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No recall.

[Friday, October 26th, 2012]
(Later that day.)
(WBTB... I was trying a new technique where you are supposed to wake up after 6 hours of sleep, get up and get a
drink and go back to bed. Then you will wake up off and on- and you must tell yourself that you won't move upon
waking. If you wake up without moving, correctly, then you'll be free to try a series of techniques for spurring on
OBE's and lucid dreaming, directly from it.)

I got to a state on the edge of the twilight dream world... I could feel my body vibrating slightly... accompanied by

another familiar feeling that I recognized, but couldn't quite explain... like a strange numbness.

I tried rollling my body- didn't work... tried levitating my body and it worked. My legs began to float up into the
air.

I floated up above my body and saw a yellow clothes hamper in my room with a face on it.
I became excited and threw myself towards it.
Then I flashed forward to a door way, and some figure was folded into himself in a ball on the floor.
It made unintelligible sloppy growls- but I decided that it wasn't unfriendly.
I began to growl sloppily back, as if I were conversing with it.

<I woke up.>

So today I remembered nothing . I don't if i'm doing something wrong or what. Any ways hopefully I can remember some tonight.

-Josh

I had multiple dreams again but I didnt sleep very comfortably meaning i kept waking up. So my dreams are hard to remember, on the other hand, i had something weird happen to me that i havent had since I was a kid.I highlighted it just in case you guys dont want to read the unimportant stuff.

First Dream I remember I found myself outside in a park or a neighborhood? All i can recall is seeing a sidewalk and some trees the rest seemed to be fogged out. This guy comes out of a Cabin looking house and tells me to follow inside. I find myself inside being scanned by a machine and when done he shows me my face and says "You have multiple tumors, one on the eye, the mouth, and the nose." The screen showed some built up 'junk' that i guess would resemble tumors but even my dream self knew this guy was full of shit. Soon after showing me, I began to sneeze some snot out of my nose in a sink and cough out some flem from my throat. I was thinking omg this guy was right, when all of a sudden a sexy blonde girl comes in with a pistol ready, sees me doing that and says "Eww thats disgusting!" She proceeds to come near me but her target is the guy. She bends him over the tub thats there and shoots him in the back like an execution. I didnt care. Woke up soon after.

Another dream was of me driving to mike and kristins house because they invited me over to try and win back my friendship (Were no longer friends due to them being bad friends in general) I remember having to go through some gates to find the place and once i parked. I didnt want to go inside because i knew it was a bad idea in the first place. The entire dream it was pouring down rain and it was a good excuse not to go inside. Some friends who were in there with them came running out and got in my car. It was ryan who i havent seen since highschool and Victor whos in P.R. right now. Ryan was saying something but i wasnt paying attention. I noticed him and said "Sorry man, how have you been its been too long" he replied with "Its been good man" I asked "Hows life?" and he stated "Its whatever, have some problems but who doesnt" I told him that "Yeah, I guess life is the same for everyone but just experiances in a different way". I decided to drive around in the rain to listen to my system but it wouldnt work sometimes. IRL Im having some technical problems. I woke up when we parked again.

This dream was the shortest but for a good reason. I found myself in a movie theater walking around to find a good seat. I sat down in a chair next to a girl who im pretty sure said something to me but i dont remember what. She was two seats next to me and on my right were no more chairs. Suddenly from behind me I feel a womans hand with semi long nails grab the back of my head and slowly move her nails through my hair. The dream was not very vivid nor clear but this hand felt so real I woke up in a jumpy way. As im typing this i can still feel what the hand felt like and i just know that it wasnt part of my dream rather either a spirit touching me while i sleep or a psychic trying to reach out to me. I also knew that whatever or whoever touched me was not malicious because i didnt feel scared nor any bad energy from it.

I had a few more dreams but dont deem them too significant to type. Id like to make note that this has actually happened to my mom a lot but for her its more stronger. She would feel someone lay in bed next to her while she was dreaming and sometimes something would lay their hands on her. Its happened when i was a little kid as well but I guess now its because ive been meditating and increasing my vibrations.

So last nigh and the night before I Derped up and barley remember 1 dream each day. My alarm made me forget most details and I won't use it anymore. Any ways, I don't have a lot for this journal.

Dream for Oct. 23:
So basically here I was at like a food court with some friends, I don't remember what friends they were but I remember they were friends of mine. I was trying to find out what to eat as my friends and the lunch people were making Seinfeld jokes (I don't know why) and I started getting thirsty and wanting drink a monster and as I was choosing one the dream ended.

Dream for Oct. 24:
This one I barley remember this one so I'll just share my notes

• Doing homework'
• Checking due dates
• Everything was dark blue
• My friend finsihed before me

Hopefully I will remember more. -Josh

[Thursday, October 25th, 2012]
(I fell asleep tongith at my Aunt's on her couch. I went over to clean that night, but I felt insanely nausious so I lied
down for a while...)

I'm on the same street that me and Alex had a fight on the night before this dream...
Me and Alex are on a platform, it's midnight, and there's someone watching us from a bench...
We're fighting in slow motion- dodging punches and swinging kicks- with superhuman precision and grace.
The person on the bench doesn't say a word, but I have the idea that she's female.
Alex has a weapon now, and she swings it at me, but I have a strange, giant, metal pair of pliers,
and I dodge and rear back into a snake stance with the pliers ready to clamp.
We stop and put our weapons down and laugh.

--

Me and Alex are traveling through some strange mountain pathway up to a village...
The side of the cliff path is so steep, we have to stab our hands into the ground to pull ourselves up.
I feel almost robotic, but graceful in how I make my way up the mountain.
As we reach the village- I either lose recall or the dream ends...

--

I'm outside of my Aunt's/Grandpa's house in the yard.
No recall besides the location, so far.

Gavin was riding a bike in my old backyard and he rode up the back wall and crashed. He was injured but ok. Mum me and gavin were in backyard and mum was on a plastic white outdoor table. She knew every Geelong Cats football players name. This was odd as she normally doesn't know any players names and she goes for Collingwood.

We all went to a retreat with Jordan and another brother. We climbed up a terrifying log and we all egged each other on once we got up there the other two boys jumped down into the waters below. I chickened out and slid down. We got back to our resort and Jordan put on a blue Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu gi and tried to be tough. He was annoying. I remember a fragment of rory getting mince out of the fridge. I went to my room and was afraid that I destroyed or lost my usb and keys but they were ok.

I went to a pub and saw my sister there. She was talking with friends. I went up to her and told her about what happened. She wanted to tell me about horror story gavin and mum had told her about previously but I didn't want to hear it. My sister looked Asian. It was around this time I became suspect that I was dreaming. I reassured my self - yes I definitely am dreaming! However, I became too excited. I sort of panicked and tried some dream control techniques like touching objects and spinning. However, I had trouble visualizing spinning. I began too panic the reality of being in a dream, everything went wierd (almost psychadelic) and I woke up at 6:12am.

I need to go over this article: http://www.dreamviews.com/f12/ninas-...torial-118317/
in order to extend my lucidity duration.

9/16/2012

I was using a Lucid Dreaming App for a week which included reality check notifications every 2 hours and a dream diary. However, after a week without any results I decided to stop doing it. However, whenever something during the day happens that is odd I'll still perform the checks.

Last night I had my first lucid dream. However, I was not able to control it. I saw my uncle who has been deceased for several years. This prompted me to do my reality check of pushing two fingers into my palm but nothing unusual happened. I kept trying in the dream and thought "This sucks I'm dreaming but the test ain't working, because my fingers aren't going through.

I was stuck in the dream state. I couldn't control the dream. After that I just assimilated into the dream. Knowing that I was in a dream, my uncle seemed frightening to me as I knew he was deceased. He gave me $50 though and my mum and aunt were also in the lounge room sitting on two couches, sort of just looking on.

(I had plenty of dreams. PLENTY of dreams. I only recall a few of them right now though.)

I'm by Screamer's, a bunch of people pass by in a ship made of logs that sails on land.
Me and Alex are in a blow-up-raft and are floating along the other way, going towards the road.

<skip to the next dream>

At Dunkin' Donuts with Nathan
(I don't work here now.)
I take a broken glazed donut
He gives me another butternut chocolate
Hope, my ex-boss for Dunkin Donuts, walks in the room and she's okay that I'm there.
I think about asking for a job there since DD is back in town somehow.
I wonder about how DD is back in business.
The whole building is now huge, there's tons of tables.
People are gradually coming in. By now there's only one person sitting at a table.
Karen, our old landlord, also is a boss here too.
We're built into the apartment complex.
Hope hands me some clothes, "Some of these are yours that you left!"
I'm walking around and see clothes scattered everywhere, as if it's a messy home.
I find a pair of glasses that resembles mine, sitting on a table.
I take off the ones I have on now and realize that they're not mine. I replace them.
I walk around more and explore this new building.
I find that pile of clothes from earlier that I had set down, and decide to look through it.
"Heeyyy, none of these are even my clothes!" I say in a humorous high-pitched voice.
I walk outside.
With Hope and Karen, we get in the car and leave to go somewhere.

We drive back up and we all part ways.
I come in to the Dunkin' Donuts/Apartment/Bar later with a suit and tie and I look badass and sexy.
People are everywhere, sitting at tables.
I see a girl I know, Sam ____, and I point at her, "Hey you!"
She gets up to hug me and attempts to kiss me in the process as well...
I avoid the kiss, even if she's cute, because I have someone who I love already.
After awhile of hanging out there, I go outside and notice the door doesn't shut all the way...
and if I get it to shut, it doesn't stay that way. Frustrated, I walk inside and say,
"Don't use this door, guys!" Someone replies, "Yeah, it doesn't shut."
I leave it half open and walk outside...
Then my old Golden Retriever runs outside!
I chase her around, trying to catch her, but she's too damn fast.
My Mom appears and tries to catch her too; she doesn't seem too worried.
Another dog appears, maybe my old Chihuahua Pinky.
Then Teddy appears, but he looks very odd and grey and old.
Sedona is still running around the apartment complex when the dream ends..

<I wake up.>

<I fall back asleep.>

Lying in bed, I notice that there's a flat-screen TV where it shouldn't be. A lady is delivering the news.
I'm not in my room... and if I am, it's different. The lights are darker and colder.
I realize I must be dreaming and decide to crawl towards the TV, to crawl inside.
It's extremely difficult to make myself crawl towards it.
I open my eyes and I'm in sleep paralysis.
A figure stands near my bed, just out of the corner of my eye.
I freak out and wake up again.

<I wake up, startled...>
<I fall back asleep.>

Alex, Nathan, and I are driving through where McDonald's usually is, but this time, it's Wendy's!
We pull up to the drivethru and I want two Jr. Bacon Cheeseburgers, but they order before I have a chance to say it and pull up.
Alex orders a Bacon Cheeseburger and a drink and Nathan orders something else.
I'm distraught! They pull up and park and we go inside to eat.
I'm complain, but they don't seem to have much sympathy.
I see the plastic utensils, and look around to see where Nathan and Alex went.
They're sitting down eating, while I wander around the restaurant aimlessly.

<dream skips>

I'm back at the apartment complex... or at least a different version of it.
Each outside door leads to another SUB-apartment complex, with it's own 4 or 6 doors to actual apartments.
The apartments are distorted, and extremely large and long, like warehouses.
I'm inside of one apartment with lots of people I knew from school.
We're all playing with these devices that you attach to either your clothing or your head-
When you think a phrase clearly enough, it will play the voice off a speaker.
We all take turns playing with it:
"There's a snake in my boot!"
"There's a rake in my poot!"
"Pooh! Poot! Poop!"
"Rickets... what? Whoa I can hear myself think!"

We all goof around until, eventually, most people leave.
<dream fades>

(I don't remember the rest, just imprints of memories that have to do with the sky and mountains and sunsets. It looks like the sun is setting in the
wrong direction.)

[Monday, October 22nd, 2012]
(Nathan was spooked by all of the things I talked about- Paranormal, Metaphysics, Lucid Dreaming, ghosts and spirits and demons, astral projection...etc... so he asked if I could spend the night. I tried to remember my dreams, but I had either little or no recall of anything. Hardly even an imprint of a memory of a dream remained. I walked home in the morning, shrugging it off, but I still plan on focusing more on recall through out my days and nights- regardless of the situation or location.)

No recall.

[I say 11:59 because that's when I got in bed, but I had a lot of trouble falling asleep. I was still awake at 2:48. I'm not sure why that happened; I usually don't get insomnia.]

So My first night of trying to do dream recall, I think was a success. I remember 4 dreams. But two of them were like mini dreams and I wake up in between most of them. But I take notes on all 4. I guess i'm just one of those people who can naturally recall dreams .
Here are my notes:

Dream 1:

• I was going up a castle
• with some friends
• random dragon at the top

Dream 2:

• someone in a white dress was i my room
• my light was on
• In the dream I was thinking about lucid dreams
• The person started screaming

Dream 3:

• Something like a refugee camp in my highschool
• lots of tents
• People were using elevators
• I started using my laptop

Dream 4:

• Hotel room with my band friends
• wierd homeless guy staring at us
• horror movie feel

-Josh

There is a TV show The Lying Game. I was dreaming it and I was Emma (Yey!) I totally love this show So if you know this show you are going to know the characters

I was laying in my bed and eating delicious cookies then Sutton entered the room. She said something about leaving with Ethan. After our little talky she left.
I arrived to school with Lauren and I wanted to give her a cookie (the same type as I have been eating while laying in bed) she said that I should give it to homeless people and not her. I saw a young version of Rebecca at school. (SPOILER: She is the mother of Sutton and Emma). While I was walking to class I asked a guy is there any new students in school. The answer was negative.
After lessons I was walking down the park and I saw Carly Rae Jepsen. She was sitting on a car with two other girls. They were wearing blue jeans suit (or something like that). I waved and ran to her. She looked at me with weird face and asked: Are you OK? I answered: Yup, I'm better when ever.
Late at night I visited my friend (His name wasn't told in the dream so we will call him a friend). He was sitting at dinner table with 3 other guys. The friend told us: There aren't any new students in school... So, who will be a dork again? My eyes caught a nice cake. So I grabbed a piece and ate it. The taste of the cake was amazing so I ate rest of the cake. (I think the guys got angry on me and thought that I should be a dork).
Next day the guys took me to a lake. They climbed into a tower near a lake and shouted: Emma climb over here and jump to the lake! The lake is 40 meters deep down here. I got suspicious so I took a branch and looked at depth of a lake. It was max 1.5 meters.
Yup they were trying to make me dork and see if I will do what they told me to do. If I was listening to them I would have to suicide in the name of those "friends".

21.10(weed) I was not a character in my dream, i was more like an observer. I was observing this woman, she was taking a huge risk about doing something and also discussing it someone (possibly drug deal), i think it was something illigal and she was preparing some kind of deal, also she was doing it again, it was her second time.
22.10(weed) I am working something, at work there is this girl im attracted to, she had long blonde hair almost the same as Seven of Nine had(star trek voyager), we hug and lay on the ground but she then goes to go her boyfriend who happens is next to me, im a little sad that she leaves me. There are also other scenes but i cant remember them, its because of the weed
WBTB 40mins awake, no successful LD.
I was supposed to meet a friend, so i am traveling with a car. At the entrance of his block there is someone walking infront of me and walks into the the apartment on the opposite side that my friend lives(real friend named Vicho). My friend walks out and i ask him "Are we supposed to take (name i dont remember)" and he replies "nah". The other scenes i remember is, i am at work. I am standing next to an employ (a real one, he is named Andro). He is working on his desk. There is a metalic shelf above his head (Also real one from work) On the shelf the employ put a butter, salami and yellow cheese, they are placed on top of each. Those are the products i use to make sandwiches in real life, also i place them exacly like that ,appreantly so does the employ in my dream life The other thing i remember is i am in a non familiar room with people. I am not sure if i am still at work, but i grab one of those pens with 5 colours and i want to draw a half circle (i think it was for something, but i cant remember what for). I am drawing this half circle on a black suede leather ( i work with leathers in work and especialy with suede) The texture details of the suede leather were real as it could be. So as i am repeating same move to make that half circle i realise i need orange color, so i look at the colors of the pen and bam there it is, along with 2 blues 1 black and the last i dont remember i instantaneously switch to orange. But i've already used the blue color for the half circle and i cant "overpaint" it with orange (As would happen in real life with suede leather). I am rapidly making the same moves to try get the orange color show on the leather with little success aaaaand i am awake.
My head hurts because of the weed i smoked the previous 2 days, now i wont smoke for a long time. I am pretty sure i should have a better dream recall. Woke at 6:00am for WBTB, went to bed 6:40am, probably fell asleep at 7:20~am. Did some short meditation, 90% of the time i was thinkin about LD, and what i would do, expecting it, positive toughts, also i ate 1 banana and drank some water.

I had a hard time getting up this morning. I can't remember this dream very well but it was a lucid.

Me and my supposed guide were sitting together. We were in a small stucco house, like one you would expect to see in Egypt or the middle east. We sat at a small wooden table by a window. Out the window, there were several more stucco buildings followed by a mountain range off in the distance.
Man, I would give anything to remember what she was telling me about. I can remember it being some really profound advice about my life. I woke up after we had talked for awhile.

Edited: Learn about my dream guide by visiting my "Ramblings" entry.