non-lucid

I had four nightmares over the weekend. You'd think that I was worried about something.

Dream 1:

I had been kidnapped by a vampire. She had me in a house that appeared to be my childhood home in LA. At one point the vampire turned her back and I took that chance to run out the open door and down the street. I knew that the vampire would immediately notice and would be after me, So after passing a couple of houses I ran to the next house and opened the door and went inside. I saw a room where two adults were sleeping. At first I felt relieved. Maybe they could help me. But then I realized that I needed to leave. I would just be getting them killed if the vampire found me here--and I knew she could follow me...follow my scent. I knew there was nothing I could do to get away. She was so much faster than I was. There was no way to erase my trail.


Dream 2:

I was riding my bike on a mountain road at night. The road twisted and turned and went on forever. I felt I would never get to my destination. Then suddenly in front of me I saw a bigfoot climb up the slope and onto the road directly in front of me. The bigfoot was a lighter brown color with reddish tints. It's fur was longer and matted with bits of leaves and twigs in it, like it had just gotten up from sleeping on the forest floor. It stood and faced me. I was so startled and frightened that I swerved my bike and went over the edge. I could feel myself falling...falling...

And I woke up with a start, breathing heavy, my heart racing.


Dream 3:

I was with a group of ladies. I was supposed to be working on a big project with them. I not only couldn't remember who they were, but I couldn't remember what the project was. I only knew that I was suddenly about to have to give a presentation. I had no idea what I was supposed to do. I started to panic.


Dream 4:

My plane had just landed at the airport, and I got off the plane. I suddenly realized I hadn't gotten my luggage out of the overhead compartment. I tired to run back and find the plane. The airport was a maze. I had no idea which way I had come from. I was running around not knowing where I was going and not finding anyone who could help. I ended up in a hallway that kept getting steeper and steeper until I started sliding back. I knew I couldn't go this way.

Finally I found someone to help me. I was told that my luggage had been taken off the plane and was now at the baggage area. I actually was able to locate it by the end of this dream making it a very unusual nightmare with a happy ending.

Last night I dreamed of fish in all shapes and sizes. I found some old aquariums that I had been neglecting: there were just a few inches of water in the bottom, and I worried that the fish might be close to suffocating. Worse still, on a shelf next to another aquarium I found two koi, one orange and one silver, that had completely dried out. I recalled making the discovery that they were happy living outside the tank for a few hours every day, but then one day I forgot to put them back in. That must have been months ago. Now the fish were completely hard and dry and basically mummified, and I realized guiltily that they were probably past reviving.

I also had two very large fish, so big that if I kept them in my own tank, they would fill it completely and not have any room to swim. I decided to take them to the public aquarium, which had a room-sized tank that would give them plenty of space. They were each so big—around four or five feet long—that I needed a friend to help carry them, and we would have to make two separate trips. One of the fish was called a "Blue Rangit," with beautiful azure scales and long elegant reddish fins. The second was a plainer, silvery-tan fish called an "Alaskan Battlecod."

As my friend and I carried the Blue Rangit through the city streets, a man on a motorcycle drove by and tried to grab it from us. He didn't succeed in getting it away from us, but a moment later, my friend noticed him talking to a female police officer. The cop then came over and accused us of stealing the fish from the man! Apparently that's the story he told her, and for some reason she was completely convinced by it.

I tried to explain the situation, pointing out that the guy probably doesn't even know anything about the fish. Does he even know it is called a Blue Rangit? Well maybe he does, and that's why he's trying to steal it—they're quite rare—but does he even know what it's used for? I told her to go back and question him about it, and she would probably find him ignorant about the true nature of the fish. To make sure that the officer was well-informed when she did the questioning, so that she wouldn't fall for more of that man's lies, I explained that the Blue Rangit was used for lucid dreaming, and my other fish, the Alaskan Battlecod, was used for lucid dreaming and fish battles.

I went on to tell the officer how I didn't have enough space for these fish in my aquarium at home, so I was taking them to the public aquarium. At this point she started telling me that I wasn't allowed to do that, and I woke up.

Note: I don't have any fish in WL, but I suspect that I dreamed about them because this month's fish TOTM is the one I've been planning to work on first. It's cool how the dream was almost encouraging me to get lucid by connecting the fish with the idea of lucidity, but somehow I failed to completely pick up on this even as the words were coming out of my mouth!

it's been a while, goodness. i haven't even been all that busy. but onto some dream stuff!

i'm going off to college for the first time this saturday so recently i've been having a lot of college dreams, as well as dreams about senior year events. as many as i've had it's been hard convincing my subconscious to take these situations as dream signs, so! lucidity hasn't happened in a school dream yet

but i did become lucid last night in a dild fashion! it was a ridiculously simple dream. i was just sitting on my bed when i suddenly felt the need to look at my hands. without my glasses they looked normal, but with my glasses on they seemed to have only three fingers each (maybe because i wear my glasses nearly every moment of the day?). i wasn't able to change the dream scene, but i did change the time of day to night, which made it easier for me to think clearly! not very eventful, but definitely a valuable experience in trying to command my dreams.

NLD from last night:

- I have somehow "downloaded" Daniel Radcliffe's body and taken it as my own. Like, I AM Daniel Radcliffe, physically. So I go and sit down in a chair in a dimly lit room and I look down at my chest and start narrating lmao. I'm like, "So Daniel Radcliffe has a 3rd nipple, and as we can see here, it is erect!" It's like a tiny pink spot next to the left nipple and there's any even TINIER bump in the middle of it. I laugh quite a bit at this.

Assistant Kitchen Hand
I'm at the pools, and I'm seeing some people that I'm with.

I'm in a house now and see some people I know. I open the door for people. One of them is Sira Hunt. I'm sitting down on a couch and people are talking about meditation. I ask her how she meditates with the issues she has. She says it's hard but gets it done. I try to get more information out of her. I sit next to the girl and we start talking lucid dreaming. I ask her if she has had DEILD's before and that I use that method. She breaks down because she misses lucid dreaming so much and can't seem to have them anymore.

I'm in a toilet doing something. A few people try to use it, but realize I'm using it. I'm pissing where I'm not supposed to, but can't find the bowl.

Im in a kitchen and there's a guy cooking. I'm assisting him, but a little confused. He asks me to chop up some things. I can only see butter knifes laying around the kitchen. I wait for him to finish using the sharp one. He gives me the knife and i ask him what to do again.
Later on he hands me a massive knife which is like a magnet. It sticks to food. He demonstrates on a piece of metal, which makes me feel gitty due to the sound.
He tells me he bought it online and myself and another girl get into a debate over the pros cons of buying items online. The scene changes to outside as we continue convocation. I see Daryl and tell them that Dazza bought flights online. The guy cooking says he did too, it was a trip to Japan. The girl thinks it's silly what we have done.

A lot more people begin arriving and it looks as if we're about to do group performances. I see a group come out doing dancing. It's looking like they're lip synching.

I'm becoming confused about how to unlock my phone. I try the passcode that I'm sure is right, but it gets denied. I turn phone off and on which does the trick for allowing more chances at guessing the passcode. I was worried that I would puck my phone. I notice that upon restarting phone, that the phone itself is unlocked. Later on I figure out my code.

Scared Of The Track People
I'm riding my bike down the side shortcut that gets u to my high school (beside the highway) it's very dark and can't see too well as I'm riding. I see a muddy section up ahead and decide to power through it. I see some cars parked down the side of where I'm riding. I come to a stop because I see a group of people at the end of the track. I have a bad feeling about going through, so I turn back. I reach to the start of where I came from and need to get my bike in my car somehow or figure something else out. The car is In between a few trees which make me nervous about getting it out. I think to maybe roll my car out, but decide to get it out normally I think. I park it next to a big motor home. I felt that I was getting very close to it and would hit it if I'm not being careful. I begin walking back to where my bike is and I see a lady in her house. She looks to be meditating while standing next to a bar. She spots me and stops what she was doing. I notice that she has a family also, they're at the kitchen table. I'm near my bike and I need a piss. I check a spot out that's looking into a bedroom. I take the risk and just as I undo my buckle I see a girl walk into the room. I try to play it cool and wave to her and walk away.
All the people that were down the end of the track are going back to their cars etc. They're older men, which seem pretty harmless. They ask why I don't fish down there, and I respond by telling them that the area is known for trouble and decided to steer clear.

Morning of August 10, 2015. Monday.



There really is not that much to this one. For some reason, planet Earth seems a lot smaller and almost like a spaceship. There is some sort of event that may destroy the “world” and only about thirty people are able to escape in their own family escape pod, each of which holds a few people in a family (though with a larger family such as mine, there are two, which are connected and maintain the same orbit).

Finally, the last pieces of the planet (only a few, as the planet seemed quite small to begin with) are floating about in the center of a circle of escape pods. There are probably only about a dozen.

Regardless of the “end of the world” scenario, there seems to be no real concern about endangerment. We may be in our pods for a considerable time, though will still find new life on another planet. The feeling of being in outer space in such a structure seems quite real. Oddly, there seems no concern about food supplies or needed utilities. In the back of my mind, I am thinking, as always, it will turn out as how it should.

I was a tall barbarian with huge muscles, wearing traditional armor. I was travelling with group of adventurers - a thief woman in green cloak, a warrior in full plate armor and a sorceress in purple cloak. We entered a tavern to discuss our mission. It was a two storey wooden building. There were travelling merchants, mercenaries and random people there, talking and drinking.

We sat at only free table, at the back of the tavern. I ordered a huge mug of ale, and then we talked about our mission. We were going to capture a mad scientist, that builds machines of terror and destruction. He already destroyed nearby villages, and moves on to attack closest cities. When they were talking, someone gave me a weird look, which made me both uncomfortable and mad.

I just standed up from my chair - the whole tavern become quiet. The man came closer to me, and tried to stab me with a dagger. I jumped back, took a chair and striked him in the head. This was enough to make him unconscious, and enough to start a tavern drunken brawl. Mugs and chairs were thrown. The bartender hidden behind a counter while drunk mercenaries were fighting.

With group, we quietly left the tavern and moved on. I looked back, and saw city guards entering the tavern. We wandered the forest for a while. It was weirdly quiet. After a few hours, we saw a village in the distance. Only ashes and corpses were left after the mad scientist attacked. We moved through the village, and saw a castle in the distance.

We entered the castle - it looked like it's inhabitants just vanished, looked like it was left in a hurry. After searching all the chambers, we found a hidden hatch to a dungeon, and entered it. It was dark. I could feel the stench of death in the air. The corridor was splitting to a few chambers, so we decided to split up - with me ordered to wait in the back for some reason.

After a good while of waiting, I heard screams coming from random parts of dungeon. I said "That's it!" and ran to closest chamber. I saw sorceress, hypnotizingly walking around a table with clothing. I took a turn to the left, and saw a pile of bones near a strange machine - it had a weird mechanical arm, that could throw you into a flesh removing blades. It quickly drawn energy, but couldn't attack me. The machines had to be powered by magic, and I was magic resistant.

There were more machines of death inside - from usual torture machines to weird objects, like a spiral with red glowing ball at the top. The spiral killed the warrior by striking him with lightning, but it haven't attacked me. I ran to the chamber with sorceress, and saw that weird man from the tavern - he was a mad scientist. I came closer to him, and then he grabbed a throwing knife and thrown it at me. I easily dodged, and when I was just about to bash his skull inside - he disappeared.

I looked at the sorceress, the hypnotizing spell was removed from her. I went closer, and then she thrown her clothes down, and we did our thing.

I found three people come to my place, one by one with a gap of 1-2 minutes. They all have upper body dressed. Their bottom body - below hip - not very much visible. I see the scene change.

I found myself in a place like hostel. Some senior person talking to someone, and she sprayed pepper spray one people. Then she is repulsed due to the spray she sprayed and went away. She say (she went away and not visible, but still she says) they spent the water and the water system damaged in my block (hostel block).

Suddenly I found was sleeping and wakeup, and I want to bath, because I feel I am dirty. The water water pipes damaged and I am not able to wash myself in the common bathrooms of my Hostel block. I see other bathrooms(in other hostel blocks) are occupied and people are queued up. Hundreds of them waiting there also. Now, what I can do?
[ I wakeup ]

Sleeping: August 8th 2015, 11 PM (UTC +7)
Awake: August 9th 2015, 7 AM (UTC +7)

Non-Dream, Non-Lucid, Lucid, FA/Possible FA

Last night, I slept at 11 PM. I'm not sure when, or if I actually had any, but I remembered there was a natural awakening. I woke up and looked at the clock (can't remember what time was it), and went back to my bed, doing some mental maths. A thing I found is that my brain activity is pretty low, I can find myself struggling to do easy equations. Soon, I drifted off to sleep with higher consciousness. (This orange part could be anywhere in this journal entry. I can't remember when I woke up in real life or had this false awakening.) I can remember a dream where I was on a floating world/island with my family/friends. The place looked great and beautiful. We were around edge of the world. I was running/flying around and such. (Too much activities to note/recall, not in chronological orders. Most of them look fairly reasonable, at least within my dreams. Would work better with mental map, if it's to list everything.) Though, not much other characters were talking/doing anything with me. (At least what I can remember) Yes, this place was place of freedom. Most things were already made possible, including flying. I decided to summon a UFO Mount to ride on and levitate freely with thoughts instead of getting wings. If you could control almost everything for personal happiness, why you wouldn't? (The world had been balanced out to prevent crimes and such.)

I can't remember too much details, especially chronological orders in that part, but I can recall the feeling when I looked down from edge of the world, seeing clouds. Whichever ways, there was this part. I was down on the ground, on a flat land. Everything looked red, dehydrated, deadly and aggressive. I was confused and tried to ask people what happened, but they ignored me. I could see tanks fighting as if this world had wars going on. I knew afterwards that the world I had been living on was just a world designed for most people. We lived there without question why we were there in first place. However, reality down here was bad. Everything was destroyed already. I questioned things in frustration. I asked one of my friends where they're going (in this case, they: those soldiers in war), what they're doing. Only to get the answer: "Where are they going? Nah. They won't tell you. You have to find out yourself." before they left me without caring for me.

Possibly in another dream, or false awakening after first paragraph. Family woke me up with smiles. I slowly went on my clock and it said 8 AM. However, I decided to continue sleeping and attempted DEILD, hoping that they thought I was not fully awake yet. (Illogical? Yes. It's not possible at all to continue acting like I'm not awake with that much movements. I used to do this when I'm too lazy to wake up, and just continue sleeping though.) I managed to drift off to my sleep, thinking that I successfully did DEILD/WILD. (A false one, yay!) I somehow found that my attempts to continue the previous dream failed, as my (false) physical body senses still co-operate. With that, I realized actions similar to sleepwalks occurred on my (false) physical body. Knowing that my family members were there, I decided to troll them around with physical body asleep, but my mind awake and seeing everything. Things were funny though. Can't remember what happened afterwards, but I finally woke up in real life. Something made me question what happened few moments ago, I did a reality check and found that this was awakening life. I looked at the clock and it said 7 AM, before I punched my pillows softly in frustration. How the hell I forgot to even think that the false awakening was illogical? Since I had been waiting for FA, thinking that it would be greatest chance for me to get lucid.

This night was one of weirdest nights so far. I can't seem to sort anything out in chronological order, while I was always able to do it all the time. Everything looked like there were run on parallel timeline. Let's think it in positive way. This might be a sign of being able to recall multiple dreams a night. Time to appreciate it and try again next night!

EDIT: I just noticed how "fabricated world" is quite something along The Matrix. I haven't watched it before this though.

Marleigh & Steve Show Love
I'm watching the cricket and we r looking like we are going to lose. I see a message from Daryl with some dates and photos. 1 of the dates is an old dooms day date. So I figure he's meaning that there's a dooms day coming. I see a game which looks similar COC. The elixir storage looks like a asteroid impact. I see Mum around the house. I think we fight back in the cricket and it gets rained off. It's a relief as I thought we would lose for sure. I begin seeing a scene of Marleigh and Steven having interment Moments in the bed room. Marleigh looks pregnant and has put on a lot of excess weight. Steven is trying to move her onto of him. The other scene is of Steven putting his dick in her. He's dick looks a bit soft and fat. The videos are for anyone to watch as they show it as a sign of love, not fucking.

Keeping It In The Family
I'm in a swimming facility, and I see a amputee swimming. Dana White encouraging the kid. Somehow they're creating waves in the pool, allowing the kid to catch a wave for a brief moment. He wasn't able to swim in a straight line. He kept moving into other lanes. There's another guy that catches a wave all the way to the other end. At first I though was going to catch it all the way into the wall. I see that there's some dogs in the pool, and One of the dogs is unsure of the water. It's making odd noises, which is getting the attention of one of the other dogs. It might have been its mother or father, cause it was looking concerned. The dog looked to be walking on water, but was walking on the lane rope instead. The dog walks towards me and is still walking on water. I think to myself that the dog would have to sink sooner or later. The dog ends up looking more and more comfortable in the water.

I get into the water and I swim over to my cousin Rach, who I'm dating. I feel a bit awkward due to others reactions. I swim over to Kayley and Daniel. I bring up that i don't care what other people think about me dating my cousin. Daniel asks me a question which finishes early, so I don't fully understand what he's saying. I ask him again what he meant.

I walk outside and Mum is waiting for me to pick me up. She's in the XR6.


Dream fragment
Cousin Rach asks me if I still do Lem sip. I tell her I do and haven't been sick in a year and a half

The civilisation has fallen. A mysterious plague turned people into monsters. We had to escape to deserts, where the monsters were somehow weaker, though there was more of them. We took everything with us, and placed it in a car trunk. We even took kittens with us.

My last entry got deleted -_- Retyping...

Due to a poor night's sleep (allergies destroy!), I did not lucid dream last night. I remembered a fragment, but was too exhausted to record it, and thus forgot it by morning.

I tried the MILD method for the first time in a while, though, during a nap. It didn't quite work, so I guess I need more practice. But! I did recall a dream, so it did work to an extent.

I was with my family in a car. One of those hired driver guys was driving us somewhere. He was looking at the map on his GPS or phone or whatever it was. He turned back to us and he said, "My way or the highway - my way is quicker!" And then he drove us on whatever route was not the highway.

I might've attained lucidity if it weren't for my piece of crap, broken satellite watch, which decided it was randomly going to beep from my dresser. Woke me up right away. I really need to get that thing fixed.

Aaaand now I'm going to bed. c: We'll see how tonight goes.

New totalitarian regime took over the world. I decided to escape that world, and ran away from cities to a desert that was used as waste disposal until the toxicity level was too high. I wanted to create my world there, changing climate, weather, buildings and landscapes with moves of my hands.

I created beautiful swamps, forests and moors. Fields, rivers and villages. The world was beautiful but empty, as no one lived in there. I decided to call for divine intervention, and quickly a god answered my prayers. It was a Random Numbers God. He send me a prophet - a pretty, tall, redhead lady. She told me to retrieve Supernatural Dices, and my prayers would be rewarded.

I ran back to part of wasted desert that was not changed by me, and called for the prophet. She appeared immediately, and gestured. A rock spire with a teleport on top of it shot out of ground. I jumped on top of small penninsulas, and jumped into the portal.

I landed on a platform hanging in void. It had huge leaves floating on water as floor. The water was muddy, though I could see crocodiles swimming in it. My mission was simple - run to the end of it, get the dices, and run back. On the way I had to jump on the platforms, punch crocodiles and pick up smaller dices, until I got to the end and received a huge die.

I ran back, meeting the same obstacles. When I jumped out of portal, I threwn the dices at the lady and then... I appeared in my toilet. I was taking a bath in bathtub. Suddenly I just started to s**t into the water. I really felt it coming out of me, and then the whole bathroom started to stink. I cleaned it later on.

I must've rolled lots of 1 when throwing dices at the lady. RNG never liked me.

I've been supremely lazy with my DJ lately, and now I've got that competition coming up! So, here's me trying to get back in the swing of things. An oddly strung-together non-lucid from last night:

I'm with my best friend J in my old room at my Dad's house. It's late at night and we're trying to go to sleep. Lots of things are keeping me from being able to. J is trying really hard but I can tell she's not sleeping either. There are lights and music on in the room (music task dangit!) and the bed is lumpy, tilted, and too small. Eventually we give up on falling asleep because it's like 6:49am (I remember seeing the numbers somewhere) and my Dad and some other people have come to talk to us. We're supposed to get ready and go to J's parents' house, so we do. I find myself with C, alone inside the house. I'm snooping around, dragging him along with me and showing everything to him. We end up in a back room that's for J's Dad. It's some kind of relaxing spa area and there's a thing that looks like a teeny hot tub. The jets are running and steam comes off the roiling water. I get in and sit down, barely fitting, and it feels great. I think it's for J's Dad's feet after a day of work. I tell C that we need one of these. Everyone else is outside and we can see them and their cars off in the field through big windows. We head back to the living room and as we arrive, so do they. We hang out in there and suddenly it's night time. I have brought with me some kind of oversized glass coca-cola bottle with a weird cloth lid and candy inside. J's mom remarks about how it's just like hers, which is sitting right next to it. We examine and compare them to find there are some small differences. Another transition (daytime now) and J, myself and a couple others are running around the outside of the house trying to avoid some people looking for us on the inside of the house. It's some kind of thing involving law enforcement and D is with them. The house is mostly glass windows now, so I see D walk into a room by himself. I climb up on the glass and Julie keeps running, not noticing I'm gone. D doesn't notice me either. I guess I'm semi-lucid because I phase down through the glass and just attack him and we start making out. We start floating and drift back outside, out and up. D's form becomes insubstantial and he disappears. I look down, awareness fading, and see a group of native people hanging out on a jungle-y shore beside a river. The glass house is still there, too. Over to the left edge of my vision is a waterfall. There are no trees next to the water, just large, fluffy ferns and stuff. The natives are having fun diving into the water and I begin to hear a male voice narrating, saying that they compare dives and see which one can do it better. The voice says "sea level" alot in reference to the depth of the water. Apparently this is the most important thing. I start zooming over the land, seeing different scenes of people and vehicles on different bodies of water. The last one is a 4-wheeler that goes on water. I see it ramp waaay up in the air and land back down in the water, where it becomes a hover-boat. I "zoom in" and land next to it and realize it's my two sisters inside. They're much younger here than irl. I get excited and become me again, saying hi to them. We're at the edge of a waterpark and apparently the boat thing was a ride they just went on. We go to where their dad is (they're half-siblings) and he's already getting back in line for that ride. We wait with him. His sister is there too, down on the ground (The line for the ride is on a wooden platform). We're all wanting drinks so we call to her to get some. No one seems to know where a drink stand is, so I look around. I see several small concession stands and more wooden platforms leading to rides. One of the stands has a lemon wedge sign and is called "Cold Rock Lemonade". I point this out to step-dad and he calls down to his sister about it. Later on, we're at their house (his sister is gone) and C is with me. It's just me, him and my step-dad. We give step-dad a movie to watch that we really like, then I see a magazine I want to look at. I look through it from back to front for some reason and when I almost get to the front, there is porn. Lots of little icon-sized pics of people. Half are dudes, half are chicks. I flip through this really quickly, trying to see if there's anything else, but nope. I close it and set it down, not acknowledging to step-dad that I found porn at his house.. lol. This turns into some weird movie that involves gay sex, then B (step-dad) and his dad (DC made-up version) get into a fight about gay tolerance and the old man says something like, "It doesn't matter what you're touching as long as it's what you want to touch" or something like that. He's really tolerant while B is not quite so much. They eventually get into a cartoonish fight and turn into big clowns. The old man has a weird metal apparatus attached to his pelvic region and at the end of it (it's really huge, like a crane) is a regular ol' hot dog lmao. He chases B with this, trying to poke him with it, and ends up chasing him into a gigantic pit. B falls all the way down into some really soft dirt with worms all in it. From way above, the worms just look like crushed up pieces of ramen noodles lol. But once the camera zooms down, they are giant meal-worms, flipping around everywhere. B is still a clown and is angrily shaking his fist and yelling.

Dream Fragment
An old fighter is telling me that he best up a legend. He tells me he beat up Bruce lee. I'm behind a door and his kicking it in trying to get to me. He can't seem To get in due to me holding it with legs. He's the brother of another fighter.