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I am now doing training excersises with other troopers. I get bored, and suddenly feel a playful feeling. I want to see what's around that corner. I start running, and as an afterthought realise I'm dreaming. I sprint at very fast speed and find a wall. I phase through it and I am in a tiny walled garden. I know I will not be disturbed. I say humbly "May I please humbly meet my dream guide?" Two leaves sprout on the silver birch. I attempt again.
A wildly distorted man steps out of the tree. I ask him "What is your name?" He says "Don Bloot". With him I fly ultra fast into a red-brick house. I am in a room like my bedroom. I ask "Do not be offended, but you do not look how I expected." He replies "Your corrective thinking should fix that" I focus, and he transforms into an athletic average height olive-skinned man. He nods. I suddenly can't remember that I phased through a wall to get in to the garden. I attempt to phase through things and fail. I ask "How can I do it?" He amusedly says "Quiche don't normally fly so high in the sky." I see a quiche peek in at the window, but he is referring to both of us.I wake up. A baked thought comes into my mind, "Do not think outside the box, nor the inside. There is no box."

NOTES:
I have learnt dream control, but it is clear I needed him as a guide. (Quiche don't normally fly so high in the sky.) Don Bloot means Lord Bare

10.20.2016
10:00 AM

Hylian Shield? (DILD)

The begining of this dream is rather x rated so I will let you use your imagination for that part. I spontaneously become lucid. I decide to do something useful rather than continue the shenanigans. I miss Juliana so I summon her but I summon someone else who is way to short and squat. I un summon themm and try again. This time it is her and she hugs me. She points out that it has been a while. I ask her if we can go on a mission or something and she says it would be better to train. I say I wan't to try the evil witch mission from DHL but she thinks it's a waste of time to get ahead of ourselves and walks off. I remember that I summoned the master sword and want to show her. I chase after her and say that I have made some progress since I last saw her and summon the Master Sword from behind my back. "The master sword huh?" She says. "Maybe there is a mission we can go on. Grab my hand." I grab her hand and we are teleported infront of some building.

The first time someone else has teleported me. Cool.

There are bouncers in front of the door. She says to just act cool. We walk past the bouncers and they don't stop us, even with me carying a sword. I use a touch of mind control to make sure they can't notice. There is a party going on. Mostly there are 20 somethings eating food. Juliana sits down at a table and munches on some snacks and says the Hylian Shield is somewhere in this building. I look into the kitch and see cooks working. I look down another hallway and see a few more party goers security guards patrolling. I go back to Juliana and ask her where I am suppose to be looking. She says that the person who owns the sheild will probably be ariving soon and to follow them. I suddenly wake up though and don't feel like I can DEILD

I had a pretty hard time sleeping this night. I rolled on my bed for hours while my mind was going over all kinds of nonsensical toughts. Sometimes I'd get lost in these weird toughts and then snap back and realise I still hadn't fall asleep. There was a point were I couldn't tell if I had already fallen asleep and woken up from a dream, which was pretty frustrating because I wanted to do a WBTB. Despite all that I finally had a dream.

Dream 1:
I was in class back in school and the teacher was, for some reason, asking us videogame questions. Everyone else was struggling to answer and I was getting all of them right. I remember one question being about Kirby and the other one being about the Pokémon Mudkip.

Some old classmate that I don't like started saying something that annoyed me, I got angry and started talking back, but noticed I was getting too out of hand and tried to regain my composure and just go along with him, I don't think he was that intent on making me mad, he was mostly joking around.

A while after thst, people started getting up and packing up their stuff. I noticed everyone had their PE uniforms on and asked some guy if it was PE class next and he confirmed it. I was kinda annoyed because I don't like PE, but I started packing up anyway. I noticed someone left a bag and some videogame controllers behind and I was asking around to find out who left it behind. I also remember seeing a friend who I didn't see in a long time and being happy.

I woke up, happy that I got some sleep and decided to try WILD, but fell asleep.

Dream 2:
I was in my room at night and got up out of bed. I started looking like at the shelfs beside my bed and picked up my Wii U gamepad controller. I then realise there was another one, and began to get very confused. I checked it to see if it had the hylian markings just like mine, which is a limited edition one, and indeed they were identical. I started tried to remember if I accidentaly took someone else's gamepad home with me by mistake, but I was very sure I didn't. I took both of them to the window, hoping the light from outside could help me examine them better, but it was still too dark. I went outside my room and stood by the table outside the kitchen, trying to work out what was happening there. I got suspicious that it was a dream and nose plug RC and I could breathe!

I looked at my hands and tried the finger method to remember my goals. Stabilize, find my DG and fly. I could remember all of them. I was actually amazed by the lifelike lucidity of this dream. I had never had a dream so vivid and lucid before, I basically had waking-level lucidity. I looked outside and it was still dark. I don't like being in the dark in my dreams, so I said something like "Time to rise, sun!" and clapped. The sun slowly started rising and things started to get brighter. I went to my grandmother's room and directly to the window. I teared out the protective window net so I could jump out. As I was preparing to jump out and fly, I had second-toughts and decided to pick up a rope to lower myself down, afraid that I might fall down. I found a rope, tied it somewhere and began descending. I tought it was a bit slow for my liking, but then decided that wasn't such a big deal.

Once I could touch the floor, I ran inside a house where I found a big TV. I called out for it, and static began to appear, then forming the word "Yes" on the screen. I interpreted that as "Yes, what is it?" and told it I was ready to meet my dream guide. Some words appeared on screen, as if it was trying to load something and Kermit the frog appeared on screen. He was the conductor of a train and was frantically pulling the whistle and pointing to the right. I tought the TV could only communicate with TV shows and stuff like that. I looked right and there was a door leading outside. I asked the TV if that was where I would find my DG and Kermit kept pulling the whistle and pointing in that direction. I got really excited and ran outside.

As soon as I was outside, I saw some guys running around and wrecking havock. They were dressed like old-west bandits, or at least that's what I tought because the bright red masks got my attention. I was pondering if I should chase them and remembered I'm in the dream hero league and probably should do some hero work. I also tought this might be a "trial" from my DG. I began chasing them down the street and they ran. Along the way I got worried by the dream destabilizing and stopped to do some stabilizing. I tried to feel a glass door. I then tought that by going through the door, the sensation might stabilize the dream, so I pushed my hands through the glass like I usually do. I pulled back and decided I should stabilize properly after dealing with the bandits.

I caught up with them and lifted my right arm up, thinking I should use my hero powers. It began charging up with some static (my power basically powers up any part of my body) and I puched one of the bandits on the guts. I started doing some crazy moves, like punching a guy up in the air, jumping and slamming him on another guy. My words here simply can't do justice to this scene, the movement was so fluid and vivid. Despite being pretty one-sided, it was an awesome fight. After I dealt with them, I found myself in a shopping. I saw a bunch of people eating pizza, which gave me a craving for pizza. This is where, unfortunately, I completely forget about my DG. I instead go inside a restaurant and aks the clerk at the cash register for some free pizza. I looked in my pockets trying to find some money, but didn't find anything, so I had to come up with some way to get free pizza. I tell her I'm from the Dream Hero League and heroes have "hero credit" which allow them to get free stuf. She argued there was no such thing. This woman was pretty grumpy and clearly didn't enjoy her job, which was annoying me. I said that yes, there was something like that and I put my finger on some kind of fingerprint scanner (I guess to confirm that I was a hero). Nothing happened and the woman said "... aaand my hand has been forced.". She started rambling about hating her life or something and I told her to see a psychologist or something like that. I walked away and lost lucidity at this point. I saw an ad for cheddar pizza play out for some reason, then the dream shifted to another woman who was prancing around in a farm along two white fences. Instead of being pointy, the fences had orbs on then, with some weird blue-green thing that was put over then, kinda like a swimming cap. She passed by some children putting the blue-green thing on the fences and at the end there was a kid putting it on her own head. At this point I woke up, excited because of the dream I just had.

09.09.2016
08:00 AM

Hanging Out With Juliana 2 (DILD)

My bedroom is the bathroom of a fair grounds??? I am try to sleep but I see people waling around outside. I get out of bed and look in the mirror. I notice that I have nipple piercings. WTF? I put on a shirt and do a nose plug rc and become lucid. I summon Juliana. She has long red hair again and I tell her I like this look best on her. She is wearing a red button up shirt with short sleeves, a black tie, skirt, and coat with a short cape attached to the shoulders. We go outside and I forget that I was going to ask for my next magic lesson. I mention the fact that I have never seen her cat form and ask her to transform. She says there are to many people around and she has something to show me first. We run for about 30 seconds to the other side of the fair where there are food places. She says to get this one thing on the menu. I see that it is $30 and don't want to spend that money. I had lost a lot of lucidity I guess. Dream money doesn't matter! I ask her to use a spell to make the workers not charge me so much. She pulls out a wand and waves it around and says it worked. I go over and order it. I momentarily loose stability while they make my food. It is a hot dog with pulled pork and nacho cheese and other things on it. It also comes with fries and a large cupcake. It is friken amazing! I start to wake up again and can't find Juliana so I stick my hand back. She takes hold of it right away and points to some other food I should try. I remember what my actual goal was as I wake up.

Since my last journal entry I have had very bad recall and been very busy with the start of school on top of that so I took a little break to figure out my new schedule. This morning I woke up and realized it was a good time to get started again and did MILD.

09.08.2016
12:00 PM

Hanging Out With Juliana (MILD)

I am Supermans side kick or something. We are fighting Lex Luthor I think. There is an old lady crossing the street and Superman says to help her while he fights. I go and fly her across the street to her hotel and help her find her room. I get a sense that this is a dream and wonder if I will become full lucid. I finish walking her down the hall just to make sure I feel I finished that dream plot and do a nose plug. I think specifically about how I shouldn't fly out to superman and continue the fighting. I fly out the window and fly around Hollywood. I land and find myself in front of a 5 story building. I remember my goal is to just have a nice talk with Juliana so I stick my hand back. I feel her grab mine but it takes some focus to make it feel vivid. I say hi twice and then she responds. I look back and this time she has a buzz cut! It looks pretty good actually. She and I start walking and talking into the building and I say, "Wait. Every time I see you we start walking somewhere urgently. We don't have to go anywhere today let's just hang out and talk." "Okay, but lets go right inside here and sit down." She says.

We go in and it's a hospital. We go in one of the rooms and sit on the bed. There is another patient in the bed next to us but they don't mind. I find on a table two giant delicious chocolate chip cookies and we each take one. It is really good! I say to her, "Could you show me more of your magic. Like something flashy and cool like the fireworks from last time." She says, "Sure!" and snaps her fingers and there is a bright blue flash surrounding her hand. "Cool!" I say. "How about something even more creative! What else can you do?" She says, "Okay. Look at that trash can." She points at it and a spark flys from her finger and into it. Two eyes and a mouth emerge from the front of the trash can and it starts talking in jiberish! "Cool! What happens if you make it inanimate again? Let me try." I have finished my cookie and stick out my finger to give it a try. The garbage can looks scared and pretends to be normal but I can tell it is just faking. "Here." Juliana says and sends another spark that makes it go back to normal. I start to destabilize and wake up or have an FA, I don't know, but I DEILD.

I am in the loby of a hotel and skateboard out the door. Strange, I don't know how to skateboard well. I skateboard and follow someone on a bike. We fall into a pool and people try to help us out and I destabilize again.

I am in a residential neighborhood and very unstable still. I walk up to a car and feel it. There are flowers growing out of the engine. I am stabilized now and decide to summon Juliana again. This time she has a brown pixie cut. It is much easier to summon her this time. We go for a walk and talk. "Do you know Androx?" She starts to think. "He is a talking cat, or a witch or something." She says she thinks she knows who I'm talking about and that it isn't supprising he found me. I say he sent me to fight evil witches and she starts laughing. "What? Are you an evil witch?" "No it's not that I just don't think there is such a clear line between good witches and evil witches. It just dosn't work that way in my opinion." "So you arn't a good witch?" She shrugs. "Well I guess you are a neutral witch then and I am okay with that.", I say. We pass by some people who are playing music loud. It is like metal mixed with drum and bass. As we walk away Juliana uses magic to make it louder. At the drop we can't help but start dancing to it. We can't really tell if we should be head banging or dancing like its electronic. haha I eventually wake up and decided to write this down before I forget it.

I keep falling asleep though and eventually have a dream that I am Purple Man's pawn like in Jessica Jones.

I woke up naturally at 6:45AM for my WBTB which was nice. Couldn't quite remember my dream. My non lucid recall has been sort of shitty for the last week. I took 8mg Glanatamine and 600 mg Alpha GPC with some fruit. After a half hour of listening to anime soundtracks and setting my intentions I did some SSILD and tried WILD. I got some imagery that wouldn't stick and eventually got out of bed but the dream never stabilized so I won't bother putting an entry for that. I kept waking up and doing nose plugs but they weren't false awakenings. Eventually a dream formed but I had lost most of my lucidty.

08.17.2016
09:38 AM

Magic Lesson One: Rock Climbing (SSILD)

I am in a final fantasy style RPG on a game boy advanced. I remember playing this game before in a different dream and wan't to speed run through it to get back to where I was before. I set up my character and complete the first area to receive my sword. I then attack some enemies with it. I get to the overworld and make my way to where I can get my first companion which is a warrior guy. I then go through the overworld to a mine where I can start leveling the mining skill. I forgot though that you have to talk to this mole man NPC first to get access. I go to the first dungeon and also get a mage girl companion. We defeat the boss of the dungeon and I wake up a bit.

I am a semi lucid now and in my own body. I am at the edge of my college at night. I want to keep playing the game so I pull a GBA out of my pocket and wonder how to get back into it. I start running around while I look at the GBA and thinking about how to turn the mechanics into a real game. I realize I don't have a GBA and remember that this is a dream. This is my chance!

I stop running and actually skid because I am going so fast! It is dark but there is a street light so I feel comfortable. I see a DC is jogging along the sidewalk. I walk out into the street and remember that I wanted to try a stability potion first. I put my hand back and summon a bottle. It is triangle shaped with a small cork and green liquid in it. I pull the cork off and drink the entire bottle. The dream destabilizes for a second and then completely restabilizes. It isn't the most vivid dream but I feel like it will last a long time. Another random DC runs by. I say out loud, "Juliana, I am ready for my lesson." I flow energy through my hands and stick them out. "I now understand the importance of body, mind, and spirit!"

Anime -esque flash back time! Previously when I asked Juliana to give me my lesson she told me to read some books first. I started with Journey to the West and read the chapter titled "Monkey King studies magic" The Monkey King (the character in my avatar) went to study with a sage to learn to be immortal. After 7 years he had to choose which philosophical discipline to focus on but was disappointed to learn that none of them would teach him immortality. The sage took him aside and told him he could learn the secrets of body, mind and spirit which isn't a formal discipline but the forces that hold the universe together. This is how The Monkey King gained immortality and a bunch of other magical powers!

From there I knew the other books would relate somehow to the body, mind, and spirit. The book on astral projection is related to developing the energy body. The book on zen is related to focusing the mind. The other books where the Vedas and I learned more about the Ātman, the "true self". I can do energy flow simulation to work on my body schema and I can do zazen meditation to work on my mind but I couldn't find any meditation to work on the spirit. Considering I don't believe in a literal soul stuff like transcendental meditation seems like complete bullshit. I ended up realizing that just listening to good music is a great way to meditate on spirit! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LaJoDAXkSMw Now, back to the dream!

I imagine Juliana appearing in front of me in a puff of smoke. Nothing happens. Hmm. Well, it was worth a try. Another random DC runs by and startles me. What is with these DCs? I stick both my hands back and feel someone take hold of them. "Hi Juliana." I say. "Hey Matthew." she replies. I turn around and it's her. I hug her and notice she has dark hair again and her witches hat this time. "I'm ready for my lesson." I say. She looks around and takes in the environment. "It's dark here. Let's go somewhere with more light." and she points to one of the buildings at the college. We walk over there and I ask,"Hey Juliana, I'm curious, what is your natural hair color. I've seen you with red hair and dark hair." "My natural hair color?" she says. "Oh, it's grey but I'm always changing it." I say, "Grey? Are you sure? Okay." She looks at me with wide eyes and says, "Matthew, I want to ask you where you come from." I am a little taken of guard and say, "Haha okay. I want to know a lot more about you too." "Ya, but you sort of popped up out of no where and now I'm your dream guide but we hardly really know each other."

We get to the door of the building and she opens it. It looks nothing the same on the inside. There are students everywhere in white uniforms. There is a staircase even though it is a one story building from the outside. We walk in and I see a door at the end of the hall with light coming through the window. "You did it! Let's go through there." I say. There are so many students I get destabilized a bit in the commotion but because of the potion it is really easy to stabilize again. I look back and see that Juliana has changed into a guy with aviator sunglasses on. She looks like Dave from homestuck but I can feel it is still her somehow. I take her hand so we stay together and we go to the door. "Let's make it a basketball court." I say as I open the door and go through. It really is a basketball court on the other side and it's day time! There are DCs talking and playing and there are tall buildings around the park.

"Okay, let's start the lesson. We walk over to a bench and she sits down except now she is an indian boy. "I did the research on body, mind, and spirit." She nods and smiles. I go on,"Body I can develop with energy flow simulation. Mind I can develop with zazen meditation." She looks happy that I figured this stuff out. "Spirit I had a hard time with though." She looks concerned. "You see, I don't believe in spirits" She is about to say something but I explain myself. "Well, I believe in spirit, but not souls. In my mind, spirit is the essence of a person. Their passions, feelings, and relationships. I don't think there is a metaphysical thing determining those things. Not in the waking world but I would imagine souls are real in the dream world." Juliana looks very confused. "Waking world? What is that?" I say, "That's where I go when I wake up. You don't know about the waking world?" She squints at me and says, "So that is why there is something different about you." I ask, "So where do you go when you go to sleep?" She says, "Another dream world." I ask,"Haven't you ever woken up before?" She replies, "Not Really. So what happens when really wake up?" "Look." I say. "We should get to my lesson. Contemplate this and we can talk more about it some other time. Also, why do you look like an indian boy?" "Oh, sorry." She says and gets enveloped in a white light as she transforms. I stand next to her to help her get the height right. I ask to see the red hair this time. She looks like herself again with the red hair.

"Okay, your first lesson." She points at some kids playing on the side of the court. The kids around here like to get them selves in all sorts of trouble. They go in places they aren't suppose to and do dangerous things." We walk down the court. "See all these tall buildings." I nod. "They like to climb up the walls and do graffiti way high up. The adults just can't climb up there to clean it but the kids never fall." We stop at the end of the block. "Your first magic lesson is to climb to the top." I ask,"What's magical about rock climbing?" She explains,"I know it isn't extravagant but it will teach you all the principles. Go ahead and choose a building and get climbing."

I choose a building and start pulling myself up on the brick and engravings. I get up a ways and find myself at a difficult spot. "Look at 11 o'clock." I look up and a bit to the left. I see a flourish decoration that will make a good handhold. "Thanks Juliana!" I say and keep climbing. "What is this dreamviews thing on your phone?" she says. I look down and I am higher up than I thought. "Hey, what are you doing with my phone?" I shout. "Don't fall and wake up or you will loose your cell phone!" she says. "Even if I wake up I won't loose my phone." I say and keep climbing. "So what happens to your stuff if you wake up? Doesn't it disappear too?" she says. "Ha ha that isn't how it works." I say. "When you go to another dream world you don't bring your stuff. If you are inexperienced that is. Hey, who is this Chiara girl? Is she your giiiiirfriennnnnnnd?" she giggles. "Yes, that's my girlfriend." I say. "Your waking life girlfriend? Let's go through your texts!" I am very high up now but there is an over hang. I am starting to get the point of all of this. While I was distracted by Juliana I climbed much faster and easier. If I am just confident and go with it I can do anything! I make it over the overhang and can see the top now but I start to destabilize. I think about what I learned and use it to just go with it and stay anchored to the dream. I imagine myself holding the top ledge and the dream restabilizes. I pull myself to the top. Juliana is just a little dot now. I give out a victory yell and jump off. I float gently down and as I am landing near Juliana I take away her phone. I see that she has her hat off so I take that too and plop it back on her head. She looks a bit guilty but happy. I start to wake up and while I have more to say to Juliana I feel like it is time. After all, I have a lot of dialogue to right down before I forget it!

So my feeling was right! Juliana does know it's a dream but I am surprised she didn't know there is a real waking world. I look forward to continuing that conversation and my magic lessons.

Note to self: Make a point of getting out of bed durring WBTB. Otherwise you won't become awake enough to get a lucid and may even fall asleep before journaling your dreams.

08.06.2016
07:20 AM

Chicagoland Gangster (MILD)

I am helping my dad put up the Christmas lights at night. I notice the neighbor is putting his up too but he is trying to do it as fast as possible. He has 6 ladders so he doesn't have to keep moving them. I say he should be careful but he doesn't set up a ladder right and falls off and the whole house falls over with him. I run over and ask if he is okay. He moans in pain. I ask where it hurts and he hold out his arm. I tell him to move his fingers and he can so I feel his arm for breaks. I can't find any but he winces when I touch his shoulder. I tell him he may have gotten away with just bruises but he is very lucky.

I go back to the house and realize it is my sister's house in the suburbs south of Chicago. There is a bunch of family over for Christmas I guess and my nieces and nephews are running around. I go to eat some food but their dog runs up to get my attention and sits in my food. My brother laughs and I throw away the food. The kids run outside and I follow to see what they are up to. I loose them and start to fly to follow them without actually becoming lucid. I see there are many DCs loitering around and I ask them what they are doing out at night. "The weather is so nice." They explain. "Ya, I guess because I'm from California I am used to clear skies." Wait, that doesn't explain why they are out at night. I fly up higher and see the city before me but it looks like a fanciful city with castles and sci fi parts and shiny blue buildings. There are different districts with different styles. It reminds me sort of Disneyland and also some of the Lego sets from the 90s.

I land in a busy intersection closer to the city and become fully lucid spontaneously. I do a nose plug RC and my nose feels a bit stuff but it still works. I look around and before I can remember my goals I see a DC that stands out. He wears a grey suit over a white shirt and tie. His arms aren't in the sleeves the jacket is just hung over his shoulders. He also has a tan fedora on. His arm is around a blond woman and he is pointing something out to her. I remember I am suppose to be finding a gangster who stole something from a rich DC. "Hey you!" I should while floating in the intersection. He doesn't notice. "Hey you! I know you are a gangster!" That gets his attention. He makes an intimidating face while he looks around but when he actually spots me floating above him he looks scared and runs, leaving the woman behind confused. I give chase and easily keep up by flying. He has a pistol and shoots back at me while running. I use telekinesis to slow down the bullets and nudge them to the side. He throws the pistol to the side turns around. He drops the jacket from his shoulders revealing tommy machine gun! He unloads on me in full auto. I don't have time to slow down the bullets so must deflect the entire stream which is much more difficult. I have to strafe to the side in the air and start to bend the stream of bullets even harder. I have an idea and curve the bullets into a u shape back towards the gangster. The bullets hit the ground behind him and I refine my aim until it hits him. He drops down to one knee and I think it's over but he starts shooting once again. I can't hold his aim for ever so I remember my plan for just this situation. I reach out my other hand and use telekinesis with that hand to grab the barrel of the gun and bend it upwards. The gun explodes in his face and he is flung backwards.

I touch down and the dream starts to destabilize while I walk toward the body. I touch some fence but the body is still blurry. I get to the body and focus on the details and restabilize. I see that it is a woman who has been hit in the cross fire. I think to call the police but realize she is already dead. I promise myself never to let DCs get hurt on my missions again. I turn back and find the gangsters body a few feet away. I feel around his clothes and to try and find his pocket. I notice he is only shot once in the chest and he is probably going to survive. I find his pocket and pull out a ziplock back. Inside there is a clear bag of crystals and two black fabric bags. I take out one of the black bags and look inside. It is filled to the brim with diamonds! I put the bags back in my pocket and realize I didn't have a plan for what to do next and feel like I have plenty of dream time left. I consider having sex to reward myself and fly away to take another look at the city. The different districts are layed out the same as they were before and I wonder if I can visit it again. I also see a district that looks like Edo Japan and a Colosseum with a horse race track next to it. I consider summoning Juliana but decide to do that next time. I see a roller coaster with a lot of DCs in line so I go down there to explore. The line goes through an under ground structure and I go in. I realize I have to pee and find the mens bathroom. I am about to go but realize it's a really bad idea to pee in a dream. I go back outside and see a woman in skimpy athletic clothing talking to another DC. I strike up a conversation with them and they say there is a full gym in this complex as well as a lot of other attractions. The girl invites me to work out with her and I accept. She is more interesting to talk to than have sex with anyways. She asks "What should I work on today. What about my legs?" puts her foot up on the wall. I say,"To be honest those are the nicest legs I have ever seen." She says,"Oh thanks. It's probably because I do karate." and she ties her shoes. I start to loose lucidity as I walk with her to the gym and we talk about karate. She says she does a form of french karate that I have never heard of. I wonder if I have heard of that before and wake up.

08.06.2016
10:20 AM

I'm Not Your Dream Guide! (MILD)

I find myself in a street in Chicago. Real Chicago this time. I feel like I am in a canyon because the buildings are all so tall. There is one hill where the road is extremly steep. I slide down it on my knees and feel that I can sort of float. I become lucid and fly down to the street corner. There is a movie theater and I go under the overhang of the box office to get into the shade. I stick my hands back and feel a hand grab it. I pull the person forward but they are invisible even though I can feel them. I let go and try again, this time with both hands. It is more vivid this time and I pull them forward so they are hugging me from behind. I notice they are shorter than me and don't really feel like my dream guide but I pretend not to notice. "Juliana?" I ask and look behind me. It is a girl with black hair in a bun, a black top, and a white skirt with pokadots. They actully look more like Mila Kunis than Juliana but for some reason I just pretend they are Juliana. I ask here where her hat is and she says,"What hat?" I see a hat stuck in the rafters and think it must have blown off in the summoning. I tell her to use magic to get it down but she says she can't. I fly up and put it on her head. It is a white witches hat with a spiraling piece of metal supporting the point. She says,"I don't wan't to wear a hat!". I reply,"But it is a cute outfit." and she say, "But it is to humid for a hat!" and throws it on the ground. This doesn't really seem like my dream guide but I say she should teach me some magic. She says she doesn't know what I'm talking about and I say,"But your my dream guide." and she says,"I'm not your dream guide!"

A group of DCs walks up to go into the theater and one of them is my friend. I high five him but he gets pulled inside by the other DCs. He stops at the door to ask,"Hey, are we still going to go to vegas later this month?" and I say, "Ya, I'll message you." I turn back to the girl and wonder why she is being a bitch and wake up. It is only after waking up that it wasn't Juliana and I sort of messed up. haha Next time I will make sure to summon someone who is a bit taller than me so I don't doubt whether it is her and have it turn into someone else.

Yesterday I received my package of galantamine and alpha gpc. This is my first time using these supplements. I don't like to rely on supplements but I have heard good things about galantamine and wanted to give it a try. I am not very good at WILD because I take a while to start dreaming. This should act sort of like training wheels while I build up my WILD skills. The only other supplements I have tried are b vitamins and choline which simply ensure I am not deficient. Galantamine, on the other hand, puts your brain into over drive and produces more acetycholine than it naturally does. Alpha GPC is a more powerful form of Choline than what I used before because I will need a even larger supply.

After 4.5 hours of sleep I wrote down a short non lucid dream and took 8mg of galantamine and 600gm of alpha gpc with a granola bar and some water. My WBTB was half an hour long and while I started to feel more alert I didn't feel like it was a good night for WILD so I a mainly set my intentions for DILD.

08.04.2016
08:00 AM

Galantamine Works (DILD)

I am at some sort of makers festival. Adam Savage is giving a demonstration of a home made roller coaster someone made. In the dream I am an acquaintance of Adam's so he allows me to demonstrate it for the crowd. I hang from a little seat and swing around a track and it is surprisingly fun for being such a small ride. Afterwards, I go back to an RV that I guess my dad, sister, and I are renting for the trip. I see that we left it running and now the battery is dead and it won't start. I feel tired and stressed so I decide to take a nap. I also remember driving the RV through some snow covered mountains but I don't remember if that was after or before this section.

I wake up in an FA and I am having breakfast with Harry Potter and the Weasley family in their kitchen while the sun is still coming up. Aurthur, Molly, William, Ron, and Harry are there with me. I find myself drinking a glass of burbon on the rocks. Aurthur says what I was thinking,"Isn't it a bit early for that?" Molly says,"Oh, dear, don't drink that. You will have a nasty hang over at the wedding." I take a sip and it tastes fricken delicious. It has strong fruity notes and a spicy kick at the finish. I say, "Try this though. It is so good!" and hand it to Aurthur and Molly for them to try. Aurthur says "hm!" and Molly says,"That is good!" Percy comes in a bit later and doesn't look like he does in the movies. He has glasses like in the books and longer hair. At first I wonder if he is Charlie but he says something pretentious and I know it's more likely Percy. Things start to explode around us and we take cover. I teleport outside and hide in the bushes except instead of The Burrow it is my family home. Voldemort floats up and shoots an avadakadavra spell through the window and I see Bellatrix Lestrange running and laughing. I teleport again.

I am on a space ship that is being boarded by another ship. I am captured and going to be taken to be a slave of The Collector from Guardians of the Galaxy. Some of us escape somehow and end up on a grungy space station. My girlfriend is there now and we go into a dark room where a crowd is watching a play. It is about the religion Santeria and I have to explain to my girlfriend how Santeria works and isn't Catholicism. People shush us. After not to long the play ends and I go up to tell the actors and actresses they did a good job. One of the blond actresses says we should all hang out sometime and insists on getting our contact information. I write my number and email on a sticky note and leave. I am in a city on some other planet now. All the buildings look like they are decaying and falling apart. There are lots of DCs walking around in this area.

I hear a voice in my head. It is the actress from earlier. She says that she has hacked all my accounts with the info I gave her. What the heck? She says,"Thanks for putting your username and password on there too." What? I didn't put my password on there. I start running and go into a less populated area. Where am I anyways? I climb up one of the collapsing buildings and stand on the roof. The city extends very far and is just as messed up looking all over. There is an ocean nearby and mountains and the sky is very blue.

I become lucid and feel very euphoric and happy. I jump off the building and fall for a bit. I catch myself and feel that the gravity on this planet is a little bit heavier. I start flying out over the ocean where there mountains are sticking out of the water. There are tall stone columns like in Zhangjiajie China except sticking out of the ocean. There is collorful foliage on the cliffs and a giant waterfall coming out of one of them. This reminds me a lot of the Vision of Beasts in Far Cry Primal. It feels very trippy. I remember that to get the most points for Spellbee2's contest I need to do my third three-step task which is the completely phase through something. I see one of the pillars ahead and decide to use that. I prepare myself and fly as fast as I can at it. I put my hand in front of my eyes so I can focus on making my peripheral vision move as fast as possible. I remove my hand and fly right through the pillar. It is the thickest thing I have ever phased through and makes a phwomp sound as I do so.

I turn back to the mainland and see the dead city sprawling before me. Only one building looks normal. It is a redish brick castle on a small rock island right off the coast. That must be where my dream guide is. I fly down to it and land on the highest tower. I stick my hand back and feel a hand take hold of mine. I start to wake up though and loose visuals. I am determined and maintain the feeling of the hand. I pull it forward and feel the rest of the arm too. I feel a dress that feels like the one my dream guide wore the first time we met. She jumps up and hugs me with her legs wrapped around me. I still can't see anything. I hold her up and compare our heights. I estimate that she is about my height but taller than me with her heels on. "Dream guide?" I say. I try and see her face and I am a bit startled as my vision comes back suddenly and a bit distorted. She doesn't have a witch hat on this time and I try and see the color of her hair. It starts out red but as the dream stabilizes it becomes dark purple. "Hi Monkey." she says with a kind smile. She looks slightly different than last time with dark hair I think but it is definitely her.

My dream journal says the first time I met her her hair was probably dark purple although I had a hard time remembering for sure. The second time it was definitely red. A few weeks later when I saw this wallpaper for Runescape. I knew that was almost exactly what her face and hair looked like. Now that I pull up that wallpaper in photoshop and make the hair purple it does in fact look how she looks in this dream!

"I'm sorry. I never asked your name when we first met." I apologize. Somehow a name comes to my mind, however. Juliana Is that a false memory? Did I ask her name in a previous dream and forget until now? "You don't remember?" she says. "Well, actually, now I don't know." I reply. "Go ahead. Say it." she insists. "Juliana?" I ask. "Bingo" We start walking toward a walk way along the castle walls. "Where have you been this whole time Juliana? I don't mean to be rude but you haven't exactly been much of a guide." I ask her. "Where have I been? It's not like you haven't been absent too. I'm a busy lady. This last couple days I was captured while fighting against the Darshana. Aleins that are working for ?????? I don't remember the name here. She starts to explain more stuff but I stop following her and say "Wait, before we get any further, will you follow me around till the end of this dream?" "No" she scoffs "Your following me. I'm the guide." "I just have to ask that for the Task of the Month." I explain. "Fine" she says and we start to walk again I see that we are walking up some steps toward some sort of dome structure. "You sure are spunky Juliana. Oh, also tell me a secret of AndresLD's." I ask. "Andres? Hmm." she pauses. "Stay away from him for a while. In your dreams I mean. He is still recovering from a dry spell and has something he needs to work through first." She goes back to explaining how she escaped from the aliens and ended up here sort of like how I did. I ask her what is this place and she says it is a planet called "Drywall". The aliens work for her nemesis, an evil witch. She seems to imply that I have met her before. I have another one of those vague memories of a blond witch. "But wait I'm friends with a blond witch. That isn't her is it?" I think. Juliana asks, "Don't you remember?" . I have a hard time telling what memories are real and what are false. "Wow my dream memory can be really shit sometimes huh." I say.

We are entering the threshold of the large open dome. It may be some type of observatory. "Juliana, slow down real quick. Where do witches get their powers anyways?" She starts to explain but it goes a bit over my head and is hard to remember. I start to wake up and try to DEILD but fail. I wake up in my sister's house in Fresno although it isn't really layed out accurately. I get out of bed and the sun has come up but my brother in law is the only one awake. "Hey, It's been a while hasn't it?" he says. I wonder, how long has it been. It can't have been more than a couple months. I think this must be a FA so I do a nose plug but surprisingly no air gets through. That's weird. I go to the window and there is a large pumpkin bounce house. I do two more RCs and they both fail and I wake up for real at home.

After waking up I felt a euphoric feeling both from the galantamine and from the fact that I completed a goal that has meant a lot to me since 2011. I had a barely perceptible jiteryness in my arms that comes with taking higher doses of galantamine. I also felt pretty wiped out from having such an intense dream and didn't feel capable of going back to sleep for more. I am definitely going to take 4mg next time so that my body can get used to it. I won't take galantamine more than once a week and reserve it for special occasions because it can build up in your system and mess up your sleep schedule. I have to say though it was very successful!

I did a WBTB but fell back to sleep trying to remember my dream. Two hours later I woke up from a non lucid dream where 3 old ladies are trying to convince me to have an orgy. I did a proper WBTB this time and stayed up for a half an hour or so. Despite how weird that dream was it made me think about sex and made my next dream extra horny.

08.03.2016
10:20 AM

Horny Haunting (DILD)

I am in a meeting with a family of DCs outside of their house. There is a picnic table set up with soda and snacks. We are discussing what to do about the ghost that is supposedly haunting the house and even killed someone. One kid says he found a magic spell book in the attic and it must be related to the haunting. All the DCs murmur and say we should read it to find out more about the ghost. I say they shouldn't read the book. I become semi lucid because I realize that ghosts aren't real but don't fully realize it's a dream. I use telekinesis to clean up the picnic table so that we can get out of here. The kid insists on reading the book and starts to open it but I shut it with telekinesis. "DO NOT READ THAT BOOK. Are you crazy? Haven't any of you seen horror movies before?" I become more lucid and take the book. I tell them that ghosts aren't real and we go inside.

I go upstairs to an empty bedroom and think it's perfect for starting my goals. I stick my hand back and imagine my dream guide's hand holding mine. I look back and no one is there. I pull my hand up and I am holding a detached hand that disolves away. I didn't find this spooky at the time, I thought my dream control was just sucking, but now I think it may have been the ghost! I try again but now I can't feel anything when I try. One of the DCs walks up the stairs and I realize she is a pretty cute blond woman. I feel a very strong urge to have sex and wonder if I can have a quickly and get back to my goals. We have sex and it goes on for a while but I can't seem to finish even though I am trying to go quick. The dream fades but I know I can DEILD so I wait patiently for the dream to form again.

I find myself in the room again except I am floating upside down. I fall on my head and do a somersault. I am alone in the room again and try to summon my DG again but can't manage to feel a hand there. I go down the stairs and see that the house is my childhood home. The same DCs from before are walking around. I realize I need to make points for Spellbee2's contest so I fly slowly down the hall. Use telekinesis on a laundry basket and then phase through the counter top. I realize this doesn't cover my full body for extra points so I phase through a wall. I need to summon my DG to get the most points though so go back to focusing on that. I imagine my DG walking around the corner but the grandma DC does instead wearing a witch costume. I tell her she is way to old to be my DG and to go back and try again. I look in the living room and see a red cat staring at me. The tip of it's tail and a spot on it's back is white. I tell it to transform into my DG too but I don't give thought to it because the grandma comes back and still isn't my DG. Damn, that cat was probably my DG's cat form... I tell the grandma to try one more time and again it fails. I walk into the room and look at the TV. There is an image of a hot woman on it. I stick my hand into the tv and she grabs it. I pull her out and she isn't my DG but she is hot. I can't help myself but have sex again. This time when I wake up I wake up for real.

I havn't had time to upload any dream journals over the last week but I did have 3 or 4 dreams worth sharing so I will just have to post them now. My goal has been to talk to my dream guide or Androx the space cat and learn more about them and witches in general. My strategy was to go to my dream guide's house and talk to her practice teleporting in the process.

07.11.2016
10:30 AM

Witch Hunting (SSILD)

NON-LUCID LUCID OTHER

I am in my room and lucid. I get excited and jump out the window to try and find my dream guide's house. I destabilize and realize I should have just teleported. While I am in the void between dream and waking I picture my dream guide's house. It old and brick with a tower on one side of it. It is on its own on a hill with a small garden next to it.

I find myself, instead, in an old fashioned town square. I look around for people and find a theater where a play is happening. I ask some people where I can find a witch but they seems to speak italian and don't understand me. I point to my hair and say "Her hair is this color." and point at the red brick in the ground. I make a triangle shape above my head as if it was a witch's hat and one gentlemen seems to understand. He pulls out a paper scroll but won't give it to me. I grab it a punch him in the gut. He lets go of the scroll and I fly away with it. He grabs onto my leg though and gets pulled along with me. I try and knock him off but start to wake up in the process.

When I restabilize he is gone. I am flying over an island next to a larger land mass. I look at the scroll and it has military information and a map with strategic locations on it. Two of the markers say witch on the key. One is white, one is purple. I am now over a massive fortress on main land. I locate this on the map and use that to fly towards the purple marker on the map. As I fly I start to loose lucidity and my memory of my goal gets a bit more fuzzy.

I land in a village. There are peasants as well as soldiers marching in metal armor. I meet a boy who's family will let me stay with them. I learn that this land is ruled by a tyrant king. The family is part of a growing rebellion who wants to over throw the king. I agree to join them if they will help me find the witch. There is a girl who also lives with the family and is part of the rebellion. I just have a feeling she is a witch but no one else seems to notice. She looks very much like someone I knew in high school who in turn looks very much like Lust from Full Metal Alchemist. Based on facebook photos she has died her hair black, gotten piercings and a tattoo of a rams head and pentagram on her collar bone. She very well may be a witch in real life! She tries very hard to seduce me and it is very distracting and I get a bad feeling about it. She pushes me down an ally and up against the door of a random house. I point out that since we were adopted by the same family this is sort of weird. She says she wouldn't mind even if we were siblings which makes me even more weirded out. I hear the voice of a girl down the ally that says, "Leave him alone." The voice belongs to a girl with short blond hair and a dress with a voluminous skirt. She reminds me of Cersei Lanister because of her hair about 22 years old. The succubus scoffs at the girl and leaves.

Time passes and I go down the stairs of the family house to find a meeting of people. It is to organize the rebellion. The blond girl is there as well and I can't help but feel she is a witch as well and that I have met her before. The other witch comes down the stairs and apologizes for being late. She and the blond girl make mean faces at each other. The father of the family asks if I know the blond girl and she says that we do know each other well and pulls me into a hug. I whisper in here ear "I know you're a witch." to which she replies "Of course I am dumb ass." I feel like I am suppose to know who she is. In retrospect I think she is the blond witch that I have had fragments about being friends with in the past but she looks different with shorter hair. I ask her, "Can you take me to where the red haired witch who is my dream guide?" "Yes, but let's get out of this meeting first.", she whispers. She doesn't stop hugging me and I feel people staring and say, "Uh, okay, you can let me go now." I start to destabilize again.

I am in a alleyway in an old city at dusk. I am more lucid some how. There are a group of boys scouts in front of me. They aim muskets at me and the leader says to fire at me. I run at them and deflect their shots with telekinesis. Once in range, I grab the end of one of their muskets and start waking them with the stock. They scatter and I chase one of them and hit him so hard he flys into a dumpster. I fly to where I feel the blond girl sent me to learn more about my dream guide. It is the back of an apartment complex. I fly to the third floor of the metal escape ladder. The boy scouts have regrouped below and are preparing to fire. I shout, "Leave me alone!" Suddenly, a woman apparates in front of me hanging off the railing of the escape ladder. She looks a lot like Rogue from X-men Evolution in features and in style of clothing but she has a buzz cut. I notice she has white irises that look very cool. She says, "What are you up too?" The only thing I can reply are "Cool eyes." I wonder what I am up to anyways. Does this witch know my dream guide? Is she an evil witch? And I wake up.



Later that morning I have another dream about witches.

07.11.2016
1:30 PM

CORP (SEMI-LUCID)

NON-LUCID LUCID OTHER

I walking down the street with some friends. One of them is the blond witch from the previous dream. The other one that stands out is a girl with a over sized witch hat, purple hair, and a large black heart tattooed under her right eye. I wonder how painful that was to get. She looks like someone from work as well as the actress Debby Ryan. About 18 years old. She is writing a web comic about shared dreaming as well as a secret society of aliens who act like humans to control major corporations. Earlier parts of the dream are me reading the comic. The thing is, she actually believes it and may actually be right. The other friends think she is crazy and walk away except for the blond witch. They walk off. The blond witch and walk away in a different direction because we don't want people to learn about magic powers. The heart tattoo witch says "[INSERT BLOND WITCH'S NAME], Matthew, where are you going. I thought at least you would understand." I can't remember the blond witch's name. DANG IT The blond witch keeps walking but I turn back. I explain that even though I have dream magic too I don't believe in shared dreaming. She says," but you're a dreamer." I reply,"Yes but this is my dream and... you are a dream character." She looks hurt for a moment but then laughs and says, "Oh your just kidding!" I say, "Look, this may be your dreamworld but I came here to find answers about my dreamworld, not to help you fight this corporation. That is when I get a phone call in waking life and w


I had another frag where I think Androx sends me on a mission to go to high school with the heart tattoo girl and asses the strength of her powers. Something like that although that could be way off. The memory was very fuzzy.

I am inside dreamviews program. It is like the whole program and everyone in it is trying to defragment me because I don't realise I am dreaming. It feels like brain and heart surgery. Every so often I will come out of the computer and meet my good friend Quiva IWL who is trying to show me in the way she is or how to be. She is encouraging me and then sends me back into the dreamviews program or website. It is clear the the program is not working on me that there is like a big block and I am not getting the main message people are trying to tell me. I meet Quiva again and she is completely happy and content but she says "it didnt work did it". I wake up feeling that something is going on even if i don't fully get it yet.

I am the most cruel person in the whole dream world. No kiddin'. But about that later.

I slept ~5h and I woke up, tried WILD/DELID a while but nothing happened. I couldn't recall much and I couldn't sleep so I got up, played some logic games on my phone. I was awake ~1,5-2h, counting and practise awareness a bit before sleep.

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#5 & 6 LD - Wandering, TOTM and stuff
I was lying on my bed, looking at the floor. My carpet in RL looks like this: <KLIK> and in the dream one of these swirls created a word "Sen" which in Polish means "Dream". Also the floor was closer than in RL. (I don't know if I did RC, maybe the one with breath check without moving, anyway I get lucid). I got up fast, I saw a little black&white kitten which looked like he was waiting till I wake up. And what did I do? I ignore him insolently! He even run away, I went immediately out of my room. (That's why I'm so cruel - I understand flying, superpowers, dragons, aliens, fantasy castles, ANYTHING BUT THE CAT. I'll never forgive myself that! He was so tiny and cute and I just ignored him, probably because I didn't want to lose lucidity but still that's inexcusable. Only cat lovers'll understand that :c) So the dream was pretty vivid and light however I was rubbing my hands for a while. I wasn't calm, I didn't know what to do. I went to the bathroom. Before I opened the door I was hoping there will be some mountains but it didn't. I went in and tried to fly away through the window but I couldn't so I gave up. I don't know if I should try anyway but I was thinking that I don't wanna lose my time for one thing. I went to the kitchen, behind the window I saw a little snow on the ground - it was day. The door were open a bit and I saw there a bag but I ignored this a well. Now I know that I should interact more with the surroundings. I recalled a TOTM with a dream guide. I was saying "I'm ready for my dream guide" (twice I think 'cause I did a mistake). I saw that some character are passing in my room. He was tall and massive, I think he had black coat and bird's head (or sth like that). It was a bit creepy but I went in. Instead of him I saw my aunt sitting on my bed. I asked if she is my DG, I think she answered sth but I don't remember. Then, the younger version of her went through the door and there were 2 of them. The new one said sth as well but it wasn't much important (like "so so"). I lose control and wake up to another dream, as well I was on my bed. I check if this is a FA and it was so I get lucid again. This time it was dark. I get up fast, the dream was blurry and I was afraid of waking up. I was rubbing my hands and shouting commands (+ 1 request) but it didn't work. Maybe I wasn't certain enough. Once I was hearing myself and another time not. As in my previous LD I put up the blinds and it was a little brighter. On my bed was a camera. I thought about talking with my subconscious but I knew that I have lack of stabilization so I wasn't even trying. And I woke up in RL because I couldn't maintain the dream.

Dream 1: (1:45 AM)
I'm not really sure how it began, but i have false memories of this bitchy girl at the city library that keeps bothering me. I'm at my robotics and engineering class, and i'm stressed because i have to design a set of medieval armor boots. Unable to do my research because of the bitch at the library, I decide to go confront her. I walk up behind her and slap her on the back of the neck. She's talking to my PE coach, but turns around. I realize that she's not the girl i wanted to confront. In fact, he's a guy. He asks me if I want to fight, and i reluctantly agree. As i'm about to throw the first punch, the librarian shouts: "Hey, No fighting! Get the fuck out of here!" On my way out, i look up and see a large banner. My friend, who is suddenly right next to me, tells me that he made the photos on the banner. I say something in approval. Suddenly, the scene shifts to me walking towards my PE coach on the school field. He asks me about the fight. I mutter something about "How the fuck am i at your class on a Saturday?!" He insults me. The scene shifts again. I'm now in a large queue. I start giving a prepared speech to him about how he's an asshole.He vanishes in the middle of the speech. The scene cuts to me presenting my armor boots. I fail the project.

Dream 2: (3:45 AM)
I don't know how, but i am somehow on a white sandy beach with considerable amounts of oil slick. Across from the ocean is some high white cliffs, meaning i'm trapped. Suddenly, a latin priest who's face is obscured by the sunlight says to me, "That's a lot of oil. I wonder what you were thinking about before falling asleep that there's all this gunk on the beach." I ask if i'm dreaming. He says yes. I ask him what his name is. He says that his name is father Mendoza. I ask if he's my dreamguide. he says that he's one of them. he asks if i want a tortilla. i say yes. He throws one to me, but it lands in the oil slick. He throws another, and this time I catch it. We have a philosophical talk about the meaning of life. I suddenly realize i'm standing in a puddle of hot sauce. I ask him how i can get off the beach, and he shows me a hidden stone door in the cliffside. Before i open it, he warns me that he will vanish once i go through, and asks if there's anything else i want to ask him. I say no, and go through the door to find myself in shanghai. The dream cuts to the computer screen of a hacker as he does something to the dream-code for my home city. The dream then cuts to a view of a small, black, wind-up device that turns itself on in my backyard. The dream cuts again. I have this weird rube goldberg-esque device in my room that goes off 15 minutes early. My mom is audibly confused. Her laptop has been hacked. As i help her fix her laptop, my grandmother informs us that her right ear has stopped working. I have a strange sense of foreboding.

Omg! I had my 5th lucid dream, and I had a lot of control over it! In my dream, I did a reality check (because I do it so much IWL) Anyways, I saw my finger pass through my hand. I couldn't believe my eyes, because everything looked just like real life! Just to be sure, I did the nose plug reality check. I could breathe. It was AMAZING! I asked a DC where my Dream Guide is. They say, "Oh, Makenna's back at the high school!" So I floated into the sky (I had a bit of a hard time flying, I try to take a slow, calm flight and I end up zooming a bit too far past the high school!) Once I saw the high school, I landed, but didn't seem to find anyone. So I went back home somehow (I don't even know how), and noticed my parents were watching movies. And the setting changed to night. First, I grabbed the broken tv remote and changed the channel, trying to change the scenery. Nothing good was on, so at random, I just stuck my arm into the tv. Just for fun, I decided to look at the clocks on the screens and look away. One of them had a word, a colon and a couple of numbers. I told myself to remember the word and the numbers, because it was funny (but I couldn't). Anyways, I went to my room. everything was... different, I didn't really like it. Anyway, everything was super clear. I decided to make it clearer by shouting "Clarity Now!". Cool, now I can read the book titles! I finally ask for my dream guide. A girl cosplayed as Joy from Inside Out appeared in my room. We talked a little, became friends, and didn't really learn anything... "What was your name again?" I ask. She replies, "C'mon! You know me!" I look closely at her face to see that it looked like- My old friend Miranda! Then I remembered one of my dream goals- A date with my crush. The scenery changes to a small wooden boat with my crush on it We're sitting in the middle of the lake. Then I realized the goal was to go on a date with my crush-at the fair! I see a carnival nearby, and take my crush there (Again, I don't know how). When we get there, we go on the... Ferris wheel, I think? Gawd, I have a terrible memory when it comes to dreams. Anyways, we went on the ferris wheel and I either lost lucidity and drifted into this next dream, or woke up and fell back asleep. (oh, and at one point in the dream something was trying to hurt me, so I put my hand out, yelled "Laser beam!" and a whitish colored laser shot out of my hand. )

In this next dream, I dreamt that I was in 5th grade again. We had assemblies and stuff, and at one point we had a project where we pick a rock or gem, and tell if mining it was good or bad. For some reason in that dream, one of my old friends was pregnant.
That's what I get for reading about the world's youngest mothers.
anyways, I picked gold (although in the end I realized it was just silver painted gold.
Teacher (to me): So, is mining this silver rock good or bad?
Me: Uhh... Mining i-is good except for when you're mining for oil or something...
Blah blah, stuff happenes, well let's get to the good part.
My friend who was pregnant in the dream gets up and does a speech.
"When your pregnant, y-you get fat, and you're sick."
Okay... So, not really a speech, but still. That was funny, considering she was super skinny.

So, I think last night was amazing- but does this really mean that my friend Miranda is my dream guide?

And it isn't until just now that I realize that being on the boat would've been the perfect time to complete Basic Task II.
Dang.

7/6/15 12:54 am

Tonight I went to bed before my husband to try to fix my sleeping schedule by going to bed early. I had a dream, which I don't remember, then went right to bed to trigger a lucid dream through dream chaining. I told myself over and over again I wanted to dream of my husband. And I did.

Lucid MILD, WBTB, Dream Chaining

I dreamed we had a shared dream and I was showing him how to control his dream. We flew together hand in hand. Saw Conan live. Visited a herd of "Mittens" (my cat who passed away recently), one of them bit me. It hurt. I wasn't bothered by it, and found it quite funny. The herd of Mittens was in my mother's backyard.

I woke up in my dream and my husband agreed we had a shared dream, but then proceeded to tell me I was Sailor Moon in his dream, which made me realize we didn't share dreams. He described his dream totally differently. Note: I'm still dreaming.

Then, I see this white stuffed animal on a chair who's talking to me in a squeaky voice. I don't remember the conversation. At first, I didn't trust him. I told him to go away. But all of the sudden I realized what he was saying. I told him, in different words, but essentially this "You're my dream guide." And he said yes (I think, or something affirming what I said) and jumped in my arms to give me a hug. Then I woke up when my husband got in bed in waking life.

I used a different word for dream guide in my dream, but don't remember what.

He was definitely different than all my dream characters, with a sense of his own agency. Even different than my dream husband, who was just responding to what I did. I think I didn't trust him at first because he seemed to have his own agency.

I almost feel like my dream guide and I were speaking on a different level, like in code. We knew what we meant, even though it wasn't in clear English.

This was definitely the best dream I've had with my husband. We were flying hand in hand! And that was amazing. I've flown hand in hand with one other dream character before, in my first successful flying dream. I asked him what my middle name was and he said Windy, then took my hand, proceeding to fly with me in the air. I've been able to fly in my dreams ever since, and this moment flying with my husband was definitely reminiscent on my first flying dream. I was rusty flying, since I haven't triggered a lucid dream in a while (only accidental ones) and had to relearn how to fly, only this time it was me who took my husband's hand to show him, rather than a dream character showing me.

When I was trying to fly, at first it wasn't successful. I'd keep trying to jump from higher levels of ground to lower levels, on a hilly area with grass and patches of dirt. The area is around my mother's house, down the road near a foresty area.

There was a point in the dream we were on a train, before the flying scene, taking to other dream characters.

Connected to my mom's backyard is an acquaintance's house. It's supposed to be my mom's, and I felt like it was my mom's, but at the same time this person's house. We went into his room and saw an anime poster. There was a "mom figure" there that was supposed to be my mom, but wasn't my mom in waking life. She was worried about me, but I told her this is all just a dream so not to worry. I showed my husband how to control the dream further by saying "clearer" and "brighter", controlling my dream world to become clearer and brighter.

In a sense, the dream started off with me being the dream guide for my dream husband, then finding my own dream guide. I really hope to see him again! I haven't been searching for a dream guide, but have been hoping to have a repeated dream character that has a sense of self and grows with each lucid dream. So perhaps this is a manifestation of that desire. Certainly not what I expected! A stuffed animal as my dream guide. I'm so excited by this.

This dream started off, I believe, as non-lucid. Though I don't remember the point exactly I became lucid. My husband and I were watching Roku together, and then went to see Conan live. When we watched Conan on Roku, he had his typical blue background, but live everything was white and the show was supposed to be a new Conan show, called Live with Conan. There was this mean producer lady, who was playing tricks on me. I think that was the point I became lucid, because something about her just gave off that she was a dream character. Conan later sat with me and my husband in the audience and apologized for her actions.