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This encounter started with a nap dream. I was walking up a road at what looks like the Saint Demetrius bingo or Lake Shore Apartments. It is daytime and I was doing something maybe talking with someone or just walking alone. All I know is that I suddenly see Astromana who is a bad girl in rangers in Space pass me up on the other side of the sidewalk. She had pink and light blue hair and appeared to be stumbling as she walked she was in her combat gear and didn't look at me. I turned and watched her as she continued on her way, stumbling all around, trying not to fall from what ever has happened to her. While I was looking at her I was suddenly pushed back by my partner DC as an angler, grey car that looked like it was stretched out came zooming between us, just missing us by inches.

Woke up.

Second dream. I was in the process of being chased by one of Astromana's monster. It was an acidic type and was all green and blobby. "I must bring you in." he garbled through his molten lips. "Then I'll show humans who is the boss here." I ran from it and up a sidewalk then realized that this was a dream and got semi lucid. If things are gonna get any better I'll need to let myself get captured." So I stopped running allowing him to get to me and "capture" me. He put me on to a boat and as he did that I seen a man with a mop bucket began to mop the steps I came upon, with green acidic liquid. I got away from that and saw that the water was slowly turning green. I seen astromana on the ship as well and I was able to see close ups of her hair. It is very curly like jerry curls and it is a brownish purple color.

Woke up and chained it into a long lucid.

I go into SP and have an FA in a huge dark room. It was nearly pitch black and impossible to see anything all I know is I woke up in some kind of cot and was able to see the out lines of many other cots indicating that I was in a hospital.

I got up, felt around and as I did that I ended up warping to another part of the dream.

Now I'm at Duane drive and I am on my way outside. I see my brother there and he follows me to the basement door before I get it open. He doesn't do anything and I go about my business. It is daytime and I see that there is smoke around and things are burning and on fire. As soon as I seen it the Gemini man from mega man starts to play. One of those dreams I thought. Then I see Astromana running across my view as she is being pursued by power rangers. It was Zack, Jason and I think Trini not sure, but they caught up with her and started fighting her. I became her and was kicking and punching at the rangers. they blocked every shot and I had to duck and dodge away from them as they almost caught me with the laser pistol. Fire blew up in the background and now I'm in a new place, watching Power rangers. It is a cafe like place and I'm at a vending machine. There is a screen where the buttons and displays should be it, instead it is a TV displaying me watching it. It shows the zord Sequence and on it is Travelion. He is combining into his megazord form. It shows his legs folding out from the furnace part of the train and him standing up. He poses and gives a thumbs up. The screen seemed to be tilted and messed up and the image was to the bottom left part of the screen with a black background. My sister came up and started getting something out of the machine and I can also see more of the image there as well. it was a daytime screen and then before I can see what it was the dream shifted again. this time I was in my brothers room and I was standing up next to him, watching power rangers on his TV. I looked to him and said "Why are we watching power rangers in a dream instead of going there?" I shook my head and then seen a paint canvass. It had gobs of thick paint on it. I tried to paint with his but it was just way to think like one inch thick of oil paint and ended up smearing it a bit, luckily it was part of the sweater on the image and didn't hurt it too much but the color was a weird brownish purple color like with Astromana's hair I saw earlier in the dream.

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8/2/2020
Went to bed at 3AMish.
Woke up at 10:30 with some recall. Wrote down "locker room + bouldering with randoms", "Couldnt pee with straight head"
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Dream1:
This dream begins in a locker room where I am with some friends and friends of friends. We get changed to go climbing and I go pee before heading in to the gym. I noticed my head is tilted as I look in the mirror above the toilet and I try to stand as straight up as possible to fix it. I can't pee while doing this. I slouch again, start peeing and stand up straight. The stream weakens but I finish it off. Then I'm boldering with friends. Lots of routes in a place I've never been before. I do something V2=< as my first route and then decide to warm up. I see a V0 which looks super easy. I look around a bit more and then come back to it but only the bottom two holds are there, people are changing the routes. (Dream sign!!!! Changing bouldering routes. My brain can never remember routes correctly so it comes up with the excuse of route changers). I go looking for other routes and find some that are just on the ground and spread out like the rocks in front of Royal Vale Elementary. I hop on the beginning but suddenly the rest of the route changes color and I need to actually make a huge leap to get to the next part which is in a different direction. I dont believe I can do it so I give up.

Dream 2:
In this dream I remember trudging through deep snow with a friend. We were travelling somewhere and we were trying to get to a hole or tunnel in the ground. Right before we get to the hole, we find big boxes of giant tea containers. They are all empty. After I notice there are some people behind us.

Woke up after ~8 hours of sleep but still felt tired. While falling back asleep I made a half-hearted attempt at WILD but didn't succeed directly. What followed was a sheer chaos of dreams, false awakenings and short lucids. In one dream I was at a beach I've been to several times. It was warm but very windy with high waves. I was heading towards the sea when I suddenly went lucid. The dream got unstable rather quickly and I couldn't see my surroundings anymore. I kneed down and touched the sand around me which I could still feel though it wasn't as warm as I expected it to be.
I woke up, still feeling close to dreaming. I turned onto my back which was probably a bad idea as I fell into SP almost immediately. This was the first time I've experienced sleep paralysis related to lucid dreaming and only the second time ever. It wasn't exactly frightening as I managed to remain calm and didn't hallucinate any dark figures etc. But breathing felt difficult and my body alternated between seemingly sinking down and being lifted upwards. After some time I felt my dream body separating completely and I could get up. It was pitch dark, so I tried to turn on the lights but the switch wouldn't work (no surprise here). I was at my parents' house, so I left my bedroom and went through the house. The other rooms were brighter with the sun shining through the windows. I got into the kitchen were my mother was standing. We had a small conversation with me having trouble to speak in the beginning. She asked if I came there to fetch her. I wondered what this means and asked: Should I? Shen then told me that it was R.'s birthday (a friend) after all. This surprised me quite a bit and while still trying to figure out what's going on I woke up.

Some dream fragments. There was a third one but I have such a faint and vague memory of it, not even sure where I'd start. I practically lost the other ones while getting up but made sure to keep my eyes closed as much as possible until I could write here, which helped.

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Dream Fragment:

I remember being at some sort of concrete structure. I'm not sure if I was "me" but a couple of other people were here too, I think one of them was that Torres guy from NCIS. This place was dark and there was a massive abyss right in front of us. Across this abyss was another flat area made of concrete and there were some soldiers there. They were holding us here or something and they shouted that we should stay put.

The soldiers got on a platform and it started moving down very fast. They disappeared from sight. Somewhere down there was some light, but it must have been a literal mile or more away. Then some more soldiers appeared but this time they didn't wait for the platform and just jumped down where the platform shaft area was. I was intrigued but at some point in the dream I simply "knew" that at the bottom was a special fluid that would break any fall, no matter from how high.

Torres like the idea of just jumping across and into that specific area. I felt it was too risky. It was a long way down and there was no way to aim ourselves properly and the gap between the two concrete areas was quite wide. But he got on some sort of pole hanging from our side and got closer to the other side, hanging just over the middle. Then some soldiers came back up on the platform and noticed. They started shouting at him and warning him to stop. He ignored them and now he grabbed onto some rope that was hanging from the ceiling. That's as much as I remember clearly for this fragment.

I do remember there were no light sources. We were very deep underground most certainly, but somehow we had a light radius of our own, like in RPGs where the characters just give off light...

Dream Fragment:

I don't remember how I got there but I arrived at a small lab/office place. This dream was somewhat vivid, more than the other one. There were two researchers, wearing labcoats, and one of them greeted me. He seemed a bit uninterested at first but then he saw my boots. They were covered in some sort of pale golden sand. I realised I hadn't noticed this myself until that moment and he became very interested. He went over to a counter and showed me some tins with rounded caps.

The caps were all a shade of gold or tan. He asked me to see which one I thought was closest. I selected four of the tins first just as a guess. Then I held them and made their coloured cap be over my right boot in my vision. The first wasn't it, too orange. The second and third one seemed similar, the fourth one was too dark but the right hue. I compared between the second and third against the sand and decided the third one was the closest. He seemed happy with this and I felt somewhat happy to help. I made a comment saying "well at least I can definitely tell that my skill at recognising shades correctly has improved". I genuinely felt this was true in that moment and realise now that it was indeed a very accurate test of my skill in this.

The other researcher was just doing something on his own over on another counter but I don't remember what. Oddly enough, despite looking at my feet, can't be certain what the floor was like. Some sort of plastic tiles? Maybe wood. But square shapes. The counters were an off white on the top and a light stained wood on the cabinets. There were a couple of windows to the outside and I made note of the fact that it was daytime outside, but the room was quite brightly lit anyway with some fluorescent lamps that actually gave off a warm colour for once.

This whole dream bit felt like it was in sequence of the previous one or another one between them.

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Side notes:

- It could possibly be the first time while dreaming where I had to use a skill that I'd use for painting in waking life. For me this is a particularly good sign because for a long time I've wanted that context to come over into dreams in some form.
- The researchers wearing labcoats were clearly dreamsigns that I missed. The labcoat is a dreamsign I successfully managed to insert into my dreams as a dreamsign a while back, I think last year or the year before.
- The dust on my boots reminded me very much of gold powder in the dream. In the dream I had a much clearer notion of where I had been previously, which was relevant for that context.
- Despite looking at my boots and remembering them very clearly as the black leather army-type boots I have in waking life, I only vaguely remember my trousers and can't really say which ones they were. It seems odd that my boots are the only detail I remember clearly from looking down, despite the fact that in the dream everything was the same level of vividness.
- I do remember I was wearing some sort of dark hoodie in that dream. I remember it because I remember the sensation of having the sleeves pulled up, something I often do if I'm indoors.
- Don't have much at all to make note of from the first dream since many details are vague now, but the fall-breaking fluid definitely made me think of stuff from Portal and from Satisfactory.

I have arrived in a green area shaded by trees. It seems that I’m traveling somewhere, and this is a stop along the way. The dream doesn’t make it explicit, but this seems to be the Czech countryside in the early 20th century – more or less.

Gradually, other people arrive. I converse with a woman there as we wait. A couple large dogs arrive as well and are running around getting in people’s way. I order them to sit, figuring that they’ve just run here ahead of their masters, who won’t be far behind. They obey. One of them lies down, then rolls over on its back, obviously looking to get pet.

The car arrives – a distinctly old-fashioned one. (Although there is some uncertainty there, as if the dream can’t quite decide on what sort of vehicle it should be. They all tend to be more or less interchangeable in my dreams.) There isn’t enough room in the car for everybody, but since I was there first, I get to be on its first trip. The woman I was talking to has to wait for its next one.

I look around as we ride. The man next to me in the backseat is choosing the music that plays in the car via something rather like a touch-screen tablet framed in brown leather – much more aesthetic than the modern ones, I think to myself. Out the window, I see a turquoise river pouring over an oddly shaped stone formation into a lake – a place I’ve seen pictures of before but never visited. I turn around to continue to look through the back window as we drive by.

I’m aware, as I look around, that in the not-so-distant future this area will be devastated by war. It adds a poignancy to being here in this beautiful place.

The train – sure enough, it’s decided it would rather be a train now – approaches a platform, stopping under a curved wooden roof from which flowering vines hang down. An invasive species, I note. Parasitic to boot. But quite pretty, and so you can understand why people let it grow like this. In the future, there will be more of a push against it – but not so much here as in other places. A brief image comes to me of the future, of its yellow flowers filled with ash.

It now seems as if the woman from before is on the train too, and along with another passenger, we continue our conversation.

When I woke up, I remembered the following melody:




I don’t think it was actually playing during any part of the dream – my impression is that it was connected to it somehow but happening on a different level of awareness. I find it rather odd that it’s in C# major since that’s not a key I ordinarily have much to do with. Maybe I waited too long before transcribing it and my pitch memory was off? Or maybe it was just in C# major.

-31/1/20

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7/2/2020
Went to bed at 2AMish.
Woke up at 8:30 with almost no recall. I wrote down 'food' which was way too vague I realize now.
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Dream 1:
The only thing I can remember is an image of a food container at work with a little bit of sausage at the bottom(This may just be a memory from last night when I was working). Also an image of someone else preparing food and a feeling of disappointment accompanying it.

After some weird non-lucid dream I found myself lying in bed with the radio playing in the kitchen. That was kinda suspicious as I don't have a radio in the kitchen. So I figured this must be a dream and got up. The room was only dimly lit and the dream started collapsing but I remembered to stabilize by interacting with my surroundings. I touched everything close by (floor, walls, a blanket, a suitcase) which felt utterly realistic and listened to the radio (there were commercials). Thinking that jumping out of the window on the third floor would probably still wake me up I decided to leave through the door. I went there, still touching the walls on the way. As I've done this before I wanted to pass through the door without opnening it but both my body and the door appeared to be too solid. I was determined to make this work, so I went back a few steps and focused intently on the door. By doing so, everything became much clearer and my lucidity increased, too. Then I jumped through the door though I got stuck a bit and had to fight my way through. On the other side I got into the staircase.
Walking down the stairs I remembered the TOTM, stopped and imagined a rope before me. As soon as I grabbed it, it appeared before my eyes. It was just a thin string but that didn't bother me and I started climbing up (forgot that it shall pull me somewhere). It was well fastened so I got quickly up to the roof. Suddenly the rope loosened and I fell back down onto the stairs. I pulled on the string; it got longer and longer until the thin part changed to a thick rope. Then it was stable again and I started climbing up once more. I got to the roof which was dome-shaped. Somehow I thought the rope would just reach higher into the sky. But when I climbed outside through an open window in the dome I saw that it was stretched in this height across the landscape, all the way I could see until the horizon.
I grabbed the rope again and climbed along into the distance. Soon I got to a meadow in front of a forest. Looking down I realized it was crowded with small living creatures. Of each kind there was a couple so I was reminded of Noah's ark (btw I'm not religious). When I looked even closer I realized that these were some strange creatures. There were two oversized brightly yellow ducks, a pair of raccoons with christmas caps and a couple of garden gnomes amongst many others. All of these were clearly alive. Over this astonishing sight I forgot about the rope, sank down to the meadow and felt the dream fading.

Had a few dreams but only remembering a couple of fragments.

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Dream Fragment:

I was playing Dune 2000, doing some sort of special single-player mission. I was struggling a bit with the micromanagement because in this scenario the game started me out with three separate bases each on their own rock islands fairly far from each other, on the south-east side of the map. The map had very large expanses of sand (I could remember seeing a preview in a menu) but also had a lot of cliffs and ruins and old walls.

I remember some of the game's music playing a bit, but even though I remember the interface looking like Harkonnen, my units didn't all seem to match my faction. The enemy was managing to send some engineer units to capture some of my buildings and this was annoying me and something else had also gone wrong so I think I restarted the level. I went back to a menu where I could tweak something and I was tweaking some starting radar thing that allowed me to see further into the fog of war initially.

This second time became weirder, kind of fast too. My vision was more inside the actual game now and despite this being a top-down view game, I was able to somehow control the view and see everything in 3D. I was telling some units to patrol so engineers would stop taking my buildings but this was being wonky. I don't think the game even has a patrol function. Again I was struggling with the three separate bases issue. There were many units on the map and I could see stuff going on in the minimap this time. The game was spawning waves of Zerglings and other stuff from Starcraft I and they were ambushing some unit groups I'd sent out to try and make small attacks on the enemy.

Then some of my spice deposits were running out and more wasn't appearing fast enough. I was afraid the harvesters would be getting destroyed by the worms soon. Then all of a sudden, a bit north-northeast from my middle base some giant walker thing with fleshy tendrils and orange sort of growths on it was approaching and I think I let out a swear. I sent units to attack it because it looked like it had loads of health, and eventually they were managing to take it down. But now the game was spawning so many enemies at the same time, I couldn't keep up at all and was going to be defeated soon.

Dream Fragment:

Was in a parliament. It was dark and a bit desaturated. But the house was full. I was right in front of some middle bit where some person speaks. And this man was there in a suit with no tie or bow, he was speaking about Europe and the future, but I can't remember what he was saying exactly. He seemed happy about not so good circumstances that he would mention. This made me feel uncomfortable somehow, on a less conscious level. It also somehow made me realise a bit where I was standing in the room, but I don't think anyone cared.

I think there was some daylight coming in from the other end of the room, probably why everything looked so grey and dim.

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No notes for now.

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6/2/2020
Went to bed at 12AMish.
Woke up at 10:30 with recall
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Dream 1:
I was driving, possibly to a haircut appointment. The driving controls were really wonky, not responding how I would expect them to. At one point I couldnt hit the brake, it was just accelerating a bit. There was a car in front of me stopped at an intersection so I turned right around the car and down the right side of the intersection. The steering was really bad, I definitely bumped into something like the wall of a building. I stopped the car to get my feet in the right place and to check everything out. At that point I realized there was no brake pedal, only the gas on the right and a parking brake all the way on the left. I then noticed I was also in the passenger seat(There were 2 pedals on the passenger side, with no steering wheels so I dont know how I was controlling it.). I was thankful my mom wasnt there to see the mistakes I had made. I climbed into the drivers seat and then I forget the rest. (Extra tag I forget: FH[FA?] Haircut)

Dream 2:
I was somewhere with a kid and his mother. It was the childs birthday and he was lighting the candles on his cake because his mom was distracted with something like a Wii game. She was talking to him a little but it was clear that most of her attention was on the game and not him. He lit the candles and was waiting for his mom to be with him for him to blow them out. It took some time, some candles went out and he had to relight them. Eventually she finished her thing and gave him more of her attention.

So I was in some house where are two groups of people, one was studying dreaming and other group were wizards all working together. People usually came here to have a lucid dream, funny. I spoke to one of the wizards, he was kind and put a spell on me. Go to sleep now, he told me so i laid down, closed my eyes and suddenly I was in other dream vividly flying over the city. Then I woke up from that one and I was telling the wizard how I regret I was just flying and havent done things that I really wanted to do in a lucid dream.. uncounscious of the fact I am still in a dream. He said I have still some time left before the spell ends, but it was only few minutes left so I left the house.

Don't have to examine to see the message

Woke up at 4:30 am because i've my alarm set for a WBTB. By then it's also the time when i usually finish my first cycle with dreams (must be the second sleep cycle).

I dreamt i was first in a conference with a friend, Vicky. The conference or meeting actually was in Uruguay, in a private university, and it was about art. A guy was talking about his painting and innovation, and in the background he had his painting hanged in the wall and i could see how as he was talking the painting kinda was painting itself, and when he took pauses the painting also kinda paused. It was nice.

Then i went back to sleep and woke up at about 7 am. The dream was quite long and interesting.

I was in my grandparents house or something. I had a chiropractic appointment, but the guy actually didn't adjust me. So i got up and went to the backyard. I saw an old online friend i haven't seen for a while. She was playing with this second life character transforming from girl into guy and back into girl, and was talking to guys. I thought "Umm are you catfishing?... Okay... XD" (i had no problems with that thought, i kinda thought to each their own). Then the place actually turned out to be Agus' house (a friend) and i realized, or thought that the party (it turned out that i was in a party) has been going for quite some days now so it was time to leave. So i decided to leave. I went through the front door, it felt weird to be leaving because it kinda was comfortable to stay (like comfortable in comfort zone) and i was one of the first ones leaving. So i went through the front. The room walls were covered with wood, it looked like a weird decoration but okay. I was going to take a key, because i felt like my friend trusted me and in case i wanted to come back later, but i also felt that wasn't quite right so i didn't and just left.
I was with my bike. It was night time in Buenos Aires. And i started walking. When i get to the corner i see people... but people walking at that hour i thought were either drunk, thieves, or just looked for fights (basically there was no chance there were good people walking in the streets at that hour XD). I cross the street to my front and then i cross it again to my left, and while i was doing that i see a 4 persons hitting a child about 4-5 years old. The child was passed out and the people hitting the child looked like evil, wicked, and they were short. I thought "what is wrong with the world nowadays" and i was about to continue on my way, but then i thought "this is wrong, they are wrong, i have to do something" so i went back to them (a car had to stop because i was crossing the street) and i stood in front of them to confront them. Yeah the thought crossed my mind that i could get hurt in the process but i was totally okay with that, i preferred them to hit me than the child (also if they continued on the child he would die, and that's what they wanted to achieve), and also i would fight back, i was so ready to fight back too (but not looking for it). When i stood in front of the people they have transformed into a family, so they were not the evil-wicked short people i've seen at first. It was a tall big (but not fat) guy, a blonde woman who was also big but shorter than the guy, and two teenagers of about 13 and 15 yo. So i walk towards them and standing right in front of them i stop them and tell them what they are doing is wrong. They all stop, and the father when he wants to start hitting the child again i stop him again, kinda getting in the way. I talk to him for a bit, don't remember what i say to him, but in the process i could see that he actually had child issues and it never ocurred to him that what he was doing wasn't right because his childhood was like that and he grew up like that. He was kinda broken about it so i hug him, and people around (that were in the streets) wanted to take revenge on him, like punch him while i was talking to him and solving this peacefully, so i say "for every punch you get, i'll get two" (honestly don't know how that worked because it's not like the people would know how to split the punches XD but i said that...), the idea was that he doesn't get discouraged to think that he can change his behaviour; there's good in the world, he can do good, so he shouldn't give up so i was willing to do that to encourage him to persevere even when conditions are harsh. We continue talking (i was coaching him, but i'm not a coach so at times i didnt know how to continue but that was alright because we were conversating and he could figure out how he wanted to continue himself). At some point he realized that he had to raise awareness, and the talk actually helped him to set like a foundation of awareness so he actually would respect and treat his child with the care he actually needed, and realizing that he concluded the talk and said "Thank you". I saw the child 'wake up' from his mother's arms, the child was kinda confused as if he had a headache but he didn't know what happened, but other than that he was just fine. I looked at him smiling and he saw me back again clueless and like waking up, and then i walked away.

Then although i was rested i decided to sleep again (maybe i'd lucid dream). So i slept for 1 more hour and a half.

I dreamt i was in my grandparents house again (although it looked more like my grandparent brother's house) and i was in the backyard. There were people there and there was a pool. A few people were mexicans and they were boxing. There was a fat white guy and a fat tan guy. I didnt care about the fight tbh, but the people there kinda did. It was an informal fight anyways, like the two people were boxers but they just started hitting each other out of nowhere and it became a fight. They were walking all over the backyard too. I just did my thing and standing there i felt like i kinda owned the place (but in a good sense because it's not like i would disrespect people or people would respect me more because of me kinda being in charge of the place, but it kinda guaranteed that i wouldnt be disrespected, which is the bare minimum anybody can ask).

Fast forward a bit (also because i don't remember exactly what happened) there came a moment when i wanted to jump into the pool and swim so i breathe in and jump and dive into the pool. As i was in the water it appears like i havent taken enough air outside the pool, so i try to 'compensate' by breathing in underwater, and curiously i manage to breathe in some air... which to me was strange... "What did i just do?" i thought. "Did i breathe out some air and breathed it back in? Or what happened?" And then i realized, "No, i breathed in in my physical body and in the dream i could have just breathed in because it doesn't matter if you breathe in water or not, you can breathe!" But as i was realizing that i also realized that i was not seeing blue anymore, i was seeing black... so i wasn't in the dream anymore. I could have DEILDed (i was confident that i would be able to, even though im not experienced) but since i was sleeping in such a horrible position (on my stomach) i decided that that was it and i just got up.

After a break on Tuesday night, where I had a strange dream about being chased by a mob of vegan socialists the car dream returned last night.

The wait in the car was like it has been since the dream returned where my sister is invading my space trying to get me to talk with her and it is all I can do to avoid her nasty breath.

What I remember the most from last nights dream was my mom while she was trying to get the car started. In addition to being frustrated that the car was not starting, she was taking a break from trying to start the car after every few cranks to tell me that I needed to calm down. I don't think I was doing or saying anything while she was trying to get the car started, but for some reason she kept making it a point to let me know I needed to calm down and relax. She also kept saying things like that she was doing the best she could do and that she knew she would get it started. I have never really noticed moms breath in the dream but when she was invading my space telling me I needed to calm down, her breath smelled just as bad as my sisters always does. She got out to look under the hood a few times and each time made a point of telling me to stay buckled in my seat. As always happens, I woke up while mom was still trying to start the car.

Not sure why mom kept telling me to calm down or why her breath reeked when she said this.

Recorded the majority of these dreams early on in a vague form on my phone on waking up. Had to go somewhere in the car; while I was waiting in the car for an hour, typed everything out in more detail, which I'm now putting on the DJ here.

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First Dream (Some detail missing):

Fairly long dream. Can’t remember the start now but I would recurringly go for a swim with H but also alone. When I started, I felt weak and slow. I can’t remember the water's temperature.

We were on some sort of cruise ship but it was mostly empty, and I don’t think it was ever moving. I started to become strong at swimming, when I was back on the decks I can remember feeling like I my chest was sort of almost puffing out from all the swimming workout.

At some point I was walking down some wooden decking stairs and I could see my parents lounging on some patio type chairs on a higher level. I could hear dad make some sort of mock bird call. I remember then seeing some birds. Seagulls? Dad laughed. H asked from some place below, “is that your dad?” I said yes and then remember continuing down the stairs and losing sight of them.

It was daytime for most of this dream but I made note of the fact that it was sort of cloudy and grey. I remember a horizon of water. It may have been windy but I don’t remember the sound of it.

I remember a few times I’d take my boots off, but at no point do I remember what I was wearing.

When I went swimming, after a short while I’d usually arrive at this sea floor base of some kind. This place did have a lot of people. I remember lockers, the inside of this place almost felt like some swimming pool changing rooms but with a more modern and futuristic feel to it, a bit more like the base from Ocean Girl or the sea city from Bioshock.

Before this dream or through the middle of it, I was stuck in some sort of void like limbo with H for a time. It was like being in an out of control perpetual fall, and there was a strange light and distant but dark cosmic background. This void was filled with ancient structures and artefacts from unknown civilisations, a lot of the stuff looking like it was from some sort of classic period.

I remember interacting with some walls and pillars from a distance, with some kind of telekinetic ability, and cutting them up into smaller chunks. As I did their lighting would change, usually to some dramatic purples and yellows.

At some nearer the “end” of the cruise ship segments I went into this too, to have a wee, but there were no toilets. In the dream my mind was telling me that there were some type of urinals but there was nothing on walls or anything like toilets. Instead there were some tables. I walked past a clear plastic box filled with what looked like cheap and brightly coloured electronic components.

At the tables were some big circuit boards with several components already soldered on, including some transformers. For whatever reason I had to have a wee on these boards, but I remember someone telling me I could only wee on the electrolytic capacitors... I remember doing it, but on a big black electrolytic cap, and then some guy appeared, who apparently owned all this stuff and told me off just for weeing on the big one. He was annoyed but not angry or shouting.

Then I remember going out of that room after a short dialogue. I went some stone stairs, in a wide spiral. It reminded me of castles and churches. There were a few murderhole windows where daylight shun from. This was a different place, it was puzzle like. As I reached some kind of landing I immediately realised that the structure was like in some games like Legend of Zelda and some modern puzzles where the paths loop back into themselves, but I could get around the issue of looping paths by taking them whilst walking backwards.

I remember a crawl space path where the same would happen and there were statues and displays scattered about like some museum. There was a warm artificial mood light and everything had a sort of modern feel to it in the areas with displays.

Second Dream (Fragment):

A different dream. I was born out of a big egg, looked mostly like a birds egg but was covered in a polka dot pattern on the outside. A sort of magenta colour to the dots.

There was some old man in this dream and I remember telling him we all had stomachs made from tin and gold. When I told him there was also sulfuric acid in there, he was incredulous.

Third Dream? (Fragment) NSFW:

A still image, as if on a computer, no doubt from a transition phase into wakefulness,

Spoiler for NSFW:

of a giant phallus in space “absorbing” planets along its skin.

One of the stranger things I might draw from time to time. But unusual for this type of thing to appear whilst still sort of in the dreaming context.

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Notes:

⁃ Almost immediately after waking up I realised I probably had the swimming and diving dream because I spent so much of last night reading stuff on Dreamviews. It made me feel like the water was representative of dreaming in itself.
⁃ When I was reading stuff last night I had some thoughts about symbology, mostly because of the topics but I think also because of something I’d said/posted. I feel this is probably why the dream ended up being so metaphorical.
⁃ I ended up taking the whole swimming and diving experience, which in the dream made me stronger, as a sign that I may be making some progress again with dreaming. There was just a sort of clear association in my head when I woke up that all of this was a metaphor for how I was doing lately.
⁃ The void filled with artefacts etc. also felt relevant in that context because it seemed like a collection of lost and unknown culture.
⁃ This void was very similar to the Chthonic voids found in Grim Dawn, probably because I was also playing that a bit last night.

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5/2/2020
Went to bed at 2AM.
Alarm went off at 7AM, nothing
Alarm went off at 8:30AM, nothing
woke up at 9:45AM from friend calling me. Forgot my dream but laid down for a while and then remembered.
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Dream:
This began inside the Snowdon Metro station, the station I most often frequent. There was very little gravity, as if we were on the moon! It was a lot of fun jumping around from wall to wall, I was able to jump with extra speed! I jumped the orange line boarding side, had a bit of fun in the middle and then jumped super fast from one side of the blue line debarking side to the other side of it. Not afraid of any trains coming at all. After jumping around there for a bit, we went outside the station and started walking downhill. I wanted to run and jump downhill, giving me a ton of airtime, but before I could, the dream destabilized. I couldn't move, couldn't open my eyes except for the sliver that they were still open by. I was able to see down right in front of me, as if I was asleep standing up, thats how my eyelids were. I saw the snow on the sidewalk, what seemed like a blue mat and the bottom of a bus stop on my right side. I tried to stabilize at this point by looking intensely at the snow or trying to move to go touch things but none of it worked. After a bit, I realized the blue mat was the big blue flag on my wall! The bus station was my window, and the snow was the light blue of my wall. This was trippy as heck I couldn't move or open my eyes any further, so maybe this was like SP? I thought you could open your eyes in SP. Anyone know what this was? I eventually fell back into a dream where I was in the metro with my brother and his gf. We were on this skinny platform placed between two metro trains, the only way off was into one the the trains. This is a place I had been before in dreams. I dont think we still had the low gravity because I dont remember using it. Trains came qhizzing by and I think we boarded one, but my memory is fuzzy and that is where my recall ends or maybe I was woken up.

I was at my job working and they gather us all up to tell us that we will be leaving early. As we all got in to two lines, I was standing next to another co-worker. She began to hold my hand from the other side which I thought was off. I then felt her hand clench mine and soon everything was dark. I couldn't see anything but I could still feel her hand holding mine tightly. I began to hold her hand even tighter to hold on to the dream.

At some point with in that I knew I was dreaming but there was now no dream just the darkness that surrounded me. I could still feel her hand but now the feeling had change to a weird sensation all over my body. I got out the darkness and could see my actual self laying in the bed but from a different angle. My brain was making such a huge buzzing sound that I began to panic. My body was feeling odd and to be honest felt like it was dying.

I knew that I was in between transitions from the waking world and the dreamworld. Overall my panic made me unable to transition back in to the dreamworld and I began to move my physical body as I had now control over it.