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1/2/2020
Fell asleep at 1AM.
Woke up at 7AM, no recall, forgot to attempt FILD
Woke up at 8:30AM, 1 fragment recalled. forgot to attempt FILD
woke up at 10AM, another fragment recalled. Then I stayed in bed with my eyes closed till 12.
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Dream 1:
I was in the shower, but also the bath. My bath was also in the middle of the bathroom now and not on the side. The door to the bathroom was replaced by the door to the shower which is glass so everyone could see me if they were in the living room or coming up the stairs. I tried to hang my towel on the handle to block the view of my genitalia but that didn't work. Adam Rab. came over and wanted to go to school with me. After trying to hide myself for a bit Jimena and Adam came to the bathroom door so I sat down in the bath so they couldn't see my gentialia. My underwear was also on the sink for some reason.


Dream 2:
I was at my cottage with some friends I think. Then Erica Roth. Showed up at my front door and then started going to the side door and when I went to the side she was going back tot he front. I left the front door and saw lots of people out by the pool with some lights, clearly partying somehow. Then someone who looks like Zacks GF came up to me and thanked me for having her over.

Kind of a single long dream, but some bits are missing.

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Dream:

The first part of the dream I can remember was at a somewhat accurate layout of the cul-de-sac in front of my old home. I was sitting in the driver seat of a car, which I think was my dad's car, as some of the interior felt familiar. But I had the window fully down and was sort of resting my arms against it and looking out. It was a sunny day, probably past 3PM but not sure what season. First half of the year, I think.

Where my building door was supposed to be was actually this entrance into some sort of church, but not a church, as there was a machine there like a manually operated computer, and there was a group of people running it. I think I had been in there previously in the dream, or I just "saw" this somehow. But then there was an oddity about this machine, it could be switched off by literally anyone who walked past it, as there was a button labelled "STOP" and another "EMERGENCY STOP". They both did the exact same thing. I think I remember I had asked someone why, and they couldn't explain it to me.

Then, while I'm in the car, some black guys show up. I realise better what position the car was in, sort of blocking in the entrance of the cul-de-sac a bit. These guys smile at me, I smile back, but I immediately know that they are there for something. They sort of huddle up around one side of the car, sort of hiding from view from where the machine place was. They look at me worried and I say nothing, quietly watching with some amusement, I'm curious what they have planned.

This one guy stops trying to hide and just walks straight up to the place. I can see that he hits that stop button out of amusement for himself and the people running the machine get annoyed and make audible grunts, but seemingly don't even pay attention to the guy. I don't remember what else he did in there, but he comes back near the car and he has this piece of jewellery, I can't remember exactly what, but somehow I immediately know it's sort of stolen or something.

Then a different guy gets up and goes in and a bit later comes out with something similar. I think this happens a couple more times and I remember the last piece of jewellery, a silver necklace. It reminds me of a necklace H has, but only the chain was similar.

I remember getting into some small talk with the guys and then saying I had to go. I think I drive away and they disband, but I don't remember how it transitions into the next part exactly. But I remember my thoughts stayed on the "stolen items" for a bit.

Then I'm walking down an unknown dream park with two people. One of them is H's sister (A), but I'm not sure who the other person is, some guy, around my age, but a friend of mine, not A's friend.

It's night time and there is plenty of green vegetation and everything's slightly wet. Sprinklers had been on, as it isn't raining and I don't get the impression it had been. There are paths through this hilly park and the path we're on takes sort of long curves around some well mowed lawn-like fields, well lit by strong cool lights.

As we're walking this path on the left-hand side there's a hedge going all the way along the curve and on the right-hand side there's this man on a short two-sided ladder. I don't look up to see what he's doing, but all of a sudden sparks and arcs of electricity go everywhere. Somehow I'm not surprised or worried, and neither is anyone else. Moments after I'd walked past, I pause, looking back. A is sort of looking closely at the ladder and some cables, which I somehow think of as being a bit foolish considering the electricity, so I think I motion for her to carry on.

We arrive somewhere and there's some kind of transition. I lose any awareness of A and the mystery friend.

I'm now at a place that closely resembles my high school, or college. But the lights are sort of dim and moody. It was still night outside. All of a sudden I find myself in the middle of a group of random people, of all ages really. And then I'm lying down, between this girl my age on the left and this old woman on the right. They're both lying down too but sort of sitting. There's a cover over my legs and this girl on the left.

People are mostly just idling around and there are some paintings on the walls. I look closely at some, finding myself annoyed that I know some of them and that they've been there for an eternity, half thinking to myself "why can't one of mine be there?". The thought passes quickly and I look at another painting that catches my attention and I quite like. Somehow this makes many other people look at it too and start discussing it.

My attention fades away from it and this girl on my left starts touching my private areas; I don't realise it's her doing it at first. I realise that both me and her didn't have pants or underwear on. For a moment I wonder if H was touching me in waking reality but the thought doesn't go past being somewhat automatic. I enjoy her touch but start to wonder why she's touching me like this. I assume that she wants the same so I move one of my hands to touch her in the same areas and this seems to completely surprise her, despite whatever pleasure she felt. I get the impression she is embarrassed now and she sort of gets up and dresses herself and leaves.

The old woman on the right makes some comments, the last bit of which I vaguely remember. "It's not easy making money that way, you know." the old woman says. I reply: "No, I didn't think so either."

Then I am left with some lingering thoughts of why she would try to make money in such a way, and why she left, but the rest of my dream recall sort of ends here.

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Notes:

• In the third and final part of the dream, there was a fair bit of conversation between everyone and myself and other dream characters, but as I try to recall the dream I can only mostly remember silence.
• The group of black guys in the first part of the dream were nobody I recognised, though they reminded me of friends I used to have when I was younger. I have had a few recurring appearances of those groups of friends and I felt it was somewhat familiar, especially because of the dream's location, which is where they typically appear in my dreams.
• I think the jewellery was actually coming from some sort of replicating machine in the same place as the manually-run computer thing, but my memory of it is extremely vague.
• The stone hall where that computer thing was, really wasn't very different from the actual entrance hall of my old building. It was sort of just super elongated and wider.
• I have no idea now who the friend was with me and A. I don't recognise the face and seems to just be a generic construct of "male friend".
• The girl touching me in the final part of the dream didn't tell me her name and somehow in the dream I felt the expectation that she would have done, especially before leaving. Although I remember her hair as being somewhat long and curly and dark, I got the impression there was something about her that was "redhead" or that the word "red" was somehow associated with her as a character.
• The old woman in the same part had some sort of old-style blue dress, and reminded me a bit of a cartoon character in some way. Her hair was a perfect white and tied up in a sort of bun. What little I can remember of her face is that she looked youthful for how old it sounded like she was.
• The appearance of both these sort of contrasting female figures is not without some personal meaning to me; it's the sort of thing I sometimes wonder about, especially if I'm working on some art piece involving nude human figure- the old woman was young like us at some point and so wasn't at all phased by what was happening. I often wonder how I will see this type of situation when I'm much older myself, or how I'll feel about it.
• Nearly forgot to add this note: The odd mood lighting (sort of an orange-y red/purple) in the last part of the dream was incredibly similar to that of another strange dream I had some time back. I can't remember if I did have any thoughts about it during the dream.

The earlier part of the dream was us going to a small village. Cabins. It wasn't us originally, but it became us at times. We were a different family after a cartoon character family, but I forget who. MARIO AND LUIGI. There was snow and there was summer. There was food, especially corn on the cob, which they called corn on [something else]. Native American tribe. We went to help out? One kid mentioned we were too rich to help.

When we returned to the city, we were staying at a hotel with tons of swimming pools and places to swim and explore. I asked Mom if I could go swim, and she thought I was going to swim outside, but I told her there were indoor pools. The pools I could only see from outside the glass windows on the second story from hotel's interior (pools inside but separated like at the edge), the pools had tons of slide tubes, and green foliage everywhere, and like waterfalls and jungle like stuff, but all very man-made still.

Back at our real house, getting ready to go back to the hotel. All rooms and bathrooms full, or doors/walls broken so they were open to view. So I went outside in neighborhood to find a place to change into my swimsuit. (Why outside??) I changed in a closed road where there was a gate on one end. As cars came, I had to open the gate so they could go through. My swimsuit was blue sheer over a black top (same as the black sheer over blue that I have in real life, just the colors were opposite). I met a neighbor, he was walking down the road and we talked. Then a different neighbor's water thing went super high, I estimated about 5 feet, and remarked about it to the guy as we talked (he turned around to try to take a picture of it, but he was too late and barely saw it.) But he said that neighbor often tries to make inventions like that. We talked as we walked back to my house, mom met him at the door and was like "Hi! How's your day? What's your name?" He seems autistic, has thin hair, almost bald? He looked like Doc boy on Garfield. I had to ask him again what his name was, because I forgot. But I remembered it again when he told me it was Evan. Once he left, mom was talking to me about the shreds of paper on the table right outside the door. Each piece of paper had someones name and a phone number on it and she was like "this is where I missed it", picking up a specific name. There was a really annoying fevered dream I had before where nothing ended really, and this was in reference to it. (Tons of people and trying to finish something?) Anyway she was really talking about it a ton, and it felt like the dream couldn't go back to how it was and would become another fevered dream, so I got mad that she'd brought it up again, and woke up.

New dream, either the number 6043 or 6042.

New dream, living in the underground. World like Minecraft, monsters around, post-apocalypse like. Stev, Chri, and me taking care of kids we found who'd lost their families. I went out on a food run with oldest boy (12yr?), we ran into a different kid who was alone. He really wanted to stay with us because he looked scared. I didn't want to get his hopes up (or have to take anything back if he turned out to be trouble) so I said he could eat this meal with us, but he'd be on his own after that. (Be cautious or be dead.) We went back, through small alleys between what looked like crushed together buildings. Lots of concrete and rubble everywhere, don't think we were "outside" at any time. We got back, Chr was working on setting up a system where you can see monsters, and attack them, but they can't get in (like Minecraft, you build a block so they can't get in, but it's still technically open.) We were worried about the younger kids crawling out through the openings though. The kid turned out to be really vengeful and calculative, so Stev sent him off after the meal, without tipping him off that it was because we were scared of him. I hugged all the kids and we got back to work on the monster trap system.

I had the same dream again last night where I am in granddads old reliant with my mom and sister. This was the 5th night in a row I have had this dream.

In last night's dream, my sister kept trying to talk to me during our time waiting in the car for mom and I kept trying to ignore her because I didn't want to smell her breath and wanted her to stop talking. I tuned out what she was trying to say in hopes that she would get the hint I did not want to talk, but she kept invading my space to try to get my attention and I kept smelling her breath. She put her head on my shoulder a few times trying to get my attention. I eventually had to turn my head and look at the empty tan vinyl drivers seat so I didn't have to smell her breath.

When mom got in and started trying to get the car started, I could feel my sister was sitting beside me even though I was focusing on mom trying to get the car started. After mom had spent a few minutes trying to start the car, my sister told her she had forgotten her purse and mom took the keys out of the ignition and went back into the house to get it. I asked her if I could go in and get it or try to start the are while she was out but she said needed the keys to get into the house and I needed to stay buckled in my seat. I woke up while she was in the house.

@~4 hours?
+ B Burglary: I'm walking down my driveway at CH and see the garage door is ajar, I go in and through the door from the garage into the house. Did I leave the doors open? We may have been robbed! On the top of the stairs I look in and my fears are realized: where the washer and dryer used to be in the back porch (before they were moved in WL to the garage), there are only two large vacant squares on the ground. I move through the first floor of the house and all the large items (chests of drawers) are all gone -- some burglar has cleaned us out! I call the police from the hallway intersection between the back porch/dining room/front entry, something about it's pointless? I see a large pitcher of orange juice?

Then I'm (sitting on the floor) in the dining room (on the deck side of the dining table) facing the kitchen, a portly cop is standing by the entrance to the kitchen, and my BF MkRbk is sitting at the table. I see one of the burglars hiding behind some curtains immediately next to the cop, and a second burglar is behind a chest of drawers on my left. I start frantically miming to the cop and pointing without wanting to say anything to give away the fact that I see the burglars, trying to get him to see them. The burglar to my left is now standing by MR right by the cop, M slowly (too slowly for my taste) grabs him, I yell at him "grab him around the neck!". Both burglars have very large knives (switch-blades?), the left burglar in his hand, and the right one on his belt at his hip. I reach for the knife of the left burglar hoping to grab it before he can use it on the cop. I take it (it's large, about a foot long) and hand it to the cop.

The burglars have been apprehended and I'm standing looking closely at the face of the right one, he's quite young. I say SL "It's easy to go around looking for houses that have been left open, eh?" He doesn't really answer but makes some sort of grunt in response.

@~6 hrs
+ (f) Animal man: [part of story forgotten?) There is a guy who raises sheep, chickens, etc. I see the animals, it's an outdoor scene, (the animals are walking around between abandoned cars?)

@~8 hrs, final waking:
+ Hired&Fired: I'm doing (something?), I'm called in to my manager's office (sort of a tiny little separate house), he's my friend CrgLe from college, and there's some other guy there (his assistant?). C tells me I've been summoned to HR/management.
I'm then sitting in a chair with HR and management. They're already firing me, after just having recently hired me. They hand me a folder with the severance package in it. I open it and see a dark/black hard-to-read document with some numbers written on it, compensation for the firing. Executive says (something)? [Dialogue forgotten]. This meeting lasts a while.
I'm wondering if I'll be able to sell all the stock I was promised, or if I'm going to lose it. I think I might be able to still sell it. I'm go back to my manager's little house office. He is alone there. I ask him about the stock. He says "you should get out of here, before [the executive] sees you!" He fired all these people and doesn't want to see any of them.

+ Peaches: outdoor picnic-type table scene with people. I see a group in front of me. RbWhlr has brought a platter piled high (1 foot at least) with thick slices of peaches. These look good and even though I'm not really part of the group, I lean forwards and take a thick slice off of the plate. RW says ST. I look at the slice -- it's not just a peach, it's more an amalgam of dried fruit and chopped nuts.

+ Skiing/Pteradactyl Tree: I'm at the top of a ski run on a snowy mountain, I'm skiing with (EW?). A ski resort employee off to the left says something. We start skiing down the hill. We are carving left and right on a relatively wide, flat slope. EW demonstrates how, if you're not careful, you might accidentally spin 180 and start skiing backwards, out of control, she does this. We're progressing down the slope. It's important (she says, or I think?) not to let your skiis go straight, or you will pick up dangerous speed very rapidly. This happens to me, but I get it under control. There are steep cliffs on either side of us. The slope levels out to a flatter area and I say "Hey it's good that it's more level here". We ski up to drop-offs but avoid them. There is another really big cliff coming up, it is marked with a sign, and there is a resort employee sitting there, too. There is some strange object, like a bunch of iron-man-style ski boots stacked up on the ground with sharp, angular protrusions. I notice a stone stairway leading down the hill, and I imagine that skiiers use this to climb up to the cliff area. The stairway has no snow on it.

I look around and take notice that the ski resort stone structures on the ground look artificial -- it's like the entirely mountain we're skiing on (which now seems to be mostly lacking in snow) has been modified by man to make it a better skiing mountain. I raise my gaze up and look at the surrounding (natural) mountains in the distance, which have patches of snow on them. I'm looking up at a nearby neighboring really tall peak and am searching for signs of the "Pteradactyl Tree," I see some very large trees, but at the top of that peak I finally see the Pteradactyl tree itself with a large man-made stone foundation at its base.

My view of the PT is closer, and I see two circling pteradactyls flying in the air -- they are artificial (like stuffed animals) and I think very furry. I'm pointing these out to my mother, (dialogue forgotten). I'm in an elevator with my sister, and she makes a comment about wanting chips and I think about melted nacho cheese. There is a PT staff member man there in the elevator.

Then there's a scene of a musical performance put on by the staff: that man, and a woman are the star perfomers. The woman is singing (not all that well) a song and doing a dance, moving towards me then away from me, and she is trying to hit a high note in the song that is normally sung by the man, she's trying to give a demonstration of how well she can sing, but I think the has done a pretty bad job of it.

Then I'm in an after-show-party area, with a variety of long tables set with large cocktail glasses (white tablecloth?). They are starting to serve the cocktails, something fruity with ice in the classes. I surreptitiously drink one cocktail down completely and am thinking how I'm going to get even more from the serving, as if I had not drunk at all. At that point an old work colleague Matt (last name?) comes in and they head to a side table and they've managed to acquire a bunch of the pizza and drinks the staff were going to serve. He comes over to me and he starts to roll up and stuff this very large pizza into my very large cocktail glass. But then he (or a person next to me) says "people who like pizza like it flat, not all rolled up."

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1/2/2020
Around 11PM I consumed marijuana. This was unhelpful and I want to stop doing it. It's unskillful behaviour and will not help me level up my IRL character hahaha
Fell asleep at 1AM.
Woke up at 6:30AM, no recall, forgot to attempt FILD
Woke up at 8AM, 1 fragment recalled.
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tags: Jungle trap

Dream 1:
I remember constructing a trap hanging from a tree in the jungle. In the end it seemed more like a hanging home that you can swing to. Maybe the gap that you have to swing over is the trap. Stupid NPCs dont know how to swing, their pathfinding algorithm will just make them fall down

Small parts of several dreams from today.

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Dream Fragment:

My friend L tried to contact me. Somehow we were communicating by typing on our computers on notepad, on a shared .txt file, which we would save in turns to effectively "send" messages. Despite being a plain text file, I remember L used emojis, something she'd probably find pretty silly for the specific situation.

I have forgotten most of this dream's content but I remember L had an overall feeling of concern, and equally I realised I felt somewhat neglectful.

Dream Fragment:

I was outside, in a mix of my old home area and of some other place more like where I live now. It was daytime, there were bits of settled snow here and there and the pavement looked completely dull to me at the time. There was a row of terraced houses on one side, with an inordinate amount of front yard space. The pavement was unusually wide too.

I was out here with someone, either my aunt or my mother, or some kind of blend. There was this tiny ancient and ruined chapel and we were sort of investigating it for whatever reason and there was supposed to be a secret passage that we had to activate from the outside. We walked around it several times and eventually I pointed at this crude square shape covered by dirt and grass on the floor, which I'd noticed several times when going around the chapel's exterior, finally insisting that maybe it was what we wanted to check, as at this point I felt that any observations I made were being dismissed entirely.

There is some sort of dream transition and there's a different feel to things, and I find myself sort of manipulating wall segments as if it were a strategy game; the placement ghost for wall sections changed dynamically based on whether I was placing it close to existing walls or apart from any walls.

Dream Fragment:

Something about a blonde or fake-blonde woman, lying in bed. She was reading a book about things she'd done right? Or about things she had to pay for. This was in some sort of birthday party setting. It felt cheesy and crowded, inside a bedroom that somehow reminded me of a hospital room.

Dream Fragment:

I was in bed with H, who was reading something on the phone. It was around morning time by the looks of it and I was lying in bed in a funny way, because I was also reading a magazine of sorts. But the magazine was about as thick as my thumb is wide. It had all sorts of articles, about everything and anything, though I've forgotten most of it now, I remember the last one I was reading before closing it and looking at the cover. That article was about how an older Spain had convinced everyone during the exploration of the Americas to "drink this swill" that we call cocoa and how it's rival neighbouring country of Portugal had done little during that time to stop it too. It was like a sponsored article about an anti-cocoa cult of sorts and I found it to be pretty ridiculous even in the dream. It mentioned they already had hundreds of followers and hoped to expand them greatly in the coming times.

After I shut the book/magazine, I gave H a cuddle and that's the last thing I remember. Somehow I didn't realise the irony of the very dream-like situation at all.

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Some notes:

• The text in the fourth fragment was very consistent. I remember reading and going back to re-read something I'd already read to make sure I was getting it right. In that dream I should have realised that no magazine would ever be so thick.
• The magazine cover was a cream or khaki colour, with a picture of a large manor or something on a sunny day in the front, with some smaller squares of other scenic views.
• I remember seeing bits and pieces of the book in the third dream by myself. It didn't make any sense, it was like a children's book but with tasks and questions. The pictures were all sort of life-like, but drawn.
• The very first dream fragment was one of several that I could still vaguely recall from the early morning before I fell asleep again, the other three fragments being ones from after falling asleep again.

I had that same recurring dream again last night where I am in granddads old reliant with my mom and sister and mom can't get it started. It was the 4th night in a row I have had it after not having it for a few weeks.

As with every one of the dreams it started with me in the car by myself buckled to the front middle seat. My sister came out and got in the passenger seat next to me a few minutes later. We sit and wait in the car for mom to come out and drive us for what seems like forever. Last night, my sister really wanted to try to talk to me. I kept trying to ignore her because her breath reeked and I had to smell it whenever she talked. My sister started invading my space when I ignored her, leaning over and putting her face right in front of mine so I couldn't ignore her. I do not know what she was trying to tell me, because I tuned it out. Unfortunately, there was no way I could ignore her nasty breath and had to smell it while she kept talking to me. In the dreams I had a few weeks ago, I didn't really noticed my sister was sitting right next to me in the passenger seat unless I looked over at her. In this dream, it was obvious she was sitting next to me while we waited in the car for mom. It was the most unpleasant wait I have had so far in this dream.

When mom finally got in, she could not get the car to start as usual. While I was watching mom pump the accelerator and turn the key and seeing the red lights on the dash and hearing the buzzing sound after each failed crank, I also could feel my sister on my other side which I don't remember in earlier dreams. When mom decided to get out and look under the hood after several cranks, I asked her if I could get out and she told me her job was to start the car and my job was to stay buckled in my seat. I woke up from this dream before mom got back in and tried to start the car again.

I was driving in this parking lot where this guy blocks me from reversing. It was the only way out as there was a building in front of me. So I look in my car view mirror and saw two guy's in hoodies with their hands in their pockets approaching my car. I immediately got out of my car and tell them what's the problem. I kept backing up and realize I am in a dream and was trying to change the dream scene by falling flat down to the ground.

However the scene would keep going back to the two men pointing guns at me. I laugh and told them you still have guns with you. I decided to try to wake myself up which resulted in a false awakening.

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31/1/2020
Around 9:30PM I consumed a marijuana edible. This was a rash decision and definitely did not help me lucid dream. I forgot to do my techniques before bed.
Fell asleep at 1:30AM.
Woke up at 6:30AM, no recall, forgot to attempt FILD
Woke up at 8AM, no recall, forgot to attempt FILD again
Woke up at 9:30AM, no recall. Then fell asleep and woke up again multiple times until 10:30ish
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Morning of January 31, 2020. Friday.

Dream #: 19,401-02. Reading time: 1 min 35 sec.



My dream self’s focus is on electrical wiring, which is typically co-occurrent with an increase in mental activity (neuronal energy) while sleeping (and sometimes, as here, eventually renders fire). (It is a common sleep-wake mediation process for me, but the rendering and narrative are always different, though in one dream it was more obvious than usual when I “removed my head,” which was a football helmet, and examined and moved the wiring inside it.)

The setting is unknown (though my dream implies it is our present home). Zsuzsanna is nearby (to my left, modeling our sleeping position). At about neck level, a cluster of gold wiring is hanging from an open part of the wall (so it is a type of wall mediation, that is, navigating emerging liminality, as well as associations with increasing mental activity). Although the wires are loose, I consider that the current is stable as long as they do not get moved either accidentally or with intent.

Zsuzsanna’s brother Simon approaches and comments on the wiring. I move the cluster slightly and consider the loose wiring (and certain wires touching each other) might cause a short.

As a result of moving the wires, my dream’s dynamics and narrative changes, with my liminal intent to continue sleeping. The incidental preconscious personification as Simon, who remains passive, also correlates with my sleep-wake mediation. (The preconscious simulacrum only dominates when waking is more of a priority, kind of a no-brainer.)

My dream changes into typical indoor-outdoor liminal ambiguity. The outcome of this wall mediation results in its virtual division expanding and becoming a beach that defines open liminal space yet is still impossibly implied to be inside our house. (However, potential water reinduction is not clearly defined, as the ocean seems distant.) I now see a very long electrical cord that seems to go all the way to the shore (while the beach sand it is in is still a part of the floor of our house), and minimal fire consumes part of its length as I walk along, mentally extinguishing it to sustain my dream. (Fire also sometimes correlates with the increase in body temperature when closer to waking.) There is no more fire, and I sleep for about another hour.

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Several of my recent dreams have had atypical variations of intentional water reinduction, all with unique results, for example, “Digging Up a Pool” from January 28.

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After not having it for a few weeks, that dream where I am in my granddads old reliant between my mom and sister and mom cannot get the car to start has started recurring again.

I spent last weekend with my mom and helped her with some things and have had the dream every night beginning on Monday (1/27).

As in the past, the dream always starts with me in the Reliant by myself buckled to the front middle seat. As I am checking my surroundings, my sister is coming out of the house and walking towards the car. She is still wearing the same pink shirt, red overalls, and tan sandals that she wore in earlier dreams. She opens the passenger side door, and sits down next to me in the passenger seat. She closes her door and buckles her seat belt.

All 3 nights as in the past, we spend a really long time in the car waiting for mom to come out and get in. I am not sure how long, but would have to guess at least 20-30 minutes each nigh if not longer. As in the past dreams, her breath reeks but now she is trying harder to get me to talk with her. She is invading my space and putting her face right in front of mine so it is harder to ignore her. When I don't respond to her, she keeps asking the same questions and I keep having to smell her breath. I eventually turn to the empty driver seat trying to ignore her. I am noticing she is sitting right next to me more than I did in the earlier dreams.

Eventually, I see the back door to the house open and then see mom locking it and then walking towards the Reliant where my sister and I are waiting for her. When she gets there, she pull the keys out of her purse and then unlocks the driver side door. She then sits down on the empty drivers side seat on my other side and puts the keys in the ignition. Once she has the mirrors adjusted, she tries to start the car, but it won't start-up. As in past dreams I focus on mom pumping the accelerator and turning the key as well as the red light on the dash and buzzing sound each time the engine fails to start.

Unlike in the earlier dreams, mom is spending more time out of the car while trying to get the car started. It can either be to get out and look under the hood or to go back into the house because she is afraid something like the coffee pot or TV has been left on. If I ask if I can get out, she tells us we need to stay in the car.

This dream started with me being with my dad. It looks like we were over Dickie's house and was in the living room where a light illuminated from a small, shaded lamp that sat next to the doorway. My dad had just made it home from work and looked to be exhausted and worn out. He came over to me and asked if I would like to make a bit of money with him and help him out in some of his shifts and I agreed to it and I ended up taking over his job not knowing about the consequences. "Sure. I'll do it."

So some time had past of me being in a strange room, singing to robots who I think were Optimus prime and Megazord. I heard music playing from my room but it was not the kind I Usually listened to, it was a weird fuzzy, buzzy vibe to it, as though the sound was trying to be there but really wasn't.

So I make it to the workplace and it was mostly dark and hard to see there. A woman was there, dressed in dark colored pants and a light colored Hawaiian shirt. She stepped on to a platform that had thing with fruits and food in it then she pressed a button, where it took her up into some dark rafters. I needed to go up there as well but didn't feel safe in doing so. I had to step on one of those things that the electric utility man uses to cut power or fix something in the power lines. I didn't understand why I needed to go up there but I did anyhow. I was way up and had to unload. After that I felt a bit afraid at having to be this high up just to wash some food products so I got back on to the platform and descended back down to safety. But unfortunately I ended up leaving something important and had to go back to the top floor. I get on an elevator along with two other female DCs and we talked to each other about something as we rode to the top floor. As soon as we stepped off of the elevator it collapsed and fell. I looked through the opened doors, almost falling through as the elevator crashed below. This is just too dangerous for me, how can my dad handle something like this everyday? I have had enough of this, rather this job is done or not I' am out of here. I left and was back at home, doing random things.

I was looking at a globe and saw frozen continents shifting around in small tiny pieces. The pieces broke up even more when they collided to each other, floating around in the water and forming a new shape. The ice was needed for this event to happen. I looked at a calendar and it was I think Friday. Work would not began again until Monday so I had a few days to rest and not worry about not showing up to the dangerous workplace. Sometime had passed and I get shifted into a room. This room had a childhood feel to it and in it found some nilla colored folders, laying on top of something that was in front of a window that had lacy curtains. I was glad to have found these and went over to them. there was a second folder that was supposed to have my name on it, but it was some kiddy, scribbled up text that looked to be in illegible writing. I opened one of the folders and saw some of my very old drawings of Sebulba and stories. I wanted to look into more of this, but ended up waking up.

After waking for a few minutes I managed to get back into the dream. I'm in the process of reading a Sebulba story and as I do that, the characters appear. I seen the Dug on all fours, crawling out of some dark corner as he was doing it in the story. I looked up and seen him walking towards me on his toes, cocking his head to look up at me who stared down at him. He stood up on his hind legs and placed a skinny, wrinkly hand up on my shoulder. I dropped the folder along with all of its contents and ran out of that room. Sebulba followed me, hissing and sputting something out to me in his language.

I ran out of the dark, junky room and I ended up outside. It was an over cast day and there was a dirt road in front of me lined with trees and houses. A large dark but colorful beast came up behind me and with its long, sticky tongue; licked me from behind on my face. I turned around only to see that it was the Dug, standing up on his hand-legs and had his leg-arms hooked around my neck. I pushed him away in disgust and ran into some house and up some stairs.

He followed me and was now in another junky room that had stuff all over the floor, toys, clothes, bedding all covered the floor completely. There were some curtains up against the wall and I tried to hide behind it, but I was standing on top of a ball that was causing me to move around to keep from falling. The Dug comes in just as I found a new spot and gets on all fours again. He skittered around on the junky floor, going under things, climbing up walls and jumping up on top of stuff to see if I were there. I lay hidden until a pile of clothes lifted from my view and a Dugs head pops into it. "Found you!" He reached in with his strange mandibles and I got out of there before he can grab me with them. He was at the base of the steps, blocking them.

I had a few tricks and I pretended like I was gonna charge him but instead I jumped under the banister, between support beam and to the steps behind the Dug. He cocked his head only to see me escape. He was not happy. "You apologize!" I didn't and left. He remained in the room till for some reason decided to say sorry. He smiles and comes up the steps.

As he was doing that I seen another Dug. He was a much bigger Dug then Sebulba and it showed him locked up in some cage. He was standing up on his hind legs but his hands were outstretched in front of him one lower then the other one, exposing his nude body with a small hole where his belly button was at. I felt another slimy lick to the side of my face and this time I coughed in disgust. I'm gonna need to wash my face to get this filth off of it.

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30/1/2020
Before bed, I recalled the events of my day. Mind wandered many times haha I must stay more concentrated. Did a LD prayer in bed then fell asleep. I also opened my blinds because apparently a light environment i good for LDing! Thanks Lang for directing me to the recall compendium
Fell asleep at 1:30AM.
Woke up at 6:30AM, no recall, forgot to attempt FILD
Woke up at 7:30AM, wrote down tags from dream I was in. Forgot to attempt FILD again
Woke up at 9AM, no recall. Then fell asleep and woke up again multiple times until 11:30. Had recall once during a wakeup but spent too much time lying there trying to recall more and fell back asleep.
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tags: Dawson elevators, coins for greeting, seeing people in halls, elevators not working properly, Really pretty girl looking flirty at me in the elevator

I cant remember the events sequentially.

Dream 1:
I was at Dawson college again in my dream. In a (fictional) area with lots of seats, my sister, her boyfriend and their friends were sitting down talking. As I passed by (I was almost late for a test) I greeted my sister and her boyfriend. Everyone had a double digit number floating next to them with a coin symbol. When I touched them to greet them, there was like a coin getting animation. A few coins flew up from the symbol and disappeared along with the symbol and I knew that I had just received them.

Still at Dawson, I had to take some elevators to get around. The elevator system turned out to be soooo much more complex than it is. There elevators would leave the building, get carried along a cable system above the buildings and get transferred to a different sector of the building. It was rainy and windy out so it was kind of scary, the elevators were moving so fast! The elevator buttons also didn't work properly. I pressed something like 6 when I was on the 2nd floor and the first stop ended up being at like 25. The technology not working properly is a dream sign I must remember!

There was also a really pretty girl looking at me in another elevator ride. This time the elevator was like a futuristic metro bus. It was just me and her on there. She was smiling at me but I didn't want to return her gaze. I was looking down at her lower leg. Her gastrocnemius(calf muscle that protrudes from your leg to make the bulge of the calf) protruded from very low on her leg and was very large(not very important but struck me as unrealistic, can be a dream sign). We got to the next stop where we were both expecting someone very important to get on but it ended up being a sea of people that I felt like shouldn't be boarding, it should have been the important person and everyone boarding now was greedy.

Dream 2:
As I'm writing this, I remembered a fragment of my other dream. I was with a couple people that I went to high school with and a coworker. (Matthew[male], Izraa[female] and Matthieu[male]). At one point matthew and I were sitting on some toilets and Izraa was across the room, with a desk shielding our lower bodies from her sight. We were making stupid jokes about us being on the toilet and Izraa didnt really find them funny. She was smirking but I think she was just enjoying seeing us have so much fun making the stupid jokes. later, matthew was on the bed in the room. He had a big bag of kratom with him which contained a bunch of flower shaped humidity controlling things and lots of kratom. I asked him how long he had been taking kratom for and he said he did a while in high school but not much recently.

Later we(all of us except Izraa) were outside playing around pushing eachother into the snow a block away from where I live. This man shoveling his driveway across the street told us to stop it. I asked him why, if it was private property or something. He didnt have a great answer. Matthieu and I split up and Matthew vanished.That is where my recall ends.

Much better than last night when I remembered nothing! I hope to remember more tomorrow

Some fragments from last night.

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Fragment:

I was in some kind of starship, not unlike one from Star Trek but there was a mixed feel from several space stuff, including a bit from Starpoint Gemini. I was captaining the ship and we were headed straight for a blue-ish planet, covered mostly by water than anything else. I could see the system's star just left of where the planet was, much further away.

Some four or five other green-coloured ships appeared, intercepting and following us closely. I suggested to an officer to simply activate the cloaking device ability and could see in a third-person view from outside the ship as the field enveloped it and the other ships disbanded in separate directions. (Expectable AI behaviour if it were a game)

As we got very close to the planet, I could see everything in a sort of cinematic view and then the ship started getting close to the ground to land somewhere but for whatever reason it had to be at an airport, so the ship kept making really wide loops closing in and away from the planet surface.

Every time we got close, I could see on some disembodied interface some information about the local surface structures. I did see a fair few airports, but many of which had tractors lining up vegetables in the runways. This annoyed me slightly.

There is a transition and I am now on my own at some sort of Japanese-looking castle. It's night-time but I can see the moon and everything looks bright and blue-ish. There are some sort of holographic security features. (This part of the dream vaguely reminded me of Starbound)

Fragment:

Just a small part of some other dream, I was in a town with some friends, not sure who. We just came out of a restaurant that was closing for the night and then two of us went one way, and I wondered where the third member was. I asked my friend, who only vaguely suggested the other might have gone looking for something.

I remember wandering streets, there was a lot of light, from glowing signs and lampposts. I could see people sitting at cafes and so on.

At some point we went into some shop and I wondered again about the missing friend. The friend that was with me was fascinated and excited by rediscovering some sort of cardboard packed plastic ketchup sachets.

The next bit I remember, stuck in some sort of traffic at a four-way junction, with three lanes on each direction.

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Side notes:

• The first dream was a bit more unusual as I haven't had many dreams that take place in space, even though I've played a lot of games that do.
• The view-point changes were sort of frequent in the space dream and they felt a bit like they were made through a keyboard I couldn't quite feel. I suppose this sensation is quite similar to when I'm actually playing or writing something, where the keyboard sort of just becomes an extension of awareness, rather than existing as a physical obstacle, in a sense.
• Most of these dream fragments I am getting lately are written quite a lot later from when I had the dreams, so it's a sign that recall is improving somewhat and I am also noticing more pre-lucid thoughts at a sort of "gut feeling" level, where I am not expressly thinking in spoken words but rather getting feelings or intuition about the dreams' content.