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I don't remember too many details of this one because I was asleep for a while between having it and writing it down. In fact, I almost forgot it entirely.

I'm in a room interacting with a DC when I become lucid. I remember my goal of attempting the second basic TOTM and robbing a bank with only a banana. The first step, is getting out of the room. There's a window, which I open and lean out of. The room is many stories above the ground.

I decide to jump out. I do a couple of RCs to make extra extra sure I'm dreaming, then slither out and fall. I expect it won't hurt and, though I do feel a definite crunching sensation when I hit the ground, there's no pain. I get up but big black spots start appearing in my vision. I attempt to stabilize but become convinced that my IRL body is moving with my dream body. I decide to hold on for a DEILD. That's the last I remember.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Tried WILD 3 times durin the night - but I think I was too tired - the effort was annoying me somewhat! Again all non lucid - damn!

Fragments - The Doctor (as played by David tenant) saying he was 100,000 years old.

- something about meeting a couple of old dears doon the street.

Dream - In a pretty cool second hand bookshop. Two rooms connected by a wee passage. My wife was with me and someone else. There was a continual pressure for me to hurry up for some reason. I suddenly spotted a heap of gamebooks (another IRL hobby for me) , the first were a couple of Lone Wolf books which I didn't have , one of them was book 5 , there was a picture of a tiger on the cover. I found a book with a purple cover written by a familiar author (cant mind now) , thought it was a gamebook, had a wee flick through but it wasn't. I found a few more gamebooks , I had them stacked in the crook of my arm. I remember seeing a copy of 'The Haunted Castle of Ravencurse (which I do have IRL) but it had a different spine to the one I have.

Dream - Some DC said my sideburns were looking ridiculous - they were covering the entire sides of my face! - I managed to shave one of them down to a better level, but got distracted (cant mind what doing) and was a bit upset because of my now wonky sideburns!

Fragment 1
I remember my dad preparing to leave to go somewhere (Belarus?) and saying that in his absence I would have to go to this shop and pick up some things he ordered on the Internet. I said okay, and asked where the shop was. He said it was in a country which was not in Europe. He expected me to travel thousands of kilometres, apparently. He also said that when he comes back we'll have to go the United States at one point. I thought that was cool since I have never been there.

Fragment 2
I was in a building that was presumably meant to be my school, but like large buildings tend to be in my dreams, it wasn't quite finished. There were staircases leading to nowhere and staircases without bannisters and such. I was going up this one staircase because I wanted to show this girl where something was, though I don't remember what.I went up this staircase which was made in a lavish style with gold bannisters. The staircase went up like a corkscrew but soon the bannisters ended, and then after so did the stairs. There was about a two metre gap between the last step and the gallery that we wanted to get on. However, the gallery was on our level vertically. There was a rope going from the gallery to our staircase, as a kind of improvised way to cross.
There was about a 10 metre drop from the highest step to the floor, so it was going to be dangerous, especially with no safety equipment. One of my old teachers was on the gallery opposite us, encouraging us to cross and not be scared.
The girl behind me hugged me tightly and said she was scared. It was the cutest goddamn thing ever. I, like a fearless gentleman, stroked her hand and reassured her that everything was going to be okay and that she should just do exactly as I do.
With that, my recall takes a break and resumes when we're in this garden sort of place. There is a wide stone path running down the middle. It's an obstacle course; there are darker patches on the path on which you're supposed to walk, and then there are lighter ones which you can't touch. She went ahead of me this time; it was quite easy, though I remember losing my balance once.
We got to a green patch of the path, about two metres long. There were signs on it - they explained that we couldn't touch the grass as it was against the rules, but that later on we'd find water as well (which wasn't actually water but just blue patches) and we could step on those. We could also step on ice. We jumped over the grassy patch and that's where my recall ends.

Fragment 3
I also remember at one point texting my girlfriend and being annoyed at her for some reason.

Fragment 4
I also remember being in a school with my brother and to our right there was a figure of a child holding up a book; there was the title in black letters and a subtitle underneath it saying "SUVAT" but the "T" was made by what looked like the end of a steaming flute. We laughed.
"Ahhh, I remember SUVATs" I said. My brother read out the rest of the title as something like "Basic School Textbook of Mathematics".

Fragment 5
I was taking a bath in water too cold for my taste. As in, water which was not hot, although it was still pretty warm. There were two bath tubs, one on top of the other, though the top one was to the side of the bottom one so you could climb into the bottom one. I barely remember filling up one of them. I sat in the bottom bathtub and could see all the dirt swim around in the water. I got up and looked down, and noticed that my private parts were bleeding. I wasn't too concerned and I submerged myself again.

Fragment 6
My brother and I were at what was supposed to be some kind of scout initiation thing. We were going to be scouts, and we were in a group with about five girls. So we were the only guys. We all stood in a row and one of the girls stepped forward and put her arms out to the sides. The people in the row did too, including my brother. I had no clue what was going on but I did the same. Then the row sang like two or three lines of a song while swaying to the tune. I tried to copy them. I suddenly remembered that we were supposed to have read the scout initiation handbook and that I hadn't bothered to read it.
Once the dance was complete, the girl chose another girl to replace her. That girl then went up and we did the same thing again. This continued for a few times.

Fragment 7
I was walking down an alleyway when I noticed a small man standing in the bottom half of a camcorder and with the top half on his head. As I got closer, he noticed me and went into the bottom half, forming a complete camcorder. I stopped in front of him and bent down, then waved to the lens, showing him that I'd noticed him. Then I continued on my way, but after a few steps quickly looked over my shoulder. The man was standing up again. Then my siblings came to me and we all opened up the camcorder and pulled the little man out.He looked dead but he came around after a short while. He then thanked us for setting him free and ran away.

Dream
I was in a building that had a courtyard. I was looking out of a glass-less window at the courtyard. I had what looked like a First World War rifle on me and I had the absolute conviction that I was fighting for all that is good in the world. There were soldiers in cover in the courtyard and they were shooting at me. I was shooting back, except my gun seemed to be a Quasar Laser gun and it didn't shoot bullets at all, but I was trying to hit the soldiers as much as I could. Their guns were just like mine, though they also had pistols. There were other people shooting at the soldiers next to me.
I remember one soldier leaning right out of cover and I hit the end of his gun, causing it to jam. Then he leaned left and I shot again. After a while the shooting stopped and people gathered on the courtyard.The soldiers were taking them prisoner. I went around the building, careful not to be seen from the courtyard. I was seen by one of my friends, who nodded. I then went around and ended up seperated from a courtyard by a heavy gate, a kind of a portcullus. The courtyard behind it was now huge, with Polish flags hung all around it. I noticed an old woman at the opposite end of the courtyard and I thought that she had supernatural knowing powers, so it was vital she didn't notice me. I also had this thought in my head that said that if I thought along those lines, the dream would act my thoughts out and I'd get spotted.
Somehow, I didn't get lucid, but the old woman did notice me and started to point at me. I turned from the gate and there were two people there; I asked where the exit to the castle was. They pointed down the corridor. I started running. I came out onto a stone square, still on castle grounds, and noticed a lot of people escaping as well. I ran towards the exits which were towers that you had to go up and then out of the caste, since the castle was in an area of lowered ground. The towers were completely crowded, so I went to the left of one and I climbed up the wall of the crater. I came out onto the road and looked behind me.
There were two men on horseback, they looked like hussars of the Polish army from the 17th century. They were pushing through the crowd, going to get me. Then I thought I was in a dream, though I still didn't get lucid, and pulled out my sabre which I suddenly had. Then the dream dissolved and I imagined killing the men, by first slashing across the knees of the horses.

big dreaming night again, not lucid though:

00:00 Wednesday 2014-08-13

00:30 pre-bedtime: day memory review, set intention for the night
00:57 bedtime

07:51

+ watching from high DO position a video of us moving back into our old house. My wife and I are watching this as a fond memory. The next-door neighbors are moving in too at the same time, so our moving van can't pull exactly in front of our house, it must stay out in the street double-parked in front of the neighbor's house. Neighbor's house is to the right, ours to the left. View starts out to the right of neighbor's house looking forwards/left to our house, and finishes up pointing to the right looking back at the moving van. I see our old dog come out on to the sidewalk and visit the neighbor's dog, they're sniffing each other's noses and are really happy. I see a former manager of mine bringing a load in. Then I see myself skinny in jeans bringing in a load, I've really lost some weight living in that other place for a while.

+ setting up in a new house, I'm a teen, walking through small but very ornately decorated rooms, ask my "dad" in the office where I can set up my computer, he says do it in my room, mom will tell me where to do it. The desks are like 18th century large ornate wooden desks with cusioned wooden chairs, there are little nooks throughout the cramped rooms.

+ (all DO) I see a woman lying back on a medical examination table.

Spoiler for NSFW:

She's naked and her legs are spread, her knees are up and feet are down on the table, and I see a very large penis come up from beneath the table and penetrate her fully, I sort of do a double take and see this again. My view transitions to being inside the woman I have a view of her cervix from inside the womb (a little pink sphincter extending a bit inside from the wall) it's a large industrial setting with lots of scaffolding and things moving around on assembly lines, not fleshy. I think the woman's been tricked and doesn't realize that the physician's attendant put his on penis into her and is having sex with her, instead of her getting the artificial insemination procedure she wanted. I look at her cervix and see a penis tip poke through, and then streams of artificial insemination semen shoot out into her, not from the penis, but from a tube on the side.

. This is an artificial insemination procedure. Afterwards, a female attendant leads the woman through a hallway under a series of round lights/indicators, the attendant is shining a flashlight/tool up at t he indicators, and they're lighting up in response (showing the pathway to the waiting room?) as they walk by. In the waiting room there is a buffet of wine, and there are physicians there, a group of them. The woman says she hopes for twins, and the physicians berate her for this wish. The indicator lights (are numbered?) and seem to indicate which of the insemination procedures were successful. The attendant says they do a lot of procedures so at least one will work, I imagine a tool repeatedly entering the patient making a "deposit." The attendant is the woman's advocate, and then a male advocate arrives as well, he's a young man with blonde hair, very energetic. Leaving the waiting room I see the bottle of wine up close, the label has been partially scratched off. They move to another room and sit and I think about these two advocates for the patient.

+(f) some NSFW time with a "male toy".

Spoiler for NSFW:

Is is in the shape of a female mouth with a tongue extending down, the tongue looks like a ladybug: circular with black spots on it, I rub my (ahem) on this "tongue". Later the part hanging down seems to be a woman's hand with fingers.

+ suicide bomber gas truck/driver in the garage of my childhood home, it's night outside. The driver is standing outside the driver window against the wall of the garage and I'm in the middle of the garage looking in the passenger side window of the cab of the truck, (I'm holding a shotgun pointed at the window?), the guy has left out his final meal of fast food, there are lots of styrofoam take-out containers sitting open with chicken strips, fries, and lots of bright sticky/sweet sauces. I eat some of his fries, dipping them into one of the sauces. Someone up on the street distracts him and the truck is pulled back out to the street above the house. He intends to drive the truck into the house to blow it up, I think what if there is no spark/explosion and the house just gets broken from the truck driving into it, will he be satisfied?

+ Our family is in a waiting room in an institution with a lot of other people. We're meeting/helping out our foster/adopted daughter. The authorities announce that only one member from each group may enter, so my wife goes in. After some time people are milling around and everybody goes in, I go in too. I see our "daughter" come out, she is a late teen with very pale white skin (not sickly, just no sun, like a redhead can be), she is wearing a wide-brimmed hat, she's walking from my left to my right. I lean over and under her brim to give her a fatherly kiss on the cheek, but because of the hat I get her on the lips instead, we're both a bit embarrassed.

+ Sitting in a room with Aimee Teegarden (:heart: :heart, I'm preparing to go to the dance, I'm father-aged and she's a teen (not my daughter though), she says she's sick so won't go to the dance. I'm bummed because I wanted a dance with her, I see her long, sexy legs. I ask her to take off one of my socks at least, I'm trying to get them off. She moves across the room and I see her enter a deep sexy kiss with my son, no way can we leave those two alone, I know where that's leading to. She's behaving a bit loopy and I see her pouring something from a little (buiding-shaped) piggy bank into her drink. I think it's alcohol or drugs.

+ The secretary wants to hire the applicant (who is dark skinned and has a massive bust) immediately, and jumps for joy saying "I get to play with boobies!" and shows the applicant the work salad bar on the other side of the large table from me, with another coworker

+(f) I'm taking pictures of a guy the tablet is not behaving correctly, I see the pictures of this guy in a few different places

+ In school sitting down at open desk, my desk is taken, I think if someone tells me I took their desk I'll say mine was already taken. FF comes and sits down in the column of desks next to me, and it looks like he's going to sneeze on me, I say "I can not get sick!" and hold up my elbow/arm in front of his face to block the sneeze. We need to open our books to a particular story for reading but I can't find the story in my book which turns into a pile of little books.

+ We're shooting photon torpedoes at the enemy ship, 3 groups of tree, each group hits, I see the blue shining torpedoes fly straight and pass through the hull of the enemy ship (no explosion), the enemy ship starts to sink, we're walking through hallways preparing for battle, we realize we don't know anything about the enemies, we've never encountered their race before (little green men), we must build up our weapons and resources before the enemies arrive here on this planet. I see some rifles lying around they're old-time looking made from lots of wood. I'm setting up a revolver, I'm going to construct a candle and light it on the hammer so that when it hits the pin the flame will ignite the bullet and fire it, I look for approval for this idea. I reach in to extinguish the wick which leads into the cylinder I lick my fingers and pinch the fuse to extinguish it, but I see the flame has spread and now the whole gun is on fire. The emergency services has reached the enemy ship and is towing it now by us. The enemies taunt is as they drive by in a jeep, our captain says he's been preparing for this meeting (for a week?) and is ready. They drive over some of our supplies.

Where was this recall when I needed it in the competition?

August 12, 2014

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I slept too deeply after the train ride to remember any dreams I had, but last night I had this one:




I was walking up to my old elementary school with Zukin: We were going to break in. Well, I guess I should say, it looked like my second elementary school, but the inside was a mixture of it and my middle school, and the cafeteria was something new.

Anyways. We were going to infiltrate the middle/elementary school. Once we got in (it was actually quite easy; we just had to open the doors and walk through), we found that it was lunch time. So we headed to the cafeteria. It was in the same spot as the cafeteria in my elementary school, but it looked more like my middle school's cafeteria. I was walking through the large room (it was wide open, with large spaces between the tables... Now that I think about it, it reminds me a little bit of my first elementary school's cafeteria, because I was so small and it looked like there was a huge space between the tables... hmm.) and heading to the table that had all the plates. Someone yelled for me to get a "cotton" plate, which apparently meant paper plates, because that's what I grabbed. I walked out a door and around a corner to the start of the line. I got up to the lady who would put things on my plate, and found that it was someone who'd been there when I was in school there. She recognized me, and at first I thought it would be bad and I would have to run, but she was all friendly and chatty.

She put food on my plate in a really weird way; she put some veggies on, and then a few noodles, then more veggies, and then a piece of some sort of meet, then more noodles, and then more meet, and one more single veggie. She was about to put the desert on my plate, but she said, "Close your eyes, it's a surprise!" And so I closed them. When she said it was okay to look, I looked down at my plate and saw a cookie.

I paid the cashier with my debit card, and then went out to find a place to sit; I chose to site at a table with two kids at it. I asked a boy if I could borrow his napkin, and he handed me one of them. I used it to wipe off the condensation on my drink. I crumpled the napkin up and set it on the table, and said thanks.

After I'd finished eating, I found Zukin again. We had gone separate ways once we got inside, but now we were meeting up to infiltrate the school-wide event for the last half of classes. It was a party of sorts, and we decided we had to be together for this one. We were just about to turn the corner into the hallway that leads to the gym when a guard stops us and asks us where our parental permission slips were. We didn't have any, so we turned away and tried to exit the building at the door right in front of us, but the guard then asked if our parents were here to pick us up, because or else they couldn't let us go.

We scoffed, flashed our driver's licenses, and said, "Do we LOOK like middle-schoolers?!" And then ran past the guard laughing. We crossed the street and started running down it, toward my house. But I don't like running, and asked Zukin to slow down, but she kept running but in a teasing way; she would slow down until I cought up and then, thinking I was ready to keep running, would go on. I told her to stop again, and we stopped about halfway down the second street on the way to my house. "Christ girl, slow down when I say so. You know I can't run worth crap." I said, and we stood there giggling about infiltrating the school.

August 10, 2014

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I was on a long train ride for most of the weekend; I only really remember one dream from the whole ride:

I had just woken up and started walking around the train; I went to the front engine and got to drive the train, but I don't remember where I drove it.

This morning I visited the doctor to get some blood taken. During the drawing process, I lost consciousness. The time in between was basically lost--I do not have any real solid feeling of "being" anywhere, except some flitting images or colors that my mind was attempting to process. I couldn't even really claim to have had a "self" at this point--basically just a feeling of confusion and bewilderment. In retrospect, I imagine this is what animals must feel like at times, and it was highly . . . disconcerting.

As I began to come out of it, in darkness, I had the distinct feeling of being in both a sitting position and a lying position, and it became crucial to me to understand which of these my body was currently in. Once I was revived (eyes open and conscious) I still did not recognize any of the people there (my doctor and two nurses) or where I was until my doctor explained what had happened. I tried to explain my confusion: "I didn't know where I was!" My doctor very compassionately nodded, as though he understood. Maybe he did. Very unpleasant experience--basically fatigued for the rest of the day with a mild headache.

So here was what came to me: was what I experienced coming out of the state (or within the state? hard to say) an example of what death will "feel" like? If so, I can only say I expect it will be terrible--at least the dying part.

I've been on a bit of a lucid dry spell lately, so I decided to invest in a bottle of Lucidimine to see if it would have any affect on my dreams. Last night was the second night I took one capsule before bed, and I had success!

So, Lucidimine is a nootropic that contains two ingredients that I have read are both huge in aiding with having vivid dreams: Galantamine and Choline. Not to say a newbie to lucid dreaming could pop a pill and become aware, but this kind of thing works best with a lucid practice that you already have in place for yourself.

So... I met a girl. A girl with beauty that fully captured my attention. She was wearing summer clothes sitting in a knee-hugging position looking off into the distance. She looked at me with a warm smile and I locked eyes with her; a deep army green with shimmers of matte silver speckled in seamlessly. She gave me a laugh as if she has known me for along time, as I must have been looking at her with wide, awestruck eyes. I was content just looking at her, simply admiring her tranquil yet sharp beauty. Her ear lobes were abnormally large and circular with no earrings or holes.

The most striking physical aspect of her was a blue hole in her neck located where her jugular would cross through. It was a blue hole that I interpreted to be as some sort of breathing gill apparatus. I then asked her to describe herself to me, and what she said caught me off guard... She said "I have fourin-parents," as if her means of coming into existence was not the traditional mother-father way.

What the hell are "in-parents?" I still haven't decoded that part of it all, but I do believe I have found one of my spiritual guides.

Dream 1 - 4:50AM

I'm inside a petrol station when someone steals. The store clerk (SC) hits the panic button which is next to me at the counter. I think the panic button locked doors from the inside or called police. The person gets out in time and enters a car which has a sanded down side door panel. The SC walks out into the back room. I wander around the shop and I start to feel as if I would be suspicious if caught walking around the shop by myself with no SC to be seen. I see the SC walk back into the room and try and make it as if I'm not up to no good, so I ask if the person got away. They did. I see the car drive passed station on the main road. I see someone behind the SC that I know. It's Pet Rediva. He asks me how to update a graphics card for a computer. I reply asking if it's an AMD card, which it was, and tell him to download a program called AMD auto-update. My cousin Phill who was next to be nods his head and agrees that it's the correct way. Phil looked like he was thinking of an option to download as I said it. I tell Pete that I you can there is generic brands which is linked to AMD, which can also be updated. Pete gives off the impression that he's confused.

More people are now in the petrol station and there's a long L shaped table which is about 10-15 metres long, with people sitting at it. I seem to be smoking, and see that MMA Legend Tito Ortiz is standing next to me at the counter. I don't think he likes the smell of cigarettes and I respect that and turn away from him towards the bin. I then move to the other side of the table where I see a chair under the table. A man is tapping his hand on it and I feel bad for taking it and think about giving it back to him.

I'm now at my house and it's night. Dad and I are outside and reversing car into garage. He's backing up on a different angle then he usually does and I think about getting out and helping him. I didn't want him to drive too dose to my gym or mess up the gym flooring.

Dream 2 - 8:50AM

I'm in a MMA cage and I see 2 MMA fighters, Uriah Faber playing around wrestling with Jon Jones.

Two Thai fighters are at each corners of the cage and ready to fight one another. There's an announcement of a new season of The Ultimate Fighter. The cast members of the season all walk into the cage. They all look around 5 foot tall and look of Thai descent. The fighters in the corner are in the new season also. One of them is upset when he figures out who's going to be his coach. It's Tim Kennedy.

Dream Fragment:

Dad says something about knowing that his parking sucked due to seeing my dream diary. I thought it was fascinating that he changed what he was going to due to my dream entry. (Think this another dream linked to first dream when Dad was reversing the car)

Side Notes:

Woke up at 4:45AM and couldn't get to sleep for some time. Practiced the SSILD technique for the hell of it.