non-lucid

Non-dream Dream

I am at work or school. There is a huge hill off in the distance and there are giraffes running down the hill. There are tiny baby giraffes on their backs - just standing there. It does not seem possible for them to be able to balance like this.

People are being cruel to me in a classroom.

I am on ED's (flag football ref) cell phone calling people. I look through his contacts and there are a ton of in depth categories for people. Under friend there are many sub categories like true friend, etc. There is also a category for hookers.

So these are dreams that happened over the last 2 days, surprisingly they have at least a small reason as to why my brain is going to them.


This one was 2 nights ago, I had been talking with a coworker Henry that day about an issue for like a half hour, though I usually never talk to him so it was odd when he was in my dream.

I was getting ready to go on vacation to see some family in Florida. My parents and wife were all going and for some reason Henry was coming to join us. One problem though, Henry was wearing a freaking Bear costume, I'm talking like full on bear costume.



Not sure why, he didn't say why and we all kind of just assumed it was normal. Well we were all the sudden out eating with my Florida relatives in some fancy restaurant. Henry meanwhile was like frolicking outside and like jumping around in his bear costume. Then this bear comes out of nowhere and we are all yelling for henry to run. For some reason the bear doesn't care about anyone else outside, only the dude in the bear costume. Henry is running away and then he throws his hat from the costume at the bear and it stops it momentarily. Henry things he's in the clear and starts walking, then the bear runs at him again, pins him and literally bites his face off. I just remember screaming and being sad but then the dream ended.


Same night I do not know where this came from at all really. Though I feel it is slightly offensive to people from Russia.

I was in the middle of some secret undercover spy thing going on in some submarine in the ocean. It was between like Russians and Americans except I was like a double spy on both teams I guess. The Americans were searching on the submarine for secrets i guess with some reconnaissance robot, it would like come back to them and give them the info. The Russians however had a pet squid that would search around as well then come find them and I guess tell them the secrets somehow, I guess they could talk to squid.

Last night I had two dreams, one of them I literally was just patching around fiber optics cables throughout my house to get internet connected to like the upstairs part. I have been running fiber cables at work so I guess my brain really liked the idea of this mundane task. The enxt dream I do not know what the hell happened.
I was at the grocery store and there was this cupboard there that was like chained shut. I went up to it and I touched it and apparently was cursed. I got like threatening letters at home and I didn't know who they came from. I went back to the store and like every worker told me it was a terrible thing and I needed to stop it. I ended up breaking into the cupboard to see some monster and he made me play some endless game to get rid of him. It pretty much involved me playing a slot machine against him until I got like a bigger jackpot I guess. I don't think I ever beat him though I think I ended up playing for a long time and then woke up.

I adopt a large, black dog from a shelter, and take him home to my apartment. I find that the responsibility of taking care of him is more than I can stand, and I don't enjoy it at all. I feel like a horrible, awful person, but I decide take him back to the place I got him from to ask them to find a different home for him. He's too big for me to pick up and put in my truck by myself, though, so two of my neighbors help me.

I get back to the shopping center where the shelter is located and walk through it, but by the time I get to the shelter, the dog has wandered off on his own, and I don't know where he is. I was such a lousy owner that I didn't even get a leash for him.

[This dream stemmed from an ad I heard on the radio yesterday for a kennel that really does find new homes for dogs. By the way, I don't even have a truck in real life, just a car.]

[Different dream, later in the night.] I'm playing Hidden Chronicles and I notice, for the first time, that the river on the main map continues further up than I had thought, and there are all kinds of buildings on the other side - a whole town for me to explore. There's a sailboat dock across the river from my estate - obviously, you're supposed to get to that part of town by sailing across the river - and a second bridge for me to repair.

Suddenly, I'm standing among the buildings of the town on the far side of the river. When I turn and look back down the river, I gasp - from this ground-level point of view, looking in this direction, I can see that there's a whole city over there to explore, complete with its own skyline of skyscrapers. I'm really excited to explore it, but I think, Looks like I'm going to keep playing this game for the next couple of years.

[Different dream.] I'm with my parents, and my mom needs me to translate some text from Japanese into English [or vice versa, I don't remember] for her. She needs it right away, and all I have is my phone, but I plug away at it anyway. We're visiting the home of some friends, and we're sitting down to have dinner with their large family around the light-brown, round table that my parents have in their house.

I almost had success but ended up not having any last night. Counting my breaths helped me become completely relaxed and still while also keeping my awareness level where it needs to be. My first dream I was instantly aware I was dreaming. The only problem was I was also half awake! I realized this as I was started to stabilize and ended up just waking up. I found it tough to sleep as I couldn't find a comfortable position and I believe I was anticipating the dream too much rather than going to sleep naturally. Regardless of this, I still managed to enter sleep paraysis to enter another dream! I was not lucid however because as my dream started, my tv (which was turned off) was blaring loud with baseball commentary. I immediately rushed to turn the tv volume off and therefore forgot to stabilize which quickly ended the dream.

So, I make some adjustments-

Adjusted technique-
1.During my day, practice all day awareness and work on my visualization when I can.
2.Wait until I naturally yawn to go to bed. Review my dream goals in my dream journal.
3.Lie in my bed and clear my mind. Once mind is clear, take 10 deep breaths while mentally counting each one.
4.Lie on my side, close my eyes, take 10 more deep breaths while counting each one.
5.Take 290 slow breaths, trying to relax my body and mind more with each one. Count each breath as well. If I lose count, I get up from bed, work to increase my awareness and start over.
6.Think,"The next thing I see will be a dream" and go to sleep normally. Think, "The next thing I see will be a dream" if my mind starts to wander.
7.When I enter a dream, look at my hands and say,"stabilize now". Increase clarity if neccesary by saying "increase clarity".
8.Say, "This is my dream, I'm in control, and anything's possible."
9.Stabilize every minute or so by rubbing my hands and saying, "stabilize now, anything's possible".
10.While in my dream try to keep control of my emotions.
11.When I wake up, lie on my back with my eyes closed and mentally gather all the details of my dream. Slowly get up and write down dream in dream journal.
12.Repeat steps 3-11 if still tired. If not, go back to step 1 and repeat.

I also need to work on finding a comfortable and consistant position to sleep in. Working on these adjustments, I'm sure I'll find success tonight!

09.23.2012

I'm a Disappointment + Was That Windhover?? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside of a house, and I'm holding a shiny gray metal bowl, it looks like the same bowl I have in my apartment that I use to mix pancake ingredients. The house itself resembles the one in waking life that I went to for summer vacation by the end of my Freshmen year.

There walls in the living room are Pastel Green, the flooring in that same area was dark brown with a nice wooden polish. I think my mother was there as well, which is really something I keep forgetting isn't a part of waking life at all....

I can't remember the details in between what I did inside of the house, but I think I tried to get out of the house again and escape for some odd reason. I ended up coming back because I was afraid of someone, like my father, catching up and finding me.

When I came back to the house, I played it off as if I just went outside for fresh air or something like that. Then the dream shifts to where I'm walking with my father in a completely different place, and he tells me,

"You're a disappointment."

I looked at him weirdly, and I can't remember what exactly caused him to declare, but I kept trying to talk to him and try to understand what it was that I did wrong. However, random things in the dream keep distracting me from trying to give him a rational explanation.

This next part is confusing, I can't even tell if I'm in my dream body, or if I'm watching Windhover, or if I'm taking the embodiment of Shiro that's on her avatar from Deadman Wonderland.

And here's my horrible sketch in the morning of Shiro....aHHHHHH....but it's really how I saw Shiro/Windhover/Me/I Don't know who!!! :c
(And those hands are Shiro's/Me/Windhover/Idk's hands...the hands look weird..but...don't worry about it xD)

Spoiler for Horrible Sketch of Shiro:

Even my thoughts started to become a distraction as well, because the more I tried to formulate words, the more a tingly sensation in my mind would initiate, as if it's telling me not to declare whatever thought came first.

I saw someone in spectator mode having their arms folded and hands open as if they were really trying to come up with something to say, but failed. I think the Shiro counterpart was wearing a khaki jacket and a white shirt underneath.

Unfortunately, that's all I remember for that dream.

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09.23.2012

Exam Review? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside of a lecture room, and it's pretty spacious. There's a huge screen that takes up nearly 90% of the whole wall that's far away from me. There's a downward slope, probably to be efficient with spacing, and there are a few people in here already.

I believe I'm already sitting down, writing things whoever is tutoring us at the bottom left corner is writing.

It was some math problem, but it seemed it had some Organic Chemistry with Equatorial and Axial positions. I remember the number "5" next to one of the two axis labeled:

X axis:______

Y axis:______

It seems the tutoring session for the exam review was coming to a close, and there was something about the problem that bothered me, so I raised my hand and asked.

"If you were to put the 5 on the axial rather than the equatorial, wouldn't it be reversed?"

Something along those lines, and whoever it is I'm looking at, I can't remember their visage well, but they nodded.

I guess I was right about something.

:shrug:

Dream - Lucid

This first part wasn't a dream, but it scared the bejeezus out of me.

I woke up and opened my eyes. I started trying to move, but I barely could; it was like an invisible resistance was in place against my arms and legs. I started to panic a little. I tried to scream for help, but barely a sound came out. I kept trying as hard as I could, but all I could get was a rasp. I almost started feeling like my breathing was messed up too.

Then, it just went away. It was like I was experiencing partial SP. I can't say that's ever happened to me before; it was terrifying.

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I was at the coffee shop I used to work at to ask my old manager for my job back. Only it was very different in there, now that it was under new ownership; it was in a different location, and it was more like a restaurant than a coffee shop. It was kind of dark in there; everything seemed to made out of a dark brown wood. I specifically remember an old couple sitting at a bench by the counter, waiting to be seated.

I kept seeing my old manager running around, and she saw me there as well, but she was so busy, it was hard for her to talk to me. There were a lot of new employees there, people I had never seen before when I did work there. For some reason, I went in the back and put on some work clothes: Black straight-legged pants, a black shirt, and a green apron. It looked like a Starbucks uniform, but the coffee shop wasn't a Starbucks. I saw myself in a mirror with it on. I then thought better of just jumping into work, and left the back room.

I finally caught my manager as she was leaving. We were in the parking lot. She was walking fast and quite a ways in front of me. I asked her
"So, I doubt you can get me my job back, can you?"
She stopped for a second, turned around, and replied
"No. I'm not in charge anymore."
I guess the new owners didn't want her doing the hiring anymore for some reason.

After that, I wanted to go home, then I "remembered" that our house had been sold (we are trying to get it ready to sell IWL) to a couple of guys. I pictured the inside of the house being emptied of our things and replaced with barely any furniture or anything at all. It was kind of sad, since I grew up in this house.

Then, I was back inside the coffee shop, sitting down at a table with my laptop. Everything looked lighter now; even the wood wasn't as darkly colored. I looked up from my computer and to my left, and there was a cute guy staring at me. He had the build of my friend Daniel, and had dark brown curly hair. He had some scruff, but no real facial hair. He was smiling a little as he stared. I smiled back at him, feeling a little flirty.

Apparently, he was one of the new owners of the shop. His name was Solomon, and the shop had been renamed "Solomon's". His wife, Annie, was the other owner. I wondered if it was really Solomon, since he was married and kept giving me flirty smiles. Hmm...

I then learned that he was a huge flirt and a womanizer; he slept with lots of women who came into the coffee shop. For some reason, that didn't really bother me.

I was then approached by Solomon. He asked if he could kiss my neck. I said sure. He then went in to kiss my lips, and I realized I had terrible morning breath for some reason. I could taste it in my mouth, which also felt pretty dry. He then stuck his tongue in my mouth. When he pulled away, he said something about my mouth, like, he asked me if I had done something specific, and if that was why my breath was so funky; I can't remember exactly what it was that he asked if I had done. I said yes. He then kissed my neck. All in all, the breath thing didn't seem to bother him too much.

Then, I saw him standing up by the bathroom with another guy, talking. I knew he was going to try to get a woman to come sleep with him in the bathroom. I wanted him to pick me for some reason. I want to say he somehow messaged me about it or something.

I also remember him being seated again, and giving me another flirty little smile, and me returning it. I felt really good about myself then, like I was desirable. It made me feel confident.

I know, at some point, I wondered about his wife, and if she knew about what he was doing.

1:30am - 10am

Didnt have any dreams last night, which was disappointing considering that I tried hard to remember them.
Oh well, I'm sure my recall will take a while to return

Non-dream Dream

Dream 1:

I am at a water park / amusement park. I go on a crazy roller coaster with my wife.

Dream 2:

I am at a doctor's office with my wife talking about having a baby. There is some kind of complication and we have to make a choice. Either I would have to carry the child or my wife needs surgery. They run some tests on my wife and decide that they can do the surgery. They need to put some new walls in her vagina. I ask "how long before we can start trying for a baby?" The doc says one month after the surgery.

Dream 3:

I am back at my old house on Pam Lane. I am with my wife and my coworker GM. He is living in DA's house across the street from mine. He is telling me about someone who got murdered. Some little kid comes up on his bike and interrupts us. He asks if I own a beagle. I say yes. The kid says that my beagle got away again and then goes on to explain how everyone in the neighborhood hates my dog. I go out onto the street and see my dog. I start chasing him but he runs down to the end of the street.

I drive down to the end of the street. My dog is in someone's garage along with my two cats S and V. I park in the driveway, go inside the garage, and knock on the inside door. I ask if I can leave my car there while I take my pets home (I don't want to get hair in my car). She rudely replies "You got 10 minutes." This pisses me off because there is no reason to put a time limit on it since she had nothing to do. She is just being a bitch so I punch her dog in the stomach (in her garage).

I miraculously pick up all three of my animals (kind of just stacked them) and walk home. It has suddenly changed from daytime to nighttime and I remember that I only have ten minutes. I start speed walking incredibly fast. I look at the houses wiz by and it seems like I am walking about 40 mph. I think "How is it possible for me to be walking this fast?"

HOW AM I NOT LUCID AT THIS POINT!?!

I drop the pets off in my backyard and head back to the old lady's house. I run because I am out of time. I think "Why can't I run as fast as I was speed walking earlier?" I finally get to the house and knock on her garage door. It opens slowly to reveal her smirking face. Apparently she has a camera in her garage and caught me punching her dog. She steps aside to reveal a cop waiting to arrest me for animal cruelty. The cop is a famous fat actor. I run and hide in her neighbors backyard.

It was night. I was standing at a cliff with 2 other girls. Each of us was suppose to marry, have sex, and be killed by the princes on the spot. Instead, the princes got killed or disappeared. We were then sent to a room by a lady, who I think is the Queen. The small room was stone and lit up with a torch or two. There were 3 beds lined up on the wall opposite of the door. The lady told us to rest so I walked toward the middle bed. When I looked closely at the bed, the middle top edge of the blanket was a black dot. Maybe it was a fly? It sits there and I had a feeling that it's something to do with the prince.

09/22/2012
12AM-9AM

I hardly remember anything about last night, I went to bed late and woke up in a hurry for a job interview. But I do remember that I was riding in a car with my father's friend Phil, and we picked up a somewhat dirty looking guy who needed a ride. He wanted to go to some part of town to look around for a party of rave, Phil instead drove him to a church and dropped him off.

The last part I remember was being at a house, and someone telling me that the hitcher was back. I walked into the front of the yard and saw him, and something strange happen that seemed important... but I don't remember what.

[Tuesday, September 18th, 2012][6PM]
I remember another that day! It was the end of a dream and I was at a bay port at the end of the world. My crew had all packed up and started sailing off. I ran to the dock as fast as I could... but they were too far off. I jumped into the bay and swam as fast as I could to try and catch up. I screamed, "WAIT!" but no one heard me. I swam back in cold acceptance of the fact that I had missed the boat. Arriving back, I met a witch who was extremely attractive. She stared at me with piercing, cold eyes, but I shoved her onto the ground and kissed her. I slid my hand up her shirt and felt her breast and heartbeat. I didn't feel guilt because, in this dream, I was someone else... I wasn't me, I wasn't Austin, I was a lonely captain who had lost everything.

[Tuesday, September 18th, 2012] [Morning]
<dream recall starts here, despite the dreams before it>
I'm in an open magical world mixed in with elements of reality. I start my journey traveling along a straight desert mountain path with Me, Alex, and Nathan. There's a wild west theme to all of this. We arrive at a old stone ruin marketplace... the smell of food brings us to one seller's counter with 4 cowboys behind it. That's to the left of this path I'm on, and on the right is a walled off area for people to sit down and eat... there's an arch to get through to the inside. I think I have 5 dollars in my pocket and I look at all the menu's. The food costs about $1-1.50 each item and the drinks also $1... I should have enough for all three of us to eat and share a drink. As I'm staring at the menus still, I hear the 4 Cowboys joking about me- taunting me about being a girly boy and laughing and hooping and hollering. I ignore it at first and recount my money... I have a $5... a $2... a $1... another $1... My money amount changed on me. I look up to hear the cowboys teasing me again. I start to get pretty pissed off, which is surprising... I don't usually let this emotion get the best of me in a dream. I look at Alex and she motions for me to calm down. I don't. I think about getting up in their face... one of them makes a remark that I REALLY don't like and I raise my fist to slam it down in their face. I hear a "HEY! FREEZE!" and I let my fist go with the warm breeze just before it hits. My clenched fist's energy disperses and my hand glides slowly past his face. Smooth. Very smooth. Behind the trash-talker is someone on a horse, dressed in uniform. It's probably the Sheriff. The whole marketplace is suddenly ablaze with officers of the law, taking in anyone who is selling things illegally. The 4 we were just talking to were breaking the law too. I understood that anyone that had already bought something were okay, but the items had to be confiscated. I peaked over the wall to an area full of food and thought about sneaking some food off- but it might be a bad idea. People were scrambling every which way to get out of here, in quite the panic. Alex got seperated from us and me and Nathan went further down the path towards where we had seen the Sheriff. I glance to my right and see a Police Car collecting all of the food- good thing I hadn't tried to take anything. I also see what looks like a Gun Execution in progress. 4 cowboys standing in a row, and 4 officers in a row with guns pointed at the cowboys. Me and Nathan walk up just in time, and I pull him instantly back the other way to try and avoid us this dark sight. None of us actually "see" it, but its now in our mind. We hear the gunshots go off 3 seconds later. I turn to Nathan and joked, "Fuck, we're gonna be scarred for life now." In a way, I must have known this was a dream. We met up with Alex and then I woke back up.
<more dreams after this... I don't write any down and they evaporate...>

Haven't been logging my dreams recently, and I have no real excuse for it
I had a bad time recently with LSD and the last few months have been very traumatic and uncomfortable, but I am almost completely better

Anyway, I'm feeling very positive, looking at life and trying to go on a spiritual journey.
I'm very interested in Astral Travel at the moment, and I'm experimenting in that at the moment, although cannot beat the fear barrier D:

So anyway, I should start by recalling recent dreams.

1) I was on holiday, I think in Majorca or another package holiday resort place in Spain. I was with my friends, by a swimming pool sunbathing. Some sort of stir was caused - I'm not sure if we were drunk or what, but people were being very open about their opinions. My friend Ashley, who I have a bit of a crush on, approached me and started angrily ranting at me, about how she used to like me so much and I treated her like shit when she fancied me, and how she had moved on. This kind of happened in RL, although I didn't treat her like shit, I just had a girlfriend. But I stopped her when she finished before she would start again, and told her straight up that it was because I really liked her, and couldn't find a way to tell her. She was very pleased by this, and it seemed to be an automatic indication that we still both liked eachother. I was very happy at this, and I woke up feeling love and happiness, but was very disappointed when I realized it was a dream

09.22.2012

RE4 Garradors + Wearing Iron Boots (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside an area where there's at least one Garrador in the room.

To describe Garradors in RE4, they are blind beings infected with Las Plagas, and they listen mostly to sound.

So if you make some abrupt noises like running, shooting, things of that nature, these things will CHARGE at you with their long claws and possibly impale your face, gut, or completely slash in an continuous X formation until you head is cut off....OR, they impale your head, lift you up, and them pierce your gut.

Not exactly someone you want to hug.

Spoiler for 18+, See what a Garrador can do to you...:

Almost every room that I would go to in this dream would have a dark red carpet in the middle, and it was one of the few things that really stood out in this dungeon type of environment that mostly had shades of gray on the walls, floors, and ceilings. Another noticeable feature was the fire torches that would be contained by some metal object that would light the room a bit.

It seems the Garrador I'm facing is moving in slow motion, because I don't remember him impaling me whatsoever. I'm able to dodge his moves with ease, and each time he tries to strike at me, he mostly gets his long claw stuck on the wall from impaling it, which gives me ample time to go up to it and stab its back.

Its back had a glowing object, like a heart if you will, though it's slightly different than in the game where its weakness on its back that you can shoot off is really just an exposed interior part of the Las Plagas in it. I noticed that eventually, I'm at a dead end because both doors to go back to previous rooms and to the next are completely locked down, at least, that's what I thought at the time.

The left door, which would've lead me to the previous room, was chained up in all directions, but I could still see what was inside the door through the small rectangular hole on top. The same hole had 3 mini bars going vertically, structured lik a prison cell. The whole environment in this dream itself has a Medieval vibe to it, and as I'm killing Garradors that keep coming one at a time, I noticed a particular sound my feet was making.

I wondered why the Garradors were able to hear me without me doing much, until the same clanking and pounding sound finally came to awareness. I started to move slower, but was still able to dodge the Garradors' attacks, probably because I made the whole environment and entities in it operate in slow motion. It felt weird though, having these dangerous monsters look easy with this slow motion ability.

I looked down on the shoes that I'm wearing, and then noticed I've been wearing Iron Boots, the Twilight Princess model, most of the time during this dream shift. So I had an "Ooooooh" moment and jumped to make them magically disappear, kind of like the animation Link does when you take off the Iron boots.

While I was jumping, I noticed I took the dream body of Link from Skyward Sword, though he had a mix of Twilight Princess' model of link with a darker blonde hair. It seems he was twirling for a few seconds mid-air after jumping. The Garrador in the room couldn't hear me so easily, since I'm now able to take lighter steps.

I can't remember what happens next.

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09.22.2012

Hey! Wake up! (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm resting on the floor, dream eyes closed, someone is on top of me and shakes me a bit to try and wake me up. I get annoyed, and for some reason, I had this sort of implanted memory. Maybe it's from a previous dream I can't recall, but whatever it is the person trying to wake me up is saying, I thought it was absurd.

Wow, a dream character takes the effort to try and wake me up, and yet I still think what they're saying is crazy. *facepalm*

After I grumbled about a few things related to whatever it is, I realized it was something about shared dreaming. Then I went to sleep.

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09.22.2012

Want Sex? Sure (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm outside somewhere, the atmosphere is light yellow, and it feels weird. Anyway, there are two women who ask me if I wanted to have sex, and I said,

"Sure."

And I said that in a passive manner, like it was boring or something....


WhAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA?

Shopping seems to be a recurring theme in my dreams. This time, I was in a large grocery store with my mother. I remember getting lots of sweet bakery things, like cakes and jelly rolls. I also recall getting powdered-sugar coated pita chips and cinnamon-sugar pita chips. (That would be awesome.)
By the time we got finished, my mother decided that she didn't have enough money to cover everything, even though she said she had a lot. She ended up putting most of the items back, only buying a couple things for herself. (She is dishonest and selfish in real life.)
After this whole debacle, there is a blank space where I do not recall anything. At some point, my mother turned into my fiance. He was driving, I was in the passenger seat. I was angry with him for using all of our grocery money, I didn't understand where it went or what he did with it. He ended up confessing to me that he used it to take another woman out to dinner the night before. (An old friend of his that he used to be obsessed with.) Eventually we arrived somewhere, there was a lot of snow and it was cold. There were several people there, but I only specifically recall one in particular. He went over to my fiance's window to start talking to him and then he noticed how upset I was. He asked me what was wrong and I told him to come over to my side of the car. He did, and I got out of the car and threw myself onto him, crying my eyes out. He hugged me back tightly, and just stood there. I also remember him smelling really good, strangely. (The guy is someone that I know in real life. I have a bit of a crush on him, he's a stone-cold hottie!)

That's really all the more I remember from this dream.