non-lucid

Dream from night of 7-26-11


I was in some sort of school or colorful building. I was in real trouble because I was going to die. I didn't know how, where, or when but I knew that I was fated to die. It had to happen, in order for other events to occur and the world to move on. I had to die, and I had accepted this. (the entire dream) I spent time getting my things managed, putting things in place, and trying to get a hold of my family to tell them the bad news, and say good-bye. I couldn't get a hold of anyone, my brother, my parents, my roommates. I even tried calling my ex. All I could do was leave messages of me saying good-bye. While I was doing this there was a short, blonde, kind of puggy woman following me around, wearing an all black lacy dress. (Kind of a goth look). She kept taunting me, and teasing me about my death. I just tried to ignore her but she kept following me around. I had a feeling that she was a part of it somehow or orchestrating it. I actually caught her trying to steal my soul. She was a sorceress. I took back what part of my soul she managed to steal and for some reason said "you can't steal a music major's soul." I ran away from her and ran to my dad's house. I was just waiting for my time to come..still trying to reach any of my family. I looked outside and thought, "wonder when this is all going to go down..." with that though a black horse and carriage came down my street, driven by a massive figure dressed in black and with a mask over his face. I said, "there it is I guess". They stopped short, right in front of my neighbors house. I saw through my neighbors big living room window, to see the nuclear christian family that lived there, sitting around in the room playing guitar and singing together. The driver of the carriage along with a short man, and a tall lanky butler dressed man, charge through the big window and just slaughtered the family. I tried shouting to them to ask if it's me they wanted....the butler man heard me turned around and gave me the "one moment" signal with his index finger, then continued inside my neighbors house to kill them. After they were done they came up to the end of my yard and urged me to come inside the carriage. It was the carriage of death. They were invisible to everyone else but me. I got inside the carriage and knew that they would take me to the place of my execution.


I woke up.

- On a train helping some student carry their bags.
- In a house, students having a gallon of wine for breakfast. I had to try and pass it up a vertical set of stairs to them, precariously.
- a court case being held with me required to give evidence on a students behalf. Some document or other with a green line across it.

Comment:
Feeling a bit burnt out...and pissed with self after semi-lucid earlier in week, that recall falling back to near zero.

I slept so late that's mot even funny.

I'm in a apparment building, prepping to go to university. I find myself with a kitty plushie in my inner pocket, and all the friend I cross path with comment on it, even thought they couldn't be able to see it. One of my friend ponce on me for a hug, it's a girl I have'nt see since at least 6 years, I'm happy to meet here again. I walk around a little with my friends, I don't recognize the city I'm in; it's full of talls, light stones buildings and large avenues. We reach another appartment building where one of my friend is living. It's made big rooms full of nocks ans crannies, everyone living here make themself a makeshift bedroom with drapes and such. I can see a wall building itself up, like in the sims.
Later, We're interrogated by the police. One of the detectives sport a striking ressemblance with Sasha Roiz, I'm not complaining. They're are asking us questions about a disappearance, but I don't know anything of relevance... And I may be mooning over the nice detective a little. That being say, he is very patient and nice with me despite that.

Ritual: Woke up around 5am after four hours of sleep and decided to make a proper LD attempt. To reinforce my intention I used supplements, my usual stack of Alpha-GPC, L-Theanine, and Bacopa. Did some SSILD cycles until I felt too wakeful, and then breathing/counting. After falling half-asleep and waking up again, I turned on my side.

DILD: My recall is poor from the fact that I haven't been journaling diligently, and I also didn't write more than a few notes promptly after the dream, so I don't clearly recall the onset of lucidity. I just remember that I was in a small, empty, square room with white walls and beige carpet, and I knew I was dreaming. I had the idea that I should better integrate with the dream through physical activity, so I did some high-knee running for a few circles around the room, and followed it up with jumping jacks. This felt absurdly easy compared to the physical strain of exercising in WL, and the sense of incongruity almost collapsed the dream.

I managed to hold the dream together, but now I was feeling dissatisfied, and I decided that I didn't like this room with its ugly beige carpet. I went through the door and found myself outside, which was a nice change. I found myself in a small yard bordered by beautiful vegetation, glossy green leaves and vividly colorful flowers.

FA-NLD: At this point I had an FA during which I lost lucidity by believing I was actually awake. I recall telling someone about how beautiful the outdoors was in the dream I just had, compared to the bland indoor environment. The dream proceeded to take the form of a meeting with colleagues at work, though the details have faded.

DILD: At some point after the meeting, I was driving in a car with two women and realized I was dreaming again. I had reviewed the TOTMs during my WBTB, and was very confident in my recollection that one of the basic tasks was to blow a car horn! That will be easy, I figured, since I'm already driving a car... in fact, I feel bad because it's almost too easy. Dream took care of that, so when I pressed the horn, no sound came out. I ended up putting a lot of concentration into trying to coax some sound out of the horn, and the best I could get was a kind of doorbell buzz.

After giving up on my efforts to make the car horn sound louder or more realistic, I pulled over to the side of the road, and got out of the car with the two women. We were on a small rural road with a nice view over some fields. Now I wanted to try one of the advanced tasks, to pass into a DC's body. As I approached one of the women with this intention, I noticed her appearance had changed: previously she had been a fully-clothed middle-aged woman of non-descript appearance. Now I was walking toward the body of a nude young woman with no head! It wasn't that the head had been chopped off, her body just ended at the neck, a smooth stump.

I didn't let this deter me and walked right into the body. I realized that the lack of a head was handy: since the only "headspace" I was occupying was my own, I didn't feel any confusion about my identity—although it made the task less interesting than it might have been. However, I began to suspect that since the body had been facing me as I merged with it, now my head might be attached backwards! This thought was so disconcerting that I woke up before I could look down and check.

This was from yesterday, but I forgot to write it down... whatever.

It had a pretty simple setting, it was like I was in a national park set in winter with a bunch of other random people from my high school I recently graduated from.

Everything seemed okay, until everyone started running away from something. I didn't need to ask because when I turned around I saw a bunch of wolves far away chasing everyone. I began to run with everyone else through a tunnel bridge made of wood. There wasn't really anyone around me anymore though, everyone was separated by quite some distance. Soon enough, another bunch of wolves appeared where I was running to and cornered me somehow.

I thought I was screwed, but one wolf that looked different from the rest went near me and fended off the other wolves. It kept me safe. The others were scared to approach it, and left.

...Maybe this is the first appearance of my Dream Guide? I certainly hope so.

Morning of October 19, 2015. Monday.



In my dream, there is a hidden tab in my Internet browser. The hidden tab is behind another tab near the center of the sequence of tabs across the top. I wonder if there have always been hidden tabs as such. What could they be?

I barely see the left edge of the previously undiscovered tab, but there is enough there to sort of “pull” it out to the left (using the mouse) from the visible tab (which is for the dream journal website).

I see enough of the tab to see that the title is “ambiance”. It opens to an image only (rather than an implied website). It is a view from the sky, though from a distance, of a radio tower. The contrast is so light, it is fairly pale.

For some reason, I think of Godzilla as approaching (from my perspective in the foreground). I do not see Godzilla but I do ponder his eventual appearance on other pages, though this never actually happens.

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A lot of VSTs for music production have settings related to ambient music, which is what at least partly influenced the appearance of the word.

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This dream is autosymbolic of the typical thinking skills correlation with the radio tower being the emergent consciousness factor (as autosymbolism for communication between the isolated fictitious ephemeral dream self and the real conscious self identity as in waking life). The association with Godzilla is liminal awareness of the RAS modulation factor, but which is not initiated (likely due to my liminal awareness and my advanced knowledge of the dream state). The view from the sky is a static association with the otherwise usual vestibular system correlation. In many past dreams that were a result of liminal dream control, Godzilla had featured, typically in a faux chase scenario for entertainment purposes.

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Tiny downpours
I'm a passenger in a vehicle, sitting on the right side of the car (maybe second row in a minivan?). As we're crossing a bridge over a river, I look out my window and see a tiny storm cloud (maybe 30 feet across) pouring down rain and moving rapidly along the river. I can see where the air is darker due to the rainfall, and I can easily see where the rain is churning up the river as it hits. The cloud passes over our vehicle, and we're in it for just a couple of seconds before it passes. As I'm thinking that that's the strangest cloud I've ever seen, another one does the same thing. I start fumbling to get out my cell phone to try to take a video if another one passes, but by this time we're almost across the bridge.

A haircut for my wife
I'm with my whole family in our van. My wife has just parked in a crowded parking deck, but we're not parked well. The cars on either side of us aren't parked well, and we're in at an angle. I can't see how we'll get out of the car.

My wife is actually the only one who needs to get out - she's here for a haircut, and the rest of us will be staying in the car while we wait. She gets out of the car - I don't see how, and I'm confused since I'm not sure how she could even open her door - and climbs the wall of the parking deck in front of me to get to the next level where it's easier to move. I'm very impressed with how easily she did it, but I don't think it's very safe and I'd prefer she not do it again.

Now she's back in the car with us, explaining that the plans have changed, that she's going to meet Sue at the hair place so they can get their hair cut at the same time (In the dream, I know the name of the hair style Sue is going for). Since this level of the parking deck is too crowded, we're going to move higher in the deck so Sue can park near us.

Now we're on the roof of the deck, and it looks like we're the only car up here. There's some kind of tower over on the edge of the deck. Now we're in the tower, heading to the top - the hair dresser is up there. I remember that we left all the kids except the baby in the car, but I'm not too worried about them. My wife is going to take the stairs, but I see an elevator to my right. We decide to split up and meet at the top. Now I'm in the elevator, and I think my wife made the better choice. It's tiny, green, and doesn't have a button panel. Around the upper edge of the walls are strangely shaped lights which may or may not be buttons. As I'm pondering things, the doors open and I find myself on the top floor. I get out, confused about why it moved but thankful that I wasn't stuck in an elevator I couldn't figure out how to work. I see my wife coming up the stairwell near me and rejoin her.


Giant snake
I'm at home, doing some house maintenance while standing on a small platform that juts out from one of the windows on the front of my house. I look around and see a giant snake on the driveway. It's probably as big around as a car and a lot longer.

Now I'm standing on the lawn in front of my house. I've just tried a few things to get rid of the snake, and it's moved from the driveway to the opposite side yard, but now it's just "sitting" there watching us. I consider getting my gun to shoot it, but I'm worried that if my aim is off I could hurt someone else. I comment that I wish we had a shotgun, since it would do more damage to the snake but not be as dangerous to others nearby, and my wife says that they're not *that* expensive and we should get one.

Now my wife is back from her shopping trip, holding a brand new shotgun. At first I think she got it from Costco for $500, which is more than I'd wanted to spend (not to mention I didn't know Costco carried shotguns), but then I realize I'd misunderstood her, she'd gotten it from <store> for about $250. As I'm looking at it, I realize the tip of the gun is orange and exclaim that she got a toy gun, but she holds it up so I can see that the tip is, in fact, black and that I'd somehow seen it wrong. We discuss what kind of ammo to use - I think we should try bird shot, since it's the safest, but she thinks we should use buckshot to make sure we kill it, and that it's still safer than a normal handgun bullet for bystanders.

Now I'm walking around inside my house collecting the things I'll need before I can shoot the snake. My second daughter is helping me. I get my eye and hearing protection, then realize I've forgotten something and somehow get from the second story to the first by dropping through a wall?


Video for a show
I'm in a bed, under only a sheet, talking to a woman I don't know. Now I'm watching a TV show and fiddling with something on my phone - they want their viewers to send in videos of something, and I'm trying to figure out how to take one. Now it's later in the day, and I realize I missed the deadline to send in my video. Oh well.


Fragments:
Something about singing a hymn.

Something about a closet in a basement.

Dream 1: Forbidden Rat Trap
I'm outside and the sun is out, it looks like a late summer or earlier autumn afternoon. It's an open space with some trees out further behind me: I'm on a rock and the flatness stretches forward below me. There is a fenced area on the rocks. I'm with a bunch of young guys and we all try to get over the chainlink fence, there is something in the center of the restricted area we all want to see. I'm able to climb over it with a fair amount of ease after looking at it for some time. Of the around 15 people only two or three can't make it over the fence right away. We look at the thing on the ground, some kind of weird mechanical device.

We hear people coming and everyone jumps and climbs the fence. I'm able to get over quickly but see that two people can't climb the fence and escape, they're stuck in the enclosed area. I know I can run and dart into the woods like everyone else but I stay, I can't leave these guys behind. A bunch of middle-aged guys come there, fat and mustached, they look pretty ragged, and ask us what the hell we're doing. I nervously say we were interested in the device in the area and nothing more.

We enter the enclosed space and look at the device. They are about to show one of the guys how to repair it. I quickly take a place by them to see how it's done. It turns out to be a rat trap a long line of wire comes out that is kept mechanically in place with a kind of clip. The rat eats the wire and it triggers a spring that breaks its neck.

Dream 2: Going to Beat Up a Robot
I'm in a machine shop with a teacher. He is taking apart a fairly complex machine with many gears and moving parts, I see he is looking at some drawings that have the complex assembly laid out, it is drawn in a dark, shadowy ink like something from Warhammer 40K. His intention is to fix a part that has worn down in it. I look around the small machine shop, it looks like a classroom, the large lathes and milling machines take up most of the space. Students are there also doing work with the machines. I try to get a peak at the drawing and machine the teacher is working on. There is a female student there as well looking at it. He mentions a few pieces need to be repaired and re-machined. I say I want the hardest one to fix, it better my skills. I hope he chooses me.

There is a robot in the class, is it the programming for the CNC lathe? I only know it is menacing and needs to be defeated. I ask it how to make a mech exoskeleton, as if I was working for it. It says there is a suit in the back room. I enter teh dark, cluttered room and I see an exoskeleton like in Aliens. I see what need to be repaired but it looks of. I jump in and strap myself into it, There is little protection for my body but my legs and arms now control large hydraulic lifts.

I walk into my class, ready for anything. I see a classmate is also wearing a suit, we fistbump our large metallic fists together. Walking down the class, the robot is gone.

Dream 3: A Mysterious Machine and a Metro Tunnel
After not finding the robot I join the rest of my class to a dark, windowless and cramped storage area. There is a caged area to our left. The teacher opens it. There is something there that is mysterious and odd, as if I can't make it out as it is so alien to normal life. I'm not sure if this is the impression I had in the dream or if it's just that I don't remember what it was. I get the sense that is was a mechanical device of some kind, but it was special, unique and weird. Were we to repair it or admire it?

I leave and go to another class. I knock on the door and my old class is there, they are all by computers. Delicate white sunlight comes from the slightly shaded windows to the left. The computer classroom is also very cramped. Everyone is happy to see me, there are smiles and greetings. Everything is very vivid. I try to see if I can get a computer from somewhere and quietly work on my stuff. The small class has no computers free. A few students I know smile and ask how I'm doing.

I'm in the central metro station. It feels like it's morning, many of the kiosks are not open. I walk around, I'm in a three piece suit. I see my dark reflection in a plexiglass window. This is just like my dream a few nights ago, I think to myself. (!) I see others from my class. They are also in suits and dresses, is this some kind of graduation event? Who or what are we all waiting for? I break from the rest of my class to see if there is a good place to put a sticker down, that way I can see it next time I'm here and realize I'm dreaming. (!!) I think of the metro area in the game Yume Nikki.

Got to bed at 22:30

Woke up at 1:30 with a lucid. i was semi-lucid to lucid with low awareness. (no memory on goals for example)
some gaps in recall and as i woke up i needed some seconds to realize that i had a lucid. normally i wake up and am clear minded and happy about the lucid.

i sit at a chair somewhere outside. there are two or three other friends. we wait for something. a door opens and and some friends are coming. it seems that we waited for them and want to drive somewhere? i try not to stand up but to levitate with the chair. i start smiling and tell a friend that i just cant concentrate on two things like talking to him and levitate at the same time. i try to focus, look down and tense my body but it doesnt work. now there is a table and we sitting around it. R is sitting towards me. he has a block with paper. i burn page after page down and at the beginning he wonders but then he sees that its me and says "hey!". I smile and want to try to throw a fireball. instead i throwing again a ball. this time it is a dragonball or something similar. i see it and get alarmed. the guy on my right side noticed it to and we both jump over the table to get the ball. he screams "my preciousss...." we get it at the same time and start tear and to pull. we lay on the ground and i finally accomplish to get it. right next to us is something on the ground. a little portal or something shimmery? A older guy with authority stands over us and says we should stop with this bullshit. i put the ball into my pocket.
recallgap
i am in a kitchen. my brother stands at the stove and cooks something. i think i try to levitate/fly again but it doesnt work. i look at my hand and want to make it burn. this time i concentrate just at the thumb and imagine how it would look like and it starts burning blueish. the fire expands on the whole hand. i need to focus a bit that it stays and not stops. i show it a guy next to me and ask him if he can see it. he nods. i throw the fire over the table and it jumps and falls to the ground. ups i say and go around the table to see it on the ground. i now put both my hands together and want to do a bigger fire. i concentrate again and throw it on the stove in the gas flame. the fire gets bigger for a second and makes a splutter sound.
small recallgap i think
going to get something. i am in a hallway. i see my dreamjournal on the ground and i want to pick it up. i sit down on the ground and think again about the levitation thing. i get the idea that if i concentrate on the book in my hand and make it levitate like there is no gravity the rest of my body will follow. the book starts having no weight in my hands and rise up and my whole body starts levitating too. i am that high that i can stretch myself and am standing. nice i think and am happy that it worked. i get a little higher aware and do a long noseplug and a deeeep breath. it is a little clogged but not much. i want to go back to the living room. i see my DJ on the ground and want to take it with me i dont want to bend down so i try it with telekinesis. i let the DJ rise but it opens and there are some markers a pen and some notes. i see challenge and try to make it all levitate but there are to many items and so i cant lift a part of it (damn real life restriction... i will work on that ) i bend down to pick everything up. i move some steps but then the DJ falls down. i get annoyed shortly and pick the stuff up. i hear my roommate saying: "Food is ready". i say i will come and hear S and K saying "i just want to try." i go to the living room and sit on the couch. i have a bowl with food. i think its like french fries with calamaris and some dip maybe? i tell L that i finally managed to levitate again. i sit on the bowl and have the same approach like before and let the bowl levitate and so do i. at the beginning i lean with my back on the couch and so i cant levitate to high or i would fall down behind. i notice that and shift my mass center and now i can levitate just beneath the ceiling. L tells S to look and he is shortly impressed but then keeps talking. he talks about minicar drivers (cheap cabs we have here), that he called one to let him pick them up and that he knows a special number normally they just give to each other and not to customers and that he has some of them already and he might open a business with it and make himself independent.
i see myself on a street and see a minicar... wake up

i think its very good that i start to have lucids without WBTB´s. so my new daytime practice seems to work somehow but on the other hand i am not that aware in those early lucids like i am after a WBTB but nevertheless a very good progress. i got a little bit frustrated about the fact hat i can accomplish lucids with WBTB´s when everything works fine with early bed time and focus and and and but it costs some energy and i wanted to get "spontaneous" lucids and now that i changed my RC/awarenessthing it seems to work pretty neat. one step closer to regular lucid dreaming

Non-dream
Non-lucid
Lucid

Dream 1: Hiking
I'm out in the nature. I'm not sure whether I'm hiking for fun or whether I'm passing through. There is a hill and close to it are a few run down buildings. There are a few people coming up the hill. The ascend is not that steep. They are carrying some items, such as a bag. The boy(?) who's in front is struggling a bit. I encourage him by saying they've already made it past the heavy part. They're now standing on the highest point and are about to descend again.

Dream 2: Dangerous people
I'm outside. It's dark already. I'm crossing a 2 or 3 lane street either with a moped or a car. From my left there is a car approaching, a Tesla perhaps. I safely make it to the other side of the road and I park the car next to some others. I see a moped driving into the parking lot. The guy who's driving it is wearing full protective motor gear. Somehow I know it's my 16 year old brother. I walk up to him. I'm mad cause he doesn't have a license to drive yet. I ask him about it and he's playing it cool. I tell him to wait cause I didn't lock the car yet. I feel like punching him in the jaw. I go back to the car and 2 Middle Eastern guys show up. One of them is still a teenager, wearing glasses. I'm keeping the car for my neighbour Olaf (in reality a Middle Eastern or Moroccan guy named Bilal). They are his relatives and want to take the car with them. I tell them I won't give them the car cause I'm not sure that they are his relatives. I ask them to name his date of birth as proof that they know him. The kid with glasses gives me 2 birth years cause he's not sure. Yeah that's not gonna cut it... They end up taking the car with them, with me in the back. I think it might have been a black or white BMW.

We end up at... a building. First it's a shop run by a few women and what they are selling is kids related. Not too sure what it is anymore. I talk to one of the women for some reason. She is a bit busy, first with a kid, then the phone rings. She apologises and I say I understand. At some point I have "Olaf's" papers in my hands. One of the documents reads something like "non-government", or something similar which makes me wary of the legitimacy of the document. I end up sitting with a bunch of apparently dangerous people, as one woman tells me. I wanna get out of this mess. A few of the dangerous guys leave. I'm left with the woman and another man. He makes a snorting motion to ask if I do drugs. The woman replies slightly condescending that I don't snort. The guy looks at me even more condescending. If only they know I did it once. He puts a joint in his mouth and asks if I smoke. I'm good.. thanks. I just wanna get the hell away. I start walking, but just as I'm nearing the edge of the parking lot the guy calls me back. Fuck. Almost made it. He wants me to tell him a rude joke or something alike, something like what you'd say at a roast. I tell him I don't wanna be rude (because I don't want him to shoot me in the face). He insists, laughing all the way. I think at this point he is wearing something that resembles a cowboy hat or a straw hat. I still refuse, because I feel like either I might cross the line or he might laugh and still shoot me for extra fun on his part.

Dream 3: Harry Potter
I'm standing in a room with someone. There's a table nearby. The decoration is quite cheery. The following occurs maybe 4 times: a boy or girl enters the room, introduces him/herself and gives me a present that is Harry Potter themed. A couple of times it's a bouncing ball inside another ball. Ow perfect, I can use those for juggling. It feels like I'm being welcomed into a new family by my new stepbrothers and stepsisters, or something alike.

Dream1: I am a medical student and turn up in a very old run down clinic, there's red wallpaper peeling off the walls, it's an opthalmology clinic. I hang around waiting to speak to the opthalmologist but he's examining a patient.
Later a woman had just had a Caesarian section. I am sewing up after. I get told off for starting out with the wrong suture pattern and have to explain myself. The senior doctor looks impressed that I know what I'm talking about and lets me get on with the right pattern.

Dream 2: In some sort of walled gardens, I'm shown all the ponds and how they are looked after. Sitting in a chair with an old friend. He goes to the shop, a woman sits in his place, but moves when he gets back and he brings back a long till receipt. We eat some food.
Sort of muddled at this point. I'm putting a bag in a car because I have to go home but can't until much later. It's dark, cold and misty. For some reason the car is falling to pieces but I can lock the door so I think my bag will be safe. I'm going back with another friend to his flat to spend some time until I can go home and forget who he lives with and he reminds me. We spend time at his flat, I can't remember what happened there.

*Hanging out with my old friend but I did not feel welcomed.

Non-dream
Non-lucid
Lucid

Dream fragment - Skydiving
I remember jumping off from something in the sky (probably a plane but I don't know). It was so high up, when I jumped there was a plane in the air somewhere below me so I swooped down near it. I wasn't the only one jumping either, and it was more like I was flying than actually falling. I remember circling around the cockpit and looking inside, the pilots were stunned to see me. I then let myself fly near the wing, the suction from the turbine seemed to be pulling me in but I managed to push myself away from it with willpower. I think I skydived about 3 times?

Dream - Pool Party
I wake up in a building, it seems like some sort of residential hall or lodging. The floor is wooden and I think I was sleeping on it in a sleeping bag. I remember seeing my friend John, the time was about 8-9 so he decided to go ahead of me and head to class at uni because we didn't have karate practice today. Karate? I seem to have signed up for the karate club and now I know it's also supposed to be the first day of school. I look around and pack my bag, but I notice the instructor for the karate club actually getting ready for something so I realize there is club activities today.. And for some reason in the area that I originally woke up in? I walk over and stand on the yoga mat. Putting down my stuff and trying to shift my sleeping bag, bowl and 2 spoons out of the way for some space (apparently I had breakfast unknowingly). We start with some aerobics stuff which really disappoints me, I was really looking forward to sparring because in the dream I seem to be a skilled fighter . Some music turns on and the karate teacher starts moving around doing some dance that we all follow, I try to keep up but I have no clue what to do and end up doing everything slightly behind everyone else. I'm not wearing any shoes or socks and I feel like there's crumbs all over the damn ground too. I try to kick it away while dancing and end up shifting it onto another persons mat by accident. The dance thing kind of ends and some kind of poncy pool party happens. Yes, there is now a pool in my room O_O. We get complimentary omurice-pancakes, which are actually just normal pancakes that are really bland. I recognize some of the people as having similar faces to some old friends in high school, the girls are quite pretty and seem to have a really upper-class vibe. Most of them are in bikinis and board shorts. There's a lady from the karate club going around and offering these incredible looking melted chocolate balls. They look so good but you have to pay for them. I realize that there's no point wasting money on them so I just ignore them. I spot one of the characters from the Home and Away TV show cast (just googled it, his name is Luke Mitchell or 'Romeo Smith' on the show). He's encouraging people to dance to the music but I pat him on the back and politely excuse myself, I have to get to class. My class starts at 10 and it's nearly 9. I can't quite recall if it was part of this dream but I remember driving/being driven down a road in my home town (it felt like it happened earlier but the dream logic would mean it happened last?).

Whole the family gathered on the corridor. My brother with his fiance payed us a visit. We were talking for a while, but then my brother became aggressive towards me. I said "And what? I'm going to take your fiance?". He hit me in my face a few times, and I charged at him.

-Standing in a Tram. i am track the stations subconsciously. after two stations a guy leaves the tram. he makes an handicapped/strange impression. he grins in a strange way. he leaves very very slowly with a lot of holding himself everywhere. after he got out the doors close and we start riding again. i see him thru the window again. he has something creepy. the tram is turning and we ride back because of some roadworks. i look around and examine the people inside. i realize that i wear a watch because it beeps shortly. (i normally don´t but startet this day with every time i look at a digital watch raise awarness) i think about the watch and think that it should be useful for lucid dreaming but i dont notice the actual time... i notice a big woman infront of me and she talks to a guy. they talk about something that they need to climb some stairs and she answers in slang (i cant echo this in English) " stairs? Hell no i will go stairs..." i look at her and think it fits considering her weight. she looks and me and says: "Don´t say anything!" My watch is blinking now. i look at it and push a button so it stops. again i think about the watch... a silent alarm... nice for lucid dreaming for sure... i´m sitting now in a seat and my brother sits right next to me. i try to configure the watch. the display shows complicated functions or tools and i try with pushing some buttons to understand what the functions are there for. i debate with my brother if we need to get out here or some stations earlier. no matter what we will need to go some distance by feet.
--> damn so close to get lucid with the watch

WBTB after 6h. Doing mantra with SSILD. I feel medium concentrated but pretty confident. i feel a little to awake. maybe next time an earlier WBTB?

-I run thru a Street i kind of know. i wear a heavy backpack and have some issues with movement. i look down and see that i am wearing a black bumbag and it is open. i wonder why it is open look insight and see a compass. i wonder whom this is because i know it is not mine... i keep on moving but start getting aware. i decide to put the bumbag in my backpack while keep moving. i have problems to walk... i start questioning what is going on. i cant remember why i wear a backpack or where i coming from or going to i get lucid without any RC. i look up front and see a tree. i change my focus of vision and the leaves of the tree blend with the background in one focal plane with a high contrast like i experienced once while taking LSD. i normalize my sight again by blinking and keep on walking. now everything starts getting slow motion and pulls streaks. i shake my head and everything turns normal again. i get at a crossing with some signboards. i look at one and want to look away and back again to see if the words change or something. i look therefor at another sign where is writen Pharmacy but then i look closer and see Pharamhyzy. from nowhere a woman appears. she is attractive and reminds me of someone. i put out my arms to hug/kiss her but i notice i wearing loose braces that i want to put out. i wonder alot where they come from and wake up.
--> i really liked the way i got lucid it was so "logical" and not surprising like it is sometimes. i think i became awake because i didnt ground myself. the dream was untypical. it was not like it was low quality like bad sight or something but everything was so muffled without sound and like i was floating?

-another NLD about a girl i meet at a parade/demonstration we ride a tram and get out want to buy some green tea. meet another girl i kiss. Transition/next dream
i am in the room next to the room i was in the previous dream. sitting on a couch watching tv about something that either is related to lucid dreaming or the dream before. i recognize the two persons. i have a pillow on both sides of my head and try to fall asleep (my roomates alarm was going on so i put on a pillow on my head to keep on sleeping) a friend is entering the room and lies down on the top of me. i am a little scared if it could hurt because my legs are crossed. i feel that my back needs to click and i relax and take a deep breath and it clicks silently.

dont know if i really wake up and think to long about writing it down in my dreamjournal or had a direct FA...

-FA: i lie in my bed and make some notes to the dream with the girl (funny thing as i woke up i didnt remember the dream anymore but i remembered the FA and that i was writing things down. i could remember the notes and so remember the dream ) my phone beeped silently. i turned on the display but it stayed black. i was wondering if it is broken again and i need to restart it but then i saw a little text "10 new messages" i tried to unlock the phone and it hang a bit but after some seconds my homescreen poped up. my mum enters the room and asks me if and how we account the woodthing. i tell her that there is nothing to account because it was for free/a present? i am irritated because i try falling asleep now and have again two pillows around my head. she sits on my bed and i watch a tv series. i can see a big building that might be a prison. it starts morphing around and changing and i smile and think its pretty cool. i like the fact that the series is so dreamrelated... now there is a big camera at the corner of the buidling and i know that it is a prison now. someone escaped. now perspective is changing and i am infront of the prison. it seems that i am the one on the run and i have a dejavu that i know that i was here before. i turn into a corner and now that in some feet i was catched from the police before. i walk carefully but this time there is no policeman. i turn around two corners and see a person but it is no police and he dont recognize me. i see a nice porsche car and go towards it. the engine is running and the door is open. i enter the car and start driving. i can turn right and know this is the way to the freeway but i decide to turn left because the police will be all over the freeway for sure. i accelerate really fast until the road is very thin. i think i should have taken the freeway because it would be more fun and they wouldnt get me anyway. i drive very fast and get concerned that i shouldnt force an accident. i look on my hand to check that i am (still) dreaming. i know that i am dreaming and so nothing can happen. i continue driving very fast. then a traffic junction comes up and the lights are red. i slow down rapidly and wait for green. 2 or 3 tuned cares pass me and ignore the red light. i think i can do that to and fast enough i am for sure and drive after them. there is a lot of traffic on the road but i manage to drive thru it without an accident. they turn left into a ramp but i miss the moment and drive frontal into a wall. nothing big happened and i try to turn and drive up the ramp but i am to slow. my car is now an american taxi. i try again but now my car is a construction truck and way to slow for the ramp. both times i see the car from outside like in a car game. i suddenly stand there and look on my "car" which is now a sponge. my roommate stands next to me end explains, that the one i have in my hand is a fine-pored sponge while the bigger one on the ground is coarse-pored. the coarse-pored is way more rare...



F: i sit at a table with my roomate and tell him ".... this is still my dream...."
F: Going in a bath and putting out my braces. i choke a bit and find it disgusting. i spit and examine the braces that consists of two parts?

--> dont know why i dreamed two times of braces... didnt wear any since at least 20 years...