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Spider bit me today. Lucid yesterday...fight at a party

I've been neglecting my DJ again.

Lately, I've been having a lot of stressful dreams. My mom has been in a lot of them. In one, I was defending the medication I take for anxiety. She's NEVER given me a hard time about meds. She's on anti-depressants herself.
But in one dream, she was very beautiful. She had lost a LOT of weight and looked 30 years younger. All I recall is seeing her twirl in a dress (which she would never wear IRL). Just seeing her like that made me so happy.

I've been dreaming about drowning still; of losing control of my car.
Last night, I was stuck in a dream loop. I waited to long to record it and I've lost most of it though. In the first part of the loop, things were going smoothly. It was a stress-free dream. But in each loop the dream scenes became increasingly unpleasant.
Ugh... I wish I recorded it sooner lol

Just tried to WILD in a nap. I got into sleep paralysis pretty quickly, and then I saw some colors and stuff, but I was mostly just waiting there for a dream to start. Then I felt a sneeze coming on, and I figured I'd just let it happen, so it did and I saw a flash of blue and then I sat up and did a reality check after I sneezed. I was awake. Er, am awake. This just happened. So maybe I'm dreaming, but everything seems pretty real so I'm gonna say this is real life. Darn!!!

I am always dreaming of people who have passed, some I know and some I don't. When I am dreaming I KNOW that I am and I can control the dream to go in the direction that I want it to. I just dont ever seem to get the message they want passed on. I dont understand what they mean so I don't pass the message along and then they come back to ask me why I didnt pass it along. I dream in full color always, NEVER in black and white. I honestly feel that I have lost my mind at times and other times it just feels so natural. I dont really share this information with people because i dont want them to think i have completely lost my mind. I find it odd that this happens with me.

04.12.2012

Get Away from Gay Bar, Gas Station (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I actually remembered a few dreams, despite the short amount of sleep I had.

Dream 1: Get Away from Gay Bar

Note: I didn't realize this until later on....

I'm trying to go into a club, and it has a few steps to go on to get in, and with each step, it gets harder to even land my feet on the surface.

I literally had to exert more force than usual to do a simple function, it was as if there was an invisible barrier keeping me from entering. Eventually, I managed to get in the bar after a few times.

Then I realized that when I came in, there's only males, and one of them said one guy would "take care" of me.....



And he was bald, and HUGE....no thanks buddy. I realized it was a gay bar because of all of the flirting that they were throwing on me and other men.

I think I just let the dream fade because I don't want some huge guy raping me D:

Dream 2: Gas Station

I'm at a gas station, trying to collect some silver objects to show someone something. The clouds were light gray, seemed like it was going to rain most likely.

Last night we all went to bed about 2 hours earlier than usual because the kids were cranky. It ended up working out fairly well for me because I could recall 5 dreams and fragments, that's the most I've had in a couple weeks at least. Definitely going to make the family go to bed earlier again (and by earlier, I mean 10 not midnight, ha ha. So still not too early!) The only downside was I woke up after about 8 hours of sleep and am still super tired. I usually need 10 hours of sleep to feel fully rested. This just means a nap might be in order for later on in the day!

Dream One: I'm at the house we lived in 7 years ago. It's night time, and storming something fierce. There's no thunder or lightening, just a torrential rain and wind. I'm a bit scared, but it passes quickly (storm season is coming and I'm worried because we're the southeast that got hit bad last year.) I look out the screen door and notice my mom and a bunch of kids standing in the yard. It looks like there's snow on the ground. I walk out across the yard to talk to my mom, and she asks me to take the kids inside. I think they're her kindergarten class? (She was an assistant teacher back when we lived there) I'm on my way inside with the class lined up behind me. I look up at the sky, and notice the moon looks beautiful but like an anime moon not a real moon. I *might* have seen a character from the vn I've been playing standing in front of the house, I keep thinking I did but can't remember for sure as I woke up as soon as I looked back down towards the house.

Dream Two (Fragment): I dreamed I was in the visual novel I'm playing, Hakuoki ( Hakuoki: Demon of the Fleeting Blossom ~ Welcome to Kyoto ). I was in one of the old Japanese buildings, and I was running from someone. I ran past one of the Shinsengumi (Heisuke?) and he called out to me, but I ignored him, I was trying to get away from something, and didn't want to stop.

Dream Three: I'm at my dads family's lake house. I'm walking up the hill towards the cabin, and I notice my neighbor and his family are there. I'm under the impression that my husband invited them, but I felt unhappy about it because this was my family's place, not his. When I reach the cabin, my aunt and uncle's suv pulls up, and they get out. My aunt wants to know who those people are, and I try to explain it's the neighbors and that we're about to leave. My family doesn't get upset about it, and says to stay as long as we want, they just wanted to be sure it wasn't someone uninvited crashing our lake house again. I go inside, and there are some binders with pictures of Street Fighter characters on it. I ask what it is, and some guy, who's a friend of my cousin's I guess, tells me it's a game then proceeds to tell me the name and rules, but I'm not really paying much attention. I tell him that's cool, and then leave. Somehow I end up at home, on the computer, and I've got a facebook friendship request. It's my cousin's friend and his screen name is something like Eniji(random numbers here) and I think it's funny he has a Japanese screen name. He tells me my cousin said we were into Anime, and he's like to talk and hang out with my husband and I because he needs anime buddies to go to cons with.

Dream Four: There's a building, that's old off white plaster. The plaster is chipping off in several places. It's kind of weird the way the front of the building is, because the building is like a big rectangle, but there's an inset porch or entrance or whatever made of the same plaster before you actually get to the front doors. There's a sign that says the building is closed for renovations. I walk away, but then I'm walking back to the building again. Dream logic This time the off white plaster has been painted Carolina blue and there's a dark blue line about 6 inches thick going all around the entrance about 6 feet up. It looks... odd, to say the least! There are lots of flyers hanging on the walls, and I'm excited thinking it's open now! And suddenly I know it's a museum, and it's in another country! (Probably influenced by the fact my husband was watching Hetalia last night and I couldn't help over hearing bits of it) There's an old man whom I guess is the curator standing at the door, telling me I can't go inside because renovations aren't complete yet. I tell him I came all the way from America, can't I just have a peek? I've come twice and they're always closed! He refuses, but asks me what part of America I'm from. I tell him from the Carolinas, but he seems confused about where that is so I just give up and turn around. I'm walking away and see a woman who also wants to visit this museum. I tell her it's closed, but she goes to try and persuade the curator anyways. She probably would because she was thin, blond, and had big boobs. I woke up before I found out though!

Dream Five: I'm texting my best friend A on the phone. She's telling me she can't chat much tonight because she has some sort of late meeting at work. I tell her that's ok, we're going to help someone with their hotel. I don't know anyone who works at a hotel, lol. Turns out, this hotel is more like the Japanese inn in "Hanasaku Iroha" ( Hanasaku Iroha Full episodes streaming online for free ) and I'm taking food to customers in their rooms. Someone says my uniform is "Seastar clothing" and I notice then that it does look a bit like a star fish.The apron is cut so that there's a star point on each arm, one at each leg, and the final point was a hoodie that could be worn on my head. It looked as ridiculous as it sounds. I woke up then because my son was waking up.

1: I was on a boat and decided to explore the whole thing. The first thing I found was the rpom thats supposed to be keeping the room afloat. It was a dirt floor with a giant skeleton sticking out of it. The captain said because it wasn't completely dug up or put together that it may cause the ship to sink. They needed a bigger skeleton, the captain recommended one of an ancient wailord.( a pokemon ) I put mines out, and he killed it using some kind of magic I suppose and rendered it to a giant skeleton. She said I had to put the whole thing together, she eventually realized I was not capable of such a thing and gave me ancient raccoon bones instead. I thought she needed a large skeleton but I wasn't complaining. Later on I gave up on the raccoon skeleton and went to the deck to play games and eat. When I got up there I heard the captain over the loudspeakers say she was going to sink the ship, she failed. We were all mad at the captain but did nothing. Then I saw a pile of very big logs and trunks floating in a big tray attached to the boat. Apparently she thought she could sink the boat by messing with the logs, but she wasn't strong enough. I suppose logs acted as emergency skeletons.

As I was drifting off into dreamland, I remembered hearing someone playing a harmonica. They were just blowing into it over and over and over. I think I stopped breathing for while or I was sleeping while I heard this going on. They were terrible, lol! Next thing I know, I began breathing again. Weird.....

I had read something similar from another member's dream journal on here. I'm guessing that's the cause of my hallucination and bees being in my dream, because I never dream about bees or hear musical instruments. You know who I'm talking about. I fell asleep...

So, I had another dream about a school I've never been to before. I find it odd that I never, ever, ever see any teachers--just students.

I recall walking through a hallway; I turned left and there's a door immediately to the right. I saw a girl around my age (although I'm somebody else) with long, curly blonde hair that nearly reached her buttock, walk into this room. I know this person well and I know that she is a huge DBZ fan. I know this because of the overwhelming pressure I felt from her. Hmm..

I kept walking and peered into a classroom and saw middle school kids sitting at their desks doing work. I kept on walking until I eventually left the school. Now, all of a sudden, I'm inside of a house, and somehow the window to the door has a cracked opening in it and bees are trying to get in. I took a red cloth and tried to cover the hole as I shouted for ________ who is a girl and she has the power to put things back to the way they were. This girl was apparently in one of the rooms behind me.

I called for her again. I said "________! Help me out here and fix this glass!" I think I heard her say something like "Ok" and then all of the pieces of glass on the floor went back into the cracked window and was now rock solid. It had fixed itself but I could still see the outline of the crack. There was somebody out there controlling those bees. This girl (who I don't remember ever seeing in this dream...) and I ran into one of the backrooms to hide. This mystery person broke into the house and found us hiding in the back room.

As they began to walk closer and closer to us, several modern day armorclad guards with spears rushed into the room and surrounded this guy while pointing their spears at him. And that's all I remember.

After waking up from the last dream and failing to DEILD, I notice that it is still not time to get up.
I decide to go back to sleep in the hopes of landing back in my old dream.

I'm walking on a beach.
Except... it is not really a beach.

I am in fact in one of the classrooms at my uni, and the ground is covered in sand,
and the walls are painted with ocean an palms.
Many led's on the ceiling make it appear as if there was a night sky.
It looks as if someone tried to reconstruct a scene that occasionally appears in my dreams:
http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/hyu/girl-beach-12340/

Realizing that I am dreaming, I check how stable it is.
I grab a hand full of sand and let it slowly pour down back onto the ground.
It feels very real, and even though it is dark inside, the contrast of my vision is so strong that I can see everything clearly with ease.
Great!

My thoughts on where to go are interrupted by a female voice behind me.

"Hi..."

I turn around and see a familiar face.

"Krista!"

She holds out a hand to me.

"Come with me?"

Which is similar to how I invited her a long time ago:
Taking KristaNicole to Teraluna - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views

I grab her hand and follow her out of the room.
There's a portal on one of the walls which I assume she has created.
We go trough it and are sucked through a tunnel, full of odd lighting effects.
There appear to be insect-like creatures on the outer walls, but they don't seem to take notice of us.

We come out on the other end, and fortunately for once I don't land on my face like an idiot.
I don't know what it is with portals, but I have a tendency of coming out upside down on the other end.


We are on what appears to be a set of floating islands.
It's beautiful, and there is some type of temple not far away which looks very interesting.

"I've been thinking about you yesterday, I haven't heard from you in a long time."

She doesn't look like she heard what I said.

"Aww, I wanted the portal to lead to the temple."

I pick Krista up, which clearly confuses her.

"... What are you doing?"

I concentrate on the temple and blink both of us towards it.
I put Krista back down.

"What was that?"
"I call it blinking, it's a short range teleport kind of thing."
"You call that short?"
"Yeah, I can basically blink as far as I can see."

"How does it work?"
"Uuh, it's kinda weird. You concentrate on the spot where you want to blink to."
"Then take a single step towards the location, but at the same time land a second step in the location where you want to end up."
"That... that doesn't make any sense."
"I told you it's weird, you basically take a single step but end up taking two."

I see Krista concentrating on a location not too far away. She is trying to blink.

"Hey, be careful, it's easy to loose your orientation and end up in a..."

I hear a loud noise as Krista crashes into a thick decorative pillar.

"... wall ..."
"OUCH"

Small bits of the pillar are falling off as she peels herself loose.
I can't help myself and I start laughing.
Krista does not seem to be amused.

"It's not funny!"
"Actually it kind of is."

On a second thought, she's finding it amusing after all, but she doesn't want to show it.

"Let's go to the center of the temple."
"Sure."

She starts walking towards what appears to be the main building.
I feel like fooling around and start hovering over the ground, and enter her field of vision, floating on my back just a few centimeters above the ground.
I wave at her as I slowly pass her.

She starts laughing.

"What the hell are you doing? You are insane!"
"Quite."

She grabs me and turns me upside down and sits down on my back.

"Much better."
"Hey!"
"To the temple!"
"I ain't no taxi service!"
"To the temple!"

Fine, I fly us both to the center of the temple.
This would look absolutely ridiculous to an outsider.

We end up in a really amazing location.
There's a pool in the middle of a platform, with a few holes in the ground, creating waterfalls that go all the way down to the surface of the planet.
The water source appears to be infinite.

"Did you make this?"
"... Yes."
"It's beautiful!"

I start walking on the pool.

"Hey! How do you do that?"
"What? Walk on water?"
"Yes!"
"What do you mean? I just do it."
"But... you're supposed to go under."
"No I'm not."
"Tell me how it works, I want to learn how to walk on water."

"You don't need to learn how to walk on water, you need to forget how to fall through water."
"What? That doesn't make any sense."
"Sure it does, think about it."

She's saying something that I cannot quite comprehend.
I turn around to look at her, but I cannot find her anymore.

"Hey, where did you go?"

No answer...
I notice my vision is very blurry, the dream is falling apart.
I wake up.

A month of near zero recall and then two cool lucids in a row.
Sometimes I wonder what goes on in my brain.

Here's another to add to my list of dreams about meeting older musicians. It's inexplicable to me that these guys keep popping up in my dreams. I like their music and I'm a fan, but this is not the music that I listen to or think about on a daily basis. It's just strange that they keep popping up in my dreams!

In which I meet Paul McCartney at a diner...

I'm sitting in a white and red naugahyde booth at a retro soda shop. Outside the window to my right, people are walking back and forth with shopping bags, and up on the wall to my left, a television is blaring the news. My mother and my uncle A have just left me to continue shopping, but they pop their heads back in the diner to tell me that they'd just realized that they'd dropped a parsley plant out in the parking garage near the car. I nod to them and say that I'll go get it after I finish my burger.

I listen to the news broadcast. Beatles fans are angry because Sir Paul McCartney compared his former band to Darth Vader. The announcer cuts to a clip of McCartney himself making the controversial statement. I note that he obviously said something entirely different. He didn't mention Darth Vader at all, and in fact he compared the band to Frankenstein's monster. I think how this is typical of the media and return to my burger.

But in the booth across from my own is Paul McCartney himself. He is twisted around in his booth so that he can view the television. He notices that I'm watching him and he looks at me. Pointing at the TV screen, he asks, "What are they all upset about? Did you catch it?"

"They say you compared the Beatles to Darth Vader," I explain. "But that's not what you said." He gets up from his own booth and walks over to mine. He sits down in front of me so that we are now sharing a table. He looks a little annoyed and confused by the whole news story.

"Darth Vader? Well, do you know what I really said?" he asks.

"Yeah. You said that the Beatles became like Frankenstein's monster. I assume you meant that you created something that got out of hand and took on a life of its own," I answer.

"Yes- that's it. I remember now," he says. He smiles, and I start to think how exactly he looks like the same Paul McCartney that I've always seen. "I made that statement nearly 15 years ago. I don't know what they're getting so upset about."

"No, no," I answer. "It couldn't have been 15 years. They said it was in 2000." As soon as I say the words, I realize that it's been almost 15 years since the year 2000. It seems impossible to me that so much time has passed . Suddenly I feel extremely old. I feel like I've accomplished nothing in my life and that the time is flying past me faster than I can catch it. I almost tell McCartney that we are getting old, but then I realize how much older he is than I am. He didn't seem to waste a day of his life. So instead I just say, "My god. I waste too much time."

McCartney looks at me earnestly. I notice his wrinkled face and thinning hair. I compare him to the image on the TV just 12 years ago talking about Frankenstein. And even that image was several lifetimes removed from the days when he actually was a Beatle! I look back at the man in front of me and notice his elderly, liver spotted hands. But when I look up at his eyes, they are vibrant. I'm taken back to my experience earlier in the day with the poppies and the butterflies in my garden. I open my mouth to tell him about it, because at that moment I know he will understand. Then I remember the parsley.

Hurriedly, I excuse myself and run out of the diner and down into the parking garage. By the time I get to the car, I remember that the parsley is actually our three dogs. They'd been left behind in the car. I let them out of the car, and as I'm walking them back to the diner, I wonder if McCartney will still be there. I decide that if he is, I'm going to thank him.

Back at the diner, there is only my mother and A. I can't go inside anyway because I have the dogs, so I wave them out. We all walk back to the car together, and A tells me that he heard a rumor that Paul McCartney had just had lunch there. I find myself bragging about meeting him. I bury all the feelings of regret and insight, and instead I brag. I tell how Paul McCartney sat down at my table and we talked about the Beatles. I tell how I played it cool and didn't say anything fan-girlish. A and my mom are impressed, and they asked if I took a picture to post on FB. I say that I was being too cool about the whole thing to ask for a picture.

The experience with the poppies and the butterflies is something that happened to me yesterday (the day before this dream) but I don't have time to write about it here. This dream was very vivid, and I remember each word as if I were hearing it aloud. I think it's because I took Benadryl before sleeping last night since I had terrible allergies.

I had my first successful DEILD last night without even trying or practicing DEILD. *I woke up from a dream and moved around a bit without thinking but decided to instantly return to my sleeping position and freeze. *Soon I was sleeping and I somehow just simply realized I was dreaming. *Maybe it was ADA and not DEILD? *Anyway I did the nose plug RC and counted my fingers. *I had 11 fingers. *I remembered dream stabilization and focused on looking at everything around me. *I don't remember what I exactly saw very well but I was in a fancy hotel. *After stabilizing the dream I was suddenly confronted by a few DCs and nearly forgot I was dreaming. *I ignored them and decided to try to fly with a jet pack and succeeded... Until it crashed and I was back with the DCs. *They kept pestering me about sonething I had to do and I saw my dream getting blurry and start to fade. *I tried rubbing my hands and spinning, it didn't do anything. *I got the stupid idea to fall backwards instead of use verbal commands to restabilize it. *I immediately went into a false awakening, but didn't reality check. **
Too bad I forgot the dream I was in before my lucid and I barely remember my lucid itself but I guess that's what practice is for.

I was in my bedroom typing over steam with my friend Velcroraptor when he posted links to two items on Ebay that he was selling, namely a long steampunk looking coat and a rather camp cardigan. For some reason, these items suddenly appeared in my room and I was trying on the coat. I didn't seem to think this turn of events too peculiar although the clothing was not really to my taste, not willing to buy them, my thoughts turned to how I might go about posting them back to him.

Another dream recall which occurred after getting up, this time in the shower. Such a nice feeling following each vague detail until you've got the whole picture (or at least a significant chunk of it).

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11/4/12

I'm in Bristol [where I recently visited to see some old school friends] and in some sort of school assembly or something. Behind the rows of people in the audience are a set of stairwells, filled to the brim with chavs. I go into one of them, and see the masses of chavs start to move towards me to try and cut me off. I pretend not to notice them and casually jump over the railings down a flight of stairs.

Later, I'm sitting in a large communal tent with about 50 or so others, all on picnic tables. I get up to walk about briefly, and stupidly leave my bag where I was sitting, which contains my very valuable laptop. As soon as I step out of the tent, multiple young chavs (no older than 12 years old) rush in grabbing peoples' bags, including mine. I sprint after the one with my bag, despite feeling extremely tired and aching all over. I catch up to him when he runs out of energy, trying to pass my stuff to his friend. I get my hands on him and the bag and punch him in the face a few times while he's on the floor.

Pretty intense dream...

April 12, 2012
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Wrote affirmation in my dream journal: I am open to exploring new worlds and remember my dreams upon waking.

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Fragment: Something about MASH the TV show. I remembered it after I'd already woken up this morning and fallen back to sleep only then to realize I needed to get up immediately. So, I sort of forced myself awake. Nonetheless I still only recalled the 'theme'.

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Side Note: I began perusing through my old Astral Dynamics book and noticed a section on activating the chakras. Apparently, it is very common to have the Heart center go all spastic right before exiting the body. The last time I consistently meditated (year or more ago) I was doing energy work and activating/opening my chakras. My heart center had become so strong that I thought something was wrong. I even stopped my meditation and checked my pulse only to find it was not elevated. (which is what the book said would occur) It seems that if one can ignore this pounding and let go the next thing to occur is an OBE. I, obviously, was not able to let go. Bruce said it was very hard to ignore and the man was certainly right. Only mention this because I think that is what's occurring during my most recent meditation but in the base or abdomen chakra - which causes one to focus on sexual energy and distracts you. You're supposed to also ignore it and move on to the next center. Being completely out of practice, I focused on it and whammo - orgasm.

More music for no good reason:



Immediately after falling asleep, I wake up due to some noise in the house.
I look at the clock, and 6 hours have already passed, which frustrates me a bit.
I change position and try to fall back asleep, thinking about lucid dreaming.


... I'm walking to school.
There's quite a few other students walking there, but I don't know any of them.
The weather is nice.
For some reason a blue flower catches my attention and I stare at it.

I'm dreaming!
I can't help but say out loud:

"YES!"

Some of the student look at me as if I was mentally retarded, but I don't care.
I rub my hands and try to activate my other senses, but the dream already feels very stable.
A female voice whispers into my ear:

"You know, you could totally do one of the students."

...

"FAYE!"
"Haha"
"Really? Aren't you supposed to help me rather than encouraging distractions?"
"I'm just messing with you."

I shrug it off.

"You're messing with me all the time."

I summon my phoenix wings.

"I'm off to see Yuya, you coming?"
"Sure!"

She holds onto my arm and I teleport us both to Teraluna...
... We appear in Yuya's garden where she, Liv and two other people are having tea.
We join them.
It feels good to be here again, it has been too long.
We talk about various stuff until I finally bring up the topic of my recall, chronic headaches and tiredness.

Yuya approaches me.

"Move forward."

Hm? I slide forward on my chair a bit and she sits behind me.
She starts pressing against various points on my neck, similarly to what a doctor did in waking life.
Then she presses her forehead against the back of my head and wraps her hands around it.

I can feel sort of a click in my head.
I suddenly feel very lightheaded, as if I was floating.
I can sense her gradually feeling though all the fibres of my aura in my head.
It feels pretty damn good.

"Do you have headaches even when you're here?"
"No. Only when I'm awake."
"Hmmm..."
"Is there something wrong?"
"Actually no... not really."
"No-one seems to know in waking life either... I'm getting a scanner thing done in two days."
"Oh, what's that?"
"A machine that looks into your head without touching it... it's harmless."

She hugs me.

"You'll be fine, I bet it's nothing."
"Yeah, it's probably something really stupid that is just difficult to detect."

I look around. I'm so happy to be back here. I know I will recall this dream.
It'll be fantastic for my motivation.

"Hey Yuya."
"Yes?"
"You really need to teach me about time dilation."
"What do you mean?"
"How to stay in dreams for hours, days, months... years!"
"Shouldn't you worry about fixing your recall first?"
"Yes! And then time dilation!"
"Haha, alright alright. It's difficult though you know?"
"I don't care."
"You don't care?"

I shrug.

"I have all the time in the world. I don't mind if it takes months or years to learn how to do it."
"Because once I do know how to do it, making up on the time spent learning it should be pretty easy."

She smiles.

"That's a good attitude. I'll make sure to remind you next time you visit me."

We talk some more and the dream fades away.

I try to remain still to DEILD, but someone's being noisy again which is too disctracting.