task of the month

This lucid was a really nice break from a month long dry spell. What began as a 5 hour long WBTB, ended up becoming quite an escapade.

I woke up at 3am and couldn't get back to sleep. Then I had to go to a 6am meeting at work. I went home and tried to go back to sleep before having to go BACK to work at 11am (my schedule sucks). I fell back to sleep probably about 8am. I started having a dream where I was in a house I didn't recognize, and some kid that wasn't my son was doing some homework on the dining room table. I suddenly became lucid because I remembered that I was just trying to get to sleep just moments before. This is a very common way that I DILD now. Anyway, I had been thinking of the performance and limerick tasks as I was trying to get to sleep, so I decided to bust out an aria from Mozart's Così fan tutte, "È amore un ladroncello." It was the first one to pop into my head. I only sang the first 4 bars then quit, because I didn't think the one boy really qualified as a whole audience. Also, he was barely reacting to my presence. So I decided to move on to the Limerick task. I started hearing the Popeye the Sailor Man melody (which has a limerick rhyme scheme and meter to it) in my head like I planned irl, and one of the Popeye-like garbage can limericks started happening. I remember the first 2 lines and the 5th one form right away, then I struggled with getting 3 and 4 to rhyme as well as fit the rest. I don't remember the trial and error precisely, but I remember feeling a little frantic because I didn't want to run out of time. It all probably took a minute at the most, I'm guessing, but here is the result:

There once was a man named Stan
Who lived in a garbage can
When he was in the mood
To fry up some food
He used the lid for a pan.

I woke up laughing at myself, and I can't recall for certain but I may have started laughing in the dream. What a goofy ass little poem. What followed was 3 more DILDs. They were very DEILD like in nature, because I would wake up and go back to sleep and start the dream in pretty much the same house, but it would take a few seconds for the awareness to kick in. So a DILD-chain? Weird. Seriously, leave it up to me to jumble everything up.

No lucid sex for nearly 5 weeks woke up something extra animal in me it seems. I fell right back to sleep, and I appeared in a bedroom in what seemed to be the same house. Again, I was bumbling around for a few seconds before remembering that I was just waking up from a lucid dream not seconds before. All I wanted to do was find an attractive DC and celebrate my TOTM success. I discovered a lady who was fairly tall, thin and tan, standing in one corner of the room. Not ordinarily what I go for, but I guess I DO go for it since my subC is the one that came up with her! She had long brown hair and I think she was pretty, but I never really looked at her face for long. I gotta break that habit. I started for her, and she ran lol. I took off after her, and as I ran past a mirror, I saw that I was female. I hoped that wouldn't mess things up. I cornered her in the opposite side of the bedroom, and she seemed to go a bit docile.

Spoiler for NSFW 1:

I reached down to check if I was at least male in that respect, and I was. One of the few things that's guaranteed in my lucids. I pushed her down on the bed, and she fell on her back. I lifted her shirt up and tried to kiss her boobs, but she was really flat chested. This happens to me a lot, I don't know why. I went for her left nipple anyway, and started working on it. Her skin was ridiculously smooth, but she didn't react much. Anyway, it still turned me on too much and I woke up.

I fell back to sleep and had a similar lucid onset. Ended up in some bedroom in that same house, or a house, and got lucid seconds after. This time there was a blonde chick with glasses not 2 feet away from me. Before I could even think, I grabbed her arm and threw her on the bed. I didn't want to wake up too soon like the last time, plus I wanted to do more than just wham bam thank you ma'am. So I was more gentle with pushing this one on the bed. I got on top of her and started French kissing her. It was actually pretty nice, though I had to keep my eyes open. Anytime I try to close my eyes when I kiss in lucids, I end up losing the dream. Plus I don't miss as much this way. She reciprocated the kisses nicely, but her front teeth were kinda big and kept clashing with mine a bit lol. Kinda awkward. In a bit of a blur, I removed just enough of our clothes to start having sex, but I got too excited and woke up again.

I went into the 3rd and final lucid the same way. This time I appeared in a hallway of possibly the same house and became lucid when it dawned on me that I had just been chaining dreams. Now I wanted to really bump things up a notch. I decided that the next hot DC I found, I was going to try having sex up against the wall. I found a cute brunette guy in his 20s leaning against the wall, who acted clearly gay. I didn't waste a moment, but I was beginning to struggle with lucidity and removing my pants seemed to take forever.

Spoiler for NSFW 2:

I finally managed nailing the guy up against the wall, but I gotta be honest, things felt a bit numb. Not the first time either. We stopped doing it against the wall, and resumed on the floor. I hoped I could get better traction/friction(?) this way. Anyway, still kinda numb feeling. I mean, I was turned on, but it felt like there weren't enough nerve endings in my thing. Or as if I had 5 condoms on lol. Then a weird thought occurred to me: I decided to touch my dick while we were doing it. I just put my right finger on the top of the shaft, right at the base. I guess I was hoping to feel a bit more friction this way. It totally worked, I could feel everything so much more! I guess because I incorporated tactile with everything else? I don't know, but I lasted about 10 glorious seconds before climaxing then waking up.

And it was just 9 o'clock! All that jazz happened within an hour. I went back to sleep and slept dreamlessly for another hour and felt awesome.

21:30 put on my new blue-blocking UVEX safety glasses, wear all the way to bed time. People with chronic bed-time insomnia report these help better than sleeping pills. I don't have bed-time insomnia but figure every minute of getting to sleep faster is more dreaming during the night and better rest. I also wear them for WBTB where I need to turn on some lights.

23:00 100mg 5-HTP hoping for REM rebound and deep restful sleep for first half of night + bedtime

Prepared 2x4mg Galantamind, 1x300 choline bitartrate, 2x300mg Alpha-GPC
No REMee tonight, in anticipation of long BTB after taking the G.

00:00 Monday 2014-05-05 LD #36 Galantamine, TOTM

03:47 alarm, took G mixture and banana (to ensure pills actually hit stomach, and get some additional energy to brain for epic long dreaming)

04:45 wide awake, take 0.3mg melatonin to help with getting back to sleep

05:44 not sleeping yet, feeling a bit hungry, eat 3 small corn tortillas with about 1/3 of an avacado and small glass of milk, to prevent staying awake from empty stomach rumblings and to provide fuel for anticipated epic long LDs.

Lots of HH: mostly faint dark blobs flashing in front of my eyes. A few HI: 1) a box of breakfast cereal on a shelf, 2) a newspaper with a headline, and 3) beautiful blonde shepherdesses with some goats in a pasture.

07:45 somewhere around here finally fall asleep. Indulging in stimulating daydreaming too much. Finally stop that and put full sleep relaxation kung-fu into place. Try hard to enjoy where I am, "not trying" to sleep but just float in relaxation. Somewhere in there my thoughts finally subside and I sleep.

+ watching TV and I knew the time on the TV was wrong, it showed 03:00 but I knew I had been up for hours so it should be more like 07:00

+ TV show: (scene from the Sopranos?) Two guys in some sort of tropical hut open to the outside, one guy is saying "we're done for, they're going to find us", the second guy (in Hawaiian shrit?) is important (Tony Soprano?) I'm pretty sure they won't wack hiim, another guy walks in from the left, I focus on him, a somewhat hazy gun is in his left hand he's holding it up pointing it into the room, then somebody off-screen to the left shoots him (the one with the gun), he has no shirt on, I see the bullet shoot through his body, entering around his right side mid-ribcage and exiting from the middle of his chest, bright red blood starts gushing in a stream from the entrance wound, his face goes slack, his hand starts moving slowly to cover the entrance wound, I think that won't help at all because if he covers it up it will just start gushing from the exit wound.

+ wife tells me something and I respond like it doesn't matter (because I'm dreaming?)

+ I'm in a cluttered room in a random house. I'm reaching for a large round cookie tin at the top of a tall cabinet (raided my folk's extra freezer for a tin of frozen brownies yesterday IWL...mmmmm, frozen brownies!), I grab it and am bringing it down to me, and my mantra hits for no apparent reason, "I'm dreaming..."...HEY! I AM dreaming!". Quick nose pinch confirms it, I can breathe! I try to put the cookie tin down on the ironing board to my left but I miss and it falls to the floor, for a brief instant I consider picking it up but I laugh at myself and realize I shouldn't give a sh*t cuz this is an LD and just turn away from it heading to the right. Feel unstable, vision is fading to white, I instantly rub hands. I rub them and feel for them and look for them, this always works wonders for me but not today, I feel them but can't see them. I try my full-body pat-down but only get a few pats in before stopping, I see my dream body a bit but I'm still in vague whiteness. I "bring out the nukes" and spin around counter clockwise for a while [I haven't done this since LD #1!] still in whiteness, I wonder if I'll end up somewhere different, I stop and I'm back in the room. I continue forwards out of the room, there's a small hallway there with a darkened room to the left. What should I do? TOTM! AH! Shots with Angelina Jolie! What is the other task??.....ah ok, the force, I think I'll start there it's easier, just TK something as there's nobody around, I look around and see some notebooks lying on the ground at my feet. I take a few steps backwards into the room I started in with my eyes on the notebooks, hold out my left hand and will one of the notebooks to come to my hand, AND IT DOES! Woohoo, first mindful TK. "That's awesome" I say and toss the notebook back down where it started. OK, SHOTS TIME! I start thinking about Angelina and begin working up a summon for her, but I wake up.

5/5/14* Epic for me!..the part I am referring to starts at the ocean/beach further into the first lucid (blue) section. Got a great balance of self-awareness and dream environment attention and vividness! Weirdness induced second night in a row, but this time intentionally. This may be too personally felt for anyone else to get it. Also I was getting HH's while wife was getting up to get ready and there are only two of us in the house but I could hear the door closing on the other side of the house at the same time I felt my bed bouncing a little bit like when someone gets in or out of bed and that was a little bit freaky but I took it as HH's and I stay calm (which was it...was the bed movement or the door closing the HH...or both? ha ha!). Dream: We are in a big group seem to be traveling and we are in like a passport or visa line in Paris (the dream tells me this but I am not sure how, perhaps from earlier in the dream) but I am disappointed to see that we arrived in one of the suburbs and at first there is a huge line I see over to the left and I hope that that is not the line we're getting in but no we are dropped off to another place. There doesn't seem to be a line and we just have to go down this series of stairs, more and more stairs until finally I'm in this line but it is an amusement park line for some ride. It is a train of 4 to 6 cars each half-dome shaped with space for two. I've lost everyone except for one girl that is with us. But then I notice that I got out of line somehow on the exit side of the ride and the ride operator wouldn't let me get back on with the person I was with so now she was on the ride and taking off and the ride operator said something smart and I got upset at him and I thought it makes me just want to punch the guy and as I think about actually punching him I realize wait a minute that's a dream-like scenario taking control and punching someone and I realize I'm dreaming and I think about the musical performance task of the month and how I had already planned on doing it, but first I punch the guy. So I start playing air guitar and I the guitar appears and then I started doing air drums imagining the song by Phil Collins "I can feel it coming in the air tonight" I forget the title. Everything goes fuzzy but the crowd, I can start to hear the crowd getting louder and louder forming around me and there was already a crowd in the line of the ride but then I imagine them cheering and continue playing the drums and I am having a blast when I feel the dreamscape fading and I remember to try to spin and I fade into the void. In the void I tried to go back to where I was, with me performing, but nothing was happening fast enough so I remember my old reliable happy place, an ocean beach. As I imagine the scene I can start to hear ocean waves very gentle but repetitive rolling in along with seagulls calling and I patiently wait and it feels like I'm starting to float in slightly undulating water and I decide I don't want it to be too deep I want to be close to shore so I can explore the land and I do feel the water shallow...success! I feel the water up to my shins and the scene appears around me it is a grassy ocean with long green something not really kelp but it looks more like thick green grass and it grows above the surface of the very calm waters a little bit maybe half a foot or so and at the edge of the short beach (or high tide) it is like a big ruins wall with an arch opening in it and a column rising up from it up to the right. It looks like what remains of a wall or maybe the façade of a structure. It is maybe 50 yards wide (~50 meters) and maybe 25 or 30 yards high. I decide to fly up to the top of it and have a look around on top of the ruins. At the top of one smaller column I take a closer look and notice that the bricks are made of thin layers of tiny bricks joined together in sheets almost, kind of like reddish adobe clay perhaps, each layer is very intricate there is what I estimate to be about 10 little bricks going across one way with a thin connecting layer between each and then I guess that it must be about 10 going across the other way but when I count I get beyond 12 and I think that there are a few more than that and this layer of connected bricks looks to be only about a quarter-inch thick and it is pliable and I'm kind of messing it up like it is not dry yet and I decide to move on. I fly up over the wall and there are so many miniature things, toys and what not and I fly over to another ruin wall and stop and then fly down again to take a closer look there's this one set of toys that is all in an Arabian theme. There are several guys on camels and they look like royalty, nicely dressed with attire hooded over their head as you might expect from some Arabian tales and not dissimilar to the wise men typically seen in a nativity scene. These are very nice figurines. They were obviously set up in an array perhaps like a kid might set up to play with but neatly or like set up for a museum miniature display. These figures look like they were a good 12-18 inches tall or so. I'm really loving this and decide to keep exploring and go past one of the other ruins and it becomes like a room with a little window box on the far end and more displays inside there. I think about whether or not to fly or phase into that window box display thing but I just think why?..it could cause complications for the stability of the dream. I turn around and there are so many different things in this room and as I head towards the door-like opening I see there is a big glass display case like a curio cabinet and I can see part of my reflection and I notice I'm only wearing underwear and I say well let's see what my thing looks like in this dream. I pull down my underwear and it is kind of a retracted and not much 2 speak of...more like a child's. This dreamscape is so fascinating (and I think that it is some kind of representation of my child-like fantasies of exploring ancient ruins and also the imagination that went along with playing with toy figurines when I was a kid. This was a feeling I recently recaptured when doing the open beta exercises. It is like how when you were a kid you could look at an area under a bush and imagine it as a cool world for your figurines to play in or for your toy soldiers to fight in and I think that is how this world came to be even though I started off imagining the beach and got the beach with the grassy ocean.) As I go on through the door-like arch the dream feels like it is fading but I decided not to fight it because I don't want to forget all of the details of the dreamscape I just explored or the dream before with me performing musically. When I woke up I was quite pleased with myself, and though it may not sound that interesting to many people, it was utterly fascinating to me and I absolutely loved it! It felt like playing somewhere in my subconscious! I can imagine that this is one of those dreams that may only mean a lot to me. I also don't want to consider counting it as TOTM completion because I have more I want to do with that task and I am afraid I won't go back to it if I already have the wings. Awesome fun! 142

Never put last nights LD in my DJ:
5/4* (copying from the TOTM post. I was on a cruise ship vacation in two different dreams this night but only including the TOTM related one here.)

Had an attempt at advanced ii...but I am most happy with my self-awareness during the LD and also breaking away from my typical LD slant (though that kind of sexual thinking helped me realize it was a dream).

I am back on the cruise ship and I see some movement involving a woman in this big glass windowed room/atrium and I think about going in but then it occurs to me that this is a dream scenario for me...I might be...I must be...yeah...I will float up and prove it to myself. Sure enough I float up maybe 20 feet in the air and think that this is a great location to do the musical performance task in front of a large audience on a cruise ship. (Dream control poison removed to protect the dream schema of the innocent). I am now flying over an odd version of a vast ocean. Instead of a realistic ocean it is very light blue for as far as I can see in all directions with symbols in a symmetrical pattern throughout. The repeating symbol was kind of like a yin & yang symbol but with a dolphin on one side and a graphical representation of a wave on the other. I try flying in different directions and still thinking about how to find a large audience and I tell myself that I will begin seeing a city. The seascape starts to change but instead of starting to see a city I suddenly find myself in a large dark, dusty room with a fireplace mantle on one end and a few decorations hanging around it and several old dusty chairs sitting on the right and left side of the room. I find this very interesting to have such a drastic change in scene and look around in amazement. This place looks most like an abandoned retirement home and I feel like this room is probably the recreational room where they would play bingo and what not. I decide that I can still make this work, I just need to summon a bunch of people like I did in last months TOTM, but I tried to summon everyone in with one idea. The idea was that I could hear the crowd building and cheering flowing into the room and I could start to hear it when I felt the dream quickly dissipate. Perhaps I should have brought groups of people in, one at a time, like I did last month thinking I may have tried to do too much at once or perhaps I was coming to the end of my REM anyway. 141

Today's lucid:
I'm standing on the terrace with my mum. We see a familly - mother, father and a boy. I tell to my mum that this boy looks weird. I don't know why, but something's wrong with his face and body. I tell her that only explanation of this is that we are dreaming. She says that we are not dreaming. I tell her that I can show her a proof. I try to telekinesis on the boy and I throw him in the air. You see I tell her. I realize that my mother is ''just a dc'' as well. I had this idea that I need to summon STABILIZATION MACHINE to help me stabilize the dream quicly than my usual techniques and anchoring. Try to summon it behind my back, but nothing appears in thee times. I need to summon something easy. Let's try jelly candies. I summon knitted basked behind my back. There are chocolate candies inside. I try one more time. Just sugar candies. Try it again and then there is sweet red jelly candy!

I went to see a movie today and got my first look at the trailer for "Maleficent" with Angelina Jolie, who seemed to be making recurring appearances in my dreams.

After driving through downtown Chicago, I'm staying in a lakefront house where one whole wall of the house is windows facing the shore. While exploring the house, I come across Angelina Jolie. She's wearing half of her Maleficent costume and seems pretty confused. She gives me a phone number to call to bring her tour bus to pick her up.

I woke up somewhere around four AM and decided to make a WILD attempt. I'm not usually as successful at these when I know I have to be up in a few hours, but apparently I'm on a roll this week.

I'm in a bar. I focus a little bit on stabilizing the dream, running my hands over the bar top and noticing details (where these rounded bullnose countertops?). I even drop a quarter in the jukebox and sit back as a Huey Lewis song comes on. I remember that one of the tasks is to do tequila shots with a DC. The first DC I come across, believe it or not, is Angelina Jolie. She seems like a cool person to have drinks with, so this won't be so back. We order a couple rounds of tequila shots with lime and salt. I haven't actually done this before, so it takes me a little while to figure out how to coordinate taking a shot before doing the salt and lime. Angelina is kind of amused at this. I start telling her about my problems at work and she listens carefully before suggesting that maybe I'm too good for my job. She talks a little bit about her kids and what baby products she found useful (since I sell baby gear). After a few shots, I suggest maybe I could come home with her and watch her and Brad have sex. This makes us both giggly and I wake up.

Hey DV. I had two lucids in a single night a few days ago, I've just been to busy to post about them. I can't recall much from them, but I will say I'm glad because I had four lucids in one month, which is three more than I usually have. But all I can remember is flying in the first dream, and in the second dream I remember pulling an April Fools joke for the TOTM. I'm hoping my recall will get better, as well as my ability to stay asleep longer for longer lucids.

I'm on a cruise ship sailing into port. I'm lounging on the Lido deck and looking at the ship parked next to us, which appears to be from Royal Caribbean judging from the distinctive crown and anchor logo. Everyone else is buzzing about going ashore, and I should probably be getting ready myself, but where am I? I have no idea what port this is. I have an idea that feels brilliant: I'll check Google Maps on my iPad and see what my current location is. But it's not so simple. Google Maps takes forever to load, refuses to show my location, and seems really hung up on a landlocked plateau in South America. I give up and run to my cabin. There's a Costco reusable shopping tote on the floor, and I ponder whether it belongs to me or to one of my roommates. I'll have to see where I can get one for myself. I pop into the bathroom and use the toilet. I look out the window as I'm going -- and realize that this isn't a toilet, but actually a lounge chair on the balcony and people on the ship next to us are watching me pee. I look over and realize my stepmother is sitting on the lounge chair next to me, and she has a look of disgust on her face.

I must have started to wake up. The dream ended, but I realized I was still physically asleep while my mind was awake. I needed to take advantage of this!

I really can't remember my last dream (in fact, I didn't remember anything from the cruise ship until I got up later) but I can remember only one of the tasks of the month: use the Force. I picture an inflatable blue ball, sort of like a cross between a basketball and a soccer ball. I toss it around a bit using the Force to guide it up and down, back and forth. The ball deflates and one of my coworkers appears, a woman who is not that bright. She offers to show me where I can get an air compressor. I follow her until she finds the appropriate model. Then, using the Force, I shove her away and prevent her from saying any more useless things. Then I use the Force to insert the needle attachment into the ball, connect the hose to the needle, and telekinetically flip the on switch on the air compressor.

I feel that using telekinesis just isn't enough. I let the Force flow through me, and suddenly I feel thousands of Expanded Universe characters crying out in despair over being erased in the new movie. That's a shame. I really liked Jaina Solo.

I try to think of other things I want to do, and I see a door open. Inside are a couple of men wearing suits. I remember a dilemma I was having with my boss and I summon him out of the room. Then I use the Force to pin him against a wall and tell him, "You will approve my request to supply power to the display models in my department." He looks terrified and nods in agreement. I can hear birds chirping outside and realize I'm losing the dream. The problem with using the Force for everything is that my sense of touch helps me stabilize. I summon a light saber so I can grasp the hilt. Unfortunately, instead of a "real" light saber, I get my friend's toy light saber. I feel the plastic hilt and try to focus on summoning a more realistic light saber like one from the movies, but I wake up too quickly.

Pre pre: turmeric

Wbtb: had 1/3 latte, was more sleepy, so the ld was more stable, but tasks less accessible.

A dream starts with some scenario going while I'm in my bed in ex-bedroom trying to fall asleep. A moment of the usual confusion as I'm uncertain in the darkness which hands I'm moving. I think I'm moving my real hands because I can touch some of the furniture next to the bed. Then decide to make the dream appear, get up and expect to be able to move in the dream scene, which builds now fully around me. With slightly more confidence I go to the other room, where I examine the furniture layout. Contrary to my expectations the room seems very orderly, and nothing stands out to point out this is a dream. It looks suspiciously realistic and as if this is happening now. Then I have a look at the sofa and see dad and bf relaxing on the opposite sides.

I remember I wanted to do the easter egg task again. This time, I decide to just think of it rather than use hand summon to make the egg appear, then look to my side. There is a weird looking plant which is decorated with eggs. I pick a purple colored egg from the plant and remind myself to break it. Yet, the egg feels hollow and light and I'm afraid there won't be anything inside. I hold it for a while trying to make it a bit heavier and fill it with something to see. The egg remains light and I now worry that if I don't hurry up, these mental efforts will make it transform to something else, so go ahead and break it. The initial impression is that there is nothing inside, but as I examine the small pieces of egg shell fallen in, I notice there are a number of miniature banknotes inside the egg. I make a mental note for the journal.

The DCs change positions and now it's mom, dad and bf sitting on the couch and I start asking them questions. Unlike other of my conversations with DCs, these three can actually speak, forming entire complex sentences more or less answering my questions. I believe I have finally come across smart DCs. Unfortunately, I was unable to recall the most of the things they said, and had not been very prepared to ask them more questions either. This is what I remember.

My first thought is to wonder if it's possible those to be the real people I know, where we are all dreaming this here and now. I have some intuition that this isn't the case, but then wonder if it could be that all of us are engaged in this conversation in a different time (like the past or maybe the future), so I ask the DCs about that. My mom's DC starts to explain something about animals having the ability to do something similar to what we are doing now, but humans have lost this ability. I want them to continue explaining and ask them more questions I can't recall. The only gibberish moment happens when I focus too much on the speech and try to apply extra understanding to it. If I casually listen, they continue with their explanations.

The DCs change to other male DCs I don't know, they continue being smart and I feel close to them as if meeting friends I haven't seen for a long time. The conversation continues and I ask one of the guys something about the dream. He makes a remark that long dreams like this can be especially tiresome for some of the participants as if referring to himself. I'm out of ideas for questions, so try to remember the other tasks but the very strong effort to access this hard to reach memory causes the dream the completely collapse and me to wake up.

I do a mental review and still tired continue sleeping.

I'm on a tour of haunted cemeteries. A few things seem a little off. There's this house that shows up several times on the tour in different places, almost like the house is following me and keeps appearing every time I look over my shoulder. Another weird thing is that we're told that the haunted cemeteries are the ones where slaves are buried, and one of the first ones we visit has a wooden gate with the words "Slave Entrance" scratched onto it. Why would a cemetery need a separate entrance for slaves?

I start to wake up, but then remember that I need to stay still with my eyes closed. It takes a little while before anything appears, and I start counting to stay focused. I find myself at work. Remembering the tornado task, I step out through the back door and look to the east. The sky is sunny, but as I focus, storm clouds appear. Then I watch the tornado form in the distance. It comes towards me as the base widens. I listen for the sounds of the storm, remembering that it's supposed to sound somewhat like a train. Instead, I hear thunder and… is that the score from the movie "Twister?" I just watched that movie the other night, and I really did like the music. I reach out to measure the width of the tornado with my hands – and find myself back indoors, holding a coiled-up rug.

I put the rug down and find a flower pot. It's already filled with soil, and I drop a single seed into it. Nothing happens at first, so I wave my hands over the pot as if I can make it grow. A single stalk shoots out, followed by two more, but there's nothing on them. I force the shoots to retreat back into the soil and come back as something more interesting. The second time, it comes out with a single daffodil. Much better. I wonder if there's anything else I can get out of this that would be more interesting, so I send the daffodil back into the soil. On the third try, an oak tree starts growing out of the pot and shoots upwards. My first thought is that I should climb it, since climbing trees is something I've done before in lucid dreams but it's not something I can do in waking life anymore.

This tree isn't so easy to climb, as the branches are too far apart for me to get both a handhold or a foothold, but I manage to get up into it. I look up and see stars above me, which reminds me of the bonus task. Could I climb the tree all the way up into space? I start climbing higher, but I can't see to get far enough. I start waking up again, but I go back to counting to stay focused. My counting turns into a launch countdown as I sit in the cockpit of a space shuttle. I blast off into space, though I seem to have lost the shuttle somewhere along the way. I watch as the planets zoom past me, first Mars, then Jupiter and Saturn, until I get to my destination: the moons of Uranus. I picked this planet because its moons have Shakespearean names, and one of them happens to be my given name. I land on "my" moon, which seems awfully tiny. It's like I'm standing on a large boulder. I stay on it for three orbits around the planet. This starts to get a little boring after a while, so I start spinning to see where I end up at random. I find myself on the surface of a moon. This time, the moon is large enough that I can see the lunar landscape all the way to the horizon. The sky above me is dark and full of stars. I can even see Jupiter and at this distance, it's as large as the sun appears on Earth.

There's a space capsule on the surface, and I walk into it. There's an astronaut inside who is going about his usual routine. He looks at me, comes towards me, and, um, we get into some really kinky activities. While I am flipped over on my belly while the astronaut guy does stuff, I'm watching plants growing in a hydroponic bay. There are roses growing in a pot, and more rosebuds appear and bloom as stuff happens, which seems pretty cool.

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Lucidity
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I was playing Dishonored and saw an ultra hard difficulty setting so I started playing on that. It was arena type mode with challenges every stage. I was actually in the game fighting and had access to the power selection wheel. The first challenge was to get people to kill each other without me killing them. I went through many challenges and a lot of fighting but as I was running from 2 women and a lot of monsters, I entered a room and said "Alright I'm done" because I was so tired. I got congratulated for making it so far by the girls chasing me and had a man on a computer take pictures of me and them. I saw a digital picture frame with other people who I knew got top scores and among them were some of my family members. The girls told me they were going back home and I was teleported onto the ocean where I was swimming.
There were a lot of sea creatures and I was swimming along side some whales, who reminded me of one of the girls. The dream reminded me of the dream I had on 4/21/2014, where I was sailing the ocean with my family on a car. I saw plenty of cars but this time they were headed towards me. I said "Here I come!" and saw a boat speeding towards me. Suddenly a helicopter comes and its rotors cause me to get blown away. I pretend I'm taking apart an easter egg and suddenly become lucid.
I'm floating on the water and at the tip of my fingers, an easter egg that looks like a yellow bunny. I remember the water being deep. I opened the easter in half. The bottom portion had a green toy or figurine. The top portion had a yellow and tan toy/figurine. I took them both out and bit into each. It hurt my tooth because they were a hard plastic. I looked at them and read their information on the back of the toys. It said where they were made, by what company, copyrights, etc. I came to shore onto a facility and thought I'd prank a dream character. I said "I want a person to be here" and as I walked, I saw my cat Lucy. I added, "a person that's not Lucy!" I stepped up to the facility doors and a man asked me to identify. I know I've been there before and knew what to do and say. I said my name and that I was wearing black. I took off my duty belt which didn't have anything on it and stepped through. I saw a janitor, who was old and fat and told him to follow me outside. My plan was to make him go outside and have to get access to the facility again. He was suspicious of me and said "If you're trying to make me come out, I have a badge to get in" he then proceeded to tell me how the badge was not his and he actually stole it. I yelled at him to give me the badge but he ran away, outside of the facility and into some sort of cave. I lost lucidity and started yelling at nothing for a badge then slowly started to wake up.

Before bed, I stayed up a long time repeating to myself "I open easter eggs" and imagining me opening easter eggs. While I was walking out, the janitor asked me for the time and I looked at my watch and told him some weird time. My lucidity was low during this dream.

4/13, 4/19, 4/21

4/13/14* 1225+ 2? 620 while trying to wild I have an FA where I am writing an interesting line from my previous dream in my bedside dream journal and my wife pinches me in the butt as if to say what are you doing writing again in the middle of the night? After a moment I realize it is a false awakening (didn't count this one in my LD count as I think I quickly fell asleep in the FA) and later when I do wake up I remember it and I remember most of the line I was trying to write down because I was repeating it in my head during the false awakening . It was like one of those guys (I forget what you call them the guy is there to lure you in at a circus sideshow) and he was saying "step right up, come right in, come one come all. Ladies and gentleman, boys and girls of all ages behold the magnificent Ruska something something tuska?"...some kind of ryhme that I found to be funny and I did not want to forget. Then on to remembering my dream after the false awakening that led to a dild...

My wife, my nephew & I are at some shopping mall and we are getting ready to head back home and I tease my nephew who seemed ready to go saying it will only take about 4.5 hours to get home. (Funny 4.5 hours just like my favorite wake back to bed time.) I turn around through the parking lot trying to go out a different way but suddenly I see an image of my side door to the garage and realize that is strange since we're not home yet could this be a dream? I'm confused for a moment. I told my wife that she better drive home and I will fly home in case this is some kind of vision of a break in that is really happening (doh!) and then I say wait a minute...fly...of course yes I am dreaming and I fly. I am back at home, most like waking life home and I tell myself to forget about the broken door since I am dreaming. I hear a woman singing lightly like she was following along with a song on the radio and I float/fly up over the fence and I do not see her in
the side yard. I look up and see an open window and float up there to the second story and inside I see a man with his two young sons in a bedroom and I think of the prank task of the month and I say hey to one of the kids and duck out of sight like I am leaving but then I pop back up and scare the boy. I then go on to a lot of fun first calling the wife in to the room simply calling out hey wife come here and she even answers something like yes honey and comes into the room...at this point the father and kids disappear and I summon additional people doing additional fun games with them but not really pranks and I summon two more sets of people until the room was full with a lot of people. I may break down the details later in my dream journal...but it is a little embarrassing...nothing new I guess for my dream journal. (Ok so it basically was creating an orgy scene but the first time I just said let's bring over a bunch of the couple's friends. The
attractiveness of the friends was not too good so for the 2nd set I said all of your beautiful friends and have them undress. It was still a mixed group of beautiful and not so beautiful people laying all over each other. I would say there were 20 or more people in the room. As I am looking at my creation still floating outside the open window. Before the orgy scene I had the wife undress. She was a little over weight but had very nice large breasts.) 133

4/19* ~1130 230? 5? 620-7late wbtb/nap light oatmeal. I am attempting to wild and I eventually get vibrations and I stay patient. It turns into a false awakening waking up on a couch at the top of the stairs in a house most like my current one. My son is sitting next to me on the couch. I can hear someone downstairs and I can see from my spot on the couch a woman down below although her face is just out of view. She is wearing black tights with a floral print. At first I wonder if it is "A" from up north but then I figured out it is and/or willed her to be "B" when she was in her 20's. This frisky thinking seemed to dematerialize my clothes which felt awkward for a moment with my son next to me but it's a dream I remind myself. As I am considering my next move, I lose the dream. WILDs..sometimes too fragile for me! 134

4/21* 11-1130 half awake. Set intention to wake at 4.5 hours and close! ~3:47 for wbtb, 6 wake from LD. Apple juice before bed. Nice and vivid NLDs before my DEILD. Clear, feeling the sun on my skin and the heat in the air, "knowing" it was midday around noon at a golf course with wife in golf attire. Later I think I had my 2nd case of true SP. It led to a DEILD! I was awoken by something and felt like I was being held down, but after trying to move and not being able to, I realized the situation and stayed calm and turned it positive! I have felt heaviness several times before but usually recognize the feeling before attempting to struggle so some of those may have been different. I started imagining a beautiful woman was on top of me and sure enough, very nice! She is also the same nationality as my wife. We have full blown realistic feeling sex in a large hotel room bed, apparently continuing the travelling/vacation theme from earlier. She eventually walks out of the
room satisfied and another gorgeous woman walks in with sound equipment and wiring wearing one piece jumpsuit with a tool belt and she asks me if my ahem is under those sheets where I am still completely naked. She is also the same nationality as my wife and she uses a term in their language for my ahem. I say yes and she takes a look. I actually plan on leaving the room and was telling her that I just finished up with the woman that just left and may be spent. She remarks that it doesn't look that way, you look ready. I say you are right, why not. We have full blown realistic sex also. I can't get over the realism and her sexiness. Wake around 6 smiling big. Some more late dreams with my typical (but not always) late morning fogginess. 135

I found a baby and decided what to do. I met my friend and told her and showed the baby. Then said – it can’t be true. It’s a dream. Count fingers – a lot. It was the most charming baby in the world and I wanted to be with her but I decided to grow a plant with mellow elephants (like in CLOUDY WITH A CHANCE OF MEATBALLS 2. I looked at the ground and the plant became growing. It has long sharp leaves and at last appeared a box or a flower. The box was opening and several watermelon - elephants jumped on my palm. They were the size of a nut or so. They were alive and moved. So funny with the trunks!!! I wanted more and another green elephants jumped from the box and I awoke.

Ok. so im behind my old elementary school in the parking lot, and im a dinosaur running with a herd. in front of me is a t-Rex, i i fly up cuz im a flying dinosaur, and as im passing the t-Rex i just miss it's jaws. i fly past it to a park, and over some trees. over the trees are a bunch of super high stacked cargo container boxes, i turn back into a human and land on them. i start jumping down from the top of them and as i make my way down i see a bunch of exotic fruits in a box, i take out out and alarms ring. so i keep jumping down, the last jump to the bottom is really far down but i do it anyways, knowing that im gunna die from this jump. right before i hit the bottom and before i feel all the pain i wake up. now i have a fear of jumping off high hights.

This is the kind of experience that I don’t know exactly where to put it: WILD/OBE?...
I woke up at 5:30 extremely happy, I thought for an hour about how happy I was with life, just because…

I know that when I’m this happy, I have a strange feeling in my belly, like something warm and moving inside. I fell asleep again with this overwhelming feeling of happiness and next thing I felt were the vibrations and the funny feelings of an OBE, which I think are some kind of different from WILD, I also felt like a BIG hand pulling me from my bed, I thought “not OBE please, I just want a lucid dream”, I instantly felt like something was “decreasing” and then some images began appearing as if there was a screen in front of me, and that usually happens when I try WILD, the screen appears and I jump into the scene.

I feel “something” is “calling” me, I don’t know how to describe this feeling, but the next thing I feel is that I’m flying over a ship, the sea is brave and there is someone in the sea asking for help, it’s not that I hear her, I just know this person is probably dying, also I don’t know why I do it but I just sent love to that person dying.

Next scene: I’m in the middle of nothing, floating around in space, there’s almost complete darkness, I see some stars but very far away, and very few. I try to look at my hands but I don’t have a physical body, I don’t see anything but I feel I am something. I touch my belly (the place where I feel there’s something) with my “hands” and I feel something extremely weird, I don’t know if “pain” would be the appropriate word, but it felt as an electric shock.

I began swimming around in this nothingness, not knowing exactly where to go, since everything is very far, and there’s almost nothing. I see something like a big hand appearing and pointing me to follow it (well, I didn’t quite see it, it was a combination of seeing and feeling… nevermind, it’s hard to describe what it was like) I follow it but since I’m moving too slow by swimming I increase speed with thought until something “opens” and I’m traveling very fast, I’m approaching to something big and red, I think I’m going to land inside a planet, but as I come closer I see it’s not a planet, it’s just something red with gold, a planetary nebulae (now I know the name), like this one but less dense


when I pass by it I hear a loud whoosh!! I gasp because I was impressed, I’ve never seen something like that before… but I think that the sound of gasping was real because I heard it coming also from my real body, and that’s what woke me up… well, not exactly full waking, it was false awakening over false wakening several times… and on the last one happened something really weird that had happened to me only a couple of times before during OBE, it’s a very brief moment where I realize why I am here, it includes so much more…. It feels like traveling very fast through “layers” until I’m here, but the difference between those layers it’s just some energy I would call fear.

1. M.
I'm riding my bicycle down the road in a crowd of other cyclists. Suddenly I hear someone call my name. I recognise the voice (female, sweet), but I don't quite remember to whom it belongs. I stop riding, turn around and see my old friend M walking towards me smiling. I haven't seen her for a couple of years IWL. She looks happy and beautiful. Her hair is shiny and black and she's wearing a cable-knit sweater the colour of cream. At this point I know I'm dreaming. The surroundings are a little drunken and blurry, so I decide to stabilise the dream. I go in for a hug M ducks out of it with a confused smile. "What are you doing?" she asks. "I'm just trying to stabilise the dream" I tell her, and she allows my second attempt. Her body feels solid and warm, her hair is soft and smells of perfume. The experience is very real and I feel very happy. We then move to a table outside a nearby restaurant. M starts drawing with charcoal on a piece of paper. She's drawing me as I looked when I was a baby. I see that she also has a drawing of my brother J as a baby. The drawings are very good, they look like photograhps. M then attempts a portrait of me then and there, but she can't even draw an oval for the head shape. It looks like a child's drawing. She shrugs and proceeds to show me som of her other drawings. There is one of her old professor, one of some girls from high school and one of a lecture hall from my time at uni. The last one is moving and colored, and I feel myself getting dragged in - the dream slipping out of control. I wake up.

2. Garble, Random Violence, TotM-failX2 and Flying.
I enter the dream already lucid. Its the same cityscape I just left, only more empty and the buildings look more 2D. My friend M is still there, but more as a comforting presence. I leave her still drawing at the table, and go across the street, where I see around 6 DCs benched around a wooden table. I join them with the intention of completing the TotM, which I remember (falsely of course) to be "speak garble to a DC and record their reaction". I start to introduce myself to a DC like this: "Hello, I'm floobbydy quaklik saddadink kong long" or something like that. To my surprise the DC gamely responds in the same fashion. Only he is shouting and gesturing wildly, as if he is doing sign language at the same time. The other DCs start doing the same around me, and I get a little intimidated. So I decide to hit the nearest one hard on the head with my knuckles! This makes him very aggressive, and he graps me.
I decide that now is the time to fullfill the goal I have set for my next LD (levitating) and kick off from the ground. I fly a some 8 metres into the air, but the DC is still clinging to my feet! I'm getting a bit desperate as he starts to climb up my body, but I can't kick him off. I then get the great idea to imagine my body completely covered in olive oil. One of the DC's hands immediately slips off my leg, but the other is grapping my pants. I'm so slippery that my pants fall clean off and disapear together with the DC. As I'm floating pants-less in the air it occurs to me to finish another TotM, namely being naked in front of a crowd of DCs (this is also not a TotM, I think it is an old one). But then I wake up.

3. The Crazy Lady's Ark and the Creepy Horror Show. Oh and another TotM fail.
I enter the dream somewhat lucid. Lucidity fluctuates though, and my dream control is very bad. I am standing in front of a house. The dream scene looks like a high-end american suburban neighborhood with mansion-like houses. On the porch of the house a crazed looking young woman is standing. I glimpse some movement behind her, but it is difficult to see. I study my hands to stabilise, but it only works for a moment. The crazed lady is chasing some teenagers away who apparently wanted to explore "the haunted house". I am suddenly in the house. I see several fiery ghosts surrounding the crazed lady, and I get a flashback to her past, where I see her burning her entire family alive.
(Memory gap)
I am still in the house, but it looks like my old elementary school. The hallway is filled with all kinds of animals. I realise, that the crazed lady is building Noa's Arc Vol. 2. Suddenly the animals start moving towards me, towards the doorway. They seem to be more or less floating as an unstoppable fleet. I almost get eaten by a giant shark. I have to press myself into a corner to avoid getting squashed by the giant polar bear. When all the animals are gone, only the crazed lady and I are left in the hallway. I look out the window and see some pigs and goats and two little white lamb. I ask the lady: "Aren't those animals going too?" She looks at me and gravely says "God doesn't like those kind of animals". I convince her to bring them anyway.
(Memory gap)
I'm outside the house. It's dark and I can't stabilise the dream. I feel close to waking up. I decide to change the dreamscape and try for the TotM challenge of creating my own never-seen-before plant (which is actually the TotM). I start spinning very fast while keeping my eyes open. I imagine a simple white room with a window and a potted plant.
What I get is a vivid, dark and very creepy dreamscape that looks like a part of my parent's farm. This one feels more stable. I'm in front some old buildings which aren't in use anymore. There is a big full moon which casts a creepy light on the roof and the road in front of the buildings, but I am standing in the shadows. Suddenly I feel something disgusting brush by me. I grab it and throw it into the moon-illuminated road. It is a slimy pale human leg somehow attached to half a human brain. The brain has a long slimy flesh cord dangling from it. It is utterly disgusting I walk away from the thing and then I see a grey stallion rearing in front of the full moon (classic!).




But then I encounter two little creepy turkey/chicken. They are small and fat and have the faces of old women. They look evil, so I decide to go around the buildings to look for something for my plant. I find a garden with a lot of strange, bulging and glistening vegetables. They look promising, but when I get closer I see that most are halfway covered in greenish blue mold. I don't want to touch that! But I find a small vegetable that looks like a cross between a tomato and a sharon fruit. I pick it, and then I wake up at a table in another dream. I see a lady who looks like a 80ies aerobics instructor. I tell her "you are a very good dream coach! I just had my third LD in a row!" She is impressed and replies "Wow, that's crazy, have you told the intern yet?" And then I wake up for real.