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My journey began at Pacific High School. It's the school I'm always dreaming about. I'm standing at the quad waiting for a few friends to showing up during the day. There was a lot of people walking around so I'm assuming school was out. I met up with a few friends a met from another school I'm taking right now. Well, I really just met Natalie. When she shows up, I was lucid. I was lucid before this, I just forgot where I was and what I was doing.

There were times when I just wanted people to die. That's when I used my powers to have them killed off easily. That's when I start to notice differences in how I can control my powers. I felt that the more I thought about killing someone, the harder it'll be or it may not happen. I tried not to think about it and look away and strangely, it worked. I raised my right hand and formed it in a shape of a pistol and killed almost everyone I saw. Even as me and Natalie were walking home, I was killing people.

I remember telling Natalie something. I told her that I had some kind of friendly love for her. She didn't show too much sympathy but when we reached the quieter part of the school, she showed some interest in walking very close next to me. I also saw a man walking in the direction we were walking in. At first, I thought he was going to kill us, but I walked in to a factory just half the mile from the school. I didn't take to much time there. That place was a ghost town. I'm not sure what was standing beyond the road, there was a big wall surrounding the area I was walking next to.

This is the part where I ditch Natalie and enter the factory. There's a few people I met in the factory, but nothing special happened. I only noticed a few women standing in front a set of clothing while some of them were nagging about it.

I also do remember another part. I was back at my house with the power of lucidity. I was standing in front yard with two other people on the ground, injured. I looked up at the sky and felt it was a perfect time to end the world off with a meteor. I paused and stared at the school for a few seconds and raised my right hand. I tried my best to destroy the world but it just wouldn't work. Again.

I don't remember much of last night. Again, I was distracted and not focused on dreaming lucidly, although I did ponder it as I fell asleep.

I had one of my out of body experience type things. Sometimes, while asleep, even though I am not dreaming I will instinctively "sit up" out of my body and begin an OBE.

I was not able to easily fully free myself from my body, this time - for whatever reason. But I WAS able to see - in the past, I've always been blind - although I wasn't able to fully open my eyes. I was quite aware that this was a form of dream, although I was unable to control its course. I stumbled around my dream-room, half-blind and unable to control my limbs very well at all or free myself from my blanket, which I felt like I was entangled in.

I realized that this wasn't working well and lay back down, attempting to visualize and possibly break out of the OBE into a regular lucid dream. I also attempted to do a scene change to sky, which didn't work. Unfortunately, I lost lucidity.

I know that this wasn't a misadventure with sleep paralysis because I've gotten very good at differentiating. When I woke up, my bed and bedroom were unmussed despite the fact that in my OBE/dream, I had completely wrecked my bedroom and knocked/thrown stuff everywhere. Unless I then cleaned them up in my sleep... lol.

I was woken up by my smoke alarm chirping. I had to get up and change the battery. While I did so, I tried to ponder the dreams I had, but I couldn't recall any of them. It was frustrating. My dream recall seriously hinges on how stressed and distracted I am.

Feel tired to write right now. I will make a short description of the day.


I woke up sometime in morning. I was on the computer.
Then I walked to the gym, worked out, and then walked to my gf.
Once at gf's place, I were on the computer. Then we also ate chicken, cucumber and some feta cheese. AND cashew nuts too.

Then we went with gf's mums friend to some guy who fixed my gfs mums car because it broke a few days ago. We drove to the part of the city where my dad lives, because my gf think of getting a dog that looks like a sheep almost.
The dog is 1 year old and named Gizmo or something like that. He barked a lot, seemed to be aggressive etc.
The people that were gonna lend us him (they give us him a year and we only need pay food, and then maybe we get the dog), was not able to have the dog anymore because the dog was jealous and pee'd on the kids stuffs etc, lol.
Well, my gf is unsure if she gonna get the dog, as it seemed so angry and wasn't very nice as it bit her hand too, with the whole mouth.

Well, then we went away from there and picked up my gfs mums sister who lives in Stockholm (capital of Sweden, like 900km south) but she have come up here to visit.
We went home to my gf.
My gf and her mums sister (whatever called), went away again, as they were going to make tattoos at some dude we know. My gf got a couple of tattoos she been doing the past half year, she was just gonna fill in some tattoo alittle while her mums sister were going to do some tattoo.

That's kinda everything in quite short details.
No idea if we will eat anything soon again. I ate 500g quark with funlight for an hour ago as I were hungry.

Friday 3/22/13

Bed 5am - 10:50am Watching Warehouse 13 marathon. Now, I'm ready for new season.

OK, last dream of my sleep was crappy. Stil feeling crappy from it.

DR: I was visiting friend of mine and her two kids. I know them very well. I thought I had permission to tell kids about what LDing is and how to achieve it. As I'm starting to explain, she tells me, all annoyed, I hope you not telling them mombo-jumbo crap. I'm like "no, just that they don't have to put up with bad dreams and stuff".

But I stopped explaining. Then we had some crappy pizza and I couldn't wait to get the heck out of there. Very ackward. We played with kids on the floor and I felt like everything I do or say is scrutinized and wrong.

I really wish I would stop dreaming with people from my past. That part of my life is over. I wish, I could get over it.

Not much today it seems.

I recall fight of some kind in outdoors place and there was some sort of puzzle indoors. I also recall something about experiments on dream recall or something.

Before sleep: felt like listening to relaxing music when falling asleep but decided to turn it off. Big mistake, was way too awake and my mind decided it was time to torture me with worries about an incoming situation irl. I managed to convince myself I am not interested in its worries tonight, and started day dreaming more pleasant situations instead. 2 hours went by before I felt asleep…

Total sleep time: 7+hrs

Dream recall techniques: tired and lazy tonight, so none

First Regular Dream: No DJ entry. Woke up around 3 hrs after falling asleep, went to toilet and repeated two times the key word which was supposed to unravel the dream. Was really sleepy and did not turn on tablet to write down, which I should have done, because I couldn’t remember anything from this dream when waking up 4 hrs later.

Snooze dreams: I wanted to sleep, felt really tired, but I also wanted to lucid, so I switched between setting the alarm clock for 20 more minutes or just pressing the snooze button.

Snooze dream1: Me and some classmates were in a building, which later feels more like a mall. I remember in the dream that there is a place in the mall, where they sell really attractive cupcakes/brownies, etc. I am interacting with my friends and I dream some toilets as per dream tradition.

Snooze dream2: The building I am in feels like some kind of hospital in space, maybe spaceship. The atmosphere is very dynamic because it is part of the “Aliens” game that I am playing in the dream. This is very similar to previous dreams I had. [I haven’t played “aliens” for years and after so many paranoid dreams I am surely not buying the new one!] The room door in front of me will open any minute, somebody is counting down, and there are lots of aliens waiting to jump on me. Just great! I try running away from them, rushing to a room, closing the door. They are coming! I try to open the window and jump from it. It is very high and I fall, I fail to hold on to any branches of a nearby tree and keep on falling. But I guess, my attention is not programmed to hit the ground, so it happens as if I really managed to grab some branches and am hanging in the air. I feel gravity in a really strange way as I am completely disoriented as to in which direction the ground is. The aliens are probably climbing the building so they will reach me soon.

I wake up putting the alarm for some 20 mins later and think I want to WILD. I feel very sleepy but I try to keep myself awake, staring at the blackness in front of me, keeping the intention to have a lucid. I didn’t notice when I fell asleep.

Snooze dream3 - DILD: The scenario where the aliens are coming continues, but this time I am at my old place, in my room. A transparent guy, I can only see the contours of his body, walks in the room. At first I think he will chase me, but then he turns into a friend from school. I have the urge to kiss him, and well, I do. The paranoia returns and I feel the presence of aliens or whatever is after me behind the room door. There is only one way out now – the balcony. I head for the balcony, and as I cross and have the view of the balcony in front of me, I become aware that I am dreaming. I repeat that I am dreaming in my mind, to be sure that I don’t reintegrate in the dream and lose awareness. Ok, great, but there is this thing that I still feel is coming. Would it stop doing that? I kind of know that I am causing its behaviour with my thoughts, so I try to make it disappear. Does not work. I continue down the balcony, which is really long. I think that if I ignore it, it may not be there, but then I turn my back and there it is. The chaser is now an old rasta man that feels somewhat ominous to me. I mumble that I want him to go away, no effect again. I am reaching the end of the balcony, the corner of the building. I try to think of alternatives of how to deal with the situation. At that very moment the damn alarm clock starts ringing. I am extremely annoyed at this, I really don’t want to wake up now, argh! Perhaps my anger turned to determination not to wake up and I managed to hold the dream and me there as I heard the alarm clock resonating everywhere. No idea how long that was, but it eventually stopped. [I have never attempted to ignore an alarm clock before, neither have I noticed that it stops because I always wake up and turn it off]
Still on the edge of the balcony, thinking what to do, I see the old rasta advancing, and consider the option of jumping off the building. I know that I will be fine, but when I think about down, I don’t turn my head, just think, I see blackness and I am concerned that I will probably lose it, because the scene will change. “Try to think of a scene to land in”, I think but this is way too complicated. I decide to jump anyways. I am standing at the edge of the balcony and the soles of my bare feet are half way through the air. I do not feel stable enough underneath to be able to perform a jump movement and to launch myself. The dream slips away and I wake up.

Comments: Chasers can be really annoying when you LD. I had some tasks in mind but I really can’t do anything when I feel compelled to run away. Is there any reliable and efficient way to get rid those cheeky entities that prevent you from doing other planned LD actions? Fighting them is way too distracting and making them disappear does not always work. Any tips?

very busy, haven't been able to sleep much - ruining my dream recall. some fragments tonight:

1. i was in a distorted version of downtown (bright colours, very sunny) with my boyfriend who now had massive dreadlocks cascading from the back of his head. i found that very unattractive but i decided that he is my boyfriend, so i should deal with it. we entered an empty furniture store. it was hexagonal with large windows on every side; the carpet and most of the chairs were green. we sat down on a couch. we wanted to kiss but we were afraid people would see us through the windows, so we just cuddled a little. suddenly the room started tilting from side to side. we heard the store owner coming in and we ran away -- but he was actually glad that we visited his store and he gave us smoothies.

2. i am with friends (the only one i recognize from real life is M-----) in a huge department store. we are wandering around and i was stealing things. i recall spotting a stick of men's deodorant that was selling for 80 dollars, so i decided to go to the women's department and steal a similar product. i never found the womens department but i stole some books.

then it is night and we are downtown. we want to go to a bar (i don't drink irl) but the only way to enter is through a third-story window. my mother is wearing a red shirt and lying motionless on the sidewalk a few yards away; her body seems shrunken. we pay little attention to this. i try climbing up the building's many roofs (roof-awnings? what's the architectural term for those) - dead ivy vines cover the building - but i can't make it to the top floor. at one point my mom gets up -- she's acting normally, wants to join us.

3. i am at a public indoor pool with a lot of other people. there is a young girl in a wheelchair there and a fat middle-aged woman is saying rude things about her. i tell the woman off and people applaud me.

4. i am reading a website about a spa. the company is from quebec and much of the website is written in french. i don't recall what the text said now but i remember that upon waking i remarked at the fact that it was sensical and grammatically correct -- strange because text in my dreams usually makes little sense in terms of content or syntax -- especially strange because french is my second language!

one part mentions that they have special tools for relaxation or something to that effect. the text is a link, so i click on it. it brings me to a page that displays various styles of bongs (they're all blue and silver and quite elegantly designed). there are also prices for "asian massages" for women and men. the prices are all in the 1-2k range. so i come to the realization that this is a brothel where you can smoke weed.

i decide to visit.

the spa is an outdoor pool. it is very sunny and bright outside. the geometry in this scene is odd - i think i'm floating above the water or something. a girl arrives, but no sex acts transpire, at least that i can remember. i wake up.

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quick analysis:
i've had many similar dreams about department stores. my dream-stores are always massive, labyrinthian, with blank white walls and floors and an eclectic assortment of items.

the image of my mother lying on the ground probably comes from the time i saw a hipster girl lying face-down on the sidewalk in toronto (with her ukulele of course). she wasn't drunk or sick or anything, i think she was trying to be artistic or protest something, but it was just silly. the police made her get up. there's also another dimension to this image i think - my mother was an alcoholic while i was growing up and to this day i have a strong aversion to being around any drunk people... especially her.

almost all the dreams i've catalogued so far have had something to do with sex. generally, dreams with sexual themes are very rare for me. i haven't had any changes in my real life that could trigger this... maybe my subconscious is just trying to embarrass me.

took:
- no 5-HTP before going to sleep
- 0 dose galantamine + choline
- no Piracetam when I got up
lucid dreaming: 0 lucid experiences
note:
- did a standard WBTB with a MILD to get back to sleep but felt like the sleep was so heavy. Based on the charts lately seems like I'm running a slight sleep deficiet which is catching up with me.

I had so many dreams that they're all jumbled up in my head. I feel like I'm forgetting something important about an ancient temple and a quest I had to go on....

03.22.2013

A "Wild" Roll (WILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I wake up breifly because my roommate is up doing homework. I roll from my side to my back (my eyes are forced closed because of the sleep mask I'm wearing.) I'm wondering how much time I have left to sleep, when I realize that I'm suddenly caught up in Sleep Paralysis.

"This will be the first WILD I've had in ages," I think to myself. I ignore the almost painful vibrations tearing through my head and focus on trying to roll off the side of the bed. After a few moments, I accomplish this. My roommate is staring at me in concern. "Did you just fall out of the bed?" she asks.

"Don't worry about that," I say happily, doing a reality check just to be sure. "I've got tons of stuff to do and not much time to do it." Without answering her questions, I run out of the room.

I am expecting to see the hallway, so it surprises me when I'm suddenly in my Grandma's house. Doesn't really matter where I am, I decide, just as long as I get... whatever it is I'm supposed to do, done. What am I supposed to do again?

I notice that it's dark outside, and I figure that I'll be able to think more clearly if it's lighter.

Before I can even attempt any of this, I wake up again. I lie motionless and try to turn it into a DEILD. I am successful, but I remember absolutely nothing about the following dream, other than it was lighter than the first.

03.22.2013

Too Many Fleas (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am sitting in my old back yard when I notice that my cat (who is supposed to be living with my friend now) is accross the yard. She comes running when I call to her. I am kind of irritated that my friend would just let her wander off like this, when she is supposed to stay inside.

I pet her and THOUSANDS of fleas begin leaping around through her fur. I am alarmed and disgusted. "Don't worry, I'm going to fix this," I tell her.

My mom refuses to let her in the house, but she tells me where I can buy some good flea medicine for "only" $50. I look out the window and see Sadie playing with two of my cat's who have been dead for years. I think that my old cats will look after her and she'll be safe.

03.22.2013

Mighty Yell (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am in my closet, looking for something specific. In the background, I can hear my mom calling me. "What is it?" I call out. She just calls my name again. This repeats several times, much to my irritation. Why does she insist on yelling to me from another room if she can't hear my response. I shout "WHAT!?" so loud that I end up screaming it in real life. My roommate is looking at me like I'm insane.

Dream recall from non-lucid nap.

I recall being in some sort of open area, then later i was underwater inside some ruined ship with some people, there was air bubble around it. I was relaxing on some piece of furniture while others were searching for something, then we have found some ghosts, but nothing that we were searching for so we went outside. There was some kind of huge bottle, one of people who were with me got inside it and fell asleep.
Later i was back at home, i was thinking that i returned from four dreams and that i saw similar dreams earlier, i was checking through this dream journal and found them, but before i could write new ones i was distracted by food, there were some spiral clams or something, after that i was super sleepy so i fell asleep.
I was somewhere else and i was talking to some person that i nicknamed 'mystery man' for some reason, we were talking about those four dreams that i was thinking about earlier and then he said that i should pass some kind of test.
I was teleported into different room, i was on some table and i could not move. Some kind of dark green partly living partly robotic thing was mounted on my head, it had an eye that was staring at me, also there was other dark green creature walking around that was preparing for something. I was as calm as ever and was trying to do staring contest with that eye thing. Then other creature came closer and looked through the other thing at me, there was loud noise and vision got super distorted.
I woke up back home, i was super dizzy and family was asking me about something. Then i woke up again, again super dizzy and then i woke up properly.

One of my first long lucid dreams. I had this dream where I was on a street in a big city, mabyee New York, when someone started chasing me. As I was running the person came closer and closer no matter how fast I ran. In a last resort effort I ran down an ally and climbed up a wall as if I was Spider-Man. When I got to the top of the building I realized I had climbed up a skyscraper without using anything. I still hadn't realized that I was in a dream but I was puzzled. I began trying to explain to myself how I just did that. Then I tried to jump in the air. And I jumped probably 10 times higher than I ever had before and when I landed on the roof it did not hurt my legs. It seamed to me that the gravity of earth had been greatly reduced. "OMG"! "This can't be real", I said to myself. "I should not be able to do this". Then I decided to try to jump to the next building over, (kind of like Morpheus in the movie the matrix) and I landed with ease. I began to jump for joy, each time jumping higher and higher. "I must have been abducted by aliens" I thought to myself. "We'll if that's the case F these aliens" I said and jumped off this building and when I hit the ground I felt no pain. It was strange that I was in a huge city in the middle of the day and there was no one around. I began to run and run and run. I was getting faster and faster then I would run on the walls of the building sideways. Then jump on tops of cars crushing them on impact. Everything was so real. I saw everything in color. I could feel the wind on my face and I could here the crushing of the cars. Then it hit me, "I must be dreaming"! I started thinking, "if this is a dream then I should be able to do anything". So I concentrated on trying to levitate a car with my mind and sure enough it worked. I then crushed it into a ball just by thinking about it. "We'll let's try flying", I said to myself and sure enough I was flying around this city. After landing I realized how I had no limits and did not want to wake up. Then I suddenly woke up.

Location: dads home

Bedtime: 01:45
Final wakeup: 07:58

Notes before bed: Dreamviews.


Jealous and suspicious me (dream)
My gf had gotten a new phone, an Xperia V.
Me, my friend Mattias and my gf were at my gf's apartment, in her room.
My gf was sending text messages to a guy (Adam or so) all the time. She said that she were going to sleep over at his place.
I started to get moody about it and didn't think there were a good idea to sleep over at his place. Both me and my friend thought it sounded strange that my gf sleeps over at another guys house, sounded not right and suspect.
But my gf said it's normal.
We got kind of mad on eachother and she left the room.

Later we were at my old highschool (7-9th grade). We were near the woodwork room. My gf were going to a lesson or meeting, and as she had walked away, I noticed on the bench that she had forgotten her phone.
I sneaked to it and picked it up, walked to the woodwork room to hide in case she walks back. I go to the conversation of the guy who she been texting all morning, and went on top to start there. I read the text that she had read up or me some days earlier, just some normal text.
I continued to read on. I walked out from the woodwork room and walked to some other place, while walking I tried to read the text messages.
Didn't find any sign on that they're in love with eachother or so, but then I hadn't read enough much to get down to the place where he had suggested her to come over to him and sleep.



C-S 1.6 again (fragment)
I was in the game counter-strike 1.6 once again, it was the map surf_ski, or well, a familiar map to it. Either I had cheats or it was a mod, cus I could use the mods like morph etc, I simply ran faster, could get any weapon etc.


Bought youtube views (dream)
I was in my room at my dads house. It was evening and I had just bought youtube views and on my bed it was a counter on the video I had ordered views to. It was around 5000 views I had ordered.
The views was showing on my bed and it changed very fast from just a few views up to a couple of houndreds or maybe it was thousands views.




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Okey. The first dream. My gf got her phone (Xperia s) back from the repairing service yesterday and she had wrote on Facebook she needs people calling and texting her as she got no numbers left.
That must have triggered the things about the phone. But that I suspected her and that she were gonna sleep over at a guys place? no idea where it comes from.


The fragment, was maybe triggered when I yesterday watched a few C-S stickman videos on YouTube, and I told my friend that I felt like playing the game again just a little bit, because I haven't played it for over years or so. Now at morning, I don't feel like playing it at all though.


The dream about youtube views. I see why it came up. Because before I went to bed, I had uploaded another video. And previous time I tested buy Youtube views, got very overdelivered, with over houndred thousands views (well unless they all were real though lol). And well, I just thought why not try it again and see if they can give a large amount still. It's great and cheap for advertising. I used it on the video I edited yesterday. So a 30k+ views it´s supposed to get.

This dream was about a dreamviews thread on what are the odds this is a dream! Completely non-lucid and no sense of self - I was "reading" not participating.

Here is a fragment of my dream thread - there actually were user names but I forgot which:

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[user1] This is not a dream, not weird enough.
[user2] Ah but we are not aware of all that is going on - not remembering all. If we backfill for all missing data points, then there is so much weirdness, that chances are high this is a dream!
....

First of all, a dream in which a DC says/writes that chances are high that it is a dream, that's beautiful! Now, why couldn't I also have some self-awareness to allow me to make the small leap from that to lucidity?

I know which thread triggered this! Gab yesterday wrote something like "let's face it our waking life is not weird enough, so we may need to pretend that it is" and I responded that I disagree that in my opinion life is plenty of weird, we just don't stop to question it most of the time, and don't notice how weird it is. In my dream the conversation was not between gab and JoannaB but it might as well have been. Fascinating, the only time I have successfully had an LD thus far after returning to this hobby was also triggered by DV interaction with gab. I think I will ask gab whether she would be willing to be my mentor or something, since obviously my dream self has a strong correlation between gab and lucidity or almost lucidity! Gab is my LD muse! Here is a link to the thread: http://www.dreamviews.com/general-lu...correctly.html (gab's post is #17 and my response is #18, and this is definitely what this dream is based on!)

Another element of this dream, the backfilling for missing data to get adjusted statistics which may change the whole picture of what the data shows - this was triggered by a work problem I was working on this week! It's neat to see where such ideas in my dreams originated from in real life.

I'm in a really loud dressing room. People are running around. It's madness. Men and women are getting me dressed, fixing my hair and doing my make up. They push me to the runway. I can see through the curtain. There are hundreds of people watching the show. Before I walk out, a woman looks me over one last time. I get the ok and now I'm walking. I smile and look at everyone. I know that after this they will all regret hurting me. I am a model. They get to watch me. I make it to the end of the runway and twirl to show off my dress. I then start walking back, smiling the whole way. Before I go behind the curtain again, I twirl one more time and wave to the crowd. I am happy.

I'm walking in Grandma's back yard. It's bigger and looks like a forest. Scott McCall is standing next to me. We start walking for a bit. He stops, grabs my arm and turns me around to face him. He says that we should split up so that we won't get caught. I agree and we go in different directions. I walk for a few minutes and come across a trailer. The door to the trailer opens and Chris Colfer walks out. He smiles at me and we hug. We go inside. I sit on an old sofa and he begins to pace in front of me. He starts crying and picks up a picture frame. I get up from the sofa and look at it. It's a picture of him as a kid and an old woman. I take the picture and set it down. I pull him into my arms and he cries while holding on to me tightly. I close my eyes and when I open them again, I'm back outside in front of a large shed. I open it and it's full of toys. I notice that there is a small path through the toys leading to the back of the shed. I start to walk towards the path but I stop. I see a huge bed in the back. On the bed I see a woman. She is older, but I can't tell how old. Her hair is a vibrant red. I'm not sure if she is asleep or dead. I stare at her.