non-lucid

I was in a dance recital for ballet. There were five of us. After a while, one other girl and I (we were in front, and the other girls were behind us) couldn't remember what to do. She started improvising, so I just copied her. After a while, I noticed that the other girls were no longer on stage. I pointed that out to her and suggested we go backstage. We did, and I saw my friend Lizz there - at least, I thought I did.

"What are you doing here?" I asked her, kind of surprised to see her because she lives a couple hours away. I can't remember her response, though, but then I realized it wasn't her. "You look a lot like one of my friends," I continued. "I mean, a lot - not just like you look similar, but you look like you could be twins or something." I kind of just walked away awkwardly after that.

09.21.2012

Alyzarin's Videos (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I only remember Alyzarin giving me video links to show clips of herself. I think she was hanging around with people, I'm not sure, or maybe she was just making some YouTube video about herself.

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09.21.2012

Oil-spill Roads (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm waiting outside for a shuttle bus of some sort to go somewhere. I look at the roads, and there's oil covering the middle area of it.

[Monday, September 17th, 2012]
(Alex stayed with me last night. We both had some lengthy discussions and came close to a fight, but we settled it rather civilly and got
somewhere. We talked about chakras, spiritualism, Budhism, techniques, and philosophy. Alex got too loopy to stay awake towards the end and
but we had a rather heated... physical debate before sleeping. Then we passed out talking about silly things like turtles and fireflies and my
computer's lights. xD The last thing I remember is focusing on my root chakra to try and feel it. I had some interesting dreams when we finally
slept, two of them. But only the last bit is coming to me right now...
The first dream involved chakras- but isn't complete enough to worry about for now.)

OH- WAIT NO- I was in a barren grassy landscape, and in a walled off area. There were me, and quite a few orphaned kids. In the center of the walled off plaza was grass and trees, but it was dry. Around the wall on the inside were buildings and rooms for us to live in. In one the bathroom area, there were showers and toilets and urinals and lockers. In the locker room, I remember a bully picking on all the weak kids, as if he were the only government here. He always picked on kids, but this time he was picking on real-life old friend, John, awkward, with red hair and heavy freckles. John was tired of being picked on, so he kicked the bully as hard as he possibly could in the go-nads. It looked like the most painful thing. I was like "HELL YEAH, serves you RIGHT!" though. That's as far as I remember from that dream.

The second dream-
Me and Alex are in a Super Arcade Warehouse. In the very center is a fantastic, extremely-sophisticated Mario-themed adventure roller-coaster
tower ride. The building's lights are dimmed for a mysterious effect, but are offset by red and blue and green neon lights for excitement. The ride
itself is a red steel spiral, all the way to the top. There are different levels where we have to complete a puzzle or a challenge to continue on to the
next. Me and Alex sit in the center and it starts to rise to the top, going around the spiral on a track. Once we rise to a certain point, a piston
pushes a red steel disc-floor to our level and machines re-arrange the challenge. The first one is a game of balance. The disc-floor will tip and turn
depending on where you stand, but it takes awhile to go 'really' off-balance. On the otherside of the floor is a (!) button. We both get out and
instantly, the floor is tilting towards us. We run to the otherside and slam the button down, only to have it tilt quickly to the far side. We jump
quickly back to the car and it automatically starts back up again. We high-five and wait to the next level. The next one is different, we have to
climb some stone spiral stairs to get to a "hall-way" like section. In the straight-section are floating blocks, hung from rope and at the end is a pole
with a round platform at the bottom. We both punch the shit out of a block, she grabs a coin and I find a mushroom. I'm curious to see how they
actually taste and pop it in my mouth. It tastes like cardboard, and I feel no different. Alex slides the coin into her pocket and we both grab the
pole and stand on the round platform. It takes off upwards and we arrive at the next level along with the auto-piloted car. But for some reason, my
completion-ism isn't as strong as usual and we decide to leave. It's getting kind of late anyways, we leap off the spiral back down to the
tilt-platform and it tilts far enough and drops us down onto a bounce-pad at the bottom. We head out and I eye the games and other attractions. I
notice that no one but a single man occupies the arcade. He's wearing a bartender/Gambler outfit. We reach the door and I wake up

Well, last night I my homework was amazing lacking, so I was able to go to bed around 9:30 instead of the typical 11:00. I blame my AP Chemistry for causing my late night excursions. I mean really, should it take me from 4:30 (when I get home) until 10:30 to get my homework done? Ah well, at least last night was better. Anyways... dream time!

#1 - I remember this one started out and I was in this little byplane, way up in the sky. I was in the bak seat and whoever was in front was driving. Anyways, we decended in for a landing on this REALLY short runway (it was more of a stop and fall out of the sky deal). We managed to decend very nicely though and we were coming in for a smooth landing when I randomly went against gravity and floated straight up out of my seat. I looked down and realized I hadn't had my seatbelt on but I was still puzzled. Either way though, it was quite interesting although I'm not sure why I didn't see this as a good opportunity to become lucidl. I then went and explored this farm we had landed at and that is all I remember.

#2 - This dream had a strange feeling to it. At first it was like I was working on my game, typing away at some code. Then I guess I ran the project or something, because then all I could see was a screen with Sonic running along. It was one of those wierd things though where it is like you are in it, but you still have control with some invisible keyboard type device. Anyways, the other wierd thing is that the game was 3d (mine is 2d in real life), it was in this level called Crisis City (which is also not in my game) and it was the little chubby Sonic from the 90's (I'm using Modern in my game). Anyways, this level was going on for a REALLY long time. I swear, it was like I was there for an hour just going through this level. It was like I could see the end the whole time but in slow motion or something. Anyways, I FINALLY made it to the end and that is all I remember.

#3 - I think this dream was my failed attempt at a DEILD last night. I think i tried to re-enter dream #2 but this is what happened instead...
It was still a 3d Sonic game, except now it was Modern and on some level from Sonic Colors. Anyways, now I was at my computer watching a playthrough of this game and then the guy got to this part where he would not stop complaining about some really random glitch. He basically went and found this one area where if you boosted or something at the right time one of the enemies would get stuck in the ground by a couple pixels. Even though it didn't affect the gameplay at all, and was just one of things that you would usually laugh about and move on, he just would not stop complaining about it. It was then really wierd because I kinda just hopped through the screen or whatever and somehow fixed the enemie's placement with my invisble keyboard again. By this point it was more like I was in the game again and the playthrough guy wasn't there anymore. I seem to be having these invisible keyboard dreams a lot recently. Hmm...
At least i got some good dreams last night.

Non-dream Dream

Dream 1:

I have two options for golf holes to play in my front yard. I can hit up my street towards the houses (222 yards) but it is risky. It is easy to mishit and damage homes. The second option is to hit across the street into the park. I took a 3 iron out of my bag to play the risky hole but I chicken out.

Dream 2:

I am spiderman and I'm putting people into jail. There is a playboy magazine with spiderman on the cover.

Dream 3:

My brother and I are back at our old house. I am sleeping in my old room and he is downstairs waiting for me to go do something important.

I'm probably in the role or is reading about Max in an alternate version of the webcomic Paranatural. I'm stuck with a rugby team and have to do fitness and stuff, and later got sent to some hellish camp or whatever. Later I'm myself and my parents dropped me and my friend on some kid science museum. She went and played on those kid slider thing (extra detail: she went headfirst) and I walked around and found some kind of gym. Later I had an FA except without the awakening part. I'm walking down for breakfast and the guys upstairs in the building were trying to spill drink on me even though we're like 5 metres away. They're celebrating about winning rugby or some shit and I reminisce about nearly losing. I kicked on a rope thinking that it was a trash but actually it's some delicate experiment and the teacher asked me to put it back in place.

The amount of sports in this dream is ludicrous.

I'm sitting in the passenger seat of a car. My fiance is driving, his sister is in the back seat. We're driving down a country road. Suddenly, giant flaming meteors begin smashing into the ground all around us. The sun is huge and pale yellow, its sickly rays casting a dying light over the destruction taking place before my eyes. I'm upset, crying about something. I vaguely recall saying something like, 'No! I don't want it to end like this!'.

The dream went on to have many more parts to it, but the memory is much too fragmented for me to piece together. I do recall some of the key things; the sun, dirt road, fields, nighttime, a swimming pool, an inn, betrayal, a leather jacket and a shopping mall.

Some of these are recurring themes in my dreams, like the sun, betrayal and the shopping mall. I took to DreamMoods dream dictionary to interpret these things.

1. The Dying Sun: Significant disruption or serious problem in waking life. Some sort of pain or chaos.

2. Nighttime: Major setbacks and obstacles. Alternatively, death, rebirth, reflection and new beginnings.

3. Leather: Toughness or ruggedness; animalistic and instinctual nature; sexuality.

4. Jacket: Represents the image presented by self in waking life. May also symbolize a defensive and protective persona.

That's all the more relevant information I was able to glean from self-interpretation alone. Slightly disconcerting.

[ 1st Person, 3rd Person, Comments, Lucid ]

This is from night before last.

There were a set of flowerbeds squeezed in the meagre space near some houses and a park and my entire family, car parked nearby, was looking around. It was white and had petals elongated and tapered inward to make a sort of bulb. Below it was a plague, which warned that its species is venomous; just touching the tip is enough for it to poison you, and you'll barely feel it. First, it says, you go numb, then collapse, and if not treated, die soon after. Past the open car door, I can just see a hand almost touching it, apparently oblivious to the danger, and I'm paralysed by indecision, as making a scene might shock them into moving their hand and making them poison themselves. I shout a warning, but it's too late. Not much time left...

From last night.

I'm near a car park, on the edge of a grass verge and across a road runs a path towards the high school a fair distance away. It's dusk. The weather is bleak, so dark and overcast and pouring with cold rain. An ambulance is parked next to the path, and there is some sort of activity, but I can't see what they're doing. It was more a grim sign of injury or an omen in the way it felt. The scene shifts and I'm back at school for some reason, trying to work out, and the buildings are massively extended into a new wing, somewhat creepy in a clinical or bureaucratic way, that couldn't physically fit into the way the real school is built. I'm wondering why the ambulance is there, so I decide to go back and see if I can find anyone, and the next I know I'm there. The road is suddenly busy and it takes a while to find an opportunity to cross over. Despite that, there's hardly any people about. There are now two or three ambulances, and it's starting to worry me. What's injuring people? The only other person about is a girl, who was just going back, but doesn't know about what's happening either. Then the dream gets incoherent. There might have been other things happening, but I can't remember too well. I'm back in the ersatz wing of the school. Sherlock Holmes was investigating the incident. Watson was secretly broadcasting everything live on television, but Sherlock knew, informed him that he knew, and didn't particularly care. In the end, he determines that a cruel alien species, I think the name started with 'q', that uses baby skulls as shields was responsible.

Thoughts
Lucid
Non lucid

My recall has gotten up back to normal lately. I just havent been posting online because I kind of just make notes of the dream on my phone and then don't take the time to thoroughly write it out. But I think it helps to do so. I haven't been lucid in over a week and half and it's pissing me off. I was trying to get back to the same things I was doing before. So, I am going to make a better effort with my DJ.

Masonry Fail
Pictures of swimming under poarch as a kid. The water was do dirty it was like mud
Making masonry wall in water. The wall in a garage. I realize how shitty it looks with brick and wood chunks and I tear it down

Undercover Presidential Interview
I am with some others to interview Obama with hidden cams. Doing to show how much security sucks and to catch him in a lie or cover-up. I get a quick perspective or the first two that interview him. Sort of a play back from the hidden cam. Its my turn next. I get super nervous and hope that they let me fast forward past it. I realize I have no clue what I am doing or what to say. (Higher reasoning started kicking in but I lose it) I assure myself that I have note cards. I have some sort of issues with outfit. This giant canvased plastic plate falls out of my suit. Some lady I'm with gets a new car seat base. We are trying to not look suspicious but its all falling apart. I try to stall. Secret service men have been helping me. I still feel really nervous and don't want to go in. The man tells me it's time to go. No wait I have to look for something in the dressing room. I search around and see my Nintendo wallet and my cell phone. I pick them up and turn around. Another man fires the who had been assisting me. He tells me they have their own cams. he shows me quick footage of me and wife being suspicious. The other guy says no. I wholeheartedly serve him.

Luke Skywalker is a jackass.
Something about being at the mall with my wife then we walk out of a trailer. Luke Skywalker keeps making out with my wife. I try to tolerate it but I get pissed. Then I use my clear light perspective to become him. Now its me kissing my wife. I feel ok now. For some reason I know that I have to fly Luke, my wife and some other unknown to a place. But it is raining really hard and I think it will a bitch to fly in this. I put a black towel over my head and do a test flight. The rain has me soaked almost instantly and I can't see to stay in the air. This almost triggers lucidity because I have done this so often in dreams. I just can't make the connection. I do however try to relax and let my self flow into the air with a little more control. The same stuff I would do if lucid. I seem satisfied now. I take the towel off my head and see a rainbow in a yellow sky. The rain stopped. I hug everyone in a huddle and we lift off the ground.

I have a FA and I write in my dream journal. But it is not my phone it is the LOTR novel. I am making notes next to the text. I see Lothlorien and make a note that that was were we were flying to. I remember flying and feel like maybe I was briefly lucid. I write something about the elves. And then I feel like I am just writing a revised version of the book and copying only a few things from it.

I liked the dream control even if I wasn't really lucid. And it's funny how the subC remembers things you forgot. I had to Google Lothlorien when I woke up and totally forgot what it was until I read the WIKI page about it being the elves forest.

I'm home. A friend called me on the phone, I have to go with her ​ to a show. I'm running out, I sit with her on the bike, and she starts very fast to drive. I realize that I have on myself to thick socks, no shoes, sweatpants, gown and an old sweater. She leaves me in the middle of the road and tells me that she must go alone on this show.
I find myself in Italy, in a fairground. An old friend standing there. I talk in my sleep all the time in Italian. I'm still dressed like that, but on my feet I've got high-heeled shoes. I talk with him about his life. Very well I see all the colors in an amusement park, no matter what is darkness.
He begins to speak in Croatian. At one point, I hear a song, and he reminds me who's singing. Then I woke up.

I don't remember much about the first part of the dream. I can remember recalling earlier dream events later in the dream, so I know at some point in the begining of the dream K was telling me some history of a bridge. The first part of the dream I can really recall thought is being in the middle of a very small town, but the town had several really old looking Japanese buildings as well as a couple of newer looking buildings. There weren't really paved roads, it was mostly gravel and dirt drives. I was running around in a dirt square playing with some young kids like I was baby sitting or something. The kids were all ten or younger and wearing Kimonos and such. We're running around picking up rocks and playing tag. K is standing by a set of double doors at a new looking building watching us but I don't pay him much mind. When it's starting to get dark, I decide to go inside the building. K follows me. The first room inside was fairly small and looked like a den or a waiting room. There was a corner couch on the left with end tables and lamps. There's a young man with longish blondish brown hair on the couch talking to a little old woman. The woman tells K and I to sit, so I do sit on the other side of the couch but K positions himself against the wall watching the double doors we came through. Beside him is another set of double doors and I see that the guy on the couch has a clear view of it, and briefly think they're in spots to keep an eye out for danger or something. The woman is talking about our clothing not fitting in, and that the village would be happy to dress us like them so we'd blend in a bit better. I'm not really paying attention, instead I'm looking around the room. I notice a gift bag and some Bath and Body works things on the end table next to me and I "remember" that we brought them as a gift to the women of the village. Then someone comes in with kimonos and such for us to put on as well, and the woman leaves so we can change. I'm not at all bothered by changing in front of K or the other guy, and the old woman didn't seem to care that she was leaving me in the room with them to get changed either. I am facing the double doors we came through when I change but that's all I remember about changing. I know I had a jacket and pulled it on over the kimono because I felt odd and awkward in such clothes, and I had a pair of black gloves on as well, with red tips or stripes or something on them. When we're changed, we go through the double doors K was standing next to, not the ones we had entered through. There was a hallyway, and on the left was a gymnasium with folding chairs set up and people sitting in the chairs listening to a woman speaking. On the right were some drink machines and a door to a game room. The game room had a pool table by the door, and we went inside there. K and the couch guy took off their jackets and laid them on a chair then started playing pool. I stand next to the door and can sorta hear the lady in the auditorium talking, but can't make out what she's saying. I want to go listen, and so as much. K tells me to be careful and leave the door open so he can see me. I walk out and leave the door open, and peek into the gym. Its a highschool girl talking now, but what she's saying doesn't really register with me. Instead I get a gut feeling to look left. I glance to the left without even thinking, and see a white man with normal clothes on and a big expensive looking watch walking towards the pool room. There are two men dressed in black behind him. The man looks right at me, and then says something about the kimono being a good try to blend in, but that my coat and gloves give me away. He motions to the pool room and tells the two guys in black "The others would be in there" then starts to slowly walk towards me. K comes walking very quickly from the pool room to put a hand on my back and lightly push me so I'll start walking along with him. The man frowns and starts to follow us, so K puts hi arm around my shoulder and pulls me closer as he starts walking faster. I make the comment that if we're supposed to pretend to be brother and sister for this cover it's never going to work if he's holding me like that. He tells me not to worry about it, that it doesn't matter right now bc it's already blown and all that matters is keeping me safe. Somehow the couch guy is keeping the guys in black and the man with the watch busy so they can't follow us, but I don't look back to see how. K rushes me to the door we entered the building through, and stands me by it and tells me not to follow him, but to run away if the guys in black or the man with the watch show up, he has to go back and help the other guy. I stand by the door, and hear some people talking outside about being late for the town meeting bc they were out hunting for food. I took it as hunting game, not like looking for a place to eat lol. I look out to see whos talking, but it's so dark I can't make it out. The K comes walking very quickly again from the hall, takes my hand, and starts pulling me outside. I follow him, and a girl comes up and follow us as well but I don't catch her name or anything. We get in a car that I "remember" putting my rocks I collected in earlier, and we drive a couple of blocks, then park the car and start to walk away. K jokes that if he'd had a sword we wouldn't have needed to leave the village, but then I tell him I think owning weapons is illegal there and a sword is a weapon. He tells me that to be honest he doesn't know much about this place, that he only knows about the bridge because he wrote a paper or something about it for class once. Then I remember I wanted my rocks, and go back to get them. Neither K nor the girl are happy that I want to go back, but they don't argue with me really. When I open the trunk of the car I find that my rocks have been cut into shapes. There's a wizard made of quarts and a rabbit made of some sort of quarts crystal or something with brown spots. I marvel at them a minute, run my fingers along the rabbits rough surface, then realize I can't carry them all b/c they're too heavy. Around this point my mom called and woke me up >.<

Workout Schedule

Spoiler for Workout Schedule:

A woman is considering changing her workout schedule because a recently arrived man want to use the facilities at around the same time. She decides not to. Right now she's doing ab exercises. She notices she's in pretty good shape, so she keeps doing them for longer than she had planned to. I wake up messily.

Pretty short clip I remember: The scene starts on the top floor of my gram's old house. A younger cousin is grabbing some pot he'd hid. He goes downstairs and I'm the only one on the floor. The whole extended family is downstairs so there must be a party going on. Maybe it's the 4th or Christmas. So I start going through my stuff I haven't unpacked yet trying to find something when I hear a different cousin, same age, come upstairs complaining. Then he's basically whining and sort of crying and he gets louder. He's loud enough for the whole house to hear him but when he gets closer to my room I want to hide so he's not embarrassed I can hear him and stuff because he's really despairing at this point. I can't remember what he was so upset about, but he was asking why something was a certain way at one point. And I can't remember any more

I was with TD and we were talking about stuff that I remembered when I first woke up in the middle of the night (1:34). It was something really funny, and we were really happy and even kissing some. Then we realized that we weren't alone and it seemed even funnier. Philip and Mandy and Ben were there. TD and I were joking around with Mandy and Ben about teenagers. (It all made sense and was very clever in the dream, even though it sounds kind of lame now).

In the last dream of the night I was in this big house. I know my mom was there part of the time. It seemed like a lot was going on even though I have forgotten now what it was. I do remember at the end I was having trouble with my TV or computer. I needed some help fixing it. I looked and saw TD sitting at a desk behind me. I asked if he would help fix it. He said he would, but wanted me to look at this stack of papers he had in front of him. I then noticed a baby on the floor by the chair. I knew the baby belonged to neither of us, but I recognized it as a baby I had seen before but not for a while. The baby was about 6 months old and big and bald and completely adorable.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Went to sleep about 11.30 doing Nayia's MILD technique and woke up about 4. I know I dreamt something but could not remember a thing. After toilet break and water I went back to sleep doing again the dream visualization and saying to myself 'I'm dreamig'.

I woke up next about 6 or something (couldn't see the time but outside just about started to be a bit lighter). This is the snippet I remembered.

I was with my mom (dream signal that sadly I overlooked) and she told me that my granddad died (he's still alive) and he left me a pet, but I can't keep it. We were actually going to the house where the pet was to see it. So we got there and a guy with a little beard gave me the pet. It was a small animal (on two legs I think) looking more like a toy and nothing furry. Its smile was thin and wide like one of those gremlins in the movie. I really liked it, it was in my lap and was making funny things, was very active, really cute. I was so hoping I could take it home as I was thinking that it doesn't even need to be fed. But then I saw a paper, a guide of some kind that talked about feeding it. I think I saw a picture of carrots in there.

The guy told us that granddad gave him the pet a long time ago but then they had a falling out and he changed his will leaving me the pet instead. Recently things became good again between them, but who would pay the huge amount of 3-4k Euros (or dollars?) just to change the will again as it was too expensive to do it. So that's how I ended up with the pet.

He was just taking care of it until I came to take it. He was quite sad though. In the end I decided to leave him the pet and I told him he can keep it.

While writing down this dream snippet in my dream journal next to the bed, I remembered just a very tiny bit of another one, it was more of a flash than a well formed dream. As usual, again, it was about chocolate (safe to say it's a dream sign as well by now).

A woman told us (I think I was with dad) that she'll make a cake to drink with the coffee. I asked if it is with chocolate, but she said n, it's with fruits. I don't much like fruit cake, but said ok anyway. End of dream-whiff.