non-lucid

July 17, 2010
Slept sometime between 1am and 11am

Muppet show drama
There was a Miss Piggy like character named Holly, who the other muppets were trying to get rid of. I'm not sure how they reckoned this, but if they could get Holly to jump on the trampolene 10 times, it would mean she had to leave. I watched them set up the act, and she stopped on a couple of occasions. Some other muppets were jumping with her, encouraging her to keep going. She completed her 10, but I woke up during the point they told her it meant she had to leave the show.

At a gym
Working out. Or so my notes tell me

Money stress
I remember us vaguely being at a house, first. Dad is stressing over our money situation. We all go out to a Donair place and each contribute to the bill.

Boyfriend troubles
I find my boyfriend is still sleeping, but he's set up his bed in the closet.
"Wake up, you need to get your day started," I tell him.
"I can't," he says.
"Well, then I can't pretend like things are okay between us," I said. He positions his head in a way that I can kiss him, but I ignore it and walk out.

I talk with his mum and my mum about something, but I can't recall what.

i was in a town where everything was a pale shade of yellow and blues. the cars, the bikes, the houses. everything was neatly manicured and 'where it should be'. the cars were all rounded and the bikes as well, everything looked cartoonish and bubbly, the colors 2d. the hills were very steep and we were on bikes, i was following a young boy and girl. they would ride down the hills on their bikes with no care in the world, where as i applied the brakes and had some fear, though on the last hill i rode it to the bottom. gravity and other laws of the world did not seem to apply, as i slowed down gently and quickly when i applied my brakes instead of slamming into the house at the end of the road. i separated from them and was riding around in backyards. many of them had pools. at one yard they had what looked like a small bridge going over their pool, i tried to bunny hop onto the bridge as it wasn't connected on the sides and fell into the pool. the water was forcing me to the other side of the pool into what felt like a suction, at that end. i felt that if i didnt get out i would be sucked down into it. i managed to climb out and was dripping wet. i left the bike in the pool and went wandering. in-between two houses i came to a very small area which had broken bricks on the ground and green moss and grass, i remember thinking this is the first time i saw vivid colors. it felt as if the entire town was a set-up, a fake place, and that i found an area that they hand't gotten to yet. [in a dream the previous night i was in a town that felt the same way, although dark, and came to an area that felt more 'real' than the one i was in].hopping around in the water were little fish and i wanted to grab one to show to the kids, for some reason this was important [like i had to show them that vivid life existed]. i continued wandering and eventually found the kids. we went into a building which is where their father worked and on the table in the building was a small birthday cake, i ate some with my hands, thinking it didn't really matter if i followed rules of etiquette. i went wandering room to room. in the first room was a young girl of 15 who was laying on the bed touching herself, fully dressed. she had just gotten off the phone with who i thought was her bf. i remember lifting up her shirt as she looked at me charmingly. i left that room and looked into the next room and saw a man holding a baby lying on the bed next to who i assumed was his wife and behind them, an older woman, who was staring at me vacantly, but not positively, as if i had invaded their space or that she knew i didn't belong in this reality. i shut the door and went to the next one which had a man and woman, about 19, spooning each other. out of the last room walked a young naked black girl, who i directed to the room with the other young girl, who by now was openly masturbating. i started to feel like this was a dream while thinking that if i stayed, and came, that i couldn't remember where i was sleeping and did not want to make noises or night-emissions in my clothing in my sleep if i was somewhere that wasn't 'appropriate'[a friends house or the like]. i left them and walked outside. i asked the father how i wake up from the dream and he told me to say Letter, 'like the kind you mail bombs in', though he pronounced it 'letteh'. i gave it a try though i did not wake up. i went outside and met with a young blond girl with straight bangs. i started to fly by the same motions of swimming and we floated into the air. we were flying around and i felt very free, knowing i could do anything. i told her as much and as we were flying i told her "look around, it is the sea". i closed my eyes and when i opened them again we were above the sea with sailboats beneath us. i imagined boston and then we started to approach it, though a boston that was more dark and dirty feeling. as we started to come down, on a highway, i told her we could do anything and jump as high as we wanted. we jumped onto a building which was moving up and down and started to run through them. i eventually lost the girl and came to an area where Mallory was working. she was setting up shelves in what looked like a fine foods warehouse. her boss told me that i could not interact with her, as she was working. i walked over to her to tell her i was dreaming and when i went to kiss her, i woke up.

before that dream i remember sitting in a place that resembled coolidge st [previous apartment], there was a cute blond girl there that i was interested in. she had spent the night, as we had a big sleepover, and left her bag. i was waiting beside it for her to return and we started talking. i remember watching her from afar the night before, preoccupied with something that i can not now remember.

next thing i know i am at a baseball field with my brother and his father. they are pitching mounds of grass to me which i am hitting with a baseball bat. further away is a group of younger teen boys and girl all flirting with each other. i tried to hit them with the balls but continued to miss and could see one of the girls sliding her shorts to the side and touching herself. my brother and i laughed about this.

earlier than that i was at a family party, though not my own family, the gaucher family[my step-brothers side], watching old home videos that eddie[step-dads brother] had made. we were sitting around a tv eating food, my sandwhich kept coming undone, someone handed it to me and it was a mess.

DREAMNONDREAMSCENEDESCRIPTIONLUCID

I am in a house, in what looks to be my grandparent's house... Well, I am with this girl in there, and aparently, for some reason, we have to stay in the house forever . Well, she started making this really gross but pretty food. It looked kind of like that painty thing with the paint on it, but it was metal, and there were circles that went down in it. She started making this really gross concoction in it. It was all rainbow, different colors in each spot, and it was over heat, boiling. Some of them had 2 colors mingled together. Well, I tried some, and it tasted like disgusting BREAD! Then, I went to the front porch, and I saw my grandparents and parents. I then became lucid, probably because of them.

I had a strange dream where I was with 2 girls from my last class, and some other guy I don´t remember who it was. We were in a park in vässarö, and we had a conversation and something like a poop competition. After a while in the dream some people from scrubs came into it. It was Bob Kelso who accidentally went in the poop (I did so also before him). After that Bob came the girls went to there cottage. JD from scrubs was also there, and bob and JD where starting up a little conflict. I came in the middle of it :s. There was also another guy there. After a while we all went out from a cottage except JD. He saw our poop spots on our butts, and he checked if he also had it. Then the dream became black and everything started to disappear.

I was in a classroom like room; except there weren't any desks or chairs. My sister was there with me, I don't really know why we were there.. She was just sitting there in a daze or something; not really sure what was going on.

There were some pets in the room next to us. I would occasionally walk in there and check on them. At one point, there was one little kitten in there about 3 inches tall and 4 inches long. At times, I would carry it into the room and play with it. I would always put it back though.

Later on, I opened the door again. The kitten had now grown to the size of a full grown sheepdog! It now had very thick black hair and a white mane (awwh, how cute). I was so terrified..I shut the door quickly so that it wouldn't come in. My sister didn't seem all that surprised.

A few minutes later, I opened the door to find that the cat was not there. I looked down on the floor for it. I then spotted a tiny black thing. I looked closer and realized..this was the cat! It was the size of a cricket. I can't recall what we did after this. I woke up.

I'm in an unfamiliar kitchen. Around me are several friends. I willingly ate something that made me see colors. My mental process was really intense, as I was opposed to the idea, but really optimistic at the same time. We got in the car, I was in the passengers seat looking out across the vast dreamscape. The hills kept changing from hues of blue and purple back to green, back to blue.

There was somebody important I had to meet. People kept telling me that he was famous and really wanted to meet me. I was rather indifferent to the whole ordeal, but went along with it anyway.

We passed farm lands, dirt roads and ended up at an... aquarium - a very large one. The walls and ceilings were made up of giant fish tanks. The ceiling was very close to my head, I could reach out and touch it without very much effort at all. It was actually right above where my head should be, but somehow all the people who should have been much taller than me had no problem with this. There were very large sea horses, so large that I feel if they hadn't been so fragile and I had been in the tank with them, I would have been able to ride it around.

Some announcer was pointing everyones direction to a tank where a sea lion and a seal were about to mate.

The "famous" person who wanted to meet me showed up around this time. It was Anashnu, my dream guide. However, this didn't even jog my memory to become lucid. I simply greeted him like an old friend, hugging him. He said that it was important that he show me something. We would have to make several stops first, but it was important to restore my faith in the world.

First, we came to a long winding road that hugged the beach and the ocean tightly. There were lots of rocks along this road, beyond them the beach and beyond that a calm ocean with very small waves. There were several people gathered on some cliffs. I'm not precisely sure what it was that they were doing, but one of them was a middle aged woman who was spouting about things she wanted. She somehow managed to summon a flying machine contraption. It kind of looked like the robots I draw often, it was very colorful with long spindly legs and the body of the thing was an oval.

Next, Anashnu said that we were about to reach our final destination. We went further and further down the windy road that bordered the cliffs edges. It began to rain and the fog came out in a very thin layer. We stepped outside and in the distance I could see thousands upon thousands of people gathered on a huge platform cliff over the ocean. They were all facing the sea, somber expressions on their faces.

We drew closer and closer, and I suddenly knew why they were all there without anyone having to say anything. They were all the people in the world who were going to change it. They all wanted nearly the same things that I did. They were all trying to change the corruptness of the world by gathering in one place, sending their wishes to the sea to be reached from every corner of the globe. I edged nearer to the cliff edge, despite how many people were there I didn't feel like it was crowded. I looked and saw that the mass of people stretched for miles, more were coming in single file lines from paths, out of cars, flying in from airplanes, etc. There was a girl with glasses near me and I remember looking down at the water and nearly falling in. She pulled me near to her and smiled broadly. She said that we were stronger than the people who call themselves powerful, and that we are going to make a huge impact on the world, all of us, together.

03.03.2010

Wet Phone (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm really going to have to get more vigilant with looking out for dreamsigns! This entry contains two fragments from two different dreams where I missed my most common dreamsign- the wet phone.

Part 1- I was part of a group of people going for a tour of Colditz Castle (a notorious WW2 POW facility). It was on high ground in Germany (I think), and the weather was very cold. There was both ice and water on every surface, and for some reason I was in my bare feet. It was almost strange enough to turn me lucid but not quite. There was a kind of underwater moving platform which performed the function of ferrying people across the river beside the castle. I stepped on with two other people, and was submerged up to my waist in freezing water. Halfway across, I remembered that my phone was in my pocket.
"Shit!" I said, and reached in to get it. Somehow, the inside of my pocket was totally dry and the phone was fine. I kind of considered that it might be a dream, but I had been so sure of reality up to this point that I never bothered doing a reality-check.

Part 2- I was at a beach with my brothers, somewhere tropical. We swam out to a sandbank with some marram grass on top, and stood on it for a while. Then I felt my phone in my pocket, and realised I had been swimming with it in there the whole time! Somehow, it was undamaged. I can't believe I missed that!

Starts off with me on a vacation with a bunch of relatives. We are all down in the basement of wall looks identical to my house at home. There are several fishing rods standing up on a stand that look weirder than normal.

I go in a room and see two small wolf figurines/statues. One is gold, and one is gray in color. For some reason I decide I need them and place both into my pocket.

Fastforward: I am laying in bed with Sookie from Trueblood (I don't know what the hell is with me and hooking up with girls from that show, lol). We hook up.

Fastforward: Me and all my relatives are outside having a nerf gun war. The nerf guns look very real however, and shoot very realistically as well. I pick up an RPG, and it shoots the foam rocket identically to it's real predecessor. I thought about how sweet of a nerf gun it was.

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I am driving in a suburban to see a surprise that one of my friends has for me. When we get out of the suburban, I see a full sized, as well as an alive T-Rex.

"How in the hell is that thing existing right now?!" I asked my friend.

"They did took DNA from bone morrow of a T-Rex that was frozen." My friend replied (been watching too much Discovery channel I think lol).

I continued to watch in complete awe, as it's trainer made sure the T-Rex would not do anything ridiculous. I remembered watching this whole thing and noticing there was a small rope "caging" in the T-Rex.

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I decided to try and DEILD when I woke up in the morning. It worked, at least for a minute. I am standing in the middle of a grass-field, and a wolf is standing in front of me. All of a sudden I feel the dream pulling away again, so I start to inspect the grass blades on the ground to stabilize it. It worked for a couple of seconds, however, it soon completely crashed down, even after an attempt to rub my hands and spin.


Note: Starting to notice that the gold/blonde wolf and gray wolf in my dreams seem to be yet another dream sign, as they show up a lot.

I am standing in front of a spanish speaking man. I say, "Como se dece?" (how do you say?) he looks at me strangly and says, "Come se dece," with accent on the e, as if correcting me.
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I was at the lunch table at school with some friends, It was my birthday. A came by and asked what I wanted for my birthday, I noticed that her hair was more orange than it used to be, and her voice was slightly different. I made a clever remark about wanting her that I can't remember now and stared at her for a few seconds, smiling at my cleverness. Her mood changed to annoyed and she said, "Oh, so you want sex." She walked off.

I relised that I had made a mistake, and chased her down immediately, she hadn't gotten very far, I apologized. to my relief, she accepted my apology.

Key: Non-Lucid, Lucid, Commentary/Notes, Hypnagogic Hallucinations

Hopefully I'll have some multiple detailed recall soon rather than all these fragments and disjointed scenes.

Convicts Fragment

I was trying to catch two escaped convicts. I recall having tricked them in to going to some kind of theatre. I was sitting in a comfy red chair and looked over at them. I told them they were rumbled, and one ran. The other guy just seemed to give up. I thought that one out of two wasn't bad.

Sex Fragment

I was having sex with someone. We were outside in the middle of the high street in a nearby town, except nobody was around except for me, the woman I was with, and apparently a few other random naked women.

TV Fragment

I was with a weird mix of different people I've known over the years. We were all at J's house and were going to some TV show recording. The next thing I recall is that it was over. I was sat next to D. When I got home the show was already airing and my parents were watching it. The house I was in was a mix of J's house from earlier and my deceased grandmother's. I was using a computer to talk with C online. I was telling him that he should have come along.

Then my parents said the show was over. I turned to the TV to see the camera pan over the audience. It stopped on me! I looked really haggard and was a bit pissed off.

Spiders Fragment

There were spiders on my bed. Two small light brown coloured ones and several black ones with turquoise patches on their backs. I was squashing them.

I'm arachnophobic, so that's where this dream came from.

The Name Change

I seemed to pick up a bit from the previous dream. I was in the same house. I walked out back in to the garden, which was completely like my deceased grandmother's. I had a laptop and sat on a bench. J came out in to the garden next door. He said hey, and I replied to him but using IM on the laptop. We had a brief conversation where he was talking and I was replying using IM. Eventually we both realised I should just speak since he was in front of me.

He told me he had changed his name to "Grandfather." Which I said was a bit dumb. We were chatting and he hopped over the fence and we went inside. For some reason he was now about 4 inches taller and bald. We were in the kitchen grabbing something to drink, when my parents walked in and were confused as to who the random extremely tall bald guy was. Then they realised it was J. I told them he wasn't J any more, he was "Grandfather" -- with a knowing glance that it was dumb.

I had gone to Uruguay on a trip with friends. I thought about how I could see my friend Adrienne there, and decided I'd contact her. (IRL she's actually in Paraguay, not Uruguay..) The whole country seemed to be a rain forest, and it was flooded over with water. I was a bit scared, and we were riding in a bus (friends and some school people). It was like a bus/boat, since we were in water and actually steering oars? I was terrified, because I am rather afraid of water. We just swished away, and I was so disappointed because I was expecting more of Uruguay.

Transition to Staten Island. I'm about to go jet skiing with my brother. I head outside and it's a really bright, sunny day. I'm standing on huge stairs ascending above the ground. I see that my brother is on a huge-ish bus and a jet ski's beside him. A cute looking guy is next to him, and I take note of his good looks. I get on the bus and I realize the guy's Rhett. I exchange some small talk with him, possibly involving college. At some point, I get off the bus. I seems that I have to go back home for some reason. As I start to exit the bus, I see that we are in a road that snakes through woods. It's just about the start of dusk, and everything has a light blue glow. I glance at the woods and realize I probably have to walk through them, they look very formidable. I tell my brother to drop me off a little bit further so I don't have to brave them. I think I get back in the bus for like, two more seconds. They drop me off in front of a bunch of houses. I have no idea where I am in the Island, I would guess Todt Hill because of the woods and grandiose houses. I enter the lawn of one of the houses, dusk has certainly settled in. An Indian girl who looks around my age approaches me, assuming she lives in the house I'm trespassing. I just tell her that I need to get to Forest Ave because I can walk across the island and to my house from there. (I figure that much walking will help me lose all the weight I gained in NY, in any case. Good plan all around.) She says she doesn't know and I enter this house complex. I think she lead me there. I'm in the main lobby, and this really attractive older guy (I'd guess late 20's early 30's) approaches me. He's some guy that the Indian girl lead me to. I talk to him for a bit and he offers giving me a ride home. I think about the stupidity involved with riding home with a complete stranger, but then I kind of imagine having sex with him in his car, and it's appealing. Nevertheless, I just kind of laugh and talk to him for a bit but don't accept the ride. I debate for a while what I should do, I think maybe he's safe because the Indian girl knows him and all.. But then again I don't know the Indian girl. Then I think that if he pulls out a gun or something while we're driving I could just seduce him.

I go to the lawns again, and I'm surprised to see my mother entering the Indian girl's house along with m grandmother. There is some kind of party there because everyone is all dressed up. I feel relief as now I can just go home with my mom, but I don't enter the party because I'm dressed really casually and not wearing shoes. I become a bit anxious again, as I have to hang out in the lawn and the lawn scares me..a bit.

There was some point where trouble happened and I tried calling the police. But the number wouldn't work and I wondered whether it was really 9-1-1 or 9-9-1..etc.

In case anyone was wondering, no one is online at 5:30am in the middle of the summer. I wonder why that is.

It was dark, and I was next to a field of tall grass. Knowing there was a pack of wolves in there, I nervous, but I went in the grass anyway and started leading the pack. I had to keep moving and be careful so they wouldn't turn on me.

I dove out of the grass and into a tent in the nearby forest, where my fellow campers were staying. There was something in the forest that would have attacked us if we hadn't gotten in the tents soon enough.

Scene change. I was hiking through a desert-like area, and it was really bright. There were a whole bunch of nets and ladders between various pillars made of red stone. We started climbing, which was scary. The nets were triangle-shaped, so there wasn't much to hold onto at the top. Luckily my dad was able to help by pulling me up the rest of the way.

So I'm standing on this brownish, somewhat slippery/crumbly/sandy stone about 20 or 30 feet off the ground, when I notice there's a giant lava geyser right next to the pillar. First it sprayed up a stream of purple stuff, then it burst into flames. Despite the hot, intimidating stream of lava spouting up right next to me, I was most worried about falling off the edge and going splat.

Dang, why can't the dreams I'm having now be this intense? I found that old dream while going through my school stuff. One day I got really, really bored in Spanish class, and I happened to remember a dream, so I wrote it down on a random page. I'm surprised I can still remember the details of it as clearly as I do.

So this dream attaches to the previous one about the frozen lake. But I consider them to be two different dreams since I see no segway. Why am I having so many dreams about cheating and stuff?

I am here in my girlfriend's room cuddling and what not. Everything seems peaceful until she gets a text message. I pick my head up and acknowledge that the phone chimed. But she seemed suspicious. She didn't let me see and she tried to hide her texting way too hard. So I kindly asked,
"Who is it babe?" and she replied,
"None of your business!" I grew extremely jealous at this point. So I took her phone and looked through it. She didn't even try to take it away. It seemed like she wanted to show me something but couldn't muster up the courage to say so. I look at her face and her eyes tear up a bit. I then look at her phone. It's a Samsung Behold. Anyone who has owned this phone knows what the messaging looks like. So I see the message she got and it's from a person who she entitled on her phone "Brace " His message read,
"Well, I got to go." and her response to that was,
"Ok. Te amo." "Te Amo" means "I Love You" in Spanish. And my heart sank to my feet. I didn't want to jump to conclusions so I asked her, in a very loud voice, if she was cheating on me. She never looked up at me and didn't say a thing. I knew then she was. I couldn't believe what had happened to me. I got cheated on. Man, worst feeling in the world! I was depressed and just didn't care about a thing anymore. So I magically arrived at this seaside McDonald's on the shore of the frozen ocean. The place looked futuristic. I walk forward and a big glass wall gave the people an amazing view of the ocean and their nearby pool. (Why?) Yes, they had a pool. But this pool was steaming, and I could here my parents walk through the doors and saw them head to the pool. I turned around to the register and ordered some food. Only thing was I ordered one of everything on the menu! After a few minutes, I took my tower of food to a seat in the corner where no one would see me in my sorrow. Magically, I finished everything in only a couple of seconds. Yet, I felt empty inside. The End.

Wow, I need to work on my conclusions haha...

I'm just waking up at 5:45. I can remember two of my dreams so far. Maybe this is because of the waking journal started last night? The date is 7.17.10.

1- I'm playing a game of... dominoes? I'm playing with my mom, my brother, cousin, and also uncle (we are taking turns sitting out since it's a 4 person game). It is extremely competitive and there is a big prize for the winner. I think my uncle knows what it is, and I think he likes it because I is extremely motivated to win. We are all in large cabin/vacation home in the woods... deep in the woods. Don't see any other houses. The game is like an event, one event in a much larger competition: family olympics. I remember making my cousin really angry. He claims i'm not playing to win and i'm just making it so that he can't win. He shouts and cries and eventually up and down the stairs a few times to release some of his pent-up energy and anger. I don't remember who won... but it wasn't him

2- Now I'm in a race, but is it really a race? I'm chasing a few other people up a very steep hill. Its just another part of a road. There are quite a few houses coming off of the road. The abundance of woods feel similar to the house I was just in. I feel exhausted and worn out from all the running. I don't know what we are running to... YET. I remember seeing another group of people running from the opposite direction. They have a soccer ball!??! It's like we are two teams playing soccer on one REALLY long field (better call it 'the street'). I remember my team winning the ball. I can't remember or recognize any of my team mates and none of them look as tired as I feel (maybe i'm just out of shape :'(... We push forward. It's like the field is never going to end, i'm never going to see the goal. I do however see the goalie eventually (so far from his goal?!?!?) But it doesn't matter that he's far from his goal because I never even reach his goal. I get over run by the opponents.

That's all I can remember for now... Also, I feel tired writing this, I feel exhuasted. It's not from the lack of sleep, I feel like it's from the race. Maybe my subconscious needs a rest.

Second dream posted in here. Awesome! Well, here it goes...

So me and every one of my cousins that I have ever known decide to go swimming. We all get our swimming gear on and head off to the lake. The thing was that when we arrived at the lake, the whole thing was frozen! Every bit! There were people ice skating, ice fishing, and building snowmen on the surface. All in winter gear. We couldn't understand, it was the middle of July! (BIG dream sign I missed ) But, none of the less, we all rush to enjoy the day anyways. I follow up and theres a point when the ice breaks and a little river flowed through in which we had to jump to get across. But right before I make my jump, I see to my right a large kid in a brown sweater with two white stripes sandwhiching an orange stripe attempt to jump across. Sadly, he Superman-ed and took a blow to the face by the edge of the other side and fell into the cold, cold drink. I laughed SO hard I almost didn't make it across myself. But something about a fat guy trying to jump an icy river makes me chuckle. Does that make me a bad person? Anyways, we get across and climb a small mound of snow. To my surprise, I realized this wasn't a river. It was an OCEAN. Frozen as far as the eye could see. We kept running until I felt the ice crack a bit under my feet. I said,
"Whoa! Hold on! Let's not all go at once!"
And we all went in three's. Except for one of my larger cousins. I let him go by himself hahahaha! I tipped-toed all the way. Then, as I was surveying the area, I hear an enormous crack! this is what I saw before the ice broke. I turned my head swiftly and I see two of my cousins drowning in the water! Somehow, they couldn't swim. I dash to the water and dive to save my family. The water was SO cold!!! It made me gasp and I took a bunch of water to the lungs but I continued to make my rescue. My first cousin wasn't that bad to get to the surface. He's real skinny. But my second cousin was a little chubbier. I was trying to pull him up to the surface but he kept kicking and using my face as a foothold. He eventually got up but mysteriously, I kept sinking. I was at ease for some reason. Like it was inevitable. I accepted it and closed my eyes. The last glimpse being the distorted sun hitting the water surface. The water was the deepest blue you could ever imagine! Suddenly, I open my eyes and I am sitting next to my girlfriend in her room.