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It was cold winter morning. Everything was kinda bright, white. I was walking around the streets with a classmate.

Non-dream
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Lucid

I really couldn't be bothered doing anything last night. I didn't want to get up for a WBTB or SSILD, couldn't be bothered writing any notes about my dreams either. The only one I recall is the last one because it legitimately tricked me.

Dream 1 - Grade
I remember being in the paleosedimentology lab room at the geology department in my uni. I was sitting down when my old english teacher (and home room teacher) Mr. Rogers from high school showed up and gave me the results for my first exam, Marine Science. I seem to see him as a geology professor for some reason...
"Whoa. 91.5%?".. The grade on my exam is awesome, I'm completely stoked. I knew I had been trying harder this semester because it was my last year and I also wanted to prove that I wasn't lazy (usually I just wing a B+ without much effort). I think Mr. Rogers asks if I had just been studying really hard, insinuating that maybe I had cheated or something. To be honest I didn't study that hard ^_^ but I was still really happy. I think I start rolling around in my bed at this point in a semi-wakeful state, thinking about texting my girlfriend the good news. Suddenly I realize I'm in my bed... What? Oh, son of a b*tch!! It was a dream!...

A memorable dream fragment from this morning 🌷

I was in a room with two friends. One of my friends walked into and through the wall, phasing through in the most natural way. I say to my other friend
" I can do that - going through walls"
" Go on then do it !" He said
" Ok I will. Right now I will run through the wall and out of this room!" I say strongly but feeling a bit nervous about what I had just said ...
I take my stand and then run at the wall focusing strongly on the fact I was about to run and phase through the wall"
I do it and keep going into the darkness behind/inside the wall.
I recognise I am in a dream place some call the void.

I have really got to get these out of my head so I can make room for new dreams. I think I'm blocked.

I was on a boat... and I think it was Spring Break because all these kids were on other boats partying. A few were jumping off this one boat and one kid jumped but no one saw him come back up out of the water. I look across to a sandy bank and see him. It's like my vision panned right into him and focused very sharply. I see him contort his face in a way that makes me think he's having an orgasm. Then, he keels over and dies.

Now I'm entering a house, maybe trying to investigate this kid's death and I see a woman (girl?) in the corner hiding behind some curtains. She said she had to hide from me so that I couldn't see her, not sure why. I go upstairs and I see a dark gray/black ring floating in the center of the room. It's made up of computer code. Someone said it was bad SQL. I can tell that whatever it is, it's evil. I try not to get too close to it, then it comes after me. It starts to shrink in size, then it turns into a Chinese dragon. I catch it in tupperware and sever its head.

Now I'm at work and I have to sneak into an office. For some reason I'm looking at a pair of gloves that belongs to my boss. One glove was red and one was brown. Not sure of the significance of that. We're in a big office building, bigger than the one that I currently work in, and it's really swanky. Then I have to get in my car and drive somewhere. I go through a toll that I didn't intend to go through, and the toll booth operator told me, it's ok, just go around and back up into the booth so that my window is on the opposite side of the booth and she would give me a refund and I could go on my way. Seemed like it made sense at the time haha. The toll was something like $18.

Hooray, I had an LD the hard way again! Am I cool yet?

Really though, I think this is the most aware and in control I've been for a WILD, so this honestly feels like the best one. Let me describe what happened.

I did a WBTB without even really knowing it because I had trouble sleeping last night, and eventually I got to the transition. I'm not sure how, but I began to focus quite a bit. I began to think of visualizing things, so I thought "Hmm, let's try a sandwich." And I tried to imagine a sandwich floating in the darkness. It worked. It was kinda small, and looked like one from the Simpsons. It was there though, and after a few seconds it floated out of my field of vision. Then I thought "It worked! Let's try something else... A slice of pizza."
The slice of pizza looked a little cartoony too, but it was there and did the same as the sandwich. I moved my eyes and it seemed like the pizza left a graphical trail. It floated out of my vision due to my eye movements. It was as though my eyes were making the visualizations have... graphical errors? It looked... glitchy. Then everything sort of went a bit haywire. I started seeing random stuff that looked like it was reminiscent of World War 2. That's what comes to mind at least. I silhouettes of soldiers standing in a lineup, some child's face, some military commander... All in a 1940's old black and white photo style. Pretty spooky if you ask me. There was a bunch of those types of pictures, and then out of nowhere, I appeared in a room. I did it. I was in the dream. I felt like I was still aware of my physical body though. If I tried to move my arm, it wouldn't budge and I could still feel it on the bed. If I tried to move my arm with my mind however... The one in the dream reacted. It worked. I was able to lift my arm to a doorknob and open the door. I didn't see anything behind it though, and I stayed in the room. It had two big open windows on the side opposite to the door, where light was flooding in. I saw some environment outside, but I can't say what it was or what it looked like. The floors were a golden brown hardwood, and my bed was in the room too. It was strangely empty. I felt like I was actually alone. For once, my dream wasn't all over the place and confusing. It was just me, in this empty room. Nothing was happening. There was no one else around at all. I woke up shortly after.

I think this is the most stable LD I've had. I need to have more of these...

Bedtime: around 0:00. ate early so stomach was pretty empty. meditated before bed, did some visualization (~15min) sitting in bed before decided to lay down and sleep.

no long WBTB´s no standing up. just short mantra/intentionsetting no journaling through the night --> maximizing sleep

- i am at a knowing place at a theater in my old town. there are pallets with stuff like food and color etc on it. some are empty some are full with empty boxes. we start cleaning and sorting out. i kind of coordinate the people (because i worked in a supermarket as a teenager). i go to get my supervisor and show him what we did. i need to go to the toilet try to find a place in the building but i get distracted/have no private space. i go somewhere more far away (i drive with the train?) i am somewhere... dont know if i managed to find a toilet but then i want to go back. i want to ride back with the tram. i ride one or two stations get out and am lost. dont know where i am exactly and what number i need to take. i try to look it up on my phone but have no success.

-i am at a shoestore with my brother and my dad. he wants us to try some shoes on. i try something on that looks like short gumboots but with leather. they look funny in the mirror and my pants are to short. i decide against the boots. my brother (maybe its a girl now?) labels some boots and have fun with it... my dad was going somewhere. i want to go. two employees talk to each other... something about one of them got evaluated pretty serious and they dont know what to do with it. i see a mother with her child in a shopping caddy. i go there and push a shelf down so it looks like the child was it. i run away behind some other shelfs and i hear the mother complaining. i get a serious bad conscience and go back to get it up again. but i somewhat dont tell the mother it was me. i tell her the shelf is not heavy no problem. she asks "hmm how do you know its not heavy?" because i worked at a supermarket ... we finish and i hug her for goodbye as if we would know each other. i ask her if she is not the mother of this or that child because she seems familiar suddenly. while hugging i get a different vision like with googleglases or robocop with a layer over the seen. i see heartbeat and some other parameters of her. it feels that we are closely to kissing. after that i tell my brother to stop labeling and go get our dad so we meet at the front door.

8 am:
-i am infront of my climbing gym. an older teamer i know want so collect sweet chestnuts but there is a problem like its always raining or something? a guy says that you can look up in the internet when to collect where and how the weather is then. she says she doesnt understand. she climbs (way to fast and easy) on a normal chestnuts tree (with nearly no leaves and no fruits because its autumn now) and wants to know what then because there are no...
i am in a building not far away from that scene and look out of the window. i focus my sight on a car infront of me that wants to park in a parking lot. it brakes very abrupt and then accelerates fast into the parking lot but he didnt stop and keep on driving out of my sight i lean forward to keep looking and see that he drives right though a electricity box or a mailing box? weird. i look down again and see a guy i saw the other day with another guy and the walk pretty fast. a mixture of fast forward and rushed. i get a strange feeling and look at my hands. looks pretty normal. i throw them out of sight and back again fast. a little blurry. i do a noseplug but somewhat i cant breath really. i dont give up and get stubborn. i dont ask but think this is a dream! and do the noseplug again and suddenly i can breath without problem. i dont know what to do. i jump out of the window. and move in the direction where the car was driving. the quality of the dream is pretty bad. everything looks pixelated/grainy. i rub my hands and try to stabilize. while i keep moving i think that it looks like fog and suddenly fog come up. i dont want to enter the fog because i think that it will let me fall into the void and i turn around and wake up.

maybe i could have tried to stabilize more and be more rigid about it but it dont felt like a mind thing but i think it was because it was too early morning and my sleep was very light/fully rested. after waking up i felt fully awake and not sleepy at all.

I had another dream that there were these couches I was going to sit on on at an auto store (or some store) but they had just sprayed for bedbugs and the only real way to get rid of them is to heat treat so I warned my family not to sit down on anything and worked to gtfo

I'm at university, talking with a working group about a course we share. We resolve the issue and everyone get up and prepare to leave. We get out, it's still pretty early and we walk to the bus stop. We have to go up a slope, as the university is sort of sukken in the hill, and pretty decrepit. We pass close to some bushes between the university and the sidewalk, there is someone here, hidden. I go to him; he's scared by people picking on him because he's nerodivergent; I guess it's some sort of autism. I coaxe him out and walk him home. It's a rickety flat, very narrow and full of corner and half levels. There isn't a real bedroom; it's the living room, with two mattress throw in and bad, hash lighting. His mother is here; she's a stereotypical hooker, with bleached blonde hair, trashy makeup and black, lacy lingery. She's with a man, who doesn't seem happy with her son and me coming in. The boy have picked up some cookies while walking in the appartement and share with me, his mother is spitting venom at him. I try to be polite and told her that if I knew she had compagny, we would have go ty my place. She turn her glare on me and the situation feel so weird that I realise that I'm dreaming. I immediatly stand up and try the finger through the palm RC; it doesn't work, but I'm so sure that it's a dream and angry at her that I don't care. I tell the mother that she should care about her son more, and at least not have lovers hidding in the closed while accusing his son to bring girls in the flat under her nose. I take the boy hand and storm out. I look back at him when we reach the sidewalk, and he transformed into David. I smile and go to kiss his cheek, but he turn his head at the last moment so my lips land on his instead. I laught and playfully push him and he wrap a arm around me. We walk a little as I think about what to do, then I really that the sun is setting, and that the sea is on the other side of the road. I remember thet I wanted to take Eli to the beach, and we cross the road. I've been to the beach enough in waking life that I'm confident it will feel the same, and I use my usual technique of putting my hand behind my back to call him, but it take a long time for me to feel his hand in my and I call him louder in my head, telling him he's missing everything. He finally show up we the sea reach my knees, but instead of taking my hand he push David in the water and I'm dragged in and both swallow and breath in some water. I choke on it and it feels the same as waking life, cold and burning*, and I start to panic and blacking out.

When I come back up, I'm in a flat, way nicer that earlier, and alone except for a small animal that looks like a cross between a wolf pup and a kitty. I pick her up and hold her close to my chest, it's my totem. The dream feel weird, loopsized almost. I get out of the room I was because the mirror covering the whole wall is really enerving to me and look for Eli. Something enormous jump in front of me, wearing a caricatural mask of a african man, scaring me. I grab the mask and rip it off, starting to really get pissed off. Eli, still wearing is costume, give me a cheeking smile, but I'm too annoyed to find it funny. "Really Eli? Really?!" He try to kiss me and I wake up.
*When I was very young, I got caught in a rolling wave and my mother had to pull me out before I drowned.

Eli is a jalous bugger. I was really ticked off when I got up, and we talked about me having dream friends and how it doesn't change my love for him.

So I had arrived at a church thing with Max and simon and I was in a wheel chair that I parked next to the pew the rest of the family was in. I then had some dad poke me in the back and say why done you give that to someone who needs it like my son, get up. So i got up and went down to the other side of the pew and waited. I was waiting to see Greta and for some reason only the back of the church was filling up. Eventually a super cute brownish haired girl with very very bright eyes walked in the church wearing a blue dress. I was watching her walk when the dad poked me in the back again, I half turned and told him not to poke me again. The max said he remember working out with the blue dress girl once but couldn't remember here name.

D1 - Outside a set of classrooms, students are congregated waiting to enter class, there is a dividing barrier between classes for queuing.
One student looks at me shocked (DS1) P has crush on me, I vividly feel intense emotion of being in love. She looks on as I give other girl a gift of a magazine, freshly wrapped in plastic. I feel the 2nd intense emotion vividly of the excitement of my lustful(?) and dark underhand emotions, delicious. Next I am in a girls locker room, there are long benches and people discussing the event. I bump into a third girl who is notorious for being gay, she is after the girl with a crush on me, prey. I suggest with a openly flirtatious look that i am available. She is shocked but accepting of my advance.
I signal for us to go somewhere private. I am worried she will tell all about me. We enter a white (ds) area with a lift to the right, thread bare school carpet and white columns to the middle right, a bland poster on a wall. We head behind the columns to an area ahead with chairs and potted plants. She has dark school uniform with some grey, large bag with strap across her chest. She has long brown hair and pleasant features, nose maybe little to promentant , brown eyes, some makeup. I feel her emotion, she has love but a more general one, she loves all girls. I shock her by dispassionately proceeding to discuss the attractive features of each girl, as i see it.
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I wake 1:32am feeling a strong sensation over my chest, it is a tingling and burning sensation. It is dark in the room but in my minds eye I see short orange and black flames coming from my chest area. (similar occurance to after first ld at dv, but much less intense, that was x100 this being x10 ), similarly on recalling memory sensation tho dulled felt also.
- dream sign of vivid familiar face looking at me, smiling.
/took about an hour before went off to sleep again due to
a) wanted to ensure recalled details with my current method (dont want to have to get up, annoys partner if am up or scrawling notes)
b) intense experience to while to settle down

D2 - Old man, white beard , brown coat (giver ? jeff bridges) is teaching me survival skills. We are laying on large wooden structure which is also home. Size and shape of large train caboose, some wood is piled next to us. I seem to be not unlike tom sawyer.
seems long dialogue then i leave. Other children give farewell prank, spraying liquid over me from toilet seat in back of caboose (one holds others legs while one lays inside ), they look like street urchins.

D3 - In office, old chunky pcs with large white monitors, everywhere. I start to help technician who turns up to fix a monitor. We swap monitors to try and diagnos problem. New head of dept turns up, long blondie hair, heels etc. Confusion over why we are going to other branch. Not to meeting at 1-2pm but to fix monitor. Then standing by slanted countertop with trailing wires like xmas lights, joke with head about swapping monitor with starbucks next door.

D4 - frags
- stepping cautiously over many prone bodies of sleeping ? sunbathers. Am spotted by guy with short dark hair and intelligent eyes but get to sea. Jump in and swim, under warm sun.
- Editing video, seemed like longish repeating dream.
1st was cutting scene then realised was long due to tension of whether girl in box car would live or die. Then context changed on same scene completely changing same footage.

I came to some guy's house and snuck in. The corridor was very long and high tech, it was futuristic. He was in the shower and through the door I was watching him. He noticed me and shut off whatever was allowing me to see through it in the first place. When he came out and talked to me it was as if he didn't mind that I'd basically been perving on him. We walked down the corridor and had a look at his home. It was really big and his "kitchen" was an entire cafeteria.

I dreamed I was outside (perhaps the former dude's house) and I wanted to steal a motorbike. It was a really vivid dream, that much I know cause it's like it really happened. Eventually after examining cars and bikes I got one but I can't remember where I was supposed to be going.

I was in a changing room with a woman (not my gf) who I was performing sexual acts on. At the same time another couple came in and started doing the same. We noticed each other but they seemed to have shit on us, so I left feeling worried.

Lucid glimses througout the dream, but no real control. I blame an unwillingness to destroy the story.


I am in the dark wood panelled stairwell of a bar somewhere in Asia (I think). I know I am a high end prostitute who lives above the bar at the request of my mysterious wealthy patron. Out of curiosity I float out of my body to take a look at my self - I look like Liv Taylor. I float back in. I spend my days in leisure, except when my patron comes around, obviously One day though, he arrives in a rush and takes me to the airport. On the streets I see chaos. Men in weird uniforms, not all alike, shoot at civilians with futuristic looking weapons. At the airport we get on a plane. The plane takes off, but on the way up I look out of the window and spot a jet fighter dropping bombs on the city I just left. Some time after, we are forced to make an emergency landing. I am the first person to leave the plane, gliding down the air slide. I land hard on my feet.

I lose some time.

I am suddenly swimming away from a war torn beach. The strange soldiers wade through the waters killing everyone still alive. I hide beneath a jetty, playing dead.

I lose time again. I am now on another (tiny) beach, with some of the soldiers. The little beach is closed of by tall rocks on two sides, and towards the sky and the jungle to the right there is heavy cage wiring. In the wire towards the jungle there is a closed wire door. I'm not afraid. The soldires are discussing the war. Until now, I've had no idea what's going on. Apparently the soldiers fight for Nature against Humans. Nature has taken matters into her own hands, and is solving the climate change crisis herself. Using Human soldiers. One of the soldiers is angry and yelling at the others. He dosn't want to participate in the slaughter anymore and he dosn't believe Nature could do anything about it, if all the soldiers just left. He goes through the wire door. Immidiately a giant gorilla and a huge lion come out of the dark jungle and drag him away. When his screaming has stopped, I go to the wire door and closes it. It doesn't lock. I wake up.

Non-dream
Non-lucid
Lucid

Dream 1: Golfing big
I'm awake in bed. I think i just woke up. I'm sitting up, with a laptop on my lap. I still have a white blanket or pillow drawn over my lap. I have two tabs open in my browser, one of them is fb. I believe the other one is a new tab. My girlfriend is to the left of me, also in the bed. She was asleep, but wakes up now. Because she is still laying down while I'm already sitting up, her head is at my waist level. She puts her head on my lap so that she can see the screen too. The moment she woke up I switched away from fb. I didn't want her to think I'd rather spend time on fb than with her. She wants to play the game. Ok, we can do that. I see it in a full view kinda way, as if we are actually there. It's a weird combination between playing on the laptop and actually being there. It's a sort of golf game. It's on Bali (Nusa Lembongan?). Top-down view of a field of grass, which lacks any detail (just like a crappy game). There's a yellow and an orange or red player. The hole is quite big and you're supposed to guide an airplane, a tank and who knows what else in there by making an arrow that tells it where to go. Apparently this doesn't have to be a straight line, cause I consider making my plane move around a bit before going to the hole in such a way that it will also push a truck in there. At the start of the game there is a slight confusion over who has which colour, because something went wrong in the game.

Dream 2: Plane
There's two people, one of them is a guy, the other I'm not sure about anymore. I think I'm just a non-present spectator. I feel like the dream was cartoonish, due to a certain drawing style. I can't shake the image of humanoid cartoon mouses, but I don't think that's really what my dream was like. The two are at sea, without a boat or something. A propellor plane is after them. They duck under water for a moment. At some point they are on very small deserted island which is only covered in grass, though I'm not sure when exactly that happened. The plane sends out a message in a Morse code kind of way. The guy does the same thing using a whistle. He is... part of an organisation and has a title. It's sort of like the army, cause he has a rank. He intends to commandeer the plane I believe. Yeah... good luck. I don't recall how that ended

Dream 3: Shrimp girl
I'm with a guy. Apparently we're friends. Something happened, but I can't recall what. After that we end up in an elevator with partially glass doors so that you can look outside. The rest is made out of metal. I walk in and out a number of times, causing the elevator to stay where it is. When I'm done and ready to go a few people (2 girls and a guy) approach who want to join. I make sure the doors stay open long enough for them to join. The elevator is spacious like a room. One of the girls (I think she's blond, black pants and a red coat, but somehow I'm not certain) is doing something weird on the floor, which is referred to as 'the shrimp'. The guy makes a mention of joining my friend and I to our home. Yeah don't think so. He says it in a joking kind of way, as if he's testing the waters.

We're inside the train station in my mom's city. We're walking from the back side to the front. I'm talking with my friend. There was a vote about what we're gonna do or something and I say that I bet he voted for the anime/cartoon of which I can't remember the name, also not in the dream. He laughs and says he did. There are two sets of stairs near the front, both about 5 steps. In response to the shrimp, I wanna do something fun here. Take a short run-up and take off from the 2nd step to dive over the rest of the steps and glide like a penguin. I'm a bit socially conscious about it though, as every few seconds total strangers pass through the station. I don't recall actually doing it.

Not sure if it was before or after the last paragraph. I'm walking outside the train station, but it doesn't look the way it should. Much, much more space is dedicated to bicycle racks. I walk over, past a girl with long dark hair and a dark/greyish outfit. I walk back and forth at least once, so I pass her at least twice. The last time I look at her, her hair is covering her face like the girl from The Ring, but not in a creepy way. At some point I start thinking in a way as if the others we met in the elevator are coming home with us. I wonder how far I could go with shrimp girl. I wouldn't do anything of course, since I have a girlfriend. But I wonder what could happen, as in how attractive am I to her.

Again not sure when this happened. I'm walking towards and then past a train. The train is yellow and has a black text written on it. I forgot the exact phrasing, but it was in Dutch and basically said you are allowed to eat in that wagon. I start to think: aren't you always allowed to eat? I look through the windows as I walk past the train and see people sitting with small tables with food on it. Right before I walk past the wagon I start to think about my ex girlfriend, though I don't remember exactly what I was thinking of.

Dream 4: Zombie apocalypse
The zombie apocalypse has occurred. I'm rather calm, as if the situation isn't completely new. My cousin, my little brother and I need to get away from here. We're just outside of a house, no clue where specifically. I tell my little brother he needs to get his sleeping bag. We may also need another bicycle, so that we all have one. I ask my cousin for an item, but I find something better: a rope. A blue one. My cousin (and little brother perhaps) isn't too excited about the prospect of staying in the woods. Well suck it up, I'm thinking about our survival. Using the rope we can put our hammocks/sleeping bags in the air by tying them to trees. This way the zombies can't reach us. We can set up a perimeter by putting up a string with tin cans on them, so it will rattle if something passes. We can use thumbtacks to pin the string to trees to prevent slack. We need to make sure it's at the right height too. Too low and the cans hit the ground and won't rattle. Too high and things might crawl under it.

10.28.15

Still on nightshifts since my coworker is on vacation.

Today:

Ophelia is visiting. We are in my mom's house. I'm telling her about my new dutch oven and she askes if it's certain brand. She is distant and not very interested. Other people that are with her are more important to her, but she is not really with them either. I ask her if I can take them out for dinner, but someone in her group shows me their itinerary with restaurant already included, and I'm not invited. I hear her on the phone later, something about protective custody or restraining order and I get an image of her son.

Yesterday:

1. We are visiting an outdoor place where they reenact medieval events. Somebody is getting a mock hanging by lady on a bridge over a dry creek putting a rope around guys neck, then running with it. I don't think the guy likes it anymore.

2. My female friend leaves to pick up her kid from school. It's :39. I go potty and through a small glass window on the door I see 2 people walk by. This shouldn't happen because we are inside her house. I get a bad feeling about it.

Few more people walk by and stop by the door. They want me. Their leader, young, skinny tall guy tells me to get out. I ask him to give me pls few seconds to finish my business and I'll open the door, no problem. I get a sence of impending doom, like something you never thought would happen is happening to you and that's it, you are done.

I open the door and we discuss the difference between like and love. They start putting white rope around me but suddenly I fight back. I keep taking the rope off, wiggling away from it, cutting it off while they keep trying to put more and more loops around me. I say NOPE, I keep taking it off, then I punch the guy. I look at him close and now he is a huge guy and I'm thinking it's not gonna be as easy as I sometimes imagine it to be.

3. I have a new smart phone and I'm taking pictures with it. I just remembered (reading reviews of enamel dutch ovens cracking) that as I tapped the screen, a huge crack opened on it from top to bottom and there was a separation of 1/4 inch of so. I looked at it in disbelief. how the heck did it crack, I was reasonably gentle.

I dreamed that my old pet rabbit was alive. I was in a room that was sort of a cross between an old apartment I lived in when I was 12, and my current apartment. The floors were the old ragged brown carpet from the old apartment... the layout was like the bedroom of my current one, except instead of a regular closet, there was a walk-in closet. I was keeping my bunny in there. I didn't want to keep her in her cage. IRL, her "cage" was really just her potty, and she was able to come and go as she pleased... it was basically just the crate I used to transport her to and from her vet, combined with being a litter pan. She didn't spend much time in there. She actually liked to just lie there in it with the door open, for some weird reason. I guess because it was "hers".

Anyway, in the dream, though, somebody wanted me to keep her in there. It was way too small and dirty, so instead I kept her in the closet. In the dream, I remember sitting down in the closet and petting her, and playing with the fuzz on top of her head. I miss her.

Then, I started wandering around the apartment naked. I recall lying on the carpet on my stomach (still naked) using a laptop. The carpet was the same sort of dull brown that the old apartment had, but sometimes it was also a wooden floor like my current apartment. It was late morning or early afternoon and there was a lot of sunlight... it may have been summer. The bed I was next to was a mess, unmade and covered in clothes. The mattress may have been lying directly on the floor.

Then realized maybe i should wear some clothing, and put my fleece leopard-print onesie on.

I woke up and I was cold, so that explains at least some of that dream. It was about 4 a.m. Tried to do visualizations, but too tired and needed all the sleep I could get, so I let it go.

Then I dreamed I had a roommate who was a huge asshole and then suddenly stopped being one and I was suspicious of it. Tall dude with long blond hair who fancied himself a "metal head".

Them I dreamed mom and I were driving around the city I currently live in with my brother, and she kept stopping and giving me painkiller injections to numb my mouth. Except they didn't numb my whole mouth. Specifically the left bottom side of my front teeth. My gums were all torn up and bloody there. So eventually she just gave me a syringe full of clear fluid and told me to use it. i asked what the dosage was, and she just shrugged.

Then... We were on the upstairs part of a store... it had a similar layout and looked a lot like the grocery store down the street from us but also sold clothing etc... I wanted cupcakes. The ones on the upstairs clearance rack near the checkout lanes were gross looking and overpriced. Like $3.99 for 2 cupcakes with the frosting all messed up. The rest of the baked goods weren't what I wanted. I really wanted cupcakes.

At some point, mom handed me 3 candy bar things. They were really thin fragile sheets of milk and white chocolate split diagonally along the length of the bar. They were in packaging that was simultaneously gold and shiny but also completely transparent. Unfortunately, they were so fragile that I accidentally broke 2 of them, one quite badly. I was worried they were ruined, that nobody would enjoy them that way, and apologized profusely to my mother. She didn't seem to care very much.

After picking through the shelves of baked goods upstairs (it was really just one display), I went downstairs (the layout of the store was the same as IRL in a lot of ways, but had escalators instead of stairs) to the bakery section, where they weren't much better. I picked through what was there... A helpful employee tried to help me find something, but all of my options sucked, and the store wanted like $18 for a pack of 4 cupcakes. The cupcakes were all in terrible shape - chocolate cupcakes with the blue and green frosting sliding off or mostly stuck to the plastic package.

Then at some point in between, we were driving around my old hometown, around one of the more run down areas... Brown figured heavily in the color palette... Lots of crumbling parking lots and dried out grass... it was midday, warm and very sunny, maybe it was late summer or early autumn. Mom was driving, I was in the front passenger seat, and my brother was in the back seat. I don't remember much about the car. It may have been my car, but I don't think it was. It wasn't a nice new car, in any case.

Anyway, I had decided not to use the mystery syringe because I didn't know the dosing. So I had put the syringe in the glove box and was worried the cops would pull us over, find it, and think it was illegal drugs. But I didn't want to just throw it in the trash because I didn't want anybody to get a needle-stick. For some reason I had a cap, like a pen cap, that could go over the needle... I put it on and put the needle back in the glove box. I decided I'd find a sharps container in a bathroom somewhere and throw it out there.

Then, I was back in the bakery section of the store, still trying to find cupcakes.

There were big security monitors above the cashiers lanes, and writing would randomly appear transposed over the images and then disappear. At first it looked like it was that the monitor was scuffed up. I reasoned it was actually Security doing it from their office. Like they were "writing" on the images in real-time, although I couldn't figure out why.

Woke up and thought about the fact that my dream recall hasn't been great and I hoped I wouldn't forget everything in the morning again. Fell asleep and dreamed about writing in my dream journal... In the dream, I had a notebook and pen on the nightstand. And my boyfriend wasn't there for me to wake up, I was alone in the bedroom. I had the light on and wrote in the notebook while sitting in bed. The walls were a sort of warm creamy yellow color, which they are not IRL.

Then my alarm clock rang.

The false-awakening dream journaling did actually help my dream recall. I really did basically write down everything from the past two dreams I'd had, which helped me remember them when I woke up for real!