non-lucid

7.26.15

Still night shifts. Sleeping 2pm-9:45 then 10:30pm

Woke up from a dream, said yeeey, I dreamed with ophelia and recalled it, fell back asleep and the dream continued.

DR:
I'm at Ophelia's place. Everbody seems to be doing his own thing. It's not your typical visit. I'm in lots of different scenes. One is when I', on a large patio overlooking large body of water, with mountains on the other shore. I see 2 moons short distance from each other, ducking behind and out of clouds at nighttime. I ran inside to grab my camera (common theme) while yelling at everyone to come out and see it I grab a silver camera, but I realize it's not mine. I keep looking till I find my black one and I rush back out to the patio. By now the moons have paled and some bright object is starting to peek from behind the mountain.

We are camping and someone puts up a mosquito net tent. I go in with one of her boys, but tent is small. So I get out so the other one can get inside.

There was lot more, it seems like it lasted an hour.

the dreams starts with me running to this hut behind our old house. i notice that some part of it is gone, the hut is also filled with smooth desert sand with a bright sun shining over it. i go outside see some more sand next to the old hut. i say something and just walk to the house itself when i suddenly see my sister riding her bike.
i say something like: "are you riding your bike here?!" the dream starts slowly fading while my sister tells me something.



this was the same night as the dream about the mall

I feel like these dreams were more vivd than the others, though still not that vivid. I feel like I want to start practicing techniques that will help me have a DILD.*I'll elaborate, I feel like in my prior post I have recognized enough dream signs that are starting to show up consistently within my dreams.*


I was taking the subway with my mother in NYC. We were waiting for the train at the station when a pulse of light came down from the beginning of the tunnel where the train would come out of and then exited the tunnel and continued down. We were all very confused. Then a dog came through. The form of this dog was very small(almost like a puppy), and after he exited, another one came, but larger. This repeated, the dogs kept getting larger and larger until eventually a werewolf came through(and then a giant rectangular form of a vicious dog), then this morphed into a train that we took. Then the dream shifted, and I was talking on the phone to my friend Michael about how to play a specific piano song. He was telling me over the phone, it was my pointer finger on my left hand and my pointer finger on my right hand, and I heard him playing this song that I wanted to learn how to play over the phone(which he was telling me how to play. I had a big apple danish in my hand, I assume it was for my breakfast(but I didn't like it much). I was again on my way to the train station.

I can remember another dream.

I don't think I was myself in this dream, I feel like I was a psychotic orphan living in an orphanage. When the morning bell rang, I was on top of the roof and I refused to come down. I don't think I was crazy though, just different. At least that's the way I felt.

Watching the sky

I was outside my house. I went to the backyard, and lied on the ground, looking at the sky. There were lots of stars, I watched meteorite rain, and then the sky started to turn around. I standed up, and wandered for a while. I found my younger sister sleeping in an igloo, and then went back into house.

Undead army

I saw everything from top-down perspective. It was inside some poorly lit, cold catacombs. There was gathering an undead army, risen by dark forces. I was risen as a skeleton too, but something thrown me into webs so strong, that I couldn't do anything. I looked to the side, and saw a giant octopus. Suddenly every undead starts to fall apart. A strange voice said "Only you and the octopus survived!" The octopus started to dance.

Island

Warm evening, I was rowing on a small boat to unknown island. I was a survivor from a ship that sank. I took a phone out of my pocket. It had a built in front and back cameras. I used them to check how I look - I was a girl, somewhat similar to me. I stopped at a beach and wandered the island for a while, and noticed group of three women - a pregnant blonde, redhead, and brunette. All were quite pretty. They told me that they are looking for a special cave, where the baby can born. We wandered for a while and found it, and the women told me that I should stay with them and serve the new born god.

No remembered dreams.

From the vault:

2/2/2013 (estimated)*

Cabin and German-Language WGN
Dad and I were driving on a hilly forest road lined with houses and cabins. We entered one and did stuff in it (I don't remember what). Back home, my family and I were playing some games. Later, I saw that WGN was strangely in German. There was even a German-language Volkswagen commercial (complete with narration of the "Das Auto" part).

*I forgot when the dream happened before writing it down.

I was walking around a supermarket with my parents. One of us, my father I think, had a shopping cart he pushing around. We went through a doorway that led to a more dimly lit part of the store. There were baskets on the shelves along the walls. My cousin who lives in Colombia where my family is from and whom I haven’t seen in several years was working there. My father asked him if they had a specific brand of lollipops. My cousin responded by saying everything that was there was all they had. There were bags of lollipops in the baskets along the bottom shelf of a wall. At the end of the aisle, still in that dimly lit area, I saw a coworker from my old job. She looked around and then looked at me with a very straight face. I asked her if Frim, another former coworker, was there working so I could go and say hello to her. She said she was, so I started making my way over to the back of the store to go to the warehouse. I went to the back and say her just as I walked through a doorway that led to some stairs. She started following me up the stairs and I jumped down over the railing to try to confuse her and playing a little joke. After going up the stairs and jumping back down a few times, she seemed to kind of get fed up and left. I made my way up to the front of the store where my parents were checking out. A song was playing on the radio in the store and I think it was like a song that I did. I felt kind of famous. Everyone was giving me looks and watching me walking along as I sang and jammed to my own song. The cashier that was ringing my parents up was actually letting a couple of items go through without scanning them. When I finally made it up to the front of the store and found myself looking out into the night through the glass window, it sort of hit me that I was supposed to remember to become lucid whilst in a dream. I did the nose plug reality checked and was able to take a deep breath still. All of this kind of seemed part of the dream. I was not fully in control or fully lucid. I attempted to start flying or floating within the store and I couldn’t. I jumped up, but just kept falling down again. I climbed up on the counter and finally was able to start flying but I was going so fucking slow it was annoying. I tried to do that Superman thing where you put your fist out and just start zooming off, but it didn’t work. I landed on the ground again and walked outside. In front of the store was a massive grass field and a few trees off to the right. I walked out into the middle of the field and looked up. In the night sky was surely the most incredible star formation my mind could come up with. It was an extremely intricate sort of tribal design. It was sort of shaped like a fish, which is a bit strange. It was incredibly bright as well which made it so much more mesmerizing. It suddenly hit me that I wanted to go up to it so, again, I started floating my way up. And once again, I was going way to slow for my liking. I then thought to myself “Alright, if I had rockets in the palms of my hands, I could propel myself forward and I would get there so much quicker.” And suddenly I did have those rockets and I was rising up quicker. I was looking down over the trees as I rose. I looked up and there was a balloon. I made my way over to it and grabbed it to read it. It said something along the lines of “Happy 50th Full House” I was extremely confused and I wanted an explanation. Out loud I said, “What does this mean?” I looked up and saw what I could only describe as a giant pillow television screen that had a bunch of writing on it. It was definitely English, but as soon as I started reading it, it changed completely. I started reading the new writing, and again, it changed on me. I figured ok, I’ll let it settle down and then I’ll read what comes up. I waited a little bit and then I awoke.

-I was never fully aware or in control at all during this dream. I have a feeling that I was a little afraid of becoming fully aware because I would awaken if I did. I realized when I awoke that I should have just let the awareness fully sink in to my conscious mind. Nonetheless, it was an awesome dream and one I won’t be forgetting anytime soon. I learned from it as well, which is always good. I’ve had a handful of these sorts of semi-lucid dreams in the last few weeks. I definitely view them as successes although I did not ever become fully lucid. I think it’s the right way to look at them and the healthier way as well. I’m confident I will achieve my first fully lucid dream soon. I can feel myself getting closer and closer.

I posted this during the nighttime, because I had to leave early to go on a trip but I wrote this in the morning, just didn't get a chance to post it. When I awoke, I lay in bed still trying to remember my dreams. I couldn't recall anything and was disappointed. Then my memories of this dreams started flooding into my head; I remember thinking "Of course!" I definitely see improvement with my dream recall even though I've only been doing this journal for a week and a half.


I had arrived in a different city, I don't know where but I feel like it was Seattle or San something. The place was a law firm, and I was being interviewed to get a job there, almost like an internship or something. It was weird because the boss was an older woman who gave off a very dumbledore-like feel. Maybe like Patty Hewes. She took me to the top floor where my room would be, and there was a mattress. Soon my room had become extremely messy. I can't actually remember doing any work there, but I remember that at one point after I was answering questions for my boss she offered me the job. I said yes. Flash forward and I think that it was time to leave. Like leave the city. I was taking the train. This girl who I can't remember her face, if I did I would remember her name, said she would meet me there. Ah, I remember her now. I'm pretty sure I remember it was this girl from my old middle school. I feel like she acted almost as my guide throughout most of this dream. Anyway she offered to take the train with me and told me that it was on track 2/3 and gave me my ticket. I went down to the marina where there were also train tracks, but I got very confused and purchased another ticket onto the wrong train or something. Eventually I realized where the right train was and asked a conductor whether or not the train was going to "New York Penn," the station I usually get on. Now that I'm on the train, I start looking for the girl, but since I can only see people's heads, I look for her hair. Now that I'm thinking about it, I think it was a different girl because I remember her hair color was being a darkish blonde, yet the two I thought the girl was share the same first name. I spot her soon enough and go up to her and take a seat. Then an amount of time passes, or maybe this is even a different dream. I am on the top of a train, sitting down, it's cold. I'm in a seat because it's normal for there to be seats there...can't recall the rest.

Part Business Owner
I'm part owner in a new business. It's a aquatic centre/swimming pools/store/restaurant. Once it opens, people start flocking in. Im part owner with Trev Renson. My family and relatives have rocked up and are having dinner. I try to wave my brother over to me but I can't get his attention. I go over there and have dinner, as I don't want to be rude. I eat some meat. I hear someone say something about eating. I tell Lois and someone else that I have to go back to work. I go back to the area that is like office works. Im making sure stock is placed correctly in its spot. I see Trev and he ignores me. Eventually he talks to me and his not happy after I explain what happened about dinner.

Morning of July 25, 2015. Saturday.



I had a very bland dream of looking at an unsolved diagramless crossword puzzle (which I had never been a fan of though had solved a few in my life). It does not seem to have been worked on correctly, as there are no symmetrical or mirrored aspects anywhere - the black squares seem all random. More oddly, no words have been filled in, which you would have to at least know some of to begin the implied pattern. I am not sure where the puzzle came from or who had been working on it.

It is possible that this dream was only a surfacing memory with in-dream distortion relating to when my older sister Marilyn gave me all of her puzzle books (including ones with pages of diagramless puzzles) going back to the 1950s and which I no longer possess (I wanted them to be in her house again, though they were probably discarded when she passed on). It could also relate to my view of society as somewhat random and not very organized or responding correctly to clues or other information, including the nature of authority and government.

First dream

I was staying for some time at my friends house, a small building. Inside it was cluttered with silverware, clothes, furniture and other stuff. For whole week we were playing HoMM3 on his laptop. One evening we were preparing to go for a mass. For this whole time, foster parents of my friend were rude and mean to us.

It was like three hours before the mass. I wanted to go jogging, so I said them that I need to do something in a city. They told me that if I don't go to the mass, they'll beat me black and blue. When going down the stairs, I met two men in grey suit. I asked "Are you the bailiff?" He replied "Yes, I am." and entered the house.

It was dark night, one hour to mass. I was just running on the sidewalk. I saw that a girl was running from the other side. I decided to turn around, and run in opposite direction. When I ran back to friends house, it was early morning, long after the mass. Their house was a burning ruin. I saw my mother helping my friend. She got hurt, and I had to help her.

Second dream - fragment

I was a black man with dark hair, wearing purple suit. I was a footballer, and had friends in the sports league. One day, we had a horrible argue. I drove away from the sports hall to a house in the countryside. Week later I was back at the hall, sneaking inside. The only things inside were lockers, showers and benches. I sneaked like a master thief, and saw that they have planned everything to get rid off me.

1. Pulling out Plants (HI)
I was in my garden pulling out weeds. At one point, mom was pulling out a desirable plant (which doesn't exist IRL and had straight roots) on the left edge on the left bed, shaking off some of the dirt, and was going to put in in a plastic bag.

2. Speeding
I was in the van with mom. We were in an unknown area, apparently on a shopping trip, and possibly going home. Even though we were driving on store streets, a few times, mom accelerated to a very fast pace. I grabbed onto things because of the extremely fast acceleration (more than the van accelerates in real life). At one time, mom actually managed to max out the speedometer. I didn't feel the acceleration, though. It also didn't look like we were going 100+ at the times the speedometer said so. Mom never got onto the main road in the dream. Some car details were different.

I had other dreams, but lost them.

I didn't post Day 9 because I had nothing to post; there were no dreams that I could remember. I feel like today in the morning when I was remembering these dreams I was having them, or else it was like I was dreaming JUST before I woke up because they were pretty vivid. There are some parts I am not aware of however.

I had about 2 dreams I could remember, here is the first; the second is very short but it was longer I just couldn't remember the rest:

I was walking the streets of NYC with my mother, it was around sun down and getting sort of dark. We went down in a subway station I assume to try to go home ,but I was never tld where my destination was. When we went down into the station, I saw this girl I had a huge crush on standing there with one of her friends. She had on a red jacket and a silver hat that looked like it was made of tinfoil. I wasn't close friends with her friend who was there, but my mom kept asking her friend (who was a guy) to come over and have a sleepover, and I kept pulling her away and saying Mom. STOP And I could tell that the vibe I was giving off was depressed and sort of lame, because I hadn't seen the girl in a WHILE and so this was her impression after seeing me again after a long time. Anyway, we were talking and its apparent she has to go soon, so I take her stuff and put it in a train that just arrived's open doors. Then when she's done doing whatever she was doing, she looked around for her stuff and then at me and I motioned that I put it in the train FOR her. She motioned that she was still staying here, i was a different train she needed. The doors were about to close soon, but I rushed into the train anyway, and the doors closed on my shoulders. I remained here for a little but, until I caught the eye of the conductor. I made the praying symbol and said"Please" then held up one finger as if to say only for 1 min ute. The conductor nodded, and I dashed in there to get her stuff. First I got something for her I think it might've been an article of clothing. I gave it to her then I needed to get her jacket, but some lady was sitting on the seat where I had put it so I kind of push her up and grab her jacket and rush out. I give it to her and she looks at me and very sincerely says "Cade, thank you." After that she placed the tinfoil silver hat on my head, almost as a token of appreciation/gratitude Then she must've left so I walk out of the subway station and once I get to the sidewalk I walk backwards up the sidewalk.




Before this, I had a dream that took place next to a deserted tropical island, but there was something special aboutt hat island. I can't remember the rest now. There was magic or something.

First dream

I was in some kind of a camp. There was my old friend. We were talking about SFML library and it's potential uses in my projects.

Second dream

With group of classmates and teacher we went into a military base. It was raining, there was mud and ground was slippery. I went back to our base to change my shoes, and went back to join with them. We walked around the base for a while, and then we entered a bus. Teacher gave us some kind of a pass, and after that we had to go for a stop.

I went out of our bus, and entered another. There was my mother and my younger sister inside. We talked for a while, bus moved away from the stop in the meanwhile. When we stopped talking, I was on a road through forest, away from the stop.

I left the bus, and moved around the forest road. It was nearing midnight. There was a fork. I wanted to go the right way first, but then moved back and tried another. I realised that I go the wrong way, and found the right way through the forest. I started to see a city, and a tall flat. A man walked out of it, and went closer to his car.

I asked if he can drive me to bus stop. He agreed, but he had to repair something in his car. I had to choose: running there on foot, or waiting for the man to fix his car. I decided to stay with him, thinking "This must be a dream, they would search the area for me!" Though I doubted it, and haven't become lucid.

So I begin the LD journey...

In the past I have heard, read, and talked about Lucid Dreaming from all sorts of different sources. when I was younger I struggled to get my head around the Idea of being 'conscious' In a dream. If I am honest, I was walking through life without any Idea of what being conscious really is. I was your typical late teens stereotype, playing my role in the world as a walking zombie, which I truly believe we have been conditioned to accept from an early age. To me the thought of LD, meditation and spirituality was hippie hocus pocus.

A few years down the line and the veil has been lifted. I recently started meditation and opening my mind to ideas I once disregarded as BS, and embraced them with open arms. LD has been a topic I have always pondered, wondering if such a thing was possible. After a recent vivid dream I woke up with the urge to look into the topic some more, and so the journey begins.

I have been completely overwhelmed by the amount of information on this site and many others. I have put what I have learned to good use, I started a Dream Journal ( an essential part of the process as far as I have read), I have started trying to incorporate ADA into everyday life, combining this with solid reality checks where I am continuously asking myself 'am I in a dream', 'how did I get here' and finding time to meditate as much as possible. I have told myself to be patient and not force anything, If i believe in what I have read, keep experimenting with techniques It will come.

So the first week in and I have been surprised with the results. Previously I would barely remember any dreams I had, since starting a dream journal I have found myself 5 days in, and from last night I can recall three separate dreams. One of these I would like to share.

In one of the dreams I remember, I specifically recall talking to a DC and telling them 'I am lucid dreaming, I am doing it right now' which was followed by a RC which unfortunately didn't work. This suggests to me that I am not aware enough of my surroundings when carrying out daily RC's, but the fact I said I was in a lucid dream has given me a huge boost to continue the journey. My dreams last night were also some of the most vivid dreams I have ever experienced.

I am continuing to progress which is the main thing for me as I have nothing to loose. Apart from the general buzz of progress I am getting from this experience I have also found other benefits such as, I am getting more quality sleep, I am more relaxed, I am continuously paying attention to my surroundings in more detail which in turn is improving the quality of my day to day life, I feel my imagination is in overdrive imagining all the possibilities this process may unlock.

overall I am really enjoying the experience and if anyone has any hints or tips I would be hugely appreciative

I was worried in mid/late morning that I had no recall. So I just kept relaxing and reaching for memories and some eventually came to me, then fell asleep and had the "later" dreams as well.

earlier:

+ long sequence of scenes in some hotel room / random buildings:

in hotel room, my colleagues have left (they have the keys?), I have trouble standing up and some people in the room reach to help me, but I'm annoyed at their attention. I go off to take a shower and am naked except for a towel wrapped around me. I'm walking through a large space with walls, mostly alone, I see a few girls on their own and think I could have sex with them but decide not to.

I'm on a ferris wheel riding with my parents. I don't like it, I don't want my safety to be dependent on some machine. I hold on tightly to the sides of the bench/seat/walls and look around, thinking about getting off when my seat reaches the bottom.

I'm talking about lucid dreaming with my mother, but don't feel like revealing I'm a lucid dreamer.

I'm hugging my pretty girlfriend but a uniformed officer is plotting against us? Walking the hallways, I nod to other uniformed officers who salute me back, and I look down and see I'm wearing a (honorary?) uniform with chevrons, I'm of middle rank it seems.

My Jr. high band teacher is advocating a revolutionary idea that we should move to using waterways for all transportation. I "remember" that I've got stuck before in traffic on the river and don't think it's such a great idea.

using a vending machine?

in a high-walled narrow corridor section of a super-store, at a sausage/salami counter?

later:

+ I'm with my ex-gf SB in a large open building space (library?) I take her in my arms, cradling her head in the crook of my arm and looking down into her face. I think she's been hiding something, and I ask her "What other languages can you speak?" Her face gets cold like she doesn't like the question, and goes and stands a bit away from me and says something? Back together towards the end of the room on a raised platform I kiss her but she puckers her lips tightly and it's not satisfying, then she relaxes and the kiss is sexy, she reaches for my (ahem) in my pants and grabs it and I say "Oh, my!". I reach for hers but have trouble getting in under the tight elastic of her pants/panties. I then think about how women's pubic hair can be brushed tidy much more easily than men's.

+ meet deceased father-in-law, I see him approaching me and I recognize him instantly, his hair is entirely gray and his face is more wrinkled, so he looks older than how I knew him in life but he'd been dead 7 years now so I think that makes sense. In the dream I know he's dead, but I think he's returned looking for his wife who died just this year. I'm very soft and nice with him and comfort him, he doesn't say anything but seems at peace. Very vivid, quite amazing.

+ son has set up a computer networking party at round tables in a large room, there are not enough computers for everyone, since I'm the parent I demand a computer for my use. There are about 5 computers set up with varying sized monitors and fairly young teens mostly are using them.

+ I'm superman trying to save the day against a bomb, enter building, and step on to a skinny platform elevator. It's a small oval platform with two poles, one on each side, and I wonder if my big beefy body can fit in between these poles and whether the elevator will work with me on it. It rises up to the second floor and stops, I need to go farther but the 2nd floor receptionist refuses my further progress. So I step out and decide to look for the stair, find them and climb up, on a large landing before reaching a higher floor I meet the foreign mad scientist and his assistance, he looks through my wallet expecting to see millions of dollars, but filps through the bills and counts (accurately) only about $20K is there, so the bomb doesn't have funding to buy the rest of the required materials. My female teammate scientist sets off the existing bomb design and measures it having achieved an impressive million degrees heat, but that's all that happens because it wasn't finished.