non-lucid

03.07.2010

Taking photos. (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I went to bed later that usual and that decreases my recall always. Second dream of the night:

I was at home trying to fall asleep. My wife appeared with a couple of slices of pepperoni pizza. I was surprised she brought it. It was dark in my room. Everything appeared to be in its place. My wife said, "Well... if you eat this right now, you might get horrid nightmares!!!" I said, "Well... I do never have nightmares..." I was trying to recall what cheese and pizza could do for dream recall.
I had in my hand a round white thing. I think it was a jawbreaker candy. I have never eated one of these, but yesterday I saw them at the olive oil store. My manager offered me one, but I declined it. So I guess this was drawn from daily residue.

There was a lot of people in this dream. There were a blend of co-workers from the Olive Oil store, my manager from the Pata Negra store and the owner of the Pata Negra store.
We were in some sort of party. Some DC were made up as well. There were several tables. We also had some customers in the party.

I was talking with my Olive Oil manager's daughter. She appeared very attached to me. We were talking about work and about what to do next.

A customer asked me to take a pic of the entire party. She handed me a very tiny camera. First it was attached to like a large iron stick. It was very hard to handle so I just grabbed the camera.







I tried several times but the camera could not focus properly. I was not able either to fit all the people in. All the DC were randomly around the entire party (and it was a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiig place) and I could not take them all in my pic. For some reason, I had to take at least 20 people in order for the pic to be valid. I was able to grab several people, but the pic was not focused as it should be.

I said out loud, "This cam is crap!!!!" I was worried because Javier hear me saying that in front of the customers, but he said nothing.
I left the party area. I was outdoors, but I was in a very odd place. I do not recall it properly, but I think it was underwater. Everything was blue and at the very end of the scenario, there was a round building.

To enter this place, I had to jump over a police tape that was attached to some traffic cones. I was so annoyed for the camera that I just broke the tape and walked to the round building. I said something like, "The deep blue sea"

Ah, feeling quite happy. Last night, after reading up on MILD (including my own previous experiences with it) and "rehearsing" reality checking to things like darkness and water, I decided to try MILD again. I went to bed, reciting "I will have a memorable, vivid and recalled lucid dream tonight." I tried to really take it slow and focus on every word's meaning, visualizing when I could. As I started to fall asleep, it became harder to concentrate on visualizing and meaning, so I just tried to keep repeating the mantra as much as possible. It took me a good while to fall asleep, but as far as I can tell I stuck with it basically until I was sleeping. And it paid off -- 4 dreams recalled (though good recall wasn't really the focus, but I'll take it!), one of which was lucid (not all that memorable, but still) and another of which was close / semi-lucid. Here they are.

#938:
Date: July 2nd, 2010
Length: 4 minutes

I'm in some kind of small city. I step out from the street into some kind of small store, accompanied by some guy I apparently know. For a long time I look around, unsure of what to buy, if anything. The guy ends up talking with the cashier, a girl that he knows. I think he buys a few things. Meanwhile, I start checking out an aisle that has a bunch of books/comics.

After a while I still haven't made up my mind about what to buy, and the others start making fun of me for it. I just kind of laugh and go along with it. The dream is a bit blurry here -- I recall something about stick figures: either one of the comics involved stick figures, or the guy and girl themselves turned into stick figures, I don't quite recall. Regardless, it somehow dawns on me that I am dreaming.

Excited, I step out into the street, and as I walk I try to stabilize everything. I then take flight, into a kind of suburb. After a while I land, and for some reason my surroundings seem extremely familiar, like I've been here before, but I don't think I have. I see two girls nearby, and I think I ended up kissing one of them. Shortly after that my surroundings become quite foggy and strange.

In front and to my right, there's a particularly thick patch of fog I can't see through, and I decide to try diving through and to see where I'll end up. I do so, and the dream sort of goes nuts -- my surroundings turn all dark, and my vision goes to third person for a moment, then my entire field of vision turns upside down and I see myself falling. I'm not positive about how this ended, but as far as I can tell/remember I had sort of a false awakening where some voice was trying to get me to wake up, and after that I actually did wake up in real life.




#939:
Date: July 2nd, 2010
Length: 3 minutes

I'm participating in this sort of worldwide game/contest (at times it feels like a video game, not a "real" thing), that involves accumulating treasure in a very short time, around three minutes I think. At first I see a sort of world map, and several dots indicate places where I can search for treasure. I pick one, and end up in front of some gigantic fish. It goes towards me and eats me whole.

I find myself inside the fish, wondering where I was supposed to find treasure here. After a few moments though, I realize that what the fish is eating is heading towards me, and see that it's treasure -- some kind of golden artifact is the first thing I spot. Instead of staying inside though, I decide to escape the fish. I take out a large knife I happen to have on me, and start slicing away at the "walls" around me. Eventually the fish dies, and I crawl out into some cave whose floor is covered in water.

I take a look at the fish, and realize that it has a bunch of teeth that are actually precious gems. I take my knife and start extracting them (there are about 10). After a few moments, my mom randomly arrives, and she tells me time is running out and I need to quickly grab all the gems I can and leave the cave because a rescue squad is waiting for me outside. I quickly remove the rest of the teeth/gems and start heading out.



#940:
Date: July 2nd, 2010
Length: 5 minutes

It's late afternoon on a sunny day, and it seems I'm trying to walk home. However, I'm in some place that I don't know. The terrain is very open, green, and uneven. I find some old woman, who decides to serve as my guide and help me find my way home. I follow her all the way to some isolated stretch of land very close to a large body of water, which I apparently need to get to the other side of. For a moment, I take a look around. The water is a beautiful blue, and it has suddenly become extremely windy. I realize that I'm going to have to backtrack and walk around the body of water.

I thank the old woman for her help, and tell her I'll find my way from here, not wanting to be slowed down by her and having a rough idea of where I'm headed. As I make my way back, I encounter some sort of large wooden structure with a bunch of ramps on it, serving as a kind of bridge. However, as I start walking on it, it quickly falls apart under my weight. Soon enough, it's entirely broken, and I drop down to the ground, a foot or so below. I realize that this wooden structure was actually part of someone's garden, and perhaps some sort of thing for children to play on that I've now wrecked.

I take a look around. The garden I'm in is part of a very large house, where a party is going on. I quickly walk down some stairs towards the house, and go inside, trying to look like a guest. Once inside, I walk up a large set of stairs, and find myself face to face with the father of the family that lives there. Worried that he'll find out what I did, I try not to look suspicious, and ask him where the bathroom is. I go there, and take a leak. The bathroom door, which I closed, opens for no reason. Shortly after, I see the father just outside the bathroom, and am terrified that he's going to confront me, but he doesn't.

Instead of leaving, I decide to stick around for the party. I go back outside, where there are many people near a large pool, most seated at tables and having discussions. At this point, I seem to realize that this isn't quite real (perhaps the sight of water twice in the dream unconsciously reminded me that it's a potential dream sign of mine). I don't become fully lucid, but get a sense that nothing I do here really matters. With this in mind, I decide to mess around a bit. I randomly sit at some tables and try to barge into the conversations, or act obnoxious/awkward (eg, randomly sit between two people and rest my arms on their shoulders as if we're good friends).

After that, the party seemed to disperse, except for a few guests around a distant table that had tons of food on it. They were standing, having a quiet, sort of suspicious conversation. I ended up going near them, but I don't recall doing anything in particular.




#941:
Date: July 2nd, 2010
Length: 3 minutes

I'm apparently a player for the Golden State Warriors, and we are having some kind of training session in a gymnasium. For reason, Yao Ming is on the team, and he has a broken left arm and is wearing a cast. I don't really recall any other specific players, besides maybe Ellis. The coach organizes a kind of practice game, I think 3on3, one weaker team (mine) against a stronger one (Yao's). I think there were a few people watching us from some windows that gave a view of the street.

We start playing, I think getting pretty handily beaten. We then reach a play where I am defending Yao, and we end up colliding hard, and we both fall to the ground. His broken arm takes a serious hit, and it seems he's badly injured. He gets carried off by medical staff I think, and the training session ends.

Dreams recalled: 7

My third night attempting an LD and third night in a row recalling SEVEN dreams, none of them lucid.

Tried falling asleep listening to a uh.... some type of lucid dream music where the beat is supposed to make you lucid, i forget what its called. I couldn't fall asleep for a while and then it felt like I couldn't dream for a couple hours... Good thing the 'song' was only 40 minutes long. I think I'll give up using that already.

Some of my dreams were quite sexual though, so no complaints there.

The first one I was in a Macy's and they had another room with a full sized swimming pool?? It fast forwarded and I was in the pool, then later I was watching 2 girls makeout...??

Next dream I was watching a movie with a friend at a movie theater and the 2 girls from the pool were there with us and proceeded to makeout again lol.

Then I was riding in weird van I think and the driver went to a gas station and kept weaving through the pumps cuz they were all taken. I had a weird encounter with a random person and I put the pump back for them and put their gas cap back on. Im not sure why...

I vaguely remember another one having something to do with an ice cream truck. It didn't last long enough for me to get any ice cream, the people in front of me in line did though.

My younger brother is out of town with his baseball team. I had a short dream that I saw him sitting on the kitchen floor in front of the fridge, in his baseball uniform, talking to our mom...

And the last dream was a short one with one of my female friends that I was texting in a dream the previous night. Except this time we were together. And started making out.... I enjoyed it.... a lot. o.O
My dreams are giving me a crush on one of my friends..........


I'm disappointed at another night with no LD's, but glad my dream recall has gone up from practically nothing (literally) to 7! dreams a night.

03.07.2010

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 01:

It's night and I'm with dad visiting IUSE college campus. The building is lit up and reminds me of a pyramid with two sides stretched out horizontally longer. I find out the campus is actually split into two across Louisville (odd, being an Indiana school) and dad drives me to the other building to show me the way. Turns out one has to go over a crazy narrow road with sides that loops around and go vertical at certain points. My dad drove on the wrong side multiple times and I insist that I'd rather die than drive over such a crazy road. Once we reach our destination--I vaguely remember seeing a lit Farris Wheel--I get out and walk around. The part I see reminds me of a dark alley with flea market booths. I see advertisements for beer as I go along.

Dream 02:

In the back apartment of the Florida house I'm chatting with Ninja Poe Bear, someone I knew from AHD forums in 2003-2004, over the Nintendo DSi. We talk about this puzzle game involving moving across squares. While the conversation continues some of the letters on the keyboard begin vanishing making articulating what I want to say harder and harder. Supposedly the disappearing keys were part of the same game we were discussing.

After this I envision part of the game as if it were reality. I was before a dark barn loft covered with hay that I wanted to climb into, despite being slightly scared to do so. I find a dim light once up there and am surprised to find some hobos. They seem hostile so I leave for a bit. I come back and the hobos have replaced the dim light for a really bright one and suddenly seem nicer. I don't stay long but instead head for the back of the loft where a door leads out into a bright and sunny desert town with stone buildings stacked upon one another. I see a few people and note a clothes line before returning to the loft. Apparently to exit I had to stuff myself into a small tan box that the hobos owned. I did so and sure enough my mind returned to the Florida house.

I look out the glass sliding doors of the room and note a Kroger's where the driveway and neighbor's house should have been. I think about how I want both eggnog and nicotine gum but have neither the funds nor motivation to go over to it. My mom comes in insisting things be cleaned up and I retreat to a boxed in area I constructed using cardboard and other cheap materials for the purpose of isolation. I believe I got this from my friend JSD who had something like this made for himself IRL.

I woke up. :3

Saturday, July 3, 2010

I'm attacked by alligators. Then I try to figure out why I'm still in high school.



I have to swim through a swamp. On the edges are various plants and animals, frozen by the cold, black goo that touched them. I stay in the center of the slow-moving creek. Something feels off.

I see an alligator, panic for a moment. I realize that it's frozen, too. I turn away, relieved.

There's another one before me. It's alive. I can't out-swim it. I can't get to shore fast enough.

It charges, and I let it swim straight through my submerged stomach. Teeth tear into my flesh and the water turns red, but I don't feel it. The alligator is distracted now. I latch onto its back and hold on. The alligator thrashes underwater, submerging us both.

I step out of the water some time later. My mom comes rushing over, wanting to know if I'm all right.

I assure her that I am, and lift up the fabric of my shirt to see that the wound has healed over entirely, leaving no scars.

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A dream takes me from Ixburg to Halifax and back again. I'm in high school and university at the same time, and my kindergarten teacher is very disappointed when I miss my driving lessons.

"What, you want me to fly home for the weekend?" I ask my mom incredulously.

She does.

I hide out in my studio with my brother and Matt, who ask why I wasn't at (high) school today.

"Cough. Cough. I'm sick." I say flatly.

Alligators. Scare Factor: 3.

There was a group of wolves, they were going to kill another group of wolves. The white wolves were the evil wolves. They heard something in the distance and bounded off to rip it to shreds. I think they were angry that the brown wolves kept piling up the snow. I found bags of snow, buckets of snow that were being filled with a snow hose and dumped them in front of the wolves. The snow didn't pile up, it just melted away.

I was in a trailer that felt like an apartment building. I was hanging out with some old friends of mine who I never see anymore. A cop knocked on the door and burst through into the living room. He was really angry and dragged me outside where he did horrible things to me and then beat me up and threw me back into the house. My friends were concerned and started ranting about police brutality.

The dream slightly changed. Things in the house began to age, my old friends were replaced by new ones. Things looked dilapidated, like they were falling down.

A woman police officer stormed through the door and began poking around. "Everyone needs to get out of here," she announced, "horrible things have happened here." She lifted a rug to find lots of blood.
At that moment I felt a chill sweep over the entire place. I couldn't stand to be there anymore. I felt like horrible things would happen if I stayed.

Summer was waiting outside in a van. She said we needed to get far away. I turned back to the trailer and saw baby cat sitting there. I wanted to cry. She was my favorite cat, and I've missed her so much. I felt like she was trying to tell me to rescue her, but I was already far away.

We were trying to get to Minnesota. We were not sure where we were or what highway we were on. We decided to stop at the next exit we could find. We turned into the parking lot of a dingy looking taqueria. Inside there were several men standing behind a counter. There were no food or drinks inside, just several men in blue shirts with dirty white aprons. They glowered at us as we slowly walked towards them. They didn't want us there. I looked around and felt like this was also a bad place. The ceiling was rotting and seemed it would fall down on us at any moment. The door to what I assumed was the bathroom has black mold creeping all along the outlines of it, I wanted to turn on my heel and run, but felt safer being with Summer. We left quickly.

We got back on the highway. The trailer was next to us, baby cat was sitting in the window, looking straight at me. We passed the trailer quickly.

We stopped a place, a busy street. The wolves were back. The white ones. I needed to stop them, so I started piling logs and trash all along the street, forming a giant barrier. I piled it so high that I had to climb up it to keep piling things on top. Finally, a car came on the other side, angry. Several trucks came and within seconds had all the logs in the backs of their trucks and were hauling them away. The path was clear and the wolves were standing there, facing me. End.

Slept between 1:30am-6:00am. Not insomnia, this time! This was a work-induced sleepless night

Vague memories, but I recall there being some animal kingdom thing. Like me, in a room, with a bunch of animals that would normally tear my head off. But they didn't. And I didn't consider the remote possibility of dreaming Granted, I only had 4 hours of sleep, but I *have* been lucid in the first 90 minutes of sleep, before. So, this wouldn't have been a first

There's a stronger fragment of chasing after this girl who had a box in her arms. In the box, had a note in it. Whatever that was, she was running away with it, and I needed it.

She jumped into a swimming pool and emerged without the box. I jumped in (vaguely recall being able to breathe here and yet... still nothing, lol!) and retrieved the box. The note, inside, was still dry! I couldn't read what it said.

Interesting Encounters at Work:
I was working at TH. It seems that my shift just finished and I was ready to sign out and get my coat to leave. My wife's boss, K is also there. For some reason, I have a bad feeling and I notice that she is looking for something. She had some vertical trays which had some files in them spread out across the bench near the sheet. I decided to help her out and asked her what she is looking for. She looked at me with those eyes and asked why I'm still here. I guess I took it as a message of "I don't need the help", because, the dream skips and I'm walking through the store to the front door. It looked pretty similar to my actual work from what I recall. After exiting the store, I plan to make a run for my bus since I see it coming around a curve. The parking lot and location of the store is totally different. The atmosphere was pretty dark. After taking a right turn from the traffic light, one must go straight to reach a curve. After passing through the curve, one has the option of turning left to either find a parking spot or turning left and continuing straight to reach the drive-thru. They could also continue straight from the curve and take a right turn which would bring them to a bus stop but nothing more. I saw the bus near the curve behind two cars and sprinted around the store. I bent down under the white poles that are in place to prevent cars from coming into the drive-thru without ordering and continued running until I reached the other side and turned left to reach the stop. It would have been much easier to just walk to my right after exiting the store to get to the stop. I ended up getting to the stop just as the bus was able to get there. Along the way near the bus stop, I saw some cans of diet coke in a small box, similar to the one the 24 pack come in and I picked it up and brought it along. As I entered the bus, the driver was supposed to charge me $10 but when he used my card, he ended up charging $100 and swiping it through. I was pretty furious and felt that he did it on purpose because he added the last 0 just as he was about to swipe, since, he already had it at $10. I pointed out his mistake and he printed a receipt that showed that I paid only $0.72 which took me by surprise and I felt as if a trick was being played here.

Car:
I think I dreamt about a car that I was in and was told that I could pass the middle white line.

Thoughts: Well, I thought the first dream was pretty good. Was nice and long with a great atmosphere. As for the second one, it was just a fragment There was also a third which I couldn't remember anything about, but, I knew that it was long as well. Pretty nice to have a long dream in comparison to my previous couple of nights

Deadline:
There was something about a deadline of July 2. Today was the day, so, technically I am still within the deadline, however, I was told that I couldn't buy/return/RMA said object. I was asked "Why wait that long?".

Thoughts: Probably thinking about the new gpu I plan on getting

Cooking:
I was a chef at a restaurant. I think I was dressed all white and dicing vegetables on a white board. I was told by a friend who also works there that a spider at our other location has been suspended for 250 infractions. There was also a TV which might have had something on this. It seems that he was warned about getting close to the food but didn't listen.

Thoughts: Pretty funny dream, suspended spider

Note: I did not go lucid.

DJ Entry #1
I woke up wearing an outfit the likes of which a U.S. soldier would wear. I looked next to me to find that my best friend had the same get-up. Apparently we were soldiers who had to defend a cruise ship on its way to God knows where. My family was in the room, telling both of us goodbye, and good luck, but my friend's family wasn't there at all.
The next few minutes passed as a blur, and I can barely remember them, but we went through a crowded suburb that I didn't recognize one bit. Eventually we got to the cruise ship and got on. I noticed something about all the people on the ship. They were all either people I knew, or actors from famous movies. I barely talked to any of them, as my brain led the dream on in an orderly fashion. We sat around for a while, watching out for anything suspicious. Everything else happened in what felt like minutes. Someone pulled out a gun, and fired like crazy, but we stopped him. Someone had a killer dog attacking everyone on the ship, but we stopped it. And finally, someone was tossing people overboard. We were fighting with him until he grabs me, throws me overboard, and I fall to the depths of the ocean, not making a sound. Then I woke up.
Where I was: Cruise Ship and an un-recognized suburban neighborhood.
What I was doing: Protecting the cruise ship from anything that might do it and the people harm.
Who was there: My friends, my family, and for whatever reason, famous actors.

Didn't feel like WBTB since my dreams were too interesting. I managed to re-enter it multiple times, but my memory is still pretty vague...

1 through 4- Witchling
There are several strange kids who keep popping up; they all have Finnish accents and dress very unusually. While I am trying to solve the mystery of who they are, I realize that the true mystery is who I am. They tell me that I'm a witch, that I just haven't discovered how to use my powers yet. (I also seem to be Tamora, one of my characters... Or rather, she is me. Confusing...) We end up in a mystical stone shop with my school, and the owner is giving out seashells. Everyone else gets a really pretty shell, but I get one that's faded and dull.

As I sit down, I think to myself, "I wish I had a better shell." Before my eyes, my seashell is transformed into a beautiful rainbow-colored pearl. In the back of my mind, I (as Hazel) think to Tamora, "You idiot... Don't you know that that pearl belongs to someone else? You can't just steal things like that."

I hear the shopkeeper mutter, "What a selfish way for a witch to use magic."

A man who I had spoken to before walks up to me. "So, you figured it out. The secret to magic lies within thought." I am then told about a secret order of magic users in a different dimension. The man tells me that I must go there to fulfill my destiny.

*lapse in memory*

I have been transported to the other dimension. Unfortunately, things aren't quite what I expected. (They rarely are.) I am kidnapped my the crazy matron of an orphanage and become little more than a slave.

Poor little Ellie does something to piss off the matron, and she is forced into exile from the other kids. (I say "kids," but none of us are younger than 16 or 17.) She's not even allowed in the building; all she does is wander the grounds like a lost puppy.

Alex, the leader of anything rebellious that goes on within the orphanage, sneaks Ellie into one of the courtyards and hides her.

*lapse in memory*

Alex and I are walking around; he's stirring up trouble, as always. We get caught by one of the guards (who is on our side, so its not like he really cares.) He asks us to help him with extermination. He wants us to help him kill the squirrels and cockroaches that keep getting in through the roof. Bashing squirrels over the head isn't going to help my bloodlust any, I think, But it sure sounds like fun.((Note: Tamora is very morbid.)) To my disappointment, we're supposed to use poison. Ugh, how boring...

I sneak away, and while I am inside I hear strange noises. Sounds like Alex... Suddenly the power goes out. Great, what did he do this time? I find him on the roof, looking ecstatic. I can see immediately what he had done; Alex has the gift of absorbing electricity, and he used it to take all the power out of the school. (He had to plug himself into an outlet, though.)

I laugh. "You're going to be in HUGE trouble when the matron finds out about this."

"She can't stop me now! I have too much power!"

I hear school security pulling up. "I'm getting out of here. I refuse to take the blame for you... again."

First I remember some dream fragments in which I was going somewhere by car. I stashed a cell phone which I had borrowed from a friend in the tailboard which was full of rust coloured muddy water. Upon arrival at my summer house in nydala my dad approached me and opened the tailboard. I realised how stupid it was of me to put the cell in the muddy water and I feared that it had broken. My dad agreed about my stupidity.

After waking up by the alarm, I snoozed and fell asleep. Then I awoke again into sleep paralysis. While in that state I seemed to hear some noises at the outer door. It then felt as if I heard foot steps in my apartment. It was quite creepy and I tried really hard to turn to view the door but I couldn't. After 10-15 seconds if wore off and as expected, no one was in my apartment.

#937:
Date: July 1st, 2010
Length: 4 minutes

I'm on some kind of one-day trip to Britain, where I meet up with a friend for dinner. We end up in some kind of restaurant, with a couple of people he apparently knows. For some reason though, I leave the restaurant (with the intention of coming back in a bit), and head to some kind of airport. As I walk, I'm a bit confused as to this whole situation -- I vaguely recall arriving in the country, but seem to have absolute no plan as to how I'm going to get back home, or even where I'm going to sleep this night. I seem to have assumed that my friend would have planned everything out, and so I tell myself that I'll ask him what the plan is when I go back to the restaurant.

First, though, I decide to exchange some of my US dollars for pounds. I go to some sort of change bureau, when I find my grandmother working, for no apparent reason. I go up to her, give her some of my money, and in exchange, instead of money, she gives me large pieces of paper, signed and with some monetary value written on them. I'm slightly suspicious of these, but I take them anyway. Don't recall much after that.




Been thinking a bit about my dream signs lately. From my more recent dreams, a couple ideas have come up:

- Darkness/night seems to quite frequent, maybe 50-60% of my dreams involve it.
- Fear, pain, confusion, or some sort of danger are pretty frequent emotions too.
- I'm very rarely alone in a dream -- usually accompanied by family or friends.
- Water might also be a minor dream sign, it seems to show up occasionally.

I'm visiting our neighbours in the village, a place were I used to hang out often as a kid. They seem to be moving out of the house as the walls are empty and I see the father of the family, Jan, carrying big paintings around. I find the whole thing disturbing since they've always represented the safety and traditional feeling of "coming home" to the place I grew up in...