non-lucid

I am in a house, it's a tatty old house, it's quite big but it's old and not decorated inside, it's also quite dull and dingy. I am with a bloke, it might be my hubby but I'm not 100 percent sure but I do know he's my partner in my dream....Yes it's my hubby, I just remembered anyway....we have to sell our house and me and my hubby are getting everything we can to take with us, well we're looking anyway but we haven't really got anything lol. I suddenly remember about the blood on the carpets upstairs, I'm not sure what the blood is from but I think it may be from us murdering someone! We are both rushing and I say to my hubby "hurry up, they will be here soon!" I run upstairs and look at the manky brown carpet on the landing and I can't see the blood. I kneel down and pull the carpet up to see if the blood has soaked through to the floor boards but it hasn't. I go downstairs and see blood dripping from the ceiling, I now panick because I know if the people moving in see it we will get caught, I'm petrified! My hubby shouts "quick..there coming" he comes to get me and I'm crying, he says "what's up?" I say "I'm really emotional..I love this house so much and I don't want to leave it" then I wake up.

Dream Non-lucid

There I was, inside of this purple room. It was a game room where you could ride roller coasters, play videogames, play pinball, and everything else that you can dream of. My friend, Lindsey, has always wanted to listen to dubstep, so I tell her to go to the roller coaster and I will chose the song. She went on, and I went up to the person that was controlling all of the lights, music, etc. When I was next to him, I saw that he was on a ledge. On my left was purple stairs, and right in front of me was a purple rail. The man, which was supper old, was controlling a computer that was white on top of a purple stand. "Can you please change the song to umm... Neopolitan Dreams," I asked the old man that was on the computer. He opened up a software that he was using to open the songs. I started to head away, and was about to get onto the roller coaster when I heard that it was the original. I was all confused, and I guess that Lindsey could tell because she said, "Is it the wrong song?". "Yeah," I replied as I stepped out of the cart I was in. I headed back up to the old man and said, "I mean the dubstep remix." He opened up Firefox, and sighed. I guess he didn't have the song on the software. I headed back to my friend, and hopped into the roller coaster. I then woke up.

Dream Fragment Non-lucid

My details are very hazy, but I am trying to remember it the best as I can. I was on a map, I can't remember the name, on Call of Duty. My friends and I were talking about submarines. We would also drive the submarines, even though we were not underwater.

Last Nights Dreams
Dream 1

A woman has brought me an adult Pigeon to look after and I am taking really good care of it. I take it out of the cage to give it a fuss, I stroke it and put it under my chin to snuggle, the Pigeon loved it!. I sit in bed with it (( the bedroom is different to my real life one )) I have the Pigeon on my finger by my left shoulder, after a few minutes it grips onto my finger really hard but something was wrong...my hand was slightly twisted so I knew it wasn't right, it got really heavy and was weighing me down, I try to get the Pigeon off my finger but I can't. I eventually manage to lift myself upright and I realise that the Pigeon is now under the duvet (( I found this odd because a moment ago she was on my finger )). After a struggle I manage to get the duvet off the Pigeon. The Pigeon suddenly goes all stiff and I say " ohh god, she's dying!" ((I also find this odd because she was fine a minute ago)) I now manage to get the Pigeon off my finger and hold her, I say "come on, please come on" but she died. I am now holding a Pigeon with a baby girls head on it the head was bigger than the body and slightly swollen, the face was also a little deformed and twisted. I now put her on the floor because she's stopped moving but then I see her twitch and she yells at me "Angela!...how can you leave me like this!!!" I quickly pick her up and hold her cheeks, I then say "please baby come on, come on!" I'm trying so hard to keep her alive but her eyes begin to roll and she pulls a face, suddenly she has a Pigeons head again and she let's out a painfully squeal with her beak...she is now still and dead.
Her beak is now all twisted, I go over to my Hubby who is lying in bed and I say "she's gone!" my hubby then says "shhhhh" and I see my Uncle A behind me. I giver her to my Uncle A and she is now a tiny baby girl. My Uncle A holds it in his hands and my Hubby says "just chuck it up the garden!" I am shocked by this and then wake up.

Dream 2

Myself, my Hubby and some other people are in a room, some bloke is having a go at my Hubby. This bloke comes over and hits my Hubby...my Hubby doubles over clutching his nose in his hands. My hubby now lifts himself up and says something to the bloke that hit him and my Hubby gets really angry, he really scared me aswell. My hubby suddenly launches at this bloke and lands a right good punch into his face...the bloke goes flying across the room and lands on his back on the floor. After a while the bloke gets up and all the left side of his head is smashed in from where my hubby punched him. The bloke now hurries off and I'm really proud of my Hubby then I wake up.

I am at my daughters school and I am standing with Aunty C, Aunty L and some others. I need the toilet so I walk to the field where there is a cupboard, I open the cupboard and pull out 1 of the trays to wee in. I pull down my trousers and knickers and crouch down by the cupboard, the doors are covering me, I place the tray under me and hold it tight and wee in it . My Aunty C and my sister now walk over to me and I have to quickly shove the tray full of wee back into the cupboard and I think " why am I weeping in this?" I pull my knickers back up and pretend I was just looking in the cupboard for something and hope to god they didn't see what I was doing which they didn't. We now all walk back to the playground and join the others. My Mom is now there aswell and my Aunty C tells my Mom about me having a wee, I'm shocked because I didn't think she saw me but know I know that she did, my Mom says "she's got a weak bladder like me" lol
My Aunty L now says " I've got to go and see the Grandkids" she points and says " it's over the road" we all walk over and I see the kids come out and think " what's she on about, there Aunty M's Grandkids not hers" the others standing with me say to Aunty L " get Miss Miles to take you to the graph board" lol they say this in a joking manner and laugh. My Aunty L now walks off to the school doors to see the kids. We now all go back through the school gates and onto the playground to get our kids.

Last nights dreams
Dream 1

I am outside with my Pigeon, I put her on the grass to see if she can fly yet but she runs off a little, I try to catch her but before I do her wing falls off , I pick her and her wing up and fix her back together. I now let her go again and she wonders around the grass, I'm still worrying about her wing and then her head falls off lol. I quickly go over to her, her body is just lying there and her head has rolled a little away from her body. I pick up her body and place it on my lap and now I pick up her head. I look at her head and then look at her neck area, her neck area has got like a plastic maze thing in it which has a little ball in it, a bit like the ball mazes you get on the top of kids bubbles, there is also a small catch that fits onto her neck that I need to attach the head to. I put her head back on and hear it click into place and she is now all better
Dream 2

I am in a house and there are a few people in here too, there are 2 main people, a man & a woman. I think the man was my partner in my dream. Anyway... I'm trying to light my fag when my lighter suddenly bursts into flames, I'm holding it in my hand and see all the flames but it's not burning me and for a minute I find this weird and wonder why the flame's aren't burning me. I throw the lighter and ask " does anyone have a light?" I get one from someone but it doesn't work so I throw it. The main man and me are now having an argument, I'm accusing him of having an affair with this woman, he denies it and packs his bags. The woman starts packing her bags as well and I say " see, I knew you two were having an affair with each other!" he shouts and then they both get into the car, wave then they leave.

I am in the woods and I hear a noise. I look across and see 3 wood pigeons in a tree, I go over to take a look and all 3 of them fly away. I now take a walk through the woods and in front of me I see blood all over the floor and pieces of thick jelly-like skin stuff. The skin stuff is shaking, I get a stick and poke it and I can't understand why it is shaking when it's not alive. I walk forward more and then I see 2 dead whipped up Pigeons on the floor amongst the blood, pieces were everywhere and feathers were scattered about all over the place, it is an awfull sight.
I now see a purple bird hobbling away and I fear for it so I quickly reach out and catch it, it now turns into a Puppy and I think "uh!, I thought it was a bird!" I now look again and realise tha it's a fox cub and not a Puppy I can see red fur on it like what some fox's have.
I get to the vets with the fox cub and put it safe in an open top box and place the box on the floor. I now go and get a urine sample bottle for something and then go to my car, I get in and drive to Telford. I park up and go into Telford vets, I'm looking for something but I'm not sure what. As I'm going through the drawers I suddenly think " ohh god, I had better get back to the other vets, the box hasn't got a lid on it and the fox will get out and wonder around the vets and might get hurt!" There is another woman with me, I tell her we have to get back so I get the keys and fiddle about with them as I try to find the key to lock this vets up. I say to the woman " I hate messing about with keys!" we get back in the car and head back home. ((dream skip))
We are back in my vets now, I open the door and go in. I see a Nurse putting my Fox into a cage and I'm really relieved that it is ok. The Nurse is struggling as she tries to put the Fox into the cage so I go over and help. I stroke the Fox and say "it's ok" the Nurse pushes it in and ends up in the cage herself the Nurse manages to climb out and I stay and reassure the Fox that it's safe and ok now lol
The Fox is now inside a bag inside the cage and I'm trying to stop it from getting out of the bag I now walk away.
The Fox now turns into a Man the Man is talking to me and tells me that he come's from a place called Llandudwee, I say "you mean Llandudno, that's a place in Wales, I've been there" He say' "no, it's Llandudwee, it's a place on another Planet"
I now need a wee and a Nurse tells me that I need to do a stool sample and hands me a tub to put it in ((what the hell!! LOL!!)) I'm very embarrassed about this and wonder why she want's me to do this but I carry on. I see the stairs and they are quite wide and in an open area, the stairs get smaller as they go up. I walk up to the top of the stairs and there is 1 door at the top which is a toilet door, I shut this door and walk back down the stairs. The man now walk's towards me and goes to walk up the stairs, he laughs and say's something about me going to the toilet and shutting the door, I say " no I've not been yet but I don't want anyone behind me looking at my arse , he says "ohh" and laughs again.
The toilets are now at the bottom of the stairs, there are about 4 of them and they are all open for everyone to see you. I have my short dress on and lean over knowing he will see my arse, my arse is now showing and the Man is looking, I feel really sexy and want him to look and for everyone else to see me LMAO

February 9, 2012
Last night was pretty dissapointing- I could hardly remember anything :/. It might be because I went to bed a couple of hours later than usual, so hopefully after a good night's sleep tonight, things will look better.

There is a possibility that I could have had a very short dream. Something to do with my alarm clock. But that's all I can recall.

There is something wrong with the Pigeon and I have to help her. People are trying to get me to help but I don't want to because I'm scared (( I wouldn't have been scared in real life)) no one else will help her though, they have to do something to me to get me to help the Pigeon but I can't remember what. I'm lying in bed and get up, I still have my pyjamas on and now decide to help

Dream 1

I am in the town Center and a lady comes up to me and asks "do you know what the law is on smashing windows" I think for a minute and then say "no I don't" I feel really embarrassed because I should know.

Dream fragment

Something to do with a race and we all had poles, or something like poles!

I had a dream that my hubby and I were packing up boxes (we're getting ready to move in RL) and I went into our bedroom. When I walked by the bathroom I noticed something unusual. I walked inside and the tub was filled up with water. Not only was it filled up with water, but it was like... filled up PAST the line but it wasn't over flowing. It was like looking at water through an invisible tub, if that makes sense. Like glass was surrounding it but it wasn't. As I was staring in wonder at this piece of work, I noticed that I was standing in water. The whole bathroom was now an invisible force holding up water. I pulled the plug out of the tub to let it drain. Then I noticed something else strange. The water was now only water-like on top, on the surface and it was just air below. It's so hard to explain.

Anyway, I stepped out of the water-filled bathroom and ran down the hallway. "T, I think we have a big problem. I let the water out of the tub and now it's flooding our bathroom and bedroom." He ran with me down the hallway. The water was in our bedroom now and we were trying to save our stuff. I picked up my son and told T to get our clothes and stuff together so we could leave and that I would get my son's stuff. He said ok and then we both started to leave the bedroom. T put my son down in the hallway and we stared in horror at the door to the bathroom. There was a strange shadow figure standing behind it. I picked up my son to protect him from whatever it was and T opened the door. There was nothing there but the strange water.

Then I turned suddenly down the hallway and there was something, I think, standing by the baby gate that we keep there. I couldn't look at it directly, like it was in a blind spot. But my first instinct told me it was alien. So without hesitation I ran towards it to attack. ( I always, ALWAYS, approach aliens like this in my dreams.) I remember thinking, oh my god, it's happening, it's just like in my dreams. (stupid.)

I went to kick it down and woke up making a strange sound in my bed, kicking my leg. I was too scared to go back to sleep right away.

After finally convincing myself that it was just a dream, I fell asleep.

I had a long and interesting dream about one my teachers. She's my online teacher and I've only met her once on campus in person, but her name was different and it started with an L. I had been on a stage with this girl that I used to be best friends with in high school. We were goofing around, spinning around on chairs and stuff. I thought we were going to get in trouble but Ms. L was laughing at us like we were her favorite students. We were there for some kind of audition, but we never did anything but spin around on chairs, goofing off. We were selected anyway.

Then we were living on some kind of campus with Ms. L. Ms. L and two other teachers lived in this little area where there were three houses. There was a gate though. I went to visit Ms. L for some reason and rang a bell at the gate. I didn't know which one I had rang because they weren't labeled. I was hoping I'd get lucky though. I waited for a while and kept wondering if I should have come this late. I realized it was like nine at night. Finally I figured nobody was coming and nobody had heard me, but I was thankful they didn't because I didn't want to get in trouble. Before I turn to leave the lady who lived on the right side was checking her mail. She was kind of rude, but I said, you're Ms. (something) right? She was like yea, you should go to bed now.

So I turn to leave and I ran into this kid. (This kid looked like a character in the X-Files episode I watched right before bed.) He wanted me to follow him so I did. He broke through the gate and everything is hazy after that. I remember it feeling like some sort of video game, like we were in a pinball machine. Then he took me into this room and he started throwing knives down at this person on the ground. He wanted to kill the person, but he was just messing with him. I was begging him to just let me out and I swore I wouldn't tell anyone what he was doing. I was trying to act nonchalant about it, like "who cares what you do." but I planned to call the cops if he let me out. I was really freaked out. He just kept throwing down the knives and this poor victim on the floor had knives sticking out of his skin and he was crying and screaming for help. I didn't know what to do.

I woke up.

I remember dreaming of having a Hunchback. And I was not happy, And I thought it was real, And I was so upset. I remember trying to use all my muscle power to make my back into a normal spine again.



Then my sister woke me up, So I went back to sleep and I had another dream, This time it was of Dr. Who. But it was Dr.Who/Saw.

I was with the new Dr. It was a cage type thing, In the middle of a massive building, It was pitch black. I think there must of been some alien or monster of sought.
I was paired up with the Dr. Then this monster of sought, Was smashing and banging against the cage we were in.

Then I woke up to dog barking, Then I fell back to sleep, And then the most beautiful dream happened.
I was in the "Garden Of Palaces" I was walking around the gardens, And these palaces were all around the Gardens. I was walking next to some annoying American tourists. Everyone around the world knows how annoying American tourists can be, They're so loud... Anyway, The tourists were fat, Taking pictures saying "OMG look at that castle" I got annoyed and I was like they're palaces!

Anyway, I left them some how, And I seen a palace I made in my head, It wasn't like I imagined, It was like a light house, Black and Red. It was meant to look like this.

The gardens shined so beautifully, So pretty. It was like they radiated there own light energy. It was strange.

Then I woke up from my sleep. That's it for now.

Woo! I had my best lucid yet. It was first one I ever had where I wasn't even bummed when it ended because I was satisfied by it lol. Unfortunately my memory of everything else from the night (and I know there was a lot) is totally gone, it picks up exactly where I started stabilizing. :/ Oh well, worth it!

#1 - Back In The Jungle

So, I'm back in the jungle/forest area. I vaguely remember becoming lucid and I'm pretty sure it was like it always has been for me lately, it just kind of happens without me going through a realization process and I feel like I just already knew it from that point on. I notice that the dream is starting to fade, so I start rubbing my hands together and continue to do so as I walk around and closely inspect the environment. And it worked! I was next to a little shack that couldn't possibly have held any more than bathrooms and had some cement floor with a wood covering extending out maybe ten or fifteen feet from it. Around that, it was all very foresty area, except for through some trees I could see down a hill and there were kids playing on a playground off in the distance. At first I just sat down in the grass I looked at the dirt and the grass and touched them to see how real it felt. It was all incredibly vivid, and I could've spent the entire dream looking at the ground. I thought about staring up at the sky but I noticed out of the corner of my eye that it was somewhat oddly textured and tinted and I had a creeping feeling that if I did the dream would end, so I decided against it. The foliage was so beautiful that it was hard to convince myself to actually do something, but eventually I got up and walked over to a VHS tape box that was left on the cement area. It looked like a mix between Star Wars and Spaceballs, and the text on it was vanishing as I was reading it but I managed to pick up on the fact that it was all nonsense. I saw a water bottle on the ground so I went and picked it up and took a drink - delicious. Afterward I spit on the ground because I had a lot of moisture in my mouth, then marveled at the fact that the dream was so vivid that I actually felt the need to spit. I wanted to go walking through the forest but didn't want to have to carry the water bottle. At first I was like but then, I realized I was in a lucid dream. I stuck the water bottle behind me where I couldn't see it and said "Put water away!" and dropped it. I could feel a weight behind me like it was still in my essence, but had physically disappeared. I walked for a minute then reached back and said "Grab water!" and clenched my hand to feel the water bottle suddenly there. I chuckled to myself, took a sip, and then put it away again. As I was walking into a deeper and darker area of trees, I saw a school bus drive out but didn't pay much attention to it, I was still amazed at all the plants. Suddenly, after a turn the area had turned into what looked like the back of a small store. Also, during the transition at the end of the trees I'm pretty sure I saw Erii's avatar come to life with all three cat heads staring intently at me. In the store area I laughed to myself some more because there were people moving around cardboard boxes and the boxes all had more nonsense written on them. After that, my vision quickly faded to white and I could tell the dream was ending, but I didn't really mind, I had my fun.

#2 - Strange Decisions

I was playing an online game and watching a new Pokémon movie in the den, a strange room of the house for me to be doing this in, but my dad kept distracting me so I moved it into his office, an even stranger room for me to be doing it in. That's it for that one.

So, we were in the future, where programs and code could be simulated into real life. I had ported my Roll The Dice mod to this simulator, however in a non-lethal manner, as since it's a real life simulation, if you kill someone, they are actually dead, they don't respawn. So of course, coding a program that could kill people would be illegal.
Now, this simulator had like a waiting room, and in it, it had a browser for simulations that you could enter, just like a server browser. I decided to pick a random from the list, and got thrown into a modified Roll The Dice - basically one with over 1000 rolls, while mine only had 150.
The simulations went on at real places that people either owned or rented, so you got ported to those places by entering the simulation.
This simulation went on on a big hangar ship. Now what happened next, while experimenting with awesome random powers, is that everyone heard a massive loud devastating explosion.
People began panicking, running away from the ship, and some said to each other that someone died.
I just stood there, wondering what the hell happened, until two unnoticed policemen grabbed my arms, lead me to the site of the explosion - which was completely trashed - and asked me why I did this
I was shocked and said I never coded this into the program, but was cut off with further interrogation.
A bypasser yelled at me: "Yeah of course you didn't. Who else could it be?"
I was taken into custody. As I was waiting there, I heard someone was messing with the lock on the door.
That same bypasser opened it up, and told me to get out.
Outside the jail, his motorcycle (futuristic of course) was parked. He told me to get on.
While he was driving me out of town at insane speed, I asked him what was happening.

"Your life is the same, Mikkel. You need something new."
"Why did you blow up the ship?"
"You're now wanted by the government as a murderer. If anyone sees you and recognizes you, they will turn you in, or due to the new laws, try to kill you."
"Why would you do that?"
We reached our stop. We were outside a small empty house covered in snow, in the middle of nowhere
He put a mechanical bracelet on my arm, grabbed onto it, and told me to spin a device on it
I did what he said, since he in the other hand held a knife. I did what he said, and I got the feeling that we were travelling back in time.
I looked into the window of the house. A girl was sitting there, not noticing us.
He told me "you know what to do" and pushed me off the motorcycle.
I didn't see the next part, but what he seemed to want, was that I went inside the house and talked to the girl.
Turned out well it seems, because the next part of the dream, a couple days later, she was my girlfriend, and in the dream I actually loved her a shit ton.
The bypasser said "I have the parts".
"For what?"
"The bomb".
He forced me to get on his ride, but never specified a reason as to why he would blow up the ship.
"Put it there and light it up" he said as he pointed to the middle of the dock. I did as told, then we both ran the fuck away.
The blast was massive.
We hid in a container. A good ten minutes later, I peeked out.
Remember how a person died? That person was my now girlfriend.
I noticed the bypasser walk off the ship.
I ran after him, knocked him over from behind, grabbed his throat and yelled, half crying "what the hell?! why, WHAT did you do that for?!"
His reply: "Because I hate you, you fucking prick."

02.09.2012

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Not really keep track on the recall thing lately...still had to worry about waking up early before going to the Biology Lab before 8 AM...and that is something I CANNOT be late for (there's no way in hell I'm taking the make-up, I WILL NEVER DO THAT....that's a fucking pain I hear to do).

Dream 1:

I was walking outside somewhere, probably just walking about obliviously like I do in my non-lucids. The environment is too hard for me to describe, everything is probably in small gaps.

I see a blonde DC, she looks like the same build of a girl I normally sit in front of Biology lecture. She was wearing a pink shirt, and a jacket over it too I believe. Her chest was flat, if my memory isn't being a tease.



She was kind of cute, but something in my mind, I was concerned because she looked a little TOO young for me, in fact, she looked like she was 14 or something.

I look at her, and she smiles at me...I don't know what I did after that, BUT I believe the dream skips to where I see her again, and she tells me, "You finally found me," with a smile on her face.

She really looked like she was genuinely smiling at me. I started to follow her, and we were walking near somewhere standing behind a short line or something. I see another blonde who is sitting on the floor in front of us to the right.

She looks at me and the blonde DC weirdly, as if she thought we were a couple, but I didn't bother to worry about it too much.

Then I see a quick image of Alyzarin, apparently she's a moderator of DV because I swore I saw a post saying she moved some thread.

I'm not sure if I saw this image flash of Alyzarin's avatar WITH the blonde DC that looked like she was the same age as me, just that her body composition looked a little too young (and now that I think about it, I would've probably done the "Ignore Test" to see if it was a random DC if I was lucid...and I would probably ask if she was Alyzarin, everything just felt like that would've been a possibility).

I know I had more dreams, but I can't remember the key points since I kind of slept abruptly this time, can't even jot down notes.

Usually I remember after I calm my mind, but I don't have that luxury right now....6:55 AM, better get ready to get to the building for lab at 7:30 AM, and cram study for the quiz since I didn't feel like studying for it last night (just so much shit that I feel wouldn't be on the quiz even if I did study).

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was in my family's living room. Someone, probably my brother, had just finished watching something on TV.

I was led to believe that I could now watch whatever show I wanted. But I knew this wasn't really true. My brother and probably my mom just wanted me to think I could watch a show that I liked so I'd stay in the living room. But as soon as they knew I'd stay, they's switch my show on me.

I had chosen some old Saturday Night Live episode. But as soon as I saw that my brother and mom were playing a trick on me, I got up and left the living room.

I went down into the basement, into a room that was apparently mine. I could hear the Saturday Night Live episode from upstairs. I knew my brother and mom were now playing the episode really loud, and that they were going to play the whole episode, just to taunt me for not having stayed upstairs.

The room in the basement was pretty empty. It was lit by greyish-white natural light coming in from a window high up on a wall in front of me. My sight was mostly focused on something right in front of me, either a book or a paycheck.

I was now in some busy place in a really busy part of town. I don't know whether I was inside or outside. The place seemed like a fancy kind of bar. But it also seemed to be outside, out on a street like a small town's main street, only as packed with people as a street like Times Square.

My vision was still very focused on one small thing, probably an envelope. I was surprised to have found this envelope. It contained my paycheck. I hadn't expected to receive my paycheck so soon.

I pulled the paycheck out of the envelope. There were a few problems with the writing on the check. The amount for the check was something like $814 or $810 (I wish!). But the way it was written in the side box was all messed up, so that instead of a number, there was something more like a nonsensical word.

I looked over to the line where the amount of the check was written out. This line seemed to be done correctly. But there was one more place on the check where the amount was written out incorrectly. In this spot, the check gave a horribly small number, like $30 or $40.

I knew I was supposed to be getting the amount that had been written out. But I doubted any bank would take such a messed up check. I also worried that if a bank took the check at all, they'd only give me the lower amount. I was sure no bank would give me the benefit of the doubt, since people in places like banks always seem to hate me.

But this was either my first or my last paycheck. It was very important that I have this money. So I needed to get things fixed. I determined to fix things. I thought of going "back" to my job, which may have been some kind of parks job.

But I was now walking away from the main street kind of area with my mother, sister, and niece. I really needed to go talk about my check. But I couldn't let my mom and sister know what I was doing. And my mom and sister wanted to get back home.

My mom and sister were using my niece as an excuse to go home. But my niece didn't want to go home. So, as an excuse to go take care of my check, I told my mom and sister that I'd take my niece back to the main street area of town.

But I got the feeling that my mom and sister now had the idea that I only wanted to take my niece with me so I could do something bad to her. So I didn't push the idea.

We had been walking through a kind of residential area. But now we had turned a corner and were back in a small town main street kind of area. I decided I should be honest. I told my mom and sister that I needed to go see about fixing my check. I also said I needed to get a haircut.

But we were now headed down some red-carpeted steps, down into some fancy restaurant. We were being led by a tall, very pale, blonde man with a little bit of a goatee and stubbled cheeks.

My mom and sister and I had been to this restaurant before for lunch. Either my mom or the young man thought it would be impressive to take us all back to this place for dinner.

But I knew this wouldn't work. During lunch this place was cheap and relatively empty. But at night (it still looked like midday outside) this place became packed with people because of some crazy comedy show. The price of the food also skyrocketed.

But I didn't say anything. We went down through some glass doors and into a nice lobby area. There was another set of glass doors showing a packed dining area -- people almost shoved against the glass doors, and everybody beautiful and in nice attire.

The name of the place was written on the door in gold capital letters. But it was written on the inside of the door, so that from our side of the door, it looked backwards. The name of the place was "EVERYTHING WARHOL." I knew this place served really good Indian food.

A bald man in a tuxedo came out and made a reservation for us for dinner. It was written on a page from a restaurant order's notebook, like you see in diners and so forth. There were a lot of scribbled numbers all over the page.

The man gave the reservation to either my mom or the young man. Nobody even looked at the reservation, just assuming we were going in soon. But I knew we'd have a long wait. Finally I snuck a look at the paper. Amid all the scribbles, I saw our reservation for something like 8:37 PM. It was now around 5:30 PM.

We were all heading back out, with the others in my group thinking we'd be back very soon. But the young man, the last person to go through the first set of doors before I would, stopped in the doorway, the door half-closed on him, and turned to the waiter to ask how long we'd have to wait for a table.

Apparently this restaurant, or at least the staff, was Belgian, or maybe Swedish. The young man asked the waiter, either in English or French, how long our wait would be.

The waiter replied in French (I thought of it as Belgian-French) that the wait would be a little long. He spoke in French because he was sure that the young man wouldn't understand it.

But the young man was either Belgian or had been in Belgium for some time. In fact, he was only striking up a conversation with the waiter because he wanted to impress my mom and sister by showing off his knowledge of French.

The young man had a short conversation with the waiter. The waiter kept saying "peut-etre," or "maybe," which I kept seeing in my head as "petait." I knew the word meant "maybe," but I kept mixing it up with "petite," and thinking the waiter was saying "little," like, "It will be a little wait."

Eventually the young man got the understanding that we'd be waiting three hours for a table. He rubbed the goateed corners of his mouth and walked out the door. I must have followed.

I was now walking out with my mom and my sister in what was supposed to be my great grandma's old neighborhood. We passed my great grandma's house, which had been sold after my great grandma had died. The place was now being remodeled and expanded by the new owners. I could even see sillhouettes of the new owners working inside.

We passed the next house, in which one of my cousins lives with his wife and kids. For some reason, I looked on that house with scorn. I didn't want to have anything to do with those family members.

We kept walking on. My view was more like the sideways tracking of a movie camera. My mom was saying how she'd always liked this neighborhood because it was much safer compared to some other neighborhoods.

I agreed. But something about the sight of my cousin's house made me angry and greedy. All I could think about was buying out every single house on this block, and maybe a few other blocks.

I wanted this area to be completely empty. I could even envision it being empty. This way, I thought, my immediate family could live in happiness, being safe from violence and free from irksome family members.