nightmare

Through a mortal lens I saw glimpses of the immortal. Imperishable dimensions built on the foundation of eternity. I found myself in the dark. It was unlike any darkness I have ever known. The sheer blackness was all-consuming and governed as far as I could see. I questioned my visual capabilities and soon learned I was not blind, yet I could not see. Whether it be my hand from my face, all was the same. The darkness was so deep, so thick, I felt as though it had seeped inside my very body. All around me I heard only screaming, moaning, and growling. It was as though I had stepped into a sports stadium, but the crowd screamed rather than joyously cheered.

I was falling, doing such at a speed like a descending bolt of lightning. I felt it in my gut, I was falling. In that moment I believe I left my body. For a fraction of a second there was an indescribable sensation that I had moved beyond my mortal sleeping body. When the sensation ceased, I found myself in surroundings anew. It was blurred, and fog was present, but I could clearly make out a solid ground which I sat on. It was whiter than snow and I stood up. I was wearing a white gown of sorts. There was a building just beyond me. Behold, it was large and white and looked as though made of precious stone or crystal or pearl. I saw a wall with many pillars and an array of stairs leading up to it. There was clearly a gate which was closed.

I felt the presence of another being with me, yet I saw no one. I heard the mumbling of a voice, and my surroundings were silent save for a swift wind-like sound. No others were present. In that I awoke.

I was in a backyard of my house. I saw a weird old woman that my older sister called a hag before, holding bag full of skeletons and dead fish bodies. She was emptying it. I thought that I should take some skeletons to my aquarium, and came closer to skeletons. Suddenly one of them started to move, and then fly. I was escaping from a flying fish skeleton.

I never really ever have any bad nightmares, at least i haven't since i was a child. I took a short nap this afternoon just to kill time, and plus i was kinda exhausted. Anyway this is what i remember about my dream... and it has me pretty scared. :/



I was kidnapped, with two other women, taken somewhere i cant tell you where. I was put on a slab of metal, and had iv's in me, pumping red liquid into my body, but it wasn't blood, i don't know how i know that it wasn't blood but i just knew. Hours later they took us to a hotel, and when we tried to scream for help no one paid any attention and all the workers were in on the kidnapping. My teeth fell out, and part of my tongue was missing...

hours later once again, we were rapped and beaten and thrown into a horse trailer and taken somewhere else, where they attempted to put us in these long grills to transport us to another location, and i remember screaming to one of the guys I didn't want to be put in one that still had a propane tank connected to it (because i thought they were going to cook us alive.)

Then the main guy walked away, and two of the other guys threw new clothes at us, and told us to take off, so we all ran in different directions, and ended up running down the road to a gas station (which was a Kiwk King.) I screamed for a phone and the lady cashier gave me 25 cents to use the pay phone in the middle of the store, i ran back to the pay phone, and tried to call my boyfriends phone number but i couldn't remember the first 3 digits, i tried everything and just couldn't get it, so then i ended up calling my mothers work phone number, a lady answered and put me through to my mom, and i explained to her everything that happened, and she asked where i was, and i shouted out loud to ask where we were, and we were some city called Hannah (something) beach. So, my mom said she would be here as fast as possible.

I ran to find the clothes that were given to me, and i ran into a back room and put them on, went back out front, and seen one of the other girls that was kidnapped with me, i saw her mom and she gave me a hug and they left, then my mom was there, we left in her car.. as we were leaving the Main guy that kidnapped me saw me in my mothers car and it was a chase down the highway trying to get away from this guy. (Meanwhile while my mother is driving i'm still trying to call my boyfriend, using her cell phone, which she has his number saved in, it just wasn't saved into her contacts on her cell phone in the dream) He finally cuts us off and we get out and run into some place that turns into another hotel looking place.. and the Main guy ends up turning into someone i'm suppose to use very well.. (but who he was in the dream, i have no idea i don't recall knowing the actual person.) Then my aunt shows up and she hands me the phone and i just start crying saying all i wanna do is hear Kyle's (my boyfriend) voice just so i can tell him bye... and over the phone i hear Kyle telling me how much he loves me and about how hes tracing the call to come and find me and he will be right there to save me, then the Main kidnapper guy takes the phone shuts it off and smacks me hard across the face and i fall to the ground and i pass out (in my dream) ... and then i woke up... freaking out....

I remember my dream perfectly but I feel uncomfortable even thinking about it, so I don't really want to post it >~< I'll just give you hints in the categories.

It's night, and we're in a heavily wooded valley. Above us is a massive structure that resembles a dam, and there are offices in the building that's built into the structure.

The four (or five?) of us are gathered in a circle, having made camp. There's no fire. We're on the run.

And they've found us.

It's day, now. The parents and one (or two?) of their kids have found a vehicle and are driving up one side of the dam (but there are deer in the way, so they can only go so quickly.)

I'm the daughter, and insect-like attack robots surround me, their numbers penetrating deep into the forest. I feel the energy building up within me, and I lash out, striking at the robots with some kind of sword, taking out half a dozen of them in a straight line.

There are too many of them. I retreat upwards into the office building, blasting through a wall to get inside. There are men and women in suits around a boardroom table, and they spin in their seats as I rush past them, sending up alarmed cries. I get to the interior door, something hot on my heels, and everything goes dark.

shift

The man in charge has short, spiked black hair. He is arrogant, cold, as he gives his orders. They're in the centre of a city now, and he has the girl.

People are frantic. Something has gone wrong. They need to escape, to evacuate. They need to get a message to the Earl.

I laugh. I am now a man, thin-faced and shorter than the man in charge. He is angry, he grabs me by the lapels of my jacket and demands, demands, demands.

Amused, I tell him that I can get the information to the Earl. It's in X folder in his personal, secure system, right? I have the files now, I can send them.

Demands, demands.

Well, I'm a hacker, of course, I tell him. And I'm not really here. But I can help him, for a price.

I'm with the girl I was before, and we're speeding through the city in a shuttle, trying to dodge as multiple giant space worms—like the one from Men in Black—destroy the city and try to eat us, as well.

We're in an elevator. Have we made it?

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In the church my mom took me to when I was really, really little. It's still dark, because it's winter, and the service is in an hour. I unlock the door with my key and turn on the lights.

No one is here yet. I go downstairs and turn on the lights (I'm a little bit afraid because I need to go through the dark sections to get to the lights), and I consider going home and sleeping for a bit.

I turn off the lights and stand in the darkness for a moment, quiet and still. The trees and the moon above the church create a lovely picture in the sky.

There's still one light on, though. It looks like someone is in the bathroom. I guess I should turn the lights back on and stay here until the service starts, since people have started arriving.

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Spoiler for Content note for attempted sexual assault:

In this dream, I was at a party with an old friend. Things had died down, and a man tried to climb on top of me, and I fought him off. It seemed like he was expecting me to be out of it, and I remembered that there was one thing that my friend had had that I hadn't; I tried to find my friend.

The dream played over and over, as I tried to find a better outcome. In some versions, there were police and an ambulance. In others, we went home and didn't talk about what had happened.

Note: I think that this dream played on a situation where the same friend helped me out of a situation where two of her guy friends were being hella creepy while I was drunk.

Edit: I also had a dream that Sensei started up his comp and had ALL of the intermediates against the one person who volunteered to be on the advanced team (which wasn't me).

Adventure: 5/10
Control: 3/10
Fear: 7/10

I had four nightmares over the weekend. You'd think that I was worried about something.

Dream 1:

I had been kidnapped by a vampire. She had me in a house that appeared to be my childhood home in LA. At one point the vampire turned her back and I took that chance to run out the open door and down the street. I knew that the vampire would immediately notice and would be after me, So after passing a couple of houses I ran to the next house and opened the door and went inside. I saw a room where two adults were sleeping. At first I felt relieved. Maybe they could help me. But then I realized that I needed to leave. I would just be getting them killed if the vampire found me here--and I knew she could follow me...follow my scent. I knew there was nothing I could do to get away. She was so much faster than I was. There was no way to erase my trail.


Dream 2:

I was riding my bike on a mountain road at night. The road twisted and turned and went on forever. I felt I would never get to my destination. Then suddenly in front of me I saw a bigfoot climb up the slope and onto the road directly in front of me. The bigfoot was a lighter brown color with reddish tints. It's fur was longer and matted with bits of leaves and twigs in it, like it had just gotten up from sleeping on the forest floor. It stood and faced me. I was so startled and frightened that I swerved my bike and went over the edge. I could feel myself falling...falling...

And I woke up with a start, breathing heavy, my heart racing.


Dream 3:

I was with a group of ladies. I was supposed to be working on a big project with them. I not only couldn't remember who they were, but I couldn't remember what the project was. I only knew that I was suddenly about to have to give a presentation. I had no idea what I was supposed to do. I started to panic.


Dream 4:

My plane had just landed at the airport, and I got off the plane. I suddenly realized I hadn't gotten my luggage out of the overhead compartment. I tired to run back and find the plane. The airport was a maze. I had no idea which way I had come from. I was running around not knowing where I was going and not finding anyone who could help. I ended up in a hallway that kept getting steeper and steeper until I started sliding back. I knew I couldn't go this way.

Finally I found someone to help me. I was told that my luggage had been taken off the plane and was now at the baggage area. I actually was able to locate it by the end of this dream making it a very unusual nightmare with a happy ending.

Finally! After two weeks of trying to lucid dream once again, I finally have another one. As usual, I woke up before sunrise and went back to sleep, reminding myself to do reality checks if I dream.

The Dream

The dream started off as a false awakening nightmare. I was lying on my bed in the dark and there were these figures in the shadow talking about how much they hate me because all my weaknesses and insecurities. They talked about how much they hated me and that my roommates are trying to kick me out because they are starting to dislike me. Then I tell myself to stay calm - this is just a dream.

I floated on up and out of my bed to use the bathroom. I did another reality check by looking at my hands. My fingers were deformed; it must be a dream then because my fingers aren't broken in real life. I looked into the bathroom mirror and saw that my hair was gray and my skin was wrinkly; this must be a dream since I'm much younger in real life. I jumped and try to fly, but could not - it felt too real. Next, I decided to open the closet. I tried to imagine something magical. But there wasn't: There was a teddy bear on the top rack and a glass of red wine in the lower one.

I was apprehensive about drinking the wine since I don't know what will happen after. Why did my subconscious offer me a teddy bear and a glass of red wine? Why did I turn into an old man with deformed hands? I don't know what possessed me about I held the large wine glass with two hands, bowed to the closet, and gulped it down as though it were an antidote. I blanked out.

Dream Signs: Looking into the mirror. Hand/finger check. Nightmare.

Interpretation: A very literal reflection of my fears and insecurities.

Wow ok, this is pretty cool, I've always wrote my dreams in a journal but it's nice to have it on an online archive thingy. Anything, this one happened nearly 5 years ago, when I was 10.


I was up in a pink colored sky, surrounded by clouds. The fairly oddparents (characters from a kid's tv show of the same name) were up there with me. I think I looked at my left hand (the same hand I write with), and there were 6 fingers. From looking at my hand, it somehow occurred to me that the dream was a dream. Being a 10 year old, and grasping the fact that I was basically in my own fantasy world, I began to ask for things from the oddparents. I asked for a football first, then a coke, then I asked for my dog Chico (who, in real life, we had to give away) back. But when I saw Chico, he was rotting from the middle of his stomach down and his eyes were a pale color....that was when I woke up, and I was kind of terrified.

Had another dream about the nasty parasites from my last entry..

This time I'm getting out of bed (maybe a false awakening?) and notice my big toes feel funny, especially the left one. I look down and it is transforming into one of the parasites! I'm instantly freaked out of course. There are little legs coming off the sides and the end has a head protruding from it. As I walk into the living room each step brings pain from that toe and a tingly sensation from the other one. I sit down at the computer to look up what to do about it and as I glance again at my toe I notice my walking has crushed the head of the bug and its blood is pooling beneath my skin creating a big purple bubble of disgustingness. I'm almost relieved that it could possibly be dead, but horrified that there's a large dead bug INSIDE my freaking flesh, oozing its goop out everywhere. My other toe starts to have twinging pains in it and I think the second bug is growing in there.

Bleeehhhhh so disgusting..

Luckily I went on to have some DEILDs filled with adult fun. Definitely helped de-stress me! If I'd woken directly up from the parasite dream I'd probably be having a shitty day.. lol

- Eating chocolates with C in the bedroom (Cadbury eggs, yum!) when I look down at a half-eaten one and notice it has this disgusting thing in it:



These are parasites that normally get inside fish and eat, then take the place of, their tongues. They then proceed to steal all of the fish's food as it eats it. So, I freak out majorly and cry etc. I end up saying to C's brother that I'm just gonna have to wait 'til a lump forms in my tongue, then go get it taken out.

- Helping a young teen girl with long, straight blonde hair get out of an abusive family situation; dragging her around town trying to find a safe place, feeling like we're being hunted/followed; go to my old house in town where there are other people living now, take her in and lock us in a room; feels like we're safe, but the owners of the house come home I guess and we have to leave. Later on, girl is gone and I'm frantically searching for her and some other people we were with for a second (Lu, Z & C I think). They'd been parked along the road, waiting for me. It's night and I can't find them. It seems like they had to drive off for some reason, like the bad people came or whatever. I keep looking in dark vehicles, hoping they're hiding in one. Most of them are empty at first, then I start finding scary dark shadow people that I don't know. I get really freaked out and become sort of lucid. I just know that if I fly to the moon I can get out of this reality somehow. So I take off and zoom as fast as I can towards the moon. The going is a little slow due to fear. I top a hill covered in buildings and find myself looking at a big lake with hills far across on the other side. The moon isn't reflected in the water, but its light shines off the surface all over. I'm still trying to get to the moon but I start sinking towards the deep dark water. This scares me, but I'm so tired of being scared that I just say "fuck it" and let myself follow the curve of the dream. This decision actually raises my lucidity to normal levels. I end up deep down in some flooded underwater facility. Alarms and lights are going off and some of the crew is still trying to get things to work. It feels very space-like and reminds me of "The Abyss" except everything is completely flooded and we're all swimming around inside. Things go even more wrong and I want to get out of the situation even more. Suddenly C is with me, helping me calm down and guiding me to the "edge". I feel like the dream has an edge and when I pop out of it I'll wake up. We reach a weird corner that seems superimposed over everything else and we start to push against it, side by side with arms locked together. It's difficult, but I draw strength from C and we both persevere. Slowly the stuff starts to bend outward and our heads start to go through. C starts yelling like there's a really weird sensation, then I notice it. My head feels HOT and very tingly and I "see" pink and purple sparkles on the other side, a little like the static on an old, inactive TV. I can see a cross-section of my own head where it has entered the other side and it is much darker purple than what's around it. I get scared because it feels like there is intense pressure on my head, but I remain determined, let go of C's arm, and dive through the rest of the way. I feel almost like a baby falling out of a mother with the last push, but I also feel like I'm ENTERING a womb-like space. Once totally across, I assume the fetal position. Almost immediately I sit up in bed and all seems normal. My bed is in a different position now, but I don't notice. I decide to RC anyway and surprisingly to me I'm lucid! I wonder what to do, not caring about tasks, and decide to have some adult fun. I stand up and walk out of my room calling for D. I have a short moment of doubt about whether or not he will appear, but I dismiss it. I turn the corner into a small dining room that normally doesn't exist, and there he is, sitting and eating at the table wearing nothing but white boxers with red hearts on them. I interact with him verbally (no recall) and he gets up to come into the other room with me. His form seems weirdly insubstantial though, so I just walk away by myself. I encounter some people already having sex in my bedroom, so I decide to just watch. The guy is facing me while the girl is not and he keeps noticing me and being weirded out. I mutter some things like, "I'm not here, you don't see me," and wave my hands over my face and he stops paying attention. I end up getting involved then waking up.

I was Trying to get a item (i dont remember what) and these monsters from a horror game ive played, they tried to kill me but i wasnt scared.
i began running as fast as i could and i remember that i double jumped like in videogames.
i ran down some stairs and entered a bright snack store.
(this snack store is very close to my house and i always go there on fridays)
but something didnt seem to fit in.
i started wondering if there was a fridge in the middle of the store last time i was here.
and i realised that im dreaming, i started thinking "dont think of something scary or i might end up in an nightmare"
so i accidentally thought of something scary(it was some kind of dark room with minimal lightning.
the floor collapsed and i fell down on a chair.
a scary looking girl dressed in white approached me closely and i said you're not real.
i'd feel stressed and started laughing without reason.
i began to look at the wall and try to move it, and after some tries it did!
the wall was now a portal to a tropical forest and the girl in the room looked alot prettier.
(i love to have a dream girlfriend because things are less complicated here haha )
i grabbed her hand and jumped down.
we fell to the ground after jumping from the room and everything looked much bigger, like the size of the forest growed alot.
we began to run and explore the forest together and the last thing i remember is that we were sitting on a leaf and eating from a giant taco.

I was in my house about to do something when all of a sudden a huge machine crashes into it and i hear a lot of screaming. I have a weird feeling that its going to be me next and try to escape. I get knocked out by a group of assassins or military agents and when i wake up i'm sort of beaten up. Eye is dragging me than carrys me into a bathroom than tells me that we don't have time. That I have to escape through the window. I look out the window and he pushes me through even though I say no at first. When i get my head through and im fully out I'm in the narrow fenced place that leads to my backyard. I run and try to fly because i noticed a alien that looked small and green and jello like was trying to come after me. Along with three girls. I spit out mushy green/white stuff from my mouth and hit the alien thing as i'm flying. (Really Random idea)When I get to the front of the house the setting begins to change to dark and things begin to be added.

The girls who wanted to attack me than begin to make jokes about how their going to get me and I punch one in the face. Than I tell her sorry and wipe her bleeding mouth with a napkin. I also tell her I forgot that hitting my dream character is like hitting a part of myself. She forgives me and I notice that Eye is now present with us. He is talking about how cool the setting is becoming. I turn around and notice that there is a dark forest near by and that there is a lady who looks like she is casually dressed.Shes in a white tank top and maybe green/yellowish pants. Anyways shes walking back and forth and i become creep out by her. "Can we go inside?" I ask nervously. Everyone says okay and we run into my house. As were running it begins to change into a school setting and soon were running down the stairs. Eye jumps up and shouts how much fun he is having than continues down the stairs. I try to follow him than notice were now in a huge building that looks formal yet open to the public. Sort of like a bank but not a bank. Maybe office building. Well whatever.

I continued looking around and noticed dream characters going about doing their own stuff. Some are happy while others are serious. As I'm walking and looking around i notice my teeth have stuff stuck to them. "Splinters?" I think to myself as i see a animated gorilla carrying a broken door. "How many times am I suppose to tell you? Your not suppose to eat the door..." He says to me in a British like voice. I say sorry and notice an open door where i can see people outside in a city. I want to go out but don't. I look at the gorilla again and my surrounding than it fades until i wake up.

Asking Dawn About His Name

In this dream I was asking Dawn if he could give me a new name to call him that was better than Dawn. He wrote a few things down trying to think of one. Co...Was a good start for me until he changed his mind and than the dream changed to non lucid a dinosaur game like plot with my family.


Attempt to see Dawn Failed

I was in some sort of arena where people that acted like old time warriors were forcing me, my brother and others to battle. I didn't want to though and ran and jumped over what became a castle like wall. Fell into the ocean and the warrior king/chief tossed fire spears at me, along with his men. I thought about them disappearing and as soon as i sank to the bottom i began swimming and walking and jumping. Trying to get through until i arrived on a island. I got on the sand and ran until i met a little boy and girl. One of them was holding a cracker filled with jelly and gave it to me. I bit it than ran away. The mother came and found out so she called the guards though. I ended up inside a school and ran up. Bumped into a guy who offered to help me but after running around for a while they were caught.

I saw them being taken away and asked one of the guys to help me out in the dream but he said "You want me to help you? I'm about to be executed because you!Thanks a lot!" Than he was walking away with the others that were taken by guards. The place also looked somewhat like an office building now. The way the dream character expressed himself made me feel like I was n't in a dream world like i thought i was in. and that i really got him into trouble. So I decided to just forget about it and fly through the walls and get out myself. I managed to get to a window of the office building but i became stuck halfway. A girl came by and mentioned how she found me. Than a guy came and said he was going to cut my legs off. I felt like a trapped bird and told him to wait before he used the knife. He waited than i looked down and looked back at him. noticing that he had removed part of the window. After that I jumped out the building wanting to fly and had a false awakening where I thought I fell asleep in my bathroom.

Than something else about jewelry i think happened and i woke up for real.

I dream these alot with my current or past pets.

As with any dream, something might morph into something else. So what started out as Snuggles the Siamese, turned into Ziggy at some point. But that's not the point.

Sofie was grooming Snuggles/Ziggy, behind a couch. And where she licked him, which was on one side of his ribcage, the hair was gone, and the skin was like cooked salmon. I freaked out and tried to tend to the area, but chunks of fishy skin would flake off. I kept telling myself that new healthy skin would grow underneath and replace it. He didn't seem to be in pain. Fortunately as I was examining the flakey skin, he turned over so that the affected area was against the floor. I just didn't want Sofie to lick it anymore.

I love how no where in the dream did I consider a vet or sequestering one cat from the other. I was glad to wake up from it though. Yuckypoo.

Well in this dream I was lucid and non lucid. It was a very stressful dream for me when i woke up but i have a feeling it could have been from stress. If not then my dreaming mind just really hates me and maybe the thought of it once just happen to trigger it.

Anyways the dream started with me walking around my house to downstairs where I was talking to a dream character. Suddenly Rose Quartz from Steven Universe popped up dressed as a maid. Noticing the change of the setting into a restaurant, I made a joke about how i was going to look like her and serve people their food and drinks in a silly manner. That's when i started acting silly than out of no where i think the guy with me or another guy came up to me and poked me in my stomach area than pushed it inward. I couldn't see their face just noticed the silhouette. I told it to stop but when it wasn't stopping i ran around.

I think i appeared upstairs than ran downstairs again and when i was about to enter a room the character slid holding its hands out in front of me. I felt like it was a ticking bomb of fear and dread and ran the other way. I also have a feeling it was dressed in ragged clothes. Like a grey/navy blue sweater with baggy jean pants or something like that. Anyways I ran away than appeared on my mom's bed thinking i was awake. I got up than looked in the living room and the character appeared. Couldn't see how it looked but i could feel it there.

I was afraid it was with my dad than reappeared on the bed and felt someone putting their finger on my belly button like they were trying to go through me. It hurt a lot so i prayed about it. Even though I thought it might be a demon in the dream that was obviously not the case. I kept feeling the pain and tried to move the finger but it was no use. It kept positioning back to the same spot. It ended up vanishing when i got the feeling that i sent it away but than my eyes were force closing and i reappeared on the bed again with the same pain. I let it hurt me till I woke up trembling.

:/ Hmm.....Guess it could be a stress sign or just random dream pain from the thought of how it happened before.

Fragment 1: Something about cats. Not sure what happened exactly. It took place in a fancy restaurant.

Fragment 2: A nightmare about having too much homework over the summer. (My mom gave me homework over the summer in a workbook.) It seemed the book had a lot more pages than before.

Fragment 3: I had to cross many rope bridges which were connected by tree-house-like structures. The first bridge I crossed was very shaky. There was somebody behind me supporting me (I'm not sure who). There were food stands after I crossed all the bridges. It took place in a forest during the day.