non-lucid

I think to date, the scariest dreams I have had were the one's where I'm swimming around at or near the bottom of an ocean, sea, lake, etc. I have had many dreams like that and let me tall ya, it's scary as hell. Sometimes I'm able to see; other times it's near pitch black down under and I sometimes feel fish and other creatures brush up against me. Scary stuff! I get the shivers just thinking about it.

I've actually tried to hold my breath while I was on or near the sea floor and then I realized that I was able to breathe just fine but I was still scared as hell.

Dream Fragment Non-lucid

I was, for some reason, a turtle, and I wanted to learn karate. I was standing in a line to sign up for it. There was also other animals there that was signing up. I eventually signed up, and was very happy. I remember sitting down in a desk and thinking, "WTF?! I don't think that you learn karate by sitting in a desk!"

#7

I was inside the game counter strike.. In a boxing/capture the flag mod. It felt like forever but it was a two minute game of capture the flag and I actually did get in there and fight one guy. The fight looked a lot more realistic than counterstrike, but I felt nothing even though I was hit down to 13 health.

I've just recently gotten back into Lucid dreaming and decide to put my dream journals up here. This entry is actually from a while ago (about a year) and is the only actually DJ entry I made until this week but I felt I should include. Note: Names Of actual people are changed I feel its much easier to read with a name than just a letter. I taking it pretty much verbatim out of my Journal including my record keeping notes something may only make sense to me sorry

1/17/11
Not lucid, seemed extremely real no control

I was in Jimmy's car not sure how I got there but we were driving around. Some where along the line we ended up with Grant but I don't really remember how. We decided to grab some food at McDonald's but of course I was in my Dream Town so everything was a little weird. The McDonald's we went to was along a highway not really sure why it was so far away but I had definitive seen this place in another dream (at the time I didn't know I was dreaming so I assumed I had been there in reality this is quite common in my dreams). It was a large lot along a highway in the middle of no where and next to the McDonald's was a huge hotel. The inside of the restaurant didn't look like a McDonald's at all, but some other fast food joint (I can't seem to recall which one though). I only got a Mountain Dew and I don't remember eating but I'm pretty sure my friends got some food. When we walked out the scene changed, the hotel was across the street and the McDonald's look like a gas station. I was in a heated debate with grant on weather or not McDonald's drinks and Burger King drinks taste the same, and eventually we ditch Grant (not really sure why). We started driving along the highway and somehow ended up on a continuous loop of highway which at the tie didn't seem weird (I've also seen this highway in another dream). It suddenly became night and we drove around the loop for a while. Some how we ended up back in down town Dream Town and it was day again. We stopped at a small burger shack, which was also from another dream, and ran into Maggie. Apparently Jimmy and Maggie were very close friends which for some reason made me jealous. We started talking and she kept talking about some joke someone had made in class the other day (Neither me nor jimmy had a class with her) and kept telling us how close we parked to her. I asked jimmy if we had picked up Grant or just ran into him earlier but he didn't respond. Maggie said she wanted to go to a sit down restaurant and I suggested a place down the block which I was apparently a huge fan of. Suddenly it became night again and the burger shack unfolded into a stage and a band came out and started playing metal. We decided to just go back to Jimmy's house, which bared no resemblance to his real house. We went up to his parents room and Maggie started playing Mario Kart while me and Jimmy talked. For some reason I walked out into the hallway to see if there was any mistletoe (it was spring time in the dream) and kept thinking about these bells my grandma had in her kitchen. when I walked back into the room I opened up the nightstand and found a metal box labeled extreme dark chocolate with M&M's in it and ate some of them (I hate dark chocolate). Jimmy's dad came home and asked us if were where hungry because he was making ham. Jimmy and I both told him we had already eaten but when Maggie didn't say anything I got extremely worried that she hadn't heard him. Jimmy's dad saw the M&M's and warned jimmy to be careful to to stain the bed sheets and mentioned a previous incident involving an union. I burst into laughter and asked Jimmy what he was doing with an union and how he managed to stain something with it but before he responded his dad said we should eat some real food and not just junk (something that my parents say not his) and then I woke up.

Well, my recall was practically destroyed last night since I smoked too much weed too close to when I went to bed. :T I did wake up and fall asleep early in the morning though, so I managed to get something from that. Other than that, all I really have is this note I wrote down, I don't remember the dream connected to it.

Fragment - Checking DV in the morning, later afraid to ask someone out.

#1 - Deliriant Relapse

This dream had a very surreal feel to it. I remember that my cousin G was in it, and somehow he and I came to the conclusion that we were having a shared dream (though I wasn't even lucid, kind of disappointing ) and then we started getting ready to go to McDonald's. Then my cousin K, G's little sister, shows up and gives me some really cryptic warning which I don't remember but it tipped me off even more to the surreal feeling. Unfortunately I STILL didn't realize I was dreaming () but I noticed how everything was shifting and inconsistent and incredibly trippy - much more so even than regular dreams - and I started to fear that I was on a deliriant trip. I got really pissed at and disappointed in myself because I thought I had successfully kicked deliriants for good and it started making me really depressed. Fortunately, I woke up not long after that and realized I was just dreaming.

:\ I talked about being in a dream AND explicitly noticed how dreamy and non-reality-like everything was, and I still didn't realize I was in a dreaming. Damn you, subconscious! I mean, I know I've had like three lucids in the past couple days so I don't have a ton of room to complain, but still... I want more. D:

*sigh*

10/2/12
I am in a tattoo shop, about to get my second tattoo [which I plan on getting soon IRL]: the words 'Start Something', potentially on my chest. [This is a nice motto I have about being proactive and doing something productive instead of just thinking about it, as well as the name of the first album I ever bought, which I listened to everyday for 2 years walking to and from school during a not-so-good time of my life]

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I'm at the edge of a lecture theatre, watching a hot DC lecturer give a talk while lying down. Later, at home, I find some sort of oral hygiene kit behind a sofa, which unfortunately has a dog excrement on. This then means we have to either give up or put down the dog, who is sometimes an old man.
I am then in the perspective of Modern Family's Phil as he explains how he burned all his not-so-masculine clothes [his femininity/childishness being a recurring theme in the show] in order to impress his father-in-law. Like previous dreams, telling the story transports me into it, and the clothes become mine. I manage to salvage some of my favourite clothes but the rest are incinerated.

I was in a car as a passenger. I was talking to the guy driving about a combination of a song and "lucid." I was referring to lucid as a drug or something. It could have even been lucid dreaming, but I referred to it a just "lucid"; furthermore, I referred to it based on a false memory, or an earlier part of my dream that I don't remember, where I was talking to a girl about the same thing, or she had mentioned it to me, and I just remembered it.

ANYway, I was talking to the driver about it. He was dressed kind of weird, and he was kind of weird. He took my comment of the song and "lucid" and decided to act it out. He rolled down the window and hung himself out the window hanging on by his legs on the inside of the door. His feet were kind of touching the steering wheel.

I told him "No, stop" or "No, don't do that!" as there was now nobody holding the wheel. Before we crashed, I took the wheel.

Dream Skip

I'm in a room with a bunch of people. It is some weird kind of police training or something, but not very formal. It is also not entirely a police academy. It's like friends or something. I also mentioned to one of them about lucid.

Dream Skip

I'm in a room with a bunch of women exchanging gifts in bags because of something nice someone had done. I wasn't going to get a gift and I knew it. I was kind of hoping someone would think of me, but at the same time, I don't like to be the center of attention. I don't really like getting gifts, so I was OK with it.

Somehow, lucid was also part of this scenario...I think.

Longest one was Toronto again, looking for a movie to watch...then something about starting a new unit in some school...and one about watching the next ep of Gurren Lagann and it was really intense. Didn't get a very good sleep on the floor, lol.

February 11, 2012
Finally! An actual dream (not lucid, however). It was much more vivid than the dreams I have been having the past couple of days, so I hope this is a good sign. Here it is:

It starts out in school, me and someone else are talking (it could be my friend, I'm not sure). We are chatting about the buses- something about a problem with them, I am not exactly certain what that problem was. We walk out of the school (I noticed that the school I was in wasn't my actual school, but my middle school). There is one bus in the parking lot, the one we are supposed to go on. I believe at one point one of us points out the weather is bad and that a hurricane is coming.

My dream skips to my house, and this is where things start to get a little strange. It is dark outside, like night. I am talking to someone else, but it is no longer my friend- I actually don't know what it was. It looked something like a cross between a person (both genders ) and a goat... It has no clothes on. We take notice to the weather, and how it is about to start thundering any second. You can sense the lightning in the air. I tell her to come inside because of the lightning, and she starts freaking out- running in circles. I am standing in my doorway trying to coax her in, when all of a sudden she lays one the ground, trembling and crying, like she's trying to hide herself. I wonder what is wrong and look out towards the driveway, where a family is just standing next to their car, staring at her. I realize that she was probably embarrassed (whether it be because of the fact she had no clothes on or was a duel gender goat thing, I have no clue). I finally step out and carry her inside.

The dream then changes to me in side a room upstairs, one that is not actually there in RL. The goat thing isn't there anymore, replaced with a miniaturized version of some guy at my school (with clothes on, thank god). I think we are being filmed, which leads me to think that this whole scene is fake- just part of some school project. I pick up the guy and put him on a dresser, and we start talking. It's a little fuzzy what the topic of our discussion is, but at one point I think I start to notice that I have a very weird family. The scene moves to quickly to a car to show my 'dad' who I say has a question mark face- which is true (not in RL). The guy's facial hair is all twisted and shaved to form a bunch of question marks. It then shows my 'mom' who has these weird bracelets with birds on them, and when she holds her arms out, they fly off. Then I wake up.

I have to say this was a pretty strange dream. I tried to WILD after that, but I ended up just falling back to sleep

EDIT: I think I had another dream too, not very vivid but it's something. I know I have been very interested in Personality Types lately, and I am always wondering what personality types my friends are. I can remember that, in my dream, a guy friend of mine said he was something like an ESTJ, or ENTJ. It was very short and that's basically all I can remember...

I was just outside my school and I saw some woman who works there talking to a student abot the Playstation Vita, and I said several times that I have played on one, because I have. She ignored me everytime however, so I called her a bitch, and then the dream suddenly changed, she said "what?" in an angry tone and everything just seemed darker. The next thing I knew I was walking down this road which looks like one on one of my routes to school, but it seemed to go on forever, I stopped and rested a couple of times. When I finally reached the end I heard this man and woman talking about some kind of parade.
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After some time of not being able to recall I'm at my house, and there's a parade going on. There was mention of some kind of terrorism tied to this parade, and I wanted to stop it.
After this the dream is severely fragmented and I can not easily write down what happened.

I was in the village but in fact it looked like some some camp. Suddenly I saw a big tank truck going on the road. And the truck tilts over. I rushed to the truck jump when cabin, open the door of the truck and look inside. There are two people in a white cosmic like suit. It I reach inside and pull one out as the truck is a on fire. I managed to save just one. I carry the person in my arms running away from the truck. Take the person's helmet off and I throw it away. It's a girl. She was blondish straight hair,he is quite pretty. She wraps her arms around me, and holds me tight. Then I take her somewhere in that village. It seems like there are people from my work and from uni as well. But I cannot see anyone... neither anyone who would run the whole resort. I am a little bit confused. It just seems like some big abandoned camp. I walk around a bit. There are many cottages and different places. Some areas look overly posh others just opposite. For example, there are two huge aquariums that run along a foot path. Its long and quite narrow. I am amazed by them. I also wonder who selected the fish for the aquarium as there are kinds that should not be together. Or as an opposite, there are plenty of toilets around, as a little houses. I look into one of them and there is a urinal and that turkish kind of toilet. Its all filthy and dirty.

I get back to the girl. She welcomes be back. I feel there is some bond between us. The accident is all forgotten. She starts touching me and kissing me. I reciprocate.

Later, still in the camp, there is a meeting with my work people and my boss. I cannot remember what are we tailing about, but the atmosphere is quite tensed. I think I told her that I am leaving.

Then I go back to the girl and I start touching her on her legs and between. I am thinking that even if we have sex I must use a condom as I don't know her at all.

Later, I think there is some party in one of the big houses. There are just a few people there and I don't really know them. Suddenly, I see a smoke coming out of other a window. I start searching where the smoke is coming from. then I realise, the smoke comes close from the house next-door. There is some cottage next door with hey and similar stuff. I tell people and I want to call fireman. I find a phone and I cannot remember the number. I try 999. Someone picks up and I tell them that I need fire brigade. The redirect me. I try to sound as calm as possible and to explain them what is happening. It is a woman on the other side of the phone. She asks me for a post code. Because I believe it is still Leyt.....one.. I tell her the beginning but I don't know the last three digits. I ask people around, but they don't know as they are also just guests. .... then I wake up...

I’m in a huge submarine, in a room somewhere on the lower levels. I’m in a group of some kind of super heroes or mutants. I find a way to a small, easily defendable compartment where we can hide for a while.

There is a mutant king running the kingdom of the good guys. The bad guys, who are attacking in the huge submarine, are threatening the kingdom. They can win the battle easily and so very little actual fighting takes place. The king is on his way to exile.

We are advancing on a corridor in the submarine. We run across another group of mutants, who are on the other side. Neither of us wants to fight, so we keep postponing it, talking and thinking about how to win them. Suddenly there is a noise and the submarine starts to sink. Some electronics are not working anymore but the lights are still on. We have no idea what happened.

The king is looking over at the submarine as he is leaving the country. He sees is shake and start sinking. He says something to the enemy diplomats escorting him. He doesn’t know what happened either. But they don’t turn back.

12/2/2011
I have certain special abilities, and she knows it. That's why she tricks me into standing on the trapdoor when she opens it.

It's dark down here. I explore. There are several rooms. There's a man and a child. The child is somehow my responsibility, and she is feeling sick. She has a headache or something, and she wants to take a tylenol. However, she's only about two years old, and that's below the ages it says on the bottle, so there's not really anything I can do to help. She has relatively short curly blond hair. She wants to have long hair.

I'm trying to order pizza for us. I want sausage and garlic, but the guy wants sausage and powdered sugar. The device for ordering pizza is in a side room. It's basically a newspaper, and you indicate your order by flipping the pages a certain way. I can't find what I'm looking for in it. One of the pizza places I find, we can't order from, because they would have to drive through 7 countries to reach us. The pizza would be cold, even if it made it through customs.

I'm in a bookstore. A group of police types is trying to catch me. I'm wearing a bright orange gas mask that just covers my mouth and nose. I use knockout gas. It disables the store patrons, but the police have gas masks too. Their masks cover their entire faces and are solid black except for clear stuff over their eyes so they can see. All these gas masks are a bit awkward and reduce a person's field of vision.

I'm running around. I knock over one of the bookcases. I find a way out. There is a shaft going down. A chair is in the way, though. I knock it into the shaft and it falls (I never hear it land). There's a rope there (which I left, of course), that I hang onto for safety while I climb down these shelf things. Eventually, I reach the bottom of the shaft. There's another little bookstore here. It's still dangerous for me, but there are only patrons and clerks here at the moment. They are no problem for me. I steal two giant Christmas cookies and eat them while looking for a place to hide.

(real life)
I got a call from this guy who lives in houston, he said hey Jamone this is Joseph (he sounded like a ghetto accent).* I said no man this is Josh.* I expected him to say oh woops I called the wrong number but instead he said Oh well if you see him, tell him Cicero is looking for him.* I went with it thinking this guy will realize I wasn't who he was trying to reach but he wasn't too bright.* I said aight mayne (with a ghetto accent).* He said hey man you know anybody that wants some handlebars?* I said nah man I don't.* He said aight well latah mayne.* I laughed without an accent saying bye.* Anyway, the next day he called again but i was in college and I couldn't really answer it.
The next night, I had a dream about that guy finding me and here it is.
(dreamed this)
So for some odd reason, we were having a church basketball tournament and we were on the road to New Orleans.* We finally made it to where we were going and it was a restaraunt and a gym and an arcade at the same time.* When we got there, I recognized some people from our church.* We had to take our shoes off at the entrance like at a kids play place or something...
When we walked in, my family went to get a table and I was going to have a look around the place.* I started walking toward the arcade when these two black guys came out of the arcade and said hey Josh what's up man?* I was confused.* He said, don't you remember me?* It's me Joseph!* I then kinda paniced thinking he was going to get mad that I was pretending I knew him on the phone.* He said and this is Cicero remember?* I pretended again like I knew them and was trying to find a way to get back to my family.
Then he said I got those handlebars you ordered!* I figured I was going to have to buy some handlebars to who knows what (the guy never told me what they were for in real life) and then I could go be with my family and this would all blow over, but that's not what happened.
He pulled a brown paper sack out of his jacket pocket and it looked like drugs.* I tried to go toward the restaraunt but they said come on this way and they said we'll go over here so nobody suspects anything.
*Now I'm not a racist so don't judge me!*

We go down this long hallway and at the edge of the hallway is a window on each wall and I can see a basketball gym out each window.* They shut the shutters on the windows and he said alright here is what you get, it is the good stuff.* I kept trying to find a way out but there was none.* I looked and said yep that's what I wanted (trying to get rid of them as fast as I can).* They said alright now you got the cash?* I had left my wallet in the truck and I was now wondering if they found out I didn't have enough money, would they shoot me or try to fight me?* I said oh I left my wallet let me go get it.* They said aight we'll wait here.* I then rushed to get to the restaraunt to tell my family the odd situation and on my way there my dad walks bu and says hey we are leaving, I've been looking for you.

I go to the front door and there are shoes everywhere!* More people showed up and now there are just piles of shoes by each door!* I look for my shoes where I left them and they aren't there.* I then see a little girl sitting on the floor with a cast on her left femur, putting on shoes that are a little too big for that look exactly like mine.* I said I think you are wearing my shoes and she says go away these are mine!* I then said fine have it your way.* I took them from her and she starts screaming.* People look at me and I said that she is stealing my shoes!* I get them and they don't fit me, they are too small.* I then hear my dad say hey Josh your shoes are over here hurry up.* Man I felt stupid.
I gave the shoes back and her older sister who is about my age said don't worry about it, she has been a brat since she broke her femur.* I said it is okay I can understand what she is going through, I broke my femur around that age also (true story I actually did).* I go get my shoes from dad and then I woke up.

Brush with Lucidity

I was on some a team of soldiers. We wore black, and so did the enemy. It was only pretend, but it became real.

The enemy had machine guns while my side had gloves that could shoot out of the fingers. We were facing off with the enemy when we all decided to take a deep breath and think over what was happening.

We all slowed it down and backed off a little. I wished I could float to make a smooth, quiet retreat, so I said to a friend, "I wish we were lucid."

My friend said, "Lift your thumb!" The idea was that if we were lucid, lifting a thumb should give us the lift we needed to levitate, then we could move backwards in flight.

I lifted my thumb, but it didn't work. Another brush with lucidity that absolutely failed.