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Quick Eat the grape!
20/06/20
Lucid# 4 - DILD

I’m at a counter, I think it’s a pharmacist though it could be a food counter as I’m eating something. I’m standing and waiting and over hear a lady behind the counter talking with a customer. “You have to be aware” she says “yes you have to be aware”. I note what she says seems a little odd and then it clicks! “Aware! Be aware! I’m dreaming!” Just like that I have become lucid and it startles me almost. I look around to see if I really am in a dream but I don’t need convincing I just know I am. Then I feel a little distant and fuzzy and know the dream is fading. “Stabilise”! I say aloud and it seems to work for a few seconds but then the feeling comes back and I feel a trembling in my body. I rub my hands together and things become settled again. I rush now to become more connected with my environment and start by feeling a plastic barrier next to me and feel the smooth plastic and the flat, wooden top it has. I keep moving and think “so cool! I’m doing this again!” but also remember not to get too excited. Then I remember I’m eating something and start chewing. It’s already mushed up in my mouth and I’m not sure what it is. Maybe pizza? I then remember dream food is supposed to taste amazing. This tastes good but nothing special. I then see a bowl of grapes on a stand and think I have to eat something new. I hurry to chew and swallow the food in my mouth and then pick a nice juicy black grape from the bunch but as I do, the fuzzy feeling comes back and the image starts to fade. “No, no, no!” I think but it’s too late and the dream ends.

Analysis: A lucid! It was short which is a shame. I really struggled keeping the dream stable. Maybe excitement got the better of me? The realisation was a amazing though. I didn’t even need to reality check I just realised as the women repeated “aware” just like I did in my mantra during my WBTB. It must have seeped into the dream and makes me wonder whether it was close to being a WILD? It sort of startled me and I was like “oh yeah! Of course!” Maybe that’s why the dream felt so unstable and the shock nearly woke me. I didn’t have time to focus on any dream goals I just tried to keep it going. So annoying that I never got to taste the grape! What did it taste like!!! I need to try it again in another dream.

Waking Notes:

Stability: Low
Control: Medium
Clarity: Medium
Awareness: High
Length: Low

Trigger: DC repeating my mantra
RC: NA
Length: 30 seconds approx.
Goals: none
Techniques: WBTB/ MILD
Time: 6 - 7am
Lucid count: 4

not much to report here this week. Had a vague dream with Jamie in it. more of an impression.

Dream From Oct 14 '14:
its night time.
the location is a house, which im inside.
either im renting, or im paying it off, as my own.
the time is after 21:00/9pm.
the night time could be a bit cool; nights here in Newcastle can be cool in spring, towards summer.
the inside lights are dim, though i can see a bit of inside.
then, i decide to go outside, to do one or two things.
the front door, is parallel to the street i live in.
it must be a suburban street.
so, i go out the front, and stand on the lawn.
so, i stand on the front path, which leads out to the mailbox.
as i stand outside, the front security light turns on.
there are steps to the front door like that of (my Catherine Street address)
the lawn may've been mown recently.
to my left, is a two path driveway.
the front light is shining over the rear of it.
to my right, is the rest of the lawn.
one room is protruding forward from the house.
although the light is not getting past that wall onto the lawn, im pretty sure the wall is weatherboard.
i think i want to check the mail, and the power box, which, is on the not driveway side of the house
but i stay standing and looking at doorway, though the light is getting my attention.
as i think about what to do, a young woman appears from the dark side of the house.
she is Winsome D's daughter.
i know its the daughter, by her physique.
she doesn't even startle me.
she doesn't say anything, she just appears.
and then i see that we are both inside.
we are in the hallway of the house, which is wide enough for two people.
its like pop's in Arinya Street, where it starts at the front door, goes straight for a metres, and then turns right, to go to kitchen.
this one thought, doesn't turn right.
the lights inside are on, but are rather dim.
its almost a black and white scene, with some colour light.
near the front door, but on my left side as i walk away from front door to go further inside, is a buffet like mine.
she is wearing a white buttoned blouse, with an unbuttoned red cardigan over it.
i can only see the shoulder part of her upper arms and just below her neck.
her blouse us buttoned, all the way up to the collar.
surprisingly, i don't see her face, yet.
she has two small packages.
they are plastic, with a gold pattern on them*
in these two packs are plain white square envelopes.
she puts them on the buffet and steps past me.
the two packs, are one on top of the other, flat.
she is at other end of the hallway standing, but not looking at me.
is she looking at a mirror?
is she simply having a look around?
i go over to the buffet and lift the top package up with its left edge on bottom pack.
i look for her name on bottom side of top pack.
she sees me do this and says "hey!" and i put it back down.
then i see us in what could be the living room.
going by the drawing, it would be where the kitchen was, in pop' Arinya address.
im standing in front of a corner piece of furniture; is it another buffet?
there seems to be more than one in this place.
my back is to the corner and i see her to my right, heading towards me.
the light is on, and i see her face, a bit clearer.
she steps towards me, as though she used to live here.
her body language gives me that vibe.
is she visiting, to see what the place looks like?
she stands to my right as i face the corner.
i get to the point.
i ask her "ok, what is your name, and what is your age?"
wearing what appears to be a skirt, her answer is "well, Philippians 4:8".
so i jokingly say to her "is that your age?"
she snorts, like that of a laugh.
what i don't do, is look at her as i talk to her.
and thats not avoidance, its so i can concentrate.
well, i hear her voice, so thats a plus.
dream ends.

any comments or questions ?

*

06/20: I find myself leaving someone's house in the evening hours. The scene shifts to what appears to be a restroom in one building, which looks as if it were left unattended, as it was completely filthy, where I apparently go by accident, only to find what appears to be a bounty hunter putting someone or something in custody.

As soon as that scene ends, I find myself walking to a movie theater after being told by someone in the first scene that Van Helsing (the 2004 action film starring Hugh Jackman and Kate Beckinsale -- which I actually have on DVD) was being remade with different actors, and it released in theaters. I didn't go in, but I did see a colorful cast of characters hanging outside the premises dressed in an unusual fashion (punk, Goth, emo, etc.), just like what I saw leaving a movie theater 17 years ago in 2004 with a group after seeing the exact same movie in May of that year. The dream also ends there.

I rarely get dreams of movie theaters nowadays, as the last one I had was on May 30th, 15 years ago at the age of 20. In addition, this dream was in the perspective of two people: a colorful teenage girl who went to see the movie, but was distracted, and a mysterious person who went to an unclean restroom by mistake and couldn't unsee what was going on. All I can remember now out of the two characters is the girl. I believe the girl eerily resembled a cross between Vanessa from the Syfy television series (played by Kelly Overton), Claudia from Warehouse 13 (played by Allison Scagliotti), and Paramore frontwoman Hayley Williams in the days between Riot! and Brand New Eyes when her hair was dyed red-orange.

Before waking up, I had noticed flashes of purple and orange as well.

WM86/DFW signing off.

20th June 2021

Fragment:

Outside, walking through a town area of some kind, it's mostly flat, maybe with some downwards incline. I'm with someone I know closely, maybe J or L. There's something about a lan party of some kind. Walking through the town, maybe food or fast food is mentioned. There are eight of us in total? I am carrying a laptop around in one of the laptop bags we have here at home in waking life. In the dream, I am aware of my laptop being inferior to everyone else's.

Something about eating beans? There's some kind of sauce, maybe chilli, but no rice. There's a familiar taste.

While reading the exercise on p.78 of Dream Gates:

I'm sitting down and reading this exercise thinking about desert, then beach and then home. From the windows of many of the flats people are banging pots and pans, my awareness or focus on this quickly fades and then I'm focusing on the cars parked around the cul-de-sac, which are warm to the touch from the sun, but there is a morning light so actually most were in shade. Suddenly S appears, her lead is in my hand and she licks my face; I lick her back for good measure because I always feel she needs to have perspective of how it feels. She reels a little as she would.

Then she starts pulling hard on the lead, barking or growling at some passer-by and making me trip over and fall to the floor, vaguely feeling myself being dragged along but without any of the friction I'd expect. She makes her way to the hills behind the garages, it looks as it did after the shanties were removed but before the supermarket built. The scene changes to be next to the eucalyptus on that hill. Then, I have a vague intent.

It changes to unfinished highway that would be visible from the hill. I'm under the unfinished underpass of a concrete bridge. I know there's a door to my left but I cannot turn or see it from my point of view. I feel it's a metal door, painted a deep blue, maybe a little rusty. Like ones I've seen somewhere before in my childhood.

I sort of unintentionally break away from this and then just continue reading a bit more and then write some notes down for this.

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Notes:

- Although the exercise asks for thinking of natural places and afterwards I found that my old home felt natural enough, because there's vegetation and bush in several parts and the building of where I used to live has always been pretty much on the edge of town, so nature of some kind has never been very far.

- The visualisation came about mostly unintentionally but it was pleasant, especially because although I couldn't see S very well, I appreciated the fact that she was there as some kind of animal guide. I was always told by mom that black dogs are considered luck charms in certain cultures, so I suppose that was present in my mind on some level. Thinking about it now, S appeared very well and despite vague visuals, she seemed just as I have always known her.

- The concrete underpass was shady and the unknown door could be a such a figurative entrance to the underworld and so on as the exercise suggests, even though the door might not lead down, it would go through earth.

Dream From Dec 21 '14:
seeing a woman, sitting on a two seater lounge.
she is sitting upright, and on the left side of the seat.
i am standing behind her, and look down to her.
she is wearing a green tee.
i only see the back of her, so i don't know who she is.
her hair is short and black.
to her right is a three legged wooden light stand.
the cover of the light is like a plastic bowl.
the lampstand is about 1.5 metres high.
its upside down, with the light at the floor, and the feet above the woman's head.
im not sure a power lead is attached to it.
i see the stand like that, so im guessing the woman didn't turn it upside down.
ah yes, apparently the lightstand wants to get into forensics.
or, does this mean the woman wants to get into forensics?

any comments or questions ?

Dream From Dec 21 '14:
it is daytime.
it could be winter.
im sitting in the grandstand in an AFL Stadium, for an AFL game.
it could be winter, because on the ground, to my right, half of the stadium or half the ground is in shade.
to my left, in front of me, is sunshine on the ground.
there is a big crowd.
am with dad, close to ground level.
as for an AFL game being played, not sure of that.
i can't or don't see any players.
however, im guessing that the Hawthorn Hawks are playing.
it could be like the 2014 AFL Grand Final, when they played the Swans.
well, there may not be a game being played.
anyway, i turn to my left, and look up the grandstand.
flying above the ground, and some rows up, is a flock of seagulls.
for whatever reason, the Pelicans NBA team comes to mind.
the birds are definitely seagulls and not pelicans.
they are flying, like that of being at an AFL game.
not sure what they are after, because dad and i don't have chips.
then, thinking out loudly i jokingly say that "they'll win the next thousand wooden spoons (in the AFL)".
i know its the seagulls because of the Manly NRL team.
then, i turn around to my right.
a few rows behind me, i see a woman, and i think her folks.
they are all a bit vague to see, especially her.
she does look like the woman who sat next to NZ Warriors coach Daniel Anderson, in the 2002 NRL Grand Final.
is this woman, my lady?
dream ends.

any comments or questions ?

Dream From Dec 10 '14:
the location is similar to that of shopping world in tamworth.
i don't see myself enter the complex from the front entrance, from the carpark, or from any side entrance.
i do see myself enter big w, at the main entrance and not at the checkouts.
the lights are on.
the checkouts are on the front carpark side.
and the main entrance is on the shops side.
where i came from, may have been the carpark, because i turn left, to enter big w.
what i do know, is that i don't know why im even going to big w.
i have no plan, no intention, or thought to buy anything from there.
all i know, is that i enter the store.
i get as far as the first few steps inside.
the customer service counter is to my left.
the perfumes and women's products are to my right.
the floor isn't tiles that i know of, but its shiny or polished.
well, i only get about two steps inside when a swarm, mob perhaps of young people gather around and in front of me.
there are hundred's possibly thousands of people gathered in front of me.
ok, maybe not that many, but a lot have flocked to be in front of me.
they stand in a semi - circle and they are one metre from me, which is good because the space is necessary.
i think most are teens, boys and girls.
as for who any of them are, i have no idea, but they seem to know me.
some of them maybe wearing school uniforms; could be the Kotara sports uniform, which is worn on Wednesday.
these people have gathered of their own choice.
i havent done the Fonzie "finger click" and everyone gathers.
and i haven't demanded for them to gather in front of me.
i have done absolutely nothing, for them to gather in front of me.
all ive done is step inside the shop.
its as though my influence or something about me, has drawn them to me.
thats a first.
anyway, i say something to them.
my voice is like that of a young male, used in a computer game, or in an XBOX game.
my voice sounds funky, and could be from a motorbike game.
so, i speak to them, and, they do listen, but they don't question me.
i stretch my arm out in front of me, flat, to them, with my fingers pointing to them.
and i speak to them.
what i say to them, is not something i would say regularly to them.
its something, that i can only speak to them, just once.
im not a teacher, or someone of authority who interacts with them on a daily basis.
its not prophetic as such, but like that.
what i say, which i do hear but don't recall, is both effective for their response and their reaction to me.
instead of grumbling, they all smile, maybe nod, and decide there and then, to rectify what they have done in store, and/or to each other.
its as though i have spoken to their hearts.
and then i leave.
so i leave, and walk towards the corridor, towards the Woolworths end.
that walkway to the undercover carpark, is to my right.
again, there are some teens, possibly students from Kotara.
again, i point at them, not rudely, but with that influence.
i see one male, side on, right side.
he could be facing his girlfriend.
he is with 10 or more other people.
i say to him "you haven't paid for your food".
i thought he would've paid for it as he ordered it, and not after.
my voice is like an excited or enthused game show host.
he looks at me, smiles, rolls his eyes, and then proceeds to pay for his food.
that seems to trigger his mates to do the same.
not that i stay to watch it occur.
i don't recall going along the walkway but i may see woolies from about the donut shop, before the escalators at that end of the complex.
i don't recall pointing with all my fingers at anyone or a group of people.
i only see the takeaway shop, the one time.
as for big w, i may go inside, up to 3 times.
not sure i point to people in the complex and speak to them.
the words that i speak, aren't mine, so it must be the H.S speaking through me.
as for what i say, i don't recall everything that is spoken.
i guess its prophetic.
its stuff like "treat her right", "tuck your shirt in" etc.
it seems so basic and yet it has a profound effect on people.
i enter big w one final time, and see joseph at the doorway, near customer service.
people are gathered.
its like im a rockstar or someone.
Joseph is to my left.
he looks like that boy, who at age 3 or 4, was trained by his father, to do body building.
i see that Joseph is young, and has thin arms.
i jokingly say to him "i want you to do 20 billions push ups" on the spot.
i almost stumble or say another word when i say billion.
i say that, because joseph may have irritated a friend of his, which i didn't see.
i say it, as i think it up as i go along.
well, 20 billion pushups is way too many and would take a lot of time.
and i dont have time to watch.
and, im sure Joseph's arms arent up to it.
so, i get him to do ten instead.
he could do more and looks keen to do a lot, but 10 should do.
as for what i say, it was to the solution, and not to the fault.

any comments or questions ?

Dream From June 28 '14:
it is daytime.
the location or setting is that of Alma Road in Lambton.
the exact time isn't known.
whether it is summer or winter i don't know.
what i do know, is that im out the front of Leiluna or one of the shops on either side of it.
the bus stop is to my right, be it a few steps from me.
the school zone sign is to my left.
i think the Westpac Bank or another bank is across the road from me.
i know that the locale or that im looking diagonally up the road, and see the locale.
its external wall is yellow that i know, even though the sun is shining rather brightly on that wall.
the angle that i see the wall, is about 50 or 60 degrees, or whatever the angle is.
there could be cars parked along alma, on both sides.
where the double white line are, along the bitumen, to separate the east bound and west bound lanes, there is a rectangular section of green grass.
it goes from the Regent Street pedestrian crossing, down to about or in line with the bus stop, or possibly as bit further.
it doesn't go as far as the laneway.
the patch of grass, is about the width of a cricket pitch.
the grass is really green, good quality, and short.
at the crossing end of it, is that of a grey brick wall, made of thin grey rectangular construction bricks.
its a single thin wall, going across the width of the pitch.
its like the wall of an overpass, which is supposed to link Alma to Rugby over the Regent Street intersection.
the wall isn't tall, itd be about 1 - 1 and 1/2 metres tall.
it seems to make a momentary appearance.
it blocks my view of the primary school, but i can see up Rugby Road a little bit.
what i do knows, is that i want to, need to, not so much have to, perhaps can, go swimming or learn to swim.
to do that, it seems i can only turn right into Regent from Alma, going north.
i do know the leagues club, is around the corner to my right.
turning right isn't legalistic as such, but i think going up Rugby or even turning left into Regent, going south just wont work.
i know that the Indian Restaurant, and Dowling R/E are in Regent street.
what i do notice, is that the traffic lights for Alma, are different.
they start on the locale side, and take a design detour, to my side of the road.
then i see myself on the Rugby side, facing Alma.
im at the lights and in a car.
the grey wall isn't there.
and i don't look to my right, to see the school.
as with Alma though, not with swimming, i can only turn right, from Rugby into Regent, going south.
i guess i need to "see" the right turn from both sides.

any questions or comments ?





and:

.. it is something like that.

The other night I had a dream. I was in my house's big bathroom which is almost oppiste of my Dad's bedroom (Mom sleeps elsewhere). The parents were both in the room, and they're literally counting coins (toonies, loonies, quarters, dimes and nickles). Some reason, one of our cordless phones were in the bathroom (I'm going to guess Dad left it there after talking with one of his friends). Someone calls and I answered it and then I get Mom. When Mom is talking on the phone in the bathroom, I see Dad taking all the coins and putting it in his pocket. Mom gets done on the phone and I said Dad took the money. We both go into the room and Mom says to Dad "You took (sister's money) let's hope you don't take her booze bottle as well" dream ends

So I'm gonna document the responses my guardian angel gives me when I ask him a specific question at night, the way he replies is that he gives me a very memorable dream and the next day I wake up and remember the important message of the dream, I'm gonna right down three of them. The following dreams occurred the same week.

1) I asked Gabriel if he could please reveal to me what happened to the disappearance of Kris Kremers and Lisanne Froon, two girls that died in vacations while in Panama.
That night I had the following dream.
I'm seeing the dream through someones eyes, but it's not my body. I see someone with a knife and hes peeling and cutting to pieces a plantain. He's also stirring a soup, he's preparing some sort of dinner or lunch. I focus a lot on that knife, it's for sure a mans arms, a sharp knife and I really pay attention to the way he cuts the plantain, he cuts them the way my mom prepares it when she makes beans.
Small cubed shaped pieces of the plantain, he gathers the pieces and pours them inside the soup, starts stirring, and it's hot, it's a big cooking pot for like at least 10 people, a very big meal. The soup looks greenish, I can also see garlic and long onion roots as well.

I wake up, analyze the dream...after a while of thinking it hits me... the girls were eaten, they were killed by cannibals

2) I ask Gabriel if he can confirm his name to me, I'm not really 100% sure if he's called Gabriel so I wanted to verify his name.
That night I had the following dream.
I'm playing with three kids a game of tag. We are in a neighborhood with many houses nearby, but I've never seen this place before. It's like a block similar to the ones I use to live in Miami. Then I call out Gabriel and say "Gabriel come here let me tell you something"
And a boy comes out from his hiding place, he's a black, around ten year old boy, he responds affirmative to the name I called him.
Then a little girl, about the same age as Gabriel appears, she says "Hi, I'm Alba" and we start playing with Alba too. A third boy was with us but I can't recall his name. The dream continues but it's not important what happens, can't really remember much.
I wake up, come to the conclusion that yes, definitely Gabriel is his name. About the girl Alba though, there are two theory's, 1) Gabriel has had 3 life's before, he has been two boys and a girl or 2) the three kids are my guardian angels, I've only met one so I should meet Alba and the other boy.

3) Last dream. I ask Gabriel is he can please help my Grandma rest in piece, she stated in the past that she was tired of living, she's about 88 years old, she can't walk anymore and can't eat on her own, she can't sit up straight on her own and needs help to do every task because she can't do anything by her own. My grandma really deserves to rest in piece, she had a good and long life, we believe it's time for her to go and reunite with her husband, we love her too much and it breaks my heart to see her in this condition.
That night I had the following dream.
I'm in my grandmas house. In the bedroom where my parents sleep, I'm in this room with all my family. My uncle Omar comes in and says "take care of them", he then proceeds to release to cockroaches on the bed. I understood that the roaches were his pets, he puts them on the bed and I feel very disgusted by seeing two roaches on the bed. My mom just grins and says "fine".
For some reason I didn't ask anything, I acknowledged the fact that he had two pet roaches and that I couldn't kill them because my uncle was taking care of them.
I wake up and instantly know what the message is. The two roaches represent my dead grandpa and grandma. My uncle stated in the past that he was the last person that spoke to grandpa before he past away, meaning that he took care of grandpa in his last days. The roaches represent the will and desire he has over my grandparents, I understood that my grandmas life and future is controlled by my Uncle and Gabriel cannot interfere in that regards. When Omar wants grandma to go then she will go to the next life.

I am in a lucid and at one point summon two young female companions to sit with me and be beautiful. I suspect it is the same entity that has been guiding me but the form is of my first girlfriend. She is angry that I summoned the pretty women to sit with; it seems like jealousy. I say that i do not intend to disrupt my dream or training with sex. She asks why my DCs are topless with such well formed breasts. I get a bit mad and tell her that as this is my dream and being near younger women in such a way is not possible in life, why wouldn't I want to be near them now. I say your jealousy is making me frustrated.

Long lucid in which I am traveling by bike. At first I try to keep track of the bike when ever the dream shifts to make the story seem continues. Look around, where did I park the bike, create suggestion such as over by the tree of course, oh there it is. This became taxing so I changed the story. Now it is a magic bike that can transform into my glasses. Now if the bike is missing, obviously I just have to toss my glasses down and there it is.
I randomly find my way blocked in many dreams and go through peoples houses or yards to keep going. Screw dead end streets. I am aware that sometimes I seem to shift to an astral venue without my knowledge and basically end up trespassing. Mid dream I realize this and tell myself I need to stop going inside random houses. I run into some people who invite me to watch a movie and I agree. A few of us are in a darkened room with couches and I can not see anything where the others seem to be watching. Someone is caressing my back. I am curious who, but decide it is not important and it feels nice. After awhile the person slides up close to me and appears as a attractive female. A male in the group tells me to watch out as she is notoriously difficult to deal with. She aggressively attempts seduction. Of course engaging in sex is a great way to end your dream (why is that). I also am leery that if these are astral entities and not DCs I did receive a warning and maybe should listen. I decide not to fight her off but instead cover my clothed genitals with my hand and allow her to rub against my hand. The tactile part of this becomes very graphic. Turns out she is hard to deal with and begins insulting me for not complying and is generally mean while still basically assaulting me. There are other scenes but those are the interesting bits.

Dream From Dec 17 '14:
it is day.
the location is Belmore Street, where the old Salvos premises are.
what i know is that ive been in the main hall for counselling, which has finished for the day.
and now im out the front.
apparently ive had counselling because i have abused my wife, and now my 14 year old daughter.
whether the counselling is because of bail conditions or whether my wife and i have chosen it ourselves as our own decision without external advise from anyone, i don't know.
well, i seem to know that counselling is the thing to do.
initially, while out the front of the Salvos, i think to myself that the counselling makes sense.
then it dawns on me.
er, i don't have an actual daughter.
and slap my forehead.
when was it, that i could have possibly "abused" my wife, and daughter?
the particular abuse isn't known, so i don't know what the abuse could be and i have no recollection.
so, i guess i haven't abused my wife, and daughter.
and now i want to talk to my wife.
there is a white 4wd ute out the front of Salvos, parked at 45 degree angle going left.
there is a y pattern metal case in the back of it.
the 4wd may belong to Christopher S.
so, i cross the road and see another 4wd ute, similar to the first one.
this one could belong to Rodney S.
then i go back to the church.
out the front of the accompanying house, to the left of that first ute, is a four door sedan.
in the back seat, is my wife, who i can see through the rear window.
i want to talk to her about the abuse.
although i don't see her get out of the sedan, she does walk with me, along Belmore Street, going south to Gipps Street.
i have convinced her that i have no recollection of any abuse towards her, and our daughter.
so, i ask Amanda W, Amy S, or another Salvos woman who i know, to be a witness to the chat of my wife and i.
the woman does join us, but is a few steps from us.
my wife and i go left, into Gipps Street, to a few metres along Gipps Street, and then left again.
we both, or i do, stop at a red lid wheelie bin.
my wife, who is facially quite attractive, is wearing a pair of black trousers, and a black tank top.
i see her side on, right side.
as for who my wife is, i don't know her.
is she from Coledale?
having repeatedly told her that i have no recollection of any abuse and that hence, she has joined me for a chat, i ask her "what happened to our marriage/relationship?"
she believes me or knows im right.
her answer to me is "our marriage at the start, was great before our daughter arrived, and then our relationship changed slightly".
well, the slight change is news to me.
plus, the number of years we have been married isn't known to me.
however, my wife and the witness, agree that i have been truthful.
dream ends.

any comments or questions ?

Dream From Nov 15 '14:
am in a room at end of a rectangular table, with other people.
that big bloke from Mayfield Eagle Boys gives us instructions about some forms to fill in for photo id tags.
he is wearing a polo shirt.
we have to get two forms from a cupboard (be it from on top) and one from the reception desk.
with our id, we fill in the forms, and then give them to the woman or whoever at the reception desk to do the rest.
one guy goes before me.
the reception is a corner design.
the cupboard is between reception and the table
so, i go to the cupboard and get the first form.
the cupboard has six small doors, and a gap in the middle **
the cupboard is a made of wood, and looks like my wooden book shelf backing.
i look in the gap for a second form, having gotten first one from on top.
ok, where is the second form?
is it on top and i missed it?
then apparently i find the second form.
then i go to the reception desk, which is to my left from cupboard.
and then i grab a third form.
reception desk has a raised section at front of it, for us to lean on.
the desk itself is a bit lower.
i see it side on with desk in front of me and front of desk to my left, goin away from me.
i see the woman, her left side.
i see the first guy ahead of me facing her with his form.
he is dark skinned and i see the right side of him.
i have all my forms and my licence.
i have filled in my forms, or maybe i want her to check them.
i don't staple the pages together.
and, i don't get to her, before the dream ends.

any comments or questions ?


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