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Wow, my first Multi lucid night experiencing 2 real lucids and 1 very short. This also means WE ARCHIEVED THE GOAL OF THE MONTH!!!1!

Although we archieved it on paper I'm still not happy with the result, it was way to sporadic and random. I'd rather have the LDs spread out over the month instead of cramming it all in the first and last day of the month.

1. Blurry night

I'm in my backyard looking up to the night sky which actually looked like the back of your eyelids, didn't saw many stars but I did see a small bright moon. It was very small and I think it was the new moon because of it's thin shape. I'm very disoriented and don't really know what I'm doing there at that time. Suddenly I'm somewhere at a public place with my mother, it's day and she's talking with someone about what I did last night. Apparently I acted like I was Harry Potter the night before and my mother saw all of it, needless to say it was quiet awkward.

2. What goes up must come down.

I'm at some sport park with school and there's this enormous wooden construction, it's not wide or anything just very high. Using your imagination it looked like this 'ITI' with the I's being the two supports and the T being a rope between them going all the way up to the top. I climbed the rope slowly using the technique with your feet and pushing yourself up. Once I got on the top I waited for some time looking around but then I noticed the rope fell of and I was stuck up there. For some reason I knew the exact height which was 28 meters, then I remembered people could die from falls smaller than that. Someone walked past and I asked him to throw the rope up with a hook on the end. That happened in my imagination but in the dream itself the person only started shouting at me for being stupid. I think he was a teacher.

3. A spark of hope.° (SEMI)

I wake up on the side of a street, it's in the middle of the night and I'm somewhere in an arabic looking city. It is extremely dark but once I sit up I think of doing an RC. I do the nose-plug and feel the air but don't completely become aware. I try standing up and walking noticing how quiet everything is before the dream fading away.

4. Come on!* (DILD)

I wake up again in the same arabic city on the same spot at midnight again, I feel more aware and actually make an effort to stabilize. I crawl over the ground for a bit and notice I'm wearing a turban and some long clothing. It last slightly longer than previous dream but still isn't enough!

5. I'm not giving up yet!* (DILD)

Once again I wake up in the same dream and I'm starting to feel angry cause I keep missing these opportunities. I manage to stabilize the dream to a point where I can stand up and actually inspect my surroundings. I'm near the entrance gate of the city but I'm completely alone and it's still extremely dark. I don't think of much to do and the dream ends quiet quickly.

6. I'm the expert!

I'm at school outside and it's early in the morning, the first class is starting and the teacher decides to do it outside on some benches spread out of the terrain. I take seat at a bench with some other students in the back on a grass field and we get an interactive task. Each groups gets a large sheet of paper and on that they must write down some key-words of what they dream about. I quickly announce that I do this very often and I explain the concept of dream-signs to them. Although I tell them very clearly what it is they seem quiet close-minded and one girl looks at me like I'm talking gibberish.
Then suddenly I hear a student on another bench behinds us making a joke about the teacher, shortly after the teacher begins shouting and raging demanding the person who said it to stand up. I'm thinking something like "Why would this happen on the first day already?".

7. The tour

I'm with school doing a tour throughout my home town and looking at historical sites. I'm in the back and suddenly some guy I know from draws a gun at me and shoots hitting a parked car infront of me. I instantly get down and another student thinks this is all funny, he start's shooting too. For some reason I also carry a gun so I get up and fire back but at the moment I pull the trigger the guy jumps away and I hit a friend that I know standing behind him in the chest. I'm like "Oh fuck!", the other guys laugh and one fires at me again at point blank range. I can barely dodge the bullet and it scratches my neck. Then I just walk away and join the group again which are waiting at a corner. I look around and see on two corners where IRL normally two banks would be located I now see two care centers for toddlers. One for those who sleep polyphasic and those who sleep monophasic. It actually says it above the doors of the two buildings.
The building I'm standing against which would normally IRL be a bar is now an empty building with a large open window on the front. It's very dusty so I can only see a bit inside but it's one room with a sky light and I think I also saw a saxophone standing against the wall. The guide tells about how some protestant group met up here to do there things. As I look better through the glass I see a large picture at the back wall, it a picture of a group of soldiers who fought in WW1.

I accidentally shave off skin on my face.

I am at high school. I forgot to fill out some kind of review. For some reason this feels like a congruent dream where I am perpetually forgetting an assignment, but not recalling the dream.

I was walking across a path behind my neighborhood when I met a young blonde girl with a prosthetic arm who claimed to be psychic. She was able to tell me a lot about myself. I wondered why, and became partially lucid in realizing that you don't run into psychics on the street like this regularly. But slipped out of it a few moments later.
She then took me to see her brother who was on the second floor of one of the houses in my sub (One I've never been to in RL). Her brother was blonde as well, wheelchair bound and very overweight. He spoke through a computer, like Stephen Hawking. But his psychic energy was insanely strong. I could feel it in the room. We had a long discussion but I cannot recall what it was about.


I had a long discussion about the maneuver gear from Attack on Titan with S's brother. He was trying to argue that it did not distribute force evenly across the body and if it was used in real life, it would tear someone's arms off. I was trying to explain to him that the force was actually applied all over the body and that was the reason for all the straps and the jackets that they wear on the show. I then told him that it's an anime and that anything could happen.

I'm very happy I did all the things, I announced in my last entry - and - it worked!! So that's two comp LDs, one the day after and this time directly the night after my hypno-session. Going by what that rather botched "research-experiment" was asking of us a while ago, I might do it every night now for the rest of the comp!
WBTB with a bit of haphazard WILD attempting lead to a DILD - my most successful method, actually. Just I sort of lost the belief it will actually lead me to a WILD one day...

LD #1: Again from being in a forest I had the impression, something wasn't properly real optically, without a dream-sign as such. This is rare. Gets more unusual - with lucidity I didn't only not lose optics or respective quality - nope - everything got brilliant, had a dreamy shine of beauty about it! Sweeet! So I enjoyed this on a clearing - birds swooping about and chirping, really beautiful! Nose pinch for reasons of counting it as RC, I knew it. Then to the three-stepper - hand through tree - no problem - went in, and a bit of smoke or something came out at the entry point - no heat, though, just some weird special effect. I didn't feel anything inside - as if it was hollow - and coming back out produced the feeling of breaking an elastic membrane. But the tree stayed intact - so I suppose that counts.
Next thing - telekinesis. There wasn't much there to do it on - and it wasn't easy, either. First I tried with a stone, but gave up and used a small heap of leafs instead. I wonder - but I guess it counts that I have made them fly up and swirl about in a spiral. Made me proud no end! Next time something heavier! In a way it's gravity/element manipulation as well, isn't it? I'll say it was telekinesis! Then I couldn't remember the last one (advanced flying) but got the right idea at least and went flying around a bit - but clumsily with my air-swimming.
Sounded different in my post in the comp. thread maybe - but I didn't think of fighting and conjuring DV members in the first place...

In a way - air-swimming is exactly the kind of comfy sight-seeing-friendly slow flight method I prefer through beautiful landscapes! Aiming at getting somewhere makes it instantaneous with the other stuff, often. Yupp - and lost lucidity, dreamt on normally.

Furthermore I got two dreams and two fragments - and I pray to a non-existing god to help me in that I will journal them later and not let laziness get the better of me, now I know, I could also leave it be. No I will do it - but it's so fantastic on the forum in the moment - so much to read and answer to and enjoy - could spend all day on here - got to find some time for living at the side!


Edit: worked, obviously, but not well. Next night with better dictates, and also in the morning - again lots of stuff lost due to suboptimal handling...

Dream #1: On my way to the place in Bavaria where I grew up for holidays. I'm driving, and it's winter, very beautiful scenery. And I come across a bridge, of which in the dream I was convinced, that I knew it, had been there before. Like a beacon about how I could get there, because I had lost my way. There was soo much more, and I have a load of beautiful, nostalgic nature pictures from it, but the main strain was really having troubles in getting there. But get there I did, and when I reached the lake and went out, somebody came towards me from over the frozen waters - a man, I had never seen before, and very friendly and inviting. Then the dream ended, I believe, I woke up from that. Most of it was being on the way...

Dream #2: Now this one I did completely forget, dictated at 6:18 am, I sleep in atm - and now listened to at 19:40 pm. I understand only about half of it - lots of scenic noises, like me blowing my nose - and lots of well recorded stuff, from an audio standpoint - but totally mumbled. Need to not try using English, when half asleep - doesn't work...
Seems I have been communicating with a Muslim per writing on the internet. I also read 'God Is Not Great' by the late Christopher Hitchens at the moment, surely inspired this, as well as my atheism thread. Anyways - seems I was on about, that claims about peacefulness and something I called, now cryptically to me, "going forward continuously". I proposed there would be jumps in it, but I have no idea which ones or what I meant in general. Communication went back and forth, though, and for a while - so this is a dream.

Fragment #1: I meet somebody in a forest, who makes sculpture from thin sheets of tree-trunks.

Fragment #2: At a concert, and somebody has trouble with somebody else - a shouting fight

Dream - Lucid

I was "remembering" a time when I was in high school, and I had a blue origami parrot. It very much so seemed real; it would move, though it would make no noise. I showed it to my friends. I was super happy having this paper bird. When I took it home, though, I could not find a place for him. He needed a cage, but I didn't have one. I'm not sure what happened to him.

I'm not sure where I was, it was a building in my town, but I wanted another origami parrot. I called up one of my friends, maybe Rachel, and asked her if she wanted to come with me to get one. I "remembered" I had gotten it at Animal City, a pet store here in town, though I wasn't 100% positive. Rachel was then with me, and I told her we were going to Animal City. We walked out of whatever building we were in, and Animal City was right next door. We walked inside.

We walked around inside Animal City. We saw what looked like a very large brown cat with flecks of different shades of brown playing on a cat tower (one of those carpeted towers cats use to climb/scratch/perch). Many people were around it. I figured it was the store's current mascot (IWL they always have some sort of mascot animal). I, being the cat lady that I am, went over to the cat. I was super excited to see the cat. The cat then turned around, and its face looked alien. I had no idea what kind of animal it was supposed to be, but it definitely wasn't a cat!

I then continued my search for the origami bird. I then came across a woman who had a small, green origami parrot. This is what I'd been looking for! The bird was perched on the lady's shoulder. I started to speak with her about the origami bird. She said something about it having poetry written underneath its wings. She unfolded one to reveal it. I did it myself as well, and had trouble getting the paper to fold back properly. I wondered if my old origami parrot had had poetry underneath its wings also.

I then saw that the bird only moved when the lady moved its tail. It was like an IWL origame swan; when you move its tail, the wings move. But she would do it very subtly to make it look like the bird was moving on its own. I did not remember doing this when I had my origami parrot. Maybe my memory was deceiving me. At any rate, the paper bird moving on its own was definitely an illusion. I wanted to believe that it wasn't, but it definitely was.

I don't remember if I got to have the bird or not.

~

I was with Dallas at my old friend Kacey's place. She lived in a different town, as she does IWL. We were watching her do some dance performance with a dance team. It was some interpretive type of dance. I saw people that I knew in high school also dancing with them, one being Mary Lane, but her hair was waaaaay longer than I had ever seen it IWL. I saw someone else too, a blonde girl, but I couldn't place her name. I called her something that started with an R. Kacey's husband, Rick, was somehow also involved with this dance.

When they finished, I talked to Kacey about Mary Lane being there. I also talked about the other girl, the blonde with the R name. Two girls, identical twins, then approached me. They had grey and pink in their hair. One I had mistaken for the blonde girl I knew in high school. I then realized I was wrong about the name of the blonde girl; I had no idea who these twins were.

Everyone but Kacey and her husband cleared out. We were all visiting in their living room. A boy, a child of about 5 or 6 who was supposed to be Kacey's son (she only has a daughter by marriage from Rick IWL, none of her own) came up to us. He seemed like a happy child. I saw him smile up at me with his teeth.

Then, where her son had been, was this big white bathtub full of milk and...dry cat food (I've dreamed of a bowl of cat food and milk once before, though I did not write it down). It was behind the couch. There was way more milk than cat food; I only saw some scattered pieces floating around. In the middle of the bathtub was a black and white kitten, who was drinking the milk and eating the cat food. She seemed super happy (what cat wouldn't be?). I then thought about how milk isn't good for cats, and how they would probably have to clean up cat diarrhea later.

I then woke up, but went back to sleep into the same dream.

The cat in the tub was now gone, and I was talking to Kacey in the living room. Dallas then came up to me, and told me he had heard Rick say he was going to cheat on Kacey! Kacey had not heard him tell me this; I think that Dallas whispered it to me, or Kacey was out of earshot. I really debated on whether or not I should tell Kacey, but she is one of my best friends, even though we barely talk anymore, and I owe this information to her; she deserves to know so she can decide what to do about it.

I then told Kacey about what I had heard. She was aware of the problem; he went and cheated on her all the time, and didn't think she knew. I then told her that if she wanted out, she always had a place with me. I would take her in for as long as she needed. She wasn't sure what to do, but I feel like I kind of pushed her to leave him. She finally agreed, and started throwing some of her things together. On my part, I felt that I may had been somewhat impulsive, but I would, of course, take her in no matter what she needed. I didn't want her to feel pushed though. But that feeling quickly faded, because I was finally going to get Kacey out of her horrible situation.

I then thought about her son, and whether or not she should take him. I couldn't remember for sure if the son was hers or Rick's. I guess I decided it didn't matter. I saw her get some things together, careful not to let Rick hear her, and we got into my car to drive to my place. I thought about us staying at my old apartment with Cherie', my old roommate, but realized that I had just turned my keys in (true IWL), so I couldn't just go in there anymore. So instead, I drove her to my parent's house. I had not told my parents prior to this that I was taking her in, but my mom loves her, so I figured it would be alright, and it was for a good cause as well. I did need to tell my mom, though. I went into the living room while Kacey stayed in the kitchen. I saw my mom wrapped up in a blanket, asleep on the couch. She was sick with a cold or something. I woke her to tell her about Kacey. I don't remember what she said. BUt I then figured out that my dad was cheating on my mom too. Wtf.

I then thought about how Rick knew where my house was, and so we should probably relocate, because he would absolutely suspect that we were here.

Back in the kitchen, I saw Kacey helping to fix up some dinner. As she poured frozen green beans into a pan with the entree', chicken probably, I thought that she looked like an expert the way she was putting the food together with confidence. It had something to do with the way she was pouring the veggies; she just looked like she knew what she was doing.

I then realized that we had left Dallas. Whoops. We had to go back and get him. We drove back, hoping Rick didn't notice our absence. We got there to get Dallas, and Rick had a backpack on. A guy friend was waiting for him with a backpack. It looked as if they were going camping. Rick had not even noticed we were gone. He said he'd be back in two days. I knew he was going to cheat on Kacey when he was gone. Further, if he cared for her at all, he would have noticed she disappeared without warning for awhile. His mind was obviously preoccupied.

At some point being back at Kacey's, I saw a bunch of sweat pants. I wondered if Kacey wanted to grab those to take with her.

When Rick was gone, Kacey and I went into town to investigate. We came across this building that had signs on the front window. It said "Cheat! Cheat! Cheat!". It was a lounge for men to go to to cheat on their wives (subtle advertisement, right?). I forgot what it was called. There were men going inside.

We then went into the lounge. Since it was daytime, not too many people were there yet, thank goodness. There were lots of big, circular and half-circle couches there. We went up to the counter, and two young men were there. We spoke with them, though I can't remember what it was about. They were acting like we didn't know where we were, trying to hide it and not doing a very good job at it; they were smiling and surpressing laughter as they spoke with us. They said something to us along the lines of there was no man that stayed faithful; all men cheated. When we decided we would leave, they said
"Thanks for visiting the ____lounge, I mean room." As if room made it sound less shady.

There were bits where Kacey and I talked about Rick cheating, and how she would approach him about running away from him. I don't remember if this was done in the dream or not. I don't think it was. During this whole dream, though, I felt very close to Kacey, closer than I have in years. I missed that, and still do IWL.

I saw that there were several tornedoes outside and yet i had to run to reach the safety of a bunker and my family, so I was running dodging tornedoes.

I think i briefly remembered another fragment, but now this one is it.

Dream:

I'm driving on a dirt road in the mountains. I've got a car trailer connected, and there is another car driving behind me. We make a left turn onto a road that's in really bad shape, more like an old tractor path than a road. It's partly closed off with two large rocks, but we manage to squeeze the cars through. I get the feeling the road is on private property. After driving a while the road stops. There's a big solid rock/snow wall blocking it and we have to climb. I think my cousin A. is with me. We start running towards the wall, try to run up it as far as possible without sliding down. We get quite far up, but I can't hold on and start sliding down again. I try another time, and when I can't run any higher I dig my boots into the snow wall and start climbing. We eventually reach the top. I've got a feeling this is sort of a boot camp.

Dream:

I'm at a cabin. Two guys are there, I don't know them. One guy is down on his knees washing the floor with a black and white checkered wash rag. There's a reason he's washing the floor, but I don't remember why. He's explaining something as he is washing, and I can see the floor getting wet when he mops the floor with the wash rag. The other guy is Morten Harket in AHA, apparently he has brought along some soap and shampoo, but he got the "wrong" type. He bought soap and shampoo for women. The first guy decides he will go get some other shampoo for M.H, because if he finds out he bought the wrong kind he will feel stupid and too feminin. I take a look in one of the drawers in the cabin. There's a lot of old stuff in there. Small bits and pieces of stuff and old packages of mints etc. There's an old bottle of nasal spray there, it has to be squeezed on the sides to make the bottle spray. I smile at how old it is. The packaging looks at least 20 years old.

Fragment:

I'm outside a shop, there are big wooden boxes with lids on them. I lift the lid on one of them thinking "being a dream I could find anything inside one of these!" (Not sure if I was lucid or not, so I don't count this as a LD) Inside I found wooden planks.

Fragment:

Something about a dirt road running along some green fields. I'm standing a bit higher up in the terrain looking down at it. My mother says something about geocaches?

6:13 pm

I was lying on my back and heard a magical sounding twinkle, like in the old cartoons I guess. My eyes were still closed. I then was seeing a dream image where I was in a mall, it's really hazy. A guy was talking to me but I couldn't hear clearly. I said something back to him, something about me being in a dream I think. Then I was lying back on my bed. I heard that twinkling again. I could feel my body but everything's hazy.

Then I imagined moving my body, and I felt like I was floating. At this point I was still "closing" my eyes. I felt that familiar buzz throughout my body. I decided to stand up and open my eyes. I did, and I knew it was a lucid dream. I had no plans whatsoever. I saw my door partially open. It's also dark outside, like there was a blackout. I think I was scared of what might jump at me. I moved to the window and pushed my head through the glass, and my upper body followed. I saw that it was very cloudy. I thought maybe I should try to fly. Unfortunately, I could still feel the (imaginary) pull of of gravity, and I don't the shock of awakening (or peeing in my pants). I looked at the building across. I extended my left hand and tried to turn the lights on of a room from that building. No much effect. The overall mood is still dark.

I dropped into a dream. I was in a friend's house. It was also dark. I tried to turn on the lights; didn't work, and I asked them. They didn't answer. R and L were there, and there was another guy (D?). I asked R if he was feeling better. He said something, but the thought came through as he's still trying to get better. The thought also included about me being lucky I get to live my life on my own terms. Then he playfully grabbed me with a full nelson (reverse, the way I do it, which is a mistake), and L playfully punched me twice on the upper right side of my chest. I tried to laugh but couldn't get some air. They released me. I realized I couldn't talk, or didn't really talk. We were talking through our minds.

NOTES:

- I slept around 4 p.m.
- I ate late lunch (jasmine rice with turmeric and bay leaf plus instant la paz batchoy).
- I drank coffee (Cafe Blanca).
- I meditated to Sam Harris's 26-minute meditation audio.
- I planned to just take that as a break and go back to work.
- I was (and still is) feeling a bit sick, slight headache with runny nose.

I'm upstairs in my childhood home, texting with my high school friend K on a device like a big gameboy. She suddenly starts writing pages and pages, and then the doorbell rings. We don't have a doorbell, but I say "I'll go check anyway."

Outside, on the front stoop, is a bunch of stuff belonging to my mom and an old passport. Where the photo should be is half of a small oil painting of a face. I know this stuff shouldn't be outside, and I bring it in. I close the front door and lean on it. This just doesn't seem right, so I attempt the finger count RC. I'm having problems counting, so I use the fingers of my right hand to pinch each finger on the left as I count. There are six.

My first feeling is one of relief and excitement. Then I experience a kind of "whooshing" sensation. Whereas a few seconds ago I had been certain everything going on was totally real, the world has now lost a lot of its stability. Or is it that I just didn't notice it before?

I decide to skip explicit stabilization (again forgetting to ask out loud for more stability) and head into the kitchen to summon beer and a burger for my lucid goal. I want the (non-existent) Flying Dog "Island Peach" IPA from my last dream, and try to get it from the fridge. It's not there, which doesn't surprise me as it was in the ice tray of the freezer last time. I try in there, although without giving too much time to the summon as I think I'm trying to rush.

Sure enough, there's a beer in the ice tray, but it's not a Flying Dog. The label is clear with small white letters and the beer is slightly too yellowish. I figure it's a Corona, and try to rotate the bottle to see the logo. However, the small white letters (like ingredients or bottling info) continue all the way around the label. I do see what I believe is the Corona logo, but it's small. After a couple more seconds of investigating the label, I wake up.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Me and my family were dropped on a normal island were there were people. We danced and drank together it was fun. The monster boss then came and told us that we have a lucid drammer besides us. I didn't understand a thing he was talking about.

He picked us up with a heli and threw us on a island with monster on it. When I fell on the ground I saw water(dream sign of mine) I did a RC. It didn't work.. Then I pinched my nose and still could breath through it. I realized i was dreaming. To stabilaze my dream i laid on the ground and focused. My parents in waking life didn't believe in lucid dreaming so i said LOOK AT YOUR HANDS DAMNIT. They looked at their hands and after that i said how many fingers do you have. They said 7. I said YOU ARE F*CKING DREAMING !!! They went lucid some of them woke up and some stayed.

We went creating things like big staffs to kill the Boss. He came and we said we want to het BIGGER. So we grew into the skies and then killed the boss.

It was a weird ass dream wasn't it. Post comment below please

4 January 2014

Note: This is the first dream where the dialogue is memorable enough to jot down although much of it will need to be paraphrased. There will be some holes in the dialogue. Believe it or not this is one of my favorite dreams because it is one of the most vivid and made for a good narrative (I love dreams with good narrative). Anyway it may not be the most positive but it is definitely the most interesting dream I have had.

[~]-used to indicate hole in dialogue

There may be some phrases I use that you don't recognize

Aperture-a random opening that leads the dreamer to (what seem like) completely random spots. For example: a closet door that takes one from his bedroom out to an open field or a classroom door that leads from the classroom out to the edge of space would be considered an aperture.

"Denizens" are what I call my dream figures.

It was nearing the last day of the final year of Prairie Park School. Me and all of my friends sat around a table in a dimly lit room. Sitting there was my friend from scouts Nick, he sat across from me along with Sarah. Next to me was Alternian troll, Terezi Pyrope. The school was deserted and we sat silently. Sarah sat working on her paper for her finals or something; I cannot recall what everyone else was working on I just remember that it was silent; no one said a word to one another. I had eyes for Terezi, I am not sure why. There was an aperture at the top of the steps that led into the house of the apple family and I do believe that the other denizens had use of the aperture. I was staying with the apple family and was in a room with four bunk beds. I think I was bunking with Alicorn Princess Twilight Sparkle. Now Twilight was unusually quiet and seemed to spend most of the dream brooding over something, people didn’t even notice her existence. The strange thing here is that Twilight was in her usual pony form whereas the apple family consisted of anthropomorphic versions of themselves. There was not much happening beyond this point in time that I can well remember.

The next day was the same as the first; we all sat in the exact same spots in silence. Sarah worked silently on her paper while everyone else seemed to sit staring at the table. Terezi was just outside of my field of vision to my right. The room was the same as it was yesterday, empty, dim, somewhat eerie. I wonder what everyone was thinking as we approached the end of the year. What was going through everyone’s mind? What was going through my own mind? Even I did not know. After nearly two straight workdays of complete silence Sarah finally spoke up and said: “Dammit! Being friends with MT was a waste of time [~] can’t get this project done because of him [~] wish I was never friends with him.”

I heard this and felt as though I had been knifed in the back by a friend. This was not a sentiment that I was unfamiliar with. One would think that I would be used to it by now, nonetheless it stung. Just as always the wound felt fresh, as though I was experiencing this pain for the first time because, the truth is, you never do get used to it no matter how many times it happens and no matter how much you try and convince yourself otherwise. I was even more shocked to find that nick shared the same sentiment as did every one else there. I was unable to recount exactly what was said but there was definitely a common theme amongst the group: MT was a waste of time. I was blamed for everything that was wrong in their lives and I tried to defend myself but I was not given much of a chance to speak.

I was catatonic. I had no idea how to react and didn’t even have a firm grasp on my own thoughts. I was slumped over, staggering like a drunk. If the human mind really is designed to respond to a verbal attack as it responds to a physical one then it was a miracle I could even stand after such a merciless beating. I made my way through the aperture hoping to get away from all the hate and negativity but it seems that the fates had declared me undeserving of such respite. I would say that the apple family’s attitude towards me had changed but honestly I don’t think they liked me to begin with. The only thing that had changed was the volume at which they voiced contempt, that is to say, they were no longer keeping their opinions to themselves. Lazy, worthless, words along those lines which were spoken by the apple family, hurled at me from all directions. I did not have supper that night. Confused and upset, I retreated to my room. Although I suppose technically it was our room, Twilight Sparkle was still there although mentally she was lost in her own little world all day everyday. I was not surprised to find her in the exact same spot I left her slumped over on her bed with her wings hanging limb over her shoulders; just…thinking.

The next morning was no better than the previous night. I went out only to be greeted by more insults and put-downs. I think my peers from school were there at the house having breakfast and they willfully joined in on the onslaught. A huge unmemorable chunk of time passed before I was back at school with my so called friends. There wasn’t much change from yesterday except that the denizens were wandering around this time exchanging the same dialogue they always had been. At some point I saw Terezi and I tried to grab her attention: “Don’t talk to me,” she said angrily as she began to storm off. For the first time ever in this dream segment I had a clear grasp on my emotions. I knew what I was feeling and I knew exactly what I wanted to say. I could feel it in my cheeks, my skin tone would not show it, but I was red. I was furious! Much so that I was trembling. Such wonton hatred from a girl to whom I have barely even spoken. “STOP!” I shouted, “Just fucking stop, and listen, please! You at least owe me that.” She did not say a word nor did she turn to face me but she did stop. She stood still with her head raised as though to say, I’m listening.

I struggled to gather my words as a lump had formed in my throat and I would be damned if I gave her the satisfaction of letting her see me cry. “What is my crime? What have I done to you? For fuck’s sake! Where is any of this coming from?”

She turned her head slightly, “You wasted my time…you didn’t like me back.”

“What?”

She turned to face me with trepidation in her voice, “I liked you, you idiot! I liked you all this time [~] I sent you all kinds of signals and you never returned the sentiment! I wasted the year trying to get your attention and looked over me completely!”

To this I did not cry, I did not shout, in fact, I smiled. I smiled and I began to chuckle and soon again I started to laugh. I was not happy about what I had just heard, in fact I was livid. But what she had just said was just so fucking ridiculous, how could I not laugh? “Are you serious? Are you fucking serious?? You are all pissy at me for not reading your mind? How could I have known? You never fucking said anything! And, newsflash, I liked you too!”

“What? Then why didn’t you say anything, idiot!?”

“I didn’t know what to say [~] you didn’t say anything either and you don’t see me abruptly snubbing you now do you!?”

I do not remember her response but our friendship was never repaired. We turned away from each other both in an angry huff but before I walked away I turned and asked her: “What about the others? Why are they angry with me?”

She barely turned to me again; her words were cold steel “You wasted their time too. You held them back.”

On my way back to the aperture I heard them going on about all of the things that they could have accomplished if they hadn’t of known me. I left them without saying anything; back into the cold unwelcoming residence of the apple family. Even Apple Jack did not care to speak to me and I still had no idea why. I retired to my room with my roommate Twilight. I may have spoken to her; venting the events of the past three days. I didn’t shout nor did I yell; I just talked to her. I knew she didn’t listen and I knew that she was not cognizant of me or even what I was saying. She was too preoccupied with her own naval gazing but it was nice to have someone to talk to about this regardless. I fell asleep that night for the last time before I was taken out of myself.

Imagine that I am a camera drone getting a view of the table at which the four of us were sitting.

ZOOM OUT: I see the school, Prairie Park, among buildings but these are not ordinary buildings; these are crystal buildings. Among the buildings I see jet black, jagged, and spiky vines growing amongst them. The top half of the sky seems to be over cast with vines.

ZOOM OUT: I see more of the city now. There are more vines wrapping around buildings and getting in the way. Aside from a small break towards the tops of the shorter sky scrapers the vines seem to come together to form a dome over the city. Anyone could see now that the city is being consumed.

ZOOM OUT: I now have a full view of the city. There is no doubting that this is the Crystal Empire coming under siege by a merciless onslaught of parasitic plant life.

ZOOM OUT: I am now miles out of the city which appears to be floating in an eerie nebular haze. The city is in between two hemispheres composed of these vines both of which are closing in on one another. There is but a small break in between the two hemispheres and in a matter of moments they will make contact; entrapping The Crystal Empire forever.

I see one vine stretching away from the mass towards a small floating house orbiting the city just a few miles out. This was the house at which I was staying; that is where the aperture had been taking me. As I get closer I see Twilight Sparkle smiling at the catastrophe through the window as though she were marveling a masterpiece. I knew that she was responsible for this as I could hear her internal dialogue for the first time.

“I know what I am doing is wrong,” she said “and I also know that I am not myself.” Dark music plays in the background as she dialogues: “Perhaps I should stop this and end this madness for the sake of my friends who are trapped inside, but why should I?” I understood now what was going on in her mind. She had been hurt by people, Lord knows how many people and Lord knows how close to her these people were. She had been betrayed and lied to and now her pain was made manifest through these vines.

Now here was her moment; her moment to choose what she will do. Will she save the Empire from certain doom or embrace the darkness that is gradually overtaking her heart and allow this kingdom to be consumed? As the vine grew closer to her an evil grin grew ever wider across her face, it was clear at that point: a choice had been made. The vine reached for her and Twilight extended her hoof ready to grab it. It was as though darkness itself was extending a welcoming hand and Twilight was ready to accept. She was ready to embrace a life of anger, sadness, and revenge.

Just before Twilight grabbed the branch she thought to herself: “I did not really care about The Crystal Empire for what is a pony other than a mere insect?”

That was the very last thing I heard before waking up and it is the only line I remember verbatim. The music cuts out as my eyes open.

Trivia
Terezi Pyrope was the odd one out as she was the only non-human at the school

The house looked just like my third childhood home aside from my bedroom which resembled a slightly bigger college dorm.

I have seen this nebula two other times in previous dreams.

Started as a one dream night, WTF? Dreams are supposed to *build* in a competition, not vanish! Boo hoo.

2mg melatonin at bedtime, it's hot, I want to make sure I sleep.

I think there were some fairly awesome earlier dreams but they vanished.

06:30

1) in a coffee shop, talking to dude across from me, soccer girl.

At a large table in a coffee shop, about 8 in our group, the waitress is pouring water into our instant (if this is such a nice coffee shop why are we drinking instant?), the guy across from me is gone for a long while then he returns, he's gotten another cup of "K3", I say "you're probably all set for a night long work session!" I ask him the longest he's been awake, he answers 2 days. He starts talking about the soccer video game he likes to play, how the game creators are very careful about security so the game can't be cheated.

He starts talking about girl on a team(?), I see a series of still photographs arranged in a grid about her and her progress?

WBTB -- up a long time, can't sleep

09:30 BTB, eventually sleep

12:20

wake up with some fairly detailed recall, yay happy for the day again.

2) sister tag tower. I'm in some bridge tower, darkly lit, my sister is there we're playing tag (as adults) she runs up several landings up the stairs and hides in the darkness. There's no way I'm going to get here without her seeing/hearing me she'll just run away farther so I play it cool and just hang out, more people arrive. I think my moment is here so I signal my father to start playing music (singing?), this will cover the sound of my steps so I stealthily climb up to the next landing and I see my "sister" wearing a colorful dress in a crowd of women wearing dresses like dancers and I surge forward and tag here before she can get away, the other women think I cheated, I go and stand in a large platform below where they're standing.

3) football catch punt. I"m watching a (US) football game DO high over the field and a bit to the side. There's a kickoff but the kick goes out of bounds so it won't count, but somehow the play keeps continuing and I see the ball rolling in the center of the field rolling towards the end-zone, I expect the kicking team player (wearing a white uniform) will down the ball on the goal line but at the last second he just stands up and lets the ball roll into the end-zone. Instead of bringing the ball out the kicking team takes the side of the receiving team and without uniforms starts playing a "fake" play of football all to themselves, then one of the big guys runs up the field and the referee declares they can punt (back towards the original receiving team). I see the punt, it looks like a bad kick it is very high but not very far. HEY, the ball is coming RIGHT FOR ME, I see the football spinning rapidly and getting closer, and I *catch* it with two arms! I'm ecstatic, I hold the ball up like a trophy among my group on the balcony. I'm looking for a referee to hand the ball back to and toss it to someone on the balcony level below mine. I think, "crap I should have had someone take a picture of me first before I did that." Then there's a scene of some football players doing a celebration dance, they're right in front of me, and I (unfortunately) see the foot-long schlong and big nutsack of one of the players who's directly facing me, swinging back and forth with his dance, I really wish I hadn't seen that.

4) in store bags of food. I'm walking through a upscale grocery store, I'm looking for some good snack food. I see packages hanging up on the wall, I'm expecting they'll be potato chips, but I see instead it's full of weird things like marinated salisbury steak chunks, I move on through the store where I have to push through some young people coming the other way. I head up a ramp towards the check-out and I notice my legs -- I'm wearing black thermal underwear but the pants are so old and thin that when I lift my legs and the overhead light strikes it you can clearly see my skin, I'm embarassed a bit about that. I'm now approaching a register but the area is like dark casino gambling pit, it's carpeted. There are some "bad guys" also approaching, I wonder how they'll get through. I bring my stuff and unload it onto the circular check out counter, I see I have forgotten to put some of the vegetable items, including a small clump of some short greens, into bags. I count that I need 4 bags and tell that to the clerk who echoes it back to me.

F1) drive past church with missile statues. Driving in a car with my wife, she points out another Church where we used to stop and the kids used to play, I sort of recognize it, I look out the window as we drive by and see a war memorial with about a dozen large sized missiles pointing towards the center of the square.

F2) watching TV in my childhood room

Last night, I had a rather disturbing nightmare that turned out interesting and satisfying. When I awoke, i was highly fascinated with the dream revolving around death yet more open-eyed. Leading towards the middle, I remember walking home from a former outlet/mall my mother used to work at. I remember I was with easily recognizable girls and I remember all the sudden running fast on an open road as I was getting chased by an obese,blonde girl. She seemed pissed for some reason and I'm not sure if i was laughing? After escaping this goose chase, I looked behind and I remember her throwing me and I saw my lifeless body, dead of course as I had blood detailing and it was as I was my spirit looking at my dead body. Fast forwarding, I remember being in a dollar general? I was fully aware that I was now a ghost, encountering people in the world of living. I was trying to tell people of my death but it seemed only one man in particular could see me. I've seen him in my dreams before, darker skinned with light eyes I believe .It's as if he knew too who had murdered me. I felt the actual struggle of people not being aware of ghost and it was very aggravating trying to interact. I also remember my name before me as a newspaper headline followed by details of my death. I then remember being a ghost yet people could see me now as I looked alive. I remember walking the halls of my middle school normally AND everyone knew I was dead yet still interacted with me. When I woke up, I took it as a lesson to cherish life more as I won't live forever. It also made me more interested in the paranormal world as i felt their pain last night. I'm not sure if this was a lucid dream or not but i know it will permanently stay in my head for a rather long time.

I pinch my nose and I can breathe. Lucid, ThreeCat comes to my mind right away, and I go immediately to exploration. I'm in a big unfamiliar city and have no idea where to go, so I ask someone where ThreeCat is located. People are pointing in different directions, but one seems more credible than the others, so I turn and walked towards where he pointed. He followed me down the road. I ask if ThreeCat did bring food, but get no answer. I'm going to a new street and see two lions and another cat lying by the roadside, I immediately think that they are not dangerous, and can not hurt me. Still I'm a little scared. There are some people on the sidewalk, and there is a 2.5 meter high black dressed guy with makeup and cat-like eyes. He seems superior, but then he begins to shrink a little, but he is still higher than me. It strikes me that this might be ThreeCat, so I ask. "Yes" I get for answer. I ask if he is sure. "Yes". There are many people around us, and there is a girl next to ThreeCat, most likely his girlfriend. I'm trying to think of some of my goals for lucid dreaming, and can not think of anything. "There is a restaurant there, you can probably get free food there," said ThreeCat. "Thank you!" I shout back, now I can finally taste how food tastes in the dreamstate. Before I do, I want to ask about the black clothes and makeup is something for Halloween, but I drop it. I do not think I asked if he would come with me, because he signaled that he was in a hurry. I go to the restaurant alone. I and ThreeCat parted ways already here, but such a mysterious man would I like to meet later and get to know. I stand outside the restaurant and get the urge to go through the glass door. I'll have some momentum and bang into the glass. It was hard, and I bounce back and land on my ass. All the people around me laugh, and I am a bit embarrassed. I try again, the same thing happens. So I set myself up in front of the door and keep my eyes on an object behind it. I imagine that I go through before I do it. There were suddenly two glasses. I got through the first one, but the other broke as soon as I touched it. One of the waiters were clapping and smiling at me. I go over the glass and say "bam!", and the glass is gone. I go around and sit next to a girl and say to the waiter that I want the best food they have, free of charge. "Nonono", I get for answer. "Nothing free". "Yes", I say, "I'll have it for free. And the food will come right away". The girl next to me orders two burgers that come immediately. She hides one of them on the other side of her, and I get a little confused. I ask if one was to me, and the girl gives it to me immediately. I said I may well get her more food at another restaurant, since I'm dreaming. She just nodded. I see a poster on the wall behind the girl, and cry out "TURN" and the poster turns 180°. I cry out more, and the poster turns almost every time. There are some other people coming in and sit down at our table, and I explain to them that I'm dreaming. One girl who came in pick up her phone and take some pictures of me. I say that she is not going to find the images in WL and she says that she knows. The burger tasted the way, not so much, it was very mushy and tasteless and easily fell apart. I think it was a fish burger. I'm sure I've been lucid for a long time now, and I hope the alarmclock does not ring any time soon. Suddenly I'm outside, and I think of flying, but to take it to the next level. I have always flown only like superman or by swimming through the air, and now I should try to just levitate. I facilitate fast, it was pretty easy. I'm with someone (I do not remember when or how they showed up) who are very impressed and ask about how this is possible. I think that in a dream you will not live like in the physical world, but in a mental one, where only your mind sets the limits. We come into a room which was packed with people. I yell "hey!" and everyone look at me. I am a little nervous, but concentrated, I set myself up in front of the crowd. So I levitate. Everyone are clapping and shouting, and I hover over them, until the end of the room. So I count down from three, and shoot out in tremendous speed back to where I came from with one arm straight in front of me. I ended up in a ventilation pipe and break me further inward, I creep through multiple vents and fans and come quickly to an end. I look out and see that I am a big place, with many people gathered. Someone's coming up the pipe end, an ugly face, and takes hold of me and trying to drag me down. "I dream. I have power", I think to myself. The person's face tells me that he is scared. Then he lets go. Then a new, not-so-ugly face shows up, and take hold of me. I take hold of him back, and squeezing all I have. The person expresses great pain, and I let go.

Dream 1
6:30am

(Not sure if this is a new dream or linked to the 2nd dream)
Im outside with Josh and we're watching the neighbour do some yard work. I can see an excavator in the yard also. Josh mentions about the man not doing much of a good job and that the girl with him has a weird nose. I can now see 2 girls in the distance, who're wearing work clothes. I can now see one of the girls up close. I notice the nose of the girl which is like a shrek nose but still not bad looking. I start to feel sharp stomach pain which transitions from waking life into the dream.

I'm in a house and I become semi lucid. I turn into a sex crazed maniac... Ugh, and can't control myself to stop and become proper lucid so I can try different things for a chance rather then chase some tail.. I see a women running away from me (don't blame her) and she's nude. I have intentions to have sex with her. I chase her down and wrap my arms around her from behind and start to feel her breasts. She has small cupped breasts and rub them and squeeze them. She isn't relaxing and still trying to break free but I am physically too strong for her. I man handle her and start to fuck her from behind. It feels little odd, as if I was too high up on her back and needed to find the right angle for penetration. It lasts for what feels like maybe 30 seconds before I wake up.

Dream 2
8:10am

I'm with Daryl and Josh. We're walking through an area with a lot of people and someone throws a piece of tissue or rubbish at me. I pick if and throw if back as a joke. I think I throw if at a guy that didn't throw it at me for starters. I get a reaction from a group of the guys once I threw it. One of them chanted something similar to "ceiling to ground". They come towards me and pick me up and throw me to towards the ceiling and catch me as I come down. They repeat this process for about 10 seconds. This was all in fun.

I leave the area and reach Daryl and Josh. They're in what looks likes a house or a restaurant. They're eating their dinners which is steak and veggies. I ask them about something to do with how I'll be able to get my food. Daryl gets up from the table and says that he's done eating. Im surprised due to the fact that Daryl truly loves his food and never leaves a scrap IRL. I ask him is that all you're going to eat? He gets my drift and says I could have it. Now a older lady comes over with her and offers hers. I feel like a burden now that everyone is sacrificing their food for me. Daryl's steak looked as if it hadn't been touch and was perfect looking in shape and colour.

I'm outside with my brother and he goes over to next door to offer to fix things. He's knocking but getting no answer. I somehow make a noise or hear a noise which tricks my brother into thinking it's coming from inside the house. There's a large women in the garden and she spots me and asks what I'm doing. I feel as if she is suspicious of me and I tell her I'm looking to do some repairs on the house. She starts to get angry and points at the tool I have in my hand, when is an old looking chisel. She keeps insisting that what I have in my hand is going to be used for other purposes. I insist that it's for fixing things. I start feeling pretty defenceless in the convocation.

I think the lady tries to catch me out as if she knew I was bullshitting to her, and invites me inside to have a look at things. I walk inside and it's very dark. I see a light from a smart phone around a corner where a man around my age is laying in bed looking at his phone. I greet him and he thinks I've said something different to what I said and repeats it to me in a confused manner. Moments later he clicks on what I really said and greeted me back. As I look around the room I see major holes in the whole, some small and some big. A few of the holes were shape a human body as if someone had walked through it. It was a perfectly shaped hole of a human.

I sit down on the couch with my brother and the man on the phone. The light are turned on now and I can see peoples faces properly. Myself and the man gets into a convocation. He looks to have long hair and some facial piercings. I get a feeling as if the man is maybe gay and attracted to me or maybe just wanted to be my friend. I tell him that I live next door and if he ever wanted to hang out to just come over.

As we're leaving my brother kisses the man on the lips. I'm confused on how to approach this goodbye and go in for a hug. As I hug him he doesn't hug me back but instead shakes my hand as I'm hugging him. It's an all time award moment.

These are mostly rubbish but hey I get some points and A for effort!

#346-348 - DILD/DEILD/WILD - Times Vary

Mountain Side Fishing
I'm walking a mountain path with my wife. The area looks a lot like Skyrim. Some rough looking seafaring types are on the edge of a cliff fishing. They talk about the real fishing being in another spot but the mountainous terrain makes it too difficult. It doesn't look so bad so to me so I start climbing. The area is too dream-like and I become lucid.

I tell myself I'll keep climbing but if I can't do it I'll just fly over there. I think I should fly anyway but as I let go to float up and the dream ends.

Short OBE

I DEILD and have vibrations. After a moment I get up but I bright white light engulfs me and throws me back to bed. The shock of it wakes me.

Blanket

I WILD and get out of bed quickly. I only take a few steps and fall to FA. But I quickly realize it's all fake because this is my old house. Rather than continue from there I restart the WILD in dream.

I get out of bed on the wrong side but I don't let it bother me. The blankets are stuck to me like a massive sludge of thick glue. I try to wipe it off but it keeps reattaching itself. I try to just walk away and ignore it but it's very tenacious.

I decide to give in a moment and lay on the bed sideways. My wife seems to have vanished. I think about the first of the three step tasks, Change gravity. I focus on the wall next to me imagining gravity shifting there but I quickly wake up.

Or so I thought. My wife keeps pulling on my arm as I am trying to DJ. I get only the first sentence in before I begin dropping my device. I can't see to keep a hold of it and my wife is starting to piss me off. I finally wake up for real.

I have several other NLDs