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I just remembered several nightmares in which I became aware I was dreaming, but wasn't aware of dream control. This was many years back. I was running and hiding from a monster, I'm not talking 4 year old one eyed green thing, I'm talking huge ass scary monster with several teeth, and eyes, this thing would scare the shit out of a marine. I realized that this dream would be worse if I just kept running, because I'd be startled by my death, so I openly accepted being killed by it. I remember dying... It was painful. The minute that the extreme pain hit me, I woke up, my body feeling asleep. Back then, I was in a bunk bed, and when I woke up, I jerked up, and hit my head on the bars. That sucked. Well, the more I think about my dreams, the more old ones I recover.

I seem to have done this many times in my younger childhood, realized I was dreaming, and offered myself to the antagonist as an escape. How foolish, if only I had known!

It was one of the first days of school, but luckily I had only an hour or so to go. The subject ahead was sports. Sadly, I couldn't find my sports bag directly, and without consulting the teacher I went searching for it. My passage was blocked because of the cleaning personnel, They were cleaning the hallway giving entrance to the Magritteroom I wanted to enter. I asked the one of the women to give me the key to go inside, she refused. So I asked an Asian cleaning lady and I somewhat begged for it, she was willing to lend me her key. I entered the Magritteroom and it was dark and deserted.

The next thing I remember is still in that room where I find myself digging in a heap of sports bags and emptying them to see if I can find my stuff. I had already built a heap of sports shoes as tall as myself when I gave up and wanted to head home. When I opened the door of the room, I saw 2 teachers heading my way, one of them I knew from a couple of years ago. They somehow knew where I was and they said they wanted to talk to me.

They told me they wanted to speak to me about my bad behavior score of the preceding year. I was stunned because I'm always attentive but also critical towards the subject matters. They told me I scored weak because of my extremist points of views and I should score more this year if I wanted to end this school successfully. They admitted that they were forcing me to stop having the political views I have.

Whew, another lucid, and a few other dreams.
Right, so tonight, I gace DEILD another shot and I think it just became my favourite inducing technique. I attempted it twice tonight, though it only worked the second time. I set my alarm to go off at 4am. I thought that was enough for me to get decent sleep. I woke up about 2-3 hours before the alarm. After feeling concious, my leg twitched and it was enough to get me out of REM, not too dissapointed, I fell asleep.
My alarm went off, I havent moved or blinked. There was this ringing sound in my head. I started counting to ten. As I counted to 7, I felt that incredible feeling again, only weaker than last time. My body became heavy and numb. I knew this was the signal to do a RC. I slowly lifted my hand and pinched my nose. I could breathe. I was A LOT calmer than last time. I layed on my bed, letting everything to settle. I slowly got up and raised my hands before my eyes. They looked normal, no extra fingers or anything strange. They were blurry on the edges though. As I concentrated on my hands, I tried concentrating on the smell, and sound aswell. The one thing I always seem to forget is feeling some texture and tasting something. With that done, I stood up.
I was infront of my mirror. I looked just like the way I do in the real world (The dream even remembered my new haircut I got yesterday)
Only one thing which was odd was that I was wearing clothes. The reflection behind me was my old wardrobe we had, with a christmas calendar . It's gone now. Everything was still blurry and I was feeling dizzy, so I looked down at the ground. Looked up and everything looked stable. I decided to begin exploring my dream.
I woke up my borther this time and asked him to join me. He did so without hesitation. Since it was dark out, I wanted to use some passive control to make it brighter. As we were leaving the apartment, I told my mom that we were going outside, because It's a beutiful and sunny day outside. The hallway looked normal, but it wad darker. As we were climbing down the stairs, I noticed cows while looking trough the window, alot of cows! We're outisde. The outside looked nothing like I've ever seen before. Some cars, a playground and other buildings. I noticed something strange when I was outside aswell. I was avle to finally move freely, without my hands sliding, eyes closing or any other stuff. Next, I wanted to do something fun, so I thought about lifting a car. I walked to a car and slowly bent down. And slowly but surely lifted the car of the ground. Suprisingly, the car was as light a toaster, even lighter. Then I gently put the car down. I was happy, and continued exploring the world. I asked my brother to summon my best friend to where I was, but he refused. I asked him two more times and he still refused. Oh well, I guess I didn't have enough control. Moving along, I aproached a big red wall. Feeling strong, I wanted to destroy it. I would've done it, if I hadn't lost conciousnes. The dream ended and I woke up to my dad leaving for work again. Still, I was happy that I was able to have a lucid dream.
I also remember a few fragments of dream which I had before this one.
I was on vacation last week. We went to see the Baltic Sea

I find myslef climbing a sand dune for my life, because the water is slowly rising. Climbing was EXTREMELY hard and it felt like something was pulling me down.

i'm with armani and we have to get on this ferry in order to go some place that we wanted to get to. while we're on it, there's this old couple that's talking to us about how long they've been together....all that good stuff. i took some food off the ferry and stuffed it in a bag, and told her that we didn't need to ride this thing to get there or something......i don't know.

Freddy had a job interview somewhere far away (a few hours) and asked me to go with him for the drive. we were taking his dad's truck because his car is broken. we got pulled over by Dewey police officers, women, because the tag didn't have a bar code on it. one of them asked me for my I.D. and i didn't want her to know i was underage so i told her i didn't have one.
"why don't you have one?"
"because i don't drive."
"why don't you drive?"
"i don't believe in it."
"oh, okay. i can respect that."
for some reason they searched the car and found some illegal substances and were now arresting us for that, too. one woman had short, thick, black hair and the other had long blonde hair. there was a child with them. i think she belonged to the blonde woman. i had left my purse in the truck and made them turn around so i could get it. once i was back in the police car i took out my cell phone and started calling my mom. one of the women told me to give her my phone "i have to call my fucking mom" was my response. then i woke up very suddenly.

my boyfriend and i were moving into a house together. we kept our tooth brushes in a closet. i remember telling him (after we had already moved in) that i was excited to live with him. we took in these children, i had no idea where they came from. i guess i hadn't told my mother i was moving out and was afraid she would ground me if she found out so a former teacher agreed to let me stay with her until my mother was calm or something....?

i went to an MHS band concert and my friend Kaitlyn was conducting the first song. for some reason i'd brought my pillow and blanket. the song was 'Row Row Row Your Boat' and Kaitlyn sang it. whenever she was done she stepped back into the band and picked up a banjo. someone else was conducting now. i don't remember any music this time but then it was over and it was time to leave. i had my blanket but someone had stolen my pillow. i took it back from the man who had stolen it and then i left.

Libertad in Bacolod. Looking for something. The Smart office? The girl I was with was giving directions, but is finding it hard to describe it. She then said that it's near the dorm where we had a sleep-over before. I said I remember where it is, and so I can find it easily.

Then I was going into that dorm. It was very messy. Not a room I like at all. And it was dark, with only a little yellowish light, as if from a candle, that lights the place. I went into the bathroom and found two guys there, and the toilet bowl was stuffed with either dirty paper or cloth. I think I slept overnight.

I was at home. In the kitchen area. It looks a bit dark. Rainy morning or afternoon.

I was in an office, working on computers. The environment was white. I was with co-workers/students. I was just starting when we were told by a lady in a white lab coat to shut down. I got irritated because it takes ages to shut down my computer.

Then there was a yellow hologram of a woman wearing glasses. She was saying something but I forget, or probably it was inaudible. Then she disappeared. Suddenly, there were robbers. They were demanding access to something. Probably money, but I had the idea of a "key." Then the hologram lady appeared, and she told them it will take them 10 weeks (or something) to access it. And then, in the hologram, she was shot, and she slumped over her desk. A guy appeared in the hologram, and said he got "it." They left.

Then suddenly, the "hologram lady" appeared in the flesh and blood, demanding how they could have broken the code. I went, along with others, to the hologram room. It was nothing more than a 4x4 feet closet, attached beside the window. The door and walls are broken.

I tried tracing the robbers. I draw a pentagram on the wooden floor, and slapped my right hand on it. Then I held it up and feel where they went. They haven't gone far yet. They went into the forest. I chased after them.

The area actually looks more like a camping site. There were tree houses and a mansion nearby. I then encountered a group of classmates (from high school, presumably, but none of them looks familiar) carrying food and drink (beer, probably). They said something about eating or something. I decided to hang out with them.

Hazy. I was in the camp, and was asked what I want to eat. There was only a choice of horse soup(?) at the moment. The priest who was there said that they thought they started the fire before they left. The cook (who looks like a bipedal horse) said that they had to catch the horse to be cooked after that. They started praying and ate.

I was in the city. Italy (how the hell would I know?? I haven't been there, but my mind came up with the place). Someone was chasing "us." There were two of us. And the agents chasing us were from the government. They were trying to catch us with special abilities. Either me or one of us can teleport. We were on a bridge with a lot of people. We "jumped" into something, but were pushed off. It was a scientist doing something. Then we landed on an underwater invention by another scientist. He explained to us how it crawls spider-like on the sea floor. Then he found out we were being chased by the government, and he pushed us off the thing and into the sea of beautiful marine ecology.

Neurosisfish's Dream

Dream 1 - books
I'm sitting across from or beside some girl I know and I am telling her that "I finished the book", referring to a book I recently finished. I get a response I dont expect, but when I wake I realize that no one I know of has read this book and that I dont know this girl either. It was City of Bones.

Dream 2 - On the way to the party
I am walking downtown with a group of 3 guys, 2 are slightly taller and white and the other is shorter and asian. All of us are dressed in nice formal wear and we are walking from one party to another, which I believe to be located in a large stairwell of some sort.
The down town area is very modern, with large metal and glass buildings, some of which are angled and sunken so they resemble awkward triangles more than skyscrapers.
Along the way, we meet 3 other of my other friends who are having a similar party of their own in a close by building. They made something like 200 000 glowing orbs which they hung from the ceiling. we goof around a bit, acting lame. I believe the group I'm with wins this confrontation and continues to walk.

Dream 3 - The party goes on continued from Dream 2
We arrive at the party location; it has large glass doors and white walls, the ceiling is likely 20 ft tall and there are black temporary dividers set up in the middle of the large room, making a square. This looks like the emptied main floor of a large shop.
Farther in, we meet the host. She is shorter and looks part or full asian with Long black hair and dressed in black. The asian guy from the group and her begin to flirt, although he is not that good at it, and in the end she more or less makes him ask her out to dance later for that night.
I know the night is going to be righteous so I set up a small stand to the side for citrus flavored beverages, which the host commends me on. At this point I'm wearing brown slacks, a blue sweater/jacket, and a white shirt with a red pizza hut logo on the front. We walk over to the host, who is now talking to one of my friends that just arrived. The host doesnt seem too pleased at my outfit and she asks me to go buy something nice to wear. I tell her that the shirt is fine, "it's ironic", but she doesnt buy it.
She convinces me to go buy a shirt and I ask if she needs anything to wear since i'm out. She says yes and decides to show me what to get. My friend who was talking to her tags along and I drag my other friend as well.
One of the exits to this floor leads into a shopping mall, and immediately she leads us into a store. The store is dim, furnished with dark woods.
Looking around, she says "I know i've seen it" and I tell her that I can pick something out if I know her style. She picks up a shirt with a little cute drawing on it. I say "So your style is small, cute, and funny, just like you. Awwww" She pushes me through the upheld shirt and I catch a smile on her face.
"Aha!" she exclaims as she walks over to a rack of grey sweaters with a bright green picture of some sort of cute personified iPod drawing on it. She hands me the shirt and walks off with my friend.
I look at the size and it says 56. Looking at this I feel as if it would be a bit large. I look at the rack and the only smaller sizes are 36, 9, and 8. I ask my friend is he knows what size she is, he has no clue.
I text my friend who went off with her to ask her.
and I wake up

All I can recall is just doing a reality check and becoming lucid. That's about it.

I was "playing" gmod (though the dream was in 1st person perspectie with nothing outside of the game and all the visuals life like). (it's a sandbox game where you build stuff) with some folks from the other internet forum I am on. One of them was building this highly realistic cave like sturcture in the middle of the map. I was passively observing the construction process while I was messing with my train carriage system I had built for the track on the map. At one point, this dude invited me to try the cave structure out. I went in, he put and froze a big boulder in the opening of the cave, so I couldn't get out. I walked inwards, the cave was sloping downwards. At one point, I saw bars like those from a jail cell in t he middle, and I continued, I knew this was a map change in game, even though I was technically in the game myself, and not just controlling it. I went through a fwe more of those, and finally arrived at this longer corridor. At the end there was this dark haired young girl singing awkwardly and sadly and staring at me. She got up and started walking towards me. Then she jumped towards me at inhumane speeds. I tried to noclip but instead hit my head on the ceiling. I went through a few map changes while trying to get out, but in the end, the cave was a maze of sorts, and I couldn't find my way out. Dream end.

Last night (this morning) i had 3 different lucids, but each one lasted only like 5 seconds probably because i was stupid and did no stabilzation on 2 of them

Dream 1: I was sitting on my couch already lucid. I looked around, noticed i was in what seemed like my living room, but there were no doors. I noticed the TV was on, but before i could see what was on, I woke up.

Dream 2: I was laying in my bed, not really doing anything, and did a random reality check. I plugged my nose and tried to breath in.At first it seemed like i could breath, but when i tried it a second time, it didn't work. Then, i checked my hands. All fingers, no deformities, so i figured maybe i wasn't dreaming. Just to be 100% sure, i plugged my nose again and tried to breath. This time i was sure i was dreaming. However, my eyes started to close. I rubbed my hands to try to stabalize the dream, and it seemed to work. Then I tried to slowly open my eyes so that i wouldn't wake up, but unfortunately, it didn't work and i woke up.

Dream 3: I had just done a DEILD and was pretty sure i was in a dream. I plugged my nose, and i could breath! but before i could even think of what to do or even stablize the dream, it started to fade and I woke up. Damn, not having any luck today

I tried MILDING, and then WILDING, the previous night I had only a fragment of a dream. I feel like I'm starting to recall more now.

ASIANS AND KIAS: I was walking around the second floor of a parking lot, full of Kia compact cars, all identical to each other. I choose one with a weird iPod mp3 system, which is placed where the gear shift should be. Had the play, skip, etc on it. I drive it to my house in CT, and I pull a swim floaty from underneath the seat. Then a girl comes up to me, this really cute Asian DC and is all bubbly and happy. I say "you like my friend?" and she explains why to me. It was dark out and I even remember parking infront of my neighbors house and having the conversation on the sidewalk.

Dream signs: Not in CT anymore, don't have a KIA, don't know a really cute Asian girl.

The entire dream was from third person perspective. At first I saw the outside of a large Bavarian style building with brown and white. It was snowy outside. Inside it was like a giant warehouse with cement walls and floors. There were a total of two stories with and open floor plan and wide stairs connecting the floors. The cement floors were stained. The main dream character I was watching was a young mixed woman on the slightly heaver side. She had short curly hair. She was walking through the warehouse, meeting men on set up dates and deciding who would move with her to California. All the guys were tall. There were about 3, maybe 4 guys in total. She picked out a guy with blonde hair who looked and acted like a weirdo. She kept talking about how they were going to live with her sister and then find her own place. They had to do some type of obstacle together where they were walking on wooden beams and crawling through giant yellow foam pillows. It was kind of a weird dream for me. Not the most enjoyable or adventurous as mine usually are. Maybe because I wasn't one of the characters in it?

Created this account because I didn't like my last username, also I wanted a fresh start on here, and I want to charter my progress from the very beginning.
I have little experience of lucid dreaming, although I have read many guides and I am familiar of many techniques.
I will write my dreams and attempts here, although most will be fails I expect at the start, I think it will be usefull if I am successful to show people the progress of someone starting from the very beginning.

09/08/2011 - Tomorrow morning I'll be attempting a WILD WBTB, going to go to sleep at 12 and wake up at 6am. I did fail last night, although I am learning from every experience, so far I think the best way to achieve WILD is to chill out, not be excited, try to almost fall asleep yet remain aware.