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4 January 2014

Note: This is the first dream where the dialogue is memorable enough to jot down although much of it will need to be paraphrased. There will be some holes in the dialogue. Believe it or not this is one of my favorite dreams because it is one of the most vivid and made for a good narrative (I love dreams with good narrative). Anyway it may not be the most positive but it is definitely the most interesting dream I have had.

[~]-used to indicate hole in dialogue

There may be some phrases I use that you don't recognize

Aperture-a random opening that leads the dreamer to (what seem like) completely random spots. For example: a closet door that takes one from his bedroom out to an open field or a classroom door that leads from the classroom out to the edge of space would be considered an aperture.

"Denizens" are what I call my dream figures.

It was nearing the last day of the final year of Prairie Park School. Me and all of my friends sat around a table in a dimly lit room. Sitting there was my friend from scouts Nick, he sat across from me along with Sarah. Next to me was Alternian troll, Terezi Pyrope. The school was deserted and we sat silently. Sarah sat working on her paper for her finals or something; I cannot recall what everyone else was working on I just remember that it was silent; no one said a word to one another. I had eyes for Terezi, I am not sure why. There was an aperture at the top of the steps that led into the house of the apple family and I do believe that the other denizens had use of the aperture. I was staying with the apple family and was in a room with four bunk beds. I think I was bunking with Alicorn Princess Twilight Sparkle. Now Twilight was unusually quiet and seemed to spend most of the dream brooding over something, people didn’t even notice her existence. The strange thing here is that Twilight was in her usual pony form whereas the apple family consisted of anthropomorphic versions of themselves. There was not much happening beyond this point in time that I can well remember.

The next day was the same as the first; we all sat in the exact same spots in silence. Sarah worked silently on her paper while everyone else seemed to sit staring at the table. Terezi was just outside of my field of vision to my right. The room was the same as it was yesterday, empty, dim, somewhat eerie. I wonder what everyone was thinking as we approached the end of the year. What was going through everyone’s mind? What was going through my own mind? Even I did not know. After nearly two straight workdays of complete silence Sarah finally spoke up and said: “Dammit! Being friends with MT was a waste of time [~] can’t get this project done because of him [~] wish I was never friends with him.”

I heard this and felt as though I had been knifed in the back by a friend. This was not a sentiment that I was unfamiliar with. One would think that I would be used to it by now, nonetheless it stung. Just as always the wound felt fresh, as though I was experiencing this pain for the first time because, the truth is, you never do get used to it no matter how many times it happens and no matter how much you try and convince yourself otherwise. I was even more shocked to find that nick shared the same sentiment as did every one else there. I was unable to recount exactly what was said but there was definitely a common theme amongst the group: MT was a waste of time. I was blamed for everything that was wrong in their lives and I tried to defend myself but I was not given much of a chance to speak.

I was catatonic. I had no idea how to react and didn’t even have a firm grasp on my own thoughts. I was slumped over, staggering like a drunk. If the human mind really is designed to respond to a verbal attack as it responds to a physical one then it was a miracle I could even stand after such a merciless beating. I made my way through the aperture hoping to get away from all the hate and negativity but it seems that the fates had declared me undeserving of such respite. I would say that the apple family’s attitude towards me had changed but honestly I don’t think they liked me to begin with. The only thing that had changed was the volume at which they voiced contempt, that is to say, they were no longer keeping their opinions to themselves. Lazy, worthless, words along those lines which were spoken by the apple family, hurled at me from all directions. I did not have supper that night. Confused and upset, I retreated to my room. Although I suppose technically it was our room, Twilight Sparkle was still there although mentally she was lost in her own little world all day everyday. I was not surprised to find her in the exact same spot I left her slumped over on her bed with her wings hanging limb over her shoulders; just…thinking.

The next morning was no better than the previous night. I went out only to be greeted by more insults and put-downs. I think my peers from school were there at the house having breakfast and they willfully joined in on the onslaught. A huge unmemorable chunk of time passed before I was back at school with my so called friends. There wasn’t much change from yesterday except that the denizens were wandering around this time exchanging the same dialogue they always had been. At some point I saw Terezi and I tried to grab her attention: “Don’t talk to me,” she said angrily as she began to storm off. For the first time ever in this dream segment I had a clear grasp on my emotions. I knew what I was feeling and I knew exactly what I wanted to say. I could feel it in my cheeks, my skin tone would not show it, but I was red. I was furious! Much so that I was trembling. Such wonton hatred from a girl to whom I have barely even spoken. “STOP!” I shouted, “Just fucking stop, and listen, please! You at least owe me that.” She did not say a word nor did she turn to face me but she did stop. She stood still with her head raised as though to say, I’m listening.

I struggled to gather my words as a lump had formed in my throat and I would be damned if I gave her the satisfaction of letting her see me cry. “What is my crime? What have I done to you? For fuck’s sake! Where is any of this coming from?”

She turned her head slightly, “You wasted my time…you didn’t like me back.”

“What?”

She turned to face me with trepidation in her voice, “I liked you, you idiot! I liked you all this time [~] I sent you all kinds of signals and you never returned the sentiment! I wasted the year trying to get your attention and looked over me completely!”

To this I did not cry, I did not shout, in fact, I smiled. I smiled and I began to chuckle and soon again I started to laugh. I was not happy about what I had just heard, in fact I was livid. But what she had just said was just so fucking ridiculous, how could I not laugh? “Are you serious? Are you fucking serious?? You are all pissy at me for not reading your mind? How could I have known? You never fucking said anything! And, newsflash, I liked you too!”

“What? Then why didn’t you say anything, idiot!?”

“I didn’t know what to say [~] you didn’t say anything either and you don’t see me abruptly snubbing you now do you!?”

I do not remember her response but our friendship was never repaired. We turned away from each other both in an angry huff but before I walked away I turned and asked her: “What about the others? Why are they angry with me?”

She barely turned to me again; her words were cold steel “You wasted their time too. You held them back.”

On my way back to the aperture I heard them going on about all of the things that they could have accomplished if they hadn’t of known me. I left them without saying anything; back into the cold unwelcoming residence of the apple family. Even Apple Jack did not care to speak to me and I still had no idea why. I retired to my room with my roommate Twilight. I may have spoken to her; venting the events of the past three days. I didn’t shout nor did I yell; I just talked to her. I knew she didn’t listen and I knew that she was not cognizant of me or even what I was saying. She was too preoccupied with her own naval gazing but it was nice to have someone to talk to about this regardless. I fell asleep that night for the last time before I was taken out of myself.

Imagine that I am a camera drone getting a view of the table at which the four of us were sitting.

ZOOM OUT: I see the school, Prairie Park, among buildings but these are not ordinary buildings; these are crystal buildings. Among the buildings I see jet black, jagged, and spiky vines growing amongst them. The top half of the sky seems to be over cast with vines.

ZOOM OUT: I see more of the city now. There are more vines wrapping around buildings and getting in the way. Aside from a small break towards the tops of the shorter sky scrapers the vines seem to come together to form a dome over the city. Anyone could see now that the city is being consumed.

ZOOM OUT: I now have a full view of the city. There is no doubting that this is the Crystal Empire coming under siege by a merciless onslaught of parasitic plant life.

ZOOM OUT: I am now miles out of the city which appears to be floating in an eerie nebular haze. The city is in between two hemispheres composed of these vines both of which are closing in on one another. There is but a small break in between the two hemispheres and in a matter of moments they will make contact; entrapping The Crystal Empire forever.

I see one vine stretching away from the mass towards a small floating house orbiting the city just a few miles out. This was the house at which I was staying; that is where the aperture had been taking me. As I get closer I see Twilight Sparkle smiling at the catastrophe through the window as though she were marveling a masterpiece. I knew that she was responsible for this as I could hear her internal dialogue for the first time.

“I know what I am doing is wrong,” she said “and I also know that I am not myself.” Dark music plays in the background as she dialogues: “Perhaps I should stop this and end this madness for the sake of my friends who are trapped inside, but why should I?” I understood now what was going on in her mind. She had been hurt by people, Lord knows how many people and Lord knows how close to her these people were. She had been betrayed and lied to and now her pain was made manifest through these vines.

Now here was her moment; her moment to choose what she will do. Will she save the Empire from certain doom or embrace the darkness that is gradually overtaking her heart and allow this kingdom to be consumed? As the vine grew closer to her an evil grin grew ever wider across her face, it was clear at that point: a choice had been made. The vine reached for her and Twilight extended her hoof ready to grab it. It was as though darkness itself was extending a welcoming hand and Twilight was ready to accept. She was ready to embrace a life of anger, sadness, and revenge.

Just before Twilight grabbed the branch she thought to herself: “I did not really care about The Crystal Empire for what is a pony other than a mere insect?”

That was the very last thing I heard before waking up and it is the only line I remember verbatim. The music cuts out as my eyes open.

Trivia
Terezi Pyrope was the odd one out as she was the only non-human at the school

The house looked just like my third childhood home aside from my bedroom which resembled a slightly bigger college dorm.

I have seen this nebula two other times in previous dreams.

Started as a one dream night, WTF? Dreams are supposed to *build* in a competition, not vanish! Boo hoo.

2mg melatonin at bedtime, it's hot, I want to make sure I sleep.

I think there were some fairly awesome earlier dreams but they vanished.

06:30

1) in a coffee shop, talking to dude across from me, soccer girl.

At a large table in a coffee shop, about 8 in our group, the waitress is pouring water into our instant (if this is such a nice coffee shop why are we drinking instant?), the guy across from me is gone for a long while then he returns, he's gotten another cup of "K3", I say "you're probably all set for a night long work session!" I ask him the longest he's been awake, he answers 2 days. He starts talking about the soccer video game he likes to play, how the game creators are very careful about security so the game can't be cheated.

He starts talking about girl on a team(?), I see a series of still photographs arranged in a grid about her and her progress?

WBTB -- up a long time, can't sleep

09:30 BTB, eventually sleep

12:20

wake up with some fairly detailed recall, yay happy for the day again.

2) sister tag tower. I'm in some bridge tower, darkly lit, my sister is there we're playing tag (as adults) she runs up several landings up the stairs and hides in the darkness. There's no way I'm going to get here without her seeing/hearing me she'll just run away farther so I play it cool and just hang out, more people arrive. I think my moment is here so I signal my father to start playing music (singing?), this will cover the sound of my steps so I stealthily climb up to the next landing and I see my "sister" wearing a colorful dress in a crowd of women wearing dresses like dancers and I surge forward and tag here before she can get away, the other women think I cheated, I go and stand in a large platform below where they're standing.

3) football catch punt. I"m watching a (US) football game DO high over the field and a bit to the side. There's a kickoff but the kick goes out of bounds so it won't count, but somehow the play keeps continuing and I see the ball rolling in the center of the field rolling towards the end-zone, I expect the kicking team player (wearing a white uniform) will down the ball on the goal line but at the last second he just stands up and lets the ball roll into the end-zone. Instead of bringing the ball out the kicking team takes the side of the receiving team and without uniforms starts playing a "fake" play of football all to themselves, then one of the big guys runs up the field and the referee declares they can punt (back towards the original receiving team). I see the punt, it looks like a bad kick it is very high but not very far. HEY, the ball is coming RIGHT FOR ME, I see the football spinning rapidly and getting closer, and I *catch* it with two arms! I'm ecstatic, I hold the ball up like a trophy among my group on the balcony. I'm looking for a referee to hand the ball back to and toss it to someone on the balcony level below mine. I think, "crap I should have had someone take a picture of me first before I did that." Then there's a scene of some football players doing a celebration dance, they're right in front of me, and I (unfortunately) see the foot-long schlong and big nutsack of one of the players who's directly facing me, swinging back and forth with his dance, I really wish I hadn't seen that.

4) in store bags of food. I'm walking through a upscale grocery store, I'm looking for some good snack food. I see packages hanging up on the wall, I'm expecting they'll be potato chips, but I see instead it's full of weird things like marinated salisbury steak chunks, I move on through the store where I have to push through some young people coming the other way. I head up a ramp towards the check-out and I notice my legs -- I'm wearing black thermal underwear but the pants are so old and thin that when I lift my legs and the overhead light strikes it you can clearly see my skin, I'm embarassed a bit about that. I'm now approaching a register but the area is like dark casino gambling pit, it's carpeted. There are some "bad guys" also approaching, I wonder how they'll get through. I bring my stuff and unload it onto the circular check out counter, I see I have forgotten to put some of the vegetable items, including a small clump of some short greens, into bags. I count that I need 4 bags and tell that to the clerk who echoes it back to me.

F1) drive past church with missile statues. Driving in a car with my wife, she points out another Church where we used to stop and the kids used to play, I sort of recognize it, I look out the window as we drive by and see a war memorial with about a dozen large sized missiles pointing towards the center of the square.

F2) watching TV in my childhood room

Last night, I had a rather disturbing nightmare that turned out interesting and satisfying. When I awoke, i was highly fascinated with the dream revolving around death yet more open-eyed. Leading towards the middle, I remember walking home from a former outlet/mall my mother used to work at. I remember I was with easily recognizable girls and I remember all the sudden running fast on an open road as I was getting chased by an obese,blonde girl. She seemed pissed for some reason and I'm not sure if i was laughing? After escaping this goose chase, I looked behind and I remember her throwing me and I saw my lifeless body, dead of course as I had blood detailing and it was as I was my spirit looking at my dead body. Fast forwarding, I remember being in a dollar general? I was fully aware that I was now a ghost, encountering people in the world of living. I was trying to tell people of my death but it seemed only one man in particular could see me. I've seen him in my dreams before, darker skinned with light eyes I believe .It's as if he knew too who had murdered me. I felt the actual struggle of people not being aware of ghost and it was very aggravating trying to interact. I also remember my name before me as a newspaper headline followed by details of my death. I then remember being a ghost yet people could see me now as I looked alive. I remember walking the halls of my middle school normally AND everyone knew I was dead yet still interacted with me. When I woke up, I took it as a lesson to cherish life more as I won't live forever. It also made me more interested in the paranormal world as i felt their pain last night. I'm not sure if this was a lucid dream or not but i know it will permanently stay in my head for a rather long time.

I pinch my nose and I can breathe. Lucid, ThreeCat comes to my mind right away, and I go immediately to exploration. I'm in a big unfamiliar city and have no idea where to go, so I ask someone where ThreeCat is located. People are pointing in different directions, but one seems more credible than the others, so I turn and walked towards where he pointed. He followed me down the road. I ask if ThreeCat did bring food, but get no answer. I'm going to a new street and see two lions and another cat lying by the roadside, I immediately think that they are not dangerous, and can not hurt me. Still I'm a little scared. There are some people on the sidewalk, and there is a 2.5 meter high black dressed guy with makeup and cat-like eyes. He seems superior, but then he begins to shrink a little, but he is still higher than me. It strikes me that this might be ThreeCat, so I ask. "Yes" I get for answer. I ask if he is sure. "Yes". There are many people around us, and there is a girl next to ThreeCat, most likely his girlfriend. I'm trying to think of some of my goals for lucid dreaming, and can not think of anything. "There is a restaurant there, you can probably get free food there," said ThreeCat. "Thank you!" I shout back, now I can finally taste how food tastes in the dreamstate. Before I do, I want to ask about the black clothes and makeup is something for Halloween, but I drop it. I do not think I asked if he would come with me, because he signaled that he was in a hurry. I go to the restaurant alone. I and ThreeCat parted ways already here, but such a mysterious man would I like to meet later and get to know. I stand outside the restaurant and get the urge to go through the glass door. I'll have some momentum and bang into the glass. It was hard, and I bounce back and land on my ass. All the people around me laugh, and I am a bit embarrassed. I try again, the same thing happens. So I set myself up in front of the door and keep my eyes on an object behind it. I imagine that I go through before I do it. There were suddenly two glasses. I got through the first one, but the other broke as soon as I touched it. One of the waiters were clapping and smiling at me. I go over the glass and say "bam!", and the glass is gone. I go around and sit next to a girl and say to the waiter that I want the best food they have, free of charge. "Nonono", I get for answer. "Nothing free". "Yes", I say, "I'll have it for free. And the food will come right away". The girl next to me orders two burgers that come immediately. She hides one of them on the other side of her, and I get a little confused. I ask if one was to me, and the girl gives it to me immediately. I said I may well get her more food at another restaurant, since I'm dreaming. She just nodded. I see a poster on the wall behind the girl, and cry out "TURN" and the poster turns 180°. I cry out more, and the poster turns almost every time. There are some other people coming in and sit down at our table, and I explain to them that I'm dreaming. One girl who came in pick up her phone and take some pictures of me. I say that she is not going to find the images in WL and she says that she knows. The burger tasted the way, not so much, it was very mushy and tasteless and easily fell apart. I think it was a fish burger. I'm sure I've been lucid for a long time now, and I hope the alarmclock does not ring any time soon. Suddenly I'm outside, and I think of flying, but to take it to the next level. I have always flown only like superman or by swimming through the air, and now I should try to just levitate. I facilitate fast, it was pretty easy. I'm with someone (I do not remember when or how they showed up) who are very impressed and ask about how this is possible. I think that in a dream you will not live like in the physical world, but in a mental one, where only your mind sets the limits. We come into a room which was packed with people. I yell "hey!" and everyone look at me. I am a little nervous, but concentrated, I set myself up in front of the crowd. So I levitate. Everyone are clapping and shouting, and I hover over them, until the end of the room. So I count down from three, and shoot out in tremendous speed back to where I came from with one arm straight in front of me. I ended up in a ventilation pipe and break me further inward, I creep through multiple vents and fans and come quickly to an end. I look out and see that I am a big place, with many people gathered. Someone's coming up the pipe end, an ugly face, and takes hold of me and trying to drag me down. "I dream. I have power", I think to myself. The person's face tells me that he is scared. Then he lets go. Then a new, not-so-ugly face shows up, and take hold of me. I take hold of him back, and squeezing all I have. The person expresses great pain, and I let go.

Dream 1
6:30am

(Not sure if this is a new dream or linked to the 2nd dream)
Im outside with Josh and we're watching the neighbour do some yard work. I can see an excavator in the yard also. Josh mentions about the man not doing much of a good job and that the girl with him has a weird nose. I can now see 2 girls in the distance, who're wearing work clothes. I can now see one of the girls up close. I notice the nose of the girl which is like a shrek nose but still not bad looking. I start to feel sharp stomach pain which transitions from waking life into the dream.

I'm in a house and I become semi lucid. I turn into a sex crazed maniac... Ugh, and can't control myself to stop and become proper lucid so I can try different things for a chance rather then chase some tail.. I see a women running away from me (don't blame her) and she's nude. I have intentions to have sex with her. I chase her down and wrap my arms around her from behind and start to feel her breasts. She has small cupped breasts and rub them and squeeze them. She isn't relaxing and still trying to break free but I am physically too strong for her. I man handle her and start to fuck her from behind. It feels little odd, as if I was too high up on her back and needed to find the right angle for penetration. It lasts for what feels like maybe 30 seconds before I wake up.

Dream 2
8:10am

I'm with Daryl and Josh. We're walking through an area with a lot of people and someone throws a piece of tissue or rubbish at me. I pick if and throw if back as a joke. I think I throw if at a guy that didn't throw it at me for starters. I get a reaction from a group of the guys once I threw it. One of them chanted something similar to "ceiling to ground". They come towards me and pick me up and throw me to towards the ceiling and catch me as I come down. They repeat this process for about 10 seconds. This was all in fun.

I leave the area and reach Daryl and Josh. They're in what looks likes a house or a restaurant. They're eating their dinners which is steak and veggies. I ask them about something to do with how I'll be able to get my food. Daryl gets up from the table and says that he's done eating. Im surprised due to the fact that Daryl truly loves his food and never leaves a scrap IRL. I ask him is that all you're going to eat? He gets my drift and says I could have it. Now a older lady comes over with her and offers hers. I feel like a burden now that everyone is sacrificing their food for me. Daryl's steak looked as if it hadn't been touch and was perfect looking in shape and colour.

I'm outside with my brother and he goes over to next door to offer to fix things. He's knocking but getting no answer. I somehow make a noise or hear a noise which tricks my brother into thinking it's coming from inside the house. There's a large women in the garden and she spots me and asks what I'm doing. I feel as if she is suspicious of me and I tell her I'm looking to do some repairs on the house. She starts to get angry and points at the tool I have in my hand, when is an old looking chisel. She keeps insisting that what I have in my hand is going to be used for other purposes. I insist that it's for fixing things. I start feeling pretty defenceless in the convocation.

I think the lady tries to catch me out as if she knew I was bullshitting to her, and invites me inside to have a look at things. I walk inside and it's very dark. I see a light from a smart phone around a corner where a man around my age is laying in bed looking at his phone. I greet him and he thinks I've said something different to what I said and repeats it to me in a confused manner. Moments later he clicks on what I really said and greeted me back. As I look around the room I see major holes in the whole, some small and some big. A few of the holes were shape a human body as if someone had walked through it. It was a perfectly shaped hole of a human.

I sit down on the couch with my brother and the man on the phone. The light are turned on now and I can see peoples faces properly. Myself and the man gets into a convocation. He looks to have long hair and some facial piercings. I get a feeling as if the man is maybe gay and attracted to me or maybe just wanted to be my friend. I tell him that I live next door and if he ever wanted to hang out to just come over.

As we're leaving my brother kisses the man on the lips. I'm confused on how to approach this goodbye and go in for a hug. As I hug him he doesn't hug me back but instead shakes my hand as I'm hugging him. It's an all time award moment.

These are mostly rubbish but hey I get some points and A for effort!

#346-348 - DILD/DEILD/WILD - Times Vary

Mountain Side Fishing
I'm walking a mountain path with my wife. The area looks a lot like Skyrim. Some rough looking seafaring types are on the edge of a cliff fishing. They talk about the real fishing being in another spot but the mountainous terrain makes it too difficult. It doesn't look so bad so to me so I start climbing. The area is too dream-like and I become lucid.

I tell myself I'll keep climbing but if I can't do it I'll just fly over there. I think I should fly anyway but as I let go to float up and the dream ends.

Short OBE

I DEILD and have vibrations. After a moment I get up but I bright white light engulfs me and throws me back to bed. The shock of it wakes me.

Blanket

I WILD and get out of bed quickly. I only take a few steps and fall to FA. But I quickly realize it's all fake because this is my old house. Rather than continue from there I restart the WILD in dream.

I get out of bed on the wrong side but I don't let it bother me. The blankets are stuck to me like a massive sludge of thick glue. I try to wipe it off but it keeps reattaching itself. I try to just walk away and ignore it but it's very tenacious.

I decide to give in a moment and lay on the bed sideways. My wife seems to have vanished. I think about the first of the three step tasks, Change gravity. I focus on the wall next to me imagining gravity shifting there but I quickly wake up.

Or so I thought. My wife keeps pulling on my arm as I am trying to DJ. I get only the first sentence in before I begin dropping my device. I can't see to keep a hold of it and my wife is starting to piss me off. I finally wake up for real.

I have several other NLDs

Dream 1

A girl started crying because I was joking about something she did in the year 1885

Dream 2

It was nightime and I was on my front drive. My mums car was parked where it always was and a boy about 15, with blonde spiky hair came hurtling on his pushbike into the side of my mums car. It left a huge dent, I had a feeling he did it on purpose as a joke. After he got up without saying a word and rode off round the block close to my house, I knew this was true. I chased after him, after a while I caught up with him. I pulled him off his bike and was not happy with him. After some heated discussion I found out he was poor and he had no money to pay back the damages he done to the car, purposely. So I got my mum to come and we decided we should let him off.

Dream 3

My nan and grandad had a new dog, we were in their bedroom and it climbed out the window and jumped over the fence

Fragment:

Something about writing on some boxes with a nearly invisible marker. They are boxes used for moving, but I don't know what's in them. I think I'm watching them for someone.

Fragment:

Some scenes form work.

Dream:

I'm in the city, I'm riding a bike. I can see people around me. Tourists and some people standing outside a police station wanting to apply for visa. Some of the people try to stop me, but I bike on past them. A man with dark skin (a tourist) is staring at me. I think to myself it must be because of my height (I'm tall!). The city changes and becomes an airport. A French lady is looking confused. There's a board with tourist information on it, and it's got a touch screen. The woman tries to get to the touch screen, but she's too short, the screen is to high up. She stops me and asks for help. I help her. She asks what my name is. I say my name. She tries to repeat it, but the pronunciation is wrong, she leaves out the 'r'. I say my name again, and she tries to pronounce it - wrong again. I say my name using a French accent, she laughs (I do too) and she says it correct this time. I then try to find something she can stand on to make her reach the touch screen, but she won't have it. She begs me to stay and help her.

Dream:

A tombstone. A lady asks me to show her my pets last resting place. I show her the tombstone. It's shaped like a regular tombstone, but the lower part is shaped like a food and water bowl. A hamster is running around on it looking for food and eating. A man appears. He's part of a village of people that are actually cats ... They dislike Scandinavians because we apparently have a virus that can harm them (the cat people). I get the feeling it's all quite pseudoscientific. He backs away when I approach him (he's in the shape of a white cat). The dream ends with me petting/communicating telepathically with a black cat nearby.

I woke up this morning and had 2, second long lucid dreams. I was pretty frustrated. One I realized that I was dreaming, I RCed, and then woke up. Another I realized that I was dreaming, RCed, and decided to finish the dream because of its epic awesomeness. I forgot the entire dream but that part now though. 0_0. In one place I was in my bedroom, and another I was on a mountain with someone from Hitchiker's Guide.

I decided to wait until after my nap to DJ, and here is the LD from my nap.
"Go to sleep" my wife says "I set up the whole dream."
I am looking at my bookshelf. I just came out of a book. I realize that the dream is using thus program as a way for me to lose lucidity and for me to stay unaware. I RC/stabilize. I just came from an epic dream, so I decide to go with it again. This time I decide to slow down more than last time. Be present. I go over to my dream wife and she points at me where to lay down.
I lay down on the bed and she connects me to a machine. I wild transition directly into a room. My wife speaks over everything.
"I will be down there in a second." I think about dream within a dream for a second and that it probably isn't my wife, but this place looks cool. I am in a room that has some obstacles and two exits. One high (a door about 20 feet off the ground) and one low. My wife appears next to me.
"Darn." She says when she sees the doors "this was my least favorite option." She pulls up three maps real fast and shows me that had they been level doors, we could have met about 10 rooms into this maze. Since it is over and under it is harder, and we are apart. (Doesn't speak, 3D map, points).
"It is ok. We can talk the whole time, and I am pretty good at this dreaming thing and puzzles." I say.
"How can we talk the whole time?" She asks. I laugh and expand my consciousness. It connects with hers and I stop it before anything other than sights and sounds connect. It is kind of like split screen, but neither screen is being cut off because of the other.
"There!"
"How are we gonna get up there?" She points at the high door.
"I'll take this road, and I'll take over if you cannot beat a room, okay?" I step up and fly to the door.

Half of the items in this next room are missing gravity (anti-gravity) and are flying around recklessly. I notice buttons on the ground, and TK a couple things to cover them. The next door opens. I dodge the floating objects (still flying). The next door is upside-down, I fly upside down and enter the door normally. My wife made it through her room as well.

All of the items in this room are without gravity, and they are moving fast. I dodge and land on one. I connect it's gravity to the ground (Maybe the cieling since I came in upside down ). I notice that there are a lot of switches, 5 at least. I grab the five fastest moving items and TK them onto the switches. The door unlocks. When I let go with TK they go floating off and the door locks. I bring them back and switch their gravity to the switches that all seem to be on the ground. I go to the next room and there are a bunch of switches on the walls and smaller and bigger flying objects (most of these rooms look like living rooms, and most objects are couches and chairs and TVs). I note all the switches and grab all the items quickly and TK them there, and hold them there with gravity. Door unlocks.
"Hey, I am stuck" My wife says. I had lost tabs on her for a bit and lost the sight with her. I check back with her and see that she just needs to move some heavy boxes.
"This room here is safe, so switch with me." I say. I switch bodies over and immediately feel... pregnant. I TK the boxes and the door unlocks. I check the next room and it needs two people to complete. I switch back to my body and teleport back to where my wife was.
"Hey, I'll need your help on this one." I say, stepping behind her.
"Ah, didn't see you there." She says.
I don't remember this puzzle much, but it ended in a FA that lasted a second, then I woke up.

1. I was in my driveway. There was a pretty big truck there and my grandpa told me to get in it and drive. I got in and he got in the passenger seat. The truck was silver and was the suspension was jacked up alot, so it sat really high. I put the truck in drive and slowly pulled out of the driveway. I had never driven a truck before, so I noticed that it handled alot differently. I turned right or left out of my driveway and started driving. Immediately my grandpa started criticizing my driving(even though Ive never driven a truck before this) and told me what I was doing wrong and what not.
I kept on driving and drove wherever he told me to go. Sometime later, as I was driving down a street in my neighborhood, I started tripping, REALLY hard. Everything was moving like waves and breathing like in a trip and it was really taking an effect on my driving ability. I immediately thought I was "crashing", something I had talked to a friend, PKJacker, the night before. I tried pulling over, and as I was my grandpa stopped me and told me to keep going- so I did.
Later on I somehow got onto the freeway and my dad was now in the passenger seat. We were starting to ascend onto a bridge/overlook on I-4 (no idea what highway that is). As we kept climbing this steep ramp I got really scared because it was really high and I didnt trust myself in this truck. Once the ramp sort of leveled off it split into 2 other bridges. As I neared this split I told my dad to take the wheel, and he did, and we ended up going onto the right bridge. I took the wheel over again and continued driving. We were approaching and tunnel that had a random drop in it where your car would just fall onto another road below it(into traffic, so it was really unsafe). My dad guided me on how to handle this and told me to watch for traffic below and speed up to where I would land on this small platform and fall onto the road below us(I know, really confusing). I made it down safely and continued driving.

With the end of the month tomorrow and thus also it being time to review the results I think it's fair to say that it's time for change. I already talked about using DEILD for next month and stopping the WBTB-alarm, one of the goals of this month was archieving a succesfull WILD which I won't do next month cause doing a full WILD (not a short one using DEILD) seems to be too difficult in the house during an afternoon nap. I get interrupted constantly and I just don't have such a lucid-desire during the day. Dream-Recall goal for next month will likely be reduced from 4 minimum average per night to 3 because 3 is more than enough.

Anyway, the dreams this night were quiet highly detailed and vivid, able to support lucidity is you asked me.
I woke up once but moved before I realized it, I should really tell myself not to move.

1. Mine(craft)

I'm somewhere deep down in a cave in the game 'Minecraft', I'm digging up resources like Redstone and instead of ore I find complete blocks of pure Redstone. Then I have weird X-ray vision and I can see a bit better in the dark. Some creepers attack me but I can kill them with a sword, in the background I hear some voices of people reacting shouting things like "Oh god a creeper!" or "Watch out!".

2. The old house

I'm in an old house located probably somewhere in the middle of Antwerp during the Victorian era based on the clothing and poverty. I suddenly have two sisters instead of one IRL and the house we live in is in extremely bad condition. It could probably collaps any time, the floors were mostly gone on most levels meaning you could stand on the bottom of the house and look straight up to the roof. My sisters slept on the first floor and I slept in the attic, the way I reached this attic was by climbing a thin make-shift stair/ladder which was very dangerous but somehow I was used to it. The house also felt very cold because of holes in the roof and broken windows, it was probably winter outside.

3. The old/new farmhouse

I'm aproaching a large farmhouse with my dad, there's a snow storm going on and visibility is bad probably 10 meters at most. The house is remote with some fields around it and than a thick forest, at first from the outside it looks very old and maybe also derelict. Once we get inside it is quiet dark and cold, we quickly go around turning on all the heaters which also provides light throughout the house. While I go around turning on the heaters I realize just how large this place is and I think of how nice it could be if renovated. Slowly I realize I'm suddenly in the same house but it is very modern and nicely decorated. On the second floor somewhere in the back of the house I find two rooms which are seperated by a glass wall. The room I stand in first is empty and I think just a lounge corner. The other room which I enter not much later has some fitness equipment in it and upon better inspection also has 2 baths and a shower which makes me really happy cause it seems so usefull. Both rooms have a beautifull view over the field infront of the house which is completely covered in snow. It is evening and the snow storm is still raging outside so I can't look very far outside still. I feel an intense joy as if I own this house and I never want to leave it.

OKAY DREAM 1!!:

I was hanging out in the living room, it was a beautiful day - a beam of light was pouring through the window, illuminating all the dust in its path, nice stuff. I looked outside and there was this strange creature sniffing around the window. It was a large, green rabbit with various spring flowers growing out of its back. I thought, DAMN THAT's cool! so I reached through the solid window and gave it a nice pat on the back(still didn't realize it was a dream). A bunch of green dust was now on my hands from petting it. I smelled the green dust and it smelled of grapes, I had a split second thought of eating the grape flavoured rabbit. Then it ran away from the window and shook off all the green dust and flowers. A smaller rabbit and a raccoon jumped off the large, now just brown, rabbit's back. They all came charging towards the door to get inside, pushed it open somehow, then started dancing around me. I felt a little nervous and the raccoon jumped up and clawed at my shoulder then they all ran outside. The cats ran after them and then I woke up.

Lucid 1:

This dream started in the sun room, so I was surrounded by plants and there was light everywhere and a little mist and it was very pretty. I felt like something was in my throat so I coughed and out came this giant worm. It wriggled around on the floor for a couple seconds, gooing all over the place before I thought, either I have a serious parasite problem or this is a dream. So I tried to make the worm fly into the air with my mind powers and it shot upwards a couple feet. Hurray! I casually strolled outside and picked up a flower and ate it, tasted like flower petals. Then I decided to try to fly off into space. I started off flying slowly before I felt as though I was tethered to the ground by an invisible rope. I managed to break free and I went off at super speed, everything turned white. I saw a black hole in front of me and I flew straight into it. I instantly appeared back in my backyard. But I was floating around as though there was no gravity. I flew straight through my house, then the neighbor's house, and I appeared right back in my backyard, so I did it again and again and I was stuck in a loop so I just relaxed and meditated as I kept flying through houses faster and faster. I felt a strange calm and contentment even though the world around me was anything but. After a couple moments of feeling fantastic I woke up, in my backyard, and ran to a table to try to write down some stuff when I thought...I don't usually wake up in my backyard, FALSE AWAKENING!! I still wrote some stuff down to help me remember.

Once I was done writing some notes about the previous dream, I walked into the house while trying to think of something else to do. I remembered the reading DC mind/becoming DC tasks and I decided to try to feel the emotions of my cat. I felt nothing, just a strong desire to eat bugs. So I looked behind me and there was a DC sitting there. I let myself feel what the DC was feeling and it was great sadness, as though an old friend had died. I woke up.

This lucid dream happened two nights ago, and was my major motivation to set up this account so that I could start dream journaling again. Though the emotion of the dream was actually sort of negative, the implications it had for my dream control were enough to make my want to start really working on it again.

I was hanging out with my close friend M who I don't get to see quite as often as I'd like anymore, and we had decided to go check out the house that another old friend of ours, D, grew up in. As far as I know his family still lives there in waking life, but I'm sure he's probably moved out by now. I unfortunately haven't seen this friend in a few years now because we had a falling out after I made some life choices that he disagreed with, but I still think about him and miss hanging out with him as we had known each other since before grade school even.

There wasn't anyone at the house when we got there, and we actually ended up sneaking in somehow. I don't recall exactly which way, but I don't recall there being any sort of struggle to do so. We just walked around to see what all may or may not have changed since the last time either of us had been there, and I figured that if D's parents or brother showed up they might not mind that we were there since it was me, but I was afraid of spooking them unintentionally. We were upstairs as I was thinking this, and as we started walking down the stairs I suddenly noticed that there was someone else in the house too, but it was this old woman waiting at the bottom of the stairs for us. She appeared to remember who I was from many years ago, but I couldn't quite figure out who she was exactly. Despite that, I do remember registering her as possibly being one of D's brother's friends' moms. She didn't seem overly surprised that we were there, nor we of her, and we just kept going about our business after running into her.

M and I ended up going out to their backyard next, which looked pretty different from what I remember. After checking out the pool, we decided to go swimming for a while and just talk about life. I couldn't really tell you too much of what we talked about, as I barely even remember the act of changing into bathing suits or anything other than just already being in the pool, but I do know that out of nowhere a whole bunch of people suddenly showed up. Once again we were not particularly bothered by this, and I remember feeling that there was just suddenly a total pool party going on, and M and I were fine with that. It seemed like a pretty lighthearted atmosphere and everyone appeared to be having fun. I swam up toward the edge of the pool to just kind of hang along the tiles for a while, and M came up to me from the left and the character Gunn from Angel came up to me from the right. For some reason they were both starting to squeeze me together pretty tightly, and just as I was about to say something and try to wiggle my way out from them, a foot met my hand that was resting on the edge. I looked up, and it was my mind's theoretical version of a more college-aged D, looking down at me like he was expecting some sort of explanation.

M and I both get quiet and D just continues to stare at me impatiently. In my mind, this is the first time I've seen him in years, and I say to him that I know we have some things to talk about. I start getting up out of the pool in the meantime, and he begins to reply in a begrudging but friendly way that he knows that whatever I say, he'll have to accept my apology. This actually makes me start to feel better, like things might not be so bad between us after all and maybe we can be friends again, but then there is a sudden blip in my perception of reality and now I am just standing outside by the pool all alone. No D, no M, no partiers. Everything about my environment has suddenly become much more vivid and detailed as well, and the odd idea strikes me that everything that had happened up to that exact moment might have been a dream, but now I was actually awake and had a real chance to talk to D, since I was still in his old backyard.

I ran into his house and went upstairs to his old bedroom to talk to him, and along the way I became aware that all five of my senses were now strongly present. I was excited in the idea of fixing up what he and I have lost, but once I got to his room and checked everywhere, including lifting up the covers of his bed, he was nowhere to be found. As my enthusiasm begins to dwindle, it starts being replaced by logic and I begin to fear the worst. I quickly grab my phone and try to turn it on so that I can try to check what time it is twice, but it won't even turn on in the first place. Losing my sense of hope, I then run to his bathroom which is attached to his bedroom and tried to flip on the light switch multiple times, every attempt to no avail. There's no use trying to fight it anymore.... This is a dream.

For a moment I feared that I had not only fallen for a disappointing lie but ruined a considerably vivid lucid as well, because the darkness of D's bathroom had overtaken all of my vision so that I could see nothing but black. I don't even recall how exactly, but I managed to desperately grab for any stimuli I could possibly find, and just when I thought all was lost, D's bedroom faded back into focus. Things were a little blurry, and for some reason I had the strange idea that taking my glasses might actually make things more vivid, which worked perfectly. I repeated this action one or two more times during the rest of the dream too without ever actually having to put my glasses back on.

I was still feeling really hurt by the loss of what I thought might be a old friendship finally coming back into my life, and I just needed to blow off some steam. Luckily for me, this is very often what I use lucid dreams for anyway, so there couldn't have been a better setting for me to be in while feeling this way. At this point I stopped walking and instead flew out of his house, phasing through the wall as I did so, to get back out into the neighborhood. While flying I went past a tree and actually felt like I scraped myself on one of the branches, which caught me off guard, but I probably brought it upon myself by just happening to glance at the tree as I went by. However, that momentary loss of focus caused the whole area to start being replaced by just a big field of flowers, which was definitely not what I was looking for at the moment. The edge of my vision on my right side still contained house, so I quickly darted off in that direction hoping to find a more developed area, which worked perfectly.

The area I had arrived in contained many houses but was no longer anything like the neighborhood that D lives in. It looked much more like a downtown city area, with a road going down a hill, and houses much like you would see in the San Francisco area, absolutely none of which you will actually find in the area I was in just moments ago. However, any area such as this would work for my purposes. Harnessing my emotions into my dream control as I had done in my last lucid that I can remember, I held out my hands as if to hold something very large and heavy in front of me, started tensing my fingers like I was gripping something in each, and then started raising them up while projecting my feelings out into the city ahead of me. As I did so, the ground under a housing complex began to rumble and rise up into the air, warping the buildings around it as it did so. The mass that I was lifting up became colossal and took on a shape seeming to have arms and legs, but it was not humanoid. Suddenly, a glowing red light and chunks of rock were visible all through the cracks in the ground which was splitting more each second, and then terrifying, monstrous face emerged on the head of the beast. I had summoned an enormous lava monster, just as I had intended.

I could hear people in the area all screaming at the site of this new creation of mine which was the manifestation of the pain that I had felt after the previous events of the dream. To release that tension that I felt, the monster began using its incredible power to start destroying the city all around it. This whole event was incredibly vivid and life-like, and I was quite proud of my apocalyptic pet. I simply let it do its thing and then continued flying down the road, not yet ready to be finished wreaking havoc. The next thing I did was focus all of my negative energy toward an area just above another set of houses just a bit down from where I had been, and this caused a ball of fire to burst into existence. Before it could totally fade away, as it was just a quick thing, I reached my hand out to it as if to hold on to it from a distance, and then pulsed more energy out through my arm and towards, reigniting the burst and making the ball even larger than before. Ready to end my sadness, which like most emotions seemed significantly enhanced my being in the dream state, I continued to push this ball more and more until it reached the strength of an atomic explosion, annihilating everything in the dream reality and waking me up in the process.

Though this was certainly not the happiest of lucid dreams I've ever had, it was definitely an important step up in my quest to obtain better dream control. Hopefully in the future I can continue to expand these abilities using more positive emotions to really achieve some incredible things.

To start off this dream journal I wanted to include this lucid entry because it was the first time I felt like I reached a newer level of dream control I seem to be on now, and it wasn't too long ago that it happened. This came at the very end of the month of May, and is the last vivid lucid I can recall before the one I had two nights ago. I don't recall exactly if there was more dream leading up to this part, but I'm just going to include the significant piece of it that I can remember.

I found myself wandering around a very large house with an impressive artistic design; it felt like the kind of place that someone with a lot of money to waste might pay a skilled architect to build into a natural setting. The main thing that I can remember about it was that it was sort of blocky and there were a lot of beige colors. I was walking through what appeared to be something like the living room, but a huge one, and there were many other people walking around as well. I don't recall who exactly this might have been anymore, but I just know that I saw a celebrity or otherwise someone who I just knew shouldn't be there, and upon that realization I became lucid.

Out of nowhere, several police officers started raiding the house. I wasn't quite sure exactly what they were trying to find, but I did know that I didn't really care to find out. People were starting to run around in a panic as if they had something important to hide, and I knew that I had to do some quick thinking to figure out a way to dispose of the officers if I wanted to actually explore this dream in peace. I didn't find much to work with after a quick glance around the house especially with all of the people everywhere in my way, so I ended up frantically running outside to try to come up with a plan.

When I got out there I saw that we were located in the middle of a forest, though the trees weren't placed together too thickly so you could still see beyond them to a horizon in the distance. It was very picturesque, and added to the feel of how I described the house before. There still wasn't much out there for me to go on though, so I had to make a split-second decision. I felt my desperation welling up inside me, and I decided to focus that emotion as much as I possibly could into my dream control. Acting purely on instinct, I realized that energy into the first thing that I could possibly think of, which began happening simultaneously as it entered my mind: a tidal wave to simply wash the whole situation away.

There was a deep roaring as the massive tsunami started visibly and quickly rising up over the horizon in the distance, and within seconds had reached the point of blocking out the sun in the sky. I hurried back over to the entrance to the house that I had originally come out of because it placed the house directly in the path between the tsunami and myself, and soon after the water came crashing down on to the terrain around me. However, something I noticed as I looked into the house was that all of the people were suddenly gone. Was there even a point to this in the first place? The water was starting to burst into through all of the windows, shattering the glass everywhere, and it was all building up and approaching me quite realistically. As the intense torrential force hurled towards me, my last lucid thought was that this may not have been the best idea to summon.

Once the water hit me, I died instantaneously. However, the dream still continued to progress, just from a third-person perspective. "I" was now seeing a bird's-eye view of what appeared to be an extremely large and extravagant fountain which appeared to be at the base of a cylindrical room in the center of some ancient temple which conveyed a lot of power. There was a very geometric design to the flow of the water which came from the fountain, carrying it in a series of circles from the top of the structure to the circle around it and then outward from the room. My camera angle was spinning just slightly, very slowly to one side. There were also I believe four completely bronze-colored, metallic-looking, and quite muscular male human shapes who were all floating into the air in four corners around the fountain with their arms outstretched to the ceiling.

For the duration of this experience there was an emotion that this fountain is the temple that "I" was observing actually exists in another dimension outside of our own, and is in some way a metaphysical resting place for many different worlds including our own. The water that was flowing out of the fountain was felt to in fact be a divine stream which would inevitably bring the end of each world when its time came, and it was inherently understood that the tsunami which I had summoned was actually the wave that came to end our world. Unknowingly, I had brought upon the end of our existence as we know it, which is possibly why my perspective was switched to this vision to begin with. This was all interpreted conceptually in a matter of a seconds, and once this flash of imagery passed, I awoke.

The significance of this lucid dream for me was that I had never before been able to so effectively and effortlessly summon something as enormous and powerful as that tidal wave which I merely pulled up on a whim. This gave me some new ideas about attempting to alter a dream scenario by channeling my emotions into my abilities, which my most recent lucid (the one after this one) seems to have reinforced fairly well. Since this was the only dream I had like this that came significantly before I created this account, I figured it would be good to record it for future reference.