was supposedly going to give us 15 minutes to get changed into our costumes.

I said my mum that I had no costume idea at all and so I felt like I was going to be the odd one out. My mum and dad then gave me a sort of wink, like they were already onto something. What my dad had pulled out of the pocket of his jeans was what looked like some sort of craft material or party-wear but what my parents claimed it actually was, was rapping chains. Apparently I was going to dress up as a rapper. I was actually really happy about this, as I gave a gasp, I said something like “I’m going to look like 18-Volt!”.

The scene then moved to the actual event which seemed to be taking place not at the school. It was still a hall though but it had nicer finishes and was a bigger space than the actual school hall in real life. The mass was happening first before the informal part of the graduation, the mass which was being led by Ms L. As I came in, she pointed out that what I was wearing was a bit disrespectful for the mass and that there would be a 15 minute opportunity to change afterwards. My costume was really easy and so I made no complaints and just took the things off my neck, throwing them onto the floor.

I then found out that I was going to have a special part to play at this mass, combining with Dreamy WB. The extra mile was taken though as Dreamy WB and I were oddly tethered up to a chain by Ms L, though in the actual dream, I was happy about this. The chain was a symbolism of connection and that fact that if one tried to go somewhere, the other one would have to follow (exactly like in Spyro Dawn of The Dragon). There were instances where the majority of the year level were singing in the choir but I couldn’t do that as I had the role with Dreamy WB; I was somewhat disappointed but then I kept saying to myself that I couldn’t have it any better. That’s all I can remember about this dream.



Dream 601 A
Dream Guide: Dreamy WB
Lucid?: No

Dream 601 B
Dream Guide: Dreamy WB
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: WED 15 MAY - 2019



Dream No. 598 - Separated Sections

Dream 598 A - The Car Trouble Maker
I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, my brother and I were driving down the freeway towards home. Once my brother and I had left the car for some reason, I found out that someone had stolen money out of the car boot, yet I wasn’t worried about that. Rather, I was worried about that fact that two of my paper 18-Volt’s were ripped in half. I can’t remember anything about this dream.

Dream 598 B - Cartoons And Roman Numerals
I forgot what happened at the start of the dream. From where I do remember, I was walking on Stud Road when I came across 18-Volt, in a cartoon appearance but not as he appears in any real life games. Someone said something about a bold hairstyle but I forgot what the conversation entirely was. 18-Volt answered and said he had ‘9-inch bold TV hair’. The dream then shifted scenes.

For the next scene, it looked like some Warioware setting, at sunset, in front of some modern looking church building. Apparently Orbulon seemed to be ‘hosting’ this scene, or at least the event that was playing in it. 18-Volt was standing, looking towards the building and friendly engaging with Orbulon. At the same time, 18-Volt was sheltering me, 9-Volt, Kat and Ana. He had his arms around me and 9-Volt while Kat and Ana were standing behind him.

The scene then went back to Stud Road in the same setting as before. 18-Volt was trying to make the roman numeral of ‘18’ but I didn’t think he was doing it correctly. I showed him how to make the 18 numeral and although I asserted that I was correct in the dream, my waking life mind admits that my solution was completely wrong. It was something like xxxxviiiviii but even longer. The dream ended there.



Dream 598 A
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Dream 598 B
Dream Guide: 18-Volt
Lucid?: No

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

At my moms, although a slightly different house. It is in the middle of a city. But still at the top floor. On her room is my late grandma, still alive, laying in bed. I am with her. On the next room is my mom, my dad and some other relatives. The wall separating the two rooms cracks horizontally. My dad thinks the house will crack more and I think there has to be a reason behind it. That's when everything starts shaking. Through the window we see other buildings shaking violently and breaking apart. My dog Soraia is with us, I keep her near. Parts of our house start to collapse, like some outer walls. My grandma on the bed falls down with part of the room. My mom cries in panic. I suggest we all move to under the doorstep. When finally things are more stable, we assess the damages in the house. After the shock I say it is time to go outside because is dangerous to stay. My mom offers to go down the building's staircase and I say it should be me going, because I think it is dangerous for her. She insists and I warn her that she might find dead people. We hear a child cry somewhere on the floors below. She goes anyway. I gather my cats on a crate. Fairly easy to do except for Cuscus which forces me to go to the collapsed room looking for him. Meanwhile my mom returns, says the stairs are blocked 2 floors below. Couldn't find the child. We consider staying there until rescue comes but it might take weeks and it is not safe. So we find there is a connection between the roof to other rooftops of buildings that fell over each other. Through there I find ta way for us to reach the street. Most people seem disoriented but we find a group which seems to have a plan and knows where to go. I consider we join them. Then I am warned that some bad dudes are trying to steal one of my pets from where I left them in crates, near a car. But it is not a cat they are taking away, it is a falcon. I run and insult them but eventually the falcon flies away and escapes them. Then I call him back and he lands on my arm.

With friends, at some ancient site, like a temple or palace, awaiting for our Guru's teachings. As we wait for info about what's going to happen, Rinpoche drops by and hands over a bunch of papers with poems. He says we should go make copies, distribute them and study the texts. Then he turns away to leave, but our eyes cross and I understand I should follow him. I follow him through a corridor, I stop seeing, everything is dark and then it's like I enter another time and dimension. The floor is covered in flowers and on both sides of the aisle there are people throwing flower petals and offering precious substances. I spot Rinpoche again at the end of this path and at the entrance of a private garden area. When we are there alone, we kiss. He becomes a young, athletic, beautiful prince, with long hair with a bit tied up on top of his head. I also turn into an Indian looking princess-like beauty with a vaporous white dress. We enjoy the sensual delights of being alone and free to love in this solitary magical retreat. Apparently for a long undisturbed time. We have a son. At some occasion I am bathing in a lake and playing with my boy. From a short distance, I see my love looking at us, very serious. He is majestic and he carries a dagger in his right hand. As he walks towards me, I get in some kind of horny surrendering trance. I get out of the water and I lay down on a stone surface and welcome him in my arms. He lays down with me. But he is talking very seriously about people in some other time and dimension. He says with aggravation that they will at some point stop going to temples and looking for us. They will instead go to shopping and movies and other mundane things and we will have to be with them, among them, doing those things with them, for them. Then I black out and start drifting in what I would describe as the multiverse, a dark void where a myriad of universes are laid out in an infinite geometrical matrix and I see them unfolding in their infinite diversity, overwhelmed.

Strange insects
Somehow, in a sort of void which is seemingly somehow between some sort of piping in my flat, I find a bunch of strange spider-like creatures(*). I know, in the dream, that their presence near somebody damages their mind like black mold(**), so I thought of ways to get rid of them. I went away from the bugs to laying on the living room couch, telling my mother about the insects. I then notice that the bugs are walking around behind the couch. Back to the void, I find a sort of mushroom and eat it(***). In my "inventory"(****), which suddenly appeared, it was marked as something with a name beginning with "Momma". For some reason, this mushroom was supposed to help against the insects. I then find myself at a doctor, with him assessing what damage the insects did to my mind(*****). Most of the room was a very bright white color, a strong light above and a sort of chair which could be set to have somebody in a more laying or more sitting position. He pointed at an MRI image of my brain, specifically at an abnormal part of it, using a sort of long stick.

My father going insane
I'm in my father's car, my mother sitting behind me and my father left of me. We were driving along a long road towards a sort of small shopping street and a school. I didn't know where exactly we were going, though. Suddenly, for some reason, my father gets so mad he just somehow launches himself out of the car at low speed into a sort of field at the side of the road, somehow from the right side where I was sitting but not, even though he was just at the left side. I and my mother were panicked. I asked her which pedal was the brake again, but she was so panicked she didn't answer. A turn was coming, so I steered into it as hard as I could, nearly losing control of the car. We then heard police sirens. Then the dream ended.

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*They appeared because I had a startling encounter with a very, to me, gross spider I had encountered a day before. Before I went to bed yesterday, I had looked at it again, which was the reason it appeared in the dream in a stylized fashion.

**As I fell asleep, a sort of crime documentary show had an episode running about babies becoming infected with an unkown disease. In the end, the episode concluded by revealing that black mold is what made them sick. That is what created this part of the dream.

***Inspired by an addon in Garry's Mod.

****Reminiscent of the Rust inventory.

*****This scene was inspired by when I went to a doctor to check on a possible pollen allergy.

"Cockroaches" in my way
I needed to crawl through a thick bush of sorts, towards my mother waiting behind it for some reason. In front of me, on the stem of the plants making up the bush, sat two gigantic "cockroaches". I "knew" they were cockroaches when I found them in the dream, but in reality, they looked like a sort of moth, stretched into the shape of a cockroach and resized to a size double the size of my hand. I wanted to push them off of the stem, but I took them instead. Something like this always happens in my dreams. I then tried to set it on the dirt, but for some reason, the back of it had a crimson-colored substance on it's back, sticking to my hand as if it like super glue to my hand. After a few attempts of getting it off using my other hand to attempt to push it off, I tried to set it back on the stem. It moved its legs and gripped onto the tree, somehow very easily coming off of my hand, as if it could control how sticky the red substance was.

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I actually forgot to submit this when I wrote it.

I woke up with my second alarm and went straight back to lying down attempting to MILD again. I must have dozed off for a little bit as I come back to awareness with a bright white rectangle close to my face. I imagine it as a computer screen and sure enough, I start to focus on the URL at the top of the screen repeating to myself that I am dreaming. I feel my body start to enter sleep paralysis and I hear some strange noises. I try to wake myself up out of panic by trying to think of my bedroom, but I can only think about work and sitting at my desk looking at my computer screen. I let it happen and suddenly pop into the dream by WILD

It's difficult to move at first, but I get out of the office chair I'm sitting in and do a reality check. My fingers pass easily through my hand and I feel that I am already more aware because of WILDing instead of DILDing. I want to get outside so I walk to the stairwell and find it blocked by a vending machine. It swings out of the way without effort, though, and I walk down. The stairs get very narrow with more blockages along the way, but I finally make it out into a grassy hill. In front of me are mountains with many homes built around the base. To my left it looks like some plains with a dust devil or small tornado. I sit down cross legged in the grass to boost my awareness. I once again perform a reality check which I do easily. I then say out loud, "Clarity now", in a calm but commanding voice and my vision becomes pixelated-like for a split second and a sound like a high pitched ring occurs. It subsides leaving me with a much clearer vision and more awareness, and I'm stunned for a minute that it worked so well. I decide I want to talk to my subconscious so I start walking down a street with houses on both sides. I imagine a bench on the left side while looking at my hands and sure enough, I look up and a bench is there, although a little lopsided. I sit down and ask to speak with my subconscious. Out of the right side of my vision, a blonde girl walks towards the house that I'm facing. She greets me and walks in some side entrance to open the front door for me. I thank her and walk inside. She starts talking to me but I'm trying to focus on staying aware and I tell her this. I remark that I need to work on making my awareness - boosting routine get my awareness in the dream to last longer. When I finally sit down, she starts talking to me again, but the dream fades out quickly.

It's been a while but now i'm back, in this past two month I was very busy and stressed for the exams so I stopped training and of course I loose all my progresses. Now I have to start all again from the beginning, but nevermind... tonight I had this cool and very strange dream:

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I'm dead and I'm going (or rather, my soul is going) in what I believe is heaven.
I am walking in a big city, perhaps New York, and I arrive at the foot of a very tall tower, I don't see the end of it, it is all covered in gold and has no entrance.
only the dead can see it, in fact all the people who walk beside it do not know of its existence.
somehow I am transported to the top; I find that up there there is an empty world, dark and covered with fog.
I set out in this world and after a while I meet an old bald man with a white beard, with him there is also a friend of mine.
the old man tells us that he spent his whole life alone on this tower and explains that if we want we can go down and return to the world of mortals.
he also explains that for part of the day we take back our body and return mortal and visible, it is an effect given by a particular inclination of the sun, but if we die again while we have our body our soul disappears definitively. instead when we are spirits we can do what we want but people cannot see us.

when the old man finishes talking I ask my friend how he died, he tells me he was on a beach to take pictures when a man arrived who didn't want competition on that beach to take pictures, so he pulled out the gun and started shooting; he had to be drunk because before he hit the target he fired a lot of random shots.
after the boy finished telling the story, I find out that I was also on that beach and that I was hit by one of the stray bullets.

now I'm back home, I took my body back and I'm leaning on the balcony, looking down where my mom is sunbathing in the garden. I'm sad because I don't know how to tell her that in reality I'm not alive and that soon the body she sees me with will disappear.

2019, 07-11

Regular Dream - Semi-lucid Dream - Lucid Dream - Notes

I am playing Skyrim VR, starting at the beginning. Ralof is across from me, Ulfric is to my right, Lokir is across from Ulfric. Lokir is being extremely rude. He won’t shut and two out of every three words is an expletive. He is directing his torrent of obscenity at Ulfric, who is completely ignoring him. Ralof tries to tell Lokir not to talk to the rightful high king of Skyrim like that, but gives up. Lokir sees me staring at him and takes a break from Ulfric to curse at me. I ask if he talks to his mother with that filthy mouth. He gives me one final, “Fuck you!” before going back to cursing at Ulfric.

We arrive in Helgen and stop. I see the Imperial Captain and say to no one in particular that I really wish I could fus her ass. I look at Ulfric. He could fus her. I say I’ll get that gag off of him if he’ll fus the Captain. He looks at me strangely. Did he hear me? But other characters can’t hear what I say, they only hear the dialog choices I make… But then Lokir had seemed to hear me, too… wtf? Did I add a mod that includes voice recognition and explicit language?

Ulfric and Ralof are on the list, then Lokir insists he’s not a (expletives) Stormcloak and he hates that (expletives) traitor Ulfric. The Captain doesn’t believe him so he then turns his expletives on her, calling her a list of rude names I won’t repeat even though I agree with them. He then makes a run for it and is shot in the back by an archer. Hadvar says my name isn’t on the list, but the Captain says I should be killed anyway. Lokir used every expletive in the book, so I settle with telling the Captain to go fus herself. I would love to be able to fus her right off of a cliff.

Alduin swoops over the town, bathing everything in fire. I follow Ralof into the closest tower. Ralof and Ulfric and a few other Stormcloaks come out the hole in the wall, though after a blast of fire from Alduin the other Stormcloaks are either killed or separated leaving Ralof, Ulfric, and me. Hadvar and the Captain attack Ulfric specifically, saying he’s not getting away. I get to see the Captain get fus’d after all. Ulfric fus’s her right as Alduin makes another pass, so she gets fus’d and then toasted! I exclaim, “That was AWESOME!” Ulfric looks at me like he thinks I’m insane. He can hear me! I’d better watch what I say or everyone in Skyrim will think I’m a total psycho.

The rest of the opening quest goes pretty normal except for Ulfric is with Ralof and me. Then we are out and Ulfric wants to know if I know what fus means. “Of course I do, it means force. Ro means balance, dah means push. Now if I can just kill a few dragons I can do my own fus’ing…” Alduin flies overhead. “But not that one… I’m not ready for that one yet.” So the sooner I head off the Whiterun the sooner I will get the first word! I head down the path then wake up.